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#wonder who gave him that ๐Ÿ‘€
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Saw a cool jacket the other day (and then like a billion others)
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The Fernweh Saga by @lacunafiction - Davor edition
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I-I think Ms. Verner doesn't like him...๐Ÿ˜ณ
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Davor "Dove" Kovaฤ ๐Ÿ RO: Becca Warrick
Personality: cautious // aloof // pessimistic // flirtatious (only towards Becca ...and Reese??) Traits: head // independent // resistance // believer Past affinity: math Primary ability: extrasensory awareness Past susceptibility: forward. 'itโ€™s better to push forward. donโ€™t look back on the past when you have new places to be and things to achieve.' <<< his motto
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๐Ÿ•Š๏ธ Fernweh: Davor lived a happy life there and didn't think about leaving in the future. Maybe for some trips, but he knew it would always be his place, hisย safeย place... 'It was a mistake to come back here.' - that was his first thought when he tried to fall asleep on the first night in Fernweh. The nightmares came back as he thought they would. He wants to leave as soon as possible because heย feelsย that it is not safe for Becca to be here.
๐Ÿ•Š๏ธ Gramps Dan: That was his gramps who taught Davor how to play the guitar. As a young child, Davor always admired him and believed he was the most intelligent person in the world. After the death of his parents and how his grandfather treated him, he was devastated and angry. He wanted answers soo badly but didn't get any. He lived loathing his grandfather ever since. The news of his passing stirred up a lot of negative emotions that Davor had previously managed to suppress. At the beginning of the story he couldn't care less about his grandfather, but because of his journal he started to believe him. Things that his granfather lived through made Davor even more angry at this messy town โ€ฆbut he's willing to forgive his grampsโ€ฆ
๐Ÿ Becca Warrick: It was a ...funnyย story that brought both of them together and they look after each other ever since. He considers Becca as his precious (not in a negative-possessive way) treasure, he literally can't let anything bad happen to her. That was also she who came up with the nickname 'Dove'... (and she's literally the only person who calls him that, others wouldn't dare...). He had feelings for her for quite some time but didn't act on it...ย until now. Although he didn't express it, he felt very nervous about Becca being in the town where he grew up. He was curious (but also scared) about what she could think of this town. He felt like he was revealing more of himself to herโ€ฆ. and he forgot about any worries pretty fast, because the town started being weird as fu--.
๐Ÿ•Š๏ธ Reese Verner: Back then Davor was quite cheerful and enjoyed competing with Reese regularly. They teased each other a lot. Davor always thought that Reese had a crush on him, was it true tho? donut know, but he certainly had. ...why does he appear in his nightmares? Maybe the crush stage never disappeared...? Seeing him again was a nice experience, sure... but ignoring the circumstances, he is still unsure if it was worth it and is struggling with his thoughtsโ€ฆ Would it be worth it to return to Fernweh just to see him... again?ย welp, good thing he doesn't have to think about it much, am I right?
๐Ÿ•Š๏ธ Sofia Dorran: The two of them maybe did not have a strong relationship, but he knew Sofia is the ideal person for engaging in intelligent conversations. He enjoyed spending time with her, solving the puzzles that gramps created for them both. Davor wasn't a fan of fantasy books, but she managed to change his mind about them. Davor knows that Sofia did take good care of his grandfather, but he still doesn't quite know if he's grateful for that or wished she spent her time more... valuably... He was tempted to ask Sofia to borrow that book she found in his grandfather's bedroom, but he thought better of it. It's better to leave Fernwehโ€ฆ Even so, his curiosity wasn't properly fed.
๐Ÿ•Š๏ธ James Corvin: Maybe not brothers by blood, but definitely brothers by choice. Davor treated him as if he was the brother he always wanted to have. Back then Davor always placed a high value on his familyโ€ฆ until now. At the time, Davor tended to be more impulsive and James was usually the one who kept him from getting into trouble (which often involved Reese). It was really hard, for both of them, to see each other after so long. Their first interaction was pretty awkward... I would even say that most of their interactions were . James noticed how Davor changed the question is: for the better or worse? I don't even know. Everyone can sense, that things around them are different now, and they aren't as close as before. Will it change?
๐Ÿ•Š๏ธ Alek Corvin: โ€ฆTo say that Alek wasn't a fan of Davor would be an understatement. Was it because James spent most of his time focusing only on Davor trying to get him out of trouble? Did Alek observe any possessiveness from Davor towards James? Or maybe simply because of the bond between those two, which was truly something that others would envy and desire? Davor never considered it, especially when he left Fernweh permanently. :)) As you can imagine, Alek doesn't seem very happy about Davor's returnโ€ฆ But he took an interest in his new friend, Becca, which did not go unnoticed by Davor and he isn't really happy about it.
๐Ÿ•Š๏ธ The Waitress: Oh boy, it seems that Davor has taken up a new hobby, which is glaring harshly at the waitress. He finds her mistrustful and he smells trouble. Had they met when he was younger, there may have been a slim chance of them getting along.
๐Ÿ•Š๏ธ Waffles!: So umโ€ฆ Davor has a little issue with dogs and because of that his relationship with Waffles isn't as wonderful as I wish it would be... However, I believe that with time and help from Becca, they will eventually become friends.
#actually about his scar i have this whole headcanon... featuring some...umm.. doggos and Becca... ๐Ÿ‘€ especially how they met#(Davor was always team cats but after that incident even more xD)#also ouch that naming scene it hurt me so much! but i get it ;; aaaa! Davor why are you being so problematic Waffles is wonderful!!!#it was really interesting for me to messing with Davor in nightmares and showing him Reese!! the feelings the emotions aaaa#also yeeaah Davor thought several times if it would be a good idea to come back to Re-- *cough* Fernweh... and then Becca happened...#generally speaking Davor has a keen interest in Slavic mythologies and culture particularly those from western and southern regions of-#-Europe. I imagine that his father has roots in these regions and he took great pride in his heritage. Often taking about it to Davor#...and since Sofia's a smart girl she lent Davor a fantasy book written by Slavic author who took a great inspiration from Slavic myths๐Ÿ‘ผ๐Ÿ˜Š#yes it was enough to change Davor's mind about fantasy books XD he never really read one before he just assumed it's BORING!#and now I'm sure he will throw questions at Sofia about this book she found even more since he's staying at Fernweh... I can imagine how-#-they both are staying up late studying it and comparing their notes... it would remind Davor about the time they were kids-#-it seems that his Gramps gave them both the last puzzle to solve... will they succeed?#and ooohh that will be a hard time for James and Davor... that rejection at the end of book one wont help them im sure XD#about Davor's 'possesivenes' over James... Davor was needy that's true but he would never think about 'stealing' James from Alek or-#-'claiming' James belongs to him. I hope im not crossing a line here but in my headcanon Alek was TOTALLY jealous over their friendship#and Alek THOUGHT that Davor was receiving more attention from James ๐Ÿ‘€#//which obv isn't true because James would never allow it. Alek is always a number one in James' heart//#in mine too I love A!!!! ๐Ÿ’– they're a BABY#but i must say that Davor didn't really think about Alek's feelings back then. he wasn't aware how Alek could feel- that's not an excuse#super curious about book two and how his relationships with every single one of them will develop!!!#fernweh saga#oc: davor kovac#no i totally did NOT change his surname..
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Fallen Angel, Uplifted Human (Patreon)
#Doodles#LAC#LAC Russ#Doug Peterson#DQIX#Serena#Corvus#Hello LAC/DQIX fandoms could I interest you in a switcheroo crossover ๐Ÿ‘€#LAC gets all of them because they're that special and versatile and also they literally jump video games lol#But also they keep?? aligning with my already-established interests lol - human and their demon boyfriend is just a fave of mine smh#I don't Entirely remember what inspired this thought other than Doug being a Celestrian and I think it all tripped from there#I think Russ as Serena was the first actually concrete thought of Who should be Where and the pieces kinda fell into shape all at once lol#It's so fun to think about ugh <3 <3 Serena and Corvus' story is so tragic - and at the end so is Russ and Doug's!#Giving them the opposing side probably wouldn't help lol but how might they react differently โ™ช It's so fun to theorize#Obviously Russ has his hood up so he still made it to ghost form :( Poor lad#That said I haven't doodled the Prince of Darkness version of Doug from his Celestrain form#I'm not sure what that would look like outside of his normal demon form lol but Corvus' ensemble is very uhm....revealing lol#Cursed#That said Doug does look super cute in his duds <3 I'm sure not helped at all by Corvus' already cute fashion sense haha โ™ช#Gave him modified horns for a halo since it's favourite as well :D Wonder what'll happen to that >:3c#List of characters who originally did not have fluffy angels wings: Added Doug (lol)#And then for funsies I gave the other two the reverse! They deserve a little unhinged chaos!#LBRH Serena would not need much of a push to commit some retribution lol#Also modified Corvus' demon form - it's so fun 'cause they both have canon demon designs! Love that :D#He gets little baby versions of his horns but he fully gets his wings and tail haha โ™ช#They all look handsome in the clothes swaps as well ah โ™ฅ Fun fun fun fun fun
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As a slut for angst today โ€œtolerate itโ€ has been stuck on a loop and now I am imaging an angsty fic where Az just slowly begins to forget about reader and she threatens to leave but he doesnโ€™t take her seriously and is so utterly destroyed when he comes back home and sheโ€™s goneโ€ฆ
Like I feel like itโ€™s on brand with him and his duty to his job and whatnot. Plus the lyrics are so him coded โ€œwhile you were out building worlds where was Iโ€ / โ€œtook this dagger in me and removed itโ€ LIKE HELLO???
(But I also love a good happy ending so I feel like if azzy groveled hard enoughโ€ฆ ๐Ÿ‘€)
Tolerate it.
Summary: She is fed up.
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A/n: ehehehehehe angsttttt yummy yummyyyy
Enjoy!
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Y/n laughed at Feyre's pathetic attempts at skipping the large puddle on the ground accumulated due to the rains that had Velaris freezing overnight.
Feyre failed miserably, her boots and leggings getting wet from the splash that signalled her downfall against the watery enemy of hers. But Feyre was not fazed. She simply laughed alongside Y/n, her eyes crinkling as the two of them made their way back to the river house.
It was visible already now, Y/n could even make out the grains in the wood of the door as it opened, and her brother in laws, along with her mate, spilled out.
Y/n could see from the corner of her eyes as her sister lit up at seeing her mate, her husband and the father of her child. The moment his eyes met her, she took off, her arms spread as she ran up to him and threw her arms around his neck. Rhysand did not hold back either, clutching Feyre to her chest with as much enthusiasm as she held him.
It made Y/n smile.
Y/n then glanced behind the embracing couple to her mate, the overwhelming urge to hug him too and to claim him in front of anyone watching making her start walking towards him without even realising.
Which was reckless, as the moment he realised she was walking towards him to hug him? He took a step back.
Y/n knew that he hated being affectionate in front of others, but this was cruel.
So to not get embarrassed by his rejection, Y/n turned swiftly towards Cassian, her other brother in law, who stood not too far from where Azriel did, and hugged him instead.
Cassian, Mother bless his heart, did not even question it.
He wrapped his arms around Y/n and literally lifted her off the ground, cackling when Y/n's fist made contact with his shoulder over and over again as she demanded to be put down.
Y/n had to stop herself from thinking back to that day. She did not want to relive the pain she had felt, the sadness and anger.
Y/n watched his eyes fluttering, wondering if he was dreaming. Wondering who he was dreaming about.
It definitely was not her, that was for sure.
Y/n, feeing a little sadness taking root in her heart, returned to the portrait in her hands, questioning if it would even be worth it finishing it up when he sure as hell wouldn't even acknowledge it. Or her.
Y/n glanced at the paint supplies she had placed on the coffee table next to her, having wanted to capture a moment of him letting his guard down, of him being vulnerable using her best paints, knowing he would not care.
She guessed living for as long as he had, life and the small things didn't matter as much anymore. Maybe that was why he loved to go on the missions Rhysand, Y/n's brother in law, gave him.
It probably gave him the thrill nothing else did anymore.
With Y/n's sister just having given birth to the starlight of the court, Rhys had become more and more protective, sending his brothers and anyone and everyone at his disposal to check and report about every trivial thing that made his primal mate and father side get protective.
Slowly, Y/n reached for the brush that rested in the cup half filled with coloured water, deciding to finish the half done portrait. If he did not care... she did not now what she would do then, but she did know she was tired of being tolerated by him.
But what could she even do? It was not like she could just up and leave.
Y/n blinked.
Or... could she?
Y/n shook her head, as if to dislodge the though, and with a sigh, she let herself get lost in the soft skill of painting her sister had taught her long ago, when staying up and huddling under worn blankets was the only thing bringing any warmth.
Trying not to think about the fact that the last time she remembered him caring for her, genuinely caring for her, was only when the two had been in their early stages of relation ship and the mating bond was a very new experience to a newly made fae Y/n, she continued using the soft and strong, long and short strokes to finish up her latest masterpiece.
Of course, Y/n never would call herself a creator of masterpieces, but any and all art that included her perfect mate was destined to be a masterpiece.
Time lost its meaning, and all that mattered was capturing the perfect angle for his eyes, nose, lips, shoulder.
Nothing existed but Y/n, her art, and her muse.
Nothing existed but the soft rise and fall of his back as he lay sprawled on his stomach, the effortless way his wings draped across the whole bed, taking up space three wingless fae could have slept in.
Where Y/n would have slept in, on days when everything had been filled with stars and dreams, wrapped under his warm wing like it were a living blanket.
When he pretended he was nothing, absolutely nothing but her mate. Her husband. Not a spymaster, not a shadowsinger, not a brother. Just her mate, her lover.
Those days were far gone now.
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Despite the fact that she knew he would most definitely not care, Y/n was excited.
And that was downplaying what she felt.
The wait was killing her, the amount of adrenaline in her bloodstream making her want to jump around to get rid of the energy that made her shiver, her limbs going cold and warm at the same time. She had to push her fists together and shove them between her thighs to keep them from shaking, which did not help at all.
So Y/n waited, her body clenched in anticipation as she stared at the doorway that led into the living room, a big grin on her face.
She glanced once at the sketchpad in front of her on the table, admiring her artwork for a moment.
She never liked whatever she made, always feeling like it lacked something. So for her to be excited to show off her art to her mate was a huge indication to how much she loved the portrait.
The familiar scuff of worn boots drew Y/n's attention, and she shot to her feet, pressing her fists to the back of her thighs.
It had become a habit of Azriel's, to purposefully make some noise before he stepped in view so as not to startle her with his appearance.
The action melted Y/n's heart every single time.
He stepped into view, as ethereal as the day Y/n had first seen him as a human, just as beautiful as he had looked that day as he tried to get comfortable on the small chair in the manor on the other side of the wall, just as loveable as that day when she had ended up losing her heart to the low born fae that should have intimated her.
He was fumbling with his armor, making sure it was all secured properly before he left for whatever mission Rhys assigned him for that day.
He glanced up just as he walked past Y/n to the kitchen counter, a small smile gracing his face before his attention was again diverted.
Y/n tried not to deflate at his lack of enthusiasm.
"Good morning love. Look-"
"Good morning Y/n." He cut her off, his voice void of emotions, as if he was tired of saying the same thing every morning and wanted to get it over with. He didn't even glance at Y/n as he said it, and Y/n pretended not to notice that he used her name instead of whatever endearing name he would have picked before.
"I will be on a scouting trip to Illyria, and after I have a meeting and dinner scheduled with Rhys and Cass, so I will be late coming home. Don't wait up."
Y/n's smile faded. "Don't wait up or stay out of my way?"
Azriel froze. "What?"
Y/n released a humourless laugh. "Nothing. Go have fun."
Azriel turned, giving her a hard look. "You know I would rather stay at home with you."
Doubtful.
Y/n so badly wanted to say it to his face, but she did not want to fight with him so early in the morning, so she sighed, smiled and nodded.
He started walking towards the door, and despite her anger, Y/n walked forward to kiss his cheek.
She did not miss how he recoiled.
Y/n masked the hurt before he could see it, and he gave her an awkward smile before he maneuvered to walk around her, careful not to brush against her.
Y/n watched him walk away, staring hard at the door even long after he'd left.
She then glanced at the portrait she had abandoned on the table, and, her heart hardening, turned away.
She was tired of having her love be tolerated, and she would not have it be that way anymore.
Either he accept her love the way it was, loud and clear, or he go find someone else.
And so, she turned, walked up the stairs to the bedchambers she shared with Azriel, and began to turn it back into just his bedchambers.
She would no longer be tolerated only because some godly entity thought she and him would make great, powerful kids and tied them together with a string.
She deserved to be cherished.
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Part 2
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Azriel Taglist: @darthdumbasss @foreverrandomwritings @azrielsmate3 @celestialend
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๐‘ณ๐‘ถ๐‘ฝ๐‘ฌ, ๐‘ญ๐‘น๐‘ถ๐‘ด ๐‘จ๐‘ณ๐‘ณ ๐‘ญ๐‘ถ๐‘ผ๐‘น ๐‘ช๐‘ถ๐‘น๐‘ต๐‘ฌ๐‘น๐‘บ ๐‘ถ๐‘ญ ๐‘ป๐‘ฏ๐‘ฌ ๐‘พ๐‘ถ๐‘น๐‘ณ๐‘ซ . (๐‘บ๐‘ด๐‘จ๐‘ผ ๐‘ฝ๐‘ฌ๐‘น๐‘บ๐‘ฐ๐‘ถ๐‘ต) - ๐‘‡๐ป๐‘…๐ธ๐ธ
๐‘จ๐’–๐’•๐’‰๐’๐’“'๐’” ๐‘ต๐’๐’•๐’† - Little throwback to Lando's win in Miami for the sake of the story. I think we all Lando girlies need to relieve this for a moment ๐Ÿงก raise a hand if you miss this moment (bc I surely do).
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London, England
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yourusername Enjoying some time with my best friend at home ๐Ÿ’–
landonorris wonder who gave her that dollhouse ๐Ÿค”
landonorris my pretty girls, i miss you
โ†ช yourusername stop whinning and go enjoy ur trip, dickhead (we miss u too) โ†ช landofan4 friendship goals fr
ln4stan Ollie is the cutest omg
yourmomusername What lovely ladies! I love you
โ†ช yourusername we love you, momma
username1 we need to see this duo with lando again
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f1gossip Lando Norris is enjoying King's Day with his friend, Martin Garrix, in Amsterdam, and ended up getting his nose injured. What do you think happened?
username1 did he get into a fight????
username2 for fuck sake, we have a race in a week!
username3 omg bless y/n so she can try making his image better for the media in miami
username4 i NEED to know what happened with him
username5 @.yourusername mother, feed us with info, please! ๐Ÿฅบ
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Caption: He's well and alive, might kill him later for the scare (just a glass cut, no fighting)
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landonorris added to their stories
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Caption: This is an apology for making her so concerned about a nose cut
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Caption: Gave her the scare of her life @.yourusername and made up to her after a cuddling afternoon, brunch, NBA game and tomorrow the beach
โ†ช yourusername replied to your story: all forgiven after the pampering ๐Ÿ’˜ โ†ช landopriv: love you, idiot
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Caption: Who let this idiot bring a camera along with him? Keep him away from me. Every time I blink: FLASH!
โ†ช landonorris: you're no fun ๐Ÿ™„
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Miami, Florida
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yourusername Miami on film ๐Ÿ–
landonorris you're as hot as miami, baby
โ†ช username1 OH MY FUCKING GOD โ†ช username2 boy is down bad for her ๐Ÿฅต โ†ช username3 Lando can't even pretend he isn't in love with her anymore โ†ช yourusername police he has escaped again
username4 do you guys think he took the photos or that she stole his camera?
โ†ช username5 he definitely took them! we saw him carrying the camera everywhere and they were at the beach earlier
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f1 LANDO NORRIS WINS HIS FIRST GRAND PRIX
landofan HE DID IT GUYS!
mclarengirly OMG I CAN'T BELIEVE
ln4bitch oh man we just know he's gonna party HARD
yourusername I've never been more proud ๐Ÿฅบ
โ†ชpapayafan y/n please tell lando we love him! ๐Ÿงก โ†ชlanfan4 give him the biggest kiss and the tighest hug for me
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landonorris WWE FUCKIJG DID IT. P1
username1 WE DID IT LANDO!
username2 Longest time coming! Congratulations, Lan ๐Ÿงก
username3 My man!!! LFG
yourusername I AM THE PROUDEST
yourusername love you so much, you idiot. P FUCKING ONE! ๐Ÿงก
โ†ชlandonorris i love you more, muppet โค โ†ชusername4 your honor, i love them โ†ชusername5 MOM AND DAD ARE GIVING PDA
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f1gossip Lando Norris and his best friend, Y/N L/N, partying together in Miami after his win. Some people that were at the party reported on our DMs that they didn't keep away from each other all night and were missing from the party for a while. Do you think they celebrated it in a more special way? ๐Ÿ’‹๐Ÿ‘€
username1 Lord, I'm ready for them to be a couple
username2 i saw they leaving the club hand in hand last night, guys! they were alone and very much in a hurry to get out of there
โ†ชusername3 how do you know if you're telling the truth? โ†ชusername2 you can check my profile, i was at the paddock today and after the gp, my friend and i followed them around town to party too!
username4 i saw this dude that swore they were kissing in the back of the club ln, but it's not something i can 100% confirm
โ†ชusername5 Can we please stop speculating on their friendship? They both have expressed they hate when people start forcing a relationship onto them.
username6 at this point, i'm just waiting for y/n's special post for lando on insta
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yourusername I knew you were special on the first time I saw your muppet face in my office. I've been your biggest fan ever since; rooting and praying for this day to finally come. I've never been so proud of you, Lan. Longest time coming to this moment. I love you so much, my grand prix winner โ€“ even though you got me so drunk we missed our flight today. Now enjoy some podium pics I took yesterday + a cute one from the hottest duo in Miami last night.
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landonorris I love you so much! Can't imagine life without my partner in crime. You being there made everything even more special
โ†ชyourusername Stop or I'll cry again โ†ชlandonorris Will be an honour to make you cry for me twice ๐Ÿ˜‚
username1 GUYS WAKE UP Y/N POSTED ABOUT LAST NIGHT
username2 name a prettier friend duo, i'll wait
โ†ชlandonorris me too โ†ชyourusername me three
yourmotherusername Olivia has been non stop since the finish line! She can't wait to see her favourite uncle โค Congratulations, Lando
โ†ชlandonorris thank you so much, mrs l/n โค and tell ollie uncle lan loves her very very much โ†ชusername3 now we're gonna have to wait until ollie and lando reunion after miami ๐Ÿ˜ญ โ†ชyourusername promise to come back with pictures
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If It All Fell (9)
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Pairing:ย Azriel x Reader
Summary:ย If it all fell apartโ€”if you forgot who you wereโ€”would you love him again? Would the bond guide you back? Azriel doesn't know if that uncertainty is one he can bear.
Word count: 3k
Warnings: Angst, pining
a/n: Thank you so much for sticking around. I had to reread this entire series to write this part and it made me remember how much I love sharing it with you all โ™ก Italics indicate memories (oooooo๐Ÿ‘€).
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One of the many downsides to losing your memory was your lack of card game knowledge. An inconsequential tidbit when you took a step back and evaluated the hardships that plagued you, but a fact that was currently causing you a massive headache and a massive loss, all the same.ย 
โ€œThis is just completely unfair,โ€ you huffed, tossing your cards on the table and leaning back in your chair. โ€œI can barely even remember what you said the rules were.โ€ย 
โ€œHardly my fault, sweetheart. I gave you a run down before we started,โ€ Cassian slyly grinned.ย 
You scoffed. โ€œThere were over fifteen steps to this game! And I feel like you made up half of them!โ€ย 
โ€œWhile that would definitely be something heโ€™d pull,โ€ Mor piped in, an accusatory glance in Cassianโ€™s direction. โ€œHeโ€™s innocent, this time. This is just a really complicated game.โ€ย 
โ€œOh yeah, great. Make the amnesiac play the complicated game so sheโ€™ll lose. That's really classy, Cassian. Great sportsmanship.โ€ย 
Cassian had the gall to look offended, a hand placed at his heart. โ€œYou used to be great at this game, Iโ€™ll have you know. You won every time. We banned you, actually.โ€ย 
โ€œYou banned me from playing a card game?โ€ย 
Azriel, who had been fighting off a laugh with his tongue against his cheek, spoke up from beside you. โ€œVery strictly banned, as well. For the last hundred years. Youโ€™re lucky weโ€™re letting you play now.โ€ย 
Your mouth dropped open in the most wounded expression you could manage, mirth dancing in your eyes as you turned your head to catch the shadowsingerโ€™s blush-tinted cheeks.ย 
Things wereโ€ฆ good between the two of you. The same, but good, mostly because you had refrained from even alluding to his mate. When you didnโ€™t talk about her, or look at anything that might have belonged to her, or question Azriel on the sadness in his eyes, he stayed glued to your side. It was a wonderful friendship the two of you were cultivatingโ€”one built on one-sided secrets where the answers were locked in your brain.ย 
โ€œWhat could I have possibly done to get banned from a card game for a hundred years?โ€ you gaped.
Azrielโ€™s wings rustled behind him, unfurling to cloak your back in warmth. He laughed. โ€œYou cheat.โ€ย 
โ€œI cheat?โ€ย 
โ€œI wouldnโ€™t call it cheating, exactly,โ€ Mor defended, sliding her cards face-down on the table in favor of the snack plate in the center. โ€œNot when itโ€™s not your fault.โ€ย 
โ€œBullshit!โ€ Cassian exclaimed, fist coming down in a loud bang. โ€œShe knows how to control her magic. She chooses to use it during the game and that makes it cheating.โ€ย 
Mor pointed an accusing finger in Azrielโ€™s direction. โ€œAnd what about his shadows, then? Youโ€™ve never had a problem with him playing, oh great game warden.โ€ย 
Cassian narrowed his eyes as if looking at Azriel for the first time. โ€œBrother, you cheat as well?โ€ย 
In the most jovial tone youโ€™d heard Azriel take, he refuted, โ€œI absolutely do not.โ€ย 
That had spiraled into another argument you were not part of, and you took the opportunity to pick your cards back up and attempt to run through the rules again. It was a game of chance, really, but it was also a game of wit and that wasnโ€™t your strongest suit at the moment.ย 
Maybe if you tried a little bit harderโ€”
โ€œOkay, your turn, y/n,โ€ Azirel called you out of your fruitless thoughts. โ€œJust try to pick one.โ€ย 
Your lips twisted to the side as you examined your cards and looked up at your opponent. Cassian appeared quite average, no shifting eyes or telling sighs. He was very good at this game, allegedly.ย 
You flicked your eyes back down to your cards, but, noโ€”something didnโ€™t feel right about that.ย 
You looked back up at Cassian, and something shifted.ย 
Somethingโ€ฆ seemed off. Like he wasโ€”
โ€œYouโ€™re lying,โ€ you stated as if it were a well-known fact. โ€œYouโ€™re lying so hard right now. So that means I should take this andโ€ฆโ€ย 
Your last words trailed off as you slapped a pair of cards on the table. You looked up to Cassian with a smug expression, the general narrowing his eyes and swiping his own cards aside. He scoffed, and then scoffed again, the second time paired with his arms across his chest.ย 
โ€œYeah? And how would you know?โ€ he challenged.ย 
Your head jutted back in disbelief. You gazed around the table but none of your opponents offered the same look. โ€œAre you kidding? Itโ€™s practically pouring off of you.โ€ย 
โ€œWhat is?โ€ Azriel softly asked.ย 
โ€œHis lie!โ€ you exclaimed, hands raised in shock.ย 
โ€œHow so?โ€ Mor posed.ย 
โ€œAll around him.โ€ You shook your hand in the direction of the General, making some form of a circle. โ€œHeโ€™s just a terrible liar and you can see it. I thought you all said he was undefeated?โ€ย 
โ€œI was,โ€ Cassian huffed out with a laugh. โ€œAgainst everyone other than you.โ€ย 
His words sobered up your competitive mood, the rest of the table having come to a conclusion you only just realized. Azriel sat beside you with bated breath, tenseness apparent in the coil of his wings and shadows. Mor tried and failed to hide her smile behind her lips. Cassian didnโ€™t even attempt to hide; his smile was vibrant without a hint of defeat.ย 
โ€œDoes this meanโ€”โ€ย 
โ€œYes!โ€ Mor gave a small cheer. โ€œSomething is happening in that beautiful brain of yours and youโ€™re coming back to us!โ€
Coming back to them.ย 
As if you werenโ€™t sitting right there.ย 
โ€œWe should ask her questions,โ€ Cassian boomed with another laugh. โ€œSee what else is in there.โ€ย 
โ€œOh! We should. Think of something, Cass.โ€ย 
โ€œWhat aboutโ€ฆโ€ย 
The air around you felt suffocating as those at the table began talking as if you werenโ€™t there. Any joy you felt at the revelation was washed, evaporatedโ€”creating a somber resolve that made your skin feel dull.ย 
โ€œMaybe ask her things associated with her magic. Maybe thatโ€™s coming through first,โ€ Mor offered. Walnut shells and wine glasses lay empty and scattered beside discarded cards.ย 
โ€œI donโ€™t thinkโ€”โ€ Azrielโ€™s response was muted by a buzzing in your ears.ย 
It would never be enough. You were a full person sitting before them, but you werenโ€™t. You werenโ€™t the person they expectedโ€”not the person they wanted. You had been stuck in this limbo for weeks now, living under pitying eyes and hopeful half-smiles that never met their eyes. Secrets were kept because they hoped youโ€”the real youโ€”would eventually return and save them from sharing the hard things.ย 
You blinked away the dryness in your eyes.ย 
โ€œWe should get Rhys. He might find an opening now that her magic isโ€”โ€ย 
โ€œIโ€™m right here,โ€ you interrupted, the gravel of your tone barely audible below Cassianโ€™s excited tone. The table fell silent, anyway. โ€œI donโ€™t know why you all insist on speaking about me and not to me.โ€ย 
Morโ€™s voice was still light as she replied, โ€œY/n, we donโ€™t meanโ€”โ€ย 
โ€œYou donโ€™t mean what?โ€ you laughed, the sound bordering hysterical. You caught Azriel turning his head down towards you in your peripheral. You ignored it. โ€œYou donโ€™t mean to make me feel like half a person? Like a ghost? Because Iโ€™m right here and I have been for weeks but you all are so concerned with what Iโ€™m going to be in some undetermined amount of time that you seem to forget Iโ€™m alive now.โ€ย 
Cassianโ€™s lips parted to speak, but words continued to spill from your mouth. โ€œI mean, I wasnโ€™t even allowed to know about most of my life until recently. You all expect me to get better instantly, making decisions and keeping secrets as if this isnโ€™t part of my lifeโ€”as if when I get my memories backโ€ฆ if I get them backโ€ฆ all these weeks will just disappear.
