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If I don’t figure out how to get myself to draw again im going to fucking combust
#WHY IS IT SO HARD FOR ME#I HATE NOT BEING ABLE TO DO THIS I FEEL LIKE IM DYING#AAAAAAAAAA#nebula rambles
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how its going
#WHY IS IT SO HARD FOR ME TO JUST DO THE THINGS I NEED TO DO#oc#furry fandom#oc: nitri#art#digital art#doodle#ms paint
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If I don't clean my room and do my laundry soon I want someone to take me out back and shoot me like a dog
#ramblings#neg#why am i burnt out from just existing. i don't have a choice but to be here so why is the universe making it miserable#i need to go to a fucking psychiatrist soon like this isn't normal and i've known that for years#but idk how to keep dealing with it#idk anymore man. i'm tired. i'm always tired and idk how to not be tired#why is it so easy for everyone else to just do the things they want or need to do#why is it so hard for me#i wanna bash my head into a wall
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how it feels trying to make an oc who isnt poc......
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ALEX PLEASE! I CAN'T TAKE HANDLE THIS MUCH BABY BILL CONTENT IN ONE YEAR! 😭🥺
"These horrible wretched babies birthed from the pen of Emmy Cicierega."
#gravity falls#alex hirsch#The Book of Bill#bill cipher#baby bill cipher#baby bill#gravity falls fandom#LaLaLaLaLa#Halloween#Cipherween#Book of Bill#alex why are you doing this to me#He look so wholesome yet also punchable#ALSO THERE'S A CODE ON HIS HAT#OMG#The cuteness it's too much#dipper and mabel#mabel#dipper pines#mabel pines#grunkle stan#Ford Pines#Stanford Pines#Grunkle Ford#That last Bill is him on his first Halloween after destroying Euclydia#He learned why his parents wouldn't let him eat all the candy the hard way
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10 years later
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen fanart#yuji itadori#fushiguro megumi#nobara kugisaki#itafushi#itafushikugi#jjk spoilers#jjk manga spoilers#least heterosexual group photo ive ever drawn tbh#u have the kings of subtle pda and their judgy lesbian third wheel#this does remind me a lot of the kind of art i used to do jhgdjghdfj#specifically that one furuba main trio piece i did forever ago. same vibe better art#anyway......i tried my best........ i tried so hard#i do not know how old they look . the goal was 25/26 but atp i've gaslit myself into thinking they look the same#especially megumi im so . throws hands in the air in defeat#but idk what else i can do cries at least i like it??? i think???????#i don't know!!! if they look younger than 25 whatever!!!!!!!!#why is it so hard fr me to make chars look older im gna slam my head against the door#maybe its fine. idc <- (lie)#in other news itfs are married fight me abt it . yuuji rockin the right hand ring fr Lack Of Finger reasons#also i am Eating nobara's fit . she might also look a bit younger than intended the more i look at her gDI why cant i have nice things#new hairstyle carrying tbh. i think she would a. grow it out and b. switch the side she parts it on to make Seeing easier#god just take it all tht really matters 2 me is low pony nobara and Rings On Fingers itfs#i did my time in yoi i know how to make wedding bands Work
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old habits
#totally did not forget to crosspost this here oops#lowkey felt kinda cringe and then this got 12k likes on twitter in less than a day so#need to be uhm less hard on myself I fear#anyway stolwhump who cheered#I hope no one#why are you cheering over his misery…#jk me too#love u stolly polly#nillyart#nillyfanart#helluva boss#hellaverse#helluva boss fanart#stolitz#stolas x blitz#blitzø#helluva boss blitz#blitz helluva boss#stolas helluva boss#helluva boss stolas#stolas goetia#stolas#vivzieverse#vivziepop
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sketched this out at jury duty actually
#i sat there for eight hours and wasn't called at ALL. even for selection >:(#death note#light yagami#l lawliet#lawlight#i don't ship them that hard tbh#i just like to cheer for classic yaoi as i'm rewatching this series#yippeeeeeee love at first sudden-death mind game 🎉🎉🎉#edit: omg multiple ppl have pointed out the hand (positively)...#i've been wondering why it's getting so much attention... it's probs bc i over-rendered it since i was worried it looked bad LOL#edit 2 months later: i'm glad DN is still enjoyed by so many people!! it's rly nice to see 😭#also i saw notif for a reply that started with “shipping light with L while the former is only-” but it doesn't show up under the post#so i can't read the rest... tumblr saving me from something vile truly. i assume it's about age#btw this character is a magical serial killer#like be fr LMAO i think there might be other issues here!!#the elitist morally bankrupt 17 y/o murderer with a god complex can have a little crush#as a treat <3
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I think Gastronauts on Dropout is the cooking show that has made me truly appreciate the skill of professional chefs more than any other cooking show.
