#why is changing urls so stressful why am i like this

[sculien]

i know i screamed about getting an emily prentiss url for months before i changed my url but.......i really want to change to my nadja url even tho we aren't getting the new season of wwdits until next summer (ish?)......should i...........should..........i..........................

[if-loki-was-a-fox]

tumblr blogs are so scary on desktop..

[cpericardium]

So! I've gotten a host of messages and asks regarding recent disk horse and I wanted to address them as a collective.

I know I have anon asks off, I won't share your URLs, but I do want to thank you for asking and clarifying some of the frankly vile things people have been saying about me, my girlfriend, and friends. I value those of you who offered your words of support, and didn't jump to believe screenshots taken out of context and lies written with the utmost confidence and none of the facts. I am a little tired of having my morals questioned and my views conflated with every single person I associate with, but there it goes.

tumblr user cpericardium suspiciously silent on the subject of Gaza: does this mean you support ethnic cleansing???

My reticence when it comes to posting about topics like I/P is because:

-This is a fandom blog intended for lighter topics, except maybe the occasional vent about life stuff, which I usually hide under a cut. I don't have sideblogs. They seem tough to maintain and I don't post nearly enough to justify it. If I were to make one it would be for another fandom or maybe just the freakier bugs. I simply prefer my social media experience to be stress-free.

-Anti-slacktivism. It's a documented thing: posting about an issue makes you feel like you're doing something, you get that little shot of dopamine, so you don't actually go out and do something that effects meaningful change. I'm trying to do less of that. I'm good with the friends and people I follow who choose to post about it and this is a strictly personal belief, but when I engage in activism, it is offline or it is a donation. You're not going to hear about it.

But don't you reblog lgbt and women's rights posts?

Yeah, and that's usually when I want to save a post for one reason or another (e.g. to talk about with someone on discord later). The bottom line is that the main purpose of my blog is not to post political takes or to spread awareness of anything. It is just a collection of my interests (fan stuff, bugs) and hopefully a way to share those interests with like-minded people.

I will state my views clearly for the record: I support Palestine. The ongoing genocide is heartbreaking and so is the violence against protestors. Additionally, I am against antisemitism and the harassment of Jewish people in the name of supporting Palestine. This shouldn't even need to be said.

Is your girlfriend a Zionist?

No.

Does she support Zionists?

No.

Wasn't she in the military?

Yes, years ago.

But the military is evil?

It is. She's extremely hardcore anti-war and anti-military, does not believe the US should even have an army, and actively PMs strangers on reddit to try to convince them to not make the same mistake. If they're dead set anyway, she gives them detailed advice on how to survive. Because she actually cares about the human cost of war, not the social clout gained from shunning or sneering at people who make wrongheaded choices. I have seen her doing this, seen her seeking to understand their reasons for joining so she can systematically explain—from personal experience!—why they're not going to get any of that out of the army. It is a hell of a lot more effective than bitching them out or writing callout posts or starting whisper campaigns about them. She cannot delete those years of her life no matter how much she regrets them. There is only forward. I think we can all agree on that.

But what about all those things she said. "I regret nothing, I have no qualms, VA nipple money etc."

Well you have to understand that while of generally upright character, she is a bit of a scamp. She believes she fundamentally should not have to explain herself to randos who do not know her, who have never, not once, interacted with her, who are clearly digging for dirt and will twist anything she says no matter how banal. People see what they want to see and they look for evidence to reinforce their preconceptions; they'll go so far as to make alts to join servers, cherry-pick screencaps, crop them, and conveniently fill in the rest of the narrative for curious onlookers. So she decided to exaggerate and amplify and twirl her mustache like a supervillain. Give them a show, as it were.

To be clear, I'm not sold on this strat because it makes her look cartoonishly evil to people who can't understand sarcasm and hyperbole. But her friends and I are aware of her actual beliefs from actually talking with her for more than one (1) second instead of immediately believing two mysteriously cropped screencaps from a thirdhand source, and also aware that she did not in fact do those things people imagine she did. And isn't that what matters? Real-life harm? Do you even care?

Re: screenshots/so-called proof from shakertwelve & lakesbian's "callouts"

Girlfriend addresses them here. I will also note they have spread lies about me and other people before.

[botanikos]

Image text: It's Lisa Simpson giving her presentation with the words "I blocked and deleted anons for months, and left this blog/Stolas only for it to all keep going anyway."

Today, while singing around the kitchen after having a hard time at work, I had some "post-stress clarity" or whatever you want to call it.

I have been so exhausted, anxious, and genuinely saddened by the ongoing anonymous tirade that continues to mention my name (and others — but I don't speak for them, only myself). So allow me to make some clarifying statements, shall we? Not that I owe anyone a single word... besides, those I am close with or who know me know the truth. And let me just say thank you.

To everyone else, I refuse to apologize for making this post. As a victim of this circlejerk of an anonymous harassment campaign that people don't want to acknowledge or take seriously and just label as regular old "drama" even though it's been going on for months and that is fucking WILD — I am tired of keeping quiet. So here it is, why I "left."

1. My very first anonymous "criticism" was not that at all. I still wouldn't classify it as "hate" either, despite what others thought of it at the time. However, I have come to the conclusion now, months later, that it is entirely possible, and very likely, they mistook me for someone else. "Jude, that is awfully generous" ; no it isn't. It's what I believe to be true. My URL, at the time before it was changed to botanikos, was very similar to another person's. Knowing what I do now, it makes sense. No harm, no foul.

2. I have no real proof of who has been / is / was sending the constant barrage of anonymous messages. The Cam blog stepped up and said it was them. I believe they played a part in it, for sure, but considering things are STILL being said and I received messages even after blocking them. . . Huh. Interesting, don't you think? Anyways. . . That being said — Not once have I ever made a post about or directed towards another name that has been consistently mentioned in all of this, yet my posts were stolen and used. Linked, of course, because I took the reblog feature away. So again. . . The only things I have ever addressed are a select very few (2-3 messages at most) anonymous asks. I have. . . So many screenshots of messages I consistently received. Let that sink in.

3. "Just ignore and block. They will stop." If that were true, do you think I would have left this blog? No. Again, I don't know who is behind any of this, but it doesn't take rocket science to realize it's because I write Stolas and started befriending people? I assume that is what I am guilty of and what drew the attention? Coz otherwise, WHAT is the reason FOR ALL OF THIS/THAT? I'll wait, if anyone has a valid explanation. . .

4. Yea. I DID make a new blog! Wow! It's almost like I felt unsafe and anxious on this one after everything that's happened/been going on! And the only real way I saw myself regaining control of the situation was to take a few days away, shut down this blog, and start anew?!?! And even still, my name is being dragged around to other people. . . Funny how cowards don't want to ask or talk to me themselves about whatever curiosities they have. Huh! But no longer surprising. I'm just disappointed that I know 6 year olds with more decency and respect than the adults over here.

At this point, I am acutely aware that whoever is behind this, while I may not know their direct identity. . . It is SOMEONE or a group of people who are either close friends with one another and have interacted with me on some level (or the people around me) or they are someone I am close to and unaware of their double standards.

So, of course, I'm going to use a different name and different blog, be private and highly selective, and slow to follow people back or write anymore. Because my spirit and desire to be here while not entirely gone has been severely broken. If you feel like you need anything made clear or confirmed from me, just ask. I have screenshots of everything I need/felt was necessary. I'm an open book. Talk to me in private if you need anything more from me. But there's your explanation.

So let it fucking go. At this point, I'm done being sad about it; now I'm just furious. And if saying all of this makes you dislike me or question my character, I hope you take a moment to do a little reflecting yourself, too. Because nothing I've said above is in any way demeaning. I have given you my experience(s). This blog has brought me so much joy, and sparked new friendships that I am grateful for. But the fact remains that I had to leave. I have to be someplace else, and I'm not even fully present there either.

