#with a mu si li novel

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Author of the Week: Mu Su Li/木苏里

Books I've Read:

Copper Coins

First-Class Lawyer

Global Examination

Unseen Immortal of Three Hundred Years

Panguan

Read If You Like: Quite honestly? Anything. You want horror? Global Examination and Panguan. You want futuristic? First-Class Lawyer and Night. You want modern-day? Panguan. Want ancient setting? Unseen Immortal and Copper Coins. You want cultivation? Panguan, Unseen Immortal, and Copper Coins. Truly Mu Su Li is so versatile it's mindboggling. Even if you don't like a certain genre or setting, they will have written something that has been translated that will satisfy your cravings, as long as what you want is a romance about two men falling head over heels for each other (possibly many, many times). I can't even say that the main characters are exactly the same, they feel unique to their settings and in their relationships. Absolutely check this author out when you get the chance!

Avoid If You Don't Like: Honestly, the only thing I can think of that might be a turn-off is the amnesia trope. This author loves using memory loss/tampering as a plot-pusher, which may get repetitive for some, but it's always used in a unique way in each story so I don't mind. The only novel I've read so far that doesn't utilize that trope is First-Class Lawyer. But the stories, themselves, as so unique that if one doesn't match the vibe you want, you could easily pick up another that likely does. They are just that versatile. There are no downsides to trying this author out. Can't even say that common trigger content exists in their works outside of what you'd expect from the respective genre, like murder, mystery, and horror. If I had to say a negative, I'd just say that the worldbuilding in the futuristic settings are kinda not my thing (way too explanatory in a way that does not help me understand wtf is going on, but also I get confused easily by too-complex theoretical explanations), but that has never detracted from a story, so idk.

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13 Books!

Yoinking this meme from @profiterole-reads

The Last Book I Read: I finished the YA graphic novel Kiss Number 8 by Colleen AF Venable last night.

A Book I Recommend: there aren't many books I'd recommend without knowing who I'm recommending it to, but The Alienist by Caleb Carr is fantastic.

A Book That I Couldn't Put Down: Little Mushroom by Shi Si

A Book I've Read Twice (or More): the Elenium trilogy by David Eddings

A Book on My TBR: my "next ups" are Thousand Autumns vol. 4 by Meng Xi Zhi and Mooncakes by Suzanne Walker.

A Book I've Put Down: it's been a long time since I've really had a DNF? One of the first books I can ever remember DNFing, when I was young, was book 1 of The Dragonriders of Pern by Anne McCaffrey, I just couldn't get into it.

A Book on My Wishlist: I don't have a wish list, most of what I want is pre-ordered and I'll get it when it's available.

A Favorite Book From Childhood: The Enchanted Forest Chronicles by Patricia C. Wrede

A Book You Would Give to a Friend: again it depends on the friend???? idek I don't think I can answer this one, no book is universal.

A Book of Poetry or Lyrics You Own: Leaves of Grass by Walt Whitman

A Non-Fiction Book You Own: all of Stephen Sears Civil War battle analyses are fantastic.

What are You Currently Reading: Copper Coins by Mu Su Li

What Are You Planning on Reading Next: I already answered this on the "a book on my TBR" one, didn't realize it'd come up again, oops.

Tagging: anyone who wants to play! <3

[li-vera]

Any light novels you’d recommend? :D

I've been reading a lot of Chinese danmei novels lately. It's difficult to recommend something because everyone has different tastes. But I can mention my favorites :D

Of the authors, I probably like Mu Su Li, Huaishan and T97 the most.

Mu Su Li:

• “Global Examination” is the story that actually fell into all my favorite plot tropes and is the first novel of the “unlimited flow” genre that I read (⁠人⁠*⁠´⁠∀⁠｀⁠)⁠｡⁠*ﾟ⁠+

• "First-class lawyer" - there's a bit of the "Ace Attorney" game vibe here and I like it (⁠≧⁠▽⁠≦⁠)

• "Black sky" - still in the process of reading, but again my favorite dynamic is enemies-lovers (⁠ ͡⁠°⁠ ͜⁠ʖ⁠ ͡⁠°⁠)

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Huaishan:

• Po yun duology (“Breaking through the clouds” and “Swallow the sea”) - I love the detective genre and it’s good here (⁠ ⁠ꈍ⁠ᴗ⁠ꈍ⁠)

• "HuiTian" is also still in progress. There's a lot of drama, but also a lot of moments where I laughed until my stomach hurt (⁠≧⁠▽⁠≦⁠)

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T97 (TangJiuqing)

• Most people probably know about her novel “Bring In The Wine” (I’m just planning to read it), but I really like her sci-fi novels. These are two related stories "Time-limited hunt" and "Right on target" It's a little dark and dystopian, but with a happy ending. “Time-limited hunt” is generally the most unusual story for me, which also shocked me a little with the climax of the plot.

Another plus is that the main character of “Right on target” is literally a cat-boy =^w^=

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Another favorite...

• "Dangerous personality" by Mu Gua Huang.

Also a detective and two main characters with unconventional thinking and investigative methods (which drives their policeman friend to a nervous tic :D). One of the main characters is severely mysophobic and has the ability of telepathy.

• "Little mushrooms" by Yi Si Shi Zhou.

There is a lot of tragedy and discussions about humanity here, but there is a happy ending. ಥ⁠‿⁠ಥ (Yeah, the main character is a mushroom that mutated into a human)

• "The Earth is online" by Mo Chen Huan.

Survival games with very tricky riddles, but at the same time with a degree of absurdity (where else will you see the main character fighting a huge talking turkey with a pink umbrella or a giant match???)

Very, very, veeeeery slow development of the relationship between the main characters, but filled with funny awkwardness (⁠.⁠ ⁠❛⁠ ⁠ᴗ⁠ ⁠❛⁠.⁠)

• "Survivorship bias" by Zhichu.

Also still in process. Survival games, unusual characters, and an amnesia trope (⁠ㆁ⁠ω⁠ㆁ⁠)

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Okay, I think I've mentioned all my favorites. Thanks for the question! (⁠≧⁠▽⁠≦⁠)

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Audio Drama: 天官赐福 | Tian Guan Ci Fu | Heaven Official’s Blessing

It’s coming!!! 

You might recognize most of the production team as the people who worked on the MDZS audio drama, so I’m very assured that they will only have grown more experienced. Tbh I’m a little surprised by the lead VAs...excited to hear what their performances will be like!

Even more exciting: apparently the audio drama has been adapted from the revised edition of TGCF which includes 100k extra words!!!

Below is a quick translation of the season one details.

S1 Details

Link: www.missevan.com/mdrama/52400

Length: 19 episodes

Airing Schedule: Fridays, beginning July 15, 2022

Cost: 319 diamonds. For two months starting from July 15, this drama will be free to listen. Regular paid listening will resume on September 16.

Production Team

Original Novel: MXTX

Planning/Executive Producer: Kuo Hao Jun 括号君

Scriptwriter: Liu Yin 六音

Post-Production: Xin Tong 新桐

Assistants: Er Ji 二吉 , Yu Chen 鱼宸 

Original BGM: Li Da Bai 李大白

Instrumental Recording: International Master Philharmonic Orchestra 国际首席爱乐乐团 IMPO

Art/Video: ARThorizon 绘享视界

Voice Team

Voice Acting Team: Jing Yun Kai Ge 鲸韵凯歌

Voice Director: Zhang Kai 张凯

Recording Engineers: Liu Yaxue 刘雅雪, Li Mian 李冕, Jiang Cong 姜聪

... ... ... 

Narrator: Zhang Yaohan 张遥函

Xie Lian: Su Shangqing 苏尚卿@西呱双

Hua Cheng: Chenzhang Taikang 陈张太康

Fu Yao/Mu Qing: Liu Sicen 刘思岑

Feng Xin/Nan Feng: Guo Haoran 郭浩然

Ling Wen: Ji Guanlin 季冠霖

Ming Yi: Peng Yao (San Tu Bi An) 彭尧@彭尧-三途彼岸

Pei Ming: Chen Guang (Chen Jiaheng) 陈光@陈光家恒

Pei Xiu: Wu Tao (Dao Mei Si Le) 吴韬 @倒霉死勒

Jun Wu: Chen Hao 陈浩

Ban Yue: Shan Xin 山新

Lang Qianqiu: Li Xin 李昕

Ke Mo: Tute Hameng 图特哈蒙

Xuan Ji: Qiu Qiu 邱邱

Shi Qingxuan: Qian Wenqing 钱文青

Other Participating Voice Actors: Cai Jie (蔡杰@CJCDD-), Li Wangsong (李望松@摩羯-阿松松松松), Shao Chenliang (邵晨亮@c位不出道), Zhang Zhen/Lin Feng (张振@在下林风), Liu Zheng (刘峥@斗珂), Zhang Jiaqi (张加麒@张如麟), Liu Yiming (刘一鸣@痞人姓刘), Xu Kai (许凯@山己几X), Li Jiaxiang (李嘉祥@优叉UX), Lin Boqing (林柏青@詹永兵的好朋友), Li Haojia (李昊甲@最后的都灵人), Li Jiasi (李佳思@光的岸面), Li Yemeng (李叶萌@肆鸢), Yu Minglu (于鸣鹿@火不土), Su La (苏拉@亲爱的苏), Zhang Yuwei (张宇微@夕棠-就是喜糖啊), Xie Ziwei (谢子溦@Viona嘴嘴), Liu Yuanyuan (刘媛媛@画大染), Gao Yixue (高一雪@思凡吧喳嘿), Yu Mengci (余梦慈@晶玉瑪瑙)

[tentative-wanderer]

Popular and popular-ish danmei books I ditched due to ➡️personal⬅️ tastes:

(Been a while since I attempted reading these, so if there are minor inaccuracies below, that’s why.)

