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[terror-punk]

Something I think is required for all people to be able to embrace terrorpunk is white terrorpunks specifically being terrifyingly antiracist and protect BIPOC who are not safe to appear frightening in the world. Just a movement and consciousness expanding thought

This is ABSOLUTELY included. Forgive my ramble here, mental word-salad from psychosis is being a bit hard to formulate words with.

This is about protecting and uplifting each other. Society is not right about deeming a lot of us as scary, and we should be able to be ourselves even if people make assumptions based on what we look like, what we call ourselves, or what we're doing. Those who are particularly unsafe to be themselves or be seen due to societal pressure, especially BIPOC as they face a large amount of societal unjust fear, are to be protected by those of us able to. As a term, terrorpunk has no room for racism. None.

And this is not about harming people or putting them in dangerous situations for fun, this is about protecting those who are "scary", and protecting them fiercely. That means EVERYONE. This is about being you where you can, normalising things people would rather sweep under the rug. Even if you can't be open and you publicly, knowing within yourself that even if people see you as something to be feared, you are a being worthy of life and love and caring and rights, and extending that support to your community to the best of your ability.

It's about uplifting and caring for other "scary" individuals, and breaking down your own barriers of internalised fear or societal perceptions. Realising that being scared or unknowing is not a reason to hate, and instead embracing minorities with love and kindness, while defending them fiercely at the same time.

[venomhound]

Hazbin Hotel - Lucifer Lactation Kink Headcanons

THIS WAS supposed to be part of a part 2 to the Lucifer Niche Kinks post. But not only did it get wayyyy too long; but I realized that I probably should add an educational section because people know nothing about breastfeeding. SO. I broke it off into its own thing.

Contents/WARNINGS: AFAB reader but gender neutral pronouns are used; all the kinky shit obviously; DISCUSSION OF PREGNANCY, BREASTFEEDING, AND CHILDREARING WEE WOO; honestly stay away from this one if you aint into having babies or that kind of talk; discussion of Lilith and Lucifer's past relationship; Im gonna drag Lucifer to therapy by his ankles (18+), MDNI, NSFW below the cut ˋˏ✄┈┈┈┈

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Im just going to throw all this breastfeeding info here in a big info dump so I can actually get into the headcanons and yall can know what Im talking about.

The first couple days after birth are critical for establishing proper milk production. Basically, even if the baby is perfect and drinks your milk (which is rare but thats not what we are talking about), you NEED to make sure your breasts are completely emptied of milk and stimulate them even past that.

This is super important because its what tells your body 'hey, make more milk for babay'

Im just gonna straight up say it: breast pumps fucking suck. Everyone complains about how uncomfortable they are, if they arent straight up painful; they are super inefficient at getting all the milk out of your breasts so they can easily leave you engorged or mess up your milk production; and some women cant even use them because they dont fit their boob shape properly or they cant relax enough when using them.

What do I mean when I say the lady cant relax enough? You have to be completely relaxed for the milk to come out. This is the biggest reason women have trouble breastfeeding. Well, that and the completely empty breasts thing messing up their milk production.

So what is the alternative? Hand expressing! Basically human milking; only not worded so bluntly/terribly. This is much better for milk production because it allows you to actually get all the milk out.

The problem is, its alot more work and time consuming then a pump. Not to mention you have to be taught the proper way to hand express. So if you dont have any of these resources, your pumping.

To make it even worse, alot of women cant relax enough when they try to hand express themselves, so they HAVE to have another person do it (most husbands are COWARDS and aren't willing to do it so, oops back to pump I guess). Or they are the opposite and have to do it themselves.

Fun fact: before pumps, women had to go to their fricken DOCTORS to have themselves milked because their own husbands wouldn't do it. Cause they COWARDS.

ANYWAY. Now that you got a background in how breastfeeding works, remember; breastfeeding is hard work actually and thank god for formula because so many babies would die without it.

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Actual Headcanons ₊˚ ‿︵୨୧

Its all so natural. Lucifer loves and adores every single change happening to your body during pregnancy. The stretch marks, the weight, watching his child grow inside you. Its all just... *mwuah* So perfect to him.

Lucifer gets so dreadfully giddy when your breasts begin to swell and grow heavy late into your pregnancy. He knows it means your so close to actually being a mommy.

Honestly the best husband you could possibly have. As soon as your baby is born, Lucifer is right there to help you with anything you could possibly need. Anything.

He knows how exhausted mentally and physically you are; so Lucifer offers to hand express your milk for you after feedings. Your body just went through so much, so just let him handle that!

This is when you first notice just how... bothered he gets. Lucifer almost seems to go into a trance. His half-lidded eyes glaze over while he pants through his open mouth.

He tries so hard to keep himself under control; but he cant help but let out tiny gasps, moans, or whimpers when he feels the life giving liquid seep between his fingers.

You cannot even begin to say how thankful you are for your husband's experience however. Its a load off your shoulders. Lucifer's hands and fingers skillfully work to encourage as much milk out of your breasts as he possibly can.

However, as soon as he is done, Lucifer has to quickly excuse himself; nearly running out the door hoping you didn't notice how fucking hard he is. Or that if you did, that he didn't gross you out at the very least.

After a couple days, once your home, rested up, and Lucifer has gotten your milk production expertly established; he will try to show you how to hand express yourself. But you quickly shut that down and tell Lucifer that you would prefer if he kept doing it for you.

Lucifer is a flustered mess at the proposition but cant really argue against it. Hand expression is much easier when another person does it, not to mention exponentially faster. Its also great bonding time for the two of you. Even if Lucifer enjoys the activity a little too much...

However, neither of you have the courage to address just how much he likes it.

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Lucifer was clingy and protective during your pregnancy. But now its amped up significantly. Since the baby was born, Lucifer has been attached to you at the hip; permanently at your beck and call. Always ready to help you in anyway you might need.

Lilith was much more... independent, to put it nicely. Their marriage was already on the rocks when Charlie was born. So Lilith was determined to do everything herself and often shooed Lucifer away when he tried to help.

The fact that your not only letting Lucifer help you with your child, but actively including him in everything? Lucifer didn't think it was possible to love you more then he did. He is not going to miss a second of the child's life you have blessed him with, and so graciously included him in.

But this quickly proves to be a double edged sword. Not only does Lucifer get to dote on you and your child, but Lucifer also gets a front row seat to you and your... maternal body. And God does it do things to him.

People talk about a 'pregnancy glow,' and yeah, you were gorgeous then. But if that was glowing, you are completely radiant now. Lucifer always feels in awe of you and your post-birth body. He loves tracing your stretch marks, with his eyes, fingers, and tongue.

He also loves the extra 'baby weight' you've kept. Its literally more of you to love. You've gotten embarrassed several times because Lucifer will grab at your thighs and lovehandles while telling you how "fucking hard" you make him.

Oddly enough, you haven't heard him comment on the changes in your breasts. Not once.

Thats because Lucifer feels so guilty. He feels so guilty every time he sees how full and swollen your gorgeous breasts are. He feels guilty when he sees them leaking after feedings. The milk soaking through the front of your bra and exposing your hardened nipples.

Lucifer feels guilty about how hard he gets. Every single time. His cock already twitching in his pants just from watching you. Lucifer always ends up having to excuse himself so he can rush off and jack himself off as quickly as possible.

He is so fucking embarrassed by it too. This is parenthood; having kids; having a family. Its all so natural. Especially breastfeeding.

So why is his body perverting it so much?? Lucifer already bred you; got you pregnant. Why is his body demanding even more now that you've had his child??

God, he can't think of any other time he has had to masturbate this much.

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It takes a couple months. Months of constantly vacillating between states of sexual torture and marital bliss for Lucifer. It takes a couple months before you decided to finally test the waters; testing how turned on your husband is really getting.

