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yeah unfortunately do have to agree with the redditors that the later seasons arent As good. it feels less organic and too many gimmick episodes.. Iâm on season 15 rn and itâs the worst by far to me
#thereâs still plenty of good stuff in there but at this point the last ep I all around liked was âthe gang textsâ#ok wait I liked that detective noir parody one too#also this isnt a real criticism bc the actors are real people who can do whatever the fuck they want with their bodies but#I liked the way they just looked like very very average people for the most part and now that a couple of the actors have had#work done its a little distracting#Esp with Mac actually being fucking shredded now#Sincr a lot of the old gags with him are his inflated self image wrt strength and etc#I wish they would lampshade it a little. acknowledge it in-universe#Idk Dennis already had been drugging him make it HGH this time I dont give a fuck
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its so hard to watch time pass when things like careers and assignments exist. what do you mean im supposed to take that seriously
#I have an assignment that was due a week ago and I really really dont want to do it. I have to but i dont want to#im probably making it worse because my brain has built a wall around it so now i canât do literally anything else until thats done. but#because I donât want to do it Iâm just kinda stuck. turns out this is what they meant when they said emotional regulation is part of#exec dysfunction.. Iâll have a thought like if I get a little bit of it done now i can get it over with. I can just submit something#and then not even 5 minutes later itll be like ugh but I have to draw all the assets out. I have to write things and make spreads ugh#and its just flopping between those two things. i hate it when ppl are like well how much time do you need to work on one thing#because BOY id love to know too. Iâd love to know exactly when my brain wants to cooperate with me and work around that but I cant#even my period canât decide when it wants to punch me in the stomach. which is kinda funny in the grand scheme of things but still#its so weird im just lying on my bed thinking abt all this like damn.. the time will pass anyways no matter what I decide to do.. damnâŠ.#if I submit that assignment now and take the L I literally wonât die. itâll just be a deduction on an assignment nobody will ask me about#I know this but Iâm still stressing myself about it so my thoughts arenât really connecting to my body. weird#maybe its because Im having a hard time looking forward to things. theres definitely a lot I should be living for but I donât really feel#a strong attachment to it I guess? itâs been like this for a while with holidays and meeting with friends so I just donât#I kinda figured its because im pretty passionless and its more like passing interest. but itâs not very fun when it feels like Iâm going to#be living distraction to distraction for the next 70 years or so lol#idk it kind of feels like slowly bleeding out. which is funny because I actually did experience blood loss this week#had a 30 minute nosebleed and literally could not stand. also it felt like someone was pinching the back of my brain which was interesting#yapping#does this count as vent#vent#Ive just been making an oc carrd and contemplate changing my blog header for the past 3 days honestly
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4th AF attack for @flyingspicerack ! this one is a REVENGE. enjoy the maoichi hehe :3
#ghost's doodles#oso san posting#ghost's artfight attacks#RAAAGHHHHH ITS FINALLY DONE.... IVE BEEN TOO DISTRACTED AND I FINALLY GOT TIME TO WORK AND FINISH THIS#YEAAAAHHHHH I HEART MAOICHI!!!#*WEARING A SHIRT WITH âI <3 MAOICHIâ ON IT* RAAAAAAAAAAAAGHHHHHHHHHHHHHH#ok ngl. the cat gave me trouble. i had to look up so many ref pics of ichi with cats from the show cus i didnt know how they looked like#i think the little guy turned out ok tho :3#ENJOYYYYYY
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bedtime nowww probably ummm today qas not what i wanted it 2 be but its fine. i dont feel negative just a very very very numb day which is almost worse. but only almost đ
#i did get thr laundry done didnt fold it didnt take a shower#so thatll hopefuly be tmrw#i hope im able to do an activity with somebody tmrw.... the kids will be back at school so umm. no risk of weeman asking for my laptop in#the morning. or maybe me n lamp could play aa... idk#i feel like such a loser i go 1 day without bothering my family and im like wahhh im lonely. Can you shut up ..... we r better than this.#but wtvr. thats also a mean thought and i shouldnt be idolizing the way i lived last year. We were taking spongebaths and eating#1 bowl of soup a day crying ourselves to sleep every night and literally going weeks on end wo talking to our loved ones. so why am i like#We need to go back ! well i know why its bc i cant just let myself heal and move on bc of my stupid complex#and tbf i was very efficient back then. i ws able to do my spongebaths at least every 3 days and i did my laundry every week right on#schedule and i had a job....all it took was literally not being a person in any meaningful way FJFNGJGN. idk#it was very simple. its still very simple perhaps simpler (#no job) but instead i just feel guilty i guess. sbt everything#which i ws doing last year but again i was too out of it to rly dwell. i just cried at work a lot abt it#but now its like. i dont have a job to go to to focus on. my interests/hobbies can only distract me for a few days maximum b4 they become#nothing 2 me. and then im just back in limbo again and it feels pointless#and even when its a 'good' phase of something actually keeping me distracted from everything its like. not. all it does is ruin my sleep#schedule again yk. ik im literally the timeloop guy so u think id loveee Everyday being exactly the same over and over and over but well i#dont. bc they arent actually the same day theyre just reminders that everything does keep fucking going but im stuck. which is the opposite#of what i want. and what id have if the beautiful timeloop would simply rescue me. wtvr tho.... she doesnt even know i exist đ„#little joke. IDK. like i said its better ig than having a truly miserable day but. man. i wish everything was better#i ws gonna say like it used to be but. yk. ive been depressed since i was like 7 its not like. idk. i wish i was born different and i wish#my head worked and i wish none of it had evrr happened. but itis ok. i cant think of a funny cutesy alternative to put here so we will just#say nothing. yay
