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Mutuals I'm afraid I'm losing my mind
#i should sleep but... write... fic... need... to publish... asap#the heat is so bad i literally can't think during the day. i got out of the shower in the morning and immediately started sweating. bruh#my daily routine is just wake up#go to the beach#take a shower#eat#nap#lie in bed doing nothing till 6-7pm#write/draw/watch youtube/play the sims#and repeat#sigh... guess i'll come back to this fic tomorrow evening
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how to be more creative?
Three Steps to Being More Creative
Step One: Filling Your Creative Well
You can't create something out of nothing. You need not just the right tools and medium, but also knowledge, ideas, and skills to help you know what to do with those tools and that medium.
Ideas come from the data that's already stored in our brains. That data comes from a variety of places: your day-to-day life, your life experiences, what you hear about others' day-to-day lives and experiences, your experiences with the people and places around you, etc. Any little thing your brain absorbs can become an idea.
So, the number one thing you need to do if you want to be more creative is to fill your head with ideas. I like to call this "filling your creative well," because it's all about filling up your brain with a variety of experiences, stories, and experiences so that you have someplace to draw from when you need ideas.
Guide: Filling Your Creative Well will walk you through how to do that.
Step Two: Learn to Take Creative Risks
Another important part of being more creative is learning to take creative risks. By trying a variety of creative endeavors, even if they're not something you think you'll be good at, and by trying new things in current creative endeavors, you can exercise and expand your creativity. For example, grab a friend or family member and head to one of those "paint and sip" places where they guide you through doing a painting. Alternatively, a lot of craft stores offer free and inexpensive classes that teach you how to do different crafts. You could also go on YouTube and learn how to do something you've never tried before, like origami, crocheting, or calligraphy. Even doing things like building and decorating homes in The Sims, decorating homes or your island in Animal Crossing, or any game where you get to exercise creative choice is a good way to try new things and take creative risks. For writing, try doing some writing prompts or participating in a writing challenge, like a six-word story contest or challenge yourself to turn a favorite song into an actual story (just for fun and personal use.) If you've never written fan-fiction before, try that! Or try writing a story in a genre you've always wanted to write but never have before. Even reading a book, watching a TV show or movie, or playing a game in a new genre can help expand your creative horizons.
Step Three: Let Go of a Need for Perfection
One of the biggest enemies of creativity is a feeling that everything you create needs to be perfect, and this is such an unfortunate thing because most things that require creativity are not things you're ever going to do perfect the first time. So if you can't get past this need to be perfect, you'll never be able to exercise and grow your creativity. So, don't be afraid to paint a bad painting, crochet an uneven scarf, fold a lopsided paper crane, or write a bad story. The point isn't to be perfect or even good. The point is to do it, because even bad art is good practice.
And... if you just wanted to know how to be more creative within a story you're writing, all of the above advice still stands. Fill your creative well, take creative risks, and let go of a need for perfection. ā„
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100 things to do instead of eating
look in the mirror
play an instrument
scroll on tumblr, twitter, tiktok, insta etc
add to ur th1nsp0 pinterest board
look at photos of megan fox (shes so beautiful)
look at photos of adriana lima (shes also so beautiful)
make your bed
journal
watch mukbangs of WAY too much food (dont make yourself more hungry!)
enjoy the sick hungry feeling
eat gum
drink a lot of water
girl blog / shitpost
read fanfic lol
take a shower
manifest
go for a walk
work out
stretch
watch a movie
play a videogame
make yourself in the sims but skinny
learn a kpop dance
do chores
watch YouTube
do a face mask
think about why you want to lose weight
think about how gross you will look and feel after eating
delete emails
talk to your skinny friend
listen to a new song
online shop
sleep
do as many push ups as you can
go to the gym
drink 0 cal drinks (coke zero, etc)
eat ice
0-5cal jelly
do makeup
do skincare
walk your dog
play with your cats
read a book
watch a show
talk to your family
facetime someone
make a playlist
manifest
make a vision board
touch some grass
try to lick your elbow
try to tie a knot with a shoelace in your mouth
buy a piercing gun from temu and pierce your ears
do 5 star jumps
try the le sserafim workout (not for the weak šš»)
stan txt
write self insert fanfiction
read old diaries
clean your room
clean your car
stalk someone on facebook
create a wishlist
try a new hairstyle
learn a language
do a puzzle
plan your week/month/year
look at air b&bs and flights and pretend you have enough money to go on a trip somewhere
get a job
go to school
start a bullet journal
paint
draw
write a story
write a letter to your future self
try to travel back in time
try reality shifting
meditate
clean out your camera roll
physically clean your phone (its probably gross)
change your passwords
"take me to a useless website"
watch cartoons
paint your nails
dye your hair
do a hair mask
pray
pluck your eyebrows
shave your legs
buy yourself flowers
clean your makeup brushes
ride a bike
go for a swim
go to the beach
learn a magic trick
play a card game
play a board game
invent a new language
mew
do yoga
think about how your life will be when you're skinny
still hungry?
do it all again.