"Th-there. I-I think that's all of it..." Lucifer stuttered out absentmindedly. Although Lucifer said he had gotten all your milk out, his hands remained firmly grasping your breasts. You couldn't help but look at him with a quizzical tilt to your head. This was new.

Lucifer was always quick to excuse himself; practically running out the door. He was always so fast at fleeing, that he never saw how much you smirked and laughed at him. Its not like his hard on was subtle. Even if he wasn't literally moaning in your face.

This was new. Lucifer didn't run away this time. It was as if he was completely frozen while he straddled your lap in your shared bed. The only real movement from him was the rise and fall of his shoulders from how hard he was breathing.

Lucifer only finally pulls his hands away when you force him to; so you can gently set the bottles you had used to collect your milk onto the nightstand. When you turn back to look at your husband, he is in a complete trance.

Lucifer's head is hanging slightly in shame even as his eyes remain glued to your chest. Rough, but even huffs are steadily leaving his mouth; as if he lost control of his breathing and is trying to get it back. His hands are practically white knuckling at his own thighs; your a little worried in the back of your mind that his claws might rips through his pantleg.

"Lucifer?" Your gentle voice breaks Lucifer out of his daze. His half lidded eyes pull away from your hard, wet nipples to meet your eyes. "I don't think you actually got it all, Sweetie. Why don't you try using your mouth?"

Lucifer's eyes blow wide at the mere suggestion; his pupils dilating like a predator. You swear you hear him whimper. His whole body starts trembling as his eyes dart between your heated gaze and your leaking breast. Silently asking if it was really okay.

You simply smile at him, your hands softly trailing up his thigh and giving his hands a reassuring squeeze. Lucifer licks his lips in a mixture of nervousness and barely restrained lust as he brings shaky hands up to grip at your chest.

Then its as if something in Lucifer snaps; suddenly he is diving right in and latching himself onto you.

It happens so fast. Lucifer's whining, moaning mouth sucking and licking at you furiously. Trying to get every last sweet drop out of you that he can. Every drop of your milk that enters his mouth is like a shockwave of pure electricity up Lucifer's spine.

Even in his almost rabid state, Lucifer remains ever mindful of his teeth. You can't help but whimper every time you feel them graze your hard nipples.

All this while Lucifer's hips are rutting against you in a blind frenzy. You aren't even sure Lucifer is aware he is doing it; that he is practically trying to fuck your thigh into submission. Or if he is so pent up and focused on your tits, that his hips are now acting with a mind of their own.

Lucifer releases your breast from his mouth with a wet -pop- as he squeezes his eyes shut and cries out obscenely. You can feel how hard he cums; completely soaking through the front of his pants and dampening your own.

Lucifer collapses into you; completely limp. For a moment, you thought he might have passed out. But then you hear him humming happily while he nuzzles deeper in-between your breasts.

You gently hold him closer, one of your hands carding through his soft hair as Lucifer takes a moment to recover. You swear you hear him mindlessly babbling praises into your chest. Praises of how much of a "good mommy" you are.

Lucifer drags himself up to look at you with hazy, lovedrunk eyes; breathing heavily and wearing that dorky grin you love so much. Some of your milk had escaped his frenzy, dripping down his chin and smearing along his jaw.

"Do you, uh... Need me to do your other breast too...?"

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AN: If nothing else; I hope this teaches you something about the trials of breastfeeding. Women need more education on what happens to their bodies before, during, and after childbirth.

Don't be that reddit guy who thinks girls make milk whenever they are horny.

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Unfortunately, the OG poster deactivated. But you can find a archive of another Lucifer with a lactation kink post >>HERE<<

[bossbutch]

halfway thru chapter 1 of umineko. idk how meaningful it is to speculate this early, The Real Umineko hasnt even properly started. these arent fully thought out and organized it's just scattered thoughts

battler's gender politics are entertainingly weird. he's like "when i meet a woman, even if she's my cousin or my servant, i NEED to make a big show of grabbing her tits so that she can hit me and everyone will laugh at the Classic Gag and it'll lighten the mood" which is just ridiculous enough to be something a rich teenager in the 80s could convince himself is okay. and then he sees the dinner seating and he's like "damn my family's so patriarchal. thought gained: inexplicable feminist agenda". i'm assuming this is a genre deconstruction thing. also lol that he is right next to maria in grandpa's tier list

maria is awesome btw i hope she gets to infodump about magic a lot more. some goon in the SA thread said the umineko author was once a social worker, so like. even if they don't use the word because it's japan in the 80s she's gotta be Intended as autistic

kinzo's room is so telegraphed to be a locked room mystery. he's entertaining too but i kinda zone out when he's talking about how his magic system works. i get the basic of more risk = more magic power but i worry it's the kind of thing that has Important Clues that my brain autofills with [arcane rambling]

battler constantly gasses up how good george is with kids and then george sees a family member repeatedly hitting their 9 year old disabled child and says, out loud, "not my problem"

assuming the epitaph is a puzzle intended to be solved and not the kind of puzzle that frames all the other puzzles and isn't solvable til the end: until the first butterfly i thought all the death and traveling was metaphorical. it still could be. like the six chosen by the key could be objects. the hands of a clock may be involved because that's in all the promo stuff and chapter start art. kinzo acted like the riddle was totally solvable by the doc or kanon or any of his kids. but if it was unsolvable until People Started Dying, it seems kinda pointless to have put the painting up years ago? but beatrice is a Dramatic Bitch.

Who Took The Rose?! no idea, but i'm sure it's important. if there's a 19th person, definitely them. totally possible the wrapper fell off but they'd still recognize the withered rose i reckon

Who Gave Maria The Umbrella?! again, if there's a 19th person, it's them. if not, natsuhi was my prime suspect because her alibi didn't have any witnesses but everyone else's did (if you really count grandpa and the doctor, like doc could easily say "i was with kinzo" and no one would verify that with kinzo). but then there was a scene right after from natsuhi's pov (migraine and can't sleep without meds, literally me) where she speculates who did it. so either the narrative is heavily fucking with me, it's gramps or the doctor, or it's someone with an accomplice

the narration is from battler's pov except when it's not and it's strange. it even isn't from his pov in some scenes that he's in, like the letter reading scene. this is the type of thing that could Mean Something way later but is just a little confusing sometimes right now

kyrie saying there's a contradiction in beatrice showing herself to maria but hiding from everyone else, failing to consider beatrice may be a Dramatic Bitch. i think there's probably a 19th person even if they are not necessarily a witch with magic powers

the furniture being totally able to break promises but can't disobey orders is the kind of exact words semantic sillies that umineko memes made me expect

goes w/o saying that the way the servants are treated is supremely fucked up. going to servant school and then working in the mansion at age six... george proposing to a girl that he has so much power over is lol. it's nice that umineko cares who the servants are and why they're there, and other logistical human things like how kinzo made his money and what they're all doing with it

at midnight, where was the doctor?

they drop some hints that the non-shannon, non-krauss bodies have their faces disfigured and Could be other people but that is pretty ridiculous and there's no reasons to consider that yet

i wish the LP used the doughy original art but that's the price i pay for convenience

[pillarsalt]

its weird being in feminist spaces online bc on the one hand, we all understand that women have womens shelters because they actually worked towards gathering resources and opening these physical spaces. like they did actual work and didnt just wax poetic about the necessity. but then you have discourse about womens clothes and its like. you guys know there ARE brands out there creating functional clothing for the female form, right? and they end up shutting down due to lack of support? because we arent putting any action behind our words? and are just wishing good womens clothing into existence? like there are no mens shleters bc men didnt make shelters. there are no good female clothing brands because we 1) dont make them and if we do, 2) they dont get enough patronage to stay afloat. so yea guys, keep making tumblr posts about the lack of functional female clothing instead of seeking out and supporting those businesses. ill keep wearing my dads hand-me-downs because im economically and ecologically based.