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was gonna say smth else but this turned into a vent sorry everyone just ignore. typical weekend post on this blog u know how it is here we gođ
#wild ik so many ppl getting married meanwhile im over here struggling to convince myself my friends even care abt me or want me around#pathetic to admit but i cant even fantasise abt someone loving me bc im too insecure n emotionally unstable#my mind just shoots the idea down like whoa. unrealistic. ur incapable of expressing or receiving affection in any way that matters#no matter how badly u want to... and even if someone did well u wouldnt believe them most of the time#gotta get out of the fucking labyrinth first i couldnt inflict this shit on anyone i cared abt#but it makes me so desperately sad sometimes i dont know how im ever going to get out of this ive been trying for years and years#and im a little better at it snd i dont feel like this all of the time i know it just comes around and itll pass again#but im tired of being in so much emotional pain so frequently. and shouldering it so alone. theres such a disconnect between myself and#others and i dont know how to bridge that i don't know how to stop feeling so isolated and unwanted !!!!!! im trying so hard#it doesnt even bother me w relative strangers in my life like i dont get insecure at all around them i like meeting new ppl#bc theres like. no expectations i guess. like ik they dont care abt me personally and idk them well enough to do that either#and its fun but it doesnt satisfy needs that i have like i need to feel close + connected to ppl i need to care abt them + feel cared for#but as soon as i do start to care abt ppl it gets all tangled and i end up getting rly badly hurt over and over. thru no fault but my own#bc im constantly alienating myself and bc i struggle so much w shit like physical affection which is frustratingly rly critical for me!!!!#it wouldnt fucking matter if i didnt like or want affection ik some ppl are fine without i wish it worked like that for me#but nope instead i have to be constantly messed up over my complete fucking inability to express myself in any form#and ik it makes everyone around me so uncomfortable so it just becomes self reinforcing and eventually they drift and leave me behind#and i just do that over and over and over and every time ill tell myself ill do better ill try harder and itll get easier and someone will#and it happens again and right now im at the stage where the abandonment fear is starting to kick in which is awful n paralysing#and usually a precursor to actually being abandoned ehich is always my own fault bc i start behaving so erratically out of fear or defense#its self fulfilling and im trying. im trying so hard not to let it overwhelm me again and not to start acting out and freaking ppl out#and im coping with it okay i think but just hurts me a lot its all internal my rejection sensitivity is gradually ticking up and up#and argh!!!!!!!!! and some days im okay and some days its like this and i dont know what todo when its like this im so tired and in pain#its not even that bad today tbf. once im done typing this to get it out ill be able to do smth else and distract mysrlf for a bit#and then calling friends later too so exposure therapy innit. but itll be fun and i love them but i will probably also feel very bad after#or even possibly during but thats okay ill still manage fine im not going to let it interfere i dont want it controlling my fucking life#i am going to have a nice time and be okay despite it all. even if i do have to fucking battle this every day forever#and even if it stops me living my life to the extent i want and feeling as ok as i want i just have to come to terms with and be ok w it#and im not going to be!!! a fucking asshole abt it!!! i dont want to hurt anyone else thats the most important thing no matter how i feel#thr rest is all secondary and ik i cant help a few little bumps here and there but trying hardest to keep it separate its not negotiable
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I finally have a concept art class this semester and I've been so excited about it this is all I wanted and still i can't bring myself to do any work for it pls pls pls đ
#this is the most exciting thing and i loved it when the prof explained what we were going to be doing#and i haven't done anything.....#I've been trying to catch up#its HARD i can't focus on this at all#how can i make any original work and think about it a lot when all i can think about is my little fanart#UGH#im just so distracted all the time i cant just sit down and WRITE THIS DOWN#hmmm i have a pill#but i only have one and i dont want to waste it :[#some methylphenidate for the soul?????? đ„șđ„șđ„ș#idk idk
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most frustrating part of writing a doctor who oc is that the doctor and the master will both sometimes just fuck off and do their own thing for a hundred years and be unfazed by it because they are functionally immortal. and i canât stick my oc with them because theyâll just. die. so what, do i just put them in a pen until those guys get back? spruce up their enclosure while theyâre waiting to get picked up to go on adventures again?
