#wish 3. hmmm.... honestly a lot of my stuff is less stuff id wish for automatically just. stuff i dont have the time to earn on my own

[nihiltism]

ok Actually important question for u all. you are given three wishes. what do you do with them. you can't ask for more wishes and please assume the free wish ticket was found among a pile of riches because a million bucks is a boring answer

[vallikesgivinghugs]

Ooh sounds fun let's do it!

Under read more because y'know don't want people to have to scroll through all of that if they don't care.

1. IbisPaintX, honestly it was my first art program I ever actually used but now I'm FireAlpaca's bitch.

2.Oooh I personally really enjoy/have an easier time drawing front facing characters, profiles are so darn difficult.

3. Big bright and noticeable eyeshines i guess! Always been a thing for me, so my characters always have extra bright eyes. Or i guess eyes in general are a thing I kept from my kiddie days.

4. Crystaline stuff and MAGIC. I love them both so much but god can I not draw them for the life of me. And hair! But hair i'm starting to figure out!

5. Now that I think about it's pretty darn close id I do say so myself! Like 40 to 45% i post online (mostly on discord) and then 55 to 60% i keep to myself!

6. When I draw cats it's a lot of inspo from different warrior cats fandom big names but in general anime is my big inspo!

7.Traditional painting! I tried painting and it's just not for me but I love the way it looks and how many thing people can do with it!

8. God the amount of stories and characters that I've just left as wips in immense. I have adhd, can't finish stuff for shit.

9. Usually if it's one character it's 'character name' and then you add a number or a descriptor (aka smile or smth). Otherwise it's just like 2 or 3 words of what the drawing is. And then I group those in like 'finished art' 'wips' etc!

10.Ooh tough one. I do enjoy drawing poofy sleeved shirts or like long flowy dresses/skirts.

11.Ranges from romance music playlists to true crime and everything in between! I just need a background noise honestly. Doesn't really matter what the noise is.

12. Face. I draw floating heads on the regular.

13. Junji Ito. His style is just so freakin' interesting and his grasp on anatomy is just amazing! But, personally I'm not the biggest horror/gore fan so I don't actually read his stuff. I just find his art nifty when I see it.

14.Polkadots or stripes. Love that stuff.

15.In my room personally but I used to go out to parks and draw there when I was younger.

16.Lineart. everyone is always sayin' stuff like 'Wow your lines are so nice and clean' and while I do agree that it's one of my strengths personally my lineart always looks rigid and wrong to me. I tend to prefer my sketches and nowadays I usally clean those up and use 'em as the lineart.

17.Nope. i completely forget that my body has bodily functions when i draw. I get invested X3

18.Not many! Honestly it's less that I break them on purpose and more that I'm clumsy and drop stuff all the time but on the regular I try my best not to break stuff.

19.Flowers and bushes!

20. Armor of any kind, love me some shiny metals and belts and buckles.

21. I really like the disney style (both 2d and 3d) and I'm really a big fan of 3d animation in anime (studio orange with Trigun Stampede and Land of the Lustrous have my heart)

22.none I live on the edge. (Don't do this, please stretch your hands I'm just a dumbass)

23.I use so many layers and so many of them are multiply and add it's not even funny.

24.Yes. stock images are really good for poses and stuff. I often makes collages of multiple of them to get what I want exactly.

25. Hmmm, i dunno if that's happened to me actually.

26.Nothing comes to mind but i'm sure it's happened!

27.I draw a bunch of circles. And sometimes doodle like different body parts or sonas of mine loosely.

28.I participated in the artfight of 2023! It was a good time.

29.live action tv shows and just non-animated movies/stuff in general! I can write fanfic wips for days but drawing them? Nah.

30.hmmm can't think of any? I probably have one or two that I wish got more attention but usually the attention my art gets is pretty on par with what I' expecting!

Weirdly Specific Artist Ask Game

Didn't see a lot of artist ask games, wanted to make a silly one.

(I wrote this while sick out of my mind last year and it's been collecting dust in my drafts, I might as well let it run free) 1. Art programs you have but don't use

2. Is it easier to draw someone facing left or right (or forward even)

3. What ideas come from when you were little

4. Fav character/subject that's a bitch to draw

5. Estimate of how much of your art you post online vs. the art you keep for yourself

6. Anything that might inspire you subconsciously (i.e. this horse wasn't supposed to look like the Last Unicorn but I see it)

7. A medium of art you don't work in but appreciate

8. What's an old project idea that you've lost interest in

9. What are your file name conventions

10. Favorite piece of clothing to draw

11. Do you listen to anything while drawing? If so, what

12. Easiest part of body to draw

13. A creator who you admire but whose work isn't your thing

14. Any favorite motifs

15. *Where* do you draw (don't drop your ip address this just means do you doodle at a park or smth)

