#wish I could be into what all the cool kids are into but noooo I must fixate on an i7 au from 2020 that everyone has moved on from already

[yitsuin]

help they r fighting in my brain

[les4elliewilliams]

Ellie is away... // e.w

chapter 3 - 2004, Sophomore year college

a/n: part 3 (ik finally) took me forever for no reason at all, i didn't even think anyone was gonna see part one but anyways!!! (reblogs and comments are always appreciated:))) wc/cw: 1.4k. jesse being bullied;( , swearing, loser!ellie i guess?, no smut or anything but MDNI. summary: set in the early 2000s. everyone was obsessed with AIM messaging and when you left your hometown for college, leaving your friends behind, it was what you guys used to stay in touch. Ellie's one of your best friends, and when you left for college, she started dating Cat, the girl she had always claimed to dislike. It wasn't just the fact that she hadn't told you about it; you didn't like Cat. It wasn't a secret, and neither did Dina or Jesse. Deep down, you knew that she was just afraid of your reaction. Their relationship was far from perfect, and when you told her that she should've just broken up with her, it didn't go too well. However, her grudge obviously didn't last long, you were her best friend, after all, and she couldn't go without talking to you for too long, so she ended up apologizing for being a dick.

➥ part one, two, four

brickmaster signed in.

brickmaster: ohhh hey yn

ynshere: Ellssss hiiii

brickmaster: what's upp brickmaster: how's everything for you

ynshere: nothing much i was playing the sims lol ynshere: everything's fine. what about you?

brickmaster: it’s alright, just chilling in my dorm at the moment brickmaster: got any plans for the weekend?

ynshere: just hanging out with my friend Emma

brickmaster: sounds fun brickmaster: who’s Emma? ynshere: just a friend brickmaster: i don’t think you ever mentioned her before brickmaster: how did you two meet?

ynshere: just at some party, she spilled her drink all over my clothes lol

brickmaster: oh no your poor skirt and crop top

ynshere: oh stfu ynshere: what's with the way i dress now? ynshere: not pretty enough for you, Williams?

brickmaster: never said that ;) brickmaster: so? what is she like? brickmaster: is she cooler than me?

ynshere: aw c'mon you already know the answer to that

brickmaster: oh i know i know brickmaster: no one's as cool as me

ynshere: no, actually she is cooler than you

brickmaster: pffffttt as if brickmaster: i'm still hotter though

ynshere: is that what your gf tells you to make you feel less shitty about your looks?

brickmaster: ouch that hurt brickmaster: no more Cat by the way

ynshere: oh? ynshere: i'm sorry, i didn't know

brickmaster: well no dip, i just told you

ynshere: shut up, you know what i meant smartass ynshere: what happened? (If you don't mind me asking)

brickmaster: she was too much brickmaster: she was too controlling brickmaster: always telling me what to do, who to hang out with or who not to talk to

ynshere: mhm

brickmaster: don't. say. it.

ynshere: i told youu ynshere: yn’s always right ynshere: say it.

brickmaster: i'm so not gonna say it

ynshere: you make me wanna strangle you sometimes ynshere: but good, you deserved better anyways ynshere: i mean, i'm sorry but she was horrible to you

brickmaster: i know brickmaster: took me ages to realize it

ynshere: better later than never

brickmaster: you always say that brickmaster: you never change do you

ynshere: nop ynshere: i evolve if anything

brickmaster: i missed you

ynshere: me too El, so much.

brickmaster: i wish we could hang out like good ol' times

ynshere: ew now you are starting to sound like Joel

brickmaster: oh fuck off brickmaster: i'm being sweet for once and you're ewing me like that?...never again

ynshere: lol i'm just kidding dumbass ynshere: i wish we could hang out like we used to back in high school ynshere: i miss seeing your stupid face everyday

brickmaster: stupid? I think you meant pretty* brickmaster: or gorgeous* brickmaster: yeah that's more appropriate

ynshere: ..i'm going to log out

brickmaster: noooo stay please :( brickmaster: what would i do without you

ynshere: you're such a failure ynshere: Joel should've worn a condom that night

brickmaster: jokes on you... he did but there was a hole in it

ynshere:……

brickmaster: my mum told me that...i don't know what to believe

ynshere: Ellie.

brickmaster: what

ynshere: you're a lost cause.

brickmaster: gonna make me blush

ynshere: i don't think i've ever seen you blush before like actually

brickmaster: cause i don't blush brickmaster: i make ladies blush, never the other way around

ynshere: damn such an alpha ynshere: your parents must be so proud of you

brickmaster: nah they hate me

ynshere: yeah, i wonder why…

brickmaster: you know brickmaster: ever since Cat and i broke up things have been weird

ynshere: how so?

brickmaster: well we have the same group of friends so it's just awkward, you know? brickmaster: i feel really alone sometimes and i miss you really bad brickmaster: i miss having you around, being in the same classes and all that

ynshere: i know we can't see each other but i'm here for you ynshere: always. ynshere: you can call me or message me anytime i really don't mind, i love talking to you

brickmaster: thank you yn, it really means a lot to me brickmaster: it's just… i feel abandoned brickmaster: she made me look like the bad guy for breaking up with her, it feels like they don't want me around

ynshere: have you tried telling them about the whole thing?

brickmaster: yeah brickmaster: but they're all up Cat’s ass and it's annoying brickmaster: i feel betrayed in some sort of way

ynshere: i'm sorry Ellie ynshere: they sound like shitty friends ynshere: maybe it's time to get new friends?

brickmaster: i know they suck but they were the only friends i had

ynshere: i'm sure you'll make new friends ynshere: you'll meet better people ynshere: hang out, go to parties don't stay in your dorm all day

brickmaster: you're right brickmaster: but like what did i do wrong? brickmaster: it's clear that they’d rather be friends with Cat brickmaster: fuck i feel like crying right now

ynshere: baby :( ynshere: hey listen to me, you did nothing wrong. you are amazing

brickmaster: i'm sorry for dropping all this on you brickmaster: i understand it can be too much

ynshere: don't you dare apologize for feeling upset, Williams. ynshere: it's okay, really ynshere: i'm here for you. It's not too much, you're never too much.

brickmaster: you're the only one i can talk to freely without feeling judged brickmaster: well you and Dina of course, but i don't wanna annoy her with my shit

ynshere: oh Ellie ynshere: i know for a fact that Dina cares about you as much as i do ynshere: you're never a burden to us, understand? ynshere: glad you vented to me

brickmaster: thank you so much yn brickmaster: you have no idea how much this means to me brickmaster: can i tell you something

ynshere: of course

brickmaster: you know that party at Jesse’s? brickmaster: the one from two years ago

ynshere: yeah what about it?

brickmaster: i always wondered if things went differently brickmaster: like if me and Cat never happened brickmaster: i remember i had the whole night planned, i wanted to spend time with you alone

ynshere: you never told me that

brickmaster: well you left earlier than expected that night sooo

ynshere: you're making me regret getting drunk that night ynshere: i was so sick, i remember drinking too much

brickmaster: yeah lol you were fucking wasted brickmaster: i have an idea

ynshere: shoot ynshere: and it better not include putting a dinosaur toy in your microwave

brickmaster: lmao no i'm over that phase brickmaster: what if i came visit this weekend? brickmaster: i really miss you and i need a break from this fucking school anyways brickmaster: besides, we promised we would visit each other right?

ynshere: oh my god please do ynshere: i would LOVE to see your ugly ass face again

brickmaster: you miss this ugly face though ;)

ynshere: maybe

brickmaster: fuck i can't wait brickmaster: ooh shit what about your friend Emma?

ynshere: it's whatever i’ll tell her you're visiting, she’ll understand

brickmaster: you sure? brickmaster: you don't have to ditch her for me

ynshere: Ellie. be for fucking real. ynshere: i would ditch anyone for you

brickmaster: alright alright just making sure brickmaster: so what do you wanna do this weekend?

ynshere: don't know, just hang out in my dorm?

brickmaster: sounds good to me brickmaster: anything sounds better than rotting in my dorm all day brickmaster: wanna get drunk too? I could bring some alcohol if you want

ynshere: sure why not? ynshere: if we gotta catch up

brickmaster: we must do it the right way brickmaster: i like the way you think

ynshere: lol see you this weekend?

brickmaster: see you this weekend :)

ynshere: bye bye :))

brickmaster is away.

jessescool has signed in jessescool: yoo yn jessescool: how is it goin? ynshere: JESSE OH MY FUCKING GOD ynshere: MY MANNNNNNN jessescool: lol you feeling alright?

ynshere: Ellie's coming over this weekend :) jessescool: yn using a smiley face. odd

ynshere: shut up. ynshere: SHE'S COMING TO VISIT ynshere: IM SCREAMING

jessescool: about damn time you two got together

ynshere: we're not together ynshere: she's just coming to visit ynshere: we haven't seen each other in like forever

jessescool: will be soon jessescool: is she still dating Cat?

ynshere: she just told me she broke up ynshere: Cat was horrible to her

jessescool: i remember talking to Cat a few times back in high school jessescool: she was odd ynshere: you know what else is odd?

jessescool: what ynshere: your mom dropping you on your head as a baby

jessescool is typing... ynshere is away. jessescool: i'm tired of y'all

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[stevie-petey]

oh my god OH MY GOD IM SO HAPPY TO WAKE UP TO CHAPTER FOUR YOU HAVE NO IDEAAAA

okay insights, i love dustin & bug soooo much like they're literally the cutest siblings everrrr, makes me wish i had a younger cutesy brother.

and can i just say i KNEW that mrs. waters was connected to mrs. driscoll??? like my GUT SAID IT. at first i thought omg what if mrs. waters is that old lady then i remembered noooo the name was different but i immediately thought that they're connected in some way and I WAS RIGHT

dude, the scene where bug is sitting on steve's lap ??? -$(1)#+8292(2(2(+22 i LOST IT LIKE HOLY SHIT

(i will not be complaining anymore about why they're being idiots because i understand and love them and im lowkey loving the slow burn) and we're getting cloooose to chapter 6 so that's lovely, the wait is almost over :D

the fight with nance? INSANE. i genuinely never thought nancy could be mad a bug but cmon it's nancy, her anger is always on her nose annnnd absolutely get where she's coming from i mean but poor bug :( baby's just trying to be there for everyone but everything keeps going wrong.

i love erica & bug. im pretty sure she'll start sticking close to bug now that all of this is happening, can't wait to see that development

and my baby robin is down BADDDDD. it's okay, robin we GET IT.

