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The Puppet Masters Lover { Drocell/OC/Joker }

XZander

Summary:

Caught between a marionette and a ringleader , Rose Keinz life is about to get a lot more interesting. She can only keep going so long before her decision must be made. Is she a Rose or an Angel. A Doll maker or a circus performer. Who is her family ? Who is she ? All will be revealed to the little Rose as the years pass by.

Drocell / OC / Joker

Chapter 1

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Rose Keinz ~ A Girl Frozen In Time

I don't know who I was before , Where I lived or how I came to be here but that doesn't matter to me anymore. All i remember is darkness. I had awaken on a workbench. A young man was sitting across from me. Don't ask me why but I felt some sort of a connection to him. It was then that i was given my name and my new identity. It was then that i started my new life.

Who am I you ask? I am Rose Keinz , the fiancè of Drocell Keinz. I am his puppet or as he call's me his " precious doll". It has been 5 year's since i woke up in the workshop. I now assist my beloved Drocell with creating doll's , sewing dresses and i used to help with capturing the young girl's. I never agreed with him turning them into doll's but i went along with it. I love him , it's the least i could do. Drocell no longer kidnap's young girl's. He and I agreed that we'd sell normal doll's. After a minor incident a few month's ago I have made sure he was behaving properly.

A few month's ago a young boy and a butler dressed in black arrived at the manor. They had "killed" Drocell , saved the young girl that was meant to be a new doll and left without another word. I had hid in the shadow's so luckily i was not seen. It took all the self control i had not to kill those idiot's. Drocell may have made a few mistake's but he didn't deserve to be killed for them. They just left him for dead. It disgusts me how vile humans can be sometimes. After they left I quickly went to work. It took awhile but i managed to fix him up. They had returned awhile after I fixed him and he promised to behave. So here we are three month's later.

The young boy and his butler are coming over today to make sure Drocell has been keeping his word. It's been hard but i have been keeping him on track. They don't know about me yet. Drocell has kept me a secret for a really long time. We have been together for awhile but he perfer's not to let others know of my existence. He doesn't allow me to go outside either. Apparently It's too dangerous for a young lady. I have tryed to reason with him but he always win's in the end. He usually just makes me promise I won't go outside unless I'm with him. I hate to say it but over the years he's gotten very possessive . He try's to reason that he just want's me to be safe but I don't believe that. He want's me all to himself. No sharing. Usually I don't mind. It show's he truly cares for me. I do wish he would allow me to go outside though. I miss the air and all the people. I miss the freedom to do as I please and go where I want.

This is where my story begin's. I am Rose Keinz , the golden haired , rainbow eyed , pale skinned puppet.

Chapter 2: The Affections Of A Doll

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I sat on the chair watching Drocell make yet another doll . A comforting silence filled the room. As i watched him i began to hum. Today was just as uneventful as any other day. I got up , got dressed , opened the shop , made some clothes for the doll's and now i was sitting here watching my fiancè . As much as I love Drocell , I am beginning to hate this routine. It's so dull and boring. Nothing interesting ever happens. Sometimes I find myself wondering why I stay here. It's not as if the door is locked or anything. I could walk out of here anytime I please. Yet I choose to stay. Why?

I looked back at Drocell. Taking in his soft feature's as he worked and I remembered why I stay. For him. He loves me and I love him so I put up with his silly rule's. I stay inside and don't leave so I won't upset or disappoint him. To be honest I'm afraid what might happen if I leave. I'm not afraid of Drocell if that's what your thinking. I know that he would never hurt me but would he leave me? Even the thought of him not being by my side pains me. I need him as much as he need's me, possibly more. I wouldn't be able to cope on my own. I know it may sound pathetic but it's true. If I were to run away I would die.

I glanced at him. His eyes are completely focused on the doll in front of him. He seems distracted but I know from experience that at the smallest noise he'll turn his head. A sigh passes my lips as I lean back against the chair. I knew falling for him would mean danger. I was now completely dependent on him. To a point where I'm afraid to leave but maybe that had been his plan all along. He knew I couldn't leave.

And so I stay in this little shop and watch him as he works. Neither of us speak but sometimes we steal glances at each other. Every time I catch his eye he smiles , his creepy yet heart warming smile and I melt. He know's what he's doing. He may be made of straw and wood but he's not stupid. He know's he has me wrapped around his finger. I'm his puppet , his doll. He control's me and I let him because I'm just used to it now. I no longer fight with him about meaningless thing's. I used to before but soon gave up. I used to scream and cry and fight but I stopped. It's better to accept the fact that I'm trapped and move on than dwell on it. The bell from front of the shop chimes and his smile fades.

" That boy and his butler must be here." My voice lacked emotion but I smiled to make up for it. He nodded rather stiffly. " Stay here." He commands. Looking back at me once Drocell smiled softly before his face returned to it's usual emotionless expression. He stepped out into the room and all i heard for the next few minuets was muffled voices. I wondered if he was going to tell them about me or just keep me a secret. I began staring at the wall in front of me as thought's filled my head. It wasn't until a girl with blonde curly hair bounced into the room did I look up.

Her smile seemed to get wider when she saw me. I stayed perfectly still not even blinking as she moved her hand to my cheek. She was staring at me in awe.

" Wow , your so pretty !!! Paula isn't this the most perfect doll." A girl with brown hair and matching eyes walked up behind her and nodded smiling brightly. " Thank you." My voice remained it's usual low and soft tone. They both jumped back and stared at me as if I had ten heads. "Is something the matter ?" I questioned them curiously. They obviously knew Drocell so why were they so surprised that I could talk. I mean he's a living doll too. The young blonde was the first to recover from her shock. " No s-s-sorry but I thought you were a doll." She blushed slightly with embarrassment. I turned my head up to look at her. A clacking sound filled the room as I moved. My eyes were fixed on her's. " My dear girl , i am a doll," My face stayed as emotionless as before. She blinked slightly faster than before but didn't speak just simply nodded slowly. She looked at me closely analyzing me before smiling once more.