16. Something you are good at but don't really have fun doing

17. Do you eat/drink when drawing? if so, what

18. An estimate of how much art supplies you've broken

19. Favorite inanimate objects to draw (food, nature, etc.)

20. Something everyone else finds hard to draw but you enjoy

21. Art styles nothing like your own but you like anyways

22. What physical exercises do you do before drawing, if any

23. Do you use different layer modes

24. Do your references include stock images

25. Something your art has been compared to that you were NOT inspired by

26. What's a piece that got a wildly different interpretation from what you intended

27. Do you warm up before getting to the good stuff? If so, what is it you draw to warm up with

28. Any art events you have participated in the past (like zines)

29. Media you love, but doesn't inspire you artistically

30. What piece of yours do you think is underrated

[lovemesomesurveys]

What was on your mind mostly today? So far I’ve just been thinking about how I don’t feel well and stuff pertaining to survey questions.

If someone looked on your bed, what would they find? Blankets, pillows, a medium sized giraffe stuffed animal, a small Chewbacca, and a small giraffe stuffed animal that came with a little blanket that wraps around him. It’s super cute.

What’s on your schedule for tomorrow? Nothing.

Are you nice to everyone? Yes, I believe so.

Is it possible to be single and happy? Yeah.

Is it easy for people to make you cry? Sometimes it doesn’t take much at all.

Did you sleep alone last night? Yes.

Do you play with dead bugs? UH EWWWWWW NO WTF.

Honestly, are you dating two people? No... I’m not even dating one person.

Do you think things will change in the next 3 months? I would hope so.... I could really use some positive changes.

Have you ever slept in the same bed with someone other than family?  Yeah.

Do you want to see somebody right now? No.

What if you had a baby with the person you like? --

Are you happy? No.

Have you ever tripped in public? I’ve fallen in public on more than one occasion. :/

Is there anyone who doesn’t like you? I don’t know?

Have you ever sat in the back of a police car? Nope.

Are you stubborn? Yes. I can be very stubborn.

Do you tend to hold a grudge? No. I mean, I won’t forget, but I do forgive.

What’s a fact about the last person that texted you?  She’s my mom and she loves to watch the ID channel.

Has anyone called you perfect before? Hahah nooo.

Where is the biggest scar on your body? Down my back.

Have you ever been told you were amazing? Something like that. haaaa.

Would you date someone who was addicted to drugs? If I knew that beforehand, then no. If they were addicted to drugs while we were together I’d want to try and help them.

Are you trying to avoid liking somebody at the moment? No.

Do you trust all your friends? Sigh.

If you could go back and change something in the past 5 months, would you? Yes.

What pissed you off today? Nothing so far.

What was the last thing you cried about? Frustrations and I wasn’t feeling well. That can intensify things.

Who was the last girl you talked to? My mom.

Do you know anyone who drinks a lot? No.

Who sits next to you in English? I’m no longer in school.

Ever talked to someone who was drunk? Yeah.

Have you heard a song that reminds you of someone today? I haven’t listened to any music so far today.

How late did you stay up last night and why? Until around 230 or so. I’m always up late.

Do you know how to properly use grammar in a sentence?  Yes.

Are your parents very protective of you? I mean, they’re both protective because they care and want the best for me, but my dad can be a little over protective at times.

Will you be in a relationship in the next couple months? I don’t see that happening at all.

How many drugs are in your system?  None.

The person who hurt you the most calls and needs you, do you go? I wouldn’t be able to go, I’d have no way of getting there. I wouldn’t be the one he’d call, anyway.

Is it easy to pretend everything’s okay for you? I used to be a lot better at it. I slipped these past couple of years. Things took a bad turn, and I just wasn’t so good at hiding it anymore.

Are you afraid of losing the last person you talked to on the phone? Yes.

Do you think you are a good person? I don’t know. I mean, I try to be. I feel like I used to be. I don’t wish anything bad on anyone and I don’t want to hurt anyone. I care about others and their well being. I just feel like I’ve been so selfish these past couple years, and in turn I have hurt people. :/

What do you want right this second? To not feel like crap would be great.

Do you think it makes him weak if a guy cries? Absolutely not. Why are guys not allowed to have emotions and express those emotions? Can they not be sad, too? They’re human.

Have you ever cried cause you were so mad? Oh yes.

Could you last in a relationship for over a year?  I think so.

Who were you with on your birthday? I haven’t had my birthday yet this year, but last year I was with my family.

