#wylan van eck x male! reader

[thedelusionreaderbitch]

What I headcanon (unless it's canon) the crows sexuailies as and how they come out you Part 1: Wylan (PRIDE 2023)

A/n: I have so many gay fics in my drafts you guys have no idea what's coming for you

Warnings: coming out, crack, swearing, I think that's it? You have been warned!

Wylan: Gay (male! reader)

The two of you obviously weren't in a relationship yet

but you've both been very close ever since the ice court heist

you're the one who's believed in him since the beginning

you never cared that he was a merchant's son, he was so strong and to you've never judged people on their upbringings only how they acted after

and wylan was very thankful for this

slowly realizing he fell in love with you

you did too but he didn't know that ofc

boy was he a mess

he already knew he's gay, it's just that he's never really had tell anyone about it, or be more open about it

the only person who knew was Jesper and he was surprisingly quiet about it

it was because he understood not wanting to be out right away

anyways

so if he asks you out he's also coming out at the same time

and that's terrifying for him

he's literally killed people, and this is what gets him imao

but it's nerve racking nonetheless so when finally racks up the courage to ask you on a date he's a mess

hands shaking, sweating, eye dilated, messy hair, you name it

but he was still doing it which was more then most people could say

mark my words wylan is the bravest crow

he gives you a single rose that's blue and red mixed together

he made it in one of his experiments

he was trembling but then he asked you; "What do you think about gay people?"

You just smirked at him; "I am gay."

"Me too. Do you want go out?"

your dumbass thought he meant going outside

"um- no."

"What do you mean then?"

this went back and forth till eventually he just got fed up

"LIKE A DATE Y/N!"

"Oh, of course."

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GRISHAVERSE CHARACTERS WHEN YOU FALL ASLEEP ON THEM

Shadow and bone / six of Crows

MALE READER (can also be read as gn)

Characters: Alina Mal Genya Nikolai Kaz Inej Jesper Nina Wylan Matthias

*Mostly based on the show as I'm only in the middle of Siege and Storm

ALINA- you were both very tired, riding in a carriage led by horses. Alina was starting outside the window when she felt a weight on her shoulder, turning her head she saw you with your eyes closed asleep on her. Smiling to herself she moved a little so you'd be more comfortable and spread a little warmth through you so you won't be cold. She tried staying as still as possible in the carriage to not wake you up.

MAL- you were both drinking some kvas and talking nonsense outside your tent while everyone else were asleep. As he stared into the sky talking about keramzin memories he was interrupted by your head falling on his shoulder. "Do I bore you this much?" He barked out a laugh, watching your sleepy face and moving to a more comfortable position. He decided to let you sleep a little more before waking you up and returning to the tent.

NIKOLAI- you were hanging out in his ship quarters with a few other ship mates, his arm hang around your shoulders when he felt your body leaning towards his own, your hair tickling his neck. He watched you in amusement while Tamar and Pryvet were telling a story about a past adventure, tightening his arm around you.

GENYA- you both were sitting on a sofa in your room at the little palace, genya talking about her day and (rightfully) complaining about the queen, with a tea cup in her hand. When she asked you about your opinion, not hearing an answer she glanced at you finding out you were asleep. She presumed you were just leaning against her as you often did, but to her surprised you were just passed out from the tiring day as a grisha in the little palace. Smiling softly she carefully helped you fully lay down on the sofa, and left you to your rest.

KAZ- you were sitting in his room trying to form the next step leading to the fall of Pekka Rollins when he felt a slight weight on his shoulder. He immediately tensed up frozen in place. He tried calling your name hoping you'd wake up but unfortunately for him you didn't. He wanted to shrag you off, and he would've if you didn't know each other for a very long time. It felt weird, anxious but also a little comforting. He stayed like this still as a statue for a few minutes before slightly tapping you on your arm to wake you up.

INEJ- you were both sitting outside in silence wanting some peace and quiet from the loud tavern when inej felt your head slip down to her shoulder. She smiled softly, studying your face; feeling the urge to let you stay like this forever. Unfortunately it was getting late and unsafe outside, so she had to wake you up, but she really enjoyed those few minutes of you together.

JESPER- you were sitting at a table in the barrel watching people drink, talk and play, when you felt the tiredness creeping up on you "don't you dare fall asleep and leave me alone in this boredome" said Jesper while holding some sort of drink on his hand. "I'm not asleep" you perked up at the accusation, taking a sip of your own drink you left on the table. As the time passed on, you stopped answering Jesper's questions and observations. "Not asleep my ass" he snored, finishing the rest of his drink and helping sleepy you stand up and go to your room.

NINA- you were sitting on soft cushions near a window watching the snow. You rented a small room and decided to lit a fire and warm up a bit. You were both quiet, enjoying the outside view and the inside warmth, wrapped together in furrs. You slowly fell asleep, head tilted back when Nina noticed you're not awake, laughing quietly she guided your head on her shoulder, tightening the furr around you two.

WYLAN- wylan was mixing some stuff together when you called him to take a break and join you on the sofa, petting the empty space besides you. After a few protests he finally agreed and sat down next to you, your arm wrapping around him. Drawing him closer you kisses his head, nuzzling your nose to his wild hair, feeling sleepy. He was telling you about what he was making when you slowly started shifting away to sleep. When he noticed he smiled trying not to move his head too much as your head was on his. He was just sitting there squished between you and the sofa, and eventually fell asleep too.

MATTHIAS- he was sitting all grumpy away from the rest of the crows when you approached him. "Mind if I join you" you asked not waiting for his answer and sat down besides him. "Why do you ask if you're going to do that anyway" he scowled. You shrugging your shoulders leaning against him and observing everything that was going on in front of you. Announcing you were tired, you tilted your head to rest on his shoulder, instantly falling asleep. Looking at you Matthias sighed annoyingly, but let you stay mumbling something in Fjerdan.

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The little ear

Kaz brekker x male!reader

This was just to get me back into writing, and also I needed to feed the males something. Also yes I know the title is funny and weird.

Warnings; Flirting, kinda oc kaz.

