#wow thats long

[gay-yosuke]

ive been tryinb to pinpoint exactly why i havent been writing as much recently and i might have an answer at last, but im not sure if its right or not. writing started as like, a kind of escape/way for me to process stuff, or get emotions out that i just wasnt able to put down any other way. i enjoyed creating shit cuz it meant it wasnt all stagnating in my head. but i guess now im not in a position where im very... in need of it. its been over 7 years since i started writing and i was in the middle of secondary school and my life blew ass. then i kept writing through college cuz it kept me cool. and then those 6 months of uni. and the year of figuring out what to do (no success there). and then my job. and now. im unemployable, being paid money by the dole cuz i cant work. and my chronic pain im just kind of handling i guess, and i have other stuff to work on (modding, and ive been hanging out with friends more), and i have a possibly negative coping mechanism which most know about but. well . but the point really is that im not... needing to write. im now writing for my own sort of enjoyment and its different. i write slower. i pick more holes in it. im not saying i WANT something to throw my whole world upside down to bring back my writing but. i feel it stagnating in me. i keep trying to finish wips and getting nowhere . i need something to push me in the right direction again . maybe i just need to read more.

[literallydyingbabes]

yay!!!!! gray matter!!!!!!!!

[nesemryn]

If crescent city is being released next year, that most likely means acotar and crescent will be released during every other year inter changing with each other. Which means Azriel book 2023 probably!!

[disasterpurplebois]

Found out that my dance teacher joined the Air Force and has left the dance studio I go to. They’re having a “going-away zoom hangout” on Friday but I’ll be working so I can’t attend. He also deleted all his company-issued social media pages so I can’t contact him. The best I could do was send an email to the studio and ask them to forward it.

I wasn’t really sure what to say so I was just like “I hope this helps you achieve your goals, thanks for being an influential part of my life. Good luck and stay safe.” So I hope that was ok, I don’t really know anyone in the armed forces so I wasn’t sure what the vibe was.

And I haven’t spoken to him since quarantine so idk if this like a happy thing or something he had to do. I didn’t want to be like “congratulations” if it wasn’t a good thing, you know?

I also have mixed feelings about the armed forces in the first place so I really was just torn about what to say.

I’m also kind of upset, tho I know I shouldn’t be because it’s not that deep - but I always thought, even tho I pay him for lessons (I try not to think of it as paying him to hang out with me but that’s kinda what it is) that we had a real connection as friends. I wasn’t his first student, but I am definitely the one he’s had the longest since I started dancing about 2 months after he started teaching. We always spent a lot of our lesson talking about current movies and tv etc so I’m just a little bit upset that he didn’t reach out in any way and tell me that he was leaving.

So I guess I’m upset because I thought we were friends, I thought maybe I meant something to him, being a part of each other’s lives so much. He def affected my life so much, I was in such a dark place when I started at the studio. I guess it was all one-sided, just a teacher-student relationship to him. I wish him all the best regardless.

Just disappointed that something that meant so much to me apparently didn’t mean shit to him

[ggracee]

hi! just wanna say thanks for answering asks about your Elias design. First, I wanna say, you said things like “who I headcanon as POC” —when it should be who you headanon as a POC, b/c POC means person/people of colour. You can also say character of colour, if you want? The term POC is not an adjective. Also, it kind of rubbed me the wrong way when you said drawing Elias as a person of colour is whimsical and fun? Could you please explain what you meant by that? Thanks for your time

Oh! Thats sweet, yeah lol I just wanted to see how other people felt about this topic too. So I’m just. Really lazy about grammar asdlfajlfdsjl [I’m gonna need to find some more synonyms but thanks for the one ahhhhhh], but I’ll keep I’ll watch out for it in the future

Glad you brought that up, so let me explain , OK SO–

Their general point was summed [I think!] pretty well in that ask, and my full response became quite lengthy actually lol. This is what I ended up sending them;

[[I actually agree with all of what you sent; this man, who uses his status as a person in power to take advantages of his employees to make himself better off is sounds familiar, too familiar actually. We see this parallel all the time in real life, and these people are usually white.

But because of all of this I prefer imagining Elias as a poc.