#athena rambles#wonyoungism#ed tmblr#tw ed sheeran#tw ed but not sheeran#tw ana blĆøg#an@rexi@#affirm and persist#manifestation#loa tumblr#change your life
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Saw this tag game on another post and thought I'd do it (idk if I've done it before, maybe something similar, but my answers will be different anyway)
1. Were you named after anyone?
Nope My chosen name (Allister) however, is from a youtuber who has a very cool name and I stole it (Alasdair Beckett-King, very funny videos and he has great hair too). I adapted it a bit so people in Spain would at least have an idea of how to pronounce it at first glance (hopefully) It has nothing to do with any Crowley (which I did not realize was a thing until recently), tho for a bit I named myself AJ like Good Omens Crowley, but I don't like how it sounds in Spanish...
2. When was the last time you cried?
Last month probably
3. Do you have kids?
No. And I don't want any. I don't dislike them, but it's not for me
4. What sports do you play/have you played?
Judo, karate and football (the indoors kind). All as a kid/teen. Now my brother and I walk every week day and go up and down stairs (when we remember...) One day I want to try to go to a gym to get some muscle, but not too much, just a bit of definition. Also, I'd enjoy doing rock climbing, but not competitive climbing or anything like that
5. Do you use sarcasm?
Sometimes
6. What's the first thing you notice about people?
Irl: the way they move their face and hands when they speak, which then I subconsciously use to recognize people, bc I'm a bit face blind Online: the way they choose to express themselves
7. What's your eye color?
Gray/light blue on the outside and artichoke green/lime on the inside
8. Scary movies or happy endings?
I like both, but I'd rather watch a happy ending. For scary things I prefer to watch Markiplier's scary games videos
9. Any talents?
I'm VERY good at jigsaw puzzles
10. Where were you born?
East of Spain, by some of the best Mediterranean coasts š. I enjoy it here, but one day I'd like to live in the UK, at least for a bit, I think I'd like it there
11. What are your hobbies?
Listening to music, singing, making art (crafting, building, drawing, painting, writing, ...), watching media (shows, panel shows, youtube, twitch), video games (rhythm/dancing, platformer, puzzle... Also minecraft, powerwash sim, potion craft...), going for walks, exercise, learning languages (especially English) If I had any good ones close, I'd go to theatres and museums too. And, if I had money, I'd travel. I'm also slowly learning about taking care of plants
12. Do you have any pets?
Not yet. I'd love to have dogs, cats, frogs, snakes... or anything really. I love animals. But I think cats and frogs would be the best fit for me, considering my personality and current lifestyle I've always wanted a dog, but I've only had a turtle and a hamster
13. How tall are you?
1.63m or 5ā3ā
14. Favorite subject in school?
Biology and technology
15. Dream job?
Anything that pays me enough to be independent and let me do all my hobbies Although, if I ever have the patience, base skill, and required mental fortitude, I'd go for general robotics and/or prop making (for film and/or theatre)
No pressure tags in no particular order (I tried to tag as many people as I could, but apparently there's a tag limit š
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@swamp-communism @they-thespian666 @strongsuits @skelesona @shinekittenace @yeetmewithachainsaw @rockium-z @gordonzola-ramen @vampireopossum @libraryfag @frostytheduck @tetostar @xyrnys @normalscientist @dolltwink @anxi0usgh0st05 @piersgender
@mettatonsass @sinfulauthor @flaretheidiot @sneebles-mcgee @pivotallemonade @aroace-genderfluid-snake @monstrousmaws @satanic-leaf @virtualunease @villowrose @handrazedsun @ceiltheoutcast @atroph1k @entropy-sea-system @abby-cat99928 @maroroque @galaxgay
@realyfroggyfrog @angrysheep @llamaflower @ultrabean @sea-salt-sky @queerestqueertoeverqueer @crowleys-queen @foolishlovers @cassieno @crowleys-hips @argylepiratewd @trianglebird4 @sugarplumanderson @underlilithswings21 @crowleys-bentley-and-plants @healingmyinnerteen
and anyone else that sees this, consider yourself tagged!
