#will you let me bring my maaaaaan

[ardenzia777]

So i saw on twitter a post asking people who's was their favorite version of Polites, AND SAW NO ONE MENTION MY NAME so in sadness I drew myself some Bloodstar Polites fanart to feel better. uwu. Hope you guys like it! i love these three so much. Also i included a timelapse video for y'all as well!

"Dear Lord, when I get to heaven, will you let me bring my man" -Poseidon "When he comes, tell me that you'll let him in; Father tell me if you can" -Ares "OH the Grace" - Ares "Oh that Body" - Poseidon "Oh that face" - Ares "Makes me wanna Party" - Poseidon "He's my sun, he makes me shine, like diamooonds~" -Both I'm Feral for them your honor

[joni-witchell]

OH, DUH ITS THE FULL MOON LMFAO

I'm SOOOOO fucking emotional today...like...I literally feel like someone else is inhabiting my body today.

Usually it's that NOTHING is inhabiting my body lol but today...we have a guest! And her name...crybaby jones

[extravalgant]

i looove azteca from like. a narrative stand point

because we have this hero and thats you. were practically the stuff of legends by arc 2 just because of what kind of experience we have under our belt. we've never lost a fight, and it's assumed that we never will. that's how powerful the wizard is—everyone expects them to win, expects light to triumph shadow

and when we fail.... well. it shocks everyone doesnt it? people get angry. people get disappointed. to the wizard, who has never known failure or disappointment, it must feel like an entirely new thing. this culture was here for thousands and thousands of years—a culture and a people you never knew about until you were brought into the spiral.

and now because of you its gone. because you failed to save it and stop morganthe, its gone. and i think merle's passiveness about this situation hits a little differently this way—i read it more as disappointment, anyways. and to someone who has never known defeat, not to this capacity, with this many casualities and victims, the disappointment feels a little more crushing, doesn't it? the wizard is supposed to be a hero summoned from the legends, from a place not beyond a spiral where they had not heard of magic, and it feels like they let everyone down.

this imo is where morganthe truly establishes herself as a villain. i mean she already was a villain before imo BUT bringing a grieving man back from the dead to puppet around AND destroying a world is just straight up evil (and i love that). people like to complain about the malistaire bit which is valid in some cases but i think it really does sell the frivolity in which she chooses to go about things. like hey heres a man you killed with your own hands. probably when you were young. i brought him back from the dead to use as my pawn and now you have to fight him again btw. using a dead grieving man for my own goals. and then the fact that we cant beat him at the end, to 'send him back', is just another way she gets a leg up on us. she leaves us with unfinished business and xibalba destroying azteca is just icing on the already fucked up cake she's given us.

shes TAUNTING us. and this is important because it does come back to us in khrysalis—no doubt the wizard is still haunted by the sins of their past; their failure to save azteca. they have to get through this bit, to learn to let it go, before they can learn shadow magic. after all this, it's still stuck with us—our failure, one that she spearheaded.

dont even get me started on the wizard learning shadow magic maaaaaan because now they share one thing in common—they know shadow magic. they wield shadow magic. and shadow magic is so reviled that it's forbidden. no one else but her can really understand the isolation that comes with learning shadow magic, and it parallels the wizard and her even more because neither of them had a choice! the shadow magi turned morganthe into the shadow queen she is today, and we are subsequently forced to learn shadow magic and do the same if they ever have a chance at defeating her. i love it. i LOVE it. i love azteca... i love khrysalis....

[distortedclouds]

Do u think that Armin and Annie will plan a kid?. I mean I can imagine them getting pregnant quite young, an oppsie baby, and then freaking out than slowly getting used to the idea.

Then cause I love angst I can imagine something terrible happened, like some sort of assassination attempt maybe gun shot, poison, bomb something and they loose the baby and realize how much they want one.

They both have so much love that they never got to express, not to mention no biological family. Obviously they won’t have one straight away but a couple years later.

I need more Aruani family fics especially if they follow this storyline, would write one but I can’t write for the life of me

Anyway have a nice day ❤️❤️❤️

maaaaaan, you know I love BOTH scenarios! (especially with the angst addition)

on the one hand, them realizing, through their hectic ambassador lives, that maybe we should consider having a kid? sometime soon, even? though I'd give a question/proposal like that a minimum of 10 years post rumbling.

I'm definitely, 100% team Annie bringing it up first and I've talked about it before, but this far along in the relationship, maybe they're already married at this point, Armin could also be the one to tentatively bring it up. Though he does seem the type to bring it up as a "passing thought" rather than an outright question

And oppsie baby aruani are so dear and near to my heart you don't know! the angst and fluff potential of that is just *cheff's kiss* and it might end up happening if they just-- never have the conversation. Ymir forces their hand lol

FOR THE ANGST

If some type of incident made Annie lose the pregnancy.... I can see them swearing off it for years to come. Whether it was an accident or fully planned, the incident would feel like a slap in the face/wake up call that maybe people like them shouldn't let themselves dream this much

[bcbdrums]

Any and all soul eater ships? I know crossstitch and soma but are there others?

I answered this before but I don't feel like digging up the post, lol. So here we gooooooo..... Only lightly touching on the first two.

Soul x Maka = perfection. I'll elaborate should anyone wish, heheh.

Stein x Spirit = extremely messy perfection (my fave flavor). I actually prefer them platonically but I don't knock the romance. It shows up in my fics here and there lol.

Not going into those two cuz I already do that in other posts and you already know those, so moving on....

Black Star x Tsubaki = I know a lot of folks prefer them as a found family vibe, but they're no different than Soul and Maka. Teens who once grown up, have found their other. These two with all their quirks absolutely complete each other. And it's one of those things...again like Soul and Maka, where they don't need a...big moment of love declaration, or confused and gradual realization of feelings... They already know. And it's just that matter of...coming of age to where they step into that next phase of life, you know? (manga spoiler here) aahhhhhh just imagining Black Star and Tsu raising little Angela! The absolute chaos, that would be so fantastic!

Kid x Liz = they're also a found family (with Patty) but I see them....as they get older, Liz realizing her feelings of protectiveness are something far deeper.... and she keeps it to herself, doesn't wanna mess with what they have. Until it's one day hurting her in the future, how much she loves him and can't do anything about it. And Kid notices she's not well, and asks her, so she just tells him cuz it's the easiest thing... and much, much to her surprise he fully reciprocates her feelings! Aaaaahhh!! I've mentally written that fic so many times I can hear their voices. Kid by his nature just doesn't have any of that as a priority, so he would not be the one to bring it up. It would definitely be Liz.

Stein x Marie = since they are sooooooo different between the two canons I'm still wrapping my head around my feelings for these two, in terms of how they come together. I think manga gives them a much stronger foundation. (so manga commentary here) Stein is obviously interested in her from the beginning, but the dude ain't gonna make a move it's not his nature. Marie... she has this sort of ideal picture in her head, and Stein while she loves him doesn't fit the bill so she's got her own issues to overcome. That's one of the things I love about them in manga... We don't get to see what happened offscreen sadly, but, we can surmise that just by nature of their being there for each other and the day to day stuff they had to do in exile... she was able to forget about her "gotta get married asap and do the housewife/nuclear family thing" and actually let herself....be herself. With Stein. And get to know him past her duty and her own issues. And Stein too, in a very new situation, recovering from madness and trying to figure out what on earth to do with his feelings. I need to give this more thought, but, I know they're still learning each other but also that they're good for each other. Anime... idk man, I don't feel it as hard there. (And Stein and Spirit are still soulmates in both canons regardless fite me.)

Ox x Harvar = we needed a lot more of Harvar in general but we needed Harvar pining after Ox okay? Okay. You can tell this dude will follow his meister to the ends of the Earth and beyond (like Kim and Jackie) but it's also pretty one-sided (also for Kim and Jackie, on Jackie's part.... just easier to see that in the story since the author likes girls and seems a bit anti-gay guys...). But anyway. Yeah I could see Harvar slowly and slowly winning Ox over one day with his absolute faithfulness.... ah! I love angst.

Ox x Kim = (manga spoilers) it's freaking canon first of all they're an actual dating couple, but also maaaaaan that dude's love and devotion for her....! My gosh. Those are some of my favorite chapters, absolutely phenomenal.

Black Star x Patty = chaos duo, enough said.

Sid x Naigus = that's just canon and awesome. Power couple. Also there's the vibe that she's older (like Tsu and Black Star) and that's kinda neat too, the slightly older voice of wisdom. I don't think about them much tho.

That's all that's leaping out at me... If I've forgotten something I'll add to this later. Kilik gets no one, sorry lol. I have some NOTP's as well, but you didn't ask about those haha.

[vorish-wonderland]

Azul has overblotted! However, one of his attacks ended up hitting Jade and Floyd... Azul decides he needs to protect them, in the only way he can.

Includes: soft/safe vore

✮✶It's For Your Sake✶✮

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Two horrible screams of pain rang out through Octavinelle dorm.

"A-ah... ah! I didn't mean to hurt you..." A nervous smile appeared on Azul's face. "Oh, my precious little eels... it didn't hurt too much, did it?"

"Everyone, get back-!" Jade yelled.

Suddenly, Azul began to grow larger, to almost gigantic proportions...

"This... could be bad." Floyd sighed.

The now giant Azul picked up both of the twins, bringing them all the way up to his face.

"Where does it hurt? Anything vital? You're lucky that I noticed I was aiming at you and not those fools. If I hadn't, then the attack would've hit would've hit dead on, and then..." Azul sighed. "I would rather not think about that."

"Yes yes, we're all glad that didn't happen..." Jade said. "Now, if you would be so kind as to set us down?"

"I can't." Azul whispered. "Not after that. I'm going to need to put you somewhere safe for a bit, ok? I'll let you out when I've taken care of these pitiful anemones."

"You couldn't possibly mean-!" Jade looked very surprised. "No, not while you're like this, Azul, we don't know what will happen!"

"It'll be fine, just like it always is... now don't worry. I'll make absolutely sure you're safe."

"AZUL, DON'T!" Jade yelled, before...

Before placing Jade in his mouth and quickly swallowing him.

"-ah... stop that, stop moving please." Azul said, a hand on his neck. "This is for your sake, you know? I just want you both to be safe..."

