#wth kinda thought process is that

[princess-adronitis]

This gurl said that people who don’t clean their room it’s not cause they are depressed but because they lack good habits…. gurllllll… yeah I’m gonna block you

[ririabeam]

𝗕𝗶𝗿𝘁𝗵𝗱𝗮𝘆 𝗗𝗲𝗽𝗿𝗲𝘀𝘀𝗶𝗼𝗻

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I drew this to cope with my birthday depression.

Took 5 months. I also wanted to beat my old manhwa from 5 years ago.

-- Long post ahead! It's my WIPS and thought process. --

Junko is my comfort character as she's the only character I know who hates her birthday.

(Screenshot from Ultimate Talent Development Plan)

I know she’s a villain who has done a lot of bad things, but finding comfort and liking her doesn’t mean I excuse her actions.

A lot of painful feelings went into this, even in Mukuro's perspective so please respect it 🙏🏻

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- WIPS & Thought Process -

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Story Script Writing:

A lot of thoughts and feelings went into my script.

-I removed sentences like “For giving me cake!” as I wanted to do more showing than telling.

-“Why do you seem so happy Mukuro?” is changed to “Why are you smiling like that, Mukuro?” as I wanted the sentence to focus more on the thing Ryoko noticed. Mukuro would definitely be happy celebrating Ryoko’s birthday, and the new sentence would help to understand how Ryoko interpreted that Mukuro was more happy than usual.

-“good day” is changed to “great day” for greater emphasis of Ryoko’s happiness.

-A pun is done on “live”, I wanted this sentence to convey the complicated feelings of Junko. She doesn’t want to “live” a “fabricated happy lie” as it goes against her honesty moral. But there’s also a part of her that doesn’t want to kill Ryoko, as she doesn’t want to “leave” this “fabricated happy lie”. She wants to be happy as Ryoko, even if it’s a lie.

This part is a big reference and a reply to Danganronpa Zero.

The background texts are quotes from Danganronpa Zero.

Junko saying “What the hell? Hope?” is a reference to Danganronpa Zero’s ending:

Reading Danganronpa Zero feels like it’s saying something to me: “We are trapped in a loop of despair and hope.” and I’m replying with this part as a “Yes, I agree.”

Junko being confined in her mind is another thing I like about her too. 

I feel the moment we are born, we are trapped, that’s why I ended this comic with “I wish I wasn’t born.”

The moment I’m born, I’m unwanted and worthless, a monster.

I’m trapped in my mind, in other people’s judgements and expectations, and there’s no way out.

I can’t just turn invisible and there’s always something for people to judge and hate. And that hurts when it’s something important to you or you can’t change about yourself.

But even with all the pain, I think of hope to carry on and it’s a loop to fight to live.

I think I make progress with healing but then I’d think wth I’m made to work on this. Cause my life is already scripted from the moment I was born— I’m scripted to have this trauma, this story made my personality and character so in the end I’m still trapped.

So that’s another reason why I find Junko a comforting character and why I feel birthday depression.

I thought of the story first before I thought of the characters who would play it, so I had to make sure it’s in character. 

Things like if Mukuro would say “AU” or “Alternate Universe”. I felt since she spent a lot of time with Junko who knows a lot about these things, she would have heard of this and know the short form term for it. Especially since she had to be Junko at some point.

Since it’s a story about Birthday Depression, my thoughts instantly went to Junko then to Mukuro. It was the perfect story theme to write for them especially cause they are the despair sisters. 

Plus, they are two characters I can feel their struggles and feelings deeply for, so I can write and draw deeply for this story.

Birthdays tend to be happy, and I felt the only kinda right time I can talk about my birthday depression would be on their day.

I felt suffocated and lost myself over the past few years, as I felt I needed to be happy no matter what. When I opened up about sadness and my struggles, people would hate and invalidate me for it. I feel my art reflects that, I don’t like looking back at my old art. It lacked my true feelings, but I feel I’m finding myself again in my Mirai Nikki and Danganronpa art.

For the past few years I tried to celebrate my birthday to try to make myself happy about it but in the long run it didn’t work. I appreciate everyone who celebrated with me all these years still, but now I’m trying to overcome it in another way— facing despair instead of trying to cover it with hope.

I think I’ve learnt a lot about myself and understood myself better through this comic’s process.

Layout Plan:

You can see that things were changed in the final from my layout plan X’D haha

In page 2, Mukuro’s 1st panel is changed so composition is better.

In page 3, after seeing Ryoko as Junko, Mukuro is reaching out her hand instead of placing it on her chest. I wanted it to feel like Mukuro wants to reach out to Ryoko at that moment, like trying to get a wish she knows isn’t real.

In page 5, binary code is replaced with texts from Danganronpa Zero’s story so it reinforces the idea of “a life already fully planned out”.

Lining Process:

I struggled with this part the most as anatomy and poses is not my strong point.

I asked my friend, Setsuya, for help with my poses and redrew the same pose many times for this comic. I really wanted to convey the feelings for this comic right especially since it’s very personal to me. Big thanks to her for helping me so much, I feel I improved a lot from this! 🥺 <3

1st panel of 1st page is the hardest to draw, I’m laughing at my first try of Mukuro who looks like she’s forced to be there 😂:

With suggestions from my friend of how to improve, I tried to improve everyone’s poses:

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Mukuro’s pose was changed to look more fondly at Ryoko, happy to be there and relaxed haha.

Ryoko’s pose was changed to look more delighted and happy about the cake (Which helps to convey the line I removed from my script, “For giving me cake!”)

Matsuda’s pose was changed to look a bit more annoyed about still cares for Ryoko (shown by him still looking at her from the corner of his eyes even though his head is turned away)

And haha I forgot Ryoko’s legs can be seen due to the table frills being transparent, so I had to go back and draw her legs X’D

For this panel, a lot of thoughts went into what things I should place, how they are placed, and what kind of items it should be e.g.

I wanted it to tell the story of what happened before all the characters gathered here, what their feelings are towards each other, and how they are like as individual characters :3

I was thinking Mukuro and Matsuda love Ryoko so much they spoil her by buying a giant cake haha X’D So that’s why there’s a plastic knife instead of a real knife— to show that the cake was bought.

I think they decided not to cook as they would fight about it… (idk if they know how to cook tbh)

I chose strawberry shortcake cause white = purity and red strawberries = blood X’D Kinda like Ryoko-

I was about to draw neatly cut and placed cakes but I think... Ryoko is bad at cutting… X’D so the cakes are lying flat with the cream a bit splattered on their plates.

The table cloth, spoons and plates are all elegant and neat cause Mukuro prepared it for Ryoko :3 I don’t think Matsuda would be able to do that since he seems to not be a tidy person X’D but I do think he probably decided these items and arrangement with Mukuro :3

Here’s a random joke Matsuda + My roughly drawn Promised Neverland manga cover before I squeezed it on to his book haha:

I was going to make Matsuda read Megaman at first like in canon, but I felt making him read “Promised Neverland” was fitting as it helped me bring some foreboding to my happy setting. Like the promise never landed cause I’m going to break my happy promise/premise X’D 

I felt it was fitting too as Matsuda wasn’t met with a good fate like the Promised Neverland children.