[mulders-too-large-shirt]

s5 episode 12 thoughts

oh man. i think i’ve heard that this episode is a favorite among the fans. i also think that scully hooks up with a vampire in this one? because that got brought up in that one post i made about 3 a while back. curious to see if i misinterpreted that comment or if this is actually going to happen.

well! no time like now to find out!

the description mentions recounting their version of events… i LOVED that part of jose chung, so i really cannot wait to see what happens here :D

post episode note: not sure if there has ever been a lower words to "LMAOOO" ratio in my note taking history, so i will do my best to make this comprehensible, but i had so much fun watching this :D

man, i'll need to remake my top episodes list at some point... but it might stretch into top 20 or 25!!!

ohh, i wonder what the top 20 most beloved episodes by the whole fandom are...?

we begin with some very dramatic spooky music as this kid runs around in texas, calling for help, followed by someone who is very very fast!!! this guy is going to kill this poor kid!!!! why is he running into the woods??? not a great place to go when you need to escape someone!!!

bigger guy is on top of the little one and OH!! he shoves a stake through his heart!!

IT’S MULDER DOING THE STAKING??

scully finds him over the body of the dead kid… and the kid has fangs!!!! BUT THEY’RE FAKE!!!

DID MULDER JUST KILL THIS KID????????

WHAT THE FUUUCK?!?! WHERE DO WE GO FROM HERE 

my face at this exact moment:😳😳😳

the intro was shortened... I ALWAYS NOTICE

okay, so now mulder is at his desk. scully walks in looking very very very tense. as if he just killed a child, perhaps. she carefully sits down. 

“mulder…” “don’t. don’t even start with me” LMAO WHAT??? she is gagged and also making the same face as me 😳😳

(i couldn't tell what the tone of this episode was at the time, but now that i think about "don't. don't even start with me" i am CACKLING)

he throws a paper into his garbage can, which is surrounded by other thrown papers, and then starts KICKING IT??? she’s watching with a very “wtf” expression going on 

IT’S TOO EARLY FOR ME TO FIGURE OUT THE TONE HERE, WTF 

he is defeating the evil of that trash can, though.

ohhh no, skinner wants their report in ONE HOUR!!! scully is trying to be very pragmatic here.

they both clarify that they are going to say exactly what they saw, but he says “i got to know if you’re going to back me up or what” because he’s the one that might be going to prison!!! no pressure. 

she adjusts her sitting position angrily: “first of all, if the family of ronnie strickland does indeed decide to sue the FBI for, i think the figure is $446 million, then you and i will most certainly be codefendants. and second of all… i don’t even HAVE a second of all, mulder” <- LMAOOO i’m HOWLING! SHE’S AT A LOSS FOR WORDS. JUST FILLED WITH FURY

“i’m in this as deep as you are, and i’m not even the one that overreacted!! i didn’t do the… with the thing!!” <- SHE CANNOT EVEN SAY IT, SHE CAN ONLY MAKE VAGUE GESTURES BAHAHAAA

he says that she needs to tell her story the way she saw it… and she replies that she doesn’t feel comfortable with that (queen of expressing boundaries!)

however, mulder counters that they’re facing the threat of prison, and that scully's cellmate will be named "large marge" and read lots of gertrude stein (oh god. that’s out of pocket, mulder!)

((this man makes far too many prison assault remarks. i understand that he is in a stressful situation. but still!))

he begins recording her version of the story…

“yesterday morning, when i arrived at work, you were… uh… characteristically exuberant” <- i’m crying, that is SUCH a perfect description of him. i have half a mind to change my url to that. but surely it has already been taken.

"HOPE YOU BROUGHT YOUR COWBOY BOOTS! YEEHAW", he says, slamming down plane tickets to texas on the desk <- LMAOOOOO she remembers him as a nonstop yapper, which is mostly accurate 

(absolutely crying at the yeehaw in retrospect)

he won’t shut up or let her talk, he's too locked into these images of dead cows LMAOO “is there any sign of-" “two small puncture wounds in the neck?” “that’s not what i was going to ask” “too bad, we’ve got ‘em” <- i am actually giggling at this. she sees him as constantly over-caffeinated, and i love that

NOT THE CHUPACABRA SLANDER LMAOO “no, they got four fangs, not two, and they suck goats, hence the name” <- YOU TELL HER MULDER ‼️

(that episode is one of the worst, so i think the combination of light acknowledgement of that fact and allowing mulder to flex his encyclopedic memory of cryptids with the manner of a child who got into way too much sugar is frankly iconic)

and he casually adds there is one dead human, prompting her outraged “well why the hell didn’t you tell me that from the beginning?” but he’s already out the door LMAOOO

okay, i cannot stop laughing even though this episode may be about mulder murdering a child. such is the nature of this TV program.

they’re going to investigate the body deep in the heart of texas… and is that romantic music playing when this sheriff hartwell enters??? and she remembers mulder SNAPPING at her while he introduces them as if he cannot remember her name!!

(as if mulder could forget her name... scully i'm calling your bias out there)

mulder tells her to "MOVE YOUR LITTLE LEGS" LMAOOO???

now the sheriff and her are very close as he eagerly agrees to all of her ideas (that the killer was not a real vampire, but someone so obsessed with vampire movies that he wished to emulate them) and mulder watches, suspiciously

LMAOOOO MULDER CALLS HER STORY OUT BACK IN THE PRESENT WHEN SHE SAYS THE SHERIFF USED HER NAME “dana?!?! he never even knew your first name!” (angry scully look) “you going to interrupt me, or what?” “no, go ahead… dana” 

(saw a post the other day that was like "they get to call each other dana or fox once each calendar year" and it's so true because it sounds so wrong when he says it in this context)

this point is where mulder makes his discovery: the dead man’s SHOES are UNTIED!

yeah, idk what that means either.

SHE KEEPS SMILING AT THIS SHERIFF HARTWELL LMAO. DOWN BAAAD.

mulder is pondering… “sheriff, do you have an old cemetery in town, off the beaten path, the creepier the better?”

it is so funny to think that all of these events are through the lens of scully's mind because she sees him as so fucking weird and spooky. both of which are true.

LMAOOO mulder says she must do a full autopsy! “what am i even looking for?” (he grabs her shoulders and leans in) “i don’t know”

LMAOOOO okay, so back before i even thought about watching this show, i saw that gifset on my main and i reblogged it with the caption “man. i’m going to have to watch this show, aren’t i?”, and here we are. so this feels very full circle to have finally seen it

poor scully has had an autopsy thrust upon her :(

scully is totally smitten with this guy though, oh my god…..

(i truly cannot figure out her type. mulder, jerse, esther, and this guy? what is the common ground?! between mulder and esther there was the whole "incredibly intelligent" thing, but the other two?? just like?? dark hair?? idk!)

autopsy time… she's talking into her little voice recorder about the dead man “who is arguably having a worse time in texas than i am. although not by much” LMAOOO

(i wonder if she really did get that candid in her recording, or if she is just being dramatic in her retelling of the tale. i assume she only records herself for the sake of writing the reports, so maybe she is free to say whatever it is that crosses her mind, in which case i would like to listen in)

NOOO, her blade falls out before she can begin and she sadly yeehaws 

(god. a sad scully yeehaw. i used to pray for days like these)

time to weight all the organs. UGH the intestines are all slippery!!!

he had pizza in his stomach. LMAO THE MUSHROOMS SOUND GOOD TO HER BAHAHA SHE IS SO STRANGE

back to the present moment- our agents can’t agree on the name of the motel they stayed in, which is not promising for the rest of their stories aligning 

you can put two quarters in the bed and make it jiggle? this is news to me! and this is just what scully does!

an angry and dirty mulder appears just as she begins this process!

ohhh, the dead guy had lots of sleeping drugs in his system… and her voice is all funny because she is jiggling while she says this… she thinks the “vampire” gave the guy the drugs. meanwhile, mulder is not elaborating on his very dirty appearance!