Like I don't know if it's because the challenges are so crazy or the fact that the judges don't have any professional input whatsoever (they're all comedians), but the combination of how utterly stoked the judges are to be eating this food and how creative the chefs get to be really works to make you marvel at just how skilled a professional chef has to be.
Other cooking shows always have a level-voiced narrator listing out shit like,
"Rebecca is doing a praline-mint ganache with a Twiffly Street stir-up, combined with a gestelle Santa Maria sponge technique."
And it's fun to pretend like, 'Ah, yes. Of course! A classic of the genre! He'd be a fool not to!' as though I know anything about cooking or baking.
But on Gastronauts, it's a bunch of comedians who would really graciously appreciate some fancy food, watching chefs cook and going, like,
"What is that? What is he doing?? It's like- like a swishy thing! Like a fancy swishy thing!!"
"OH MY GOD YES, HE'S USING ONIONS."
"Ooo! Crunchies!??"
And then the chefs get to come out and formally present their food, which makes them look very smart. And these actors who generally can't afford Michelin star cuisine are just :DDDD!
And it's like, oh yeah. This is about my level, yes. This conveys how normal people who don't eat good food for a living would actually react. And it's super chill. It's good vibes, that show. 👌
#gastronauts#dropout#original#jordan myrick#none of these are quotes from anything. I don't know anything about cooking. it's why I relate to this show.#I like that it makes the chefs look legit as fuck#because it gives me an average person an idea of how delicious this food is. it's hard to tell when it's being experienced#always by professional celebrity chef judges or whatever. I'd be so excited about this food too! and i have ARFID!
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@wolfythewitch 's gravity fowls au, again...
Mcducket with Tate (when he was an egg)
Stan would sell 'mystery eggs' and it would just be rocks or something
#this au is consuming my mind get it out get it out!#drawing a marbled duck was way harder than I expected so I gave up. kinda#gravity falls#gravity falls au#gravity fowls#bill cipher#stanford pines#ford pines#stanley pines#stan pines#mabel pines#dipper pines#fiddleford mcgucket#fiddleford hadron mcgucket#Fiddleford mcducket. my beloved. why are you so hard to draw#art#fanart#traditional art#watercolor#this au will be the death of me#animal au#anyone ever heard that one story about a red hen that made bread and no one would help her or something? I loved that when I was a kid#Anyway. sorry for drawing your au. again...#I can't stop drawing this au send help
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so I played through Origins again and there's this middle-aged man 🫣
Amrynn the Hero of Ferelden will smooch him, so help me God
why did they do him so fucking dirty in Trespasser anyway lol 😭 I'm half convinced he was originally meant to be an entirely different character and then last minute they were like, 'hey let's make him Teagan instead' but didn't change anything about his design. But it IS really funny when your Inquisitor rides up to the exalted council and looks up at him and he's just mean mugging the FUCK out of you
#dragon age#dragon age origins#alistair theirin#alistair dragon age#hero of ferelden#warden mahariel#teagan guerrin#flemeth#loghain mac tir#description in alt text#teagan: oh you're asking if I'm married?#me out loud: I actually wasn't but--#teagan: (flirts extremely hard)#me: 😳#why do my favorite characters so often have to be minor NPCs lol 😭#also shouts out to fantasynamegenerators for naming literally all of my elf characters lol#blood tw#my art
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ok gayboy
#LOTUS PERSONA ART LETS GOOOOOOOO IT ONLY TOOK ME FIVE FUCKING MONTHS#this is for the three ppl that follow me and know about persona eat up my loves 😍#i love narcissistic bastards who are doomed by the narrative he's a keeper fs#(idk anything abt akechi except hes a gayass detective and loves pancakes and is a tsundere /JJJJJJJ)#he has this sopping wet quality about him that i adore very much. it's the homosexuality i think#persona 5#persona 5 royal#p5#p5r#akechi goro#goro akechi#lotus draws#bro why is his hair so fucking hard to draw it's like chuuya's but if he used a straightening iron#speaking of him this is the hair color i wish he had :(((( my fav hair color frfr it exceeds every other one#the light desaturated brown with hints of russet MWAH MWAH#anyway it's three on a school night i think i should sleep ig😔
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I want to post this here too because I’ve seen it happen a few times
Please understand that there are cultural differences and language differences, if you see this happening let the person clarify what they meant, that person might just not be familiar with words the western side of the internet use
#bearz rambling tag#no it’s not really possible to let everyone who uses this term to change#because as far as I know this is the most common word with use on Chinese websites#I didn’t know that pairing are called ‘ship’ here#like why would I even know that#‘ship’ makes zero sense to me#it took me a while to learn the fandom language people speak here#it’s hard#give people time#shipping culture is very different too#Like on Chinese site you HAVE to clarify the Top and the Bottom of this ship in the ship name#it is very very important to them#people who like the same ship but with different Top Bottom preference will fight till no end#imagine how confused I was when I first got here#where there’s no top bottom differences#it’s not really a smut thing#it’s more a dynamic thing#AxB and BxA is very different#oh I can talk so much about the differences on fandom cultures#if ya are interested in more please feel free to ask#it’s very interesting to me#I wanna talk about it
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i should express myself more, but i really dont feel like it, not even writing here
i think it would be better if i did
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Leo learns something about himself 🏳️⚧️
Based roughly on this old post.