" What's your name? " Her voice was annoyingly high pitched. It would have hurt my ear's if I could still feel pain. My expression didn't change as I spoke to her. " Rose Keinz and you ? " She looked at me with wide eyes. " Your Drocell's wife? awe that's SO cute!!! " I stared at her blankly. " I am not his wife , I am his fiancè." She nodded and straightened her posture. " I'm Elizabeth but you can call me Lizzy ! " Her smile beamed as if she had just been electrocuted. I vaguely wondered if she ever got tired of smiling. It was unnatural for someone to be that happy all the time.

I looked into her eyes and saw a deep sadness. It's quite odd but us doll's can sense a person's unhappiness. It's almost like we have a built in radar. We can also sense human's and how many are around us. I already knew that these two were here and I knew that Drocell was out in the shop but I felt other presence's. The boy and his butler? Yes ,but that's not all. 3 more people. Servants maybe? I could still hear their muffled voice's. Where they going to be staying with us? As if she read my mind the young girl said. " We'll be staying for a week , I hope were not a bother." She sure as hell wasn't shy. I just nodded stiffly and attempted to smile at her but I think I just creeped her out more. It's unusual that I smile at anyone other than Drocell. I never really feel the need to smile around other's.

The door opened again and this time a boy with teal blue hair and a butler walked in. Three servent's followed behind. One was blonde with a cigarette hanging out of his mouth , the other was a girl with glasses and the last was a blonde boy with red hair clip's. Drocell followed quickly behind and closed the door. His eyes met mine and he smiled. My soft smile returned as soon as I saw his eyes sparkle slightly. Elizabeth awe'd loudly causing the both of us to stare at her annoyed. Of course we didn't look annoyed. Doll's very rarely show emotion. It's like an unwritten rule or at least that's what Drocell says.

The only time Drocell even changes his expression is usually around me. If he's in a bad mood though he just avoids me. It upset's me but I have learned to live with it and move on. He doesn't like to be cheered up. Say's it makes him feel like a child which he clearly is not. I find it quite silly but it's better not to argue with him. You very rarely win only if he's too tired or annoyed to fight back. Then he just ignore's you and starts humming. Elizabeth just smiled wider and held onto the young boy's arm tightly. He was watching me closely along with his butler but the maid next to him seemed to stare in amazement. After awhile he spoke , his tone held much confusion and some concern. " Who are you? " I looked over to Drocell and he nodded. That same clacking sound echoed threw the room as he moved his head.

" My name is Rose Keinz pleasure to meet you Earl Phantomhive." I bowed slightly in a mannerly way. Drocell had told me his name awhile back. Ciel Phantomhive if I can remember correctly. His butler is Sebastian but I don't know his last name. When I asked Drocell had just shrugged meaning it wasn't important so why bother asking. I had dropped the subject. The boy seemed slightly surprised by my action's. He was probably not used to young lady's bowing. Usually girls curtsy but i don't care too much. It make's my knee's crack if I curtsy which { trust me } doesn't sound pleasant.

He looked at me and nodded then turned to Drocell once more. They went off to a different room to talk. Leaving me , the butler , Elizabeth , her friend and the 3 servant's behind. We stood in silence for a few moment's before the butler stepped forward , all eyes on him. The butler looked at me for a second. " I wasn't aware that Drocell has a lover ." I nodded stiffly once more. That same sound bounced off the walls as I turned to him. " I'm his doll , he doesn't tell a lot of people about me to keep me safe." He nodded and our conversation ended. We waited for a long time before Drocell and Ciel walked back out.

The next hour passed by in a blur. I had shown the guest to their room and made arrangements for supper. It wasn't exactly eventful or interesting, just regular chores. While I was busy folding the bed sheets Drocell had grabbed my arm , pulling me downstairs towards the workshop. That's how I ended up here. Standing stiffly in the familiar presence of my fiance.

He sighed lightly , pacing back and fourth. " I want you to be careful around them, alright?" I didn't respond which was a huge mistake. " Did you hear me?" He hissed loudly. I nodded swiftly resisting the urge to move away from him. If i moved he'd just get more upset. Drocell glared slightly , his eyes analyzing me before grabbing my arm once more and pulling me into a tight hug. " I just want you to be safe , I don't trust them." His voice was soft , almost like silk. I melted, hugging back just as tightly. Desperate to be closer to him. He chuckled and kissed me. He was the first to pull away.

I don't know how long we stayed like that. Staring into each others eyes , arms wrapped tightly around one another. It could have been hours , It could have been minutes. To this day I honestly can't tell you how long.

Drocell sighed, moving away. " We should see how the guests are settling in." I nodded as he left.

I waited a few minutes before following in the same direction we had come. The soft touch of his lips still present. My smile never faded. I was sure then that he loved me and that I loved him. I couldn't possibly have known what was to come in the next few month's. I was going to be at a cross road very soon and I would have to choose my life's course. I will soon wish for the day's when I was trapped in this little shop. My home.

As i walked down the narrow hallway's I saw Drocell , Ciel , Sebastian , Elizabeth and her friend walking toward me. As I walked past Drocell moved closer and kissed my cheek swiftly before turning and walking down the hall. The others payed no notice accept for Elizabeth who went on and on about how cute we are and Ciel, who looked disgusted by our display of affection. I continued on down the moonlit hall's until I heard a smashing sound. I walked as quickly as my limited body could go and soon arrived at Drocell's workshop. Once I entered I saw the three servant's from before. The blonde boy was crying in a panicked manor , the red haired girl was fussing about and cleaning something from the floor while the other blonde boy was complaining about how Sebastian was going to kill them for this.

I sighed lightly and tilted my head. At the sound of clacking they all looked over horrified. As if I would hurt them. The thought almost made me smile. " Look at the mess you've made , Drocell will be quite unhappy." I stared down at the now broken porcelain doll on the floor. It was the one Drocell had been working on before the young earl and his friends came barging in. I didn't like the idea of these idiot's being around for a month but if Drocell allowed it then I guess I'll have to put up with it. They began yelling out their apology's but I ignored it and silenced them.

" Your names? " My voice was softer now. The red haired girl tried to bow but almost fell over. " I'm Mey-Rin, me lady " I nodded and looked towards the two boy's who both blushed obviously not used to being in the presence of a proper lady. " I'm Finnian but you can just call me Finny." His smile was as bright and cheerful as his voice. I smiled, immediately taking a liking to him. Being around Drocell so much I'm not used to cheerfulness but this boy just seemed like a ball of sunshine. " I'm Baldroy" The other boy answered plainly. We spent awhile talking. Each of us having nothing to do but sit around.