I got into tma for some spooks and some fun! An escape from the real world. But imagining Elias as a white person just feels too real, uncomfortable too real. I dont think I liked being reminded of all the real bad people we have in power here in real life, so it just felt more fun to imagine Elias as a poc. That way, I can continue to be immersed in all the scares and angst, in a fun whimsical way, if that makes sense.

Although the narrative implications of Elias as a poc are also distressing. Jonah, who I also headcanon as white, murdering a poc character to make himself better off is distressing. But again, changing the version I have of Elias to white would take me out this safe fantasy I got goin on

[Especially that scene in 106 where Elias demonstrates how much he owns his employees by making Melanie emotional and vulnerable. The implications are just too real imagining him as white, ya know?]

So, huh, you did change my mind, Elias’s ethnicity does matter to me but because if her were white it would just feel too realistic. I just wanna have fun ya know?]]

And scene!

I hope this makes sense? I know I didn’t put up anon’s concerns word for word but I hope my response’s still clear

Its very strange actually, a lot of anons were pretty chill about Elias being a poc if the other characters were also poc [since the problem there would be villainizing poc], but this anon had a totally different take 

[podcastlimbo]

My podcast list (updated as of 4/2/23)

So I thought it was high time that I did one of these, so here goes, long post ahead!

I’ve bolded my favourites, so if you’re ever looking for new shows to get into, those are my go to recs!

Shows I’ve caught up on

36 Questions

The Adventure Zone (Balance)

Alice Isn’t Dead

The Amelia Project

Among the Stars and Bones

Archive 81

Arden

Astonishing Tales of the Highly Improbable!

The Blood Crow Stories (S2 particularly)

The Bright Sessions

Brimstone Valley Mall

Caravan

Dark Ages

Death by Dying

Directive

Dreamboy

Dungeons and Daddies

The Far Meridian

Greater Boston

How I Died

I Am In Eskew

Inn Between

Janus Descending

Kane and Feels

The London Necropolis Railway

The Lost Cat Podcast

Love and Luck

Mabel

The Magnus Archives

Midnight Burger

Midnight Radio

Old Gods of Appalachia

The Orbiting Human Circus

Palimpsest

The Penumbra Podcast

SAYER

StarTripper!!

The Silt Verses

The Strange Case of Starship Iris

Supernatural Sexuality

The Theatre of Tomorrow

They Say a Lot of Things

Tides

Time Bombs

The Two Princes

Unseen

Victoriocity

Welcome to Night Vale

Wolf 359

We Fix Space Junk

Wooden Overcoats

Zero Hours

Shows I’ve not caught up on yet

Primordial Deep

TAZ graduation

What’s The Frequency?

The Beef and Dairy Network

Shows I started but couldn’t finish for one reason or another so there’s no need to recommend them to me

The 12:37

Alba Salix

The Alexandria Archives

Ars Paradoxica

Blackwood

The Bridge

EOS 10

Fantasy High / Dimension 20

(Actually most improv/actual play podcasts I’ve tried like rqg/fatt/naddpod etc)

Hello from the Magic Tavern

Kakos Industries

King Falls AM

Limetown

Our Fair City

Stellar Firma

Superstition

Wormwood

[melyaliz]

Uuuuuh I think I might not be Not as Straight™️ as I thought and now I’m having a small crisis over my orientation and how deep my internalized homophobia goes for me to not have realized it sooner... there, I said it

Sorry this took a second to respond I‘m at work and wanted to take the time to send you a proper response

I’m sorry you are struggling, I hate hearing any of my friends are not having a happy moment in their lives. That being said, what would help with your crisis? Is it more the Accepting that maybe you are attracted to someone you didn’t think you would be or that maybe the person you were isn’t someone you want to be any more. (Homophobia is such a horrible word, please don’t think so negative about yourself. You are just trying to understand yourself and name calling won’t help) or something totally different?

I understand people’s needs for labels, it helps them to identity with how they are feeling in certain moments or with certain people. However, at the end of the day you are you, it’s ok if you haven’t figured out a certain label for part of you, you are still the whole you and the whole you is a beautiful wonderful person. (Does this make sense or am I just saying the word you a ton)

I’m always here to talk it out love regardless.

