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goliig68 · 1 year ago

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19 days fic rec pt.2

Making pt.2 cuz I couldn't add all of my favourite fics here( again, with no particular order )

Mark My Love by ria_green

( E | 12,525 | 9/? )

He Tian gently holds Mo Guanshan by the neck, thumb pressing into where a bond bite might one day appear.

Shivering, Mo Guanshan shoves him away. "Go do that with an omega, idiot."

Note: a funny omegaverse story. Don't let the omegaverse title put you off it's seriously very funny and cute. I love the interactions between guan shan and jian yi😂 he tian and zhen xi too! I swear they all have weirdest dynamics!

It will come back by mgsdays (regencyaus)

( E | 44,417 | 12/12 )

He Tian leaving on self-protection, after Jian Yi's disappearance, makes Mo scared enough to make a move. They stumble into something together just as He Tian leaves the country, and they have to figure things out long-distance while waiting for He Tian to come back.

Mo's known the gist of it since the dawn of his puberty. Water's wet, sky is blue, Mo's sexual desires are intertwined with his complicated feelings for He Tian. Big deal.

But the reality of it is- something else. This is something else entirely.

Did you miss me? – H

Barely noticed. - MGS

...did you? - MGS

Every minute of every day. - H

How the fuck does He Tian just say those things? Doesn't he feel embarrassed? Mo thinks he's feeling embarrassed for him, and he didn't even write it. He stares at the words until his phone light goes out, and then he turns it on again and stares some more.

Note: an amazing reunion au. I think author did a great job at handling tianshan's long-distance relationship and all of that mafia stuff. I think this fic has to be In everyone's "to read" list👌

nothing fucks with my baby by figglypudding

( E | 23,897 | 3/3 )

unexpectedly, and in the most unlikely of places, mo stumbles upon a reunion he'd long given up on.

but how can he heal when he's only just begun to acknowledge the hurt?

Note: another reunion au. But angstier and so much sadder😭 but it's happy ending, so all of that sadness was worth going through.

swimming in the blood by powerandpathos

( M | 29,455 | 1/1 )

Guan Shan’s nose wrinkles. ‘I sing like I mean it. I don’t sing it ‘cause I want everyone else to hear. That’s Jian Yi’s thing.’

’And what’s your thing?’

He Tian holds his gaze. Street lamps and car headlights are mirrored in the amber surface of Guan Shan’s eyes, and He Tian can see his own shadowed silhouette in his irises, a blocky shape of darkness with no detail. For some reason, that bothers him.

‘Still figurin’ that out,’ Guan Shan says.

Note: rock band au. Sex, drama and rock 'n roll. No drugs lol. This fic in in my top 10 favourite 19 days fics, And it is so underrated!! Go read it, it's truly wonderful!

nail House by powerandpathos

( M | 13,309 | 1/1 )

‘God,’ Guan Shan mutters. He pushes himself up onto his elbows. His thighs are still trembling, and he rolls his ankles. ‘You fuckin’ love control, don’t you?’

He Tian sits back on his haunches. ‘Have you seen my family?’

‘I don’t wanna talk about your family right now.’ Guan Shan huffs. ‘Bet you can’t fuckin’ stand that I have to drive you about, right?’

‘I got used to it. It’s a shame the car isn’t a manual. I’ve enjoyed seeing your hand around the gear stick.’

Note: Triad au/driver!Guan shan. One of my favourite aus! I really enjoyed reading it, so I read it 3 more time.

hook, line, and sinker by fayre

( Gen | 3,673 | 1/1 )

“So everything that happened,” Guan Shan says, trying and failing to keep a steady tone, “The shopping, the barbeque — everything was just because you didn’t want to go home alone? That's pretty damn convoluted if you ask me.”

He Tian huffs, amused. “Not exactly. I had nothing planned; no expectations. I just wanted to be with you.”

a post-chapter 292 drabble (the day after the BBQ/sleepover at the He family estate.)

Note: i loved all of the calm feelings I got from this fic. The descriptions of atmosphere and everything around them was so detailed that I literally could feel them too. It was very gentle and pure you know?

allergy season by fayre

( T | 6,506 | 1/1 )

“You know, they say that sneezing a lot means you’re on someone’s mind.”

“Yeah?” Guan Shan says a bit drily, sniffing hard. “Then what a fuckin’ shame.”

He Tian watches him. “For you?”

“For the bastard unfortunate enough to have gotten me on their mind,” Guan Shan answers, walking again. He hates how nasally and gross his voice sounds, and the back of his throat feels sore. “If someone’s thinkin’ of me this fuckin’ much, it can’t be good news for either of us. Trust me.”

“Ah,” He Tian says, and then nothing more.

a post-chapter 348 oneshot (the He Tian & dog chapter).

Note: man...i remember reading this fic hoping that one day, we get a love confession and kiss scene between he tian and guan shan (and now we fucking have it)

Knee high, stage fright (even if you're alright) by fayre

( Gen | 5,383 | 1/1 )

It’s no longer about what He Tian thinks; it’s about what he knows. And he knows Guan Shan — at least on a foundational level — and he knows how Guan Shan doesn’t just ask when he needs. He knows how Guan Shan doesn’t talk but doesn’t listen, either. He knows that Guan Shan doesn’t always think rationally but that doesn’t mean he doesn’t think, and he knows how his body goes on autopilot before his thoughts cause him to malfunction and crash and burn.

He knows.

After all, it's the little things that add up. He Tian can only pray that they won't come crashing back down.

(or: no matter how hard he may try, guan shan can't hide all his problems. fluff ensues.)

Note: a soft and cute tianshan oneshot, with a little bit of angst but it's mostly fluff. I loved the ending, it melted my heart and brought smile to my lips🫠❤

singing in red by starlightstarshine

( T | 27,204 | 6/6 )

In which He Tian is the bassist for the most popular band in the world and Guan Shan is only doing modelling so that he could get enough money to pay for his next meal (based on that art by Old Xian).

Note: I love the fics where guan is head over heels for He tian haha😆

Tell Me On A Sunday by Llybian

( T | 1,501 | 1/1 )

He’d begun, with great difficulty, to accept all of this in his heart. But he still could do nothing. What was he supposed to do? Confess his feelings like a pathetic little schoolgirl? Not a chance.

But then again, what did he really suppose would happen if he told He Tian he “liked” him? Well, the world would end, for one. That was just a given. But beyond that, they’d probably just make out. There was really no chance of He Tian shooting him down or saying this was all just some long con.

Despite that. He just couldn’t.

Note: I think by summary everyone can get a brief foresight that what this fic is about. In my opinion, this fic is very real and in character.

Bites by Asfodel

( M | 24,263 | 7/? )

Turning to look at the black sky, he let his mind wander to a place he tried not to visit too often. To the last words Guan Shan heard He Tian say in that dim corridor.

« I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I love you, I’ll fix it, I’m sorry. »

Like a mantra.

or a rewrite of their reunion a few years after high school, basically disregarding the Christmas chapters. Side of ZhengYi, angsty but with a healthy dose of fluff, tags will be updated as the story goes.

Note: reunion au. It's such a beautiful but heartbreaking story. I love author's writing style, it captures feelings perfectly👌

A dog by Alien_Kitsune

( E | 50,000 | 10/10 )

Mo Guanshan and He Tian didn't meet in the school and each went his own way. Several years passed and Mo became a criminal. But on the verge of death destiny surprises him.

Two broken men who are still trying to find themselves in this world were always fated to find each other.

Note: mafia au. Thanks to @maruuzen for recommending me this fic!❤ I really loved the process of tianshan's relationship development. I'm sure that's how their relationship would go if they didn't meet at middle school, and/or he tian joined his family business, just like how it's stated in fic, fate brought them together. also it's angsty (of course) so be warned.

Dawn Rising by powerandpathos

( E | 78,968 | 13/? )

An Historical Fantasy AU—A poisoning; a death; a thief. A prince struggling to be a prince. A guard trying to stop one from getting killed. And everyone else on the sidelines. It has never been so hard to navigate the court of an empire when not everyone can survive.

Note: my favourite historical fantasy au, the plot, the drama, the characters it's just_ugh👌💞 unfortunately, this fic is probably abandoned, but don't let that stop you from reading it, even though it's unfinished, I think this fic is still amazing.

Cold On The Inside by incorrect19days

( E | 4,879 | 6/6 )

‘Look at me.’

He Tian instructed softly.

He took a deep shuddering breath and opened his eyes.

Note: a short and oh-so-beautiful story. It's a little bit sad but it's happy end, or hopeful ending better to say.