#yes yes the mortality of a companion against the doctorâs long life is part of the point its part of the tragedy but consider: i want them#to also be there so they can get into shenanigans. and not die of old age before im done letting them do shenanigans#look either i kick even out of the tardis every time these guys go do immortal shit or i find a was to Fix this problem and i dont really#know how to do either of these yet. ill figure it out#i *do* know that theyâre not with missy while sheâs setting up the cybermen plan over hundreds of years. maybe for brief moments when missy#wants an extra hand or eye candy or something else but mostly evenâs stuck at the end feeling nauseous as missy goes about rewriting time to#make cyberzombies. not nauseous because of the cyberzombies. to be clear. theyâve just spent enough time fucking around with tardises and#time wars and the like that theyâre a little sensitive to shit getting messed around with. tummyaches :(#id think a lot of companions get this eventually. i think the ponds definitely did. to me anyway. they should.#background tardis time vortex radiation idk how science works. but it gives even tummyaches.#i got distracted i was talking about mortality and how to prevent them dying too soon.#mostly evenâs there to run the âbusinessâ while missyâs away. theyâre very good at being given a Job.#and this job is supposed to fix everything forever once they get the doctor onboard. it doesnât. but even thinks it will. which is what#matters in the end.#dw oc
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#let me express to u perhaps The frustration of my life#i like to learn. it is perhaps my favorite thing. new information. more more more constantly#but. my fucking brain is the fucking worst. because im not fucking stupid if i can focus and process the words being said i can understand#many things. i like to learn about math and physics and chemistry and biology and anatomy... ect concepts#but the focus and the processing of words is where we have problems. because i cannot focus for more than like 5min#i blink and suddenly ive been spaced out for a sec and need to reorient. i cant prioritize what to do 1st and im constantly bouncing betwee#tasks so nothing ever gets done and im too intimidated to start learning things. and when im trying to learn we habe the processing words#problem. like my reading comprehension is so fucking bad. like i will read a book on paper and maybe retain 25% of the info if im not#hardcore trying. for a class where i had to do a ton of paper reading. i had to read everything out loud to myself. highlight important#info. write myself a summary based on the highlights and then read the paper again before i could even begin to feel comfortable in#discussions. it was so fucking frustrating and miserable. ppl will give me physical books and im like thanks i cant fucking read sorry#too fucking dyslexic. read and listen they say. u have to read and listen at the same time bc i cant pay attention and i cant read#so if i do both then maybe the info gets in. thats y i have to read aloud but i hate it and still get distracted#i mean. i probably just have an attention problem. its also really annoying that my short term working memory is so awful#bc in order to make things make sense i have to draw or write them out. i cant judt go off the top of my head or i get stuck saying thr sam#thing over and over and over. its like my ability to think is extremely shallow. but thrn i read papers and recognize concepts from classes#i took years ago and im like. fucking y cant i know what i know? my head feels so empty but info is in there somewhere#its just so fucking frustrating that i love understanding systems so much. complex annoying little systems that fit together like a puzzle#and my fucking brain refuses to accept the information im trying to get in there. so i return to a remark left on my dyslexia assignment:#intelligent when not constrained by language or time. thanks. unfortunately language is how ppl communicate#also i freak out under time pressure lol. anyway ive just been reading papers for fun this weekend and remembering y i dont: bc its agony#but also i fucking love the concepts so much and i need a good understanding of photosynthesis before August when i join a photosynthesis#lab lmao. ugh. i love learning but my brain was not buildmt#built for it. if only if only someone could podcast about the obscure things im interested in while reading directly from the source#unrelated#also its like 105 degrees plus. its too fucking hot out#thats like 40 degrees C. the sun is like a death ray