"Hendersons with Harrington" SO FUCKIN ADORABLE ISTGGGGG

also did bug faint at the end? or is she having a panic attack, a bit confused lmao

and lastly, i was thinking about come home yesterday and how everything might take place and season 3, im excited to know what's up BUT season 4 is going to be so JUICYYYY. with the byers moving, the kids getting so big. what's gonna be bug's college scene. AND HER RELATIONSHIP WITH EDDIE I AM SO FUCKIN EXCITED TO SEE THATTTTT

okay now i take your leave, thanks for feeding us, m. love you <3

dustin n bug <333 theyre the best siblings i ADORE THEM !!! and as for mrs waters u were right 🤭🤭 she honestly has no real weight besides being bugs boss and knowing mrs driscoll, but i thought itd be a cool tie in and im happy you loved that lil detail ;)

CHAPTER 6 WILL BE YALLS FAVORITE I PROMISE !!!!! GIMME TIME

nancy :( i love her character but yeaaaah shes always been very defensive and prideful (and a girlboss but still) and it was just all her stress piling up. hearing your bfs bff knows more than you do about his feelings ??? guy wrenching and id throw up tbh. bug is stronger than me

and bug didnt faint its the elevator scene !! where they all just fall down the elevator shaft into doom lmao.

season 4 will be a beast and you pointed out some things i cant touch on rn for spoilers but ‼️‼️ beware ‼️‼️

[lixenn]

KHR reread

Annnnd we're back baby! (Noooo, I'm not procrastinating all the things I have to do, what are you talking about?)

Chapter 33

Why does every teacher in Namimori Middle fucking suck? HUSBAND! CLEAN UP YOUR SCHOOL!!!

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What an approach to school work... I wish I could be so casual about it but my fear of failure and my perfectionism won't let me TT (also Takeshi is so fucking pretty *dreamy sigh*)

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Fuuuck... Hayato is talking dirty to me. I love a guy that can just solve math problems on the fly while looking cool af. (I'm a nerd with a competence kink, don't add me okay!!)

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All that I'm seeing here is Reborn being parentcoded which might be because I just read this analysis by @rebo-chan lol

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!!! She actually claimed them as her kids! I don't remember that, I thought that was just fanon... You learn something new everyday.

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Saved by the childhood trauma of your right hand. Good for you Tsuna! (somebody get Hayato in therapy please, also maybe make him see a doctor for his stomach, I doubt repeated poisonings are good for healthy for your darm flora)

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This reads like an advert in a newspaper not gonna lie, Reborn is working hard to supply Tsuna with family members lol

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HUSBAND SNIPPET

I LOVE HIM YOUR HONOR!!! HE'S SO PERFECT!!! MY VIOLENT BABYDOLL!!! MY SWEETPIE!!!

Chapter 34

FUUTA!!! FUUTA IS HERE GUYS!!!

damn i love that little guy! his power is random af but i don't even care.

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There's- there's a fucking galaxy in his eyes??? I never noticed that (or i have forgotten) that's such a cool detail!

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Does everyone in khr have a fucking hammerspace??? like what is this bullshit and where do I sign up to get one??

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Tsuna honey, they were middle aged guys in suits chasing a little kid on school grounds who else were they supposed to be?

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Fuuta is so smart... so manipulative... such a good bean

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*squints* have you been spending too much time with my husband Reborn? That's a very familiar word choice you got there...

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Fuuta is my spirit animal, my soulmate, my darling babyboy. Also they way he just manipulated the goons to fight each other *chef's kiss* Good that he's an adorable cinnamon roll otherwise we would all be fucked.

[guruan]

Spiderman across the spiderverse movie spoilers

Notes through the movie. Please come back and scream with me when you watch it

Loved the use of blues and reds in that scene with gwen and her dad

MIGUEL! CAPE?!

He's so grumpy LMFAOOO

Actually the red and blues are everywhere

They really talked about canon? 😂

Miles filling pages with drawings of his crush lol relatable

VENOM MOVIE UNIVERSE?!

LMFAO Lego universe is so cute "beep beep"

The song when Miles is in his room is fireeee

NOOOO SHE OPENED IT 😭

Lol the "soda - it's a generic brand" in the bg 😂

I love the black and white sequences

MIGUEL HELLO AGAIN

Ben Reilly lol

MCU UNCLE REF?!!!

Miguel is so edgy, I love that

His daughter 🥺🥺🥺😭 He looked so happy

👁️👄👁️ He's so angry

The mcu multiverse timelines? 👀 At least they look the same visually

ANDREW SPIDERMAN?!!!

The kids here in the theater actually know the actors names wow

Miguel backstory😭

Spectacular Spidey!! :0

THE MEME SCENE

Flying squirrel flying squirrel

Miles fighting a furious Miguel that's so cool of him

No way they told him hes not supposed to be canon 💀

Miguel is punching too hard the 15 yo boy 😶

What happened to Miguels suit? Hmmm

Omg Miguel is so fkin ANGRY 👁️👄👁️ Wish I could hear OI 😭

"We are" line 👁️👄👁️

Second time Gwen reflection is her face and not the mask. I find that really cool

The color bleeding in the bg of Gwen scene

It changed to white 😭😭

She doesnt know about Spiderman? She just doesnt know or is that another universe...

IS NOT THE SAME

The photo and he is friends with the roommate that doesnt want to be his friend in the other universelol

Unrelated but there's one (1) kid that thinks she's so grown up and that beind disrespectful and xenophobic is cool 😶😶😶 whos raising her

MILES IS-?!

He looks so cool cant wait to see the fanart

WHY DOES HE KEEP BRINGING THE BABY PETER PLEASE

THAT WAS THE END?!?!!! WHAAAAAT

WHAAAAAAAAAAT

At least Im going to get to see more Miguel I guess hmm

BUT THAT WAS NOT ENOUGH MIGUEL

Miguel ANGER was so intense through all the movie, I just wish to watch the movie in english with OI's voice ASAP

[aclickbaittitle]

Live blogging of the Podcast Jam's Pilots (Part 2):

Again, I want to congratulate everyone that participated in the Podcast Jam. You created not just a story but a world using just sound waves in 72-ish hours, that's amazing!

8° Hello? Are you there?

I have so many questions about the world.

Race of people???

I really like Aiden's VA, they have a nice audiobook narrator voice. I also liked the reverb effect.

But what is with the freaking morality?

I know where Aiden is, he's in the US of A.

Wait, I wanted the tour :((

Hey Aiden, if you dont have a brother, dont crticize.

What did humanity did to you? Noooo.

Tbh, I was most intrigued by this project 'cause it had a similar premise to Eart(h) FM and wanted to see how it will diverged, and it left me a bit dissapointed. Part of that cause Eart(h) FM is a sorta tesis to the wrong idea that humanity is greedy and to all those other apocalyptic stories that further the myth.

Idk, I was expecting a couple of stories not about mythology but rather about Aiden and him connecting and making friendships that arent there anymore and mourning.

But hey, thats just me. Good job team!

9° Valvidian's Finest

Love the title sequence.

I like the heart of the ship sound, threatening but cozy.

I love Anna Maria.

What happened to poor Sam?

A small bear is a pretty accurate description of a cat.

Its name is Acorn!

Omg, they are saving the cat. Like Saving The Cat. Thats so funny.

Question: Is Sam human?

Tbh, I didnt understand the first half, or anything until the cat.

Oh no, that cat is expensive. Awww Slack, they have ethics.

Uuu, class comentary ♡♡

Nop, Anna did pop the "P".

Also, I love how each of the characters have a distinct voice.

Wait, so they hide the cat in a suit?

Omg, such cool music.

Peace & Love.

Ok, the what do we deliver at the end was a jump scare.

10° Space Specks

This reminds me of Eart(h) FM but from another perspective/pos. But like more Morbid.

Nice exposition.

Too many characters, aaa, I cant distinguished from one another.

Amputeee rep!

Omg, the stikes were raised so fast. Who is this friend?

I'm curious about this format. Who is recording, and why?

Three more nights I said, but I am bad at math, jejeje.

Idk who this person is saying all this pet names. But I love them.

What's your deal? They are a polycule my friend.

Nora: 'cause I can, 10/10.

That being said they became defensive too quickly. Idk, I think the conversation was a bit forced but they said the word QPR!! And tbh that's all that matters.

Weed is weed, I need that in a shirt.

Honey, I need to make a list of all the pet names. Idk, I like when ppl say pet names platonically and not condescendenly.

Sawyer, thats their name!

Future tech! Future tech!

I also think leaving nora is a terrible idea. They were like 5 or 7 in the group, someone can stay with them.

Wait, Sawyer is cowboy coded. I thought they were a doc.

Dog! Dog! DOG! 2024 is the year for podcasts dogs! Finally! There had been to many cats.

Aww Coral. I would have done the same.

A dog named Dog, 10/10 naming skills.

Hey, dont insult the dog. He is just scared. Dogs are loyal but also, yk, angry.

Wait, noooo. Dont shoot the dog.

So Chip is the doctor. Nooo, dont shoot him. Ah, they are living him alive.

Aliens? Ah no, just a human surviver.

Okay, so I still dont know how many characters are and now we've added another one.

Jean, dont.

Ah, the friend was Jean. Stake was finally saved.

Uuu, Real World Lore.

Nice editing Quills and Finch!

11° Working Tidal

Nice music, love some rock.

Uuu, hostel setting!

Poor Fisher they are so stressed.

Wait, so this is a case of if they get wet they turn back into mermaid form?

Question: Why do they need to hide? Like, is there an anti mermaid sentimaid?

Gills and shark teeth! Thats so cool... and sexy.

This person is so calm, I wish they could hold me and tell me all will be fine.

Aww, human dad? Mixed kid metaphor!!!?

Oh no, Mick(?) Lost their powers. Was it cause of love?

Wait, Erick and Mick (?) are Divorced?? Hey, Erick, whyyyyy, be more carefull.

This just became 10 levels more tragic.

They nailed the divorced dynamic.

Poor mom, she is also overworked. Let her sleep.

I feel cheated though, I tought this was going to be a comedy but is a family drama.

Fin, you are a disaster/pos.

Wave transition, so smooth!

*Down bad for your weed dealer*, hehehe.

Wait Riley is 16, aww.

Also Fin & Fisher really nailed the sibling dynamic of those two who are very closed in age.

Weed makes you wise.

"Actually I think is a dead body?" Said high and totally chill, is actually very funny.

NO, NEVER CALL THE COPS.

Lore? Lore? No lore :(

"Hey kids you are home in time for dinner. Whats with the unconcious person there?"

Bluey is canon in this universe.

Annete not Mick. Sorry.

Erick, why did you said that about your NEPHEW??

Okay, so magic and mermaids are known in this universe. Then why do they have to hide?

*She can stay?* Dont you live in a hostel.

Wait, Fisher named themself? Thats hillarious but better than if it would have been their parents.

What do you know Anette? Oh no, poor Marine or Marnie.

I am intrigued.

Wait, we are going to get two seasons!!!! Excited!!

12° Finder's Keeper

This creepy music is amazing.

This music is lulling me to sleep/pos.

No, dont insult coffee in my presence.

Okay, so exposition but exposition is incorrect but not actually.

Damn, this organization is abusive (?)

I really like the Keeper. They are like those detectives in Noir movies, and sound like they only survive from drinking and smoking/pos.

I thought she said, the "Poop" thing for a second (sorry).

Aww, the Keeper wants to protect them.

I really like the poof vfx.

I like the Here place. Nice sound.

The watchers, how did they get that much power?

How do ppl become finders & watchers?

NO, DONT SHAKE, DONT SHAKE.

I like this Elevator music. Finder agrees with me.

This is such a funny conversation. Love this transition scene.

Yeah, yeah. Nope, nope. Poor Keeper.

The music is so Coool. Like it is not basic creepy, if it makes sense? It has some pizzas and like little foleys that just add to it.

I could fell asleep to it/pos.

Something invaluable? Love, Peace, Happiness. Wait, adquired. Thats such a word.

