#wish me luck i fucking hate going there
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veevil · 3 months ago
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Chapter 4 of my fic brought you the fish boyfriend, so I thought I'd do a quick little drawing to go with it<3
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phagodyke · 6 days ago
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7hrs into my work day lets play a fun game of how much overtime will they make me do 🥰
#i should be going home in AN HOUR!#if im here until 7 again im pulling a sickie tmr idgaf#making me run this stupid thing twice in a day bitch it takes 5 hours!!!!! and i had to do an hour of washing up this morning from#yesterdays run bc we havent had a functional lab dishwasher for 3 months yep we have been fucking handwashing every piece of lab glassware#FOR THREE MONTHS!!#u guys dont even fucking know how much glassware we get thru in a fucking day its shambles#i dont think i even have enough glassware for my second run this afternoon so im gonna have to wash up more#one of the other techs made up the most time consuming reagent for me tho which saves me an hour bless her#but fuuucking hell. hoping when i get back from lunch theyll tell me i dont need to do any more 😭#so i can LEAVE. ON TIME. PLEASE#i cant do another 11 hour day man im not on a fucking shift pattern. if i was then at least id be able to fucking meal prep in advance#but nooooo theyre addicted to giving me unscheduled overtime to do tasks i fucking hate#also did i mention they made it even more complex so now i have to take readings every 30 seconds while constantly titrating this shit#for TEN HOURS. the amount of focus it takes is horrendous i have to keep the number in a 0.0016 range and there are so many dilutions#all this and u can still only analyse 3 samples in 5 hours bc everything has to be in triplicate its fucking sisyphean. hell on earth#puts my head in my hands and wails. im fine ahahahhaahaha. everyone in the lab is being nice abt it at least im getting a lot of pity#i wish i could work shift pattern by this point man or like a 4 day week w 10 hour days. when my managers back im gonna ask her abt it#bc theyve let a few other ppl have custom hours. they wont let me work weekends which is annoying bc im SO productive alone#i might ask again lol so much of my shit is fully independent anyway. aourgh. i get so twitchy from staring at the numbers it makes my#vision swim a bit..... well im used to it#aight vent over im going back in..... wish me fucking luck guys#.diaries
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selfinflictedgunshotwound · 10 months ago
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sorry for only saying this type of shit lately but i kinda wanna drive a car straight into a brick wall at the highest speed possible
#trying to keep it together so bad because i already know the problems and solutions and whatnot but i cannot do anything#i desperately just need to do something. accomplish any task. actually several would be nice. but i cannot stand just letting life go by#while i watch other people have the things i want. or even metaphorically living my dream like. that should be me why am i settling for thi#i hate even talking about this because i feel so stupid when i know it's not even a real tangible problem and that i actually DO have real#problems to tackle and the ability to do so but i'm choosing to be upset over the stupidest things i could possibly be sad about#and i can't even be sad about it in a normal way i'm cycling through like several different reactions to smth that isn't even real#or if it is real i literally do not have tanglible evidence for it one way or another like i'm driving myself insane for no reason#i can't even get catharsis because all i'm doing is digging a deeper hole for something i never should've gone back into in the first place#because i KNOW how i am i KNOW how i react to things and i still chose to do it lmao.#and i continue to choose to go through this shit instead of actively trying to change my life because... i'm lazy? and stupid? idk#negative self-talk isn't gonna get me to do anything either so let's just say i'm feeling particularly unmotivated like usual#i hated being a teenager but i really do miss when all my problems just amounted to 'someone was mean to me on tumblr today :(' or i failed#a test in chemistry or something. like i yearn for that simplicity becasue at this point all i'm doing is ruining my own life LMAO#i'm too scared to live i'm too scared to die so i just sit here and fantasize that life could be amazing if i wait#and i'll magically get everything i've ever wanted if i just wait long enough. and i know it isn't true and i still wait for it to happen.#because honestly like. i think deep down i am just convinced i will fail at anything i do when that shouldn't be what scares me.#what scares me should be never even allowing myself to fail because i never tried to do anything at all with myself or my life#like. wake the fuck up. get off your ass and put in the effort. learn some skills. gain independence and stability and discipline and do it#just live please i'm begging you just live so i can be happy don't i deserve to be happy... why am i not letting myself be happy#i'm literally keeping myself trapped in this negative feedback loop ON PURPOSE because teehee shiny toy#and it doesn't matter if the love is real it doesn't matter how i feel like i'm just using it as a distraction i can't say it's motivation#because it's barely motivated me at all. i have to start being realistic. 25 & just realizing you actually have to participate in your life#anyways. i've cried i've agonized i've pictured killing myself in 30 different ways. i think the only way i'm gonna feel better is#to just actually try this time without giving up. wish me luck
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b1eeding-sun-rambles · 4 months ago
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My roommate wears perfume (or at least uses a lot of scented products) and they cause me to have coughing fits, horrible headaches and nausea. I've told them multiple times that the perfume is causing me to have a bunch of issues and like they'll stop wearing one perfume for like a day or so and then switch to a different one (I will admit the switch was a net positive because for a while their perfume made our entire room reek of moldy oranges) but like that doesn't make it any easier for me to yk breathe. I've resorted to just keeping the window constantly open so I get some fresh air and hopefully like dilute the smell or whatever but it's winter where I live (and I live in a dorm so I have no control of the heater temp, I can turn it on or off. That's it. But it's set to like 100° and if it's too hot I'll literally pass out) so it's just fucking freezing in my dorm all the time and I still can't fucking breath and I've got a headache and if I move my torso at all I feel like I'm gonna be sick.