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You ever wake up like Woah i wish it was 2018 again so bad . like Yeah i was very repressed and self loathing and confused and all my shirts made me want to rip my skin off and i hadnāt met my best friends yet . but also like. everything was fine . teachers loved me. classes were fun . no phone. no work. go home and play sims 4. watch sims lets plays. watch poorly edited sims stories on youtube . read kotlc . make up scenarios about kotlc . Poorly draw some of said scenarios . write a very dramatic percabeth oneshot . read heroes of olympus . listen to 7 rings by ariana grande at the school dance. have sleepovers and pyjama parties . get convinced to paint your nails with your friends and hate it but at least it was fun . idk a lot of it wasnāt me but also i miss it
#alex.rambles.txt#nostalgia for friends houses who youre pretty sure youāll never be in again is weird#im prob gonna deleye this tmrw
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Here's Something About Me (Updated)
Decided to rework my intro post. The last one was a bit long and some information on that post is a little out of date. Some things have changed, and some havenāt (e.g. I donāt watch Creeped Out as much as I used to).
Anyway, Iām no_fear_queers both on here and on Instagram. If you found me on here and want to check out my Insta be sure to look for the account that has Ellis from Left 4 Dead 2 over a queer flag pfp. (Note: I donāt expect anyone to follow me on here or Instagram. Havenāt expected to get a whole lot of followers on either site since the accounts were made. Iām also pretty sure my Insta page is shadowbanned but thatās not the point.) Iām 22.
Iām transmasculine, ambiamorous and a termcollector. The terms Iām comfortable with being open with on the internet are; queer, angled aroace, ambiamorous, termcollector, transmasculine, and gendervast. This would be the part where I say āamong other thingsā but this is the best I can do to not make things too long. My pronouns are he/they/it/xe/vi. Iām a satanist thatās into Greek and Norse Mythology.
The first name I have given myself is Ellis. Before anyone asks, yes, I named myself after the Left 4 Dead 2 character. In my defense, Ellis has always been my comfort character and to me, it made sense to name myself after him. As for the middle name I gave myself, itās Ryan.
Nicknames Iāll accept are Eli, Ray, and Rye. I also want to stress that the nickname āShrimpyā can only be used by my friends. I only want my friends to call me Shrimpy because; for one thing I cannot confirm that Iāll always be shorter/smaller than the unknown person on the other side of the screen, and for another thing, a friend of mine (I will not be saying any names privacy reasons especially since I donāt know if he changed his name again or not) had given me the nickname Shrimpy (also nicknaming me Shrimp) while he and I were leaving PE because he thought it was easier to remember than my dead name. I also figured that he gave me that nickname because Iām smaller than all my friends. (Given Iām 5ā and somewhere around 101-102 lbs whereas my friends are 5ā2ā-5ā7ā and weigh over 101 lbs.) Long story short: If weāre not irl friends, donāt call me shrimpy. Only my friends are allowed to do that.
Personality/Mental health wise, Iām an autistic introvert with ADHD, social anxiety and depression. I donāt really like talking to people, especially since talking feels weird. It doesnāt help that sometimes I stutter and sometimes I donāt make sense. Itās something that I found difficult about being social, and on top of that, Iāll either cross a boundary without realizing it or Iāll misinterpret something that the other person is saying. (Can safely say that Iām one of those people that needs the other person to be more specific when talking to me about anything, and I also need the other person to express their boundaries when it comes to certain topics.) Now, putting aside the fact that Iām socially inept, I can confidently say that Iāll be 2 years SH-free on August 3rd 2024.