NOOOO there’s another dead tourist and she has to do another autopsy!!! “i just put money in the magic fingers :(“ AWWW POOR SCULLY 

(why couldn't that wait until tomorrow!?!!)

he says he won’t let it go to waste and IS HE GOING TO CLIMB IN ALL DIRTY??? LMAOO NOOOO

the subtitles point out that he is “laughing mischievously” which escalated to “cackling”… what is this man planning!!! he takes pleasure in dirtying her jiggling bed!!

(regardless of the accuracy of if it really happened in such a manner, it’s sad to see how taken advantage of scully feels by him 🙁)

she sadly leaves after telling him not to get mud everywhere 

NOOOO the pizza guy just got there :( BAHAHA she wanted pizza after autopsying that guy… well she is going to make “the guy in there” pay for it. serves him right!!!

OH! the pizza guy is the vampire kid!!!!!!!

she’s soooo sleepy as she does the second autopsy…. ANOTHER NASTY SLIPPERY LARGE INTESTINE

she is going to fall asleep like this!!!!!!

then she gets a phone call that is just heavy breathing. so she hangs tf up!!! 

this dead guy has pizza in him too!!!! OH.... she realizes the chloral hydrate must be in the pizza!! and it must be the pizza guy who is the killer!! and oh no, mulder!!!

scully bangs down the door to her motel room and mulder isn’t visible….  just the creepy pizza kid!!!! she fires a bunch of shots at him, but he runs away!!

so mulder was drugged… and he says some very weird stuff about "shaft" that i don’t wish to unpack. hearing of this makes present mulder gasp and exclaim “i did not!” and yeah, i don’t even want to know <3

(a lot of times i google stuff i don’t understand due to not being alive in the 90’s. this one? i shall not google it. i am not a fool. i recoginzed Enough of those words to know i don't need to know)

she missed the pizza kid with her first four shots which is rare for her, ran after him, leaving poor drugged mulder behind, but somehow, mulder caught the kid before she did, where he... “overreacted”

damn. he's a track star even when drugged.

she argues that they can tell skinner they caught a killer, and that mulder's zeal was due to the drugging, which i think is a fine story.

but mulder is pissed! “you are afraid to tell the truth. that’s not the way it happened at all!” OHHH, I CANNOT WAIT TO GET HIS VIEW

“yesterday morning began like any other morning; you arrived at the office, characteristically less than exuberant” LMAOOOOOO BE NICE TO HER!!!

he remembers his explanations being very slow and gentle and her reactions being very sassy AND I’M LAUGHING AT HER “AND?” LMAOOOOO

she’s just LOOKING AT HIM and he doesn’t know wtf to do BAHAHA AND HE IS SOOO CAREFUL TO USE “APPARENTLY” and “VAMPIRE-LIKE” IN HIS DESCRIPTIONS OF THE ATTACKS LMAOOOO

he ends his very cautious assessment that this attack was "vampire-like" in nature by telling her “but as always, i’m very eager to hear your opinion” <- THAT DID NOT HAPPEN YOU LYING BASTARD!! YOU HAVE NEVER SAID THAT ONCE LMAOOOO

“well it’s obviously not a vampire” “well, why not?” “because they don’t exist?” <- BAHAHA that is ANOTHER GIFSET I SAW BEFORE I DECIDED TO WATCH THIS SHOW!! oh man, so this one really must be a fan favorite if i saw two scenes from it before i even started watching 

“well… that’s one opinion, and i respect that” <- BAHAHAHAAAA YOU LIAR!!!

so they go down to the funeral home where he points out the plentiful caskets- unusual for such a small town. scully had tuned out at this point. and you know what? can you blame her?

HE REMEMBERS THE SHERIFF AS HAVING HUGE BUCK TEETH THAT MAKES HIM HARD TO UNDERSTAND which present scully DENIES bahaha ohhh he’s jealous and she is gaaazing at sheriff hartwell and smiling and oh my god, mulder is so jealous 

he’s monologing on the nature of vampires but scully shoots this down

“there are as many kinds of vampires as there are cultures that fear them” <- ohhh nerd. NERD!!! nerdy thing to say.

she’s yawning as he talks about red hair being an indication of vampirism, gesturing to her, which happened in an AU fic i actually did briefly read once and would like to see explored in greater detail. i'm a sucker for fic or art with the "skeptic is actually a monster" trope

he is now at the cemetery with the sheriff, whose country accent has increased greatly between the agent's perspectives

cemeteries are a haven for vampires, “as are castles, catacombs, and swamps”, mulder points out, and i'm writing that down ✍️ 

he remembers this sheriff as being incredibly stupid. ohhh, the pizza guy pulls up at the cemetery!!! he waves hello and then drives off.

so they staked out the cemetery. fun times.

she wants to know why he cared so much about the corpse’s shoelaces, but he just looks at his OWN shoes lmaooo and says he’s getting to it 

he was leaving sunflower seeds for the vampires at the cemetery, because all vampires are obsessive compulsive. they must untie knots and count seeds. which is why he thinks the shoelaces were untied. fascinating bit of vampire lore.

but they must go to the RV camp, where there is a situation. ronnie the pizza guy is here!! there’s an RV that’s spinning around. 

mulder doesn’t want to talk about shooting out the tires... what is this man HIDING!! 

well, it turns out it is very hard to shoot the tires of a moving RV... so HE GRABBED ON THE BACK AND WAS SPUN AROUND IN CIRCLES BAHAHA WHYYYYY WAS THAT HIS NEXT COURSE OF ACTION?!?!?

finally, they manage to stop the damn thing. and inside the RV was a dead guy!!!! with puncture marks on his neck and untied shoes!!! gasp!!

when he returns back to the motel, he remembers scully yelling at him because she has to do another autopsy, saying “i do it all for you, mulder!” (which is CRAZY!) and that she hasn’t eaten since 6 that morning, and she only had a bagel, and it wasn’t even REAL CREAM CHEESE!!!

listen!! can you blame her for being furious?? she just paid for the magic fingers!!!

he remembers her leaving as being a great relief, and her SLAMMING THE DOOR SO HARD THE PAINTING SHOOK ON THE WALL BAHAHAHA

aww, he sees himself as the poor little victim…. bro. you MAY have had it rough with getting dragged around by an RV, but in her defense 1. that was your faulty idea and 2. it probably was still not as bad as having to do 2 autopsies on an empty stomach

he goes to get in the shower. ohhh hello. that is a man who is emerging scantily clad.

now ronnie the pizza guy is here, and mulder is saying that he will pay for the tasty food. not knowing it contains the sleepy stuff!

he opens up the pizza and sighs with relief: “ah, scully” <- oh, so you think she has good taste in pizza toppings? that’s hilarious 

“so, i ate your dinner” <- okay, well at least he’s honest about that!! a grown man on the vibrating bed, noticing his shoes were untied…. and the drugging is taking place!! this is instant karma for such a pizza thief!!

he tries to call scully, but only groans into the phone…. then ronnie returns

BAHAHA he recalls scully calling the voice on the phone a creep <- well, you can’t really blame her!!!!!! 

ronnie is here, and his eyes glow and he has fangs… but the inebriated mulder manages to toss his sunflower seeds on the ground, thwarting ronnie the vampire slash pizza guy's plan!! which prompts him to say “aw man!” (LMAOOOOO) and then mulder's back out in sleepy land… 

when he comes to, scully is bursting in the door, and she shot ronnie TWO TIMES IN THE CHEST!!! to no effect!!!

scully is shocked at this recollection: “and then he sort of flew at me like a flying squirrel?” BAHAHA

so, she runs after ronnie into the woods, while mulder breaks a chair leg to make a stake… and bam. the "overreaction".

scully points out that no one will believe that story, but he says they will have to when they examine ronnie’s body

(i think it's very funny/sweet that scully does not remember being able to shoot ronnie, but mulder remembers her aim being perfect and that it was simply ineffective because you cannot kill vampires with bullets. not sure whose perspective is the objective truth, but it's adorable he remembers her being a great aim)

someone else is examining ronnie now. what shall he find??? bleh, he takes the stake out! nasty nasty!!! what if ronnie gets up and runs away??