Have you ever crawled through a window? No.

First person to talk to you in 2014? I don’t know.

Do you miss your past? Yes. Well, parts of it.

It’s 4 in the morning, your phone rings, who is it? I have no idea.

Do you have anything interesting planned for the next week? Nope.

Who was the last person to text you? Do you know when that person’s birthday is? My mom. Her birthday is in September.

What were you doing 4 hours ago? I was lying down and resting. I was dozing off here and there.

Is there a certain song that you can’t stop listening to atm? No.

Tell me 3 things that your friends don’t know about you. I don’t feel like it.

What is something that people often give to you as a gift? Gift cards.

Do you tend to hold on to a lot of stuff you don’t need, just because it has sentimental value? Ohhh yes.

What is something that reminds you of your ex? Certain songs. For example, “Lithium” by Nirvana.

Has the last person you kissed ever cried in your arms? No.

Which would you prefer to receive as a gift - flowers or chocolate? Donuts or coffee, actually. haha. Or donuts and coffee.

When did you last take a shower/bath? Do you wash your hair every time? Last night. No, I don’t.

Would you prefer to be somewhere else right now? No, it’s 1AM.

Do any of your followers on Tumblr have your phone number? Nope.

Will you be going out tonight, or staying in? I’ll be staying in.

How many times have you been in love? Twice.

If you were heartbroken, who would help you pick up the pieces? I’d just deal with it alone.

Apparently, it’s very common to crave chocolate around the ‘time of the month’; do you ever get that craving? Not chocolate, specifically, but sweets.

What was your last reason for crying? I answered this already. Was that not this survey? Maybe it was the previous one, but whatever.

How would you feel about dating someone who had a reputation for being a player in the past? Do you think that players will ALWAYS be players, or is it possible that they can change? I think they can definitely change, mature, and grow up, but I would be skeptical. I’d have to see that change.

Did you sleep well last night? No.

Is your bedroom big enough for you? It could be a little bigger.

Are you looking forward to seeing someone soon? No.

Ever had a one-night stand? Nope.

Is anyone flirting with you? No.

Have you ever felt pressure to do anything you didn’t want to, like smoking, drinking, or losing your virginity, before you were ready for it? If so, how did you deal with that? No.

Do you consider yourself to be an intelligent person? Why/why not? Meh. I feel like I’m average, just like with everything else. I’m an average person.

Who would you most like to be stuck in a lift with? I’d like to not be stuck in an elevator at all, thank you. I am very claustrophobic and would be having a panic attack. That would be horrible. I have to take elevators, and it’s something I think about.

Is there anyone you’d HATE to be stuck in a lift with? Like I said, I don’t want to be stuck in an elevator--period. It wouldn’t matter who I was with.

When did you last talk to the person you love/like? What did you talk about? --

Have you ever seen your father cry? Yes, but only less than a handful of times. Most recently was when our dog passed away. :(

How would your parents react if you got pregnant? They’d be absolutely shocked to say the least. They’d want to know who the father was. They’d be surprised because I’m always home, and when I do leave it’s with them. I’m not talking to anyone in that way. They’d be so like, “wtf???” haha.

Do you/did you keep to your school’s uniform/dress code? I’ve never had to wear a school uniform, but yes I followed the dress code. I was too self-conscious to wear spaghetti straps, skirts, dresses, or shorts anyway. And I didn’t wear anything with something bad on it.

If the last person you kissed said you were the only one they wanted, would you believe them? Nopeeee. That would be a downright lie. They’d act like it in the moment, but then I’d hear he was talking to/sleeping with other girls. One of which was his ex girlfriend. So.

What was the highlight of your summer? It hasn’t been summer, yet. I don’t look forward to it, though.

The last time you threw up, was it because you were hungover? No.

Have you ever seen the film ‘Wake Wood’? What did you think of it? Nope. I’ve never even heard of it.

Are you confused about anything atm? Is there anything bothering you? Or, is everything good? Yes. A lot of things are bothering me.

If you say ‘I’ve had enough’ or ‘I’m done’, do you always mean it? I mean, I say I’ve had enough or that I’m done all the time in regards to things that I’m dealing with, but I keep on going....

Who was the last person that invited you to their house? Arynthya.

Have your parents ever told you about any alternative names they considered for you, or the name they would have chosen, if you’d turned out to be a boy? My mom said she thought about Jesse for a boy.

Are you friends with any of your exes? No.

Have you ever had to make an emergency phone call? No.

If you’re in a relationship, how is it going? If you’re single, are you looking for someone? No, I’m not looking for someone.

What language do you like the sound of? Hmmm.

