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Bro PLZ write something about teds mustache PLZ🙏
here u go short while i work on other stuffs
"i promise you you aren't too heavy, please sit on my face," ted begged.
"your mustache is gonna feel so weird though!!" excuses. to tell the truth, he just made you really nervous. you honestly didn't expect that mentioning that you had never been eaten out to your best friend would land you in this situation. "i dunno, ted..."
"c'mon, please trust me. i promise we can stop if you don't like it but i wanna try to make you feel good at least once. please?" he made that stupid face that gets him whatever he wants and leaned back on to his couch, resting his head flat on a pillow and patting his chest for you to hop on.
with a scoff, you rolled your eyes and started to climb onto him, but he stopped you and pointed to your pants.
"off," he instructed simply. his bossiness left a damp spot in your panties once you slowly, carefully removed them, folding both them and your pants and setting them on the coffee table. "there we go." you could hear the grin in his voice before you spun back around to glare at him.
"you're so annoying, you know that?"
"you love me."
he wasn't wrong. in what way, you weren't sure, but you did love your best friend.
"hop on!" he waved you over, intertwining his fingers with yours when you straddled his chest. "my face is up here," he joked when you hesitated.
"oh my god, fine, i'll sit on your face if it'll shut you up," you teased, trying to hide the nervousness in your voice. ted, who couldn't stop smiling, helped you scoot forward until you were hovering over his face. once he had a clear view of your wet hole, he groaned and wrapped his arms around your thighs, pulling you down and holding you tight while you squirmed.
his tongue worked deftly in and out of your cunt, flicking and swirling around your sensitive bud and drawing frantic wails from you. you had never felt anything so pleasurable; everything he was doing was sending white hot electricity straight to your core.
"teddy, fuck!!" you screamed, bucking your hips furiously on his face. his mustache provided just the right stimulation, brushing against your thighs when he pulled his mouth away from your pussy to plant sloppy kisses everywhere. "feels so good..." you trailed off.
he moaned into your folds as he slid his tongue back in you, the vibrations causing your legs to tremble.
"ted, please, you're so good, so good to me, fuck! why did you wanna- nghh, do this so bad?" your voice was shaky, and he pulled away with a lewd noise to answer your question.
"because i think you deserve to feel good. this doesn't have to be anything more than two friends helping each other, if you don't want it to be. just, shut up and let me taste you, please?" he bargained, brushing his mustache along your skin to soothe you.
"how am i helping you?" you asked, puzzled.
"you think i'm not gonna get off to this for like, the rest of my life?" he chuckled, pulling your cunt back to his mouth. staring down at him made your stomach flip- the way his hazel eyes peered up at you as he worked his mouth was intoxicating.
"teddy, i think i'm close," you whined, rolling your hips forward. his grip on your thighs tightened as he furrowed his brows and began eating you faster, sloppy noises filling the room. letting out a constant string of moans and swears as you tossed your head back, you let him devour you and arched your back.
he guided you through your orgasm, grunting when you began to claw at his arms where they were holding you down. he overstimulated you just a tad, unable to resist his cruel desires, not knowing if he would get to do this again. once you rode out your high, you scrambled backwards off of him, panting, and collapsed onto the couch.
"was that good?" he asked nervously, wiping his mouth with his sleeve. you couldn't form words yet, but nodded solemnly. smiling, he rose from his seat and walked to the kitchen, returning with a water bottle, which you accepted gratefully.
"can we do that again?" you asked quietly once he sat back down.
"uh. yeah, if you really want to," ted offered, scratching the back of his neck.
pulling him in for a deep kiss, you grinned at the faint taste of yourself still on his lips. his mustache tickled your upper lip as the kiss deepened, and soon he was on top of you, kissing between your thighs and enjoying every noise that spilled from your lips.
#x reader#ted nivison x reader#ted nivison smut#ted nivison x you#ted nivison x y/n#ted nivison x reader smut#chuckle sandwich x reader
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Gotcha. (Stu Macher x Reader)
A/N: Yall are so lucky I have been consumed by Matthew Lillard, he just saved my Tumblr account. Also this one's kinda...steamy.
word count: 1048
♪Song to listen to: Oblivion by Grimes♪
Shelves on the floor, books scattered and the TV still running the black and white movie that everyone was watching before they left. The big house had gone quiet and you and Sidney were the only ones left in the house. Stu had gone to the garage and never came back while Sid went upstairs with Billy. Bored and a little scared with the killer on the loose, you tried to find anyone to go home with safely. Safety in numbers you know.
