#won't be posting any of the previous stuff because we have been drawing one another and I don't have permission from the other students

[oreegaanoo]

I'm taking a drawing course and we have been drawing statues with charcoal for the last two classes and I drew these four of the same statue!

First the big one (A1?) (used a brush and the charcoal dust to make the softer shadows!),

then the A3 size linework one,

A3 sized squiggly one,

and the last one is A4 sized drawing from the front of the statue with my left hand as a challenge.

And here's the statue (squiggles to cover another student to the side)

[johanna-swann]

This got a little long and it might sound a little mean at first, but. What exactly does Eddie bring to the table that adds to the bigger picture of the show as a whole?

Disclaimer: If you are a big Eddie fan and/or disagree with me, I am happy to have a civil discussion about this. I mean that, I love debates over fandom stuff. You can comment or drop into my inbox, whatever. Please do keep it civil though and if you could actually read the post before coming at me - that would also be appreciated. I can promise you I'll be nice as long as you are and you won't provoke any sort of reaction out of me other than some polite concern for your mental well being anyway. I pick the fights worth having carefully and if you're just ignorant or aggressive, I'll end up blocking you.

As per usual I'm trying to give my rant a somewhat sensible structure, stay as objective as possible and highlight it when I introduce a new point. Alright, let's go.

Observation number one. The firefamily worked perfectly fine as a found family of 4 in season 1. They were a somewhat dysfunctional family, but that's what made them interesting and they already cared about each other so much, even called themselves a family by episode 3 or 4. The show needed Abby and Athena for their respective perspective as dispatcher/cop, but they weren't integral parts of the firefam (yet).

For Athena that obviously changed quickly when she started hanging out with the 118 more and dating Bobby, they're married now and Athena is no longer just one of Hen's closest friends, she's family to all of them.

Abby didn't leave that big a hole because she was only really connected to Buck and no-one else in the first place. Other characters had scenes with her, but she was always there as Buck's girlfriend. The show needs one main character at dispatch, but that didn't have to be Abby. She was replaceable.

In season 2 we got two new main characters that weren't established members of the found family (yet), kind of like we had Abby and Athena in season 1.

Maddie was immediately connected to Buck of course, but then she also got together with Chimney (another main character) and they became a family as well, she has a handful of lovely scenes with Athena and the Wilson-Han family bonds are stronger now than ever. She is integrated into the firefam, her role as dispatcher is important and she's being played by thee JLH which makes her existence in the show load-bearing and basically irreplaceable.

[Side note: Everybody who has been following me for a bit probably knows I'm not exactly a Maddie fan - personally I wish she was written a little more active than reactive, a little more flawed instead of "crying white woman who suffers more than Jesus Christ himself" (I'm exaggerating to bring across my point) - but objectively speaking I know that Maddie is a perfectly normal character on a show that has much bigger issues and that doesn't change just because I personally find her annyoing. I get why the show needs her and why other fans like her.]

Which makes me ask again though, what does Eddie bring to the table? It's nice to have him, sure. I like all the Diaz family dynamics. I love Christopher. The friendship between Eddie and Buck is amazing. Buck's and Chris' relationship will always be special to me. I like Eddie and his weird ass drama. Does the show need him though?

To go with the "bigger picture" metaphor - it's like the show is one big picture and Eddie is a smaller picture that hangs on the same wall. It has its own frame and exists separately, it can be taken down or to a different floor of the museum without destroying either of the pictures. Walk with me:

On a meta level we just have to be realistic. Ryan Guzman is not a name that will draw a crowd like the names "Jennifer Love Hewitt", "Angela Bassett" or "Peter Krause" do. If people know him at all from previous projects then they'll either know him as Jennifer Lopez' eye candy or as that guy who was in one of those dance movies. (I wanna add here that I actually watched Step Up Miami Heat a few times as a teenager, it's a guilty pleasure movie for me that I come back to every now and then and I didn't even realise it was the same guy until somebody else told me.) So yeah, he's an okay actor and I'm sure he's a nice person (or maybe he's not, idk and idc about the actors that much), but I don't think a lot of people started to watch 911 because they found out their favourite superstar Ryan Guzman was in it.

As for Eddie in his function as a firefighter/army medic: We already have 2 firefighters and we already have 2 paramedics at the 118. Eddie is just extra. No disrespect, but we never needed him the way we need a Maddie to man dispatch or like we need an Athena for the police's perspective. The firefighter/paramedic front was already more than well covered.

So, we don't need him for the actor's star power or the character's unique career, what about personal relationships? Eddie's not particularly close to anyone in the firefam other than Buck whereas everyone else has multiple close connections. His friendship with Bobby is there I guess, but it's only shown in one scene every other season or so. I'd put it in the same category as the Maddie&Athena friendship. Heartwarming and nice to have, not integral to the show though. Nobody watches the show just because they love this friendship in particular so much. Eddie has very casual friendships with Hen and Chimney where they exchange banter or gossip here and there when they all sit in the truck together, but I don't remember many (if any) really meaningful scenes between them. To this day I don't think Eddie ever had scenes with Maddie or Athena at all.

Then there's the fact that next to none of his story lines are connected to the 118. All the other characters have had impactful story lines concerning their job at the 118 itself or their personal drama really involved other main characters. [I got side tracked thinking about this, but I don't want to derail the main train of thought too much here, so I put this part under the cut.*]

The Texas arc, beginning with Kim entering the stage in 7x07 and up until 8x13, only proved once again how disconnected Eddie is from the other main characters.

