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happyselves · 3 years

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Wrong Number { Lando Norris x reader one shot }

WARNING !!! EXPLICIT !!!

You were the new PR assistant of Mclaren F1 Team and you end up adapting pretty quickly even starting to have some friends in the team and you were actually at grand prix for the weekend, working on the social media stuff. Obviously for your work you had to have the driver's phone number, but you haven't had the need to use it yet.

You were chilling in your bed, in that gorgeous hotel room, writing some new plans and ideas of videos for the next day where you will have to film a video of the drivers for the youtube of the team. Your phone was lost in your bed sheet and you were on it. Usually you aren't staying up this late but grand prix's weekends were a lot of work.

Indeed you were focused, glasses on almost done with your work. As soon as you finish, content with what you did, you close your computer and put it down next to bed, searching your phone everywhere to turn it off but you saw the little notification and decided to click on it.

Your eyes went wide as you saw the picture of a penis in erection, you double checked the name ... " Lando Norris " . What was happening was that he ... you didn't know how to react before seeing the three little points telling you that he was writing to you.

" OMG I'm so so sorry that wasn't meant for you, omg omg I'm so so sorry really Oh my god "

Obviously you were still shocked, I mean it was Lando Norris, the driver you work with ... You are supposed to see him tomorrow, how are you both going to be able to move on from this. Of course he does what he wants to do in his personal time. That's not your business to tell but a dick pic ? Why were you feeling so hot right now ? Was it because of the embarrassment or was it something else ? Because your stomach makes you feel a weird sensation that extends below between your legs. You took so long to respond that the three dots appeared again.

" I understand if you don't want to answer but know that I'm deeply sorry sincerely, I don't know what to do, if I could delete it and go back like 20 minutes ago I would, I'm not like that .. I'm not someone dirty ... doing that to someone... that's not who i am at all... "

You read and another message appeared.

" I had a bet with my friends, it's so dumb I feel so bad now, please say something I don't want this to change your work environnment ... "

How could you respond to him, staying professional ? Or admitting that you were so turned on by this picture and him, that you were imagining him touching you, one hand inside your underwear and the second one holding your phone, watching this picture again and again. He was large and the perfect size like how you like it. It was too late for your brain to function properly when you already had a press to send a message your thumbs wrote on it's own.

" You turned me on "

Shit ... that's all you had written ? The realisation hit you, what did you just do ... Why were you feeling so dirty right now but you were so excited to see his response, to see how he will react, that was a bit perverted of you but it felt so good to let yourself go lose like this. Too bad it was with basically one of your bosses ... The dots appeared so quick on the screen ... that's it you went too far and you are about to get kicked out of that team.

" Turn you on ? "

...

" Ohhhh ... "

" OH "

He was freaking out, of course he was freaking out. You were about to write something when the next text came at your surprise.

" You like it ? "

Oh god, he is entering a dangerous game now, first him sending you a pic and then you lose yourself that you respond something completely out of character and now he is playing along with it and you want more, so much more.

" Yeah ... a lot ... don't feel sorry and don't feel ashamed of it "

The anticipation of his next message was burning your inner self.

" I feel proud ... I don't really know what to say actually "

You knew what to do and you did it. You took a picture of your hand down your underwears touching yourself and send him accompanied with a little description " Now we are even "

His response didn't wait long before it came.

" Stop it [YN] are you doing that because of me ? "

You giggle and the vibration of your laugh made you moan somehow, you were feeling so hot right now and your hand was moving slowly to massage you. You were trying your best to not go too fast cause you wanted the pleasure to last, but it was hard writing with only one hand so you pressed the button to dial him. You didn't know if he would pick up but you needed to finish what you started. It rang 3 times before he picked up, both of you went quiet for a moment before you talked with a small almost whispering voice.

" I didn't know if you would pick up "

Lando POV :

What was happening to me, out of everything the person I sent a pic to… it has to be her, the new girl in the team, the actually pretty sexy new girl ... whyyyy ? But I was so surprised to see that she wasn't freaking out, quite the opposite actually, she wasn't as shy and innocent as she makes us all believe and I liked that. I liked that I might be the only one to see the little demon waking up behind that angelic figure. She put me in shock when she wrote that I turned her on, she didn't have much to do and the mystery of this got me so curious and then she sent me a picture of her touching herself, saying we are even ? She was playing a dangerous game here and if I'm not careful I might become addicted to it. She threw me off one more time by calling me, I didn't know what to do and I almost missed the call before picking up. What can I say to her? I hardly speak to her during work time and I don't even know if I would remember her voice.

And then she spoke with the most innocent angelic voice yet kinda out of breath, I wanted to moan just by listening to her but I bit my lips very hard for the sound to not come out of my mouth.

" well I wasn't sure if I could to "

She giggled and I swear I felt a twitch in my pants.

" I'm glad you did "

Her voice was erratic now, and I could bet she was pleasuring herself. Dangerous, mysterious, a little dirty and slightly perverted but in a good way. Knowing that you switch that button in her brain that turns on her just by sending a picture was so exciting to me and made me want her even more. I saw her so many times, the McLaren's team outfit wasn't doing her justice but I could see her pretty curve, she was giving the body of a goddess. She was everything I was attracted to, physically and now knowing this dark side of her, mentally too. I want more, so much more again and I was imagining her touching herself just for me and my mouth opened on it's own, letting sound escaping it have my eyes closed. It took me time before I realised that I was on the phone with her again.

Lando: shittt, [ YN ] what are we doing ?

You : I don't know but I can't stop, not now it's too late

Lando : What are you doing ?

You : You know what I am doing don't you ? And that's on you ..

Damn if I could leave my room right now and meet her in her and take her I would !

Lando : I need you to tell me what you are doing cause I'm going crazy here ..

She paused before talking again.

You : I'm touching myself thinking of you, your hand on me, how warm you would feel on me, how the veins in your arms would pop up...

I bet her fingers were moving rather fast than slow right now cause she whimpered from time to time. For real this woman that I barely know is driving me crazy and knowing that she is just a couple meters away from me. I love it so much because it feels like she is a forbidden fruit, a delicious one that I can't touch but desperately want and need now that I almost had the taste of it.

You : And you, what are you doing ?

You POV

You were far from the edge but you felt the tingling spike between your legs, he could go quick or slow, the orgasm was preparing itself, sending you electricity randomly.

Lando : I'm slowly caressing myself down to go and take myself thinking of you, your hair tingling my skin, how your hands feel on my naked torso and so far you look absolutely gorgeous.

You bit your lips so hard at how he pictured perfectly what was going on in your mind, you were in symbiosis. There was a question burning your lips for so long already and you really wanted to ask him so you dare so.

You : Do you wanna come into my room ?

Lando : Are you sure ? I'm pretty sure there are some rules that we can't cross.

You : They don't need to know and even if they know if you take the responsibility they can't do anything.

Lando : Oh trust me I will take the responsibilities for it.

You : Then come to room 155, and be quick and quiet cause there are other people on the team in the next rooms.

You hung up the phone and quickly went to the bathroom, you didn't know what was going on in your head to be so bold but you needed it so much, you needed him so much. You check yourself in the mirror, you were supposed to sleep in a big oversize mclaren tee shirt with just a pj short that we could barely see because of the shirt.

Lando soon knocks on the door twice and you jump off the bed to go and open it. As soona so do so you bring him by the shirt and crash your lips into his. He pushes you inside the room and closes the door behind you, pinning you against the wall. He was kissing you with so much passion, literally eating your lips, tasting all of you like you were something rare that he will never taste again. His hands went under your shirt and he was surprised to see that you didn't have a bra. His palms found themself at home on each side of your breast lifting you before holding you from your thighs. You were mesmerized to see such a young shy man like him being so confident right now and that turns you on even more. Your legs were now crossed around him not letting him now that you had him, hands in his curls playing with them. He was like a puppy when you pulled them a little bit, breaking the kiss, closing his eyes and moaning into your ears, what a beautiful melody it was. He kissed your jaw mufflying something as soon as he met your neck.

Lando : I want you so much

You thought you misheard it and your heart went crazy like it wanted to escape your chest. He pushed both of you on the bed, making you bounce on the mattress and unlock yourself from him, you whined a bit missing his contact already and he laughed before pausing, watching you sit on your elbow.

You : What

Lando : You are so hot in that McLaren tee shirt but you would look even more perfect in one of my shirts.

You : Then next time you will give me one or I will still have one of yours but for now just come here.

And you bring him once more by the aim of his shirt, taking it off in the process of kissing again. Your tongues were shyly meeting a first contact with each other before finding their pace and dancing together. How could they fit so well with each other ? You both felt something like you never felt before and it caught you both off guard that you moaned in harmony before looking at each other.

You : I don't think I can wait that long, I need you now Lando.

Lando POV :

The way she says my name, man, I will always remember this moment, her under me looking like a greek goddess, the way her eyes were on me, eating me alive ... Like the dude I don't remember who said I now understand what it is to burn for someone cause I was burning of desire for her. I don't think I could ever get tired of her eyes begging me to touch her, her breath itching as I touch a sensitive spot. The way her body moves as I take off her shirt throwing on the ground. How she giggled when my head got stuck in my own shirt as she tried to pull it off me. I don't know what angels sound like but I'm pretty sure it's close to her voice.

When I kissed her on her neck, going down to her chest. Her skin reacts giving her shivers that she digs her nails in my back, lifting her chin in pure pleasure.

All the imagination I had of her like this became reality and it was better than what I had ever dreamt of. She was the definition of warm and erotistic and she was so vulnerable in front of me gladly giving me her approval to take advantage of her.

You POV :

You were both almost naked only your bottom part was still on but not for long, you graciously took off your shorts putting it down with your feet before you turned your focus on his grey pants showing already how big his bulge was. You didn't need to imagine how he must be because you've already seen it and you couldn't wait to see it for real. Lando stands on his knees letting you pull down the jogging letting his member finally free from any fabric. As he goes down again to attack you on your lips he takes the rest of his pants off. It was so intimate to both be naked like this, your skin feeling his, connecting like two wires cable sending each other electricity. There was something real happening between you too, there were the physic attraction yes but it was so much more than sex and you weren't even at that part yet. He was taking his time with you, testing your patience, how much of a self control he had cause you just wanted to have him inside of you, but he decided overwise, instead he went down between your legs kissing them and licking them before blowing on it which made you arch your back.

You : Stop it already I can't take it anymore ...