Ooh anon we're playing with fire here... Alright everybody, feelings caps off and critical thinking caps on. This is in reference to a post I made a few nights ago about how I don't quite believe how many women claim they are incapable of wearing men's section clothes, a post which was itself in reference to another post that made the rounds on tumblr earlier this year. I wrote it after having had six beers and I'll be the first to admit, it was pretty inflammatory and worded in a way that lead a few people to reply defensively and angrily, so I turned off RBs and deleted it when I woke up the next day as damage control. The general gist of my post was that there are shitloads of options in the men's section that are far comfier with better quality materials than women's section clothes, that oversized clothes are easily adjusted for functionality ie. rolling up cuffs and wearing a belt, and that I think a lot of the women claiming they couldn't possibly wear men's section clothing are maybe just unwilling to "look bad," but again I wrote it in a way that obviously would not inspire good faith interaction with those whose choices I criticized. I'd like to take the opportunity to try again with this ask.

First of all, I also had a couple people say that they've had to wear the men's uniform at their job and it was ill-fitting and sucked. Of course I'm not arguing that women should not be accounted for in creating work equipment and PPE omfg, that's not what I'm talking about at all! That's a matter of safety and equality in employment, completely not what I'm saying. And I'm also not saying that women SHOULDN'T have clothes that are comfortable, functional, and properly fitting that are made with them in mind. We should be demanding this! What I am saying is that... we don't have that right now. Anon points out that there are businesses that have tried to do this and couldn't find enough patronage to stay afloat. Of course I want these clothing manufacturers to succeed, it would be the best case scenario, but in the mean time, we have two options: uncomfortable, flimsy, revealing, shit-ass-material that won't keep you warm women's clothes; and men's clothes that are possibly ill-fitting.

From the replies I did get, sounds like the biggest problem is with the hips to waist ratio, in men's pants the waist is too big when the hips fit. Yes, I get it! But I was also surprised to learn how many women are completely opposed to wearing belts?? I always thought belts were a wardrobe staple for most everyone, my Mom always wears one, I've been wearing one when necessary since middle school age. But happily for the non-belt-wearers, I've discovered that many men's pants actually have drawstrings, sometimes they're inside behind the buttons and zipper, so you can make them as tight or loose as you like. I have four pairs of pants like this, I wear them to work where I walk around and bring heavy things up and down stairs all day, they are sooo comfyyy.

The other thing is all my pants are from the men's now, and I have to tell you: sizing discrepancy is popularly framed solely as a women's clothing issue, but it's not really. Last week I bought two pairs of men's jeans from the thrift store, both size 34, without trying them on. One pair fits quite tightly around my thighs to the point that I will probably only wear them to events and not all day at work, while the other is the perfect size and so comfy I could sleep in them (don't worry, I won't.) It's trial and error all around when it comes to finding clothes that fit properly. There's not One Shape of men's pants. The changing room is your friend! Hang out in thrift stores long enough and you will absolutely find items that fit you wonderfully and feel comfortable.

So then we come to my main point: There are a lot of women who claim that men's clothes are just too big for them to wear and therefore they must resort to women's section clothes which supposedly fit them so much better... *FROM MY POINT OF VIEW* it seems a sort of convenient excuse to look the way a patriarchal society wants you to, in the same way that "sensory issues around body hair" is now a common stated reason to continue shaving and participating in sexist beauty culture without having to examine why you feel compelled to do so. I think when some women say they're unable to wear men's clothes, it's because they can't wear men's clothes and look as conventionally "good" as they do in women's clothes. And it's true, men's clothes are gonna be a bit looser and a bit more formless, but men aren't expected to be shrink-wrapped into their outfit like women are anyway. I understand the pressure to "look good," often women are treated poorly when they don't, but it's in your best interest and in the best interest of other women to resist that sexist pressure, or at least question it honestly.

Do I think you're a bad person for choosing to wear exclusively women's section clothes, absolutely not. I don't think women who shave or wear makeup or heels are bad people either. But I do think it's worth examining why you really feel like you couldn't branch out from the women's section.

Men's pants have a baggier crotch and ass area, but women's pants are often so tightly compact in the crotch that they can cause gynaecological problems. Men's shirt sleeves are quite roomy and may need rolling up, but many women's t-shirts have tiny sleeves that pinch your arms and draw your attention to the fact that your arm fat is being compressed. Men's pants can be quite long for a short woman, but cuffing them is simple: like anon said you can easily hem them, and if you don't sew like me, you can literally just cut them shorter and roll up the cuffs twice and KABOOM they become as short as you like. I want to reiterate that I do think women deserve to have clothes that are made with their comfort in mind, and I hope we do someday soon. But with the options we do have, there is a clear winner in terms of functionality, dignity, and quality. Men's clothes are made to be worn, women's clothes are made to adorn, decorate, be looked at.

Last point, when I hear someone say they're just too short or fat for men's section clothes... I can't believe them because I have seen A LOT of short and fat women wearing men's section clothes and doing just fine. You all have never met a short and/or fat butch lesbian? Ever? They look damn good in men's section clothing. I have a coworker who is 4'11" and shops 50/50 mens and womens clothes including pants. Like... I'm seeing short women wear mens clothes with slight alterations and zero problems. I really believe you can do it too. I believe!!!

In the end, I'm just a random tumblr blogger typing on my random tumblr blog, and you the reader have no obligation to take anything I say with more than a grain of salt. Try not to take this post personally, I'm not out to attack you. If your reasoning is simply "I don't want to," I can respect that and we don't have to agree. I think we can all agree the clothing situation for women generally sucks. If anyone including this Anon has recommendations for companies who make clothing that is legitimately created for women with women's bodies in mind, please let me know and I'll boost! Perhaps we can make a difference with our wallets.

[ghostherlig]

chapter 11 endnotes!!

some end notes and things (as promised 😌) in chronological order!! (under the cut for spoilers!! go read chapter 11 first!!)

the word choices in the crossword puzzle were intentional!! it's kind of johnny and taka's perception of each other, or things they like about each other-

"Succinctly, John kept all of his emotions right in his chest, and one day, he would die." this IS a john mulaney reference-- and also very true, john has trouble expressing his emotions

also a lot of john's inner monologue in this chapter is him kind of keeping his emotions to himself and being unsure how to express himself or if he thinks he even should-

kenshi also telling john that the only way for him to know what john is thinking or feeling is if john tells him, as opposed to taka in the previous chapter going into his head (with permission) and looking freely at john's thoughts and feelings- just a thing that shows how their sense of others autonomy differs between them

johnny's love language is acts of service and gift giving can you tell. can you tell that he loves to cook for his partners and that food is a big part of him expressing his love??

john being in a sweater was a heavy note in this chapter- i dont often describe what they're wearing and kind of leave it vague unless i think it's fun or important to the scene- but them all being in very comfy dressed down clothing was an intentional note bc it isnt often that any of them are ever in very comfy clothing like that.. so john being warm and cozy in a comfy sweater and sweats is a sign that he's comfortable, physically but also mentally and emotionally bc he's surrounded by people he trusts

almost everything taka does is intentional. he spends a lot of time thinking over his words/actions and whether or not they're appropriate, which often means that he misses a lot of the more comfortable windows in conversation- but also means that he often comes out of the gate with an intensity that others arent ready for- like when he barges into the kitchen/dining area and immediately asks if they've already had a conversation without him- and also why he immediately gives john and kenshi space to talk alone/without him

john and taka have known each other a long time and it was only recently that taka kind of went missing… but the little story about john first trying roasted green tea is that he had discovered it was taka's favorite at this little cafe place they met at and asked if he could try; taka, of course, obliged, despite knowing that john would most likely not like it very much.. and he was right. john made a face and set taka's cup back down before swallowing and reaching for his own cup of coffee. they laughed about it. but later, when taka just.. disappeared for a few years, john needed something to fill the little void there, and so he started make cups of roasted green tea. at first for the smell, but then he tried it again. and again. and again, and kept trying it until he had developed a taste for it. then he started drinking it for comfort on days when he needed it. little sweethearts <33

taka's nickname for johnny, koinu, means 'little dog' (or puppy) in japanese- taka based this off of his nickname for john and just decided that johnny got to be the smaller version bc… well… he is.