We talked about common thing's like our work. I honestly don't understand why a young man as smart as Ciel would make Mey-Rin a maid. She truly is hopeless and not to mention head over heel's for Sebastian. I don't believe his interested though. Mey-Rin may be clumsy but she is the sweetest thing ever. We've only spent a few hours together and already I feel as though we have been friends for year's.

Finny's also quite sweet and very charming but not my type. He like's flower's and animal's as much as I do. He is also a very plain yet funny young boy. I quite like him and would even consider him my favorite out of the three. Baldroy is entertaining to say the least. He's a chief who can't cook to save his life. I know this because I asked him to cook me something and he used a flamethrower!!! who does that? I was laughing for a long time after that while he just blushed and mumbled shut up to me. I had then kissed him on the cheek and smiled warmly to let him know I was only kidding around. I showed all of them the garden out the back of the manor. I was careful Drocell didn't see me because if he did I'd be in for yet another long boring lecture about how dangerous the manor can be. It took awhile but the others returned only to find me and Baldroy teaching Finny and Mey-Rin how to play card's.

Drocell seemed annoyed by this and quickly grabbed my arm with his string's pulling me to his side. The other's looked concerned but made no comment as he dragged me out to the front of the shop. They followed closely behind. I looked at Drocell for a long time. He remained emotionless but his eyes held a deep sadness , urgency and some form of worry. I knew that look. It was the same look I saw every time someone came to stay with us. I always ended up making at least one friend and then he'd usually make them leave. I sighed as the mail came threw the door along with a flier. I turned and broke the string that held me to my place as I bent down picking up the mail. Everyone went back to talking even Drocell. Everyone except me.

If I could pause time and show you the place where my life started it's cross road change it would be now. Right in that moment as I picked up the flier. That was the moment my life changed. All because of that moment Heart's would be broken , people would be hurt , new friends would be made and love would fully bloom. Even now I wonder was it worth it. If I could go back and change it would I ? But I can't go back. All I can do is sit here and think about back then when everything was bright , happy and simple.

I picked up the flier and mumbled the name to myself. " Noah's Ark Circus."

Chapter 3: The Noah's Ark Circus

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I put the mail down on the table and felt a pair of wooden arm's wrap around my waist. I smiled and relaxed , making myself comfortable. I was slightly confused as to why Drocell was being so touchy today but I wasn't complaining. I sorta liked this. It gave me a sense of belonging. I snuggled into him as he held me. I saw him looking down at where I had placed the mail and returned my gaze to his face. " I am thinking to myself perhaps we should go to this circus , we haven't been out in such a long time." I looked at him with shock. " Really!!!" He nodded and smiled very faintly. " We'll go tonight along with the earl and his butler." I nodded not caring that we wouldn't be fully alone. Drocell hasn't taken me out in a really long time. He removed his hands from my waist and I immediately pouted. All he did was laugh and pat my head before walking back to his work room humming as he went. All eyes were on me yet again.

I soon followed my fiancè into the workroom and sat down where I had been before. He worked for awhile before i broke the silence. " You do know that i'd never run off on you correct? " He didn't answer which hurt me slightly. " Drocell " I whispered as I quickly walked to him wrapping my thin arms around his neck and looking up into those violet eyes I love so much. " I love you and only you , I'm your's and no one can change that. After all I sorta like being trapped in here with you all the time." I smiled as I finished my sentence. " Do you now? " His voice seemed slightly curious and I laughed loudly as he picked me up and twirled me around before bringing me close to him yet again. He kissed the top of my head. " Your so perfect , My precious little doll ." My smile only got brighter. We stayed like that for a long time. Just standing staring into each others eyes lovingly. I don't know how much time went past but all too soon the clock struck nine meaning it was now time for dinner. I gasped in surprise it had only been one when we walked in here. Had we really been standing like that for so long ? This seemed to be happening quite often today. I laughed quietly to myself. Time seems to pass by too quick when I'm with Drocell. I pulled my gaze away from his and we both walked threw the dark halls and to the dinning room hand in hand.

The trip to the Circus was rather uneventful. I mostly just stared out the window while Drocell watched me. The carriage left us outside the main entrance to the circus. My smile widened as I looked around in awe. Everything was so colorful , so fresh , so new. It wasn't anything like what I had expected or what I was used to. Compared to this , Drocell's shop was tiny. Drocell gripped my hand tightly , pulling me towards him. His eyes seemed pleading. " Stay close. I don't want you to get lost." I nodded and looked around once more. Performers greeted us , smiling kindly. After twenty minutes of excited rushing around, I laughed lightly and pulled him towards the big top. Drocell seemed nervous as we walked threw the crowd. I knew he hated to be outside but I didn't think he would be so scared. He seemed lost , like a small puppy in a sea of people. I pulled him along , focusing completely on the big top. The show was almost starting when we took our seats. I saw Ciel and Sebastian a few rows down from us.

Bright light illuminated the stage as a young boy threw knifes at targets situated around the tent. I was impressed. Knife throwing was a skill I definitely didn't have. It would be too dangerous for a doll to try such a thing. Drocell pulled me towards our seats. I watched the blonde boy on stage as he threw knife after knife until finally he finished. A range of claps erupted from the audience. " Human's are so easily pleased." Drocell mumbled under his breath while looking around. I sighed. " You were human once too you know." He didn't reply. He didn't even turn to look at me.

I turned my head back towards the ring only to find myself staring into bright violet eyes. I froze. Everything around me stopped as did my breath. Not that I needed to breath anyways. The ring leader stared back at me with a soft smile on his face.He was rather attractive in my opinion. He winked which caused a blush to taint my cheeks. Before you ask ,yes dolls can blush. The ring leader continued on with the show but every other minute he would glance back at me, blushing as he did. The audience members didn't seem to notice but the performers did. The knife thrower was smirking and laughing lightly while turning his attention fully to me. I could only hope Drocell didn't notice.