Nah, keep with the semantics.

Oh, Time. That makes sense.

This man is so creepy in a fun way, props to the VA.

Wait, so not all of the clients are like this? I thought this was like a normal tuesday.

No, DONT SHAKE IT, DONT SHAKE IT.

Piano? Piano!?

So he is a shapeshifter. Why does that make him so evil tho?

Oh, so they are like Kidnappers or Eaters. I think they eat them.

Oh no, dont say Main Characters Syndrome. I can stand Hero's Journey but I draw the line at mc syndrome.

Hey, 70 is not old. No one under 80 can call themselves Old.

The percursions of this. So cool, like the clock but also the snare and kick box. Idk is so cool.

Wait, who did the Finder shoot?

Exactly, those are my questions.

13° Eart(h) FM

Too long. Wont listen to it.

14°Hamuel Burger and the American Dream

So tumblr deleted all my thoughts. But I just wanted to say this was so fun.

Asbestos reminds me of any gringo coming to a 3rd world country, especially the part of: "I thought earth will be more friendly / You tried to kill me".

Love how every alien influencer out there is trying to kill the us president. Will be me.

Really liked how they worked around having more characters without the need of more VAs and all of that through comedy.

I want to subscribe to Hams youtube channel.

The Farm boy just kicking the spaceship was 10/10.

And the meta-level credits is such a cool thing.

[fcb-mv33]

It’s been a while since I’ve been on F1 tumbler but I had a scroll down through your feed and 100000% agree with what you say about Skyf1 and certain fanbases 👀.

F1 needs to start coming out with statements about these fans because they are twats, I mean booing Max because he won at Miami where I believe is a majority of people are Mexicans and of course they love Checo but my god most fans are twats because I saw some moaning saying that Checo should of started on hards like ok love the other 6 drivers would of swallowed him up and max would of got to Checo on lap 2 😂, Checo while I love him he has had some luck with some of his wins Baku 2021 Max would of won if his tyre did blow up.

I hate F1 fans honestly, social media has made fandoms so bad 🫠

Honestly some of these fans would not of survived Senna, Schumacher, Prost, Hunt, McLaren Lewis, and Redbull Seb 😂😂😂

Also all I’m going to say about these people that Cyber Bully Max which what they are doing is the correct term, let’s hope none of their Kids, Nieces and Nephews, Godchildren, and Friends get the abuse thrown at them like how they do to Max and other Drivers I mean do they think it’s okay because it’s Max noooo, as someone who was bullied severely in Secondary School I hope that no one goes through what I did, let’s hope those people who are throwing abuse at Max on Twitter or Insta never has to see a loved one cry about the abuse they are getting face to face and online because that will be Karma and honestly their own fault.

And those people who ‘Manafest’ Redbull and Max’s downfall guess what huns what you put out there comes back to bite you on the ass and it’s there favourite driver gets it I mean it’s called self gain, you want to be Cool and post it everywhere it will be your favourite driver gets fucked In the end and I sit there and laugh 😂😂

Sorry for the rant but I needed to say it and I love how blunt and truthful you are keep it coming

Nah never apologize for ranting bestie I love all the rants I get!! And I absolutely agree none of them would survive watching old f1, hell not even the English media could survive it. I’ve always said they only talk good about a legend of a sport once they aren’t a threat to their golden English boys🙄

See the thing is and I’ve said before it really isn’t the booing that bothers me. It’s the chanting abuse at Max and now his team, it’s the chanting about his mother, chanting wishing him to die that is what bothers me. The lack of response from Formula 1, Sky sports f1 and also the f1 community really shows that they all find it absolutely okay for people people to abuse Max, in person, right near him. They think that Max apparently doesn’t have feelings, that he can just take it because he’s Max, he’s Dutch forgetting that he is a 25 year old young man.

I understand it doesn’t bother him but Jesus Christ all he’s doing is going out and promoting f1 and their anti hate campaign only to get left in the cold on his own, no support but is expected to call out his fans who have done nothing near to what Checo, Lewis and Ferrari fans have done to him. He’s constantly attacked online when it comes to his body, his face, his driving, his personal life and at some point you have to wonder do these people have such miserable life’s to abuse a young man who they will never meet? I agree with you 100% that I hope yo god they will never have to see a loved one go through the level of abuse max does.

People acting like Red Bull have dominated since 2021 and it’s so fucking annoying because if Merc weren’t lying about their bouncing issue the rules would have worked just fine. Honestly some “fans” need to go back to eating chips on their sofa instead of sitting at their computer spewing hate towards max. 

[theteasetwrites]

I just finished watching twd’s final episode (ya i know im so late) aaand I totally agree with you. That episode was so rushed, everything happened so fast. As expected it was a total chaos.

I literally cried when Rosita died, I really wish it was Judith or RJ just to give Michone something to be guilty abt. Yaa I’m not a fan of Michonne and her leaving the kids to find Rick.

I loved the scene between Daryl and Carol in the end, it just showed how platonic their love for each other and nothing more people!

The explosion? UGHH.

The dinner after the explosion? Major cringe and very confusing, I mean not like they celebrated after the war with the Saviors? It just didn’t make sense.

And oh Maggie, my dearest. She deserves peace and happiness but I get her, if I were her I would’ve killed Annie so atleast we’re even.

Kinda disappointed. After 11 seasons we deserved a better ending. But hey, I am excited that Rick Grimes is back.

And yes, Daryl deserves a happy ending too. And thank goodness we have you to give him that! <3

Yeah it was very rushed, messy, lazy, and insulting. I mean it could've been a lot worse, but it could've been so much better if they had actually taken the time to make a good, well thought out last season instead of throwing in so many useless storylines. I mean the whole Reaper arc should've been thrown out. They could've used that time to delve into the Commonwealth stuff earlier. Also when they spent that whole episode in 11b focusing on Eugene trying to solve that mystery with Hornsby and Stephanie and all that shit... so ridiculous just give me 45 minutes of Daryl showering and I'll be happy

Anyway, Rosita dying was horrendously sad. I mean it was a beautiful death that was at least peaceful which is what she deserves, but it was still so sad. At least she died in the very last episode instead of in the middle of the series, so we got as much Rosita content as we could get.

I WISH JUDITH HAD DIED TOO HAHA. No fr what was the point of Judith getting shot if she wasn't going to die? Just to fuck with us? And to waste time? Seriously her getting shot was such a waste of time, it's insulting. She should've died and then it would at least have some payoff. But noooo they just had to do that stupid Carl/Rick parallel with Judith and Daryl. I rolled my eyes so hard man. It was just so lazy and they thought they were being so clever like ok get over urself besties

And you're so right, Michonne should feel guilty for leaving her kids! I mean tbh if Judith and RJ were my kids I'd probably abandon them too (not really lol) but yeah.

The Carol and Daryl scene was also pointless imo. I mean I guess it was cool if you like their friendship but I don't even think their friendship is that fun to watch lol so yeah. The "I love you" was definitely platonic but it read as more caryl baiting for the carylers.

That explosion was so ridiculous. How did they pull that off in a matter of a few hours? I was baffled. It was so weird and unrealistic lol. I mean I realize I am asking for realism in a show about zombies, but at some point realism is required for the show to make sense within the context, you know?

Everything was just way too convenient in that last episode. The explosion, Daryl just so happening to have the universal donor blood type (yeah fucking right), Judith surviving that gunshot wound, barely anyone in the main cast dying, everyone celebrating after destroying half the city and a ton of Commonwealth civilians dying... SUPER WEIRD.

Yeah the dinner was so cringey I'm sorry. It just felt so unearned and wrong. I mean they just faced a tragedy. Luke died hours ago and his group went from sobbing uncontrollably to laughing as they clink glasses at the dinner table like EXCUSE ME lmao. And once again, that huge explosion must've been super devastating to the structure of the city. How can the group be celebrating at a time like this? Also don't get me started on how EXHAUSTED they would've been after all of that, and yet they made a five course Thanksgiving meal in less than 24 hours after a really bad walker invasion??? And I know for a fact it was less than 24 hours later because Rosita was still alive and you can't live more than 24 hours with that fever from the bite. So stupid I'm sorry guys I wanna like it but I just can't.

MAGGIE SHOULD DEFINITELY KILL ANNIE HAHAHAHHAHAHAH

I totally agree my friend. Sorry for ranting but you made some great points that got me thinking about how irrationally mad I am at the finale lol. I just think it could've been so much better. And then after the one year time jump, it was way too saccharine and didn't match the tone of the rest of the episode or the season. I think that they still could've given them that happy ending without it being so colorful and bright and everyone smiling super big and idk it was just way too perfect and utopian looking. They could've done a way more nuanced thing that didn't make me feel as uncomfortable as it did lol. It was almost uncanny how saccharine the ending was.

Daryl is going to get the happiest ending of anyone in the series by the time I'm done with him in my series. He is gonna grow old with his wife and kids. He will know peace <3

[sunnychuuya]

Pookie what the flip is this I'll answer them tho lmao at least I'll try it might be slightly venty so srry about thar

yea most of the time I geuss. They suck a little sometimes but they try their best and I love them

2. My gc with my besties to say gn

3. So. So. So fucking much.

4. Its been getting a lot better lately but some days I still feel actually sickened at the sight of my own body

5. Single..

6. Painlessly. Hopefully much much later.

7. Taco belllll

8. I did soccer for a year when I was 4 and I want to attempt figure skating at some point, I'm really good at goalie in alot of games though

9. No I have two fake teeth that stop me from doing that (lore drop!!)

10. Never been in a fight. Just one sided against me if I wasn't absolutely fucking terrified of getting in trouble I would've beaten the shit outta some people, I suppose the closest thing I ever got was in 5th grade some dude was a repeated bully of mine I can't remember what it was about this time but he fucking grabbed my arm and twisted it like this fucking close to breaking it and I tried to kick him in the balls and a teacher yelled at me 🥰 he had no consequences

11. I mean I'm a Lil confused. I just got out of my first ever real relationship and I'm still recovering tbh. But I had liked my friend for three years previously and I still love him alot but I can't tell if it's platonic or not. I think it is now?

12. O n l y 48 hrs?

13. I hate alot of people tbh but I kinda hate myself for hating them cuz that's normal

14.yea

15. MY SILLY PUPPIES (one is 11 years old)

16. Fucking terrified cuz I'm about to play the second episode of sally face

17. I still have my lip virginity bro

18. HELL SPAWN

19. Maybe. I kinda wanna be a little kid again but also it wasn't the greatest for me outside of my house so I don't even know.

20. bRO PELASE STOP I HAVENT-

21. Nothing lmao

22. Idk maybe someday. Probably one maximum 2

23. Basic ear piercings but God I want more

24. English and science.

25. Yes.

26. Physical touch I need to cuddle up with someone right now I genuinely feel like I'm dying

27. I mean yea and I feel horrendous about it it broke my heart too but it wasn't a healthy relationship and was fucking up both of us

28. YES IN FUCKING FIFTH GRADE- I SWEAR TK GOD- I don't think he understood but like bruh

29. Please you're making me want to grab a knife and take it to my stomach I didn't want too but it needed to happen.

30. Same as sai, the questiond about relationships but for a different reason like God I felt horrendous enough already

31. Sai how fuckin dare you I love u okay ur like super cool and fun and I feel if I met you irl I would've wanted to be friends with you too. But I'm pretty sure I am. I just still sometimes have trouble believing it.

