#will rb for tags in a sec!

[hotshotsxyz]

different now

(buddie) (719 words) (6b spec) the rest of what i posted earlier, featuring eddie waiting for buck to wake up and calling the universe out on its bullshit

Buck’s name has been stuck in his throat for days now and Eddie’s starting to choke on it. 

Buck died. 

He died. 

He’s not dead, but he died, and he could die again and Eddie wants to start screaming all over again. Needs to, he thinks, because how else is the universe going to understand that if it takes Buck away from him, Eddie’ll never be whole again. 

I thought you didn’t believe in the universe, a mocking voice that sounds just a little bit like Buck says in the back of his head. 

“Yeah, well,” Eddie replies aloud, “you do. That’s got to mean something.”

He clasps Buck’s cold, still hand between his own and presses his forehead against it, bowed in a strange caricature of prayer. 

“You know, Hen told Christopher you were here, not me. The hospital kept me overnight for observation, so she picked him up from Carla. First thing he asked was where you were.”

Buck, predictably, says nothing. 

“Is that how you felt when– when I…” Eddie continues. “I don’t think I understood before. I thought I did, but… god, Buck, it’s different now, isn’t it?”

Eddie gently sets Buck’s hand back down on the rough hospital sheets and rubs his eyes tiredly. 

“I’m terrified,” Eddie admits. “What am I supposed to do if–” the lump in his throat cuts him off. 

His eyes catch on the scar peeking out from beneath the collar of Buck’s hospital gown. Unconsciously, Eddie reaches for his own burn, flinching when his fingers make contact. 

When he dreams, Eddie’s skin is pristine. There are no twin scars on his shoulders, no burn on his arm. Buck, too, is free from any permanent reminders of his wounds, past or present. The thin scar that’s sat at the base of his throat since the day Eddie met him is gone, and the skin of his left leg is creamy and smooth. 

Eddie wonders who those people are, the versions of him and Buck with no scars between them. Are they still… whatever it is that they are to each other? Or have they never even met. Maybe the only version of Eddie who never had a scar is the one who was lost to the desert. Maybe the version of Buck without scars is the one who never stopped wandering. 

A wave of anger crashes over him. 

“Why us?” he bites out. “Or– why him? He was trying to help someone. He didn’t deserve to be hit out of nowhere by some unseen force of the universe!”

Neither did you, the Buck-adjacent voice reminds him. 

“I know,” Eddie says quietly. He takes Buck’s hand again and squeezes it. “I also don’t deserve to watch another person I– I don’t deserve to watch you die. So you have to wake up, okay? For– for Chris, and for Maddie, and Bobby, and everyone else who loves you, and… and for me, okay?”

Buck’s hand twitches and a jolt of hope zips up Eddie’s spine. 

“Yes, Buck, yes,” he says, nearly jumping out of his chair. “You fight to come home to your family, okay? We need you.”

Eddie leans forward and brushes his thumb across Buck’s cheek. 

“Open your eyes,” he whispers. 

A small groan escapes Buck’s lips. 

Eddie freezes, not even daring to breathe for fear he might send Buck tumbling back down into whatever black hole his mind created to protect him.

Buck’s eyelashes flutter, then finally, finally, they open.

A tear slides down Eddie’s cheek. “Buck,” he breathes. 

Buck blinks a few times, gaze unfocused, until something seems to shift and his attention lands on Eddie. He opens his mouth as if to speak, but all that comes out is a soft rasp. He swallows and tries again. 

“Eds,” he barely whispers. “Hurt?”

“Yeah Buck,” Eddie says quietly, “you got hurt.”

Buck frowns and squeezes Eddie’s hand. “No. Are… you?” he asks, slowly, painfully. 

“No,” Eddie says in a rush of air. “No, Buck, I’m okay. Everyone’s okay. You–” Eddie closes his eyes. 

“M’okay too, Eds,” Buck says. 

“You are,” Eddie says. “Thank you.”

Buck’s brow furrows. “F’what?” he asks.Eddie shakes his head and laughs softly. For bringing him back to me, he thinks in the general direction of the universe. “For coming home,” he says aloud.