I don't think anybody except Buck knows what happened between Eddie and Christopher or at least nobody mentioned it. Nobody mentioned the break-up between Eddie and Marisol or Kim's existence either. Not even Eddie really talks about Marisol, nor Kim or Shannon for that matter. He is very focused on his son which, you know, fair enough. But moving to Texas, confronting his parents, stepping up as an actual parental authority again (instead of being a bit of a pushover because he's scared to mess up again) is only treating the symptoms, not the cause. The reason all of this happened in the first place is the Shannon-Marisol-Kim disaster and that hasn't been adressed at all by anyone.

Anyway. None of the other main characters were involved in the love triangle (square?) doppelgänger mess and even Buck took a very passive role here where Eddie told him about what was happening, but he didn't do much. Christopher hasn't interacted with Buck at all in season 8 which feels strange considering he was still willing to talk to Buck immediately after he walked in on Eddie and Kim and Buck was there when Christopher left - all in all they were still very close only one season ago. Now Buck is worried about Eddie, but he doesn't talk about missing Christopher. Not to Eddie or Maddie or Tommy.

Then Eddie moved. He's been in Texas for a while now and Buck has expressed that he misses his best friend, but he doesn't seem to be struggling that much to be honest. Before the move he was mostly upset because it seemed like Eddie didn't care, but they cleared up that misunderstanding. After the move it took him one episode to get over it. In the meantime he's getting closer to Ravi, spends time with his sister, still has fun with his job, settles into his new house - yes, he misses Eddie, it was an adjustment, but he's doing fine without him. They still talk to each other, phones exist. But Buck is okay and nobody else really mentions Eddie.

In comparison: When Chimney left in season 5 to get Maddie back everybody was affected. Eddie suddenly worked medical calls, Hen got snappy with Eddie because they hadn't found their rhythm yet, Buck blamed himself and thought about leaving the 118, Ravi had to step up because he wasn't just the new probie anymore, Bobby had to manage that entire mess and vented to Athena.

Eddie left to get Chris back, Ravi replaced him, even Buck got over it within a single episode. More at eleven. You see the difference?

Conclusion: Eddie is replaceable, you could argue that he doesn't even need replacing since there are still four other main characters working at the 118 who are also all friends with each other. When you pay a little attention it's obvious how disconnected Eddie is from the other characters, even Buck sometimes who shares emotional conversations with Eddie, but isn't always an active participant in Eddie's story lines. I don't like this, I'm not sitting here gloating that "my favourite character is superior", I'm just observing this and it's sad. I usually enjoy Eddie's story lines even when the writing could be better (see Texas arc), I see a lot of potential in his character, I spent the better part of 2023 reading Buddie fanfiction mostly from his perspective. But this insistence that "Eddie completes the firefamily" or that it's "just not the same without him" is more than a little exaggerated. The show is exactly the same without Eddie. It's almost funny how god damn unbothered everybody is by Eddie's absence. How did the Texas arc not make that clear?

*On the career themed story lines:

Chim was feeling like Bobby favours Buck which resulted in a bigger fight, a horrific car crash and the first moment where anybody actually said out loud that the 118 is a familly. He later had his turn as Interim Captain where we saw that while he does have a lot of experience and has been at the 118 the longest, he might not want to be Captain in the long run. As we learn a few seasons later, he could very well be cut out to become an instructor at the academy though, proving leadership qualities in a different way.

Hen had her med school arc and while that didn't lead to anything, it did emphasise and confirm for her that she is exactly where she wants and needs to be. She was also instated as Interim Captain several times which showed that she is Captain material and might take over a station at some point.

Buck was kept from his job and had a whole identity crisis about it in season 3, later "Buck Begins" sort of confirmed that after a lot of searching he found the job that is exactly right for him. In season 6 he was wondering if he could make Captain one day himself and in that season finale got a chance to prove that he can not only work under extreme pressure, he can lead under those same circumstances, too. (It was sadly a very short scene and we haven't seen "potential Captain Buck" since, but the point stands and the idea is out there.)

Bobby had to learn to trust his team so they could trust him in return back in season 1, a theme they also picked up again in "Bobby Begins Again" where he started settling in and making the team into, well, a team instead of just co-workers. We've seen him fighting to stay their Captain both in season 2 and recently in 8a.

Eddie on the other hand quit the 118 during his season 5 breakdown arc, but it wasn't about the job, it was about Chrsitopher. Then he had to extend his time away from active duty because of his ptsd. He never thinks about advancing in his career (everybody else either was Interim Captain at one point or at least showed interest in it) or tries anything else unless he sees himself forced to do it for Christopher. I don't think he even is officially a paramedic. Similar to Hen's med school arc it probably wouldn't really change anything because he's usually paired with Buck and he already (occasionally) works medical calls anyway, but (similar to Hen's med school arc) it would at least give him something to do and show that he is generally invested in his career. I haven't seen "Eddie Begins" in a while, but does that episode give us a moment where Eddie truly finds his calling as a firefighter like the others did? I don't think so, we just got two lines or so about "missing the camaraderie, seemed worth the shot" in season 2.

On to the "personal" stuff. Do any of Eddie's big story lines have any impact on the firefam?

Eddie's love life is a mess. Season 2 was all about Shannon and their marriage and the others gossiped a little about it, but what difference does it make to the firefam who Eddie is dating? None of Eddie's love interests ever have any connection to the other family members whereas the other couples are a) both main characters or b) in Buck's case do often have connections to the others. Abby was a main character who wasn't close to the 118, but still shared a lot of scenes with them. Taylor showed up on calls, had her own story lines when she investigated stuff, asked Bobby about Christmas presents, had dinners with Buck that involved other characters like Albert or Eddie. Tommy of course was good friends with Eddie and Chim, but also acquainted with Bobby, Athena and Hen. Even Veronica who only had one date with Buck then turned out to be his neighbour and dated Albert for a while.