There was only one person who knew of you, Inej. Kaz had hired you a few times, a little ear for things he needed to know. But that’s as far as it went, you weren’t a crow but a waiter at a bar a few blocks away.

“I need you to watch out for him. There will be a few men heading his way tonight, protect him at all cost.” Kaz was simple with his information. The only thing she knew was your name and where you would be.

And it was exactly like kaz had said, three men followed you out of the bar and into the alleyways. Inej stop them from hurting you, and you didn’t seem that startled by her appearance. “You must be the wraith.” You smirked at her.

“Well, thank you for your service. Come visit me at work sometime and I’ll give you a free meal.” You looked at the men passed out on the stone ground and walked over them. “And tell kaz, that I miss his pretty face.” Winking at her you left without another word.

After that she did see you more. Inej actually was comforted by your presence when she would come and see you. But, the tension between you and kaz was anything but hidden. Kaz sent her to you all the time, asking about you each time she would go on her own. And you constantly smiled when talking about him, or throwing comments around. So when the rest of the crows got to meet you, it surprised them.

“What can I get you?” You leaned over the table and filled their cups with water.

“I have a job for you.” Kaz looked up at you with the dull expression. “Hmm, and what’s that handsome?” Leaning on your hands you flirt with him.

Inej smiled but the rest looked at each other as if someone crazy happened, and it did. Kaz title his head and smirked up at you, “When does Thomas Lam come here?”

Jesper looked like his head was going to explode, kaz was flirting back. Wylan was just sitting back and looking between the two of you, Nina was smirking but frozen and couldn’t wait to tease kaz about it. Matthias knew the look in his eyes, the same look he gives nina.

“Every Wednesday in the afternoon, then on Saturday when the place opens. He likes the freshly baked pies.” You bring your eyes away from him and then look at the others with a smile. You asked them what they wanted and they stayed quiet, except for Nina who needed her food.

“I need you to come with us to his mansion, you’ll get Inej in because they know your face. You’ll deliver a box in the kitchen and then Inej could get around and let us in.” He was more of asking if you where up to it then telling.

“What’s in it for me, brekker?” They all could see the mischievous look in your eyes as you leaned closer to him.

“Money.” He stated. Kaz could help but flicker his eyes down to your lips as you smirked.

“I need to get back to work, and when I return you should have a better offer.” They all watch you walk away and into the kitchen doors.

After a few seconds of silence between the table the group broke out into giggles, kaz looked at them confused. Inej smiled that they caught on quickly and saw what she had to for mouth.

Kaz raised a brow and asked them what they were laughing at, his face looked annoyed. “That was painful.” Jesper admitted and hit his chest. “I never expected to see kaz that way.” Wylan said beside his boyfriend and held onto his arm.

“If you don’t offer yourself as payment kaz, I will knock you over the head.” Nina winked at him and he groan and told them to shut up. But they did not stop and continued to make fun of him and talk about it.

Kaz turned away from them and glared at the ground. He was going to make sure to never bring them here again.



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Kaz , Jesper, inej ,Nina, wylan x stripper reader we’re they make reader put on a little show for them

The show.

Poly!Crows x Reader. 18+ Drabble.

Oh my gosh- This is so fucking hot to think about. My god, the crows would go feral.

Warnings: Slight!Striptease, watching, putting on a show, teasing, reading being a sub turned to a dom then back to a sub, i have no idea really how this goes, changed the rules of what happens at a strip club because I have never gone, but I will one day.

“Don’t look so nervous.” you heard kaz say as he and the others sit in front of you in a closed off room. Your body somehow seemed to light on fire before your clients who you knew well but you never expected them to come to your work place. The skin you show seemed to make your body cold and want to cover up for the first time, some how you were overly sensitive at the moment.

Cheeks heating up, your body tense and eyes avoiding the group in front you. “What do you want?” You bit your lip nervously for their reply. They look around and lean back, smug looks on all their faces.

Jesper laughed as wylan laid across his lap and had his arms around his neck. “Easy give us a show.” You blinked and sighed slowly moving to the center of the small platform in front of them.

You glanced up from the floor and decided to shake off the nerves and do your job, not matter how embarrassing it seemed now. “I want that shirt off.” Inej and Nina hooked arms and looked at you, pointing at the tight cropped shirt. You tugged the ends and smirked at them. Gain confidence like you have always done, it always paid off.

“Do you plan on paying for that?” Their breath hitched when you got on your knees, “There’s black lace underneath this,” you smirk and lean on your hands and crawl closer to the edge, “Would you like that?” You bat your eyelashes up at them.

Kaz’s pants tightened as you crawled to them on your hands a knees, making you looked like little pray. Jesper and wylan clinched onto each other and bite their lips looking you up and down, their pants getting the same tightness. Inej and Nina felt the sensation in their lower stomach twist and their pussy clinch.

“Let me.” Wylan leaned up and pulled out a wad of cash and counted some and threw it onto the stage next to you. He enjoyed your eyes look down and get a surprise look, only for a second. You nodded, slowing moving your hands down your body, making it painfully slow.

The fabric was pulled over your head and their eyes went right to your chest. The black lace was there and straps wrapped around your chest, the small fabric covering up your nipples. Whatever your chest looked like, male or female or anything, it was sexy and just made them want more.

You smirk as their eyes stare back at your chest and around your body. Parting your legs slightly you start to move your hips to find a nice rhythm and stick with it. The small bottoms made your sex stand out and they wondered what it would be like to be underneath you. To have you in their mouths, to have your legs straddle their hips and ride them, or to have you thrust up into them.

“Holy shit.” Jesper whispered and tightened his grip on wylans hips, the boy letting out a small whimper at how good it was to watch you. Kaz tightened his grab on the head of his cane and clinch his jaw.

You chuckled at their reactions and slowly sat down fully and your ass hit the floor, you leaned back onto your back and lifted your leg and for a minute they saw almost everything. You swung your leg over and rolled onto your stomach and slowly pushed up with your hands and then back down in the soft thrusting action. Nina blushed and got out her own cash and threw it onto the stage.

