#willezarr

[wille-zarr]

the mandalorian every time he walks into a new cantina in his full beskar:

[stefnot-steph]

Evermore

This is my first fanfiction in a long time so be gentle! I’m definitely rusty, but when I was listening to this Taylor Swift song I couldn’t get this concept out of my head. It takes place after the season finale so obvious spoilers. Its my OC Auden and she is the love interest of our favorite Mando. I wanted to write grief from my perspective since I lost my older brother years ago it still feels so real but writing helps me express so much. Anyways I hope yall like this! 

Catching my death, and I couldn’t be sure I had a feeling so peculiar that this pain would be for Evermore.

You couldn’t breathe.

You felt everything in slow motion and all at once. You felt tears running down your cheeks and didn’t have the strength or the care to wipe them away. Your ever so tough exterior was tarnished forever. You made yourself a promise long ago to never let others see you cry. 

Oh hell it doesn’t matter much now anymore does it?

You watched the chaos scene in front of you as Din was making his final goodbyes to the child. The child or Grogu as you both came to know had completely stolen what was left of your heart which you thought was impossible. Your heart which was shattered many years ago when your parents abandoned you and your only sibling. Your older brother took care of you and raised you but by the time you turned 19 he was gone from your life too. Another victim of The Empire, another soul lost in the stars forever. After your world was turned upside down once again you were lost, completely on your own going from planet to planet with no plan for your future. You knew how to defend yourself and did odd jobs when you could to get by, but nothing felt right you were never at peace.

That all changed about 10 years later when you ran into a certain Mandalorian and his odd looking child one night. He saved you from a group of nasty men at a cantina who just wanted to take advantage of you since you were drunk and just looking for another distraction. You welcomed the empty company of a man any other time since it numbed the pain even if it was for just a moment. That life was enough. 

But you deserved more, the universe had other plans for you.

It took a long time but you began to fall in love with The Mandalorian and his child and you swore it over and over it would never happen to you but your heart began to heal, the grief and pain of losing your family started to be replaced by a newfound feeling. It took time but eventually you welcomed with it with open arms. You became a mother to the child, and all the motherly instincts came to you so naturally. 

Happiness

You never thought you could feel that again. 

and now as you come back to the present, you felt your blaster slip from your hands as you watched the Jedi turn away and leave with half of your heart. Finally you felt your legs and started to run, you didn’t give a damn about being defenseless in a enemy ship, you ran past Cara, Bo Katan and Finnec. 

You ran past Din.

Your eyes were filled with tears and your mind was going a mile a minute trying to catch up to the Jedi who was taking your life away. Again.

No. No I can’t do this again, I refuse to lose anyone else.  

You kept running down the never ending hall until you froze. You watched Grogu one last time as he made it out with the Jedi. You knew it was useless, he was gone. Even Din could let him go, and they had a bond like no other.

You were never good at letting go.

You collapsed on the floor in a heap of sobs and screams. Your grief overwhelming you once again like a tidal wave. You were drowning, and this time you didn’t want to fight it. It wasn’t worth it anymore, you had truly lost everything. 

Can’t remember what I used to fight for, I rewind the tape but all it does it pause. On the very moment all was lost. 

You didn’t realize a pair of strong arms picking you up, bringing you back into this moment. You knew who it was and was beyond grateful to feel the familiar coolness of baskar against your cheeks which were stained with tears. 

“Auden. Please look at me. Please, I’m right here its goin-g to be okay.”

Through blurry tear soaked eyes you gathered the strength to look up at the man who you do anything for.

You lost your breath again as your dark eyes met his own. Time stopped once again. You couldn’t find your voice, all you could do was stare. 

My gods he is beautiful. He’s everything I imagined he’d look like and more.

You reached up and touched that mysterious, beautiful face of the man you’ve fell in love with. He closed his eyes leaning into you as he started down the hall still determined to get you out of there and to be safe. 

“D-din you’re creed, what about the creed and everyth-.”

You were cut off by his mouth touching you lips. Nothing else needed to be said. Finally. Finally

You both embraced the kiss, it was long overdue and you swore you saw stars in your overwhelming amount of emotions. It was how a kiss should feel, powerful and full of life and passion.

You two broke apart reluctantly and just stared at each other. Even with your grief and loss still very real and raw, you just knew things would be okay. Maybe not everything but isn’t that just life?