john having that breakdown and quite literally collapsing under the weight of his own emotions was a lot of his grief for sonya but also a lot of grief for himself- for the fact that he never had the chance to grief her properly in the first place. part of him still thinks if he had been given that time, that he may be better for it now, and he regrets his past decisions when it comes to that

taka's nickname for john, inu, means 'dog' in japanese, and it's a nickname he gave john back when they were just starting to work together- it was bc john had a lot of dog-like mannerisms and characteristics and taka thought it was cute.

it was very common when john and taka were working together that taka would push him to do things that he normally wouldnt if it was just bc he was uncomfortable with it- john always knew he could back out if he needed to, but taka's forceful nature was always helpful to him that way

john finally remembering what it's like to be empty of the worst of his grief and sleep without the weight of sonya's thoughts on his new relationship AND in the same bed as his partners is what finally got him to sleep well…

taka is making five flavor soup!! it requires a whole duck, a whole fish, dashi stock packets, baby shrimp, and konbu (which make up the five flavors) plus he throws in all kinds of soup toppings/ingredients like the mushrooms he was chopping!! it's his secret recipe that literally only he knows. not even takeda knows. it's secret.

taka's nickname for kenshi, kōneko, means 'little cat' (or kitten) and that's bc taka's first impression of kenshi (that we see from kenshi's pov) is that he was small in comparison to himself, and that the little face he made at the time made him look like a kitten who had gotten in trouble for stealing smth…

taka is not outwardly very touchy or lovey, and he often doesnt even say it back, so little kisses and touches are huge for him- him leaning down to kiss john and hanging onto kenshi and johnny are his sort of genuine cues that he does really want to be their boyfriend...

anyway, i think that's everything i wanted to touch on this chapter... if this was interesting at all lmk and maybe it'll be a regular thing?? 🤷

[dirtyyybimbo]

First and foremost: please take care of yourself while your are in the lows. You don't have a caring master to take care of you during the aftercare phase. Wrap yourself in a comfy blanket, eat something nice and distract yourself with a feeling-good movie/series.

Second: I inmensely enjoyed your narration, and read it several times. I'd like to read more of your experiences. Honestly, I'd LOVE to see you all geared up, filthy and degraded. (The twintails were an unexpected surprise).

I think you enjoy being "worded" because It reflects your true self. Maybe soon you'll write up some nasty truths over your body and go to work/do chores outside/ meet Friends while your clothes cover those words... But you get excited of knowing how close you are to be "seen".

Third: Next time write 'slut' in reverse in your forehead, so you'll be able to properly read it in your mirror image.

Finally: I had a wonderful day, thanks for your kind words.

I expect to read more about you, bimpi.

Keep It Up.

i. 🙈 well, just so you know im totally blown away by this message. like in a good way but.

thank you. really its. thank you. 💜🩷🤍

i totes appreciates it. i have hormones imbalance so i tend to be pretty much in tunes with my mood and the fact that they arent "normal" so i knew hot to deal with it. it still sucks but i did ate something nice and went all comfy comfy in bed. but thats a very nice bit of knowledge to pass around cause it , i really appreciate you saying that. 💫

and wow. i didnt think it would be read at all to be honest so wow. even more if you enjoy it. (i totes blushed when reading your message tbh) not that i need that much encouragement to write about my situations but let me tell you i really really want to continue now and hope the rest will be nice enough. i do have to get some idea about what to do but there is enough depravities to get around i guess.

reading your analysis is probably spot on and a little bit scary i have to be honest. like yes, yes thats it and thats me and thats terrifying a little. and exciting which it prob shouldnt be. but it is what is is. and i already went outside with writing on me i admit. i think my pulse went crazy the whole entire day at work. a mix between manic panic and intense excitation. i drenched my panties without a doubt, incapable of thinking much about anything else. i get very obsessed with thing, hyper fixating easily and that was one thing i couldnt forget.

pretty sure i lost myself somewhere.

anyway. rambling is also a problem.

i keep the slut in a corner of my mind. absolutely integrated to the (as of right now) very empty program but its added. only item on it. just writing it makes me all tingly. something is definitely wrong with me. (i mean, the wrongest is probably that i love it but whatever)

thank you. you made my day. absolutely made my day and you have all my (i cant find the english word but know that you have all of it)

thank you. 🧡💛

have a good night? week-end? life.

definitely life. 🥰

hoping to here from you again.

(im going to stop acting like were in downtonwn abbey now. or the very dirty version anyway.)

bye. 💌

[raveneira]

I was watching naruto vs sasuke on storm Connections and damn it really is better then all boruto tbv

It is, the the plotline of connections isnt even all that original or grounbreaking, its hella flawed too and reuses alot of Naruto concepts despite being a Boruto centered story...which just goes to show you how BORUTOS story is so uninteresting that they had to take OG concepts from Naruto [new Uchiha lore, focus on a new more interesting Uchiha from the past cuz Sarada is so neglected and uninteresting, Pain worshiper, Naruto vs Sasuke, a new war] instead of working with any of the Boruto story because lets be honest...WHAT story? when you really think about it nothing is really going on in the Boruto story, theres no direction, no intrigue, no personal or deep conflicts etc.

You know why Naruto vs Sasuke hits while Boruto vs Kawaki doesnt? because there was extensive build up of their bond, their rivalry, their conflict, and reconciliation, so when you saw the roles reversed with Naruto and Sasuke in Connections, it hits HARD because you know just how far Naruto went to save Sasuke against all odds and everyone calling him a fool he never gave up on him, now that role is switched to Sasuke, and now he gets to be in Narutos shoes fighting his best friend trying to snap him out of it, and he even repeats the same words Naruto said to him which hit so hard because we KNOW just how HUGE of an impact those words had on Sasuke when Naruto said them after their final fight, they literally brought Sasuke to tears.

Compare that to the role reversal goin on in Boruto, you remember the hype from this panel right?

Oh the hype was strong in this one, atleast from those still invested in the series up till this point, this was CRAZY right? the endless possibilities, expectations were through the roof, and what happened? what was done with that potential? absolutely NOTHING

This panel is the equivalent of Gohan telling Buu he's not gonna fight him, he's gonna kill him, only for him then to fumble the entire fight, top 5 hardest lines in the series thrown right out the window with zero pay off, this panel is literally that because it went NOWHERE.

Its honestly ASTONISHING how much this concept has been wasted, and I personally despise it but hey, even if I personally dont like the approach I could still appreciate it if it was atleast executer properly and actually done well, its not like omnipotence couldnt have been used for some great conflict, character building, character development, Boruto really could've grown alot from this and understood his ignorance and priviledge all this time he'd taken for granted, understanding the loneliness and life full of hate hes had to live all his life, for Boruto this is only temporary and forced to be directed at him, but for Kawaki this was REAL nobody MADE ppl hate him they actually DID

Boruto knows everything their saying to his, feeling for him, thinking of him is actually towards Kawaki, these feelings arent fabricated these are ppls REAL feelings towards Kawaki, and Borutos only had to endure this for 3 years of his life while 12 were full of happiness and love, but for Kawaki this was his life for OVER A DECADE, and even with the 3 years that have passed since the brainwashing Kawaki is STILL going through it because everytime ppl hate Boruto around him, scorn Boruto, wish he were dead, call him an ungrateful traitor, he knows their talking about HIM

So even though hes technically taken Borutos place being loved by everybody, he KNOWS that THESE are their true feelings about him, so while Boruto has only lived Kawakis hell for 3 years, Kawaki has lived it nonstop, he cant even escape it back at 'home' because its not even his home fr, its his prison with Ada and her little brother who constantly taunts him about how he'll eventually be exposed as a liar and how he unlike Ada doesnt care what happens to him, just reaffirming what he already thought and believed about himself to begin with.