As you walk around the empty house you find yourself walking towards the garage door. You open the door and see broken beer bottles on the floor and the garage looking a mess. The big door was open and as your eyes wandered you saw a familiar pair of shoes dangling. A blood curdling scream left your lips as you tried to find Sid to get the hell out of that house. As you turn back around to run, you find the door locked and the only way out is the one that your friend Tate was hanging from. With no time to waste, you make a run for the garage door before someone grabs your wrist. You met face to face with Mr. Ghostface himself. Without thinking you rip your hand out of his grip and make a break for the door. Finally getting out of the garage and around the house to the front door you decide to find Sidney and get the fuck out of there.
Running up the stairs you hear familiar laughter, but can’t quite pinpoint it. You begin to hear hurried footsteps up the stairs after you. Adrenaline filled, you make it up with no problem and begin pounding on the doors for Sidney.
“SID? SID WE GOTTA GET OUT-” You feel a strong grip around your arm and hiss in pain. You’re dragged into a spare bedroom and thrown onto the queen size bed. As soon as you land on the bed you feel two legs straddling your waist and a singular hand pin both of your wrists above your head. You struggle against the hold of Ghostface, and with his other hand he raises the knife he’s been chasing you with. You open your mouth to scream but the knife hits the ground with a clatter. You look to the side surprised but Ghostface reaches to his face to remove the mask and drops it to the floor.
“Gotcha Y/N.” Stu smiles and licks his lips. Your face looks in shock as you search his eyes for answers.
“W-what? Why are you doing this Stu?” Tears form in your eyes as you register that your long time friend and crush was the one behind all the killings. He leans down to kiss your falling tears and laughs at your fear.
“No, no, no baby…this isn’t how this is supposed to go.” He chuckles and holds your chin to look at him with his free hand. “You know…I’ve always had a thing for you Y/N.” He grins and your face scrunches up in confusion. “You’re like an addiction baby, I just can’t get enough of you.”
“Stu I love you b-but-” More tears fell as you tried to speak, but you were cut off.
“Aha! So you do like me~” You struggle again against his grip. As your breathing gets harder and you begin to freak out a little more, he gets close to your face. Planting light kisses on your neck, you fight the urge to make a noise until a little whimper leaves your lips. “So tense y/n…was it the knife? Did I scare you with the knife baby?” He continues to leave a trail of kisses on your jaw as he pushes your face in the opposite direction that he’s kissing you on. Even if you wanted to show you weren’t interested, your body betrayed you. He notices this reaction from you and grins before he chooses a spot on your neck and begins to lightly suck. You bite your lip with force as you feel him attacking your neck which causes it to draw blood. With every kiss, your body moved on its own, wanting more. He lets go of your hands above your head and waits for you to push him off, but you never do. It felt twisted, whatever this was. You knew that you should be cowering in fear, but the fact was, you were into it. The adrenaline rush, the act of getting caught, the fact that it was Stu… He leaves your neck and begins kisses down the bridge of your nose until he reaches your cupid's bow. Stu hovers there for a second, and right as you’re about to say something, he connects his lips with yours.
As his hands move down to settle at either side of your hips, your arms snake up his chest and rest over his shoulders with one hand in his short and spiky blonde hair. His thumbs move in circles on your hip bones to try and loosen you up since the adrenaline still hasn't worn off. An idea pops into his head, and he slowly snakes his hands up your torso and eventually up your shirt. He stops his hands right before your boobs and on your upper ribs and gives you a little squeeze. As he squeezes, you gasp in surprise and he takes his chance to deepen the kiss. Feeling short of breath, you lightly push him off to get air.
Nothing but the sounds of your mixed heavy breathing fill the room. Sirens could be heard approaching the house. “I gotta go babe, but I’ll be back. Don’t miss me too much…” He gives you a quick kiss on the neck and leaves you in the steamy mess he made you into. You lean up on your elbows and watch him leave out the window. Sidney comes and practically kicks down the bedroom door.
“Hey! The cops are here, are you hurt?? Let’s get out of here, they’re taking Billy away.”
