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charmac · 10 months ago

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Charmacden

#charlie tattoo #mac doll #dennis cat #:)#wow my life is so cool #totally average way to be a fan of something #personal #that’s not like a private tag btw just like a me tag #OC

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inkskinned · 27 days ago

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you know, you know. no gods, no masters, no kings on pedestals. everyone is fallible. death of the author. you know! you are balanced about your intake of media - you allow the wiggle room, the grace, the gratitude, the skepticism. nobody above criticism.

but still. a weird gut-punch feeling, something akin to betrayal. you read the article. surprise! an author you love is actually: a serial fucking predator.

well, shit. what now. no, you knew he was a person (all people are), but now you're wondering - what have i overlooked by accident? what messages have i internalized that are strange and cruel? and also, like, what the fuck?

his actions lay a thick glaze on top of everything. like each place is now ruined, opaque in a new way. but okay, fine, you've done this before. you knew better, right? you've been betrayed by many a cherished childhood author.

still, this stickiness. fuck. can you pick up that book again. will you read it to your children. you've recommended it to others - will you ever do that again? and of course, of course, no parasocial relationships. you were theoretically above this kind of sentiment. but the artist informs the art, right.

so it's not something as clear-cut as feeling he owed you, specifically (a stranger) better behavior - just that you kind of, in a distant and odd way... sort of trusted him to do better. it's not like a real trust or something speakable, just the faint hope that the product (good books) was a thin representation of the soul. now it feels like the product (good? books?) was a mask. in some small or insignificant way, your previous support of this person lent them power. your money and your time and your laughter.

and the thing is - you have this terrible, echoing sensation. how many times will this happen? over and over. you find out that the singer you love is actually a predator. you learn over drinks that your favorite high school english teacher is in jail for what he did to her. you listen to the news idly and suddenly discover that a woman you used to idolize has been abusing her kids for an actual eon.

what can you touch without the static melting off. you can't even really complain about it too much (you were supposed to know better, and besides, you don't want the same re-split "it's not your fault, love what you love" basic advice), but now it's here. somehow, it feels like - you let him into your life.

it's not that things need to be pure or an artist has to be like, endlessly perfect, mindful. demure. it's more just this terrible truth that has been replayed through your veins so often it feels criminally vain. power corrupts, absolute power corrupts absolutely. did you want any one person to be worth that power?

it's just that he wrote books where he seemed to understand that. he seemed to know about hierarchies and unfair systems and bigotry and privilege. you thought they were books about what it means to struggle. you thought they were about having power and still using it for good rather than for control. he spooned you a narrative of being a good guy, a kind soul. you fucking bought what that fucking monster sold.

maybe that's why they were fantasies, after all.

#spilled ink #warm up #oh im .... sick to my stomach.#i talked to him. like ....... we talked. that man interacted with my poetry and writing.#that article.... gutwrenching. i am so sorry to everyone he's ever even been in the room with.#i feel.... like... unbearably. sick.#he acted like he was cool and friends with me!! we were cool internet writers together!!!!!#i feel sick for even having been polite to him.#i ...... am experiencing something so fucking complicated.#i wonder how many of u are feeling that too. like ''oh i sent him an ask and he was funny and sweet''#THATS HOW THEY GET U. ..... and YES I KNOW!!!#i am so fucking well-read about parasocial relationships. it would just be nice to like. trust that someone ISNT #hiding a huge fucking background of BEING A COMPLETE MONSTER. LIKE WHAT THE FUCK.#by the way i am not part of a fandom. this is “what the fuck i accidentally supported a rapist” not #“but my showww”. like i care far more about like. the human cost.#but also like... people are people. idk i saw a take on here about how nobody should mourn the books #and idk. people almost always reply to any scenario with their personal experience first -#''i knew him'' or ''wow i was just at that store'' or ''i grew up there'' or whatever. because that is how we establish connection &#emotional weight. that's just... a person thing. and there is a difference between 'oh this guy is a monster'' & the feeling of:#he's been a monster and i SUPPORTED THAT. i CELEBRATED him. i !!! a fucking victim myself!!!!!!!!! SUPPORTED . HIM.#i am sick. i feel so much pain for her and everyone he's ever hurt. saying ''the books are ruined'' is i think ... like how people say #they're shocked and disgusted by him. (obviously there's nuance here. im sure there's some creep doin it wrong. but u know. in general)#idk..... im an author. i understand my work is in your life in whatever small way. i understand that connection. it's real.

