#why do I doubt my skills smh

[the-sleepless]

When artstyle decides to do a change- and you remember you can actually do art.

And then that art you do turns out to be ur

✨Aesthetic ✨

Wip- also the angst do be angsty huh. Uhhhh, get back to y’all once this is done (lost spoons on it so I’ll continue tomorrow hopefully if I don’t forget- Fjdjdhd)

[thegreymoon]

The Story of Minglan

Aww, he has only one baby left 😢

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LOL, and WHERE exactly are you personally going to look?

Are you going to go up and down the whole of China?

I feel bad for laughing when he said this. That poor baby.

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Changbai asking the intelligent questions.

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LMAO, I am stealing this excuse to get out of attending weddings in the future 🤣🤣

"I love you and I'm sorry, but I don't want to jinx you with my presence!"

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Just when I thought we had finally rid ourselves of stupid people, they had to bring this moron back.

On her birthday, too!

Watch this blow up on Minglan somehow, smh.

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LOL, she is one hundred steps ahead of him.

He just looks stupid.

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LOL, is he saying he didn't pass because he wasn't married?

What a loser, OMG.

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Honestly, this is the most his parents were ever going to be willing to compromise on and even then, I doubt the mom would have been happy.

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Wait, she agreed?

Is it a scheme??

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Hm.

Doubt.

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Being a servant in this mess seems hard.

Imagine getting caned to death because of your employer's stupid love life. Which, again, is why Qi Heng annoys me so much. When all this blows up in his shitty face, it will not be him facing the consequences. It will be his poor manservant and Xiaotao paying with their life (and possibly Minglan too, depending on how bad the fallout is).

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He doesn't love you.

He loves only himself and his ego and you are a nice, shiny toy that he wants but cannot have.

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Well.

It certainly did not take him very long to find trouble.

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NOOOO, NOT THE HORSE!

SHOOT HIM, BUT DON'T SHOOT THE HORSE!!

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Here I am, getting all impressed over his exceptional martial arts skills, completely forgetting that he has been a trained fighter since childhood. That boat scene where his teen self up and murdered a dozen assassins remains one of the highlights of this drama for me.

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I have no idea who these people are and what is going on.

I remember that there are two princes fighting to be named imperial heirs, but their names were something starting with Y?

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Aww, he made new friends! 🤗

I will do my very best to remember your names and figure out who the hell you are, but I am making no promises.

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LOL, he's back to using his old alias?

But, honestly, with a father like that, I too would be tempted to take up my mother's maiden name and run with it.

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LMAOOOO, truly embarrassing 🤣🤣

She stomped her feet and threw a tantrum like a toddler.

I am so done with these useless maids with no boundaries.

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I too once stood under the balcony of my house sobbing and wailing at the top of my lungs, for everyone to hear, because the boy I liked was leaving and also didn't like me back.

I was six years old at the time.

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Oof, this won't end well for them 😬

Nanny Liu is in the other room, drinking tea!

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OMG, Minglan is out for blood 💀💀

This will not end well for Ke'er.

[yezzyyae]

I want to be a lawyer but never a defense lawyer. I could never lie to get a client acquitted for a crime I know they committed. I don’t think lawyers were made for that reason when it says “Every man deserve a fair trial and defense” it wasn’t meant to out right & lie. It’s a disgrace that so many murderers, rapists, child killers, child molesters, thieves, & ruthless criminals think they should go free after doing a crime. It disgust me that lawyers literally LIE in that courtroom to get their clients off even when they have committed murder & rape smh the justice system has been taken over by LIARS!

Being a skilled liar does not make you a great lawyer it makes you a demon to me. Defending an evil criminal & working intensely to get an evil criminal freed or acquitted is disgusting. Watching Johnny Cochran defend OJ Simpson when in reality everybody seen the evidence & knew OJ murdered 2 innocent people. Smh I looked up to Johnny Cochran from his time as a civil rights lawyer & helping black & brown ppl get their rights is inspirational but defending OJ Simpson & using the race card was disgusting & an embarrassing to blacks. The law needs to change a defense lawyer should not be allowed to lie in the court of law on behalf of their client. Raising “reasonable doubt” does not mean LIE & MANIPULATE the jury, it needs to be addressed because it is not making society better. Lawyers like Jose Baez, Johnny Cochran, Dick DeGuerin, & Chip Lewis are a disgrace to the law. To defend murderers with so much passion makes my stomach turn! I hate it that’s why I want to be a lawyer for does who don’t have a voice & even if they are guilty I want them to take responsibility & serve their time🙏🏾the world needs to be better!

[anatheyma]

I did not expect people to be surprised and curious about my skills or my career. I can always talk more about me if is not something that could feel boring to others.

I remember a lot of small things and details from you, too. You're my little treasure, did you know?

I know how hard can be. I was partially raised by my grandparents until they passed away when I was 7. Then, I met my real mother who was actually a sex worker that had issues with alcohol and bipolar disorder. She wasn't a bad mom but her addiction was something I had to take care of since I was really young. I never had a stable dad since she had a lot of boyfriends, but they were really nice to me and the last guy was the one that inspired me to be an attorney (he was a layer, though). My mom got diagnosed with breast cancer and eventually it became a metastatic cancer. You know, affecting other organs of her body, too.

When she passed away I was pretty much on my own and I experienced things no kid should experience. That's why I can say that I know what it feels. Sometimes you just want to go back home only to realize that there's is no home waiting for you to come back; just a house filled with bad memories. You're an amazing guy, Eddie, and I hope you know that. You can doubt it but you can't never say you're not, because you are. Thank you for being so strong and coming this far. You are inspiring, pretty boy.

–🦴

please do talk more about yourself! you've got me really curious and i'm sure some others too.

awww, am i now? well that's an honor, sir!

i'm very sorry to hear that. rough childhood! no kid should have to deal with such difficult things. so i'm sorry you had to </3 i agree with the part about home. i feel homesick often, but the thing is, i feel it everywhere. i could be at my home and feel it, or i could be visiting my family and still feel it. it sucks. it's weird. so to me, home is more about people than places nowadays.

you're amazing too! thanks for the kind words <3 being a pretty boy is a tough task on its own smh

[cosmicjoke]

How is tsuki part of the anon hate?? For all I know she just answers to asks and translates the aot manga panels since she's a Japanese speaking person. You two have different views but she has never mentioned your name ever.

Are you threatened by the points she makes so that's why you want Levi stans to block her because she actually writes good analysis you don't want anyone else to come across so you want them to block her? If not, then why would you want anyone to block her.