#19 days #fanfic #19 days fanfic #tianshan #zhanyi #thinking about all the amazing fics and authors In 19 days fandom #that I haven't discovered yet #Damn like...#Fic authors are like a blessing to every fandom #will i live long enough to see the ending of my favourite fics #the endings that may never come but im desperately waiting #yeah...I'm talking about dawn rising...

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seriiousgiirl · 2 months ago

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READ NEW CHAPTER AND IT ATEEEEEE

I wanna mention a few of my personal highlights of this chapter

First, James grabbing Readers hair and sniffing it 😭😭😭 that's some mr Darcy level yearning. And the hand grip and the book falling out of it later. He really wanted to make Reader want him (subconsciously or not) but I can't lie it would get me too 😭. this man is a such a weirdo (affectionately)

Besides I have a sneaking suspicion that Laura may have left that book not so accidentally 👀 little miss is cooking smth

Also sex in the classroom?? as someone who's working to be a teacher that's crazy behaviour ngl man has no self-preservation skills not only when it comes to his health but to his social reputation too 💀 And the way that was a little tease of what James is into (revealed later in the chapter) is pretty cool too

Though cherry on top is actually James' dialogue with reader during the hotel scene. love me some dramatic irony. Reader character thinking that James feels guilt for metaphorically killing Mary (though neglect and his own metal issues perhaps) when the truth is much worse... Actual reader can spot how James maneuvers around the Mary topic just enough to be vulnerable but not enough to let the truth out. Truly asshole behavior. i need to guillotine that man (no matter how much i love him as a character)

At first I was a little thrown off by James being such a freak but you did a great job describing his feelings about his reasoning and his behaviour afterwards

And the way he demanded miss reader to buy pills out of her own pocket when it was he who came inside like million times😭

Eagerly awaiting new chapter (I NEED TO SEE HIM SUFFER)

Also, I haven't written any longer comments about the previous chapters (College three weeks in and I'm already dying) but I thought that it was really good how you portrayed Laura and James' relationship. Her calling James dad only sporadically while also trying to exhibit the same protective behaviour towards him that he does towards her. I'm actually so sorry for her. James is the only option she has and while he does his best to raise and provide for her he is still such a broken man. And the way he now treats and hides his lover? fuckbuddy? that is her favourite teacher... truly heartbreaking

The way you describe truma in James' case is really good. Yes he is a sad puppy man but he's also toxic and destructive and I love how you don't shy away from showing that.

- resident 😭 anon

Thank you! 😭😭 I’m so glad you liked that detail! James is definitely touch-starved, and even though he doesn’t fully realise what he’s doing, that need for connection just comes out. I agree, he’s such a weirdo, but we love him for it (affectionately, of course) 😅

And ooooh 👀 you might be onto something with Laura! Little miss definitely has her own plans, and you’ll see more of that in the next chapter! 😏

Right?! 😂 James has zero self-preservation instincts, honestly. I totally based that on one detail from the game—like how he just sticks his hand in weird holes and toilets without a second thought?? 💀 He's reckless and does what he wants without really caring about the consequences (if he even notices them?), but yeah, he definitely needs to work on that! 😅

Yeah, this part was hard for me too! Just like in the game, I didn’t want the full secret to come out too soon, but at the same time, I had to let it almost slip through. Writing around the truth without actually naming it can be tricky, and honestly, even I dread the moment of full revelation 😅

I’m so glad you liked how I described his reasoning and behavior afterward—that was the part I was most nervous about when posting, so thank you! 🙏

And OMG, right?? The nerve of him to make Reader buy the pills after he’s the one who couldn’t control himself! Total jerk behavior 😂

Thank you so much, and no worries! College sounds intense—hope it eases up for you soon! I’m really glad you liked the way I portrayed Laura and James’ relationship. I wanted to show how complicated it is for them both. It’s heartbreaking because he genuinely cares for her and want to be a good dad, but he’s struggling so much himself. It’s messy and painful for everyone involved. 😢

Thank you so much! I really wanted to capture that balance in James—I’m glad that came through, and I appreciate you pointing it out!

Good luck with college, and thanks again for the thoughtful comment! (I don't have any beta reader or else, so having feedback is always appreciated especially for this kind of comment) 😊💕

Best, Serious Girl 💕✨

#answered #thank you for your kind comment #love

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chlorinecake · 1 year ago

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Okay hey so like AHHHHHHH. I'm a new anon

Me and my boyfie are going to do it next week

Yes "it".

But it's going to be my first and I'm scared because I'm inexperienced?

Like I don't know what to do and how to do I'm scared about my a$$ and pu$$y because I don't know what hole the €0¢k goes in?😭

And what do I do because the holes aren't that big that it would go in?

Can you please help 😭

Hi hi !! And welcome to my inbox, chica 🤑

Ok so BIG TOPIC HERE -> ✨seggs✨<-

Quick Disclaimer: I’m a virgin myself, so most of the advice I have for you comes from the women in my life or personally obtained common sense :)

The first good sign is that you’re obviously comfortable talking about “it,” not just with me, but with your partner, too.

Second, I’d also like to point out that being scared before your first time is completely normal, esp if your boyfriend is also inexperienced.

One thing I’d like to unpack here before getting into anything else tho is your reasons behind why you two wanna take that next step. Make sure it’s for good reasons, because once you lose your virginity, you can’t get it back. Make sure you’re 110% certain he’s the person you wanna give that to.

NOW, another thing is the actual anatomy behind sex. 🐱 penetration is the only way a biological female can lose her virginity: taking it in the �� does not count. Also, you’re gonna need to make sure he understands what hole you want it in, because from what I’ve heard, taking it in the 🍑 is not only messier, but it hurts more, whereas (with the proper prep) 🐱 penetration is a lot less painful.

Also: USE PROTECTION ‼️

Okay, now that THAT’S all cleared up, we can discuss how to prepare. If you’ve never touched yourself before, now’s a good time to start so you can learn more abt what your body likes and doesn’t like.

But, if you have touched yourself before, great, you’re one step ahead.

Basically, just make sure you’re wet enough down there before he tries going in: this could be done by touching yourself prior, or letting him work you up with simple foreplay (like kissing, touching, etc.)

And once he’s in, try not to rush things: take it slow until you adjust to the stretch before speeding things up.

Last thing I wanna point out in this LONG ASF (but hopefully helpful) response is that girls rarely finish (or org@$m) during their first time. It’s just because your body’s still relatively new to the sensations, so it’ll take a few more tries to get it right, but I wish you the best of luck, anon !! Hopefully everything goes well no matter what decision you make in the end and I’ll see you around 🫶

#cc: anons 🎂

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liannaflower · 2 years ago

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What are your top 5 books?

Ah well....this is a hard question and for a sad reason. I have no idea😂😅

Most of my so called fave books were my favourite years ago, so it's hard to tell if I still like them. For example Percy Jackson books, specifically the first one because ahh ✨Ares✨ of course, but I recently wanted to reread it again and couldn't even get to reaching camp.

Well anyways, what I know for sure is The Wolf Den by Elodie Harper. (By the way these aren't in order.) It was a unique read and I surprisingly liked it. I also read the next part and had high hopes for it but it flopped. 🥺 The covers are so pretty tho. It had a great vibe (this almost sounds like a red flag) and it basically follows the lives of prostitutes in Pompeii few years before the eruption.

Another one for sure is The song of Achilles (Madeline Miller) and while I usually don't like (khm I hate them) retellings this one was cute. It's been on my fave list for like 8 years and even rereading hasn't diminished it.

Then Prince's Gambit by C. S. Pacat from the captive prince trilogy and oh my gods. This has everything. The ancient Greece vibes, the enemies to lovers, the gayness😂😂😂(and the sex , the torture, the betrayals etc) I found this series by total accident and thank gods I did. I adore it.

Here I would normally mention one of the Pjo books (either 1st or 4th) but I can't do so now, and then I would mention one of the Eragon books but I also can't because it's been years without rereading them. (I always used to say Legendary from Stephanie Garner but I just recently reread it and I realised I no longer love it)

Sooo that leaves me questioning things. One that came to my mind is a Hungarian book. Aranyember - Jókai Mór (roughly translated: Golden man/gold man by Mór Jókai) It's a much hated book in Hungary (at least among students, I'm not sure if it's still obligatory or not anymore) because it's long and the writer has a unique style, where he makes every description soooo long but I adore it. It's a love story with a poor man falling in love with a rich girl and marrying her but then she's just saying yes out of obligation and she doesn't love him back etc etc. Then he falls in love with a poor girl and so he has double lives. He is also very very good with money so everything he invests in turns out so much better than expected and he gets very rich too. So basically just full of lies and love and agony and self debate. It's also not modern so it's set back in the old Hungary but that gives the charm. And damn it's just such a great book now I wanna watch the movie again too. 😭

The other I thought of is a short story to the Captive Prince trilogy. The Pet. Why? No idea. But I think it's great how it adds depth to a certain not so liked side character. After reading it I love him so so much. Also read one of the best fanfics for this book. Fuck that was so gooooood too.