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any time ive had to sit down and write this year has been ruinedddd lmao
#first we had to move bc NOT NAMING NAMES (ex father in law) had a cute little bender and made that house Uncomfortable and Unsafe#so then i was busy moving#and then every day i had off last week i ended up getting called into work#and then today i only have a late/short shift but our fridge broke so i need to help roman bring the new one up#and then friday im off again so im going to try and get some stuff done on the drive down#but TECHNICALLY/LEGALLY i cant use my computer while âsupervisingâ my partner driving bc its like a distraction and bc theyre on their L's#i cant be distracted either#like the way the licenses work while someone is on their L's the supervising driver adheres to the same laws as the learner#so i cant be drinking/on my phone or if we get pulled over it affects them too#its strange to explain but thats how it is lmao#ive never been pulled over on the drive but idk i might try to do some stuff and if i see highway patrol ill shove it under the seat lmao#DAMN IM A CHATTY KATHY TODAY#ămercury speaksă
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#i finished these last week but forgot to post them lol#self heal didnt turn out great#i was working on it at my great grandmas on Christmas after drinking a highly caffeinated latte and pinching a nerve in my back#which made me a little shaky#also those little henbit type flowers are hard to draw#but everyone who saw me drawing said it looked good so đ€·ââïž#also realized i accidentally left 2 plants thst were in the table of contents out of the pages#(when i first put the pages together i went through and labeled each page a drawing would go on with a plants scientific name)#and i had to get out my larger pad of this brand of water color paper and cut it in half to make 2 more signatures#and because the 2 that were missing were not at the very end and also werent on the same signature i had to shift some things around#thankfully all my page labels were in pencil#also im aware that signatures are generally more than one piece of paper but this papers so thick and the pages are so small#i felt i would lose page space if i made actual signatures#i just dont know what else to call them#if they were individual pages i would just call them that but its technically 4 pages (two pages front and back using one piece of paper)#so signatures it is#unfortunately did not achieve my goal of finishing the drawings by new year lol. got distracted by video games#only 12 more left! (14 left to post but i have 2 from the next group of 10 done)#then i can start painting#then the tedious part of gathering all the information i want to include about each plant and copying it into the book by hand#and then i can FINALLY bind it
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MOVING THIS TO RBS bc i have my laptop and can actually give a longer response now. >:]. And man where do I start. Mmmmmm.
When Danny finds out he's a clone is v v important to me because in clone^2 he acquires Lil Damian after finding out he's Bruce Wayne's clone (rather than Batman's) and it offers a lot of weight and introspection to their relationship, but I also want to follow your post's canon. MMMM. I'm putting a pin in it for now bc im running circles around in my own head, and deciding for now that Danny knew he was a clone before he and Kon started dating, and waited to tell him because being a clone is very personal to him, and it's not something he tells just anyone. Only his close circle of friends and family know he's a clone, so him telling Kon was a huge show of trust and vulnerability.
Also, for no other reason than I think it's hysterical, but when Kon tells Tim about his boyfriend being Batman's clone, he has no idea about Damian. He knows Danny has a little brother he adores, but they've never met and Damian isn't really that rare of a name.
That's because Danny's pretty secure (most of the time) in the knowledge that nobody will piece together that he's a clone regardless of if he knows he's Bruce's/Batman's clone, since A (if he knows he's Bruce's clone): the current general public know Bruce Wayne as a he is currently; a well-dressed man in his late thirties-early forties with a Captain America build (among other things), and Danny is a 17-18-ish year old boy with a sleeper build and long hair and a preferred fashion of "baggy alternative that forces people of all kind to question their sexuality"
(Genderfluid danny for the WIN)
and B (if he knows he's Batman's clone): nobody knows what tf Batman looks like.