Plus I feel Matsuda would like a genre like that, or perhaps he wouldn’t mind anything as he is a laid back character.

This pose was changed so Ryoko would look more reserved and have less of a romantic vibe? Cause the intertwined fingers felt a bit more romantic and off to me, as it wasn’t the vibe I was going for.

Feat. The paper sketch is my friend helping me with anatomy X’)

While writing sentences and drawing for Mukuro’s scenes, I was thinking of experiences I’ve gone through before and the feelings I felt then. 

The way I wished things could be different. I kept having dreams of happy endings I wanted to happen but then I would wake up to the tragic reality and cry.

The way I was suffering on the inside but still held on to this thing I perceived as “Hope” even though it was killing me and could be seen as “Despair” in another POV/or I already knew it was bad for me but it was also my only hope.

Symbolisms for this panel:

Carrying a candle-> holding on to hope/a wish.

Candle not blown out -> Mukuro's wish didn't come true (blowing out a candle means bringing your wish on smoke to the good spirits above to grant your wish) , her hoping leading to despair.

My pose was changed here as it is more natural for the hands to be like that, plus the other hand holding on to the arm greater empathise how Mukuro is holding on strongly to this candle.

The candle is melting and the wax is getting on her hand, burning her. Still, she refuses to let go which empathises how much she needs to hold on to this. Even as she grabs her own hand causing more pain from bleeding, she still needs this “hope.” 

Some colour tests for this panel:

I was considering blue fire because blue fire is stronger than red.... but then if it is a wish of hope, I was considering yellow too... but maybe it would be too happy? 

Mukuro is feeling sad and wishful in this panel. 

I ended up going for blue fire which gives off yellow light for a purposeful contradictory colouring— to show that what is perceived as despair can also be perceived as hope.

^ Some exploration for the poses here so I can figure out which conveys what I wanted to convey the best. I like the poses where Mukuro is reserved happy, Ryoko is more playful(?), Matsuda is more relaxed.

^ Exploration for the Junko slash pose. Ended up just going back to the original pose I had planned for the layout.

I found this super hard to draw as I’m not good at anatomy, drew it quite a few times and deleted as I couldn’t draw it right. In the end, my friend drew that pose reference which helped me get it right in final!

Reasons why I chose the original layout pose in the end:

Strangle pose-> I don't want to strangle Ryoko, not because it’s too violent or graphic or that she's 🥺uwu and I can’t kill her-

I just feel Junko doesn’t completely hate Ryoko... a part of her wants to live a happy life after all

But she can’t, that's why the words "A fabricated happy lie, I don’t want to live this!"

It's a lie and it's against her value (honesty).

Sword slashing pose-> Junko is directly jumping towards and has no hesitation slashing Ryoko. This feels off cause it’s too violent which doesn’t convey the message I want.

Sword is also stronger than knife, which would hurt more.

When I see the knife and how the body is twisted a bit away in the original layout pose, it works better as I can see some control to the slash so it's not full on hatred and anger towards Ryoko.

Random full drawing of this Junko before I cut it off for composition.

I find it easier to get the anatomy right if I draw the full thing and draw through everything.

^ I’m super sad at my failure for this :,) I didn’t intend it to be like that 😭 

It’s too hard for me to draw, so my friend helped me again and I chose a pose and studied her pose and drew the whole pose again:

I chose the 1st pose because the angle of the faces there best shows both character’s facial expressions and the emotions are the most important for this scene.

Plus 3/4 angle is better than the flat side view one as it helps make this scene more dramatic!

My friend helped me with the position of Junko’s tie:

reached max images for this post so,

WIPS continued in another post

[buggybambi]

mae girl! i’ve been living for your carmy stuff. k know you’re just getting back but i’ve been thinking about this idea for a while and i believe the last writer i shared with had gotten deactivated. this might be two ideas instead of one so feel free to do whatever you desire. idk why but would you be down to write some fluff and angst with maybe like married!carmy? maybe something where nat and pete legit ambush carmy and his wife to start talking again? but it like a lighthearted fluffy kinda way at the same time ? utilizing the scene carmy yells at syd as a base- i hate to use that scene as an example but it’s one that comes to mind when writing this atm. anyway, like the reader doesn’t work at the bear but’ll come in on her days off and mornings before her shift to help them open. and carm is already on edge about something going on in the resto and he yells at his wife out of overwhelming frustration. evidently, he’s mad at himself for it after he does it he apologized but she’s all like “no.” and she’s literally giving him the silent treatment. ofc her and nat are besties and loves her sil, so i totally see nat roping pete into getting carmy to come over whilst the reader is already on her way since they haven’t spoken in a while. both nat and pete are literally doing whatever they can to keep these two in separate spaces of the house because neither carm or his wife have any clue they’re there. maybe like y/n is inside with nat and pete meets carmy outside on arrival? the reader is walking towards to the door to out and nat’s still stalling like “so are things with you and my brother?” and the reader scoffs and nat’s just like “still not talking to him huh?” and while the reader grabs the handle slowly opening the door open she’s all like “look, sugar- you know i love your brother, but carmy sometimes can be a piece of shit” and then all you hear is carmy being like “oh, i’m a piece of shit- even after i apologized to you?” and i can just see carmy and the reader being like wth is going on here. idk but nat and pete will sillily have to do the most to get these two the civilly sit down inside of their house to even have anything of a talk. and then nat team tagging with pete to get to the bottom of things and then she lets it slip that y/n had mentioned that they were trying to get pregnant and camry’s just like “wait. what? and carmy already up and ready to talk to her alone. this man would be so loving the first time all like “y/nn can i talk to you in the kitchen for a second?” and then she’s tryna explain and carm out here using her FULL name “in the kitchen now.” just hearing how he’d say it makes me squirm and squeak 😂😩. and she’s just speeding over because she knows he means it when he pulls out the first name. and think with that he’s all just hurt that she told his sister and he hadn’t really said anything- since it was their thing they they were still figuring out. seriously feel free to do whatever you desire. just sharing the same idea i’ll dream about in a few moments. tysm in advance 😭.

- 🥣.

i'm so sorry this took me so long to write, my love! this has nothing to do with you i just got a bit concerned and got lost so many times lmfao, im just dumb like that

ʚɞ

naturally, carmen wants to try to keep his anger away from you. you’re his love, his angel, his everything. the idea that he blew up at you makes him wanna cry but you won’t talk to him, you refuse to in fact until you process what he said.