โ€œBut Iโ€™ve been here,โ€ you stressed. Your fingers were tingling and your neck felt hot. โ€œIโ€™ve been here and all of youโ€”you all talk over my head. I finally get some semblance of myself back and all you can think about is what more I can do. You donโ€™t care about me. You care about some version of me that Iโ€™ve never met.โ€ย 
You rose from the table, hands coming down harshly as you stood. Mor quickly mimicked your action, but you held a hand up, dismissing the person who had been your safe space at the start of this messโ€”at the start of your memory, really.ย 
โ€œI needโ€”I need,โ€ you choked. Dim colors and minute vibrations emanated from each person in the room, making your head hurt as you looked at them. You didnโ€™t have the capacity to analyze that development. โ€œI need to be alone.โ€ย 
You heard yourself mutter an apology as you went, unsure what exactly it was for. Your feet stumbled out of the room, getting stuck in cracks and shuffling on marble flooring. A small prickle of embarrassment made you flinch as you went, but it was nothing compared to the harrowing emptiness that guided you out to the balcony.ย 
Maybe it would be better if you spent your time aloneโ€”at least until you got your memories back. You loved being around everyone, but even that was a half-truth. You hadnโ€™t even met everyone that was supposed to be in your life.
Gripping the railing of the balcony, you sucked in a deep breath, greedy for any kind of reprieve. A soft wind met the heat of your cheeks, but it did little to soothe you. If you could just become who they wanted you to beโ€ฆ if you could just know everything they wanted you to know.ย 
Everything felt like too much.ย 
You had so little to go off of, but somehow that was to your detriment.ย 
You thought the first sign of your old self would have been a cause for celebration, but instead, it was only a call for more. More, more, moreโ€”you werenโ€™t enough now.ย 
You heard your name in the wind, a soft sound that carried delicately past your ears. For reasons you could not place, the single word sent anger pulsing in your veins.ย 
You whipped around, unsurprised to see Azriel standing beneath the archway to the house, his expression unguarded and his shadows reaching and reaching and reaching towards you.ย 
He seemed to recoil at your furious gaze.ย 
โ€œWhat?โ€ you asked, still breathless from the way panic had taken control of your chest. โ€œWhat, Azriel?โ€ย 
But words seemed to fail him as he stood there. He blinked more than necessary, shaking his head and then righting it, unsure of the direction he wanted to take.ย 
It infuriated you.ย 
โ€œWhat could you have to say?โ€ you instigated, and the harsh words made you sick. โ€œYou of all people treat me as a stranger. You say weโ€™re closeโ€”that we are the closest of anyoneโ€”but you keep secrets, Azriel. You keep secrets and you make it impossible to get to know you. What happens if I never get my memory back, huh?โ€
The notion of that reality set the Shadowsinger into motion. โ€œDonโ€™t say that,โ€ he almost begged, desperation lost behind gritted teeth. โ€œWe are still lookingโ€”โ€ย 
โ€œWould it be that terrible for you? Truly, Azriel. You slink around me, afraid to share things I donโ€™t even know are there! How am Iโ€”What am I supposed to do if this is just me now?โ€ You tugged at your hair as frustration captured your voice. You hadnโ€™t meant to say any of this, hadnโ€™t planned on even hinting at your displeasure, but something snapped today.ย 
Something snapped and there was nothing you could do to cope with the breakage. Because you were a stranger to everyoneโ€”most of all yourself.ย 
โ€œThat wonโ€™t happen,โ€ Azriel attempted to reassure, taking small steps towards your pacing figure. โ€œWe are going to figure this out and everything will beโ€”โ€ย 
โ€œIt wonโ€™t!โ€ย 
You screamed.ย 
You hadnโ€™t meant to.ย 
Azriel stopped in his tracks.ย 
โ€œIt wonโ€™t be fine, Azriel.โ€ Back to a normal volume, your voice sounded hoarse. โ€œI canโ€™t keep living like thisโ€”like a ghost. Itโ€™s been weeks and there are no leads. All I have now is this hint of my powers that Iโ€™m not even sure how to parse out. They donโ€™t make sense. None of this makes sense.โ€ย 
Your eyes were glued to your feet as Azrielโ€™s words broke at the syllables. โ€œI know.โ€ย 
โ€œNone of you will want me if I canโ€™t be her.โ€ย 
โ€œI will always want you,โ€ he was quick to respond.ย 
When you raised your head, the stray tears held captive by your waterline fell. Azriel stared back at you in earnest but it felt incomplete.ย 
โ€œYou keep things from me still,โ€ you said, words thick in your throat. โ€œItโ€™s like youโ€™re waiting for herโ€”for someone else. With Mor and them, itโ€™s different. It feels different with you.โ€
Azriel whispered a broken rendition of your name. The color you saw reflecting from his shoulders was sharp against the backdrop of the dark house, and you had no idea its significance, but something within you told you it wasnโ€™t going to get you what you so desperately wanted.ย 
โ€œStop,โ€ you begged, chin wobbling. โ€œStopโ€ฆ formulating what youโ€™re going to say to me. This is worse, now that I have my magic. I see your every indecision around me.โ€ย 
Azrielโ€™s expression pinched and the color fizzled out as he stepped forward and held your face in his textured hands. Your anger dissipated as he titled your head up to meet his gaze, replaced by the uncertainty that often mingled with regret when he was near.ย 
What you were regretting, you didnโ€™t know.ย 
โ€œYou are the one sure thing in my life,โ€ he confessed. โ€œIโ€™m sorry. Iโ€™m so sorry Iโ€™ve made you feel this wayโ€”that we all have. Iโ€”I have been keeping something from you. Iโ€™ve been afraid it would be too much, that I would lose you if you knew. But Iโ€™m only losing you now.โ€ย 
You gave no reply, unblinking, short breaths escaping you.ย 
Azriel licked his lips and slid his hands down until his thumbs rested along your jaw.ย 
โ€œYou have asked about my mate.โ€ Discomfort panged within your chest as he spoke, but you needed to hear this. Azriel closed his eyes for a pause, brows furrowed, before he met your eye once more. โ€œItโ€™s you.โ€ย 
Your shock came second to the blinding pain creeping up your neck. It fought with you, edging closer and closer to your brain before it fell behind your eyes and shattered all comprehensible thought. Another beat and hazel eyes were lost to darkness.ย 
You heard your name, felt your body go slack and arms brace your fall, but then there was laughing. You were laughing, but the sound wasnโ€™t coming from your body.ย 
โ€œWe have to go back,โ€ you heard yourself admonish in a breathless tone. โ€œTheyโ€™re all waiting for us.โ€ย 
โ€œLet me be alone with my wife for a while longer.โ€ย 
Figures materialized in the dark space of your mind.
A purple dress.ย 
A ring around your finger.ย 
Flowers woven into the lapel of a jacket.ย 
โ€œI have only been your wife for aboutโ€ฆ.โ€ you saw yourself gaze up to the ceiling of a room you did not recognize in feigned contemplation. โ€œAn hour?โ€ย 
Azriel bit back a grin and nuzzled his face into your neck. โ€œBut you have been my mate for my entire life.โ€ย 
โ€œThatโ€™s not even true. It snapped a few months ago.โ€
You stood in the corner of the room as the scene unfolded, feeling like a stranger in some iteration of your life. You looked so at ease, wrapped up in the man who had caused you so much inner turmoil over the last few weeks.ย 
He had said you were mates.ย 
Was thisโ€ฆ
โ€œThatโ€™s not how mates work, my love,โ€ Azriel hummed closing the distance between the skin of your cheek and his lips. โ€œWhen we were created, we were created for each other. There has never been a time in my life that I did not belong to you.โ€ย 
You watched yourself smileโ€”watched yourself curl your fingers in your mateโ€™s hair and press your forehead to his. โ€œGods, youโ€™re the biggest sap.โ€ย 
Azriel laughed. The sound was light and free and everything you had sought after these past few weeks. But you heard it here as he laid with you in his arms.ย 
โ€œI canโ€™t believe you married me,โ€ he whispered, his nose brushing yours.ย 
โ€œOf course I married you.โ€ย 
A pause.ย 
โ€œDo you think you would have married me if things hadnโ€™t worked outโ€”after Day I mean.โ€ย 
From the corner of the room, you analyzed how your body seemed to recoil at the question.ย 
โ€œAzriel, nothing could have kept me from you. Not even that monster from Day. If I hadnโ€™t gotten my memory backโ€”if I had to live with forgetting youโ€”โ€ Azriel shuddered, taking a long breath through his nose. You only brushed your fingers softly against his temple. โ€œโ€”I would have found you again. It probably would have been a pain in the ass to get me to listen butโ€ฆโ€ย 
Azriel scoffed and pulled you closer. โ€œYouโ€™re already a pain in my ass.โ€ย 
โ€œThat was the goal.โ€ย 
Another soft round of laughter.ย 
You felt like an intruder, flinching at the gleam of the ring on Azrielโ€™s finger, hesitant to gaze around the room you had no recollection of. By the door, you could hear others in the hall. You made out Cassian and Morโ€™s voices, but others sparked no recognition within you. Curiosity pulled you in that direction, but before you could touch the doorknob, Azriel spoke again.ย 
โ€œYou wouldnโ€™t have had to find me.โ€ He paused. โ€œI never would have left your side.โ€
And then the scream of your name woke you.ย 
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[Izuku Midoriya x Female!Reader]
Synopsis: Your best friend leaving the hero course was enough to make you lose your mind. Especially when heโ€™s suddenly standing across from you with nothing but a tired smile.
WC: 2978
Category: Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Vigilante!Deku
Please give this one extra love!! Somehow Midoriya is also very suspiciously difficult to write ๐Ÿ‘€ (Also, that 3rd-degree burn I gave my hand today is making me want to cry and throw myself in a river. Damn you, AO3 curse!! )
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Seeing that letter taped on your door broke you in more ways than one.
He had been gone for almost a week, but his note left behind made you realize just how long it'd been. How long he had left you with nothing more than a simple explanation of his departure and how it felt like he was never coming back.
The entire class had been on edge ever since. The note even threw Bakugo for a loop, as much as he would deny it. It had everyone wondering where he was and if he was okay.
It hurt you the most, though. He was the closest friend you had and the only one who truly understood your feelings.
But now he was gone.
Aizawa still continued teaching, but with Midoriya absent, the class just couldn't focus. He wasn't as good at making things seem less depressing or stressful, and his lectures were just boring without a green bush to lighten the mood. Or at least, you thought so.
You haven't been paying much attention lately, and you're too busy thinking of your missing friend. Your grades had been slipping, but it wasn't like anyone could blame you. Even if your friends could, they didn't say anything.
They had tried talking to you, but all you could do was give them a half-hearted smile, shake your head, and tell them, "I'm fine."
You weren't fine, and you knew that. But what were you supposed to do? Cry about it? Itโ€™s not like heโ€™d come back if you did that.
Ironically, he did technically come back.
That day, Aizawa decided to keep the pain everyone felt about Midoriya buried beneath the surface, so he assigned you all a ten-page essay about the history of quirks.
So, here you were, writing a half-assed essay close to two in the morning. Kaminari was blowing up the group chat with memes and random jokes, but no one seemed to care or even respond.
Well, that was until Bakugo started yelling at him to stop texting because he was trying to sleep.
That went on for about a solid ten minutes, with everyone getting annoyed at the two idiots, but eventually, it died down.
You took a glance at the clock, which now read 2:12 a.m.
Sleep just couldn't come to you. Not now, not when your brain was filled with thoughts of the broccoli boi.
Then, there was a tiny patter against your window, almost like a knock. If it hadnโ€™t been so quiet, you might not have heard it.
You ignored it at first, of course, but it continued, the knocks getting louder and more urgent.
Finally, you stood from your chair, deciding to investigate, but then, the knocking stopped.
You paused, confused, but shrugged, figuring you must have been hearing things.
Yeah, right, because hearing knocks on your dorm window at 2 a.m. is normal.
It turned out to be a good thing you got up because when you turned back around, a figure was directly behind you.
You jumped back in fear, letting out a short shriek before slapping your hands over your mouth. The side eye glance to your window, now open and curtain rustling in the slight wind, had you regretting not locking the damn thing.
The figure let out a small chuckle, his shoulders shaking a bit, and your heart rate sped up.
You could see the person a lot better now that they weren't in the shadows, but the moonlight still kept their face hidden.
All you could see was the curly mess of green hair and a large hoodie with a black mask pulled over the bottom half of their face.
But you didnโ€™t have to see his eyes to know exactly who it was.
Your hands fell limply to your sides as the boy stepped closer. His hand reached the hood of his suit, slowly pulling it off, and his bright, emerald green eyes were staring straight into yours.
The only thing you could do was stare, dumbfounded.
"You did lock it, by the way," the boy's voice said. It sounded hoarse and scratchy as if he hadn't spoken in days. He probably hadn't.
Still, his intuition never failed.
You continued to stare, eyes wide and unblinking.
Midoriya's brow furrowed, a look of worry replacing his smile.
"They really should put more difficult locks on these things. I mean, honestly, all I had to do was twist it, and it opened. If I were a villain, thenโ€” hmph!"
Your arms wrapped around his neck tightly, cutting him off. His eyes widened, surprised, but eventually, he relaxed, wrapping his own arms around your waist and pulling you closer.
"I was so worried," you said. You could feel your body starting to tremble, tears pricking your eyes. "Everyone was."
His arms tightened, his chin resting on your shoulder.
"I know. I'm sorry," he whispered, his breath tickling your ear. "I couldn't think of any other way."
You leaned back a bit enough to look him in the eyes. His tired, determined eyes.
"Wait, if youโ€™re hereโ€ฆ does that mean...?"
"I need my notebook." He kept his frown, and a sigh escaped his lips. "You have my old notes, right? I need those."
Oh.
That was it.
That was why he was back.
"Oh," You failed to hide the disappointment in your tone. "Right, uh, hold onโ€ฆ"
You pulled away, your eyes looking away from his. You could feel his eyes burning into the back of your head as you walked over to the desk, rummaging through the drawer.
Speaking of, your desk was an absolute disaster. If allowing students in your dorm room wasn't against the rules, Iida would have broken down your door a long time ago, screaming at the top of his lungs about how your room was in utter chaos.
Eventually, you found it. It was covered in sticky notes, and some of the pages were folded. Makes sense, considering the fact that you'd spent the last week reading it, studying, and hoping to find some kind of clue about his whereabouts and the league itself.
But even if it was in your hands, screaming for its owner, you hesitated. He was going to leave again, wasn't he? He wasn't going to stay.
But common sense hit you. You couldnโ€™t force him to stay. It would be selfish of you to even ask.
You turned, walking back over to him. He was staring intently at the ground, his eyes narrowed in concentration, and he had a small frown on his face.
When you were a couple of feet away, he finally looked up, his hand reaching out for the book.
"Here," you said, trying not to let the sadness seep into your words. "Donโ€™t mind the added stickies. Simpler terms, easier to understand, you know?"
"Right, thanks," he murmured, his eyes darting over the cover before flipping through the pages. His brows were scrunched together, and his fingers fiddled with the pages, flipping through them with a practiced speed.
He was so concentrated on the notebook that he didn't see your frown, and he didn't see the sadness in your eyes.
But then, he froze.
His eyes scanned over one of the pages, his fingers tightening around the spine of the book, and his breath hitched.
His eyes flickered up to yours, and his lips were set in a tight line.
"You read this?"
"Huh?" You blinked, taken aback. "Was Iโ€ฆ not supposed to read it all?"
"What? No, no, I meant this page."
He flipped the book around, opening it to a certain page, and held it up for you to see.
Oh, yeah, his page. The one where he wrote about himself. Which, proudly, you knew most of what was written in it, anyway. Some things caught you off guard, but not many.
"Oh, yeah, I skimmed over it," you admitted.
"And... how much did you skim over?"
"Um... all of it? I mean, I'm in your hero notes, too. I took a lot more of my time on the page dedicated to me, I have to admit, but uhโ€ฆ What's the big deal?"
Midoriya looked at you, and his gaze was intense. "Did youโ€ฆ miss me that much that you would study my hero notes that closely?"
"Well, I wouldnโ€™t say closelyโ€”"
He tilted his head in an almost sarcastic manner, and his eyes narrowed as he leaned over to point at a section in his notes.
A bright pink sticky note, covered in stars, was stuck onto the paper.
It was a small part, a very short paragraph, and you had given your analysis of him and not of his quirk either. It was a list of his attributes, his personality, and the type of hero he was.
To someone else, it would be pretty informative about what kind of person he was and what kind of hero he would be, but you both knew the true meaning behind the note.
Because it was all the things you missed about him.
"โ€ฆ oh, " was all you could say.
The air around you two suddenly became awkward, the silence becoming heavy.
The tension was so thick you could cut it with a knife.
But, as expected, Midoriya broke the silence.
"I figured since youโ€™re still awake, it must mean that you're working on homework or studying, and you wouldnโ€™t do that at night if I werenโ€™t gone," he began. "I thought that maybe it would be too soon to come back, or even that I should have stayed away, but, well, I really needed my notes, and, honestly, I wanted to see you, andโ€”!"
He was rambling again. You could practically see the gears turning in his head, his brain spitting out more words than his mouth could.
At least he was still himself, you thought.
You decided to cut him off, placing your hand on his arm, and he jolted at the sudden contact, his head snapping back up to yours.
"Iโ€™m sorry," you said, looking down.
He looked confused, tilting his head. "What for? You have nothing to be sorry for; you didn't do anything wrong."
"No, Iโ€”" You cut yourself off, biting your lip, and looked away. You took a deep breath before speaking.
"I'm sorry," you started. "For not stopping you. For not coming with you. For not helping you. I had no idea what you were going through, and I was too worried about myself, and I didn'tโ€”"
"Hey, hey, stop," Midoriya said, placing his hand on your shoulder. You hadn't realized you were shaking. "This is my fight, okay? It's not yours, and I was the one who didnโ€™t want to bring anyone else into this mess. This isnโ€™t your fault, so please donโ€™t beat yourself up about it."
"I don't know what I'm supposed to do." You looked back up at him, tears blurring your vision. "I donโ€™t know how to help."
He was silent for a moment, but then, he pulled you closer, wrapping his arms around you once again, and you buried your head in his chest, gripping the fabric of his hoodie.
"It's okay," he said. "I donโ€™t expect you to know how to help, and I didnโ€™t come here for your help. Well, technically, I did since you had my notebook, but Iโ€™m speaking on aโ€”"
โ€œI know, I know," you mumbled.
Another moment of silence, and then, he sighed, a puff of air brushing your ear.
"I'm not sure when I'll be back, if I ever will, but I promise," he whispered, his breath tickling your ear and his words making your heart skip a beat. "I promise we will be fine. We all will. Me, you, everyone else. It might take a while, but we will be okay."
You nodded, your grip on his hoodie tightening. This was the sound of a goodbye, and the finality of it terrified you.
"Itโ€™s justโ€ฆ" you mumbled, and his brow furrowed.
"Just what?"
You hesitated, a lump forming in your throat.
"What?" He repeated, pulling back to look you in the eye. "Please tell me."
You took a deep breath, swallowed the lump, and looked him in the eye.
"It's just that... Youโ€™re my not-alone buddy, remember?โ€
Midoriya froze, his eyes widening.
It was a little game you two had back when things werenโ€™t so complicated. Back when you were just normal students.
You both struggled to make friends, so you made a pact. Obviously, that thought disbanded when everyone else got close, and now you all were pretty good friends, but the friendship between him and you was different. It was a bond between you two that was just special.
Not even โ€˜Kacchanโ€™ could ruin that, as close as he and Midoriya grew.
You never called him Deku, even after Bakugo and the rest of the class started calling him by the nickname. Sure, it was his hero name, and you could call him that, but you just never felt comfortable.
Todoroki didnโ€™t either, but then again, Todoroki didn't call anyone by their nicknames.
But, back to the point.
"We made a pact, and... that was one of the things I wrote on the sticky notes." You gestured to the book. "It was during my angry denial phase, so Iโ€™m not that proud of it, butโ€ฆ it was still true."
"You were angry?" He asked, confused. "Why?"
"Well, first of all, I was worried sick. I knew you were going to go do something stupid, and obviously, I was right.โ€
He winced at that.
"But I was angry because you didnโ€™t trust me, and I felt like you were leaving me, too," you said, biting your lip. "I know that sounds stupid and selfish, and I get that this was your battle, not mine, and I can't change that, but... I guess I was just scared. You didnโ€™t even tell me before you left, and the note was just..."
You trailed off, a lump forming in your throat again, and your eyes burned with tears.
You didn't want to cry in front of him, so you buried your face in his chest again, and his grip tightened around you.
"I'm sorry," he apologized.
You shook your head. "Donโ€™t apologize. It's not like you're changing your mind."
He was quiet for a moment, his head lowering and his lips resting on your forehead.
"I'm sorry," he whispered.
Your breath hitched. "Izuku, please don't say it."
He pulled back, and his face was unreadable. He looked determined, his eyes burning with passion, and it hurt. It hurt to know that, despite everything, he still had his mind made up.
"I have to go," he said, and his voice was quiet. "I donโ€™t want to leave you alone. I really donโ€™t, but I have to, and you need to stay safe. Me being here isn't doing anything good, and I can't keep coming back and putting you in danger. So, for now, at least until the Shigaraki is dealt with, please just be safe. Donโ€™t try and find me, and please don't let anyone else know I was here."
He paused, his eyes glancing towards the window.
"Actually, I might come back just to get rid of that lock. I mean, seriously, I barely even touched it, and it came right off. You could easily replace it with something stronger, maybe one of those new locks that only respond to fingerprints! But, then it can be traced back to you, and they can use you toโ€” oh, man, I'm rambling again, aren't I?"
You didn't bother to respond. Instead, you leaned up, pressing your lips against his cheek.
Midoriya's entire face went bright red, his mouth opening and closing like a fish.
You could feel your face burning, but it was worth it to see his reaction.
"Be careful," you said. "Please, Izu, donโ€™t be stupid."
"R-Right."
He stumbled a bit, his hand coming up to touch the spot where your lips were. His eyes flickered back to you, and you swore you saw him blushing, but then he turned, heading towards the window.
"Oh, uhm, b-by the way," he said, reaching the window. He placed his hand on the frame, glancing back at you. "For Aizawa's essay, you have to also analyze the strengths and weaknesses, not just the evolution of quirks. Make sure to read the whole paragraph in that book he gave us at the beginning of the semester."
He gave you one last smile, pulling the mask over his mouth and the hood over his head. You looked in befuddlement as he stepped out onto the roof, and your hands were wrapped around the edges of the open window.
"How did youโ€”"
"It's Aizawa," His mask was muffling his voice, so he lifted it up a bit, and his eyes twinkled. "What else do you expect from him?"
And then he jumped.
He let the mask drop back down and became just another shadow in the night, with his green lightning trailing behind him.
You didnโ€™t have the energy to laugh, and you didn't have the heart.
You leaned against the windowsill, letting the cool night air wash over your face. You sighed, watching the clouds drift in the sky.
"You're still an idiot," you whispered, closing your eyes.
When the sun rises, this encounter will only be a distant memory.
But for now, the cold night was enough to convince you otherwise. For now, his green eyes were staring up at the same night sky, and he was thinking of you, too.
That kiss on the cheek, as tame as it was, was still enough to make his head spin. You were still his friend, his not-alone buddy, and nothing was going to change that.
And you both were okay with that.
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puppy love
luke hughes x fem!reader
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youruser: on todayโ€™s adventure with bandit and y/n, we almost got run over by a (nearly blind) 6โ€™2 blond who didnโ€™t see us crossing the street (i was wearing a bright pink shirt) & are forever scarred from the experience. tho, he apologized with mcdonalds & gave bandit all the kisses in hopes of forgiveness (he forgave him ๐Ÿ™„ โ€“ my villain origin story fr). anywho, glad we survived & came out unscathed ๐Ÿ’ช
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yourbestie: you gave me a literal heart attack when you called me saying you almost died. i was nearly ready to run to your aid bbg ๐Ÿ˜ช
userone: babes, you let him into your home?? mans NEARLY killed you
youruser: heโ€™s very charismatic
youruser: & persuasive
usertwo: i love hearing about y/n and banditโ€™s daily adventures. itโ€™s like the highlight of my day fr
markestapa: hearing about this the minute it happened is truly an experience i will never forget
edwards73: i legit thought he was crying lol
rutgermcgroarty: โ€œi just almost hit a pretty girl and her puppy. im legit the worst person to ever walk this earth!โ€
dylanduke25: hearing her cuss him out in the background is my roman empire fr
markestapa: she said some very colorful words to our boy ๐Ÿ˜‚
userthree: all these umich boys in y/nโ€™s comments & yet none of them are exposing who it is ๐Ÿ˜ญ
userfour: fr like i need to knowโ—๏ธโ—๏ธ
edwards73: he told me to tell you that he will buy you all the mcdonalds you want if you forgive him
youruser: iโ€™ll think it about it
markestapa: heโ€™s literally begging on his knees
userfive: damn whoever it is, theyโ€™re exposing him lol
yoursibling: of course this happens to you smh
yourbestie2: bandits new dad??? ๐Ÿ‘€
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lhughes_06: iโ€™ve been promoted to dog walker ๐Ÿ•๐Ÿ‘จโ€๐Ÿฆฏ
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youruser: the best dog walker there is!
luca.fantilli: bandit literally dragged him down the street
dylanduke25: & heโ€™s like a fifteen pound dog. that dogโ€™s stronger than luke
userone: ngl i was expecting a bigger reveal
_quinnhughes: at least heโ€™s learning some responsibility
usertwo: the second pic โค๏ธโค๏ธโค๏ธ
userthree: i wonder how luke truly did not see y/n when she was crossing the road?? like what was boy doing to NOT see her?? ๐Ÿค”
youruser: thatโ€™s what iโ€™ve been wondering these past few months lhughes_06
lhughes_06: oops??? i told you i didnโ€™t see you cross the street ๐Ÿ˜ซ
jackhughes: boy ik you lying since your head practically hits the top of the car roof. you def saw the poor girl ๐Ÿ˜ญ lhughes_06
markestapa: bring bandit over more often please ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿค
userfour: not jack exposing luke in userthreeโ€™s comment thread ๐Ÿ‘€
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youruser: nearly three years with you and all you had to do was nearly kill me and my dog to get my attention ๐Ÿ’“๐Ÿ’“
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jackhughes: ahh, puppy love โค๏ธ
lhughes_06: youโ€™re never going to let that go are you? ๐Ÿซค
youruser: lemme thinkโ€ฆ.๐Ÿค”
youruser: uh no <3
yourbestie: i better be the maid of honor ๐Ÿ’ขโ—๏ธ
edwards73: i cant wait to hear about how they met at their wedding. what a meet cute fr
elhughes: i hope heโ€™s learned his lesson by now! ๐Ÿ’›๐Ÿ’™
youruser: of course mama hughes! im just giving him a hard time ๐Ÿค
userone: if i donโ€™t meet my future partner like this, then i donโ€™t want it โ—๏ธโ—๏ธ
usertwo: i canโ€™t believe itโ€™s been three years! bandits so big now :(
userthree: ikr! feels like just yesterday i stumbled upon y/nโ€™s post about it
userfour: how the time flies
rutgermcgroarty: i volunteer to be banditโ€™s sitter during your dates!
seamuscasey26: hey no fair! i called dibs first!
lhughes_06: god i love you
youruser: i love you too lukey ๐Ÿ’ž
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ma1dita ยท 5 months
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I need a pt 2 to the Luke and long distance!gf PLEASEEEEE
mdni
๐Ÿฅ๐Ÿฅ๐Ÿฅ๐Ÿฅ๐Ÿฅ
pt 1 here
a/n: man... getting out of my writing rut so here's this filth. sexting. kinda public. luke cums in his pants. what a loser
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*bzzz*
Lukeโ€™s phone buzzes for the third time in a row in his Financial Marketing lecture today. The notification shakes his phone against the wood of the table to the point that itโ€™s bugging the hell out of Chris whoโ€™s locked into whatever the professorโ€™s sayingโ€”but as soon as Luke sees your name flash across the slightly cracked screen of his iPhone, he drops his pen in favor of you. His brother rolls his eyes, slumping further into his seat head lolling against his arm. Thereโ€™s a smile that immediately settles upon Lukeโ€™s cheeks at the thought of you.