“...Billy?” You ask
“Yes! He was behind all the murders y/n. Let’s go home.” You get up off the bed and before you leave, you look behind you and see the open window.
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Part 2? Yes? No?
#scream movies#x reader#stu matcher x reader#scream franchise#scream x reader#ghostface#ghostface x reader#reader insert#female reader#stu macher#scream 1996
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My opinion may be rude, but I will try to explain, because after reading it, I realized something. Marcoh...I either see absolute yaoi about him, or nothing. Guys, I'm not against ships, although I'm probably considered a radical and a villain, which is just wow Marcoh/Olivia. But really, most of the content that I see is the creation of some kind of stereotypical image in Marcoh, ignoring his many qualities. The only ones who expressed their interests in a way that is interesting, of course, are the authors of Marcoh/Pav, to my surprise, and one of the authors of Daan/Marcoh fanfiction, whose works sometimes draw art. I know how to consume and enjoy such content, this has happened before, my friends know lol
Well, I was told that Marcoh and Olivia are exclusively like brother and sister. Have those who speak done a lot of such content? Now there are a little more drawings with, for example, the fact that he is trying to carry her, but still not enough. And they are closer than they seem, at least think about what caused them to be here - sisters. Olivia never says this, but Marcoh is exclusively to her, yes, but their relationship may just be humanly interesting. And other characters, especially female ones, fendom doesn't seem to want to see him with them
And they also told me that he's 31, he doesn't have anyone, that's why!!!
Or maybe let's remember his story and the fact that he has been raising his sister since the age of 10, he was beaten for attempts at theft and light robbery, he trained, fought at night for her. I want to believe that he had love, but as you can see, it's not like the story of Daan. Yes, Marcoh says very strange things, but in general, he is quite silent and opens up gradually, and not to everyone. He didn't have much time and opportunity to communicate, he didn't even get a school education, which is more than obvious complex
In general, Marcoh would just like to live in a forest house with someone, grow old, train children...let it be with anyone and they will see in him first of all an interesting character
is the fear and hunger fandom ready to talk about the fact that if a character is not easily sexualized/"babygirl"ified they are blatantly ignored by fans, leading to a lot of the interesting side characters to either get pushed aside or simplified into jokes, or do you guys still need to post pocketcat looking cunty a million more times first
#fear and hunger#fear and hunger termina#I will be canceled in this fandom#I want the best#a different opinion from the majority#Marcoh#marcoh fear and hunger#Fear and hunger Marcoh
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good lord colorful drunk lesbian zombies in vegas????
hehehe fem jack and dave :3
#buckett.art#dsaf#dayshift at freddy's#dsaf dave#dayshift at freddys fanart#dayshift at freddys#dsaf dave miller#dave miller dsaf#dave dsaf#old sport dsaf#dsaf old sport#jack kennedy fanart#dsaf jack kennedy#jack dsaf#dsaf jack#jack kennedy dsaf#davesport#had a small funny argument about gay men dsaf vs lesbian dsaf#with a friend which caused me to draw this#but uea this is just a quick drawing thingy#digital art#dsaf fanart#fem davesport
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You can't tell me their first meeting didn't go something like this.
(ID: Kirby series fanart of Dark Meta Knight and Daroach in a recreation of the Princess Mononoke "You're beautiful" meme. Original screenshot below the cut for comparison. Top panel - DMK hovers against a starry sky facing forward, his wings breaching the edges of the panel and spread to make himself look more intimidating. He glares down, one angry glowing eye visible in the visor of his mask, gripping the handle of his sword in both hands as if to stab downward, subtitled "I'll cut your throat! That'll shut you up!" Bottom panel - Daroach lies on his back at a slight angle on a nighttime grassy plain, his body and cape breaching the panel in places, his paws palm-up at his sides, his wand dropped beside him. He looks upward, unperturbed by the several sharp points of DMK's sword hanging over him, eyes half-lidded and brows lifted in interest, mouth drawn open in a smile and blushed at the ends, subtitled "You're beautiful..." Of course, every metal and/or shiny surface is lightly touched with rim light and sparkles. END ID.)
Started 03/26/24, finished 03/29/24, updated for color correction 11/02/24.