That nobody would care or miss him, nor mourn his death, but be happy to rid that 'garbage' from the world. And Shikamaru and everyone who appeared in chapter 78 proved him correct.

So you would think that Boruto, now in Kawaki's shoes, experiencing what Kawaki's experienced his whole life

Hated by Kara/Code

Hated by the Otsutsuki hes a vessel of [Isshiki/Momo]

Hated by everyone for being an outsider bringin in trouble

Hated by those who were once his friends

Hated by his own family [to his knowledge, he doesnt know how Hima feels yet]

You'd think he'd have a moment of reflection and actually get where Kawaki is coming from, he obviously wont know how he feels exactly because they still had totally different upbringings but atleast he gets the gist of it now that he's in his shoes, so you'd think we'd have him reflecting on that much the most we get is this.

This was a good start, he acknowledged his screw ups and how his playing down of the situation lead to this, his ignorance from being so blessed blinding him to Kawaki's perspective, that it was easy for him to just go on like everything would be ok but thats not the way Kawaki saw it, he never asked how KAWAKI was feeling or what KAWAKI was going through, he only yelled at him for being 'stupid' instead of LISTENING to him and actually HEARING what he's saying. He's given Boruto glimpses multiple times of what he was thinking and feeling, but everytime Boruto downplayed it, just brushed it off as them just needing to train and get stronger and just have faith that his dad could handle it and if they just get strong enough too then it'll all work out too, BUT THAT WAS NOT REALITY and Kawaki pointed out why it wasnt, but he went ignored.

The only one who didnt just blindly yell at him was Mitsuki, HE is the ONLY ONE who ASKED Kawaki and LISTENED to what he had to say, and he was the only one open to doing things his way as well, but Boruto and Sarada unfortunately, so blindly follow Naruto's idealistic views, did NOT listen to him or hear him here, instead they both accused him of going too far with too extreme logic, when really he was just being realistic.

So It was good seeing Boruto acknowledge everything I pointed out about how we got here, it left things off where we would hopefully see Boruto have a whole new perspective towards Kawaki and how he'd approach reasoning and getting through to him from this point on, there was alot of potential now for some really interesting interactions and-

Ima save you the reading time and just spoil it, nothing came from this, if anything he listens to Kawaki even LESS now than he did before and have become even MORE arrogant and dismissive of him.

Im gonna take a stab in the dark and say in an effort to try and make Boruto DIFFERENT from Naruto in trying to save Sasuke, they made him actually looking for a fight, he doesnt want peace with Kawaki, he wants problems first and THEN peace afterwards

Twice he says his goal is to knock sense into Kawaki and then reconcile, which is the opposite of Naruto, he WANTED to talk things out but knew he couldnt and had no choice but to fight, but Boruto WANTS to fight and THEN reconcile which is...a choice, but not a good one to try and distinguish him from Naruto with because it just simply doesnt make sense.

If his goal is to make this a mere quarrel between siblings, not brother killing brother, then why would he NOT try to resolve things without violence with him? why withhold information? why taunt him? talk down to him? treat him like a nuisance? act as if you dont even WANT to deal with him in the first place? threaten to chop off his danm arm just for asking VALID questions?

if you wanna make this just a brothers quarrel then hes doing a terrible danm job of it because hes just making Kawaki look even MORE justified in wanting to kill him, which makes no sense even in the context of protecting him from being exposed because it was him and Kawaki alone most of the time, Delta seeing Boruto show Kawaki some humility wouldnt have affected shit, all it does is let her see Boruto treat Kawaki like he actually cares about him, that does literally NO harm to Kawaki's image because ppl knew Boruto and Kawaki cared about eachother already anyway, regardless of what 'Boruto' did to Naruto that doesnt erase everything that happened between them before that

Even if we throw all that aside and say no ppl dont think they care about eachother and that Boruto supposedly just turned on them all now, NOBODY WAS AROUND at some of interactions that he has to pretend for, as I said Delta means nothing, Kawaki was one on one with Boruto after he told the others to leave while he confronted him with Code, he again wasnt around anyone when he confronted him again when it was just him and Delta, so why did Boruto still put on the tough guy act? I get they had other important matters to get to but Boruto is able to walk and chew gum at the same time, so if he wanted to show some compassion to Kawaki then he could have but he DOESNT.

And thats why storm connections take on the role reversal plot is leagues better than Boruto's because there is just NOTHING to it, chapter 80 HINTED that they were going to start building more on it and doing something interesting but instead they just make Boruto discount Sasuke and gave him a completely OOC edgelord persona, which is crazy that their trying to make him like Sasuke WHEN THIS IS HOW SASUKE ACTS IN HIS EXACT POSITION AND ITS NOTHING LIKE THAT [8:26-13:55]

You will NEVER see the same kind of emotion with Boruto and Kawaki as you saw here with Naruto and Sasuke, and thats largely because its not written by Kishimoto and it shows

Whereas Naruto and Sasuke werent ever adopted or raised together like siblings yet still saw eachother as such anyway, Boruto and Kawaki actually lived together and were treated both as Narutos sons, Boruto and Hima acknowledged him as their brother, Kawaki was considered family by the Uzumaki fam, so this situation should have even MORE emotional weight than Naruto and Sasuke who were bitter friends/rivals, Boruto and Kawaki were family, and yet their entire conflict is emotionless, dull, forced, and uninteresting to watch unfold.

But to be fair Ikemoto did fk them over a bit because Naruto and Sasuke atleast knew of eachother for years, and then spent a whole year with eachother as teammates whereas Boruto and Kawaki spent less than a year together so yea, great way to really prevent this plot from hitting as hard as it could have if you werent rushing literally EVERYTHING and giving them no room to settle but it is what it is sadly.

The only saving grace is Ikemoto implying Kawaki is gonna get more development in the future but I wont hold my breath on that because he also said Sarada and Sasuke's future would be interesting, and we all saw how that turned out, yea bein off screened by Code and Sarada barely reacting to the news of it sure was interesting ._. peak fiction.

The Connections game should have NEVER came out because it just puts how severely lacking Ikemoto's attempts at these concepts PALE in comparison to the OG, and its not that Boruto and Kawaki CANT measure up its that Ikemoto is an incompetent lazy writer who fails at one of the core things Naruto is known and praised for and thats its EMOTION. The fact that the sequel to Naruto lacks so much EMOTION is fkin insane, its mind boggling how Ikemoto could work with Kishimoto personally and NOT pick up how to add emotion.

Do you realize the last time we've had a real emotional moment in this manga is while Kodachi and Kishimoto was still involved in the writing? and now that it has been taken over entirely written by Ikemoto there has been zero emotion? go back and read the timeskip from the first chapter to now and show me where there was any emotion besides Inojins 'death' that was just used to give Hima a rage moment to awaken Kurama, but Im talking an ACTUAL emotional character moment, or just scene in general, you wont find one despite Boruto being a perceived traitor and Naruto being dead but with no body to even mourn him, and Sasuke siding with said traitor is also just glossed over like nothing nobody even talks about it fr, keep in mind thats Sakura's husband and Sakuras friend [Naruto] and we got zero insight on how shes takin it, or Kakashi, you get the point.