You're a grown woman for fuck sakes, act like it. This fandom drama is stupid and especially targeting Tsuki who only keeps to herself. Smh

The other people you mentioned I don't know so I can't speak on their behalf but Tsuki doesn't deserve this. Anyone can check her posts and see how respectful she is.

Also do you know you interact with a known Levi x Eren shipper named V_onth on Twitter who is the one who has been writing hate messages on ao3 to Eruri fandom. She was also writing anon hate on curious cat telling people to kill themselves while posing as an Eruri until she was recently caught out to be a liar who only wants Eruri to have a bad reputation because she's threatened by the ship popularity and that it might surpass ereri. She was even banned from other Eren x Levi shipping fandom spaces on discord when she was found out. She's unhinged and is mentally unstable. Taking things too far. She even has about fifteen alt accounts on Twitter where she dox eruris and other Levi x Eren shippers who disagree with her. She's now on Tumblr as 7m7n7. And yet every Levi stan interact with her. Whether ignorantly or not. Idk

You guys are gullible enough to believe eruris are the ones sending you those vile messages when it's vont who has simply migrated to Tumblr to play the Eruri weird shipper all over again. I don't know whether you're on Twitter or not but if you are or if you have a friend who is then they can easily verify.

The two eruris you posted that were harassing you did not write anything that shows they're capable of telling someone to slit their wrist like the one who has been sending anon hate for months now did. Do you really truly believe they are capable of the hell rain that that anon brought down?

I guess you'll keep being a gullible person played by that ereri until you find out the truth. Until then I guess she can keep playing you guys like a drum.

I never said tsuki was "part of" the hate, just that their followers are. Which, they are, unquestionably, and that they know, at least to some extent, about it. I never accused tsuki in my post of sending anon hate, just their followers, because, again, that's proven.

You really aren't too bright if you think I'm "afraid" of their posts and that's why I made the post I did. I made the post I did because the harassment has been non-stop, really, since the end of last year, and I'm sick of it. People can read tsuki's posts and agree with them all they like. Again, I think you should maybe learn to read more carefully, because I never said tsuki was sending anon hate, but they have been without doubt vague posting about me, which is clear from their posts and how they align with my own. This isn't paranoia on my part, it's evident using simple logic. If you think they haven't been referring to me, whether by name or not, then again, you need to work on those reading comprehension skills of yours. Not everything has to be explicitly stated in order for the meaning or intention to be clear.

I don't know about any of that mess you're talking about with some Levi/Eren shipper posing as an eruri shipper, so , whatever. Unlike you, I don't have time to scroll through every social media feed in existence and track and trace every move made by randos on the internet. If that person really is a Levi/Eren shipper, I haven't seen them "pose" as you say, as an eruri shipper, but if they are doing that, or trying to cause trouble in the eruri fandom, then that sucks and they should be called out too. But if you don't think there's plenty of actual toxicity in the eruri fandom space, then you're simply living in denial. I've been harassed nonstop almost exclusively by eruri's for the past, several months, and that's a fact, not people telling me to "kill myself", but people like yourself who can't just drop the issue, who constantly monitor what I write on my blog and, within minutes of me posting it, send me messages screaming at me about how I'm "biased" and have a "black and white" view of AoT and how I think Levi is "perfect". And it all, magically, started when I was a little short with an eruri shipper several months back who, despite me asking them to please stop asking me questions which tried to get me to admit that eruri was somehow "proven canon" by nothing but, at best, vague and indefinite evidence, kept sending me asks, one after another, until I blocked them, and then, in their rabid obsession, continued to make more accounts to continue to harass me with. I'm not saying all eruri shippers are this way, but they're definitely there in the fandom, dragging the whole thing down with them.

If you're so offended by me calling out the toxic behavior of some people from that corner of the fandom, I have to wonder why? Maybe you're one of them, huh? In fact, I feel pretty confident in saying that you are, since you know I'm a "grown woman", which, I only ever posted about my age and gender ONCE, in response to an ask I got several weeks ago, really a few months ago, and which only someone who follows me would have seen. So, clearly, you're following me, for some, not all nefarious reason, I'm sure. Funny how so many of this anon messages I get constantly bring up my age and gender, too. Almost like it's all the same group of people making the same, stupid complaints over and over. Too bad, because I gave ample warning that I was going to do it, and yet, they just couldn't help themselves. This is the price you pay. You get called out and now everyone knows who you are.

Whatever. Next message you send, gets an automatic block and report.

[saetoru]

TEE!!!! i am coming directly into your askbox to scream about the latest rb! gojo fic! aND LIKE!!! the knowledge that you had posted it literally got me outta bed this morning and i read it on my phone with one hand as i was getting ready and the fic!! it beat me up!!! cut me bit by bit until i was only a pile on the ground!! dadjo is terrible for forcing them (or at least trying) to break up!! preying on the class difference and reader's insecurity over it!! honestly, if anything he should be impressed because reader is a very smart cookie and a hard worker. iirc they were working two jobs at one point??? VERY IMPRESSIVE. dadjo can't even do one job right smh.

he was soaked to the bone. yes. good. nothing like a sopping wet man on your doorstep. LMAOOO but. augh. when reader mentioned how his dad was involved gojo got so mad that i thought he was actually going to storm off (and then come back again) but luckily he didn't.

when he was yelling and demanding to know why reader broke up with him, i kind of thought of that piece where he convinces them to stay until morning and they finally make it official— when he's demanding to know why reader won't consider a relationship and he's almost yelling and reader tells him not to yell at them… and then here, the narration mentions how he never yells and like, i don't know if that was intentional or not, but if it was… well, he's commited so much about the reader to memory that it would make sense he'd remember something like that.

and then there's this line: they’re bright and kind and deeper than the ocean. but unlike the ocean, they’re not scary to fall into, to lose yourself in no matter how far you are from shore. that one made me think of the sunglasses piece because the same comparison is made in the narration— how gojo's eyes are like the depths of the ocean, but in that fic/drabble, they're something scary. and like. it's a very cool writing thing and it makes me wanna scream LMAOOO.

ANYWAY I'M SO GLAD THEY DIDN'T STAY BROKEN UP FOR LONG AND THAT DADJO GETS HIS. reader definitely should have talked to gojo, but they can make it up to him by remaining by his side for the rest of their life hehe. dadjo should just accept reader because like, at this rate, some disowning is going to happen and the gojo family will have no heir (either satoru disowns the family or they disown him) but he'll be okay because he has his brains and reader (or the grandparents will get involved and give dadjo what he deserves!!!)

this is probably way longer than the 30 tags that stupid tumblr ate, but honestly speaking, i absolutely love the rich boy! gojo au so much. so so so so much and i'm so glad that you've been kind enough to share it with us all! (low key i want to know more about the pre-relationship times… but i want to know it ALLLLLL)

NIKU CRIES SOOOO HARD 🥹 i have to be so honest with you—i don’t even rmr the “don’t yell” part in the old fic ndkajdjd BUT the metaphors ab his eyes was revisited yes !! i think ur making me look like a more purposeful and skilled writer than i actually am fjsjfjf i wish i was that good at tying old things in. that would be the dream.