Original: Princess Mononoke (Hayao Miyazaki, Studio Ghibli, 1997)
#veins art#veins ships#veins fanart#kirby series#kirby#dark meta knight#daroach#dark meta knight x daroach#darkroach#meme redraw#does this count as a high-effort shitpost? it feels like it do#stars why did I try to recreate human-proportion poses with oRB ANd rAt??#I had to repose them so many times >_<#and don't get me started on that starsdamned rat#seriously even going through my refs didn't help much 'cause the crew at HAL Labs doesn't design him consistently either#(which admittedly does make me feel a li'l better about not always drawing him on-model)#*sigh* the things I do for my rarepair boys#also “enemies to friends-with-benefits” anyone?#I mean who said that#blood tw#<- (but only in the ref screenshot not the piece itself)#veinsfullofstars
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i missed terrible comic day cause i slept for most of yesterday but i still wanted to draw something
#terrible comic day#my art#boe#boe tai marrow#my characters#also for some reason i'm not seeing the stuff i reblogged on my feed? is that new? or like a new setting or something?#it really fucked me up once i got back around to seeing posts i reblogged when i scrolled back far enough#it's still kinda fucking me up cause i thought none of my reblogs went through#anyway i was reminded of some audio posts i did for my friends back in 2019#which was just me using audacity to add reverb to my voice so it sounded like i was inside a well#so i think that's why i ended up drawing this#somehow this looks a lot cleaner than the stuff i've drawn and posted on here. to me atleast
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It's time for Nerium lore part three and the subject this time is this Nerium
This is reaper au Nerium it not a very creative name but that's what I call it. in this au she's a grim reaper could you guess. she doesn't show any emotion except for manic happiness she The embodiment of the flower she's named after oleander every part of her is deadly AKA poisonous her skin her blood the vines she makes and her scythe .
In this au she started out normal but when she was 6 she was drawn to oleanders which she started eating the oleanders began to basically kill and control her so in this au she's basically a deadly emotionless somewhat evil flower.
She has the power to create oleander Vines and the flowers themselves she created her scythe to.
if you know Liam Vickers she moves like a Liam Vickers character and kind of acts like one too she's just basically the oc I made for edgy purposes bloodshed and gore.
And in this au when the flower fully takes over she kills her brother Nino by poisoning him and her mother by impaling her with vines leaving her sister Nepta to witness what she's done horrifiedly she runs away and calls the police but Nerium was already gone.
Actaea and Nerium are still childhood friends in this au but Nerium mysteriously disappear around 12 AKA when she's fully taken over by the flower in this au Actaea is a little different she has ponytails instead of braids and years later in an encounter with Nerium she slices her Actaea in half and she becomes half angel half dark angel
angel of darkness you know like the song I don't know something like that don't listen to me. basically now her hair it becomes white on the right and black on the left same with her eyes white on right and black on the left and same with wings she doesn't have a scar cuz it magically healed but if you draw her you can give her one.
Since Nerium is a Grimm reaper she has the power to sense when people are going to die anyway since it is her job to reap their souls but usually she just kill them instead of their disease's or accidents or anything like that because she likes doing it and sometimes she just likes to hunt people for sport depends on how she's feeling you know like a cat.
All the other characters aren't in this au except for Delphinium Dianthus Datura and Deparia though they have powers and are kinda royalty in this au normally they're just kind of siblings that sometimes cause a little bit of chaos they're side characters in my normal story and they're kind of side characters ln this too.
Now for the new characters there's only a few but they're still there Spider Lily is Nerium's best friend in this au Spider Lily and Nerium are basically just friends based on the fact that they kill people they love to compare each other's murderers it's a game to them.
Colocasia is a demon that Nerium is also friends with though they mostly just cause chaos together they're not very close but they're still friends. and Iris who Nerium doesn't know we'll talk about him more a little later.
Now it time to show what the characters look like I made these all in gacha life 2 I know I really need to draw them but it's faster to just make them In gacha life
This is Spider Lily the yellow on her face is supposed to be more eyes and she should have four or six arms but you can't do that in gacha life she's based off of a Black widow and she does have a full spider form she like 10 ft tall in that form normally she's just six feet something she's kind of a siren she sings and dances to attract her pray mostly men who she kills and eats.
Actaea she's 26 she is a half angel half dark angel after becoming an angel she feels it's her duty to make sure Nerium doesn't take her reaping too far and she takes the job she gave herself very seriously. She has two swords they're not black and white like you think they're both red and when she's mad they become flaming swords.