Everything was going fine until the last act. That's when things started to get messy. The ring leader smiled at the crowd and spoke. " For this , we'll need a 'elper ." His eyes searched the crowd until they landed on me. The spotlight also shun down on me. " How about this lovely lady?" He extended his hand which I gracefully took. I don't remember too much after that because I was soon rushed to the doctors tent. Later I found out that was because the tiger had grazed my cheek during the last performance. Let's just say when something like that happens to a doll , the result usually looks a lot more painful than it is.

Drocell was unable to come with me into the doctor's tent. For once i didn't mind him not being there. I know this may sound odd or even mean but I truly felt something toward's the ringmaster. He was watching me and soon walked up. Removing my hand from my cheek. The other performer's gasped at the sight of my shattered jaw and chin. " Are ye alright?" The auburn haired man in front of me asked with genuine concern. I nodded slightly not wanting to speak in fear of being too posh for the like's of these. My eyes never left his and we stared at each other just like we had when he was in the ring. This time it was my turn to blush but i made no attempt to hide my face. Ciel and Sebastian weren't in this tent. I remember wondering where they had disappeared off to. Drocell was pacing slightly outside. I could see his shadow. I knew he'd be worried.

I jumped as I felt a hand graze my cheek and looked to see the ring master still in front of me. He looked from my broken cheek back to my eyes. I found myself lost in his purple eye's. They were so much like Drocell's except instead of Drocell's cold , emotionless gaze. He held a soft gentle heartwarming gaze that could make anyone melt. " I'm quite alright that tend's to happen a lot , being made out of the material's I am has it's disadvantage's. The main one being that I tend to break easily. It look's worse than it truly is so don't worry I'll be fine." I said in one breath. He looked at me and smiled Suddenly. "I'm glad ye'r fine , it would be a shame for a pretty lady like ye to be 'urt." I laughed lightly , He had the cutest accent I'd ever heard. A soft smile crossed my feature's as I continued to stare aimlessly into his eyes. When the other performer's weren't looking he kissed my cheek. His lip's felt so soft against my porcelain based skin. Before he left to go check on Ciel and Sebastian he looked back and gave a cheeky wink then that same smile as before returned as he walked off. If only I had seen the shadow from outside move into the room before I had allowed myself to blush maybe thing's would have turned out differently but that doesn't matter now. It's better not to dwell on the past.

The doctor never came in but Drocell did and he fixed me up. Like always I got a long lecture about how reckless I was to agree to participate in the act and how we would never be coming here again. I already knew that though. Something about the way he was acting during the show told me. He kept me close to him but never spoke to me. I sighed lightly as he finished and walked out of the tent. I have no idea where he went in that time but suddenly my eyes became very heavy. I tried to fight it off but eventually ended up just giving in.

Chapter 4: Our Path's Shall Cross Again

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- Rose's Dream -

Darkness surrounded me. I could hear nothing but the harsh breeze. I felt cold and not because of the breeze. My whole body felt as if it had been covered in the coldest of snow. I sighed looking around and tried to move only to find myself lifted off the floor. I was hanging in mid - air. I tugged at my wrist but ended up cutting them slightly. The warm blood spilled from my wrist at a dangerous speed. Soon my entire dress was covered in the heavy red substance. My wrist began to burn. As though something were being carved into it. The darkness started to close in around me. Trapping me into the small place where I hung. I stayed like that for a really long time. Never whimpering although my wrist's still hurt a lot. I never screamed or cried out for help. I knew I wasn't going to be hurt unless I did it to myself. I had nothing to fear. The worst that was happening was that I was trapped. "Why does this feel so familiar ?" I spoke to no one but to my surprise I got an answer. " My angel , ye know you can escape , right ? " The voice sounded so familiar. Before I could reply the strings that bound me were broken and I fell. A skeletor arm was held out to mine as I stared up into violet eyes. The auburn man in front of me smiled brightly and held me in his strong arms. I leaned into him as he tilted my head up. His lip's dangerously close to mine. He leaned in and .........

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I awoke with a jump. I should be used to this nightmare by now. It has been happening very frequently. But this time it was different. This time I was saved from the rope's before they could bound me any more than they already had. Who had saved me. I thought back , going threw every last detail. Auburn hair , Violet eyes , Drocell ? .. No. That man hadn't been Drocell that's why I was in a panic. The ring master from the circus? That's who it was. But why was he in my dream? I wondered as I opened my eyes fully and rubbed the sleep from them. Sure I found him attractive and maybe even a little bit charming, but that was no excuse for dreaming of someone besides my fiancè. Still slightly startled by my dream I took a look around. Guilt over shadowed the moment I saw Drocell sitting in the chair beside me. Worry written across his face. He jumped up, grabbing me into a hug. His breath was quick as though he were struggling to breath. He was probably terrified. This only made me feel worse than before. The circus performer's , Ciel and Sebastian were also in the room but I barely payed any mind to the them. I was too focused on the boy in front of me.

Someone grabbed my arm pulling me out of Drocell's reach. He didn't seem too happy about that. I looked up at my capture to find myself staring into those dreamy violet eye's I had been seeing so much of lately. " I'm glad to see ye up and 'bout , ye gave us lot quite a scare." The blonde boy who Joker had referred to as Dagger during the show stepped forward. In his hand he held 4 knifes. " We were afraid Betty 'ad broken ye'r jaw or somethin' . Drocell glared at the both of them. Joker's smile disappeared for a moment but once he saw me staring at him it returned. " So ... What's ye'r name ? " It seemed after he said that everyone was watching me. I shifted uncomfortably under their gaze's. " Rose , Rose Keniz ." I smiled weakly blushing. My voice was low and he had to strain to hear me. Joker looked at Drocell for a second and then back to me. " That name don't suit you." He reported bluntly before turning the the other performer's. " What do ye thing we should call 'er ?"

My eyes widened. Never had I been told my name didn't suit me. Everyone usually just smiled and nodded telling me it was a lovely name for a lovely girl. Drocell had called me that when I first woke up. It was the name he had chosen and personally I like it. The other circus performers were looking at me curiously. Each thinking. It seemed like they had all made an agreement or an arrangement that I was not aware of. I always hated being left in the dark about things. It made be feel unwanted and uncomfortable.