• First-Class Lawyer/Yi Ji Lǚ Shi 一级律师 by Mu Su Li: the trials in the book are not bound by the laws of our real-world countries, and that’s fine, but I doubt that any fair legal system will allow major surprise evidence/arguments to be sprung on a party during the trial. To address each side’s reasoning properly during the trial, parties have to receive and get to know each other’s general arguments before the trial. How can you prepare a proper defence if you don’t understand the reasons and evidence behind the accusation? How can the prosecution deal with the defendant’s counter-arguments if they don’t know what they are until the last minute? Everyone has to generally understand each other’s POV beforehand. Furthermore, evidence has to be submitted for approval by the court before the trial to filter out irrelevant, bias-inducing evidence.

—From what I remember from my law course, that’s roughly how it works in the U.K., and I think that’s a fair way of doing things so I’d bet most civilised societies do that. The surprise-evidence plot twist smelled too illegal to me, so I was put off from reading the rest of the book.

• Priest’s books:

1. Sha Po Lang 杀破狼: stories with ancient yet non-xianxia/wuxia settings tend to bore me. Ancient yet non-xianxia/wuxia means the plot likely revolves around politicking and sometimes war, which I don’t like when they come in large (and male-dominated) spades because they’re too dry for me.

2 & 3. Tian Ya Ke 天涯客, Liu Yao 六爻: I love xianxia and wuxia so I thought I’d love these, but I just couldn’t keep reading far enough. Things were happening, but they weren’t riveting. I couldn’t get attached to the characters.

4. Zhen Hun 镇魂: I couldn’t get into it, partly because “modern + superpowers” isn’t a setting I usually like. (I do like it if it comes with a generous serving of humour, like in Depressed Husbands Want to Live a Peaceful Life by Cyan Wings.) Things were happening, but they weren’t riveting.

5. Mo Du 默读: one reason why I couldn’t get into it is because it’s a police story. Strangely, I love mysteries but not danmei police investigation novels, though I hope I’ll come to like them one day. (But I like police investigation fics! I guess I need to feel an attachment to characters first before they get involved in policing.) Another reason why I dropped it is that as I read many chapters into the book, there was still very little progress on solving a core mystery that the author periodically hinted it. It was kept very shadowy and vague, and while this can be acceptable in books, it was frustrating here because there weren’t other things along the way that made me feel “oh this is a fun journey”.

• Criminal Psychology/Fan Zui Xin Li 犯罪心理 by Chang Er: it’s a police story, so the first reason as the one for Mo Du applies

• Qiang Jin Jiu 将进酒 by Tang Jiu Qing: same reason as Sha Po Lang

• Golden Stage/Huang Jin Tai 黄金台 by Cang Wu Bin Bai: same reason as Sha Po Lang

• Thousand Autumns/Qian Qiu 千秋 by Meng Xi Shi: I found the protagonist, romantic relationship, and events (as far as I managed to read them) bland

• Little Mushroom/Xiao Mo Gu 小蘑菇 by Yi Shi Si Zhou: interesting setting, but there are three things preventing me from liking the book:

1. I usually don’t like danmei books that are wholly set in a futuristic dystopia. I don’t read danmei to enjoy imagining a world/society that’s similar to ours but more oppressive/painful.

2. The protagonist’s personality is too mild for me, and the love interest’s personality isn’t a type I like either.

3. Female suffering. I can’t forget that part of the book because it’s so realistic (kudos to the author), it feels like shit that would actually happen if our world were to face those conditions. Good for the story, but I read danmei to feel semi-free from gender inequality, so it’s not great for me personally.

• Tong Qian Kan Shi 铜钱龛世 by Mu Su Li: the plot and characters weren’t attractive enough

• Supernatural Movie Actor App 灵异片演员app by Xi Zi Ji Jiu: the horror wasn’t horrifying enough and the protagonist tried too hard to seem impressive

• Qi Zi 契子 by Yi Xiu Luo: the systemic inequality within spousal relationships in the book is too huge and oppressive for me to enjoy the story

• Ru Xi 入戏 by Tong Zi/Zhe Yi Mei Zhen: racist, and based on the part I read, it looks like it’s on track to treat its female characters badly too

• Welcome to the Nightmare Livestream 欢迎进入梦魇直播间 by Sang Wo: 1) it feels too video-game-like and unrealistic (some books, but not this one, have fantasy settings that feel viable, like they could actually exist); 2) I’m not attached to the protagonist, and 3) there is very little interaction between the protagonist and love interest.

• Pan Guan 判官 by Mu Su Li: I wasn’t attached to the characters

• Quan Qiu Gao Kao 全球高考 by Mu Su Li: I wasn’t attached to the characters

• 万诱引力 Law of Universal Enticement/Wan You Yin Li by 骑鲸南去 Qi Jing Nan Qu: great pun for the Mandarin title, but I don’t like settings that are too game-like; the two main characters were too perfect in some ways; and the method used by a character to successfully solve a problem in the very first arc was too unrealistic.

• 反派他过分美丽 The Villain, He’s Excessively Beautiful by 骑鲸南去 Qi Jing Nan Qu: I only remember that I gradually lost interest in the plot. I might try to read this book again, but actually probably not; I’ve given second chances to highly recommended books that I couldn’t manage to like in the past, and I’ve never once succeeded.

• Some books by Yang Su 杨溯: a bit like Priest’s books, they fall into the category of “things were happening but they were strangely not riveting enough”.

1. 渡厄 Du E (I won’t attempt to translate this title before finishing the book in case it doesn’t convey the right meaning): I tried reading this novel twice—that was how much I wanted to like it

2. 嫁魔 Marrying the Demon/Jia Mo

3. 督主有病 The Governer is Ill/Du Zhu You Bing

Among Yang Su’s books, I liked 深眠 Deep Sleep/Shen Mian and 凶祟 Creature of Malignance/Xiong Sui, the former more than the latter even though the love interest in the latter is one of my favourites. This is because the former is a shorter book with a brisker pace. Taking that factor into account alongside the books I dropped, it seems that I find Yang Su’s longer works draggy with too much space in between the hooks.

• 蝶变 Butterfly Metamorphosis/Die Bian by 麟潜 Lin Qian: I don’t like settings that feel like video games

• 桐花中路私立协济医院怪谈 Scary Stories About the Privately Funded Hospital at Tonghua Middle Road by 南琅要减肥 Nan Lang Yao Jian Fei: frequently recommended on Weibo when I looked up danmei horror novels, but I really don’t think it warrants such high praise. The writing quality is not high and up to the parts where I dropped it, it wasn’t very scary. I tried it twice.

• 我在惊悚游戏里封神 I Attained Godhood in a Horror Game by 壶鱼辣椒 Hu Yu La Jiao: not scary. Not riveting either.

• 南禅 Nan Chan by 唐酒卿 Tang Jiu Qing: the main characters’ personalities and plot weren’t interesting enough before I dropped it, though there was a mystery/adventure brewing

• 不见上仙三百年 The Immortal Unseen for Three Hundred Years by 木苏里 Musuli: see here

• 闲与仙人扫落花 by 归鸿落雪: the world is cruel, but far more damningly, the main characters are too cold-blooded

• The Consequences of Mistakenly Saving the Villain 论救错反派的下场 by Feng Yu Nie 凤羽涅: I can’t clearly remember all the reasons why I dropped it, but I didn’t like the protagonist enough—was it some vague (fake?) Gary Stu vibes? Can’t remember—and the writing quality was not very high.

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Danmei books that fit my tastes:

[coolgenie]

This is my 1st time ever actually participating in a tag game! Thank you to @7nessasaryevils for tagging me <3 Will only include explicit BL content here so as much as I love The Untamed, Guardian, etc. I won’t be including them.