“why the fuck are you here?! i don’t need you messing shit up and crowding me!” he yelled at you. the memory fresh in your mind. it should be since it’s the only thing you’ve thought about for the past few days.

nat and pete, in their own ways, notice this and take charge. pete thinks you two can handle it but nat chimes in with the, “i know my brother. he can’t handle shit. If this is left up to him to resolve, nothing will happen. i love him but still.”

so they form their plan. pete invites carmy over to set up furniture, catch up, whatever and nat invites you over to talk about the baby and ask for your help with meal prepping. “so, have you and my brother talked about what happened at the restaraunt?” she asks.

you walk over to the couch, putting on your jacket and scarf. you let out a scoff as your answer. “taking that as a no.” nat answers. you put your hand on the doorknob, your back to the front lawn where carmen and pete, unknowing to you, stand.

"look, you know I love Carmen. and you know i want-" you sigh. "i want a family with him, Nat. i want a child, or children, with the guy. but your brother can be a real piece of shit sometimes." You open the door fully at that point, where carmen's now staring at you.

"i'm a piece of shit, after i apologized to you?" carmen asks. you stare at him before looking at pete, then at natalie whose got a guilty smile on her face. "okay. what the hell is this?" You question.

"oh! carmy, hi! i had no idea you were gonna be here. come on in, we'll all have some coffee and we can talk about what's happening." natalie says as she pulls you inside, motioning for carmen to come inside.

he reluctantly agrees, stepping inside as he sits at the dining room table. you stand in the kitchen, far enough away from them.

i think once nat reveals that you told her you want kids his reaction changes. maybe you two talked about it or maybe he doesnt know but either way, he wants to talk to you. that changes things in his mind. because you still want kids with him.

while you and carm work out your own issues, of course nat and pete take credit for it, even though you and carmy are both mad at her. also the idea of carmen using your full name as a way to call you stop oh my gosh

[pikahlua]

I'm not sure I'm entirely convinced but smashing theory as usual pika 🫡✨️ Is it okay if I ramble about a few misgivings I have? It's a long one, sorry! but there are multiple points I want to mention as assisting ideas

First, I still think that a 1v1 setting battle seems likelier than a 2v2 (bkdk duo vs shigAFO) - since we already had a bkdk duo in the movie ending, and Hori *did* say after that he had a different thing in mind for the actual ending (which I'm not sure should be a classic shounen "Battle of The End" actually, but wth we have been in this war fo so long now? More than a year! it may as well "end" in its conclusion ig). In which case I think we'd agree that 1-to-1 pvps would very likely feature Izuku & Shigaraki and Katsuki & AFO. Speaking of which: I also still think kacchan parallels and juxtaposes moreso with AFO than Shigaraki, so it might make more sense for him to "inherit" AM's struggle in this way, as a battle with the "Big Bad" AFO - not to mention it'd be another extremely cool twist to have the boy who ended AM save him by winning the fight, imo. I'm not sure how much of that metaphorical oomph would transfer to him fighting with "Stray Lamb" Shigaraki/Tenko...

In any case lots of people seem to support the 2v2 option. I understand that the most popular cases are: Katsuki "saving" Tenko by "winning" the fight. Izuku "winning" the battle with AFO to "save" the world. But then, I think the story'd be disregarding Izuku's wish to save Tenko, first spoken of in the vestige realm, which I don't believe is quite likely. We had so many breadcrumbs leading up to Izuku asking "Is Tenko still there?", so I still think a 1v1 and Izuku vs Tenko would make more sense.

I suppose people still want to see Katsuki's "save to win" in this final battle? He has always been a character that has struggled and fought internally with himself foremost - contrasting the mostly external opposition and fights that matured or broke other character's beliefs/ideals. Katsuki is destined to "Win Over His Self", yes? I'd argue he already has done that, (nailed it actually, right in the kokoro) 🎯 😅 which is why I don't really think he has to show it again, that he has learned to "win by saving/save to win". Which is another readon why I think a showdown with Tenko is kinda unnecessary

Meanwhile, I'd argue we haven't seen Izuku's "save by winning/win to save" quite yet, not with Katsuki's grandeur, in any case. I'd argue he finally has the opportunity to do this with Tenko's fight. And I'd think that since OFA is now a "power to save" rather than a power "to defeat AFO", (after class A's intervention and welcome intrusion into that), and since I think Izuku might be the one doing the "saving" for Tenko, it'd make sense for all of OFA's vestiges to bear witness to that "saving", to their "new purpose", if you will, and I think AM's vestige should be included in that if he's truly a part of OFA.

.... If, by chance he's a different component to OFA, like maybe something that serves only as a power maximizing "coefficient" rather than a full blown "variable" in OFA's power "equation"? Then yeah, him leaving OFA might make Izuku slightly less powerful but would make more sense in terms of Katsuki's arc so far. After this battle I doubt Izuku is gonna need that power excess anyway. It'd also make sure he can't become the Symbol of Peace powerhouse on his own and let him play on a more equal field with his peers, which is best fir his sacrificing mentality. And I do think that Katsuki could do with at least the "gaze" and "support" of the mentor Izuku has had 95% of to himself so far...

Welp, that's that! Sorry I even went into a math analogy there 😳 If you've read so far thanks for bearing with me!!!

((This complete thing is utter shit if AM actually won against AFO btw))

I like you. I like your thought process. I like your courtesy in explaining yourself even when we disagree. I want to emphasize all of that because I think your essay here is WORTHY of being challenged. Or rather perhaps it's that I want you to challenge my thoughts, which I hope are also worthy.

(And please bear with me here, my brain fog is rearing its ugly head today.)

1. The problem with 1v1s:

Let me step away from the predictions for a moment with this point. Will Horikoshi ultimately go with a 1v1? He could. I actually have no way of knowing. But I would like to explain why I think it would be a mistake for him to do so. This has nothing to do with Heroes Rising and everything to do with the MHA manga canon.

MHA the story has spent so. much. time. emphasizing how necessary teamwork is, how going alone is not feasible, how everyone has limits. It's not just a platitude it throws around occasionally because it has to. Entire arcs are structured around this idea. Hell, trimesters and curricula in-universe are built upon this lesson. And the story is called "My Hero Academia." How is this a story about Izuku's hero academia if the primary lesson his hero academia taught him gets eschewed at the end? What was ultimately learned if not this?

For Horikoshi to turn his back on this moral, for Horikoshi to go with the standard shounen formula ending when he has famously twisted such tropes in the past, would be to betray his entire story. This story about how society has perverted the ideas of heroes and villains to avoid personal responsibility and stifle social progress ONLY to see the light and view heroes and villains as humans DEPENDS on exalting the virtues of cooperation, of empathizing with one's fellow humans, of desiring everyone to come together, and of contributing to that goal as a piece of the whole. No one is alone. There is always hope. And people are given that hope by having it ignited in their hearts by others (by the symbol of All Might, in many cases).

Remember, "this is the story of how we all became the greatest heroes."