" I've got it!!!" Joker exclaimed , his voice going a slightly higher pitch. " We'll call 'er Angel." The other's smiled happily and nodded in agreement. Drocell stared at him. Anger dancing across his eyes. " I am thinking to myself that the name Rose suit's her well." I nod in agreement although I do feel touched by my newly given name. After hearing that, Rose seems very plain and ordinary. I suppose It suits the life I live though.

The boy known as Dagger was watching Drocell very closely. Analyzing his every move. " You have no right to re - name her ." Joker just laughed which fueled Drocell's anger. " We were wonderin' if ye'd like to join this here circus."My eyes lit up as he said this and the two children seemed to notice because they laughed and high five'd each other. I've always wanted to travel and see new places. " Why ? " I questioned trying to keep the excitement out of my voice. Dagger was the first to reply. " Y'er a livin' doll, most people ain't seen that before".

" ye'll have to try out first though , being cute ain't enough to get ya into the circus." This I assumed was directed at Ciel. A playful smirk crossed the ring masters features. " Unless your Angel that is." His arm made it's way around my waist as I blushed a deep shade of red. I felt myself being dragged away from him until I was once again in Drocell's arm's. He held me tightly. A little too tightly and I fought against him. He was hurting me, only slightly but still enough for me to feel unsafe.

His wooden hands were digging into my side and I winced as the porcelain broke. Once he realized what he was doing he dropped his arms immediately and looked at me apologetically. It was too late though. Dagger looked upset or maybe it was shock but Joker looked livid. I just sighed still feeling dull and tired. Drocell seemed to pick up on that. " you need your rest , let's go home." Before I could object Drocell wrapped three string's around my waist and arms and began pulling me out of the tent. He didn't even get to the opening of the tent before a knife broke the strings that bound me. Joker and Dagger were standing behind us as well as the rest of the circus performer's.

" You barmy bastard , how dare ye lay a hand on one of our family." Dagger yelled pulling me over to them. " Family ? " My voice barley above a whisper. Dagger nodded. " If ye want ya can join us 'ere. You can even perform if you'd like ta. It seem's most 'ere has taken a liking to ya. " I blushed not used to all this attention. I moved out from them and realized I was now standing in the middle of the room. Drocell , Ciel and Sebastian on one side and the circus performer's on the other. " you don't 'ave to go with 'I'm Angel , ya can stay here." He paused. " I don't think It's safe for you to leave with 'I'm". Joker held out his hand for me to take. I was about to until I heard someone whisper my name. "Rose." I turned to glance at Drocell. His voice was low with sadness. He sounded so broken. I could have sworn I saw a tear run down his face as he stared at me. He held his hand out the same way Joker did. He spoke quietly. " I'm sorry I didn't mean to grip you so tight. I am thinking to myself perhaps we should go home."

I froze. What now?

I looked back and forth between the two of them. The circus performers were smiling softly. Joker nodded encouragingly as his eyes beckoned me over to him. My mind was racing, My heart pumping so quickly I thought it might escape from my chest. As his eyes met mine a small smile graced my face.

For a split second I almost went with him. I almost left behind everything I once knew to go with him. I almost gave up my old life. That all changed though, when my gaze turned back to Drocell. His violet eyes held defeat. His head lifted causing the wood that he's made of to crack slightly.

He gave me a small yet warm smile. The kind only he could give and like many times before it made my heart melt. "Goodbye". He whispered quietly as he rushed out of the tent. The circus performers looked surprised but soon smiled happily as I walked towards them. Joker smiled wider than I though humanly possible. Sighing I kissed his cheek.

" I'm sorry ".

My voice was a whisper. I had an overwhelming feeling this wasn't the last time our path's would cross but I needed Drocell. I wasn't ready to leave him just yet. Joker's eyes saddened but I didn't give him time to speak. I ran without looking back.

The rain was pouring but I couldn't feel it. That's one of the main advantages of being a doll. Coldness in general doesn't bother us. I ran out of the circus and into the forest that surrounded it. After awhile of searching I finally found him sat up against a tree, perfectly still staring into space. I smiled lightly and sat down beside him. The clothes he wore were drenched by rain, the cloth sticking to his skin.

He didn't move. Worry took over as I shook him slightly looking for anything that would indicate life. He looked over suddenly causing me to jump. " You followed me ?" I nodded but didn't speak. Our eyes locked. The world around us seemed to hit the pause button. It reminded me of that time not long ago when we stood in his workshop. " I am thinking to myself why would Angel follow me? " I sighed softly. "It's Rose. I shall never be known by any name other than that. I quite like it. " I paused and kissed his cheek. " I will admit I may have taken a bit of a liking to Joker but he's nothing compared to my fiancé".

Drocell smiled as he moved our forehead's together. I continued. " And besides I sort of like being trapped in that little shop with you." I smirked lightly as the lie rolled off my tongue. Of course I was lying. The thought of being trapped in that tiny shop kept me up at night but right now all I wanted to do was make him happy.

His arms made their way around my waist and he kissed me softly. It was almost as though he were afraid I would break if he used anymore force. As imagined this can get annoying quickly but I've learned to put up with it. Once we broke apart I ran back to the main entrance where our carriage awaits. Ciel and Sebastian had already left. Drocell glanced at me before shaking his head disapprovingly. " This is why we don't leave the shop often, your dress is filthy". I just giggled in response which made him smile slightly.

The carriage pulled away the moment we got inside. " I never knew dolls could cry". I said teasingly. My eyes shun with amusement. He glared at me before placing his arms around my shoulders. A yawn escaped my lips. " I've slept far too much today". I thought as I closed my eyes. I was thankful when a dreamless sleep overcame me.

Chapter 5: Drocell's Rose Or Joker's Angel

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I yawned and stretched as I sat up in bed. My neck creaked slightly as I stood up, making my way over to the wardrobe. " Drocell probably carried me here". I thought as I looked threw all my dresses. The sun was rising as bright rays came threw the window. I chose a black and white lace dress. It came to my knee and had a frill lining at the end. I had never worn this one but It felt comfortable.

"Your awake". A dull voice stated from behind me. I nodded. Two strings wrapped around my waist and pulled me to face my fiancé. He smirked and placed two fingers just above my eye lid's , closing them tightly. I heard rustling and felt him take my hand. I slowly opened my eyes to reveal Drocell on one knee with a black rose in his hand. He kissed the back of my hand slowly , his eyes never leaving mine. " It's beautiful", I said calmly.