Other than Buck I don't think anybody ever really had scenes with Eddie's love interests and even Buck barely met those women as far as I remember. Eddie talks about Ana and Marisol, sure, but do they interact with Buck much?

Then Eddie of course has story lines about being a (single) father, but somehow he always ends up talking to Buck about this instead of literally any of his friends who actually have children of their own. Denny and Harry are shown to be friends, but despite being about Denny's age, Christopher doesn't have scenes with them outside of that one season 3 Christmas episode. Only Buck ever babysits Christopher for Eddie. Recently even Buck hasn't had anything to do with Chris. He coached Eddie through some parenting decisions, but he doesn't have contact to Chris at all. Neither Chris nor Buck express that they miss each other or anything.

There's Eddie's fight club era which ended after one heart to heart with Bobby, but mostly affected his and Lena's friendship who, again, is a character who was Eddie's friend but barely had scenes with the other mains. This is connected to the fight he had with Buck of course, but while Buck's absence and the lawsuit impacted the entire family who picked sides or felt the tension in the firehouse, Eddie's personal issues with Buck are between the two of them. There are raised eye brows during that supermarket fight, but that's it.

He had the shooting story line and while the other characters worried about Eddie of course, it was Buck who was with him when it happened, Buck who took care of Christopher, Buck who rushed to the hospital when Eddie woke up, Buck who picked him up from the hospital and had a heart to heart with him, etc. The other characters existed in the vicinity of this story line, but only Buck was really in it with Eddie. Compare that to when Buck was struck by lightning. Every single main character had emotional scenes with Buck in that story line.

Eddie eventually started dating again and, once more, this was casual gossip fodder in the firehouse, but it was Eddie's aunt who had an actual, serious conversation with him.

The season 7 stuff is part of the Texas story line for me, so I'm not getting into that again.

[invidiia]

can you do more teenage platonic yandere ones 🙏🙏 i love them bro

one suggestion is them (chuuya, ranpo, dazai, sigma, idek) w a rebellious teenager 🙏🙏🙏🙏

sorry, you've been misinformed.

⋆⭒˚｡⋆ "we appreciate." 𖤐 separate platonic yanderes chuuya, ranpo, dazai, sigma x reader

these mfs cannot deal with rebellious teenagers!!!!

m.list // previous

[ a/n ; HI SILLIES SORRY I DIDNT DO A YANXREADER POST YESTERDAY IDKFKKFKFCX ANYWAY HERES THE PLATONIC YANDERE SILLY PEOPLE ?! ]

[ warning ; platonic yandere, lowkey crack 😭😭, stalking ]

— CHUUYA NAKAHARA

⋆ lord, please give this man the patience to deal with you

⋆ he gets it, he was a rebellious teenager too, but so? he doesn't have time for you to act this way, like at all. probably best to just,, cooperate

⋆ chuuya has to put a lot of time into his job, being an executive and all, so that leaves you a lot of time to go do rebellious teenager shit

⋆ you can imagine it's pretty often he comes back to find you not there, or if you go to school, he'll get calls about you skipping class to go do whatever it was teenagers did when they skipped

⋆ yokohama mall is huge, perfect place to go to have fun and get away from chuuya!! it most definitely ends with you getting dragged out of the mall doors by your collar and shoved into the backseat of the car to go home, but it was fun anyway.

⋆ funny ass little arguments, too. "and if i find out you left when i come back, you'll regret it." "uh-huh, i bet i will." "just shut up and stay here."

⋆ please take him seriously, or at least pretend to, for his own sanity 😭

— RANPO EDOGAWA

⋆ ranpo doesn't take you seriously at all.

⋆ even if he knows you'll actually go do something stupid, he won't take you seriously. and when you go do it, consequences await you anyway 🤷

⋆ no point in keeping secrets, he already knows

⋆ plans to sneak out? getting stuff without permission? anything you keep from him? yeah, he knew already lol

⋆ lowkey draws a line at going against him and doing illegal stuff. committing any kind of crime? lmao no, he'll just keep you with him at all times or something which is probably embarrassing asf

⋆ am i wrong to think he may drag poe into this? maybe, shrug

— OSAMU DAZAI

⋆ he doesn't have time either, i almost feel bad for him

⋆ he's like ranpo actually, has no shame in forcing you almost everywhere with him or leaving you to atsushi which is really evil, poor atsushi

⋆ arguments are funny as hell (for him) probably you yelling and trying to make a point and explain why you do whatever you do or something and dazai just laughing and not listening LMAO

⋆ "that's crazy kid lmao" "i'm trying to make a point, don't fucking call me that."

⋆ doesn't really care about you yelling at him. just forces you everywhere with him

⋆ remember in chuuya's part where you just sneak into yokohama mall to get away from him and have fun? too bad lmao, dazai knew you were coming and followed you anyway!! just when you thought you were finally alone, away from the suffocating presence of dazai and could terrorize the shoppers in peace, nope LOL

⋆ he just tags along with you, keeping a hand on your shoulder and a smile on his face while you just grit your teeth and deal with him. "can we just go home?" "no wayy, didn't you wanna come here?" "not with you."