32. OURPLE

33. Whaaat noooo- WHO FUCKING TOLD YOU-

34. Last one thar wasn't jusr black was about choso from jjk and it was really silly I'm such a fucking degenerate bro help me

35. My dog clifford

36. Yes oh fuck yes I do and it has given me some of my worst regrets in life

37. Forgive, barely ever turns out well tho.

38. I wish its sucked tbh

39. NEVAH

40. proly when I was like a baby

In skipping numbers too for my brain to work

51. Tacoss

52. I mean technically yes it does I could go into science but I'm sure thats not what you mean, but no I do not believe everything happens for a reason because of some higher power or whatever

53. Played sally face for an hour then texted some friends cuz I was too fucking scared to sleep

54. Fuck no

55. I try not to be

56. None

57. I dunno.

58. Rainy

59. Yesss

60. Yup

61. Yeess

62. Idk alot of things surprisingly anime/friends/kpop tho r all great and video games

63. I like my name but it doesn't always feel like it fits but there's nicknames that help :3

64. STOP THIS

65. Heyyy this happened to me. I politely turned him down and we r still besties I went to his house 2 weeks ago

66. Yes. Same friend. When I went to his house he snorted fun dip and I RANTED to him about kpop for 30 minutes even tho he knows nothing

67. OH FUCK WAIT ONE OF MY BESTIES ID A TRANS DUDE I FORGOT HE TECUNIXALLY COUNTS AS OPPOSITE SEX KINDA IDK CUZ SEX IS LIKE ??? I DONT FUCKIN KNOW IG HIM BUT IF WE DONT MEAN GENDER BUT SEX THEN THE SAME DUDE FROM THE LAST TWO

68. Deepest within the last month was a 3am sleepover chat with my bestie over how mha saved my life

69. Idk

70. Yea at least 10 ppl

@mypinterestgotbannedsoimherenow totally understand if u don't feel like answering these btw they r kinda hard

70 horrible questions ... Fuck it

01: Do you have a good relationship with your parents? 02: Who did you last say “I love you” to? 03: Do you regret anything? 04: Are you insecure? 05: What is your relationship status? 06: How do you want to die? 07: What did you last eat? 08: Played any sports? 09: Do you bite your nails? 10: When was your last physical fight? 11: Do you like someone? 12: Have you ever stayed up 48 hours? 13: Do you hate anyone at the moment? 14: Do you miss someone? 15: Have any pets? 16: How exactly are you feeling at the moment? 17: Ever made out in the bathroom? 18: Are you scared of spiders? 19: Would you go back in time if you were given the chance? 20: Where was the last place you snogged someone? 21: What are your plans for this weekend? 22: Do you want to have kids? How many? 23: Do you have piercings? How many? 24: What is/are/were your best subject(s)? 25: Do you miss anyone from your past? 26: What are you craving right now? 27: Have you ever broken someone’s heart? 28: Have you ever been cheated on? 29: Have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry? 30: What’s irritating you right now? 31: Does somebody love you? 32: What is your favourite color? 33: Do you have trust issues? 34: Who/what was your last dream about? 35: Who was the last person you cried in front of? 36: Do you give out second chances too easily? 37: Is it easier to forgive or forget? 38: Is this year the best year of your life? 39: How old were you when you had your first kiss? 40: Have you ever walked outside completely naked? 51: Favourite food? 52: Do you believe everything happens for a reason? 53: What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night? 54: Is cheating ever okay? 55: Are you mean? 56: How many people have you fist fought? 57: Do you believe in true love? 58: Favourite weather? 59: Do you like the snow? 60: Do you wanna get married? 61: Is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby? 62: What makes you happy? 63: Would you change your name? 64: Would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed? 65: Your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? 66: Do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around? 67: Who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to? 68: Who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? 69: Do you believe in soulmates? 70: Is there anyone you would die for?

[neverdying-d-e-a-d]

ohgod wjat was that.

hey why do i actively try to burn away and forget my past?

why dont i make an appointment with a therapist already?

i mean

i cant now

what if someone hears me?

...

i n s t i

tu t i o n

a l i z e d

what's that mean?

oh rock music, we're really in it now

okay, its not cool to make portraits of sadness and to self victimize

i dont feel like a victim

i feel like i deserve it all

what

do i mean anything that i write?

i really hope that i don't

or do

eugh

so confusing i'm about to cry

at what point does depression start to become going insane?

is it the same?

eugh..

i mean isnt it insane to want to kill someone? suicidal thoughts?

....

whaaatever.

i have enough love for myself and more

i just wanna talk about the war

._.

it's fucked up

feels redundant to say

but i think im allowed to say obvious things

im allowed to say whatever i want, as long as i think im a good person. right?

sometimes i wish i had parents that taught me to really use my brain

get the thoughts straight

okay

your name is [____ __________]

you feel

uhhh awe shit.

you feel

you feel confused

how are you feeling?

im feeling great.

okay.

your name is [_ _]

you feel

something is wrong

in your head

in the world

in the world

or

no, in your head

or

no, nothings wrong, there is no good or bad or

no, yes there is, you know good from bad.

or, no thats not true wisdom

or, no, thats common knowledge

true wisdom is foolish

or

i always end up knowing nothing

or

um

no, yeah.

your name is ()

you know nothing

you feel light and slightly confused and you feel like if you articulate it well enough you can understand it, you feel convinced

you feel shame remembering that guy feel up your thighs

you feel turned on

noooo you dont. dont kid yourself.

you feel turned on at the idea of you feeling turned on.

you feel basically only real attraction towards yourself

and some men

and

dont tell me youre afraid of women now, too? just because it was a girl what made you so weird as a kid?

point is.

that guy. you liked using him. you wanna hurt him. i honestly dont feel bad about that but i feel like i should

okay, i do

hes a person

so cute too.

but what a rotten little boy

god, its always the lonely emo boys

three times now

ive gotta get scarier, scare them off

no, that. eugh. only attracts them

other boys like boobed people who are non threatening

but those boys...

um

when was the last time you gave one of those boys a real chance? haha.

.

.

.

am i the problem?

sure, why not

....

i dont wanna talk to boys. women. i like women. boys

men and women are basically the same to me i just fear violence and well

....

im not crazy for feeling unsafe around men, am i?

....

i really wish i could ask someone who knows about this

like say, a therapist

eughhh.

im dying

writing is making me feel worse i should go to bed

i dont wanna have a bad dream

but

its okay to do things that scare you

but

it feels different to be in the middle of it all but

but

but

but i live in america

because

because

because my grandfather's editing team are dead

guns bought that ticket

and now im a privileged white british scumbag

living with black mold

maybe thats whats making me feel like this honestly

god i just wanna move somewhere clean

somewhere clean

will this poetry will make me sound insane because it's not beautiful

not worth it to care honestly

i still dont feel better

nono, lets try

im feeling better slowly

yes slowly

quicker now im finally feeling good

no.

im gonna take allergy medication and drop out of college and die on the street

im not really afraid

i dont deserve anything more or less

... right?

[bonky-n-steeb]

none like you (iii)

— football player! bucky barnes x sports physio! reader

summary || Bucky Barnes has it all — money, success, looks, fame, women. But when he falls in love with the only woman who doesn’t love him, he starts wondering if he really has it all.

warnings || idiots in love. friends with benefits. fake dating. unprotected sex. rough sex. dom/sub undertones. dirty talk. petname (pumpkin). jealous bucky. possessive bucky. chapter specific warnings. smut. angst. fluff. (the holy trinity) — MINORS DNI

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The cool breeze floating through the air hit your cheeks as you walked on the green grass. Maddy was perched on your hand as she took in the lush green park with her tiny eyes.

Today right since the morning, the kids were demanding to be taken to the nearby park. Apparently it was a tradition in their house for Bucky to take these two to the park every time they visited.

So here you were, walking up to the imitated small football field for kids which was fairly empty except for the four of you. You were glad there was no one else as people would come jumping to click pictures with Bucky.

“Okay, so we gotta make teams.” Bucky declared as you reached the field. “Three of us against uncle Bucky!” Marty happily announced and you shook your head.

“You guys play and I’ll cheer you up!” You knew the rules of the game and how to play, but you had absolutely no interest in actually playing it. You were a physio after all.

“Noooo… play with us! Pwease!” Maddy and Marty pouted and and you didn’t have it in yourself to say no to them. “Okay I’ll play!” Both of the kids giggled happily when you agreed.

“That is not fair! There should be two in each team, not three against one. This is cheating.” Bucky pretended to be angry.

He was the number one ranked player, he could take down anyone, especially two kids and one lousy adult without batting an eyelid.

“No Bucky, you always win! But if we have her we’ll win this time!” Marty complained and you squinted at Bucky. “What kind of a person are you Bucky? You don’t let the kids win?” You gasped and Bucky shook his head.

“One time! One time I won the game and these kids pretend as if I’m a cruel uncle,..” he leaned down and whispered the next part in your ear, “… I always let them win.”

“Good.” You whispered back. “Now that the teams are decided I think we should begin the game.” You announced and set Maddy on the ground.

Bucky picked one of the spare balls lying on the ground and checked it before deciding to play with it. “Okay take your positions…” Bucky declared and placed the ball in the centre.

Marty was the first one to kick the ball and he passed it up to you. You gently pushed it towards Maddy and taking the cue, she kicked it towards the goal post.

She was honestly too small to really kick the ball with force and the ball barely went ahead on the field despite it being a kids replica.

She looked up to you with sadness clearly written in her eyes. “Awww… it’s okay. We’d try again…” you patted her on the head and she nodded with new hope. “Okay.”

All the while Bucky was purposely running in circles to be away from the ball. He stopped in his tracks for a minute to see how well you and the kids had bonded in such a small time.

When his mother had asked him around a year back if he was dating someone, he had panicked and taken your name because you were the first one he could remember.

It wasn’t like you were constantly on his mind, no no absolutely not, or maybe he should now just stop lying to himself. You were actually constantly on his mind.

Ever since you had entered his life, he couldn’t stop thinking about you. Maybe it was the way you laughed or the face you made when you realised something.

He couldn’t really imagine living in a world with you not in it. It was as if you had slowly seeped into his mind and soul and made him completely yours.

You were there everyday by his side, just going about your business as if Bucky’s whole world didn’t revolve around you.

As if he didn’t wake up everyday with the thought of seeing you make your grumpy face as he teased you and he didn’t go to sleep remembering the moments when you laughed carelessly.

Standing in a kids park with his leg resting on the football, seeing you play around with the kids, he realised he was in love with you.

Bucky Barnes was in love with you, irrevocably and completely.

A huge smile spread across his face at the revelation. He was an idiot before to think that sleeping with you one time would get you out of his mind when in reality you were carving a place in his heart without even knowing it.

It was as if the realisation had filled up a constant shallow ache in his heart. All the time he didn’t understand why people called someone their better half. But now knowing that he loved you, it felt like his heart was complete.

You completed him.

The feeling he couldn’t really place when he had you in his arms last night was none other than love. As he had held you last night and shared your warmth, he had started to crave to have that feeling for remaining nights of his life.