[chronic-doe]

I gotta get this out so imma say it here..

when I was 16 I was told I had emerging borderline personality disorder and by 18 I was officially diagnosed. I went through years of hospital and psychiatrists and therapists that did not help me, in some instances saw the bpd and told me I was untreatable or said I would be in and out of hospital for the rest of my life. I’m now 23, and 20 months ago I started a specialist bpd treatment by an absolutely fantastic therapy team and I know I’m fucking lucky to have the NHS. I now have been told I don’t meet the criteria for bpd, (though I still suffer from bad anxiety and bouts of depression) which is something I never would have thought possible.

I have tried a whole cocktail of medication but now I’m on nothing, and it’s okay. it’s the most successful I’ve ever been coming off medication.

the treatment is split into group therapy and individual therapy each once a week. I am almost finished as the program is meant to be 18 months but because of some changes in the beginning of my treatment it has been longer (we moved buildings twice thanks nhs funding).

I have my last group today and my last individual tomorrow and I am petrified about the emotions I will show and other people will show towards me. my life has changed massively since I started in a really scary way for me, as I was used to my only relationships being with services and very mentally ill people.

so yeah, I’m nervous about today and tomorrow, about the future and about my ability to cope so I thought I’d write it all out here.. I hope that anyone suffering from mental illness finds the right person to help them, and know that you can and will get to a more stable place where you are more in control of your life. sometimes recovery is even possible.. I don’t really know where I’m going with this.

just, damn, who knew all it took to help me was a small three person team of empathetic, understanding people. it makes me angry that I didn’t have it earlier, but at least I have it now. It’s so frustrating though to know that if time, effort and money was invested in the short and medium term for mentally ill people, the possibilities are endless for the long term. if they’re not, things will never change for us.

[loverdeluxe]

I liked ally’s idea so here’s a list of people I’m very thankful for and love lots, y’all are amazing

@alisonsmouth : words can’t describe how much I love you you’re the best and I’m so thankful to know someone like you. I really hope taylor will notice you soon cause it’s what you deserve (and so much more)

@imsoproudoftaylor : pauline I miss and love you so much meeting you was everything and I’m so glad you got to meet taylor. i really hope we’ll meet again and go to a show together!!

@whilehavingcoffeeeallalone : queen of the memes I love you you’re so funny and beautiful and cute so glad to know you you deserve all the good things

@spendsmysantachange : love of my life you own my heart literally the sweetest person ever I still remember how before we started talking you tagged me in the cutest blog list and I had *heart eyes* for you

@dancearoundallalone : ariana i love you sm you’re the nicest person and I love the soft and nice text posts you always reblog and everything you post

@lovestory1989 : noor I literally love you so so much and I wish I’ll hug you one day you’re so strong and lovely and the nicest person thank you for always being so nice to me and to everyone you deserve nothing but happiness

@getawaycarmp4 : clément you’re the funniest person and iconic af. I love you and how we share the same stan songs (the best stan songs) and you better already be on the ts7 secret session list

@ithinkiknowhereyoubelong : I love you!! you’re so beautiful and great and make up queen you make me happy and you should meet taylor sometimes, soon @ taylor

@taylorsreputation13 : you’re really the nicest person I love you and so happy you got to meet taylor like you deserve also you deserve the world

@ciwyw2 : literally love you soo much!! you’re so nice to me and to everyone and make such great edits that I always love

@iam-your-daisy : hasti!! I love you endlessly!! queen of edits and every time I get a notification from you I’m automatically happy keep on being amazing

@speaknov : beg I love you so much and miss talking with you you always make me happy and you’re the sweetest I could put you in my pocket

@ifoundtaylor13 : flo you’re really so nice and great I’m happy we got to meet (tho we didn’t take a picture ugh) also happy you met taylor i love you!

@wondertaytay : you were one of my first friends here and I’m so happy to know you I love you and I miss the times when we talked a lot (also, sweeter than fiction? we stan)

@bleachellataylor : yo I love you you’re literally gorgeous?? I’m still shocked. I love how much you love bleachella, we do stan bleachella. april you’re great and I’m happy to know you

@ikywts : ho ho holy shit you’re incredible and so funny really and we don’t talk much but I love your blog and you lots

@magic-madness-heaven : you’re!! so nice!! and incredible!! I’m so happy you met taylor and you deserve all good things love you

@lomglive : josie I love you and talking with you you’re so nice and cute what would I do without you and don’t give up on guitar if you love it it takes time but you’re gonna be great in it (I’m sure you already are)

@ihearttaylorswift : I love (heart) you sm um you’re so great and beautiful and seeing you on my dash is always the best and makes me happy

@thatwasthenightthingschanged : sarah we’ve recently started interacting and I’m glad we did cause you’re awesome and always help others also congrats again on the driver’s license

@comebackbehere : I love you and not only bc of your url lol lol we stan anyway I also love your edits and how great you are and nice and your memes :)

@treachreous : the way we started talking is really funny haha I’m glad we did tho, ily and I still don’t know what your tour outfit looked like so pls? show me?