Sadly I don't read as much as I should anymore or as I would want to.

If I really have to pick a legit book instead of the last one it would be The betrayals by Bridget Collins. Wonderful cover first of all. Made me buy it😂 I liked it, it was mysterious and a bit messy but not enough gay for me but oh well. Other honorary mention is Call me by your name and Find me by André Aciman. Beautiful stories. Nice writing. No other words.

Thanks for the ask. I really need to start reading better books because in the past year I mostly read thrillers and trash erotica or just yaoi😅 and none of those will ever hold me as close. On that note do you or anyone have any recs?

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seitmai · 2 months ago

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There was something so casual about your friendship with the aviator who seemed to have no intention of ever settling down. Jake was clear from the get-go, that he wasn't interested in being a stepdad. He wasn't interested in the possibility of a committed relationship. They were something he deemed worthy to be thrown in the too-hard basket. But what Jake had also been honest about, was the very fact he found you incredibly irresistible.

I admire the honesty

“My mum doesn’t have boyfriends Mr Jake. You’re her boy-friend.” Dylan explained innocently enough. Jake was sure his brain was computing the conversation properly. “Mum’s in trouble, please! You have to help her!” Dylan begged as his tears stained his young cheeks. He’d seen a lot in his seven years. He even knew how to roll a cigarette. But he didn’t want to know half the things that plagued his young, impressionable mind.

Poor Dylan 🥺

“Your dad sounds like he was a real great guy.” If Jake had rolled his eyes any harder, he probably would have fallen over from the force. “Not really,” Dylan sighed. His entire demeanour changed in the blink of an eye. “I think he’s the reason why my mums in trouble now.” Jake had to take a second to take in the sadness that plastered itself across Dylan’s face.

Goo god Jake take the poor boy seriously!

Dylan immediately leaned against Jake for support as he tried to find the willpower not to cry. His dad had always told him emotions were for women.

Knowing that Jake was raised the same makes me wanna cry...Please boys, just cry and let it out!! I have consoled crying boys and men and it's honesty nothing to be ashamed about! Probably also the reason I often start crying because someone else is, just so they don't feel to bad about it lol

“Well, it’s a good thing I don’t respect boundaries all that often, isn’t it?” Jake grumbled to himself as he unlocked the front door and made his way into your home.

Jake is giving zero fucks

But the way your top had been ripped to shreds had him seeing red. The way you sat there almost completely exposed to the three men all standing around your living room like they were about to play pass the parcel made his blood boil. Jake had never seen you look so scared. So defenceless. So broken before.

🥺🥺🥺

“Gentleman, I’m sure we can come to some sort of agreement here?” Jake asked as he walked further into your living room. Soon enough he had a gun facing towards him. A direct aim to his chest. That wasn’t enough to deter him, not when your son was currently hiding out in his bedroom. Not when you were clearly three seconds away from becoming a living sex toy.

The fighter pilot training truly comes in handy in a moment like this to stay this calm...

“She’s everything I’ve ever wanted and more,” Jake confessed. At first, you thought it was the possible concussion making you hear things. But when he followed up? You knew it was really Jake speaking as blood dripped down the side of your face. “She’s the first person I think about in the morning and the last at night, so please, don’t hurt her,” Jake pleaded as he struggled in the confines of the henchman’s grip.

Jake, we gonna have to work on the timing of a love confession buddy 🥺😭

“Take me instead, let her go and she’ll get the money you want.” Jake never took his eyes off you as he spoke. “I’ll stay with you until she does, pretty sure I’d be worth a couple hundred thousand for you guys anyway?” There he was again, back to being the Jake you knew him to be. “What’s a bisexual naval aviator go for on the dark web these days?”

This paragraph, damn. First the severity of the situation and Jake offering himself up in exchange and then his nonchalant and witty comment is this dire situation 🫠 and also bisexual Jake ftw!! 💙💜🩷

“Don’t worry, Sweetheart,” Jake smiled as he was draped past you, bleeding profusely from his thigh. “I got you,” Jake rushed to get his words out as he was dragged further and further away from where you were still tied to your chair. “Dylans safe, so are you.”

Day 12 [The Guy Next Door]

Summary: When your son shows up on Jake's door scared and all alone, he soon realises that something might be wrong at his neighbour's home.

Warnings: Jake Seresin x F!reader. Mentions of sexual assault. Forced sexual acts. Gun violence. Blood. Self-sacrifice.

Word Count: 4k

Whumptober Prompt Day Thirteen: Whumpee using themself as bait, defiance, “Take me instead.”

Author Note: Please make sure you read the warnings provided. Disclaimer: I do not condone nor endorse the actions that are written about during the month of October. These works of fiction are just that, fiction and should be treated as such. Thank you to @ailesswhumptober for this year's prompt list.

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Your husband used to say in his drunken rambles late at night, ‘When you live, live in clover, ‘cause when you’re dead, you’re dead all over.’ But much like your late husband was, the clover is traditionally, an opportunistic weed. Sure, the clover is seen as a good luck charm in many cultures across the globe. But in your experience, it was only ever a weed that grew and took hold of everything in its path. Destroying an array of vast beauty you never thought you’d get back.

Until the weed died…and your garden began to grow once again. But what do weeds typically do? They grow back. Even in death, your husband had managed to screw you once more. He’d left you in hundreds of thousands of dollars of debt to some guy he knew from ‘work’. Some guy who thought he could collect the debt even after your weasel of a husband had died a not-so-unfortunate death.

Some guy who had already made it abundantly clear that if you didn’t pay off the debt owing…You and your son would eventually be reunited with your husband. Permanently.

That was six months ago, and you still hadn’t paid up.

“Mr. Jake!” It was the panic in the little boy’s voice that got Jake’s attention first. “Mr Jake, Mr Jake! Are you home?” Next, it was the way the knocking didn’t falter. It was an unrelenting assault of young knuckles against the wooden surfaces of Jake Seresin’s front door. “Mr. Jake! I need help!”

Jake Seresin had been your neighbour for around four months. In that time you’d grown as close as neighbours could. He’d often mow your lawn in the afternoon Miramar sun. You’d cook enough food for three so that when Jake inevitably stayed for dinner, there was enough to go around and then some.

“I’m not the relationship type, Darlin, so don’t get too attached.”

But someone had grown attached. Your son, Dylan.

“Mr. Jake!!” The pounding was relentless as Jake padded down the hall toward his front door. The man had been enjoying a beer or two in the warmth of a steaming shower. The last thing he wanted to be doing on his day off was dealing with a pest the size of a seven-year-old who wanted to play catch down the side. “Mr. Jake! Help!”

“Kid, I swear to god you’re about to lose that fist if you don’t knock it off,” Jake answered the door with a huff and a scowl across his usually shit-eating face. “What? What do you want? I'm busy.” Sure, Jake could have been nicer, but as he held the towel around his waist and dripped onto his freshly cleaned hardwood flooring, he realised he didn’t actually give a shit. But what came out of your son’s mouth next had Jake’s heart racing with adrenaline he only ever felt when he was in the cockpit.

“My mum’s in trouble Mr. Jake,” Dylan explained as he rubbed his raw knuckles from bagging on his neighbour’s door for so long. “There’s some guys in our house that are trying–trying to hurt her and I need help!” Dylan explained as he began to sob. His emotions got the better of him after the adrenaline of running over without hesitation had started to diminish in his seven-year-old nervous system.

Tears welled in Dylan’s lower lash lines as Jake leaned against the doorframe, crossing his arms over his dripping and exposed chest, with a frown prominent across his face.

“Are you sure it’s not just one of your mum’s boyfriends, kid?” Jake sighed as he tried to process what your son was telling him. Dylan was a good kid. Jake didn’t mind the boy.. For a seven-year-old, he was able to hold a decent conversation most of the time.

It didn’t take Jake long at all to figure out that Dylan was one of those kids who had no choice but to grow up fast. Jake didn’t know everything, but you had told him about your late husband. How he wasn’t the best guy in town. One night while you shared a bottle of wine, or three, with Jake, you’d confided in him about the fact you often thought you were a horrible person for not missing him. Clayton was, at the end of the day, Dylan’s father.

In the time Jake had known you, he’d rarely ever seen you have friends besides him around the house. He’d seen a few big, burley men come and go. But they never stayed long enough to warrant concern. Jake wasn’t the jealous type either. He was more than happy to fill his roster with someone else if you were already busy with another guy.

But maybe those men weren’t there for the reason Jake had originally thought.