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keebwee · 28 days ago
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no one will evr understand them like i do .... nobdoy will ever write them ciorrectly .. because they should nto be together at all they hate each other and would be horrible in a relationship but something deep and twisted inside me says they must for the plot. and i simply must consume ..... but no one does it right except 1 guy ive read.
#no i will not clarify bc i am embarrassed#LMAOOOOOO#these 2 tho. so fucked up. should not be together. most unhealthy relationship ever holy shit#but i need them to . just for my enjoyment.#they canonically hate each other and in no universe would they ever like each other especially with what one did to the other#but my god ...... need them to be in an unhealthy relationship like so bad#LMAO#brainrotting over them rn#i dont even necessarily ship them . i just need them to be in the situation for my mental narrative#like i said they would be horrible together#nobody i know will agree with me on this im certain so im just being so vague#me and my little stupid guys in my mind#ideally their relationship would end up with the shitty one dead#like#technically he's canonically dead tho we never see him die from my knowledge#but hes never come back#fucked up relationships drive me wild and i dont understand why#spilling my guts out bc i never ever say shit like this#i hide this aspect LMAO i dont want people to hate me for enjoying a bad relationship dynamic in fiction#but WHATEVE R!!!!! ID ONT EVEN CARE ANYMORE !!!!!!!!!!#all the fics i read make them NORMAL#no i need them to not be healthy#i need them to end up hating each other again#i need them to be fucked up#LMAOOOO#local aroace idiot obsesses over wildly unhealthy fictional relationships not clickbait#i keep adding tags bc idont wanna reblog#smthn smthn giving him a chance despite everything he did to u when u first met#and realizing he hasnt changed and never will. hes a genuine monster n nothing u do or say will change that#I RAN OUT OF TAGS FUCKKKKKKKK. FUCCKKKKKKKKK. uhh yeah . going to be scouring ao3 for any fics that match my narrative wish me luck
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electric-plants · 2 months ago
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had such an ominous feeling about wishing since random early xianyun has burned me before but i wanted iansan SO fucking bad so i did one (1) ten pull and of course no iansan and capturing radiance kicked in for the first time i’ve ever seen and uhhhh—
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☹️☹️☹️
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rottingbvnnyheart · 4 months ago
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🏠⊹ ࣪ ˖͙͘͡★
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scentofpines · 4 months ago
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At no time of the year do I feel more homicidal than on the days around New Year's Eve. I hope that anyone who sets off fireworks at any time other than midnight on New Year's Eve manages to blow their own head off with them. And then people say shit like "I'm not going to let a few cowardly animals and jumpy people spoil my fun”. If it was just midnight on New Year's Eve, hmmm, uhh, I'd still think it's a fucking primitive and stupid tradition to put pyrotechnics in the hands of drunk amateurs (a few die every year and dozens of apartments and houses burn down oh well), BUT I probably wouldn't be quite so fucking angry, ok. BUT IT'S NOT JUST MIDNIGHT, IT'S THE WHOLE FUCKING WEEK AROUND NEW YEAR'S EVE. On the day itself it's easily seven hours in which not 3 minutes go by without an explosion AND I LIVE IN THE COUNTRYSIDE. When we lived in the city it was a fucking war zone.
For years we've been spending New Year's Eve stuck in the most soundproofed room in the house (in the city apartment it was the mini bathroom where we squeezed in front of the running washing machine with the dog - for hours), listening to incredibly annoying loud music to somehow drown out the fucking explosions outside and calming panicked dogs. This year my mom finally got a proper tranquilizer for her dog who has even peed in the apartment in the past bc of his extreme panic (which he would never do otherwise) so hopefully he will be more calm this time. My dog was completely bulletproof until last year and had no problem with fireworks, then last New Year's Eve a fucking neighbor boy set off a firecracker just as we were coming around the corner (at 6pm!!! which was the latest we dared to go out) and unfortunately she has been extremely scared ever since. For the last two weeks I've been carrying pieces of carrot everywhere (she loves them) so that I can throw one down her throat every time there's a bang, but unfortunately that only helps to a limited extent. We also play the sound of fireworks through speakers to desensitize them, but the dogs can tell that it's not the real thing.
“Blabla go somewhere else then for the night”. 1. as I said, it's not just one night. 2. you can't escape that shit. There is NO place in this fucking country where you are guaranteed to escape the fireworks. Ohh yes it's forbidden in old town centers - Ok, but nobody actually sticks to it. Ohh look on the islands here it's restricted - Yes, but nobody cares. The police doesnt even do shit to offenders. The damn national park where rare animal species live, which is a nature reserve, etc. ASKS its visitors not to use fireworks - ASKS!!!! WHAT????? I hate this fucking holiday so much.
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seokmattchuus · 7 months ago
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My campus had a mental health "spooktacular" and I only went bc one of my classes is fuckall and wants us to do shit on campus but I copped a cute lil coloring book so I guess it wasn't too bad
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daily-whistlebreeze · 9 months ago
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daily Whistlepaw until gr becomes PoV day 1322
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I just love Greek So Much
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elizabeth-mitchells · 2 years ago
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hm i think it's one of those days where absolutely everthing went wrong. like i did the whole thing wrong. every little thing. i think this calls for just going to bed, pretending none of this happened and trying again tomorrow 😭
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shandidellamorte · 1 year ago
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\m/
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lonestatus · 1 year ago
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actually can i complain again. it's about relationships this time though
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lemonsrlit · 1 year ago
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dragons-and-yellow-roses · 2 years ago
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Starting a new job! At my current job. But hopefully this'll make it so I can afford to only need this job.
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kalashtars · 2 years ago
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hyperfixations are all fun and games until it's 4 a.m. and you've been doing the same thing for 8 hours straight and you have to wake up in 5 hours for work.
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