Lando : Shut up ... I know you enjoyed it

Oh my god, you never knew you had kink for that, him being dominante like that, his voice vibrating down your legs was extremely disturbing for you cause that made you inner self react on his own, twisting inside and making moaning louder than usual. Oh that was dangerous, you felt like he could make you cum without actually touching you and now he knows it and will use it as an advantage. His tongue was running on you, coming way too close to your inner thigh. He paused, tilting his head a bit to look at you in the eyes before connecting his lips to you. That was the hottest thing you ever experienced and now feeling his wet tongue there, eating you like you were his favorite dessert, you didn't know how long you could last. You were arching your back one more time, your breath going erratically quick. You couldn't keep your eyes open for more than 10 seconds to look at him and your hands end up finding their place in his hair, messing his curly locks, holding on to whatever you could to not cum right away. His tongue was playing with your entrance and your clitoris.

After playing for so long he tongue was becoming numb but that didn't matter to you cause you came to the edge , grooming so loud, your hands still his hair, pulling him to you to kiss him and testing yourself by the same occasion. That was the first time a man ever made you cum just with his mouth like that, usually they stay there a bit and wanted to be inside you as quick as possible but Lando was different, he was here for your pleasure, only focussing on you, putting him in second place and you heart was melting at that thought. You kiss him gently, slowly with every feeling that you could pass him on. You both needed to take a break to breathe but you wanted more again. You wanted to make him feel how he made you feel, so you pinned him down, his back finally finding the mattress and you rode him, sitting on his knees to have access to his penis. He was so ready for you that you could see precum on his tip. He was looking at you carefully with anticipation because he knew what was coming, he pushed your hair to the side to see your face already redden from the orgasm and all the heat you've just had. His hand stayed accidently a little longer than attended to your check and you lean on it closing your eyes.

Lando POV :

She tested so sweet and I felt like I've been intoxicated by her, she was driving me insane and she was responding to every touch I had on her, even right now with my hand on her cheek she was so adorable with her dark eyes, her sex face. I never felt so drowned to someone like that. I was so glad that I accidently sent her this picture, cause I never would have dreamed to have her naked on top of me where all I could think about for the past month she entered the family was her. I couldn't stop looking at me and I was relieved to see that her eyes were closed so she couldn't see how much I was falling in love with her. I don't think my eyes would be able to hide my affection for her.

You POV :

You opened your eyes again, leaving a kiss on his palm before taking two of his fingers in your mouth, locking your eyes with his. This mouvement came naturally to you as you were feeling so relaxed with him and his eyes said it all. He was so into this kind of foreplay and he bites his lips so much that the blood wasn't circulating properly on them anymore. That was the signal you needed to finally lay your hand on his stomach, caressing him until you approached his member. His lips closed so fast to not groan out loud but you could still hear him and you saw his part twitching on its own. The fact that he was reacting to every touch you made on him the same way that you were for him and you smiled too bright and confirmed to you that it was so right, you two together.

You start rubbing his tips with your thumb and his head almost hits the bedhead, his hands rubbing your thighs. You stroke him a couple times before leaning your mouth on him, licking the precum that was escaping from him before slowly taking him, your lips closing themself on him putting pressure on his edge. You were looking at him like he did with you earlier but you didn't break eye contact, going up and down and flicking your tongue from time to time, drawing the popping veins of his dick. He felt so warm in you but you didn't know if you took him deeper in your throat, you tried slowly but ended up having gag reflex so you had to pull him out. He got so concerned at the sound you just made.

Lando : Please don't if you can't, I don't need it, having you already like that enough for me ...

He paused, taking a breath of air before continuing.

Lando : You have no idea how much I'm controlling myself right now, not cuming in your mouth cause I want to feel you.

You didn't know if this man under you had any experience with women before but if he didn't, well he was so good at talking during it or maybe it was because you were so aroused right now that he could have said anything to you and you would still lose it for him.

Lando : Come here, love, I don't want you to hurt your throat, that's not part of the plan, I want to make you feel good and only good.

He took your hands, making you lay on him, your hand intertwined on top of his head, testing himself a bit as he caught your lips. He let go of your hand to grab you on the side of your hip and reverse your position, taking back things under his control. You got a surprise and a giggle escaped your mouth which made him smile so bright. You kiss the smile away pulling him again by the next with a bit of violence. Both of you were fighting for dominance at this point, your make out session proving the point, teeth ... tongue, biting each other's lips until one of you bleed. You were both tearing each other apart when you felt his tips already at your entrance, his hand positioning himself at the right place, teasing you in the process of it before pushing himself a bit in you, waiting for you to tell him the next move. You adjust yourself before nodding so he could enter deeper, but he stops again when you bite your lips and makes a painful face.

Lando : Take your time love, tell me when you are ready

He was so careful, how could you resist him and on top of that it's the second time he is calling you love ? You wished he actually could call you babe or baby, it was already intimate but you wanted to be even more on the mind level. After seconds you finally felt the pain being replaced by that nice pleasure when he adjusted himself on top of you to be more comfortable, the movement of his penis in your making you moan. He took that as a signal and fully entered you. Despite being large and long, you were so ready for him that he didn't have to stretch your walls and you weren't feeling tight for him. He felt amazing in you, you were full of him, of his passion and his desire for you.

Lando : You okay ?

You : mmh mhhh you can move

And he did start, going back and forth taking the time to appreciate every friction, every sensation, every stimulation it was providing you both. You loved how his head rested on your neck, having him breath on your skin, kissing it as he kept thrusting in you with one arm holding you back to make you more comfortable, the second arm holding both of your hands over your head. He was being soft but still so dominant and you liked it so much, you were starting to develop a serious feeling for him by each minute you were spending with him. Both of you were a mix of moan, yelp, whimps cry and groan ... you were both a mess but you were in harmony. Every deep thrust he had made you arch your back even more for him, giving him more access to you. He went down kissing and playing with your breast making you lose control due to the erogenous spot.

Suddenly he came out of you and you were missing the sensation already, he wanted to switch position cause his legs were about to give up for him. So he sits on the bed and you sit on him, positioning yourself to go down on him. He was finally back in you after a deep push that surprised you and made you cry out loud his name, but it felt weird so suddenly and you looked at each other agreeing on that weird connection you just had. It felt like he was home ... like you and him were made for each other, your body completing each other perfectly. It was again so natural between you, you kept riding him switching between a slow pace and a quick one. Your head was starting to spin as you felt your second orgasm of the night coming. He was close to the edge as well but you beat him to it as you quicken the pace, him holding you so tight as he bites your neck making you wimps. You came in a big moan, whispering his name in his ear.

Lando POV :

As she came under me she was whispering my name and it was the most sexiest and beautiful thing I ever heard. Hearing my name be said like this gives me some weird feeling in my stomach. I was addicted to this girl and I lost myself because she was mine in this instant and I was hers. I want her today, tomorrow and every day that the world wants to give us together. I felt her shaking from her release and that tense my length. I was so close but I wanted this feeling to last forever and it was starting to be painful for me . The overstimulation wasn't helping her and she was completely wrecked by me at every push I was infliging on her but I couldn't stop until she found the courage to take my face with both of her hands forcing me to look at the darkness in her eyes. She sweetly kisses me, peeking my lips multiple times before holding my jaw and turning it on the side to give herself enough space to play in my neck and under my ears. She was a rare diamond, this one for real, how in hell did I find her ? She was always finding new ways to put me in a place where sanity wasn't possible. She was playing with my ears until I heard her low voice.

You : Please Lando, I need you to cum for me baby.

As soon as the word baby left her lips I was gone, in a last thrust I released myself in her, wimping like never before. The weight that left my body right now, indescriptible, incredible. She was smiling so much and now looking at me with soft eyes. I am in love with her.

You POV :

After so long he finally came in you and the spirkes you felt in you were breathtaking, You couldn't believe that you just had this ... the best sex in your entire life. You couldn't help yourself and had to look at him with so much love after that. " Say it again " he said to you almost inaudibly for you to understand.

You : What ?

Lando : Call me baby again

And you did again, kissing him, mouth opened. It took a long time for you to finally detach yourself from him. You were both exhausted but the mutual feeling of satisfaction like you were on a cloud right now, high from all the endorphins you released with your orgasms. You could barely walk to the bathroom and you both used each other for support. How can sex can be so draining, you were going to be in trouble tomorrow but you didn't care, if you could do it again, you would one hundred percent. Despite the fact he was as tired as you, Lando took care of you and helped you clean yourself before searching his tee shirt on the ground and giving it to you. You gladly accepted it and put it on before going back to bed. You looked at him, he didn't know what to do now, becoming the shy man you first met a couple weeks ago, desperate in the look like something was really bugging him.

You : What's happening ?

Lando : I have to go back to my room

You : No

There is no way that after that you will be separated so quickly, you open your cover for him to join you.

You : You aren't going anyway mister, bring back your sexy ass next to me right now.

Relief could be felt on his face as he jogged to come and snuggle in bed with you before you both fell asleep in each other's arms, completely glued to each other. You didn't know what was going to happen in the morning when they were going to search him everywhere and find out he disappeared from his room but you didn't care at this moment, you were ready to face any consequences because after all you weren't the wrong number anymore.

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harryfeatgaga · 6 years

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I don’t mean to bring it up but did you see c*milles friends baby wearing his Harry Merch 😭 it’s so cute and it just makes me think of how much custom stuff his own babies will have ALSO!!! Harry probably had a few extra baby tour 18 shirts made to save some for his own babies cus it’s what I choose to believe 🥺

my friend sent it to me but I would not have seen it other wise cause uh I dont follow them.....eifhbhurjdfhjd but yes he def did I chose to believe this

Anonymous said: BITCH why is there always a discussion about zodiac signs and shit on this blog??????? If I wanted to talk astrology crack I would go to SYDNEY’S BLOG!!!!!!!!!!! 😤😤😤

lMFAO

Anonymous said: Oh my GOD I have the greatest angst concept. But. I’m going to save that for later when you’re home, safe and sound.

OH GOD ANSGT WHYYYY DO U WANT ME TO CRY 😭

Anonymous said: paige i was supposed to get all 4 of my wisdom teeth removed today but after they had taken out 2 i apparently had an anxiety attack and was crying while i was unconscious under anesthesia and they had to stop and wake me up idk how thats even possible 🙃

oh no im so sorry :(

Anonymous said: ok paige i know you don't like harry's long hair (it's not my fave either) but also him in a manbun? most beautiful person i've ever seen

loved the man bun especially the half bun

Anonymous said: i feel like a free person whenever i remember that there's a very good chance that harry has done butt stuff

LMFAO

Anonymous said: Omg have you ever seen the ep of friends where Rachel and Ross get the first ultrasound pic of the baby and Rachel lies and says she can see it to the nurse but she can’t really and starts crying so Ross has to help point the baby out... that’s deffo harry and the missus 100%.