“Bucky? Where are you lost?” Bucky blinked out of his thoughts when he heard your voice. “Umm, nothing really.” He shrugged it off when he saw three pairs of eyes keenly staring at him.

To change the topic, the passed the ball back to the kids so they started playing again. Bucky was constantly giving them tips to improve their game and helping them as he always did.

Bucky was surprisingly a family man. In the years that you had known him, you hadn’t really pictured him as one.

He was always the brash spoilt playboy in your eyes, not the dutiful son and doting uncle he actually was. The change in perception was making you feel things you shouldn’t be feeling.

You were witnessing a very intimate part of his life which he had kept a secret from the whole world. It felt like that wall you two had built up around each other had finally broken down.

Last night was the proof of that; the gentle touches and murmured whispers. The way he held you tightly in his arms as if he was afraid you’d run away.

All this was making your heart ache for him. You were skeptical when you first joined him in his lie, but now you didn’t want to leave this bubble you had created.

A pang of hurt pierced your heart when you remembered what all this actually was, a lie. And tomorrow when his family would be gone, you and Bucky would go back to your professional selves.

You wished all this was actually real. You wished Bucky was yours.

You blinked back the tears that suddenly collected in your eyes. You couldn’t fall for him. You had stopped yourself from loving him for all these years, you just had to continue doing that, right?

Shaking your head, you focused back on the game which had become intense. Both the teams had now scored three goals by now.

Even though you all knew Bucky was going to let the kids win, Maddy and Marty were playing with such determination as if their life depended on it.

They were both trying to score a goal but Bucky was defending his side a bit too well for the kids. “Help us! Please!” Marty pleaded to you and you realised you were just standing like an idiot on the field.

Nodding you started walking towards them but like the klutz you were, you foot ended up slipping on the wet grass and spraining. “Ouch!” You exclaimed as the pain travelled up your spine.

“What happened?” Bucky asked worriedly as you moaned in pain and sat on the ground clutching your foot. “My ankle sprained!” You rubbed the area and tried to alleviated the pain.

“Oh my god, show me!” For the first time in his life, Bucky left the ball unattended and came running over to you. “Did you just sprain it while walking?” Bucky asked and you nodded.

“Yes, the grass is wet and I slipped.” Way to make a fool of yourself. Bucky chuckled and bent down with you, “You’re so clumsy, pumpkin.”

You both secretly smiled to yourselves at the nickname. Bucky couldn’t help but think how the name suited you and you thought how much Bucky cared about you.

“Goal!” You we’re both distracted by the chirping of the kids when they finally made their fourth goal and won the game. “We win!” They both jumped with happiness.

“Show me your ankle.” He placed his hands on your leg and started pulling out your shoes. You instantly pulled your foot back, “There’s no need for that Bucky. I’m fine.”

“No it’s not. You need to take care of yourself. Now stop complaining and let me see your ankle.” Bucky was adamant on checking if it was okay. “Bucky, I am the physio out of two of us.”

“Yes but currently you’re the one with a broken ankle. It could be an hairline fracture for all we know.” You gawked at Bucky for a whole minute before replying. “First, my ankle isn’t broken, it’s just sprained and second, it’s not a fracture! I just slipped and that’s all, now get up.”

You got up from the ground and dusted your backside and Bucky followed. But what you noticed was, that while you and Bucky were inspecting your leg, the kids’ eyes were glued completely elsewhere.

“Should we leave now? I don’t want us being late.” You weren’t sure how strict Becca was. The kids didn’t reply and just stared at Bucky as if he was their saviour.

“Oh about that,.. before we go home, there is a small thing we always do.” The three of them were suddenly giving you their puppy dog eyes and you didn’t know why. “Umm… we always eat ice cream.” Bucky continued.

“Bucky, I’m not sure Becca would allow that.” Now the reason behind their pleading eyes was clear. “Oh come on! It’s our little secret, no one’s gonna know.”

All three of them looked sad and you didn’t have it in yourself to deny them. “Okay fine. Let’s go have some ice cream from the ice cream truck.” All their faces instantly lit up like thousand volt bulbs.

Once you reached the truck, you ordered your favourite flavour and Marty ordered himself a chocolate ice cream while Maddy was still confused about what to get.

“Are you gonna have one?” You asked Bucky who was ordering for the others and not getting one for himself. “No. It doesn’t fit in my diet.” He waved his hand through the air.

“Oh come on! It’s our little secret, no one’s gonna know.” You winked him as you repeated his own dialogue. He sighed and thought for a moment before agreeing.

He ordered himself one butterscotch, and one strawberry flavoured cone for Maddy who finally seemed to settle on it.

“One question… umm, are you Bucky Barnes?” The vendor asked after an intense staring session with Bucky’s face. “I would be lying if I said no.” Bucky said while casually licking his ice cream.

“Oh my god! Can I please get a selfie? Please!” The man nearly begged and Bucky happily obliged. This was yet another proof of how different you and Bucky were.

Everywhere he went, people swarmed him like flies while no one bat an eyelid towards you. And it was only natural he would want someone as famous as him, not a commoner like you.

You set the thoughts aside for a moment when you noticed everyone giggling at you. “What?” You asked and Bucky replied, “There’s ice cream on your nose, come here.”

Bucky wiped the ice cream from the top of your nose, or so you thought. Because the next instant, all three of them stated laughing even more. “You people better stop lying, what is it?”

When they didn’t reply and instead just wheezed with laughter, you took out your mobile and checked yourself. And that’s when you realised that instead of wiping it off, Bucky had spread the ice cream even more.

If Bucky loved something more than you, it was annoying the shit out of you. He couldn’t stop laughing when he saw the way your face scrunched up in anger.

“Bucky!” You screamed when you finally wiped it off by yourself. “Hahaha… that was so mature of you.” You replied sarcastically and pouted at him.

“Aww.. don’t get angry at me.” He pulled you into a side hug and you breathed in his cologne. You weren’t really mad at him because by now you were used to his antiques.

“You are worse than the kids.” You quipped but made no efforts to push his arm away from your shoulder. “I know I know. And that’s why I have you. We balance off each other.”

His words were so true they struck a cord within you. You both were like the halves of a jigsaw puzzle which completed each other.

You shrugged off trying not to think too much into it. You knew how Bucky was, and you knew his pattern. He said things without meaning them and he didn’t realise the impact he had on people.

The moral of the story was simple, you couldn’t fall for Bucky Barnes, ever.

~~~

Bucky called out your name once,… twice,…. thrice,… but there was no reply. He had never before wished he had a smaller house, but today he did.

After dinner, you had disappeared somewhere and he was searching you for quite some time by now. But that was until he passed by his balcony.

He walked passed it at first thinking you wouldn’t be there, but through the corner of his eyes, he saw you sitting there. He quickly turned on his heels and peered outside.

You had dozed off while sitting on the sofa placed in his balcony. But you weren’t alone, Maddy was curled up in your arms and she too was sleeping peacefully.

The night breeze was gently kissing your sleeping forms and there was just something so soothing about the picture that Bucky couldn’t look away.

An indescribable feeling gripped his heart the more he stared at you. Since the moment you had entered his house, you didn’t stand out, instead you blended in as if it was your home itself.

At that moment, to Bucky, you didn’t feel like his friend, neither did you feel like his love. You were much much more to him.

You were his home.

He leaned against the door and stared at you two as he smiled to himself. He hadn’t ever thought he’d ever feel this kind of love, and yet here he was.

He looked at the calm night sky and secretly thanked the gods for bringing you to him. Now that he knew what loving you felt like, he never wanted to go back.

“I didn’t know my brother was such a creep.” Bucky nearly shrieked when Rebecca murmured in his ear. He was so lost in seeing you, he didn’t hear her approaching.

“You’re going to kill me one day Becs.” Bucky sighed exasperatedly. Becca giggled before continuing, “It is actually nice to see my brother in love for the first time. I’m so glad you found each other.”

Bucky inadvertently scoffed and bit his lip when he realised his mistake. “What?” Becca inquired at Bucky’s weird reaction. “Nothing.” Bucky just shook his head.

“That wasn’t nothing. Why did you scoff? I know you’re hiding something from us. I knew it from the moment I saw you. I have shared a womb with you Bucky, I know you better than anyone else.”

“Ewww gross.” Bucky scrunched his nose as if it stinked. Becca slapped him on his back playfully. “Stop beating around the bush. Tell me what is it?”

Bucky had a very special relationship with his sister. They always shared everything with each other right since they were kids. Bucky sometimes wondered who the elder sibling was, because becca always looked after him.

“Promise me you won’t get mad.” Bucky was chewing on his lower lip at an alarming rate. “I promise.” Becca took his hand in hers and held it tightly, encouraging him to speak further.

“We… umm, we are not dating. I lied to mom.” Bucky closed his eyes and let his words hang in the air. “You… you what?” He could hear the judgment in her voice.

“I’m sorry. I really wanted to come clean, but… it’s kind of too late now.” He hung his head low, unable to do anything else. “I cannot believe this! I cannot believe that the two of you have duped all of us!”

“NO!” Bucky screamed but stopped himself soon when he realised you and Maddy were still asleep. He once again kept his voice low, “She wasn’t in this, at all. I told her only two days back.”

“So you lied about her to us all this time and you didn’t even think of informing her? That’s a very shitty move James.” Becca folded her hands and huffed out a breath.

“I know okay! I know that I am a very bad man, but what else was I supposed to do? Where mom asked me I panicked and I said her name, and there’s no going back now. And don’t worry, I’m a month of so I’ll tell mom that we broke up.”

“Bucky…” when his sister called, his head was still hanging low. “Bucky look at me.” She held her face and made him look into her eyes. “If you keep on getting angry like this, no one will be able to help you.”

“I don’t want someone’s help! I’m beyond helping now… it’s just that my life has become such a mess I can’t control it anymore. The things I really want are…. just out of reach.” He looked at your dozing form with longing in his eyes.

“Are you really in love with her?” Becca asked following the path of his gaze. Bucky smiled fondly before answering, “I’m crazy in love with her.”

“Oh Bucky… does she know?” Becca sighed when Bucky shook his head. “I don’t know how she’ll react if I tell her.” Becca nodded solemnly.

“How long…” she kept the sentence incomplete. “I realised this today morning.” Becca’s eyes widened so much at Bucky’s reply, he feared they’d pop out. “Don’t look at me like that.”

“Are you kidding me?” She nearly screamed and Bucky shushed her. “They are asleep, don’t scream! I mean I know it sounds stupid, but I really really love her and I don’t know what to do.”

Becca bit her lip and looked at the ground thoughtfully for a minute. “Are you sure?” She asked hesitantly. “I’ve never been surer about anything in my life.”

His sister smiled and gently held Bucky’s face in her hands. “She’s great for you, and promise me you’ll be good for her too.” Bucky’s face lit up, “Of course, I’ll try my best. I promise.” Bucky answered. “I’ll help you then.” Came Becca’s reply.

~~~

You woke up with a sweet smile plastered on your face as you snuggled a little deeper into the soft bed. You had gotten a really deep, dreamless sleep and you were feeling very serene.

You didn’t first realise how you were in the bed when you had probably slept in the balcony while chatting with Maddy. But then it occurred to you that Bucky must’ve carried you.