Think about the last guy, outside of family, that you had a conversation with. Do you find him sexy? Ha, it was someone who worked at the vitamin store I went to last weekend. lol. No, he wasn’t really my type. He seemed like a cool guy, though.

What do you think is an assumption that someone could make about you, just by looking at your Tumblr? Would this assumption be correct? That I’m depressed and have other issues. Oh, and that I love Alexander Skarsgård. They’d be absolutely, 100% correct about all of it.

What’s the most attractive physical feature of the person you love/like? Okay I’ll answer questions like this about Alexander Skarsgård from now. Duhhh, why didn’t I always do that? He’s absolutely gorgeous. I love his jaw, his next, his eyes, his hands, his stomach, his smile, his height.... everything.

Do you consider yourself to be a strong person? Why/why not? I feel like I used to be. Now I feel weak. I don’t know who this person is anymore.

Tell me about a special moment you’ve had with the person you love/like. Sadly, we haven’t had any moments together. haha. Only in my dreams... ;)

What are you doing tomorrow? Nothing.

[gracefulswansofnever]

Hmmm

Its been bubbling for a while now but im pretty sure ive got some strong feelings for a friend of mine. Shes so attractive, super cool invidual who enjoys the same things on a similarly deep level to me. Ive been pushing it down for quite a while now but it gets a bit harder to do that every time I see her.

Man shes like a really nice person and has some great views on stuff and is open about things but every time im around her i cant be myself really because i dont know how to act. I get a bit nervous and just act stupid and shit instead of being whoever or whatever I normally am. Im not even sure what that is.

The problem is... i hate myself a lot, and have a super duper deep negative opinion of myself and my own self worth. I think I am one of the most garbage humans to exist, sucking resources like patience from people I know, being a general piece of shit and making excuses for me being a dumb idiot.

My actual reasoning for not doing certain things which do end up annoying others is... i simply don't have the energy to care. I wish for the void on a daily basis. It never stops and it hinders me a lot in trying to move forward. Especially when moving forward means nothing because the call of not existing is such a sweet siren tune...

So, this means whenever I think about potential relationships, i get excited because the person is cool and id really like to get to know them and also love them and be with them etc. But, at the end of that comes the thoughts like:

It will end and it will hurt.

Pain is only a single word away.

They will eventually hate you, after seeing what you are and how you function. A broken piece of trash that can only be put up with for so long.

Whether its 3 months, 3 years, or 20 years, it will eventually crumble and they will move on because you aren't a workable human being. And you never will be.

So I am attracted to people, sometimes a LOT and I /realllly/ want to be with them and engage with them on a deeper almost spiritual level, but I don't. Because whats the point when pain for them as caused by me is only a few words or lack of words or ideas away? Whats the point when I long for a dark black ending where the light fades and everyone forgets me as less than a footnote in the annals of history? That isnt something I want anyone to deal with anymore. I know people do and have had to deal with that, and its such an unfair thing for me to put onto them. Its work, for them, beating their head against the proverbial wall every day that is my broken sense of self.

Physically, I am not attractive. I hate my body so much. I dont go outside in the day time unless I have to because i don't want people to look at my gross self. I am tired all the time, very unhealthy and grossly overweight to the point where it is endangering my physical and mental health constantly. So I find these people super duper attractive, but I know that they would never be into me. Not as I am now. But still probably not ever regardless. This girl for example, I honestly dont know what sort of human they're attracted to, but there's a 99.9999999% chance it isnt someone like me. She's so cool, dresses with an epic sense of style that drives me nuts in both an aesthetic way and an attraction way.

I think I'll just wait another few years until I am less shit at being a person. Im not a good person. I know it needs to be fixed. But at the moment my only solution to that is to die so... thats not a good solution. It'd be such a relief from the constant black mucky pain. The horrors of the night have leaked into my day time life now, which makes it hard to function on a normal level. Im a piece of shit. I am not good. Not worth investing time into. Too unrewarding for the other party in the end.

The other point is if we got together and it ended badly it would ruin our professional side of our relationship. Which would realllly suck because shes super good at what she does and I have a huge amount of respect for her work and her intelligence on these subjects is vast. Something id never be able to ever match.

Oh well.

[mrcriscodisco]

DO ALL THE QUESTIONS

ok ok i cave smh

1: Could you go the rest of your life without smoking a cigarette? - i could but i’d rather not

2:Are you single/taken/heartbroken/confused? - single-ish? Kinda? Hard to say rn 

3:What if I told you that you were pretty? - I’d tell you thank you!

4:Ever been told “it’s not you, it’s me”? - yeah, sorta

5:Are you interested in anyone right now? - eh one or two people i guess!