BUT HIS DAD WAS SO RUDE. it’s the way i wrote him and he still hurt my feelings 😭 he should respect reader bc they FOR REAL are hustling out here in this rough economy LMAO. but honestly reader is like. my new crush LMAO idk if i wanna be them or be w them

but gojo being a wet little soggy mess made me envision him as like. a soaked catjo hehe i love catjo he’s my fav ever i wanna buy a plushie of him but they’re like 40 dollars 😭😭😭 and i’m too cheap to spend 40 on a plushie LMAO

omg but also. i feel like writing an angry gojo was new for once u know ?? bc he’s always been soooo patient w reader and always let them doubt him and their relationship and was so precious and sweet ab reassuring them that sometimes i rly sit there and think like. damn this boy rly been thru it 😭 he was head over heels from the start and he rly had to fight his way into their life SOBS so i was like for once we’re gonna get a not perfectly sweet and patient gojo. tonight he’s gonna be an angry and emotional wreck SOBS. it was fun tho writing him that was. it was cathartic in a way.

but reader should have sooo talked to him sobsob. i think honestly that gojo wouldn’t have really been kicked from the company / inheritance bc then who would get it you know ?? i think dadjo was more trying to prey on readers innocence / insecurities and make them feel like they were powerless and had no choice but to do what he says and hope he’d get away w it EXCEPT SATORU IS ONE DETERMINED BOY LMAOOOO so he definitely underestimated his own sons stubbornness fjsmfjsj

i’m glad they got back together tho. i say that like i didn’t plan for them to from the start 💀 but to be so honest with u at one point i was kinda stuck on how i’d make them meet and talk and how the whole resolution would even happen. i think it was a bit rushed but i was tired and i was like eh. ppl will get the idea. BUT IM GLAD THEYRE TOGETHER BC I WOULD DIE IF THEY WERENT

and poor suguru 😔 my man ain’t do nothing justice for him he got that insta remove 😔 i forgot to make reader follow him back LOLLLL

BUT I ADORE U SM NIKU UR COMMENTS AND TAGS ON RB! GOJO ARE HALF OF WHY WRITING IT IS SO FUN IN THE FIRST PLACE i am so beyond grateful for u reading it and supporting it especially bc that one gojo fic u write is genuinely one of my fav gojo works ever. i admire ur writing sm it means sooooo much that someone so talented reads and interacts w my works like this 🥹 hugs u sooo tightly 🥹

[hard-core-super-star]

no because literally, in a single ask there are many different topics and the answers just get longer. I imagine you opening your inbox and seeing some aks that look more like the digital bible itself😶

I'm telling you! I'm behaving now. I changed.

I'll wait, and I already have my doubts about something but I don't know if it's a reference. the 119% thing.

totally, just like they did when they guarded at all costs that Kate would be played by hailee. It would be really funny if the Nightwing phase hadn't just been a phase.... unless...👀 I also don't know how well-known this mafia game is, but I've literally never heard of it until now. you're good at FIFA? for further scientific research. i- i never played GTA, my mom was ok with me playing mortal kombat and seeing the most graphic and merciless deaths, but not with me stealing cars and running away from the police 😔

okay, if I go watch it for the gay shit and I come out of it sad I'll blame you and you'll pay for my therapy. If she's supposed to be an irredeemable villain then she did something really fucked up, right? because I'm kind of more of a fan of villains..... to a certain point... um yeahh..of course

I'm literally eating myself up because I want to know what this cliffhanger is, I mean, the show was cancelled... knowing this isn't going to ruin my experience, is it?

queerbait, queerbait is everywhere- oh, the denial, it's okay, thinking like this can keep you sane, but it's between ava and sara? wait, I got lost hwjakksskskk you defend flash until you possibly can't anymore, but only watch for caitlin? how does it work? RIGHT? It took me a while to like caitlin exactly for that reason. and don't judge me, but it got tired to a point where I wasn't even rooting for barry and iris to get together anymore. they almost made my hair gray for a while, but I recovered.

now I understand why there's SO MUCH supercorp fics, these people are drooling and surviving on crumbs- think with care <3 hdjskjsk

– 🌟

i’m happily surprised and impressed that we've managed to talk about so many things at the same time and, despite the slight confusion sometimes, we still have MORE to say. it's not often i find someone so willing to read my paragraph-long responses and then RESPOND with their own paragraphs. [and needless to say, i absolutely love reading your responses, even if they're long]

mhmm, we’ll see about that.

it technically is a reference but i don't know if you're thinking what i’m thinking. and if you're not one of us is going to end up looking like an an idiot 😶 [it’s me, btw]

i mean, he's technically still my favorite superhero so i guess the phase still isn't over. i’m just too gay to obsess over a man the way i obsess over kate. i don't think it's that well known but i love it. idk what kind of research you're doing that requires this knowledge but yeah, i’m pretty good at FIFA. not like super amazing or anything but i’ve played it all my life so i think i’ve developed some skills. funnily enough, my mom was the opposite way. mortal kombat was too violent but planning heists and stealing cars was fine. [but not until i was like…10 or something]

babe, i hate to break it to you, but i can't even pay for my own therapy so you're on your own. stop asking questions because i WILL write an essay on her. basically, she does do fucked up shit BUT she's also heavily, HEAVILY, traumatized. i can't get into it without giving out too many spoilers but as the show goes on, we learn she's genuinely just a heavily messed up person and NOT a Joker type of villain who causes pain for the sake of it. [she's also not a sociopath, no matter how many times the characters say she is smh. she's also queer-coded af so there's that]

it's probably my fault for bringing it up everyday lmao. it doesn't ruin anything at all, it's just frustrating. they do finish the plot of season 7 nicely so that's why i just ignore the cliffhanger. it was supposed to tease season 8 but then season 8 never happened. the thing that pisses me off is that the CW didn't bother to tell the writers or the producers or the ACTORS that they wouldn't be getting another season.

sorry, i phrased that weird because it's technically a spoiler. the queer-bait is between zari and a new character hence why i didn't give many details in case you decide to watch the show again. sara and ava aren’t queer-bait at all, they're just queer 👍 it doesn't work very well but like the flash still has some really good things in between all the shitty writing. [that's another reason to watch batwoman, btw, their writers are out of this world] plus, like i said, caitlin snow was part of my gay awakening so it's not like i could just ditch the show even while it was going downhill. i don't judge you at all, i hated their relationship in the last few seasons. idk how they did it but they made me dislike barry at some point which is a crime because he's my boy!!!

akdkkdkskk that's a perfect way to put it, no further comment is necessary. i’m definitely not thinking about it 😶

[heffrondriving]

applying for a voiceover job as if i don't have the worst godawfullest sounding voice in the world, wish me luckkk

[ran-orimoto]

Why are you the Junzumi CEO in this era but you’re also so negative about it happening in canon? Am I the only one who has no doubt they’d eventually get together? In the new drama Junpei understands she can’t understand when people go after her like the boy who gave her the belly belt. Isn’t it the hugest ray of hope for a Junzumi shipper when in the train drama she told him he should speak clearly to her? Can’t it be a connection?