— SIGMA

⋆ poor guy lmao

⋆ literally has to stop you from terrorizing the customers or damaging the casino somehow

⋆ a little hard to sneak out unless you have an ability or another person to help you

⋆ cue nikolai coming to the casino to bother sigma and then helping you sneak out because it'll annoy sigma and he doesn't care LMAO

⋆ probably ends up locking you in your room because he doesn't trust you enough to keep you with him. sigma learned that from a past mistake he made with you

⋆ "wait, this card is damaged. the game isn't valid, therefore, you need to replay." and then the teenager next to him probably being the one who messed up the card LOL

[lonewolflupe]

Hey Lupe!

Random question, do you have any all-time favorite fics/drabbles, written by you or others? If so, can we have links? And if you've already made a post about your favorites please feel free to smack me upside the head with that post lol 😅

Anonnnnn thank you so much for stopping by <3 (I always make a little jump from excitement whenever someone drops by in my ask box!)

My answer has gotten quite a bit longer than I had intended, so you'll find it below the cut! Hopefully you'll find something you'll like; enjoy reading! ❤️

I answered a self-rec-ask pretty recently, where you can find my 3 favourite self-written fics. I've been in a massive mood to draw for the past few months, so unfortunately that means I haven't done a lot of writing lately. I do have quite a few WIPs and ideas I'd still like to work on; I'm sure I'll find the time/motivation/inspiration again some day (: If you want to read more of my fics, you can find my masterlist here (or visit my AO3).

When it comes to writings done by others, I absolutely do have a few favourites, yes <3 (Due to the art bug, I haven't done as much reading lately as I would have liked, but again; I'm sure I'll get back into it!)

Fives State of Mind (series) by @aknightreaderr (AO3) This is a series written from Fives' point of view and it's simply fivestastic and mimificent. It's cracky, it's SFW, it's gotten pretty extensive by now; everything you need for some comfy, relaxing evenings (or mornings, or afternoons, or nights; just your preferred reading time). You'll have lots of laughs and some wholesome smiles (and you'll shed a few tears too) <3

The Headless Guardsman (6 chapters) by @eclec-tech (AO3) I don't know where to start, but this is seriously one of my favourite stories of all time. It's SFW, but it's a Halloween story, so there's some spooky stuff going on. But adsfjalkdfjalfjadks please, just read it, because none of my silly ramblings can describe how much I love this fic. (Also check out Amber's other writings, I promise you won't be disappointed!)

No Strings Attached (22 chapters) by @cyarbika (AO3) THIS FIC'S HOT. THIS IS NOT A DRILL, I REPEAT, THIS FIC'S HOT!! And I mean, it's NSFW-hot. Pretty much. Also NSFpublic transport (believe me, I tried). This story focuses on the owner of 79's (Reader), who finds herself in an enemies with benefits situation - with Commander Wolffe. But don't worry, it's enemies to lovers. And it's hot and steamy and *redacted*.

Hoth (one-shot) by @sadiecoocoo (AO3) The planet's called Hoth, but it could have been called Whump in this fic! I really don't want to spoil anything about this, but there's HURT but definitely some comfort too. Just a beautiful SFW but slightly angsty story, mostly featuring Fives and Echo (and some buir Rex <3)

For Granted (one-shot) by @mae-lou-ron Here's another hot one (no, not Hoth like the previous one; hot, as in, NSFW). Captain Gregor x fem!reader. It's hot but also beautiful and the bond Gregor shares with Reader is so well written, like, it's so vivid and tangable and alsdfjadklfjalfjd (Mae thinks she's some writer newbie but she's actually super talented and it feels like she's been writing fanfic for years and I expect she's actually a well-known writer who's been using a pseudonym so she can write clone smut here on Tumblr 👀)

Slow Dancing (part 1 + part 2) by @coffeeandbatboys I'm a massive Vaughn simp, I know he's pretty niche since he only lives in one episode ahahaha (*cries in corner*), but in this two part story he LIVES and it's so cute and wholesome and I'm just a sobbing mess right now and I haven't even read this in a while. A lovely SFW Vaughn x fem!reader story!

Also a shoutout to @ladylucksrogue @vodika-vibes @kotemf because they have some really lovely writing out there, also shorter one-shots (which I really, really appreciate because I have problems focusing on one thing for too long, unfortunately 😅)

And please check out @clonethirstingisreal 's Hunter and the Librarian (longfic) too. I should really get back into reading it (I'm sorry, Carol!), but it's a beautiful story focusing on Hunter x OC (Wren) in a Modern AU. Carol managed to put so many human emotions into it. It features some heavy topics like anxiety and depression, but to me, that makes this fic so real.

Also if you're into Fox and the Coruscant Guard, I kindly urge you to read this AO3-exclusive fic, Take Me Down To the Fighting End. I started reading it but unfortunately due to my brain, I'm several chapters behind. But what I've read so far was so. Damn. Good. Like, oh my, I need to sit my shebs down and continue this because if this would get published into an official Star Wars novel, I'd buy like 10 copies (to stay in Fox's spirit).

I do really appreciate your ask (thanks again <3), but I do know there's lots of blogs out there sharing a lot more fics than I do. I wish I was better at planning and dividing my time, but due to brain, I'm not. But there's some awesome people around who share lots of great writings (for example, be sure to check out @freesia-writes 's Clone Longfic List and @kimiheartblade 's Fic Fair 2024 ).

Thanks for stopping by and I do apologise for my ramblings. If you managed to read this far I'm sure you'll be too tired to read any of the recommended fics for the remainder of your day 😂 Alright take care and thanks again for dropping into my ask box 🥰

[hispieceofcake]

🎸Headcanons about Adam from Hazbin Hotel - Pt2🤘🏻

This is part two of my headcanons that I had written in an old post, feel free if you want to read it, this is the post.