You made your way up to the pole and pushed yourself up, but making sure to bend and move your ass in the process. “Who knew the crows were so dirty,” you licked your lips and wrapped your hand around the pole, “So turned on right now for their friend, bet you have dreams of fucking me together don’t you?”

They all frozen in place because that wasn’t how you we’re supposed to do thing, or they didn’t expect for you to be so vocal. The giggle you made made their body flash with heat, “Thought so.” You hooked your leg around the metal and pushed yourself up and took ahold of the top, you started to move slowly around.

“But poor you, I don’t do that type of work.” You pouted and faked being sad to tease them, you climbed up to the top and made some hip movements against the pole. They didn’t speak and you focus on the moves you knew would get them. So you fell back and locked your legs on the poll and leaned back, your back hitting the pale and your body half way up in the air. A figure blocked your light and view of the couch and your heart stopped.

“Come to work just for only us and we can make the rules.” Kaz stood above you and made the crow head on the cane hit your cheek softly, “And let us spoil you instead, just for a taste of you.”

At the end of the night you didn’t have a choice to work for the devils.

[pluvoiphile]

what do we think about me writing a poly!wesper x male!reader fic/imagine?

[chaosofmanyfandoms]

I'm currently going to be writing six of crows/shadow and bone winter oneshots if anybody has any requests! Also since it's Christmas time, I'd love to write for bernard from the santa clause movies aswell!

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ᴘᴀɪʀɪɴɢ: wylan van eck x male reader

ʀᴇ𝐐: no

ᴍᴀʏʙ'ꜱ ɴᴏᴛᴇ: quick little thing before bed

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"Stop looking at me like that."

He wasn't doing anything special, really. He was just making something new for Kaz! ...and multitasking his own projects of interest on the side.

Still, nothing special in him to see. You were supposed to be—what were you supposed to be doing? He didn't know. He couldn't think straight with your eyes on him like that.

"Like what?"

Oh, you were just poking fun at him now.

He didn't know it yet. He didn't know that you were absolutely in love. Of course, it was out of his realm of possibilities. Even though your eyes lit up everytime he entered the room–and his did the same–he had doubts.

"Like you think the world of me."

He hadn't realized it yet, but he was about to.

"I do."

"You do?"

"I do."

He could only spare you a glance, out of the corner of his eyes, for fear of unwanted results from the substances in front of him; but that wasn't the real reason. He was scared of embarrassing himself, because he knew that if he looked at you for even more than a second, his cheeks would light up like wildfire.

But they already had.

"I'm nothing special."

"You are."

"I'm not! Really. I can't even–"

He was going on and on, but you weren't having any of it. Your world was berating himself, and you weren't going to let him do that.

"Wylan, look at me." Your voice was stern.

"What?" And his, exasperated; but he turned to look at you and more than a second passed.

You looked absolutely enamored. Your eyes were on him, only on him, like nothing else ever existed. Heart eyes. That's how he'd describe them, your eyes, and they were beautiful. You were beautiful, that much he believed and that much he knew, but he couldn't think of it the other way around.

"I love you."

It didn't feel feasible. At least, not until you came closer to him, not until your hands found their place on his burning cheeks, not until his arms found their way around your neck, just like always.

Unlike always, he hadn't closed his eyes yet. They stuck to yours. Though he was never good at eye contact, he held yours like it was nothing because he was feeling everything all at once.

Relieved that his doubts were cleared, happy that he was in love with you, ecstatic that you were in love with him; and it meant everything to him.

"You love me?" He was only asking it to hear you say it again.

And he had a feeling you knew that. "I love you."

He closed his eyes as you brought him into a kiss, which meant he wasn't able to see your loving gaze, but he found relief when he realized he would see your eyes again in just a moment.

For now, he could only think about how your lips on his felt like they belonged together.

If worlds clashed when you and Wylan Van Eck kissed, with explosions and fire and smoke, he doesn't think he'd be able to stop.

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I will watch anything, cartoons, live action, anime, etc.

would like to start by asking for suggestions then i will update as i go!!!

Even if i have watched the suggestions before i will watch them again!!!!!!!!!!!

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Future Reference- W.V.E x male! reader

okay!! This was a request from the cherry anon, and cherry, if you’re reading, I hope you love this! This is the first ever Wylan centric fic I’ve ever written (far as I can remember) so this was a bit nervewracking, but I hope it’s enjoyable!

The prompts they requested are fluff prompts 26 and 29:  “I don’t deserve you.” “I decide who I deserve and who deserves me in turn. I decided you deserved me the moment we met.” and forehead touches

Fic type- this is hurt/comfort

warnings- mention and depiction of feelings of self doubt, mention of blackmailing,

You had been dating Wylan since you were seventeen. Five years, a university degree in academic lit, and a whole host of heists done for a decent paycheck from Kaz later, you found yourself living with Wylan in his fathers mansion in the Financial District while Jan Van Eck rotted away in Hellgate. 

You’d been feeling down lately, doubting nearly everything. It’d come on at random, out of nowhere, and you almost felt as though you couldn’t escape it. It’d been going on for weeks by the time that it reached Wylan, your doubts having long spread past the general stuff and taken a course for yours and Wylans relationship. 

“What’s wrong?” Wylan had asked one night, the both of you exhausted enough that you felt there couldn’t have been a worse time to have that conversation. 

It was a conversation that needed to happen however, and there was no use in waiting another minute, which was something that you both knew and acknowledged. You figured that even though you were exhausted there was no time like the present. 

You’d been standing by the window, enjoying the view of the skyline from yours and Wylans shared bedroom. You’d spent the day reading while you waited for a response back from a job opportunity in Ravka, one that Wylan had told you to jump at before promptly pressing a kiss to your forehead. 

The thoughtful explanation came easily enough. I don’t feel good enough for you. I feel like exactly the person I am; a criminal, someone raised in the Barrel who only got the slightest shot at a degree because I blackmailed the right people to get me in. You’re a merchers son, Wylan. Destined for riches and a future full of the best wines and the finest suits. We’re different, and I’m doubting everything, and I don’t feel good enough for you anymore. 

“Everything is fine,” you said instead. 