Oh Anon, I’m laughing so much🤣🤣🤣. “Junzumi CEO but at the same time she will always specify there is no way for it to ever happen”. Ops, what a peculiar shipper I am🤣💕. And what a confident CEO🤣, most of all!

I know, I know, I know I’m made like that but I promise it’s not only about Junzumi. I’m like this in general.

From my point of view, Junzumi has always had 0 chances in the writers’ plans, even if they did accidentally turn it in the most meaningful relationship of the series (crucify me). The reason why I believe this is that Junpei isn’t just a character the writers care about. He’s the comical relief, despite him originally being a more serious character in the drafts, apparently. He’s the dude who had to embody the stereotype of “the fat boy hopelessly falling for the main girl but she goes for the thin, hot, amazing, cool mc”. And the writers also stated it: Izumi would exchange his feelings only if he got thinner, which is **** ********.

Yet, you know what, Anon?

I admit I’ve eventually revalued that drama after having talked about it so many times and I can actually suppose a little, veeeeery little change of mentality MIGHT have happened, after all, not only in myself.

Passing to your observation more specifically, I hadn’t honestly connected the dots because I read the recent drama once and, yes, I did laugh at Izumi being dense but I hadn’t taken it in consideration that much🤣. I kinda like that side of hers though? The main girl who was so straight forward when she was 10……Actually can’t understand boys’ feelings if they aren’t highlighted directly in front of her face? Like, you have to tell her you want to date her or she will just go ???????? She reminds me of Ash from Pokemon ( but he wouldn’t probably understand it in that way either ahahha).

I highly doubt there’s a connection between the two dramas in general, though, since they are also contradictions of each other smh (the Digimon can’t go to the real world; so how did they arrive there in the 2018 drama????? New technologies?). However, rereading them, I can really see what you want to underline, and wow, Anon? What can I say? It fits, I adore it.

What I can tell about the kind of character they have attempted to turn drama Izumi into is one who’s got a very childish (in a positive sense) and carefree attitude. I believe she’s not into love stuff yet and only cares about friendship, maybe also because that’s what she cares about the most after having developed social skills thanks to DW. Junpei…I can say my impression about him is that he has always tried going way too forward, and it doesn’t really depend on the fact he’s the oldest. I mean, as a kid, he already dreamed about marriage and children🤣. In that drama he seemed to be organizing an imaginary honeymoon ngl🤣: who would travel around the whole Italy in a normal holiday trip? So, I like seeing their relationship having developed in this funny way: her being the airhead (surprisingly), the one who wants to have fun as much as she can, the one who gets excited about presents (“Grazie! What do you want to give me????”), the one who doesn’t care about her future at all; him being the one who has already estabilished his future and just thinks about the way he wants to build it: in middle school he already knew he wanted to be an opera singer (God bless you, Junpei), in elementary school he already knew who he wanted to spend his life with (and I wish for the realizations of any dreams of yours, baby).

Listening to it again makes me see their whole writing under a new light and since the drama has got hope in its title, I just…Can’t help feeling like it gave a little hope to Junzumi, as weird as it may sound. If Junpei can wait for the right time to come, I’m not that against believing he actually could pull it off anymore. He should just slowen his pace, for God’s sake🤣🤣. He frankly reminds me of a former crush of mine who was so aimed at the future he could only talk with future tense, no joking.

So, my conclusion?

“If you want to say something, say it clearly!” can be perfectly matched with middle school Junpei himself noticing she can’t understand this kind of stuff if you don’t speak to her clearly, directly. So, Anon, my answer is No, you’re not the only one believing in this age they might actually have a chance🤣💕.

Thank you for the ask💕!

[m4tthoe]

Part twoooo!!!

Now the discord gang!!! Also i wanted to share this song that reminded me of everyone so if you guys like u can listen to it!!👉👈🧡🧡🧡

@love-hajime MY ANGEL MY BESTIE AND BEAUTIFUL WIFEE!!! ILY SM AND I CANT WAIT TO GO BE COTTAGE CORE LESBIANS TOGETHER AND HAVE A WHOLE LOT OF FARM ANIMALS AND LIVE OUT OUR DREAM!!!SHE SO SMART SND GREAT AT EVERYTHING I STILL BE SIMPING FOR HER ON A DAILY BASIS EVEN IF WE ALREADY KNOW EACHOTHER FOR A YEAR🧡🧡🧡

@kyoutxni ah the stinky smelly man with small weewee!! My one and only papi who i love more than anything in the world!! Hes such a brat but in the best way!! Although things do be hard sometimes he still always keeps going and im prouf of him!!and look up to him like when we first met i still dont think ive learned everything about u and thafs okay i like u being a mystery to me!!! So ilyyyy stinkyyy and youre doing so good hun!!! :)))🧡🧡🧡

@anju-writes-deactivated20211002 WHY DID U DEACTIVATE UR ACCOUNT??? … still she very much is so deserving of a place on thos list even if he betrayed me by lying and breaking my heart!! But its okay she my chechi and my baeee such a sneaky sweetheart!!!! Ilyyyyyy🧡🧡🧡

@babydai daiiiii cutieeeee!!!🧡🧡🧡 she had two sides to her!!! shes both too nice and too good at flustering others!! Like please teach me your skills maam😩 but also please fix your sleep schedule i just want u to be healthy ilyyy🧡🧡🧡

@sebbyzoldyck … i dont wanna say anything cuz i know youll somehow find a way to turn it around on me. But still your my friend and its important for my friends to know i love and appreciate them so thaf means u too!! You already know what i think of you smh youre one horny and cool ass mf so fucking cool even I genuinely doubt that you exist and are just a character some person is playing!!! Doesnt make u any less fun to talk to!! Youre stories are very comforting and your writing has no business being that good smh!!! Imma stop here cuz i know u enjoying this too much smh ily tho scary man🙄🧡

Thats all now i leave and never comeback again good bye people!!! Ilyyyyy all and yall better love yourselfs or in stealing your organs!!!🥰🧡🧡🧡🧡🧡

[the-littlefangirl]

TFATWS episode 1 rewatch commentary

The first scene was so beautiful. I loved that we didn't start directly with the fight sequence. It feels way closer to the quiet beginning of CATWS and I love it so much.