Well, for a while now I've been looking for Adam's headcanons to get more ideas or inspiration, and well, most of what I find are nsfw and well... I'm asexual, so I decided to start creating a little content about Adam but being headcanons about him and personal stuff about him, so let's start.

• Adam keeps his wings under his arms so they don't bump into things

As we can see, Adam had long and large wings full of golden feathers, I believe that he keeps his wings hidden below his arms so as not to bump into things or people because of their large size, you can clearly see when he opens his wings that they are very large compared to the wings of other angels. Seraphim (like Emilly and Sera) have around six wings, but they are small. Lucifer also has six large wings, but he can hide them by making it look like he doesn't even have wings, but Adam can't do that, so he keeps them below his arms.

• Style of clothing he wears (when not wearing the tunic or at a concert with his band)

Well, as Adam is a rocker (he says so himself) and a guitarist in a band, I think he would wear regular black leather jackets or ones with golden spikes on the shoulders (a little similar to what the members of the band Guns N' Roses sometimes wore), Belts with gold details or very striking spikes, bracelets and fingerless gloves, and high-top black combat boots. I made an example image.

This also leads me to think that he wears combat boots under his tunic daily, as you can't see his feet I imagine he does. Another headcanon I have is that when he performs with the band he wears black shadow under his eyes and on his eyelids (just like in the image I made).

In general, his style itself would be like the 80s rockers like I said before in the first headcanons post.

•Adam has abandonment issues

This is inspiration from a post I saw here on Tumblr, it was just a headcanon but it made me think a lot. The context is that Adam has abandonment issues (I do too🥲) because of his past "relationships" like Lilith and Eve who betrayed and abandoned him for Lucifer. He would have this abandonment problem but as we know him he would hide it with his big ego for fear of being abandoned again.

• Rock songs he'd probably like

It's been a few days since I started listening to rock again and a band that caught my attention and made me think of Adam was Slipknot, not all the songs but there are some that I think Adam would like "Snuff" and "Dead Memories". I chose these two songs because I think Adam could identify with them, for example "Snuff" with the lines:

"bury all your secrets in my skin

Come away with innocence, and leave me with my sins

The air around me still feels like a cage

And love is just a camouflage for what resembles rage again"

"So, break yourself against my stones

And spit your pity in my soul

You never needed any help

You sold me out to save yourself

And I won't listen to your shame

You ran away, you're all the same

Angels lie to keep control

If you still care, don't ever let me know

If you still care, don't ever let me know"

With these two parts of the song, I think Adam would relate because of the betrayals of his two previous wives with Lucifer.

Please listen to the songs and tell me what you think, I honestly thought of him when reading the lyrics of these songs.

• Adam is ambidextrous

I read about it on Hazbin Hotel's Wikipedia and then I thought "well, that makes sense, I'll write about it 🤔". In this headcanon Adam would be ambidextrous, as in several scenes in the series he shows him strumming the guitar with both hands, eventually switching them and playing completely well with either of them.

• Adam likes to draw

I found this one quite funny and a little cute when I noticed it, in some parts of the series they show Adam drawing, for example on that parchment he shows Charlie in the song Hell is Forever, and another is on that list from the trial episode where Adam writes a list of what was needed to enter heaven and below the things listed there are some drawings of him. (It reminded me of when I draw in the corner of exams 🤓☝🏻).

Well guys, that's it for now, I've been really busy trying to make the Beetlejuice Masterlist and full-time school is killing me, thanks for reading, kisses from the bottom of my heart. 💗🎸

[csmeanerr]

(General/Unspecified CS and it's a long one I'm sorry. If anon somehow fails, can you please post this without my name attached?)

I’m feeling a bit sad. I’m a member of two CS which I won't name, but both were started by one person. I joined the first one over a year ago after obtaining a design that I really liked, and things seemed to be going well at first? After some time, the creator transferred ownership of the CS to another person so that they could focus on their second species instead, which regretfully lead to the death of the first species as the new owner has done nothing since taking over. There hasn’t been a new design sale, event, prompt, or even any community activity in the discord since the ownership transfer, it's just been super dead and quiet. :(

The second species really fits a lot of my likes for design elements and aspects so I'm a big fan of it. Most of us who were in the first CS migrated to the second and the community felt really wholesome at the start. We were close-knit, we joked about the species and the NPCs, made memes, all the fun stuff. At the start, the designs were getting bought within seconds of being posted for sale, too. But now, whether it’s a change in financial situation for everyone or something else, the species is starting to feel like it’s dying as well and I know it’s because things aren’t selling as well anymore, if at all sometimes. It’s a shame because there’s a lot of nice lore for the species and the world they’re a part of is really interesting to myself and others in the community, but you can tell that the owner has lost their motivation and it’s definitely due to the lack of profitability. I’m worried that this species is going to meet the same fate as the previous one.

Like everything else, CS had their prime time where they were big and profitable but nothing lasts forever. I feel like aiming for profitability over community engagement is the wrong way to approach things, because it isolates a huge part of the community which can lead to stagnation and reduce the growth of the userbase.vAm I the weird one? Hear me out.

There was a time when I too wanted to make my own CS, and I admit that I was inspired by the species that were making $500 or more per design in very quick sales. Let’s face it, how many people wouldn’t love to make that kind of money after spending some time on a drawing? Even considering this though, my approach was always going to be towards the community and the species world itself over the money. I had it in mind that, if a community was fun, engaging, and accessible to people, that would actually be more profitable in the long run. More accessibility means more users participating, and that means more people potentially willing to spend small amounts of money which would add up over time.