[smilesobrien]

[jakowskis]

when i tell you this shit made me bark at my fucking screen,

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[thatoneluckybee]

yttd as those random pictures i find on pinterest

[cheesybadgers]

I have no idea if we'll get anything along these lines, but flashbacks to Eddie's childhood could do so much heavy lifting on the 'show rather than tell' front if we're going for a queer awakening here. We've had flashbacks to most of the main characters' childhoods now, but Eddie Begins only went as far back as when Shannon was giving birth to Chris and then moved forward to cover their marriage problems. We've heard bits and pieces from earlier than that via conversations between Eddie and his family, but we've not actually seen any of it.

I also feel like Eddie needs to go to El Paso, not just to get Chris back, but to confront his parents and his past head-on.

Not saying either of these things will happen of course lol, but if I had a wish-list, these would be near the top of it.

[arsenicflame]

modern au where ed + jack have spent the last several decades buying izzy the absolute DUMBEST shirts for every occasion- its a competition between them at this point- whoever gets izzy the shirt that makes him groan louder wins. izzy complains about this ridiculous tradition but he secretly loves it, has kept every single shirt, and often even sleeps in them (he will kill anyone who ever finds out)

[the-woild-is-y-erster]

ok i

yall know how much i ship sprace

n redfinch is growing on me because of @/crystallizedtwilight's art

but @toffyrats made a post the other day abt the song from the start by laufey being albie's persoective when sprace gets together?????? and my heart just broke because i adore albert (because i am the same person as him but not the point) and so i

i might have made an unrequited ralbert playlist

here's the link if yall want it<3

ill prolly add more songs to it and might change the name later but i just

gaaah i love red so much but i also love sprace so it just hdjdjsbh

[speci-society]

God i just got reminded of the most obnoxious begging for likes post ive ever seen in my life. Look at this i saw earlier this year

Tumblr on my phone crops my images weird when i try and put the water filter on it so i had to give it a homemade filter. Anyway. Do people not realize that passive aggressive guilt tripping is the fastest way to get people to Not want to support the things you make. Much less publicly calling out and shaming them AND TAGGING THEM DIRECTLY?!???!?!?? WHERE AM I IM CRAZY TOWN

[realsafari]

Hold on I have the perfect image for how I feel right now

[sovaharbor]

the x's are because i. am not keeping those. however i kinda had no choice but to like, leave them in, for now. just to help me gauge stuff better. anyways i made those legs and that skirt myself..... yes the anatomy of the legs is a little wonky, im gonna clean them up later. and. also the skirt isnt Finished yet, i might add a belt? im trying to figure out how to do it. but basically ive decided on like a very balletcore sort of look for tempo (which, yes, it's a reference to their callsign And their radiant power, i am big-brained and i know it) which....is gonna be interesting? bc i want to keep things really minimalist for him clothing-wise, but. even the characters w/ more basic designs like viper, brimstone, & jett still have Interesting Stuff. so. idk.

[themyscirah]

Just got a rb on an old post and realized that my most popular DC post EVER was a GL post from before I ever read GL (which really says smth abt the dc fandom as a whole)

Anyways im just going to go and 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

[cripgineer]

I’ll never write the fic but I do think about like. This specific kind of story in my head about engineer and his relationship with his team. Especially in a way that tackles engie and disabilty- the canonical ones and otherwise.

I’d like to see fan works that explore disability in tf2 in a way that wasn’t… like, I dunno. It’s not bad but a way that I usually don’t 100% gel with.

[hedonicghost]

currently at the stage in growing out our hair where every time we look in the mirror the part of our brain that still thinks its 10 years old goes "oh my god the roblox shaggy hair for 10 tix?????

[grellssquishyhusband]

Some of the beautiful urls I've seen lately for porn bots

[vigilskeep]

hi i saw morriana with lyrium ghost leliana and i would like to hit reblog. wheres this artist??? :]

sorry super late response but it’s tumblr user fingermaidens!

[jonbinary-archive]

HALLO!!! today i am ONE YEAR on TESTOSTERONE !!! here is a little timeline of sorts featuring varied snapchat filters . i <3 boyjuice and all it has done for me (turning me from a pretty girl 2 a hot guy)