Floyd turned away from Azul, and pulled out his magic pen.

"SHRIMPY, CATCH!!" He yelled, throwing his pen to the prefect of Ramshackle. "USE IT FOR SOMETHING!"

And then, Floyd too was eaten.

"Hm... so there's blot in here as well." Jade said to himself, looking at the tiny drips of the black liquid occasionally trickling down the walls. "How interesting."

"Aha, it's been a while since I've been in here~!" Floyd said as he landed on the soft blue flesh. "Kinda forgot how comfy it was, ehe!"

"How nice of Azul to protect us." Jade smiled.

"Oh! Oh you should've seen it! I threw my magic pen to Shrimpy all dramatically like they'd never see me again or somethin'..." Floyd laughed to himself. "Maaaaaan, you shoulda seen everyone's faces, Jade!!"

"Fufu, how mean of you." Jade tried to pretend he wasn't amused.

"You did the same thing! Yellin' stuff like 'AzUl nO!!!!!!!' and 'We DoN't KnOw WhAt WiLl HaPpEn!!!!' you did that just for the reactions and you know it!"

"...perhaps."

...

"So, d'you think Azul's gonna let us out of here?"

"Certainly. Though, probably only once he's calmed down... now, the question is, how long will that take~?"

"Hm.... I'm guessin' five minutes."

"I personally think seven."

"Welp, for now I guess we just relax until Shrimpy and the others get Azul back to normal."

"I suppose so."

[just-emis-blog]

OC questionnaire tag game

Thank you for the tag @leahnardo-da-veggie! 💖✨

I will use one of my side characters Bernard Park.

If someone broke your favourite object, would you forgive them?

"Hmm. I guess it depends on who did it? Like, if it was one of my brothers? Maaaaaan. No problemo! It's all water under the bridge! Accidents happen. All material possessions are meaningless in our next plane of existence anyways. Forgiveness forgiven!

"If it was my adopted mom...well. Of course I would forgive her! Haha! I would just think about it all of the time and bring it up at impromptu moments during family gatherings or random arguments as a 'gotcha' but yea no I would absolutely forgive her. Definitely.

"If it were some acquaintance then...whaaaaaat are we talkin' here? Is this my favourite favourite object? Did it cost a lot of money? Will people look for them if they go missing? Details are needed!"

2. If you could go back in time, before you were born, and change one thing, what would it be?

"Ok so I would kill Mark Zuckerberg and probably the Winklevoss twins (just to cover all my basis, and because I hate the name Winklevoss). It's not that I have anything against the guy personally, I just think I could do Facebook better, and there's just no fair chance of competing against him with his iron clad grip on the social media market. Hm? No I haven't been thinking about this for a long time, why do you ask?"

3. What is your personal pet peeve?

Other than people biting down their metal fork when they're eating and making that god awful clicking noise? It definitely bugs me when people pick on my big bro! He's such a nice and cool guy, I really don't get why he's such a bully magnet. He's always letting these things slide too, and he never wants me to inflict divine retribution upon their person! Oh and here comes Porter giving his unasked for two cents about how stripes and polka dots don't go together. Is such insult to my blood to be taken lying down!? Does this not warrant a shove down a flight of stairs covered in lemon juice and tajin to augment the flavor he is forever lacking!?? I think so! God I hate the name Porter!

"So yea, I would put inability to exact horrifically violent vengeance up top, and the fork thing as a close second."

Tagging @bonniewame @ath3alin @illarian-rambling @taylortut + anyone who wants to join in :D

YOUR QUESTIONS ARE:

Do you have any siblings? If so, how is your relationship with them?

If you could only eat one cuisine for the rest of your life, what would it be?

What's the most adventurous thing you ever done?

[corvidcrybaby]

Hi hi! For the fic ask game: 😈, 💖, and 💌!

- @the-frankenman-writes

eeeeeeeeeeeeee thank you so much for the ask!!!!

😈 Has there been a point in a story where you did something just to be playfully mean to your readers?

That's a good question! I've definitely had certain pieces of feedback in mind while working on new chapters and such, but I don't know that I've ever done it directly ahahaha. I did have a comment directly calling me mean once which I took as a compliment, however. Beyond that, boy does a bitch love giving her chapters cliffhanger endings ahahahaha.

💖 What made you start writing?

Besides coming from a long academic career which hinged entirely on my ability to write good papers (which I can, tyvm, lol), writing for me started back as a teen! I used to mess around with writing Pokemon fanfic/let's play hybrid stuff during my fan forum days, but in terms of actually engaging seriously with it as a creative endeavor I started because I partially wanted to redevelop my love for the written word (something I lost after long years of battles with my mental health as well as the grindset that was college and grad school) and partially because I wanted to give my ideas a place to live. I have way too many of them and know that it's better for me as a person to let them out and sharpen my own creative abilities (also important for my career). I guess the answer is "i write because it makes me feel better" hahahaha.

💌 How do you feel about comments and feedback?

Awhahahahaha maaaaaan dude, comments and feedback are what I live for. I know it's considered poor form to have this be a priority but I can't help it dude. The knowledge that a piece of art I made just for fun connected with another human being enough for them to go out of their way to make sure I know it did just that makes me so damned happy. I'm not the most social of people IRL so it always brings a huge smile to my face when I receive those reminders that my personal voice matters and can still reach people even when it feels like it doesn't or can't. I love my commenters to bits.

[letstalkaboutfandomsbaby]

If you write for Sukuna, I need head anons of him falling in love with a chubby reader. Either Canon Sukuna or fanon Sukuna, either works

Babe, i am so sorry but i went a little hogwild and wrote a novel instead of just a couple of headcanons, pls forgive me for how much you'll have to read 😔🙏 anyways, we're gonna do modern au Sukuna bc although i love that canon genocidal freak of nature, i have an idea and i wanna write about it. Also Sukuna is pretty ooc in this but ykw idgaf, i liked writing him this way sksksk

Word count: 6,826 (im so sorry, pls forgive me sksksk)

CW: chubby fem reader (ofc aldjakdj), modern au Sukuna, smut, use of the words "daddy" and "bunny", use of the word "fat" in a nonderogatory way, not beta read bc this shit is too damn long

Okie dokie artichoky skskks, lemme set the scene for yall

You're a curvy, gorgeous, hardworking woman getting your bachelor's degree and you are 💫FABULOUS💫

You live off campus bc it's cheaper than a dorm. Yea, it's kind of a crummy apartment and one time a mouse crawled under your door but you're stubborn and don't wanna spend a bunch of money

You live at the end of the hall, and for two years no one has lived next door to you, and you were happy with that

Then that all changed when Ryomen Sukuna, an up-and-coming MMA fighter, moved in next door

The first time yall met was when you woke up to hearing him fucking some girl on the other side of your wall

So obvs you go over to his apartment and angrily knock on his door bc wtf dude i'm trynna sleep over here, what kinda asshole makes this much noise this late at night 😤

Ok but when he answered the door, you really didn't expect him to look like THAT

Modern au MMA fighter Sukuna is about 6'3", has pink hair, body and face tattoos, his ears pierced, oh god and he's jacked just built like a fucking god and he absolutely towers over you—

"You here to join or what?" oh FUCK his voice is deep too wtf yall what the FU—

wait

what did he say??

This bitch straight up starts flirting with you while his side chick is waitin for him back in his bed and you're just ??????? HUH????

You're super flustered but politely ask him to quiet down bc you're trying to sleep and he's making too much noise

And this mothafucka SMIRKS and says, "Sure, bunny, I can quiet down for ya. Not sure if she can, but I'm sure I can give her somethin else to do with her mouth."

If you could turn pure scarlet you definitely would bc you are currently losing your shit wtf why is he talking to you like this who tf is this guy—

Anyways, you stutter out a thank you and hurry back to your apartment, pretending like you don't hear him let out the sexiest chuckle you've ever heard behind you

He's kind of a menace after that. He's not the worst neighbor you could have, like he did quiet down after you asked, but then he just brought another girl home the next weekend and was just as loud so you had to go ask him to shut up again 🙄

Oh, and don't worry, he does that again. And again. And again, for five weeks in a row jesus christ, how many girls actually wanna fuck this dude wth?

But it doesn't stop there. No, this dude also insists on bothering you whenever you're home. Doesn't matter if you're just relaxing or studying, he'll knock on your door and interrupt you with some stupid shit

His go-to line is "can I borrow some milk?" which come on dude who tf drinks milk anymore, like I can't even finish a carton of oatmilk on my own and you're out here bothering your neighbors for some?

BUT ANYWAYS you get him some milk while he watches you from your doorway, leaning against the doorframe and eyeing you up and down until you bring a cup of milk to him

"Thanks, bunny. I'll have to return the favor sometime; maybe give you some milk of my own ;)" MAAAAAAN, IF YOU DON'T TAKE YOUR FUCKIN GLASS O' MILK AND LEAVE—

You hate that he flirts with you, you know he's a player, he's got fuckboy written all over him so you know he aint bein sincere when he flirts with you, so why the FUCK does your dumbass heart start to race every time this motherfucker shows up shirtless at your door?!

Sorry, got a lil angry there sksksk

Anyways, Sukuna flirts with you too damn much and you know he's just flirting for fun and doesn't mean any of it so you're pretty sick and tired of his antics

But the truth is that Sukuna actually is attracted to you, even if it's just in a shallow way

Tbh he's never fucked a curvy woman before and he's intrigued with how it would feel

He's curious about what it'd be like to fuck your tits or your thighs, or how you'd look folded in half and drunk off his cock

Surprise surprise, Ryomen likes rough sex and he really wants to be rough with you 🥴

I'm talking slapping your ass, tits and thighs, pulling your hair, fucking your face, choking you, spitting in your mouth. Mans literally wants to beat you up which?? you good dude? you need somebody to talk to because your kinks make me think that you need therapy sksksk

But since you're not used to big buff guys wanting to have sex with you and flirting 24/7, you don't see him as anything but an annoying playboy who just flirts with you bc he's bored and has nothing better to do

You avoid him whenever you can, but he always seems to show up, whether it's at your door or by the mailboxes, and you wonder if you're gonna have to spend the rest of college like this

But then, one day, he stops showing up around you

You expect to hear him fucking someone new that Saturday night, but you don't hear anything and actually have a good night's sleep for once

You expect to see him the next morning when he comes by for some milk ("Gotta have somethin nutritious after that workout last night ;)"), but he doesn't show up

It's Wednesday now and at this point you're kinda concerned, like did he die? Wtf happened to him?