“Okay,” Jake sighed reluctantly. “Get in here before someone sees you.” Jake manhandled Dylan as he dragged him into his home via the kid’s collar. “I want you to hide in my bedroom with the door closed,” Jake instructed the kid who was just trying to keep up with Jake as they walked down the hall. “You don’t answer the front door to anyone, you don’t leave this room unless me–” Jake pointed to himself “–or your mother comes to get you, got it?”

“What if I need to pee?” Dylan asked as he sat on the edge of Jake’s bed, watching as he threw on an old T-shirt that had been lying on the floor. The same one he had taken off before his shower.

“Piss your pants for all I care, just don’t leave this room,” Jake growled back at the kid who had somewhat grown on him. But Jake couldn’t let him know that, could he? “Use the bathroom genius, just stay in the damn house.” There was a silence that followed as Jake looked around for a pair of shorts or jeans or something he could wear that wasn’t a white bath towel. His mind was racing a million miles an hour trying to think of a logical explanation as to why your son was banging on his door saying you were in trouble.

“What are there naked ladies on in this magazine?” Jake froze as he looked over his shoulder to see your son looking through an old magazine Jake had left out. He normally wasn’t the magazine type of guy. But when the urge hits…

“Did your mother ever tell you not to look through other people’s belongings?” Jake snatched the magazine out of your son’s hand as he zipped his jeans up.

“Yeah, but my dad taught me that if people are stupid enough to leave their stuff lying around, then it’s fair game,” Dylan replied almost too quickly for Jake’s liking. Like he was prepared with that one before he even asked his initial question.

“Your dad sounds like he was a real great guy.” If Jake had rolled his eyes any harder, he probably would have fallen over from the force.

“Not really,” Dylan sighed. His entire demeanour changed in the blink of an eye. “I think he’s the reason why my mums in trouble now.” Jake had to take a second to take in the sadness that plastered itself across Dylan’s face. He was scared, that much was for sure. But scared of what exactly?

“Right,” Jake huffed as he tussled Dylan’s hair. “Don’t move, got it?”

“I won’t Mr Jake,” Dylan replied as he nodded in response, still sitting on the corner of Jake’s unmade bed. “Thanks for helping my mum, she says you’re a good friend and I didn’t have anywhere else to go.”

“Your mum said that about me?” Jake asked as he raised an eyebrow. His hands fell to his hips as he watched your son nod. His tear-stained cheeks caused Jake to frown more than he’d care to admit. This kid had somehow managed to weasel his way into Jake’s life in a way Jake never expected. He wasn’t the greatest role model, that was clear. But something told Jake that Dylan hadn’t been exposed to the best either.

“Yeah, she likes you, I can tell,” Dylan snitched on you like he was getting paid. “Mum doesn’t have a lot of friends.”

“Any reason why?” Jake didn’t want to pry, but he

“She says the more people she lets in, the more people can get hurt.”

“What’s your mum got herself caught up in, kid?” Jake sighed as he sat down beside Dylan on his bed. The mattress dipped a little more with Jake’s added body weight. Dylan immediately leaned against Jake for support as he tried to find the willpower not to cry.

His dad had always told him emotions were for women.

“I dunno,” Dylan sniffled as he dried his tears. “I just know that the men who came over aren’t nice and they want her money.”

“She owes someone money?”

“I think Dad did, but he’s dead,” Jake sometimes wished his dad had died a lot sooner than he did. There was a common ground there. Jake was also brought up on the ideology that emotions were his greatest weakness. He had watched his mother suffer for years. It was one of the reasons why he swore he’d never marry, never settle down. Jake didn’t want to be like his father. Listening to Dylan talk about his dad so flippantly made Jake wonder if Dylan felt the same way. “So I don’t know why they still want it.”

“Money doesn’t lose value like that, unfortunately,” Jake sighed as he connected the dots. He stood once again and tousled Dylan’s hair in the process. “Go through my shit and you’ll have bigger problems to deal with, understand?” Jake growled as he headed to the front door. Looking back over his shoulder to see Dylan settling further into Jake’s bed.

“I heard you the first time,” Dylan replied. Jake’s jaw nearly hit the hardwood flooring of his own house. Who did this kid think he was? “Thank you, Mr Jake.” Jake’s near rage dissipated within his chest when he heard the change-up of attitude almost immediately.

“Yeah yeah,” Jake sighed. He knew deep down that this really couldn’t be good. But there was still a large part of him that begged to ask the question, was this his problem? “The things I get myself into.” He mumbled to himself as he left the comfort of his humble abode on his one day off.

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“Wheres our fucking money Y/n?” Liam asked as he sat in the lounge chair across from the dining table chair you’d been tied to. “We’ve been more than patient with you given the circumstances,” None of this was realistically your fault. It was your late husband’s debt these guys were after.

“I’ve told you!” You tried to explain again for the hundredth time. “I’ve been saving, I’ve only got a couple thousand saved but it’s in the tin can above the fridge, take it all.”

Your husband had been a compulsive gambler. He bet your house on a game of blackjack one weekend and lost it all. He’d sold your belongings out from under you, used money for your son’s school fees and borrowed way more money than he could ever afford to pay back in his lifetime.

So he killed himself and left that debt to you. Weed. But when in clover, right?

“We’re past forgiving overdue debt,” Liam sighed. He was over hearing the same thing time and time again. “You owe us money, end of story.”

“Please, you know I had nothing to do with my husband’s affairs,” You tried to plead with the man who’d been on you for the last few months like a bad rash. “I can give you what I have, but I need more time!”

“Time is money, Miss. Y/l/n and I am a very busy man,” Liam replied with a sinister smirk smeared across his rugged face. “If you can’t pay up, you’ll just have to work off your debt.”

“We did just lose that one girl boss,” One of Liam’s henchmen chuckled as he moved your hair to one side over your shoulder. “She might be the perfect replacement?” Your skin crawled as the man’s fingertips trailed across your collarbone.

You strained against your restraints, trying every which way you could to get away from his touch and out of the chair you’d been tied to. But it was to no avail, you were tied down and tied down hard. The rope burned against your wrists, ankles and waist as you wriggled around. They’d surely leave marks for days, but that was the least of your problems right now.

“Might make us more money too,” Liam eyed you off as he leaned forward on his knees. “Bet it’s been a while since this widow got a good workout in, might have to take her for a test myself.”

“I have a son, please, I don’t know why my husband did what he did but his actions shouldn’t be mine to pay the price for!” You were sobbing. Tears streamed down your cheeks taking your not-so-waterproof mascara with them. “I’m begging you–”

“Good thing I like when they beg,” Liam snickered as he stood with a groan. “Let’s see what kinda merchandise we’re working with here,” The next few moments were tortuous. Far too many hands were all over your vulnerable body. “Let’s get a good look at you.” Tearing at articles of clothing to reveal more exposed skin as you screamed and pleaded with them to stop. Your breasts were out on full display by the time there was a knock at the door followed by an all too familiar voice.

“Y/n, open up yeah?” Jake knocked his knuckles against your front door as he whipped the bottoms of his shoes on the doormat. “Also, you might have to have the birds and the bees talk a lot earlier than expected, just a hunch.” Jake knew there was probably something going on inside, your son had been really spooked. But in true Jake Seresin style, he was gonna be a pain where he could be. He never made anything easy on anyone.

“Who the fucks that?” Liam asked as he grabbed your face. His fingertips squeezed against your cheeks as he looked you dead in the eye and held a gun to your temple. Things were escalating to new highs far too quickly. This was bad. Very bad.

“That’s just my neighbour,” You mumbled with fear laced in your words. “ He–”

“Tell him, to go the fuck home before I put a bullet in your thigh and fuck your face to see if you can really work off your pathetic excuse for a husband’s debt you weak fucking, bitch.” The way Liam spoke to you. The way he threatened you. The way his henchman all laughed as your visible tears and panic made you believe him without a shadow of a doubt. He was going to make you work off your husband’s debt against your will.

“Jake, not now, I have company!” You tried to conceal the worry in your tone, but Jake caught onto it right away. He bend down to reach for the spare hidden key under the fake ass rock he had told you time and time again to hide better.

“Well, it’s a good thing I don’t respect boundaries all that often, isn’t it?” Jake grumbled to himself as he unlocked the front door and made his way into your home. The first thing Jake noticed as he walked in was how furniture had been knocked over every which way. He saw the smashed photo frame of you and your son.

The light switch for hanging light above the entrance had been bashed in. Your TV had been knocked over. And all of a sudden, Jake took inventory of the way his heart rate accelerated to new highs never felt as he saw you tied to a dining table chair in the middle of your living room. His heart rate had never even been this rapid when he was approaching ten G-forces.