The title is also SO NEAT, music's on point too but hey it’s Henry Jackman the one thing I’m sure it’s going to be great overall is the score.

The choreography is AMAZING, really well shot. Sam shielding himself with only one wing was MA-JES-TIC.

“WHAT'S UP” EXACTLY SAM EXACTLY

I did feel so uncomfortable in regards to the military aspect of it. Not that I was expecting anything else, but both here and in Captain Marvel the military we're good guys < 3 propaganda is so blatant and ugh:/ At least there wasn’t a literal recruitment spot like with CM. 

The yellow filter in the Tunisia scene BYE please stop with the yellow filters 2k21

"I've been working with the Air Force for six months now" So, did Sam even catch a break at all after Endgame? Or did he just throw himself to work like SOMEONE did after being iced for 70 years. Hmmm? Sam????

"Essentially, these people, they want a world that's unified without borders" OH NO! HOW AWFUL, how evil of these bad guys smh

Joaquin: SO about Steve

Sam: :)))))) nope

"Moon stuff" SAAAM

#1 cry with Sam's speech, full on chills.. Fuck. Me. His voice about to break before saying thank you bYE.

Shady politician: "It was the right decision" (FUCKKKKK YOUUU)

Rhodey: *press any key to doubt *

I need someone to analyze the different curation of the two exhibits pretty please

NOT THE PHOTO POST-AZZANO JFC. That photo is my weakness, Bucky sweetie (also I find hilarious that usually when there are articles about Stucky and/or #givecaptainamericaaboyfriend they aaaalways use that photo LMAO)

In case someone wants to read the transcription of the texts about Bucky: "In 1944, while on a mission to thwart a Hydra weapon transport in the Alps, Barnes was thrown from a train and believed to have been killed in action. It wasn't until 2014, over seventy years later, that it was revealed that Barnes was alive, having been found by Hydra operatives. Captain America himself (i can't read) the effort to bring Barnes in only to later aid in a escape from custody having been convinced of his innocence. Steve's loyalty to his old friend, coupled with his refusal to sign the Sokovia Accords, led to the dissolution of the Avengers and drove the Captain into hiding with other like-minded Avengers including Natasha Romanoff, Wanda Maximoff, and Sam Wilson. The current whereabouts of Barnes remains unknown, habing been labeled a fugitive following his escape from custody."

"current wherabout unknown" but not the government, interesting. Also, pretty good summary of CACW from the public's perspective, although one of the things I always wanted to see explored was the public's reaction of the fallout of them going into hiding after Civil War (which I'm hoping we'll get to see a little bit of in Black Widow).

Interesting point about the 70 years without having Captain America. Clearly the sacrifice play wasn't enough this time to fuel the nationalism so they went with a squeaky clean John Walker instead.

Sam saying the shield belongs to Steve I'm going to cry now excuse me. Sam. Sam sweetie.

The No. 1 Captain America comic in the display ugH fuck yes

See this is how you do a cameo that has actual meaning. Thank god for Malcolm Spellman being a competent writer. That scene was so well written.

HAVE YOU PRAISED ANTHONY MACKIE'S PERFORMANCE TODAY?? Holy shit that last shot fucked me up.

I'm loving the use of the wide shots, especially in the flashback. The camera movements are in synch with The Soldier's state of mind and mission focus, so good.

EVERYONE STAND UP FOR THE NATIONAL ANTHEM aka The Winter Soldier theme composed by Henry Jackman.

Without a doubt the most brutal TWS fight scene there has been, People involved in Punisher and John Wick are involved in this and it SHOWS. 

For the record, still stands that the only time we've seen him chocking someone with his right hand instead of the metal arm remains the Maria Stark assasination. I know it's probably because of blocking and the way the shot was composed but the implications are still bone chilling. God.

Uhhmmmm I'm very ambivalent about the "Hail Hydra". On one hand, it was 100% fanservice and the internet is probably going to go insane over it, and the dead way Sebastian Stan delivered the line. Good shit. Buuut what I love about CATWS is the way Bucky never, ever ever, mouths Hydra rethoric, and even when Pierce tries to gaslight him with it, it's just an empty effort. The Winter Soldier isn't doing anything because of ideological loyalty to Hydra, even if it's product of brainwashing, it's just sheer dehumanization. They don’t need him to say the words because he’s just An Asset. There are people who have put it more eloquently but yeah, I rather go with the fanon interpretation of that aspect.

The music growing louder with the shot of the keys. GOD.

I'm fine this is fine.

#2 cry with the therapy scene of fucking course.

The government monitoring Bucky is noooot going to end well lmao.

"We need to know that you're not gonna * slowmo stabbing motions *

Bucky: * nodding along slowly * 

I laughed out loud.

"It's passive agressive" I love him.

The way this scene just sucker punched me in the face, made me weep and then had me cracking up. Amazing.

Therapist: You can't do anything illegal

Bucky: yup yup check checkity check. What IS considered illegal tho?

*aggresive tablet finger pressing *

"Then why isn't it rule number one?" Bucky your Steve is showing.

I love the close up shot. I'll keep saying it. It's so good.

"I'm James Bucky Barnes" yeah you are🥺

That smile is nightmare fuel LMFAO I love it.

Uhm the way I'm kinning Bucky it's not funny anymore damn

That whole “are you lashing out at me” rambling is really reminiscent of the bar scene in CATFA and how he lashed out at Steve after Peggy left. Uhm yeah fuck.

"WHAT DO YOU WANT?" "Peace"

"That is UTTER BULLSHIT" "You're a terrible shrink"

yeah ugly crying to ugly laughing speedrun for me

"You're free" "To do what?" jesus. That entire scene. #3 and #4 and #5 cries for moi.

Ugh that Brooklyn shot. Someone needs to do a gifset compairing it to the one in CATFA asap.

"It's like Monique but it's got a "U" in there for uniqueness" "That's absurd" LMAO

"You can't keep fighting with your neighbors" uHM * redacted redacted i'm shifting into 1940s mode abort abort *

"Nobody passed 90" "So young. Such a shame" FGADHGA

🥺🥺 yes flex those flirting skills good for you

"It's a dance to this things. You can't… you gotta warm up and I haven't danced since 1943. Feels like." #6 cry I completely broke down into tears with that.