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icewindandboringhorror · 6 months ago

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I made a few new wax seal stamps out of clay (like the ones I did for my worldbuilding stuff forever ago), this time just of random symbols that I thought might look good done in the style of painting over the raised part of the wax or etc. :0c Some of them aren't carved deep enough to really show up that well, but overall they worked okay for being clay lol

#wax seal #crafts #wax stamp #stationery #Window one is kind of stinky.. I was imagining like a swirly night sky sort of looking thing so it would be a surreal contrast of a night #sky with a window in the middle that shows a daytime sky - but the silver and purple wax kind of mixed too much together #with the black and it just looks very plain black and not all that starry or anything hjbhj.. Of course the eye is probably my favorite #since all I ever do is draw eyes and still like eye imagery for some reason. The four leaf clover is very lumpy and skrunkty but also it wa #the smallest in size out of all of them so was easier to do multiple stamps of just to try it out.#The heart with eyes wax is actually more swirly in person. I wanted it to be a mix of light pink and red and white. and the wax #did kind of all blend together but in person you can definitely see MORE of the intentional swirlyness. in this it just looks plain pink.#I was going to do one eye in the heart but it looked weird. but now two seems too plain. i could have done 3?? in a pattern.. hmm #alas. I wish I could make actual metal ones. With the clay i have to paint them in a thin layer of olive oil before stamping because #otherwise the wax just kind of gets stuck in the grooves of the clay and then you can't pull it up. Very wacky ''unprofessional'' looking #set up where I'm hot gluing circles of sculpey clay to short stumps of a wooden dowel that I sawed apart with a serrated bread knife #and then using an old paintbrush to put olive oil on them whilst holding a spoon over a yankee candle flame hjbjh #ANYWAY.. I think if I were middle class/rich/etc. this would be one of the main things in my crafting room is like.. SO many colors #of wax. and all different custom made stamps designed by me. which could be much more elaborate in actual metal.. muahaha.... >:)c #RHGghhh... I actually don't want to talk much about it since (this is probably just my Obsessed With My Own World Artist Delusions) I #think I have a really cool idea for a game that could genuinely be successful if i ever get to make it and I don't want to give #everything away and spoil the whole plot/concept in hopes that one day I can actually do it - BUT - a game that I'd like to make after the #visual novel I'm making now has partially to do with the main character working as a sort of writer/scribe/artist assistant in an elven #city (set in my world/with my worldbuilding species and versions of elves and etc) and I was thinking of maybe incorporating #somehow being able to collect little writing type items like these like.. you can get different wax seal patterns or pens or etc. when I do #stuff like this in Real Life it always makes me think of that like.. ouh... this is good research.. what it shall be like to be a littol #elf collecting wax seals and such.. indeed... GRR i need to be finished with my current game NOWWW... i MUST work on other #thingss... aughh... ANYWAY.. yay. accomplishment to do One Single Thing other than Sit In The Summer Heat And Rot #though also hilarious as this was the first cool-ish day that was below 80F in a while hgvh #waking up like 'wow.. i actually feel okay today?? like I could do things?? how mysterious.. I wonder why..?? :0'' Its The Weather You Fool #Tis Always The Weather

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yasmeensh · 2 years ago

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Got the Master sword! I believe there is still one more upgrade to go...

Bonus Groose after Link sealed the imprisoned.