“No, it’s not,” Wylan responded, arms wrapping around your shoulders in a hug from behind. You wanted to melt into him, tell him everything that’d plagued you over those weeks, the doubt that’d consumed your every thought. You wanted to tell him you didn’t feel as though you deserved him, that you never really had, but it’d never quite been so amplified as it was throughout that time. 

Wylan, ever the perfect, patient boyfriend, waited with you in the silence. He pressed a kiss to your shoulder, to the space between your shoulder and your neck, to the back of your neck and against the side of your jawline, each kiss another quiet reassurance. 

Eventually, you turned around and let Wylan press his forehead to yours, relished in the feeling of his arms around you and the scent of chemicals mixed with sweet tea that he always smelled of. 

“What’s wrong?” He asked again as your eyes fluttered closed. 

“I don’t deserve you.”

“I decide who I deserve and who deserves me in turn. I decided you deserved me the moment we met.” 

You gave in and melted, pulling Wylan close as he moved his forehead off of yours and pressed his lips there instead, the kiss lasting a brief moment.

“I love you, Y/N,” Wylan said. “You deserve me more then half the people I’ve ever met. I love you endlessly.” 

You hummed. “Ditto.” 

Wylan laughed, the two of you pulling away. 

“I tell you that I love you endlessly and all I get is a ‘ditto’ in response?” He asked incredulously. “You’re a fool, Y/N.”

“Yes Wylan,” you rebutted. “I’m a fool, but I’m a fool who you fell in love with, and that’s all that matters to me.”

Wylan laughed again, hummed as you pulled him into a deep kiss, one that you hoped said all you’d ever needed to say, even the stuff you’d not spoken to him out loud.

Wylan grinned as you pulled away, leading you to the bed as he idly pinched out the odd candle and turned down the low-burning lamps. 

“That works better than ditto does,” he said. “For future reference, of course.” 

You scoffed, grin coming to your face as you did. “Noted.” 

You loved Wylan, and he knew that. He loved you, and you knew that. In the end, that was all that really mattered to either of you. 

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Kaz Brekker x male! Reader - Infinite

A/n: I think I kinda trauma dumped onto this fic a little so whoops-

Request (by anon): Hii! I found your blog not long ago and I LOVE YOUR WRITING AHHHH 🫶🫶

I was wondering if you could write a gn or male shadow summoner!reader x Kaz Brekker where they're Darklings kid but ran away due to him being a bad father. The reader lived in Ketterdam for quite some time now and met Kaz in his early days there. They trust eachother and know alot about other but reader hides who his father is. then one day reader has a worse day remembering all the good – and bad – memories with The Darkling and in The Small Palace and is overwhelmed, so he helps reader and that's how he finds out about why they ran away and all, but Kaz understands and doesn't push the reader away and it just brings them closer??

Sort of a hurt/comfort. If you won't write it that's fine, I'd just really wanna see you do this! (￣ω￣)

Warnings: child abuse, trauma (10X but not in the way you think), the darkling, death, canon? we don't know her, there is a bit of inej slander but it's a trauma reponse and gets fixed later on in the fic, I think that's it? You have been warned!

The 3 P's:

[pov: 3rd person] [pronouns used: he/him] [pairings: (past! parental!) darkling x reader, (romantic!) kaz x reader, (platonic! mentioned!) kaz x inej]

Finite.

That's what would happen, if he did something wrong, or truly let him in. Kaz could only see so deep into him before he would stop him, send him away or make it seem like everything was okay.

His shaking hands gripped the sink as tears ran down his face.

How could he do that to him? How could Kaz chose Inej, over himself when he knew, he knew that he was a shadow summoner, that if he was found out he would be killed, or worse. Taken back to the little palace.

He couldn't, he can't, he-

He would never go back.

But Kaz had made him go back, on a job, to get that stupid sun summoner, then he chose Inej over him, by asking if she was okay. He never asked, he never looked, he just had to make sure that his little Wraith was alive. His greatest investment.

A scream tore through his throat and shadows were ripped from him as the cut went around the room.

How could he. He was a fool, he trusted him, why couldn't he-

Why couldn't he just care?

Though, he doesn't care for him, he tells himself over and over again, he doesn't care for Kaz Brekker, not when they were children and certainly not now. He can't care, because love can't be given that easily, he has to work for it and he has certainly not worked, or given Kaz enough.

His love would always be restricted.

The sound of a cane coming into contact with the broken in floor boards made him laugh, it was a mean sound, it was cruel and broken but so right.

He sounded like him.

That didn't matter, just like how Kaz was nothing.

A hand was placed beside his, and his breath caught in his throat, he couldn't do this, because as soon as this was over Kaz wouldn't even look his way. He wouldn't ask if he was okay, he wouldn't ask how he was holding up, he wouldn't be of value to him.

Abruptly he pulled away and crossed his arms over his chest, his shadows dancing in the distance, mocking him. Another reminder of what he cannot escape.

"I shouldn't have brought you on that job."

Something in him snaps at those words, no he never wanted to go, but he was enough- no he deserved to go and get that money. He didn't need Kaz to tell him things he couldn't change, he needed Kaz to tell him things he could. Like his love wasn't limited, please say it isn't.

It is though, isn't it? All things have limits.

Scoffing, he turns around to face him and he's not prepared for the emotion, the boy with the cane presents him with.

Sorrow, incredible sorrow.

Has he seen how he's been spiraling? Is all he truly feels is pity?

He doesn't want Kaz's pity, he didn't when he handpicked him off the streets only weeks after Jordie had died. He doesn't need any more pity, he got lots of it from certain members of the little palace, from Baghra.

"Leave me alone Kaz. I don't want to talk to you."

His words are a juxtaposition to what he's really feeling, it's the irony in it all. The greatest joke of all time, because he does want Kaz to talk to him, and he doesn't want Kaz to leave him alone. To leave him, to find someone better, someone more worth his time.

"No." Kaz speaks softly. "I saw how you reacted when you saw the darkling that day, I knew that you were a shadow summoner and I was a fool to think that man could be a good father."

He blinks at Brekker, once, twice, three times, before everything releases.

Oh.