โ€œbaby ๐Ÿคญ you busy?โ€
โ€œwhy are you not answering you donโ€™t even like this class anywayโ€
โ€œfine ig iโ€™ll ask someone else for their opinion ๐Ÿคท๐Ÿปโ€โ™€๏ธโ€ย 
He chuckles lowly as he types out a reply, โ€œopinion on what babe ๐Ÿ‘€โ€ and Chris nudges his arm with a nod to ask if everythingโ€™s good. The professor drones on in the background about the stock market and for once, Luke is glad that Hermes gave him the ability to skate through his Econ degree (the only think heโ€™ll be grateful to his absent father for), because it gives him more time to focus on more important things, like the slew of images of you trying on bikinis that infiltrate his phone.
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โ€œoops sorry! guess i sent them to the wrong personโ€
He gulps almost comically, shifting in his seat as he saves them for later. Shifty eyes and quick fingers can only do so much in a crowded lecture hall. But you see that his read receipts are on, and frankly the lack of a response is irritating when youโ€™re pulling your best poses in the comfort of your living room. Boys never get how much effort it takes to be sexy.
โ€œdamn. guess iโ€™ll go find a new boyfriend who can appreciate all of thisโ€
Luke sighs, half stifled by is need to see you bare and his spit going down the wrong pipe that he clears his throat loudly, trying to ignore his jeans tightening by the second. Licking his lips, he clicks on the presentation slides, trying to catch up to where the professor is after your very welcome distractions.ย 
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He presses the โ€˜nextโ€™ button just as another iMessage notification pops up on his screen, trigger finger clicking open an image of your tits pressed between your fingers, nipples taut against the fabric and lips between your teethโ€”all shiny soft skin almost bursting through the flimsy top thatโ€™s loosening and almost vivid through the still image. If thereโ€™s more, he thinks heโ€™s seeing stars.
Luke slams his laptop shut and it echoes.
He takes a deep breath trying to remember what year it is.
โ€œYou good bro?โ€
Chris mumbles with a furrowed brow, watching sweat glisten against Lukeโ€™s flushed cheeks.
โ€œNot feeling well. Think Iโ€™m gonna head out. Send me notes later?โ€
Itโ€™s almost an inside joke between the two of them, but Luke laughs a little too hard trying to play it off. He shoves his laptop into his backpack, before slowly weaving through the row and hoping no one noticed his girlfriendโ€™s tits on the blown up screen of his Macbook. But then again, somethingโ€™s obviously off as he walks stiffly towards the exit, feet swift with no predetermined destination. Luke contemplates the probability of someone interrupting him in the hall bathroom if he goes there to rub one out. His dick is hard and weepy, frustration brimming at the seams of his resolve when he walks out of the lecture hall. Readjusting himself into his waistband and groaning at the pressure, Luke wonders if he can walk home fast enough.
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He stops in his tracks as he opens your message, the sound of your moans and slick movements of your fingers buried under the damp bottoms of your bikini almost too loud in his Airpods. His dark brown eyes trace the movements of your swiveling hips on his screen and he leans against the wall to groan lowly, a pathetic noise clawing up his throat, until his mouth dries at the sight of you parting the fabric aside just in time for him to watch you cum hard, soaking the rest of your hand and the leather of the couch beneath your ass. Luke doesnโ€™t realize his bodyโ€™s unprompted decision to join your release until he feels a sticky, uncomfortable warmth pool against the bottom of his shirt, soiled beyond belief.
His head of curls bangs against the wall behind him as he moans.
*bzzz*
A lopsided grin forms on his face when his phone buzzes again in his hand.
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cutielando ยท 7 months
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soft launch | m.s.
social media au
synopsis: in which Toto's daughter starts soft-launching her boyfriend, who just so happens to be her father's reserve driver
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yn.wolff hopping through new york city
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francisca.cgomes gorgeous babe ๐Ÿค
y/n.wolff i miss you ๐Ÿค๐Ÿฅบ
francisca.cgomes we need to go on a double date soon !!!
y/n.wolff amen to that
user1 UMMM??????
user2 posting a mysterious boy on her insta and then confirming she's dating in the comments???
user3 is Toto okay?
lewishamilton Toto is asking who that boy is
y/n.wolff tell him to stop being nosy
lewishamilton don't give me attitude and answer the goddamn phone - toto
y/n.wolff stop embarrassing me
yourbff you're beautiful ๐Ÿคฉ๐Ÿคฉ
y/n.wolff i miss you ๐Ÿฅบ
yourbff get me some paddock passes for the next race
y/n.wolff done
mercedesamgf1 ๐Ÿค
landonorris you're scandalous ๐Ÿ˜ค
y/n.wolff not any more than you are
landonorris i'm a perfect angel
y/n.wolff and i'm batman
landonorris i knew it!!
user4 i saw mick in the likes ๐Ÿ‘€๐Ÿ‘€๐Ÿ‘€
user3 not really suspicious, they've known each other for a while thanks to Toto
user2 but imagine them being together, they would break the internet
mickschumacher ๐Ÿ‘€ liked by y/n.wolff
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f1gossippofficial Mick Schumacher and Y/N Wolff spotted having dinner late last night in New York City and sharing intimate moments. Rumors have been circulating around the paddock that the young driver and daughter of Mercedes-AMG Petronas F1 team, Toto Wolff, have recently started dating, but is this true? ๐Ÿค”
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user1 I KNEW IT AGHH
formula1wags if this is true, the paddock is about to go wild
user2 facts
yourbff well, well, well
user1 um, yourbff, what are you doing here?
user2 is this confirmation?
mercedesamgf1 ๐Ÿค”๐Ÿค”
user1 omg this is so how Toto is feeling right now
user3 if this is indeed true, i hope they're happyโค๏ธโค๏ธ
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mercedesamgf1 Our reserve driver for the 2023 season! ๐Ÿค
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mickschumacher honored! ๐Ÿค
georgerussell63 proud to have you on board with us!
lewishamilton welcome to the show, brother
y/n.wolff ๐Ÿค liked by gina_schumacher and mickschumacher
user1 ๐Ÿ‘€๐Ÿ‘€๐Ÿ‘€
user2 i'm lowkey digging this
user3 can't wait to see you in action Schumi ๐Ÿค๐Ÿค
landonorris you've come a long way, brother
mickschumacher thanks, lando
gina_schumacher so proud of you, baby brother ๐Ÿค
mickschumacher thank you ๐Ÿค i love you
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mickschumacher ๐Ÿคnew york city, you're a wonder
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y/n.wolff ๐Ÿ‘€ handsome
mickschumacher ๐Ÿคฉ
user1 why don't they just confirm it already
user2 i saw them the other day
user1 DETAILS GIRL
user2 they were walking around Times Square, visiting various shops. they were holding hands, kissing very subtly, they are for sure dating. Mick bought Y/N a bouquet of flowers at one point and she became all shy when he gave it to her. melted my heart
user3 they sound so cute and happy together
gina_schumacher don't forget to bring me something
mickschumacher are you using me to get free stuff?
gina_schumacher maybe
y/n.wolff gina_schumacher consider it done
mickschumacher ?????
estebanocon my invitation seems to have got lost in the mail
mickschumacher i'll take you with me next time
estebanocon she's stealing you away from me
y/n.wolff sorryyyyy
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y/n.wolff i like them blonde and sweet ๐Ÿ˜› tagged: mickschumacher
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mickschumacher i love you
y/n.wolff i love you more
mercedesamgf1 ๐Ÿ’™ liked by y/n.wolff and mickschumacher
georgerussell63 finally
mickschumacher i'm surprised you kept it a secret this long
georgerussell63 you were starting to make it hard on me
y/n.wolff thank you georgie, good boy
georgerussell63 please stop talking to me like i'm a dog
y/n.wolff you know i canโ€™t do that
landonorris everyone already knew, you know
y/n.wolff i don't see your point
landonorris your soft-launch was useless
y/n.wolff you're useless
landonorris :(
mickschumacher you asked for it, mate
user1 FINALLY ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ
user2 what do we think Toto's reaction was when they told him? ๐Ÿ˜ญ
y/n.wolff he was nice haha!! a little shocked, but nice nonetheless ๐Ÿฅณ
user2 she actually responded๐Ÿ˜ฉ๐Ÿ˜ฉ๐Ÿ˜ฉ
gina_schumacher so glad to have you in our family
y/n.wolff thank you for making me feel so welcome and loved !! ๐Ÿฉต
estebanocon happy for you guys! โค๏ธ liked by y/n.wolff
user3 they are the next it couple, i can feel it
user4 this love story makes me believe in love
user5 if they ever break up, iโ€™m not going to believe in love anymore
alex_albon two blondes, dangerous
y/n.wolff what is that supposed to mean?
mickschumacher i donโ€™t know if i want to know
alex_albon probably a good idea
y/n.wolff watch your back, albon
alex_albon ๐Ÿ˜Ÿ
user6 i love them sm ๐Ÿ˜ฉ๐Ÿ˜ฉ
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f1gossippofficial After confirming their relationship earlier this week, Mick Schumacher and Y/N Wolff have made their paddock debut as a couple earlier today. What do you guys think about our new WAG?
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user1 they are perfect for each other, just look at them๐Ÿ˜ญ
user2 i love them๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ
user3 she's such a fashion icon and i'm here for it
user2 for real, she has an amazing sense of style
user1 just watch, Mick is gonna have a major change in style now that they're together
user4 God knows he needs one
y/n.wolff i think they're really cute together
mickschumacher i share the same opinion
user3 why are you guys trolling us now ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ
estebanocon could be cuter
y/n.wolff ๐Ÿ˜’๐Ÿ˜’๐Ÿ˜’
estebanocon i take it back
y/n.wolff wise choice
user5 Y/N has a hold on everyone in the paddock ๐Ÿ˜ญ๐Ÿ˜ญ i want to be like her when i grow up
user4 who doesn't?
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Make Me
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Pairing: dom!Hoseok/sub/brat!f!Reader
Genre: Oneshot; hard smut; platonic(?) fluff; BDSM lifestyle; friends to fwb to?; canon-compliant (idolAU)
Summary:ย You've been friends with Hobi for years, and he's your comfort zone - but when he gets wind of a dark secret you drunkenly let slip, things between you take a sudden extreme change.
Warnings: 18+ (minors, dni); hardcore BDSM themes/relationships; full consent and safe-words โค; Hobi is a hard dom (and such a good one); MC is a brat (mostly); dominance and submission; elements of primal play if you squint; mentions of wet dreams and sexual fantasies; sexual degradation (deg-play use of the word "b*tch"); mentions of MC's hair and hair pulling in a domination context; rough physical contact in a sexual context (manhandling); mentions of drinking; kink-outing; Jimin is a menace but also the absolute best; Hobi in the studio ๐Ÿ‘€; wrestling (sexual context); spanking (sexual context); p*ssy-stepping; p*ssy slapping; sexual frustration; some initial shame and embarrassment (reader needs to work some things out); reader tries to run away from herself a bit; temporary ghosting; working through new desires and feelings; dirty dancing; ALL the communication; establishment of sexual roles/partnership; talk about birth control and protection; Hobi curses a LOT during domination scenes; leash/collar play; oral sex (male receiving); throat fucking; Hobi slaps Reader's tongue with his c*ck; cum swallowing; aftercare; restraint play (sex swing, heehee ๐Ÿ˜ˆ); manual clitoral stimulation; teasing; unprotected vaginal sex (reader is on birth control & previously consents); female orgasm from vaginal penetration; very brief implication of a possible brush with subspace.
Word Count: ~16,000 (Double its originally intended length, oops ๐Ÿ™ˆ)
Author's note: HOLY HECK IT'S FINALLY HERE. When I say I had the time of my life writing this...like, wow. I was already under Hobi's spell, but now I am OFFICIALLY down in the worst way. This fic and it's premise were completely out of my comfort zone, but I couldn't be happier that I ventured into this world, because the research alone has given me so much respect for the BDSM community, and specifically the dom/sub relationship. I hope I did as much justice to that very special dynamic as possible between these two characters (with whom I have deeply fallen in love). If you read this, I hope so very much that you enjoy it!
If no one has told you yet today, you are loved and worthy of love! ๐Ÿงœโ€โ™€๏ธ๐Ÿ’œ
Acknowledgements: The biggest of thanks to @orchidyoonkook who not only beta-read this fic multiple times, and is practically the voice of this Jimin, but also gave me so much wonderful insight into the BDSM communicty from that big sexy brain of hers (which contains an incredible amount of knowledge about so many things, let me tell you!). But most of all, she gave me the encouragement I needed to get this out of my imagination and onto the page, even when I was doubting myself the most. Yoons, I love you! Couldn't have done it without you. ๐Ÿ’•
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"What?" Hoseok's wide grin stretches further as he regards your flustered face with giddy anticipation.
ย ย ย ย  You groan into your hands, willing the cushions of your friend's leather couch to swallow you like quicksand.
ย ย ย ย  "Fucking Jimin - I'll kill him!" you whine, pressing your fingers to your temples, and keeping your eyes glued to the hardwood of the studio floor.
ย ย ย ย  The rapper laughs as he swivels his baseball cap to sit backwards on his fluffy brown mop of hair.ย 
ย ย ย ย  "Come on! Tell me!" he insists, sprawling back in his rolling chair, the tips of his fingers touching deviously together as he regards you with twinkling eyes.ย 
You sneak a glance at him before sighing defeatedly, which only earns another chortle of laughter from across the room.
ย ย ย ย  Park fucking Jimin. You really were going to kill him. Too many bottles of soju the week prior saw you blacking out at the BTS member's pad, the one he shared with your mutual friend, Jung Hoseok. You woke up the next day, memories of the night before obscure concepts of debauchery merely alluded to by the taste of bile and the dull cranial throb of dehydration. When Jimin rather gleefully handed you, along with an iced americano, one of the booze-fueled revelations you had let slip, you begged and pleaded with him to erase the memory from his brain...or at the very least to take it to his grave. He made no such promises. And now, you are facing the man of the hour - the subject of your divulgement - who had apparently been informed that you harbored certain strong opinions in his regard. Humiliating.
ย ย ย ย  You flick mildly irritated eyes back up to your friend who waggles his brows in a way that makes you want to crack a smile and sock him at the same time.
ย ย ย ย  "Before I say anything, I want to know exactly what he told you," you demand, crossing your arms defensively, no cracked smile to be found.
ย ย ย ย  He rolls his eyes up to the corner of the ceiling in recollection.
ย ย ย ย  "He just said that you had gotten wasted and admitted something kinky...about me."ย 
ย ย ย ย  At the last two words he drops his voice dramatically low and pins you with a grin that is sickeningly predatory. Your pulse begins to hammer and you have to remind yourself that you are, in fact, capable of speech.ย 
Fuck, you think to yourself, it's happening.ย 
You can feel sweat starting to bead at your hairline. Maybe if you get it out there, just say it aloud, it will lose its power. Maybe the spell will be broken. Maybe he will laugh and you will laugh and you'll order lunch and keep irritating him while he's supposed to be working on a track. You're both adults, right? You whoosh out a breath.ย 
ย ย ย ย  Hobi is still looking at you, his bottom lip pushing up and the corners of his mouth tugging down in one of his little inverted smirks while his right leg bounces a little up and down.
It is just Hobi, after all, you tell yourself. Just Hobi. You are roundly aware that it may be a lie, but it seems to allow you just enough courage to jump.
ย ย ย ย  "Okay, okay!" you practically shout, and he giggles and stomps his feet, which admittedly makes revealing this particular chestnut a bit easier.
ย ย ย ย  "I told himโ€ฆ
โ€œWhat?โ€
โ€œI said..."
ย ย ย ย  "What?"
ย ย ย ย  "Oh, Christ! Fine!" And the rest comes out like water from a fire hose. "One time I came to drop off Jimin's charger and you were in dance practice and you were watching the guys and you had this look on your face - like you were pissed or something - and it was so unlike you and I got turned on and ended up having a fucking wet dream that you were stepping on my mother-fucking pussy, okay?! Are you satisfied now?!"
ย ย ย ย  You heave a sigh and throw yourself back against the cushions, hands over your face. How you just mustered the courage to form those actual words you haven't even the faintest notion - but it was going to be you or Jimin, and it might as well be you. After your heart has begun to return to its resting rate and you've heaved a few deep breaths you steel yourself against the certain impending onslaught of Hobi's laughter and general mockery...which doesn't come.ย 
You peek through your fingers to see that your friend has shifted in his chair, facing a bit away from you toward the inside of the room, leaning forward, his hands gripping the ends of the chair's armrests. His face looks a little troubled, or pensive, you can't tell which. You sit up and really look at him, suddenly worried.ย 
Did you just fuck things irrevocably up?ย 
That was an incredibly bizarre and intimate thing to admit.ย 
Shit.
ย ย ย ย  "Hobi?" you squeak, barely over a whisper, as you regard him.
ย ย ย ย  He tilts his head suddenly to look at you, quick like a bird, and when those dark eagle-eyes regard you in return, you feel like a small, helpless creature scurrying across the tundra. Nowhere to hide. A bead of sweat escapes its perch and slips down from your temple. As he utters his question of response, the air suddenly becomes as thick as the tropics.
ย ย ย ย  "Is that something that you'd want, Y/n? To be treated like that? To be...put in your place? Put down?"
ย ย ย ย  You don't answer him. You can't.
Your words, your breath, your coherent thoughts are stuck, inert, useless as your chest begins to rapidly rise and fall in heavy swells. Your eyes are locked on his face as if by magnetic force. He stands, his baggy Louis Vuitton tee falling over his gray sweats. He shoves his hands in the pockets and takes a step toward where you sit. His posture is relaxed. His gaze is anything but.
ย ย ย  "Is it?"
ย ย ย  You want to say you don't know. That you'd never considered it again. Never once recalled the image of it - of him - standing over you as the sole of his shoe punished your throbbing sex.
ย ย ย ย  "Fuck..." you breathe, and when he doesn't take his eyes from your squirming form, you relent. "...y-yeah."
ย ย ย ย  He takes another step toward you, slowly. He's crowding you now, as he looks down, and the proximity is almost more than you can bear.
ย ย ย ย  "You see," he remarks musingly, "I thought you were gonna say something funny - something ridiculous," he tilts his head to one side, the faintest hint of a smirk on his lips, "But that's not funny, Y/n. No, that's not funny at all. Because, as it turns out..."
ย ย ย ย  He leans down, his breath fanning over your face as he speaks. Mint and espresso. You shiver and close your eyes.
ย ย ย ย  "...that's something I can do."
...what? He can...h-he can....
ย ย ย ย  "Hoseok..." you whisper shakily, because it's all you can manage.
ย ย ย ย  You hear him laugh darkly and you don't look at him.
ย ย ย ย  "Hoseok?" he mimics, "Not, Hobi, huh? Hoseok when you're like this, is it?"ย 
ย ย ย ย  "When I'm like...what?" You practically whimper in complaint, eyes still pressed shut as your last line of defense.
ย ย ย ย  But any manner of defense is in vain as he answers your query, the words dripping from his lips slowly like honey, sickly like venom -ย 
ย ย ย ย  "When you're a filthy, pathetic little slut."
ย ย ย ย  A whine escapes you at the complete and utter shock of his words. Suddenly you clamp your thighs together โ€“ whether to provide friction or obscurity to your quickly dampening cunt you are unsure. When he takes your jaw between his fingers and roughly jerks your chin upwards, your eyes flutter frantically open.ย 
ย ย ย ย  "Is this what you want?" he hisses, "For me to have my way with you like a needy whore?"
Fuck, is this happening? This is really happening. Your mind reels, but that's alright - it stopped doing the thinking when he got up out of that chair. Something primal in you had taken over, something that's been starving for so long โ€“ something that yearns to feed.
ย ย ย ย  You do your best to nod with your chin in his grip. He swallows thickly, his eyes darting to your lips, and then back up to yours. His pupils are blown, his eyes almost wholly black as they trace over your face. Suddenly his hand slips from your chin to the nape of your neck where his hand tangles in your hair and his head drops to the side, his gaze softening.
ย ย ย ย  "I need you to say it, Y/n, are you sure you want to do this?" he asks, his voice so, so low but without the edge that sends ice through your veins.ย 
His voice. He's asking you as someone who cares about you, cares what you want โ€“ your friend.ย 
Do you want this? No...you don't want it. You need it.
ย ย ย ย  "Y-yes! Yes, Hobi - I want this," you find yourself stumbling over the words to get them out.
ย ย ย ย  So quickly and so assured. Have you ever been this certain of anything in your life? His fingers dance against the nape of your neck and you sigh as his eyes travel all over your body.
You want to hide. You want to strip down. You want to run and you want him to chase you. You want him to punish you when he catches you. You are sick with want.ย ย 
ย ย ย ย  "A safe word, baby, we need a safe word," he nudges your racing mind back into the current moment with his saccharine words.
ย ย ย ย  You blink, your mind running up against the sudden pet name โ€“ one that he has never uttered in a tone like this before โ€“ as it scrambles for something obvious and yet not ridiculous. Something simple maybe...a flower...?
ย ย ย ย  "Foxglove," you say, and he raises his brows with a grin.
ย ย ย ย  "Foxglove it is," he acquiesces. "So if you ever want me to stop, ever โ€“ okay? You say that. Foxglove."ย 
ย ย ย ย  You nod.
ย ย ย ย  "Say it for me," he whispers, and you shiver again. Fuck.
ย ย ย ย  "Foxglove." It's slow and thick leaving your mouth.
ย ย ย ย  "Good girl," he purrs. Butterflies erupt in your rib-cage and your eyelids flutter. "How hard do you want it?" He asks, "How rough?"
ย ย ย ย  You scramble to find your voice.
ย ย ย ย  "Pretty rough, I think," you posit, a bit unsure of what that means.
ย ย ย ย  He hums in response, his brows knitting in thought. You were going to have to give him something to go on, you could see that.
ย ย ย ย  "I..." you stammer, "I want you to...to punish me. I want you to...to hurt me a little."
ย ย ย ย  He raises a brow - looks at you, just stares as if considering. Then suddenly you know what to say.
ย ย ย ย  "See...I'm not a good girl," you insist tilting your head back a bit haughtily, a bit defiantly. Being a good girl had gotten you butterflies, but that's not what you wanted right now. That's not what every cell of your body was screaming for.
ย  He's grinning wickedly again - his other hand is slipping out of his pocket and the one in your hair is gripping at the roots.
ย ย ย ย  "Hm. You're not are you?" he asks, his voice as dark and cold as the Pacific once again.
ย ย ย ย  "No, Hobi," you whisper.ย 
And suddenly your world is tilted on its axis as he tightens his fingers against your scalp and yanks your head back, sending a searing pain shooting through your skin as he stoops to hiss in your ear.
ย ย ย ย  "That's Hoseok, you pretty little bitch."
ย ย ย ย  You let out a whimper so needy it's nearly a sob. Your heartbeat is pounding between your legs. He lets go of your hair as roughly as he grabbed it and goes to lock the door and your stomach flips - you are totally and completely at his mercy. It's a little bit terrifying and absolutely exhilarating.
When he comes to loom over you again, you decide just exactly where you stand in all this. You know exactly what you want.
You glare up at him. He narrows his eyes.
ย ย ย ย  "You gonna listen, hm?"
It's not a question, you know it's not - it's a command. But you have one, just one, of your own...
ย ย ย ย  "Make me."
ย ย ย ย  His eyes go wide and wild.
ย ย ย ย  "So that's how it's gonna be?"
ย ย ย ย  The words are heavy and dark, but you think his mouth twitches up at the corner when you arch a recalcitrant brow in response.
ย ย ย ย  He hums and licks his lips, and you're on the verge of saying something about getting on with it when his hand darts out and fists a chunk of your hair, yanking it back with a force that makes your head spin. He's glaring down at you with eyes so hard and menacing that your rebuttal dies on your tongue. The hand at your nape squeezes and the pressure that seers your scalp is exquisite, spilling a moan from your lips as your arousal becomes more than you are capable of repressing.
ย ย ย ย  "Don't you challenge me, brat," he rumbles from low in his chest as his hand twists against your head and lowers your back to press against the black leather.
ย ย ย ย  You whine in protest, and your palms fly up to shove at him, but his reflexes are like lightning as he snatches your wrists away to pin them above you. Your head spins, eyes losing focus as your whole body flushes with warmth in the wake of his domineering aggression.ย 
ย ย ย ย  You wriggle in his hold, relishing in how his grip tightens and the cold steel in his eyes glints as you resist him.
ย ย ย ย  A knee slides between your legs as he leans over you menacingly, close enough for the padlock charm around his neck to lightly tap your raised chin. Good girl, it seems to whisper in Hoseok's voice, stay put.
ย ย ย ย  Yeah, fuck that.
ย ย ย ย  You snatch the necklace up between your teeth and yank it to the side where it bites sharply into the corner of your mouth.
ย ย ย ย  The sudden motion catches him off guard and he falters, crashing down on top of you with a noise of surprise and losing control of your hands.
ย ย ย ย  You scramble against him, rolling both of you to the floor with a thud.
ย ย ย ย  Your heart is hammering in your chest.
ย ย ย ย  You hear him grunt, his strong hands grappling with your thrashing form, and you catch just a glimpse of his shining eyes and white clenched teeth as he flips you over onto your stomach, hands in a vice grip at the small of your back and your cheek pressing into the cold, hard laminate.
ย ย ย ย  You start to move again but he pushes his weight into the slender fingers splayed over your spine with a low rumble in the back of his throat and you still with a groan.
ย ย ย ย  You're pressed so deliciously firmly to the floor. You can feel arousal soaking your panties as your nerves alight everywhere he has wrested control of you. You can hear him pant, proof of his efforts, and the image of his provoked expression from seconds previous flashes through your mind.
He seemed so cool and collected before. So unbothered. To think that his blood is up and because of you? You let out a trembling breath.
ย ย ย ย  "Fuck," he hisses lowly, then bends to bring his lips to the shell of your ear.
They're soft as they drag over your skin there, feather light. Your whole body shakes, and you feel his mouth pause.
ย ย ย ย  "I don't know who the hell you think you are," he whispers cruelly, "But you were right about one thing...you're not a good girl. You're a disobedient little harlot who needs to be taught the rules of this house."ย 
ย ย ย ย ย  You whimper pathetically as he presses into you even more intensely, restricting the expansion of your lungs.
ย ย ย ย  "Now," he says nosing at your exposed neck as he begins to pull away, "how about we teach you a lesson or two, hm?"
ย ย ย ย  You feel his weight leave your back, and see his figure rock back on his heels out of the corner of your eye. You are just on the verge of retaliating again when you let out a yelp at the sudden shock of your hips being yanked upward by the back belt loop of your denim shorts. Hoseok lets go of your hands and they fly forward to brace yourself as your ass raises into the air and your knees move toward your chest.
ย ย ย ย  And all at once you know what's coming and you feel your pussy clench in the mere anticipation of -
ย ย ย ย  Smack!
ย ย ย ย  You let out a wanton wail as the sharp crack of his hand against your right glute jolts through your body like a lightning strike and ends with a slam at your swollen clit.
ย ย ย ย  Again - harder! Your mind screams. So you press out a whinging moan of complaint.
ย ย ย ย  SMACK!
ย ย ย ย  It has the desired effect.
ย ย ย ย  CRACK!
ย ย ย ย  Your jaw is slack, but no sound escapes as he punishes you. It hurts. Fuck, it hurts. As if he's attempting to brand your ass with the shape of his hand. But holy hell is it making you drip. Every slap jolts your body and brings the tiniest friction to where you're neediest. Where you've never been needier in your life.
ย ย ย ย  Please punish my pussy....
ย ย ย ย  You try to mumble the words but all you can do is drool onto the floor as he deals out pleasure and pain from above.
ย ย ย ย  And then he stops. You feel hands deftly and swiftly rolling you to lie on your back.
You blink up through bleary eyes, drawing a hand across your mouth to wipe the spit away. Your shoulders are sore.
ย ย ย ย  He's leaning over you, a hand still on your hip, eyes scanning your face.
ย ย ย ย  "What? Did you say something? You need to speak up."
ย ย ย ย  His tone is still biting but his eyes seem to hold a genuine question. Concern.
ย ย ย ย  Warmth floods your chest as it registers that he wants to be able to hear you if you need him to. If you want to stop. But the light has never been so goddamned green.
ย ย ย ย  "Want..." you murmur, "...more, Hoseok."
ย ย ย ย  He curses, his Adam's apple bobbing in his throat as he leans forward to take your jaw in his hand again. He rakes his gaze over your soft, swollen features, unfocused eyes, and heaving chest.
ย ย ย ย  "Look at you so fucked out and all I did was smack that gorgeous ass."ย 
ย ย ย ย  He licks his lips, shaking his head in seeming disbelief as he releases your chin with a little shove. He leans back, dragging his hands over your bare thighs.
ย ย ย  "More, hm?" he hums.ย 
ย ย ย ย  You nod eagerly.
ย ย ย ย  He purses his lips and considers you through narrowed eyes, and you sense that if you want him to give you what you so desperately desire, you're going to have to show him you can take it - and take orders. You lay still, hands twitching at your sides as you look up at him through wide eyes.ย 
ย ย ย ย  He continues to run his fingertips up and down your legs as he breathes out a long relenting sigh.
ย ย ย ย  "Alright," he relents, "You took your punishment well, so you should be rewarded, I suppose."
ย ย ย ย  You clamp your bottom lip between your teeth, your heart rate rising again at the prospect.
ย ย ย ย  He tilts forward, looming over you again as he asks the question you've been dying to answer since you woke up breathless all those weeks ago.
ย ย ย ย  "What does my little brat want me to do to her? Let's see if she can use her words."
ย ย ย ย  You blink up at him, unsure if you have permission to speak...or how to put your request into words that won't make you want to immediately melt through the floorboards.