1. your all time favorite bl and why

Bad Buddy. I remember when news, promo pics, and trailers 1st dropped for this series in December of 2020. I spent the majority of 2021 WAITING and had begun to think it’d be delayed but then it finally premiered and holy crap it did NOT disappoint! It’s such a refreshing take on a classic story. Our leads have phenomenal chemistry and they’re allowed to be casually intimate in ways that REAL couples are. They’re also the healthiest couple I can recall ever having seen portrayed in media. Their communication is so sexy. The story itself is progressive in how it subverts, actively addresses, and debunks typical and often toxic BL tropes. I could honestly go on forever. Needless to say, this BL has raised the standard for all shows that I watch.

2. that one bl that scarred you for life

Haven’t had any Thai bl scar me yet. That honor primarily goes to Taiwan and 2 come to mind for different reasons.

The 1st is History 4: Close to You. Ye Xing Si and Fu Yong Jie are the most toxic couple I’ve ever had the misfortune of knowing. Watching their entire dynamic made me extremely uncomfortable and angry.

The 2nd is History 3: Make Our Days Count…If any drama should be paying for therapy bills, it’s this one. If you know, you know.

Honorable Mention: Guardian. Know I said I was only gonna include explicit BL content but this one hurt me too much not to acknowledge. I read the nearly 1000 page novel immediately afterwards to heal my bleeding heart.

3. is there any bl that made you feel very single?

Kieta Hatsukoi (aka Vanishing My First Love - aka My Love MixUp!). They were just so sweet and soft and normal. There were no supernatural elements or dramatic setups. Just 2 lovely people getting to know each other and coming to love and respect one another.

4. if you could change one thing from a bl, which one would it be?

“I’m not gay I just like this one guy…” Fuck right off with this bullshit. Being gay is not a sin and bisexuality (& pansexuality) exists!

5. That one bl you detest (don’t hold back):

EDIT - Whoops! Missed this one! THARNTYPE! Actors have great chemistry but the characters and their relationship are toxic as fuck byeeee

6. your top five:

This was hard and honestly subject to perpetual waffling after the 1st 3 that I’ve listed.

Bad Buddy - My #1 <3

I Told Sunset About You - I mean the TENSION. You could cut it with a knife. Great storytelling, directing, cinematography, acting. It drags you through the emotional ringer and it’s worth it.

Sotus - Look. Quality wise…I know it’s not necessarily amazing but those characters hooked their claws in me and I still love them to pieces.

We Best Love (season 1) - As I’m writing this I’m just now having the revelation that I am apparently obsessed with “rivals to lovers” storylines lol It just makes for such a fun dynamic. This drama is short and sweet and such a comfort watch for me.

My Engineer - Absolutely hilarious with such a great cast of characters.

7. that trashy bl that you lowkey like

In direct contradiction to my previous answer about History 4: Close To You scarring me…Xiao Li Cheng and Teng Mu Ren were super likable and had great chemistry. No idea how the same writers who created this delightful couple ALSO created the aforementioned toxic couple from hell.

8. your favorite korean bl (it’s important we know)

Where Your Eyes Linger. It was the 1st Korean bl I saw and I believe among the 1st made. The chemistry between the two leads was just too good. The way Kang Gook quietly yearns in silence for years while Tae Joo immediately starts toeing the line (much to Kang Gook’s torment) as soon as he realizes his own feelings. The way Tae Joo is technically in a position of power since Kang Gook is essentially his body guard but how their years of friendship muddy those waters. Tae Joo’s emotional vulnerability in contrast to Kang Gook’s surface level stoicism. Ugh. Fucking love it.

9. but also your top 3 for kbls

Where Your Eyes Linger

Light On Me - 10 out of 10. So sweet. Perpetually on the verge of edging WYEL out of the #1 spot.

Color Rush - I didn’t love the execution but I loved the concept and the leads were great.

10. season 2? which one?

My Engineer!!! I need more RamKing and also Thara and Frong. I’m still reeling from Thara’s oblivious “brother” bullshit. You know Frong be listening to Nanon’s “Just Friends” on repeat after that lol The sheer ridiculousness of this show brings me so much joy. I can’t wait for more.

11. a bunch of dramas will air soon. which ones are you the most excited for?

KinnPorchse - The development hell this drama got stuck in has had me stressed! Thankfully it seems to be coming along now.

Check Out - Just from the promo pics, the chemistry between these leads already looks great.

12. tag them!

@gguklita @jemmo @actually-yikes @yukikinns @asliceofoceanmist @ilove-gaycouples @that-bl-bitch @gracethegriffin @vaipou @gguklita @topcatnikki

[alphafemalecarla]

On that note what bls danmeis etc would u recommend me like what r ur favs

ooooOOOOOOOOO OK OK probably moumou by mu su li? its a slice of life novel with the most perfect combination of fluff angst SO MUCH ANGST and also lots of food for thought? like yanno ✨complex feelings✨ etc etc and please dont believe the summary no jiang tian is not homophobic and no sheng wang in not super straight

if you want ahem ✨existential crisis✨ then id suggest xiao mo gu by yi zhi si zhou. a lot more plot heavy. lots of food for thought here too with the most amazing protag and love interest. I LOVE THEM SO MUCH T-T oh also yea the existential crisis. lots of that too. OH ALSO VERY ANGSTY I CRIED EVERY TEN CHAPTERS LMAOOOOO

other than that ig the big three by mo xiang tong xiu and 2ha

the rest ive read arent bad by any means but they just didnt click the same way so

thats about it! hmu if you end up reading these btw :D

[shypotato-translations]

QTVW Chapter 4

Future* President's Fiancee (IV)

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An Mu Lan sat in the lounge, contemplating how to take revenge on Zhang Yao.

In terms of where Zhang Yao is depicted in the plot, she is a ruthless person with a heart of stone and an obsession with Ling Xihan that goes beyond imagination; unlike the others in the novel, she is very wary of her current self, which is not favourable for her to secretly exact revenge.

Thinking of this, An Mu Lan had an ominous feeling in her heart, Zhang Yao had treated the fiancées chosen by Ling Xihan, all at the first opportunity, and destroyed them with malicious tricks, so it seemed that Zhang Yao might strike at her soon. An Mu Lan shuddered at the thought of what that woman had done to the original owner.

She gritted her teeth and secretly thought to herself: She must not let go of Ling Xihan during this period of time, and must never give Zhang Yao the chance to harm her.

With this in mind, she took a college textbook out of her backpack and read it while keeping an eye out for people coming around her.

After waiting for an unknown period of time, An Mu Lan suddenly felt that someone was looking at her, she immediately raised her head and blinked to see that outside the lounge, Ling Xihan was discussing something with a group of people, that gaze just now was probably a casual glance from Ling Xihan.

When An Mu Lan saw the right person coming, she stuffed her books into her bag, and before she could walk over, Ling Xihan, who was on the other side, had already ended the conversation, and she walked over at that moment with a frown, looked at her, and asked with a cold face,

"What brings you here?"

An Mu Lan's expression froze and she stood up a little shakily, whispering to her,

"I ...... I prepared some lunch at home and thought it was mealtime and you probably hadn't eaten so I came over to give it... I'm sorry to have come so hastily and disturbed you? I'll leave now."

Ling Xihan also saw the lunchbox sitting on the sofa, and she narrowed her eyes at her and said,

"Now that you're here, come up with me."

As she spoke, she walked towards the door, tossed the stack of papers in her hand to the assistant on the side, gave a few words and headed for the lift.

An Mu Lan breathed a sigh of relief and thought: No matter what, we've passed this hurdle now!

She packed her school bag, then carried her lunchbox from the sofa and went after Ling Xihan.

When the two of them took the lift and reached the highest floor of the building, Ling Xihan passed Zhang Yao without a glance and walked towards the president's lounge at the far end of the building.

An Mu Lan glanced at the forlorn and sinister expression on Zhang Yao's face, and her steps became even larger as she hurriedly followed half a metre behind Ling Xihan.

The two entered the lounge one after another, Ling Xihan unbuttoned the top two buttons of her shirt and her delicate white collarbones were exposed, she sat casually on the chicly styled sofa, looking somewhat carelessly seductive.

An Mu Lan looked around the room and sat down on the sofa not far from Ling Xihan's side, she unpacked the lunch box and placed the meal inside on the wooden table nearest to Ling Xihan.

Having done so, with a subtle smile on her face, she said,

"I thought that the meals outside were mechanical and tasted rather monotonous, so I took it upon myself to come and bring you your meals, next time I will let you know in advance, and I hope you will not be angry with me."

With that, she handed the chopsticks to Ling Xihan and then looked at her with shining eyes.

Ling Xihan shook her head and said,

"Tomorrow at this time, you can just come straight to this lounge and wait for me."

In other words, she had given permission to An Mu Lan's actions.

An Mu Lan curled the corners of her mouth and sat down on the sofa, her eyes surveying the lounge.

She found that the style of decoration here was very similar to that of Ling Xihan's villa. The furniture here was monotonous, just two brown sofas of the same style, two short wooden tables, the rest of the place was empty, the colour of the walls and floor, all in serious cold tones, and this room was extraordinarily large, all these added up to bring a feeling of silence.