The shadows in the distance stop dancing, as his shoulders fall down, so do his shadows. They stop dancing, then they fall, only to be left with the occasionally swirl now that his emotions aren't everywhere at once. Now that he understands Kaz's intentions, now that he's slowly realizing Kaz understands him.

"The darkling isn't my biological father." Is where he starts, and simultaneously's pauses to see if he would stop him. Walk out at the mere mention of his sob story. He doesn't.

"But my parents left me the moment they found out I was a shadow summoner, then he took me."

He squeezed his eyes shut, he didn't remember much about his biological parents, but he remembers his mother's smile, and his father's hands. Often he wonders what would have happened if they had stayed, if they would have loved a monster child enough so he could love them back. Enough so he wouldn't become one later, or that one would never find him. The world isn't fair though, and it is made up of monsters. He just so happened to be raised by one, and perhaps even became one.

It's feasibly disturbing that he doesn't back away and retch at the thought.

"I don't know if he wasn't ever not, bad, if he was I don't remember him as such. He only treated me cruelly, as a-"

Mirror to himself.

Was that all he was? A mirror to the terrible black heretic? A mirror to the monster who killed, to try and make things better? Was he destined to become him?

Then, a hand without the familiar leather clasps that enclosed them, brush against his face and his eyes shot open.

It's Kaz, it's always been Kaz.

"You are not their mistake, you are not him." He whispers in his ear. "You valued and safe."

He doesn't know if he'll ever be able to tell Kaz the true extent of everything the black heretic put him through, if he'll ever even tell him why he's like this. So dependent, but pushing away the moment they connect.

But he knows he can't be a reflection of the darkling, because he would still be at the little palace then. He would still be training with that man he used to call his father, he would have not run away to meet his faithful one in Ketterdam.

They were both broken, and bruised, and hurt beyond what anyone could ever comprehend. For now though, they have each other, and he has to remind himself that it makes it all worth it. That it's enough.

Kaz lets his hand slide but he understands, he always will.

Kaz may ask his Wraith if she's okay because she's a valuable investment, his friend. However Kaz will come back to him after, and they'll be the one brushing hands, skin to skin. Kaz will be the one to show him his inside, without his armor, and he'll desperately try to do the same.

Love can come easy, people can be redeemed if the person who's forgiving them so wishes it. He's done terrible things under the command of a man he called his father, things he can never take back. Lives he can never get back.

His father would get no redemption, but he would make sure that shadow summoners would, that he would not be just a reflection of his father.

He does that by staying in Ketterdam, staying with Kaz.

"Thank you." He murmurs back to the bastard.

Kaz just gives him the barest of smiles. "Always."

Love isn't finite, love is infinite.

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-thedelusionreaderbitch

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[lunarthecorvus]

Post Crooked Kingdom Canon Compliant fanfiction recommendations part of Lunar's soc fanficiton rec series

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Vol. 1: Council of Thieves by lizaudreys

Wordcount: 122,891 Chapters: 45/45 (part of a series and is continued afterwards)

Characters: Kaz Brekker, Inej Ghafa, Jesper Fahey, Wylan Van Eck, Nina Zenik, Original Female Character(s), Original Male Character(s)

Tags: BAMF Inej Ghafa, Fluff and Angst, Jesper Fahey Has ADHD, Kaz Brekker Needs a Hug, Crime Children, Five Years Later, Post-Book 2: Crooked Kingdom, Hurt/Comfort, Slow Burn

Author's summary/notes: Five years after the Auction, the Crows have gone their separate ways. That is, until the Council of Tides demands that Kaz Brekker help rescue one of their newest initiates. Grisha all over are being targeted by ships disguised as slavers, rumors of a new form of jurda parem are spreading, and the fate of it all is yet again dependent on an unlikely gang of criminals. My summary/notes: Some fascinating council of tides lore, and the side/original characters in this fic are so interesting. Be prepared this fic has some wesper angst and some definite kanej angst, but there are some adorable moments. Goes into the crows friendships, especially Jesper + Inej and Kaz and Wylan (it does go into more dynamics). To finish it I will say there is a sort of ⊹hiest⊹.

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and you asked me to dance, but I said "dancing is a dangerous game" by sarathedreamer

Wordcount: 28,439 Chapters: 5/5

Characters: Inej Ghafa, Kaz Brekker, Wylan Van Eck, Jesper Fahey, Prince Ilya

Tags: Fluff and Angst, Fluff without Plot, Healing, Post-Book 2: Crooked Kingdom, Post-Book 2: Rule of Wolves, Hurt/Comfort, Canon Compliant ish

Author's summary/notes: “My darling Inej," he started in a very proper intonation, "treasure of my heart, feared Wraith of the Barrel, Scourge of the Seas, Bringer of Justice and Slayer of Men… would you like to dance with me?" Inej, Kaz, Wylan and Jesper get a very important invitation to the betrothal celebration of a certain Nina Zenik... angst, fluff, and yes, dancing, ensues between the King of the Barrel and the Queen of the Seas. This is part two of my kanej x cowboy like me series! I would highly recommend reading part one first before you dive into this :) Spoilers for RoW and obviously the Soc duology. Most of this is canon compliant because I love to play by the rules (except that we forget about the last two pages of Rule of Wolves for the sake of fluff and angst only... hehe) My summary/notes: Part of the kanej x cowboy like me series, which is such a good series, if you want kanej fluff then that is the series for you. This fic is Inej and Kaz being head over heels with each other for 5 chapters straight, featuring some wesper and Nina. May I intrigue you into this reading this fic by saying it has Kanej flirting and Captain Ghafa. Also THEY DANCE.

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Dealing With Our Demons by @ravenyenn19

Wordcount: 807,697 Chapters: 174/? (updates generally every few months)

Characters: Kaz Brekker, Inej Ghafa, Jesper Fahey, Nina Zenik, Wylan Van Eck, (as well as many other original characters and six of crows side characters)

Tags: Romance, Friendship, Love, POV Kaz Brekker, BAMF Inej Ghafa, Fluff, Romantic Fluff, Eventual Smut

Author's summary/notes: Inej's first letter back to Kaz after she leaves on her journey to hunt slavers, reunion ensues! Will they continue to learn how to battle their demons in order to get close to one another? My summary/notes: A classic Kanej fic, almost every Kanej fanfic reader knows this fic, the writing is impeccable. This fic made me fall in love with both Anika and Pim and then Pimika. To me this fic is canon. Now for a summary, this fic take you on a journey of healing and growing with both Kaz and Inej. You will come out of this fic a changed person.