And I do believe Horikoshi wants to maintain this moral as best he can. This final arc has showcased that. Even in the battles we've seen concluded now, while the primary focus may have been on one person's conviction (Shouji's, Mina's, Shouto's, Ochako's), that conviction was backed up and magnified by another person (Kouda, Kirishima, Iida, Tsuyu). And you'll note that some "fought" and some did not. Some played supporting roles or contributed with non-combat assistance (speed or negotiation, perhaps). So at the very, very least, if we end on a 1v1 fight between Izuku and Tomura, Katsuki must support Izuku's conviction to save Tenko in some vital way that tips the scales in Izuku's favor.

The question is, has this already happened?

One might argue it has, that Katsuki's death and the efforts by others to save him have had a clear effect on Tomura. Katsuki's death was the catalyst that allowed Tenko to swallow AFO's ego and regain control of himself.

But we could also argue that, while this potentially contributes to Tenko's salvation, it is NOT an example of Katsuki sharing in Izuku's conviction (that of saving villains). And I argue that this much is a REQUIREMENT.

That said, there MAY be another example that could be construed as Katsuki sharing in Izuku's conviction.

We REALLY don't talk about chapter 358 enough. It may turn out to be a crucial hint about how future events play out.

That said, it's debatable on whether this is truly the same conviction Izuku professes or if it's just the lesson Katsuki has learned, in which case...

Would that not beg for a moment where Izuku backs Katsuki's conviction up, too?

So, sure, you may get your 1v1, but I'm willing to bet there will be enough of Katsuki present in it to construe the "1v1" as otherwise :P

2. The idea that Katsuki parallels AFO more than he does Shigaraki:

At the risk of sounding pedantic, I want to earnestly, powerfully emphasize the idea that this is not a competition: everyone parallels everyone. I have showcased many times how many ways in which Izuku and AFO parallel each other, it's not just Katsuki and Tomura.

But note how this is really possible with ANY TWO CHARACTERS in the whole series. They all parallel each other. It's because everyone's learning the same lessons.

And parallels don't necessarily make for a good 1v1. I don't really think about the parallels that much in terms of setting up FIGHTS. Most "fights" in MHA are barely fights at all. They're conversations, arguments, debates, just sometimes with some action in the middle.

What I really expect from these parallels is a resolution. Some sort of reckoning. Anything at all really. Someone challenging someone, someone talking to someone, someone reaching out for someone. It doesn't matter who does what in most cases, because I expect all four to interact.

3. "I understand that the most popular cases are: Katsuki "saving" Tenko by "winning" the fight. Izuku "winning" the battle with AFO to "save" the world."

Yikes, are these really the most popular options? I hate them. I hate them so much. Can I offer some better ones?

What if Izuku fights Tomura long enough to subdue him and reaches Tenko's heart but can't physically reach out to save him, so Katsuki has to act as Izuku's extension to take Tomura's hand and save him?

What if Izuku fights to his last strength and saves Tomura (and maybe Baby AFO, who knows where that's going) but can't get all of them out of physical danger, so Katsuki is the one who gets them out?

Or maybe Izuku just can't save HIMSELF and Katsuki rescues him?

What if Katsuki reaches Tenko's heart through speech, through relating to him, and it disarms Tenko enough for Izuku to save him?

What if AFO and Izuku have a tug-o'-war over Tenko and Katsuki tips the scales? Or Katsuki AND All Might tip the scales?

What if Izuku fights Baby AFO (or it's something like another Dabi explosion situation) and Katsuki relates to AFO himself as a child and that disarms AFO enough for Izuku to save the day?

What if ANY of the above but add more Class 1-A and other villains to it? What if everyone holds hands to make a human chain to pull Tenko out of some AFO ego void and show him the world cares?

I can go on for days.

4. "We had so many breadcrumbs leading up to Izuku asking "Is Tenko still there?", so I still think a 1v1 and Izuku vs Tenko would make more sense."

But that's just it! Katsuki has breadcrumbs too!

It has been highlighted over and over and over again ad nauseam that Katsuki is a character who must become a hero who can see things from the villains' perspective and REACH OUT TO THEIR HEARTS. Katsuki even names Tomura as the person he intends to face down in the end!

(Of course, AFO fits the bill in many ways too. But like I said, I don't think it's gonna be clean-cut 1v1s, so there's opportunity for both Izuku and Katsuki to show what they're made of in this regard with BOTH villains.)

5. "Katsuki is destined to "Win Over His Self", yes? I'd argue he already has done that, (nailed it actually, right in the kokoro) 🎯 😅 which is why I don't really think he has to show it again, that he has learned to "win by saving/save to win"."

BUT HE DOES NEED TO SHOWCASE IT. OTHERWISE THIS IS JUST LIP SERVICE, BECAUSE NOTHING HAS HAPPENED SINCE HE SAID IT.

While you and I may believe he's already made it, Katsuki himself DOES NOT ACKNOWLEDGE THAT YET. He does not see himself as having surpassed All Might yet, and he believes that in order to do so he needs the help of others.

I mean, does it get louder than "Because saving people is how we win"????? He's set the terms for what his "win to save/save to win" looks like in the end!

6. "Meanwhile, I'd argue we haven't seen Izuku's "save by winning/win to save" quite yet, not with Katsuki's grandeur, in any case."

I mean this super genuinely because I think you need to consider it: How was Izuku's victory over Overhaul NOT this in your eyes?

I think you need to be able to answer that question if you want to make such a claim. I think you CAN make the claim, mind you, but anyone you talk to about this will point to this moment in canon as their first question for you to address.

Until you can answer it, I have to argue that both Izuku and Katsuki have displayed some version of their "win to save/save to win" pieces before, but they have to now apply those pieces to this war where the stakes are astronomically higher.

7. "…. If, by chance he's a different component to OFA, like maybe something that serves only as a power maximizing "coefficient" rather than a full blown "variable" in OFA's power "equation"?"

Kudos to you for the "if"! Yes, in my recent posts, I've been writing under the assumption that All Might's vestige is a piece of OFA. But I'm actually not fully convinced this is the case yet. Everything surrounding All Might's vestige is still very loosely defined and doesn't seem very final. I think it's totally possible there's a twist waiting for us in there.

And anon, I did receive your other messages.

8. "Speaking of which, if AM's vestige is in fact a power "coefficient" then its checks out that Kacchan would rise powered-up!! WTF It makes sense ?! 🥴"

Can I offer you an apotheosis in this trying time?

[yonemurishiroku]

Do you think that the solangelo contains more of a forceful representation, and if so, what is your advice to authors who are trying to make lgbtq+ representation seem more a part of the story/flow with the story then the opposing option?

May 22nd. I'm so sorry, my mind has been going off track for a while. I'm really sorry for the delay. 😭😭

So, regarding Solangelo as a representation, well this is gonna be hard to say lol. This has been circling the fandom since the day of its emergence, and this is certainly not a good time but eh penny for my thought ig.

Now. I suppose I have a very varying definition of representation, but let's not dwell on that. As for now, I can say that I do consider Solangelo somewhat forcefully developed. As in, the term of writing, plot-wise, etc...