OH RONNIE *IS* GETTING UP!!!! and his eyes are set on this coroner!!!! he attacks!!!

poor scully and mulder are waiting for skinner… she tries for fix his tie, but he shoos her away!!! so rude!!! there is no gesture more loving than the adjustment of a necktie!!

she asks him to keep reminding skinner that he was drugged, which ALSO pisses mulder off. BUT IS SHE WRONG??? IT WILL GO A LONG WAY!!

THEN WHEN SKINNER COMES IN HE STANDS STRAIGHT UP AND ANNOUNCES “I WAS DRUGGED” <- LMAOOOOOO

(i laughed so hard at this that i accidentally hit the pause button, and i’m looking at mulder's expression and scully watching him, and there are TEARS in my eyes)

skinner sighs deeply…. and says they have to go back to texas!! ronnie’s body is gone, and the coroner was attacked!! his throat was “sort of… gnawed on” LMAO?????

“but… he was dead” “i noticed that” (mulder is doing his slutty hands on hips while thinking pose)

so they’re back out to the yeehaw cemetery. why would a real vampire need fake fangs? well, mulder answers, the fangs of vampires are rarely mentioned in folklore!

“i think maybe you were right before when you said that this is just a guy who’s watched too many dracula movies. he just happens to be a real vampire” <- BAHAHAAAA I SMACKED MY CHEST I LAUGHED SO HARD AT THIS

scully sighs deeply. average scully reaction.

the sheriff pulls up!!! she turns to him and points at her teeth, indicating that to mulder that his teeth are NORMAL LMAO 

GASP... HE LEAVES AND SAYS THE SHERIFF SHOULD STAY WITH HER… THEN HE PUTS HIS HAND ON HER SHOULDER AND SAYS “don’t say i never did anything for you” OH MY GOD?

mulder was so jealous before and now he is leaving her with this man... what does this say about him!!!

he’s off to the RV park, and scully is here to share some coffee with this sheriff. 

woah, he asks her about vampires….. and she says they’re supposed to be charming and seductive, but who is to say if that is the case? after all, there are many kinds of vampires. wait. why did he say “yup, sure are” I DON’T LIKE THAT!!

HE APOLOGIZES FOR RONNIE AND SAYS HE MAKES US ALL LOOK BAD? “i mean, we pay taxes, we’re good neighbors” OMG LOOK AT HER FACE WHEN SHE REALIZES WHAT HE MEANS!?!

NOOO, SHE DRANK THE COFFEE HE GAVE HER, AND NOW SHE’S PASSING OUT!!! DON’T TOUCH HER, CREEPY SHERIFF MAN WITH NOW-GLOWING EYES!!!!!

mulder is at this RV park far away!!! run, run back to her!!!! she is going to be out of blood by the time you return!!!

he goes into the RV from earlier and finds more pizza… and a casket!!! with ronnie inside!!! listening to a walkman!!

he sits on his coffin as he reads ronnie his miranda rights…. but the whole RV park is full of vampires and they are coming to get him!!!

so he handcuffs the coffin shut, grabs some breadsticks, makes a crucifix, trying to repel them…. which is objectively hilarious... but they take him????? TO DO WHAT???

and he’s found the next morning with his feet out the window of a car. AND WHY IS SHE IN THE SHERIFF’S JACKET?? 

he checks her neck and his own for fang marks, but they don’t seem to have any. they just have no memories at all from the evening before!!! and every single RV is gone!!! and mulder's shoes are untied!!!

skinner is being told that the vampires simply disappeared

“and that’s exactly the way it happened, start to finish?”

(silence) “well, i can neither confirm nor deny agent mulder’s version of events, which occurred outside my presence” “and i can neither confirm nor deny agent scully’s version of events, but, um…” “anyway, i was drugged” (LMAO SCULLLLYY) “that is…. essentially, exactly the way it happened” “essentially”

we fade to black with this. (“except for the part about the buck teeth”, adds mulder)

LMAOOOO??? that was it??? 

no answer. no convictions. the vampires all just left. 

someone else recently pointed out that despite them never figuring out wtf happened on these cases, they somehow have the highest success rate at the FBI, and that is so funny because. by jove. the other FBI members must be terrible at their jobs.

okay, so i could not stop laughing during this episode, and the sheriff plot twist really surprised me. so she never actually *slept* with the vampire, she just had a little crush on him!!! therefore, i must have misinterpreted that comment someone made on my post waaayyy back in s2.

but he *did* drug her, and she woke up in his jacket, which has… implications, especially when we earlier opened with a prison assault joke. 

but. okay. maybe i’m just hyper-sensitive to these things and it didn’t intend to be interpreted that way. plus, mulder was drugged too, and also woke up with no memory of what went down. at least there's gender equality in that regard.

ohhh, mulder was jealous!!! they both think of the other as too harsh!!! it’s fascinating to see how they see each other!!! he thinks he’s this suave encyclopedia of vampire knowledge, and she thinks he’s the type of guy that slaps down plane tickets on the desk and says yeehaw!

she thinks she’s overworked and taken advantage of, and he thinks she’s overly negative and hates all of his theories and ideas!!!

oh, the joys and sorrows of being with someone 24/7. and yet. the absolute MINUTE she leaves for vacation. he’s blowing up her phone. bahahahaaaa. couple’s therapy now. 

i remember someone pointed out in 3x13 that it was almost like the writers were trying to prove why they would never make a good couple in the way they got along horrifically when mercury was in retrograde or whatnot. i feel like maybe the writers intended for that to happen again this episode, like they were pointing at them and saying "SEE? this is why they can't kiss! they get on each other's nerves!"

joke's on you, i love couples that annoy each other. so jot that down.

oh, it was a good episode. a nice little silly one. which we all deserved after last season, and frankly even after earlier in this season as well.

mulder: let her fix your tie >:(

[familyvideostevie]

hey.

okay. hello! i'm back. :)

maybe you noticed, maybe not, but i have been away for a while.

i wish i could say i've been out living my life, so caught up in happiness and joy and loving each day that i've just not had time for tumblr. but....that is not true. i have been having a tough time! being away has been good, as i've had time to do other things that i like and to put energy into my own well-being, but it hasn't been the best time, I'll tell you that.

i peeked on the dash every now and then to keep my queue full and reblogged soothing things to my main blog and tried my best not to feel guilty about it all (i was also booping on April 1 lol). i just...I really needed a break. i've really enjoyed being here the last six or so months as i've changed my blog and entered the pedro/tlou space but i've also felt so, so alone.

and i know that it doesn't really matter!! like, we should all take breaks and go outside and all that stuff. and I know plenty of people are not very active, but this blog has been such a vital part of my life and happiness since I started it almost two years ago, so any lapse in activity feels like a loss. I've met lifelong friends and flexed my writing muscles and learned a hell of a lot. the fact that I have started to feel isolated and alone on here is a sort of personal betrayal, and there is no one to blame but myself.

So, I’m pulling back.

it means a few things — i don’t know how much writing I’ll be doing from now on. For Joel, especially — it’s been wonderful to meet folks in that community but it has also been really detrimental to my passion for both the game and writing. I’d like to return to some other characters on my masterlist, but we’ll see. I’ve got endless personal projects away from tumblr that I want to pour love and time into (my non-reader fics, my newsletter, a romance novel, a sci-fi novel, poetry, etc). I need to fall in love with my own work again.

it's a me problem, I want to stress that. i'm working on it! irl stuff has been kicking my ass. I've had a really, really hard winter and my mental health has suffered probably more than ever before. i let things I love -- like this blog -- fester and become negative and no longer being me joy. writing became stressful and difficult and I was focused on notes and interaction and looking around me and seeing success and then looking at myself and only seeing lack.

but that's why I took a break! i am getting help and support irl, i am putting in the time and effort to feel better about being alive and to be a better friend and person all around. And I want to tell you all about it because I am so grateful for your time and attention and support, even if we’re just strangers on the internet. i know this probably seems silly -- who cares about a fanfic blog? well, i care! i care a lot! it matters to me and therefore it matters!

anyway. on to the important stuff. here I am! and here's what's going to happen on this blog:

I am working on replying to asks and reblogs and comments I missed. Thank you for being patient with me! I don't know if I'll get to them all but know I see them and I am honored every single time.