OKMFNJFNH 100%

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wearetakingthehobbitstogallifrey · 7 years

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Full Metal Alchemist Netflix!!! (spoilers ahead)

okay so yeah I’m not sure how they are gonna condense FMA into a successful movie and while there are probably going to be a lot of missing people/plotlines I am so psyched I don’t even care that. I’m just gonna enjoy the good stuff and shrug at the rest. here goes nothing:

-me, during the opening scene: *fully expecting the Hogwarts Express to appear any second, with a flying Ford Anglia in its wake*

-this is a very crisply colored film so far and I love it

-MY BBY BOYS!!! HUGGING THEIR MOM!!! *valiantly tries not to cry already*

-yeah no I’m crying already

-dark and gloomy funeral OMG Ed and Al are holding hands to support each other I CAN’T

-LIL ALCHEMISTS AT WORK!

-I’m happy to see that Edward Elric is just as outrageously fashionable as always, that red coat is on POINT

-Ed stop getting your butt kicked and do some alchemy

-oh yeah, Ed proceeds to perform alchemy without a circle and takes out...whatever those alchemy critters are AND THERE IS AL MY SON THE SOUL IN THE SUIT OF ARMOR

-lol Ed seems way more chill than he is in the manga/anime, I mean he hasn’t flipped out about being short yet. Still he is v. Enthusiastic and Quite Cute

-ED YOU ABSOLUTE dORK

-I CAN’T WITH HIM AND NEITHER CAN POOR AL LOL

-WOOOOOHOOO ROY MUSTANG AND RIZA HAWKEYE IN THE HOUSE

-WHO ARE YOU CALLING PUNY ok there is the Ed we all know and love

-wow the Homunculi look pretty accurate, which means Gluttony is extra ugh

-ok but seriously my favorite thing is how people assume that Al is the full metal alchemist because he is...all metal. And Al is like no really. not me

-AWWW my brother may be small but he has a big heart

-So I’m not sure why Winry isn’t a blonde but she is still very cute

-ED IS SO PASSIONATE AND SAD WHEN HE TALKS ABOUT GETTING AL’S BODY BACK :( and when he says he would do anything for Al and the camera focuses on Riza who looks like she could very well be saying I understand I would do anything for Mustang

-MAES HUGHES!!!! I AM SO HAPPY AND SAD RIGHT NOW. BECAUSE ED IS SO HAPPY TO SEE HIM AND THEY SMILE AND HUGHES IS A GOOD FRIEND AND dAMN IT I’M GONNA HAVE TO WATCH HIM DIE ALL OVER AGAIN WHAT THE HECK

-Ed is really freaking cute

-Winry scolding Ed about taking care of his metal arm and Ed apologizing I’M EXPLODING WITH HAPPY FLUTTERBYS AND RAINBOWS--AND SO IS MAES HUGHES LOOK AT THE SHIPPER ON DECK GRINNING

-wHERE IS BBY ELICIA AND WHY HASN’T HUGHES DRIVEN PEOPLE TO DISTRACTION WITH HIS PROUD PAPA ROUTINE??!

-oh she isn’t born yet... :/

-I have never been able to decide which is sadder, Al never being able to sleep and feeling alone or Ed having nightmares about what happened and feeling guilty

-that is a BEAUTIFUL dog and NINA IS SO CUTE AAHHH MY HEART IS GONNA BREAK LATER

-AL PLAYING WITH NINA OH MY HEART

-(tbh some of this plot is getting tangled up in my head, like is that how it went in the anime I don’t remember)

-*cries everytime Nina is onscreen* AL AND WINRY PLAYING WITH HER *cries harder*

-there’s that Hogwart’s Express again

-Winry: you were Nina’s favorite

Ed, proudly: ah little kids like me

Winry: yeah because you are tiny

THE BETRAYAL

-ED X WINRY OTP THEY ARE THE CUTEST

-I kind of adore the aesthetics of this movie. I want Winry’s dress

-hey Dr. Marcoh. Um bye Dr. Marcoh

-NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NO NOOOOOOOOOO NINA!!! WHYYY

-F*** YOU MR. TUCKER

-WHY ARE THERE BIRDS CHIRPING IN THE BACKGROUND THIS SCENE IS A TRAGEDY

-FURIOUS ED IS FURIOUS THERE IS MY HOT-TEMPERED GOOD-HEARTED SON

-AL: SHUT UP OR I’LL BE THE ONE TO LOSE CONTROL

-play with me? *cries forever and ever* my heart

-oh come on don’t show me Nina’s ball lying there alone never to be played with again

-tired mussy-haired Ed = the cutest

-MAES HUGHES YOU ARE TOO SWEET *CRIES FOREVER*

-Oh hi Lieutenant Ross! (I just realized there are a LOT of people who don’t appear to be in this)

-YOU AND I ARE FRIENDS AAHHH HUGHES AND ROSS WORKING TO HELP ED AND HUGHES WON’T TAKE NO FOR AN ANSWER AND OH DRAT IT I CAN’T STAND TO SEE WHAT IS GONNA HAPPEN SOON

-ED IS ALL SAD AND UPSET TILL HE SEES THAT AL IS DEPRESSED AND THEN HE TRIES TO CHEER UP HIS LIL BRO, EXCEPT AL WORRIES ALL HIS MEMORIES ARE FALSE AND AND

“TRUST ME”

“hOW CAN I TRUST ANYTHING, I’M HOLLOW!!!”

BROTHER FEELS AND ANGST WAIT NO AL OF COURSE ED IS YOUR BROTHER STOP FIGHTING :(

Al, when Ed is angrily punching him with his human fist: BROTHER USE YOUR RIGHT HAND YOU’LL INJURE YOUR LEFT HAND *cries* HE STILL CARES ABOUT HIM

THEY LOVE EACH OTHER SO MUCH (THANKS WINRY)

-”BROTHER IT HURTS” *SCREAMS INTO THE VOID* *FLINGS SELF INTO THE SUN

-ED’S HEAD BUMP AGAINST AL’S ARMOR *FLINGS SELF INTO THE SUN aGAIN*

-NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO MAES HUGHES NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO I AM NOT READY FOR THIS NOOOOOO WHYYYYYYYY

NOT THE PHONEBOOTH

NOT THE PHOTO

NOT--ROY??? (sidenote: if they’re gonna make it look like Roy did it why even introduce Maria Ross earlier?)

IN CONCLUSION I HATE EVERYTHING

-lies I’m not done yet I can go on I can make it through the rest of the movie

-NVM I CAN’T ED LOOKS SO BROKEN

..................*SIGHS*

-okay not sure where they are going with the story from here on out given them blaming Mustang but I am here for Riza Hawkeye and Ed working together to escape

-I AM CONFUSED

-ok is that real Roy or fake Roy ok this has to be fake Roy? Because why would real Roy want it to look like he is killing loyal soldiers? oh waiit wait WHAAAAAAATT

IT’S FAKE ROSS I GET IT THEY JUST SWITCHED A LOT OF THINGS AROUND

THERE IS A LOT MISSING FROM THE MOVIE

-CAN WE NOT KEEP SHOWING HUGHES’ DEATH OVER AND OVER I FREAKING CANNOT HANDLE THIS WHYYYY I’M CRYING

-UMMMM GLUTTONY IS FRICKING WEIRD (lol if Emma does her sassy recap I can’t wait to see her reaction to him)

-OKAY BUT CAN WE TALK ABOUT HOW LUST SAYS ROY HAS A WEAK SPOT RIGHT AFTER HE STEPS IN FRONT OF RIZA TO PROTECT HER AND GETS INJURED AND WHILE SHE IS SAYING THIS RIZA IS SUPPORTING HIM IN HER ARMS OKAY THANKS

OTP RIGHT THERE MATES OTP

-OH okay Tucker has Al and Winry and I don’t even know what is happening anymore

-THERE IS LITERALLY SO MUCH MISSING FROM THIS. I CAN’T BLAME THEM BECAUSE HOW DO YOU REALLY MOVIE AN ANIME BUT STILL

-what...what does Tucker want again?

-if Colonel Roy Mustang doesn’t get to destroy Lust like the badass he is then WHAT IS EVEN THE POINT

-*gets distracted from my mutterings because ROYAI*

-I’m...still not exactly sure is going on like General Hakura what? but ROY IS LEANING ON RIZA FOR SUPPORT AND THAT IS A BEAUTIFUL THING

-FIVE MINUTES LATER AND ROYAI STILL HANGING ON TO EACH OTHER

-OKAY THESE WEIRD GUMMY CREATURES ARE HIGHLY DISTURBING

-WHERE DID ENVY AND GLUTTONY GO?

-I AM V. CONFUSED

-goodbye Hakura you won’t be missed

-ah there is Envy

-actually Gluttony really didn’t need to show up again like ew

-RIZA NOT WANTING TO LEAVE ROY’S SIDE BUT FOLLOWING HIS ORDERS

-okay but why was Al all unconscious before and how did he wake up I missed that

-OH YEAH ALPHONSE PERFORMING ALCHEMY WITHOUT A TRANSMUTATION CIRCLE (look I realize it isn’t a good thing necessarily but it is very cool)

-wait Envy better not be dead just like that because um I really love how everything goes down in the anime

-BUT AT LEAST IT LOOKS LIKE MUSTANG’S GONNA DESTROY LUST

-*SHRIEKING* RIZA WAS GIVING OUT ORDERS LIKE A BADASS BUT HESITATES JUST A SECOND WHEN SHE SEES ROY’S BLOOD ON HER HAND AAAAAAAHHHH THEN SHE GETS BACK TO WORK AAAAAHHHH OTP OTP OTP

-OKAY THIS IS ALL A MESS STORY-WISE BUT I GOTTA FIND THE BRIGHT SPOTS SO ED SAVES ROY AND AL SAVES THEM BOTH AND ROY THROWING LUST’S WORDS BACK AT HER, PRETTY RAD

-AL PROTECTING THE OTHERS WITH HIS ARMOR BODY

-wait Gluttony is still alive...”Lust is dead” apparently he’s not too cut up about Envy though

-ALPHONSE!!! MY HEART :( POOR ED :( AL YOU SWEETHEART “IF IT’S AT THE PRICE OF A LIFE, I’D RATHER STAY LIKE THIS”

-I’M SORRY I’M CRYING OVER HERE CRYING OVER ED TELLING AL HIS BODY HAS GROWN AND AL IS TALLER THAN ED AND LOOK THE BROTP IN THE ANIME IS MY FAVE THING EVER AND IT WAS NOT AS PRESENT IN THE MOVIE AS I WANTED BUT THE MOMENTS WHERE IT IS REALLY GET ME

-ROYAI ROYAI JUST HUG HIM GIRL OH GOSH THE LOOK BETWEEN THE TWO

-”get promoted and expose the truth behind the mystery” look is the Fuhrer a thing, like Greed never showed up, if they are doing a sequel they have stuff to work with but it so far off the original storyline at this point

-ED AND AL AND WINRY ARE THE CUTEST

-BYE BYE HOGWART’S EXPRESS

(BTW IF WE ARE DIVERTING FROM CANON WHY COULDN’T WE GET TO ACTUALLY SEE A ROYAI WEDDING?? ?)