Baby Dames is a whole other story, since Damian Wayne is in the public eye quite often, Danny thinks Dames is at a bigger risk of getting recognized despite being significantly younger than his template. Which means he's a bit more protective/wary about introducing him to people, although they've been lucky so far.
Danny introduces Kon to Damian about a week or so after telling him about being a clone, Kon's positive reaction to the reveal gave Danny the confidence and security to introduce him to Damian. He doesn't outright state Damian is also a clone, but Kon connects the dots instantly upon meeting him, but is smart enough to keep mum about it.
ALSO, to switch gears again, I love the implication here (to me at least) that Tim knows about Danny, but hasn't quite met him yet. I think he'd clock Danny being a clone pretty quickly (not instantly, but quickly) due to the sheer amount of research/stalking he went into with Bruce. Iirc he even knew what kind of paintings he liked, so I think he'd definitely (even if its eventually) recognize a younger Bruce Wayne in Danny.
Like, oh, yeah, his best friend is dating some guy from the Midwest and Kon's probably told him everything under the sun about Danny -- like how he does this cute little grunt when you catch his attention, and that he has a habit of chewing on the end of his pen or thumb nail when he's lost in thought, and he scrunches up his brows sometimes when he's confused, and he has a smile that could light up a whole room, and eyes as bright as glaciers, and -- and it's to the point that Tim probably knows everything about the guy and they've never even met.
He doesn't even bother looking him up, because damn, he already knows what Danny looks like just from Kon's description alone. The one time he decides not to be an obsessive little freak and it comes around to bite him in the ass, because Danny is apparently a clone of Bruce. He finally goes and looks him up and goddamn, the similarities are right there. He even has Bruce's goofy-ass bat-wing shaped eyebrows.
How did this go under the radar for so long.
AND -- because the ADHD is hitting and i'm hopping topics like a mallet in whack-a-mole -- the meetcute. Obsessed with thinking about how Kon and Danny met, and imo the only appropriate (/j) way is that it was as mutually civilians. Except I wanna explore the concept, so instead of it being a coffeeshop meetcute, it's something else.
Danny is in Metropolis with his family for something and was exploring the city during the rare few moments he's alone, and it's very important to me and only me to mention that he's been having a rough go of it lately. Just the new-usual and monthly identity crisis, so he's gone and stuck more holes in his ears. With the added bonus of a brand spanking new eyebrow piercing and lip piercing. If he doesn't like it, he can just take them out and let them heal.
Anyways, he's standing at a stoplight and waiting for the crosswalk to go, Kon was standing next to him and they were relatively ignoring each other. They're standing at a corner with relatively low traffic, and the crosswalk lights up. What happens is that Kon is walking somewhat in front of Danny, when a car comes veering around the corner. It's going fast enough that it would've most certainly hit Kon, if he weren't half-kryptonian.
And also if it weren't for the fact that Danny is faster. Before Kon can dive out of the way of the oncoming speeder, an arm snakes around his waist and he's yanked back and onto the ground. Seconds later, the car whizzes past, a hairsbreadth away from Kon's feet.
"Shit." He says without thinking, slack-jawed and shocked for multiple reasons, and he continues to not think as he tacks on; "Good reflexes."
He turns to look at his supposed savior, and sees a boy with long, dark lashes and even longer hair, pretty blue eyes, and propping himself up on his elbow. The boy gives him a sarcastic smile, "Thanks," he says, "made them myself. You alright?"
"Just peachy." Kon manages to get out, and watches the boy unwrap his arm from around his waist and get up, and then thinks to get up himself.
"You'd think that guy was being chased by the Bat himself." The boy quips dryly, brushing himself off. "He's in the wrong city for that, Gotham is the next storm cloud over."
Kon snorts, and somehow manages to get the pretty boy's name and number, offering to show him the best places in Metropolis as repayment for "saving" him. The rest is history. They start out friends, and only start dating half a year later. Kon was visiting Metropolis to visit Clark and Lois, and heads back to Smallville after he's done -- which is fortunate. Because it's about five hours closer to Illinois than Metropolis, which makes popping by Amity Park to see Danny occasionally just a liitttle bit easier.
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Okay I love the Danny is a clone of Batman aus but I've never seen this done.