My interests include: watching YouTube, writing, playing video games, sharks, alligators, greek and Norse mythology, horror movies, drawing, and horror games
My favourite YouTubers are: Markiplier, LaurenZSide, tuv, morbidforfun, iHasCupQuake, Mr. Nightmare, Life of Luxury, Luxury Dark
My favourite book series are: Keeper of the Lost Cities, The Unwanteds and Percy Jackson
My favourite video games are: Left 4 Dead, Left 4 Dead 2, Skyrim, Cooking Champions, Terraria, Minecraft, Animal Crossing New Horizons, The Sims 3, The Sims 4, Stardew Valley, Battleblock Theater, and Sons of the Forest
My favourite colours are: Black, Red, Grey, Blue, Purple and Green
My favourite shows are: Bobās Burgers, NCIS, Bones, Criminal Minds, Supernatural, Futurama, A Series of Unfortunate Events, Kitchen Nightmares, Hellās Kitchen, Hotel Hell, Psych, Invader Zim, Dark Shadows (yes, Iām referring to the original 1960s TV series), Mayans MC, Mama Named Me Shariff, King of the Hill, Mr Pickles and Master Chef
My favourite movies are: The Bobās Burgers Movie, Renfield, Demoric, Smile and The Rocky Horror Picture Show, Books of Blood, Marrowbone, A Quiet Place and Swindle
My favourite bands/artists are: Bad Omens, The Rolling Stones, OOMPH!, Angerfist, 3Oh!3, Simon Curtis, Adam Lambert, Sub Urban, Missio, Ghost, and Behemoth (This list also includes tuv but itās already enough that I grouped him with my favourite YouTubers)
My favourite animals are a four-way tie between alligators, whale sharks, zebra sharks and leopard sharks
And lastly, my favourite holiday is Halloween
Okay, since this came out to be longer than I originally wanted it to be, thatās all the information Iām giving you.
DNI if you:
Are transphobic
Are bi/panphobic
Are Ace/aro/aphobic
Are proshipper/pro incest
Are a zoophile (furries are okay, people who think itās okay to have shmecks with animals are not)
Are anti-abortion/pro-life
Support trump
Think xenogenders and neopronouns arenāt valid
Think that non-binary people arenāt real
Disrespect people that use it/its pronouns
Think that the US is a āChristian nationā (spoiler alert, no itās not, itās just where youāre FREE to be Christian--for the love of everything unholy do NOT tell me or anyone else to ārepentā, your religion prohibits YOU, not us.)
Are a TERF
Think neopronouns are too confusing
Think xenogenders are too confusing (I donāt understand them myself but Iām not being an ass about it)
Think microlabels are too confusing or useless
Think words like āgirlā, ābroā, and ādudeā are gender neutral
Are racist
Are ableist
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š¦Positivity owl reporting for duty! This was sent by a friend who wants you to smile as much as your posts make them smile. Please list five things that make you unique, four things you are super passionate about and why, OR three of your favorite memories. Feel free to send the owl to those who you feel deserve to smileš¦
Hello!
I'll go with four things I'm most passionate about if you don't mind š
Let's see...
1) Role-playing in general and D&D in particular has to be the first one. Escapism and fantasies are literally my salvation, and D&D plays a huge part in my life.
Creating characters and telling stories through them together with my friends is a kind of therapy for me. I lovelovelove my OCs!!
I've always been a role-player (even a theater kid a little bit). I absolutely loved silly play-pretend games in kindergarten, was obsessed with text role-playing games in middle and high school, and I adore TTRPGs now. I can't imagine my existence without them!
2) Video games! I'm a huge fan of CRPGs and ARPGs, I also like playing visual novels from time to time.
I like The Sims franchise, of course. The second installment introduced me to the world of PC gaming.
However, my absolute favorites are Dragon Age and Mass Effect franchisees, they'll always have a special place in my heart. Dragon Age: Origins was the first RPG I ever played. Instantly fell in love with it! This one literally shaped my taste in games. And oh, despite all the drama around Bioware, I'm so hyped about the upcoming Dragon Age: The Veilguard!
Then there's Owlcat with their Pathfinder: Wrath of the Righteous and Warhammer 40k: Rogue Trader. Love 'em! And, of course, I can't forget about almighty Larian with their Divinity: Original Sin 2 and Baldur's Gate 3!!! These games, stories, and characters help me stay sane in this crazy world š«
3) Dark stuff and goth aesthetic. Yeah, I know there are lots of sub-genres out there. But I'm talking about the vibes in general, you know? I love all these macabre little things, be it makeup, clothes, architecture, music, etc.
The little me had been a hidden baby bat since forever. Although I didn't have the courage to show my real nature at that time.
4) Editing videos. Yeah, when my schoolmates learned how to draw pictures or play sports, I was trying to create little music videos using my favorite TV shows.
Once Upon A Time and a vidder by the name of KatrinDepp inspired me to thread this rocky path of mastering Sony Vegas. Then, a couple of years later, I switched to creating GMVs (game music videos).
I still have a semi-active YouTube channel for that. Even though nowadays I have a lot less time and inspiration to edit videos, I still like this hobby of mine.