Not that it matters anymore. That desire has long passed now and if I did go through with making a species, it would likely be an open species rather than a closed one with little to no monetary involvement at all.  I don’t know, I guess I just don’t like how most big name CS have such high price tags and prey on FOMO, exclusivity, and impulsive buying habits. It's turned me off of closed species as a whole concept but I don't want to leave just yet because I like the characters I have and the friends I talk to daily about the CS and other hobbies or interests.

Sorry for the long ramble, I'm just salty. Maybe I am the weird one for feeling the way I do, and maybe I just need to cope harder about it.

no problem this is a place to let it all out after all. sometimes you gotta look back and see all the time you wasted on cs

[corruptgrail]

Hi, I'm Panda/Grail, It/They/He, and an adult!

This is pretty much a "post whatever I feel like posting" blog, so expect:

- LGBTQ+, Mogai, Disability and Mentally ill reposts;

- Fandom reblogs sometimes too (Mostly Undertale at the moment, but some MCYT might appear too);

- Art posts, I recently came back to drawing (if you like my art, please reblog it!)

- Sometimes rants and vents (always tagged as such, and with TW/CW if needed)

- If you're looking for my writing, check @corrupted-hands-texts

Now who can interact with this blog?

As long as you aren't being an asshole, that you know what consent is and can respect it, and you don't come up to me to start discourse over stuff or stances, welcome!

Some sort of not exactly a FAQ under the cut because no-one asked yet lol:

You used plural pronouns somewhere/you said someone else drew it but it has your name on it?

Yeah, that's normal, I'm a system. I share my head with multiple people, and you might be talking with one and the next minute someone else! Also we don't disclose our names unless we feel comfy doing so, please don't ask. ^°^

What's your stance on "____"?

Dude I don't wanna partake in discourse, please don't ask! I'll probably talk about it by myself on my own eventually. Also if you insist you might just get blocked.

Do you have any other social medias?

I used to, but I kinda gave those up (especially TikTok). My longest running platform has been Discord, but it's not exactly a social media lol (also no you can't exactly have it unless I see you as a close friend)

Do you have any Undertale AUs?

Yeah! I have one that is "sans"-centric, which is the Story Of Doll;

And then I have The Tale is Now Reversed (I won't talk about this one), very old from my previous Undertale phase; and The Tale Of Abyss which is a remake around a skeleton OC I made soon before finding myself in another main fandom (Hollow Knight my beloved)

[a-dragons-explanations]

Hi. Rani again, just a slightly different sideblog this time (for reasons of wanting to do this on the blog with a lower follower count, because that felt polite).

So normally when people walk away from a conversation like this, I just drop it and let them - for one, I get that life stuff happens and you might just have not had the time or energy to respond (especially considering that things got a bit heated in the discussions on the original version of this post), and for another, I don't want to come off as actually harassing people. Forgive me if this is in fact a case of you just not having had the time and/or energy to respond yet, but it's been over 48 hours since you posted this and I initially responded to it, and you were previously consistently responding to people's replies on the original post within a few hours - and, as I said, you also didn't initially respond to these same questions from me on that first post either (though again, that may well just be because it got a bit lost in the scuffle that happened) - so you can understand why the conclusion that I am, in fact, being intentionally ignored seems more and more likely.

Despite that being my general policy, however: in this specific instance, because of a specific series of events and because you're actually a member of the community (as opposed to the antikin whom I usually find myself in this situation with), I wanted to point out a couple of things. If you choose to not respond to this, that's fine, and I won't continue any further, but I wanted to be transparent and say this straight-up, and as previously mentioned, I wanted to do it on a blog with a lower follower count because I frankly don't feel like it's polite to put you on blast in front of around three thousand people. (And I felt like it would be significantly weirder and more pressuring to DM you out of nowhere with it.)

In that previous discussion (linked again, as above), you criticized Page (@/who-is-page) for his tone (that is, upset and angry) and told him to, quote, "Maybe ask questions before pointing fingers." Moreover, you did this while, if I may be blunt here, ignoring a large portion of his actual rhetorical points in favor of criticizing the way he said them. I can understand not wanting to engage in a discussion with that tone of anger involved. However, you have simultaneously and subsequently proceeded to flat-out ignore me and others when we bring the questions you directly asked Page for, along with genuine critiques and concerns, in the politer tone which you requested and the absence of which you effectively used as a reason to ignore Page's rhetorical points. @/that-dreaming-dragon and @/the-wolf-poet got no response from you at all, and while you responded to @/unlikely-archangel, it was only to assent to xyr criticism of your tone, and xyr actual rhetorical points and questions were, again, completely ignored.

Bluntly, Thorn, it is difficult to draw any conclusion from that but a) that you can't actually defend your point, and instead of admitting that and conceding that you may have been wrong, you're choosing to selectively answer only what little you can refute or criticize your opponents for, and b) that you aren't actually interested in the "civil discussion" you demanded from Page in the first place, despite claiming in that aforementioned conversation,

"My whole point in this discussion that I tried to make clear is that I am NOT the judge of things, but neither are you. I hear your side of things, and I will keep things into account, but I will continue to look into the topic and allow people to express an opinion if it seems important like this."

Which is, bluntly, a bad look, a show of hypocrisy, and just plain rude to the people and community you were kind of coming off as making demands toward (less so in the way you rephrased this newer version of the post, but you're still saying we should change a major part of our community's language, even if it's no longer phrased as "this is what we're doing now, you're not allowed to keep doing it the old way").