[spaceagebachelormann]

𝐫𝐞𝐪𝐮𝐞𝐬𝐭 𝐫𝐮𝐥𝐞𝐬

!!REQUEST REQUIREMENTS!!

-> state the character, romantic or platonic, the format of the request, and a plot

-> do you have any specifics for the reader? blonde, poc, male, neurodivergent, etc? (please keep in mind i will write poc readers but i’m white so they may be a little difficult for me)

-> requests are preferred to be sent through inbox, but i can make dms work if needed

-> PLEASE ACTUALLY SPECIFY WHAT YOU WANT WITH YOUR REQUEST!! ITS VERY HARD FOR ME TO WRITE “____ x reader fluff” GIVE ME A PLOT LINE

!!WHAT I WILL WRITE!!

-> platonic

-> romantic

-> familial

-> any gender x any gender

-> headcanons

-> long fics

-> multi character

-> blurbs

-> poly relationships

-> x reader

-> i will only write cheating if it’s a character comforting r after being cheated on, not a character cheating on r

!!WHAT I WONT WRITE!!

-> smut (i’m 15)

-> yandere

-> most aus, ask about the specific au before requesting an au

-> incest

-> age gaps

-> canonical gay/lesbian character x a man (if lesbian) or a woman (if gay)

-> song fics

-> things about ocs

-> ships

-> sunshine x grumpy tropes, i’m horrible at this trope

character list

keeper of the lost cities

sophie foster, dex dizznee, fitz vacker, keefe sencen, biana vacker, marella redek, maruca chebota, tam song, linh song, wylie endal, jensi babblos, stina heks, elwin hesledge

chronicles of narnia

peter pevensie, edmund pevensie, susan pevensie, lucy pevensie, caspian

riordanverse

percy jackson, annabeth chase, grover underwood, jason grace, piper mclean, leo valdez, hazel levesque, frank zhang, nico di angelo, will solace, reyna arellano, rachel dare, travis stoll, connor stoll, thalia grace, magnus chase, alex fierro, carter kane, sadie kane

harry potter

harry potter, ron weasley, hermione granger, neville longbottom, luna lovegood, ginny weasley, fred weasley, george weasley, sirius black, james potter, remus lupin, mary macdonald, marlene mckinnon, lily evans, dorcas meadows, regulus black, barty crouch jr, narcissa black, andromeda black, bellatrix lestrange

ride the cyclone

ocean o’connell rosenberg, noel gruber, mischa bachinski, ricky potts, jane doe/penny lamb, constance blackwood

shadow and bone

alina starkov, malyen oretsev, genya safin, zoya nazyalensky, david kostyk, tamaar & tolya, nikolai lantsov

six of crows

kaz brekker, inej ghafa, jesper fahey, nina zenik, wylan van eck, matthias helvar

the outsiders

ponyboy curtis, johnny cade, sodapop curtis, darry curtis, steve randall, twobit matthews, dallas winston, cherry valance

the hunger games

katniss everdeen, peeta mellark, finnick odair, johanna mason, cinna, effie trinket

it (2017)

bill denbrough, eddie kaspbrak, richie tozier, stan uris, beverly marsh, ben hanscom, mike hanlon

the school for good and evil

agatha, sophie, tedros, hort, hester, anadil, dot, nicola, rhian mistral, rafal mistral, clarissa dovey, leonora lesso

the land of stories

connor bailey, alex bailey, red riding hood, jack, goldilocks

scooby doo

shaggy rogers, fred jones, daphne blake, velma dinkley, thorn, dusk, luna

little women

jo march, amy march, beth march, meg march, laurie

dracula

dracula, lucy westenra, arthur holmwood, john seward, mina harker, abraham van helsing, renfield, quincey morris, jonathan harker, the brides

frankenstein

victor frankenstein, elizabeth lavenza, henry clerval, adam frankenstein, justine mortiz, ernest frankenstein, the bride

dr jekyll and mr hyde

henry jekyll, edward hyde, richard enfield, gabriel utterson, hastie lanyon, lucy harris

phantom of the opera

christine daaé, erik destler, raoul de chagney, meg giry, carlotta giudicelli

a good girls guide to murder

pippa fitz-amobi, ravi singh, naomi ward, cara ward, connor reynolds, jamie reynolds, nat da silva

the mighty ducks

charlie conway, adam banks, lester averman, guy germaine, connie moreau, fulton reed, dean portman, julie gaffney, ken wu, luis mendoza, dwayne robertson

monster high

frankie stein, draculaura, clawdeen wolf, cleo de nile, abbey bominable, ghoulia yelps, operetta, rochelle goyle, spectra vondergeist, elissabat, clawd wolf, deuce gorgon, heath burns, jackson jekyll, holt hyde, kieran valentine

the powerpuff girls

blossom utonium, bubbles utonium, buttercup utonium, brick jojo, boomer jojo, butch jojo

david bowie

david bowie, ziggy stardust, jareth, thomas jerome newton, celliers

sweeney todd

sweeney todd, anthony hope, mrs lovett, johanna todd

the rosewood chronicles

lottie pumpkin, ellie wolf, jamie volk, ollie moreno, raphael wilcox, anastacia alcroft leblanc, saskia san martin, lola tomkins, mickey tomkins, binah fae

hairspray

corny collins, link larkin, amber von tussle, tracey turnblad, penny pingleton, seaweed j. stubbs

attack on titan

eren yeager, mikasa ackerman, armin arlert, jean kirstein, sasha braus, connie springer, annie leonhardt, bertholdt hoover, reiner braun, hange zoe, levi ackerman, erwin smith, colt grice, niccolo, yelena, onyakopon, zeke yeager

daisy jones and the six

daisy jones, billy dunne, graham dunne, karen sirko, warren rhodes, pete loving/roundtree, eddie loving/roundtree, camila dunne, simone jackson

doctor who bbc

ninth doctor, tenth doctor, eleventh doctor, rose tyler, jack harkness, mickey smith, donna noble, martha jones, clara oswald, river song, amy pond, rory williams, simm! master

miss peregrines home for peculiar children

jacob portman, emma bloom, millard nulling, enoch o’connor, olive elephanta, alma peregrine

good omens

crowley, aziraphale, ineffable husbands (poly), beelzebub <3, gabriel, ineffable bureaucracy (poly), nina, maggie, nina and maggie (poly), anathema

miscellaneous characters

sarah williams, bernard the elf, rodrick heffley, varian, lisa frankenstein, the creature (lisa frankenstein)