It's quite difficult to say. I have no problem with Solangelo as a couple - or their dynamic - per se. Rather, it's the pacing that throws me off. This has been addressed in many posts - Solangelo has a quite... abrupt (?) takeoff. I just felt like Rick did not mean to make them a thing but just a spur of a moment - something small and... promising that you left hanging at the end of the series for reader's interpretation, for whatever reason (This actually lines up with Boo's time of releash I think? The LGBTQ+ literature being unpopular I mean).

In fact, Solangelo's whole developing process happened behind the curtains - as in, we're told, not shown. Imagine. In BOO, their friendship just barely sprouts, and the next time we see them again in TOA, they're already a couple. For the longest time possible, it was left to the reader/fanfic writers to deduce wth happen for them to become a couple in like idk 6 months? (A pretty fast process for someone like Nico imo. but that's just me).

Something like that is bound to raise some doubts.

The full picture itself is only revealed - partly, and through second reminiscence, mind you - in TSATS. It's also the reason TSATS feels kinda off to me, ig - the fact that some parts actually misalign with the established canon events, or appear like a patch to cover a hole in the piece of fabric. And some others just straight up fall into the what-the-f-was-in-your-mind-rick category. I doubt it was even Rick's initial plan to come up with TSATS in the first place.

However, it's also worth acknowledging that, whilst it would certainly help, Rick hardly has the capacity to fully-build another 5-book romance for Solangelo. That's as far as it can go (I usually think this to placate myself at the thought of the ship being undeveloped). Nico is not the franchise's protagonist (more like deuteragonist I guess), no matter how far this story goes and how widely loved he is, let alone Will.

On to the advice part.

Please keep in mind that I am, in no way, a professional or good writer, nor do I study sexual orientation and/or identity theory (I barely know the flags). I've also grown up and received education in an Estern (somewhat conserative?) country, so please take whatever I say with a grant of salt.

Now. When it comes to "make it seem more a part of the story", I... actually don't know how to say this...

Just look at the all the BL mangas (Japanese comics) and danmeis (Chinese BL literature) and BL manhwas (Korean comics). I have been reading BoyLove longggg before I even came to PJO, you know? The Eastern fandoms have surprisingly extensive LGBT content for a conservative culture, anw they have been telling and/or drawing stotries upon stories about same-sex couples since the dawn of internet. They don't even need to try. They have the image of a love, a story in their mind and just... go along with it.

You don't make it a part of the story. The story is either about it (much or little), or just nothing at all.

I'm saying making a story about it - rather than trying to incorporate it into the story. Give it background and enough development, it'd progress itself. You don't give it anything, of course it'd feel flat. This goes with any type of romance, not just LGBTQ+.

The problem with Solangelo itself, imo, is not the nature of their relationship (tho I do admit somtimes Rick makes me go wtf), but rather how they're portrayed. And furthermore, said portray in proportion to people's expectation. Solangelo, by all means, is a side-story at best (unless Rick manages to come up with a trilogy about their journey from start to finish idk 🤷‍♀️). People like it, so they tend to expect more from it, but the author's just a human.

I think this is everything... My thoughts are kinda in a jumble as I'm writing this, so feel free to ask if something doesn't make sense... This is also just my personal view lol don't take it too seriously if it differs from yours too much.

Lastly, I know my advice would probably not do much, however I hope for you to find your way to tell your stories the best you can!

[schnee-gheist]

the. the fic ideas

theyre consuming me

couldnt fit this in the tags for some reason so im putting it here but like. wth

#its where dannys helping bond humans and ghosts so for an exercise w/em he enlists the help of a ghost with like. love (/p) powers #and the ghost is like “oh yeah no theres these objects that ghosts hold dear to their core. related to their past and obsession-#-so itd be a good idea to get these objects and for ghosts to show them to humans they trust to help kindle a bond between them“#(and also for ghosts to learn more about humans and vice versa)#and so the ghosts are like “HELL YEAH” and summon the objects (Ex-Ember's guitar; Box Ghost boxes; Johnny's motorcycle; etc)#but then the ghost is like:#Oh! and some ghosts that dont handle their past well or their obsessions and may struggle to summon their objects-#so ill be helpin them by using a little *ghost magic* to summon their object in this safe and loving envoirment where we can help them-#-process whats happened to them and help everyone accept themselves and others!!#so it goes on for a bit. and everyones bondin well. but then the /p love ghost realizes phantom hasnt summoned HIS object.#the ghost thinks about how self-depercating phantom is and thinks he hasnt done it yet because he thinks he doesn't deserve to talk about it#so the ghost is like “IMMA HELP :D” and uses the spell thingie on phantom#and you know what object just. slidesss into phantoms hands?#what everyone else thinks is just another fenton thermos. and they kinda crowd over like “ohh!!” “phantoms thingie!!”#but then phantom is just. staring at the thermos in a disjointed way. because its not just. another thermos.#its a little rusty with some dirt on it. some. sauce. and. blood. and. its THE thermos. that one.#phantom doesnt know the ghost did the spell on him. and now hes holding THE thermos and having some major PTSD while tons of people crowd him#yknow. not a good combination of things. and nobody has ANY idea.

(anyways thats all i got this ones also pretty open ended but. hey i need my thoughts SOMEWHERE)

[luxurydumpsterfire]

This was my entire thought process and experience as a School for Good and Evil reader. (Spoiler free! Mostly).

"That's a really pretty book cover,I think I'll buy this."

"Ooh,mysterious poem,okay,I see you."

"MAP!!! HOLY SHIT,MAP!!!"

"Interesting line to start the book with."

"Agatha, you're so cool,I love you already."

"These Ever students are kinda bitches,ngl."

"Hort's so annoying,I probably won't like him as a character (liar).

"Omg,cool gay witches :O "

"Agatha is me,fr fr."

"Okay,DAMN,why's everyone such jerks?"

"Sophie,calm down,girl."

"Tedros x Agatha??? Maybe?"

"TEDROS. WTF??"

"Get his ass, Agatha!!"

"I DIDN'T MEAN IT LIKE THAT BUT POP OFF,LOL."

"Sophie got sent to the torture room,nooooo. :( "

"...Oh." Real ones know which scene I'm talking about 😟

"Tedros,mind your business."

"Trail by tale is freaking cool,wth?"

Skipping forward (talking about it,I mean, I was too invested to even think about skipping ahead).

"TRUE LOVES KIIIIIISS!!!"