If you've decided you don't want to engage with this topic anymore, then fine; if you ignore this, then let this be the last thing said on it. Like I said, I don't want to come off as harassing you or anything; I don't intend to pursue this further unless you want to. But I want to point out the pattern you are showing to you, because I do believe that you genuinely were trying to do the right thing with this post, and I want you to have the opportunity to realize that this is a part of why people are getting upset and angry that you may not have seen or understood so that we can hopefully avoid this happening in the future.

Anyway. That's all. Thank you for your time.

Why people with PLS find the use of "phantom limbs" by the alterhuman community offensive

NOTE: This is a repost of an ealier post with more of an own-opinion/giving people with PLS a voice-approach rather than a community announcement, after having received critique from it that I agree with. I am completely fine with people having different opinions on this. I might make a video about this in the future, but I'd like to make you all aware of a statement I've received from people with PLS.

The use of the medical term "phantom limbs" is heavily tied to Phantom Limb Syndrome (PLS) which is a medical condition that affects amputees and those born with congenital differences in anatomy. It can be similar but is said to be vastly different from what otherkin and therians experience during phantom shifts. People experiencing PLS and the like have made it known that comparing phantom shifts to the actual loss of a limb or PLS is offensive, so I am of the belief that this should not be done again. I personally recommend using the words phantom shifts, parts or appendages, or specify that appendages such as phantom paws, wings, tails, etc. instead.

I personally take responsibility for having made this comparison in the past, and I'd like to apologize to people who experience PLS or have lost a limb for doing so. It was not my place to make this comparison, as I cannot know what the experiences is actually like.

I urge everyone who may own an Alterhuman platform (whether that be a Discord server or social media platform), and who agree with this statement, to spread the word about this. You are free to use part of this text to explain things.

[ryuichirou]

I saw one very stupid post on my dash about how snk is OBVIOUSLY nazi propaganda and trying to convert all of us into imperialists and white supremacists. tbh it’s not the first time I’ve seen that kind of stuff and probably won't be the last, but for some reason this time it gave me a lot of anxiety (I got wordy, I'mma need to send another ask, sorry)

(part 2) It's been more than half and hour and I still feel this awful sensation in my chest. It's just overall pretty fucked how to have something you hold dear being misinterpreted in the worst way possible, and I was just wondering what are your thoughts on this situation or how you deal with people claiming all sorts of awful shit.

(part 3) I imagine that as an artist some people probably direct their issues with snk towards you, 'cause I don't even post that much fanart and I've gotten anons "trying to educate me" on why this series is so wrong, after posting drawings. Of course, you don't have to reply, maybe the topic makes you anxious too and I don't want to bother you, so sorry for the depressing topic (｡•́︿•̀｡)

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Tiiish, I want to hug you, I’m really sorry that this happened to you. I hope you’re feeling a little bit better now.

Like we already mentioned a while ago, when we were talking about that darn article, after we read through it and did a little fact checking (and I mean it when I say a little, because there weren’t many facts to check), we stopped caring about it. It’s not research at all, just a manipulatively written speculation on Yam’s motives and worldview, but sadly, people easily believe these accusations because they hate SnK and want to find a valid reason to hate it and shit on its fanbase. Because “I hate it because it’s nazi propaganda” sounds much cooler than “I hate it because it’s popular”, doesn’t it?

It’s easier to ignore the article itself though, and it’s much harder not to think about tumblr posts or those Twitter threads that get very popular (although there are a lot of bots on twitter, trust me…), and it’s especially difficult to ignore it when it’s specifically directed at you. But the only thing that these people deserve is a good ol’ block and (if they’re getting too offensive and abusive) a report for harassment. The thing is, their opinion doesn’t matter: it won’t change SnK’s story, it won’t affect its success and popularity, it doesn’t affect anything other than our mood (temporarily lol). Because they aren’t critics who actually give a flying fuck about the subject matter, they’re just random assholes with a hateboner for SnK, who sit in their echochamber and discuss the same shit over and over again. And if they’re “fans” of the SnK, it’s just them “consuming it critically” 🙄 such a convenient phrase and so easy to abuse.

If we think about these accusations again… they’re so damn nonsensical, it’s almost amazing. I’m not going to reread it or to make a proper counterpoint article out of this ask, so this is just based on how we remember these accusations.

Like, what part of SnK approves and pushes the idea of imperialism in any way? When the entire idea of the story is that war is bad? When people like Onyankopon, whose homeland was invaded by Marley, exist? And it’s never portrayed as a good thing? Having only one country dominating the world’s situation is literally the main reason why everyone’s suffering??

And come to think of it, Isayama is one of the few manga artists to kind of sort of openly critique Japan: he literally drew Kiyomi losing her cool and drooling while thinking about all the profit and wealth she would get from the deal with Paradis. Why do people never talk about that? What is it, if not a critique of greedy and two-faced nature of people from Azumabito clan, who are heavily implied to represent Japan? I don’t read a lot of manga in general, but do you know how many mangakas I’ve seen who directly talked shit about Japan while being Japanese? Two. Excluding Isayama.

Isayama is clearly invested in the Western culture and he understands the World’s History. He understands that political relationships are complex and that there are no “bad” or “good” countries. I don’t want to make assumptions about how much perspective of the world’s relationships the average person from Japan has, but I still feel like Yams has a pretty good understanding of it. He did his research for the subject matter, and while it’s obviously not perfect, it’s clearly there.