Delphinium she's 25 is the youngest sibling of Dianthus Datura and Deparia. she's sweet caring can seem innocent and optimistic she's jealous and resentful of her sisters because they think they're stronger and smarter just cuz they're older. they also based off the seasons Delphinium winter Dianthus is spring Datura is summer and Deparia is Autumn their powers kind of go with what season they are not fully just kind of Delphinium has ice powers mostly to make sharp spikes of ice but she can make snow too and where she is usually cold when she has strong emotions.
Dianthus she's 27 she's kind of rude and Petty she's the kind of girl that knows she's the best she is a Chappell roan listener which is my way of saying lesbian and she's got fire powers and she is hotheaded to go with it.
Datura she's 32 her and Deparia twins she's she's chaotic troublemaker and kind of completely insane she doesn't understand empathy she's the type that likes to watch it all burn. her eyes can change from pink yellow green and blue all at the same time one at a time or just two at a time her power is telekinesis she mostly uses it to move the ribbons on her dress and make them do whatever she wants.
Deparia she's 32 she's very caring kind she loves it every creature and she tries to do what's best for everyone even if it gets her into trouble he's usually picking up after Datura's chaos even though her and Datura are the same age she's definitely acts as the older motherly type. She has winds/weather power mostly wind and tornados though she can make thunderstorms too.
This is Iris he's 26 I haven't given him a birthday he doesn't have anything to do with Nerium but he's a part of this au he's a demon because he killed himself and his parents when he was 14. him and Colocasia are close they've been running away from hells equivalent of cops together since they were 16 and 17 they've been thick as thieves ever since.
This is Colocasia he's 27 his birthday is the 13th of August I haven't decided what got him in hell but he died by getting impaled by a metal pipe when he was 14 and he uses the same metal pipe as his weapon now he's very chaotic and I kind of made him like discord from mlp he's got goat legs his right hand is what's supposed to be a dragon talon his left hand a kitty paw his right tail is an axolotl tail and his left you can think of it as fire or a moomins tail. and what he's wearing supposed to be like a dress suit coat thing but I never finished the art and it's also kinda old.
Also an extra bit of lore here but the character that this Nerium is wasn't always Nerium herself the character used to be based off of a flower that doesn't actually exist it was a flower my brain made up that was blue purple black with an emphasis on the black and purple it didn't have a name and neither did the character but they had the exact same personality and joy from killing as reaper Nerium and the same deadliness all over and the vines to. The only real difference being that this character had a sword instead and she was more purple and blue her design was also more witchy than grimm reapery. Anyway though how her character got repurposed into Nerium was I was trying to find a name for her cuz her name was still splashskitty at the time I got the idea to lookup deadly flowers and the first result was Nerium oleander they're flowers that are deadly all over and they're pink so they were perfect that's how Nerium came to be and why I repurposed the unnamed deadly flower character into reaper Nerium so there's the lore.
Anyway that's about it for part three this may be my final part for a while or at least my final Nerium part if you want to know about any of my other ocs just ask they probably wouldn't make as long posts as this but I still have a lot to talk about for all my ocs.
Anyway if you read this or any of my other lore parts thank you!! I really enjoy my ocs and I really enjoy talking about them and again if you read all of this thank you for taking even just a little bit of interest in my characters it means a lot!! And Nasty13 thank you specifically for inspiring me to make these posts in the first place your support means a lot to me!! <3
Is anyone interested in art of my ocs I'll probably post them anyway but I just wanted to know
#my art#oc art#my ocs#my ocs <3#dislexia#long post#oc lore#ocs#nerium nightshade <3#nerium nightshade#original character#oc#my lore#long reads#thank you!!!!!