Damn, Dylan had been right on the money about there being bad guys in your home, hadn’t he?

“What’s going on here?” Jake asked as he slowly walked into plain sight. He had no intention of hiding. He wanted you to know he was there to help, come hell or high water.

“None of your concern,” Liam growled as he made sure to unclip the safety on his gun, still pointing it down towards your thigh. “Now, bet it before you become collateral damage buddy.”

“Jake,” You tried to warn him. “It’s alright, these are just some of my husband’s friends.” The fake smile you gave him broke Jake’s heart. He wasn’t sure what mess you’d managed to get yourself into. Or better yet, what mess your husband had left you behind to clean up. But what Jake knew for sure was that he wasn’t leaving without you.

“We had a deal, she didn’t pay up, a debt is a debt,” Liam explained as simply as he could. “Now get the fuck out before you start taking your final breaths through your chest.” Two more guns were now being held up in Jake’s direction. He could hear his heart in his ears as he held his hands in the air up beside his head.

“Wow, wow wow, I don’t want the smoke,” He teased. “What’s the debt? I’ll write a check?” It was the first thing Jake could think of that might help de-escalate an incredibly serious situation he truly wasn’t equipped to handle. “A couple thousand should do it, yeah?”

The choir of laughter that erupted around you was enough to have your tears streaming down your cheeks faster than they ever had been. You were screwed. Jake was a deadman walking and your son was about to become an orphan.

“Try two hundred and fifty thousand dollars,” Liam gave Jake the number he was after. The look Jake gave you told you all you needed to know. He didn’t have that kind of money. Which was quite ironic when you think about it because neither did you. “You have that in cash?” Liam pressed as he stepped closer to where Jake stood. “Because if not, I suggest you turn tail and get the fuck out of my goddamn sight.”

“She should sell for at least three–” One of the henchmen you didn’t even know, added. “We’ll make a profit after that piece of shit failed to repay the money we so generously loaned him.”

Jake’s mind was racing a million miles an hour. He couldn’t let these guys do this. He couldn’t let them take you. No one deserved this, but you especially didn’t. You’d been through so much already. You needed someone in your corner now more than ever. Jake wasn’t the relationship type, but he had a decent moral compass.

“What if I go with you and you give Y/n here more time to come up with the money?” Jake offered a counteroffer.

“Jake!” You pleaded before a pistol was making contact with your temple. The sheer force was enough to blind you for a few seconds as your neck was barely able to support your head.

“HEY!” Jale growled as he took strides towards you, only to be stopped by the two henchmen. One on each arm. “Please, don’t hurt her.” For a moment Jake had dropped his facade. He wasn’t the relationship kinda guy, but you sometimes made that the hardest rule to follow. “She’s–” Jake didn’t know how to explain what you meant to him. You; ‘d never spoken about what the two of you really were.

“She’s what? Loverboy?” Lima laughed in Jake’s face as he stood right before the detained aviator. “A gambler’s wife? A soon-to-be whore? A cum dumpster?” There was a second of silence that passed while Jake tried to figure out what he was about to say next. “Come on? What is she?”

“Jake–” You groaned.

“Shut the fuck up,” Liam spat and he shot Jake straight through his thigh.

“Ahhh fuck!”

“Jake!” You screamed as he crumbled to his knees before you. Bleeding a crimson red into the carpet. “No, no this isn't his problem to fix!” You begged as you thrashed against your restraints.

“You have thirty days, or he’s fish food,” Liam growled as his men dragged Jake across the carpet heading towards your front door. “Thirty days, get me my fucking money!!”

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dean-winchester-is-a-warrior · 3 years ago

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Phew! What an episode!! Many, many, major spoilers below for The Boys S3 E6, Herogasm.

Okay... where to start with this episode. Let's start with the title event - Herogasm. How depraved do I sound if I say, it wasn't actually that depraved? Lol! I think I was just expecting something crazier? Is that crazy?! Lol!! Maybe I've simply read and written too much smut? 😂

Don't get me wrong, there were some crazy ass moments. Annie telling Love Sausage how good MM was at "cunnalingus". 😆

Annie: Yeah, he just gobbles that vagina right up! Just nom, nom, nom, nom!"

😂😂😂 Jesus!!

MM getting completely covered in come - "Lick it up, you big brown bear you." 😆😵‍💫😆

The guy with his dick on fire was pretty terrifying.

But just, all in all, I guess considering it was the boys and Herogasm has been talked about so much, I was just expecting more insane shit. Lol! Like for me, the first 15 minutes of episode 1 was WAY more depraved and insane! This was just a bunch of people having sex, some of it a bit kinky. 😄

Still enjoyable though. I'm a little sad Soldier Boy didn't take part, especially considering he apparently founded it!! 😜 (Founded it with Stormfront - or Liberty as she was known then! So Homelander and Soldier Boy both fucked Stormfront!!) 🤯

Anyway, much, MUCH more on SB coming up.

Now, for Kimiko and Frenchie. Holy shit!

First, Kimiko's heartbreaking texts to Frenchie:

Are you mad at me because 💋

It won't happen again.

💔😭💔😭💔😭💔😭

And then that scene with her and Cherie and Frenchie. Poor Frenchie. I just love him so much and I hate Nina SO MUCH!! I was so cheering Kimiko on. (And wtg Cherie, coming in with the assist!!) I honestly thought Kimiko had her powers back.

But no, it was just her, which should have made her feel like a badass and an ACTUAL fucking hero, not a fake one like the SUPES. She came through. She saved them all!! So when she said to Frenchie that it just proved she was the monster, it made me wanna cry!! 🥺

Ugh, I just love them so much and I want them both to be safe so badly!! 😩😩

So now, MM and Annie. So...I feel like this is gonna be a really unpopular opinion, but, I think they're wrong. Let me explain.

The scene where MM was telling Annie about what happened to his family...his Grandpa - tears - so many tears! (Laz acted the shit out of that scene, btw!)

And I completely understand how that would trigger his OCD and a fucking lifetime of trauma. But I don't think killing SB is actually going to change any of that. When has revenge EVER given someone lasting peace. I think he has to deal with the trauma, and it sure would be great if SB would stop acting like a machismo, uncaring dick when MM confronts him about killing his family.

When MM was like, "You killed my family."

And SB was like, "Which one?"

I was like, "Fuck Soldier Boy!! You are an asshole!"

But wtf was MM thinking trying to go after him? The halothane was a dumb enough move, but then when it obviously no longer worked against him (maybe that's why SB was in the big chamber in Russia? Grew an immunity to the halothane?) MM goes after him with just his fists? 😲😲😲 And then later, just before Starlight stops him, he was cocking his gun to go after him. Like, really MM, a gun?!

And I get where both Annie and MM are coming from, but I don't think their solution is it, at least not on its own. I think they're gonna need a combination of MM and Annie's plan, along with Hughie and Butcher's plan.

Because to my mind, there's no doubt whatsoever that they're going to need more strength and firepower to defeat Homelander than just Starlight and Maeve (if she's even still alive! 😩😬)

So, I completely get Butcher and Hughie's reasoning (although it makes me very sad that Hughie's reasoning is also partly set in that toxic masculinity BS that little boys grow up with.)

Anyway, I just think that they'll need a SUPED-up Hughie and Butcher, maybe a temporarily Suped -up Kimiko, Starlight, Maeve, and maybe one or two more "decent supes", maybe Neuman, DEFINITELY Soldier Boy to have a shot at bringing down Homelander. Doesn't mean there aren't going to be problems there, doesn't mean it's a perfect plan, but they've gotta pull together to kill that SOB.

Anyway, I'm so sorry I've rambled on for SO long - but this episode was INCREDIBLE!!

I'll end with Soldier Boy. So, I still haven't changed my position on him. Hearing what he did to MM's family is completely horrifying, and he definitely deserved to be brought to justice for that kind of reckless disregard for civilians lives.

But to my mind, he's served that time. Nearly 40 years of torture? I feel like that's his debt paid. I know it doesn't fix MM, but as I said above, I think MMs help lies elsewhere. But a sincere and real apology (like A-Train gave Hughie before he...died?!! 😬😳😲) might go a long way to helping. Not holding my breath for that though.

Because, as we saw in this episode, that Toxic Masculinity BS is strong and pervasive in SB too, probably much more so than Hughie. He was born and raised in it. He won't even admit that he's experiencing major PTSD, probably because he thinks it's weak.

Both SB and Hughie's storylines this season have actually given me a wider appreciation for just how unbelievably damaging TM is, not just to feminism, not just to society as a whole, but to EVERY boy who's raised believing this absolute bullshit, and to every grown man who can't admit he has any emotions. It honestly breaks my heart.