The thought of Bucky made you smile. He wasn’t in the room and you knew he must’ve left for his work out. He never missed one and always started at five in the morning.

Lazily, you picked up your phone but your eyes widened when you noticed all the missed calls decorating your Lock Screen. Few were from the people you hadn’t even talked to in a really long time.

The name at the top was of your best friend, Darcy. The number, 27, was bolded besides her name indicating the times she had called.

You clicked her name and started the call. She picked up at the first ring itself. “I’m going to kill you! I’m going to murder you I swear to god! You’re a fucking LIAR and I love you!” She screamed from the other end and you groaned.

“Darcy, what the fuck happened? I just got up from my sleep and my phone has literally blown up. Is everything okay?” You slept with your phone on mute after Bucky had woken you up three days back.

“Nothing is okay. Did you even think of me? Did you even think of your best friend while you were dallying around with Bucky Barnes?” Darcy drawled out and your sleep haze was making it difficult for you to understand.

“Darcy, what are you talking about?” You rubbed your eyes and got up in your bed. “I know you and Bucky are dating! You couldn’t have at least given me a hint?” She sounded so disappointed while the sleep in your eyes was suddenly gone.

“Wait! What? How do you know? Oh my god Darcy, how do you know?” You screeched into your phone. “Everyone knows! Your face is plastered all over the news outlets and social media.”

“WHAT?!” You didn’t know how to react except yell in your phone. “The photos of you eating ice cream and playing with him have broken the internet. Please don’t tell me you had no idea about any of this.”

“Oh my god! OH MY GOD! NO No no no…. One day I wake up late and the whole world falls on my head. Oh god,…” you kept Darcy’s call on hold and quickly opened Google.

You didn’t even have to type Bucky’s name because it was trending. When you opened it, the top posts were all from celeb gossip sites. You hastily clicked on the first page and your phone nearly slipped due to the shock.

Because there you were, sitting on the field as Bucky gently held your leg, while he sat on his knees, with the title, Bucky Barnes finally on his knees.

[genshin-impact-fics]

Streamer!Genshin Meeting Character!(Y/n) for the First Time

Characters: Scaramouche, Childe, Albedo, Kaeya, Venti

Scaramouche:

His viewers were constantly requesting that he play this game that’s been out for a little while now that was called Genshin Impact. So he finally gave in to see what all the talk was about

Getting through the tutorial and the first part of the chapter felt so long; visually it was beautiful as the story was pretty decent so far.

It wasn’t until he got to Liyue in the archon quest that things seemed to pick up for him. The character who saved him from almost getting arrested kind of irked him; it reminded him of his one roommate who was a rich kid type.

It wasn’t till the release of the event Unreconciled Stars that once again many of his followers flooded his messages telling him he needed to play the event during his streams so they could see his reaction to meeting a new character.

Curiosity peaked after hearing a bit that the character would be an electro catalyst. Which he started to play it instead of holding off for a few days; honestly he really wasn’t expecting much

It was until he finally saw you appear; he was a bit surprised as you weren’t exactly how he pictured you yet you looked cute but in a cool way? A little more of the interaction he’s a little on the fence on how he feels about you but he was interested in where this event was going, there was something just a little bit… off

Progressing he was a little bit bummed since he thought there would have been a bit more interaction with you. That was until he was back in Mondstadt with Mona who was helping solve this mystery when pleasantly surprised that you’ve showed up. Until Mona seemed to have some sort of revelation that caused her to teleport them all out of there

Needless to say he wasn’t happy that he was taken away from seeing you. “Excuse me you bring me back,” was his initial reaction but continued to watch when it was more clear that you were there to kill him. You were that other harbinger; number six of the fatui harbingers and the moment you snapped at one of the agents, you had instantly become one of his absolute favorites.

Childe:

Though his viewers have been requesting to play the soon released game Genshin Impact he has actually been long awaiting for this game.

To celebrate the release it was going to be a long stream as he’s stocked up on water and energy drinks and snacks. He’s definitely planning to do a giveaway for his viewers (though he won’t bring it up until he finally unlocks the wishing feature)

He enjoyed the plot so far as the conflict with Dvalin has been resolved but now the ameno archon’s gnosis was stolen by some woman who appeared out of nowhere. Soon to learn about the fatui group and their eleven harbingers

Off to Liyue at long last! There’s been chatter of one character that shows up fairly early in the quest and he is very curious to encounter whoever this character was

He was finally at the part where Rex Lapis came crashing down from the sky dead and now was sneaking to get to the exit. Definitely took him a couple of times and in the process of it all he was certainly singing the whole “Don’t be suspicious, don’t be suspicious” song

Finally getting the cutscene where his character gets chased after unfortunately making sound. When things looked like it was going to turn into a fight he was surprised when hearing a new voice say “I got this one sweetie”. His mouth has dropped in pure awe of watching your character flip from above appearing out of thin air as you handled the Millelith with ease

Hearing you say follow me he had such a grin on his face; “Don’t gotta ask me twice I’ll follow you anywhere”. Of course his viewers in chat were raving and just spamming the laughing emote as the cutscene continued in a safe place

Looking at your character model admiring you as the reveal that you were a part of the harbingers but seemed to be rather friendly. “You guys I’m in love. (Y/n) better be a playable character at some point… I’ll be sad if I don’t get to travel the world with them” he says as when he finds out you're rich his initial thought was “So are they going to spoil me or do I get to spoil them? Cuz I really want it to be the second one” He hadn’t known you for long but he already wants to give you the world

Venti:

He was mainly known for his streams where he’ll sing or perform some of the instruments he enjoys and many of the games he’d play were a lot of rhythm games or one of the hilarious simulator games; so for him to pick up Genshin Impact it’s a little outside of the typical games he’ll usually play

He really loves the music so far, if the music wasn’t to his liking he’d probably drop it. Will probably take a moment to just listen to it and talk about what possible instruments used to compose it

After running around the world and looking for chests and whatever materials he saw along the way. He suddenly saw the big dragon fly over head and now making his way to the whispering woods to look for the feathered looking dragon

The cut scene started and there was the dragon on a rock but then he saw you; he doesn’t know anything about you but having seen you in some of the images that the company released he’s been interested in your character!

During your moment with your old friend had was making this face 🥺 but then that was when the snapping sound echoed causing the dragon to freak out and leave in a gust of wind. “Noooo I’m so sorry” he’s shouting at the screen when he watched the expression on your face turn sad before you seemed to just vanish

Has been bummed out since he hadn’t seen your character in a while until he saw you running with a lyre in your hand, he only fell in more love with you as he was running around with you trying to get the holy lyre from the church

Albedo:

It had been a while since more of the story was out but of course he’d play to do his commissions and gather materials he needed, but when his viewers showed him the announcement of the newest section of the map will be released; oh there was a new temperature mechanic that if it was too cold that his characters could freeze to death

Generally that would be fine… but he enjoys stopping and admiring the scenery which he easily gets distracted so he’s probably going to keep forgetting to stand by fire a lot

But the best part of all: they were introducing you, the chief alchemist of the Knights of Favonius. The one that was talked about by so many characters in their voice lines he finally was going to get a face to the name

He was already not liking that the so called ‘nun’ was insinuating that you weren’t trustworthy; the AUDACITY! Sure he hadn’t known your character long but he will defend you wholeheartedly, you have this charismatic to you that he’s just smitten

“If one day, I lose control… Destroy Mondstadt… Destroy everything… Can I rely on you to stop me?” After hearing that last line he needs a minute to take a double take to make sure he heard that correctly. “I swear if this is some sort of indication of something bad happening and I have to fight (y/n) I will not be happy,” he’s saying of course looking to his camera

Kaeya:

So many of his viewers were requesting that he play Genshin Impact as of course it would be a little different from the games he’s played in the past (Ya can’t tell me he wouldn’t have played Huniepop and doki doki literature club), but the idea of attractive characters in the game? He’s sold as the few characters he saw pictures of it seemed promising.

So he starts streaming it and all is going smoothly so far… Until it was time to learn about gliding right before Stormterror attacks and the mini flying fight happened

Once the cutscene starts he’s watching leaning back in his chair a bit until a clapping sound starts and that’s when everyone in chat was losing it and spamming the heart eyes emotes. Seeing you come into the shot he’s got a small little smirk; you were hot. He only seemed to love your character even more after hearing that you were the cavalry captain

When it came time to do your trail quest (which of course was the first one he went to do) he’s very much looking at your design and admiring your charming features. He asks his viewers if he leaves the domain if he gets to keep you or if you were one of the five stars that he’d have to wish for, spoilers don’t really bother him if he really wants to know what happens.

Seeing your summon art once he left he’s ecstatic that you will be forever in his team and once he’s able to he’s going farming so he can build you up

[antiloreolympus]

11 Anti LO Asks

1. I'm all for people wanting to embrace Greek culture, but there's something so off about Rachel posting about her drinking Greek wine and (claiming) she's learning the language when LO is nothing like Greece, its culture, and she refuses to listen to actual Greeks who want to help her salvage it to something a little accurate. Even her main "sources" are Romans and British people over the actual Greeks. No amount of eating their food makes her an expert, but it seems she thinks that's good enough

2. Hera, Hestia, and Demeter look more similar to each other with a "creator" who also shares a stark similar look to them yet aren't sisters, meanwhile we're supposed to buy a black and white and dark mageneta couple created brothers who are purple, green, and blue? like seriously? i get not every family member will end up the same color and all, but shouldn't there be some similarities? like even hephaestus has the same color at metis, yet hera isnt her daughter?? cmon.

3. I would have killed for LO to have actually been the romcom it was set out to be but also Hades was a single dad to Makaria (who seems to be his only actual myth canon kid) and he has to go parent with idk Leuce and her girlfriend Minthe but NOOOO that would just be too good of an idea.

4. I don't even get why the "modern" aspect of LO is just them being business owners, and not even specific ones? Like what goods do they sell? What services? Because i've seen other modern retelling where Hades is a funeral director, Hera is a marriage counselor, Demeter runs a farm, etc etc, so why isn't the modern aspect that? Because as it stands right now the world makes no sense and Hades run what, an dead version of Amazon with actual slave labor?

5. LMAO Hades in myth is more of a fertility goddess by LO's logic than Persephone is. According to Hesiod and Plato Hades "releasing" Persephone back to the land of the living and Demeter is what causes spring to happen and for plants to come alive again, not actually Persephone. IDK why Rachel had to gender something as universal as fertility (which she can't even pin down what that means in LO) but Hades and other gods like Zeus and Hermes are more fertility based than even most goddesses.

6. Technically having Persephone connected to Elysium isn't wrong, but this cultural worship was via ... Demeter, and a ton of other deities. It was Demeter's cult in Eleusis (Eleusinian Mysteries) that gave it's cult members access to it, though later poets made it more accessible to other great souls. Regardless, it was always seen as an ancient place, long before even Hades began ruling the Underworld. The fact LO is claiming it's actually Persephone's recent invention is wrong on many levels.

7. LO isn't the only one who does this but it does it most prominently in framing the Olympians as overrated, weak, fickle beings while the Underworld is ~cool~ and has the REAL power in it and HxP are actually are the real powerful ones and the Underworld is so much better. It's a "Not like the Other Girls" take but it's comparing the Underworld/HxP  to Olympus/Olympians. It's a super immature & juvenile look at mythology and I'm shocked RS being someone in her mid/late 30s buys right into it.