An Mulan sat quietly and waited until Ling Xihan had eaten her lunch, then she immediately helped to tidy up her lunch box, while Ling Xihan on one side looked at her with a sidelong glance and said to her,

"Tonight at the Li residence, there is a birthday party, you stay here and come with me when the time comes."

The Li family banquet? An Mu Lan's heart moved and her face smiled as she said,

"Okay."

Ling Xihan didn't stay in the lounge for long before she went out to work, An Mu Lan immediately followed her, Ling Xihan felt that she was extraordinarily close to her today, and after thinking about it, it was a good thing, so she didn't refuse her to follow her, and took her to the president's office next door.

An Mu Lan walked into the office against Zhang Yao's man-eating gaze, chose a chair nearby and sat down, watching Ling Xihan walk to her desk and check the signed documents. She also opened her backpack, took out the book she had been reading earlier and read it carefully.

But in her mind, she was recalling information about the Li family.

The Li family, a military and political family, is one of the three most famous families in the future world, along with the An family and the Qin family, and Ling Xihan has long been planning to enter the political world, so the Li family is also the one she needs to pay attention to.

After all, this is the first time that Ling Xihan has taken herself out, that is, to the outside media and the family, indicating the union of the two families, she will definitely be introduced to the people that Ling Xihan knows tonight, so this banquet in the evening, she must behave well and score extra points in the heart of Ling Xihan.

In the original owner's memory, she did not attend this party, because at that time, she was already locked up by Father An because of her withdrawal, and only afterwards did the original owner intermittently learn that the protagonist of this birthday party was none other than the eldest daughter of the Li family, Li Jiarou, whose twentieth birthday was that day.

Li Jiarou is also a pitiful person, and when she is mentioned, the book has a line about her: A noble woman with a delicate heart.

Since she was the only daughter of the Li family, she was treated very well by the Li family, so many celebrities were invited to this birthday party.

The banquet was a great success and the announcement of the marriage between the Li and Zhang families was made at the beginning.

But the next day, the major newspapers and media published a news article, "Li family's daughter, let loose, what is the reason for the **? The news was published. In the morning of the second day of the party, Li Jiarou was naked and entangled with seven or eight men in full view of the public.

Li Jialuo's reputation was immediately tarnished, the union was ruined and she committed suicide that day.

It is only in the middle of the novel that the truth of the matter is told in the mouth of the young master of the Zhang family, Zhang Yao's own brother.

In fact, it is the young master of the Zhang family, who has fallen in love with the heroine and is very dissatisfied with his marriage partner, but cannot refuse because of family reasons, so he thinks of such a way to solve the marriage problem and suppress the Li family's power, so that the family, which has been inherited for thousands of years, is finally ruined.

When An Mu Lan saw the plot, she said in her heart: The heroine in this novel is really a Mary Sue, all men fall under her skirt and all women end up in a bad way.

This kind of brain-damaged plus trivial novel is exactly the system's 'true love' ah, she as the virtual time and space manager, under the system's random screening, enter the mission world, complete the task, is also considered a de facto management of virtual time and space order.

An Mu Lan suddenly thought: this evening is the time for the banquet, she might be able to counter-use this matter to strike a good blow at the Zhang family forces and solve a big problem in her heart.

So, for the rest of the day, An Mu Lan spent the rest of the night in her head, rehearsing the flow of the evening's banquet, memorising all the key points in her head, and then waiting with wariness for the official opening.

She raised her head in a good mood and looked at the office, then her eyes naturally fell on Ling Xihan's body.

Ling Xihan was sitting in her office chair at this time, her face still had a cold and ruthless expression, her lips pursed up, her eyebrows gently knitted, the documents in her hands were converted very quickly, she stopped from time to time, then looked down again to sign something quickly and smoothly, her serious working appearance looked really eye catching.

Perhaps it was really because she was in a good mood that made An Mu Lan's gaze much bolder. Her gaze traced Ling Xihan's features, from her nicely shaped eyebrows to her narrow, dark eyes, her nose was straight, and her lips were very well shaped, with light pink lips that were slightly out of keeping with her temperament, but this face, indeed, was beautiful enough.

Even in this future world where everyone is beautiful, her face stands out!

An Mu Lan looked on with a smile, her eyes suddenly met with a pair of eyes that didn't show any emotion, and with a shudder she heard the owner of the eyes say,

"What are you looking at me for?"

"You look beautiful,"

An Mulan blurted out the words, then her heart rang with alarm, immediately seeing the other party's eyes narrowed, she had a thought and continued softly,

"...... I love it."

Her cheeks flushed when she said it.

Perhaps these words touched Ling Xihan's sensitive nerves, she let out a light laugh, tossed the pen in her hand to the side casually, then got up and walked in front of An Mu Lan, leaned over and pressed herself, her slim but tall figure completely enveloped the small An Mu Lan underneath.

She lifted An Mu Lan's chin in a frivolous movement, and her white, slightly cool fingertips slid down her cheeks to An Mu Lan's lips, then pressed and rubbed, as if feeling the softness of her lips with her fingers.

It was the first time that An Mu Lan had been so lightly and flirtatiously treated, and she was truly embarrassed, yet she was suppressed by the other party's aura and could not move, so she could only sit there, blushing.

An Mu Lan felt the fingers on her lips, tinged with her body heat, become warm, then those fingers suddenly increased in strength, picking down her lower lip, two fingers immediately knocking open her teeth and pushing in.

Two fingers made a mess of her mouth, pressing her palate one moment, pinning her tongue and molesting her the next, even shoving it harder and deeper inside, causing tears to well up in An Mu Lan's eyes in discomfort.

Ling Xihan's slightly narrowed eyes, looking at the girl's red cheeks, eyes with watery mist, clear tears as well as saliva crossing over, adding a few **/delicious tones to this scene.

Satisfied, she drew back her hand and rubbed her still salivated fingers over An Mu Lan's cheek, sliding it down one side of her earlobe to her collarbone, and only when she felt An Mu Lan's rapidly beating heart did she slowly draw back her hand and turn to walk back to her desk.

All that was left was a dumbfounded An Mu Lan, a flash of shame and anger on her face, and then a frantic cry in her mind: Hey! Have you washed your hands yet!?

Ling Xihan took out a tissue from the table to wipe her hands, then tapped on the electronic screen and said to the assistant on the other side of the screen,

"Bring over two gowns, one in my daily size and one in a princess dress."

The person across the screen seemed to ask some kind of question, then Ling Xihan turned around abruptly, sized up An Mu Lan from head to toe, and said

"36, 24, 34."

Then hung up the call.

A bunch of mud horses were running wild in An Mu Lan's head! How could this woman tell her 3 sizes just by visual observation!?

After this, until the little assistant brought in the dress, An Mu Lan kept her head hanging low, as if some precious flower had bloomed on the floor of President Ling, looking at it without blinking her eyes.

After placing the dress on the sofa, the assistant closed the door and left.

An Mu Lan looked at the dreamy pink dress, lifted it up and shook it, then turned it around several times and asked in a small voice,

"Is it time to change?"

Ling Xihan nodded and came over to pick up her dark-toned gown, saying,

"We'll be leaving in a few minutes, so change now."

With that, she began to unbutton her shirt one by one, locking her gaze on An Mu Lan.

She found that although Ling Xihan was tall and slim, her body had material where there should be flesh, her waist was particularly long, and under the wide shirt, her waist was terribly slim, but it did not give the impression of being fragile at all, because on it, there was a vague outline of four pieces of abs.

An Mu Lan: So strong!

Ling Xihan raised her eyebrows and took off her trousers and clothes, then asked indifferently while doing so,

"Get changed, what's the point of dawdling."

An Mu Lan felt that something was wrong, she felt that this person was very powerful, how did she manage to remain as calm as she could be in this ambiguous atmosphere? Facial paralysis is such a good thing!

As she furiously complained, she scowled and took off her coat and changed into her dress in a swift manner, only to have a tragic slip up.

Her hair, got caught in the zip on the back of her dress.

Ling Xihan had already changed into her dress, the long tight dress wrapped her figure perfectly, she looked at An Mu Lan who was busy, and then asked with great interest,

"Do you want me to help you?"

An Mu Lan immediately gave her a pitiful teary-eyed look, Ling Xihan couldn't help but laugh as she walked over, her slightly cool fingers seemingly unconsciously running across An Mu Lan's back, causing her body to tremble.

She turned her head carefully, the look of resignation on her face could not be concealed, Lingshihan suddenly felt guilty, she moved quickly to take out the hair in the zip, pulled the zip back, and secretly thought in her heart: this pitiful and innocent expression really suits An Mu Lan, she was eager to try it, thinking that maybe she could bully her like this more often in the future.

The unsuspecting An Mu Lan: ......