So, when it comes to SB, I feel like I'm not sure he could ever uproot that horrible toxicity. I mean, I SERIOUSLY hope so, but it may be impossible.

But, for me, all of that, including the fact that he doesn't even remember what happens when he goes nuclear, it makes him more of a sympathetic character.

I still really wanna know what he did to his team to make them hate him so much? Did they just feel like he was out of control and too powerful to deal with? Or did he actually do something heinous that they wanted him gone for.

I'm so curious for more!!

Oh and, P.S. - the fight between Homelander, SB, Butcher, and Hughie was epic on another level!! I watched it 3 times in a row. I LOVE that they ACTUALLY scared Homelander enough that he flew away like the true coward he is. I need so many more team ups!! But I need MM, Starlight, Maeve, and maybe Neuman to join in.

I do truly apologize for how long I've yammered here!! I am really, really loving this season!!

#the boys s3 #the boys s3 spoilers #soldier boy #Homelander #butcher #hughie #Starlight #kimiko #frenchie #kimiko and frenchie

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captainaikus · 2 years ago

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Oh ew the OF accounts and sex bots are completely getting out of hand. I haven’t been notified of any new followers but I don’t trust tumblr to do so. I’m have to gonna check on that soon 🙄🙄.

And seriously for what reason are people flagging down your works for like 😭😭?? It literally makes no sense??? Some people are so rude and mean and spiteful for no reason like. Do better or screw off unintentionally quoting Ego here I’m sorry that this happened to you, it really sucks.

Ever since break started I’ve been in a kind of limbo. It feels so surreal not having any work to do. I mean I do have basic chores to do today like the laundry and vacuuming and stuff but besides that it’s a free day. I am. Very very very. Temped to start reading the blue lock manga. I know I said I’d wait for the anime to finish but like I need something to do 😭😭. I was starting my first TR reread since the last chapter but I only got in 3 chapters before I started sobbing and I haven’t even gotten to Akkuns first death or met Mikey and Draken for the first time again yet. I’m gonna have to chunk my way through it while sobbing and taking so many breaks because I will seriously never recover from this manga. OH AND I LOVE CHIFUYUS BIRTHDAY ART. Wakui continuing to attest that yes takefuyu are still canon in the reset timeline. It’s such a relief for me because those two are my comfort duo 😭😭😭. I also want to finish Chainsaw Man soon. I stopped at around volume 9 because I’m broke and was reading it at the bookstore and all I can say is that this series is definitely getting a reread cause I love analyzing strange works and concepts. THE MAITAKE COVER ASJKGFJKHFFGGG. The way I screeched when I first saw it like. I love how you worded it, they literally look like royalty together UGH. Suffice to say that yes maitake fans has a field day with the cover of volume 31 😌😌. I cant wait for the inside cover to be revealed. My prediction/demand is that it’s gonna be then as children childhood-friends-to-lovers. But I guess we’ll see.

Anyways. How are you Belle? Doing better I hope? How’s uni? Oh and when does your winter break start? How’s life? Im so happy tumblr is being cooperative now and letting you see my tagged posts 😭😭. Sorry for the constant tagging tho, there’s just so much I wanna share and I see something and I’m like “oh I wanna show this to Belle” you know? Oh and im so glad you liked that Oliver drabble 🥹🥹. I’ve got another one in mind for him but this time it might be a little more ✨spicy✨ so stay tuned 👀👀😌. I hope you have a great day and that the caramel frappuccino tasted great!!! *sending many virtual hugs*

- ✨ anon

Istg- i got followed by accounts from Czechia and Carolina this morning. Alright, I made my pinned post of Gojo's OF account but this is a writing blog; not even an OF promotion blog (╥﹏╥) unless... i draw some stuff

Tumblr decided to not let me post my rant- so here’s what I had to say

I revisited my childhood with watching DBZ... (i knew i said i would start one piece but the gym bro-ness got the better of me and i started watching it) someone please explain why does Goku's voice sound... i don't know how to describe it. i was so shocked about his voice, i was planning on watching the dub instead cause of it *crying* Honestly, Wakui did a really good job with the cover. Even when I was reading mangas online - I was so awed by the covers of the manga and when TR was on its peak here, i saw a lot of spoilers for bonten mikey. I never liked mikey... but this made me change my mind. And they (like every cover character i saw up until the Brahman arc looked like royalty. Even hanma-) I'm doing well! Contemplating to change the blog theme for some reason. It's not gonna be aiku ofc- he gets 0 screen time cause he hasn't come back from italy and i am mad at him with part 1 to ocean hues I'm on my winter break actually and omw back home. Fifa knocked the wind out of me. I feel sad cause Mbappé played really well (and he was sad too when they lost), i literally went to go keep my plate and he scored in 97 seconds of the first goal T.T . But i'm also really happy for Argentina cause its the first time in 36 years since Maradona that they have won the Wc and i cried cause they were crying on the field not to mention the fact that Messi played in their team as well - so it was bittersweet ending but also very well deserved! And yes i am a football head I can't see you in my activity still (maybe your visibility switch is off? i'm not sure) but i do get the number on my activity and that's how ik that you're there (⑅ •͈ᴗ•͈ ) I actually don't mind being tagged! and I enjoy the things you have to show me as well ૮⸝⸝> ̫ <⸝⸝ ა (i saw some stuff where you tagged me- i'll be answering those soon, promise i'm not ignoring you ૮(˶˃ᆺ˂˶)ა ) I. absolutely. loved. the Oliver drabble ˃̵ᴗ˂̵. I still read it btw, cause it is absolutely precious. the deer headrest and the fact he wants to be a good boy made me go (๑✪ᆺ✪๑) did you say spicy 💀 *here lies Isabelle Aiku; beloved wife of Oliver Aiku who is unaware that he is married to her- * Starry you're gonna make me combust from the heat *sending back bear hugs*

*my man is so handsome (>﹏<) and yours is too*

#belle.☏#.moot🍦: ✨ anon

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sunlightandsuffering · 3 years ago

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College eremika au but the corrupted one is Mikasa. They live in a same house they rented together with Armin. She's basically ruining herself with drugs and smoking. Eren is a nerd and obviously doesn't like how she behaves but over the time he sees himself caring about Mikasa more than he should despite telling her "I don't give a fuck what you do to yourself" he doesn't let her drink too much, doesn't let her stay in bar too late...

Mikasa on the other hand finds Eren attractive though she hates it the way Eren acts like a fucking nerd but deep in her heart she knows Eren is one if the very few people that actually care about her.

Sorry I just needed some angst!

YES THIS IS BASICALLY THE NERDREN I WANT TO WRITE!!!!! But omg her being addicted to drugs 😭 and Eren just having to deal with that omg. They start fucking bc Mikasa is DESPERATE, maybe she's got a little bit of a sex addiction bc she craves the intimacy bc she was abandoned as a child. If u wanna get messed up and psychological lol, so she's got hella issues and she uses sex to fill the hole and leaves men before they can leave her. But she's in her own hole right now, she looks terrible and she got a DUI or something so she can't drive, basically for some reason or another Eren is her only option. and she tells him that, she's like I'd NEVER consider you normally but plz will u fuck me I need it?? And Eren is so offended, but he's always had this soft spot for her he can't get rid of. and he hates watching her tear herself apart, he knows if it isn't him it's going to be some other guy she finds on the street and he watches her whip a joint out and he snatches it from her fingers, he's like only if you're sober will I fuck you. She laughs, thinks it's hilarious!! who does this boy think he is?? She was pretty sure he was a virgin, but whatever she'll take it. they have sex and it's the best of her fucking life, she doesn't know if it was because she was sober or what, and Eren doesn't leave in the morning, he literally passes out on her bed and she wakes up with him snoring next to. her and she can't leave bc it's her own fucking room.

So they start fucking and Eren's stipulation is always that she has to be sober, always always. and he keeps up with his grades and stuff he doesn't try to change her, she has to want it and he knows that. But mikasa is kinda sorta falling in love with him a little bc even tho hes not trying to stop her, he's always making sure she's fed and clothed, eating healthy, getting to her classes. he drives her where she needs to go.

She tries to get clean, bc she wants to for him, wants to go. him with him for Christmas to meet his family, actually date her nerd. And she goes and it's great and it's bliss but then some old friends find her and she falls off the wagon and she does the only thing Eren told her expressly NOT to do, she fucks him high out of her mind on cocaine, the first time she's done it and after that he's just angry and it's over. and Mikasa falls, falls, falls until she finally hits rock bottom bc he's trying to move out and she didn't realize he had such pretty girl friends, and she realizes she's losing him completely and she can't handle it all anymore.