This Yori storyline is going to punch me in the face with a metal fist. Great!

The TWS theme when he looks at Yori fuuuuuck.

GREAT LET'S GO TO LOUISIANA THAT WAS GETTING HEAVY.

Those shots of Sam in the car. Immaculate. Showstoping. Yes.

Marvel, what if instead of promoting the military industrial complex you put a lot of publicity about cars?

"Uncle Sam!" LMAO subtle.

Everyone trying to have the wings lmao same.

I've only had Sarah for a day but etc. Brooklyn 99 meme

Good mirroring about Steve and Sam family's legacy. Good shit. Goooood shit.

Sam is trying so hard ouch my heart. I can't imagine how painful the scene with them reuniting must have been. He 100% still feels a lot of guilt about being gone for those 5 years (and even longer before that).

"Maybe it is time for us to move on" uuuuuuuuuuh

"To the rescue" "Always" 🥺🥺 i love them so much already

That shot outside the restaurant is so beautiful. Can't wait to see the night scenes in Madripoor tbh.

"I tried the whole online dating thing. It's pretty crazy". Uhm well that is something that Bucky Barnes has now said. In canon. Damn.

"It's a lot" "You sound like my dad" LMAO

Every Bucky fanfic trope speedrun with this scene

"Wow you really can drink" OH you have no idea

Just realized we don't even know her name, well.

"You have any siblings?" "I have a sister" THE WAY I SCREECHED. We're definitely getting Becca

Well that escalated quickly. The important thing is to try?

I can't deal with this BUCKY SWEETIE #8 cry right there fuck

The wardrobe department is KILLING IT, there's such a difference between the outfits of the shows vs how ugly and generic it usually is.

"ThEre is NO such thiNg as on time. You're either EARLY or LATE . picK One" lmao the way he delivered that line

At first I thought the flag smashers had thrown two cars out of a window LMAO

"I don't know how jurisdiction works here, but I'mma have to place you under arrest" uhm yikes. The way they changed Joaquín Torres backstory to just random army nice guy #1 is not sitting well with me, what can I say.

Sam's wings motions I LOVE HIM YOUR HONOR

Fuuuuck this guy.

"Funny how thing's always thighten around us" "Look, I'm on your side. After all, he's a hero". This script is C R I S P as hell, great fucking job.

"I don't care, I'm not gonna quit" "What are you trying to prove? And who you trying to prove it to" SHIT HSIT SHIT!!! UGH amazing. Look it's not necessary to say the show's questions out loud but how they flow between the conversations is still very satisfactory without feeling in your face about it. Inner conflicts have been set up fucking perfectly everyone * claps *

Ugh here we fucking go.  I knew this was how the episode was going to end but my stomach still dropped like a rollercoster. God.

The score is on point. Damn. Damn.

God, Sam.🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

The captain america franchise's visuals in the credits are always so amazing.

Also, does anybody know why Mackie isn't first in the billing?  Uhm what's that about?

ANYWAY CONCLUSION THAT EPISODE WAS SO FUCKING GOOD LIKE HOLY SHIT. I love them so much. The balance between the personal conflicts and the political aspect (although the military aspect is still very much yikes) was on point and it was overall a joy to watch.

[funnysillyprettygirlblog]

the hardest person to be kind to is myself

finding my flaws, an inherent skill

passed down carefully from generation to generation

Everyone told me I looked just like mom

But mom pokes and prods at herself in the mirror every morning

the hardest person to be grateful for

is myself

she is always giving me a look of doubt

something in her knows

far too much about pain and brutality,

about what it takes to be soft,

what horrors a person must endure to be gentle

something inside of her heart

is too broken to be beautiful anymore

the hardest to person to hold close

is me

she writhes herself out of my arms every time

when she finally breaks her way free from my hold

she turns to me, sitting like a child with open palms on the floor and face turned up to mine

and she begins to cry

she says "you squeezed me so hard i almost cracked"

And she was right.

I was, I have been.

Squeezing her, holding her so tightly that shes gasping for breath most days.

I try to apologize but she's heard this before,

I've become my own enemy.

She asks me why I don't feed her.

Food, knowledge, love.

I cant bare to tell her what I see when I see her.

She doesn't see herself like I do

She sees herself smile lines from years of joy

Wearing a badge of honor

She sees her stretch marks ripple across her abdomen and the small hands that came from them

An honor to her body preforming miracles

And I see them mangled body, skin folding and lapping itself

I see a body that just doesn't know when to quit

Or When to throw the white flag

Blasting through a war waged on itself

I see a body that keeps going and going and never puts up a wall

Even when it really should and

I see a body that is constantly praying to someone that they don't even believe to be listening

This version of me knows too much

This version isnt granted the grace of naïveté

I know too well how the dog feels, watching his owners leave, the only people he's ever known, and the metal dog crate locking in front of his eyes

I know what his cries, that will echo in the night and bounce off the cold concrete walls, sound like.

As he cries with all his might, the noise drowns itself into the lake of all the others rising in unison, I can feel his deep inhales in time with mine.

I know what the glass feels as it falls to the floor

Always knowing it was delicate, needing two careful hands to pass it back and forth

And yet, still ceaselessly craving to be filled.

Knowing now, as it sees the tile inching closer,

That to be left untouched was to be eternally whole.

I know what the fawn feels, watching her mother be taken down

And the shuffle of leaves in the shadows reminds her

To jump in the high grass, to watch the sun catch the branches through the canopy above,

To be gentle, to be small, to be lovely is to be prey,

I know how she feels when she lies against her mothers chest as it grows colder and the shuffles in the leaves grow louder,

I know how the leaves will scream at her to run

To do what mother would want

I know how she will feel when she doesn't leave

And they find her, covered in blood and dissapointment

maybe they let her go,

it won't change her fate either way

smh

[nightswithkookmin]

Hi Goldy! I’m new to your blog and I’ve found your analysis very interesting. I was wondering if you would be interested in explaining more deeply this timeline you’ve mentioned about jikook’s relationship. As in: when did they break up?, when did they get back together?, when did they start dating, etc. I understand if it’s too much work, but it would be really cool! Also, good luck in your studies! From one law student to another :)

I think we should form a club or something, all the Attorneys and lawyers in the making, Architects, Doctors, Nurses, Politicians, Mums, Grandmums- I love it here!!!!!!!!!

Oh and here you go...

I'm not good at video editing, zero skills there but I tried something! It wasn't exactly what I wanted it to be but chilee I tried. JK. Lol.

It's JK stealing a glance at JM when he went to stand by him to sing for me- these two! Smh.