Danny and Kon dating and Then Danny learning his parents cloned Batman thinking he is a ghost only to find out he isn't and kept Danny as their kid.
Just think of the hilarious reactions
Caue this immediately popped into my head.
Kon: *muffled screaming into Tim's couch*
Tim: ....you good?
Kon: danny is the clone of Batman
Tim: ...
Kon: I'm the clone of Superman
Tim:...
Kon: AND WE ARE DATING!
#clone danny#danny is a clone#picture i have of danny in my head is very chill skater boy essentially. slouched in his arm chair in clothes he picked off from the ground#bc he hasnt had time to do laundry lately from all the ghosts. and he still looks incredible bc ofc he does. his hair is two days unwashed#and fluffy from being recently pulled back. he has bags the size of the marianna trench under his eyes and a lazy drawl. he's on video call#with kon and it's like 11 pm CST. Danny's finally figured out the locking controls on the portal door and has done just that for the rest o#the night. so he's talking to Kon and Kon's living for it because sleepy Danny is best Danny. when he has his lip piercing he forms a habit#of tilting it with his teeth or tongue when he's listening. Kon finds it very distracting. he's going to jump his bones mark his words#genderfluid danny FTW btw. he has simply stopped Giving A Fuck about gender ever since he died.#watch him rock up in shiny pink lipgloss and baggy untucked shirts and dirty converse and mascara that makes his eyes pop.#prefers dressing masculine but has no qualms about dressing femininely and mixing the two styles. he uses motor oil** for his hair and it#always has the best volume and shine. **those thirteen-in-one shampoo-conditioner bottles in the men's aisle. he's boyish and its charming#anyways don't let starry write romance she goes nuts over the little working parts and cogs. i love writing romantic tension.#the moment sam convinces him to wear a corset its over for everyone. he's gonna kill em by sheer looks alone. rip to kon LOL#wanted to focus more on kon and danny's romance but i got sidetracked and if this convo continues i'll try and get into it more#a whole lot of rambling in this one folks
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califur lore speaking to me slowly
#its hard for me to cement into the world since like im new here dkdmxkdkmd#BUT. the wing tattoos on his arms are actually scarification which he got done as a kind of self punishment as he started to become#disenchanted with the crows#/hating being there snd trying to Cope with that#i think he was probably a young orphan thief that got their attention and was brought in and trained#and bought into it a lot when he was young bc its all he had so he would do anything to prove himself and work his way up#but as he gets older it starts to wear off. he gets sloppy and a little rebellious etc#his rs with them is complicated vwv#but enough of that because guess what GUESS WHATA#he has a pet raven named Darkness bc of course he does#all my ocs will have a critter and/or creature companion#i know what im about son.#anyway im gonna play more now to distract myself so i dont vomit from election anxiety :)#oc: califur de riva
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ive made myself more wet and pathetic
#new icon because im SUFFERING. im in HELL#its so bad. i had to sign out of discord so now im both lonely and stressed#because i KNOW im still gonna get dstracted. i just did making this URGH#how good are brains at working around things. i once set a 7AM alarm on my phone with snooze cause i was so sure my brain would#be too lazy and keep snoozing instead of actually turning it off. but nay it either kept sleeping through the alarms and snoozing#or actually managed to turn off the alarm half awake that i barely remembered it and then waking up late#i actually have a track record of climbing out of bed and turning my alarm off without remembering. which is impressive bc i have a loftbed#the other thing is setting fake deadlines so make myself panic into doing things ahead of time. but unfortunately that doesnt work either#because if theres one thing my brain will put all its energy into remembering its self assurance. meaning i WILL be able to remember#the real deadline even if i try to trick myself. cant ask someone to give me a fake deadline either#the only things keeping me going rn is that i have deadlines due at least 1 day between each other and excitement being able to talk with#crow after break. but you can see how well thats going <- ignores long term rewards in favor of short term pleasure#BTW CROW IF YOURE READING THIS IM SO SORRY TURNING OFF MY DISCORD WITH BARELY ANY EXPLANATION#im a huge fucking dumbass and i had barely enough impulse control not to block everyone in my dms because i realized that would send a real#really bad msg. youre not distracting me im distracting myself and i promise youre not annoying me i just really like talking to you and#thats why im just barely stopping myself from signing in. I WANT TO TALK TO U LOTS BUT AT THE SAME TIME IM KICKING MYSELF FOR DOING IT#you can be a little mad at me btw cause i definitely could have done that better but i was all over the place abt how to do it without#making u think im ignoring you. IF THAT MAKES SENSE. SORRY#yapping#doodles#puppysona#edit but last week i tried to schedule and give myself work periods and break periods using my class schedule#and reminders on my phone to tell me when to start and stop. can you guess what happened
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suguru wasn't a fan of positions, and neither were you, sticking to three great positions that got the job done for the both of you, but there was one in particular that suguru always found himself going back to, one that gave you two a few "scares."