ย ย ย ย  "Cat got your tongue?" Hoseok sneers, pretty, heart-shaped lips curling up at one side.
ย ย ย ย  His hat discarded in your tussle, wavy brown tresses hang down over his brow and his eyes sparkle darkly through them. His features are so beautiful - their loveliness thrown into sharp relief by the flinty pitilessness of their expression.
ย ย ย ย  You're tempted to continue simply soaking him in, if not for the pounding ache in your core demanding that you find your voice.
ย ย ย ย  "I...I want..." your lips tremble as you will yourself to tell him what you need.
ย ย ย ย  Perhaps he senses that you require a little encouragement, because his eyes harden and he digs the edges of his nails into the flesh of your knees, causing you to yelp and moan and then...
ย ย ย ย  "I want you to step on my pussy! Please..." You press out your request with the last of the breath in your lungs.ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย ย 
ย ย ย ย  Hoseok's eyes flutter shut at the last word of your plea.
ย ย ย ย  "Say that again," he commands in a husky whisper, and even without further specification, somehow, you know.ย ย ย ย ย 
ย ย ย ย  "Please..." You groan, letting your legs drop open demurely.
ย ย ย ย  His eyes are still closed, but he can feel the action with his hands, which have now slipped just inside your knees to your inner thighs. He inhales deeply through his nose, before exhaling with a shuddering breath. When his lids languidly raise again the piercing onyx of what they have unveiled is pinning you to the floor with more deadly force than even his hands ever could. Your pulse pounds in your cunt, your head still swimming from your previous position as he pushes himself up to stand.ย 
ย ย ย ย  As you blink up at Hoseok towering over you, standing between your splayed thighs with his midnight gaze boring into the damp denim covering your heat, something inside you long ajar quietly but firmly clicks into place.ย 
ย ย ย ย  "Tell me, brat" he seethes, eyes roving your trembling form stretched out beneath him, "Who makes the rules in this house?"
ย ย ย ย  "Hoseok-ssi," you whimper, so needy the ache is beginning to hurt.
ย ย ย ย  Every cell of your body is awake with a desperate anticipation that only he can satisfy...or deny.
ย ย ย ย  You have never felt more alive.
ย ย ย ย  And then something happens and your brain shuts off entirely.ย 
Everything vanishes: the studio, the traffic outside the western window, the city of Seoul and South Korea and the whole goddamned planet rolling around in the Milky Way. Nothing exists except the tip of Hoseok's Air Jordan ghosting over the swell of your crotch.ย 
ย ย ย ย  Your mouth waters as his foot slowly slides forward, then goes completely dry as you feel it settle with the sole aligned directly with your slit. His eyes flick up to your face, but you can't hold his gaze for more than a millisecond as he begins to apply pressure to your mound.
ย ย ย ย  Your eyes roll back in your skull, head lolling as your neck goes slack, lips parted in a silent scream as the man above you presses down with a low hum over your sex. The seam of your shorts is biting deliciously into the tender flesh of your clit, sending shockwaves through your core like a live wire, and when he rolls his foot in a circular motion you think you see god.ย 
You do scream then, but it's nothing more than a strangled sound in your throat as your fantasies materialize and he leans his weight into his stance, punishing the soft fat of your cunt with the sole of his shoe.
ย ย ย ย  You're going to cum. He's barely touched you and you're going to cum. He seems to see it in the twisted ecstasy of your features as his lids hood his eyes and filth begins to spill from his lips.
ย ย ย ย  "Do you like that, brat?" he taunts, "That's what you get when you're a good little girl for Hoseok -ย  you get your pretty wet cun-"ย ย 
ย ย ย ย  Click jangle clack - boom boom boom!ย 
ย ย ย ย  Hobi springs away from you, hopping back on one foot with wide eyes as a succession of rapid knocks follow the stilted motions of the locked door handle. You scramble up from the floor, heart pounding and breath coming fast as you toss yourself into the corner of the couch.ย 
ย ย ย ย  Boom, boom, boom!
ย ย ย ย  "Hyung, are you naked or something?" comes a familiar if muffled voice from the other side of the wall.
ย ย ย ย  You fumble for your phone and Hoseok runs a hand through his hair and takes a deep breath before pulling open the door.
ย ย ย ย  The man belonging to the impatient knocks and muffled accusations stumbles headlong into the studio, the locked entrance against which he had pressed his ear and most of his weight having been pulled out from under him.
"Jimi...nie...?" Hobi greets his bandmate and his eyes track the other's toppling form with surprise and a hint of agitation.ย 
ย ย ย ย  Yoongi ambles in casually behind him, sipping a dewy americano through a straw, a beanie sitting atop his ashy locks gnomishly.
ย ย ย ย  Jimin nimbly pushes himself to a stand from where he had crashed against Hobi's desk, not a strand of his coiffed platinum blond hair askew as he spins around face to the dance captain. But before he can get out a greeting or an excuse for his manner of entrance he freezes as he spots you in the corner.
His eyes flick to Hobi's hat on the floor, then to the pink flush on the apples of his friend's cheeks. When Jimin's eyes slide back over to where you are curled into your nook, eyeing him warily over the tiny shield of your phone, his plush lips slowly spread into a sickeningly devious smile.
ย ย ย ย  Hobi scoops his hat up off the floor and tugs in back on before taking a seat, carefully, you notice - thighs pressed together and leaning forward - in his rolling chair. The implication of his posture has you sweating into your shirt.
You need to get it the fuck together.
ย ย ย ย  "If I would have known you were here I'd have brought you a kimbap," Jimin says, wicked grin still plastered on his face as he holds up a plastic convenience store bag.
ย ย ย ย  You blink.ย 
ย ย ย ย  "Oh, uh, that's okay..." you bluster, waving your hand. "I'm not hungry anyway."ย 
ย ย ย ย  It's true. You just lost your appetite for the foreseeable future, stomach a raging sea of nerves as Jimin places the bag on the desk.
ย ย ย ย  Yoongi shuffles over to sit at the other end of the couch, raising his free hand and drawing his mouth into a straight line in greeting. You manage your own tight-lipped grin and flash him a peace sign, hoping you did it quickly enough that the tremor in your hand went unnoticed.
ย ย ย ย  "To what do I owe this visit from my bros?" Hobi asks from where he's turned toward his computer screen to save the neglected file.ย 
His voice is cheerful, but you can hear the strain - how it's pitched just half a tone too high - and Jimin's eyes are still on you.
ย ย ย ย  "I dragged Yoongi hyung out for some fresh air. I took him to lunch and grabbed you a snack on the way back."
ย ย ย ย  "Yah, you took me to lunch? Then why did I pay?" Yoongi grumbles from beside you, his bare features pinched into a grumpy pout that makes him look particularly feline.
ย ย ย ย  "Because you love me," Jimin coos at him and the older musician's mouth quirks up into a smile he can't seem to repress.ย 
ย ย ย ย  "What are you working on, Hoba? Which track?" Yoongi murmurs around the straw between his lips, blinking patiently as Hobi seems to shake himself, pulling his hat off to run a hand through his hair before readjusting it on his head and swiveling back toward his computer screen.
ย ย ย ย  He hits play on the track and Yoongi leaves the couch to join the other two.
ย ย ย ย  This is all so normal, so typical of the guys - the affectionate repartee and chat about ongoing projects. And on an average day, you'd have joined right in.ย 
But today is not an average day.ย 
No.
Five minutes ago, you were spread-eagle on the floor six inches from where Jimin stands, with Hoseok's shoe on your bits.
ย ย ย ย  You have to get out of here.
ย ย ย ย  "I'm, uh, I'm gonna head out, boys," you muster, making a beeline for the door as soon as the inertia of your decision gives you the courage to peel yourself from the corner of the couch.
ย ย ย ย  "You're leaving?" Jimin's voice quips in a saccharine whine, with the slightest edge that makes you avoid his eyes as you slip out with a parting wave.
You do catch Hoseok's expression, whose head snaps up at your parting movements. His brows furrow and his lips part, looking as if he wants to say something, but he doesn't.
ย ย ย ย  And then you're gone.
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ย ย ย  Your smart watch trills as your heart rate enters cardio territory. Your chest is heaving, breath coming heavy as the pliant cushion of your couch gives way to the crown of your head pressing back into it, eyes pinched shut and hand shoved down your pants.ย 
The bullet vibrator you have pressed to your clit is doing everything it should, and you feel it coming - your orgasm. 6:12pm on a Tuesday and it's already your third self-love session of the day.ย 
You tense your thighs, urging the building pressure in your core to boil over, and quickly. You groan and grit your teeth as your administering hand starts to shake. You writhe and whimper for a moment. And then it's over.
ย ย ย ย  You stare up at the ceiling of your apartment, breathlessly huffing out a despondent sigh as the empty ache in your chest returns. It has become your loathsomely devoted companion in every waking moment over the last ten days, filling you with an unshakable restlessness and sickly discontent.
ย ย ย ย  Nothing can slake it. Not reality TV. Not Cabernet Sauvignon. Not overtime hours. Not ASMR wood-soup videos. Not yoga. Not Ben and Jerry's. Not midnight runs on your NordicTrack. Not fucking yourself to climax on every single goddamned toy you own.ย 
ย ย ย ย  The little monster you roused the weekend before last in Hope World hasn't returned to sleep. No. She is wide awake. And she seems to grow more ravenous with each passing day.ย 
At first you tried to ignore her, but she kept you up into the long, bleak hours of the night. And so, in a fuzzy, staticky haze some time after midnight a number of days ago you typed some words into a search engine that would probably have your assigned FBI agent doing a spit-take.
ย ย ย ย  The thing is, you'd never seen "50 Shades of Grey", you'd never been interested. It wasn't as if you were a prude - hardly! You have always enjoyed sex, both intimate and recreational. In fact, it has always been one of your favored methods of blowing off steam, and you knew quite well how to please yourself and how to guide partners in doing the same.
ย ย ย ย  You have never had problems in taking what you wanted in life, in taking charge and ensuring that things play out your way โ€“ it's what makes you so good at your job, and valued by your peers who know that they can rely on you to take the reins and rise to the occasion.
ย ย ย ย  So when you suddenly stumbled unprepared into the world of BDSM, your visceral reaction to the concept of submission left you wondering...why?
Why, why, why?ย 
Why does this do it for you? Why did your very linear, stable existence have to be completely disrupted by this discovery? And most urgently of all, why, for the love of everything sacred, did all the porn in the whole wide world fail to accomplish even a fraction of the effect of Jung Hoseok's size 9 sneaker? It's all too overwhelming to process.
ย ย ย ย  You let out a frustrated whine as you pull your sticky, cramped hand, still clutching the little purple bullet, from the confines of your pants. Your phone buzzes on the coffee table and you can see the notification is from Jimin. You've been ignoring his calls and pleading texts to meet up, or just pick up. You can't face him. Not after ghosting Hobi.
ย ย ย ย  You feel a pang twist in your stomach as you haul yourself toward the shower, hoping the hot water will wash away the guilt you feel for ignoring Hoseok outright. He texted you almost immediately after you left the studio, asking if you were alright. You let him know that you were, with just one word: yeah.
ย ย ย ย  You had typed and retyped that response. "Yeah, thanks" seemed too weird. Like, thanks for what? Almost making you cum with the tip of his shoe? No. "Yeah, sorry" felt pathetic. What were you apologizing for? It seemed to imply...regret? Or fault. Neither of which would have come from a genuine place. And beyond a simple affirmation, you certainly didn't have words. So, "yeah" it was. He tried to call you later that evening, but you didn't pick up. You were already way up in your head by then. It had been radio silence since.
ย ย ย ย  You toss a coconut steamer onto the wet shower tiles and sigh, catching a glimpse of your face in the bathroom mirror as you slide the glass door shut.
ย ย ย ย  "Coward," you mutter as you close your eyes and slip under the cleansing stream.
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ย ย ย ย  You're wrapped up in a blanket cocoon and sipping a cup of sleepy-time tea, trying to distract yourself from the messy tangle of emotions waging war across your various chakras with season two of Single's Inferno, when a knock on the door startles you out of your simmering reverie. You heave yourself off the carpeted floor of your living room and scoot toward the door like a fleecy Jabba the Hutt to peek through the peephole.
ย ย ย ย  Your vision is obscured as another eye looks back at you from the other side of the concave glass. You jump back, dropping your blanket shroud in a pile around your feet and let out a yelp of alarm. You slam a hand over the peep hole as giggles erupt on the other side.
ย ย ย ย  "Yah! I know you're in there - so let me in!"
ย ย ย ย  Your entire body sags against the door in relief as you recognize the voice of the would-be intruder. You swing the door open to grant him exasperated entrance.
ย ย ย ย  "Park Jimin, you just took ten years off my life! Creep," you bluster, gathering the blanket up around your body as you retreat back into your apartment.ย 
You plop down again in front of the TV, knowing that Jimin came to either talk you into going out or to just talk, and either way, you are truly not in the mood. Your friend snickers behind you, sauntering into your kitchen. He returns with a beer, bringing the frosty green bottle to his lips before sinking into an armchair and regarding you with an expression that waivers between amusement, pity, and disgust.
ย ย ย ย  "You look awful," he remarks, taking another swig as his gaze roves your unkempt appearance.
ย ย ย ย  Your features twist into a frown, eyes never leaving the television.
ย ย ย ย  "You don't get to barge into my apartment, steal my booze, then insult me, Park," you snip, burrowing further down into the fluffy mass encasing your body.
ย ย ย ย  Jimin raises a brow, a small smile still playing on his lips as he follows your eyes to the television where YouTuber Dex and professional model Lim Minsu flirtatiously splash about in a ridiculously opulent indoor swimming pool.
ย ย ย ย  "Fuck, Dex is hot," Jimin mutters.
ย ย ย ย  "For some reason he reminds me of Jungkook," you smirk, glancing over at him for the first time since he arrived.
ย ย ย ย  He grimaces theatrically.
ย ย ย ย  "I don't see it."
ย ย ย ย  The contestant on the screen flashes his Paradise companion a blinding smile and raises a tattooed arm to cut through the water, content to show off his stroke precision as his date watches on. The resolve on Jimin's face falters .
ย ย ย ย  "Yeah, well...Dex is hotter."
ย ย ย ย  You scoff.
ย ย ย ย  "Yeah, no. Kook-ah is definitely hotter."
ย ย ย ย  "For the love of god, just don't tell him that, okay?" Jimin pleads, "That kid is insufferable enough these days."
ย ย ย ย  "You love him."
ย ย ย ย  He hides a smile behind another sip of Hite.
ย ย ย ย  "Why did you ghost Hobi hyung?"
ย ย ย ย  Jimin blinks innocent eyes at you, as if he hasn't just dumped the last week and a half of silent agony over your head like a bucket of ice water. But the chill is momentary, because the next second your body feels like an oven. You stammer.
ย ย ย ย  "I-I...ghost him? I didn't ghost anyone...I'm busy...I..." you trail off weakly as your friend's unimpressed and knowing gaze bores into your soul.
ย ย ย ย  You sigh and scrub your hands over your face.
ย ย ย ย  "Because I'm a big chicken, okay?" You murmur into your palms.
ย ย ย ย  You don't know why, but you feel like crying. When you pull your hands away from your face, Jimin must see it because suddenly he's on the couch wrapping you in the kind of hug that reminds you why he's your ride-or-die, and in the safety of his embrace the tears begin to fall. Days of being alone with yourself and your conflicted feelings pour from your ducts and onto the front of Jimin's bright yellow flannel. He coos words of reassurance, admonishing your tears, as he strokes your hair.
ย ย ย ย  "Talk to me, you silly goose," he hums with an endeared chuckle.ย 
ย ย ย ย  You sniff and hiccup as you pull away, wiping your puffy eyes.
ย ย ย ย  "I don't even know what to say, Minnie...I don't know what's wrong with me..."
ย ย ย ย  Jimin smiles and grabs a few tissues from the box on the coffee table, dabbing them against your nose.
ย ย ย ย  "Well, first of all, nothing is wrong with you. But second of all, tell me what is bothering you."
ย ย ย ย  You heave a dramatic sigh.
ย ย ย ย  "If I tell you, you have to swear - and I mean swear - that you will not make fun of me or tell anyone else. And I mean not Taehyung, not Yoongi, not anyone, you hear me?"ย 
ย ย ย ย  He smirks, but nods in assent. You narrow your eyes at him.
ย ย ย ย  "Say it. Out loud." You demand warily.
ย ย ย ย  Jimin rolls his eyes and throws up his hands.
ย ย ย ย  "Yah! Okay! I won't tell anyone," he quips mockingly.
ย ย ย ย  You sigh again and draw your knees up to your chest, wrapping your arms around them. If this gets too hard to talk about with eye-contact at least you'll have a place to hide your bashful face.
ย ย ย ย ย  "I..." you start softly, not sure where to begin except the beginning, "Re-remember that thing I told you when we got plastered a little while back...about...Hobi?"
ย ย ย ย  Jimin's lips quirk at the corners as he nods.
ย ย ย ย  "Well...the thing is...wait!" You cut yourself off, suddenly gripped by a notion that has you prematurely flustered and indignant. "What did he tell you?"
ย ย ย ย  Jimin shakes his head, a small smile still playing on his full lips.
ย ย ย ย  "Nothing," he responds, looking you dead in the eye in a way that has you almost believing he's telling the truth.ย 
ย ย ย ย  "No, really," you press.
ย ย ย ย  Jimin leans back against the arm of the couch from where he faces you, running a hand through his hair and drawing his legs up to criss-cross in front of him.
ย ย ย ย  "Jagi, this is Hobi hyung we're talking about. You think he would do that? He has too much respect for you. He would never. Not to anyone. Not even me."
ย ย ย ย  Your chest floods with relief, affection, and regret. Fuck. Of course he wouldn't. He was too mature of a person for that. Too considerate. Too lovely. And you hadn't even had the gumption to speak to him for the last ten days beyond a mono-syllabic SMS. Jimin watches your expression do emotional acrobatics.
ย ย ย ย  "So..." he offers encouragingly, "something...happened....between you guys, right? That day Yoongi hyung and I showed up? We...uh...interrupted something, didn't we?" He can't help a devilish smile, eyes twinkling as he carefully phrases his query.
ย ย ย ย  You bury your face into your knees and squeak out an affirmation. Jimin lets out a bright laugh and you immediately raise your burning face in a scowl.
ย ย ย ย  "Hey! You said you wouldn't-"ย 
ย ย ย ย  He waves his hands in apology as he attempts to gain his composure.
ย ย ย ย  "Mianhae, mianhae! I'm not laughing at you!" He insists, leaning forward to grab your swatting hands by the wrists.
ย ย ย ย  "Sounds kind of like you are!" You huff, yanking your arms from his grasp.
ย ย ย ย  "So..." Jimin hums, tilting his head to track your gaze as you try again to hide your face, "If he's down, and you're down...what's the problem? Why did you run and hide? Did your feelings change?"
ย ย ย ย  You slowly raise your eyes to his, searching them as you decide just how much you're willing to tell him right now. You chew on your bottom lip as you realize you need to get it out. All of it. You drop your legs to mirror Jimin's posture, lowering your defenses with your millionth-and-first sigh of the evening.
ย ย ย ย  "Okay...well..." you muse, fiddling with the blanket still draped over your lap. "You know how I told you that stuff that I...dreamt...about Hobi?"
ย ย ย ย  Jimin nods.
ย ย ย ย  "Well...something did kind of happen...and well..." you trail off as Jimin raises his brows expectantly.
ย ย ย ย  "Oh, fuck it!" you bluster, exhausted by your own attempts at delicacy. "He dominated me and I liked it. I really really liked it, okay? And it freaked. me. the fuck. out. Like...I've neeeeever felt that way before about fooling around. It wasn't just fun, or, like, pleasurable...it was...almost..." you search for the words as Jimin stares at you raptly. "...Freeing? Like, a relief. Like, a 'where has this shit been all my life' moment."
ย ย ย ย  Jimin hums and nods, interlacing his fingers and leaning his chin against his knuckles.
ย ย ย ย  "Like...I don't know...I'm a very independent person. And capable. And, yeah, things have been crazy stressful at work, and I have a lot on my plate...but I handle it, you know? In fact, I don't just handle it, I kind of...enjoy the pressure of leadership and responsibility? It drives me. I've always been like that, in every area of my life..."ย 
ย ย ย ย  Jimin smiles and lets out a sound of recognition.
ย ย ย ย  "So the one who wears the crown is wondering why it feels so good to be...subjected?" He waggles his brows. You roll your eyes.
ย ย ย ย  "Grow up, dude."
ย ย ย ย  "Am I right, though? I'm right."
ย ย ย ย  You find yourself chewing your bottom lip again.
ย ย ย ย  "Essentially. I like power. I like control. What is this sudden obsession with losing it? It's...scary. And confusing."
ย ย ย ย  Jimin smiles.ย 
ย ย ย ย  "You know, it's actually not that uncommon, from what I understand," he states, reaching for his abandoned beer on the coffee table.
ย ย ย ย  You quirk an eyebrow.
ย ย ย  "I mean, everyone is different, and this is a journey you're going to have to take for yourself to get the answers, but from what I know about the BDSM community, it's not unusual for people who are in positions of power to crave a bit of a...reprieve."
ย ย ย ย  "Really?"
ย ย ย ย  "Yeah," he nods, reclining back again against the arm of the couch, "The bedroom is a good place to let your walls down. Maybe the only place, for some people. And with a trusted partner it can even be healing to play a different role than you do in other parts of your life."
ย ย ย ย  It's your turn to smirk.
ย ย ย ย  "You talk as if you know," you prod playfully, shoving your toes into his shin. He smiles that wicked smile of his and you laugh.
ย ย ย ย  "What I'm trying to say is, maybe it's not just about the...dynamics. Maybe it's also that it's Hobi hyung. He knows you. You know him, too. You trust each other. Maybe you could get to know each other in a new way. Be something for each other that you both need." He takes the last sip of his beer and twirls the bottle in his hands, gazing at you with a gentle thoughtfulness.
ย ย ย ย  You nod slowly, digesting his newly offered perspective.
ย ย ย ย  "So," you muse, raising your eyes to him again, "You think he needs it too?"ย 
ย ย ย ย  Jimin shrugs.ย 
ย ย ย ย  "Only he could tell you that for sure. But I do know this, he's awfully good at being bossy, and doesn't get a lot of opportunity to run the show - outside of dance practice, that is."
ย ย ย ย  Chuckling nervously at the thought, you try your best to conceal the spark that has crackled to life from the burning coals inside you at the mention of his natural command of authority.ย 
ย ย ย ย  "Hey," Jimin posits with a grin, "Maybe if he's spanking you he'll go a little easier on us when we screw up the choreo..."
ย ย ย ย  "EXCUSE ME THE FU-WHAT?!" You shriek, snatching up a throw pillow to beat him mercilessly as he falls in raucous laughter to the floor.
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ย ย ย ย  Turning to glance over your shoulder at your reflection in the mirror, you smooth your hands over the back of the svelte black bodycon number you've donned for the evening. You're a vision in monochrome, having paired your LBD with sleek stilettos and dark smokey eyes with heavy lashes.
ย ย ย ย  Your phone buzzes, indicating that your ride share is close by. Butterflies flutter in your belly as you reach for the finishing touch to your outfit: a velvety black choker with a sliver o-ring studded in colorless topaz. It's just fashionable enough to still look like a necklace, but it gives you a bit of a thrill to know that it's not. To know what's tucked inside your purse to accompany it. To wonder if, going unnoticed by most, it will catch a certain pair of dark eyes.
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ย ย ย ย  The drive across town to reach the Jihope residence never felt so long. You try your best to calm your nerves over the last few blocks of distance - itโ€™s just a party, after all, and kind of a silly one at that.ย 
During Jimin's last visit, he mentioned that he and Hobi would be throwing a Black Day party for all of their single friends the following weekend, and after dodging his attempts at socialization so religiously of late, you felt you owed it to him to attend.ย ย ย ย ย 
ย ย ย ย  Black Day had never been something your group of friends had ever observed before, but it was incredibly chic to do so this year, for whatever reason. And of course, all the organizing duo of the soiree needed was the slightest excuse for Jimin to party and Hobi to host.
ย ย ย ย  Upon arriving at the building, you can already hear the music pumping from the top floor, and the chatter of guests spilling out onto the terrace. You present your ID to the security guard at the front gate, and are escorted to a private elevator that whisks you up to the penthouse. Being quite successful and comfortable yourself, you still find yourself surprised when reminded of the sheer net worth of your humble, down-to-earth Bangtan pals. Hobi is worth the most, and while he is an excellent investor and a generous philanthropist, he also likes to show out, and in style.
ย ย ย ย  You take a deep breath as you buzz the bell.
ย ย ย ย  The door swings open to reveal a handsome young man in a black t-shirt tucked into baggy dark-wash jeans, his fluffy brown hair parted in the middle and his ears glinting with rows of silver hoops. His round eyes scrunch into little moons and he flashes an adorable toothy grin, endearingly lopsided where it stretches deeper against the little orbital piercing at the right side of his bottom lip.
โ€œNoona!" he growls, pulling you into a bear hug. "Where have you been? The last two times we went to noraebang there was no one to sing Through the Night with me!"ย ย ย 
ย ย ย ย  "Ah...hah...", you nervously chuckle, pulling away from his embrace as you search your brain for an excuse other than business.
ย ย ย ย  "I'll sing with you, Googie!"ย ย 
ย ย ย ย  You turn to see your salvation from further explanation in the form of a giggling young woman bouncing up to clutch Jungkook's arm and steady herself as she sways on her platform heels. She smells like soju and fruity perfume.
ย ย ย ย  You smirk and thank her, patting her hand where it clutches your friend's tattooed forearm before she's dragging him away down the hall.
ย ย ย ย  "Make sure she stays hydrated!" You call after him with a shake of your head, making your way through the throng of guests to the bar area.ย 
ย ย ย ย  The furnishings of the residence are a study in classy postmodern minimalism, punctuated with abstract urban art โ€“ though you notice that some of the Kaws pieces are missing, likely stored away for safekeeping from rowdy party-goers.ย 
ย ย ย ย  The sleek chrome and granite full-service bar is stocked with liquor and beer, and a commissioned mixologist is crafting darkly colored cocktails. A buffet-style spread offers the traditional jjajangmyeon and an assortment of other delicious eats.
ย ย ย ย  The spacious dining area is littered with small tables draped in black linens, each bearing centerpieces of hellebore, leather leaf, black carnations, and eucalyptus. The living room has been converted to a dance floor, complete with a glittering disco ball. House music booms through the built-in speaker system as guests in groups and pairs move to the beat.
ย ย ย ย  You glance over a drink menu of themed cocktails as a voice sounds from over your shoulder.ย 
ย ย ย ย  "I recommend the Down With Love."
ย ย ย ย  Turning, you flash the speaker a grin.
ย ย ย ย  "Alright, but is it giving Judy or Barbara?"
ย ย ย ย  Taehyung raises a disparaging brow.
ย ย ย ย  "It's a gimlet. Judy, obviously."
ย ย ย ย  You chuckle, putting in your order for the suggested beverage.
ย ย ย ย  "You look good," he remarks, gesturing at you with the unlit cigarette tucked between his first two fingers, his other hand slipped into his pocket as he leans against the wall.
ย ย ย ย  He doesn't look bad himself, you think, in his black satin top and flared Merlot trousers.
ย ย ย ย  "Thanks," you smile as the bartender hands over an inky concoction garnished with a grapefruit slice twisted into the shape of a heart and run through with a toothpick.
ย ย ย ย  You eye it skeptically.
ย ย ย ย  "How do they make it black?"
ย ย ย ย  "Activated charcoal. C'mon."
ย ย ย ย  Tae links your arm through his and weaves through the bustle to a table of familiar faces. Yoongi raises a whiskey tumbler in greeting and you clink your glass with his, sliding into a chair next to Taehyung and reaching over to give Namjoon's arm an affectionate squeeze. It seems that all the members have turned up, save Seokjin, who's been a taken man three years strong.
ย ย ย ย  You fall into easy conversation with the boys, and just when your difference of opinion with Namjoon over Lee Bul's latest installation piece is developing into a full-blown debate, Jimin slides up to the table and spills onto Taehyung's lap.
ย ย ย ย  "None of you are dancing!" He whines breathlessly, poking Tae's cheek as the other man smiles shyly.
ย ย ย ย  "Jungkook is," Yoongi rebuts, taking another bite of jjajangmyeon.
ย ย ย ย  He's not wrong, though to your amusement, the maknae appears to be getting danced on more than anything else.
ย ย ย  "Where's Hobi hyung?" Tae queries, prodding gently at Jimin's full cheek in return.
ย ย ย ย  Jimin's eyes dart to you, a smirk spreading slowly across his lips as his gaze rakes up from your heels to the choker around your neck.
ย ย ย ย  "Good question," he hums, rising to take your hand and pull you up from your seat. "Let's go find him."
ย ย ย ย  Jimin heads for the French doors at the far end of space that lead onto the terrace. They're propped open, and cool evening air floods the apartment, keeping the atmosphere from suffocating under the warmth of body heat and the scent of rich food.
ย ย ย ย  "Jimin!" You hiss, as you approach the rooftop patio, "What are you doing? This is the opposite of subtle!"
ย ย ย  He laughs merrily.
ย ย ย ย  "You're so cute when you're flustered!"
ย ย ย ย  You don't have any more time to grumble as you emerge under the darkening sky, just beginning to speckle with stars barely visible against the glow of string lights wrapped around the cozy outdoor enclosure. There's a small electric fire pit surrounded by plush patio furniture, and live greenery all around.
ย ย ย ย  The energy is much more relaxed than within, but even so, you feel your pulse quicken as Jimin guides you toward a small group at the corner of the terrace. You recognize a few of the men and women gathered as industry producers, but none of that really matters because all your brain can register is him.