These people also claim that SnK is anti-Korean and anti-Semitic, but if Hetalia had taught me anything, it is that if the story has or used to have any anti-Korean undertones, the Korean readers wouldn’t want to have anything to do with it. They would be the first people to ditch the manga, they would be the first people to critique SnK, and rightfully so. They burnt Uniqlo clothes, their overall domestic policy is pretty anti-Japanese, so there’re literally zero reasons for them not to destroy SnK if they see it as anti-Korean. But the size of the Korean SnK fandom suggests otherwise, doesn’t it.

And the “big noses = Jewish caricature” argument, seriously? How anti-Semitic can you get? Who the fuck looks at people and goes “oh, those have big noses, bet they’re caricature of Jews”?? Sorry I’m getting heated lol The argument about “Asian artists portray Westerners with prominent noses because that’s what we look like to them” has been done a lot of times, I’m not going to go over than again.

And god forbid Isayama to use Germany and Europe to draw a story where his characters are (approximately) Germans and Europeans! Let’s go fetch our pitchforks to punish Isayama for using their aesthetic to make his story look more believable and authentic, right? “Oh, those areas where they hold Eldians resemble places from real life”, like no shit???? Ofc they would??? That’s what references for making the story more grounded are used for??? If I were to write a story about a fictional place based on a real one that I don’t live in, I’d use some visual references to help me to make it more believable??? Why do I even need to explain that?

In my previous post I talked about the armbands and ghetto and stuff, but I’ll reiterate: even if there are thematic similarities, it doesn’t mean that the story mirrors our history. And it doesn’t mean that there is an analogy, since Eldian’s situation is quiiiite different than what Jewish people had to go through. It’s just thematic similarities. And it still doesn’t plant any specific idea in the reader’s head, other than “having people shoved into ghettos with 0 civil rights is a horrible thing”, and I can’t comprehend what’s anti-Semitic or imperialistic about it. Also I’m sorry, but nazis are not the only people who genocided a bunch of people, breaking news. Nor did they invent armbands. Same goes for Japan in WWII.

And now for my favourite argument: Erwin is nazi because his name is Erwin and he was born on the same day than some nazi guy died… I won’t even talk about why this idea is hilariously stupid, I just want to appreciate the level of nitpicking that’s going on here.

So… yeah. People who have nothing else to do but to complain about the show they hate don’t matter. And people who consider themselves a part of the SnK fandom and still say this bs (yep, there are people who do that) are huge hypocrites. The heck are they doing in this fandom then?? Of course, any story is up to interpretation, but this is so backwards?

Sorry for rambling so much… anyways. We’re happy enough not to encounter any hate related to this topic, but we think it’s because we ship Ereri and people already hate us for that, so the majority of shit we get is related to that, I guess we’re a lost cause for them. We’ll see if anything happens after this post though.

But once again, I’m very sorry that you had to go through this. Please remember that this isn’t personal at all, and people who harass strangers on the internet just want to flex their high moral ground while acting like complete assholes. You don’t have to explain anything to them, you don’t have to talk to them, you don’t have to listen to them or give them any attention. I hope you’ll never stumble upon anything like this; but if you ever do, please block them, don’t even bother reading their attempts at “educate” you. Isn’t worth it.

Please have a good day, Tish. And everyone who’s reading this reply.

[ichimatsu-appreciation-blog]

Why I was inactive and probably won't be much active in near future as well

It's been a while since I last posted on tumblr (except of course for the previous post) and because of that I decided to make a quick update here. Just to clarify some stuff and all. I'm not sure how many of you know, but the reason why I'm so bad at updating and was/am on a hiatus is because I'm a very busy university student. Art university to be more specific, I'm currently in the 5th semester and will do my Bachelor next year. In the past six months I have been working on my very first animation short film and man, I'm still invested into it despite having submitted it to my prof for grading. As of now, I am tweaking it some more so it will be more suitable for film festivals. That's right, I'm going to submit my work to all kinds of festivals and hope for the best! However, because of that it won't be available to the public for a while, one year at minimum and two years at max. Then there's me neglecting another project that *is* dear to me but didn't have the same priority as my animation short. So I'm gonna work on it too, especially because my docent needs it asap so it can get graded haaah.... but I want it to be as perfect as possible so it can join my portfolio as well. Speaking of portfolios, I'm also working on another storyboard for my demo reel. My uni has a mandatory free semester in which we have to either study abroad or get an internship. I would love to work as storyboard artist or editor in *hopefully* Burbank, but I really need to step up my game. So I've been drawing as often as I can and practicing my voice acting. I'll probably end up having to record the dialogue on my phone because I can't be arsed to check out my uni's radio station, it would take me too long to figure that equipment out. The new semester started this week and I selected three projects (highly NOT recommended) because I'm a big dumdum. My prof is very concerned and anyone who hears about my true workload is side-eyeing me haha. But I know I can pull it off because I'm me which means a workaholic who may or may not is a bit insane and has a tendency to forget to eat and take breaks from working. Stupid jokes aside, I wouldn't have made that decision if I didn't know myself and my limits by now. I think that's all for now, man it got much longer than I intended it to. If you have any questions, feel free to send me an ask! Can be Ichimatsu/Osomatsu-san related but also if you have a question about art schools in general. Although I'm going to a German one, I'm sure that the principle is the same worldwide heh. I like to help people and I still remember how intimidated I was by the application process. Hell, I can relate now more than ever because I'm yet again intimidated by application processes that all these studios have. Okay that's it for now! See ya around for season 2 when I'll be taking breaks for Osomatsu-san and spoiling you guys with allllll tha Ichimatsu screenshots and caps! :3c