#loz #Skyward Sword #skyward sword hd #I'm almost there... this is where I'm at right now #I couldn't have done it without groose :'0 he's such a cool guy #he's a bully yeah but his character development is WOW #I'm on a roll here #just finished my final semester :))) Freeeeeeee #got splatoon 3 for myself as a graduation gift hehe #now... so much art to do #fanfictions and books i want to read #games to play #also lots of life things to do deal with hhhhh #also i gotta work on my storyyyyyy #i'm spending like... 20 minutes after dinner working on it #it's very little #but it's something!!!

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milkweedman · 2 months ago

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finished my hat finally and its super warm and comfy and i keep putting it on and then feeling the strong urge to knit more warm items. and then i take the hat off and can be normal. and then i look at the hat. and im like oh its such a warm and comfy hat though why would i not wear it ? so i put it back on and then the urge returns.

may have knit a cursed hat, basically ?

#pictures to follow at some point #cannot find my phone rn #also its too dark anyway #i am considering embroidering some dead trees on it but i want to knit not embroider #it would look cool but im pleased with it regardless #i think this is the first time in my life ive done the recommended 4 inches of ribbing for an adult hat and wow #i have been missing out. but also knitting those 4 inches of ribbing was terrible so even with that knowledge idk if ill do it again #this post brought to you by waking up at 5 am despite my alarm not going off and then sitting in bed for an hour and a half getting weirder #i really only want my phone to play minecraft tbh but that doesnt make my phone magically appear so #if i still havent found my phone by the time its light out which is not for a while #im going to the store #not for a new phone. becauase im out of food.#an unrelated but necessary task

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bugisbonkerz · 1 year ago

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quality time together <3

(they’ve been sitting there 9 hours)

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rox-of-iu · 1 year ago

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ayo guys guess what time it is again :)) 💜💜

spoiler warning for cultivate ch 41-46

hehe finally scrambled brain enough to be able to catch up and cultivate makes me go 🥰🥰😌🤗😊😊

cultivate of course by @neonghostcat beloved

#cultivate #cultivate: slow life on a monster infested mountain #liushen #mu qingfang #anyway congrats to the newlyweds #no longer has to shake SY like a bug wow hjskdh #also if ur wondering why i formatted it so stupidly and the SY club bit gets cut off so weirdly in the preview #its because i find it inherently funny how YQY gets cut out of the frame sorry hes my favouritest wet rag of a man to bully fjdsfhk #i know poor guy has it rough but not my fault hes so bulliable #anywaqyy OUGH THE PLOT IS THICKENINGG THIS IS SO EXCITING #also mqf my bby beloved ohhhhh i care him so much #yes to everyone who forgor monthly mandatory reminder that i love mqf #anyway i feel like i had lot more to say but head empty. hopefullůy the doodles are conveying my excitement properly when words cant xD #OH YEAH FORGOT TO MENTION #i borrowed the Mu Yue design for the gossip girls club from that one piece from fistfuloflightning #sorry if youre not cool with that i just love that piece so much it made me so emotional the first time i saw it i love it dearly #so i yoinked your mu yue for the background sorry aha

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werewolfest · 1 year ago

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I do not know if we were right

#redo of an old left hand piece I have a love hate relationship w #it’s gratifying to see that my overall drawing abilities have improved but color still eludes me…#the left hand of darkness #tlhod #I put the old piece on a layer under everything for reference n accidentally turned it on but I was like wow. that looks cool as fuck #so it stays #anyway snow is the best thing ever. to draw and in life #would live on gethen happily #my art

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lizzybeeee · 1 month ago

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Blessed in that I have only one hyperfixation...cursed because that fixation is Dragon Age.