@thatonedollar : love you so much your blog is so good *heart eyes* you deserve the world and more than one dollar ;)

@heartsremainbreakable : you’re so great Ily and how you always stand for what’s right like everyone should thanks for tagging me in your follow lists oof

@slayloralisonswiftie @hanukkahswift : I have no idea where you girls are but I miss you so much and becca I’m so happy I got to meet you I miss you!

@itsswiftmas : I’m so glad taylor liked your post recently and Ily you’re so great and nice!!!

@madeurmarkonme : already told you how important you’re in this fandom but I’ll tell you again Ily and I really hope you’ll meet taylor soon

@betterthanrevenge @stumbleon-hometomycats : israeli queens I wish we met in london like we should’ve ily hope we still meet one day

@taylorswiftdebut : I think you were one of my first friends here Ily and I’m not mad at you ally also I miss the times when we talked a lot

@in-my-dreams-13 : we’ve been talking for so long now and it’s so fun talking with you!! ily

@callitwhatyouwnt @xcleanx @youcanmeetmeunderthemistletoe @imhereonthekitchenfloor @tayloraswift @chainroundmyneck13 @sheerioswifties @whataswift @safetaysound @and-we-ruun @loveisbraveandwild13 @taylor-is-shining @theswiftreputation @swiftlyfindingmyplaceinthisworld @ownheartbeating @dressisaqualitysong : we barely talked but yall are great ily and I always love seeing you on my dash and notifications

I’m so sorry if I forgot anyone!!!!

[badgertablet]

Hi, sorry to bother you, but whats your opinion on Papyton? Sorry if it's already been asked!

oh nonny its perfectly fine!! i dont mind at all uwuwu 

i dont really ship it, haha. i dont really think they would make a healthy romantic relationship, but thats based on the king mettaton ending– mettaton is really self absorbed, in like a legit way while papyrus is ‘self absorbed’ because he doesnt really have any friends, and honestly that combo of narssistic person/love-deprived person really rubs me the wrong way. in the king mettaton ending (where he only rly interacts w pap in the whole game) mettaton is like ‘economic collapse? education problems?… doesn’t matter!!’ he straight up doesnt care that things are falling apart because he still has fame and is being worshipped while in contrast to the king pap ending pap pretends to put on a brave face until sans leaves, where he reveals that everything is really hard in the underground. mettaton covers everything bad up as long as he gets love, and papyrus attempts to make things better (i.e. the food he makes for the citizens). also in my opinon they would have a major power imbalance which is unhealthy and possibly abusive because pap hero worships mettaton like all of his beloved fans while… mettaon doesnt really  have an opinon on him. mettaton doesnt even know his name he just says ‘my other agent’ which is like wooooooah there thats not gucci also they dont ever really… interact? at all? when they do pap is covering for him– saying (im paraphrasing here bc its late and im tired just believe me pwease) ‘everything is cool!! except people who dont like mettaton keep going missing!! and undyne is gone!! she didnt rly like his show but whatever lol shes gone i miss her so much but its fineeeee’ and that sends off red flags in my lil ace mind for u~n~h~e~a~l~t~h~i~n~e~s~s  

their canon dynamic to me is suuuuper unhealthy if they ever got together, but in fanon (the good kind) its alright! 

 tdlr;; its not my fav bc in my interp of canon they would have an unhealthy relationship, but if u ship it thats hella cool!! i ship it in like fanon where everything is okay ig– anyways, i 100% support u and will fite ppl for u my dudes just hmu. im not gonna go looking for papyton, but if cute fanart comes on my feed i might reblog it lol

REAL tdlr; im alright w it as long as u dont shove it in my face

[pilot-terra]

The reason you lived

Blisk tells Cooper why he was spared.