UPCOMING FANDOMS : les miserables, what we do in the shadows, star trek, american horror story, torchwood

[lady-ashfade]

Could you please do poly! Crows x Male reader who’s tall and selective mute?(family trauma) He’s kinda like a mix of Kaz and Inej: doesn’t show emotion and his footsteps are silent. On the rare occasion, the crew will see him turn his head to hide a smile. I imagine they all just got back from an intense heist, reader was near passing out injured, and he mumbles about how much he loves them and he thanks them for dealing with him while tears slowly drip down his bruised face. Whole time Nina and Inej are tending his wounds trying not to cry, Wylan is curled up near him and Jespers is holding his hand while Matthias and Kaz are kinda just standing around. (I tried to give detail to make it easier, I’m sorry if that was a lot)

Tall Idiot

Poly!Crows x male reader.

Notes: Not as long as I wanted it to but I had to get it out, so hopefully you’ll enjoy still.

Warnings: Wounds, kinda angsty but comforting. Nothing much I can say.

“Keep your eyes open.”

Matthias told you while he held your body in his arms, he was only one who could carry you. The others followed behind him, Wylan by his side and smiling at you. Nina on the other side make sure to keep focus on your heart beat. As if the wound was fatal and they couldn’t save you. But this wasn’t that kinda of wound or at least not at that point yet.

Each of their minds worried about you in this moment and thought about what would happen if you drew your last breath. They wouldn’t get to see you try and hind your smile or how kind you could be dispute acting cold. On late nights you would join Jesper to keep watch and pull him off of the gambling table or just kept him company, Wylan tagging along most times.

Then when you helped Nina with whatever she needed around the bar, or walked with her to the market. Inej was glad to have you along on a job because you were just as good at being quiet, or when you two would hang out on the rooftops. Kaz would miss the way you curled up with a book in his office while he did his paperwork or plans. Matthias would miss you laying on his shoulders while he read a book or spend your legs across his lap to lay down.

They all had things to miss.

“Just a bit longer.” Wylan said trying to comfort you. The door to the shared house only a few steps away. You could see how panicked they were over you, how they tried so hard not to loss it. You didn’t speak much and maybe it was the sleep taking ahold of you, or them showing you again just how much they loved you, you started to talk.

“M’Fine,” you slurred a bit and your eyelids started to get heavy. “Thank you.” You look up at them, kaz and Inej now coming into view from behind. All pairs of eyes are on you, “No need to thank us, dear.” Inej came close and pushed the hair off your face. A small curled up as you sighed, “No thank you for putting up with me.,” your hands feel from your side and eyes finally closing shut, “I love you…” then you were out cold.

Kaz watched and his body began to feel the water surrounding him, “Upstairs now.” He shouted and they all moved fast. They rush upstairs and lay you onto the bed, Nina trying to heal you as best she can as Inej goes to get the supplies.

After everything, Inej is wrapping you up and Nina helping her. Wylan is sitting on the bed pressing a wet cloth onto your forehead while Jesper sits beside the bed and holds your hand. Kaz watches from the chair in the corner as if his body is frozen in place. Matthias along side him as he leans on the wall staring at you, as if he were to look away you’d disappear.

“You big tall idoit,” Nina leans closer with tears in her eyes. “I can’t believe he said “Put up with him.” When we are the ones to annoy him.” Jesper jokes while he is in the same state as Nina and he gives your hand a squeeze. “He’s a handsome idiot.”

Inej bows to her knees beside Nina and says her soft prays to wish you a healthily recovery, and to thank them for not taking you away.

Kaz raises from his chair and makes his way over, “He’s not gone yet.” His tone doesn’t sound comforting but he’s trying. He just needed to state facts “He’s stubborn.” Inej looked up at him and offers a smile. Matthias sighs and moved over to the group and stands behind Nina and puts his hands on her shoulders, sending his own prayers out.

They would all watch over you and kept you safe. All six of them loved you to ends of the earth and back.

[remussl0vers]

requesting guide

updated: 17.06.23

please make sure to read this before requesting anything — i'm hoping that you'll respect my boundaries on what am i comfortable with and with not writing.

MASTERLIST

I tend to curse often in my fics, and are usually comfortable with covering more serious topics, so make sure to check the content warning before hand. I always write warnings when I believe they're needed, but do let me know if you think something should be added!

also senders may request as many as they want <3

FORMS OF WRITING :

oneshot

imagine

headcanon

series

alphabet

I tend to write oneshots over 1000 words, so if you want feel free to specify if you want a long or short story.

CONTENT I WRITE :

fluff

angst

sensitive / triggering topics

gore

smut / spice

most tropes ( best at friends to lovers )

I'm pretty comfortable with writing sensitive topics as well as angst ( anyone who's read my works before will know that they're the things I write best ) however, if I'm not comfortable with the topic as a whole I will DM you, or possibly put it off for a while.

*If you have a writing prompt from somewhere as well, feel free to send it through !!

CHARACTERS :

male reader / ftm

gender neutral

genderfluid

original character

I do not write female readers / characters anymore. If there aren't specified pronouns then I will write it as a male character.

There are also some characters I only feel comfortable writing for with a male reader/character and vice versa, which I'll note who.