Yk he's an MMA fighter, so you decide to look him up on the internet; maybe you'll find answers there?? It's better than sitting around and asking "what if" questions all day

First link that comes up is to a video showing Sukuna getting knocked tf out in his latest fight. You watch the aftermath of the fight, a hand over your mouth as you see blood drip out of his mouth, his face already swelling as the announcers comment on the fight

Ok, that's it, you're gonna go check on him.

Yes he's annoying and stupid and you've lost a lot of milk thanks to that asshole, but you're still worried about him and wanna make sure he's doing ok bc you're a good person

So you go to his apartment that evening and hesitantly knock on his door

He opens the door a minute or two later, and tbh he looks like shit. His jaw is definitely broken, exceptionally swollen on the left side where he got hit a couple nights before, and he looks super tired

"Need sumthin bunny?" he mumbles, barely able to move his mouth due to his broken jaw

"Are... are you doing alright? I saw your last fight and... I just wanted to make sure you were okay..."

Ryomen shrugs, "Yea, I mean... could be worse..."

The two of you stand there awkwardly, not sure what to say in this situation

"Are you... sure you're okay? Are you sleeping alright? Are you getting enough to eat?"

"I mean," he starts, rubbing the back of his neck, "I'm drinkin protein shakes..."

Ok, you don't know what it was about the whole situation, but you could feel your motherly instincts kicking in and you just had the strongest urge to take care of him bc clearly he isn't taking care of himself

Long story short, you insist on cooking meals that are nutritious and pureed so that Sukuna eats some real food while he's healing

Cue you inviting forcing him to come over so you can make him some food and make sure he eats

He tells you that you don't have to do anything for him but you're stubborn as hell so once you've set your mind on something, you're not gonna change it sksksk

He tries to flirt with you and lighten the mood like he usually does, but tbh he just feels so exhausted and shitty that he can't keep up his playful attitude

He kinda just crashes on your couch while you make him some dinner and begrudgingly drinks the blended soup you made with a straw

You do this for him at least four nights a week, bringing him over to your place and sending him home with enough leftovers for at least lunch the next day

It becomes a new routine for the two of you: him coming over and chatting while you made him dinner, then watching a movie or two before he went back to his place

You start to learn that there's more to this guy than you once thought!

He's not just some annoying flirt who fucks a new woman every weak; he's actually pretty down to earth

Turns out that his upbringing wasn't the best: he was raised by a single mom and he didn't have a lot growing up

He was a delinquent in school, and he got into way too many fights. He eventually started fighting for money in high school, and he was scouted when he was 17

He got a manager and a trainer and within a year he was fighting professionally. He got his tattoos and piercings once he turned 18, wanting to stand out in the ring, and it's definitely worked! A lot of fans like him for his style more than his fighting ability

He earns a lot of money fighting, upwards of $50,000 per appearance, but he doesn't like to spend very much. He's put most of his money into savings and stocks so that he can live comfortably when he's a bit older

Fun fact: he invested in bitcoin when it was worth less than $500, and he got hella cash when the stocks skyrocketed, and then he sold his stocks and ran off with the money sksksks

Anyways, he's well off, but bc he prefers saving money and investing, he lives as cheaply as possible (hence the fact that he now lives in your shitty apartment complex)

Sukuna also starts to learn a lot about you!!

He learns about your interests, the degree you're studying, your taste in movies, and the more he learns about you, the more he realizes that you're not just a pretty face that he wants to pump and dump

And so, Ryomen's crush on you begins when he's healing from his last fight, coming over almost nightly to eat with you or even just to talk

Now, Sukuna doesn't know how to process his emotions at first

Tbh, the first time he realizes that he feels differently about you is when he finally gets the energy to masturbate again

He's masturbated to the thought of you before, fantasizing about all the nasty things he wants to do to you in bed, but those thoughts don't get him off this time

No, this time he keeps thinking about how gentle you are with him since he's injured, being so sweet and kind to him while he heals

He thinks about your pretty smile and the way your round cheeks puff up when you grin, how your hands move when you cook, how your laughter rings like windchimes while you watch a comedy together

And suddenly he's imagining that he invites you over once he's healed, either ordering an expensive meal or cooking something special for you as a way of thanks

He thinks about eating with you, bonding with you, letting his knuckles graze your cheek and jaw before he tilts your head towards his and kisses you oh so gently

He's been with plenty of women before, and he's always been rough with them, pretty much using them for his pleasure, not really thinking about their desires

But you're different from all of them, and he wants to treat you differently too

He wants to guide you to his bedroom and lay you down, kissing along your thighs and up to your sex

He wants to taste you, to lick along those chubby pussy lips and suck your cute clit into his mouth and he wants to hear you moan and feel your soft hands grasping at his hair and pulling him closer, suffocating him in the best way possible

He wants to slide his cock into you slowly, thumbing your clit the entire time, feeling you spasm gently on his cock once he's balls deep inside you

He wants to feel those plush thighs wrap around his waist, ankles locking under his ass and keeping his thrusts shallow, your arms holding him against you, letting him feel your heart beat rapidly next to his

He wants to touch and kiss every inch of you, hearing you whimper and whine with each squeeze, his name falling from those pretty plump lips of yours before he goes in for a kiss—

Ryomen realizes near the end of his recovery that he's fucked

What's he going to do once he's healed? Ask you out? You ignored his advances before his injury, why would you suddenly accept them? The two of you have gotten close enough that you consider each other friends; he doesn't want to ruin that when he's almost certain you wouldn't reciprocate his feelings

Basically, even though he's crushing on you hard and wants nothing more than to make you his, he worries that you won't feel the same and it'll ruin the friendship you've created

No, he can't let that happen. He's rather suffer by your side than lose you altogether, so he keeps his mouth shut and enjoys his time with you, not uttering a word about his newfound feelings

Two months have passed and Sukuna is finally all healed up and ready to fight again

You're prepared to be woken up that Saturday by him fucking some girl, but surprisingly, that doesn't happen

You check the internet to see if he had a fight, which he did, so you were confused why he hadn't brought home one of his fans

Well, maybe he's just too tired this week. He'll probably bring someone home the next week or the week after that, but that doesn't happen

It's been a month since he's healed up and you know for a fact that he's had at least three fights since then, so why hasn't he had victory sex? I mean, he used to do that all the time, why has he suddenly stopped? Did his recovery mess with his libido or something?

Now during this time, Ryomen has continued to be friendly towards you. He's not flirting like he used to; he's treating you with respect and his actions and words seem genuine

The two of you got so used to your routine while he was healing that you decided to hang out in the evenings during the week

Ryo always comes over to your place (he doesn't have a proper couch; he's got a beanbag chair and that's it), either bringing food with him or helping you cook

You alternate who chooses the movie and you just chill with each other, enjoying each other's company in a way that you never in a million years would've imagined happening

He's become... softer with you. You're not sure how to explain it, but before he got hurt, he was all smirky and teasing and unpredictable, but now he's gentler, his flirtatious smirk almost nonexistent at this point

His eyes were softer too; before they had some bite to them, something mischievous, but now they're relaxed and focused, and you start to wonder if his eyes were always that pretty or if something changed along the way—

Oh shit

Ok so maybe you've grown more attached to Sukuna than you originally thought, but who can blame you? It's the Florence Nightingale effect, it's a very common occurrence so it's not like you're alone in how you feel

But how do you feel? Do you like him? Bc for the longest time he was just your annoying neighbor and you avoided him like the plague, so what changed? Was it bc you helped take care of him? Was it bc you got to know him?

There were too many variables for you to pinpoint the exact reason why you started feeling differently about him

All that you knew was that he was nicer now and you actually enjoyed having him around and you wondered if his hair was as soft as it looked—

"Why are you touching my hair, bunny?"

Shit, you didn't realize you had reached out to touch him. You pulled your hand back, curling into yourself on the couch and looking back at the TV

"Sorry. I was just thinking."

Sukuna tilted his head back onto the couch cushions, looking up at you from his spot on the floor

"Bout what? Wonderin if my hair is greasy or somethin?"

You giggle at that, and Ryomen can feel his heart pounding against his ribcage

"No, dummy. Just... I don't know, I was just thinking about your hair, like... like how often you dye it and stuff."

He feels like you're lying but he's not completely sure. He shrugs and looks back at the TV

"Well, I get it done every month or so. I got a personal stylist for photoshoots and shit and she usually does it before a promo for a big fight."

You hum in acknowledgement, barely listening to him. You're still staring at his pink strands, wondering what they look like when they're not gelled back, maybe after a long hot shower after a grisly fight

"You can... you can touch my hair, if ya want. It doesn't bother me."

You feel your face burn, and for a moment you wonder if he can read your mind. You hesitantly reach out again, combing your fingers through his hair, hearing him sigh softly at the contact

It's nice, petting his hair like this, scratching along his scalp and twirling his hair around your fingers. You swear you can hear him moan softly at your touch, leaning into it and following your hand for more.

"You're like a cat," you mumbled, your index finger lightly grazing the nape of his neck, making him shiver. "You act all big and tough and hiss, but once you get a little affection you turn into a little kitten."

"Excuse you," he retorts, arching his brow at you, "but I am not a kitten. If anything I'm a wolf."

You snicker. "Oh yeah? What makes you a wolf?"

"Well, I'm big and strong and protect those I care about—

"—and you turn into a big puppydog when people love on you."

"AYYO, SHUT YER MOUTH" he'll yell, throwing the pillow in his lap at you, making you giggle. You throw the pillow back and soon enough you're having a pillow fight, Ryomen laughing and you squealing as he gets on top of you and bops you with the cushion

"OKAY, OKAY, UNCLE, UNCLE, YOU WIN!!" you squeak, giggling as you pull the pillow out of his grasp and above your head, leaving you face to face with Sukuna

The two of you stare at each other, your smiles faltering as you search each other's faces. The atmosphere has changed; Ryo's eyes turn from playful to thoughtful before he sighs loudly

"Fuck it," is all he mutters before he leans down and kisses you

Long story short, yall fuck on the couch

PSYCHE, YOU REALLY THINK I'D LET YALL DO THAT ALDJALDJKJD

You end up slapping him away, pouting as he leans back, your eyes beginning to water

"Jesus, what the hell, Y/N? What was that for?"