Drocell stared up at me. Violet eyes set ablaze with worry and regret. It wasn't until he stood and sat at my dresser that I realized what he was staring at. The dress showed the side of my stomach where he had dug his nails into my skin. The raw, red marks were still fresh and stung slightly.

I stared back at him and for the first time I saw him the way everyone else did. As a dangerous, cunning, dominant, possessive, creepy man capable of anything. His smile no longer looked warm but taunting. His eyes no longer held regret just worry and I knew exactly what he was worried about. He didn't care that he had hurt me. Didn't care he'd marked me. He was worried I'd leave. Worried; I would run off to the circus and never come back. That's all he cared about. He just dreaded being alone for eternity.

I won't lie. The thought is very tempting. Running to the circus seemed like a better and safer option. After all Joker had jumped and defended me when Drocell got too close for comfort. He seemed so sad when I left. As though he actually cared for me. I shook my head.

" Forget about him!" " You're engaged stop thinking about that man."

I tried to occupy my mind but It didn't help. Everything about him drew me in. The way his hair fell in front of his eyes, his bright smile, the vivid pools of violet, the way he held me ..................... It was as if he had put me under a spell.

Drocell cleared his throat. " Your smiling?" I nodded dropping my smile. A bored look replacing it. " You want to leave." He stated plainly. I just turned away from him. Not bothering to deny it. " I don't know what I want!" I snapped back, my eyes closed tight in frustration. He never answered instead deciding to storm out. This time I didn't follow him.

Something about this manor and that shop was different. In all my years here it had never seemed more like a prison. I felt trapped. Suddenly the dream I had awhile back came into my mind again. I was trapped. Drocell has me bound in his invisible strings. The only question was did I want to be saved? even I couldn't answer it honestly yet. I wanted to stay with Drocell but I didn't want to be kept under lock and key. I wanted to be free to do as I pleased. Travel the world , go out at make friends , anything but this.

I sighed and thought back to the circus. Dagger had said we were Family.

Up until now I never had a family. Drocell was my lover and Ciel and Sebastian were Drocells acquaintances . Family was something I had longed for and now I had the chance to have one of my own. A family , Friends , Sisters and brothers. A chance to travel , meet new people , perform on a stage and live life to the fullest. The circus offered all of this and more. But........

The shop offered comfort , love , a home , a person who loved and would never leave me. A lover and a chance to live with what is familiar and be safe.

I sat on the window still and sighed. I knew soon enough I would have to make a decision.

So who am I ? Drocell's Rose or Joker's Angel ?

Chapter 6: The Puppet Masters Seduction

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I sat there for the longest time just staring out the window. It was raining that day. I followed the rain drops down the window, tracing the criss cross designs they made when joined together. Minutes faded into hours. I don't know how long I sat there. Drocell hadn't come to check on me all day which was unusual. I couldn't tell if he was upset or mad. I didn't know what to do.

I could just sit here. No one would notice. I could just sit and rust , maybe even die. No one would care. Dying would be a lot easier than making this decision. I sighed and turned towards the door.

"I should probably apologies." I thought standing up. " He created me after all." I paused for a moment. Had he created me?

Even Drocell had been human at one point. I must have been too. I had a feeling Drocell wouldn't tell me about it if I asked. He hates talking about life before we met. I never understood why. I never questioned it but lately I was beginning to question everything

My mind was reeling and my stomach doing flips. I needed to find out who I was before. I knew I wouldn't have a moments rest until I found out. I could hear shuffling downstairs but ignored it. I was still a little groggy and decided to wait until tomorrow to deal with Drocell. I quickly walked to our bed and lay down. My eyes fluttered close a moment later.

------ Dream -----

I awoke on a small but comfortable bed wincing at all the loud noises. I am so used to waking up to perfect undisturbed silence. My eyes widened as the realization hit me. I wasn't at home. I quickly jumped up only to be knocked off my feet by a sudden wave of dizziness. I closed my eyes awaiting contact with the floor but felt warm arms wrap around me.

" Ye should be more careful Angel." A soft voice said with a laugh. I looked up staring into various shades of violet. A blush crossed my face as I stood.

" Where am I? " He smiled happily.

" Ye'r back home. Where you belong." I looked around realizing I was in a tent.

" Where's Drocell ? " I looked for any quick exits. Anywhere I could run.

Joker shrugged and puts his arms around my waist.

" Who cares. All that matters is that my Angel is safe with me." His smiles was bright. "It's Rose." My mind yelled yet I couldn't bring myself to say it. I just stood there unsure how to respond. Am I still Rose? I used to be so sure of everything, I knew where I stood. I had my life planned out but now I'm not so sure.

A small doll shop, sewing dresses, living in London, creating dolls and marrying the man I've been with for so long. Is that the life I want? Settle for the ordinary, repetitive life of a puppet masters wife. It seems like that's what fate has in store for me but I can't help imagine another life for myself.

A traveling circus, performing day and night, traveling all over the world, meeting new people and maybe even becoming the ring leaders lover.

The circus seemed like the more outgoing option. The shop offered the familiar feel of home. A snapped out of my thoughts when I felt lips on my neck. I gasped watching Joker closely. He moved forward slowly , pulling my face closer to his. " Ye have the most beautiful eyes." He whispered softly. My mind went blank. I couldn't think straight and for once I didn't mind. I didn't think about Drocell or the choice I had to make. I simply pressed my lips quickly against his.

Joker seemed surprised but sank into it quickly. He pulled away, voice deep and breathy.

" It's completely your decision but if you choose the circus I just want to say you'll be welcome. And I'd never 'urt or bound you the way 'e does."

His eyes lingered at my side for a moment before he disappeared. A small smile crossed my lips and for a moment it was calm. I was alone.

----------- End. ------------

I woke , only slightly , when I felt a dip in the bed. Obviously Drocell had lay beside me. I opened my eyes once before quickly falling into another dream.

This one less of a dream and more of a nightmare.