6:What are you looking forward to in the next week? - already answered friend

7:Do you want to be single? - truth be told i couldn’t care less either way. 

8:Did you go out or stay in last night? - stayed in..i drove home from a camping trip so i was exhaaaausted

9:How late did you stay up last night? - like..10 pm haha

10:Can you recall the last time you realized you liked someone a lot? - yeah it was a tragic mess

11:Last three things you had to drink? - water and two mixed drinks

12:Have you pretended to like someone? - nope! thats cruel

13:Have you ever told somebody you loved them and not actually meant it? - yeah back before i fully understood the effect that could have on someone

14:Honestly, has anyone seen you in your underwear in the past 3 months? - lol yeah tons of people. im shameless

15:Is it hard for you to get over someone? - it depends..most often no not at all..but from time to time someone really special comes through and you never really get over them 

16:Think back five months ago, were you single? - yep!

17:What were you doing at 12:30 this afternoon? - sleeping? maybe? nothing productive i can guarantee that

18:Hold hands with anyone this week? - nope!

19:Could you go for the rest of your life without drinking alcohol? - already answered lad

20:What would you name your future daughter? - uhhhh N/A

21:Do you miss anyone? - sure! a few people

22:Have you kissed three or more people in one night? - probably honestly. i wouldnt put it past myself 

23:Did your last kiss take place in/on a bed? - hmmm……i don’t think so no

24:Are you good at hiding your feelings? - what good does hiding your feelings do? i’ll let you know how i feel 

25:Have you ever cried from being so mad? - no

26:Who did you last see in person? - my mom and brother 

27:Are you listening to music right now? - nope!

28:What is something you currently want right now? - already answered pal

29:What is the last thing you said out lot? - can’t remember

30:How is your heart lately? - alright i think! should probs get it checked out..make sure i don’t have cardiomyopathy or anything

31:Do you wear the hood on your hoodie? - nope!

32:Are you wearing socks? - nope!

33:What do people call you? - e, ez e, ez, ezzie

34:Will you talk to the person you like tonight? - maybe, hopefully. i miss him so much

35:Are there any stressful situations in your life? - nothing i can’t handle

36:Who did you last share a bed with? - my pup!

37:Did you do something bad today? - acid? excessive drinking? what do you consider “““bad”““?

38:When was the last time a member of the opposite sex hugged you? - it’s been a minute honestly..a few weeks?

39:Do you get stressed out easily? - not anymore..life’s too short and most things are too petty to stress over 

40:Will you sing today? - hell yeah!

41:Have you ever wanted to tell someone something but didn’t? - nope! if i want you to know something you’re gonna know it

42:Who do you go to when you need to talk to someone? - my mom or my closest lads

43:Have you ever been taken to the emergency room in an ambulance? - yeah

44:What are you listening to right now? - this top 10 mysteries documentary deal..learning about the basilisk 

45:What is wrong with you right now? - this acid is making me nauseous 

46:What is on your wrists right now? - hoodie sleeves

47:Where did you get the shirt/sweatshirt you’re wearing? redbubble probably 

48:What do you like better: hot chocolate or hot apple cider? - apple cider!

49:Do you make wishes at 11:11? - haha no

50:Are you a good artist? - noooo way..im too unmotivated 

51:Love really is a beautiful thing huh? - Sure!! Love is great! Especially platonic love and adoration 

52:Do you miss the way things were six months ago? - honey….i can’t even remember what happened this morning let alone 6 months ago..

53:Ever been on a golf cart? - no :(

54:Do you have trust issues? - no, not really. i’m an open book

55:Ever stayed up all night on the phone, with who? - yeah..my boy Brendon 

56:Do you own something from Hot Topic? - hahaha yeah, honestly. They’ve got some cute stuff, what can i say

57:Do you use chap stick? - no

58:Have you ever slapped someone in the face? - no

59:Do you have a little sister? - no

60:Have you ever been to New York? - yeah! i was there for panorama a couple weeks ago! nice little city, that

61:Think of the last person who said I love you, do you think they meant it? - hmmm…id like to hope so

62:Have you hugged someone within the last week? - yeah!

63:What were you doing at midnight last night? - already answered broe

64:Have you ever regretted kissing someone? no never. a kiss is only a kiss

65:Is there one person in your life that can always make you smile? - no, unfortunately

66:Were your last three kisses from the same person? - nope!

67:Have you kissed anyone in the last five days? - no

68:Would you rather sleep with someone else or alone? - alone or with my pup

69:Will next Friday be a good one? - HELL YEAHH!!! there’s so much going on im excited!!!