"You go too far, Ryo," you mumble, your lip quivering as you hug the pillow to your chest, looking away. "I don't mind you flirting with me, but playing with my emotions when you don't like me is cruel..."

Sukuna stares at you, rubbing a hand over his face as he sighs again

"God, you're so dumb, Y/N. You really think I'd kiss someone I'm not interested in?"

You blink, eyes darting back to see his face burning red, his gaze averted.

"...What do you mean? ...do you like me??"

Somehow his face turns darker, his hand rubbing over his neck as he looks up at the ceiling, breathing deep for a few moments.

"Yea... I like ya..."

He's prepared for you to kick him out, or worse, tell him that you don't feel the same and ask if you two can go back to how things were. He's tired of not being able to hold you, kiss you, cherish you, call him his. He's not sure if he can stay your friend forever—

"I... I like you too 🥺👉👈"

His gaze shoots back to you, eyes wide as he takes in your bashful expression. He can feel his lips curl unconsciously

"Shit... for real?" His grin spreads wider when you nod, his heart pounding as he leans down again. "Well then don't push me away this time."

Aaaaaaaaand it's official, you're dating sksksk

Tbh not much changes with your routine: Ryo still comes over for dinner and to hang out but now there's cuddling and kissing 🥰

You have a lot of doubts at the beginning of the relationship tho. Like you've seen the kinds of girls he used to fuck (literally all of them looked like models) and you obviously don't look like that so you're insecure about that and dont know what Sukuna even sees in you

You bring this up to him about two weeks after yall officially started dating and he asks if he can show you how he feels

You weren't sure what you were getting into but you agreed, letting Ryomen take your hand and tug you back to your bedroom

Now, Sukuna may be pushy at times, but he'd never force you to do anything, so everything he does is preceded by a question.

"Would you lay on the bed for me? Can I kiss you? Can I touch you here? Can I take these off?" and suddenly you're left in your underwear on your bed with Ryo on top of you

He's a man of actions, not words, so he barely speaks as he pushes his face into your cleavage, pushing your breasts together and groaning softly between them

He fondles your breasts for a while, his big hands are gentle but firm, squeezing your tits before he pinches your nipples, tugging at them before he introduces his tongue

You can feel his erection press into your thigh as he sucks your nipple, lavishing it for what feels like an eternity before he moves to the other one. At one point he pushes your breasts together and tries to suck both nipples at once, making you whine from the attention.

He eventually moves down your stomach, kissing and squeezing it along the way, leaving a trail of love bites before he reaches your sex

He nibbles at your plump mound, sucking on the extra flesh above your cunt, squeezing your thighs as he keeps them open

Once he finally reaches your pussy, you're completely soaked, your underwear drenched in your fluids

He teases you a bit ("Seems like somebody likes the attention they're getting 😏") before he practically rips your panties off, diving into your cunt like a starved man.

He eats you like you're his last meal, taking his sweet time slurping and sucking on your labia, bullying your clit mercilessly before pushing his fingers into you

You easily cum on his thick fingers, riding out your orgasm as he laps at your cum, but he doesn't stop. No, he pulls not one, not two, but three more climaxes out of you before he decides that he's done.

By the time he's finished, you're practically begging for his cock, on the verge of tears as you pull on his arms and try to bring him closer

"What's the matter? Does my cute chubby bunny want my cock? You want me to fill up that pretty pussy?" And you'll nod and whine and whimper for him, and how can he deny you when you're acting so precious? He hasn't even fucked you yet and you're already needy for more.

His cock is massive, to put it lightly. You always wondered why his past partners screamed so loud in his bed, and now you know. He's about 9 inches long, about as thick as a soda can, so heavy that it hangs low once he takes his boxers off

"Nervous, bunny?" he asks, massaging your thighs as he brings his cock closer to your entrance. "Don't worry. Daddy's gonna be real gentle with ya, okay? Gonna make you feel so good, baby girl."

And he does, he really really does. He's so gentle and sweet with you that you wonder what happened to your real boyfriend. The man on top of you is nothing like the man you first met months ago, and yet he's still sporting that same playful smirk right up until he pushes the head of his cock into you, thumbing your clit rhythmically

"Oh fuck, baby. Jesus... if I knew you'd feel this good, I woulda fucked you a lot sooner."

He doesn't last as long as he usually does, and it's all your fault. It's your fault for having such a tight, wet pussy that squeezes him just right; it's your fault for being so soft and warm and squishy underneath him; it's your fault for moaning wantonly, mouth falling open and eyes rolling back, looking so deliciously pretty as he grinds his cock into you.

He makes sure that you cum one more time before he pulls out, jerking off on your tummy. He groans loudly when he sees his thick, white semen coat your pudgy belly, and deep down all he wants to do is rub his cock against your tummy until he cums again.

Instead of that, he just plops down beside you, pulling you to his chest, not caring about the mess he's made.

"Feel better?" You nod and he chuckles tiredly. "Good. Now no more feeling insecure. You're too pretty to be sad." 🥺🥰💕💕💕

Once yall fuck for the first time, all bets are off sksksk like Sukuna is CONSTANTLY horny for you wtf

He's wanted you for so fucking long and now he's gonna have you in every way possible

He fucks you on every piece of furniture in both your apartments (yes, this includes all the countertops and even the walls)

He tries to be gentle with you after your first time, but he really can't help himself. I mean, you're just so cute and sweet and hot and god the look you give him when he slides his cock into you is to die for

Sukuna isn't a fan of pulling out, he'd much rather finish inside you. He also doesn't like condoms so be prepared to be on birth control if you aren't already bc he's gonna cum in your pretty pussy 95% of the time. Occasionally he'll pull out and finish on your ass or thighs, but he prefers watching his cum drip out of your tight hole 💕

He's normally pretty chill during sex, like he's not fucking the life out of you most of the time, but there are some exceptions!! For example, when he comes home after winning a match, when he's feeling jealous and possessive, when you're wearing something too cute/sexy. If any of these things happen, he'll be rougher with you, his fantasies from before his crush on you resurfacing

He only does these thing's with your consent, but once you give him permission he goes wild. You will not be able to walk for at least an hour after and once you do, you're gonna be wobbling like Bambi for a bit

You'd think that his fav position would be doggystyle so he could see your ass bounce, but he honestly prefers positions where you're facing each other. He wants to see your face when you cum and feel your nails scratch up his body plus then he gets to hold you close and feel your soft plush body against his 💕

He's begun a habit of buying things for you. You never ask him to, but sometimes he'll show up at your apartment with a few bags or packages and he'll ask you real nice and sweet if you could model some clothes for him.

He gets lingerie, little dresses, crop tops, mini skirts and shorts, just anything that'll show off that sexy curvy body of yours. He'll sit on your couch with his legs spread, the outline of his cock extremely noticeable in his gray sweatpants, relaxing with a beer while you try on the clothes he got for you.

It's pretty embarrassing for you, having this hot guy buy you clothes you didnt ask for, telling you to turn around and let him get a good look at you. Your body gets so hot from the looks he gives you and the little whistles and comments he makes as he eyes you up and down.

"Cmere, bunny," he'll say, making you feel like prey in the presence of a predator. You listen, of course, bc you know he would never hurt you. He'll have you straddle his lap, bringing your hips flush against his so you can feel his throbbing cock against your cunt.

"Look at what you did, baby. You went and made me all hot and bothered for ya. Are you gonna take responsibility for yer actions or am I gonna have to bend ya over and punish my little bunny?" LORD, GIVE ME STRENGTH—

Fast forward to you bouncing on his cock, your new clothes ruined already from Ryo ripping them out of impatience. He doesn't care tho, he's got plenty of extra cash to spend on you.

Ok but Sukuna has a tendency to use the word "fat" but not in a mean way like he uses it during dirty talk. "I love this fat little pussy of yours", "you got a nice fat ass, bunny", "who's this fat cunt belong to?", "you better sit that fat ass on my face before I lose my patience" like???? Ok, it's a little jarring at first but he partly does it bc he doesn't want you to hate the word "fat". Like he knows you have a rough history with the word and he doesn't want you to have negative emotions associated with the word, like every time you hear the word he wants you to think about his thick cock splitting you open instead. Idk man, i can't explain it, he just loves how big and plump you are and he gets turned on every time he calls your pussy fat 🤷‍♀️ but ofc if u don't like it then he won't do it 💕

Has a habit of using your clothes to hold you better and fuck you harder. Like if you're wearing his shirt and lookin like a fuckin snacc he will bunch that shit up in one hand and uses it like reigns, like he's gonna pull you onto his cock with each thrust and fuck you harder

He's a fan of anal. He can live without it, but he loves fucking your ass while you've got a vibrator in your pussy. Again, he won't do anything you don't wanna do, but he'll bend over backwards just to put the head in let me put the head in oooo i dont want more than that girl i respect the cat i promise just a touch—

SPEAKING OF SEX TOYS, he loves using them with you 💕 he doesn't really like em on himself, but he loves using a vibe/clit sucker on you during sex, maybe put a cute little heart shaped plug in your ass, maybe put some clamps on your nipples that clink and jingle while you bounce on his cock. He's got a little collection, but he uses vibes most often bc he loves how it makes you jive on his dick 🥴

He calls you his good girl, but when he's in a rough mood, he calls you his little slut 💕

RYOMEN SUKUNA IS A SLUT FOR STEM BITCHES, LIKE IF YOU GET A DEGREE IN A SCIENTIFIC FIELD HE WILL JUST HNNNNNGGGG GO APESHIT!!!! He doesn't know wtf you're sayin but you sound really sexy sayin it. Big man just wants to turn a smart girl dumb with his big fat cock 🥺💕

He gets really pissy if you try to go on a diet or lose weight. Now dont get me wrong, he's happy if you're happy, but if you try to lose weight bc you don't like your body he will shut that shit down immediately. Makes sure that you don't skip meals and eat enough calories, he doesnt CARE if you don't like your size, you're literally perfect and there's no way in hell you're gonna change just so society accepts you so why don't ya chill out and let him order you some takeout after he dicks you down? I mean, ya gotta regain your strength after all that strenuous activity, might as well have a meal from your fav restaurant, hell, have some dessert too! If you're worried about gaining weight, he'll find a way for the two of yall to burn some calories ;)

Although he seems like the kind of guy who only cares about sex, he's actually a very loving and sweet boyfriend. It's just that his love language is physical touch so he often uses sex as a way to express his feelings for you. But that's not the only way: he also insists on cuddling with you every second he can, and if he isn't holding your hand when you're going out then he gets all pouty and grumpy.