------------ Dream. -------------

The strings tightened around my waist as I stared into endless darkness. The air that surrounded me was ice cold and made me shiver. I struggled for awhile. Yelling, sobbing and pleading for someone to help me. No one came to my rescue this time. My eyes were red from crying. After a few minutes my screaming died down to silent whispers. I lost my voice. I soon lost hope and gave up. Hanging lifeless, letting myself become what I was.

A useless mindless puppet trapped by an unknown master.

"Don't be stupid !" A voice yelled. It sounded a lot like my own.

" You know exactly who your master is." A soft whimper erupted from my throat. I sat trapped by an invisible string.

My skin slowly began to track. The porcelain breaking off with a soft thump.

In front of me a timeless black rose began to whither. I stayed like that for a long time until the dream began to shift around me. The walls changed until I was standing in the middle of two different locations. Darkness swarmed around my feet like water in the ocean. I recognized one side immediately.

It was Drocell's shop. He stood in the center of the room, his arms around a rainbow eyed puppet. The puppets smile was bright as she stared at Drocell dreamily. In less than a second she was against the wall. Strings bound her in place. Too tight. Too secure. Impossible to break free from. She didn't struggle.

The chains that bound her spelled out the words " Trapped."

The other side was a little more interesting. The same puppet was pinned against a wall, her eyes closed in bliss as a ginger haired male kissed down her neck. Her eyes glanced up at me before the scene changed. Small blindfolded children surrounded her. Some looked sick but all were definitely wealthy.

The puppet sighed as all the children dropped. A pool of blood surrounded each of them.

The puppets from both sides began walking towards me.

One stepped over the corpse's of children. The other walked with strings trying to pull her back.

Each held out their hand and sighed softly. The noise echoing in the silence that followed.

I froze as they spoke, at the same time calling different yet familiar names.

" Angel." A cheerful and warm voice spoke. Joker.

"Rose." A cold and emotionless voice spoke. Drocell.

------- End. ---------

Upon waking the next morning I found Drocell's side of the bed empty. " Surely He can't still be upset ? " I questioned as I rose and dressed. I quickly calmed myself before walking downstairs.

Drocell was sitting stiffly behind the counter. His music box at his side. It was clear from the lack of greeting that he was angry. Tired and a little annoyed by his behavior I ignored him. Waltzing past, I grabbed the broom and began my regular morning routine. The entire time Drocell's eyes watched me like a hawk. His gaze so intense I could feel my back burn. It wasn't until I heard his voice that I turned around.

" How did you sleep ? " I stared blankly at him. " That's it ? " I thought. " No lecture, no scolding?"

I shifted uncomfortably and nodded my head. It was easier to lie than to explain the dreams I've been having lately. " That's good." He spoke once more after I had turned away from him. I nodded, humming a sound of agreement in the hopes that silence would fall over us again. Apparently that was all it took to anger Drocell. He stood from his seat and slowly moved around the counter.

" You won't speak to me." It was more of a statement than a question and while Drocell didn't look angry, I could always tell. He was livid. He hates to be ignored. Yet, even knowing all this I still didn't answer. My pride won over my fear.

He sighed, moving closer. " You said his name." I turned quick. "What!?" My voice was shrill with surprise. He paused, eyes focused purely on me. Breath a little quicker than normal. " In your sleep." He clarified. " You said his name." The glare being sent my way was enough to make a child cry. I shook my head in disbelief. " No wonder he's so mad". I thought.

He moved closer, his face inches from mine. " I'm thinking to myself, why would you dream of a man you hardly know?" I couldn't respond. I just stood, chocked up. His eyes became dull, his posture straightened. Drocell is pretty tall, I felt like a mouse being peered at by a lion. I felt like I was the prey and he was the hunter. I should be afraid but I'm not. Something about Drocell's eyes tell me I'm safe. He won't hurt me, no matter how much he may want to. He won't hurt me. Even though I know this I don't move away. I stay firmly planted.

" Maybe I should ask him now". I thought. I glance up at him, maintaining eye contact. I hold his hands in mine. " Can I ask you something?" He seems surprised by my sudden question but he responds, as always, with ; " Anything."

" Who was I before I was Rose?" After the words leave my mouth I wish I could take them back. Drocell's eyes darken, making his beautiful violet eyes look a horrible grey. His hand's grasp mine so tightly I'm afraid the porcelain will break. When he speaks his tone is devoid of all emotion. " Why do you want to know?" I shrug, not trusting my voice. His eyes searched mine, grip loosening. " You should focus on me instead of the past". He smiled slightly. " I really do love you Rose". I remained silent but I could sense his patience thinning. His smile faded into smirk. This time when he spoke his voice was low.

" You know, I could always make you speak". A chuckle erupted from his throat.

One of his hands moved to my waist while the other gripped the back of my neck. Cold lips brushed against my neck, A hand tugged at my hair causing my head to tilt back. I shivered under his touch. The kisses trailed up my jaw line. After making sure I couldn't jerk my head forward, he leaned in. I could feel my knee's giving out but I fought to stay standing. " How could one man have such a dramatic effect? " I questioned before my mind went blank. I pushed my body against his trying to connect our lips but he wouldn't budge.

" You know I hate it when my little doll gives me the silent treatment. " A glint of amusement passed through his eyes.

My voice was caught in my throat but I managed a breathless sorry before he crashed his lips against mine. Memories flooded behind my eyes. I still can't really remember days or years but I remember moments.

The moment I awoke in the workshop.

The moment I told Drocell I loved him.

The moment he first held me in his arms.

It all came back in flashes and sparks. Far too soon Drocell pulled away and with a smile of satisfaction he walked deeper into the shop. I watched him until he disappeared behind the oak door leading to his infamous workshop. I stood for a long time, thinking, remembering.

I only moved when I heard the front doors bell ring behind me ........

Chapter 7: The Knife Thrower And The Doll

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A voice came from behind me, a voice I had been hearing every night since the circus.

" I knew It was you, Must admit ye sure look different." I jumped, spinning on my heel. My eyes met his as I let out a shaky breath. He shouldn't be here. " What are you doing here ? " Anger flashed across his eyes. " I wanted to see you." I stood in shock, unable to speak. I could still hear the distant clink of a knife on porcelain. He moved closer, taking my hand in his. " I want you to come back with me." He paused. " The lot of us. Dagger, Beast, Doll; were a family Angel." A sad smile crossed his features. " It's time for you to come home."