PAIRINGS :

love interests

platonic

family

polyamorous ships ; depends on the character

WHAT I WILL NOT WRITE :

support of homophobia, transphobia, fatphobia, racism, sexism, pedophilia, incest ; if they're mentioned in a request in terms of the character being bullied / abused ( in the past ) then i may write it but NOT explicitly, only a mention

a pairing against a character's canon sexuality

rape

pregnancy

female reader

anime

WHO I WRITE FOR :

DEAD BOY DETECTIVES :

charles rowland

edwin payne

monty

niko sasaki ( not romantic )

crystal palace ( not romantic )

DESCENDANTS :

ben beast

harry hook

carlos de vil

jay

mal bertha

evie grimhilde

LOCKWOOD & CO :

anthony lockwood

lucy carlyle

george karim

quill kipps ( friends / family only )

MARAUDERS :

remus lupin

sirius black

regulus black

james potter

lily evans ( not romantic )

evan rosier

barty crouch jr

marlene mckinnon ( not romantic )

dorcas meadows ( not romantic )

pandora lovegood ( not romantic )

mary mcdonald ( not romantic )

MARVEL :

peter parker / spiderman ( tom and andrew )

loki laufeyson

kate bishop

yelena belova ( not romantic )

steve rogers

bucky barnes

pietro maximoff

wanda maximoff

valkyrie ( not romantic )

natasha romanoff

tony stark ( not romantic )

gwen stacy ( emma stone )

gwen stacy ( atsv )

*marvel and particularly the mcu is a fandom i'm more comfortable with than most, so if there is a character not listed, then i may or may not write for them

NARNIA :

prince caspian

peter pevensie

edmund pevensie ( only during dawn treader )

SHADOW AND BONE / SIX OF CROWS :

kaz brekker

inej ghafa

jesper fahey

wylan van eck

nina zenik

alina starkov

nikolai lantsov

genya safin ( not romantic )

matthias helvar

STRANGER THINGS :

steve harrington

jonathon byers

max mayfield

robin buckley ( not romantic )

TEEN WOLF :

stiles stilinski ( *i will take most/all dylan obrien characters )

isaac lahey

scott mccall

liam dunbar ( not romantic )

allison argent

malia tate

lydia martin ( not romantic )

kira yukimura

derek hale

THE HUNGER GAMES :

finnick odair

peeta mellark

katniss everdeen

THE MAZE RUNNER :

newt

thomas

minho

X-MEN :

logan howlett

charles xavier ( james mcavoy )

jean grey

mystique

rogue

erik lehnsherr ( not romantic )

wade wilson / deadpool

kitty pryde

bobby drake

*FANDOMS COMING SOON : PJO, DISNEY, HANNIBAL

[pluvoiphile]

𝐀 𝐂𝐮𝐩 𝐨𝐟 𝐓𝐞𝐚

𝐏𝐚𝐢𝐫𝐢𝐧𝐠: 𝐖𝐲𝐥𝐚𝐧 𝐕𝐚𝐧 𝐄𝐜𝐤 𝐱 𝐌𝐚𝐥𝐞!𝐎𝐂 𝐱 𝐉𝐞𝐬𝐩𝐞𝐫 𝐅𝐚𝐡𝐞𝐲

𝐖𝐚𝐫𝐧𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐬: 𝐧𝐨𝐧𝐞

𝐖𝐨𝐫𝐝 𝐂𝐨𝐮𝐧𝐭: 𝟑𝟖𝟐

𝑨/𝑵: 𝑹𝒚𝒅𝒆𝒓 𝒊𝒔 𝒎𝒚 𝑶𝑪 𝒉𝒆 𝒖𝒔𝒆𝒔 𝒉𝒆/𝒉𝒊𝒎 𝒑𝒓𝒐𝒏𝒐𝒖𝒏𝒔. 𝒔𝒐𝒓𝒓𝒚 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒂𝒏𝒚 𝒎𝒊𝒔𝒕𝒂𝒌𝒆𝒔, 𝑰 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆𝒏'𝒕 𝒇𝒊𝒏𝒊𝒔𝒉𝒆𝒅 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒇𝒊𝒓𝒔𝒕 𝒔𝒆𝒂𝒔𝒐𝒏 𝒚𝒆𝒕 𝒔𝒐 𝒊𝒇 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒊𝒔𝒏'𝒕 𝒂𝒄𝒄𝒖𝒓𝒂𝒕𝒆 𝑰 𝒂𝒑𝒐𝒍𝒐𝒈𝒊𝒛𝒆

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Ryder knew he was screwed. Actually scratch that, he was utterly completely screwed. Thieves are common in Ketterdam, but the only reason they are successful is: one, because they’re not caught,and two, because they don’t steal from people that are feared and have power.

How was Ryder supposed to know that though. He had moved to Ketterdam less than a month ago with only a duffle bag of supplies and his hand-me-down guitar.

So when Ryder decides to steal from the one and only Kaz Brekker, he finds himself lucky to only be caught by a scruffy looking boy that smells of ash and chemicals, he later learned his name was Wylan.

Wylan is too kind for his own good. He knows it and so does everyone else. But he felt bad. He knows what it’s like to be stuck on the streets and to steal being your only chance for survival. So when he saw a boy trying to break into the crow club, and the desperation on his face, he invited him for a cup of tea.

Ryder is confused. Why is this boy helping him after he was caught breaking into his place of employment? Regardless, he isn’t going to turn down the offer of a warm cup of tea. However, he decides that he should remain suspicious.

Wylan is distracted, as always, yet as the boy in front of him, that he learned was called Ryder, sips slowly on his tea with tinted cheeks, Wylan finds that he can’t help to think he looks stunning under the dim lights of the kitchen. Wylan thinks that this should feel wrong because he has a loving boyfriend already, yet it just feels so right to admire a person so beautiful.

Jesper is intrigued when he walks into the kitchen, back from his late night of gambling, to find his boyfriend staring at a stranger with that wide doe eyed look that he has come to adore. He wants to be angry but he can’t, that just feels wrong. Because when he looks at the stranger sitting across from his Wylan, it feels right that he should admire him and his tinted cheeks, and the way he holds the cup of warm tea so delicately in his rough hands.