8. What I find so frustrating is with RS herself whining on Twitter about how she wishes she could write LO with "less drama and more simple" like?? Then do that?? No one forced her to overcomplicate the comic, that was entirely herself and it's now biting her back because she didn't plan ahead and the task is too daunting for her to handle. She acts as if she's being forced to do it when we know that's not the case. Seriously, RS, take some responsibility for yourself and stop blaming others.

9. LO Persephone can never be yass-ified bc that would require her to actually look somewhat like an adult and Rachel would never allow that.

10. i still do NOT get why the heads in LO have just massive chins jutting out while the backs of their heads are so small? even accounting for their necks the skull still juts out a lot from where the neck meets and its just?? not in the LO designs at all?? like do they not have brains? which actually now that i say that that explains why they all act so stupid 🤔

11. How can LO be feminist when it makes so much big deal of fertility than actual Greek myths do? What's up with RS with fertility mindset? Why does she make so much big deal about Hades can't making babies? Why does RS keep saying adoption is not family? Hera, Hestia, Demeter are "friends" despite raised together by same mother. The fact that RS changed sisters to friends is so insulting. What exactly is Thanatos to Hades even though Hades "took care" of him since he was young? Longtime Employee?

[echoghost1]

Fic-mas Day 01: Wish List

Title: Make A Wish

Summary: Sometimes getting in touch with a celebrity was part of her job. This was going to be the strangest one yet.

Word Count: 576

Characters: Danny Phantom, Original Characters

Warnings: it's a bit of light angst. vague mentions of death (because it's outsider POV talking to a ghost) and also mentions of childhood illness (implied terminal)

You can read below or on A03!

Am I almost late posting for the event I came up with and am running? noooo... shh it's fine

Phantom capped his ghost-catching thermos and took a breath.

This was her chance. It was now or never.

She ran out from her hiding spot and into the street.

He clipped the thermos to his belt and crouched as he prepared himself to fly away. Which was a bit odd because he was already four feet in the air.

"Phantom, wait!" She called out desperate to catch him before he was too high up to call.

He immediately turned to face her but did so by turning his entire body while also still being bunched up. The sudden movement caused his limbs to unbunched but it was so precarious it was kind of like tripping or the physical embodiment of 52 pick-up.

She did her best not to laugh.

He recovered as best as any awkward teenager would. "Yes. Hi, hello."

"Do you have a minute?" She asked.

"Oh sure," he said as he floated closer to the ground so they were eye level. "What's up?"

"Have you heard of the Make a Wish foundation?"

"Yeah, that's the thing that takes sick kids to Disney World, right?"

She smiled, "Essentially yes. Although it isn't always a trip to Disney that is wanted."

"Oh?" He tilted his head to the side with curiosity and his legs merged together into a tail that flickered side to side.

She did her best not to focus on that and continued the conversation.

"Sometimes a child wants to meet someone famous and spend the day with them."

"That's cool and all,” he hesitated before bluntly saying, “but why are you telling me?"

"Phantom, there's a boy at Amity General who wants to meet you."

"I'm famous?"

Did he really not know that? "Yes?"

"Well when you say it like that," he muttered to himself as he rubbed the back of his neck.

"Why don't you think you're famous?"

"I guess I thought I was more on the infamous side of things. What with all the shooting and yelling at me all the time."

He was clearly trying to downplay it but she'd worked with kids long enough to see right through it.

This kid needed some positive reinforcement.

"Well I think you're doing a great job, and so does Max."

Phantom's cheeks suddenly turned bright green as he looked away with a nervous smile.

It took her a second to realize that meant he was blushing.

"So Max is the one who wants to meet me?"

"Yeah, actually hold on," she reached into her pocket and pulled out an envelope, and held it out to the ghost boy. "This is for you."

He took the offered envelope and quietly opened it.

She could still feel the lingering chill on her fingertips even though they had only briefly touched.

He smiled as soon as he started reading the note, “Mr. Phantom? That’s a new one. I like it.” he shook his head slightly then went back to reading.

By the time he finished the note, his expression had shifted ever so slightly. He was still smiling, but it had more of a melancholic tone. A subtle sadness and a hint of understanding.

It took her by surprise at first, but then she remembered Phantom was a ghost. That he was young.

Maybe he had a wish once.

Maybe he went to Disney World.

It only took a simple question to break her out of her musings.

“So when can I meet him?”

[hopefullystillatheatrestudent]

this might be a weird thought but the way jensen performs masculinity (and i KNOW it’s a performance cause like, have you SEEN the mockumentary?) is just.... so inherently queer to me lmao

ok. okokokokokok. you asked for this. i have a LOT of thoughts on this. it’s gonna be under a cut because i’m gonna be annoying and psychoanalyse a celebrity i’ve never met(and hope i never do) but trust and believe when i tell you i know what i’m talking about so

you want my opinion? here goes. there is absolutely no way jensen ackles is straight. i hear you, ‘how do you know that he’s bi? that’s invasive and creepy’ but may i counter that point by saying how do you know he’s straight???? why is the default for everyone heterosexual? that’s a toxic mentality to have; ‘oh you don’t know for sure so just treat him like he’s 100% straight just in case’ like....what? heteronormativity drives me wild i’m sorry

and also, um, just to, um, prove my point that this man is decidedly not straight™(i really don’t want to do this but like it has to be said) we KNOW he’s not straight because his d*ck has spoken for itself around misha, like, four times. I HATE SAYING IT!!!!!!! but, um, straight men don’t get aroused by men. ...do i really need to explain myself further???? that’s what i thought(and don’t give me the ‘it could have been for unrelated reasons’ or ‘that wasn’t a boner!’ crap because um good lord yes it was and misha caused every single one so no it wasn’t a coincidence i’m gonna move on before i collapse into myself like a dying star)

anyway, on to the topic at hand which is jensen and his performative masculinity. and it’s a juicy one.

after the unconscious amount of hours i’ve put into watching and subconsciously judging jackles, i have come to the conclusion that like, 90% of how he presents himself and talks and even moves is an act. it’s a facade. it’s a shield. he is not that person. it actually seems exhausting, because he tries to compose himself in this macho, manly, confident and effortlessly cool way, but he’s not that person he desperately wishes he was and wants to be perceived as. he’s on guard every second, even the slightest tilt of his head is like, pre-meditated in some way? if i’m going FULL body language analyst mode, i’ve noticed he has a certain posture he always shifts himself into, and it’s very ‘pursed lips, stoic faced, gruff voiced, square-shoulder, broad and manly’ but, not to be rude jensen, it kind of reads as a little kid imitating the adults he thinks are cool? oof i am going IN huh(it’s out of love though i promise)

he is trying to be this person at every second:

because that’s who he wishes he was, because that’s how he gets validation from the people around him that he looks up to; straight white guys. but to me, who he presents himself to be at conventions is just as much of a performance as this whole eye of the tiger bit is.

oh i should mention i know his body language isn’t naturally like that because how he naturally carries himself is actually pretty flamboyant? like he seriously must be toning himself down HARD

examples:

there’s no tension in his body here as opposed to the eye of the tiger gif. i’d describe it as...generally loose and free? he’s at ease when he moves like that and you can see it.

oh and dude!!! DUDE!!!! how could i not mention the fucking SPECTACLE that is his voice??? jensen. i watched season one. i know where your voice naturally sits. THAT IS NOT WHAT YOU SOUND LIKE. and there have been so many accounts of fans visiting jensen in his trailer and being surprised that his real voice is two octaves higher. again, his performance of masculinity is all encompassing. he can’t even talk normally because, in his mind, that’s a chink in his armour.

and, like you said, anon, this whole smokes-and-mirrors gong show of ‘i am the cool texan man’ is inherently queer. who are you trying to impress??? guys??? that’s pretty gay dude.(btw: gay[honorary])

i feel like i’ve already read this man for filth but i have to keep going bc i have so much to say

ok next thing i’m gonna talk about is how jensen says one thing but everything else about him tells us the exact opposite. another HUGE element of performative masculinity, ONE THAT DEAN WINCHESTER IS A MASTER OF. have i mentioned how dean and jensen are like mirrors of each other when it comes to their sexuality and queer identity??? because it is fascinating how everything i say about jensen also directly applies to dean.

allow me to introduce the grumpy face™. as in, the face he glues on when he’s enjoying doing something but doesn’t want to let anyone know it. and it’s ALWAYS when he’s doing something that could be seen as unmanly in any way. (and when i say manly i mean the ‘ideal’ version of manhood that doesn’t really exist but that jensen seems to be striving for[and dean too])

prime example is this video he did with daneel. the grumpy face™ doesn’t budge the whole time as he’s like,,,,playing an instrument and acting like he doesn’t want to bc i guess that’s too girly??? but i also find this video fascinating because the joke IN it is kind of that they’re both poking fun at him for being so insecure about playing a freaking flute. because, i mean, he gets into it, but he wants you to think he is not.

also this picture.

what is this. i hate them. jensen is smushing himself into misha’s forehead but noooo his face is telling us ‘i hate this’ because CLEARLY he does. also misha’s so happy ew gross

he does that face in photo ops with misha ALL THE TIME but how many times has he also literally asked the con goers if he can also have those photos on his phone too? because of course he actually loves touching misha and is actually a sentimental fool but he tries so hard to hide it and fails so spectacularly.

oh and this. and of COURSE this. actually let’s talk about the hitch kiss for a hot minute because it’s a perfect example of exactly what i’m talking about

(he is so transparent guys. he tries so hard but he’s so obvious.)