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take two of yesterdays little doodle, using the ref this time
#flight rising#flight rising art#flight rising gaoler#gaoler dragon#fr gaoler#hes one of my sonas 👍#yew art#dragons#its not the most splendid drawing because ive been up since pretty early in the morning#but i had fun with it and thats what matters#my passion in life is making dragons way too fluffy#still pretty scribbly but thats ok i draw for fun#im trying to expand my lair rn but im short like 85k (dies)#gotta make that in like 6 days cause i have nests incubating lol#i know eggs dont rot and you can keep them in the nest as long as you want#but i want to see my special babies as soon as i can#i love seeing the new babies its my favorite part of the game tbh#im slooowly figuring out genes and keeping them in my memory#also if anyone wants to be flight rising friends my username is yellowflowerzzz#ive only been on it a few weeks so i dont have much experience at all and im mostly fumbling around doing my daily tasks#but my lair is huge now bc when i was newer a few incredibly kind people sent me a bunch of treasure#which still makes me tear up strangers can be so so so so kind i love the world sometimes
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☔️ It’s time to loose your self loathing, excuse yourself, let hope in ♥️
#hazbin hotel#angel dust#husk#huskerdust#loser baby#okay so when this episode came out it was all over my tumblr so I lists it and it’s such an ear worm#so last Sunday I decided to watch the show while I was drawing so I could get connect for this song aaannddd#new hyperfixation unlocked yikes#sorry to commission people I took 5 days from drawing cause after work I was just day dreaming and fighting the itch to draw husk#so I caved and did this#my friend wants to watch the show so we’re going to watch it together and I wanted to post something to be like AAAAAAAAAAA IM EXCITED#okay I’ll calm down#I love Husk btw#he’s grumpy with an attitude which I love#and he has a playing card theme which is also like something I always fall for#the old showman aesthetic#and birb aaaaaa#okay I’ll behave#enjoy#I tied to include a transparent version but tumblr can’t handle it#also I know everyone has redrawn this but idc I tried making it my own a bit and I’m happy bite me#Spotify#i spent over an hour on husks wings and then shaded them out dont look at me im a fool 🙈#hazbin husk
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I wont lie, guren, shinya and mahiru as mlp ponies sounds awesome
i finished them!! yay!!! the catastrophic trio as fucking My Little Pony characters, featuring unnecessarily detailed cutiemarks. 🐎
please welcome with me, Guren as Crimson Lotus,
Mahiru as Midday,
and Shinya as Deep Night. (i guess he could've also been Midnight, but the little pastel ponies often seem to have double names)
i'm just kidding. of course i made him one anyway.
this would have been massively easier (and quicker...) if i had just drawn them as actual mlp style ponies, but horse anatomy is just too gnarly, i couldn't resist. i like horses. sigh.
either way, i think it's awesome how you can just translate their names into english, and BOOM, you have a pony name.
#it should be more common to draw your favourite fictional characters as mlp ponies#or like your favourite character and then those other two assholes that are also there.#thinking of fitting cutiemarks is just so fun#guren has his crimson lotus flower cause of his name and a sun because hes. like the sun.#mahiru has a hare because metaphor and the hare is also ripping apart the red string of fate#which is an idea i'm proud of i'm ngl#i don't think shinya would actually have one because of his lack of purpose#(he'd probably get it as he was dying and then it'd disappear as he's revived since he forgot)#BUT he has a moon because moon and a compass because he's guren's guide#and yes the crimosn lotus was on purpose LOL#commemorating our dear friend icey#do i have anything else to say#RIGHT guren earth pony cuz stronk mahiru pegasus (or like bat pony..) cause she's always racing ahead + demon and shinya is a unicorn becau#e spellcraft prodigy. yeah#i thought it'd be cool to have one of each#also mahiru is a marwari because she's a pick me. and guren is a friesian. and shinya idk. horse.#ok i think that's it now#my little catastrophe or whatever#owari no seraph#seraph of the end#shinya hiiragi#guren ichinose#mahiru hiiragi#i put too much thought into this didn't i.#i just realised shinya's muzzle is a little too pinkish#whatever maybe he has lipstick on don't judge him#art stuff
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I should be because it happens to 9 to 11 years old to the spend of 4 or 8 times but I don't remember and I have no evidence of it :(
{It's a problem that I still wanna be groomed again because I'm retarded because I don't address it, I just push it all the way back till someone brings it up. That's why I was freaking out because of this reason}
(One of the reasons I'm suicidal.)
But I'm a mom so I can't die. (Funny how you can see the bear with the bracelet on? That's irl Angel and this is Luna my child. She is Bonita!!!)
But because of this I probably will still sh. How does therapy help people??? I'll get locked up if I told my therapist my problems. I cause people to have so much headaches it angers and makes me sad.