#fma netflix #full metal alchemist #edward and alphonse elric #elric bros #royai #in conclusion it wasn't the greatest movie but I enjoyed it a good bit anyway #ed was very cute even if he wasn't as spazzy as he is in the anime #i really wanted to see more of alphonse and the brotp interactions #i cry every day over maes hughes #an enjoyable movie even if it was rather derailed by the end plot-wise #oh wait i just saw the stinger is envy alive still?#i am so confused #i am all about the royai though

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enaasteria · 6 years

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I'm done with work for today! Apartment, here I come! ♥ // runs and hugs Ahri & Sehun :") // Also, I still feel like I annoy you all day with my asks. 😹🙊 Do I? *sad pup eyes* I'll try to hold in my emotions a little more, I promise. I don't wanna bug you LOL. 🙈 P.S. I finished my studies early today to work on my Ksoo story, and I DID IT. Finished it. 1,034 words. Edited it too. I wish I had someone to read it once and give me constructive criticism before posting it. I'm scared af please. 😔

Yay! Congrats on finishing your work and I’m so impressed!! You actually inspire me to do my work too and I did and adulted and I went straight back to writing after I was done so wooohoo!! AND NOOO. Really---you don’t annoy me at all. please don’t think that EVER. Readers with insight on chapters never, ever annoy me. I greatly appreciate them and wish I can do more than just scream back at you over your messages. I’m sorry if I take a while answering them. I usually try to answer asks in batches so I don’t spam dashboards. I got hate mail over it one time and I’ve been self conscious over it ever since.

CONGRATS ON THE KYUNGSOO STORYYY. What’s the premise? And ask one of your followers to beta read it! I usually do that with some friends or followers when I get stuck on a part and ask for their advice.

More under the cut!

// Chapter 11 - RIP my angst loving heart, you've done well // it was a lot to take in. I love how you played with the binaries of love and heartache, by having Sehun and Ahri stargaze in one scene, and then him going off to Yul in the next one. It created that perfect mosaic of human sentiments and vulnerabilities for both of them, and in fact, we saw more of Myungsoo, Soi and Sehun's mum. Even Seyong and Yul. The storytelling was such a treat, too! I cry every time Ahri hurts. :'( My heart. 💔

Yessss!!! Angst!! It’s where my heart lives and I hope you enjoyed 11. I really wanted to show their dynamic and how Sehun, as much as he wished to, still can’t move on. I find that kind of behavior very real in people and it’s what I tried to convey in my writing that these people have faults. They’re not perfect and they do stumble on their journey. I really do enjoy all of the characters I’ve created in Apartment. They all hold special pieces of me and I’m so happy you like their little appearances in the fic!!

// Chapter 12 // I'm trying to read slower now that there are barely 4 more chapters left. TRYING. // Chapter 12 has me crying buckets. Ahri, please. 😭😭 SEHUN, WILL YOU LOOK AT HOW MY GIRL IS HURTING? Please 😢. I'm not mad at Sehun, okay a lil bit, but I can obviously see where he's coming from so I can't be mad at him for too long. It's frustrating, but it's real. Love blinds us. Especially when it's out of our reach. But Sehun please, Ahri is something else. I hope you won't let her go. :")

AHHHH 12. Not my best chapter if I’m to be honest but that’s because I’m just hypercritical of whatever I write. It is frustrating, isn’t it? That’s what I wanted to show because relationships are never a straight narrow path. They are jagged, rough, and it’s never smooth sailing. But it’s also a turning point for both of them (but also my guilty pleasure of keeping Sehun wet the entire time muahahahahahahha //evil cackle//

// Chapter 13 // I was JUST THAT CLOSE to flinging my phone off the balcony, I'm not kidding. 😭 It's 12:38 am and I'm walking on the terrace because I was crying so badly so I had to get out of my room so as to not wake my roomie up (LOL). And the moment Ahri was done speaking and she started crying and running away, I just really almost flung the phone off the terrace. 😭 SEHUN, YOU BETTER DO SOMETHING GOOD AND GET HER BACK, SHE DOESN'T DESERVE SUCH MONSTROUS PAIN. Also, heyyyyy Chanyeol! ;) ♥

Don’t fling your phone!! OMGOSHHHHH. I hope your phone is safe. They’re expensive little things and NOOOO WHY ARE U STAYING UP LATE FOR THIS FIC. sdfjaklsdjf;jdfs. I SCREAMMMM. I always tell readers to please, please pleaseee get sleep. Fic will always be here. It’s not going anymore and please rest. Eat. Don’t let this fic take away from your daily life. It’s not worth ittttt. But yessss. The ending. My poor heart. I tear up sometimes over the things I have to put her through but I hope the messages and feelings were convey properly and you feel her struggles in wanting to stay with him but her mind and heart telling her it won’t be good for her to. That she needs to step away from him for the betterment of herself.

// Chapter 14 // 1:23 am, and still crying on the terrace. I wish there was a portal to go into this universe, and I'd gladly leave everything and just get to drunk Sehun, kneel beside him and talk some sense into him so that he stops to hurting himself, and hence, Ahri this way. Then I'd take Ahri and Soi's hands and walk out of LOXE. We'd go home and analyse this situation in a way that eases Ahri's pain, but we'd probably just cry and hug and fall asleep. I'd love to do all of that. Yes. :")

OMG. SDFKJSKLDFJL:KSDF IM SO SORRY THAT YOURE CRYING BUT ALSO YASSS IM GLAD YOU ARE. 14 is such a favorite of mine. I have favorite chapters and 14 is definitely one of them. The part that I really loved about this was how Ahri asked him why he would think she would return to him when she chose the same poisons as her parents and I think that part hit him so hard that it knocked sense into him. And I love how you want to take care of the characters!! It’s just so cute and adorable and HOW ARE U JUST THE SWEETEST READERS. IM SO DSDFJKSDLFJSKLFSKLDF

/ Chapter 15: 2:45 am // So much happened. But in a way, it's life. It's always unexpected and overwhelming in all possible ways. I also wanna point out, I love how every chapter starts with a little bit of Ahri's narrative on her past. It shows how our upbringing and childhood moulds us into who we are, but also that there's always scope to transform. I'm crying about how Sehun has finally come around. HE SAID HER FULL NAME! 😭 Also, CHANYEOL.♥ I'm not ready for 16 & 17. Or for 18. I CAN'T. 😭

ITS 2AM WHY ARE U AWAKEEEEEE. WHYYYY WHYYY OMGOSH. Please sleeeeepepepepepepe. OMG. YEAH. My brain hurts when I have to think about how to start the chapters because I want them to be memorable. The same can be said for how I end the chapters too. Because these are the words that you start with but also end with so I stress over them so much hahaha. AND IM NOT DONE WITH 18 yetttttttttt. HEUNNGNGNGNG. I really wanted to finish by his birthday but that’s def not gunna happen aahahaha

// REAL!!! // And here I thought I was about to go to sleep peacefully! Professor!Ahri and Professor! Hun? Lovin' it. All I want to see is them happily, blissfully in love with each other. And happy. Ahh, that's all I want in life right now. :") ♥

AYEYEEE. It’s an AU of an AU. I loved it muahahaha something light and fluffy for my angst heart. But yassss. THATS ALL I WANT TOO. I just want all the happiness for them too. I just want to write everything with them as muses tbh puahahahahha

#ILYYYYSMMMM #thank you for all of these comments and for reading all the chapters #i hope you're enjoying them #and i hope you enjoy 16 and 17 too.#16 might be a bit slow but i thought it was necessary to show sehun's growth #lmaoooo #cocktailsandexistentialism

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unsuspectable-weirdo · 6 years

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Rules: tag 10 followers you want to get to know better!

I was tagged by @elopetothesea omg thanks!

Gender: good question. Somewhere in between female and non-binary. In which some days I wake up ad think Girl! And others is just UUUGH

Star sign: Cancer

Height: 156 cm idk how is the american mesurement

Sexuality: ace biromantic

What image do you have as wallpaper: a pastel rainbow. I admire people who keep fanart as wallpapers bc for me it’s impossible, I have my phone “secretly” checked (ugh)

Have you ever had a crush on a teacher: with the teachers I had during my career I. Prefer. Death

Where do you see yourself in ten years: hopefully, with a job as illustrator and somewhere Sara can still come to kick down my door and ask if I have food

If you could anywhere right now where: somewhere with hot weather… I want summer… okay maybe Zakynthos. I liked things there

What was your coolest Halloween costume: the water witch I did last year, it was cool af (even if I’m fond of my Death the Kid homage, very comforting)

What’s your favourite 90s show: oooh difficult I only watched cartoons back then…

Last kiss: girl (yeah!). Straight and experimenting (unyeah) (whyyyy can’t I find a girl that likes girlsssss)

Ever been stood up: you can’t be stood up if you’ve never been on a date

Have you ever been to Las Vegas: no. I’ve actually never been to the US. Maybe when I’m 21+. And there’s a president change

Favourite pair of shoes: very chill pair of black heels that lead me through a lot

Favourite fruit: strawberries!

Stupidest thing I’ve ever done: oh boy do we have a lot to work with. Uhm. Picking a fight with a creepy guy at a club and then walking home with just another friend with me. Nothing bad happened but damn we were so scared…

Aaaand this is all! Thanks again for the tag, I love these kinda things!