I made a totally separate ao3 account with this blog url. I'm working on uploading everything I've posted here onto there and hopefully will continue to crosspost. It is going to take a long, long time, so please be patient! (you can follow my other ao3 here for my non x-reader fanfic).

I posted this fic! Jackson!Joel pulled me back into his world. It’s the first thing I’ve written in ages, so let me know what you think. as of now it's the last planned fic for that series, but who knows!

I hit a milestone while i was away that I am absolutely blown away by. I'm planning a celebration around it sometime this spring (hopefully) and I’d love to see you participate :)

lastly, thank you so much to my friends for letting me complain, whine, winge, etc. I am so sorry for missing all of your work, your celebrations, your bright energies, and all the rest. i am so sorry if it seemed like i was ignoring you. you are my guiding lights, my silver linings, my touchstones. you make me want to be here. i will try to make it up to you!

I want to be online less but make sure I’m connecting more in the moments that i am here. I want to pressure myself to write less and not feel bad that I’m not engaged all the time. I want this blog to once again feel like a place that nourishes me and not sucks me dry. i want to stop feeling like shit about all of it!!!!

so. come hang out in my inbox, my dms, let me know what you've been up to. I am really sorry for missing so much. thank you for sticking around. <3

[practickles]

Through Bad Days and Obvious Deflection || Squealing Santa 2024

Fandom: Project Sekai

Lees: Rui Kamishiro, Nene Kusanagi

Lers: Nene Kusanagi, Rui Kamishiro

Romantic RuiNene

Word Ct: 1.5k

Warnings: Tickling, vague descriptions of stress/sleeplessness (but no concrete reason for either given)

Summary: After Rui shows up uninvited and refusing comfort, couch cuddles quickly turn into an easy remedy.

My @squealing-santa gift for @marloloweler!! (really hoping I got the new url right) So sorry this took a sec to get out, it was an awful combination of technology issues, health issues and memory issues, but I hope you enjoy it nonetheless. It's past holiday season, but I hope you have a fantastic rest of January!

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Coming over now! Hope you’re not busy :) <3 

The text she received from her boyfriend was not exactly uncommon. Rui was unpredictable at the best of times and Nene was grateful that the only real shock was his company. Comparatively, it was at least expectable. 

There were, however, pros and cons of living so close together though, she had hardly had time to quickly tie her hair up and make it to the living room before Rui was walking into it, looking more than a bit disheveled. His eyes were visibly more tired, complete with heavy bags under them and a forced relaxed expression. 

She raised her eyebrow. “Rui, when was the last time you slept?” 

“Oh, my dear it is truly so good to see you too!” He smiled sarcastically. 

His girlfriend was not impressed. “I’m happy to see you too, but you know what I meant.  Seriously, what’s going on? You look like a mess.” 

“Am I at least a handsome mess?” 

She glared at him and sat on the couch. Rui could feel her scathing stare from across the room. 

"Rui come here." She motioned to the couch, exasperated. 

"What is 'here' exactly?" He scrunched his eyebrows in faux confusion. "I mean I am here with you in that we're in the same room. I don't understand what else you're asking of me." 

Deflection. Nene naturally noticed immediately. Why couldn't he just let himself be taken care of?! "Rui Kamishiro, I swear to whatever is out there if you don't sit on this couch right now-!" 

"Okay, okay!" He held up his hands in surrender. "You don't need to be so demanding." 

Nene felt slightly guilty at her tone only until Rui swung a leg over and perched himself atop the back of the couch, feet on the cushions and a smug expression on his face. 

Without another word, she yanked on his leg, causing him to lose balance and fall right on top of her. The couple was a tangle of limbs and frustration, both moving to adjust to something even marginally more comfortable. 

After a few moments of wiggling and turning, they eventually settled with Nene laying nestled into the couch, her back to the back and her head on the armrest with Rui facing her chest in his arms. 

"If you're not going to tell me what's wrong, at least let me hold you for a little bit." She rubbed her back in a way she hoped was soothing whatever turmoil was in his head.

"Nothing is wrong!" 

"Wanna try that again?" She asked sternly. 

A look. Something on his face was mischievous and maybe a little... Eager? Anything was an improvement from before she supposed but it was definitely an unexpected change. 

“Not particularly, but thank you for asking.” And with a cheshire smile, he dug his hands into her ribs, right in front of him. He squeezed at random, leaving her guessing. 

To Rui’s delight, Nene instantly screamed. “You never were a giggler were you, sweetie?” He caught himself smiling right along with her. 

She shouted his name through her squeals and what might have been pleas. “Let me help you- you- you immature, stubborn-!” 

“Loving, kind, beautiful, intelligent man that you happen to find yourself in love with?” He suggested, earnestly unhelpful. After a moment though, he withdrew his hands. 

“Darling, I know I can be… difficult when it comes to receiving comfort, but I assure you all I need right now is your company. A distraction, I think, is best. You’re helping just by allowing me into your home and presence” His hesitation and rare lack of that infuriatingly endearing smirk made his claim substantially more believable. She knew him well enough to see the sincerity in his words. Sometimes stress and exhaustion was simply that. The best thing she could do for him was take his mind off of it. 

“And tickling me… helps you?” She tilted her head at him. 

He at the very least had the decency to make himself appear apologetic. “It’s more being playful and having fun with you. I just love to see you smile.” 

An idea burst into her head. What he needed was smiles and distraction, and what she needed was a happy boyfriend and maybe a bit of revenge. Two birds, one stone. 

Hesitantly, she started to poke at his sides with an impertinent air. “What if I did this, huh? Would you like it? Is this your idea of fun? This is what you did to me!” 

His cheeks immediately puffed up and eyes squeezed shut with repressed giggles and no response. 

“What’s that? Did you hear me?” Each poke was now accompanied by a little wiggle or scratch. He wasn’t pushing her away. A telltale sign. “I asked if you liked this! Are you too tired to talk? Tell me or I’ll stop!

What came out of his mouth was less words, more high pitched squeaking. 

“Your face is all red! Do you have a fever? I can’t understand what you mean by-” She did a poor but teasing impression of his squeaking. 

Just as Rui was about to attempt to compose himself, she blew a raspberry right into the crook of his neck. The floodgates burst open as he broke into real laughter. “Neh-ne! Hehe! I’m so-sorr-” 

“Oh you’re sorry now? You weren’t sorry when you did this.” She, much in the way he’d done to her sides, dug her fingers into his underarms. “To me.” 

Yet another similarity to their previous roles, Rui screeched and continued to plead. “I see the error of my ways! I’ve suffered enough!” 

“Suffering? You seem much happier than before, at the very least more relaxed.” She pulled her hands entirely away, relishing his immediate change from giddy desperation to disappointed pouting. “But maybe I’m wrong. Maybe we should just sit here and do nothing.” 

Almost as if instinctually, Rui grabbed her wrists and pulled them closer to his body, his eyes exposing what would be a novel’s worth of begging for her to continue.

Nene simply responded by holding his hands. “This is nice, isn’t it?” She smiled knowingly. 

His pout intensified, even as his girlfriend reassuringly squeezed his hands.

“Y’know, looking at me like that isn’t going to do anything for you.” She mindlessly ran her thumb over the back of his lithe hands, continuing even after he let go of one, resting his own around her waist. 

Wordlessly, Rui reached his newly freed hand between them to poke at her stomach.

She squawked at the surprise before managing to pull herself away, burrowing herself backwards, further into the couch, halfheartedly glaring at Rui, who was looking far too pleased with himself. 