(Me yapping warning 😮💨)
Like how can people say they care when they just started saying that they did like you fake bitch. How can you say you care when you have never shown that 🫤 I don't know. I don't like people caring about me because if my own bf(which I don't really count us dating because he shows nothing to me 😶) doesn't even do that, how do I except other people to? I don't trust what people say and I doubt a lot about that. Plus it's my fault because if someone right here RIGHT NOW did the same things as Rain(first sexual abuser/groomer. The reason I became a hyper sexual and another paraphilia I wouldn't like to be saying) I would drop everything to date that person. That's how much I'm attracted to Rain. That's why I was freaking out earlier because I'm easy to be groomed because it's still really fresh if you think about it. So I'm worried someone is going to try to date me because of that. Of course they won't make it obvious and they always be like "wannabe friends" and stuff...
I don't know, I just yapped a lot. I hate autism. I don't like it. I get bullied for it for years in irl and for my misphonia... I also have been a cyberbully and the cyberbullied. It's a mess. I don't like venting but I keep talking because I'm too honest and I'm too open. I'm going to get groomed again and I just hate it. That's all.. I'm writing this at 11:35 PM so I'm just going to draw till I feel sleepy...
Also it just feels wrong to call me a SA victim... All I did was have E-sex online with those creeps... Didn't know that also count for sexual abuse... Mm... I just don't think I could ever call myself a SA victim because I haven't been rxped or SA or sexual harassment...
Funny. The proshipper I was fighting with blocked me... Funny. Not funny haha, funny weird...
I guess I won? Idk 😧. Did I win or what? Someone screenshot their post if they mean something about me to check but guys. I think I won... Funny.. 😀
(Gif was I think Facebook)
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Dance of devotion
#My friend today told me they don't like dungeon meshi cause it panders towards the male gaze#Which made me upset#But also here I am drawing ass so idk#Anyways first farcille art woah#I love drawing blood#my art#digital art#art#dungeon meshi#delicious in dungeon#marcille donato#falin touden#farcille#dungeon meshi fanart#cw nudity
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One fun little idea I love to pull off the shelf every once and a while: mutant Lisa with ice powers
#it’s not really a full au I have in my head but I love the ✨situations✨ this has potential for#Lisa strikes me as that type of girl who has her whole life planned#she has good friends gets good grades knows what college she’s going to#she knows who she is and what she wants#which I think is fun to upend entirely with some wild shit she never expected lmao get frozoned nerd#do have fun ideas of her going to Robbie like ‘YOU HAVE POWERS RIGHT DONT LIE TO ME’#Robbie’s just ‘uhhhhhhhh’ ‘WHATEVER I KNOW YOU DO’#*spills glass of water on a table on purpose. slams her hand onto it and it freezes immediately* ‘DO YOU KNOW HOW TO FIX THIS'#she should get to have frost on her skin as a treat#ok yeah I’ll probably draw more of this#my art#sketch#lisa (ghost rider)#mutant lisa au#<- making a tag cause i may or may not make more of this
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Spirit animal SQH
#svsss#shang qinghua#but mainly I'm just here to vague post LMAO I don't like to vague post its not very effective in terms of venting but#but basically I guess I'm becoming hyperaware of my like... cognitive dissonance codependency and derealization ee#also my general laziness ig and where it overlaps into executive dysfunction or whatever like I may genuinely have some issues but#I am also a lazy son of a bitch jfjfkgkg and i need to figure out how to figure it out so I can work on both in more effective ways hhggg#oh yeah but basically the thing to remember for later is the silence in the call and the immediate unmute and chat activity once I left#I should remember this and stop interacting I think? I should try to give em space I think I'm being too clingy or something#or maybe my own silence is too awkward and dampens the call? I was kinda just spacing out and not doing anything so I get its kinda weird#LMAO so I should just like try not to be in call for those times mm#I just like being in call with my friends jdhfkg but I suppose its not very good either#I overindulge I suppose another friend pointed it out to me before too haha but fjfjjt its just easier than facing bouts of dread by myself#eehh and that's why I gotta do something about my Metnal Ailneses hfjfj but ngl I don't really know how to go about it...