Overall, you're very happy with your relationship with him and you don't have any complaints... well, there is one thing

You've noticed that Sukuna never asks you to come to his fights. It's not like you want to go and see your boyfriend of six months get beat up, but you want to be there to support him! You wanna cheer him on and give him a big kiss when he wins!! Is that too much to ask?? 🥺💕

You watch highlights of his fights at home, and sometimes you'll watch the interviews after the fight and listen to what commenters say.

At some point, the commenters start talking about Sukuna and how he's changed over the last several months. They talk about how he used to be seen with a new girl after his fights every week, his arm around their waist as he answered a few questions before leaving, but now he's always alone and he tries to leave asap after his fights. "What happened to the playboy that Sukuna's fans grew to love?" they ask rhetorically.

You end up asking Sukuna why he never brings you to his fights, and he's hesitant to answer. You ask him if he's embarrassed by you and he firmly denies it, saying that he isn't embarrassed by you in the slightest. He eventually reveals that he doesn't bring you along bc he's seen how the media treats other fighters' partners and he doesn't want anyone to attack you for any reason.

Yall talk through things and basically you tell him that you're a big girl and you can take care of yourself. And although Ryomen just wants to keep you safe away from all the people who could be shitty to you, he gives in and invites you to his next match.

Fast forward to said match which is actually against the same dude who broke his jaw almost a year ago. You're sitting right outside the octagon where his manager and trainer are (they're super excited to finally meet you!! They're v nice and cool 😊). You're wearing one of Ryo's fav hoodies and almost bouncing with excitement bc omg you’re gonna get to see your strong hot boyfriend fight irl for the first time!!

The match starts soon enough, and you're cheering on your boyfriend the whole time. It's nerve-wracking to see him get hit, especially since this guy hurt him so badly just this year.

It's the main event so there's five rounds total, and it's long and grueling, but Sukuna wins by a hair and you're so excited!!! You literally start jumping around when he wins, squealing and clapping and cheering for him.

He leaves the ring and goes straight to you, picking you up and twirling you around. You're squealing, yelling at him to put you down bc you're "too big" and he "shouldn't exert himself after a fight like that". He finally puts you down, cupping your face and kissing you hard. He smirks at you when he pulls away a moment later.

"I know my limits, bunny. You need to relax and trust me a bit more." You open your mouth to protest but he just kisses you again, the two of you ignoring the rambunctious crowd in the background. "I'm gonna have to bring you to fights more often," he almost yells as he pulls away. "Pretty sure you're my good luck charm." 💕💕💕

You become more involved in his career after that, showing up to the majority of his matches and supporting him. You've even got some fans of your own! There's people out there that are literally cheering you two on and want you to stay together forever and it's so adorable 🥺💕

Side note: you know how they have those pre fight press conferences with opponents? And how the opponents trash talk each other and shit? Well, at his next big conference after yall went public with your relationship, the guy Sukuna was supposed to fight made some rude comments about your appearance and Sukuna ended up knocking him out on stage with a flying kick. Nobody dared talking shit about you after that

Ok so you're convinced that Sukuna is the only big buff dude who finds you attractive but you are WRONG, DEAD WRONG. A LOT of the gym rats that occupy the same spaces as Sukuna find you very sexy and wanna fuck a chubby beauty like you (bc let's be honest, a lotta gym rats are chubby chasers). You may not notice these guys looking at you, but Sukuna does and he hates it, you're his chubby bunny and he needs everyone to know it, so what does he do? He records himself fucking you from behind and sends it to his acquaintances so they know who you belong to. Also will not hesitate to drag you to the gym with him so that after he trains he can fuck you in the showers in the locker room. He likes knowing that his fellow fighters are right outside changing and can hear you moaning like a whore for him.

After a couple years together, Sukuna gets a tattoo associated with you. Could be your name or a little bunny, but he wants to have a physical reminder of his love for you. Maybe it's his wedding gift to you (bc he's dumb and corny like that sksksk).

Yes, he's had playboy tendencies in the past, but tbh once yall started dating he knew you were the one and he was ready to settle down after the first three months. He doesn't propose for a couple years, but in the back of his mind he knows that no one else can make him as happy as you do, so he's certain that he's gonna spend the rest of his life with you.

Please don't break this boy's heart. He puts on a tough act, but he wears his heart on his sleeve and can't handle when his loved ones hurt him. That's why he doesn't have a lot of ppl close to him: he's worried about getting hurt.

He won't admit it, but you're the only thing that matters to him, like you're his reason for living. Before you, he just went through the motions and didn't really think about what he'd do when he retired. Sure, he saves money for retirement and whatnot, but he doesn't really have a plan for life besides fighting.

Then you come along and make him all soft and mushy and now he's thinking about getting a nice house with a backyard, adopting a big dog and maybe having a kid or two if you wanted. He's finally found a reason for living and he's for damn sure never going to let you go 💕

[knowlesian]

wanted to contrast e2 and the tribe with e3 and man for sale real quick *, because i think they make a really great framework to talk about the ways this show handles dealing with race in a lot of very subtle ways.

in e2, the tribe holds the power in their immediate sphere.

if stede were to, say, go and grab the navy and bring them into the mix that power could shift again, but the reason they grabbed pete and stede at all is ultimately for the same reason that dynamic exists.

when stede and pete go full YOU SAVAGES!!! the guy guarding them can be like …bro. fuckin racist, much? and he knows he will not face a single bit of immediate backlash for it. they can like it or not like it, agree or disagree; if either one of them was the kind of person who was going to bring down the navy on them all, they’re not gonna give them a chance to do it.

i really do love the depth they pack into comedy on this show; they never center trauma, just acknowledge it exists and impacts the world and the characters in it without making it the focus or the point. 

(a good concrete example: we know lucius felt the need to conceal his sexuality for a time, because this is not a world free of homophobia but rather a narrative that refuses to center it. ugh, i love subtlety, i love the unspoken, i love these writers & etc)

the reason pete and stede get locked up is because trauma exists in this world; i would argue in overall thematic terms, they get let go because this show is not about to center it. it’s not that the tribe feels like throwing white people in cages for shits and giggles, or that they’re assuming malicious intent; still, they’re gonna trust but verify. they can do that, because they’re on home turf and in a position to put stede on the spot.

in e3 it’s different.

stede is the captain of the revenge; he pays them all, and even though they’re in the republic of pirates and not stede’s original context, white supremacy exists on every rung of the class ladder. (which is too depressingly often why working class solidarity will crumble into ‘no war but class war’ bullshit in the face of open acknowledgement of racism.)

when stede starts hilariously trumpeting maaaaaan for saaaaaale, he is not coming at this from any other angle than: everyone around me is gonna know exactly what i know and intend, and they will then buy my hostage for Reasons, i have not thought that one through really.

that’s part of the source of the comedy when lucius has to clarify no, babe, he thinks you mean we’re selling a man in the sexy way.

it’s also part of the sting when he doesn’t realize: yelling that while standing next to three black men is just different, because there is every chance if they keep hanging around while he’s yelling that somebody Gets The Wrong Idea and things get really gross, really fast.

there is no way someone could reasonably think he wants to sell lucius or their hostage into the currently very active system of chattel slavery; there is every chance it might go the the other way for roach, frenchie, and oluwande. 

the very best case in that scenario is stede is righteously offended on their behalf, and then he apologizes for putting them in that situation and learns never to do something like that again— which is good, but would come at the cost of public humiliation, a reminder of where the world thinks they stand in just about the most horrifying manner possible, and very real potential danger if someone decides they don’t like a no. that’s the best case.

the worst case is much darker and i just... do not feel like detailing any of it, because why dwell on what we already know did happen in the real world when situations like this occurred.

suffice to say, when frenchie and roach start going uhhhh, captain???? and making ABORT! ABORT! THIS COULD GET WEIRD! gestures and faces, they are incredibly aware that in addition to the baseline ‘so this is just... not gonna end well, huh?’ even the best version of somebody taking stede up on that offer to buy a man while they're around is almost inevitably going to suck.

which brings me to the awareness of power dynamics. back in e2, the guard could say what he wanted without fear of consequence.

here? not so much. because stede very clearly has not factored this in at all or he wouldn't be doing it like this, so it’s on them to either clearly and directly say: my MAN a lot of people are gonna think you’re a literal enslaver even if it’s the white guy tied up, because the world just sucks like that and you doing this? even if you don’t know? it also sucks. and i am gonna be cool about it because i know you don’t realize the implications here and that tempers my actions, but holy fuck this is not something that makes me fonder of you, as you are PUTTING ME AT RISK IN MANY WAYS RIGHT NOW. 

or they can try to make sure stede gets the hint without having to have a potentially difficult conversation, which is what they understandably go for instead.

because there are a couple things that can happen, if they say that outright. broad categories:

1. stede says ‘oh shit, i’m sorry! i should have realized and i won’t do it again’ and that’s the end of the matter hurray 

2. stede gets stuck on how he didn’t mean to do anything racist don’t be mad at him you canNOT be mad at him, i’m still a good person right though please tell me i am a good person guys & etc

3. stede says something like ‘you’re overreacting, you’re clearly not the ones i’m selling and it’ll be fine’ and refuses to accept what they’re telling him about their reality, because it's not his reality

obviously that’s not all that could happen, but you get the general lanes. all these conversations require effort to initiate and guiding, even if everything ends well. and it would be very cool if option one was the most common reaction, but as pretty much any poc who even attempts these conversations can tell you: it’s not. two and three tend to cover the bulk of the responses to trying to explain to a white friend why a thing they did was unintentionally racist itself and/or so ignorant of the realities of racism it loops around to upholding the system or creating a bad situation.