“You know, dear, looking at me like that isn’t going to do anything for you.” He repeated her own words back to her face, with a suddenly chipper demeanor, almost as if out of nowhere.He continued to poke sporadically, trapping her further and further into the plush folds of the couch. “What are you going to do about it?” 

Nene was stuck in between a rock and a hard place, or, more accurately, a cushion and a couch. On one hand, she could give Rui the satisfaction of letting herself be goaded into tickling him. The other option involved her getting tickled to death or suffocated in a couch. Death might be preferable if she really thought about her wisenheimer boyfriend in a self superior mood for too long. 

Luckily for them both, the assault on her belly didn’t leave much room for thought, only action. In a bout of strength that would have shocked them both had Rui actually been trying to fight her, she pushed at the hands long enough to wedge her body from her plush prison and straddle Rui’s waist. Nene looked dangerously down at him, all while he continued to prod, keeping her in a constant state of jolting and squealing. 

Exactly as she predicted, his face was radiating with the joy of his achievement. She rolled her eyes at him. “You’re nahat subtle- hehe-!” 

“Subtlety can be forgone in cases in which the alternative is still effective, no?” 

“Whaht are you even saying?” Nene laughed through her words, both from the tickling and fondness for the man under her. 

But just as he started to explain, she decided she didn’t particularly want to hear it (and maybe wanted to rush in) and rapidly squeezed his hips, rendering him unable to speak through waves and waves of laughter. 

Still not forgetting the original reason behind his visit, however, she asked, “How’s this for a distraction? Happy?”

��HAHAHA-ha-happyHEHE!” He agreed, the cackling around it speaking volumes more than the answer itself. 

She smiled to herself . Whatever made him happy. 

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Fun fact: This was actually my SECOND piece with the prompts, I have a half baked Polyshow one that I got such bad writers block on that I started over with a totally new idea. I'll tag you, marloloweler, if it ever sees the light of day. Apologies if this is a little rusty, it's been a sec.

[shadowfoxsilver]

jackrisstuff/jacrstuff/jacrsstuff/ jacrstuffsposts/jacrstuffsblog psa/beware

Update: As of 7/26/2023 all accounts are now down! Unfortunately this kind of scam still pops up as other users so please take caution if you get asks like this from accounts that are only a few days old and don’t show any images as proof of who they are. Always ask questions.

Update 2: As of 8/13/2023, their back under jacrstuffsblog.

[Image ID: A screenshot of an ask sent by jackrisstuff that reads as follows: “Hello sorry for tagging. Please help a black mother in need. I'm diagnosed with stage 4 ovarian cancer which has spread to my lungs, neck and brain. I'm in a very vulnerable situation with no treatment because l'm unable to afford one. Currently I'm homeless with my 19 months old daughter because we cant. Anything appreciated” and ends with a beating heart emoji. /End ID]

Just a heads up to my followers and anyone else, this account blocked me when I requested them to provide evidence that their a real person needing support. Instead of answering my concern and replying to a link that brought up suspicions, they opted to start spamming asks to my mutuals/followers in efforts to try and get them to share the aid post. This is clear proof they don’t intent to prove their a real person needing aid and are just spamming asks to everyone they can find instead of proving they actually need support.

I do not want people to be scammed because a blogger decided to spam my friends askboxes. If you got this ask, I also suggest you to ask the person for proof their legit or block them before they can spam your followers/people you shared from. It’s sickening they likely stole someone’s real fundraiser pictures to pass off as their own ill daughter.

This is exactly the reason why I try to tell people please don’t spam asks to get support. There are scammers who do the same thing and don’t like it when public concern is brought up. The email they give is linked to a suspended twitter account that was sending the same message but had an entirely different pic.

UPDATE!

New url is jacrstuff. Their trying to avoid my alert now which further proves their not legitimate. No one needing aid would change urls like this.

[Image ID: A screenshot of an ask sent by jacrstuff that reads as follows: “Hello sorry for tagging. Please help a black mother in need. I'm diagnosed with stage 4 ovarian cancer which has spread to my lungs, neck and brain. I'm in a very vulnerable situation with no treatment because l'm unable to afford one. Currently I'm homeless with my 19 months old daughter because we cant. Anything appreciated” and ends with a beating heart emoji. /End ID]

Update 2: Url change again instead of verifying who they are and still trying to get away from this warning. Now under jacrsstuff.

[Image ID: A screenshot of an ask sent by jacrsstuff that reads as follows: “Please help a black mother in need. I'm diagnosed with stage 4 ovarian cancer which has spread to my lungs, neck and brain. I'm in a very vulnerable situation with no treatment because I'm unable to afford one. Currently I'm homeless with my 19 months old daughter because we cant. I'm struggling for medicines, shelter and groceries that really puts a lot of stress on me. Anything help with a bearing heart emoji used and then and is very much appreciated ending with a praying hand emoji. /End ID]

Additionally, if you search their email provided in their post, it shows up with a suspended twitter account using the photograph of a white adult woman with a child while the asker claims to be a black adult woman with a child. The twitter post seems to use the same exact wording as the askers post though I am unable to find the source of the image they used for the twitter post.

Update again

yollandde on twitter is now running the same scam.

[atmymercy]

&&& now for the opposite of ‘tea cozy time’ for tea crazy time! aka this is a post for us to vent and release any negativity we have been holding and wanting to release!

that’s right! now this is the time for us as a community to release our negativity so we can continue our journey without all this stress, anxiety and ugliness dragging us down!

i do ask that we stay kind and professional during this! i understand that we can get really angry but lashing out will not help. so try and keep anything personal like names, places and things to a minimum because we don’t want people’s feelings hurt. this is a release negativity with hopefully no harm to none kind of situation! so don’t be @ certain URLs or names because we are not here to cause harm! just releasing! just venting! just taking a breath of fresh air together! woot!

let’s starting sharing!

omg! i swear i feel so good and happy and generous because of how grateful i am to these little vents! why? because they fucking work! thank you, spirit!

so let's release something else! so i've never been an overly dangerous person. if anything, i'm a cautious person! like i love skiing and rollercoasters, "but we could take it slower" is always how i feel as well! lol so i can do it but i'm also scared! i just love my body and my health so much that sometimes i have fears about the physical and mental deterioration of myself. i know my body is always changing, especially as a woman because we, women change with the very moon! so i can't fear change! so i guess what i'm trying to say is i hate when i have health scares, ranging from the serious to even the minor stuff. i would love to just be freer to love my body but sometimes this world seems so scary and harmful that i wonder if i'm safer to hide away. i release this to my spirit guides and ask them to lift me up above this fear! woo! that was a heavier one for sure!

oooh! i feel better after saying that already! please feel free to comment/reblog to join in! let’s spread some

love & light!

-tea

[indestructibleheart]

petalwrites is now IndestructibleHeart

Hi, friends!

As some of you know, I've been through a lot of changes this year... and one of those changes involved a lot of thinky-thoughts about gender and coming to the realization that I'm demi-femme (or genderqueer; I use both terms). I started using she/they pronouns, which I'm really comfy with, but I've been thinking a lot lately about wanting a more gender-neutral name that represents all of me... and this is the safest place for me to explore that.

petal → stevie

As Charlie Spring would tell me, I don't owe anyone an explanation re: my gender or why I'm changing my name, but I actually want to open up a bit. I'm just going to do it under the cut below.

However, the tldr is this: I'm not a girl, but I'm not NOT a girl (hope that helps!!). I'm gonna start going by Stevie in online spaces because it better fits the person I'm becoming. I've changed my URL here, my ao3 username, and my nicknames on Discord. I love each and every one of you for cultivating a space where I can explore what being demi-femme means to me, since I'm not quite in a place to change my inherently feminine government name IRL.

cw for talk about both gender and losing my dad (spoiler alert — I didn't choose Stevie for Stevie Budd, as precious as she is to me):

The name "Petal" being pretty feminine is something that's been on my mind for a while now, and I thought pretty hard about what name felt most like me. When the name Stevie popped into my head, it was because of Schitt's Creek... but something else clicked right after.