So yeah,I recommend this series, teehee :)

[feathers-little-nest]

Idk man. I wish I could be less insecure about my writing. Like, I know that my brain is fucked up. I had many conversations about this and at this point I know that I don't have the same thought process as other people (which is kinda cool sometimes). I'm quite sure that's the case, because conversations I had were with multiple different people, including neurodivergent people, in different context etc. and everyone always was like "wth bro"

I think that my characters may act "unreasonable" due to this. The readers could go "that's not how a normal person acts lol" and they would be right. It would be a valid criticisms. But at the same time, I've tired for so long to grasp how "normal" thought process looks like, I'm pretty sure I can't imagine it. Idk man idk

[pup-pee]

OOHHH do you think they're opposites?? I'm trying to think about their personalities rn... I can't decide. I do think their voice/sense of humour is the same tho:0 and it does depend what version of batman we're talking about

tldr; i have no idea if u meant techno or c!techno bc i meant c!techno anyways c!techno can b batman, i dont think batman can b c!techno

theres a lot kf rambling below

SO IN FAIRNESS!! again have not seen a lore stream in YRS & ALSO most of the batman im reading is from the 90s so like thats a time an era

so similarly!!! they do have like similar actions? theyre both way more violent than the rest bc they believe its the only way 2 get through ALTHOUGH they try 2 only use it when necessary

like brrr but uhh they also have vry different ideals? c!techno SRRY IM TALKING ABOUT CANON I DIDNT LIKE DIFFERENTIATE @ ALL c!techno has a vry different view of how 2 igg “make peace” than batman does

like batman wants 2 established a higher authority 2 control but hes trying rlly hard 4 them not 2 b corrupt like so hard god hes trying & techno,,,,is like the opposite of that

while i said they both dont kill if necessary, techno still WILL kill & yk thats like kinda hehhhhhhhhhh like mayb a big moral line but also EVERY1 IN DSMP was ready 2 kill so i dont think this point means anyyythingg

THE THE HUMOR THO? i can see it. kinda? i feel like this is embarrassing 2 say but i dont think batman would b the 2nd worse thing 2 ha

MAYBE IM LOOKING @ THIS WRONG BC techno as batman fits way more???? 4 some reason???? like jesus im rambling okHHHHHH

c!techno as batman makes sense

batman as c!techno does not,,,,4 some reason

i literally wrote all this 2 explain that i feel stupid ok welp whatever

i rlly dont read batman LIKE I RLLY DONT KNFACT I TRY 2 AVOID BATMAN AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE like out of personal preference of???? idk

like im lretty sure the last thing i read was him running away 2 go think & brood alone while his sons worried back home lol

shit if ur talking about like movie batman or any more modern take then i think ur right

im just stuck jn this time whefe hes still HEAVILY grieving & its not a rlly good look skjfkskgkkgk

this is y i dont do essay/analysis type stuff i usualky regret what i write bc im thinking but dont go back bc i think the thought process is fun,,,but its long skjfks

my dumbasbrain bing like hava yes if im talking about techno its gonna b the c!techno w/out specifying wooooooo like wth

listen i havnt had 2 Differentiate  in SOO LONG AAHHH yeah im not fixing thag word brrr

[myjunkisyuzuruhanyu]

So this is more to be answered after WTT but I wanted to ask now: thoughts on the 2022-23 season overall? How did you feel about scoring overall? The various skaters? Did any skaters catch your eye? How did you feel about the lack of Russians (please don't bring them back, ISU)? Yuzu and Nathan weren't competing, how did the men's field feel without the two titans? And any other thoughts on the season (and also Shoma's season in particular if you want)

So WTT is over...time to answer I guess 😉

Are you in for a long read bc there are a lot of questions 😅

Thoughts on the season overall?

I think there was long time no season as unpredictable as this one. All disciplines were quite unpredictable in almost every competition. You obviously still had favorites for the events but still the winner was not clear when in last seasons you could predict winners most of the time especially in ice dance. I think probably most predictable for wins was Shoma as even with mistakes he was far off the field and results do tell the story. Can you imagine that Shoma finished the season undefeated and actually never did his full layout? Crazy huh? Kaori was not the clear favorite you could have expected, she had a lot ups and downs. Same was for Loena Hendrickx. Ladies was as interesting as ever and for the first time in years I had lot of fun watching ladies competitions. Kihara/Miura were in constant battle with the US team, they won the comps but also profited from their mistakes. In the GP series I was kinda disappointed with the Pairs competition and perceived them as quite boring, but Worlds actually surprised me with the variety of good Pair skaters. I think you can see the development of this discipline. I thought it was an enjoyable season. I like chaos 🔥. I like when it's exciting who will win.

How do you feel about scoring?

Actually over the years I care less and less for scoring. The system is too rigged to be completely fair. I think the judging overall was mostly as fair as it can get in the season, means scoring was as expected with all the shortcomings it offers, nothing too out of the box besides that WR scores for Chock/Bates because wth? I was actually quite surprised that Ilia's PCS score didn't rise as much as I feared. I take the little victories at this point. Y'all know I am not one to be too rigid with technical stuff in scoring as I also see the shortcomings in the rulebook with too much freedom for interpretation, but let's say I was not too pissed off by the scoring most of the time, which I take as either "a victory for my nerves" or "a process of scores are meaningless anyway" 😅 I think overall the right ppl won the events with some few exceptions.

Did any skater catch your eye?

Actually mostly juniors: Hannah Lim/Ye Quan in ice dance. It's been a while I was this excited for an ice dance team. Minsol Kwan - her performance level at 13 years of age is extraordinary. Jia Shin and Mao Shimada also impressed me. But also the Australian Pair who competed in Juniors most of the season and had a fabulous debut in seniors at Worlds.

As for seniors Kao Miura definitely catched my eye. His energy and jumps are stunning to witness, especially live. I think his energy is sometimes a bit too much, but once he learns to control it he'll can be the full package.

Nina Pinzarrone is a skater I really adored first at Euros and especially when I could see her live at Challenge Cup. She's sweet.

Then there are a couple of skaters I long know or like but who got me on a new level of being their fan: Two are definetly Junhwan Cha and Haein Lee. At this Worlds and WTT they were on fire. They really did find their best at the end of the season. In general I really love Team South Korea, their comradery and their programs.

Keegan Messing - I always loved Keegan but now that it was clear that this would be his last season I cried many times over Keegan, the most just today. It made me realize how much I really adored him and how much I will miss him.

Adam Siao Him Fa is another skater I really like more and more. Sadly he had not the best ending to his season but he brings something special to the ice.

How did you feel about the lack of Russians?

I think banning the Russians is the right decision. Russia is using sport as a propaganda tool and sadly a lot of Russian coaches and skaters do support their agenda in words and actions. I think it's unimaginable how you can welcome them back to competitions. I for one would not know how to react when I suddenly face the Russians again at competitions knowing how they will be used for promotion. This war against Ukraine is a crime and as long as the war is on I don't want any of them back on international stages and I seriously hope that the consideration of letting them compete under neutral flag will not happen. Did the Olympics not teach anyone a lesson? They do not care for sanctions such as a neutral flag. Sports and politics cannot be separated and everyone saying it's not a conflict is lying. This all being said I liked or still like a lot of Russian skaters and despite the awful scoring at times - which the athletes themselves are not at fault - so it would be lie to say that I am not sad to not see one or the other, but tbh I didn't see any of the Russian competitions and I did not look at any of their programs. I just cannot watch it. I do not support it. I am not even sure how to follow those I am/was a fan of. I cannot suddenly unlike them, but I also do not feel good about supporting any of them like I used to. (Personally the skaters are not at fault for the war and I do understand why they don't take action against it, but still saying nothing doesn't mean they don't agree on what is happening. They were at the roots of the propaganda, it would actually be logical if they would follow the general Russian mindset.)