Here are also some honorable mentions: I love cats, they are my favorite animals, 110%. I'm fascinated by magic and supernatural. My guilty pleasure is reading creepy stories and watching videos about ghosts. I also like writing my own stories and even have my own little fictional universe I'm totally normal about!
Oh boy, this post was so long. If you are here, thank you for reading it to the end! And thanks for asking. Have a great day, whoever you are! ššš
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introduction/navigation
hiii i rejoined tumblr as a fan blog for like the. fourth. time i think. when will i learn? idk! but i'm having a HEAVY hyperfixation and the urge to reblog fanarts is strong so i have sadly returned.
get to know me: fandoms and favourites
bold = will post abt & interact with these fandoms :)
fav tv shows/musical shows
ninjago (all forms)
voltron: legendary defender (unfortunately)
the dragon prince
gilmore girls <3
gossip girl
glee
skins uk
sex and the city
bridgerton
the good place
crazy ex-girlfriend
breaking bad (currently watching)
newsies
hairspray
rocky horror
legally blonde
chicago
funny girl
top 4 movies
breakfast at tiffany's
lady bird
amelie
dead poet's society
games
i love story choice based games
telltale's the walking dead
the sims 3 & 4
until dawn
what remains of edith finch
detriot: become human
stardew valley
roblox
episode interactive
music
uhhh i pretty much like everything honestly, i listen to basically all genres across all decades. yes unfortunately that means i like musicals too (i'd say retired theatre kid but really it's just like. dormant theatre kid.) some of my favourite artists i am regularly listening to:
the beatles
mitski
lana del rey
taylor swift
amy winehouse
olivia rodrigo
chappel roan
sabrina carpenter
ariana grande
fiona apple
no doubt
sza
youtubers i watch n reccommend
kurtis conner
danny gonzalez
drew gooden
berleezy
janelle eliana <3
bestdressed
mike's mic
nickdominates
izzzyzzz
schafrilla's productions
cosmonaut variety hour
callmekevin
dominic noble
hobbies/other interests
creative writing!
reading!
poetry
drawing, though i can draw like. one thing and that is specifically headshots of women in a semi-cartoonish style. i neglected to draw men for about 10 years and thus suffer the consequences.
journalling
scrapbooking
yoga when i can be bothered
hot girl walks
listening 2 music while staring at the wall for several hours and daydreaming x
video games except i mostly watch other youtuber's play them
make-up
fashion
find me elsewhere:
aesthetic blog (@lilyofgiverny). you'll probs see this one liking your posts because it's my main
reddit (ameliadoesstuff)
ao3 (ameliawritesstuff)
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OKAY i think that's all
listing all my fandoms and interests is just impossible and this post is long enough so sorry i have serious oversharing issues. idk how to summarise my interests normally...seems like an impossible task. anyway, if u want to know anything just ask :)
[last updated: 19/11/24]
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9 People You Want to Know Better Tag
Tagged by @tavyliasin Thank you!!
Three ships:
Raphael x Haarlep - to no ones surprise
Durgetash - for the same reasons like Lia, there is so much depth to discover and every durge adds a different flavor
hmmm there's a few I like at similar levels: Shadowzel, Bloodweave, Halstarion but I am not actively obsessing
First ship: got completely drawn in by Astarion and shipping him with my male oc Francys, wrote a 60k word fic about them and that is how it started.
Last Song: My alarm just went off and I let it play in full. It's "Raphael's final act" .... yes, I know ...
Last Movie: Movie is so long ago I actually don't remember, but I rewatched Arcane lately and am still on Buffy the vampire slayer
Currently Reading: Who's the Daddy? - Tav in a co-parenting situation/ relationship with Raph and Haarlep featuring sitcom humor. It is really funny, I can recommend
Currently Watching: see above under movie and add some youtube. Sims 4 building videos and random stuff. I actually don't have much time to watch things between work and writing/drawing
Currently Eating: My breakfast, consisting of black tea with oatmilk and a piece of bread with butter and honey. Also some cucumber from prepping lunch :D
Currently Craving: vacation. I want to be somewhere pretty, taking my mind off the routine and have time to be creative. Maybe a hut in the mountains or a cottage at the sea with 1-2 writer friends? That would be divine.
Favourite colour: Dark green
Favourite flavour: Rose, cinnamon, lemon (in sweets not pure lemon) - I have such a sweet tooth
Current obsession: BG3 and Raphael. So much Raphael. And Haarlep.
Last thing I googled: ehhhhhhh. Impact play :D I needed to research for a fic I am currently writing and that is a topic I know very little about.