these writers really understand the complexity of these kinds of interactions. because stede yelling man for sale, in and of itself? not actually racist. unmoored from their specific canon context there's no particular racial undertone to those exact words, how stede says them, or who he says them about (as he is saying them about a white guy! and like i said above: no matter what deeply sketchy purpose someone might want to buy him for, it’s not chattel slavery). 

the actual problem here is not the content of his speech so much as the context. stede is standing next to three black men while he yells man for saaaaaale, and he is clearly not taking the time to think ‘is the thing i’m saying going to hit different for them, specifically because they are black’. and one step beyond that, he's doing this in a situation where not taking that time out to consider the impact of his words on the people around him could get real ugly, real fast.

being reminded other people think you’re property to be bought and sold, not people like they are... there’s just no way to leave that interaction feeling okay. even if all that happens is somebody tries it and wanders off without giving any pushback— even if they apologize! which seems an unlikely reaction tbqh, but i’ll entertain the more positive hypothetical— that’s still some truly dehumanizing and depressing shit.

stede doesn’t mean any harm and if they weren’t standing right there it wouldn’t even be an issue, but his lack of awareness doesn’t mean it would be any less traumatizing to have that happen. so when stede doesn’t take the hint, they get the fuck out of there and leave him to it, removing themselves from the situation before it gets ugly because that is in their power to do right now. (unlike in e1, where they had to play at being The Help for nigel’s men whether they liked it or not.)

unfortunately stede isn’t their friend in e3; he’s firmly their boss and their captain. if they are honest with him there and he's offended or refuses to listen, it could be trouble for their jobs or lives on the ship; and even if stede wouldn’t take it out on them that way, it means once again needing to have a Measured Tone when all you want to do is yell KNOCK IT OFF, I AM PISSED OFF I EVEN HAVE TO SAY THIS and potentially getting back: nope. this is about me, now, and i’m not going to listen. either because you made me feel bad about myself, or because i just flat-out refuse to believe that you are a good judge of your own life experience.

one of the things i enjoy in ofmd is they don’t play into the binary of centering trauma or not having any at all; the obvious difference in context between yelling that about a white guy but near black men is blatant, even if for some viewers it might not instinctive. ‘would someone make the mistake’? who knows. but could someone? yeah. fucking very MUCH yeah. i think we would all agree that there are people in the world alive even now who are the kind of blatantly racist where they hear ‘man for sale’ and it wouldn’t matter at all a white guy was the only one being led around on a rope; we all know which members of the crew they’d assume were also on offer.

once you do that math, frenchie and roach’s particular need to gtfo takes on a new dimension. for some of us, that math was instinctive; for some of us, it wasn’t. but once pointed out it’s happening and significant, it’s not a complicated equation to solve.

i think a lot about the use of trauma and pain in media, how we use it and who it’s for; to have somebody actually offer to buy one of the crew would absolutely make those potential stakes clear to a white audience, but a poc audience (and in this specific case, a black one) doesn’t need that all to play out onscreen to know why it could.

the subtlety they bring to this really gets me, more and more the more i chew on it. because if you’re in that second category, even the shadow of what could happen in the real world is enough to bring up a lot of heavy history sight unseen. if you’re in the first, it’s an answer so obvious once the question is posed that nobody has to expend effort to explain it, and the consequences so gross we can all agree they would be bad and best to avoid.

you don’t find all that much acknowledgement in mass media of these subtler ways racism works in the world. stede didn’t even say or do anything explicitly racist or implicitly racist here; all the same, his lack of awareness and consideration could have led to something pretty racist happening anyway, and five seconds of thought would have been enough to know why it was probably a bad idea.

and we’re not supposed to hate stede for not knowing why that could have been a real problem, just know not asking himself those sorts of questions (and not being aware of the potential consequences of not doing so) is something he needs to change. 

this show is just... it’s real good. i like it a lot.

* narrator: keeping it quick was, of course, a doomed hope from the start

[hopeymchope]

Bunch of reactions to the Nintendo Direct Mini (6/28/22)

— OH MY GOD PERSONA 5 ROYAL / PERSONA 4 GOLDEN / PERSONA 3 PORTABLE ON SWITCH ARE ALL REAL WHY DIDN’T THEY TELL US EARLIER JESUS CHRIST 

BUUUUURN YOOOOOO DREEEEEEAD

.......................................thank the maker, lordy. Mad respect to bringing in the VAs for Morgana and Teddy to promote this, too. Should’ve thrown in Aigis while they were at it, but still very cool :D

— I still haven’t played any of the Nier games, and I know loads of people absolutely adore Automata, so I’ll probably play that finally on Switch. Although I’m most likely already spoiled for damn near everything that happens by now.

Is it still worth my time if I already basically know the twists and turns along the way?

—  MEGA MAAAAAAN OHwhoopsIt’sJustBattleNetwork. And it doesn’t even have the lone 2D platformer in that series (Network Transmission), which would be much more appealing to me personally. I must confess I’ve only ever tried to play the original Battle Network on the GBA, and it utterly failed to get my interest. Maybe the first game isn’t the best way to get introduced, though... ? I love Mega Man as a property enough that I might buy this just to support him, but I’m not sure. BTW Capcom, nice try with that “includes 10 games line,” but get outta here with that shit. That’s SIX games and you damn well know it. (.....you should’ve included Battle Chip Challenge though and made it seven)

“It includes ten games... from a certain point of view.”

— I really liked Mario + Rabbids Kingdom Battle more than I expected. I hope this sequel leans into what made it good and gives us a far wider variety of characters. And just bring Donkey Kong into the main campaign this time. That’d be neat.

— Pac-Man World is back! Pac-Man World Re-PAC BAAAYBEEEEE. I was always a fan of Pac-Man World 2 and especially Pac-Man World 3 (UNDERRATED), but the first one was really difficult for me to go back to... I never finished. So this news is VERY welcome. EXCEPT!... it contains even more of Namco rewriting history to erase Ms. Pac-Man from existence due to their unbelievable pettiness. 

(SHORTEST EXPLANATION I CAN MUSTER:  An American group of guys named “GCC Technologies” created the original Ms. Pac-Man, and they had a right to get residuals from it ONLY whenever the game was re-released either digitally or in original “coin-operated” arcade form. They made an agreement with AtGames to let them build miniature copies of the arcade game, which ultimately led to AtGames purchasing ALL of their residuals. BUT! Namco had previously let AtGames make miniature Pac-Man arcade machines, and they were so unhappy with the product’s low quality that they were FURIOUS to learn AtGames had purchased the residuals from the GCC Technologies. So now, Namco is on a quest to retroactively delete all evidence that Ms. Pac-Man ever existed in the most extreme case of epic corporate pettiness I’ve ever seen in my life. The logic seems to be that — even though Namco retains all rights to the Ms. Pac-Man character —   they’re afraid that letting the public see ANY REMINDER THAT MS. PAC-MAN EXISTED might lead them to giving AtGames money for their shitty miniature arcade cabinets. So instead, Namco is WIPING HER OUT — even going so far as to alter her appearances in all the old games included in the recent Pac-Man Museum+. She’s being replaced with a new hat-wearing girl they named “Pac-Mom,” which is literally a worse name than even “Ms. Pac-Man” was. It’s excessively FUCKED. And I deeply wish we could make them stop.)

Fucking PAC-MOM Jesus what the FUCK

— BLANC looks so pretty and so sweet and I’m very very worried that it’s going to make me cry by the end.

Either one of them dies or the wolf cub gets older and tries to kill the deer, I just know it. 

— Who did Nintendo have to pay to get timed console exclusivity on Return to Monkey Island?! Damn, I really need to play that series. I’ve barely scratched its surface. :( I’ve only played a little bit of The Curse of Monkey Island — which I hear this new sequel basically ignores, along with every other sequel past the second one? 

 — If some Nintendo fans are going to discover the Portal series for the first time, I’m very happy for them. Good vibes.

[sapropel]

Feck it.

CW: sensitive sexual stuff that I don't want to label LMAO

Hooked up with a top yesterday and I said okay I've tried bottoming before and I haven't enjoyed it but I'm open to trying again. If you bring condoms and lube we can try it. So we do the deed and we try a few different positions that don't work out &he's using condoms and he's like "okay this position is the last try" & I think he uses the last condom? And that position didn't work so we ended up doing other stuff and later he gets an idea and says "oh actually there's one last position we can try if you're down for it" and I say okay sure and that position ends up WORKING and I can feel him but I'm like, 95% sure he wasn't using a condom. In the moment I didn't want to ask him if he was because on one hand I didn't want to ruin the mood, on the other hand I think raw is fun, but on my secret 3rd hand I also have no sense of self-preservation and I dabble in self-destructive behaviors. Anyway he cums on me. Which is fine. And overall I had fun. Not with bottoming because that shit is boring but with the sex in general. But!!! We didn't talk about going condomless at all and it felt like a violation of my consent which I feel weird about because 1) obvious reasons and 2) I like straight up don't even have firm boundaries so I kind of feel like an empty shell of a person. I'm not even in my body dooooont even worry about it. Like I didn't feel shock or outrage or anything I was just like "oh okay. This is happening now." And I regret that NOW and wish I had stopped him to be like Hey this isn't what we discussed. But it's also possible he said "If you're down for it" with the implication it would be condomless and it was just a mess of miscommunication. But i did consent tonthat last round of bottoming so it feels complicated to say I didn't even if it was like. Maybe lost in translation. Also if before we had actually discussed sexual health (whiiiich we should have done anyway but again. I'm a walking corpse) and we were both negative I would have been like yeah okay let's do it. Maaaaaan this sucks. 👍 I feel like I'm gonna have to call him and talk this out otherwise it's gonna eat away at me

[taeyaxx]

How would the Haikyuu Captains spend Christmas with you? Like, what gift would they get you and the activities y’all would do? (Bokuto, Oikawa, Daichi, Kuroo, Ushijima, and Terushima)

tae’s notes: aaaaaaah!! ok so i love my nsfw but sfw like this makes my heart go 🥺🥰🥰 i really love hc’s like this too because all these boys are DORKS!!! thank you so much for the ask!! <3

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tags: sfw, fluff, bokuto is the biggest nerd when it comes to the holidays, holiday fun, cozy winter’s, warm sweaters, longer post, hc’s, mention of nsfw, mention of alcohol, just mostly sweet hc’s okay 🥺