So, followers yes? I tag @therealflurrin @theeclecticengineer @pink-shit-and-memes @syrup-bender @feministflorist @internetfeet @gangstakaashi anddd I will add on when I’m more awake

#damn it's almost midnight and im procrastinating going to sleep #tag meme #lad rants about life #fyi i dont have a girlfriend. sara is a long time friend.#i have a lil crush but keeping my mouth shut abt it

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Small Nov Wins

1 - cant bring myself to study, got out of bed 10:30-ish am. While lazing around i read royal servant and do random internet stuff and watched romee's vlogs. Ate breakfast and i somehow has no appetite?? This is rare. e, cicil kompre began at 15:30 pm (i know, i waste my time a lot). Pengumuman wahana mpi wow yay kalideres makara and budi asih

2 - the weather was pleasantly cloudy. poli anestesi anak, simul. went to what used to be calais, its called flavola now. at this point i quite need some calories because i only ate bubur ayam and its like 2-3 pm ish. Eventually the hunger is gone, arrived home at about 4-ish, drank protein to curb my hunger (nanggung dinner). dad said sumn that annoyed me so after maghrib i just lazed in bed, not feeling like doing anything (even though there’s lots of exams and hw lmao), fell asleep

3 - woke up at 2 am, prated, randomly searched for angel - chancellor and taeyeon’s lyrics and i basically wept at 4 am. i assumed the song was just like,,, a guy talking to a girl, his angel, you know. EXCEPT,,,,,,,,. the 2 MVs was also rly222 beautiful 🥺. Poli geriatri today, didnt even see patient because there was no more at that time (status salin nadia). ate ichiban salad (surprisingly quite good) at dm bcs i rly do be functioning better outdoors, made matcha latte with full cream milk ((powder)), cicil PT

4 - can finally wake up late. finished 1 sitasi pt, made ikk ppt, bujing lina called about diarrhea and nausea meds, laddered the leader for tomorrow’s exam and it,, was,,, me,, group call with shiko. frantically studied for EA

5 - PT (finished in 45 mins), simul as a leader, with STEMI, VF and hypoglycemia case. somehow made it through. i suck at dosages omggg. PP by car with mom (not rly that tired) but i SLEPT after i got home and had no mood to study helpppp

6 - did my first swab test today. i pushed the doctors hand when she’s doing oropharyngeal swab im sorryyyy 😂. slept. matcha. cicil kompre

7 - still havent finished ikk (deadline: today), and still havent studied for geri and ikk AND i still managed to take a nap. why. Read a bit of kompre. Not sleepy after matcha, but insted i reread bj alex and tsubaki chou lonely planet until 2 am the next day #rippriorities

8 - im having matcha latte seven days in a row as of today :))))) woke up at 10:30 am, went to flavola with atikah and got strawberry yakult (tasted like es mony), arrived home at abt 7-ish am and there no dinner, so i drank protein and ate japota honey butter. My breakfast was chicken porridge, so my diet is sooo liquid today. Rip proper nutrition (ate buryam, lumpia, japota for the whole day and drank 3 beverage). Cicil kompre and studied geri

9 - suma geri, slept, cicil kompre, ny head kind of hurts

10 - my head still hurts, suma ikk with dr herqu and dr retno, didnt take swab result by car because the TRAFFIC in soetta so my brother took it. Thankfully negative.

11 - lulus kompre alhamdulillah, the examiner were Prof Saptawati and dr. Dani from THT. Dr dani still remembered me :"") they were very kind. Went to tamel for first wahana: klinik makara UI. Picked up masker first at mahmudas place, and then went to depok. On the way i was interviewed by maba 2020 wtf im so old. Cleaned up my room with the fam, printed sumn in barel (its quite empty there)

12 - first day at klinik makara ui. i WALKED. such wow. fixed my shoes in kutek. had breakfast in barel and bahari for lunch-dinner. somehow i felt very drained. bought Dapur Alya (nutella and regal) and 2 salads from Salad Point since there was 11.11 promo. Put all of them in the fridge. Read Fools and its sooo good omg

13 - had salad and left over bahari rice for brekkie. went to clinic by grabbike :)))), had my first teleconsultation experience today, a chemical trauma case. suma ea with the help of shiko

14 - woke up at 5:20 ish and i jogged a bit at ui lmaoo. fisip - ft - fisip. By 6:30 im already back at my room. 1 hour can be spent a lot of different ways, it turns out. Washed my clothes. Ate monstercheese pizza. Slept a bit. Went to blok m with ara (she was late as always, surprised her with koi milk tea), ate futago ya (greasy cheesy milky goodness, enak tapi eneg afterwards), bought red bean bread at la mouette, bought discounted onigiri bento box at papaya. We went to m bloc space, looked around, ate gelato at kebunide (blueberry: yum, fresh, kiiinda feels artificial, salted caramel: delicious but makes me thirsty) and did photobox at connectoon. Walked to mrt asean but turns out!! for weekends mrt is closed at 8pm. Took grabbike to sudirman, seeing the pretty city and people just hanging out, playing skateboards on the wide sidewalks.

15 - planned to go jogging with salemba frens but i woke up late (06:45), so i just lazed around. Ate onigiri bento (super worth it for 25k for the proteins), fell asleep again 10ish to 14:30 lmaoo. The doms from yesterday was present even on the right side of my lower back 🙂 the red bean bread made me feel full, and the red bean was not too sweet, which i love. Reviewed some meshwork materials i missed. Fianti called and we talked abt her and hari

16 - had mujigae for sahur and fish bite for iftar. The fish was not as soft as fish streat, but the flour was definitely better and crunchy. But it doesnt have the seasoning micin like fish streat do. The pasta was quite a lot im in food coma afterwards. Fell asleep, and my stomach was so gassy that i woke up in the middle with a headache that does not play around. Fortunately it dissapeared in the morning

17 - breakfast is rice kimchi and abon lmaoo just pretend it makes sense. The scrubs i ordered finally arrived. I fell asleep AGAIN, WHYYYY. Lost my streak in DL, i guess i can stop using it for now.

18 - finished reading blood link, girlll i thought the human died at the end. Did not buy food today wow. Took a nap and cicil kompre.

19 - brekkie at barel. Helped measuring antropometry today at clinic, and also measured my own. The fucked up thing was that i THOUGHT my body fat is still at 28% compared to the past (dr rina's research). So i looked at the old paper AND. I USED TO HAVE. 35% FAT 🙂 even my memories are in denial and are fooling me. All this time i thought i was at 28 🙂 did swab at rsui. The one swabbing was from fkui 2012 and we had small talk. It hurted more than lmk :( now this does feel like drowning in water (cause before i said "nah its not like water in nose"). Took angkot back to tamel, bought piscok lumer pocin and its soooo gooood ugh

20 - i feel like if i have breakfast with leftover rice and abon and sozzis i get hungry faster lmaoo. Ordered ken karaage from kukusan, yaa okela for 25k with ongkir. Did online posbindu education through wa. BTS BE COMEBACK 🥺 i maximized my wifi time (no wifi at tamel) so i listened to the whole album. My mobile data is at 200MB lol. Read a good longreads from the atlantic, about down synd and genetic screening. The writing is so so good im just blown away. And teary eyed.

21 - ran a bit, solid class (gastro, rheum, infection), embryo, webinar about sleep by dr Gita Anindyajati, SpKJ, bought ayam geprek gold chick (lotsss of oil since i ordered tempe, jamur, egg, bought pop cookies. matcha cheese was actually better than i expected (the combination somehow fits), dark chocolate and marshmallow is very chocolatey like mom’s brownies, and vegan strawberry cookie with a hint of mint. i wonder how they replace the egg. I wonder why after i run i dont feel hungry for a moment. bloating just gooes away

22 - joined kris' healthy weekly event (lmao) in tamsur. They went to epiwalk first. Its difficult for me to run w mask, ngl. Went back to tamel, embryo, ate leftover meal from gold and chick, felt somehow drained to the bone so i just laid in bed and lazed and lazed. Theres no soreness, but the weakness was generalized lmao. Ordered bbq chicken almond salad from salad point, it was actually quite fulfilling and delishhh (added chili sauce to the dressing). Literally laid in bed from 7 until i fell asleep and woke up at 6 the next day. Finished readin shame application lmao

23 - i still feel tired ckckck. No doms, but i feel like i just want to lay down. got DV patient today at clinic, its most likely derm numularis??? Ate salad and dark choco marshmallow cookies in the evening and that cookie. Is so damn sweet im just thinking about the increase in my blood sugar. And i like sweets so!!! Never thought id find sumn too sweet. Washed my clothes and cicil ukmppd (i put things about studying ukmppd in habitica now)

24 - ate tanoshi sushi and ufo ramen for bfast, ate the sushi again for lunch and after waking up from my sleep i tried kokku ramen (so so, but the egg yolk's good)

25 - bfast: superbubur, protein shake and cookies. (did not make me feel full long enough). Ordered burger from EATG (so so, burger bener is better) for lunch. Last day at makara ui. Ara arrived coz shes staying here in tamel. Waiting for mom to arrive from cibubur, she arrived at about 20:30. I passed out at home

26 - first day in pkm kalideres, i volunteered to be pj to avoid RSUD. my room is a mess, i feel tired after i go back. maybe its the physical withdrawal (?) because i dont walk like when im on klinik makara. came to pkm thinking i wont do anything (orientation only) but the 6 of us ended up going. i was at igd. i saw nail extraction and injected ats for another patient

27 - talked for almost an hour with the doctor at poli lansia. went home, felt sooo tired, i slept and actually showered after maghrib. originally planned to go to sbux but i was just tired af. my mood was horrible at home.

28 - turns out i started my period today. i havent studied at all during pkm kalideres era. embryo. slept again. read some manga by nishin something with the psychological and BL genre.

29 - embryo. cut my hair, showered, and felt better. fell asleep on dr gita's lecture. Drank cimory banana milk with a bit of matcha powder. I dont know if its the sleep, or a bit of caffeine, but my mood feels better and im more awake. Cicil ukmppd with a slow pace. Read itasaku ff. Slept at about 2 am

30 - surprisingly, i dont feel sleepy when i wake up. poli anak today, surprisingly i got perinatology case (jaundice). presented it on pleno. for bfast i ate 3 slice of bread (2 with meat and cheese, 1 choco and cheese) and protein shake, lunch: a slice of choco cheese bread and a banana, fell asleep, dinner: 1 bakwan, a banana and nextar. i can feel that the calories i got today is even less than what i usually got (and usually i already try to limit calories that i am counting the intake amout and made sure im not too far from my bmr lmaoo (~1100)

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the-bibliophile-jedi · 7 years

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Trying to understand the hatred towards Kylo Ren aka Ben Solo

As December is nearing I'm yet again trying to understand what aspect of Kylo Ren's character makes his seem so evil and irredeemable to the antis

Sorry for the long rant

The first scene with Kylo Ren from Jakku

Antis: Oh God he killed an old unarmed man so brutally! And he ordered the massacre of an entire village! He should just die, he doesn't deserve any redemption.

Me: (trying to be rational) yeah that was indeed horrible. This cannot be justified at all but it doesn't mean that he shouldn't be redeemed. Like didn't anakin murder an entire village of tusken raiders? And what about those younglings? And those poor rebels in rogue one. And we don't have any idea about so many other people he killed between episode 3 and 4. He still got his redemption. Also, I'm pretty sure he sensed Finn's conflict and that he hadn't killed any of the villagers but still let him go.

Poe's interrogation scene

Antis: He treated Poe so horribly. He tortured him sooooooooo much. He is just pathetic.

Me: yeah of course he treated Poe so badly. No denying that. But what if the resistance captured an important first order member? What if they get hold of hux? Would they be nice to him or use any means possible to get information out of him? The latter of course because they are at WAR. Also didn't darth vader himself torture his own daughter (although he didn't know it then) to get information about the stolen death star plans? Also in rogue one Saw Gerrera kind of tortured Bodhi Rook using that horrible creature to make sure he was telling the truth and it even lead to a temporary loss of his sanity. So I guess it happens on both sides.

when Hux says they were trying to identify who helped Poe and Kylo Ren immediately says the one from the village

Antis: OMG he knows it was Finn. He identified him, God he is so evil.