#datv triples the damage #i have no real life peeps who know enough about dragon age for me to talk to them without being like a kindy kid going on about their day #“yeah thats great - oh wow - so cool. uh huh. yeah.”#tbh it's status as 'hyperfixation' has lessened a lot since datv #and not just venting - i want to talk to them about stupid shit like why blackwall needs the cheese shield and banana sword #someone to dig into my psyche about why ferelden men have been living in my head rent free for a decade #someone to understand my desire to scan the brains of a dragon age fan and elder scrolls fan and show me whats going on in there #i do have a life outside of tumblr and dragon age lmao #but it's been my 'go to' thing to draw from because i could always find a fun character to draw - and drawing is my main hobby?#so it has a very special place in my heart - especially Inquisition -> that game got me into drawing in the first place #*looks at all my lore books and sighs*

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liauditore · 9 months ago

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BDUBS DAY! BDUBS DAY! BDUBS DAY! BDUBS DAY! BDUBS DAY! BDUBS DAY! BDUBS DAY! BDUBS DAY! BDUBS DAY! BDUBS DAY!

#hermitaday #bdubs fanart #bdouble0 fanart #hermitcraft fanart #hermitblr #my art #bdubs #im so happy #a day where i get to draw bdubs is a good day #my favourite guy. lich rally.#this is one of the softer bdubs i've drawn i think..#as much as high energy matches him 99% of the time idk idk he's so sweet that 1% of the time #and this season rlly has me feeling that. secret life rlly changed alot of these mfs in my head.#secret life is such amazing pay off for the whole life series im always saying tihs #anyway yeah insanity aside his builds this season have been so incredible i know bdubs builds are bdubs builds but like. wow #i think we should all appreciate idk. the way he plays w/ scale #makes a tiny box house that's like 6 blocks tall and it somehow looks so detailed like if you squint it could be an oil painting #and those trees. idk what else to say man. those trees.#anyway (insanity goggles on again) bdubs living far off happily in his cottage a bit off the grid. makes me so happy.#idk. bdubs learning to chill. it's so awesome.#his interactions with etho joel and pearl have been so cool to see #ethubs is gonna ethubs #but him and pearl are so funny together too. i love the kinda? sheepishness he talks to her with lol #and joel. i haven't quite figured out exactly what's going on between him and joel but i like it.#i think. bdubs wants to hit joel with sticks. but in like. an oh you rascal kinda way. little troublemaker you #i don't fuck with familial headcanons and I don't like assigning people parental roles. But.#coughs. okay that's enough.#i love bdubs alot he's my favourite. good night guys.

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fraternum-momentum · 5 days ago

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GIRL WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT !! that rendering looks so goddamn good!!

THANK YOU,,, but its just ik every artist goes thru this period a lot of times but rn i feel like my art isnt at a level that i want it to be and its so FRUSTRATINGG like grating my teeth pulling my hair biting my fist levels of frustrating

#sorry im gonna use this ask to type out my current frustrations #like theres so many things i can improve on and stuff #and recently i just havent been making illustrations and i kinda miss doing those but AUGHHHHHHH I DONT KNOW I DONT KNWOWWWWW #and im just like i want to do a million things but i have to finish a million other things and i want to try this and that out #and i want my style to be this but oh thats also cute #LIKE OK i know its bad to compare yourself to other people all the time but i was scrolling thru insta to look at art and stuff and #i jusy kinda went wow what am i doing with my life but like in an art sense #all these people are making incredible things and im just kinda here and IDKKKKKKKWKEWNEIEJWSNWJJ2JENE ITS SO. ANNOYING.#whatever its such a non issue anwy #thank you again though #franswers #wait this is a cute picture #cool bear picture

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taamlok · 2 months ago

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I need to talk about this scene and how much it means to me as an autistic person. The things Taash describes are so, so painfully relatable to me. But really what gets me about this scene is Rook's dialogue. To be able to say me too, that I have to mask and imitating what "normal" people do in order to get by? That this is a practiced skill, and sometimes it's hard to employ? I have never, EVER seen that part of myself represented so authentically. I've had this exact conversation with my therapist during my diagnosis process. I've had this conversation with my parents, my siblings, my friends. I know the sting of when the mask slips and people you care about don't like what's underneath.

To be able to play as a character who experiences that, not as a headcanon but as a real conversation I can have in-game? For Rook to be able to connect with someone not in spite of this feeling but because of it? And for Taash to smile and say "you don't have to do that with me"... that just means everything. I'm so grateful for this character.