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taglist: @kaaidalupita @ushiwakajimas @lunarkawa

okay so for bokuto i imagine him as the BIGGEST holiday person

like he goes above and beyond for the holidays 

especially Christmas!!! 

will go all out and i mean it!!

brings home a billion decertations and makes it a competition to see who can hang up the most in ten minutes

he always wins somehow 

buys you two ugly ass sweaters too

like i mean those really really ugly sweaters that he knows are ugly but it’s become a tradition between you two 

just wearing.......the ugliest sweaters as you two put the tree up 

as for gifts i think bokuto isn’t one to put like....a lot of money into them?

feel like he’s the type of guy to buy you something that hits you in the heart and makes you want to smother him in kisses

nothing too expensive but it’s the sentimental thought that counts

as for party games or activities i think bo would be into the cuter ones like gingerbread houses or just baking in general 

not that he knows how to bake but he likes to help you make cookies okay

(by help i mean he’s got his arms wrapped around your waist and chin on your shoulder and watching you bake and occasionally handing you things)

he’d sweep you under the mistletoe and kiss you until you both started laughing

picking you up he’d carry you off to the bedroom, sharing a chuckle with you for no other reason than just how in love he is with you

and then he’d quiet down and make the slowest, sweetest love to you 🥺

alright the next boy is the lovely oikawa!

feel like he isn’t the BIGGEST holiday person

for no reason i just think he’d be like “eh it’s another day”

but that DEF changes when he meets you

his attitude starts to go from “it’s a Tuesday” to slowly looking forward to every holiday he can celebrate with you

especially Christmas because it’s the one day he can spoil you in gifts and you can’t really get mad at him

like bokuto tho, he wouldn’t be the most expensive gifts

he’d get a bunch of things he had noticed you spoke of or the things your eyes lingered on just a little longer than others when you two were out

def the type to wake you up with breakfast in bed 

like isn’t the GREATEST cook in the world but he knows how to make some decent food

and he makes sure everything is perfect for your holiday morning

he’d pull out your favorite sweater of his and he’d wear it all day

bring you warm fuzzy socks and his favorite sweater for you and a cup of coffee/tea/hot chocolate

his main gift is probably that one pair of shoes you had wanted for awhile but could never bring yourself to buy

or just any similar gift

for activities, oikawa is ALL about the games

he sets up every holiday game he can think of 

does that stupid thing where he wraps a specific gift in like 12 layers of duct tape and 8 layers of bubble wrap and 5 layers of zip ties

like is an ASS abt it but it’s always funny having to beg him to get a pair of scissors for you because he went overboard again

after gifts he’d pull you off to the bedroom and kiss you slowly before 

giving you all the pleasure in the world 🥰

next is daichi! let’s just say....

MY BOY!!!

daichi here isn’t into any other holiday EXCEPT for Christmas 

mans does everything for Christmas

he’s buying the decorations and hanging them up with your help

setting the tree up IN NOVEMBER !!

goes crazy with the lights outside too

like y’all are def known for being THAT house on the street just 

full blown Christmas lights

when Christmas morning comes tho, he’d wake you up nice and early (not anymore so than normal tho) and take you into the kitchen where he’s made the BIGGEST breakfast for you

i’m talking every breakfast food is out on the tabel and you can’t help but shake your head

cause who’s gonna eat it all? 

somehow you two finish up whatever you can before he’s moving onto doing some small activities 

he doesn’t go crazy with them but likes to do some stuff with you

somehow got into painting? 

don’t know how it happened but i feel like he sets up an entire thing in one of the spare rooms

and you two just paint the silliest things you can think of 

and at some point you two def play drunk roulette and try to guess what alcohol was what in each cup  

as for gifts the man is stupid when it comes to buying things 

he goes so overboard when spending money on you 

doesn’t buy like 15 million gifts but will buy you 3 or 4 SUPER expensive gifts 

and you sit there, opening them up and knew he would spend too much money so you also had to buy more expensive gifts 

that he would use everyday just because you paid for them of course

by the end of the night you two end up on the couch, cuddling under a giant blanket, and watching some hallmark Christmas movies smh 

and if you want something a little more exciting, because daichi is That gentleman, he waits for you to ask

and when you do? y’all don’t even move to the bed 

he’d kiss you all slow and dim the lights and let the movie behind you play out as you two focus on the more intimate parts of the holiday

kuroo my baby.....my life....my heart I love him

mans is so cute during the holidays he’s just 🥺

baby boy doesn’t wake up super early at all

he’d wake up a little bit but you two know it’s too cold so you just cuddle in closer and fall asleep until noon

when you two finally get up tho, he’s sluggish pulling you out of bed and giving you a sweater to wear and that’s all he wants you to wear

pulling you into the living room to reveal his gift for you and it’s gotta be like a dog or cat or something istg 

you’d just walk into a new cat sitting on the couch just sleeping away and you just SIGH 

“kuroo...it’s adorable but this will be the 4th cat we have”

“BAAAABE it’s so cute tho 🥺”

so you get another cat lol Which is fine cause…..it is cute 🥺

can’t decide if kuroo would wait until night to get into the sexc or if he would just start the entire day off with little whispers and lazy sex and then it’s just all daaaaay baby 

pulls you into the bath together

like srsly would fuck you all day long as a gift too 

and god if it isn’t a great gift tho smh 

finally you both decide to get dressed and go out to any open place for dinner 

being too tired from the rest of the activities you had done all day

which is probably why you guys don’t play any games at all lol you just end up being too tired

so no traditional activities other than being bent over every surface in your house 

after it gets too dark i’m sure you two would just cuddle into bed, legs tangled up in a mess and just whisper all the things you love abt each other yk how it be 🥺🥺

NOW THIS IS MY MAAAAAAN UGH 

ushi doesn’t really see the desire of the entire holiday

like giving gifts and eating a good dinner should be EVERY NIGHT he thinks

Christmas eve you two would visit his family (cause uwu farm boi) so that way he’d have you all to himself Christmas day

probs has a tradition on like baking pie together or some kind of sweets

makes it a little competition to see who can bake the best pie tbh

you always win somehow

other than that he really isn’t into too many games?

he just enjoys your company and usually places you and himself in front of the fireplace and you two cuddle for the entire day

you read books and joke and laugh and paint your nails and do just mundane things together

at some point in the night tho he’d turn on some music and would slow dance with you in the kitchen 🥺

as for gifts?

BRUH

that’s all i’m gonna say sjksjd 

ok ok but no this man buys you SO MUCH

like yeah he doesn’t see the reason to buy you gifts only for this one day (cause let’s tbh he buys you gifts constantly)

but for Christmas? he just..... “oh this is a thing everyone else does so i must do it too” but in the kindest way

buys you an entire new wardrobe because he notices you wanting some new shirts

buys you new purses or wallets or jewelry

would surprise you with a trip to some vacation home somewhere

like he is all god giving on Christmas 

lowkey would def surprise you with an entire new wardrobe just for lingerie and you can’t fight me on this

it makes you a little sad you only buy him a few new watches and new ties or whatever else he might have mentioned over a few lunches or dinners

he doesn’t mind tho since he’s literally all abt pleasuring you yk

for the later activities tho, i feel like he’d be more like daichi?

like def would bend you over the counter as you two cooked dinner or in front of the fireplace but he waits for you

waits until you’re calling for him to make love to you

and when he does? UGH

let’s just say he has you crying later 

baby boy....baby....

much like kuroo i feel like he’d wanna make love ALL DAY 

wakes you up early just to have morning sex

after the third round you have to tell him they need to eat something

and tbh feel like he might lowkey forget to get you a gift until the LAST DAY 

like he def just bought this gift last night and wrapped it while you slept 

and tbh....it’s so cute of him to do that jkjks

he seems like the type to buy you jewelry or socks or both lol

like buys you a new necklace and some rings

def doesn’t try to talk you into getting a matching tongue piecing yk

also feel like he’d buy a new set of “bedroom toys” for you two to try out

and at first it’s like “of course he would” but you thank him later after using them

also a HUGE fan of ugly sweaters

but makes it a game to see who can MAKE the ugliest sweater like 

you will not see this man spend money on an ugly sweater but he will buy a bunch of ugly accessories just so you two can have fun making them

so it’s a tradition now that you two a week before Christmas begin making ugly sweaters

usually it ends up being a tie smh

feel like he would be into a bunch of other games tho

like the white elephant games or caramel apples and ginger bread houses

he just wants to spend all his time with you so he looks up a bunch of games you two can play 

he almost seems like the type to do puzzles? so maybe you two would work on a 2,000 piece puzzle together 

watch really old and bad movies together too

for some reason i feel like he’d be the best cook out of all the boys??? for no reason really i just...imagine he knows how to cook so well

so he def makes this big ass dinner of anything you wanted even if it’s not traditional food

like the one year you guys literally had PIZZA just because it sounded good

also talk abt snow ball fights and building all sorts of things outta the snow

and y’all can fight me on this............after a few years he’d be that cliche guy to propose to you and confess his entire heart out for you 

(of course you say yes becausae you’re so in love with him 🥰)

[readbythestarlight]

c2e140

So okay is tonight the last episode? Because people keep saying it is basically and like while I’ve resigned myself to it ending I feel like if it ends tonight it’s gonna be VERY abrupt

I’ve been so distracted by the battle I forgot to type lol

That thing Caleb did with the glaive was intense tho and very clever

[[MORE]]

"I cast Marine Layer!!!" lol

I’m sorry HOW many attacks??

Jfc how is Veth still up

Don’t make her cut through the body of her wife wtf Matt

Oh thank goodness

Veth noooooo

"Lots of cover" says Caleb, who is trapped under a tower

E: "Caleb I need you!"

Me: AHHHHHHHHHHHH

I’m crying

YAAAAAS BABY

SAVING HIS MAN

"Press my forehead to his forehead" FUCKINGGGGGGGS

F O R E H E A D T O U C H

I’m going to cry forehead touches are my FAVORITE form of showing affection and intimacy

jester NO

This is starting to get frustrating as a fight come ON KILL HIM

Both of the clerics going down

Wonderful

Oh thank GOD he had death ward

Holding onto his maaaaaan

Caleb that’s smart very nice

Should have willed her to just live tho tbh

Fuck I need to sleep just as the fight has started to get interesting/stressful

Oh thank god that Cad had a diamond ready to bring her back

Oh no is it gonna fail??