Favourite season: Autumn. So pretty. The leaves, the fog, the way the sun stands to shower the earth in golden light. Also fun foods and Halloween.
Skill Iād like to learn: Drawing and painting - am on it.
Best Advice: Don't write tumblr posts before work or you'll be late
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Ooo! Concept language sounds fun! I'll definitely look into doing that! :) Paper crafts are very nice as well, they give a sense of freedom in a way. Also, what kind of video games do you like? Farming or dating sims, maybe?
As for me, I like drawing and writing too! There's also watching youtube, making picrews, listening to strange music, reading about "weird" looking animals and such. Anyways, I hope you have a nice day or night, dear! :3
-Quinn
What about video games? I forgot to mention that and I'd like to ask. If you like video games and would like to, we can play them sometime! Whaddaya say? :D
Again, thanks for the ask Quinn and you have a nice day too, sweetie (can I call you that? you called me dear and I felt flattered :3)!
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im gonna list things ive been doing lately to conceptualize to myself that my life is not empty or meaningless, feel free to ignore this post-
-i know work stuff shouldnt count but i have become very exceptionally skilled at different aspects of my job and not only do mostly all my coworkers like me and turn to me for help, but lots of customers recognize and like me too and i know its just a minimum wage grocery store job but im proud of myself for building so many skills -on a related note the relationships ive been able to build with some of my coworkers makes me very proud as someone who struggles with socializing as much as i do, and in the context of that being the thing ive been the most sad about lately, its nice that a good handful of my coworkers really like me as much as they do. and i know the main reasons things have been hard at home arent really My Fault as it were -being a figurehead in a truly wild work drama as it unfolds (okay sure this isnt me /doing/ something but it is /interesting/) -every day i try to wear fun little outfits and do fun little makeup things and i often get compliments and really love my style and its definitely off the wall and im very proud of it and am constantly adding to my repertoire -i got pretty damn good at fortnite. no further comment -i got back into sims again and im still pretty good at building -i listen to musicians i personally like and ive been poring through these two youtube true crime channels lately. and i fell off it again but i got back into playing card games besides solitaire on the computer for a bit. i /do/ have interests outside whatever the polycule is doing around me. i /am/ still my own person -adhd win: ive been keeping up with my planner for like 9 months now! leaving it open on my desk and not being too strict with myself with how quickly i write things in has helped a lot -its not even been a week so touch wood but im making it a goal to listen to an album once a week, watch a movie once a week, and if i can, read a book once a week (like, starting small like goosebumps level stuff) -on an average work day i frequently break 20k+ steps and average 17kish steps a day, and in my less active role im still averaging like 13k -i dont draw as much as i want to but i have been drawing more than i was when my depression and mental health were at their worst, again keeping sketchbooks on hand for easy access has helped a lot -ive been having more ideas for films/shows/whatever again lately -i got christmas gifts for lots of friends and family which was the first time i was able to and i got them for people who werent expecting it at all and it felt nice to do nice things for people i care about
i feel like i should list more things but i dont want to force myself to grasp at straws, my life isnt quite as full of things or going the way i want it to be, but its not empty and its not worthless and im trying to remind myself of that without trying to put aspirations in here. im looking at facts not wants. and im doing okay! i could be doing better but im doing okay
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Tagged by: @thevoiceofthanatosā
Favorite color: warm bright yellow, mustard yellow & old gold, and just yellow in general. its a good colour. it makes me happy
Currently reading: idk, probably star trek fanfic my friend @rubbertplantā was writing to give my opinion on it. i often read through my own stuff too lol, like whoah i wrote that??? ADHD has taken everything from me including my capability to read though, for real. ive been thinking of trying to listen to some audiobooks recently though, this cannot continue... its just that i also have no ears disease so idk how well that would go. determined to try though
Last song you listened to: havent been listening to music so much bc ive been playing videos instead but my last.fm has all my spotify listens so itll stay up to date on whatever i listened to last. currently seems to be āplease play-biteā by pinocchioP. i often just let spotify play me whatever it recommends anyhow so theres variance. and i only started this account like a few months ago max so its not really a full picture of my music-listening
Last movie (in theaters): its not really a movie, but if it counts, the first ginga nagareboshi gin stageplay (recorded and released in finland in theaters with subs)
ginga was always huge in finland for some reason. idk. the anime is so violent though that i got really afraid of bears for some reason. theres so much blood... i never read the manga either i just knew of the anime and partook in my share of wolf roleplays (dogs were uncool! so i didnt do dog roleplays. iirc that really was my reason).