#this is a very vulnerable post so i'm not putting it in the main tags or making it rebloggable hope you understand lol #i went most of my life feeling like a freak and then when i finally got diagnosed i thought “now i know what's wrong! i can learn to fit”#turns out no lmao the freak feeling is forever but you just get better at not caring about it #i live by shokra toh ebra. i get it. and it's so cool that my favourite character gets it too and we can actually TALK about it #like it's not just subtext or headcanon. they actually just had that conversation. they get to be autistic together wow wow wow #to be loved is to be seen etc

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gridgamesgalore · 3 days ago

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really need to make my introduction post but im currently insane right now so I have to go on a tangent

[ note; this will not be professional writing pls bear w/ me i misspell things on purpose unless pointed out by myself so pleek pleeek ( i also refer to xfohv as jnj sometimes for clarification ) + there will be mentions of learningblocks related content just a heads up before any people call me weird for fixating on a " show for toddlers " ]

hello !! lowjay the order the karnage here !! so um ,, im here to talk about the 2 , 763 , OOO JnJ sub special ,, that shit was absolutely phenomenal .. insane even .. it altered my brain chemistry and I HAVE to talk about it ,,

spoilers for the 2 , 763 , OOO special if you haven't seen it ♡♡♡ (please watch it pleek)

I really need to mention this creature's appearance first . ALGEBRALIEN TWENTY-FOUR IS CANON !!! OH MY GOD THIS GUY IS SO RAHHHH !! /VVVVPOS lowjay try not to get attachrd to the most random characters / things ever !! ( impossible) THIS CREATURE IS MAKING ME TWEAK OUT ,, EXPECT A GIJINK OF THEM SOON!! /BALL (fun fact !! one of my closest moots calls them gijinks of algebraliens jnjinkas ♡♡♡ /silly)

( just want to let yall know i crosship them and twenty-four nbs ♡♡ is that oak ,, I love being a multishipper )

NEXT NEXT NEXT NEXT arguably the most important ever piece of lore in jnj / beefydie history has to be the canonical powerful being 2763 ♡♡♡ this creature is so silly :ball:

[ next paragraph will be a somewhat lengthy tangent about a crossover au w/ beefydie + nbs ( numberblocks woah ! ) so pleek listen ]

so w / this information about 2763 being the canonical powerful being of the beefydie , i wonder .. does this mean that if 97104 got figured out they would be one of the powerful beings of nbs ?? ( ahem the others are one , zero , and possibly forty-two because hitchhiker ' s guide to galaxy hh ) THINK ABOUT IT ♡♡♡♡♡ PLES PLEEK (fun fact !! the digits of 97104 added up together equals 21 ! /info !! is this the reason she is curious to find out new explorer ?? spoiler warning ; probably not i just might be mentally ill ) /ball ,, ANYWAYS ,, what i was getting to is that the plot of this au is basically just both nbs 24 and algebralien 24 grouping up w / several other people (will decide that later because I literally just thought this au up an hour after the special) to overcome the dreadful disasterly deeds of 97104 and 2763 ♡♡♡ (captain underpants ahh alliteration) yeah all that hype for nothing ♡♡ sorry i just really need to share this ♡♡♡ trust trust TRUST i will make fanart of this au TRUST ♡♡♡ /SILLY

( THESE TWO ARE CANON TRUST )

this isn't really a big thing but more of an honorable mention ♡ I really liek the zero ' we can do it ! ' poster ♡♡♡ i find propaganda posters interesting in general ♡♡♡ /gen /pos