————————

Though he’d never admit it, working for the apex predators wasn’t all that bad. Despite the whole instability of the members, they turned out to be more human than he previously thought. Kane had a little sister that he cared for with all his heart, Ash loved animals more than almost anything else, Richter just sounded scary because he still didn’t know how to use the correct tones in English, Slone had a common fear like everyone else, Viper had a family, Terra fights for those she still had left to love, and Blisk had a kid. There was still the atmosphere of the rough past, but it seemed more like water under the bridge when it wasn’t brought up.

Over time, Blisk seemed less mischievous toward Cooper, like the others where. Cooper still thought that odd, considering the fact that he killed all his friends once. Even when the topic was brought up, Blisk was always the only one who didn’t get upset about it. At first, Cooper assumed it was because he wasn’t dead at one point, but he later found out that it was for an entirely different reason.

During one particular job, Cooper heard a call on the private com system. It was from Blisk. Cooper wondered what it could be, could be something important or something else. It has always hard to tell with these people. Nevertheless, Cooper answered. “Yeah, what do you need?” He wanted to get this over with.

“How close were you to Lastimosa?” That was a weird question, considering the fact that Cooper had never mentioned anything like it to any of the predators. “How do you know about him and why do you want to know?” Cooper remembered that Blisk was responsible for the late captain’s death, it was something he never forgot. “I saw him in your file and wanted to know.” Okay, it was one thing to look through his file, but bringing up someone close to Cooper that he lost, and the person bringing that up being his killer, it just felt wrong.

“Okay, but why do you want to know?”

“Answer my question, and I’ll answer yours.” Blisk spend no time getting to the point. Cooper sighed and began. “He was my capitan, he taught me everything he knew about being a pilot. He even gave me his titan as his last action in life. Everything I am is because of him. Now, why did you want to know about him?” Cooper was not going to give anything else until he got some information for himself.

After a moment, Blisk answered. “I guess you should know this by now. I used to know Tai, personally. And we were not just friends. Even after I started working more with the IMC, we still found ourselves drawn back together. Even managed to convince me to adopt Vulpes in the first place. I loved him. Hell, I think I still do.” Cooper could not believe what he was hearing. Blisk? And Lastimiosa?! It couldn’t be real. But Blisk was serious. And that only made Cooper madder.

“Then why did you kill him?!” He just blurted it out without thinking. But he was too angry to think straight. “Because I didn’t know it was him! If I could, I would go back and save hbut I can’t!” Blisk has snapped back his answer, but he didn’t just sound angry. He sounded... sad. There was a sigh from Blisk as he calmed back down. “I did love him. And it destroyed me on the inside when I found out I killed him. And that was just after you killed Slone.” There was no more anger in Blisk’s voice, just sadness. Cooper suddenly felt bad for Blisk, he wasn’t any less mad, but he pitied him.

After a minute, Blisk spoke again. “And, realizing that, I connected some dots and figured out that you must have been someone close to Tai in order to be the new pilot of his titan. I could have killed you, you know. But I didn’t want to destroy something he may have cared about. So I made up an excuse about the contract and just hoped you’d survive. So, excluding the whole arc fold weapon thing, Lastimosa was the reason you lived when faced with me.”

Cooper waited for a “not really” or “did you really fall for that?” But nothing. Just silence. Then Blisk spoke again. “I’ll leave you to your mission. Blisk out.” Before Blisk hung up, Cooper got the last word in. “You know, you just might have a heart after all.” He heard Blisk let out a small laugh before hanging up. Maybe, these people weren’t so bad, after all.

[ssehuns]

whats your opinion on rupi kaur? i really like your writing and want to hear your opinion

First of all, thank you so much! I personally am not a huge fan of Rupi Kaur’s work on a whole. Mainly because I think her style is contrived and overly simplistic. I don’t think it requires that much talent to replicate. She’s a success story for the “tumblr/insta poetry” phenomena. She uses no punctuation and her works are often short to the point of ridiculousness. (I’m aware that she doesn’t use capitalization or anything but periods because gurmukhi script doesn’t but this is from a purely stylistic point of view) Here’s a poem I wrote using her style in ten seconds:

he ran awaywhen he discoveredi wasn’t as dreamlikeas he liked his womento be

As you can see, it’s pretty much indistinguishable from something from Milk and Honey. Don’t get me wrong though, this style is very effective for her more explicit poems. This poem hits me hard, and it’s what I wish the rest of her work was like:

he guts herwith his fingerslike he’s scrapingthe inside of acantaloupe clean

It’s succinct yet the length means it can convey a huge amount of emotion in a small amount of words. It’s use of simile and imagery are, again, hugely impactful. This is an example of her style done right, but it isn’t the majority. Most of them sound like this:

I didn’t leave because I stopped loving you, I left because the longer I stayed the less I loved myself.