ย ย ย ย  And holy shit does he look good.
ย ย ย ย  He's arresting sophistication and effortless elegance. A silk charcoal dress shirt, sleeves rolled up to the elbow, ripples along the lines of his torso - save where the top three buttons have been neglected to expose the smooth planes of his toned chest. His lean, athletic legs seem even longer than usual in fitted black slacks, his pretty wrists and fingers sparkling with jewelry where his thumbs are slipped into his pockets. His hair has been slicked back from his face, and his eyes are just barely obscured by a pair of lightly tinted wire-rimmed aviators. That brilliant, warm heart-shaped smile cuts through all the sharp darkness of his garb, and your breath catches in your chest when Jimin calls out to him.
ย ย ย ย  "Hyung!"
ย ย ย ย  As Hoseok's eyes meet yours the grin stretched across his face falters, but he quickly regains composure.
ย ย ย ย  "Eyyy," he greets you, striding forward and wrapping his arm around your shoulders to pull you into a side hug. Of course he smells as incredible as he looks.
ย ย ย ย  "Hi, Hobi," you murmur a bit shyly, returning his embrace.
ย ย ย ย  "Hyung," Jimin pouts cutely, "Save us! She was putting our guests to sleep talking to Namjoon-ah about art theory."
ย ย ย ย  "Hey," Hobi chides in a warning tone, cocking his head to the side to glance down at you. "Don't enable the poor guy โ€“ he needs to get laid."
ย ย ย ย  "Well nobody is going to approach him if she's hanging around looking like that." Jimin gestures casually, a mischievous twinkle glinting for a moment his eye.
ย ย ย ย  Hobi's arm slips off your shoulders to grasp your hand as he steps back. He's never been good at keeping his feelings from his face, and the look trained on his features as he appraises you has you thinking you made the right decision when you put on that dress.
ย ย ย ย  "How about we keep you out of trouble and on the dance floor, hm?" Hobi says with a sly smile, raising your hand and tilting forward in a posture of invitation.
ย ย ย ย  You roll your eyes playfully, unable to bite back a smile of your own as you motion for Hobi to lead the way, careful to avoid Jimin's eyes as you let the rapper guide you back into the thrumming pulse of the festivities.
ย ย ย ย ย  He gently pulls you onto the dance floor and tugs you into him, keeping a hold on your right hand as he slips the other just below the curve of your waist. You settle into an easy step to the lively beat. Hobi's eyes search your face as you tilt it up to him, running a hand up his chest to adjust the collar of his shirt with a sigh. You fiddle with the soft fabric between your fingers.ย ย ย 
ย ย ย ย  "I'm sorry, Hobi," you murmur, just loudly enough for him to hear.
ย ย ย ย  When he just smiles a bit sadly you feel your heart squeeze and you drop your head to his chest. You will yourself not to cry as he slows his movements, slipping a knuckle beneath your chin to raise your gaze to his own.ย ย ย ย ย 
ย ย ย ย  "Hajima," he protests, "Let's talk later. Right now, how about we just have some fun? I missed you."
ย ย ย ย  His expression is sweet and earnest and you feel like your chest might not have room for anything more than your complete and utter affection for this man.ย 
ย ย ย ย  "I missed you too," you admit with a little grin, pressing yourself against him just a bit more firmly and gazing up at him through widened eyes. He blinks for a moment, and then suddenly, there it is again, blooming across his lips - that blinding gorgeous smile, and that heady, infectious laugh.
ย ย ย ย  In one quick motion, he spins you around to face away from him as the music drops to a deep, throbbing EDM number, his fingertips grazing your hips and his lips ghosting the shell of your ear.
ย ย ย ย  "You did, huh?" he purrs. "Alright, then...show me how much."ย 
ย ย ย ย  You suck in a breath because you don't ever think you'll be ready for how quickly he can turn that dark, deep voice in his chest into something that makes you feel like you're astral-projecting. Your first instinct is to push him away, make him take it from you...but this moment isn't for that. After your exit last time around, youโ€™re determined to make him so incredibly certain that you want him. That you need him.ย 
ย ย ย ย  You lean back into him and, whispering a silent prayer of gratitude to the goddess of stilettos, press your ass firmly into his groin. You feel the air leave his lips in a hiss against your neck, and his hands slide to squeeze your hips and tug your body even deeper into his. You grind back against him as your body undulates with the hypnotic rhythm of the beat, but it's not long before he's taken over guiding the motion of your hips to match the rolls of his own.ย 
ย ย ย ย  Your eyelids flutter. You've never been this close to him. Sure, in the studio, things had gotten hot and heavy - but you had only been in his hands. He had only touched you to move you, still you, punish you. Now you are flush against his body, and everywhere you touch as he rocks you in tortuous waves against him tastes like the first sumptuous bite of a forbidden fruit.ย 
You can feel him beginning to swell against the plush of your ass, but even that isn't what has a familiar ache throbbing at the apex of your thighs โ€“ it's the effortlessness with which he wrests control of your body, your mind...your very being down to its most primal core.
ย ย ย ย  Hoseok's hand skids up your side and slips over your collarbones.
ย ย ย ย  "I like this necklace," he mumbles into your hair.
ย ย ย ย  You turn in his arms, slipping your fingers around the back of his neck as you raise your lips to his ear.
ย ย ย ย  "I'm disappointed in you, Hoseok," you tut, "It's not a necklace, you know."ย 
ย ย ย ย  He doesn't respond, but focuses on bringing his leg to slot between yours, hiking your dress up enough to tease your mound with brushes over the front of his thigh. You swallow a moan.
He's toying with you, but you won't give in. Not so easily. Not yet.
ย ย ย ย  "I guess you could call it a choker..." you rasp, trying to keep the tremor from your voice as your face presses into the side of his jaw, "That is more descriptive of its actual purpose, I suppose."
ย ย ย ย  For one millisecond in the fabric of time and space you feel his pace falter as the words spill from your lips - then he runs his hand up your back, slipping two fingers under the tight strip of velvet surrounding your throat.
ย ย ย ย  For the first time since you started dancing, you look at him. Crystalline beads of sweat have broken out on his brow, and his mouth is set in a stern line, his eyes hooded and dark as tugs his fingers back to command a view of your gaze.
ย ย ย ย  "Are you telling me," he grits out lowly, digging his fingers into the flesh of your hip so bruisingly you gasp, "...that you showed up to my party wearing a fucking collar?"ย 
ย ย ย ย  You don't answer him - instead you let a wicked smile slip over your lips, refusing defiantly to drop his piercing stare. He has stopped moving you against him, stopped moving entirely. His hands are firm but still where they hold you as his eyes bore down.
ย ย ย ย  "Are you out here trying to finish what we started?"
ย ย ย ย  You tilt your head back, narrowing your eyes seductively.
ย ย ย ย  "What do you think?"
ย ย ย ย  You watch a thousand and one thoughts race through Hoseok's mind as his eyes drop to your neck again and he swallows thickly.
ย ย ย ย  "Oh, fuck it," he hisses, turning and catching your hand to pull you impatiently through the crowd.ย 
ย ย ย ย  You barely have time to wonder what he's thinking or where you're headed when, at the opening to the hall, he spins to grasp your waist and tuck you into a small alcove. He does it so quickly and with such force that you nearly topple the potted plant on the stand beside you.
ย ย ย ย  He pushes himself against you, the tip of his nose brushing yours, and his firm body pressing you to the wall. He holds your wrists in his hands, pinning them to either side of your body. You let out a tiny whimper.
ย ย ย ย  His peppermint breath fans over your cheeks.
ย ย ย ย  "I was going to wait," he whispers loud enough for you to hear him clearly over the music from the room behind you. "I was going to ask you...to stay. After..." he traces his nose along the ridge of your cheekbone as he squeezes your wrists tightly, his nails nipping into your skin. "But you come here with the audacity to tease me like that? Out there, in front of everyone like a desperate little slut?"ย 
ย ย ย ย  His mouth is hovering over your ear as he speaks, sending shivers cascading down your spine.
ย ย ย ย  "I'm not a patient man," he mutters darkly, and you feel your pussy throb.
ย ย ย ย  You struggle slightly against his grasp, and he growls lowly. Turning into him, you press your mouth against his throat, letting your teeth graze his skin as you respond.
ย ย ย ย  "Then don't be."
ย ย ย ย  It's all the permission he needs. He snatches you away from the wall, dragging you down the hall toward the master bedroom at the far end. Your heartbeat hammers in your chest as you gaze at the dark mahogany door growing closer and closer with every stumbled step you take to match his hurried pace.
ย ย ย ย  He turns to glance over his shoulder, and you follow the action as he grips the handle, turns it, and...
ย ย ย ย  "What the..." Hoseok mutters, rattling the handle forcefully before raising his fist to pound against the door. "YAH! UNLOCK THIS DOOR!" He booms.ย 
ย ย ย ย  You hear muted voices and sounds of scurried movement from within. He bangs again and again until the door swishes open to reveal a flushed and flustered Jungkook, still fumbling with the button of his jeans.
ย ย ย ย  "Hyung! S-sorry, hyung, I was just...we were..."
ย ย ย ย  "OUT." Hoseok demands icily, pushing the door inward on its hinges to reveal the peppy, strawberry-scented young woman from before hurrying forward to tuck herself behind Jungkook as she draws a hand across her smeared lipstick.ย 
You bite back a grin as you watch them scuttle down the hall before Hoseok shuts and locks the door behind you.
ย ย ย ย  "That kid...seriously," he grumbles. "He knows my room is off limits."
ย ย ย ย  You chuckle, despite his lack of amusement, and he takes your hand again, drawing you toward a small couch at the far side of the large room. You take in your surroundings as you cross the space - similarly furnished to the rest of the apartment. The furniture is sleek and modern, Kaws sculptures and collectible figurines occupy tables and shelves. There are a few live plants, including one hanging from a large hook in the ceiling near a massive, raised canopy bed.
ย ย ย ย  He draws you to sit beside him, a crease still pinched between his brows, likely from having to evict the irksome intruders. You laugh softly and run a thumb over his forehead.
ย ย ย ย  "They're gone!" you chuckle, "Don't let it bother you so much. You'll get wrinkles." You tease, and his face softens.
ย ย ย ย  He catches your hand in both of his as it lowers. He sighs.
ย ย ย ย  "I needed a bit of water thrown in my face anyway," he smirks, and you glance down bashfully. "Before anything really happens, I think we should haveโ€ฆa conversation."ย 
ย ย ย ย  You nod in agreement.
ย ย ย ย  "Can I start?" you interject and he nods in return.
ย ย ย ย  You huff out a long breath.
ย ย ย ย  "I want to apologize for how I reacted...last time."
ย ย ย ย  He smiles wryly.
ย ย ย ย  "It was all very new and sudden to me, and...I don't know...I freaked out."
ย ย ย ย  Hobi squeezes your hand.
ย ย ย ย  "You have no reason to be sorry about that. I should have never initiated like that somewhere that wasn't really private. I just got caught up..." he shakes his head.
ย ย ย ย  "No! Me too! I'm glad it happened. I..." you trail off, feeling your face heat. "Oh, fuck, I don't know how to say this..."
ย ย ย ย  He claims he's not a patient man, but he waits, watching with tender eyes as you choose your words.
ย ย ย ย  "I haven't been able to stop thinking about it...like..." you take a deep breath as you gather the courage for vulnerable transparency.
ย ย ย ย  You remember what Jimin said. It's Hobi. You are safe with Hobi.
ย ย ย ย  "It was like nothing I've ever felt before. Like a release...more than sexual, you know? Like, freedom. Like, I felt so alive."
ย ย ย ย  He smiles, nodding his head in understanding.
ย ย ย ย  "I..." you continue, still nervous but with mounting confidence as he makes you feel heard, "I would like to...explore this part of myself, this new world," you gesture, "And...well, I would love for you to be the one to guide me."
ย ย ย ย  You raise your gaze to his. His eyes are shimmering. He slowly raises a hand and brushes his fingers over your cheek.
ย ย ย ย  "It would be my honor," he murmurs earnestly.
ย ย ย ย  A smile blooms across your face and your chest fills with warmth. You raise your hand, curling your fingers into his where they rest against your jaw. He drops your hands, still holding on, to his knee.
ย ย ย ย  "Can I ask how much you know about the community?" he queries, tracing his thumb softly over your knuckles.
ย ย ย ย  "A lot more now than I did a couple of weeks ago!" you respond with a laugh. "I know that I'm a sub, but one that likes to...fight back a little bit?"
ย ย ย ย  Hobi smirks, pocketing his tongue in his cheek. His eyes glint.
ย ย ย ย  "A brat," he answers.ย 
ย ย ย ย  "...Yeah."
ย ย ย ย  "Want me to work for it."
ย ย ย ย  Your mouth quirks up in a grin.
ย ย ย ย  "The harder the challenge the bigger the payoff," he hums, glancing thoughtfully down at your joined hands.
ย ย ย ย  "I think," he says after a pause, "Since you're new to all this, we should start slow. I already know some things you enjoy, and vice versa. But part of this kind of thing is about testing your limits. You're going to come across things you don't like, too. I need you to be able to tell me. Without a second thought. Seriously."
ย ย ย ย  He looks at you intently.
ย ย ย ย  You smile.
ย ย ย ย  "I trust you enough to know that youโ€™d stop if thatโ€™s what I wanted. I may enjoy being dominated but I do still know what I want. And with you...I..." You tug at his hand, "I know I could say what I...need.โ€
ย ย ย ย  He huffs out a little breath, his brows drawing together as he regards you in reverence.
ย ย ย ย  "You know you can be that way with me too, right? Needy?" You ask softly. "I want...to take care of you, that way. Maybe we can...take care of each other."ย 
ย ย ย ย  You're not looking at him. You can't. It's all incredibly intimate and strange. When he doesn't respond, you begin to wonder if you said something you shouldn't have. And then your doubts vanish as quickly as they had appeared when you feel his arm slip around your shoulders as he pulls you into his chest, tucking your head beneath his chin.
ย ย ย ย  Your heart sings.
ย ย ย ย  After a long, quiet moment, Hobi pulls back to look at you.ย 
ย ย ย ย  "Should we set some rules for ourselves?" he asks.
ย ย ย ย  You purse your lips and nod. Admittedly, you had come with a few in mind.
ย ย ย ย  "I think...we shouldn't kiss. Well, not on the mouth. It's...I don't know. I think it might make things confusing."
ย ย ย ย  Hobi looks thoughtful, nodding slowly.
ย ย ย ย  "Which brings me to my other thought," you chew your lip. "I think this should just be about sex. We're friends, and I want to keep that aspect of our relationship strong and uncompromised."
ย ย ย ย  He smiles.ย 
ย ย ย ย  "Makes sense to me. But..." he says with a raise of his brows, "If we do start seeing other people, I think we should tell each other. Especially if they're going to be people we're fooling around with."
ย ย ย ย  You give an enthusiastic hum of assent.
โ€œI donโ€™t have a partner at the moment,โ€ you shake your head, glancing up at him.
โ€œMe neither.โ€
He clears his throat and shifts his stance.
โ€œWhen weโ€™reโ€ฆtogether,โ€ he gestures in the space between you. โ€œWhat about protection?โ€
You blink thoughtfully.
โ€œIโ€™m on birth control.โ€
He nods.
โ€œOkayโ€ฆwould you want me to wear a condom?โ€
You feel heat creep up your neck as you meet his gaze with a shake of your head.
โ€œNot unless you wanted you.โ€
He stares at you for a long moment before chuckling and shaking his own head.
โ€œAy, youโ€™re gonna be the death of me, you know that?โ€
You smile and pull your bottom lip between your teeth.
ย ย ย ย  "Oh! And we already have a safeword!โ€ you remind him with a grin.
ย ย ย ย  "We do," he acknowledges, his eyes dropping to the glinting metallic ring adorning your throat.
ย ย ย ย  Your smile falters and your heartbeat quickensโ€ฆand when he looks back up at you it's like whiplash as he sets you reeling again with a dark, hungry gaze.
ย ย ย ย  "If that thing isn't a necklace," he rasps, reaching his fingers up to touch the cold silver, "How about we put it to its proper use, hm?"ย 
ย ย ย ย  You shiver, pressing your thighs together as your heartbeat drops to your clit.
ย ย ย ย  "Yeah..." you whisper, your breath already starting to come quicker as you reach for your bag and fumble with trembling fingers with the clasp.ย 
ย ย ย ย  Hoseok's brow knits as he watches you open the purse, reaching in to produce a length of light chain about three feet long with a velvet strap on one and a claw clasp on the other. You double it up and dangle it from your hand, your heart thrumming in your chest as you raise your eyes to his.
ย ย ย ย  "You can put it on me," you purr, "...But you'll have to take it from me first."
ย ย ย ย  Click.
ย ย ย ย  That ineffable thing, that invisible force he wields that arrests you has slipped back into place. You can feel it, pouring off him in devastating waves...and you're already starting to drown.
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ย ย ย ย  It didn't take him long to wrestle the leash from your grasp. Now you're on your knees before him, hands at your sides as he leans forward to affix the chain to the o-ring at your neck. You're breathing hard from your struggle. He stands to his full height, wrapping the links around his hand until the line is taught. He clicks his tongue condescendingly.
ย ย ย  "What am I going to do with you now, hm?" he murmurs, tugging at the chain briefly so that you lurch slightly forward. You whine complaintively.
ย ย ย ย  "Quiet," he hisses in warning.ย 
ย ย ย ย  You bite your lip. You need to obey now. Your panties are soaked and you can feel the turgid swell of your clit with every slight motion of your body. If you are good for him, then maybe you will be rewarded. Being a good girl should earn something. Right now, you will take anything.
ย ย ย ย  Hoseok glowers down at you, tilting his head to the side as his eyes trail over your features, coming to rest on your pouted lips. He wets his own.
ย ย ย ย  "You like to run that mouth of yours...how about we see what else it can do?"
ย ย ย ย  Holy fucking shit. You feel saliva begin to pool under your tongue, your eyes flicking down to the bulge at the front of his slacks. You start to raise your hands toward his belt but he yanks sharply upward on the chain, the metal ring biting into the underside of your jaw, ripping a mewl of discomfort and impatience from your lips.
ย ย ย ย  He lets out a long sigh, shaking his head as his lips curve into a cruel smile.
ย ย ย ย  "So eager that she can't even wait for permission?"
ย ย ย ย  You whimper again, biting your lip as he laughs darkly above you.
ย ย ย ย  "My little whore wants something, doesn't she?"
ย ย ย ย  You give a silent nod, letting your tongue slip out to wet your lips and watch his eyes darken as his pupils swallow his deep brown irises.
ย ย ย ย  "Mmm..." He hums in consideration, bringing his free hand to cradle your chin. "I've told you before, sweet thing, if you want something, you have to ask for it."
ย ย ย ย  Your eyes blink languidly as you look up at him. Your head is swimming as you sway on your knees, the dizzy helplessness of being spun between degradation and endearment hanging over you like a heavy trance. His fingers tighten around your jaw.
ย ย ย ย  "Come on..." he coaxes in a chilly whisper, "Use that pretty mouth to ask Hoseok."
ย ย ย ย  You swallow thickly.
ย ย ย  "Wan..." you start softly, but his grip on your jaw sharpens.
ย ย ย ย  "Speak up, I can't hear you," he commands reproachfully.
ย ย ย ย  Heat swells up from your neck and sweat begins to tickle your hairline. You know what you want, you've been thinking about little else since he was pressed against you on the dance floor...but the thought of giving your filthy, aching desires shape has every inch of your body trembling.
ย ย ย  "Wan...want..." you struggle over his fingers pressing harshly into your cheeks.ย 
ย ย ย ย  He tuts, and the look on his stony features suddenly warns you that if you don't overcome your nerves...
ย ย ย ย  "Wan' your cock!" you choke out desperately.
ย ย ย ย  Hoseok's lids dip slowly and his lips part, as if your words have been injected into his veins, and you think you could fucking cum at the sight. His eyes flutter open again and he gazes down. You fight for patience and composure with each maddening second of silence that passes. You can feel your pussy clench and your hands follow suit. Hoseok catches the motion. A sickening grin spreads over his lips.
ย ย ย ย  "Want this cock, hm?" he hums, releasing your chin from his grasp to palm over the clothed swell inches from your lips.
ย ย ย ย  You whimper pathetically, letting your eyes slip shut. Fuck you want him. You want your mouth around him. You want to choke on him. You want the thick, sticky milk of his release on your tongue.
ย ย ย ย  "So tell me, brat," he hisses, wrapping another loop of chain around his palm so that he holds you on a mere few inches of leash. "How do you want my cock?"
ย ย ย ย  Any shame has been dispelled from your being in the presence of your burning desire, and you raise heavy, lustful eyes to his dark ones.
ย ย ย ย  "Wanna suck it off."
ย ย ย ย  You can see his chest beginning to rise and fall with more effort as he pulls you by the leash, in tortuously slow deliberation, until your lips are ghosting over the zipper of his slacks. He glares down at you, the corner of his mouth curling up in a sneer as he holds you in place.
ย ย ย ย  "BEG."
ย ย ย ย  A violent tremor of arousal jolts through your abdomen and you gasp.
ย ย ย  "P-please..." you stammer dumbly against the soft, dark cotton.
ย ย ย ย  "Again."
ย ย ย ย  "Please..."
ย ย ย ย  "Please, what?"ย 
ย ย ย ย  "Please..." you breath shakily, "Will you fuck my mouth?"
ย ย ย ย  You feel him twitch under the vibration of your supplicating words.ย 
ย ย ย ย  "Alright," he relents in a rasp, "But keep those hands at your sides, understand?โ€
You nod.
โ€œUnless,โ€ he tugs at the chain again,โ€You need to stop. Then you grab my leg and squeeze.โ€
โ€œOkay.โ€
โ€œWhat are you going to do, baby? If you need me to stop?๏ฟฝ๏ฟฝ๏ฟฝ
โ€œSqueeze your leg.โ€
โ€œThatโ€™s right,โ€ he hums and the repeated instruction.
ย ย ย ย  You chew on your lip as he pulls off his belt and slips open the button, giving a tug at your collar. As you look up at his hooded eyes, you know exactly what to do.
ย ย ย ย  You nose at the seam, trying for one moment to ignore the throbbing bulge against your cheek as you find the zipper with your teeth and drag it slowly downward, your eyes never breaking his burning gaze.ย 
ย ย ย ย  "Good girl," he hisses, pushing his pants down his hips to reveal a pair of tight, black boxer briefs, a sizable strain pulling at the flexible fabric where he's hard beneath them.
He hooks two thumbs into the elastic and tugs down, his fully erect cock springing free to bob against the side of your face. A sticky streak of precum smears across your cheek as you seek his head with your lips, barely having time to register the smooth tip, or the pretty, pulsating veins as you rush to swallow him whole.
ย ย ย  Hoseok lets out a long, deep groan as you suckle greedily around him. Allowing your spit to slick his shaft you pull back, keeping just the crown between your lips as you worry your tongue along his dripping slit.
ย ย ย ย  He's rock hard and heavy on your tongue as you lean in to take him farther down your throat, bunching your hands into your dress at the aching urge to cup and stroke the velvet skin of his scrotum.
ย ย ย ย  "Fuck," he grits out from between clenched teeth, "That's right..."
ย ย ย ย  You bob lower and lower on his shaft, seeking to take as much of him as you are able. When you feel his tip brush the back of your throat, you moan around him. His free hand flies into your hair, and suddenly he's yanking you off of him. You cough and splutter at the sudden motion and he tugs the chain so that you raise watery eyes to him. He releases your hair to absently stroke himself as he lightly pants over you.
ย ย ย ย  "Asked me to fuck that throat. Think you can take it?"
ย ย ย ย  You nod as you attempt to wipe drool pooling on your chin into your shoulder.
ย ย ย ย  "Words," he pushes, snapping the chain around his wrist.
ย ย ย ย  "Yeah," you mock, matching his tone, a spark of defiance reigniting inside you.
ย ย ย ย  Hoseok lets out a hollow laugh.
ย ย ย ย  "So confident. We'll see about that."
ย ย ย ย  He slips two fingers of his free hand into the strap of your collar and tugs you back toward his cock. You open wide, extending your tongue to catch the head and pull him between your lips.
You move to swallow him again, but he halts you.
ย ย ย ย  "Keep still," he mutters coldly, and the fingers at your collar hold you tightly in place as he slowly slides his hips forward in a thrust that has him inching toward your soft palate.
Your eyes water, but you have never been more determined to fight your gag reflex as he pulls back and pushes in again, deeper, his cock tapping again at the back of your throat.
ย ย ย ย  "Goddamn, you really can take it," he groans in a shaky voice. "Such a good little slut for Hoseok. Such a pretty, filthy little mouth."
ย ย ย ย  Your nostrils flare as you draw air through your nose, and you swallow, the muscle of your throat contracting tightly around him. At this he seems to break, suddenly pulling back his hips to snap them forward as he sets a rough, self-indulgent pace.
ย ย ย ย  Your eyes water, spilling over from the brutal stretch and sting, but you dig your fingers into your thighs, determined to take him as long as you possibly can.
ย ย ย ย  You start to feel light-headed, and just when you think you're going to have to tap out for air, Hoseok's pulling you off of him and wrenching your face upwards to run his wild eyes over it.
ย ย ย  You gasp for breath a moment, and then you're opening your mouth to him again, blinking up through bleary eyes in a silent, hungry plea. He shakes his head slowly as he gazes down at you, chest heaving.
ย ย ย ย  "Shit, look at you..."
ย ย ย ย  You're a site. Tears and mascara streak your cheeks, saliva and precum slick your chin and neck, your parted lips swollen. Hoseok's fingers twist where they're still hooked into the collar.ย 
ย ย ย ย  "You still want it, don't you? My god..." he smears the tip of his cock along your bottom lip.
Your eager tongue wriggles forward to brush over him again. He swallows, and with a growl he slaps his cock down harshly over it. You let out a little sob as your soaking, aching cunt clenches around nothing.ย 
ย ย ย ย  "Alright," he mutters in a husky whisper, "Gonna fucking ruin that tight little throat. Gonna fill it the fuck up. Blow my load all over that nasty little tongue. And you want that, don't you? Wanna be Hoseok's pretty little cumslut, hm?"ย 
ย ย ย ย  You nod, and then remember the rules.
ย ย ย ย  "Yes," you croak, and open wide for him again.
ย ย ย ย  He grits his teeth and tugs at the collar to pull you slowly over him again with a shudder. You've proven more than capable and it's not long before he's chasing release at a punishing pace. It's sloppy and desperate - the hollow, wet sounds as he fucks your face a pornographic symphony.ย 
Suddenly you think you can feel his cock twitch and jerk as it hammers into your mouth, and when he grows so incredibly hard, you know he's about to reach his peak.
ย ย ย ย  You lock eyes with him through your tears, watching his features strain to maintain their composure. Without warning he grabs the back of your head and slams into you, arching over as he cries out.
ย ย ย ย  And he cums.
ย ย ย ย  Thick ropes spurt down your throat as he quivers and throbs.
ย ย ย ย  The moment he's spent his last drop of release he fists into your hair and roughly pulls you back, letting his softening cock fall free. You gasp for breath, coughing as you choke down the last remnants of his seed. Lips trembling, your eyes search his face for what you so desperately need...and you find it.
ย ย ย ย  His lids are heavy over his eyes, mere glistening slips of midnight visible as they gleam down at you; his beautiful lips are parted as he pants, the honey planes of chest glistening with sweat where his shirt fails to obscure it.
ย ย ย ย  He's breathless and sated and glorious, and you bask under the intensity of his gaze. He releases his hold on your collar and lets the leash clatter to the ground, bringing his hands to your face. He cups your cheeks, brushing his thumbs over the streaks of tears.
ย ย ย ย  "So, fucking good for me," he mutters shakily, his brow drawn, "Such a pretty, perfect little brat."ย 
ย ย ย ย  Your eyes slip shut under his words of praise. You could move mountains if he asked you to, you were certain. In this moment, in this space, anything for this man. Everything.ย ย ย 
ย ย ย ย  You feel his hands leave your face as he moves to help you stand, before tugging his briefs back into place.ย 
The heat of the moment past, you become acutely aware of the stinging soreness in your knees as you struggle to your feet โ€“ and the sticky ache of persistent hunger throbbing between your thighs. You teeter on your heels as blood rushes to your lower legs.
Smiling, he reaches out and pulls you to him gently by the waist, swiping a thumb over your chin.
ย ย ย ย  "You were a good girl, baby. So, so good," He coos in a husky whisper. "You remember what good girls get, hm?" He's still calling the shots and demanding answers, but his eyes are soft as they regard you.
ย ย ย ย  "A reward?" you answer hopefully.
ย ย ย ย  He hums in assent.
ย ย ย ย  "That's right, baby. That's right," He brushes at the smeared makeup under your eye. "But let's get that messy little face cleaned up first."ย 
ย ย ย ย  After unfastening your collar he sits you down on the bed, bringing makeup wipes to gently dab away the proof of your efforts, and offers you a bottle of cool water. He comes to sit beside you, eyes tracking you attentively as you drink.
ย ย ย ย  "Want Hoseok to take care of that needy little pussy?" he asks, with a smirk.
ย ย ย ย  "Fuck yes," you breath as you lower the bottle from your mouth.
ย ย ย ย  He arches a brow, and you purse your lips in an attempt not to grin.
ย ย ย ย  "Please," you add in correction.
ย ย ย ย  "Mmm," he acknowledges thoughtfully, turning to gaze over his shoulder at the spider plant hanging from the ceiling a few feet past the other side of the bed.