The author has something to say: Poor newbie begging for favorites and comments. （づ￣3￣）づ╭?～

For the sake of the review, my high-spirited demeanour, ruined! _(:зゝ∠)_

[mxtxfanatic]

Book of the Week: Unseen Immortal of Three Hundred Years

Author: Mu Su Li (木苏里)

Genre: cultivation, ancient setting, danmei

Rating: T

My Synopsis: Wu Xingxue thinks he's transmigrated into a xianxia novel. The rest of the world thinks the most fearsome demon in existence has broken out of the most impenetrable prison in existence. Xiao Fuxuan doesn't know how to break it to any party involved that their worldviews may be wrong...

My Review: I've never seen a couple in a cnovel as of yet that loves kissing at any opportunity than the main couple in this novel, and I am here for it! They remind me of a more overtly affectionate wangxian, and Wu Xingxue falls exactly into the niche of playful, teasing MCs who are good at bullshitting that Mu Si Li seems to have a lock on writing. The multiple intertwining stories as well as the mystery that the main characters must unravel as to what connects them all is very well put-together, and I loved the little breadcrumbs the author left early on that become vital to the plot near the end. The fan translation I read is also good in that it's understandable, but the dialogue choice is very... why do these character switch between Old English and American Southern dialect??? Why does this translator draaaaawl out random words that characters say??? Some translator quirks you simply have to close your eyes to in order to enjoy the actual novel, and the dialogue choices are this novel's "quirks."

Translation: complete fan translation but recently licensed by 7seas

[oreocheesecakeshake]

So I finally got around to watching history 4:close to you ...the stepbrothers -man that's some toxic shit ... manipulation ,r*pe ,drugging

Ah ,geez .I am appalled

Step brothers being in love is not a trope I am fond of me but this..... Consent is important,guys

Yes ,there have been occasions in media where there has been the portrayal of a black bellied ml and an innocent ml or vice versa -it's an interesting trope -if done well .even when tricks and emotional manipulation - as in throwing tantrums over trivial things -that's okay -that's doable .but they shouldn't harm one another (mentally, emotional or physically ) and that was abuse. There's no other term for it .no matter how sad of a sob story fu Yong jie had ,it doesn't change that he abused ye xing si .

On the other hand,mu ren and li Cheng were plenty cute ,the actors had good chemistry .was there story anything new ? No ,it was all the tried and tested old tropes of bl .the writing even felt lazy at times but it was watchable - having cliches is not a problem -i have read lots of fanfiction,web novels with the same themes,tropes ,I don't tire of it .but romanticising r*pe is not okay .

[eternalgenie]

Eastern Palace Reading Guide+Epilogue Summary (Heavy Spoilers)

Fei Wo Si Cun’s Eastern Palace has been invading my feeling heavily for these past few days. I started reading the novel only a year ago since I’ve heard many good (bad) review of it. Some called it “the ultimate tragic story in the history of romance C-novels”. And that tells A LOT. 

Long story short, since I knew that the novel isn’t completely translated I just let it be. Until early this year when I decided to gear up for the release of the drama adaptation, I found the summary spoiler-y page for the rest of the chapters that havent been translated. I read it, and.. I was so devastated...

Li Cheng Yin and Xiao Feng are....that thing... They conspicuously have infiltrated every quarter of my being. That being said I will definitely write more about them. This particular post is just gonna be a simple and summary guide to the Eastern Palace novel and its epilogue+a few additional chapters. 

THE WRITING UNDER NUMBER 3 CONTAINS HEAVY SPOILERS, PROCEED ONLY IF YOU HAVE DONE NUMBER 1 AND 2.

How to read Eastern Palace in order.

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Let’s start with the translated chapters of Eastern Palace. There are a total of 42 chapters + epilogue chapter in Eastern Palace. Novel Update has them translated up to chapter 25, and here is the link https://www.novelupdates.com/series/eastern-palace/ 

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Next, to get insight into what happens more in the flashback and what happens after chapter 25, basically you can go to this page, link http://xia0yuer.tumblr.com/post/24595824421/review-of-eastern-palace-and-scene-translation-an?is_related_post=1#axzz5fgRstQdU they did a one chapter translation and brief summary for the rest of the story.

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So we have arrived at the edge of our demise. How could a story be this tragic, how could a character be this cruel. We all hate Li Cheng Yin. We root and cry for Xiao Feng. I was looking for an answer and it happened when an amazing Twitter friend of mine, Riya, who have read the rest of the chapters and the epilogue by herself enlightened me when I asked her opinion on whether Li Cheng Yin have truly loved Xiao Feng or not. She then told me the detailed explanation on what happened in the epilogue. I also then braved to read the epilogue myself. 

I’ll give you the link to our Twitter conversation and the original novel (below this summary)

Twitter Conversation 1

Twitter Conversation 2

Twitter Conversation 3

Twitter Conversation 4

From Pei Zhao chapter, it is said that Li Cheng Yin never believed in the river of forgetfulness. So he was certain he will die with Xiao Feng the first time they jumped into the river. The second time Xiao Feng tried to kill herself, he was ready to jump following her but Pei Zhao held him back.

Pei Zhao also mentioned when he rescued both Li Cheng Yin and Xiao Feng from the river the first time they jumped together, he saw how their hands are tied together with a belt. Pei Zhao thought the prince must be wanting to be together with Xiao Feng in death.

The epilogue is set 30 years after Xiao Feng’s death and is in the POV of Pei Zhao’s son. Pei Zhao also had a daughter named Liu Niang (which eventually ended up together with Li Mu, Li Cheng Yin's son-this was written as separate short story). From here we learned that Li Cheng Yin had only two kids from different concubines. The two kids were also a daughter and a son, the daughter was named Chaoyang, while the son was named Li Mu (Amu). It is told that Chaoyang received Li Cheng Yin’s full love and was the most carefree and cherished person in the palace.

Li Cheng Yin conferred a title Queen of Mingde for his beloved crown princess Xiao Feng. It is also said that Li Cheng Yin never take anyone as his official empress after he took the throne as The Emperor.

Liu Niang, Amu, and Chaoyang liked to play together and they were close to each other. Li Cheng Yin believed Chaoyang was his daughter with Xiao Feng and told everyone that she really resembled Xiao Feng. In actuality, she wasn’t. Li Niang and Amu once asked a nanny is it true that Chaoyang looked like the late crown princess (Queen Mingde) and the nanny answered she actually did not. The nanny then described Queen Mingde as someone who is so beautiful and although she has thin and pale body, her beauty did not look anything like Central Plains’ women.

Eventually Chaoyang died. Li Niang and Amu were deeply sad about her death but she thought to herself that there was other person that was far more affected by Chaoyang’s death, and that was The Emperor.

Pei Zhao visited The Emperor in his old age and convinced him that Xiao Feng was long dead and Chaoyang was also not her daughter. Li Cheng Yin refused to believe it and kept saying that she was only going back to Xi Liang. Pei Zhao added a little detail by saying that more than 10 years ago he visited Xiao Feng’s grave and the grass was already so full, meaning that Xiao Feng had long gone and The Emperor should accept it

Some other additional details that Riya found from FWSC weibo and other fans’ page

Li Cheng Yin came across Xu Baolin (who was wearing red dress at that time) when he was drunk and fell for her silhouette that reminded him of Xiao Feng. Hence, Xu Baolin is pregnant.

FWSC wrote a deleted scene in the epilogue. Not long after Chaoyang’s death, Li Cheng Yin passed the kingdom to his son and he went to wall from where Xiao Feng jumped. He jumped and successfully took his own life in the same place Xiao Feng died.

The daughter name was named Chaoyang, but her pet name is actually A’Huang. Amu, her half brother liked to call him A’Huang too. It is said that the name A’Huang is based on the phoenix where the other word for phoenix was ‘Feng Huang’. So it might be related to Xiao Feng as well.

On the additional new scenes, it is revealed that Xiao Feng wasn’t actually her birth name and it was something like Malzima. It is the name of a tree with red leaves/maple. Gu Xiao Wu (Li Cheng Yin) told her that maple leaf is called “Feng” in Central Plains hence he gave her the name ‘Xiao Feng’, the ‘Xiao’ was added because there is ‘Xiao’ too in ‘Gu Xiao Wu’.

They had some pets together. She gave him her 2 gerbils to raise. One of them dies and he tries to find another gerbil which looks exactly the same because he didn't want to break her heart. 

Note that both Riya and I read the epilogue with the help of google translate. So please take this with a grain of salt as the translation may not be accurate but it did give a brief and general understanding as to what happened in the epilogue.

Link to the original novel

Thank you for reading until the end, hope we can be sad together! Also feel free to correct me and tell me if you have come across other posts that have done another translation or brief summary on the epilogue or additional chapters part :D

[lianyaaan]

22 Tahun

Rasanya baru kemarin aku nulis tentang masa pertumbuhanku hingga tahun ke-21 di sini. Sekarang udah 22 tahun aja. Gila, setahun cepet banget ya.