It’s so ineffective and doesn’t convey nearly as much emotion as the first one because it’s so vague. She says she’s a voice for marginalized (esp Punjabi) women and I can see that in poems like the first. But the second is so vague, and could be the experience of any girl who went through a semi-tough breakup ever. And I know the universalizing nature of its appeal, but it makes the poetry so less potent.

She is a success story though, and there is a reason for that. Her work resonates with many people, and its small form makes it much less daunting than Shakespeare’s sonnets. She also brings up the super important topic of women’s empowerment through discussions of her own trauma (which is where her poetry is the most effective and potent). I also appreciate that she’s a stepping stone for young girls into poetry who might not have otherwise turned to it.

To conclude, I think that her style is contrived but it does work when she talks about trauma. It gets really weak when they become vague poems about breakups or women’s empowerment

[plasticpolymerpotato]

It really was a good chapter.

Mob finally accepts himself. Everything he did, everything he felt. 

Tsubomi rejects Mob’s confession, but that was obvious. She doesn’t know the current Mob that much. Dimple tells him, “hey, at least she was waiting for you”. She took the deal seriously, waited for him to come, and gave her honest answer. But she didn’t reject Mob himself. For Mob, she was formally out of his league, a pipe dream, hoping to one day “hold hands, and walk home together”. Now, even though he was rejected, he is closer to what they originally were: a friend. And he still has a chance. She said “I can’t see you as someone of opposite sex yet”.

and Reigen.

Reigen is finally honest with himself, not just to Mob. He confess he doesn’t have powers, but that doesn’t budge ???. They already know he is a liar. They know he is a pretender. ??? said he can’t be trusted. He is just trying to use Mob. Even Reigen knows that Mob knows. 

And he accepts. He admits, agrees to their glare. And that wavers ???. One, because Reigen would never admit the truth. He would never lower his persona of a “good person”. Second, because he looks so vulnerable. Emotional. 

Because it hurts. It hurts to admit the truth to someone you care for so much. He isn’t what he acts to be. Because he wanted to be something special. And he finally was, not by his profession but as Mob’s mentor. A teacher Mob looks up to. And he was happy to look after him, to help guide Mob through his troubles. But it all started with a lie. And he kept lying. He was using Mob. He was taking advantage of Mob. He was lying to Mob. He was afraid to lose it all if he told the truth. But he confesses. “This is what I truly am. Sorry for posing like your mentor.”

??? is shocked. ??? assumed Reigen was trying to stop Mob because he wants to use him. ??? didn’t expect Reigen to willingly throw away everything. To even let go of the one thing he valued, his pride and connection as a mentor, to help Mob. 

After he admits, Reigen looks like he gave up. It’s all out now, it can’t be taken back. And Reigen accepts. Even if Mob may reject him, he’s on the same level as Mob now. He can talk heart-to-heart, “But let me tell one last thing.” He confess he hates hiding himself too. He says everyone is the same, even him. And he tells the best advice: it’s ok to be troubled by it. That’s normal too. Everything Mob experiences internally is normal. He get’s stuck on his words, because he needs to think of what to say. This isn’t Reigen the mentor, this is the real Reigen talking.

Reigen tells Mob, “You don’t need me anymore.” sounds like Reigen is telling himself too, “It’ll be fine”. You can take care of yourself now. ”It’s time to accept yourself” It’s going to be alright. “You can do this...Mob, I’m know you can do it!”

And that reaches Mob.Even when Reigen confess the truth, and tells him he was posing as one, Mob still calls him Master. “That’s what Master says” Both of them is Mob. That both is equally important. That both must accept each other. ??? objects. But Mob is confident, because he just saw Reigen face his true self, his true fear. And Reigen accepted. “It’s fine”.