ย ย ย ย  "Does my little girl want to try something new?" he asks, his eyes still on the suspended planter.
ย ย ย ย  You feel your pulse quicken and stomach twist in anticipation.
ย ย ย ย  "Yes, Hoseok, I trust you," you respond without reserve.
ย ย ย ย  He flicks his eyes to your face, brows drawing together. He wets his lips and huffs out a breathy laugh.
ย ย ย ย  "You have no goddamned idea what you do to me when you say shit like that."
ย ย ย ย  You look away, smiling brightly as you preen under the heat and affection of his gaze.
ย ย ย ย  He reaches for your hand and guides you to rise to your feet.
ย ย ย ย  "Alright, ditch the dress," he orders, gesturing with a flick of his chin as he leans back on his hands and spreads his thighs in a posture of recline.
ย ย ย ย  You step back to give yourself space, already weak in the knees at the prospect of stripping for him. You steel your composure, a spark of boldness lighting in your belly. Taking a few steps away and turning from him, you look back over your shoulder to watch his face as you reach behind to slowly drag the zipper down your back. You make a slow, sensual show of peeling the garment from your body to reveal a lacy black balconette bra and matching thong. Stepping out of the dress and tossing it away, in nothing but your lingerie and stilettos, you stride back to stand patiently before him.
ย ย ย ย  He leans forward and runs his hands up the sides of your thighs until they reach your hips where they slide back to squeeze the meat of your ass.
You bring your hands gingerly to his shoulders.ย 
Tugging your body toward him, he draws himself to the edge of the mattress, pulling you between his thighs as he uses his sharp, white teeth to nip along the soft flesh of your belly. He sucks harshly at some places, leaving flushed little souvenirs of claim in his wake. You don't hold back the proof of your pleasure - repaying his ministrations with gasps and low moans as his hands and mouth explore you.
ย ย ย ย  Hoseok raises his face from your skin, his pupils wide as his gaze settles at your breasts.ย 
"Bra off," he commands, squeezing your ass again as you reach back to unfasten the clasp and pull the straps from your arms.
ย ย ย ย  He hisses and grits his teeth, raising greedy hands to knead at your supple flesh, before pulling them away to twist and slap at your nipples.ย 
You groan and throw your head back, relishing in the shocks of sensation โ€“ gushing, as if you could ruin your soaked panties any further. As you press your trembling thighs together he glances down at the last remaining vestige of your modesty, lips spreading into a wicked grin.
ย ย ย ย  "You know I can fucking smell it - how wet you are? My god, want you to wear it like a perfume, fuck..." He runs his right hand to rub against the dampness that has the lace clinging to your slit.
ย ย ย ย  The moan you let out is so needy it's practically a sob. Hoseok laughs low in his chest.
ย ย ย ย  Suddenly heโ€™s standing and spinning you around, leading you to the end of the bed. He places your hands on the footboard and instructs you to bend over, sliding your hips back until your ass is on full display. He runs his hands over the bare flesh of your cheeks.
ย ย ย  "Now," he growls, "Can't fuck this ass until it's properly marked, can we?"
ย ย ย ย  You swallow and let out a whine. The blood is already rushing to your head in a familiar surge and in the split second of silence before impact, you know what's coming - the anticipation somehow even more intoxicating when you remember how it feels when he...
ย ย ย ย  Smack!
ย ย ย ย  You whimper, your fingers gripping the bed frame as he delivers blow after searing blow. When he has satisfied himself with the flushed tone streaking the globes of your ass, he gives it a final squeeze, commanding you to wait where you are.
ย ย ย ย  You hear him as he moves to the side of the bed to pull an object from beneath it. He seems to be grappling with something - the clink of metal and soft rustle of leather interrupting the sudden heavy hush. He returns to your side, taking your hands from the bed and bringing you to stand. As he leads you to the far side of the bed, you see it: hanging from the large hook in the ceiling that once bore the spider plant there is a large leather contraption. You've never seen one in real life, but you know what it is.
ย ย ย ย  "You have a sex swing?" you murmur in awe, momentarily forgetting yourself as you reach out to brush your fingers over the soft leather. There are buckle straps at different places and a metal bar running across the top. He lightly grips your waist, turning you to face him again. He dips his head forward and you inhale the cool mint of his breath.
ย ย ย ย  "Gonna put you in it," he murmurs, "You remember our word, right?"
ย ย ย ย  "Yes," you breathe.
โ€œSay it.โ€
โ€œFoxglove.โ€
He smirks.
ย ย ย ย  "Good girl. Panties off," he instructs.
ย ย ย ย  You couldn't be more eager to pull the sopping fabric down your legs and toss it aside, but when you reach to remove your shoes, he catches your wrist.
ย ย ย ย  "I didn't say you could take those off, did I?" he reprimands, and your pulse begins to hammer in your throat.
ย ย ย ย  Heโ€™s gonna fucking strap you to this thing in your goddamned heels.
ย ย ย ย  You comply with him as he helps you into the seat, fastening your wrists together to a strap that has them raised above your head. After securing your hands, he raises your legs, carefully stretching them so that your feet are on the outside of the wide set cables, hooking your heels to catch on the bar across the top to hold your legs, spread wide, in place. With each restriction he checks in, making sure youโ€™re completely comfortable with his choices.ย 
When he finishes he comes to stand before you, heaving out a sigh through his nose as he trails a hand down the back of your thigh.
ย ย ย ย  "Look at you," he groans as his eyes rake over your body.
ย ย ย ย  You can feel your pussy leaking. Your heart pounds. The muscles in your legs strain a bit from the stretch and the bindings nip into your wrists and feet. You are completely exposed to him...and it is utter perfection. Like you were made to be at his mercy. You blink up at him through the fuzzy haze that keeps intensifying as you relinquish yourself deeper and deeper into his control.
ย ย ย ย  His eyes slip shut for a moment and he gives an almost imperceptible shake of his head before bringing his lips to graze against the back of your calf.
ย ย ย ย  "Hoseok..." you whisper, trembling.ย 
ย ย ย ย  His eyes open and lock with yours. You hold each other's gaze in silence.ย 
Nothing needs to be said - you both know. You both understand.
ย ย ย ย  He unbuttons his shirt and slips it off, and after discarding his briefs he is as naked as you are. With one hand he grips your leg, slipping two fingers of the other to slide through the swollen, sticky folds of your cunt. You cry out, your pelvis shuddering - so ripe to be touched that the contact sends a shock like an electric pulse through your being.ย 
ย ย ย ย  "What a pretty fucking pussy...so desperate for me," he mutters.
ย ย ย ย  You watch his beautiful fingers as they slip through your glistening lips and over your throbbing clit before he pulls his hand up. He lets it hover in the air for a moment before bringing it down with a harsh smack against your mound.ย 
A scream strangles in your throat as he repeats the motion again. Your whole body shakes with arousal.ย 
He clenches his jaw as he trails his fingers down to your aching hole, dipping in shallowly to gather your bountiful slick. He raises his fingers to his lips, tasting you as he watches you tremble beneath him. He withdraws them with a pop.
ย ย ย ย  "You know how much you like that? Getting this little cunt slapped?" His eyes trail down. "You're dripping down your fucking ass."
ย ย ย ย  Shuddering violently, you whimper, tugging impatiently at your restraints.
ย ย ย ย  "Yah," he warns, and you still. "Guess you're ready for me, huh? Just like that day..." He smirks condescendingly. "You're always ready, aren't you?" He hisses. "Need me so fucking badly...all of the time."
ย ย ย ย  You sob as your walls contract again and again. He takes his cock into his hand and slides it through your folds, teasing the tip over your clit.
ย ย ย ย  It's euphoric, but it's not enough. You sink your teeth into your bottom lip as you fight your own desperate need until the copper taste of blood seeps across your tongue. Somehow, it doesn't even hurt โ€“ you can't feel anything past the need for him to fill you. You feel his tip prod your entrance and you gasp.
ย ย ย ย  โ€œLook at me," he rasps.
ย ย ย ย  Your eyes snap open. Your legs are shaking, vibrating the entire apparatus as he finally, slowly, sinks into your wet heat. The stretch of him is exquisite, and your eyes roll back in your head as he groans, steadily pulling back to push into you again.
โ€œShiiiiiittttโ€ฆโ€ he hisses through his teeth, โ€œFucking made for me. Does my little brat like that? Hoseokโ€™s cock stuffing that tight little cunt?โ€
โ€œM-moreโ€ฆp-pleaseโ€ฆโ€ you mewl, nearly unable to even form the words as his ridges drag deliciously along your taught walls.
ย ย ย ย  You're so incredibly worked up that already you can feel a climax building in your belly, and he's only just started to fuck you. Unable to touch him any other way, you squeeze around him tightly.
ย ย ย ย  He lets out a grunt, picking up his pace as he uses the mobility of the swing to pound you onto his cock.ย 
You cry out, your head rattling against the leather as stroke after stroke sends you hurtling toward your high. Your mouth hangs open, and your vision begins to blur at the edges, the position of your arms making it harder to breathe. Itโ€™s going put you over the edge. He catches your glazed stare.
ย ย ย ย  "Don't you fucking cum until I say," he grits out breathlessly, and you let out a wail, head falling back.ย 
ย ย ย ย  You can feel yourself barely holding on as he slams into you, teetering on the edge as you hear his voice.
ย ย ย ย  "Whose little whore are you?"
ย ย ย ย  You try to speak but the words won't rattle out of your chest.
ย ย ย ย  "Whose?" he booms.
ย ย ย ย  "Yours!" you press out in a sob.
ย ย ย ย  "Who do you kneel for?"
ย ย ย ย  "You!"ย 
ย ย ย ย  "Who owns this pussy?"
ย ย ย ย  "Y-you!"
ย ย ย ย  "And who the fuck am I?"
ย ย ย ย  "HOSEOK!"
ย ย ย ย  "Cum, slut." he growls.
...And you free-fall through time and space.
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ย ย ย ย  The summer evening air is warm against your skin as you step out under the rose gold twilight. Behind you the chic dining venue is still abustle, and you wave coworkers a fond farewell as they head off to continue the evening with karaoke. It's been a big day for you, and there's someone you've been waiting to talk to.
ย ย ย ย  You press the green call button and wait as the line rings.
ย ย ย ย  "Yeoboseyo?"ย 
ย ย ย ย  The warm voice on the other end has a smile blooming on your lips.
ย ย ย ย  "Hey, Hobi-ssi!" you hum.
ย ย ย ย  "Hey hey!" he chrips, "What's up?"
ย ย ย ย  "Oh, nothing," you respond casually, "Just got done with a company dinner. Someone got a promotion, so we all went out."
ย ย ย ย  There's a pause on the other end.
ย ย ย ย  "Oh," answers slowly, "That one you put in for?"
ย ย ย ย  "Mhm."
ย ย ย ย  You hear him scoff in amusement
ย ย ย ย  "Well, at least you seem to be taking it well."
ย ย ย ย  "I'd say I'm taking it extremely well, which is only natural, considering I got the job."
ย ย ย ย  "Yes, well...wait, YOU WHAT?!"
ย ย ย ย  You pull the phone momentarily away from your ear as his joyful, raucous laughter blasts through the speaker.
ย ย ย ย  "You're gonna make me go deaf!" You chide. Your smile is brighter than the setting sun.
ย ย ย ย  "I'm so proud of you."
ย ย ย ย  "Thanks, Hobi."
ย ย ย ย  "You should celebrate!"
ย ย ย ย  "I did go out with my work friends...but..."
ย ย ย  "You should come over," he interjects.
ย  The register of his voice has changed. You recognize the new one.
ย ย ย ย  "Yeah?" you swallow, as your heart rate quickens. "Well...what if I do want to go to karaoke?"
ย ย ย ย  You wait for his response, watching your ride share pull up to the curb.
ย ย ย ย  "Yah - you gonna be a good girlโ€ฆโ€
ย ย ย ย  You hold your breath.
ย ย ย ย  โ€œ...Or do I have to make you?"
-FIN-
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legolas + n.6 please๐Ÿ™‡โ€โ™€๏ธ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿ‘€
Summary: Never in your wildest dreams did you think Legolas, Prince Legolas of the Greenwood, would confess to you half drunk on elvish wine. With a little help from a fully drunk Dwarf. Pairing: Legolas x Reader Rating || Genres || Warnings: T. Romance. Just some mention of drunken shenanigans. A/N: Alright so normally its always the reader who gets drunk and confesses, and I just wanted to flip it the other way around and see how it goes, so yeah. Here you go!
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You peaked out from behind the tapestry where you had taken refuge.
Finding the hallway empty, you heaved a sigh of relief, before slowly stepping out and dusting whatever minor dust had collected on your dress.
You were avoiding your friends who had decided it would be in your best interest attend yet another feast that was thrown in honor of the return of the Prince. And though you loved spending time with Legolas, being under the scrutiny of the entire kingdom during a public event was not one you looked forward to.
Especially when you were afraid that your true feelings for Legolas would be discovered at any moment.
You certainly hadn't been discrete about them.
Then again you did not blame yourself. You had been caught up in the moment. The realization that he was standing in front of you. That he had not perished in the Battle against Mordor. That he had returned and the first person he had gone to meet was you.
And while your lips ached to meet his, you had settled for an embrace that was so intimate and sincere that several onlookers had actually blushed at the sight. What made your heart soar was that he returned the embrace with just as feeling and passion as you gave it. Your eyes stung with tears and all those months of worrying, of wondering, of hoping.
They all just dissipated.
Like the morning mist when the first rays of sun peaked through the branches of a tree.
As you leaned against a nearby pillar, a dreamy smile played about your lips as you raised a hand to your cheek, where he had placed his hand once the both of you had pulled back from the embrace.
Looking into his eyes wiped away any lingering doubts that this was a dream. His blue gaze was so full of hope that you felt your very heart burst.
You remembered how he had spoken of doing good for Mirkwood. How he had vowed that they would once again be known as Greenwood again. And now he had helped make that a reality.
With his hand on your cheek, he had opened his mouth to speak, but the arrival of the King had both your priorities shifting and you had both stepped away.
Though with how fast gossip traveled you knew the King was aware of you now. The Elleth his son had gone to see upon his return home after months.
Not his father.
You.
He had come back to you.
You chest raised in a silent sigh as you slowly began to move down the hallway. The feast was being held on the other side of the Kingdom, so you would not be running into anyone during your trek back to your rooms.
Oh, how wrong you were.
Loud boisterous laughter was what first alerted you to another presence. Before you could even think of hiding two figures had turned the corner and stood in your path.
One was short and obviously drunk as a lord given how he blearily peered up at you. This was the dwarf Gimli, who you knew to be Legolas's friend and someone who had fought in every battle against Mordor alongside him.
The other person, was none other then Legolas.
"Y/n." He exclaimed, blinking his eyes at you as if he had never seen you before. You gave a nervous little smile, raising a hand in greeting. "Ah! So this is the lass you spoke of." Gimli stated. His words were slurring but you could clearly make out what he was saying as he lumbered forward and gave you a quick bow.
"An honor to meet you My Lady." You couldn't help but smile at his attempt to be courteous despite his inebriated state. "I must say I feel as if I already know you given how much a certain Prince spoke of you during our travels together."
Never in your life had you seen Legolas be anything but calm and collected. He would laugh and make merry, sure. But nervous? Flustered. Those were not emotions you associated with him.
But in that moment, when Gimili said what he did, you watched in utter surprise as Legolas was rendered speechless and his cheeks grew pink. You couldn't help the giggle that fell from your lips as you watched him. Though you quickly looked away when he raised his gaze towards you.
Turning your attention back to the smiling dwarf you smiled kindly. "I hope they were all good things, Master Dwarf." Gimli was all too eager to comply to her silent question as he began to slur.
"Oh nothing but the best My Lady. Every spare moment we had to breath, this one here, would sing your praises. Of your beauty, good heart, lovely nature and how much you meant to him."
Now it was your turn to blush. A gentle smile pulled at your lips as you bit down on your lower lip, gazing at Legolas just from underneath your lashes. He was looking at you in the same manner once more.
Right before his father had called him away.
Gimli was still speaking, unaware of the looks being exchanged between the two elves. "He missed you lass, anyone could tell. And I said to him, you had best say your piece to the lass when you get back." He cleared his throat. "Of course at the time it was all about if we went back. But that is besides the point."
He turned his attention back to Legolas and slapped him on the back. Or as best as he could given his lack of height. He did managed to make Legolas stumble. "Now that you have a few drinks in you that do effect you lad, perhaps it has given you enough courage to confess." Legolas's eyes widened almost comically, prompting you to smother a smile behind your hand.
Chortling to himself, Gimli began to stride down the hallway. "I leave him in your capable hands, My Lady. I believe there is some elvish wine calling my name."
And with that he was gone.
Leaving you and Legolas alone.
"He is certainly an interesting dwarf." You said, feeling that perhaps it would be best if you broke the silence that was clearly making him uncomfortable. Elvish wine had the ability to loosen one's control over their emotions. Even the most stoic of elves. So it was no surprise that every emotion Legolas was feeling was evident that would've otherwise been concealed.
"That he is." He agreed, though the words were spoken in a strange tone, and suddenly you couldn't meet his eyes. What burned in them was too intense.
Brushing a loose piece of hair behind your ear you nodded. "I suppose you had best get some rest Legolas." You took a few steps to walk past him and let him continue on his way.
But just as you stepped next to him, his hand darted out, grasping your wrist and halting you in your steps.
Your breath hitched as you felt his strong grip against your skin. Your head turned, eyes dropping to where his hand was, before looking at him. He was still staring straight ahead.
Neither of you moved. And it would seem, neither of your breathed as you waited.
But for what?
"I have been holding something close to my heart for a long while and I can do so no longer for fear it shall consume me." He was speaking in elvish. He shook his head. "No. It has already consumed me."
Finally, he turned his head and a startled gasp fell from your lips as you caught sight of the near feverish look in his blue gaze. "You have consumed me."
Your lips parted, and it was your turn to stare at him. And that was all you could do.
All you could do was watch as he allowed his hand to gently grasp yours and bring it up to his lips. His breath was warm as he brushed his lips against the back of your hand. Never for a moment did his eyes leave yours.
And it was the sincerity and surety in those eyes that compelled you to finally find your voice. "Speak of what burdens your heart so, Legolas." You whispered, reaching up to affectionately rest a hand against the side of his face, just as he had done to you a few hours earlier.
He shook his head. "Not a burden. Never a burden." The wine seemed to be making it difficult for him to find the right words to say. "All I desire is for you to know of my feelings for you." His head slowly fell forward so that his forehead rested against yours. The closeness seemed to comfort him, since he closed his eyes and inhaled deeply, his entire body relaxing. "For you to know how you consumed my every thought during my travels. How your name was a prayer upon my lips every night. How with every foe I killed I knew I was making the world a safer place for you." He had opened his eyes now and could see the tears shining in your eyes, as well as the smile of adoration playing about your lips.
"Then you should know, that I prayed to the Valar for your safe return. That I kept you close in my mind and my heart. That I never once believed the rumors of your demise. That I knew in my soul that you would return to me. You have been my hope and my strength in these dark days Legolas." He reciprocated your smile as you spoke.
A beat of silence followed where both your hearts beat as one and as one, as if by the Valar, words rose to your lips, unbidden, yet with an ancient power behind them that no one could ever hope to comprehend.
"My prayer." His nose brushed against your own as you both spoke together.
"My light." You could feel his warm breath against your parted lips as you both whispered in tandem.
"My Fรซa."
With nothing more left to say, his lips brushed against yours in the gentlest yet deepest of kisses.
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i loveeeeeee ur writing. its like a masterpiece. mwah. i was wondering if you could do an angsty fic with the prompt "I loved you!" with any clone boy you want (maybe crosshair ๐Ÿ‘€) I was listening to Cardigan by taylor swift and it lowkey set the mood.
sorry if the request is very vague cause i never watched bad batch yet im a huge simp ๐Ÿฅฒ so do whatever you want.
I know you got like a tonnnn on your plate and i lowkey feel bad requesting but you write really good so take ur time to take care of yourself.
hiiiii anon. if you are who i think you are, then you'll have already been watching TBB by now, but if you're not, what are you doing!! /affectionate
after listening to the song (i have a sister who is a swiftie but alas i am not) and thinking harder about your prompt, i was inspired to write this for Echo, so i hope that's okay!
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The Way Back
Pairing: Echo x fem!Reader
Words: 9,621
Tags/Warnings: angst with a happy ending, hurt/comfort, established relationship, dramatic reunion, reader is a lawyer, Tech is a good brother, Echo needs a hug, allusion to panic attacks/alcoholism/depression
Summary: Echo always knew you were it for him, but the idea of seeing you again after so much has changed is more than he can take. Until one day he finds himself outside of your apartment, and the choice is made for him.
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Echo doesnโ€™t leave the ship when it docks on Coruscant.
His eyes are locked on the city-planet, lit up like a giant firefly, watching the endless stream of ships coming in and out. Their trails of light make the whole thing seem dreamlike, surreal. Even that feels like too much, reminds him too much of the view from your apartment, and he tries to close his eyes, but his eyelids are made of glass.
The first time he saw Coruscant, there had been a moment of... what, awe? Terror? Something. Something big, anyway. He didn't understand then that you can have a feeling be a lot of things. He'd looked down on the galaxy's center of power and felt something bigger than he could possibly contain. Now, sitting alone on the Marauder with only the whirr of the vents for company, he thinks maybe the feeling was dread.
The first time they came back here after Echo joined the Batch, the others didnโ€™t notice his unease. Or at least they didn't mention it. It was an adjustment period for everyone, Echo most of all, and his brothers gave him space to do things on his own terms, even when it meant he did nothing at all.
This time, it's different. He can tell they've noticed how he's been acting, and they're not just leaving him alone anymore. He can tell, because they're giving him looks. The kind of looks that ask questions he doesn't have answers for. They make excuses to stick close by, like they're afraid he might take off or that he's going to break down and have another panic attack. It makes him want to hide even more.
He's not going to, though. It's not so bad. Coruscant has always been a source of good memories for Echo, despite what happened. The sights, the sounds, the tastes โ€” they're all still the same. He'd spent a long time on Coruscant before the Citadel happened, and he'd gotten used to it, the way the air smells, the feel of the rain against his skin. He had a whole life here. He was happy.
It's not so bad. He just... doesn't feel like going out, is all.
He knows heโ€™s being stupid. He knows that he should be out there, enjoying what little downtime theyโ€™re afforded. Instead, he's on the ship, trying not to stare out the windows, trying to pretend that he isn't bothered by the thought of leaving, of the possibility of running into you again, however small that may be.
The worst part is that he's not sure why.
It's not that he doesn't want to see you. On the contrary, he does. More than anything. He hasn't stopped thinking about you, wondering if you're okay, if youโ€™re happy, if you've thought of him. He's kept his ears open, and has managed to overhear a few stories here and there about you. The most recent had been about you winning a case for a group of Houk refugees who had been seeking asylum in the city, a big deal for a young lawyer to handle.
It had made him smile, a real, genuine smile, the kind he rarely got to have.
But there's something about seeing you again, about you seeing him that makes him hesitate, makes his stomach turn over and his throat tighten. Maybe it's because he doesn't want to know for certain, doesn't want to see that you're happy, that you've moved on, that you're doing well without him.
Maybe it's because he doesn't trust himself. He's different now, he knows that. He's different, and so are you. He doesn't know if he can face you, doesn't know if he'll be able to handle whatever is waiting for him.ย 
When he woke up in Rexโ€™s arms and realized the galaxy had kept moving without him, he hadnโ€™t thought much of it, solely focused on survival, on the fact that he was alive at all. He hadn't cared about what he'd missed, who he'd left behind. He hadn't known how much time had passed, and the thought that he was a dead man hadn't even crossed his mind. He hadn't thought about you, hadn't given himself the time or space to consider the consequences. You'd been the furthest thing from his mind. He'd had to keep fighting, to keep living. But once he had the time to think about it, to regret, well, it was...
It's different.
There's no other word for it. Everything is different.
Echo has had time, too much time, to think about you, to regret losing you. It's kept him up late into the night cycle, lying in bed, staring up at the ceiling, unable to sleep, thoughts running a mile a minute.
You'd been a good person, a better one than he could ever hope to be, and he had loved you, and then he had died.
Or, he had thought he'd died. Turns out he hadn't. That had been the only mercy.
You'd been the first and only person in his entire life to see him as something other than a soldier, and he'd loved you for it. You'd seen him, really seen him, and you hadn't run. He had been terrified by that, but it had also been the best feeling in the world. And he had taken advantage of it. He had let you in, he had let himself fall in love, and then he had died.
It's different, now. He's different. The galaxy's moved on, and he's a ghost, and he's scared. He doesn't know how to face you, doesn't know if he can. So when theyโ€™d made it out of Skako Minor and Rex had asked if he wanted to comm you, heโ€™d said no. And he's been saying no every time since.
A small voice inside his head, one that sounds a lot like Fives, tells him that's bullshit.
His brother would have called him out on his cowardice, and Echo thinks that's a fair assessment. But even though he misses you and wants nothing more than to hear your voice, it's better this way. It's better if you don't see him like this, if you never find out the truth. The thought of you seeing him, of you seeing what's left of the man you knew, is too much. He can't do that to you.
It's better if you never see him again. It's better if you have closure, if you've moved on and don't think about him anymore.
You deserve more. You deserve someone who hasn't lost as much as he has, someone who you won't have to worry about, someone who will be there for you.
Someone who can give you the life you want.
Echo knows he can't do that. And maybe if he says that enough times, he'll finally believe it.
โ€œWhy are you still here?โ€
The sound of Techโ€™s voice snaps him out of his thoughts. He turns and finds his brother watching him from the doorway, an expression of vague curiosity on his face, a soldering iron twirling absently in his hand.
Echo shrugs.
Tech gives a short, impatient huff.
"That is not an answer," he says, crossing his arms and looking pointedly at Echo.
"I was just..." He trails off. Just what? Just looking out the window and moping? He sighs. "Nevermind."
Tech steps into the cockpit, looking unconvinced. Echo can tell he has a question on the tip of his tongue, can see him considering his options. Tech is not the most tactful person in the galaxy, and Echo isn't really in the mood to hear his thoughts, not when they're bound to be blunt. But instead of asking, his brother simply takes his seat beside him and begins tinkering with the dashboard, checking the systems.
The two of them are quiet for a moment, the only sound the clinking of the tools. Then Tech pauses and looks at Echo.ย 
Echo fidgets under his brother's gaze. "What?"
Tech doesn't respond right away, taking a second to look Echo over. His eyes flicker around the cockpit, as if the gauges and switchboards will give him some kind of clue, before coming back to his brother.
"There is nothing wrong with the ship," he says.
"Okay," Echo says, confused. "So?"
"So," Tech continues, "there is no reason for you to be here. We are scheduled to remain docked until 600 hours, and you have the day off. You could be anywhere."
Echo rolls his eyes, a prickle of annoyance flaring in his chest. "Yeah, well, I'm here, aren't I?"
"Yes, you are," Tech agrees. There's a moment where he considers something, and then he speaks again, "If I may offer a suggestion?"
"Go for it," Echo grumbles, not bothering to look at him.
"Go for a walk."
"A walk?"
"Yes. Physical activity is proven to improve mood and mental health. And you could do with the fresh air."
Echo frowns. "What's that supposed to mean?"
"It means," Tech says, not even pausing in his work, "that you've been spending an inordinate amount of time locked away in here."
"I'm not locked away," Echo protests.
"No, I suppose not. But you have not been yourself since we arrived."
Echo doesn't have an answer for that.
"Go for a walk," Tech repeats, and this time he does stop and turn to Echo. He leans back in his chair and removes his goggles, letting them rest on his forehead, and the intensity in his gaze makes Echo squirm a bit.
"Where?"
Tech gestures towards the open space in front of them, the sprawling metropolis. "There are a number of options available, I'm sure. There are parks, shopping districts, museums, restaurants..." He ticks the ideas off on his fingers one by one, and then points back to Echo. "Perhaps you should find out for yourself."
Echo snorts. "Thanks, but no thanks."
"Why not?"
"Because I don't want to," he says, the words coming out more defensively than he intended. "I'd rather just stay here."
"Yes, I can see that," Tech says dryly, and Echo gets the distinct impression that his brother is making fun of him.
He scowls.
Tech is undeterred. "But I don't think that is what you actually want to do."
Echo's mouth opens to argue, but then closes it just as quickly. He's not sure what to say, not sure if he wants to say anything. Tech isn't wrong. He doesn't really want to stay on the ship, not truly. The idea of getting out and going somewhere is tempting, and if he's being honest with himself, the last thing he wants to do is sit here, stewing in his thoughts alone. Or worse, with Tech.
And he does need to stretch his legs.
He looks out the window again, taking in the sight of the planet before him. He's not sure what's going to happen once they get the signal for the next job, if they'll ever be back. He might never have this opportunity again.
He takes a breath.
"Fine," he says, throwing his hands up in the air. "You win."
Tech's lips twitch, a barely contained smile. "As I usually do."
Echo shakes his head, a grin playing on his lips. He starts to make his way towards the door, and stops beside his brother.
"Thanks," he says, placing a hand on Tech's shoulder.
"You are welcome," Tech nods. โ€œTry to be back by 0600 hours. If you are late, we will leave without you.
Echo snorts. "I wouldn't expect anything less."
He leaves Tech there and heads to the ramp. His steps slow as he reaches the bottom, but he forces himself forward, out into the bright sunlight and fresh air.
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Echo spends the next few hours wandering around Coruscant, letting his feet guide him.
He goes wherever the crowds take him, stopping at whatever catches his interest. It's nice, being able to let his mind go blank and not have to worry about where he's going. He doesn't have to think about anything, doesn't have to consider the consequences, or the risks.