Me: like I said before, he saw Finn's inner conflict yet let him go, bc I guess he was going through the same conflict?

When Kylo finds out Finn and BB-8 escaped with the help of a girl

Antis: Did you see that? Look at what an angry and destructive person he is. And look how he treats the first order employees.

Me: Well I guess that's better than force choking his co-workers like darth vader used to. Also (about that 'the droid stole a freighter' comment) did he just make a joke?

The scene with Snoke and Hux

Antis: These people are so inhuman they are destroying an entire planetary system. Pathetic.

Me: Maybe it's just me but did you see that smug look on Hux's face when he looked at Ren? It felt as if Ren was not fully supportive of the destruction of the Hosnian system. We can't see his face obviously and I think it was necessary that he had his mask on in that scene or it could have given away a lot.

The scene with Darth Vader's destroyed mask

Antis: What is wrong with him? Doesn't he know Darth Vader redeemed himself? He is actually worse than Vader.

Me: are we just going to ignore the fact that he felt 'the pull to the light' which shows he can still be redeemed? And I guess he is feeling that way right now because:

• He ordered the murder of an entire village

• An entire planetary system is about to be destroyed

• Perhaps Finn's abandoning the FO intensified his inner conflict?

So about the first two points, these two horrible acts must have made him feel guilty and that guilt was the pull to the light. Also remember that time Palpatine told Anakin to show no mercy because only then he will be able to fully use the dark side? Ren is doing the same here, killing innocents to feel the dark side fully. I'm not saying his actions can be justified, but I'm saying that this doesn't make him irredeemable.

Kylo Ren and Rey's confrontation on Takodana

Antis: Look how he is torturing her! She is in so much pain. And he just kidnapped her what the hell! He should just die.

Me: (the reylo inside me awakens) What an evil person right? He didn't even let her fall on the ground and carried her to the ship in the nicest way possible. He could have carried her using the force, asked the stormtroopers to take her like he did eith poe, or at least he could have thrown her on his shoulder bc that way he would have one hand free to defend himself in case someone attacks him which had a very high chance since they were in a battle zone and resistamce fighters were pouring in. Also about torture, let me point it out again, they are at WAR and he is extracting info just the way the resistance would have done. Doesn't make his crimes any less but it doesn't mean he is downright evil.

The most important scene- Rey's interrogation

Antis: HE MIND RAPED HER!!! SHE WAS IN SO MUCH PAIN!! HE INVADED HER PERSONAL MEMORIES!!!! JUST KILL HIM ALREADY!!!!!!!!!!!!

Me: woah woah wait. How long had she been unconscious? He actually waited for her to wake up while sitting in that uncomfortable posture? WHYYYY??? That is sooooo not evil. And why does it bother him that she still wants to kill him? I mean who doesn't? Lol. I am willing to bet that at least half the FO would like to see him dead. And he removed his mask because she said he was 'a creature in a mask'? I mean even Poe said that it was difficult to understand him with the apparatus but he didn't remove his mask then. And is there a good reason they made the villain so damn attractive? (Now that scene when Ren asks her about BB8 and she gives that smart answer) Is he-Is he amused? And why isn't this EVIL guy annoyed by her answer? (You know I can take whatever I want) uhhhhh...why do i sense some sexual tension here? Also why does he have to lean sooooo close to her while probing her mind? He didn't do that with Poe right? And do I see a slight smile on his face? And of course he can relate with Rey's feelings of loneliness here. He is connecting with her here. Also MIND RAPE? She does that to him too right? And she reveals his deepest fear? And he doesn't even lash out on her and just leaves right? And I don't want to go over it again but c'mon they are at war and he wants information. (Plus he says in the novel that he'd have preferred not to go ahead with the mind probe bc it gave him no joy and that he would go as easy on her as possible)

Meeting no 2 with snoke and hux

Antis: He is so bad, if he gets hold of rey he is gonna torture her so much. And these monsters are about to destroy the resistance!!

Me: I'm not entirely convinced that Ren is happy about the destruction of the resistance base (which would eventually result in the death of his mum) and that's why he tries to interrupt snoke and says that he can get the map from her. (Also snoke says that he sensed that Ren has compassion for Rey in the novel and what did Anakin say about compassion in attack of the clones? Compassion, which I would define as unconditional love, is central to a jedi's life)

Kills Han

Antis: This is it. There's no going back now. HE CANNOT AND SHOULD NOT BE REDEEMED!!!!!! HOW COULD HE KILL HIS FATHER??? HAN SOLO? REY SHOULD KILL HIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Me: Are you annoyed by the fact that he killed his father or because he killed Han Solo? Obviously patricide is a terrible act and yeah what he did was absolutely wrong but I guess what is bothering you more is the fact that he murdered fan favourite Han Solo. Because Anakin killed his only father figure and best friend Obi-Wan too right? And on one hand Ren and Han had a very strained relationship as father and son but on the other hand Anakin and Obi-Wan were sooooo close to each other. And he almost killed his pregnant wife and unborn child right? And he actually was the cause of his wife's ultimate death. And he was redeemed. So why not Kylo Ren? Also you are just going to ignore the look of shock and guilt on Ren's face right? Also, according to the novel, the act weakened him instead of making him stronger. He was horrified by what he had done.

Antis: You reylos are JUST pathetic. Trying to justify that monster's actions. Rey should never forgive him. And how can she when he killed the only father figure she ever had?

Me: woah woah who justified his actions? We are just saying that he can still be redeemed there is nothing wrong with that. And he killed Rey's father figure? Seriously? Are we the same fandom who has made fun of the fact that Luke felt so sad by the death of Obi-wan Kenobi even after knowing him for a few days? Isn't this the same situation? Also more than the fact that it was Han that he killed, I guess what hurt shocked Rey the most was that he killed his own father. She couldn't understand how could someone do that to their own family because she had always longed for one.

The Final Fight: Finn and Rey vs Kylo Ren

Antis: He threw Rey on that tree. He hurt her again.

Me: She was going to shoot him. What did you want him to do? Does it bother you because he thre a 'girl' at the tree? Because it seems like it does. Also, I guess it was better than force choking her? He is perfectly capable of that. And did you even see the way he pounded on his injury because remember 'pain leads to the dark side'? He is trying to draw power from his pain because he doesn't have enough darkness in him.

Antis: Oh God look how he hurt Finn. What do you have to say about thay huh? He almost killed him.

Me: Yeah ikr Finn was being so nice to him. He didn't deliver a single killer blow at him. He would have never killed him if he had the chance because he doesn't consider him his enemy am i right? Bullshit.

Rey and Kylo fight

Antis: He could have hurt her so bad!!! He would have definitely killed her. You kill him Rey! He deserves it!

Me: Well first of all, he would have easily killed her when they were standing on the edge of the cliff. I don't even know how many times reylos have stated this but no one wants to listen right. Secondly, guess what? Rey is a wonderful person but she is not fully on the light side after all. He wanted to kill him, would have definitely killed him had the ground not cracked and separated them, and well almost did kill him because she left a wounded man alone to die on a planet that was about to explode bc she had no way to know that someone was coming to save him. But of course that is justified for her because she is on the good side and they are at war right? What gets me everytime is the fact that we forget that the resistance has killed many innocents too in the name of greater good. I've always felt that not all stormtroopers are evil (even before watching tfa) and tfa and finn intensified my belief. Most of them are just following orders because if they don't they will be killed right? And not everyone can be as brave as Finn was. How many of them were on the 2 death stars and star killer base when they were destroyed? Not everything is as black and white as it seems.

But of course, if someone is adamant about something we cannot change their pov no matter how many logical explanations we give. You don't ship reylo? Cool, you don't have to. But it's not an abusive ship. Tbh Ren suffered more at the hands of Rey than she did (lol) and they are are EQUALS. No one is saying that he is her superior, rather she is the stonger and braver one and he is the one with more experience. And yes of course, a woman can both be both romantic and badass (because I am too lol and so was leia, and padme though she isn't given much credit).

#reylo #kylo x rey #kylo ren #rey #kylo ren trash #ben solo #save ben solo #reylo fam #reylo forever #reylo trash

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just-another-human-mind · 7 years

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~Unexpected~

1.9k words, fluff mix? I'm not so sure anymore lol

Protector!Dan & Clumsy!Phil

Warning: this chapter’s a bit intense, but don’t worry it will be okay in the next!

Summary: an AU in which Dan and Phil are polar opposites. Phil is Dan’s lowkey stalker and would do anything to learn more about the lonely boy who lives next door. During summer he decided to finally try getting closer, but when his plans actually worked he didn’t expect to fall for him more than he already had. With Dan being the cold person he was on the outside, seeing his gentle side only makes Phil’s life harder than it was because he can’t seem to get Dan to notice him!

[ previous chapter ]

Chap. 2

It’s been two days now and Adam hasn’t said or done anything to Phil besides the subtle glances he’d make. Though it’s great to not get attacked for what he did to him, Phil can’t help but walk with his ears perked up and be extra cautious every now and then because of Adam's friend, Greg. He and the group keep giving Phil dirty looks and would even shove him into a locker as they pass by in the halls. He figured it was better than anything else he can imagine so he decided to just live with what he’s used to. Wednesday shouldn't have been any different. During the class however, Phil bumped his entire body into Adam and the chair as he got up to throw something away and immediately fell into a full on anxiety attack, but Adam said sorry as Greg muttered something under his breath. Phil couldn't speak so he continued on without saying anything as his mind kept repeatedly saying sorry and omg over and over. Finally, the bell rang once again and Phil had no trouble leaving the class onto his way home. His emotions were on pause and didn't know what to feel. Adam saying sorry kept repeating in his head, it didn’t seem natural. Why did he say sorry? Phil continued to playout the incident in his head. He walked all the way passed his home and up the street to a park without noticing until he almost rolled backwards as he stepped on a twig on the sidewalk. “AH!”, Phil yelped as he barely caught himself about to fall. “Omg! What are you doing here! I would’ve fell!”, Phil being Phil, he scolded the twig, but slowly realized where he was. To his right was the park he used to visit when he was younger and to his left… was Dan. He was sat across the street on a bench with a cup of coffee in his hands giving Phil a concerned look. Phil raised his hands ready to defend himself, but had no idea what to say so he just started muttering out nonsense because he saw Dan getting ready to leave while giving him that look. ‘Idiot!’, Phil said to himself and facepalmed in shame. “Uh, I can’t believe he just saw that...uhhhh whyyyy!”, Phil said to himself, picking up the twig by his feet and started to walk back home making sure he doesn’t see Dan on the way back. “As if he didn’t think I was weird enough…”, Phil continuing the one way conversation, but didn't expect to hear someone reply. “Huh?”, he questioned while turning around to see who the person was.