“Come on Auden, lets get out of here. I’ll explain everything, I-I did want I had to. He needed to be safe, We I-I couldn’t give him that.” Din sighed, his brown eyes red and swollen from his own tears and inner torment.

“I know Din, I-I know it just caught me off again, I can’t stand to lose anyone else.”

Din looked down to you and gently put you down knowing you could feel your legs again.

“You’ll never lose me. Ever. That’s a promise I will keep, I love you.”

You took his gloved hand in your own and smiled. 

“I know.”

I couldn’t be sure I had a feeling so peculiar that this pain wouldn’t be for 

Evermore.

[willie-zarr]

fyi

Hi, you are probably looking for me, the user:

@wille-zarr

MY USERNAME HAS NO -IE AT THE END

~Sincerely, Wille, who had to claim the username willie-zarr (with an -ie) as a sideblog because everyone kept tagging @willie-zarr INSTEAD of @wille-zarr​

[wille-zarr]

DIN DJARIN REMOVED HIS HELMET FOR THE KID

[wille-zarr]

WE GOT OUR FIVES NAME DROP-

[wille-zarr]

Darth Maul in The Phantom Menace: dark, mysterious, silent warrior of d.e.a.t.h.

Darth Maul in The Clone Wars/Rebels:

[wille-zarr]

THANK YOU FOR THR REC!!!!

The Mandalorian - Fic Recommendations

Main Rec Masterlist

@oloreaa

orbit: Part 1 / Part 2 / Part 3 -> Mando and you have a cuddle arrangement

Vencuyanir -> Elana only has two objectives when she is taken away from Arvala-7: keeping Bean alive and getting away from the Mandalorian

@dindjarindiaries

Masterlist

Security -> An ex-princess forced to hide and fight for your life, you’re now on the run with a Mandalorian and a foundling, trying to protect the three of you from the threat of death that creeps around every corner accompanied by a tracking fob.

@the-last-airblender

Run -> While the Razor Crest is being repaired on the planet of Duugan, someone offers the Mandalorian a job

@unstoppableforcce

waves crash. ships don’t -> there’s a storm. on the small planet, out further than the trio ever imagined the outer rim stretched, it seemed there was always a storm. the lightning strikes. the waves crash. he collapses to stop in your home, given no choice but to be met with the onslaught of memories, of you, of your perfect smile, of everything you were before he left. the waves crash. he wonders when you last smiled. he wonders if it’s all his fault…

@hdlynnslibrary

Dusty Trails AU -> US Marshal!Din Djarin

@writings-of-a-hufflepuff

Putting Down Roots -> Alternate Universe with Din Djarin and the reader who’s the local school teacher. Din starts as a bounty hunter but becomes the Sheriff of your small town since no one else will take up the job.

@jura-moon

Masterlist

To Love is to Burn -> Regency AU

@auty-ren

The Offer -> You find yourself making an unexpected friend who repays a debt to you. After being welcomed into their home and settling into a new life among Mandalorians, you catch the eye of one of the beskar wearing warriors. A man renowned for his leadership and capability, shows you a gentler side of the warrior race and offers you something unexpected.

@mandolovian -> Masterlist

All of This -> He stretched his hand against the inside of your wrist, scratching gently at the soft skin there, pressing against your pulse and huffing out a breath when he registered just how fast it is.

@forever-rogue

step into daylight -> on the run for your life, you’re finally tracked down by one of the most fearsome bounty hunters in the galaxy - the Mandalorian. Expecting him to end your life then and there, you’re surprised when he spares your life and takes you in and nurses you back to health. You’re even more surprised when you meet his small green son and eventually discover that you have much more in common with the tiny creature than you could have imagined…

@sunshinepascal

Permanent -> holding Din's hand in public leads to more (NSFW)

@mandobls -> Masterlist

@absurdthirst -> Masterlist

@bestintheparsec

Healer -> You’re medically trained and meet the Mandalorian by chance. Over time, you become more than just a crew member.

@concussed-to-pieces

stay safe -> Our story begins a long time ago, in a galaxy far, far away…on Nevarro, to be specific.

@jabbajambler

Human -> Myrah Koor was a mystery. She worked alone and she worked hard. For a while, she was the best bounty hunter the Guild had ever seen. At least, until a certain Mandalorian came along. After a small hostage situation, the two team up to find the bounty of a lifetime… twice. Traveling the galaxy, the unlikely pair takes down enemies, saves the day, and makes a few friends along the way.