He just exists.
And it feels good.
When he eventually decides to turn back, he's a bit surprised at how far he's come. He hadn't intended to venture so deep into the city, had just wanted a walk to clear his head. But the area he's found himself in is one he recognizes.
Your apartment is nearby.
Echo can feel his pulse start to quicken, his palm begins to sweat, and he stops in the middle of the walkway.
The sun has begun to set, and the crowds are thinning. Youโ€™ll be on your way home from work soon, if you werenโ€™t already. His brain helpfully supplies the route you would take, and his eyes flit up towards the skyline. He can't see your building, but he knows it's there, not far away.
The knowledge sits heavy in his chest.
No, he tells himself, shaking his head. I shouldn't.
He has no way of knowing if you're even home. For all he knows, you could be busy, out with friends or maybe on a date.
Don't, his mind warns him. She's moved on. You shouldn't.
He hasn't been to your apartment since the morning he left. The memory is a sharp one, a jagged knife cutting through the fog of his past. He remembers the way your bed had felt, the warmth of your body, the sound of your breathing as you slept tucked against him.
It had been so peaceful.
It had been so easy to leave.
His mind starts to replay those moments, the goodbye you had given him, and it's like a punch to the gut. He knows how much you care about him, knows that if you were to see him again, that wouldn't have changed. You wouldn't turn him away.
The night before, you talked for hours. Your conversation had been punctuated with kisses and caresses, laughter and confessions. You told him how much you wanted him to stay, how much you wished he didn't have to leave, how much you wished things could be different. You talked about what the future might hold for the two of you, and he remembers how that felt, how it made him believe, even for just a moment, that things would work out.
They didn't, of course.
But Echo is still here, and so are you, and he can't help but think that maybe, just maybe, the galaxy might be giving him a second chance.
He takes a deep breath.
There's no harm in taking a detour, he thinks.
He walks, following the familiar path, trying not to think too hard about what he's doing.
It doesn't take him long to reach the building. He hesitates in front of it, looking up at the facade. It looks just as it did the last time he was here. Same lobby, same doorman, same lift. They havenโ€™t even fixed the panel that's been sticking, and it takes a good deal of force for him to press the button for your floor.
The doors close, and he stares at his reflection, at the dark circles under his eyes, the scruff that has accumulated on his cheeks and chin, the lines that have appeared at the corners of his eyes and across his forehead. And then his gaze wanders to the ports and implants, the reminder of what was taken from him and what he was left with. He traces the outline of one with his thumb, remembering how he used to be.
He looks tired.
What are you doing? He asks himself.
He's not sure what he's expecting, doesn't have a plan for what will happen. All he knows is that he can't get the image of you out of his head. He imagines you coming home from work, and him being there, waiting. Would you be surprised? Happy? What would you say? What would he say?
Echo sighs.
He's an idiot.
The lift dings, and the doors slide open.
Your apartment is halfway down the hall, and Echo's stomach clenches with each step he takes. He reaches it and stands outside for a minute, running his fingers over the metal door, staring at the numbers painted on the surface.
It's just a door, he tells himself. Nothing special. Just a door.
His hand moves on its own, hovering over the bell. He waits, listens. There's no sound coming from inside, no music, no voices. Maybe you're not home yet.
Or maybe you're out. Maybe you're not alone.
He rings the bell and holds his breath, counting the seconds.
One. Two. Three. Four.
Nothing.
Echo rings again, this time holding the button down for a few extra seconds, listening for any sign of movement.
There's nothing.
The knot in his stomach tightens, and he releases the button, letting out the breath he'd been holding. He runs a hand over his face, feeling the heat of his skin through his glove. He's sweating.
Well, that's it, then.
He'd thought he was prepared for this possibility, but hearing the silence behind the door and knowing that you aren't home has shaken him more than he anticipated.
Maybe this is for the best, he thinks. It's better this way. Safer.
But the disappointment is palpable.
He's not sure what to do. He considers waiting a little longer, just to make sure, but the more he thinks about it, the more stupid it seems. He doesn't belong here anymore. He shouldn't be here, standing outside your door, hoping for something that won't happen.
He needs to go.
As Echo turns away from the door, a voice calls out behind him.
"Can I help you?"
For half a second, he's sure he imagined it, sure that it's just his brain playing tricks on him, taunting him. But then the voice speaks again.
"Are you looking for someone?"
Echo spins around, heart leaping into his throat, and there you are.
Standing there, a few paces away, is the woman he's been dreaming about, the one he's thought about every day, the one he's missed so much that it hurts.
Your hair is different, longer than he's ever seen it, pulled away from your face. You're wearing a dress, something he's only seen a handful of times, and your makeup is impeccable, but he can still see the hint of tiredness behind your eyes. He wonders how many hours you've put in at work this week, how much you've had to fight for your clients.
But the most noticeable change is that you're looking at him. Your datapad is held loosely in your hands, a bag of groceries on your hip, and youโ€™re staring at him, your brow furrowed in confusion.
He doesnโ€™t blame you.
This is a strange situation, and you must be wondering who the hell is standing in front of you, why they rang your bell and then walked away.
"Um," Echo says, suddenly aware that he hasn't spoken. He clears his throat, trying to gather his wits. He didn't think this through. "Hi."
You blink, clearly not expecting that response.
"Hi," you reply, warily.
Echo tries to say something, but the words won't come.
He's frozen in place, staring at you, unable to do anything except take in your appearance, drinking in the sight of you. He didn't realize how much he needed to see you until now, and the relief he feels is overwhelming.
"Do I..." You trail off, studying him carefully. "Do I know you?"
He feels his heart break, just a little.
You don't recognize him. Of course, you wouldn't. It's been so long, and he's not the same man you knew. His face is one of thousands, identical and interchangeable. He doesn't even look like a clone anymore, not really. He's more machine than man, now, and he has no idea how he expected you to see him.
"Yeah," he manages to say, his voice hoarse. "Yeah, you do."
You raise your eyebrows, waiting. When he doesn't say anything else, you take a step towards him, squinting a little. He can feel the tension in his body, can sense your scrutiny. It's not comfortable, but it's not unpleasant, either.
"Sorry," you say, sounding frustrated, "I can't quite โ€”"
You stop, your eyes widening, and Echo can see the exact moment it clicks.
"Oh," you gasp, covering your mouth with a shaking hand. The motion makes the paper bag of groceries on your arm start to slip, and Echo rushes forward to catch it, placing it on the floor by your feet. He stands up, and he can feel your eyes on him, can see the tears beginning to well up, can hear your breathing quicken.
He waits.
"Echo?" Your voice is soft, tentative, like you're not sure if he's real or not. Like he's some kind of ghost. He's not sure that's not what he is.
"Hey, cyar'ika," he says. His voice cracks, and he clears his throat again.
A small, incredulous laugh escapes you.
"Hi," you breathe. You cover your mouth again, trying to stifle the sob that rises from your chest. "I โ€”"ย 
You let out a shaky breath, and then another, and then all of a sudden, you're crying, tears streaming down your face. Your hands come up to wipe them away, but more keep falling, and Echo is overwhelmed with the desire to hold you, to take away the pain and the sadness, to make everything right. But he doesn't know if he's allowed, doesn't know if it would be welcome. So instead, he just stands there, helpless.
"I'm sorry," you hiccup, wiping your face with the back of your hand. "I can't believe it's you."
He smiles at that, his own eyes burning. "It's me," he confirms. "I'm here."
You're shaking your head, your eyes never leaving his face, as if you're afraid that he might disappear if you look away. He doesn't blame you, and he does his best to stay as still as possible. The last thing he wants is to scare you, or make you think he's going to leave. Not when he just got here.
"I thought..." You start, and then trail off.
"I know."
You swallow hard, taking a moment to compose yourself. "I thought you were dead."
Echo winces. He's heard those words from a lot of people, but coming from you, they hurt. "Yeah, I, uh... I thought so, too, for a while."
He sees the look of horror that crosses your face, the way your eyes grow wet again, and he wishes he hadn't said it.
"How... How long have you been back?" you ask. Your voice is quiet, strained, and Echo can hear the question underneath, the one you're afraid to ask. The one that makes his stomach twist into knots.
"Not long," he answers, trying to keep his tone even, light. "Only a couple months, really."
"Months?" you repeat, incredulous. "You've been back for months?"
Echo shifts uncomfortably and nods. "Yeah."
You stare at him, your mouth opening and closing as you search for words. "And... And you didn't comm me?"
"I, uh... No."
You let out a sharp exhale and turn away, bringing your hands to your face, and he can see that you're starting to shake again. You're silent for a moment, and he can feel his heart pounding, can feel the blood rushing in his ears. His stomach churns, and he feels like he's going to be sick.
"Why?" Your voice is tight, controlled. It's the same voice you use when you're working, the one you use to keep yourself calm, to keep yourself from getting angry.
"I just... I wasn't..." Echo trails off, not sure what to say. I wasn't sure if I was coming back? That's true, but not the whole truth. I wasn't sure you'd want to see me? Also true, but also not the full answer. I wasn't sure I was worth it? Yeah, that's the one.
But he can't say it.
He doesn't know if it's fear or guilt or shame, but whatever it is, it keeps the words stuck in his throat. You're waiting for an answer, and he's not sure he has one.
"Echo," you say, your voice a warning. You turn to face him again, and he can see the hurt and frustration in your eyes. He wants to hold you, wants to apologize, wants to take it all back. But he doesn't move. He can't.
"Why?" you repeat, more forcefully this time.
"I didn't want to bother you," he says. It's the best answer he can come up with, and the worst part is that it's also true. At least, that's what he tells himself.
But the moment the words leave his mouth, he knows it's the wrong thing to say. You stiffen, and then your jaw tightens. He can tell that you're barely holding it together, and he wants to say something, to explain, but he doesn't get the chance.
"You didn't want to bother me," you repeat, and Echo can hear the anger in your voice, can feel the sting of it. "I'm sorry, did I not make it clear how much I care about you?"
"No, you did," Echo says, backtracking, trying to placate you. "You did, I promise."
"Then please explain how you thought keeping me in the dark about the fact that the man I love was still alive and well was not a bother."
The word "love" hits him like a punch to the gut.
You love him. You still love him. You're still here, and you're still loving him, even after everything. He doesn't understand, doesn't know why. Doesn't know how. But he doesn't have time to think about it, not with the way you're looking at him, the hurt and confusion clear on your face.
"That's not what I meant," he says, his voice low, pleading. "It's not that. I promise."
You let out a shaky sigh, crossing your arms over your chest. "What's the difference, then?"
Echo opens his mouth, and then closes it again, not knowing what to say.
"I mourned you," you say. Your voice is soft, almost a whisper, but it sounds loud in the silence between the two of you. "I loved you, and I mourned you, and I was doing okay, and then you just show up, and act like it's no big deal, like I didn't spend weeks, months waiting for you to come back, hoping you'd come back, and..."
Your voice cracks, and a fresh wave of tears begins to roll down your cheeks. Echo reaches out to brush them away, and you flinch. The motion stings, but he doesn't say anything, doesn't push it. He lets his hand drop to his side.
"I'm sorry," he says. "I didn't... I didn't mean to hurt you."
"Yeah, well, you did," you say, sniffling.
The words hit him harder than he expects, and he feels his throat tighten.
"I didn't know what to say," he admits, his voice breaking. "I didn't know what to do."
"Why not?" you ask, and your anger has softened, turning into something else. "Did I do something wrong?"
"No!" Echo says quickly. "Of course not. You were perfect. You were... You were amazing."
You look at him, and there's a vulnerability in your eyes that makes him want to gather you in his arms and never let go. He thinks maybe he should. But before he can, you speak.
"So what happened?" you ask. Your voice is quiet, but Echo can hear the desperation, the need for an answer. "Where were you? Why didn't you come back?"
โ€œIโ€”โ€œ Echo looks around, suddenly aware of the hallway and the closed doors surrounding him, closing in on him. The space is too small, the walls are too close, the air is too thick. He feels trapped, like the world is closing in around him, and he takes a step back.
"Can we... Can we not do this out here?" he asks, trying not to let his voice betray his panic.
You study him for a moment, considering. He doesn't blame you. After all, he'd shown up out of the blue, and you had every right to be suspicious. You're still crying, but there's a steeliness in your gaze, and he can tell you're weighing your options, deciding if he's worth it or not. His heart hammers against his ribs as he waits, praying that you'll give him a chance.
Finally, you let out a sigh and nod.
"Yeah," you say, "sure."
You bend down to pick up the groceries, and Echo rushes forward, scooping them up before you can. You look at him, surprised.
"Let me help," he says. "Please."
You hesitate, and Echo can see the worry on your face, but then you nod, fumbling for the keypad. The lock clicks open, and you push the door open, motioning for him to go ahead.
He steps inside, and the familiar scent of your apartment hits him hard. He hadn't realized how much he'd missed it, how much he'd come to associate it with safety and comfort. It makes his chest ache, and he takes a moment to steady himself, willing the tears to stop.
Your apartment is the same, and yet so different.
It's still cozy, but there's a coldness to the air, a lack of warmth. The curtains are closed, and the room is dark, the only light coming from the dim bulb above the stove in the kitchen. There are dishes stacked in the sink, and a few pieces of dirty laundry have been discarded on the couch. The floor is littered with shoes and other miscellaneous items, as if someone came home and kicked everything off their feet, leaving it all in a pile. Echoโ€™s brow furrows at the mess, and he wonders when you started to let the place get this way.
"I'm sorry," you say, sounding embarrassed. You take the bag of groceries from him, your cheeks flushed. "I wasn't expecting company."
"Don't worry about it," he assures you.
"Here, let me..." You trail off, disappearing down the hall, and a moment later, he hears a door slam shut.
Echo stands there, unsure of what to do. His gaze wanders around the room, taking everything in, trying to find something to occupy himself with. It feels like years since he's been here, and the sensation is both comforting and strange. He remembers the nights he spent curled up next to you on the couch, the quiet mornings in the kitchen, the lazy afternoons spent in bed.
He shakes his head, trying to focus on the present.
You're back now, and he needs to concentrate.
He takes a seat at the kitchen table, drumming his fingers against the wood.
It's quiet, but Echo can hear you moving around, and he wonders if you're trying to clean up, trying to make the place a little more presentable. He doesn't care about any of that. He cares about you.
And he doesn't know what to say.
He runs his hand over his face, pressing the heel of his palm into his eye, trying to think. He's rehearsed this moment in his head, has imagined all the different ways it could go.
And now that it's actually happening, he can't remember a single one.
He's such an idiot.
The minutes pass, and you finally return. He hears you enter the room, the soft sound of your footsteps, but he can't bring himself to look up. Not yet.
"Echo," you say, and he can hear the hesitation in your voice. "What happened?"
"I don't know where to start," he confesses, dropping his hand and glancing up at you.
You've changed into something more comfortable, a pair of sweatpants and your favorite sweater, and your face is scrubbed clean, makeup-free. It's nice to see you this way, a reminder of the times you shared together, and the sight makes him smile.
"Why are you smiling?"
"Nothing, it's just..." He pauses, his eyes wandering over you. "I forgot how you looked in sweatpants."
You roll your eyes, but there's a hint of amusement on your face. "Seriously? You're sitting here, after being missing for months, and you're making fun of my fashion choices?"
"I'm not making fun of you," he says, chuckling. The pressure in his chest eases slightly, and he takes a breath. "I just meant that I missed seeing you this way."
You let out a quiet, disbelieving laugh, and then shake your head.
"You're unbelievable," you mutter.
Echo smiles, and for a moment, he feels normal. As if the last year never happened, and this was just a day like any other. As if he'd just come home from a mission, and you'd greet him with a kiss, and everything would be fine.
But then you sigh, and the moment is over.
"Look, I get that this is... Well, I'm sure this isn't what you were expecting," you say. You move to sit across from him, leaning your elbows on the table and resting your chin in your hands. "But we can't keep pretending like nothing happened. You have to talk to me."
Echo stares at you, his eyes taking in the familiar lines of your face, the curve of your lips, the color of your eyes. They arenโ€™t as bright as he remembered, not as full of life, and the realization breaks his heart. This isn't how it's supposed to be.
"Okay," he begins, clearing his throat. "So, uh, this is going to be a lot."
"That's okay," you say gently. You give him a reassuring nod, and Echo feels a swell of gratitude for you. "Just... Start at the beginning, and we'll go from there."
"Right, the beginning." Echo nods, trying to organize his thoughts, and then he starts to speak.
He tells you everything, from the moment the explosion happened, to the moment he woke up and found himself in Rex's arms, everything in between. He tells you about his injuries, the surgeries, the physical therapy. He tells you about his time with the Batch, his newfound abilities, the things he's been able to do, the things he's learned. He talks about the missions, the jobs, the danger they've faced, and the risks they've taken. He tells you about the planets, the people, the experiences. He tries to leave nothing out, even the hard parts. The loss, the pain, the fear. He doesn't want to spare you any of it.
You sit there and listen, asking questions when necessary, but mostly staying silent. And when he's done, he sits there, feeling a strange sense of relief. He hadn't realized how much he needed to talk about everything, how much he'd been holding in. And he hadn't realized how good it would feel to tell you. To have someone who cared, someone he trusted, who knew him better than anyone.
When the words run out, and the room is silent, you let out a long, slow exhale. You sit there, your hands folded together, your gaze fixed on the tabletop, and Echo waits, not sure what to expect. But the longer the silence drags on, the more worried he gets.
"Cyar'ika?" he asks, his voice hesitant.
You take a breath and look up at him, and Echo is startled to see that your eyes are glassy, and there are fresh tear tracks running down your cheeks.
"Sorry," you apologize, wiping at them with your sleeve. "I'm not โ€” I just..."
You take another breath, and then let it out, composing yourself. "Thank you," you say. "For telling me. I know that can't have been easy."
"It wasn't," Echo admits, and his throat tightens a little. "But I'm glad I did."
You offer him a small smile, but it doesnโ€™t reach your eyes. You look like youโ€™re far away, lost in your own thoughts, and Echo has a feeling you're not fully present, not in the moment. And he doesn't blame you. His words can't have been easy to hear.
"Is there anything else you want to know?" he asks, trying to break the silence.
You glance at him, your eyes focusing, and then look away, your jaw clenching. Echo can see the emotion on your face, can tell that you're struggling to stay calm, to hold it together. You've always been good at that, he thinks.
"I just..." You pause, taking a shaky breath, and Echo can see the tears forming in your eyes again. "I just don't understand."
He frowns, confused. "What do you mean?"
You close your eyes, taking a moment to collect yourself. Then, you stand up and begin pacing around the kitchen, your hands clasped behind your back. You move slowly, deliberately, your gaze fixed on the floor, like you're trying to make sense of something, figure something out.ย 
Echo watches you, feeling uneasy. You're not giving anything away, and the silence is starting to get to him. He's never seen you in the courtroom, but he imagines this is the stance you take when you're interrogating a witness.ย 
It's effective.
"Can you say something, please?" he asks. He knows he sounds desperate, but he doesn't care.
"I'm thinking," you say, and Echo bites his lip.
He feels like he's going to crawl out of his skin. He wants to get up, to follow you around the room, try to coax a response out of you. He wants to make this better, to make this right. But he knows that pushing you won't help, so he stays seated, trying to keep his patience.
ย You continue to pace, your expression blank, and the seconds tick by, the only sound the muffled noises of the city outside. It feels like an eternity has passed when you finally stop, standing in front of him, your arms crossed.
"I can't believe you thought I wouldn't want to see you," you say. Your voice is low, almost a whisper, and there's an edge to it that Echo doesn't recognize. It's not anger, not exactly. It's something else, something deeper.
"I know," he replies, his voice just as quiet.
"I thought you were dead," you say, the words coming out in a rush. "I grieved you. I mourned you. And then you show up, and you're... You're alive, and you're here, and you think the best thing to do is to leave me alone?"
"I didn't know what would happen," Echo explains, trying to keep his tone calm. "I wasn't sure if I was coming back, and I didn't want to โ€”"
"No," you say sharply, cutting him off. "That's not an excuse. That's bullshit, and you know it."
Echo swallows, and nods, not sure what to say.
"We made promises," you continue, and Echo can hear the anger in your voice, can see the frustration on your face. "To each other. We talked about our future, we said things that... We made things that were real, and then you just decided it was too much, and you walked away. What the hell is that?"
"I'm sorry," Echo says around the lump forming in his throat. "I shouldn't have โ€”"
"No," you interrupt, your eyes burning. "You shouldn't have."
Echo looks at you, and he feels like he's going to shatter. Youโ€™re staring at him with such intensity, and there's an anger in your gaze that he hasn't seen before. It's so different from the gentle look you usually give him, and it makes him ache.
"I didn't mean to hurt you," he says. "I swear, I didn't."
"Then why did you?" you ask, and there's a note of pleading in your voice. โ€œI spent so long wondering, worrying, and you just... You didn't care."
"Of course I did," he argues. "It wasn't about that."
"Then what was it about, Echo?" you demand. "What was so important that you thought you couldn't tell me? That you couldn't comm me, or send a message, or do anything that would have let me know you were alive? That would have told me you were okay?"
"I didn't think โ€”"
"What, that I'd care? That I'd worry? That I'd miss you? That I'd wonder where you were, and if you were okay, and what the hell happened to you?" you say, your voice rising.
Echo can feel the frustration building inside him, and he knows he shouldn't respond, knows that getting angry won't help, but the words tumble out before he can stop them. "I'm sorry," he snaps. "I wasn't exactly thinking clearly."
"That's not an excuse," you snap back, and Echo blinks, shocked. You're the most level-headed person he's ever met, and he's never heard you yell before.
"Yeah, well, it's the best one I've got," he says.
"Echo, I loved you," you say, and the past tense stings. "When Fives told me what happened to you, I โ€”" Your voice catches, and the fight goes out of him. He can see the pain on your face, the hurt in your eyes, and he can't help but feel responsible. "I can't even describe it. It felt like my whole world was ending. And I donโ€™t blame you for doing your duty, but I do blame you for not coming back to me."
"I know," he whispers. "I'm sorry. I really am."
You shake your head, turning away from him. "Why didn't you comm me?"
Echo hesitates. He doesn't want to admit his fears, his worries, the insecurities that have plagued him. He doesn't want to tell you how much he doubted, how much he doubted you. It feels too vulnerable, too raw. And it would only make you feel worse. But the longer the silence stretches, the more you deserve the truth. And he can't avoid it forever.
"I didn't think I was worth it," he says, his voice low. He can feel the heat in his cheeks, the sting of embarrassment. He can't look at you, doesn't want to see the pity, the disappointment, the anger. "I didn't think I was worth it."
You turn to face him, your expression softening.
"You were all I had left," he says. He feels exposed, and it's not a comfortable feeling, but he can't stop now. Not with the way you're looking at him. Not when he's so close to fixing this, to getting you back. "After everything that happened, I just... I couldn't bring myself to do it. I didn't think you'd want to see me."
"You really thought I'd just leave you?"
Echo can hear the hurt in your voice, and he's surprised at the sharpness of it. He expected to be met with some amount of anger, but he didn't expect it to cut so deep. He didn't think his insecurities would upset you so much. He's used to it, by now. After everything he's been through, the doubts and worries have become a constant, an almost comforting presence. But you were never supposed to know about them.
"It's not that," he says. "I know you wouldn't have left me. It's just... I didn't want to drag you down with me."
"That's stupid," you reply. There's no malice in your voice, but there's no sympathy, either. "What makes you think I couldn't handle it?"
"It's not about what you could handle," Echo says. "You didn't sign up for this. You didn't sign up for any of it."
"I signed up for you," you argue, and Echo is startled by the fierceness of your tone.
"And look at what that got you."
You fall silent, and Echo regrets the words the second they leave his mouth. He's always known he wasn't good enough for you, but it's different to actually say it out loud. It makes it real. And he's not sure he's ready for that. But you're looking at him like you can't believe he said it, and the disappointment in your eyes makes him feel even worse.ย 
Your eyes rove over him, taking in the scarring, the metal implants, the ports and wires, the armor. You look like youโ€™re seeing him for the first time, and the disgust and fear heโ€™d thought might appear are nowhere to be found, just a profound sense of sadness and resignation.
"Oh, Echo," you breathe. The words are quiet, but they feel like a slap, and he has to look away, not wanting to meet your gaze.
"I'm not the man you knew," he says. He sounds defeated, even to his own ears. His eyes are burning, and he has to fight to keep the tears from falling. He hates how weak he feels, how small, how vulnerable. "I can't be. I'm... I'm not him anymore."
"Yes, you are," you insist. You reach out and take his hand, squeezing gently, and the sensation makes him jump. He'd almost forgotten how warm you are, how soft. How safe. He wants to hold on, to pull you close, to never let go. "You're still the same man, the same Echo, I just..."
"What?" he asks, when you trail off. "You just what?"
You sigh, dropping his hand and running your fingers through your hair, tugging lightly. The familiar gesture makes him ache. "I don't know, Echo," you admit. "I'm... I'm sad. And I'm angry. But I'm mostly just... Confused."
"Confused about what?"
"I'm confused as to why you didn't come back to me," you say. "I'm confused as to why you thought I'd want anything else."
"I thought you deserved better," he says, the words sounding hollow, even to his own ears. "I thought you deserved someone who was whole, who could give you a normal life, who didn't have a hundred years of baggage and trauma to deal with. And I was terrified that you already had that."
"Had what?"
"A normal life," he answers. "Without me. And the more I thought about it, the more I convinced myself it was true."
"It's not," you say. Your voice is quiet, but firm, and Echo looks at you, searching for any trace of doubt, of hesitation, of insincerity. But all he finds is determination, and it makes his heart clench. The intensity in your gaze is too much, and he has to look away. His eyes trail over the walls, the ceiling, the floor, lingering on the groceries on the table, the dishes in the sink, the empty bottles of wine shoved into the trash, the pile of laundry on the couch. Thereโ€™s a dent in the wall that wasn't there the last time he was here, and the carpet is worn. He wonders when that happened.
He feels a tug on his arm, and then you're reaching up to cup his face, your hands soft and warm. You turn his head to face you, your thumb stroking his cheek. The touch is gentle, comforting, and Echo can't stop the sigh that escapes him. It's been so long since someone touched him like this, and it's nice. It's more than nice. It's familiar. It's safe. It's home.
"I only wanted you," you whisper.
"Even after everything?" he asks. He doesn't mean to sound so incredulous, but he can't help it. He's spent so long convincing himself that you were better off without him, and now, hearing you say the opposite, hearing you say the words he'd only ever hoped for, the ones he'd tried to convince himself were true... It's a lot to take in.
"Even after everything," you affirm.
"You could have had anyone," he says. "Why me?"
"Because I love you," you answer, as if it's the simplest thing in the galaxy. As if it's the most obvious thing in the universe. "And I don't want anyone else."
"Cyar'ika..." His voice cracks, and the tears are falling freely now. You wipe them away, and the touch makes his chest ache.
"I've never stopped loving you, Echo," you say. Your voice is barely audible, but Echo hears it. And it's the best sound he's ever heard. "And I don't plan on stopping now."
"I'm sorry," he says. "I'm sorry I left you, and I'm sorry I didn't comm you, and I'm sorry I was such a coward, and I'm โ€”"
"Shh," you murmur, cutting him off. "I forgive you."
Echo can't speak. He's not sure he can move, can't even breathe. The relief is overwhelming, and it threatens to knock him off his feet. His chest tightens, and the tears won't stop falling, and he doesn't know what to do. He's missed you so much, has regretted leaving every single day, and now that you're here, now that he has you back, he can't find the words to express how grateful he is, how relieved, how happy.
"You really thought I was going to leave you?" you ask, and Echo can hear the note of humor in your voice, can see the ghost of a smile on your face. It's reassuring, and he lets himself smile, too.
"Honestly? Yes," he admits.
"Never," you reply.
Echo leans down and rests his forehead against yours, closing his eyes and breathing deeply. You move your hands down his face, brushing the tears away with your thumbs, before bringing them around his neck, wrapping your arms around him. He moves to do the same, pulling you closer and wrapping his arms around your waist. You let out a quiet gasp of surprise, and Echo chuckles, holding you tighter.
"I missed you," he whispers, and it feels good to say the words out loud. "So much."
"I missed you, too," you say, your breath warm against his neck. You tilt your head and press a kiss against his throat, and Echo feels his heart stutter. "More than I can say."
Echo hums and pulls away, bringing his hand up to brush the hair away from your face. Your skin is warm, and soft, and he leans in and presses a kiss against your forehead, savoring the contact. You sigh, and he can't resist the urge to kiss you again, this time on the cheek.
"Echo," you murmur, letting out a shaky breath.
He kisses the corner of your mouth, and then your jaw, and your grip on his neck tightens, your fingers digging into the fabric of his blacks. He moves down your throat, trailing kisses along the column of your neck, and you gasp.
"I missed you, too," he murmurs, and you laugh.
"Yeah, I got that," you say. "Now, will you please kiss me?"
Echo smiles and obliges.
The kiss is soft and sweet, and it tastes like home. He cups the back of your neck, his scomp moving to rest on your hip, and you let out a pleased noise, your hands sliding down to his shoulders. The warmth of your mouth, the way your lips part, the little gasps and sighs you make, it all makes him want to get closer, to be nearer.
You break the kiss, and Echo lets out a quiet whimper. You chuckle and rest your head on his shoulder, and Echo brings his hand up to stroke your hair, his fingers combing through the strands. You sigh and lean into his touch, and he can't help the contented smile that spreads across his face.
"I'm glad you're here," you murmur. "I'm glad you came back."