SO she gets her shit together finally and Eren still moves out, she finds him a year later by coincidence at a grocery store and her eyes never leave him. He asks if she wants to go for some pizza and she says of course and the rest is history.

#lys's drabbles

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theteapotofdoom · 4 years ago

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https://youtu.be/4bzexwvNdVs

Ok but this song just makes me think of a shigadabi au where they start as friends with benefits and slowly start to gain feelings for each other but don’t wanna admit it . I wish there was an animatic with shiggys pov 😭😭

Aaaww this is so sweet! I love this song! :D

Yeah, I could definitely see an AU like that! Honestly, "friends with benefits turning into true love" is one of my favourite trope of all time.

Dabi and Shig were having a heated argument one night, and they started to push each other around and wrestled a little bit. In the middle of all this action, they "accidentally" started making out and even hooked up. Turns out that the sex was AMAZING, so once that the mortifying awkwardness wore off they made an agreement. They can be friends with benefits, but they have a lot of rules (no kissing on the lips, no cuddling, no "I love you", and so on ...).

At first, it's easy. Dabi will just randomly cage Tomura against the wall in the hallway like "hey, wanna have sex? because I really wanna have sex" and off they go. It also becomes a very easy way to solve all of their arguments. Every time they start fighting or disagree about something, it always ends up in the bedroom and the problem is solved. They VAGUELY try to keep it a secret from the rest of the LOV, but they're not fooling anyone (they will start to argue in front of the rest of the squad before both going a little breathless and immediately running upstarts ... subtle). Also, everyone noticed that they get along a lot better now.

Because yes, they start to weirdly get along. Now that all the charged energy between them is turning into great sex, they're both a lot more relaxed than usual. They even seem ... happier? It's hard to tell, it's still Tomura and Dabi after all. But Tomura smiles and laughs a lot more than usual, and Dabi no longer snaps at people for no reason. Actually, they're both in a very good mood most of the time (when they're not dealing with pro heroes bullshit). For everyone in the LOV, it's a blessing and improvement. Good for them. But for Tomura and Dabi? This is kind of a big problem. Because if they're happier and get along now, they don't fight. And if they don't fight ... is this still hate sex? Do they still have an excuse to have sex?

This thing used to be easy. Dabi would get annoying, so Tomura would just kiss him to shut him up. Tomura would start acting like a brat, so Dabi would carry him to bed to teach him a lesson. But now ... well, they don't find each other annoying anymore. Dabi is a lot kinder now, a lot more patient with everyone, and Tomura finds enjoying his stupid jokes and nicknames. Tomura is more relaxed, more mature, and Dabi realises that he actually love how passionate and caring his leader can be. So now ... this whole "friends with benefits" thing gets complicated because they have to find excuses. They have to find reasons to hook together since it no longer just randomly happens while they fight.

They still try to rationalise it though. "This is fine. This doesn't mean anything. This doesn't change anything. I may not hate him as much as I use to, but I still don't like him. This is fine. This is just sex. Good sex. Great sex. We still have all of our rules between us and we never break them. This is fine." But the thing is ... they both start to hate these rules. Neither of them wants to admit it, not even to themselves, but it's getting harder and harder to leave the bed as soon as they're done. When it's over, Tomura immediately jumps off the bed, because he knows that if he looks at Dabi lying next to him, with his sex hair and his happy smile, he'll want to lie next to him forever. And as soon as Tomura gets up, it takes all of Dabi's self-control to not grab his wrist to pull him back in the bed with, to not lie on top of him to trap him and just look at him for hours and hours.

This is the most dangerous part of it all: how much they both start to crave intimacy without sex. Dabi wants nothing more than to lie on badly with Tomura for a whole day, just to look at him and hear him breathe. Tomura wants nothing more than to reach out for Dabi's hand when they're outside of the bedroom, just to hold it and feel his warm skin. And they both want nothing more than to kiss each other's lips.

So ... like everything else with these two disasters, it all happened by accident. Kind of fitting really started with an accident and ended with one. Neither of them could have predicted it because nothing about that night seemed special. It was just another night with more fantastic sexy. There were maybe some differences. Tomura moaning a little louder and a little more desperately than usual. Dabi holding him a little tighter and little more desperately than usual. But neither of them were ready when Tomura reached his climax and screamed:

"Yes, Dabi! Yes! God, I love you!"

The silence that followed was almost deafening. Dabi's entire body tense and went still, with a completely neutral expression on his face. Tomura didn't realise right away, still fucked up his post-climax state. But then the silence was too heavy and the echo of his own words hit him. Shigaraki Tomura had almost been killed many, many, many, times before. And yet, he had never panicked as much as he panicked at that moment.

He immediately tried to take it back of course. He backtracked as much as he could, stuttering that he didn't mean it, that this was an accident, that he was sorry. But Dabi was still quiet, so Tomura's anxiety kept growing, and he even started begging Dabi to forgive him, begging him not to leave him, begging forgiveness for breaking the rules. Still silence. It was only was Tomura, on the verge of a breakdown, began to scratch his neck, that Dabi grabbed his wrist, pinned him back on the bed and kissed his lips.

Dabi kissed Tomura like he had wanted to kiss him for months. He kissed these beautiful scarred lips until the breathless boy underneath him processed it, gasped, and kissed him right back.

"I love you," Dabi whispered against Tomura's face when they had to break away for air. "I love you, I love you, I love."

That night, they make love for the first time.

...

SO THIS ACCIDENTALLY TURNED INTO A MINI FIC, WHOOPS

#i didn't check the spelling AT ALL we die like men here #i'm pretty sure that it's half written in the present and half in the past #continuity whomst #shigadabi #shigaraki tomura #dabi #my hero academia #boku no hero academia #bnha

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31 and 53

Sorry it took me so long to get to this, exam season is killing me

53. What dirty talk actually turns you on? Is there anything that makes you cringe?

Great question this might be a long one. Growing up, a lot of my sexual education/exploration came in the form of erotica and audioporn rather than visual stimuli, so I love the verbal aspect of sex. To me, the person who's talking is the person in control, so when I'm in a more submissive role I like when a person can hold the space on their own and put me in a position when I don't have to be so verbal. I'm into degradation, I like being condescended and stuff idk, honestly I think as long as the other person doesn't sound like they're trying too hard, or mentally drawing from a word bank of shit everyone's already said before I'll probably enjoy myself. Because yeah, "you little slut" is fine I guess, but if it doesn't sound like something you would say and if the delivery feels like it's something you just heard in a porno, it's an instant turn off for me. Switch it up, give me something personal. To be fair though I'm aware other people are at a disadvantage because of how well Martin knows me and our pack of boundaries. Plus he could say literally anything about the fact that we're siblings and it puts me over edge 😭 he's also a really creative person and has no problem fully commiting to saying whatever pops into his head while we're going at it, which I love.

Also this is worth noting because I have no idea the next time I'll be able to talk about this, but holy shit I was listening to an audio once, and normally I don't like listening to people just jerk off, but by the end of it the guy was just rambling all this super desperate, degrading shit and it was disjointed nonsense honestly, "I hate you, I just want you to need me like I need you, I want you to hate this more than I do... just be good why can't you be fucking good you stupid fucking cunt just be what you were supposed to, just be my cunt... I wanna beat you, I wanna dig my nails into your flesh and leave marks that never go away. I wanna put cigarettes out on your tongue, I really do, fucking hate cigarettes and I still want to. I'll make you smoke just for the occasion just to hear you cough." Like it's so, specific and desperate and personal to him that it really had an impact on me.

Sorry that was really long and probably doesn't make a lot of sense? But I just have so much to say and zero desire to organize my thoughts rn 😭 I love the question though

31. What’s the best orgasm you’ve had in the past few months?

This is honestly kind of difficult for 2 reasons:

1. I nut a lot, like multiple times a day so they kinda blur together

2. when I use a vibe I tend to give myself ruined Os instead of fully going through with it and I have absolutely zero clue why. I don't get off on the idea of ruins for myself (I do like ruined Os for men though), I think it just gets so intense toward climax that I turn the vibe setting down and end up not reaching peak. There's probably also an element of me wanting the actual masturbation to last longer because idk I like the build up more than the O

But if I had to pick a strongest one, Martin fucked me while I used my vibe and that shit had me TWITCHING. It was a little cumbersome to use the vibe because I have an air pump one rather than a traditional vibrator, so we don't do this that often, but it's so good.