Powerless (sequel to Human) -> Over the months spent on the populated planet of Coruscant, Myrah Koor has focused on her abilities, trained in the temple ruins, and polished her young niece’s abilities. Yet something still isn’t right. When the Mandalorian, Din Djarin, struggles to locate others of his kind, he is left with no other choice but to recruit his old partner. Through (many) arguments, encounters with family friends, and a few mishaps, the two just might be able to return the Child to the Jedi and rekindle a lost friendship.

@vercopaanir

The Lovely moon series -> As an indentured servant, you never thought you'd make it out of town, much less off-world. You don't really need your vision to see a priceless opportunity when a Mandalorian presents it to you, though.

@frannyzooey -> masterlist

Take me to church part 1 -> Set in a brothel in the late 1800’s in the Wild West; you’ve only been working there for a month when Din Djarin shows up. A bounty hunter who makes stops into town between jobs, he is known at the inn for his generous appetite and demanding preferences. Asking for you one night, he is pleased to learn you are well suited for him: your sweet nature soothing to his gruff temperament and surprising him with your ability to handle his rougher tastes. Demanding that you be made available to him every time he is in town, neither one of you is ready for where this request leads.

@ithinkhesgaybutwesavedmufasa

Of constellations and creeds -> Everyone loves the Alpha and Omega Fated Mates for Life troupe so, what if The Mandalorians were a society of Alphas, a dying race because your sisterhood of Omegas are becoming more and more rare by the day? You and Din were mated before you were born, your futures written in the stars–and that pissed you off, both of you. At least in the beginning.

@syndxlla

More to love -> Marrying Prince Korkie would be your inevitable doom to a life of tea parties and being seen and not heard, why should you agree to that when you’re worth so much more?

@maytheglitter

The Duke and I -> (Regency AU) You are under the care of The Duke of Mandalore and he needs to find you a suitor…the only problem is you don’t want to get married.

@mandoinevarro

Rule Maker, Rule Breaker Series -> It's been six months since you last saw the Mandalorian. Five since he escaped the siege that he caused, since he left you stranded in Nevarro with nothing but a grudge and your memories with him to warm you at night. You're not angry. He was only a costumer in your store, this is fine. It's completely fine. But then one day he decides to show his beskar face in Nevarro again, and maybe. Maybe it's not fine after all.

@tiffdawg

The Light of Stars -> In pursuit of the Child’s people, the mysterious Jedi, Din Djarin and his foundling find hope in a woman who shares the kid’s strange powers. Newly partnered with the Mandalorian, you are trained in the ways of the Force, but you’re no Jedi. You’re just trying to find your place in the galaxy.

@wille-zarr

In Fields of White part 1 -> fleeing from the life you wish more than anything to forget, you are left to navigate the galaxy alone as a wide-eyed wanderer. in the process of evading the dangers linked to your previous life, your destiny is forever altered when you cross paths with an intimidating mandalorian and his unusually gifted child.

@light-yaers

no saints -> Working on Nevarro hadn’t offered you much in the way of human contact; that all changes when an unlikely deal is struck between you and the Mandalorian.

[stefnot-steph]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, STEF!!!!!!! 🥳🥳🥳

THANK YOU WILLE! 💕😍

[wille-zarr]

Everyone: Give us Captain Rex in The Bad Batch!!!

Me:

[wille-zarr]

So the inhibitor chip makes the clones prisoners in their own heads- aware of their actions but unable to change them...

Kinda makes Crosshair’s conflict in this scene hit a bit differently now... 😭 Crosshair is trapped in there somewhere-

screaming for his brothers.

[wille-zarr]

the entire mandalorian fandom right now

[wille-zarr]

Everyone: We want Cody, Ahsoka, Rex, and Wolffe in The Bad Batch tv series!

Me:

[wille-zarr]

Bo Katan: “Go find Ahsoka Tano”

Me after months of knowing Ahsoka would be in season 2:

[wille-zarr]

Lowkey thought Omega and Rex were gunna bond over their blonde hair for a moment there lollllll

[wille-zarr]

WHY is no one asking Omega questions??? She knows SO much more than she’s telling! She doesn’t have a chip?? And knows so much???? Ask her questions I’m dying over here hsjsosnshs

[wille-zarr]

so like hahahaha

what if like...

idk

...

wrecker’s chip isn’t activating.

...

it’s just... um

...

slowly killing him