FUCK

that’s the first time they’ve failed to bring someone back

OH MY GOD

MATTHEW YOU SON OF A BITCH

God the clerics are in BAD shape

Please stop picking on my kids

Cant Lucien and the Eyes just die

He’s down fuck

And Essek’s right there with him

Fuck

Oh thank GOD for that heal bless you Laura/Jester

Niiiiiice!

Oh daaaaamn Beau nice move

NAT20 YEAAHHHH

Marisha jumping up and down in her chair lol

Essek Gonna fuck him UP for hurting Caleb HELL yeah

Y’all I’m writing so much Shadowgast in my head

FUCK HIM UP BOIIIIIII

Babyyyyyyy

Plz don’t kill Essek

Essek nooooo

Oh thank god

Not my other BOYYYY

Okay okay oKAY GOOD

HOW is there still an hour and a half to go

Stop trying to kill my BOY

Babyyyy D:

Hey Matt why don’t you tell us what Essek saw

Did he see Caleb reaching out for him

Did he Matt

Did he

FUCK NOT AGAIN

CALEB NOOOO

God dammit

Fucking fuck

NO

he’s DEAD

fucking hell

Essek get back to your man

Of course they can’t see him

Not that it matters because he’s dead

Fucking fuuuuuck

End this fight already I hate this

Come on Laura roll really good

YES

GO LAURA

GO JESTER

YAAAAAAAAAS

Y’all I literally shrieked

Holy shit y’all

Hoooolllyyyyy shit

Oh that’s both spooky and soft

Oh good the eyes are going too I’m glad

Bring him BACK

I’m begging

Revivify

Please oh gods please

(Essek please stand there in the background anxious)

Please god y’all can’t kill Liam’s character at the end of BOTH campaigns

God I was CONVINCED he was going to be perma-dead

“Insight check” I’m laughing through my tears

Somebody let Essek hug Caleb or something idk

What the

No way

I’m with Essek and Fjord here

“Once you’re a member of the Mighty Nein you’re in. You should know that by now.” Okay okay okay

Are we really gonna do this omg

Yoooooo go back for the bag!

Oh no

RIP the bag of holding

Fjord’s priorities are in the right place *nod*

Gonna have to have a one shot to find the lost U’kotoa eye I guess

NAT20 whoopWHOOP

Awww Fjorjester huuuuug they’re so wholesome

I honestly don’t know how I feel about this

Oh my godddddddd

What

Was it a 9???

What was it??

OH NO

A NAT1?? oh jeeze

That

That hurts

To have lost him a second time, basically

Ouch…

Essek now is not the time to be jealous, love

Fjord checking up on my boy

E: “It’s not fair. It’s not fair, you’ve all come so far. It’s just not fair.”

F: “It rarely is. You did more for us and for him than most anyone we know

“I spent my entire life studying with the intent to not let things like this happen to chance. That can’t be it, can it?”

F: “I don’t know, but if you ere to ask my wife friend Cad he’d tell you that life continues on. It changes, it elopes, it grows. I don’t think there’s an end…” couldn’t follow the rest but I’m crying a LOT

“You’ve shown me all I need to see” THANK YOU FJORD im crying so hard y’all

“Caleb Widowgast. Have you ever accepted defeat?”

“Hm. Maybe today for the first time. Or, well, a chance in direction anyway.”

Essek wants to help so bad y’all I’m cryin’

Oh dang Cad

HOLY

oh my god

02%

WILD

MOM

???

“Put it back. I think they’ve earned it. Put it back.”

Oh my goddddd

I feel better knowing it’s Taliesin’s choice

I’m gonna CRY

Oh

My GODDDSS

“I can’t deal with the emotional whiplash” GIRL SAME

“Your eyes open for the first time”

Holy

FUCK

“Bolts up and runs”

Oh my god y’all

Oh

My god

GROUP HUG HIM

Molly

Mollymauk

MOLLYMAUK

TEALEAF

not empty not empty no

Babyyyy

Fuck y’all I’m gonna cry

I’m gonna cry for real

I didn’t think I’d really be so happy to have him back

Holy SHIT y’all

Yeeeeees hug your man Caleb

This is so emotional I’m crying

“Empty” no baby

I’m so glad it wasn’t at the cost of us losing Caduceus

I love Cad so much

“I’m so tired”

“I think you have a bright future ahead of you”

I’m crying over everyone being so sweet to Essek <3

“You’re always welcome at my house”

Y’all I’m gonna BAWL next week

Literally gonna just weep for however many hours it lasts

[bellsyafterdark]

are there any other star wars ships that you're into/that we can bounce ideas off you? (if that's not wanted then my bad)

I am pretty much an omnishipper which means I support everything but not all of them catch my interest in the same way.

I tend to be drawn to ships with a bit of shade, where they could/do antagonise each other a little or a lot, even better if one or more involved have done some questionable shit. I like ships that aren't so straightforward, self-evident, or popular, because the fun for me is to figure out how a rare, unlikely or non-intuitive puzzle of a relationship works or could be possible.

And if there's Size Difference? Holy 🔥. Service Top potential -- hold my gd beer. Bonus inhuman and/or monstrous elements on top? Baby, I'm already writing just point me where.

For me it's a little less "who?" and it's more "what are they bringing to the table?" If the concept is interesting to me, even if the ship is super-established, I'll be curious. I prefer when the challenges are thematically resonant with what we know of their character so the challenges or questions to explore are meaty and satisfying.

(you wouldn't know this from all the porn I've been writing but it's been stressful ok)

Marie Kondo is my creative muse: I love mess. And then I like to see if either we can make that ship's mess worse or navigate our way out into greener, therapised, mutually communicative pastures.

I find the more the merrier especially fun, as is probably obvious by the ball and chain polycule and YES I SAW THAT ASK TO BRING COBB BY FOR A VISIT AND I AM SALIVATING OKAY I WANT IT 😍🤤🔥

I really wish my brain wasn't so wired for rarepairs bc I would have so much more fucking food 😂

Some specific ship examples below the cut.

Rare randoms I want see more

Any iteration of Bo-Katan/Koska Reeves/Axe Woves. Why is there not more content for these three? And then inflict them on Din idk.

Boba/Koska: I know 90% of people heard "little one" and gave it to Din but maaaaaan this was fire FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT

(if it's a Mando ship my reprieve will often be "inflict them on Din" bc he's our hero)

Boba/Fennec (Bobannec) makes me crazy because I love power couples with conflict. I love that tbobf didn't start with everything at peace. Ah, show me the journeeeeeey 😍

Anything Axe Woves: just, who the fuck are you, dude? Huh? Tell me.

Anything Armourer, Koska or Fennec: I want them to beat me up and/or sit on my face and I'm not particular about the order.

Paz/Probably Anyone because it would be an opportunity to explore his character.

Din/The Darksaber: I read a story where the darksaber had a symbiote and it's never left my brain ok

Din/Monsters: This is not very fucking deep, I just love monsters

Background commentary

Din/Robots: Dude is a recovering droidphobic let's please traumatise I mean continue his journey

Thrawn/Eli Vanto: I know nothing about Eli Vanto but Thrawn is my actual favourite star wars character so I want to learn more about Thrawn

I've read plenty of QuiObi and cried tears over Codywan, I love Anidala and classics like HanLeia but I know I'm never going to write for those. I never even sit back and wonder about them. Because I get why they work. Those are what I read when I know exactly what I need and will get.

For instance, Din/Luke is the leading mlm ship in the Mando fandom (I think) and I think it's sweet! It also gives Din plenty of opportunities to be with his baby 🤗💛 But nothing fires in my brain for that ship because... I get it 😂 also they're both so similar in their gentle natures and I prefer ships where there's more fire in the complement. DinLuke would be the neighbours I want to live beside but I sure don't wonder about their prospective love life.

(I'm more partial to Han/Luke because Back In My Day we liked pain; how would Luke navigate this impasse where he may love his sister unconditionally but he's trying to smother this shameful, painful yearning for her partner/husband, etc.)

The only things I don't write are reader inserts and OCs (basically the same thing). Again, I support them and I've read plenty, ok my first entry into writing for Mando was the absurdly popular pairing of Din and this original stormtrooper character named Corin BC the writer was just that engaging, but now I have an actual cast to play with. I'd rather see what opportunities they all provide for me.

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i will be the first to admit i haven’t read kotohogushi yet but was the onigari-no-ryuuou supposed to grant its wielders the ability to go super saiyan??? is that how ouka defeated hanyuu back in the day? hello????

...it was a cool episode to watch (thank god it was new content), but the more i think about it now the more i just go huh??? the fight scenes and transitions were pretty cool, and the dbz fight was gorgeously animated but like........... huh?

really annoyed that they condensed satoko’s side of the argument down to “i don’t want to study” when we know it’s more nuanced than that what with the lingering trauma and abandonment issues she’s still dealing with among other things. i know rika assumes that studying’s the problem and that’s why she’s trying to ask about it specifically, so satoko’s responding to her, but like. the fandom at large is gonna take that as the sole reason all of this is happening and... h

satoko’s 100% in the wrong here but like, man. maaaaaan. some Choices were made with this show and there was an opportunity for this fanservice laden fight scene to actually let them talk about the real issue instead of “STUDYING BAD, YOUR NEW FRIENDS SUCK” and i... sighs

why even bother bringing up the losing condition or show the club with different outfits if they weren’t gonna do anything with it.

also could we have let hanyuu at least try to do something before getting curbstomped? like, let her do the thing before it fails? i was so excited for her... i get featherine eua is op as hell but like... :(

k1 going “...this isn’t part of the dance, right?” as rika and satoko were literally trying to kill each other made me laugh. god i wish the other club members were relevant. keiichi, mion, shion, rena, my beloveds, i miss you :(

whatever, we’re almost done. just give me bern and lambda and announce a new umineko project already, i guess. why hecking not at this point. 

maybe i will write up that sotsugyou fixes post next week. we’ll see how this ends. but for now i’m just gonna sit here and be like “not my matsuribayashi fragment, i dunno what’s going on here but it’s not the canon matsuribayashi, BYE”