It was my dad's name.

(Well, his name was Steve, anyway.)

And, while we had our differences over the years, he was the first person in my family to wholeheartedly support me when I came out. I told him I was a lesbian and he was literally like, "Cool. You want pizza for dinner, or...?" Yeah. Didn't bat an eye. Especially given that he passed in June, of all months, it feels like a fitting tribute to take his name with me on this journey.

For me, the gender spectrum is complicated. It's a place I'm still learning to navigate... and that's why I'm choosing a name that feels like it suits me wherever I happen to be on the slider at any given time. Having a place where I can make these kinds of changes and do some self-exploration is just... like... I don't have the words to articulate how much that means to me.

This community has been nothing but wonderful every step of the way here. Hell, this community half the reason I felt safe and comfortable enough to start doing all this self-reflection in the first place. So, thank you for that.

I know referring to me by a different name is gonna take some adjustment, but that's okay!

Just like I am both she and they, Petal is a part of me, too... It's just not all of me. I want to introduce myself with a name that fits like a comfy sweater, rather than a dress that I only wear on certain days. Y'know?

(And, really, this is more about me needing a space to safely explore some gender neutrality when I can't IRL than it is my being uncomfortable with the name Petal. So, don't stress about it.)

I hope that makes sense outside of my head... but I guess it's also okay if it doesn't.

[miupow]

I am actually alive🤡 but dk when I'll be dead again...🥲 btw hi lia! I've gotten busy, lately, like a lot. It has been so bad i haven't gotten even time to check my writing blog. Nor have i been writing any stuff many drafts, wip, etc none completed. Today my health gave up on making me stay conscious.... I have been on less sleep for uh... 2 weeks, so i passed out (wow💀) i have a lot of work as the class representative(yes they made me the class representative😭), and then i gotta work for organising events (why? Cause I am the representative so gotta work on behalf of my section) i almost passed out in bus yesterday so now I am checking all my social media for a little while as i rest and now our semester has all new subjects so less time to write stuffs as i need to catch up with the pace and be in my old prime to write stuff. Wanna take a long break so idk...🥲 gotta work, study and work and study etc(spoilers, it gets and is getting worse as time passes by)

— noulli❕️

hi noulli darling!!! i’ve missed u sm 🤧🤧 i didn’t know u changed ur url i’ve been looking for u everywhere … !!! it’s so nice to hear from you again!!!

ouuu noulli pls stay safe and healthy.. remember that real life comes before everything else!! don’t stress so much about writing and take a break if you need one!! you sound very busy… i hope you continue to do well in school 🩷 pls prioritize ur health!! i love u bb

[palestaticexchange]

FAQ... 2

(Feel free to message my inbox, queries will be added here as and when questions are asked)

Do I need to answer the "likes/ dislikes" part of the form?

Nope! If you're not fussed on what is created for you then by all means leave them blank, the only required questions are your URL (so that I can contact you) and your chosen medium. Your partner will have your URL so they can always mooch through your blog if unsure.

Why did you ask for our chosen mediums if the draw is random?

Because I'm genuinely curious! You're a talented bunch!

You keep using the word "partner" will the person I get, get me?

No, I'm saying partner because it's thematic for DE and I can't think of a better general term.

How will the draw be done?

Incognitosanta seemed to work pretty well last time, so I'll be doing that again! (Unless responses from THIS poll indicate otherwise) This means I'll post a link and once live you click on YOUR OWN url to see who you've been paired with!

I will create a random draw, then me and @koreplus will message half of you each with your recipient and their likes/ dislikes. PLEASE MAKE SURE YOU'RE FOLLOWING OUR BLOGS IF YOU HAVE "only blogs I follow can message me" ON IN THE SETTINGS!

I want to change my Tumblr URL but I've already filled in the form!

Just DM me @thegrimreaperisanerd I'll make sure I amend it in my notes so that you get tagged in everything correctly :)

Help! I signed up and I'm not going to be able to create something in time! What do I do?!

Things happen, it's okay. However PLEASE let me know ASAP so I can make sure your partner isn't left out on posting day.

What do you mean I have to contact my recipient myself if I've not posted anything by August 5th?

That form question is irrelevant for 99% of people, it's more so that I'm not trying to chase up missing gifts over a month after the upload date... Running/ setting this up last year ended up being moderately more effort than I anticipated. Which is fine! I'm glad so many people were interested!

But, I ended up begging for assistance and @koreplus very kindly became a second point of contact. However, I am just *generally* not very organised, so it's to help mediate some of MY stress.

Like I said: will most likely be irrelevant, but if you don't contact me before upload day (I can try to work with you to help you finish/ potentially assign your partner to somebody else; IF I am given enough notice) and time passes and your partner hasn't received a gift OR an explanation, it's not really fair to them, is it? Nobody likes to feel left out.

Who are you?

Hiya~ Tumblr user thegrimreaperisanerd here. I use they/them pronouns. If you have any experience running/ moderating something like this then don't hesitate to reach out! For the love of God!

We had 56 responses last time, so as this grows (and with this having been done previously) I'm expecting that number to be higher this time. After this summer cycle I would *really* like to give this project away to somebody more capable than myself!

My partner's "likes" are all things I'd rather not create, what now?

The likes section is more of a guideline! I included that in case you draw your partner and think "Well, I don't know this person at all." As long as you create something and put your heart into it then I can't imagine this will be an issue.

Just don't create something from their "dislikes" section, *THAT* is more important!

Huh, since the last Pale Static Exchange was based around the Winter Solstice I kinda thought this one would be based around the Summer Solstice?

Yeah me too~ Teehee~

[lgbtqtext]

Long overdue update!

Hey guys- it has been a LONG time. I have some news and most importantly, an apology.

My new, inclusive header

Firstly, I've been on a road of self-discovery for quite awhile. As it turns out, I'm a nonbinary person and bisexual. I am transmasculine, and as I've been on testosterone, my previously undetectable attraction to men has skyrocketed. I'm still attracted to women and nonbinary people, but mostly men these days. I'm bisexual, so my attraction to all genders is different for each one. It feels different for me, the way I experience my attraction to each gender, which is why I am not pansexual. My name is now Ash.

So what does this mean for my blogs? Well, they're not going anywhere, but I am changing the names. Lesbiantext is now LGBTQtext, and in my about section I'll include the other updated blogs. I will be making content for the whole acronym! Including the plus that I can't put into my url. Even some stuff for allies.

Now, my apologies. I'm apologizing for my serious inactivity first. I am so sorry that I've been MIA for so long. I got stressed from my blogs and just lost interest. But what I am mostly apologizing for is my previous lack of trans inclusion. Back when I thought I was a lesbian, I was dealing with dysphoria and seriously repressed it. I thought that I could just shove away my discomfort with my body and being referred to as a she or a woman. And that meant I didn't want to acknowledge trans anything. I surrounded myself with the wrong kind of people and I should have known better. And I am sorry. I am sorry for never mentioning trans people at all, especially trans women. It took a lot of strength, but I did separate myself from the wrong crowd and finally recognized myself as a nonbinary person. I love all my fellow trans people. That negativity is behind me now, and I am never looking back.

After a year-ish on t, my miniscule attraction to men shot up way higher than my attraction for women. That was a struggle too, since so much of my identity was about being a lesbian. It took a lot for me to take down my flags, but my nonbinary flag and my bisexual flag suit my room so much better. They feel right, as with my old lesbian ones I would sometimes feel like an impostor. I used to just write off my few moments of 'this guy is kinda hot WAIT WHAT-' as a fluke, but looking back, I think I was having bi-cycles. A lot of bisexual people experience fluidity in their attraction. I do still experience the bi-cycle, so my attraction can vary at times. And even though I can't get those years of denial back, I can just accept and love myself now, for my gender and my orientation.

So, I'm going to be slowly creating content for all genders and orientations. Send in your requests! I love you all.