#I get embarrassed looking stuff up djfnfkg and half the time I don't even know what to look up I just draw ?s and I give up#I suppose I also have commitment issues too but that ones not new which is an issue of itself aaaaaaaa#man idk idk I just don't really get it I guess djdjfjf and I've got existential dreads and think maybe it doesn't really matter whats wrong#cause there's no point to fixing them because ultimately I'm gonna die alone and a failure anyways? so like ehfjgkg idk#its depressing and I know its like sabotage cause my brain is being a little silly a little goofy and its not a shared sentiment#with the better half of me and the entirety of my friends but yknow its just ee harder sometimes to believe in the optimism ig#and i can talk about it somewhat normally and without like having a ✨️break down#but yknow djfjgkg I'm very emotional a person ya? I think sqh is relatable for gods sake 💀#irrationality sentimentality nihilism and existential dreads... wanting to die because living is too hard despite all my hopes for living...#just the ol regulars yknow?#and another thing... do I talk to my friends about these things? I vent them out here a lot but what do I really want?#I'm not strong enough to keep it to myself clearly but I'm also too proud to share these thoughts? I dump them out in the open and for what?#whenever someone reaches out with concern and care I don't respond in kind and refuse to elaborate?#so like what do I want with this? I guess I want someone to know I'm going insane half the time I'm awake? but not do anything about it?#that's pretty unfair I guess... and stupid I think I do want to share my thoughts with someone but I'm too scared of the ramifications#and that my pride can't stand the fact I might be looked differently by my friends even tho the image they have of me is already quite silly#man.... idk.... I'll come to conclusions myself and do nothing about them so I guess that'll happen again aah idk idk idk
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you have tegaki e?? there is tegaki e?!!! I'm gonna cry aaaaa I can't even remember but there are so many memories flooding back. T^T
also Lou stole my heart! :O
lately I think I'm active enough I'll be on the front page most days but hehehe hell yeah I do !!! I was never all that active on the old site but even so there are still artists here I recognize which feels so cool! ;v;
and I'm so glad you like them !!!!
not to play favs with my own kids but they're def my fav dfshudhfs
#ask#they're just always a joy to draw !!!#probably the least involved in the plot that's going on in my head but in like the good way...#just enjoying life and supporting their friends from the sidelines ;v;#def the least affected by the bad stuff going on but by their own choice and effort...#which also causes a bit of conflict.... aaaah I miss my kids so much fdshuufd#I so frequently get caught by the need to draw more splatoon stuff again but they've gotten so hard to draw!!#I want to do a full revamp and renaming of them one day... (not Lou they're in the Perfect As Is category)#lou#and some others chilling but this isn't about them#aaaaah also actually I'm adding this but having my old splatoon art seen again rly pulled me down a nice memory lane ;v; <33
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Karen has four older brothers and this is Ross! He's the second oldest and he looks rather polite and smiles a lot and when he's at work he can behave most of the time... but he really has such a foul mouth it puts Right to shame.
And Karen when she was a kid couldn't pronounce S's and they sounded like Z's. So when her brothers would be leaving for school she would say "enjoy zool" and just. Could NEVER say Ross's name correctly so he told her to just call him Oz. And it stuck but only with Karen. She's the only one to use it and no one else is allowed.
#my characters#also fun fact she has decided to legally rename him for when shes mad at him#so instead of yelling his full proper name#she will yell OSWALD THOMAS WILSON which is the fake first name but actual middle/last#and its just thats a guy that she wouldnt want to admit to knowing if she saw him in public#hes actually p short so yeah hes a short king#the oldest bro and the second youngest are both taller#the middle middle is basically the same height as him so karen really is just the wittle bab#and all her brothers are super protective of her bc thats their baby sister#she does however have a strong sense of I GOTTA PROTECT THE MIDDLE GUY#so she is kinda used to standing up for older guys just bc of he#but it comes into being a problem when she meets rick and is like fuck it he may be older but#he is too kinda for this world and also theres no way i can love him hes basically a baby brother#and she will pick on him but also would absolutely throw hands for him#and and i know the tags are long as is but eventually karen and rick move past the whole youre like a brother vibe#and they become very good friends - still zero romance involved - but she starts to treat him less like a family member#and it makes him feel less awkward and in turn he feels more open to joke sometimes#cause for a long while rick is just this is really awkward and i wish we would stop matching on dating apps but she wont leave me alone#so its rude to turn her down when she offers a friendly drink to check up on me#but its actually karen being protective older sister mode despite being the youngest of five#this is the most i have managed to draw in like two weeks i think#now im super tired bye
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