I shook my head, breaking our gaze. " No, s-s-s-stop calling me that." He stepped back cautiously. Silence surrounded us for a moment before he spoke again. " You're right, that's not your name." He smiled similar to before. " Your name is Cosette Laurent ." It was getting harder to breath. I clutched my head, a sharp pain erupting inside. Memories came flooding back. I could hear someone calling out to me. A young boy with bright red hair. I couldn't see his face. I could only hear his silk like voice. " Your lying, you have to be." I whispered, holding onto the counter. My eyes darted around the room. Joker grabbed my arm as I began to shake. I could feel my legs giving out beneath me. I wanted to run, I wanted to scream. My mind was reeling. It felt as though my entire universe was collapsing.

I closed my eyes, unable to stop the tears rolling down my cheeks. " He wouldn't lie to me, D-D-D-Drocell wouldn't lie. I've never even heard that name before." I was chocking up but tried to keep quiet. The last thing I need is for Drocell to come out here. Joker held me up, lifting me into his arms. " Come back with me." He whispered, the noises from the workshop has ceased. I could hear faint footsteps coming closer and closer. " I'll explain everything. I swear." I shook violently, unable to speak. However, I managed to nod my head.

Before I knew It I was being lay down in an old carriage. I jumped every time we hit a bump in the road. Joker was clutching my hand tightly. It took a few minutes for me to calm myself but once I did I turned to him. " H-h-h-how did you know my name? " He glanced at me, sorrow in his eyes. " We were friends once, all of us were. You were part of the circus. The best Contortionist around. " He smiled. " You also played the Viola at the end of the show. After you went missing the entire show had to be changed. " He paused , hesitating slightly. " Dagger was really torn up, he looked for you for months. Never gave up." I sighed and looked out the window. " Dagger ? Why would he care so much ? " He chuckled lightly. " I think anyone would care if their sibling went missing Angel."

I jumped, my eyes dashing back to meet his. " Brother !!? " Joker nodded. " Yea, He's really missed you ." I felt myself smile back but quickly moved away. " Prove it." My voice came out much sharper than expected. His eyes widened slightly before he nodded. His hand traveled down to the jacket pocket. He pulled out a photo.

I stared in awe. It looked a lot like me. My golden locks were replaced by blonde and red. I was used to seeing my hair straight but the picture showed a choppy style. The rainbow eyes that stared back at me in the mirror every morning were blue. The clothes looked extremely similar to the circus's tamer's costume. I shook slightly, It didn't feel real. None of this did.

" You were the star of the show! Everyone loved you." He smiled proudly. " I loved you." He stared into my eyes. " I loved you a lot Angel." I responded by looking away. I was getting worked up again, all of this being too much to take but I needed to know more. Before I could speak Joker handed me a small journal. Flipping threw the pages I could tell the writing was mine. It was mainly a diary, nothing too interesting just lists of daily events. Beside me , Joker laughed slightly. " It took awhile ta recognise you. Ye look so different." I put my head down. " Pretty but different." He clarified.

A few moments later we got out of the carriage. The rest of the circus was waiting. I kept my head down not wanting to see the reactions of the circus troupe. I felt someone place their arms around my shoulders. Soon I was being led into a tent. Joker was no longer beside me, I felt unsafe. I was glad I had broken the string that held me to the small London doll shop but I didn't feel safe here. I was sat on a bed and left to myself.

Drowning in my own thoughts.

I sat alone for what felt like hours before finally someone came to check on me. I was sitting on the bed, my back facing the tent's opening. I only turned when a soft, cautious voice spoke.

" Cosette?" I sighed, smiling at the blonde haired boy. " I guess." I studied his features. We did look alike. I could see how we might be related. Tears seeped into the corners of Dagger's eyes. He sprinted towards me, pulling me into a tight hug. My dress becoming damp due to his crying. " I really missed you , ya know.......Never stopped lookin' for ya........an' w-w-when I saw you at the show, I nearly ran over but, but I didn' wanna get my hopes up." I didn't really know what to say. He was sobbing into my shoulder, his grip on me tight. I pat his back until he pulls away, looking at me oddly. Before he could speak Joker { Who I had failed to notice } butt in.

" She doesn't remember Dagger. That puppet bastard must'a whipped 'er mind or something." This seemed to confuse him.

I glared at him, shaking slightly. " Do not call him that ! " Dagger glanced at me worriedly, his fists clenched. " How can you defend him !!" I moved back. " He took ya away from yer family ! Away from me ! " I sighed. " He's my fiance, I love him. no matter what he does I'll defend him. " This only seemed to further anger the blonde. " Fiance!? Angel ......." He paused , staring into my eyes as if searching for something.

" You know nothin' , ye'r not you anymore." I felt an uneasiness settle around me. He moved away and towards the door. I tried to call him back but he had stopped listening.

" Leave him. He'll come around eventually." I nodded, the feeling of dread still with me.

I took a deep breath before turning to him. Joker sat beside me, wrapping his arm around my shoulder's. " What did he mean when he said I wasn't myself ? " I asked curiously. Yes, I was tired. Yes, I just wanted to be left alone but I was sick of being lied to. I was sick of not knowing.

Joker shifted uncomfortably, he wouldn't look me in the eye. " Joker?" A soft sigh left his lips and he moved away.

" You aren't the same anymore. " I opened my mouth to speak but he cut me off.

" Everything's different. Your voice, your face, your body, your mannerisms, everything. The only thing similar is your personality." He chuckled slightly. " I hope the real you's still in there, I'll try an' help as best I can." Joker turned around, smiling once. " You just have to remember. " After that he left, calling out for me to get some rest. He must have noticed how tired I was.

My entire world had begun to crumble. Everything I thought I knew was false. I was miles away from home in a tent surrounded by people I apparently knew, with a brother who hates me. To say I felt uncomfortable was an understatement. I was mentally drained and physically sore. My body ached from lack of movement and I could feel a head ace coming on. There was one thing I didn't feel though....

One familiar sense that I no longer was bothered by. For the first time in a long time I didn't feel locked in.

I felt free ...........

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