Rasanya baru kemarin aku matiin notif ulang tahun di semua sosmed (padahal udah setahun lalu, btw tumben banget kan! waktu aku smk boro2 matiin notif, malah suka pengumuman kalo minggu depan ultah wkwkwk), tak ada satupun yang ucap selamat ulang tahun di grup. Hitungan jari saja yang pc aku. Besoknya, EA main ke cirata, tak ada pula yg ingat kemarinnya aku ulang tahun wkwkwk beberapa hari setelahnya, Unpad wisuda, ku datang ke DU bersama beberapa teman. Tak ada satupun yg ingat aku ulang tahun wkwk

Tapi memang begitu tujuannya. Aku merasa terlalu lelah kalau setiap tahun harus membalas ucapan selamat tahun di grup (yg suuzon aku, hampir semuanya copy paste saja), yg entah berapa orang yg benar2 tulus mendoakan (soalnya aku sering gtu juga wkwk copy paste, maapkeun😂).

Tapi beberapa hari setelah itu tahun lalu, aku menyesal. Tiba2 aku ingat grup dakwah organizer. Entah kenapa aku merasa yakin kalau mereka tau aku ulang tahun, mereka mungkin akan mendoakanku dengan tulus, dengan doa yg baik2. Hehe bener ga temen2, DO? tapi yasudah lewat, jadi tidak apa.

Hari ini aku tetap mematikan notif (LINE), tapi lupa matiin notif facebook :(( wkwkwkwk Rencana nya ingin hening2 lagi tapi tidak jadi😂😂 Terima kasih teman2 yg sudah mendoakanku huhuhu aku senang banyak yg mendoakan lancar skripsi, sesuatu yg sangat kubutuhkan saat ini, terima kasih ya!!

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Waktu smk, beberapa teman mulai syi'ar tentang ulang tahun yang bukan bagian dari budaya islam. Tapi aku waktu itu jadi salah satu yg tidak terlalu mendukungnya wkwk

Ulang tahun memang bukan budaya islam, tapi bagiku, ulang tahun adalah momen yang bisa kita gunakan untuk menyenangkan satu orang minimal satu kali dalam satu tahun.

Di kelas, aku jadi salah satu yg paling suka mengkoordinir ulang tahun seseorang hehe Seneng aja gitu menjadikan seseorang spesial dalam satu hari. Satu hari di mana semua orang mengeluarkan waktu, tenaga, pikiran, buat orang itu. Kan kalo gaada momennya mah susah ya. Masa ojol2 ngasih surprise, kan kurang aja gitu motivasinya. Jadi begitulah aku menggunakan ulang tahun sebagai momen untuk menyenangkan seseorang.

Sampai hari ini mungkin aku masih sedikit setuju tentang hal itu, tapi kalo mindset yg sama diterapkan untuk diriku sendiri.... Rasanya gimana ya. Meminta orang untuk membuatku senang, menjadikanku spesial selama satu hari rasanya egois sekali wkwk Sebal sekali. Emang liana siapa dah. Ngerepotin banget lianaaaaa.

Ya kalau ada yang ngasih mah besyukur banget atuh. Tapi kalau merasa diri ini memang pantas mendapat sesuatu saat ulang tahun, kayanya engga banget deh.

Jadi ya seperti itu.

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Hari ini, karena usiaku sudah Taylor Swift jadikan sebagai judul lagu, aku mau jadikan momen ini sebagai momen flashback saja, tentang apa saja pelajaran penting yg sudah aku dapat selama 22 tahun ini--yg mana 2 di antaranya sudah aku post beberapa hari yg lalu di sini hehe sebenarnya masih ada pelajaran lain, tp belum selesai ditulis, semoga bisa cepet nyusul!--dan menunjukkan betapa bersyukurnya aku punya teman2 yg udah mau repot2 buat liana (yang siapa lah ini) di momen ulang tahun liana beberapa tahun yg lalu.

Ucapan terima kasihnya sambil falshback, jadi akan panjang. Terimakasih sudah mau membaca kwwk

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15 Tahun.

Ini paling kocaq sih wkwkwk tiba2 sehabis pelajaran olah raga kalo ga salah, di bawah mejaku ada kotak geude dibungkus plastik merah. Segede dus indomie mungkin. Trus tiba2 si Nonong sama Tony bilang, "Li itu hadiah ulang tahun. Tapi buka nya di rumah aja ya, Li. Omat, jangan di sini" wkwkwkwk tapi karena liana tidak bisa menahan penasaran akhirnya aku buka saat itu juga dan ternyataaaa isinya handsfree samsung punya nonong yg beberapa hari terakhir itu aku pinjem mulu sambil aku bercandain, "nong, gamau buat aku aja? wkwk" emang gatau malu anaknya Teh😂 trus mereka bungkus di kardus geude banget pake banyak koran segala, yg di dalemnya banyak tulisan, "maaf Anda kurang beruntung" "maaf coba lagi". Perlu perjuangan banget buat buka dna menemukan handsfree nya wkwk😂

Terima kasih yaaa kaliaan!! I'm sorry if I couldn't thank enough that time karena sifat liana kelas 1 SMK tu masih nyebelin banget. Huhu Pokoknya terima kasih banyaaakkk, duo snack kiloan😂

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16 Tahun.

Terima kasih ke pada Klub Pulang ke Rumah yang repot2 kasih hadiahhh buat akuuu. Hal yang paling bikin aku senang adalah karena they know me so well!!!! KADONYA SEMUA WARNA BIRUUUU HUHUHU aku paling suka dikasih sesuatu yang 'aku banget' menunjukkan bahwa mereka memperhatikan dan tau aku huhuhu pepakura miku, kalung miku, handsfree biru, notes biru, pensil biru, tau bangetttt aku suka miku, biru, dan stationary. Terimakasih yaaa!! Lita, Kang Bagja, Alifan, Kang Kur, Teh Wawaw, Teh Hana💙💙

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17 Tahun.

Yang aku ingat Lita kasih aku hadiah foto2 anak2 NK7, permen lolipop, dan shuuji neko buat ditempel di tembok. Makasih banyaaaaakkkk, Litaaaa!!!! Bagian yg paling aku suka adalah tulisan "minna wa liana ga daisuki" (transate: everyone love liana) huhuhu terima kasih sudah menyayangiku dan menngingatkan bahwa aku disayangi💙💙💙

Juga Luthfi yang nanya novel apa yg mau aku beli. Karena liana waktu itu memang tidak tau diri wkwkwk jadi kubilang saja novel Tere Liye yg Aku, Kau, dan Sepucuk Angpao Merah, dan bener dibelin dong. Terimakasih, ya!!

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18 Tahun.

Adalah salah satu ultah terbaik bagiku. Waktu itu aku ke STM. Lupa urusan apa. Tapi tiba2 anak NK nyuruh ke Taman TKJ. Trus ternyata mereka nyiapin kado huhuhu ada Hardiyan yg ngasih cup cake buatannya sendiri (yg katanya dibikin jam 12 malem wkwkwk) Terimakasih, Har! Ada Iqbal yang kasih aku kartu ucapan, mamris yang kasih aku video yang berhasil bikin aku mbrebes mili😭😭😭 aku bisa merasakan betapa tulusnya mamris ngucapain selamat waktu aku ke jepang dulu, makasih, maaam!! Juga lukman dan misbah yg hadir juga di situ. Aku tidak menyangka kalian akan kasih aku sesuatu pas ulang tahun, padahal... Aku ga pernah kasih apa2 ke kalian huhu😭😭 Terima kasih, ya. Kalian yg membuat hari itu jadi salah satu ultah terbaik.

Juga anak2 akhwat sama si mantan yang tiba2 ada di rumah lempar terigu sama ngasih tiramisu dari Toko Kue di Jl. Sunda yang harganya 300ribu. Bucin banget sih kamu mantan jauh2 beli tiramisu, mahal pula.

Tapi terimakasih akhwat2 kuu sudah jauh2 datang ke padalarang, padahal kalo diajak suka gamau karena jauh😂

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19 Tahun

Aku tidak ingat🙃🙃

Kalau ada yg memberiku sesuatu waktu itu, maafkan karena aku tidak ingat😭, bisa kalian ingatkan aku lagi?

Tapi pasti aku bersyukur sekali atas apapun yg kalian beri pada liana (yg siapa lah) ini.

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20 Tahun

Aku dapat kaktus dari Aisyah💙 makasih banyak, syaaahhh! Sudah mengingat ultahku yang jatuh pada masa libur kuliah wkwk dan memberi aku hadiah itu. Terimakasih!!! Juga luthfi yang sudah memberi aku mug miku kaito. Makasih yaa!!