It was Greg, he was leaning his arm against the wall with his arms crossed, “who?”, Greg questioned again. “Ah…”, Phil froze and tightened his grip on the piece of wood in his hand. “What’s wrong? Have you shit yourself?”, Greg spat. “No...what are you doing here?”, Phil backed away slightly. “Well, I can ask you the same thing Lester, you're on my street.”, The boy said, stepping in closer. “I was-”, Phil got cut off. “Doesn’t matter, this is actually pretty convenient. You see, i 've been meaning to talk with you for a bit, you mind?”, he wore a smug look on his face that made Phil want to run, but he didn't want to show he was scared so he stayed, “Uh sure, I just have to get back soon so-”, Phil was cut off again. “Yea don't worry, this won’t take too long! Come here I have something to show you”, Greg brought out his phone and showed him a picture of Phil changing in the locker room. “Why do you have this?”, Phil was confused and didn’t know where this was going. Greg had just showed him a picture of himself without a shirt and changing out of his black skinny jeans, clearly struggling to keep his underwear on because the jeans kept pulling them down. “Adam took this picture of you.”, Greg stated. “He showed us this picture the other day trying to convince us that you have a nice body to look at. Then we all saw you fall miserably and then the idea to have you strip next week sprung in his head while you two were talking”, Greg got cut off. “Um-”, Phil tried. “Shut up I'm not done, I know Adam won’t leave you alone about this and I know how much you don't want to do this, trust me nobody wants this. So how’s about, we make you ugly!”, Greg sounding completely psychotic clapped his hands once and wore a big smile on his face. “What are yo-what?, Phil had no idea what he was suggesting. “Adam thinks you have good features. Let's take that away for a bit, don’t you think? Maybe then he’d stop being so soft on you and realize how blindsided he's been lately”, Greg continued to smile as if he was acting completely normal. “What's your problem? Why do you have so much hate for me. It’s not like i've ever done anything to you!”, Phil had enough. “Ah, this is what i'm talking about! He softened up on you and now you have a bit of confidence in you to talk back!”, Greg said sounding frustrated. “I'm sorry am I not suppo-”, Phil got cut off by his face slamming against the wall, scraping the side of his right cheek and part of his eyebrow. “Shut up”, Greg growled. “I’ve had enough of this. You piss me off on a whole new level just shut the fuck up”, Greg said grabbing Phil by the hair and slamming his face against the wall continuously. Phil was sobbing underneath him and begging Greg for him to stop. His blood was all over the wall and had a tight grip on his hair, unable to run way, let alone move. Eventually, Greg stopped and let Phil drop down to the ground in agony. “Next time you piss me off your body will be next”, With that Greg left Phil alone. He was hunched over leaning against the wall, face covered in blood, dripping. Saliva, tears ,and blood all mixed together, being the only thing he can sense. Everything else was dull. He can only hear ringing in his ears and his body felt heavy. He tried to call out for help but was unaware that he was only muttering out a muffled help and other sounds to himself as he passed out. Dan has been at home for hours hours now sitting in his room waiting to see some kind of light switch on or see Phil walk in the house at some point. He started to get worried when he heard there had been some bad people walking around late at night when he noticed that Phil never came home. Usually, he wouldn't really care, but he felt weird because he saw him by the park and felt a strange feeling of ‘omg I was the last person to see him’ mixed with ‘he has no friends so where did that idiot go’. His worry only grew as the worst case scenarios kept creeping up in his mind, “He’s clumsy. Did he get hit by a car? Bus? Stabbed to death?”, Dan kept asking himself out loud while walking around in his room until he finally decided to go out searching for him. It was so unlike him, but the worry was eating at him, he wouldn't have been able to sleep if he didn't try, so, he grabbed pepper spray, his phone, and keys and left, telling his parents he’s going to grab a snack ensuring them he’d be fine.

Walking around at 9pm in the evening in search of Phil wasn’t what Dan thought he’d be doing, but here he was. He started walking up the street to the park, a sketchy place around this time, but he had to. When he got there he was unsure if he should go in and take a look because didn’t want to encounter any weird people except the weirdo he does want to meet. So, he decided to quickly go in then come back out, hopefully. It took him about 20 minutes to scan the area and feel sure that Phil wasn’t there. “Where is he?...”, Dan said to himself, worry flooding his thoughts as he stood in the middle of the field of grass. Taking a deep breath he started to walk back home, unsure of where else to look, ‘maybe he does have friends?’, Dan thought, trying to convince himself. Walking back he saw a group of people drinking, some yelling at eachother, some laughing. So, to avoid anything he didn’t want he took another street. There weren’t many lights on this street, but it was better than having to deal with those people. He had been walking for a while when he saw someone he assumed was sleeping on the sidewalk, ‘homeless’, Dan thought, but when he got closer he could see a bag, a backpack that looked just like Phil’s. His heart stopped for a second, then speed walked to get closer only to have his heart drop out of his soul. Blood. Blood was everywhere. On the walls, the floor, on Phils clothes, and his face. Dan fell to his knees he couldn't believe what he was seeing. Suddenly, the thoughts of Phil being attacked and being hurt came true. “Phil!”, Dan called his voice slightly breaking, starting to breath heavy. “Phil what happened to you”, Dan started to choke on his tears repeatedly saying, “Phil please wake up”, while gently shaking the boy. The only thing he wanted to do at that moment was to call the ambulance, but the horse groan coming from below him stopped him in his tracks. “Phil? Phil! Get up!”, Dan shook him harder. “Uhlmp”, Phil muttered as he started to wake. “What?”, Dan questioned. “Mhmnhlp”, Phil said, trying to open his eyes. “Phil, don’t move i'm going to call for help”, Dan tried to straighten himself out a bit and prepared for what he was supposed to tell the paramedics when they got here, but stopped once again when Phil's arm weakly bumped Dans thigh. “Hephm...hep-”, Phil was interrupted by Dan, “Shh it’s okay you’re going to be fine”. “Mhnhmm… nuh dunt”, Phil mumbled out as he started to finally wake up. “Nu dunt?’, Dan questioned allowing himself to smirk just a tiny bit. “Don’t call”, Phil finally spoke out, “I don’t want them to worry”. He tried to sit up, but failed as he felt to weak. “Here let me-”, Dan put his hands around Phils waist and pulled him into a sitting position leaning his body against the wall. “Dan?”, Phil questioned as he squinted looking at Dan in the face. “Oh your glasses… their! Found them.’, Dan brought the glasses to Phil's face and helped him put in on. “My head hurts…really bad…”, Phil said, feeling around the dry blood on his face. “Yeah I can see why...I’m calling the ambulance try not to move so much.”, Dan started dialing the number, but had his phone pushed out of his had because Phil grabbed onto his wrist out of nowhere. “ I’m fine. Don’t call anybody I don’t want my family to have their vacation ruined because of me”, Phil said sternly, but his grip immediately loosening. Dan caught him before he had the chance to fall. “Take me home please”, Phil muttered and slowly slipped back into unconsciousness.

**notes**

Ahhh I know it’s so much for something that was supposed to be a fluff, but I swear the fluff will happen soon! idk what to call this can you help me please ❤

#phan #daniel howell #phil lester #phan au #phanfiction #dan #phil #jahm #my phanfic #my work #thank you for even reading this #i love you

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sun-flower-goddess · 5 years

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Day 3

I had an INSANE dream last night! I was staying at my grandma's house, but it was more like if her old house was like a Georgia 2 storey with a wrap around porch. And I wasn't there by myself. My ex's sister was there with her baby, except it wasn't HER baby! It was my nephew's baby! That part I get because I haven't gotten to meet the baby yet since I've been sick and all her pictures are so cute!

There was this other part where my grandma was yelling at me because I said the baby couldn't use the kiddie pool because it didn't have chloroform in it?! Like she obviously meant chlorine but whatever. And then I'm like no! It's because the pool is fucking disgusting and needs to be cleaned! Then I guess we were having a family reunion or some shit because my brother and his family show up in like a huge fucking camper van truck thing and all of his kids are the wrong ages! The baby is now the oldest and the oldest is back to when he was a kid and his mom is just like OMG he is so we'll behaved now, can you believe it? And she's rolling her eyes from what I can only guess is exhaustion and I'm hugging my now too tall niece and she's like can you stop for a minute and talk to me? And I'm like why? I love loving up on all these kids! And then my brother comes to my side and pulls me away to talk but it was actually because he wanted to take a trip down memory lane or some shit? Idk.

Oh! Forgot that this whole thing started because I dreamt I was brushing my teeth and needed to spit but real me got up and rolled over and ACTUALLY SPIT! Right there on my bed IT WAS REALLY FUCKING WEIRD! I was like????? Whyyyy the fuck did you do that?!

So my dream brother pulled me aside and was talking to me about how weird dreams have meaning and then he starts bringing up all these things we did when we were younger . And some of them I have actual memories of but a LOT of them are psuedo real with heavy dream elements. Like he would definitely walk several blocks to my grandma's house and if I was visiting he would pick me up and take me to our dad's house and I vaguely remember getting sick and throwing up on him. But then there was the memory of seeing a movie called the entrapaneur with that funny guy that was in a movie with Jennifer Anniston that I will google to see if it's real because now I'm a little convinced? And he also told me about this time he was walking to our grandma's house after he was doing businessman which sounds dirty but was like a job he was actually doing and he walked by a finish line store and someone gave him a free shirt. Like what does that even mean?! And how would I remember a thing that is obviously not my memory?! And then he shows me the sound system on the big ass RV like it has some kind of value in terms of our childhood? U guess our dad did have a pretty awesome system when we were growing up and our grandma did too. Anyway after that we are some how on some crazy ass train fighting villains and to escape he turns into an ethereal blue owl. One of the ones from that movie with magical guardian owls. So majestic. And I turn into ... A fucking butterfly?! And we fly away and get chased by the villains that turn into giant black birds that are OBVIOUSLY targeting me because I'M A FUCKING PINK FUCKING BUTTERFLY and then I wake up very confused

#i can't even spend time editing this #such a weird fucking dream #i can't

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toukenra · 7 years

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Im glad you're feeling better! I think this blog needs more angst tho LOLOL can i get some scenarios for tsurumaru, ichigo, hizamaru and yamanbagiri? Maybe something involving death of their saniwa or unrequited love?

Omg are you tryna kill me because my heart is ripped in fuCking pieces now. How can you even want to hurt these precious beans?!