"Me, too," he says. He tilts your head up and presses a kiss to your temple, his lips lingering. You close your eyes and nuzzle his neck, and Echo sighs, holding you close. It feels so good to have you in his arms again, to be able to hold you, and he wishes he could stay here forever. But the reality of the situation catches up with him, and he can't help the wave of guilt that washes over him.
"I'm sorry, Cyar'ika," he says.
You frown, and pull away slightly. "What are you apologizing for?"
"I didn't think this through," he admits. "I... I didn't know what was going to happen, and now..." He pauses, letting out a frustrated sigh. "I just... I'm sorry. Iโ€™m leaving soon, and I know it's going to be hard, and I know you're going to have to say goodbye again, and I'm โ€”"
"Echo," you interrupt, and your voice is firm. You put your hand on his chest, and he can feel the heat of it, even through the layers of armor and clothing. "I know what I signed up for. I'm not expecting anything different."
"But โ€”"
"No," you cut him off. "No buts. I knew what this was, Echo. And I still want it."
"But you shouldn't have to," Echo argues. "I don't want to put you through that."
"Well, it's a little late for that," you reply. Your tone is sharp, and Echo winces. "Look, Echo. I know the situation isn't ideal, but I'm not going to walk away because it's hard. And I'm not going to stop caring just because it hurts." You look at him, and the determination in your gaze makes his heart skip a beat. "You're worth it, okay? No matter what."
"Cyar'ika โ€”"
"No," you say, shaking your head. "You're not changing my mind. You can try, but it's not going to work. So don't waste your time." You give him a stern look, and then your face softens. "Okay?"
"Okay," Echo agrees. He knows it's futile to argue. He's never been able to say no to you. Not when it matters. "I'm still sorry, though."
You roll your eyes, and then stand on your toes and give him a quick kiss. "You're lucky I love you," you say, and the words make him feel lighter.
"Yeah, I am," he agrees, grinning.
"So, what now?" you ask.
Echo shrugs, suddenly feeling overwhelmed. He's been so focused on finding you, on convincing you to forgive him, on making things right, that he hasn't thought about what comes next. The prospect of it is both exhilarating and terrifying, and he doesn't know where to start. There's so much to do, and so little time. And he doesn't want to waste another second.
"Do you want to stay?" you offer.
"Stay?"
"Here," you clarify. "For a while. I don't know how long you can, but..." You pause, a flush spreading across your cheeks. โ€œI was going to make dinner. If you wanted to stay."
"Dinner?" Echo repeats, and he can't hide the excitement in his voice. The idea of a home-cooked meal is so far removed from his life now, so distant, that the thought of it almost makes him lightheaded. "Really?"
You laugh, and the sound fills him with warmth. "Yes, Echo. Really."
"What are you making?" he asks. The question sounds childish, and he can't believe how eager he is, how excited.
"Just a simple dish," you say. You move towards the counter and begin putting the groceries away, and Echo follows you, a smile spreading across his face. While you tell him about the recipe, he moves toward your sink, picking up a dish and turning the water on. You look over at him, and the fondness in your eyes makes him blush. "You don't have to do that, Echo."
"I know," he replies. "I want to."
"Well, alright then."
The two of you work together, talking and laughing as you wash the dishes and prepare the food. Echo feels lighter than he has in months, and it's a relief to be here with you, to have something normal and familiar to do. Something so domestic, so ordinary, and yet, so special.
He wants to remember this.
When the food is ready, you gesture to the table, and Echo takes a seat. You sit across from him, and for a moment, the two of you just look at each other. He's missed you, missed this. Missed being here, missed having someone who knew him, someone he could trust. Someone he could love.
You're both quiet, and Echo can see the wheels turning in your head, can see the way your eyes dart over him, taking everything in. You're cataloging, committing him to memory too. The realization hits him, and his chest tightens. He'll be leaving soon, and you're doing what you can to make sure you won't forget him. It's a sobering thought, and he's not sure how to handle it.
"Hey," you say, and Echo looks up, meeting your gaze. "It's okay. We'll be fine."
"How did you know?" he asks, startled.
You shrug. "It's written all over your face."
"I'm sorry," he murmurs. "I wish I could stay."
"It's okay," you repeat. โ€œWe have the night, and thatโ€™s more than enough. For now, let's just enjoy the time we have."
Echo nods.
You're right.
You always are.
You smile, and it's so beautiful, so genuine, that it takes his breath away. You reach across the table and take his hand, giving it a gentle squeeze. He squeezes back, and you lean forward, resting your elbows on the table and putting your chin in your hand. The way you're looking at him, the affection in your eyes, it makes him feel like he's the only thing that matters, like heโ€™s home.
And, right now, he is.
He's missed this.
He's missed you.
And as the two of you sit there, enjoying each other's company, Echo knows he's made the right choice. He knows that coming back was worth it, that finding you, fixing things, making things right, it's all been worth it. And he knows that, no matter what, he'll be back.
He'll find his way back to you.
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Play with my heart (Epilogue)
[ modern actors โ€ข Aemond x Strong โ€ข female ]
[ warnings: semi-public sex, smut, angst, fluff, sexual tension, little domination & praise kink ]
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[ description: He gets the main role in a series about a great family and dragons, which could change his career. He is set to play the uncle and love interest of his childhood friend. When he meets the actress who plays her role, he begins to lose track of what is an acting and what is his real feelings. Sexual tension, grumpy, withdrawn, thirsty Aemond.ย ]
Authorโ€™s note:ย Yeah. I talked about it and I did it. You don't even know how much fun I had doing this. Of course, my characters play in a series whose script is an exact copy of my story The Fall from the Heavens. In this universe, Aemond (playing the One-Eyed Prince) and Rhaenys (playing the Princess) are of course not related โ€“ the other characters are also just actors. This three-part series is my gift to all fans of the original series, thank you so much for your support. "Rhaenys" in this story is her artistic pseudonym which she use instead of her real name. You can read this as a standalone story.
* English is not my first language. Please, do not repost. Enjoy! *
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The first months after the shooting were both wonderful and terrifying for him. Contrary to his grandfather's predictions, he did not stop thinking about her; moreover, he missed her so much that he did not know what to do with himself.
He got used to their daily conversations, the embrace of her warm arms, falling asleep between her soft breasts, watching Disney movies together with her with a big bowl of popcorn.
She brought a breath of fresh air into his life, a smile, lightness and laughter, forcing him to let his inner child that he had always suppressed within him come to the surface.
With her, he was not ashamed to be weak, tired, sad, discouraged. She gave him the comfort of knowing that all his feelings as a human being were natural and desired by her, no matter how ashamed he might be of them.
They tried to see each other every two weekends, taking turns visiting each other. Although he wanted to spend time with her walking around museums and parks, they usually ended up staying in bed all the time off, trying to make up for lost time.
They also saw each other at interviews to promote the series, for which the producers sent the actors in pairs, and unfortunately, although they tried to hide it, a few gestures and glances during them caused both her and him to be flooded with a wave of comments from fans so large that they had to block them from being added to their profiles.
Nooo, they're not a good match. ๐Ÿ˜ซ
It's just a promotional trick. They're going to break up after they finish airing the series. ๐Ÿ˜’
Leave my prince alone!!! ๐Ÿคฌ๐Ÿคฌ๐Ÿคฌ
I'd love to fuck her myself, not gonna lie ๐Ÿ‘€
It's already clear where the chemistry between them comes from, lol. Pathetic. ๐Ÿคฎ
Both of them were very much affected by the nasty comments and criticism, fearing that the production would draw some consequences against them, but it turned out that this made the whole project generate even more interest before the premiere, which pleased them.
However, in between the nasty, bitter remarks, they also received messages filled with good emotions, wishing them luck, saying that they were great to watch, that they complemented each other perfectly in interviews, that it was clear from the trailers that there was genuine affection between them.
They tried to cope with it all by talking for hours on the phone, sometimes crying together from sadness and exhaustion, falling asleep with speakerphone on, waking up in the morning and seeing that they hadn't hung up all night.
He felt he was ready to move on and thought everything through, at the same time wanting to surprise her.
"โ€“ how was your audition? โ€“" She asked softly, excitement in her voice.
"โ€“ unfortunately, not very successful โ€“" He lied, fiddling with his pen between his fingers, sitting at his desk, having just exchanged emails with the director of her theatre, with whom he had spoken personally a few days before about the terms of his future employment.
"โ€“ oh no โ€“ I'm very sorry โ€“ how are you feeling? โ€“" She asked clearly worried, making him feel remorseful for a moment that she would believe he was suffering.
"โ€“ fine โ€“ I wasn't feeling that role โ€“ I'm lucky that I can be more choosy now โ€“ and how are you, little one? โ€“" He hummed, writing back in an email that, as agreed, he would turn up in three days to sign the contract in their town.
His girlfriend grunted, clearly very excited by the news she had to share with him.
"โ€“ apparently they've hired a new actor in our theatre, but no one knows who it is โ€“ the director is very mysterious โ€“" She said, her voice light and warm, filled with joy.
"โ€“ mmm โ€“ are you excited to have a new colleague on stage? โ€“" He murmured as he sent the email, closing his laptop with a quiet click.
He heard her laugh at his words.
"โ€“ not in the way you suggest โ€“" She said.
"โ€“ are you a good girl when I'm not around? โ€“" He hummed, licking his lips involuntarily, feeling the pulsation in his trousers at his words.
"โ€“ well โ€“"
"โ€“ are you touching yourself? โ€“"
"โ€“ I โ€“"
"โ€“ answer me โ€“ don't lie โ€“"
She was silent for a long moment making him grin, biting his lower lip.
"โ€“ so you haven't been a good girl, or am I wrong? โ€“" He sneered and heard her swallow hard.
"โ€“ you know what happens to bad girls, don't you? โ€“" He asked, looking at the display of his screen, feeling his heart pounding fast.
"โ€“ but โ€“" She finally mumbled out in embarrassment.
"โ€“ mmm โ€“ I'll see you soon โ€“" He murmured and hung up, knowing that he had left her in complete shock for sure with her panties wet with her moisture.
The third thing he enjoyed most right after fucking her and talking to her was teasing her.
The next day the removal van took his things to the flat he had rented on short notice figuring they would find something together later, and after two days he drove to her town straight to the theatre building.
He went inside through the main entrance and ran quickly upstairs, praying not to meet her on the way, heading for her director's office. The man welcomed him warmly, saying that he was very happy that an actor with such charisma would be performing on his stage.
From the audience it was impossible to see whether his eye was real or fake, and his scar could be covered up with make-up if necessary.
His grandfather was furious, saying that he was giving up a world-class career for second-rate theatre, but he was relieved.
He didn't want to go through again what he was going through now โ€“ being torn apart by paparazzi and fans, being in the spotlight all the time.
He was tired of it and decided that, although it was a great adventure, like her he wanted to work in theatre, where artistic sense, monologues and dialogues counted more than nudity and sex.
It was what he wanted for both of them.
The director said it was time to introduce him to the whole crew.
"โ€“ I kept it a secret from everyone so that she wouldn't accidentally find out about anything โ€“" The director laughed, a short, grey-haired man with a warm voice and a good-natured face, a visionary and a lover of the classic literature he was staging in his theatre.
"โ€“ I can see you with the eyes of my imagination in the roles of Hamlet and Ophelia โ€“ you've been wonderfully matched, I have to give you that โ€“" He said softly, and he nodded, thinking in the back of his mind that indeed, this was a fantastic idea.
He felt excited like a little child and thought in the back of his mind that it was because of her, that she had changed him, making him fight for his fulfilment, his comfort, his joy.
"โ€“ my dears โ€“" He called out, stepping onto the stage during their rehearsal for The Wedding of Wyspianski, his Rhaenys dressed in Slavic folk costume and a garland on her head turned towards them along with several other people.
Her eyes grew big in disbelief at the sight of him.
"โ€“ I would like to introduce you to your new colleague, who from now on will be playing on the stage of our theatre โ€“ I am very pleased โ€“"
Everyone looked at her and she just stood there, looking at him and his grin full of satisfaction, breathing loudly through her mouth, her bright eyes hot with affection, disbelief and happiness that apparently shook her body.
Several people laughed as she threw herself into his arms and burst into a loud, panicked sob, whooping and panting with her own tears, his broad hands stroking her hair and back while his lips placed warm, reassuring kisses on her face hot with emotion.
"โ€“ shhh โ€“ it's okay, little one โ€“"
She looked at him in disbelief, gushing with energy and joy as she introduced everyone to him one by one. He was relieved by the warm welcome given to him by the other actors, some of whom could have been his parents or even grandparents.
They seemed very close to each other and addressed each other warmly.
He was allowed to stay in rehearsal to see how they worked, so he watched as his girlfriend played a young bride, a village girl marrying a nobleman, during whose wedding many unexplained, mysterious events occur.
He smiled the whole time, watching her, satisfied that apart from one brief kiss there was no intimacy on stage between her and her partner, exactly as she had described it to him in their telephone conversations.
When it was all over she ran up to him in her folk costume, all hot, breathing loudly through her mouth, field flowers entwined together on her head.
"โ€“ what do you think?! โ€“" She asked, and he hummed under his breath.
"โ€“ I really like your staging โ€“ I need to read this drama โ€“ you look amazing โ€“" He hummed. He smiled under his breath as she sat on his lap โ€“ the seats in the audience were sunk in darkness so the people on stage couldn't see very well what they were doing.
"โ€“ I can't believe it โ€“ you've been lying all this time โ€“" She muttered simultaneously embittered and delighted. He shook his head at her words.
"โ€“ I told you I had an audition โ€“ I just didn't say where โ€“" He stated.
"โ€“ you said you did badly โ€“" She said, wrinkling her eyebrows โ€“ she squealed as he caught her around the waist and pulled her closer, making her feel the hard bulge in his trousers.
"โ€“ that was my subjective assessment which was clearly not shared by your director โ€“" He grinned, looking at her with his lips slightly parted. They both sighed as her hips rubbed against his pulsing erection, her gaze hot and misty.
"โ€“ my little girl can't stand it? โ€“ shall I take you to the toilet? โ€“" He sneered and she swallowed hard, red with embarrassment and nodded.
Nothing more than panting and moans left their throats as they locked themselves in one of the cabins, their mouths immediately clinging to each other in greedy, loud, messy, sticky kisses. Their saliva clicked each time their lips pulled away from each other, his hands pulled up the material of her skirt and petticoat, pulling her panties off her thighs.
"โ€“ turn your back to me โ€“" He commanded, and she did so without a word of objection, in a natural reflex leaning over and bucking her buttocks towards him, knowing what he wanted to do. His hands exposed her bare hips to him and what was between them, her opening glistening from her wetness, pink and swollen.
He hit her womanhood with a sharp, short slap and she jumped up with a quiet squeal and whimpered.
"โ€“ quiet โ€“ I warned you โ€“ I said: no touching โ€“ didn't I? โ€“" He asked, gently rubbing and massaging the little spot that pulsed all over and leaked from his stroke, teasing the puffy bud between her plushy folds.
"โ€“ 'm sorry โ€“ I tried โ€“" She confessed with embarrassment, panting heavily, rolling her hips to the rhythm of the strokes of his hand, trying to find a better source of squeeze.
"โ€“ the deal was different โ€“" He said coolly, parting and rubbing her throbbing, dripping wet slit, her cheek pressed against the wall all red with pleasure, her lips parted in a helpless moan.
"โ€“ it's all mine โ€“ the sight of your fulfilment, your moisture, your little cunt is meant for my eyes โ€“" He continued, as if he was explaining to her some essential, eternal principle, something obvious and logical that she could not change. She trembled as two of his fingers slipped between her slick, throbbing walls, stretching her core.
"โ€“ yes โ€“ I'm sorry โ€“ I missed you so much โ€“" She mumbled, rocking her hips to the rhythm of the thrusts of his fingers, which teased and pressed the spongy bud between her fleshy folds deep inside her, from which a trickle of her moisture ran down her thigh.
"โ€“ mmm โ€“ I know, baby โ€“ I missed you too โ€“" He confessed, recognising that although he wanted to, he couldn't last much longer. This sight and the euphoria that gripped his body made him let go of her as his hands slid down to the belt of his trousers, undoing it โ€“ her eyes opened in hope, her breath accelerated and uneven.
"โ€“ please โ€“" She muttered.
"โ€“ shhh โ€“" He hushed her, grabbing her by the waist, the other releasing his throbbing, fat erection, the tip of which he guided to her leaking, swollen slit.
"โ€“ thaat's it โ€“ there you go โ€“ fuck โ€“" He exhaled, slowly forcing his way between her hot, fleshy walls, clenching greedily around his cock, sucking it inside her.
"โ€“ yes โ€“ yes, God, please, yes โ€“" She mewled, immediately beginning to roll her hips to the rhythm of his impatient, fierce thrusts, fitting his pulsing erection inside her again and again, though they tried to restrain themselves, their panting and moans echoed around the restroom.
"โ€“ Rhaenys โ€“" He muttered, sinking his face into her fragrant, hot neck, her scent wonderfully familiar, her insides moist and warm, welcoming him with ease. He thought about it, thrusting into her with slick, sharp stabs โ€“ how deep he was in her body, how much they united in this chaotic, viscous act of desire.
"โ€“ Aemond โ€“ o-oh, fuck, fuck, oh, God โ€“" She cried out as he imposed a fast, aggressive pace on her, pounding into her with the deep, sharp pushes of his hips, opening her wide with his manhood throbbing painfully with longing.
"โ€“ shhh โ€“ shhh, little one โ€“ just a little more โ€“ yes, that's my girl โ€“" He praised her, panting heavily as he felt her reach the edge, her breath heavy and loud.
Nothing more than moans and grunts left her lips, her little cunt gave him a few more thirsty, steady squeezes before she shuddered with sweet fulfilment, her wetness running down his thighs as with the last, loud slaps he reached his peak inside her with a sigh of delight.
Since she was taking the pills, he could fuck her whenever and wherever he wanted.
"โ€“ fuck โ€“" He breathed out, embracing her tightly from behind, while still rocking his hips inside her and hugging her like a little, longing child.
He wished she would say that they were going to watch some new cartoon or comedy in the evening, that they were going to lie in their sweatpants, spread out comfortably on her bed, cuddled up, eating popcorn, kissing and caressing each other.
"โ€“ m-maybe โ€“ maybe let's go to my place โ€“ we'll watch something and relax โ€“ I can cook you something, but we need to do some shopping โ€“" She whispered, stroking his arm, and he purred, delighted by her words.
"โ€“ yes โ€“ yes, that's what I need โ€“"
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because of you โ€ข epilogue
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PART I โ€ข PART II โ€ข PART III โ€ข PART IV โ€ข PART V โ€ขย EPILOGUE โ an enemies to lovers fic with Steve? ๐Ÿ’™ maybe they have to put aside their differences to fight upside down stuff and realize they actually have a lot in common ๐Ÿ‘€ โ€ข 18+ | ( 1k โ€“ a little bit of king!steve, mostly angst with a dash of fluff, enemies to idiots in love, steve x reader )
B E C A U S E O F Y O U โ€ข E P I L O G U E ๐ŸŽถย believer โ€“ piano version, SYML
โ WEโ€™VE BECOME ECHOES, BUT ECHOES ARE FADING AWAY, SO LETโ€™S DANCE LIKE TWO SHADOWS, BURNING OUT A GLORY DAY โž
Walking across the parking lot of Hawkins High with Steve Harringtonโ€™s hand in the back pocket of your jeans was a surreal feeling. Never in a million years did you think youโ€™d be on speaking terms with him let alone dating him. You also didnโ€™t think the world would end, so maybe being wrong was something to get used to.
Steve had a bag of clothes under one arm while you pulled a wagon of canned food and blankets behind you. It seemed like everyone was in need of something โ€“ shirts, coats, shoes, bread, cheese, shelter โ€“ and despite the way everyone had rallied against Eddie, they changed their tune quick after the news broke. Came together as a community to support each other through these unprecedented events.
The story came out that it had been a serial killer whoโ€™d murdered those poor kids, not Eddie, and it was all forgotten anyway the minute your little town suddenly turned into a war zone. Helicopters and tanks and soldiers, scientists and news crews from all over the nation. The ash hadnโ€™t stopped falling since the Creel House and in the daylight the damage was so much worse than any of you had expected.
When Steve drove you home, it just simply wasnโ€™t there. Swallowed up in one of four deep gashes splitting the earth at the seams. Your parents had survived, came back to see if maybe youโ€™d go home to find them and tried to salvage whatever they could.
Theyโ€™d sought shelter with your aunt on the other side of town, but Steve insisted you stay with him. Told you youโ€™d have your own room and space and whatever you needed and when you expected a no, your parents surprised you with a yes, with relief. It was tight enough over at your auntโ€™s as it was and maybe it was better that way. With a friend โ€“ friend.
โ€œDonations?โ€ a volunteer asked, pulling you from your thoughts.
โ€œWhat?โ€ you started, but Steve held up his bag.
โ€œYeah, yeah. Clothes, food, some blankets.โ€
โ€œGreat, thatโ€™s perfect. Clothes are on the tables at the far end of the cafeteria, food is being collected here in the quad and blankets go to the library,โ€ the volunteer said and Steve thanked her with a small smile.
Even though you were bringing things to donate, it was a weird feeling knowing youโ€™d likely be looking for things for you too. You wondered about everyone else. Wondered if they had lost everything too and hoped they hadnโ€™t. Hoped they were all safe. The Wheelers, the Sinclairs, Max and Robin and Eddieโ€“
โ€œHoly shitโ€“no way! Sweetheart, whoโ€™s that in your back pocket??โ€
As if summoned by your very thoughts, Eddie materialized at the bottom of the parking lot turning your cheeks cherry red, Steveโ€™s hand still tucked into your jeans.
He gave Eddie a big grin and dipped down to press a kiss to your temple, โ€œShut up, Munson.โ€
โ€œItโ€™s Steve you idiot,โ€ you snarked, lips tugged up in a little smile, no heat behind it and as soon as you passed the wagon off to a volunteer, your best friend was pulling you into a hug.
โ€œMissed you too, sweetheart,โ€ Eddie murmured into your hair, holding you tight to his chest. His voice wobbled a little and it made your throat squeeze. Heโ€™d brushed with death last night, just the same as you, and feeling him here โ€“ really here โ€“ was like a big sigh of relief.
โ€œWayne okay?โ€ you asked quietly and he nodded, curls tangling with yours.
โ€œYeah, thank fuck,โ€ he exhaled, finally letting you go to rub at the back of his neck. โ€œTrailerโ€™s totaled though.โ€
โ€œMy place too,โ€ you commiserated and Steveโ€™s grin faded as his realized just how much had been at stake outside of the party, outside of Vecna.
โ€œListen,โ€ he started, clearing his throat, โ€œMy parents checked in this morning to make sure I was alright, but arenโ€™t coming home anytime soon. If you need a place to stay thereโ€™s plenty of roomโ€ฆโ€ Steve jammed his hands in his pockets, unsure if heโ€™d crossed a line or was breaking some unsaid rule, but Eddie grabbed him by the arm and yanked him into a hug too.
โ€œThanks, man! God, thatโ€™d be great. Promise Wayne and I arenโ€™t messy, weโ€™ll clean up and help with dinner and the trash andโ€“โ€
โ€œEddie,โ€ Steve laughed, giving the other boyโ€™s shoulder a squeeze, โ€œItโ€™s okay, Iโ€™m sure youโ€™re fine.โ€
You were positive your heart was going to burst, tears stinging at the corners of your eyes for what felt like the hundredth time in the last 24 hours โ€“ mostly because of these two idiots โ€“ and both boys noticed at the same moment.
Eddie frowned, worried, โ€œHey, hey, whatโ€™s up?โ€
โ€œOhโ€“shitโ€“you okay, Princess?โ€ Steve asked, his words blending together with Eddieโ€™s.
โ€œNo, Iโ€™m okayโ€“โ€ you sniffled, pressing your palms to your eyes, half-laughing at how stupid you felt, โ€œโ€“you two just suck.โ€
Both boys laughed, we love you, and Steve pulled you under his arm, โ€œHate to say it, but I think youโ€™re stuck with us.โ€ He shot Eddie a look and the other boy grinned.
โ€œYep. Sorry, sweetheart,โ€ Eddie gave you one of his too-charming winks, โ€œcanโ€™t get out of this one.โ€
You huffed a laugh and buried your face into Steveโ€™s chest. Warm like summer and the sun, like safe and home, and when you pulled away to push up onto your toes and catch his lips between yours a voice echoed across the quad.
โ€œOH MY GODโ€“WHAT?? STEVE, WHAT THE HELL?? WHEN WERE YOU GOING TO TELL ME YOUโ€™RE DATINGโ€“โ€
โ€œOh, Christโ€“Robin! Iโ€™m right here, you donโ€™t have to yell!โ€
[ I COULDN'T HELP MYSELF, THIS SCENE WAS SCREAMING AT ME LIKE ROBIN โ€“ YOU'RE WELCOME ]
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Saw this and thought... Mafia AU Gojo & Geto ๐Ÿ‘€
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Share a piece of your juicy brain thoughts please, I'm collecting all the scraps ๐Ÿ˜—
PRETTY THING LIKE YOU.
๐†. ๐’๐€๐“๐Ž๐‘๐” โ€” ไบ”ๆกๆ‚Ÿ โ‹… ๐†. ๐’๐”๐†๐”๐‘๐” โ€” ๅคๆฒนๅ‚‘
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NOTE: OH TO BE IN THAT CAR ๐Ÿ› anyways, these are just... messy ideas pls forgive me!! ๐Ÿฅฒ idk how to write for mafia stuff but i adore the idea sm i wanted to say a lil smth about it
WARNINGS โ€” fem reader, you're Toji's daughter, err mafia stuff warning idk?? implied kidnapping, implied light use of violence, Geto calling u nicknames (sweetheart, baby, etc), i made Gojo a meanie for some reason oops, some vague semblance of a plotline lol
๐Ÿ’ ๐‰๐š๐ฒ โ€” ใ‚ตใ‚ฏใƒฉใƒณใƒœ โ‹… ๐‘๐ž๐›๐ฅ๐จ๐ ๐ฌ/๐œ๐จ๐ฆ๐ฆ๐ž๐ง๐ญ๐ฌ ๐ก๐ž๐ฅ๐ฉ ๐š ๐ฅ๐จ๐ญ !
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Your dad is Toji Fushiguro, he sits on a big throne in this business. Everyone knows him, everyone's scared of him โ€” why wouldn't they be? Except for these two particular men... who consider themselves the strongest ๐Ÿ™„ Big, big severely inflated egos they've got.
Toji hired Nanami to be the loyal bodyguard for his precious daughter. Why? Well, to put it simply โ€” these two men are looking to take revenge on him with you as their playing card.
Geto and Gojo are on the hunt one night for you, and you fall right into their palms. Usually the black car with tinted windows has Nanami behind the wheel, ready to drive you home after a night out. But one night it's those two.
The drive is silent and uneasy. Gojo is flicking his gaze up at the rearview mirror to check you out with those piercing blue eyes of his. Geto is talking to you in a sickeningly saccharine sultry voice, nicknaming you sweetheart, princess, love, baby, etc... and trying his best to keep you calm with simple small-talk.
Gojo? He's more intimidating than his friend behind the wheel. He will not stop eyeing you out, even when you three end up in some fancy penthouse. You blink up at him innocently, it almost makes his heart lurch โ€” he's wondering how such a pretty face came from such a bastard.
Whatever Toji did to them in the past, they were still seething over. Seems their idea of a revenge plot involved you. But you had no idea what to expect. They didn't have intent to hurt you โ€” well, subtract Gojo pulling and pushing you around like a ragdoll when you weren't compliant enough. But Geto always scolded him.
In fact, Geto calmed the both of you so nicely. He put on water to boil and languidly stirred tea in the kitchen. It was surreal and bizarre in some way.
"Sweetheart, we're gonna be transparent with you. We're just keeping you here for a little while to get your dad's attention. You're gonna be treated like a princess, so don't you worry โ€” " he lifted you by the chin so you had to look up at him, "A pretty thing like you isn't in trouble with us."
Gojo scoffed. He had his arms folded. Legs crossed. Spine slacked against the couch.
"Don't mind him, princess. He's just grumpy โ€” your old man wasn't very kind to him in his youth." Geto explained super vaguely.
Gojo chuckled, "Yeah, you're damn right he wasn't kind to me. Sonofabitch wasted me."
"Well she had nothing to do with that, Satoru, so treat her good."
He grumbled in reluctant agreement. But the second Geto was out of sight, when Gojo led you to your bedroom, he entrapped you between two arms and practically pinned you to the wall.
"Listen โ€” princess โ€” " he mockingly impersonated Geto, "You keep those lips shut or I will shut them for you." he threatened, breathe fanning your face.
Well, it was hard to keep your lips shut. A week later, you woke up and went into the kitchen to find Gojo with a bloodstain in his white hair, Geto with a crimson splatter across his cheek, and a gun resting on the table that towered with green stacks of money. You didn't dare ask what was going on. You just looked at them until they said something from themselves.
"Don't worry." Geto's serene smile caught your worried gaze, "Just business, angel."
"What exactly-" you began, but Gojo gave you a sharp look and Geto immediately cut you off.
" โ€” ah-ah, baby. We've already talked about this." he cooed. His smile had the vaguest sinister twist to it, "Keep that pretty mouth shut. No asking questions."
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ยฉ ๐š๐ซ๐ฆ๐ข๐ง๐ฌ๐ฎ๐ฆ๐ข ๐ƒ๐Ž ๐๐Ž๐“ ๐’๐“๐„๐€๐‹ ๐–๐‡๐€๐“ ๐ˆ'๐•๐„ ๐–๐Ž๐‘๐Š๐„๐ƒ ๐‡๐€๐‘๐ƒ ๐“๐Ž ๐‚๐‘๐„๐€๐“๐„.
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