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21 Tahun

Hari di mana aku mematikan notif ultah dan tidak ada satu pun grup yg mengucapkan, termasuk grup geprek blenger. Eh beberapa minggu kemudian, pulang ngampus seperti biasa ke kosan Olay, tak menyangka ternyata mereka kasih surprise wkwkwk thankyou tim geprek blenger! Entah akan bagaimana kehidupan kuliahku tanpa kalian huhuhu terima kasih sudah bersama liana selama 3 tahun ini💕

Dan seperti yg aku bilang sebelumnya, aku paling suka diberi sesuatu yg 'aku banget' dan tebak dong mereka kasih apa.............. Sangat sangat sangat aku banget!! Pembalut (dengan ucapan, "Nama: Liana, Siklus haid: 2 kali sebulan HAHA"), tolak angin cair (yg selalu aku bawa tiap di kampus nyampe malem😂), kayu putih (yg aku tidak bisa lepas dari itu setiap hari), ditambah ucapan yg baguss bangeeettt bikinan femmi si anak es tetik dengan tulisan masing2, ada biodatanya segala dengan data yang akurat, mulai makanan minuman kesukaan, cita2, penulis favorit, target nikah, benar semua wkwk terimakasih, teman temankuuuuu. Ayo kita wisuda mei dan jemput kehidupan yg lebih baiikk💙💙💙

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Terimakasih juga kakakku yang selalu kasih sesuatu sebokek apapun dirimu saat itu huhu terima kasih!! Kakaku yg pertama kali kenalkanku pada novel, dan aku terus ketagihan sejak itu, tidak hanya novel, tetapi buku bacaan lainnya, terima kasihh💕💕

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Tahun ini...

Aku hanya ingin menjadi diriku apa adanya. Alasan aku menulis puanjaaang seperti ini pun karena aku hanya ingin menjadi liana apa adanya. Menulis sebagaimana adanya.

Kemudian terus berproses untuk menjadi versi terbaik dari diriku sendiri, bukan versinya A, versinya teteh B, versinya Bapak C.

Aku ingin menjadi sebaik-baiknya hamba yang mengenal dirinya sendiri, mengenal siapa Tuhannya, dan mengetahui untuk siapa seharusnya dirinya dipersembahkan. Yang mampu memaksimalkan potensinya untuk memaksimal manfaatnya.

Ya Allah, aku ingin Engkau menjadi satu2 nya tujuanku. Dalam setiap hal kecil yg aku lakukan, aku ingin Engkau menjadi satu2 nya alasan. Maka istiqomahkanlah aku. Masukan aku ke dalam golongan orang2 yang Engkau ridhoi. Hilangkan rasa malas dari diriku. Semoga aku terus bersemangat mencari ilmu.

Menjadi pembelajar setiap hari. Terus bertumbuh dan semakin dekat kepada-Mu.

Aku sungguh tidak tahu sampai kapan Kau beri aku waktu di dunia. Aku sungguh tidak tahu dan itu berarti bisa kapan saja. Bisa tahun depan, bulan depan, atau bahkan satu jam dari sekarang.

Beberapa waktu lalu, kakaku pernah bilang,

"De, siapa ya yang bakal jadi suami kamu nanti. Penasaran Teteh. Adik ipar Teteh nanti siapa ya."

Dan yg terlintas di pikiranku saat itu adalah,

"Ah, siapa tau ternyata liana ga punya jodoh di dunia. Waktu nya udah keburu habis sebelum menikah. Baru nanti Allah kasih jodohnya di akhirat."

Serius. Aku bener2 gak tau kapan aku bakal pergi dari dunia. Dan sungguh, kemungkinan liana menikah itu sama besar dengan kemungkinan liana ga punya jodoh di dunia karena keburu pergi--atau pulang?--duluan.

Maka berapapun sisa waktu yang Engkau beri padaku, ya Allah, semoga aku termasuk pada orang2 yang bisa memanfaatkannya dengan oenuh keberkahan. Semoga aku dijauhkan dari kesia-siaan atau bahkan kerugian.

Cita-citaku yang utama adalah bertemu Engkau dan Rasulullah di tempat terbaik kelak. Bimbing aku ya, Allah.

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Aamiin Allahuma Aamiin.

Terima kasih kepada semua yang sudah membaca tulisan ngalor ngidul ini dan ikut mendoakan liana. Terimakasih❤

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Danmei Roundup

I suddenly realized that ever since MDZS opened the doors, I’ve steadily gone through a good amount of danmei. 👀 Since I’m apparently doing anything except write my final paper, I compiled a list of stories I’ve come to know either through their novels or audio drama adaptations (or both). Any of them look familiar? lol

Adding/updating the list as I go + highlighting some of my favs.

Period Fantasy: Wuxia, Xianxia

人渣反派自救系统 — 墨香铜臭 (Scum Villain’s Self-Saving System — Mo Xiang Tong Xiu) *system/transmigration*

魔道祖师 — 墨香铜臭 (Grandmaster of Demonic Cultivation — Mo Xiang Tong Xiu)

天官赐福 — 墨香铜臭 (Heaven Official’s Blessing — Mo Xiang Tong Xiu)

铜钱龛世 — 木苏里 (Copper Coins — Mu Su Li)

二哈和他的白猫师尊 — 肉包不吃肉 (Dumb Husky and His White Cat Shizun — Meatbun Doesn’t Eat Meat)

Sci-Fi/Survival (? idk what 无限流 is called)

全球高考 — 木苏里 (Global Examination — Mu Su Li)

地球上线 — 莫晨欢 (The Earth is Online — Mo Chen Huan)

Modern Setting

Crime/Mystery

犯罪心理 — 长洱 (Criminal Psychology — Chang Er) 

默读 — Priest (Silent Reading — Priest)

破云 — 淮上 (Breaking Through the Clouds — Huai Shang)

皮囊 — 潭石 (Skin — Tan Shi) 

Gaming

你师父我人傻钱多 — 莫晨欢 (Your Shifu is Stupid Rich — Mo Chen Huan)

网恋翻车指南 — 酱子贝 (How to Fail at Online Dating — Jiang Zi Bei)

你亲我一下 — 引路星 (Give Me a Kiss — Yin Lu Xing) *celebrity* 

Schoolyard Romance

我喜欢你的信息素 — 引路星 (I Like Your Pheromones — Yin Lu Xing) *abo*

伪装学渣 — 木瓜黄 (Fake Slackers — Mu Gua Huang)

信息素说我们不可能 — 毛球球 (The Pheromones Say We've Got No Chance — Mao Qiu Qiu) *abo* 

Celebrity/Entertainment Business

我嗑了对家X我的CP — PEPA (I Ship My Adversary x Me — PEPA)

情敌每天都在变美 — 公子于歌 (My Love Rival is Getting Prettier Every Day — Gongzi Yu Ge) *system/transmigration*

我只喜欢你的人设 — 稚楚 (I Only Like Your Persona — Zhi Chu)

营业悖论 — 稚楚 (Fanservice Paradox — Zhi Chu) *boy group*

小行星 — 微风几许 (Little Asteroid — Wei Feng Ji Xu) *abo*

落池 — 余酲 (Falling Into the Pond — Yu Cheng)

迪奥先生 — 绿野千鹤 (Mr. Dior — Lv Ye Qian He) *crack/amnesia*

职业替身 — 水千丞 (Professional Body Double — Shui Qian Cheng) *rebirth*

没钱 — 吕天逸 (Broke — Lv Tian Yi) *system/supernatural*

营销号说你喜欢我 — 螽斯 (Clickbait Media Accounts Say You Like Me — Zhong Si)

Supernatural/Fantasy

论以貌取人的下场 — 月下蝶影 (The Consequences of Judging a Book by Its Cover — Yue Xia Die Ying)

我开动物园那些年 — 拉棉花糖的兔子 (Those Years I Opened a Zoo — La Mian Hua Tang de Tu Zi) *system*

临时保镖 — 绿野千鹤 (Last-Minute Bodyguard — Lv Ye Qian He)

Slice-of-Life/Other

飞鸥不下 — 回南雀 (Flying Gulls Never Land — Hui Nan Que) *adopted brothers*

安知我意 — 北南 (Know My Heart — Bei Nan)

刺青 — 不问三九 (Tattoo — Bu Wen San Jiu)

燎原 — 不问三九 (Wildfire — Bu Wen San Jiu) 

烧不尽 — 回南雀 (Eternal Burning — Hui Nan Que)

腹黑和腹黑的终极对决 — 羲和清零 (Behind the Scenes Hunter — Xi He Qing Ling) *corporate battle*

… … …

And then there are some more I started to various extents:

这题超纲了 — 木瓜黄 (Beyond the Outline — Mu Gua Huang) *schoolyard*

不要在垃圾桶里捡男朋友 — 骑鲸南去 (Don’t Pick Up Boyfriends from the Trash — Qi Jing Nan Qv) *transmigration/system*

魔尊也想知道 — 青色羽翼 (Mo-Zun Also Wants to Know — Qing Se Yu Yi) *period fantasy/system*

可爱过敏原 — 稚楚 (Adorable Allergen — Zhi Chu) *schoolyard/adopted brothers*

欢迎来到噩梦游戏 — 薄暮冰轮 (Welcome to the Nightmare Game — Bo Mu Bing Lun) *sci-fi/transmigration/survival?*