Ikemoto not only doesnt know how to convey emotion well through expression [take a shot everytime Ikemoto just has somebody mean muggin or straight faced oe sweat drop with wide eyes that may or may not be cross eyed] and you'd die of alcohol poisoning pretty quick because hes unexpressive the way Kishimoto was, but he lacks emotion in his writing also, so he lacks in expression AND writing emotion as a whole which is...pathetic for the one writing the sequel to Naruto which is a series FULL of emotion, the fact that writers for a danm non canon VIDEO GAME got this right but Ikemoto the writer for the official sequel to Naruto fails miserably at.

Its sad, but even this flawed game was still written leaps and bounds better than Ikemotos Boruto.

[orchidyoonkook]

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Hi, need to scream. Tumblr seems to listen best. can and please feel free to ignore.

okay so essentially my job has removed all of the things I use and need in order to be able to do my job with my mental disorder. my mental DISABILTY. that i was honest with them and told them about at my freaking trial shift. that i told them i needed certain things in order to do well. nothing drastic. but things that helped me significantly with my performace.

SOOOOOOOOO i am now severely struggling at my job because they've taken those away cuz they were 'annoying' or 'in the way' or 'clutter'. like. im not even leaving shit every where. It's like, maybe at most 3 sticky notes? (for example) and they're written just for me, like just so i can have a list of things i can do and know to go back and look on when i need a task because ive finished the one i was doing. but then my boss reads them and critiques them as if they're for everyone. or says 'okay yeah but we do that every day so i dont see why you have to write it down. you should know to do it by now' LIKE BRO. I forget to put deodorant on some days because of said mental disability. it's something i do and have done every day since i was 12 or 13. thats 12 years. and i still forget some days just cuz my brain wasn't working properly.

AND now due to this they have put me, one of the staff currently with more seniority than 3 other staff, down to one shift a week, while every one else is full time or heavily part time.

In march i was full time and kicking ass, I was the fastest employee on my tasks, i was doing great, the customers loved me and now that all of my things that i need in order to function have been removed for everyone else's aesthetic preferences, I'm suffering, and most likely being silently fired.

like... what do i do with that. I can do my job, with my accomadations - that arent that many btw - i dont expect them to move mountains for me. But dude. I hate this feeling so much because i'm capable, theyve seen me be capable. i was for 1.5 years. like i want to be good at my job. I like and enjoy being good at my job. i've told them that. I want to do good but my ability to be good is being derailed, and i just get told to try harder, just work harder, impress your boss with how hard you work -> for minimum wage, i might add.

and everyone is like "just get a new job, just apply for more jobs you're not applying for enough, literally just apply for everything, even if youre not qualified" and i cant just do that, due to said disability. there are jobs i am unable to do. so i have to be a lil picky otherwise i'll be right back where i am now. and ive been looking for months and applying for months with no luck - no one ever responds. why list jobs if you dont respond?????

it's getting to the point where im debating opening up drawing commissions or writing commissions, or something that i can make to earn a little extra cash here and there while i get over this transition period. And that's a big deal for me because i don't do commissions. I do my art for myself or for when i want to share something i've made already, like the UTWT books. Hell, I did a tattoo design for a friend on here that i put easily 40 hours into, and i felt guilty that they wanted to pay me for it because i'd asked them for the idea. Like, i don't do commissions. so for me to be considering it is really telling for me.

anyways. this is a bajillion words long now, but i already feel better. and I'm posting it in the middle of the night in hopes that the void just consumes it and never lets it see the light of day.

If you read this, thanks and sorry for the bummer of a post. This isnt a pity party or a poor yoon thing. I'm not looking for comfort or any of that. this is a 'i don't have a therapist and my friends and partner and family are sick of hearing me bitch, when i havent been able to fix it in months despite trying my best too' thing. so yeah..

i hope the new year brings me something good.

[plasmaapologist]

(@lavendertownfreak)

So… I was curious if I could get a professional opinion on what’s up with my Galarian Slowpoke Glockle. (Yes, I had a professional check them out, but I feel like they didn’t do a thorough enough evaluation in hindsight.)

For some reason Glockle just… doesn’t react to damage. Like, at all. The only real sign of physical trauma I can see is scaring around the base of his tail, but that seems to line up with the tail having grown back from being dropped. He seems to REALLY like battling, but I don’t wanna use him in battle given that he LITERALLY DOESN’T REACT TO GETTING HIT! I’m just curious if you have any ideas as to why he doesn’t react to harm. (For reference, he’s been hit by rock throws from my Rockruff, a bite from my Rockruff, and has even had my fairly above average sized Drednaw roll over his tail while he (the Drednaw) was sleeping. No reaction to ANY of it.)

i should preface this by saying that i dont have any experience with galarian slowpoke, however i worked with a small bloat of kantonian slowpoke who had an... unfortunate run in with a couple of awful teenagers. dont worry, all survived- theyre hardy little things. yes, a group of slowpoke is called a bloat. herd is accepted too :)

glockle not feeling an injury to their tail is perfectly normal for a slowpoke, as both forms possess little to no nerve endings in their tails! however, not feeling pain at ALL isnt normal. slowpoke are, well, slow to feel pain, and their senses are dulled, but they feel it eventually.

in my mind theres a few likely possibilities here:

glockle might be, to put it bluntly, not very bright. most slowpoke arent anyways, so a particularly, ahem, dense one might not notice at all. what im saying is he might feel pain, but in such a delayed manner that it doesnt warrant a reaction anymore

he may have abnormal pain responses, as in he IS showing hes in pain, but in an unusual or unnatural way

now, im not entirely sure slowpoke can have this, but its worth thinking about: he could have a rare condition known as "CIPA"; that is, "Congenital Insensitivity to Pain and Anhydrosis." in plain words, the pain receptors arent properly linked up to the brain, and therefore pain signals can not be sent or received. this condition is *very* serious, and if you suspect this may be the answer i reccomend seeking out a neurologist or other such specialist asap. this condition also, in almost all cases, causes an inability to feel differences in tempeature; its also extremely common for people and pokemon with CIPA to bite off sections of their tounges, so these could be good ways to check. remember; even a normal slowpoke will take a few to react.

or, yknow, hes just swole asf. extremely high pain tolerance + slowpoke dopeyness could look like a complete immunity

no matter what, glockle is extremely lucky to have a trainer that cares so much about him! a lot of evil people would see this as an exploitable "feature". i reccomend giving him extra breaks inbetween battles, and doing an extra thorough scan after each one. if regular battle is deemed unsustainable, perhaps glockle could find a place as a little cup mentor? hed still get to "battle" but will be taking significantly lighter blows.

oh and remember; this isnt my area of expertise, i could definitely be missing something. dont panic over anything yet, dont take what i said as gospel, and i hope these theories can help lead you down the right treatment path!

so uh... tldr: in my opinion hes probably either extra slow, a bit weird, buff asf or needs to see a neurologist. id reccomend eliminating the first three first because neurologists are expensive!