Like nooo that’s so evil because I’m so bad with angst I can’t even read fanfics when I know beforehand that it will be angsty and without a happy end I’m a weak cry-baby and a fluff monster ok less even attempt to write one myself

I’ll try and fail miserably to create some angsty scenarios but expect me to be crying while I’m typing this out why do you do this to me 😭

Why do y'all love pain and torturing yourself ? :’)

Ichigo

it was a horrifying battle, the enemy was much stronger than he had expected

but in the end all of you scraped a thin victory

all of you survived so he thought

but when he turned around one of them had barely survived and used his last resources to ambush you

the blood drained from his face as he rushed to you, but it was too late

he could only hold you in his trembling arms and feel you going limp in his arms

no no NO this couldn’t be true

he just denies that you’re gone and just collapses over your lifeless body that still feels so warm and soft

he keeps shaking you and screams at you to wake up, to yell at him just ANYTHING BUT GOD OPEN YOUR EYES

Mikazuki and Yagen have to drag him away with united forces because he wouldn’t let go of you

guys please kill me i can’t do this to him whyyyy

‘we need to retreat’ he can hear someone say but it doesn’t reach his ears

he doesn’t attend your funeral and just curls up in his bed and cries bitter tears for weeks

of course he also blames himself

luckily he has his little brothers who try to be there for him and force him to eat and sleep but he’ll never be the same without you

can you hear my heart break?

Tsurumaru

of course you’re just so dumb and have to die a heroic death in battle

when he sees your lifeless body lying there all bloody he just loses it

he collapses next to you, crying and weeping to the heavens, begging someone to help you

but it’s far too late

even lashes out and smacks everyone who tries to touch him

no one has the heart to pull him away from you anyway

he just lies there with you in the mud, holding your corpse and sobbingly begs you to wake up

when he’s finally dry of tears Konnosuke dares to come closer and sadly nudges him with his nose

he just breaks down again and ultimately passes out on top of you, still clutching your lifeless hand

finally the others dare to carry both of you away

he barely manages to attend your funeral

doesn’t shed a tear during the ceremony but breaks down on your grave after everyone has left

WHY THE HELL DID YOU DO THIS TO HIM YOU MONSTER

throws himself into every battle in hopes to join you soon although he knows you wouldn’t approve but he just can’t go on without you

Yamanbagiri

‘‘I cherish you a lot.. but I just don’t think I can value you more than as a friend’‘

even a stab through his heart couldn’t hurt as much as this single sentence that left your lips as you shake your head apologetically

he just nods, although every word feels like a stab to his face

the worst part is that he even thinks he knows the reason why you can’t love him

he’s just a wretched duplicate after all

YOU! HEARTLESS! MONSTER! YOU!! Why don’t you love him?!

He already knew there was no way someone like you could fall for someone like him but still..hearing it from you

it hurts

but someone like him doesn’t deserve to be loved anyway

even apologizes for bothering you monster

tries to numb the pain by drinking it away

and for a split moment it works

but then he remembers your voice, the pity in your eyes when you told him you only liked him as a friend

another bottle it is

can’t bring himself to talk to anyone else for weeks

Hizamaru

‘I’m sorry Hizamaru, but I don’t love you anymore’

he tries his best not to cry, but one single tear forms itself in his eyes and then he just breaks down in front of you

seeing him cry makes you break out in tears too

you never intended to hurt him but you just don’t feel anything for him anymore

you want him to be happy, you really do..just not with you

and if you wouldn’t cry then you’re a fucking monster

so both of you just kneel there, silently crying while his world is falling apart

he begs you to stay with him, that both of you can talk about this, that he can make you fall in love with him again just PLEASE don’t leave him but seeing you weep bitter tears at having to do this he finally accepts reality

it’s over

everything feels numb but deep in his heart he knows he has to let you go

and so he does

at least Higekiri is always there for him, but even months after he still feels that familiar pain whenever he sees you

I finally had the heart scratch that it’s broken into itty bitty pieces to finish this and Jesus I hate myself so much rn for making my babies suffer congratulations you broke me 😂

Please don’t ever make me do something like this again :’(

#I can't do this guys my heart hurts so much #let them be happy ok #ask #prettypuurin #tsurumaru kuninaga #Ichigo Hitofuri #Hizamaru #yamanbagiri kunihiro #ANGST #Touken Ranbu #mod pancake

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nxrcissamxlfoy · 7 years

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lots of tag stuff

been tagged in a lot of stuff lately so here’s a big ol post of them

tagged by @hexmionegranger @aurorarsinistra and @dearpadfoot

rules: answer the 20 questions and tag 20 amazing followers you’d like to get to know better

name: adrenne nicknames: my work friends call me ‘ay bitch’ and my family calls me nikki zodiac sign: capricorn height: 5′2″ orientation: bi nationality: american favorite fruit: watermelon! or cantaloupe favorite season: faaaaaall favorite book: harry potter obvi but also house of leaves and all of chuck palahniuk’s stuff favorite flower: daisies :) favorite scent: amber, and coffee. but not together i don’t think? favorite color: orangeeee favorite animal: octopus! coffee | tea | hot cocoa: coffee coffee coffee goodnight everybody drive safely! average sleep hours: like 5-7?? idrk cat or dog person: both! favorite fictional character: oh boy, ginny? draco? all of them? omg number of blankets you sleep with: a sheet and a comforter dream trip: all of europe? and indonesia blog created: fidk like a few years ago but it was mostly random stuff and i didn’t make it hp til like two years ago number of followers: 8k+ random fact: i just had a tooth removed yesterday like ow

tagged by @restlessleep

RULES: you must answer these 92 statements and tag 20 people

THE LAST… 1.Drink: coffee 2.Phone call: my boyfriend 3.Text message: again the boyfriend 4.Song you listened to: sublime april 29th 1992 ( @beauxbaton lmao) 5.Time you cried: i cry all the time omg

HAVE YOU EVER… 6.Dated someone twice: yes 7.Been cheated on: yes 8.Kissed someone and regretted it: i mean not really 10.Been depressed: yeah 11.Gotten drunk and thrown up: ahahaha yeah

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS: orange, purple, yellow

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU… 15.Made new friends: yes 16.Fallen out of love: no 17.Laughed until you cried: yes! 18.Found out someone was talking about you: probably? 19.Met someone who changed you: no 20.Found out who your true friends are: i knew? like 21.Kissed someone on your Facebook list: well my bf is on my facebook so??

GENERAL… 22.How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: all of them 23.Do you have any pets: i have a cat, oliver, and a dog at my moms, maggie. 24.Do you want to change your name: i used to when growing up, but i mean, no not any more. 25.What did you do for your last birthday: had my gallbladder removed lmao 26.What time did you wake up: like 4am whyyyy 27.What were you doing at midnight last night: sleeping 28.Name something you cannot wait for: omg the history of magic book pls hurry 29.When was the last time you saw your mother: um... a few weeks ago? 30.What is one thing you wish you could change about your life: i’m just ready to be financially secure and have kids 31.What are you listening to right now: a youtube vlog 32.Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: yes 33.Something that is getting on your nerves: this fucking stitch in my mouth 34.Most visited website: tumblr 35.Elementary: ??? what about it like 36. High School: ten years ago stop 37.College/university: english degree bitches 38.Hair color: dirty blonde 39.Long or short hair: long 40.Do you have a crush on someone: my bf lmao 41.What do you like about yourself: my trash ways 42.Piercings: none 43.Blood type: I DONT KNOW idk idk how idk but idk 44.Nickname: ^^^^^ 45.Relationship status: 6 years and counting 46.Zodiac sign: capricorn 47.Pronouns: She/her 48.Favorite tv show: friends, got, walking dead, the strain, twin peaks, so many lmao 49.Tattoos: one, or three depending on how you view it like 50.Right or left hand: left

FIRST… 51.Surgery: wisdom teeth 52.Piercing: i have had my ears pierced but they’re not now 54.Sport: played: basketball 55.Vacation: indiana, most of my childhood summers 57.Eating: first eating??? what 58.Drinking: someone didn’t think this out well 59.I’m about to: get food somehow 60.Listening to: same vlog dude you just asked this 61.Waiting for: the time to take my next pain pill 62.Want: some chick fil a 63.Get married: first get married lolol yeah eventually 64.Career: sahm honestly

WHICH IS BETTER… (in a significant other?) 65.Hugs or kisses: hugs 66.Lips or eyes: eyes 67.Shorter or taller: taller 68.Older or younger: older 70.Nice arms or nice stomach: arms and BACK OMG 71.Sensitive or loud: sensitive 72.Hook up or relationship: relationship 73.Troublemaker or hesitant: troublemaker?

HAVE YOU EVER… 74.Kissed a stranger?: yes 75.Drank hard liquor?: yes 76.Lost glasses contact/lenses?: yes 77.Turned someone down?: yes 78.Sex on first date?: yes 79.Broken someone’s heart?: yes 80.Had your heart broken?: yes 81.Been arrested?: no 82.Cried when someone died?: yes 83.Fallen for a friend?: yes

DO YOU BELIEVE IN… 84.Yourself?: sometimes 85.Miracles?: no 86.Love at first sight?: not really 87.Santa Claus?: SANTA IS THE SPIRIT OF CHRISTMAS OKAY 88.Kiss on the first date?: yeah 89.Angels?: no

OTHER… 90.Current best friend’s name: dont do this to me laura and chiara 91.Eye color: blue 92.Favorite movie: lord so many

tagged by @amaliabones and @naarna

What was your favorite HP character when you first read the books/watched the movies? at first it was hermione

Has it changed since? If so, who is it now? yeah, ginny and draco and ron my son

How do you feel about pinapple on pizza? like, its good and if it’s there i’ll eat it but i’m not ordering it

What’s your favorite type of plant? basil

What was the pairing of the first HP fanfic that you read? ahhh i don’t really remember

Describe your ideal dinner. um, it honestly just depends on my mood.

For watching movies at home, do you prefer light rain or heavy thunderstorms? light rain, bc we have a tin roof and thunderstorms means we have to turn our tv up all the way and still maybe still not hear it.

Favourite childhood game? guess who

Do you like boats? they’re okay?

Do you wear a watch? If so, in which wrist? i wear my fitbit, on my right

If you could be at Hogwarts during the events of one (only one!) of the books, which book would you choose? probably gof? like up until the end everything was fun for everyone not a champion haha

What’s your second Hogwarts House? slytherin probs

What’s your Patronus, and do you think it fits you? a nebulung cat, WHICH IS MY SISTER’S CAT

What’s your favourite season, and why? fall, the weather, the colors, halloween, thanksgiving just all of it.

Which song do you now find cringe-worthy but loved as a child/teenager? a lot lmao

What’s the last proper book you’ve read, and did you like it? in full, house of leaves (for the third time)

What’s the weirdest fact you know about the place you live in? uhhh idk we at one point had the longest man made beach?

If you could be an animal, what would it be, and why? probably a cat

What’s your favourite word in the English language, and why? i dont really know :(

Which class(es) at Hogwarts would you love to take? herbology, care of magical creatures

How long have you been a HP fan? years

Why do you think you belong in your Hogwarts House? Which traits do you most identify with? loyalty and fairness for sure

okay okay so tagging people. all of the @quidditchleaguenet get it on it folks <3

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