-Ash

[tempests-bards-and-birds]

i was tagged by @kanonavi! i appreciate the tag <3

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why did you choose your URL?

my current one is just my online name (tempest) + bards (venti) + birds (xiao). i know that fandom URLs can seem a bit cringe or whatever but idk. i like it!

2. any sideblogs? if so, name them and why you have them.

nope! i toyed with the idea of making one but i like keeping things in one place, so sorry to my irls who don't follow me for genshin. thanks for not leaving lmao

3. how long have you been on tumblr?

my archive goes back to april 2022 so just over two years now. it feels longer but oh well

4. do you have a queue tag?

the only thing i use the queue for is scheduling posts for specific days so no.

5. why did you start your blog in the first place?

a couple of my irl friends said that they were on tumblr and i thought i might as well join and see if there was anything to do with miraculous on here (spoiler alert: there was.)

6. why did you choose your icon/pfp?

venti.

7. why did you choose your header?

it's just a gif that i made of the one piece of canon xiaoven content that we had pre-endless suffering. it's there and i don't really see a reason to change it soooo yeah!

8. what's your post with the most notes?

this miraculous gifset that i posted july 2022 that has 3,180 notes as of writing this (it hasn't gotten any in A While so i think i'm safe for now)

9. how many mutuals do you have?

including irls it's 14 but excluding irls it's 11! i love you all

10. how many followers do you have?

308 but i think a significant portion of them are inactive now. love you guys too tho btw

11. how many people do you follow?

250 exactly

12. have you ever made a shitpost?

depends on what you consider to be a shitpost i guess. if you would class stuff like the rhodeia post i made last week as shitposting then sure.

13. how often do you use tumblr each day?

probably anywhere between half an hour and two hours depending on how active my dash is and just how much i'm rotting in general.

14. did you have a fight/argument with another blog once?

not that i can remember?

15. how do you feel about "you need to reblog this" posts?

no. absolutely not.

16. do you like tag games?

yes but a lot of the time i don't do them because i never have any idea if my mutuals are comfortable with them or not and deciding on who to tag always gives me far more stress than it probably should because i am chronically afraid of Annoying People.

17. do you like ask games?

yeah! people aren't obligated to send me asks for them though i don't wanna seem attention seeking either aha

18. which of your mutuals is tumblr famous?

i don't know if any of them are tbh i don't pay that much attention to stuff like that (if any of you do consider yourselves to be tumblr famous though please tell me)

19. do you have a crush on a mutual?

platonically sure, but. uh. *gestures to pfp*

20. tags:

@girlboy-frankensteins-monster @dopefrickingjelysquid

[countercharmda]

okay! so, i've mentioned it a couple of times, but i think sometime this week i will be doing some cleanup here. ( expect this around december 1st. ) this will include my inbox, my drafts, my posts, my likes, and my follower count. i will probably also be changing my url to the new one i have saved then! it's gonna be very fun and nifty.

the short of it is that i will be softblocking ( or hardblocking, if preferred ) folks who have not expressed interest in writing ic or chatting ooc. if you just got here and are panicking for xyz reason? worry not! here is my interest tracker if you're a bit too nervous to reach out ooc. this meme is also good, if you would like me to come up with some ideas! ( i will hopefully get to these in a timely manner ). and of course, if this feels too much like an ultimatum or a stressor for you, then you are genuinely more than welcome to softblock ( or hardblock ) me and continue on with your day. please curate your space! NOTE: neither of these are required if we are already talking or plotting ooc!

the long of it...will be under the cut, because i am ultimately feeling a little bit rambly.

i've been trying to figure out how to approach my larger following of people who have not reached out to me, and i think this is a good start. i've only been in this rpc for two months and so much i feel like has happened already, and one of the best things to come from it is watching this turn into...more of a community if that makes sense. i like seeing what all is going on with my mutuals and stuff on the dash. i'm aware this is a very chronically online take, but in my defense i have been...chronically online since i have been a child, and i don't believe in dismissing online friendships. i like having people to send memes to in discord dms and tumblr ims, i like feeling like i can talk to people. as mentioned in m a n y posts on this blog, i'm a chatty guy! this is why i mention that i won't cut a mutual if we're not writing ic, because i think talking ooc is just as important -- if not more, sometimes.

simultaneously, though, i find myself feeling anxious about being overlooked or forgotten. this is an insecurity i've had for my whole life. while i'm more confident nowadays that i am, in fact, the shit, i still don't want to feel this way in a hobby -- and i don't want any of my mutuals to feel this way, either. i think that if i cut my follower count down and shift my priorities in this way, then it'll help lessen this feeling for both parties.

i also want to stress that this is a hobby, and i do not want anyone to feel like they owe me anything ic or ooc. i work a hectic job, i have chores to do, and i might even be going back to college in january. there will always be real life obligations that are more important than writing blorbos on the internet. i will never intentionally make you feel guilty for not having the spoons to reach out to me. if you still uncomfortable with this post or this change, that is completely okay, and i encourage you to softblock ( or hardblock ) me. i want you to feel comfortable enough to have fun!

[actual-changeling]

https://www.tumblr.com/actual-changeling/749025676412289024/hello-first-of-all-i-love-your-url-omg-second?source=share

I'm 100% with you on why tf are people shocked but actually I don't think he's doing demonic things at all lol. Maybe I am weird but the desire to slash some rich people's car tires and the pranks and minor inconveniences he causes are all harmless just as the crimes he commits (stealing diamonds, helping to dig up bodies, sell some moonshine). Demonic, at least for me, would be to commit acts of cruelty or harm/hurt people and he never does any of these things (quite the opposite, he prevents them. He saves goats and kids and young women who want to off themselves). I'd call it mischief? Idk I feel that's why it's so funny and charming; he's supposed to do Evil but he's not Evil so he slashes tires, causes traffic jams, glues coins to the sidewalk, and needs to cope via drinking when he witnesses cruelty of any kind (the Spanish Inquisition in the book, Caligula in the series). And collecting souls fits perfectly into that pattern, as you said, it's what he does, it's his job, and as I said, we see he would never hurt or harm anyone - hell, even the paintballers all have miraculous escapes - so of course he wouldn't hurt any of these souls. He just collects them and then sorts them alphabetically when he stress-cleans. That's what I meant. Don't get me wrong, I don't mean to woobify him because I love that side of him, I just don't think any of the things he does are bad. Just mischievous.

I hope I don't come off as rude or trolling, that's not my intention at all, I enjoy talking about these things and your blog and a few others are the only places I can do that (nobody I know irl loves Good Omens as much as I do, sadly).

Don't worry, your tone is fine!

And yeah, I agree that most of the things he does do not fit under our binary understanding of good vs. evil—which is, in part, the point the show is trying to make.

We have a demon who isn't all that good at actually being evil and an angel who is an egocentric asshole who sees humans as casualties in his games (e.g. the Ball, the fact that he "forgot" to change a gun into a water gun and someone got shot, probably killed, the dove he "accidentally" kills, the fact that he doesn't actually care about anyone except himself and is incapable of being kind without making it about himself, I could go on but you get the gist).

Crowley's understanding of and relationship with humanity is multi-faceted and built on both compassion and seeing himself reflected in them. They too got punished severely for a small mistake, kicked out of Eden, thrown into suffering, and generally are a mirror for Crowley to see himself in.

Sure, there's still a fundamental detachment because he's not human, he's an immortal celestial being, but that by itself does not change how he treats the humans around him.

His soul collection probably consists of souls freely given—he doesn't make anyone do anything, he just sweetens the available options or opens someone's eyes since I don't think every human soul he "collects" ends up in his personal collection.

Plus book!Crowley and show!Crowley are two different characters, same thing goes for Aziraphale.

On top of that, we do not actually know whether his Soul collection causes any harm to said Souls. If the alternative is hell, then spending eternity on some dude's shelf is like very mediocre purgatory, and I'd definitely choose that over being tortured.