( i know what you are ,, fifteen simp ,, )

another long yapping session but I NEED to talk about my joyous enthusiasm ,, I'm so happy that in the jnj / xfohv / beefydie verse algebralien tweb is an important piece of lore which makes me hfhdhsjjsjekrghhhGRRRRR ,,,, froth at the mouth ,, because I dont think you guys understand how much the number tweb in general means to me ,, not only is tweb the first ever whole number to have 6 factors [ rectangly number in bluezoo terms ] their debut in nbs most likely highly impacted the learningblocks community in general ,, nbs tweb is so cool and the existence of the peak number system dozenal and the passage of time revolving around tweb and numbers RELATED to tweb [ PLEASE watch the about time special even if you aren't interested in nbs or already know it's very silly trust ] and yeah and did i mention the dozenal system hhhh [ as you can see i am very normal about different number bases / radixes ] /VVVPOS

( silly !! )

ending off w / an honorable mention ,, algebralien 63 !! they are really cool woah ♡♡ I really lobe when jnj introduces new algebraliens ♡♡♡ /vpos

anyway that was my long yap session ,, I realy hope you liek my existence of here ♡♡♡♡ this special changed my life and I am literally feeling ball rn ♡♡♡

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icewindandboringhorror · 1 month ago

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Still always looking for ways to use this cardigan in things because I really like all the silly little pictures on it, but it doesn't match with much since it's such a bright pinky kind of color. but is similar to these very fluffy shoes lol

#mori kei #ish... i guess lol #jfashion #ootd #The ancient sparkle tights making a reappearance. I think Ive had them for like 12 years lol #Many of the stones have fallen off and been glued back on #self #oh if only I weren't the most hot natured person on the planet.. so I could actually wear such heavy coat things outside #I mean in daily life I am indeed layered head to toe even in the summer but like.. light layers.#I could NEVER wear a thick sweater or knit cardigan or etc. in daily activities. even in the middle of winter #It can be like 25F outside I will still start sweating if I have too heavy of a coat on.#I don't like being touched without clear notification and permission (no spontanous hugs or etc) since #I just dont like the sudden sensory jarringness of unexpectdly having someone in my personal space and etc #so I really don't make contact with others often at all even people I live with or etc #But occasionally with a close friend or family member our hands might touch for some reason (handing them something. comparing #hand size or color. etc.) and people are ALWAYS like 'wow oh my god why are you so hot?' or like 'oh your hand is so freakishly warm'#lol.. It is I.. the wizard with blood of fire... sadly cursed to never wear cool little cardigans and knit things..#also this is the primary root of my hatred for summer. Putting me in any environmnet over like 65F degrees is like... impossible for me #to stay cool.. .. wintertime my beloved... global warming my BELOATHED

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birdie-ghost · 12 days ago

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AP chemistry moment

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glauces-notebooks · 7 months ago

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rewatching night at the museum for the first time in a while and wow. i missed this film.

#JEDTAVIUS #MY BELOVEDS #got into a heated argument w my brother on jedediah's name #cause no he isnt called JEREMY #thats bmc #thx robin williams for teaching me what teddy roosevelt did since my history teacher sure didnt #as much as i love this movie sadly i can ignore the plot holes #how did larry manage to learn enough things about the majority of the stuff at the museum #in a day #teach me your ways #Opinions on the animals?#the t rex is a treasure #fuck dexter tho #i dont wanna see that primate ever again in my life #btw its so funny how teddy talking to ahkmenrah is like #HA! YOU DIDNT GO OUT FOR 54 YEARS SURE AS HELL IM NOT FREEING YOU TONIGHT #meanwhile 2 nights later #idk how y'all watched the film but in the italian dub ahkmenrah has the most OUTRAGEOUS british accent #and while he probably has it even in english in italian it sounds very weird and very funny #a new thing crossed my mind this rewatch tho #wow those are civil war fighters. would have been cool to have the founding fathers too.#soooooo did anyone write a night at the museum au for hamilton #asking for a friend #and if someone is actually reading this.#Idk how much ive written but people dont you have anything better to do than to read my thoughts on this 2006 film #(thank you for reading my thoughts on this 2006 film)#lastquickthought #rebecca fangirling over sakagawea is me at convention w cosplayers #thanks for coming to the impromptu ted talk #ig???

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