Jk is not a very good actor honestly. He spent the entire episode closed off to JM but he was literally pining lol.

And he certainly wasn't reacting well to Jimin flirting with the staff or camera crew or whoever he was throwing those finger hearts at- some would argue he was making finger hearts at Army... sure why not- whatever rocks your boat. Lol

But I've seen him do this shit one too many times during Runs and MV shoots behind scenes with staff to think otherwise. Besides, the conversation they were having in that moment revolved around the Staff and the mission the staff was going to give them so...

This moment reminded me of Run episode 82 or something where they wore the mask?

Someone off camera had asked Jimin for a photo or something, he checked to see if Jk was watching him and then he posed and put up a V sign for that person- fucking slytherin. Lmho.

Of course JK noticed what he was up to- because he is always watching JM. Lol. He zoomed over there immediately to lay his claim on his man. It also seemed a few moments afterwards that he had given JM a scolding or demanded for an explanation for his behavior or something- I mean whatever they were doing in the background there whispering to eachother.

It felt like the energy he had when Hobi put his hand around JM in that interview and he snapped his neck towards them to scold JM.

These little moments are moments I just know Jikook is real. They are real. They are. These are moments of Jikook piercing the forth wall to me, legit. Friends don't check friends and hold them to these kinds of standards and exclusivity in their behavior.

And this is what I mean when I say Jikook exercise right of authority over eachother. Yet in this recent episode of Run JK couldnt exercise that right and Jimin didn't even accord JK that privilege-because friends don't have that right nor can they exercise that right.

And you could tell it was taking a toll on JK throughout the episode. I wish I could do a better Job of showing his facial expressions in certain moments where he cracked and exposed himself like when he sensed what Jimin was going to do in the moment right before and immediately after JM had done that heart sign thingy. It was devastating to watch but I screen recorded this and edited it with my phone so the quality isn't exactly great on the zooms. Sorry.

My girlfriend too isn't available right now to fix it up or make a full video analysis for me- will try and get her to do that later hopefully. [ all these zoom, and freeze frame- this is how we turn into TKK_lives for real! Lmho]

As for JM, as I said in my previous analysis, this was his mood the entire On Era when he was trying to get JK back, he was trying to get JK to be jealous and shit and look at the way he checked JK's reaction after throwing that heart sign- yea I'm not giving him the benefit of the doubt. Nope!

Usually, he sneaks around or check to see if he's boyfriend isn't watching him before he does his shenanigans with others outside BTS and that has been pretty consistent of their dynamics throughout the years. And when he notices JK is mad or hurt afterwards he usually tries to reassure him.

He did that this year too during the Stay Gold promo period when he and JK were harmonizing and he looked at someone behind the camera and did that smugly flirty thingy he does and JK was sat next to him looking like he was about to throw his mic at the back of his head. Lol. I love these two!

He threw his arms all over JK immediately to snuggle and appease him. People said he seemed defiant in that moment- like he was defying orders or something. I agree but I think there was more to that moment than JM defying BigHit's orders not to do the skinship thingy with JK. In my opinion.

I wish I could show y'all JM's moments of pining and trying to connect with JK and his exasperation when he felt that wasn't working in this episode but the skills- its lacking. Chilee.

Listen, Jikook is real ok. By real I mean they go through stuff you see in any real romantic partnership. At least from my pov.

It breaks my heart that y'all are pressing mad charges against JK... sigh. Y'alls too quick to throw him under the bus when he upset the balance of your shipping fantasies lol. That's what you get for shipping Jikook. These are real people with real human emotions not fantasies. Don't ship them support them!

Tae is JK's friend too you know? And what are friends if they cannot be there for eachother when they are going through a hard time... sigh.

On era was tough for both of them and I'm glad they got through all of that. I mean if y'all were paying attention to them this episode wouldn't have been shocking, you know? Sigh.

To answer your question my honorable colleague, I think I have exhausted the topic? Lol. I have a comprehensive analysis of that timeline in one of by blog posts but for the love of me I can't remember which. Lol.

I will try and dig it up and forward it to you? I am still working on a masterlist and learning this platform so bare with me please. I purple you.

This has been my point of view. Let me know yours??

Signed,

GOLDY

[dangan-meme-palace]

Do you find Saihara's characterization weird in chapter 6? Because I do :( He's become super confident, optimistic, and leader-like too fast, especially if you compare to ch5 and before...I understand that in the last chapter all protags get pumped up to end the killing game but...he's quoting Momota and he also developed a 'hunch' like him...even Harukawa says 'sometimes you're so much like Kaito' pls no I like Saihara the way he is, meaning, not like Momota :( but that's just my opinion! ^^

Shuichi's characterization is all over the place. It's not even like... "he's inconsistent because humans are inconsistent" or whatever, it's literally just that his personality changes whenever the narrative needs it to without anything but loose, barely-there excuses to try and justify why it happens.

Chapter 1:

No problems with believing in his detective work, he's actually quite shockingly confident in them for how much he downplays them.

His actual problem is not thinking his skills are where they should be according to professional standards, which is an accurate assessment if the rest of the game is anything to go by actually.

Calls Kaito a reckless idiot for doing something reckless and idiotic. This is the only time he does this.

Learns a lesson?? I guess?? The lesson was apparently supposed to be "don't be afraid to reach for the truth" but it came off more like "you shouldn't let everyone die just because you liked Kaede the most, picking favorites and having bias is bad because you have a duty to remain unbiased so everyone doesnt die"

Then everyone conveniently forgets that he was willing to let them die.

Chapter 1 was the best for his characterization except for the trial. I wish he had acted like this throughout the entire game.

Let him investigate. Dear god why doesn't the detective investigate, or even cast doubt?

Chapter 2:

Kaito is starting to become his Bro now. He's not super biased like in later chapters, but you can start to see it happening.

This is the chapter where he tells everyone not to let their biases get in the way of logic, which is funny considering what he's like in other chapters.

Big sad about Kaede, but a few of the characters (Ryoma, Tenko) comfort him so he's choosing to turn this tragedy into a growth moment. I guess it's kinda like what Chihiro did, except a girl had to die for it and he didn't get brained with a dumbbell at the end.

He's the nicest to everyone in this chapter. Don't worry, it won't last long :)

If he had kept the weird sort of optimism he had during this chapter plus the logical thinking instead of leaning into the angst he might've actually developed and Kaede's death might've been worth a damn.

Chapter 3

Maki gets the spotlight so there's not much to say except for the fact that he's gotten super awkward and is getting progressively dumber.

Honestly Maki is kind of right when she keeps calling him a dumbass for asking questions with very obvious answers.