heres some funny wolves from my wolf rp days
2010. one of the first things i coloured digitally... i painstakingly cleaned the scanned pencil lineart with a mouse
2011. i had gotten my first drawing tablet as a birthday/xmas gift and practiced a ton around this time (more than just wolves lol)
Last series I watched: trigun stampede. even changed my phone bg into vash... but millions knives is probably my favourite. he just does everything wrong and makes his life worse. and everyone elses life too bc he sucks. but hes multifaceted so hes also my meow meow and whatever. i hope a ford explorer drives over him
if it counts though, ive seen some star trek TOS episodes and movies because my friends have been watching them. im not super into it but its always fun to hang. i also dont watch a lot of stuff. i dont even know what i do. guy who doesnt read or watch things but listens to jerma videos on youtube without actually looking at them while i ādrawā and āwriteā
Craving: food honestly. i should cook something lmfao. i also want soda so bad but i dont have any. id make some tea but its disgustingly warm in my house so i only want cool drinks. could kill for a nice milkshake or a smoothie rn i think
Tea or coffee: tea... im the only finnish person who doesnt drink coffee for real. also got really into loose leaf tea bc i befriended a chinese lady who is really into tea and has a tea shop in the city near where i live
Currently working on: drawing this and trying to think how i want to do it. somehow want to incorporate flat colours and maybe shade his body naturally, and make the blood look realistic instead of flat colours... hmm not sure yet what i want to do
other than that im trying to proofread the chapter of my ryanyuri fanfic i already published because theres a lot of typos and strange sentences in there but its been a chore bc my body breaks down when it gets too warm smfh... not looking forward to when my apt goes over 30 degrees celsius it is unlivable. im also trying to complete a ālookbookā of my tnb sims. but i always start huge projects that take three million years to complete and im really slow lmfao
Tag people youād like to get to know better: i could just ask these questions from everyone i talk on discord with. fuck my friends i know irl or otherwise, only asking people who r my friends through tumblr. no need to do this though. also this isnt probably meant to be answered so long-windedly... thats just me. i cant answer with one word i gotta write an essay. heres three tags though @basslinegraveā @vita-divataā
(record scratch before 3rd tag) and @rubbertplantā bc they were streaming a game in discord when i started typing this and i was like hey wanna do it and they were like yeah
i expect replies on my desk by 5pm TOMORROW!!!!get to work!!!! no i jest, do it or dont, i dont mind either way, just if you feel like doing this. if you see this and want to do it feel free to consider yourself tagged. godspeed
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ULTIMATE FANTASY:
It's summer. I have a week to myself in my parents' houseāmaybe two. No one is home at all. I have no work, no responsibilities. Nobody nags me about not eating all day. I read and write and draw and dance and watch movies and go for walks and play Minecraft and Sims and listen to music as loud as I want, and sing along, too. My meal for the day is always breakfast or dinner; I cook for myself. There is no one around when I'm eating or cooking. Every day one of my favorite YouTubers posts a long video to watch while I eat. There's a usable public transportation system, so I can go buy a special meal if I want, or go on my own little outings. Nobody talks to me and everyone leaves me alone. I spend most of the week stone-sober but know I can trip or take an edible if I want. I can sit on the back porch at sunset with a joint and a beer or kava or a margarita or nothing at all, just me and a book and an iced glass of cherry-flavored sparkling water. And I'm by myself. And no one bothers me. And I go for long long walks through the forest with Radiohead in my earbuds. And there are no dog walkers or joggers to tell me good morning. And I take obscenely long showers and baths, and the water is always the perfect temperature. And I never have to do anything or go anywhere or talk to anyone, and I bake a carrot cake that doesn't fall despite the altitude, and every night is clear and starry, and every sunset I see is the most beautiful one I've ever witnessed.
#the week my parents and brother were on a college trip and my sister was i don't remember where is the only time i've ever ever lived alone#i think about it all the time. goddamn. i want that so fucking bad#just for a little while.#personal#disordered eating#disordered eating mention#drug mention#alcohol mention#long post#long post cw#this is making me sad actually lmfao#so so funny like what is my damage
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Introduction!! :]
My name is something like Rue lol (so you can call me that if you want), I'm a minor and I live in the UK. I'm a lesbian and my pronouns are she/they but I don't mind all the others
My fandoms:
Percy Jackson (still reading ToA tho) (I loveee ruegard)
Stranger Things (especially ronance and byler)
Gravity Falls
Dead Boy Detectives
(there are more but I'll probably only post abt those ones)
Bands/artists I like:
Bikini Kill
Chappell Roan
Olivia Rodrigo
Conan Gray
Sorry Mom (pls lmk if you listen to them bc I'm so obsessed)
The Lightning Thief musical
Heathers the musical
Hole
Dazey and the Scouts (eeeee!!!)