So to say I was completely unaffected would be a lie, BUT I don't miss Russian skaters at competitions especially in ladies it was so much more fun than all these years before where unfair rooftop scoring and predictability made it just unbearable at times. I would even say men and ice dance were hardly affected overall by their absense. It's not like they were the top notch only. In Pairs I thought about the Russians because this discipline especially in the GP series had a lower level than what we were used to. But I'd rather take empty fields than Russians back on a big stage. I do not want them back at any cost before the war in Ukraine is over.

Continued in Part 2 because this is already very long...

[thesodasploder]

ok wait

anyone else can’t identify wth they’re experiencing emotionally on a more specific scale ??

like i’ll be thinking “i’m feeling like i wanna cry and every cell in my body wants to explode wth is this?” and heck if i know if it’s a meltdown, panic attack, stress, or whatever else is in the english vocab

and then there’s like the times i’m like “ok so im erm kinda wanna cry again.. i think im depressed” or “i feel like my bones are filling with a soda someone dropped down the stairs and it’s all fizzy n crud why?is this what sensory overload feels like or am i just so tired im failing to process crud?”

and it’s so annoying bc then my parents will be tellin me “erm you gotta elaborate” and i’m over here frustrated bc i have no words to further elaborate except through supposedly indecipherable metaphors ??????😭

which is all ironic bc, as they keep telling me, i’m a writer

IF IM A WRITER GUYS HOW👏THE👏HECK👏CAN I NOT DESCRIBE MY👏OWN👏FEELINGS 👏👏👏👏👏WTHHHHH 😭😭😭🤬🤬🤬

(wasn’t angry when i wrote any of this i thought it was just ironic and funny to me)

erm sorry guys lemme go erm honk mimimimi honk MIMImimi

[ishikawayukis]

Yes que si hablo español JAJAJAJA I just thought it would be weird to straight up start talking in spanish but I really needed to reference that meme (and here’s the moment where I’m unsure which language I should keep using WJDIEBD) y no me molestaría que me compartieras el video<3 bc I don’t mind shipping!! I’m not hardcore either but I love the dynamics too so it’s hard not to agree with a bunch of ships lol

NO ACTUALLY FAIR tbh I did skip some flashbacks back in the first season (see: Syrup Village) and if it’s dragging too much bc of that I do skip the flashbacks

Fr no one can convince me these guys don’t curse, I love they decided to show that side of them AND how it is unique for both of their personalities (see: Zoro saying ass and Sanji saying arse) but yes a documentary about the process would be *chef’s kiss*

NADIE SE MUERE JAJAJA I just finished the Alabasta arc (thank gOD) and I lowkey cried for Pell juST FOR HIM TO COME BACK??? I’m glad but wth they’re going to make me desensitized/skeptical with future ‘deaths’ atp bc most of them seem to come back anyways

Zoro literally just said “Sorry, but…I’ve never once prayed to God” and I was like “holy sh*t that’s hot” just for him to freaking scream like Tarzan while swinging on a vine minutes later LMAO and two things: 1) is this a good lose my mind or a bad lose my mind?? and may I know if it’s during the 100s?💀😭 2) I’ve seen people saying pre time skip a lot!! Is that like a canon event that just happens and we don’t see that ‘time skip’ (kinda like the blip for the avengers) or is it like a time travel thing or something?? If the answer is too much of a spoiler I’m fine without knowing it, just sounds confusing LOL

I have my fair share of songs that I didn’t think I listened to them that much so I get it 😂😂 my #81 song is Not Fine by Day6!!! which feels kinda fitting to me rn ngl JAJAJAJA

AJAJAJ the constant struggle of wait what language do i speak in now. i tend to always go with english because i'm aware of how Chilean i am and sometimes people don't understand what i'm saying, so whatever makes you feel more comfy <3 this is the video it's SO stupid but it made me cackle and i couldn't sent it to my friend that's watching it because she hasn't reached alabasta or ace yet

the one thing i will complain about one piece (well, one of the things LMAO) is the flashbacks like yeah i do love how fleshed out all the characters are but man keep it short and sweet

i LOVE that sanji is the only one with a different accent in english from the straw hats, like it makes so much sense for his background this is all i can say without spoiling anything (y weno en español también acento canario de taz mi amado)

NO BUT SAME i was fucking sobbing over pell and then they were like teehee actually he's not dead 😋 there is a reason for that tho i think it had to do with 9/11 no i'm not joking LMAO

SKYPIEA ZORO MY FUCKING BELOVEEEEEEED everytime he says that when someone is like "omg you're gonna make god mad!" i went a little insane because yEAH MAN TELL THEM, and him doing the tarzan scream he's just a little guy he's feeling goofy and silly and we love him for it. also!! are you watching it in japanese or dubbed? because luffy sings an iconic song during this arc that everyone loves LMAO. it's a uuuh it's a mix LMAO and it's in the 300's i think. the only thing i will say about the time skip is that it's a canon event and nothing more because it's more entertaining that way teehee

ooof man now that's a song LMAO it could've been zombie which i would ask all good dear is everything ok (obviously the answer would be no)

[mrsblackruby]

Yeah Pretty Much

The under the cut part is just there for anyone having them same mental health struggles as me when it comes to blocking. Might help knowing someone else feels the struggle idk

I’ve been in some situations tho where tumblr has accidentally blocked people or I must’ve blocked accidentally idk how tf it happened (I more commonly unfollow people by accident) and It’s a close mutual too and then they ask me wth and I’m like:

But especially since I’m heavy in the fandom discourse I try to live by OPs statements personally. Even tho in the back of my head there’s like two fandom blogs I really loved and they’ve blocked me. I’m not sure if they meant to or not cuz we use to talk all the time then block 😭. But I still haven’t reached out cuz I feel once I’m blocked I’m blocked. And I get it discourse just isn’t for everyone especially with how heavy it gets and people just want to escape and people can block me for any numbers of reasons.

But that Bitch hurts like ghosting. I’m sad. But I’ll live. But I am sad.

Ngl I hate being blocked when I’m deep in thought like damn but I have to learn to respect other people boundaries *eye roll🙄* (Eye roll because I have a personality disorder and it’s not my first impulse to care about other people I actively have to urge myself not to cross boundaries. But I do see the importance in trying tho but it’s so fucking annoying)

Also the great fear that everyone is gonna block me in life because they think I’m an inferior human eats away at me.

But that’s just my own existential crisis.

I hope people feel comfortable enough to tell me why they’re blocking me to at least ease the pain if they care about my feelings but I get why someone wouldn’t be able to do that.