[arlecchno]

oh good lord , h i hope you know what youve gotten yourself into by asking for the fic … [insert evil laughter here] okay okay now actually , the fic series doesnt focus on serial killers it was just that one fic in the series , but the serial killer fic is Blind Mirror (linked) by StrangeDiamond on Ao3 !!!! i have the print copies of the series (behold my collection) i think i also have to mention that its not an xreader fic lol

songs of resistance isnt part of the series but yaknow whatever . the ragnvindr brothers are a passion of mine and theyre my favorites i love them so much SHIDJSKDKD AND WHILE WERE ON THE TOPIC OF FIC RECS if you just so happen to have my horrid taste in men (/hj ?????) and like alhaitham , heres another one of my absolute favorite fics , i just call it Summers Fic (i hope these links are working properly lmao) and its got our favorites !!! murder / crimes , slowburn , (kinda) enemies to lovers (i fucking love the banter the author writes between mc and haitham) , + forensics stuff !! which is totally my jam because im a stupid little science gremlin .

you saying my board looks cool is so funny to me because like its a literal stock image , and while i couldve gone without it , low quality stock images just make me giggle for no reason so .. its also a little surprising you think its detailed because when i was making it i felt like i had to condense so much information for textbox space😭😭

i actually do a handful of things in the arts department , ive written my own little short stories and poems , and every once in a blue moon (when i have enough motivation) i make games ! granted theyre not very good , because im pretty sure im jackshit at characterization LOL heres a silly authors note i put in one of my short story docs just cuz why not honestly

also , YES I AM A DAIN LOVER IM ACTUALLY HIS BOYFRIEND (REAL) /j . all the khaenriah boys in general are my little sillies (i say as if they arent older than me) SO IF YOU NEED SOMEONE TO TALK ABOUT DAIN WITH MY MESSAGES ARE OPEN (and i am more than willing to spout theorist nonsense about him and the other khaenriahn boys as well)

also you absolutely do not have to worry about your wording of anything , none of it came off negatively at all ! i think youre very nice lmao

heres a little question to end off because im running out of creative ways to signoff , do you kin anyone from genshin ?

hoping the images dont glitch out ,

- jellyfish

OHHH WAIT i think i've heard of that kaeya and diluc novel thingy??? i'm pretty sure i've seen them around twitter or tiktok some time ago and omg i should check them out then!!! those covers look so good maybe i'll actually get around with the whole series now that you've mentioned it

and omg that summers fic you just linked is already so amazing. you've captured my taste in genshin men perfectly (i say as i drool over alhaitham). i just finished with the first chapter and the author have really captured my heart with the bits of forensics and crime, adding on with the tinge of arab culture too!!! i'm gonna go ahead and read them when i have the time hehe

you do short stories... poems... AND GAMES???? hello am i seeing this right

(p/s: i low-key do those kinds of a/n in my google docs draft for ma too... but they just never made it to the finalized version 😔)

and actually dain is in bed with me rn idk what you're talking about 🙄🙄🙄 /j

me personally i am very interested in khaenriah lore but i really haven't gotten to it (tbh the overall lore of the game is a lot to take in) but i probably will someday,, if i am not lazy /hj

and honestly... i don't exactly know who i kin in genshin tbh. so i have decided to take this VERY extensive genshin kin quiz (as per what they've named their site) and surprisingly i got... collei?

though when i read this, it made me realize that, maybe i do kin her. whoops

okay i'm heading to bed now it's 1 am and i'm busy tomorrow 😔 it was nice talking with you again jellyfish !!! have a nice day 🫶

[rd0265667]

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Hey Buddy! Been reading your work every now and again and I stumbled upon this tweet, I hope you don’t mind answering these questions? I’m curious about your thoughts relating to this! Thank you! Keep up the good work btw and try to post more, I really enjoy your work!

2,3,5,9,10,11,15,16,18,20-23,26,28-31,33,34,36,37

oh wow, thanks for the kind words anon!

2. Probably like highly descriptive intimate and romantic moments. I'm more of a plot and story person, and I'm not as capable of writing the short fluffy moments

3. Chaotic. And kinda shit tbh. It's like, my writing goes off the rails easily, and sometimes the fics that come out feel kinda off(and those aren't counting the countless fics I've deleted)

5.idk, my tags arent that specific 😅

9. Good, but the resolution must do the cliffhangers justice.

10. Unrequited love, Right person wrong time, Loving against all odds

11. Enemies to lovers(not bad, just overdone), forbidden love, and easily avoidable misunderstandings

15. Hmm, plotless, probably Take a Break, my Haerin fic. I wrote it at a time at which my stress was at an all time high and writing it calmed me down, so it'll always have a special place in my heart

16. I'd say properly rated, it's good, usually for fanfics since there isn't as much character development necessary, but some times stories are better off as duology or trilogy, but all depends on how the writer likes it(I have this weird thing where I like trilogies)

18. Third

20. Technically many projects at once? Since I always have many ideas but not the time/ability to complete them

(I'll finish the rest in another post or it'll be too long lmao)

[achaotichuman]

Finding your style of writing is definitely the hardest part in my opinion, but here are a couple of things that helped me.

When it comes to speech tags (like said) a lot of the time they arent actually necessary. Like if two characters are having a back and forth conversation there shouldnt be a great need for speech tags, unless you need to specify a change in tone or volume (whispered, hissed, shouted etc) And what I find helpful, is rather than repeating he/she/they shouted, whispered, hissed, said etc etc, I change up the wording or focus on what their body is doing.

Example.

"It's not my fault!" He shouted.

Vs

"It's not my fault!" Hands thrown in the air, he turned his rage-filled eyes to her.

The exclamation point does most of the work in this instance, and the body language tells the reader he is shouting.

In the same thread, you dont want to overwhelm the reader with descriptions. So you'll find your own balance.

Example.

"It's not my fault!" Hands thrown in the air, he turned his rage-filled eyes to her.

Whole body shaking, she whispered, "I know."

"You don't! You keep bringing it up! And I am sick of it!"

"Well, I'm sorry for your feelings then!" Finally, she raised her voice, "I'm sorry I'm such a bad wife!"

"Great! So now I'm the bad guy?!"

"Yes, James! Yes you are!"

Clenching his hands, he remained silent at that.

This is just an example of mixing up the different speech tags. As you grow and learn in your style you'll take bits and pieces of ideas from others and may incorporate them into your own. And you'll find what works for you.

Now onto the action scenes, I am still very much learning how to make those, they are hard to write. But something I found helpful was focusing less on what the characters were doing with their bodies, and instead using their interaction with the world around them as a way to describe the fight.

Example.

He pulled his arm back, then launched, his fist driving into his opponents eye. They spun, nearly tripping, but threw their hands up and went right at them.

Vs

He pulled his arm back, the jeers of the crowd ringing as his fist made contact with his opponents eye. They managed to spin, knocking into a chair and nearly falling but throwing up their hands and attacking.

Im not great at making examples, but you get the picture, adding in whats happening around the fight rather than focusing on the actual movement gives the reader a good picture of whats happening without overwhelming them.

Focusing on pain as well helps.

Example.

Pain shot through their skull, the punch's burning mark causing him to stumble. Spinning on his feet, even as his shin hit a chair, he threw up his hands and attacked.

So my recommendations are, include physical pain, interaction with the world and even include some monologuing and observation in the MC's head or from the narrator.

Altogether it could look something like this.

Arm reeled back, Ciar threw the first punch. Gasps erupted throughout the tavern as his fist hit Ajax's eye, and he stumbled back. Hitting the bar top behind him.

With death in his eyes he spun back on his feet, Ciar nearly tripped over his own feet and only had time to suck in a single breath before he was thrown to the floor.

He tried to kick up, and punch and fight and bite, but it was no use as blow upon blow rained down on him. Shockwaves splintering through his skull as all the air in lungs was stolen.

I find it's more effective to focus on pain, description and interaction rather than what the limbs are doing. We all know how to throw a kick, or pull a punch, though of course its important to include what the limbs are doing from time to time. Like in "Arm reeled back" in the text above.

Basically, its about finding your style. When I started writing properly I made a rule for myself to try and use pronouns and names as infrequently as possible.

Like instead of, "Ajax punched him in the eyes, then he threw him to the ground, then he kept going and going"

Its "Ajax punched him in the eye, before throwing him down to the ground, striking and striking without end or mercy."

Also, there is the wonderful magic of *editing*

Write things as plainly and obviously as you want to. Where everything is just spelled out rather than showcased, then comb through the scene and remove repeating words and phrases. Reword things how you like them, or a good idea I heard is to try and rewrite the scene from memory without rereading it. It will be slightly different with all the main bits that matter. You can compare and edit as you want.