making sure your legs were on his shoulders just the way he wanted them before he fucked the shit out of you, and once he got you like he wanted you, it was very hard to stop him.Â
how could you blame him? the position was breeding grounds; he couldn't help but finish inside of you back to back, plus the way your eyes would lock in on his with how close the both of you were, skin to skin. yeah, there was no getting out of this one.Â
all of his weight on you as his lower half worked over time slamming into you, the tip of his dick never failing to push firmly on your sweet spot, making your tummy tingle and bunch into a knot.
once he gets the feel of having your legs on his shoulder, he'll push them back and fuck even deeper inside of you, your moans bouncing off the walls while your eyes water from the pleasure.Â
his sweet voice guiding you and reassuring you as he continued, if not even faster.
"there we go, baby. stay just like that for me; you're doing good." his sweet voice sending shivers down your spine and making your pussy gush with arousal; it was all too much for your body to handle, and he knew that. that's what made this position so fun.Â
he loved looking at your face turn and twist into the cutest expressions while your mouth gaped open, letting out the sweetest little moans; it made his dick harder, giving him more reason to keep fucking you in this position.
making sure to whisper in your ear how good you were doing and how sexy you looked to distract you from the fact that your legs were getting numb and your core was on its last breath while you were on the tenth orgasm.
"just a little more; can you do that for me?" while he stuffed the last of his dick inside of you while your eyes filled with tears from the overwhelming pleasure, suguru smiling knowing he was fucking you right.Â
his eyes full with love and satisfaction, knowing if he wanted to start a family all he needed to do was lay you on your back and push your legs up and fuck you like he hated your guts.
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ahh.. I have tickets for a small music festival tmr which I went to last year + had a whale of a time but this year theres only like 2 artists I wanted to see but they released the schedule a couple days ago and neither are playing before 9:30pm. since I don't live local anymore I'd have to leave to travel back home around that time or I'd miss the last train... and there's not rly anywhere I can crash overnight there (and I was planning on going alone anyway like I did last year). so I think im gonna have to let this one pass me by :-(
#its not the end of the world like theyre not artists i LOVE love just ones i know and like a few tracks of#last year i had so much fun bc one of the artists there was an all time fave of mine. but yeah im not missing out on that this year#but its still a shame. i miss living there and being able to walk to gigs to easily like the music scene was so up my street!!#and i was kind of looking forward to it. but i shouldve planned it further in advance if i was serious abt going#i just didnt think theyd BOTH play so late???? i swear they had an earlier schedule last year#i guess i could just go and mill around some of the shows earlier in the day even tho ive skimmed most of them on spotify and theyre-#not rly my thing. sigh#im v tired + starting to feel quite sad this evening for some specific reasons i dont really want to think much about bc it is what it is#so its hard to imagine going out and having fun tomorrow. maybe ill just aim to get my chores done instead and see how i feel after that#i might fix my bike up and check the other local climbing gym out bc i havent visited that one before and itd be nice to mix it up#and i need to go out on the bike at some point this weekend so i dont build up anxiety abt it after yesterdays crash. hmm#man. its hard trying to do things solely for my own enjoyment sometimes. im usually pretty ok at making myself do it#and im grateful that i am! but i think im just feeling quite lonely. and not in a way where being around other people rly helps#like its more of a core thing. i feel kind of unseen by people in my life at the moment and that makes me feel like im not quite real#and i dont really know what to do about that. i think its why im still on my discord hiatus i just dont really have anything to say rn#ive felt this intermittently throughout a lot my life i think. but most of the time i can distract myself from it enough not to notice it#and i put the effort in socially regardless + usually when im in the moment it doesnt matter. but the stretches inbetween those moments..#its not unbearable and i dont feel that depressed at the moment either. just a bit lost i guess. i know itll pass eventually#but yeah it just keeps nudging up against me bc im feeling every little misunderstanding and slight quite keenly atm#ahh.. well its okay. ive never really needed much anyway im good at taking care of myself and thats enough to get by#ill do something nice for myself this weekend one way or another. im gonna go take a long shower rn i think and then read a bit#ah and i said i didn't rly want to think about it! but i guess i did... well i feel like i exist a little more for typing it out anyway#okay yes shower time now :-)#.diaries#maybe someday ill have ppl in my everyday life who i do feel seen + safe around. a girl can dream.. i have a lot of work to do before then
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pillow talk
in which spencer reid chooses a very odd time to reveal an anecdote from his past to fem!reader
18+ (fluff, extremely suggestive) warnings/tags: fingering but nothing graphic whatsoever, it's basically fade to black sex, discussions of spencer's gsw from season 5, medical talk (and inaccuracies), spencer is a sarcastic little shit a/n: found this super random little thing in my drafts and it was done and i think it's silly and cute so i'm posting it! 600 words, short n sweet!