恶性依赖 — 金刚圈 (Unhealthy Attachment — Jin Gang Quan) *modern*

营养过良 — 芥菜糊糊 (Nutrition Overload — Jie Cai Hu Hu) *cats*

S.C.I. 谜案集 — 耳雅 (S.C.I. Mystery — Er Ya) *crime/mystery*

嚣张 — 巫哲 (Audacious — Wu Zhe) *schoolyard* 

穿成反派总裁小情人 — 林盎司 (Transmigrated as the Villain CEO’s Little Lover — Lin Ounce) *transmigration/entertainment business*

一不小心和醋精结婚了 — 一枚纽扣 (My Accidental Husband is Full of Vinegar — Yi Mei Niu Kou) *modern*

碎玉投珠 — 北南 (Sui Yu Tou Zhu — Bei Nan) *80s/90s setting*

兼职无常后我红了 — 拉棉花糖的兔子 (After I Started Working as a Wu Chang, I Became Popular — La Mian Hua Tang de Tu Zi) *modern/supernatural*

新时代，新地府 — 林知落 (New Times, New Hell — Lin Zhiluo) *supernatural/modern/crack*

两A相逢必有一O — 厉冬忍 (When Two As Meet, There Must Be One O — Li Dong Ren) *abo/schoolyard*

破云2：吞海 — 淮上 (Swallow the Sea — Huai Shang) *crime/mystery* 

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Almost half of all new drug approvals in 2018 relied on one clinical trial

Back in the 1970s and 1980s, the FDA made clear that at least two adequate and well-controlled studies were necessary to establish a new drug’s effectiveness, except in only the rarest of circumstances.

Then in 1997, the Food and Drug Administration Modernization Act was passed, and Congress clarified that the FDA may consider “data from one adequate and well-controlled clinical investigation and confirmatory evidence” to approve a new drug.

But in guidance from 1998, the FDA says that its reliance on only a single study “will generally be limited to situations in which a trial has demonstrated a clinically meaningful effect on mortality, irreversible morbidity, or prevention of a disease with potentially serious outcome and confirmation of the result in a second trial would be practically or ethically impossible.”

The agency also ex­plains the per­sua­sive­ness of us­ing two stud­ies ver­sus one.

“Whether to rely on a sin­gle ad­e­quate and well-​controlled study is in­evitably a mat­ter of judg­ment. A con­clu­sion based on two per­sua­sive stud­ies will al­ways be more se­cure than a con­clu­sion based on a sin­gle, com­pa­ra­bly per­sua­sive study,” the guid­ance notes.

Aaron Kessel­heim, pro­fes­sor of med­i­cine at Har­vard Med­ical School, told Fo­cus: “His­tor­i­cally, the FDA guid­ance seemed to in­di­cate a pref­er­ence for two ad­e­quate and well-​controlled tri­als since any sin­gle trial may be sub­ject to unan­tic­i­pated or un­de­tected sys­tem­atic bi­ases. Of course, in some cases, the clin­i­cal need is high enough or the drug’s ef­fi­cacy is pow­er­ful enough that a sin­gle trial should be suf­fi­cient at least for ini­tial FDA ap­proval.

“But re­liance on a sin­gle trial—par­tic­u­larly if that trial is single-​arm, un­blinded, or eval­u­ates un­val­i­dated sur­ro­gate mea­sures as the end­point—in­creases the risk to pa­tients that the drug may not work as well as ex­pected (or, sep­a­rately, may have safety is­sues that out­weigh its ben­e­fits).  It would be use­ful to clearly in­form pa­tients when a new drug is ap­proved on the ba­sis of a sin­gle piv­otal trial and fol­low those drugs more closely af­ter ap­proval, with the idea of for­mally re­vis­it­ing their benefit-​risk bal­ance in the fu­ture. But stud­ies un­for­tu­nately show that post­mar­ket re­quire­ments are of­ten not fol­lowed up com­pletely or in a timely fash­ion,” Kessel­heim added.

Ap­provals Based on a Sin­gle Trial Ac­cord­ing to a 2014 JAMA study, be­tween 2005 and 2012, the FDA ap­proved 188 novel ther­a­peu­tic agents for 206 in­di­ca­tions, and 74 in­di­ca­tions (36.8%) were ap­proved on the ba­sis of a sin­gle piv­otal trial.

Most re­cently, IQVIA re­leased a re­port find­ing that 25 of 59 (42%) novel drugs ap­proved in 2018 were ap­proved on the ba­sis of only one trial. And one out of eight ap­provals re­lied only on Phase 1 or 2 tri­als, with no Phase 3 tri­als. But as in pre­vi­ous years, a large por­tion of the drugs re­ly­ing on only one trial were new or­phan and can­cer drugs.

For in­stance, As­traZeneca’s or­phan drug Lu­mox­iti (mox­e­tu­momab pasudotox-​tdfk) was ap­proved in Sep­tem­ber 2018 based on one trial of less than 100 pa­tients with a rare, slow-​growing blood can­cer. Stem­line Ther­a­peu­tics also won ap­proval in De­cem­ber 2018 for El­zon­ris (tagraxofusp-​erzx) to treat a rare, rapidly pro­gress­ing can­cer of the bone mar­row and blood af­ter con­duct­ing one trial of 94 pa­tients in the US.

Other can­cer drugs, mean­while, won ap­proval af­ter larger sin­gle tri­als.

Pfizer’s Viz­im­pro (da­comi­tinib), for ex­am­ple, was ap­proved in Sep­tem­ber 2018 on the ba­sis of one clin­i­cal trial of 452 pa­tients with ad­vanced non-​small cell lung can­cer in Asia. Ar­ray Bio­pharma’s Braftovi (en­co­rafenib) was ap­proved in June 2018 on ev­i­dence from one clin­i­cal trial of 383 pa­tients with BRAF V600 mutation-​positive melanoma that was ad­vanced or could not be re­moved by surgery. The trial was con­ducted at 162 sites in Eu­rope, North Amer­ica and else­where.

And Ad­vanced Ac­cel­er­a­tor Ap­pli­ca­tions’ Lu­tathera (lutetium 177 dotate) was ap­proved based on one trial of 229 pa­tients with a spe­cific type of rare tu­mor at 41 sites in Bel­gium, France, Ger­many, Italy, Por­tu­gal, Spain, UK and the US.

But not all the new drugs ap­proved in 2018 based on one clin­i­cal trial were can­cer treat­ments. For in­stance, Achao­gen’s Zem­dri (pla­zomicin) was ap­proved in June 2018 as a com­pli­cated uri­nary tract in­fec­tion treat­ment based on one trial of 604 pa­tients in Eu­rope, the US and Mex­ico.

Paratek Phar­ma­ceu­ti­cals also won ap­proval for its an­tibac­te­r­ial med­i­cine Nuzyra (omada­cy­cline) in Oc­to­ber 2018 on the ba­sis of a sin­gle trial of 774 pa­tients with com­mu­nity ac­quired bac­te­r­ial pneu­mo­nia at 86 sites in Asia, Eu­rope, Is­rael, Latin Amer­ica, South Africa and the US.

But Kessel­heim said he does not think this is a re­cent shift to the use of one piv­otal trial, and he did not know if the 42% fig­ure from 2018 “is a sign that the num­ber is creep­ing higher or just nor­mal year to year fluc­tu­a­tion.”

The IQVIA re­port also re­ports a slight uptick in the num­ber of piv­otal tri­als in 2018 be­ing ran­dom­ized con­trolled tri­als com­pared to pre­vi­ous years and that ac­tive con­trol arms were more com­mon in 2018 than re­cent past years.

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Book of the Week: Copper Coins

Author: Mu Su Li (木苏里)

Genre: ancient setting, cultivation, danmei

Rating: M (mostly for non-graphic sexy times)

My Synopsis: After unintentionally capturing a dragon in a paper doll body, amnesiac Xuanmin ends up embroiled in the mystery behind who plotted against Xue Xian as well as where his memories have gone. Along the way, will the two's new comraderie survive the hidden secrets of their shared past that could drive them apart?

My Actual Review: Woo, another amnesiac story from Mu Si Li! It's funny, though, because Xuanmin's lost memories actually do sort of the opposite of what it would in a traditional amnesiac plotline, but I can't reveal that because spoilers. I will just say that the shit that happened to Xue Xian? Everybody involved needs to burn in hell for that. On another note, this is probably the first novel I read (and it has been followed by other Mu Si Li novels since) that made me feel like a character was actually like Wei Wuxian, and that was Xue Xian, who feels like a mix between Wei Wuxian and (briefly) Wenren È. I loved each arc in the story and how every little mystery slowly led a trail to how Xuanmin and Xue Xian connected, and don't get me started on the romance. This author is just sooooo good with writing romances that make my heart melt.

Translation: complete fan translation (currently in the middle of revisions) but also recently licensed by 7seas