Bonus:
[Leo is taking the fact that he was born biologically female simultaneously very well and also not so well but overall he’s mostly coping with the fact that it was Draxum that just essentially gave him the turtle equivalent of ‘The Talk’.]
#rottmnt#rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles#rottmnt leo#rise leo#trans leonardo#trans leo#rottmnt headcanons#turtle art tag#rise draxum#happy pride everyone~#if you’re wondering why there’s no backgrounds that’s because my files got messed up so just blankness in the bg sorry#but yeah!#this is forever and always my fav headcanon for Leo it makes too much sense to me#I wanted to make sure I got it done in time for pride haha#I don’t know if it’s obvious by the end but Draxum ran off because he was for once doing something nice for Leo#that being leading him somewhere else not in front of everyone so Leo can process the fact that he was born female in peace haha#(but he also just - wanted to avoid the ensuing awkward Talk as long as he could lol)#“how would Leo NOT know’’ he had an inkling but never thought much of it because he’s a teenage turtle mutant with no access to healthcare#also yeah that’s splinter’s hand at the end there I just KNOW he’d want those pics#also also - Leo here can technically be trans or even intersex in some way too#both is good#making this made me remember why I never do color#at least for comics#it just takes sooo long#but it was fun and worth it for my fave hc#this is like the first time I’ve drawn Draxum and man he’s kinda hard to draw#also their sizes are just 1 2 and 3 because Draxum had a simple system in place for sizing his subjects#(aka I was too lazy to think of anything else to put there)#also dunno if anyone noticed but look at Raph’s paper and look at his baby’s self’s photo
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You don't wish your disability was worse or more visible, you wish your disability was taken seriously. Please stop confusing the two, I guarantee you would not get the support you need JUST by being more severe or more visible. Please listen to visibly disabled people when we tell you it isn't better on our side
#m/cc#mine#I tried extremely hard to word this nicely because I KNOW people don't mean bad and often even know there are unique challenges#and believe me I know the challenges of invisible disability too!!#I have invisible disabilities!#but as someone who has also been at least visibly 'off' since they were 10 I am SO SICK of invisible disabilities being hailed as like#a unique extra oppression that us lucky visibly disabled people don't have to deal with#there are challenges to invisible disabilities that visibly disabled people DON'T have to deal with!#but you need to understand that *the reverse is also true*#there are MASSIVE benefits to being able to lie about your disability for example#or not dealing with the overt ableism that comes with your disability being obvious to everyone#*I do not have the option to pretend I'm not disabled.* that is never an option I have#I walk weirdly. I use a mobility aid now. my speech and face are 'off.' I lean to one side#for a long time I wore sunglasses 24/7 and often didn't make sense. I sometimes can't speak or won't react to others#for the most part people will always know that at the very least something is wrong with me#and more obviously I have people telling me they'll pray for me; telling me I can't do things I'm already in the process of doing;#wanting to shake my hand to tell me I'm an inspiration for not killing myself; giving me dirty looks for existing in public#and yes. I'm aware that this is very much an in-community issue. I know the average abled person doesn't know invisible disabilities exist#that's why there's so much awareness happening for it#but as a visibly disabled person I get SO TIRED of constantly hearing 'I wish my disability was visible :'('#it's just 'I wish I had your disability!' but from other disabled people
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