âYou got shot in the knee?â
Itâs perhaps said too loudly for the settingâtucked into Spencerâs bed in the late hours of the night when up until this point the conversation had been nothing but murmured stories and quiet giggles. And before that, wellâbefore that there hadnât been much conversation at all.Â
Still you canât find it within yourself to apologize as you sit up, holding the top sheet to your chest and looking down at Spencer incredulously. His eyebrows raise like heâs surprised by your reaction.Â
âThigh, technically. And it was years ago. Come back.â
You huff but allow yourself to be pulled back down, head on his shoulder as his hand finds its place stroking your hip once more.Â
âHow have you never told me that?â
âYou never noticed the multiple incision scars on my leg?â
âWhat? No! Can I look now?â
âYou wonât be able to see them. Itâs too dark.â
You angle your head toward him, and he does the same, tilting his down until your noses almost brush.Â
âSo turn the light on.â
âIf I turn the light on Iâll get distracted.â
âDistracted by what?â You ask, realizing what he means and voice quickly fading even as you finish the sentence. He chuckles and kisses your head.Â
âIâll show it to you in the morning. Come here.â
âI am here,â you grumble. He hums, leaning down further to try and kiss you.Â
âCloser.â
So you scoot up the mattress and roll onto your side, pressed right against him, to meet him halfway in a sweet kiss.Â
âYouâre kind of spoiled,â you laugh against his lips as he begins pushing the sheet from your body.Â
âYou have to be nice to me. I got shot, remember?â
âRight. And how long ago was this, approximately?â
âIt was 19 days before my 28th birthday.â
So much for approximations.Â
âAw. You got shot for your 28th birthday?â
Itâs his turn to laugh into the kiss as he carefully rolls over you but recovers quickly, assuming a deadpan delivery.Â
âYeah. And it was really bad.â
âSexy,â you murmur as he kisses down your jaw. âTell me more.â
âShots to the leg can be life-threatening if the femoral artery is nicked. Thankfully the bullet missed mine. Youâre welcome.â
Your heart skips with a split second of true anxiety, but you snort at his cavalier attitude.Â
âYeah? This is really working for me.â
He lowers his voice to the one he uses in more intimate contexts and you giggle as he explains his gunshot wound to you like itâs dirty talk.Â
âThe bullet went in through my rectus femorisâŠâ now uninhibited by the sheet, he finds the spot on your thigh and pinches lightly, âand came out clean through my semitendinosis muscle.â
âClean? No bone fragments?â
âNope. The doctors said I was extremely lucky it didnât splinter my femur but it completely destroyed my muscles. I had to do physical therapy for a year and a half and I had a cane for months.â
âThatâs kind of hot,â you breathe, losing commitment to the bit as his kisses get lower and his hand creeps higher.Â
âWait until you hear about the mid-surgery aortic clamping and ligature complications. Youâll love thisâI was awake the whole time.â
A soft moan slips from between your parted lips and your brows pinch.Â
âSpencerââ
âWhat?â He murmurs. âMe getting shot in the leg isnât sexy anymore?â
You manage something between a breathy laugh and a mewl as your back arches.Â
âIâm gonna kill you.â
He hums against your throat.Â
âGood luck. Youâd be far from the first to try.â
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