[scentofaflower]

Minseok or Sehun

ahhh no :/ but i gotta say sehun 

[acciopyxels]

The cool breeze tickled her rosy cheeks as she walked down the sidewalk, leaves of gold and crimson cascading down around her. There was a hole in her heart that only he could fill. She missed him dearly, despite only having been apart for a few weeks. When they were kids, she never had crushes on any of the other children. She had felt something towards Quinn, but didn’t understand what it was, so she just assumed it was friendship. They spent every moment together. He made her life bearable, with her strict parents that either forgot she existed or scolded her. The moments she shared with him, most of the time far away from her house, were the happiest of her life. He made her so happy, but nervous and excited. Just having him near her made her heartbeat soar. She couldn’t be in love with him... she would know. But maybe that’s the thing: all this time, she misunderstood her feelings towards him, or didn’t even know what they were in the first place. Her pace sped up into a jog as her mind and heart snatched on the same thing: She was in love with her best friend.

[starfleetimagines]

The day I met Garret Wang

The day I met him, I made sure to write down exactly what had happened. So, here is the story of how I met Garret Wang and what happened when I did...

Every year, my city has a convention called Hal-con. It’s where people cosplay, meet actors and authors, and go to vendors with merch for all kinds of fandoms. Back in 2014, it just so happened that Garret Wang was going to Hal-con. My mom and I both bought tickets to meet him and get photos taken with him. Unfortunately, my dad had to work that day and couldn’t join us. But, I was honestly so freaking excited I couldn’t believe that I was going to meet Harry Kim. 

When my mom and I got to the room for the M&G, there weren’t that many people yet so we were able to get near the front of the line. When it was out turn, we decided to get a picture of just Garret and I, then another with the three of us. I went to Garret nervously and he smiled and said, “Hi.”

I replied with, “Hello.”

He looked at the hoodie I was wearing and asked, “What does your sweater say?”

“I eat brains, you’re safe,” I told him, which caused him to laugh. He then wrapped his arm around my waist and we both smiled for the picture.

“It was nice meeting you,” he said.

I then told him, “Oh, actually I’m getting another picture with my mom.”

As my mom made her way over, Garret said, “Get over here, Mom.”

My mom stood between Garret and I, but Garret asked if we wanted him to go in the middle. We both said sure, and he and my mom switched spots. The picture was taken.

“I like your shirt, too,” Garret said to my mom once the picture had been taken.

“Oh, thank you,” my mom said.

“Is it owls inside of an owl?” he asked her. (the shirt was black with a patterned owl in the middle)

“I’m not sure,” my mom said. “Could be.”

I surprised myself by blurting out, “Could I have a hug?”

Garret told my mom, “Well, your shirt is very nice,” then turned to me and said, “Of course you can have a hug.”

He wrapped his arms around me tightly in a bear hug, and I hugged him back just as tight. It lasted for a good five seconds before I pulled away. Then, he pulled me in for another hug and said, “One more.” So, I hugged him again. I mean, I wasn’t going to give up hugging Garret freaking Wang twice. After that hug, he pulled away only slightly before going back in for a third hug. “Comedy comes in threes,” he said whilst we hugged.

I then laughed, too in shock by hugging him for so long to say anything.

Garret turned to face my mom and opened his arms to her. “Hug for Mom, too.” My mom was surprised, but hugged him.

“Oh, this is so exciting,” she gushed as they parted from the hug. “We’re huge Star Trek fans. Of all the series.”

Garret smiled. “Well, thank you. It was nice meeting you two. Follow that lady right there and she’ll lead you to where you get your pictures,” he said as he pointed to the ticket lady.

She laughed while we went over. “That’s completely wrong, Garret. He was trying to follow my orders but failed.”

My mom and I laughed with her.

Garret laughed, then bent over with his arms rigid like a robot. “Shutting down. Does not compute.”

We all laughed again.

The ticket lady said, “I’m actually going to give you this paper and you’ll take it to that desk over there.”

“Thank you,” my mom said as she took the paper. She looked to Garret and thanked him as well.

I looked at Garret for a final time and cheerfully said, “Thank you!”

“You’re welcome. It was nice to meet you,” he said as he waved us goodbye.