I believe in all of u and u will be missed. 😘

I’ve been harassed so much and I still haven’t blocked some people idk I just don’t like blocking people personally unless it’s my last option it makes me sad. like i desire to talk things out but some people don’t want to talk. I get that.

But it causes me grief but I’m trying to process it healthy.

It’s the FOMO. It hurts so bad.

I feel like a little kid again with my overwhelming adhd symptoms and everyone just turning around and ignoring me for being the problem child when I just want to hangout with my peers but I definitely get it. I can be a lot for some people to handle. But it hurts cuz I feel like I could handle/face anyone if the situation presents itself to me.

But idk if that’s just me having a big ego again.

Anyways I like to think I had an ego death and it humbled me deeply 💀💀💀

The internet’s and interesting place and I wonder what effect it’s having on my mind constantly.

Idk why I kinda find it so funny that it’s such a struggle for me to leave the people alone. I’m such and menace to the masses.

Like I see something interesting and I just want to go go go. That’s probably why i get blocked a lot 💀 but it does eat away at me if it’s another reason cuz then I start wondering what those other reasons could be. Cuz my anxiety hates me but remember anxiety is a lair and when someone blocks you without telling you why you will never truly know the reason behind it. So whether it’s the worse or best case scenario or whatever the reason might actually be…it isn’t an identifier of ur worth as a person. Ik what uncertainty can do to a anxious brain but I hope that logic helps someone out there or helps me myself out lolz

All in All Fight the urge because not interacting with someone once they’ve blocked u is the safest option for you both. If it’s a mistake maybe things work it self out maybe not but the safest option is to not engage any further. It’s okay to be in your feelings about it tho.

We all deserve sad boi hours.

💀 Just realizing I’m that friend that if you’re ever in a break up With someone Imma try to convince ya not to text ur ex.

Just as a heads up. If someone blocks you, don't work around it and message them to ask why. I don't care if it makes you anxious or uncomfortable or whatever. If somebody's blocked you, they have made it very clear they don't want to interact with you. Leave them alone.

[honeyrinee]

my thought process while drawing:

wow this is gonna turn out so cute !!

haha why does my sketch look like this,, TT

wth how does human anatomy work uhh ig i’ll just make it up and hope no one notices

clothes,,, so many wrinkles and folds,,, why,,,

omg wait this sketch is kinda good waaaaiit,,,

now i have to line it :|

IVE REDRAWN THE SAME LINE TEN TIMES WHY IS IT STILL WRONG

okay but it kinda looks good now hold on >:)

how do i draw hands,,, haha,, whatever that’s a problem for future me let’s just leave it :)))))

what colours should i choose,,, haha jk is this even a question obviously it’s pink/yellow/beige :)

YAY it’s done !! oh wait shading :|

WHERE IS THE LIGHT SOURCE THIS IS DEFINITELY WRONG

okay too bad ig the shadings just gonna be wrong then bc i cant be bothered

DONE !!!

jk i forgot to draw the hands that i left until the end :| should i find a reference or just make it up??? ((((make it up))))

OKAY DONE :,)

[whaleofatjme1920]

question time! if a person became a proxy who was still in school (elementary - high school), would they finish their education? and how? - twilight anon

Probably, but it would be done bizarrely.

Again, independents are those who serve under slender man, but not completely. They benefit from his control but do not serve entirely underneath it.

So, let’s get into what I think Independent society is like. It mirrors human society, HEAVILY, only violence is a much more accepted form of getting things done and problem solving. There are cultural and societal norms that vary from safe zone to safe zone (safe zones are pockets or bubbles on earth bathed in the slender man’s influence. It’s like looking at something, recognizing it, but looking away and forgetting jr was ever there. You tend to just gloss over it.)

If there was a child that the slender man took hold of for whatever reason, that kid is getting trained by independents because independents have more time and have less responsibilities to the slender man all together. Do they have schools? Kinda,,,? EJ would be trusted, Bloody Painter, the more educated independents would be trusted to carry out textbook knowledge where as proxies would take over “in the field” stuff when the child was old enough/deemed ready.

It’s like a nanny job. Proxies are the parents wth too many responsibilities so they shove it off to independents who pick up the slack. The kid ends up with a lot of independent tendencies, thoughts and feelings by the time they’re given back to proxies.

This is where the proxy hazing process comes into place.

[inactiveobeymeblog]

YESS THATS WHAT IM TALKING ABT LIKE WTH?!

Here’s what I’m dealing with (Under the cut)

⬆️ These are my main cards. I’m mainly focused on getting at least one of every sin to lvl 100. (But how can I if I don’t even have the right cards?)

⬆️ These are my memory cards. Not too worried about these but I’d like to have at least a couple sins to lvl 100.

But what is the point if I spend so much time and effort into the game if I can only progress at such little speed?

⬆️ This is where I am on hard mode. Not too bad, right? WRONG!! I’d be able to pass this with an S-Rank in OG obey me. But not NB. And let’s not forget, if you beat a lesson on hard mode, you get an extra piece of story AT THE END.

Wish the devs would make it more rewarding by adding extra smaller stories in between instead of waiting for you to finish the entire lesson. (Which is sometimes most of the time slow and unsatisfactory). Sure, it’s less content, but it actually makes you feel like you’re getting somewhere. And that’s something the game is proving to be really difficult to do.

⬆️ This is my current situation on the main story

I’ve literally spent everything I had saved up today (over the past week) to get this far. Which was literally half a lesson. I’ve spent more than 100 Devil Points to get this far by buying the flower blossom shovels for 54 devil points and getting MORE devil points to get MORE shovels. It’s an endless cycle of torture, and I’m getting so bored bc of it.

Hell, I can’t even remember the last time I got an S-Rank without using any shovels. Kinda bizarre, right?

Then there are times when I’d stop playing the main story all together for a while and forget where the hell I left off.

Yes. It’s gotten THAT bad.

And like you mentioned in the tags, Obey Me has reached such popularity that it’s targeting the people who HAVE MONEY vs those who DONT.

I still remember the first time I played the OG game and it was actually FUN. NB just doesn’t give the same vibe and sucks every ounce of enjoyment you thought they made it out to be. The new rhythm game style doesn’t cut anything, either. It’s still the same process. Rinse and repeat.

Once again broke in this game cuz I’m trying to level up my cards to beat the INSANE requirements for lesson 15.

(Rant under the cut)

Like, why tf is it so hard to progress in NB? Makes no sense. I’d be breezing through lessons in the OG game by this point and probably already on lesson 20-30 rn.

Either the devs make it more enjoyable by making it more playable and less of a grinding game, or they lose an undoubtedly large number of NB players bc they chose to make it so difficult to progress in the slightest bit.

Why is it so hard to get lore?!😭 that’s all we’re asking for—

Wait. Is that why this game is so hard? The LORE?! Are they seriously making the levels almost impossible to beat because they’re givin’ us lore? I’m genuinely so lost at this point.

Please tell me I’m not the only one experiencing this issue. Or at least someone else has to notice this, too?