#unclean for work #miko miko miko #miko and martin

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Omg I forgot to answer earlier 🤡

I don't know enough NCT bsides to form an opinion, maaaaaaybeeeee I'll listen to them one day. I listened to a few from the latest NCT U album, I think I like U's titles the most. I like Next Level much more than Savage, both songs have cool parts like I said they just don't always work together well and I like Savage more when I listen to it on speakers not headphones, lmaooo. But I liked their debut a lot, Black Mamba made me intrigued but then uhmm... did you hear their pre-released track? The song is pretty good but the beginning with yummy and tummy and all the slurping???!!! I'm UNCOMFORTABLE

Someone had a MILF sign at Woosung's concert!? It was great, but the show was so short like only an hour, but he came to my city so I didn't mind

About dark concepts, give me some dark angels, wings etc. Dreamcatcher and Pixy are doing great with the witchy and creepy stuff, now that would make those antis properly scared lolol. And judging by Black Cat Nero Ateez can deliver disturbing shit! I wouldn't mind them going more emo than hard-hitting EDM, but if they do I wanna hear rock or pop punk, something in the style of TXT's releases from last year, because the songs were still hype.

Yeah even my feet hurt during period it's awful. AK... why my first thought was about AK (Kalashnikov) idydisjdhhshs that one would help for sure 😭😭😭😭 for some reason I can't read smut while on my period, because the mood is just not there you know? Like I'm suffering and can't think about sex stuff, because I want my uterus G O N E

Rip, you could've had your Y/N moment 😔 Imo we should we able to hibernate during winter

Well sorry to Y/N's dad but it is what it is, you hired a bodyguard for your daughter and his guarding her body every night 🤗

Accidental murder framing 🤔 I like it but I don't like it...🧍🏼‍♀️

Yes bad girl x bad boy aka the worst people together - the worst in a bastardy way not literally toxic and awful, just dumb sad kids with issues. I can definitely see them in a prestigious school, even uni and everyone's like WHY ARE YOU THERE because they do not study and fail everything lmaoo, but rich parents and parental issues. <3 it would work in a regular school too, but this idea is more angsty because instead of being awful but popular, they could both be outcasts with problems 😩

NOT LIKE A BEAST 😭 because I picture them transforming into the Beat from Beauty and the Beast or some shit 🔫🔫🔫🔫 I know people are into monster-fucking but let's not go there!

Seonghwa's father simp vibes, from the phone conversations and letters I saw from his mum she sounds as sweet as Hwa. But I think my favourite Ateez mother is Wooyoung's, that lady is T I R E D and so funny 😆 I mean she has 3 sons I can't blame her

Imagine if Kboo was like a "proper" newspaper we would come to work, sit at our little cubicle work stations and write about Seonghwa every day 🤡 what a job. I once had an internship at Metro one of UK's trashu newspaper - dark times but I had no choice - and worked as a beta

I didn't wake up specifically for Hwa's live, but I stayed awake for him, hsysiwhdjahaysyqq. I wonder if he would be the same if there weren't thousands of people watching him, we know he can get frustrated and start throwing stuff. He still does that in tiny. But what a saint with great patience, ahhahaha.

ASMR Hwa is good boy x bad girl for sure. Imagine him being the top student, then a new student Y/N arrives and he's like 😍😍😍 I CAN FIX HER, but he would act "tough" to make an impression and fail miserably

I don't know Baek, first try to win over miss Tiny then we can see how it goes... I can't believe I called Seonghwa my son, please let's move on!!!

NERD HWA WHEN YOU ASK? NERD HWA WHEN I ASK?!

https://www.instagram.com/p/CeTWiErt7Kf/?igshid=YmMyMTA2M2Y= 😩❤

- DV 💖

hi hello!!

nct u has some rly good songs! dream also does beat box is rly good but main 127 one are usually a hit or miss for me 😭😭 i rec rainbow by nct dream and magic carpet ride by nct127 so good the nice r&b <33 YEAH DEF NEXT LEVEL WAS A BOP I BE DOING THE DANCE EVERY TWO SECS okay omg black mamba was a lit debut it was debuted when everyone was doing the same things and aespa just shifted it entirely I DID YES THE YUMMY THREW ME OFF BUT THE SONG IS GOOD IM JUST FBWNFH NOT GONNA LISTEN TO IT

Someone had a MILF sign at Woosung's concert!? It was great, but the show was so short like only an hour, but he came to my city so I didn't mind

HRKWHDKWHDWK NO WAY GOTTA GO TO HIS CONCERTS 😭😭 also svt concert, one ticket. $700. one of my friends went to the olivia rodrigo concert here and it was right after the grammy’s and someone had the sign “did v (bts) smell good? <3 <3” SHE NEVER RESPONDED

yes yes give uS THE CULT DO IT GO SO DARK THAT WE CANT BREATHE and pls if the lyrics are like dissing antis >>>>> EXACTLY THEY CAN ABSOLUTELY BEGGING FOR THEM TO DO IT WITH THE CREEPY ASS MUSIC TONE 😮‍💨😩 omg yes txt does some of the best rock in kpop truly so so good !!!!

NO WAY???? BESTIE ARE U GOOD DID U GET IT??? 😭😭😭🤚🏼 NO I GET IT SMUT IS THE LAST THING I THINK OF but when its near the end of the cycle im suddenly reading every single one fbsndbd

Rip, you could've had your Y/N moment 😔 Imo we should we able to hibernate during winter

I COULDVE 😭😭😭 SOME RICH SENIOR COULDVE HELPED ME UP 😭😭😭 we absolutely should, we are bears.

Well sorry to Y/N's dad but it is what it is, you hired a bodyguard for your daughter and his guarding her body every night 🤗

THE WAY I SCREAMED AND LAUGHED MY MOUTH WIDE OPEN AND ALL FHWKFJQKDHWKDBWM so true, his absolute fault to put hwa as her guard, absolutely his fault if she starts to like him <33 BFWNBDK its rly crazy writing it bc the tension they have is insane, he cannot absolutely do ANYTHING but she’s like “why are u scared bro go for it!!”

Accidental murder framing 🤔 I like it but I don't like it...🧍🏼‍♀️

GIRL U KNOW WHAT I WILL WRITE IT IM RLY AN INTRIGUED BY IT !!! a prestigious school and they’re the outcasts from rich families who expect way to much from them but don’t know what their kids do at school,,, “why tf are u at my hiding place” “you’re at mine” “did u fail again? lol” “didn’t you get a 2/10?” absolutely this, i will absolutely write this. yes yes.

NOT LIKE A BEAST 😭 because I picture them transforming into the Beat from Beauty and the Beast or some shit 🔫🔫🔫🔫 I know people are into monster-fucking but let's not go there!

LMFAOOOO BRKWDHWK THE BEAST ALWAYS MAKES ME WANNA SCREAM NAURRR FURRY KINK 😭😭😭 YEAH LETS NOT GO THERE

absolutely his father is seonghwa’s idol in romance absolutely omg SHE RLY DOES 😭😭 she seems like she makes those cute little things and doodles and what not and thats where hwa gets it from 😭😭 LMFAOOOO MISS EUNKYUNG BESTIE IS TIRED 3 BOYS AND A HUSBAND GIRLIE WOULD BE SO MF HAPPY WHEN HER KIDS GET MARRIED SO A GIRL COMES IN THE HOUSE 😭😭😭😭 woo and kyungmin def the problem child <3 their house must’ve been so chaotic raising them

u have the coolest jobs ever?????? omg??? NO FR ID COME TO WORK EVERYDAY IF IVE TO WRITE FOR HWA ANYDAY

“stayed awake for him” the shinestar dedication 😭😭😭 LMFAOOOO OH ABSOLUTELY I JUST WANNA SEE HIM LOOSE HIS SHIT COMPLETELY like when he yelled @ hongjoong to “stop it!” in the thanxx concept photos 😩😩😮‍💨

YES ABSOLUTELY !!!! I CAN FIX HER FBWMFJWKB HE’S THE PICK ME FOR HER stop i will write this, he’s to tour her around while she does not rly care but she finds herself caring in the little things he does AND WHEN HE GETS BULLIED (??) IF HE DOES THE WAY SHE WOULD FIGHT HANDS ON ITS ON-SITE and then he patches her wounds ☺️

I don't know Baek, first try to win over miss Tiny then we can see how it goes... I can't believe I called Seonghwa my son, please let's move on!!!

LMFAOOOO SWEET HOME ALABAMA ANON???? WITH UR SON???? BFNWBDKW

NERD HWA WHEN YOU ASK? NERD HWA WHEN I ASK?! https://www.instagram.com/p/CeTWiErt7Kf/?igshid=YmMyMTA2M2Y= 😩❤

gOD 😭😭😭 WHEN IS IT OUR TURN TO BE HAPPY AND BE WITH HIM 😭🤚🏼🔫 HE LOOKS SO SOFT AND DOMESTIC 😭😭

also,,

i also found a new manhwa and have to share the main lead.

😀😀🙂

#✉️ : ask #dv 💖 anon

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