The Raincoats
Generally a lot of other riot grrrl type music like Jack off Jill, Mommy Long Legs, Veruca Salt, Bratmobile, Le Tigre, Be Your Own Pet, Destroy Boys, Sleater Kinney, Cat Crash
Towa Bird
Maisie Peters
Charlie xcx
Beabadoobee
Danny Gonzalez/Fox SZN
Lucy Dacus
Descendants (idc, life is sweeter slaps)
Mean girls the musical
High school musical
The Cranberries
My hobbies:
Drawing
Reading
Writing songs
Playing the Sims 4 or Stardew Valley or occasionally animal crossing or Mario kart or Zelda echoes of Wisdom
Thrifting
Baking
I like watching commentary, video essays, book reviews, deep dives, and gaming YouTube videos.
Some of my favourite characters/kins are Mabel Pines, Phoebe Spengler, Lisa Swallows, Niko Sasaki, Mike Wheeler, Tao Xu, Robin Buckley, Luz Noceda (I desperately want the new Funko pop), Clarisse La Rue, Thalia Grace, BMO (adventure time)
I can't think of a good favourite book but maybe Magnus Chase or Last Night at the Telegraph Club or agggtm. My favourite movie is But I'm a Cheerleader (I have the DVD!!) but I also love Juno, 10 Things I Hate About You and HSM2 (also have the dvd). My favourite show changes a lot but probably Dead Boy Detectives rn but I love so many. My favourite game is Sims 4.
Fun facts about me!
I'm vegetarian
I have some purple hair
I own a Blahaj
My parents are divorced (I have a great relationship with both of them btw)
I've always wanted to make a movie and I made a short one a couple months ago
I love picking up cool looking rubbish and keeping it
I love the movie To All the Boys I've Loved Before but I'm not putting it with my favourite movies because Noah Centineo gives me bad vibes
There's this super cute girl at college but I don't think she likes me back
I have a heated blanket
I dressed up as dipper pines for halloween
I love lady bugs
I collect bottle caps and buttons
I love stickers
My favourite food is veggie burgers and chips
Sorry for the long intro post!! I love yapping abt myself
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i have been putting off writing anything here for a while. all my poetry and music reside on a tumble account i will not link, but this one is for me. i often feel misunderstood, judged, and speechless (as any teenage girl does) but i want this to be a blog to serve as a time capsule. i am no carrie bradshaw or amy elliot, but the things i have to say are important. the importance of what i have to say, however, does not play into the crowd i will draw, so if i sit here and i write and rant every day with no responses i will not care. all i want to do here is be me, and that is the only response i could care for.
i am a seventeen-year-old girl from new york. i have a simple job and i go to a regular school. i am in many extracurriculars and honor societies and my favorite things are music and gaming. by gaming i am mostly referring to the sims and as far as music, i am in a band and i make music on my own aswell. i sing but i'm learning guitar and my favorite artists are fiona apple and Kendrick Lamar. i think they have an earnest writing style that people do not have anymore. even though fiona apple is more 90's and 2000's centric, i do believe that this generation lacks people with her pen and even though Kendrick is in a completely different genre, they fit together. i love to dress up and wear makeup and go out with my friends. i love to post on Instagram and watch youtube and read and dance even if im bad at it. im an athlete, i play sports and i go to the gym regularly. i think i am normal and i don't want to be. i want the world.
i hope not to come off as a prick, i just want to be something and do something with this life because i am young and i want to be forever but i know that's not possible so i want to relish this final year of childhood before i become a young adult. it was recently my birthday and multiple people told me they were proud to see the young adult i was becoming, it scared me because i wasn't ready to be that and i welcomed it because they were proud. i like my life, there are a few bad things but i wont dwell on them, and i just hope i am making my loved ones proud. maybe i should get a diary, or a therapist, but tumblr is free and only a click away.
i hope you enjoyed reading about me, i hope i enjoy looking back on this. i will be writing more soon i just thought writing without an introduction was pointless. i will be going by a pseudonym as to not reveal myself to anyone in my life, i hope you enjoy the things i have to say.
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