In the end, as you write and develop your talent you will find your style and find what works for you. It also changes depending on whether you write in first, second or third POV. Who your character is, and what they are doing or who they are fighting. Writing is definitely not a one glove fits all type thing.

I hope this helped you a bit!

It's the way I can write but I can't write at the same time.

I can think up scenes, characters, things like that. But when it comes to fighting scenes, I'm stuck.

Does anyone know fighting terms for a fight scene? Like parry for example.

And for other words like "said". I have to search for similar words to said and I get tired of it😮‍💨

Advice would be nice! This isn't for fanfics but just writing in general.

[sodrippy]

hi guys<3 guess whos back to torment u with my bullshit 24/7 again<3

[cocona]

when knj said "all i need is me, ik ik ik ik, but why do i feel lonely, im so lonely when im with me, im so lonely when im with me"....I felt that

[yumikitten]

When they want to ask you to move in together.

Character(s): Bakugou Katsuki, Kirishima Eijirou

Genre: tooth-rotting fluff

Notes: really just had a thought and needed it written like yesterday

Bakugou

You lived separately because you'd only been together for about a year, and though you were at his place a lot or vice versa, the conversation hadn't come up yet. You were waiting for him to bring it up so as not to sound needy, and he was waiting for you because he sure as shit wouldn't want to make you feel like you had to. His way of words was still something he was working on, but it was high time that you lived together. You had your shit at his place, he had shit ar yours; at this point all of your collective shit should be in one area.

You were out walking with him in your neighborhood when he pulled you aside and asked, "Arent you fucking tired of this neighborhood yet?"

Taken aback, you asked, "What do you mean? I love this neighborhood!" And though he knee he could be wording this a hell of a lot better, he kept going with what was on his mind instead of thinking things through.

"You don't think you should maybe move, or something?" His tongue clicked, growing mildly frustrated with himself for not speaking properly when he knew what he wanted plain as day.

"To where? My apartment is reasonably priced, it's a fair distance from school..." You listed off numerous reasons as to why you still stayed where you were, but he was growing more heated with each mark on your list. "It's a good neighborhood, too. Super safe."

"I didn't hear not one thing on that damn list about me." He glared, hoping you'd see the error in your words and understand what he was saying. Fuck, he needed you to understand so he didn't keep feeling humiliated.

"What about you? You practically live with me! You're here all the time!" You retorted hotly, but that just gave him reason to explode.

"That's my fucking point, babe! I practically live with you. You don't maybe think that I should just be living with you?! Do I gotta spell it out for you?!" His hands raised above his head, realizing he was yelling in the middle of a park where kids were still playing at.

Your mind went blank for a second before you finally understood what he was talking about. "You...want to live together? Really?" The blush on his cheeks were enough to confirm an answer. "Why didn't you just ask like a normal person?"

"Why did it take you so damn long to get what I was saying? Besides that, do you not think we're ready for that step? You said it yourself, I practically live with you, babe. I think it's fucking time."

Honestly, he was being really cute right now, brows furrowed with his glance at anywhere but you. His outburst caused a few stares, and he was getting embarrassed. "Ask nicely and maybe we can look at places then."

"Fuck that shit. I'm making an executive decision. We're packing your shit up as soon as we get back." He scolded, though it wasn't in any kind of anger. You knew he was just as happy about it as you were without the normal human emotion to go along with it.

"Okay my love, that sounds perfect to me." Standing on your tip toes, you kissed him before he could cause another scene that would get you kicked out of the park.

Kirishima

You and Kiri had been together about eight months when he realized you were at his apartment more frequently than your own. His lease was coming up to and end, and though he'd loved the location and overall layout of it, he would much rather live with you than re-up. Which is why he had taken you to dinner so as to ask in a cute way.

"So, my lease is up in about a month. What do you think I should do?" He asked you as your eyes scanned the menu.

You set the menu down and thought about his question. "Well, the view from your balcony is really pretty, and you have some nice enough neighbors as long as you aren't loud or anything."

His shoulders slumped at your reply, but he wasn't about to lose hope. "All very good reasons to keep it, but you don't maybe think there's a good reason not to?" The red head prodded, looking into your eyes which were focused.

"Your kitchen is a bit small, but it isn't like you don't normally eat at my house anyway. But I don't really think there's a reason not to." Shrugging, the waiter came to take your orders, Kiri quick with his so he could continue his slew of questions.

"A really fair point to not keep it; really only one of these places is being used more." He paused, hoping you'd get it. When a light started shining in your eyes, he knew you got it quickly.

"Oh! Are you wanting to move in together?" When he nodded, you continued to blush profusely. "I mean, if that's the case, there really isn't any reason to re-up, is there? You can move in with me till mine is up, and then we can find a place of our own. How does that sound?" Now that he got you thinking, your mind was going over every detail of a plan that had hardly started forming. Honestly, he was just excited that you were as joyous as he was at the idea. You hadn't been together long, but you both felt that it was time to take that next step in your relationship.

[fictionkinfessions]

I wonder if my Collei is out there. If she remembers me. The times I'd talk to her during her treatments (trying my best to tame that bad residue batch Barnabas gave- Which he wasnt even supposed to give her before my personal evaluation of her wellbeing. Uhg.)

I wonder if she remembers me letting her escape, or the bag of supplies I even prepared for her right outside. The stories I told her of old patients and my old elezar studies.. She did always seem to be listening, even if she never talked back.

I am sorry for your living conditions, Collei. I know you dont see weight in those words, especially if the Collei's reading this arent my own. You never should have been used for any experiments, mine or my underlings. You should have only gotten the elezar treatments, your condition upon reaching snezhnaya was so terrible I was furious learning you had gotten residue. And even more furious when seeing how volitile the batch you got was. Granted I cant say your living conditions would have been better if you were treated properly, I didnt have the best holding rooms for any experiments or patients. (and yes I will partially blame Pantalone's budget, though admitedly my Prime Body was so far gone I didnt think about patient comfort most of the time by this point..)

Im still surprised despite all of that, you managed to survive. Given the state you were in upon arrival I thought you would be dead for sure. But you're such a tough kid. And well- Okay I will brag a bit, my elezar treatments are very good. Despite their painful side effects. I was still working on that-

Im sorry Im rambling- And I really doubt any Collei has read this far- And if one of you has, please do not read this as me expecting forgiveness, or for you to like me in the slightest. The things you were roped into were far worse than you ever should have had, and Im still upset that Barnabas acted on his own like that. (His given job was simply to collect some willing Elezar patients. As working on treatments for it had become a passtime of mine. His residue experiments were only supposed to go to patients I directly approved of. And he ignored all of my instructions.)

I just hope you have SOME slightly positive memories. Again of my stories, the small bits of kindness my badly calibrated clone caused to shine through. I think about those times more than I'd like to. It fills me with too much guilt. Reminds me of what I was like before the Akademiya and Fatui drove me too far. It makes me scared to share these mems. I'm terrified typing this right now actually. I'm so prepared for people to attack me despite my wishes or the blogs rules for decency. To accuse me of "erasing Dottore's cruelty" or "expecting forgiveness from all Collei kins" even though I've directly said I'm not expecting that.

I just hope my Collei remembers those moments. They can feel however they please about me, I don't care, I'll never look for them, I don't look for anyone. I just don't want to be the only one who has to remember these events.

Maybe my Collei would like to hear that these memories of kindness haunt me. Maybe they want to know that I'm suffering from knowing how much better I could have been in that life if events had played out a bit differently.

It wouldn't surprise me if the average Collei kin wished for nothing but pain for me, anyway, memories of me or not. (not intended to make you pity me I promise. Im just used to how much the community despises me)

~Il Dottore 🕯♟

P.S. If you're thinking of sending a negative response to me (No matter who you may be), don't bother. There's nothing you can say to me that the community or my brain havent already said before. Don't waste your time. I garuntee you, I already know.

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