1. misha was never supposed to be onstage with him. so it’s a boldface LIE and OBVIOUS PLOY TO GET MISHA TO KISS HIM when he says ‘they’d like us to make out now’. but of course the way he says it is ‘oh my god can you believe what these crazy panel people are making us do haha but i mean what they say goes amirite’. same energy as ‘oh my god did you just dare us to kiss rn???’ ‘....no i didn’t’ ‘oh my god i can’t believe you’d ask that haha but i can’t say no to a dare lol’ it’s the SAME THING

2. the fact that he was in the worst mood before misha came onstage and FAKE KISSING HIM made him feel...SO?? much better? like not just a little better a lot better like, again, that says a lot, because if they weren’t dating he would not be in a better mood if misha kissed his cheek unprompted. bc that cheek kiss wasn’t a joke it was a genuine sign of affection and AHHHH

3. after the kiss happens. you know, the one that jensen actively leans into and is smiling like an idiot the whole time through and is quite clearly having the time of his life during....he says ‘well, that was uncomfortable’. .......my guy. um. i don’t know how to tell you that i do in fact have eyes and you are NOT pulling the fast one you think you are

like i’m so sorry jensen but i have you pegged. it’s literally no use.

god there’s so many instances of him doing this with misha specifically. the whole ‘ew gross lol’ but then everything about him tells us the exact opposite. like this(i hate this. how dare he say ‘he has though, hasn’t he?’ LIKE THAT?????)

so yeah my point with that is he really wants us to think he is one thing when he is the antithesis of what he’s trying to be. he really likes those things that he talks down about, and everything he’s loudly projecting is all to hide how he really feels. he went to a gay bar with daneel, for crying out loud. he wants to play a role in drag. he’s queer and he likes it. pov: you’re jensen ackles train of thought: ‘ok so i really like this thing that people might make fun of me for or call me gay for liking so if i just say ‘lol as if’ and make a grossed-out face they will be FOOLED. i am a genius. hey misha wanna blow on my ear lol i meAN GROSS EW’

i have two more things i want to talk about when it comes to this topic so PLEASE bear with me anon this is why you took so long to answer clearly lmao

ok so we’re now going to go over my favorite hot take of all time. which is ‘how do we know dean’s performing masculinity? because sam isn’t.’ only replace dean with jensen and sam with jared and oh my god do we ever have a case

jared is as STRAIGHT as they come. he is secure in that knowledge. and that’s why he is perfectly comfortable treating misha like this:

and not try to scream ‘i am not enjoying doing this!!!!!!’ at us. because he doesn’t care what we think of his sexuality like jensen does(because he has nothing to hide whereas jensen DOES)

something i found the other day that no one has brought up but i SCREAMED upon finding it is this one clip THAT I CAN’T FIND OH GOD but i promise i’m not making it up. i can’t believe i can’t find it guys it is gold. i need need NEED to talk about it. and if anyone knows what i’m referencing and can apply links in any way i will love you forever but here’s what happens off the top of my head:

ok so i’m a bit too braindead to explain it perfectly but um basically it’s a j2 panel and someone brings up magic mike and i think jared says ‘yeah i didn’t watch it’ and then jensen says ‘all the way through’. stupid joke. whatever. the joke is that jared is gay for watching magic mike.

and then i literally kid you not. jared gets this like ‘jesus christ ok dude? lol’ look on his face and then goes ‘projecting much, mr. ackles?’ and jensen gets a guilty look on his face and walks away. and jared did not say it as a joke. he was being dead pan and earnest. and jensen knew it too, he knew he was projecting. i wish i could show you guys the clip i promise if i ever find it i’ll link it but IS THAT NOT SO DAMNING FOR JENSEN????? like come ON. also proves my point that when you compare how they feel about watching magic mike. jared doesn’t care bc watching it just doesn’t interest him, but he also thinks that just watching it in itself doesn’t make you gay. jensen however.......has a different mindset, clearly.

‘projecting much, mr. ackles?’ is actually a great title for my next and FINAL section(we’re almost there folks) which is how jensen projects his insecurites about his own sexuality and relationship with misha onto misha.

i hope by now we’ve all seen this video of jensen impersonating cas. it is a blatant microaggression on his part. and like obviously homophobic. it’s like in his mind if he makes fun of them for being gay it makes them both less gay somehow??? it’s self-deprecation in a way??? let’s just tell it like it is: that impression was just jensen’s overt internalized homophobia rearing it’s ugly head. he does it a LOT too when it comes to misha.

i mean:

and that whole mess where he’s making fun of misha for being a bottom in their panel in 2016? ‘so you’re saying, like with football terms, there’s a handler and there’s a receiver heheheehe’ jensen you’re not exempt from being gay just because you know football terms lmao

oh and his OTHER impression of misha where he mocks him for...bicycling...because it’s not a manly enough sport??? jensen NO ONE else has ever thought this hard in their lives about what constitutes as masculine enough to be a sport before. that’s all you bud. we don’t find those jokes nearly as funny as you do. you are reaching, sir

the good news is that misha thinks it’s hilarious and knows it’s projecting on jensen’s part and will tease him endlessly for it. many stories come to mind, like that one photo op story where they’re literally dressed in rainbow banners and pride stickers but when misha goes to hold his hand jensen said something like ‘no way’ and then misha stepped back, put his hands on his hips and went ‘that’s the part that’s too gay for you???’ and jensen LOST it

or when that whole underwear thing happened(messy messY MESSY BTW) and then a fan asked a question about what dean and cas would do in rome and misha just said ‘when in rome’ and jensen makes a face like ‘are you serious’ and then misha says ‘you can’t look at me like that anymore, because of what you did!!!!!!’

OH and that whole story about when misha suggested they put jensen in the closet for that cat video....yeah um

and then when jensen was asked to do bisexual finger guns for a photo op and the con goer said ‘he looks bisexual here’ and misha literally said ‘oh he definitely looks bisexual here. i would say he’s actually closer to the gay side of the spectrum’ so..um...make with that as you will

OH MY GOD i’m finally done. wow. WOW. that was a lot. i hope i’ve blown your minds. ty anon i really wanted to talk about this and i hope you’re happy with the outcome!!!!!!

[tinyjeanmarco]

Your display name literally defines my week mood, Porco is the best boy🥺 i was wondering if you could write some hc about him?? I didn’t have any specific in mind, maybe something cute but ofc it’s up to you and you can even not write anything, that’s alright too!! Im just happy seeing more people warming up to him☺️ i hope you have a great February and that you stay safe and happy💖

eee! porco really is best boy, i love him to pieces. and of course i’ll write some hc’s about him (*°ヮ° *) these will be super soft, i promise. and thank you! my february has been going well so far, so i wish the same upon you! this is also my first request i’m doing, so i’m really excited. i hope you enjoy!  ♡

summary: some hc’s about domestic life with porco. canon divergence because in this he’s not a warrior, that way reader doesn’t have to worry about having a time limit w/ him or worry about anything happening to him (∩_∩). (i think this ended up like some sort of canon-ish au with some modern setting mixed in, whoops!)

porco x gn!reader

warnings: none

you’ve known porco since you two were kids. you essentially grew up together and you had always had a tiny crush on him growing up.

it wasn’t until you guys were teens that he confessed to liking you as well. this totally took you by surprise, but in a good way!

a few days after he confessed to you, he told you that he did so because he knew reiner also liked you, and he was afraid that reiner would admit his feelings for you and that you’d date him instead.

he didn’t want to become the pathetic childhood friend who was too afraid to say something and then be doomed to watch you be in love with someone else for the rest of his life.

when he told you this, you found it quite funny (and also felt bad for reiner since porco just outted him and now he would never get a chance cuz you’re dating porco), since you had always liked porco, not reiner, so he wouldn’t have had to worry, anyways.

you two had been together for years, not really having many issues. that isn’t to say you would never fight or disagree, but you two always made an effort to resolve any tensions that arose.

porco seems to me the type who holds grudges and doesn’t really care to talk things out, but he knows that if he does that with you, he will most likely end up losing you.

whenever you get into a disagreement/fight with him, he needs space and time alone before he can come back and confront the situation. if you try to make him talk right away, he will lose his cool and say something he doesn’t mean.

you sort of learned this the hard way with him when you started dating. he’s long since made up for those times, but in the back of his head, he still feels bad about them (although he would never tell you this).

after dating for like six years, porco finally decided to wife you up and make you his officially.

he would definitely want it to be really special for you because he absolutely adores you and wants to make it something that you’ll remember forever.

he would have a whole plan put together. he has the ring, he just needs to take you out, have a nice night, eating really well, and then as you two gaze up at the stars on the roof of the building you live in, he would whip out the ring and propose. bam! foolproof.

probably not as foolproof as he hoped because he actually ended up accidentally proposing to you while you guys were just cuddling one night.

you would be all cuddled up to him, both of you almost asleep, and he mumbles out, not thinking, “marry me.”

and you’re instantly awake at that, turning your head to glance at him, and just say yes.

boy do his eyes shoot wide open. he’s stumbling over words, trying to correct himself before you just kiss him to get him to shut the hell up.

he tells you that he had a whole plan to make it special for you and spend the whole day together before popping the question.

you respond, saying that he can still do that, you’ll just pretend you never heard anything, but any way that it happened was special enough to you because you love him with your whole heart and you just want to be with him.

he bonks you on your nose and just calls you cheesy, but his heart is beating fast with the pure love he holds for you.

you both end up going through with his plans and having a wonderful day, him proposing again at the end of it all.

okay, so, porco loves kissing you. his favorite activity. you want a smooch? you don’t even have to ask, he’s one step ahead of you.

he is a clingy baby that wants to always have you near him. he will constantly have his hand on you, whether it’s in your hand, on your thigh, around your waist.

he loves kissing the top of your head. if you are shorter than him, it’s a win and easy peasy. if you’re taller than him, he will make you bend down so he can still kiss the top of your head.

he also will love kisses on the top of his head if you’re taller than him, or if you two are cuddling and he has his head laid on your chest.

he also loves it when he’s just showered, and his hair isn’t slicked back, if you play with his hair, running your fingers through the soft blond locks. it really relaxes him and helps him fall asleep.

this clingy boy also loves to cuddle with you.

he will look for any opportunity to wiggle into your arms and tangle his limbs in yours.

he loves to be both the big spoon and little spoon, all depending on his mood. sometimes he just enjoys the comfort of being held close to you, and other times he wants to hold you in his arms to remind him that you’re really there with him.

he will have an iron grip on you, refusing to let you go ever.

“porco, please, i have to pee.”

“noooo. stay here, pee later.”

“porco, i will pee on you.”

i also totally hc porco to love cooking or baking. he definitely loves to eat and it’s more fun when he gets to eat it with you. better yet, cooking with you.

when you’re making cookies or something, you’ll have to yell at him to stop eating the raw batter. it’s not good for you. (if you’re vegan, you wont really have that exact issue, but him still eating it means there will be less output, so stop eating it, porco!)

he first started cooking when you guys moved in together which means he was pretty bad at it. you kind of had to help him and were brutally honest if he burnt something or did something wrong.

i don’t think he would really be a disaster in the kitchen because he would always follow the recipes down to a T.

i mentioned above you two moving in together. let me tell you, that was one chaotic day. so many boxes, so few hands. you legit spent all day moving things in.

porco would constantly be like “ow, ow, babe, i hurt myself!” to make you fret over him and then when you ask him what’s wrong he’ll say something along the lines of “i hurt my hand carrying this box. can you kiss it better?” or he would straight up be like “my heart hurts because you’re not kissing me right now.”

cue rolling your eyes and giving this dumb baby a kiss nearly every fifteen minutes.

you end move in day with all the boxes piled up around your apartment, and you two fall asleep on just a plain mattress with a few pillows, too tired to unpack anything else. maybe a blanket too so that way you guys don’t get too cold.

i’m hopping around a lot for these hc’s, but the wedding you two have is a nice small one with just your closest friends and family.

he doesn’t even care (that much) when you invite reiner, he’s just excited to marry you and be yours.

seeing you all dressed up for the wedding makes his heart leap into his throat, and he just starts crying. he never thought this day would come and that he would be lucky enough to spend his forever with you.

after you two say your vows and the officiator says you may kiss, he leaps to you and gives you the slowest, most gentle kiss ever. he pours his soul out into the kiss, making sure you know this is the happiest day of his life.

the whole part at the after party where you feed each other cake? he’s the one to smash it all over your face. yep. he’s that kind of husband.

calling him your husband is also your new favorite thing. it just makes it feel so real.  

“hey, can you get me a glass of water, husband?” and he melts because he loves hearing that come out of your mouth. it reminds him that you actually married him. (he still can’t believe that.)

porco will try his hardest to be the best husband ever and always make you happy. he just loves you to the moon and back and is never afraid to show it.