Literally how the fuck did he ever solve infidelity cases when he can't even figure out shit that's this basic.

Smh.

Oh yeah, the odd hopefulness is gone now. It's buried next to my hope of him turning out to be an interesting character.

Put your hat back on if you're gonna angst again emo boy.

Investigation? Dont know her. I only know the Grind 💯 and hanging out with the Bros 😤👊

Chapter 4:

One of his worst chapters. I fucking hate this chapter.

Everyone patted him on the back before the trial and it felt shoehorned in. I'm not even sure why they did it honestly?

Kokichi = Evil

Kaito & Maki = Good

But dont worry guys, he's totally not biased or anything! (/s)

He's mega biased.

During the trial he has a lot of confidence, like the good kind he had back in Chapter 2. Especially when he lied and when he stood his ground against Kaito. He'll be punished by the narrative for going against Kaito, but for now I'll enjoy his limp-dicked rebellion.

Apparently he cares for Gonta except he never once talked to him during the main story and even insulted Gonta in his head during their FTEs. When did he start to care about Gonta? He didn't, but now he does I guess.

Chapter 5:

Another bad chapter. Hate this too

Officially graduated from Kaito's Bro to Kaito's Simp.

Also his confidence is entirely dependent on Kaito. When Kaito wants him to do something, he's sure Kaito's plan will work and gives him all of his support. If Kaito expresses displeasure, he's ashamed of himself and has no confidence. I-... y'know sometimes I genuinely worry about their dynamic.

Kokichi = Evil ×2 combo

No detective work or reasoning. Why would the gofer project want a cosplayer to go to space and preserve humanity? Or an ex murderer? Or an assassin? Or a detective? Are they going to be solving space crimes? Shuichi should have been so god damn suspicious- the MOST suspicious, even- but he's practically braindead at this point in the story.

Investigation skills, when will you return from the war?

Goes from suicidal to "uwu I'm a hopeful student of Hope's Peak Academy" way too quickly for someone with supposed confidence issues.

Seriously, how did he go from "the world has been destroyed and I cant fix it so I might as well die" to "yeah! we will definitely fix it! we dont know how yet, but we'll totally do it because we're Ultimates even though in Chapter 1 I didnt even think I deserved to be an Ultimate but shhhh" so quickly?

Kiibo and Shuichi kinda sounded like Kaede when they saw the Hope's Peak Flashback and it's so fucking weird because there's no justification for it

Chapter 6:

Literally what was this chapter

Why did it take Kiibo threatening to blow up the school to get him to investigate the mastermind again? 9 people have died since Chapter 1, but he acted as though he couldn't do anything about it. He even says he "can only help after people die", but Chapter 1 disproved that because he literally almost caught the mastermind without anyone dying so-

At least he investigated, I guess. It's sad that a detective investigating is considered a miracle, but here we are.

During the trial he's rapidly switching from hopeful to suicidal to hopeful again and it gives me so much whiplash, like god damn. Chill out a bit, buddy.

Much like the now-late Kaito, Shuichi tries to convince everyone to die with him to make some sort of stand against TDR. Somehow this worked and they also somehow didn't die and we aren't given justification for either.

The confidence came from the fact that the narrative needed him to be confident. That's it. There's literally no justification for this. There's no justification for anything, honestly.

What even was that ending, like what the fuck was that? None of their arcs got wrapped up at all...

So basically

Shuichi is confident but he's not but only when Kaito believes in him but he can stand against Kaito when he needs to and also he's not actually confident and Kaito needs to baby him. Shuichi is also not biased because he learned a lesson about that, unless your name is Kaito, Maki, or Kokichi, in which case he is incredibly biased to the point of putting the lives of other people on the line, but he wants everyone to survive because he learned a lesson about that. He's also incredibly dismissive of most of the cast in his head, to the point of being cold, but it should be noted that Shuichi really cares about his friends and is really nice and supportive of others. He's a big doormat except for when he doesn't want to be, unless it involves Kaito, because then he is always a sidekick except for when he isn't.

Hope that cleared things up! As you can see Shuichi is a very consistent character :) (/s)

-tech

[kiara-carrera]

“I thought things were going great.” you know for who and what hehehehe 😏

you come to me during the week of my birthday and you give me this, this is why i threaten to disown you constantly smh (but also due to my lack of plotting skills, everything in here is subject to change for actual bittersweet canon anyways)

send me a ship and a prompt!

She misheard him.

That was the only logical explanation that Brooke could come up with. She misheard him. She misheard him, because there was absolutely no way that Sweet Pea just looked her dead in the eye and told her that he wanted to end things.

He was still talking to her, words spilling out of his mouth at a rapid pace but she wasn’t hearing a single ounce of it. It was all she could do to just stare at him blankly, drowning out his words in the sea of thoughts that were starting to race around her head.

All she could do was shake her head

“I ... I thought things were going great,” she said, pausing as she tried to make sense of everything. “No, this doesn’t ... what the fuck, Sweet Pea? We’re good, we’ve been good.”

“Brooke ...”

His tone sounded strangled and she knew right then he’d rather be having any other conversation but this one. Emotional talks and vulnerability were well out of his comfort zone which seemed to make this all the more real that he was really telling her what she thought he was.

“I don’t get it,” she breathed. Her eyes were starting to blur, a telltale sign that tears were on there way. “No, this ... this doesn’t make any sense. Why are you doing this?”

He sighed, eyes cast down at the floor as he ran a hand through his hair. He looked about as uncomfortable as she felt. “Look, you’re leaving in a few weeks. You’re going to be all the way in the fucking city and I’m still going to be here.”

He continued on, unease in his tone as he treaded across some of the other things that seemed to have been crossing his mind on this whole thing, but it didn’t matter. Brooke tuned him out, focusing only on the first reason he gave.

So this was about the distance, then.

This couldn’t be real. This couldn’t be fucking happening.

No, no, no. This wasn’t how it was supposed to be. They were supposed to make it, right? This was everything they’d talked about, everything she discussed with him since she enrolled at Sarah Florence. It wouldn’t be possible for them to be together constantly, but they’d make it work. They could call and text and FaceTime and she could visit him during break and maybe a couple of weekends and they would make it work. 

They were supposed to be together and every single doubt and fear in her mind wasn’t supposed to come true.

But here were those fears and doubts again, bubbling up to the surface as hot, angry tears burned in her eyes, threatening to fall as she replayed the past few months. She had been terrified to accept Sarah Florence because of the distance. Riverdale wasn’t that far from New York City, but it was far enough to plant seeds of doubt in her mind. He had been the one who told her to accept, for fucks sake.

Every single second of the past few months seemed to play out for her, hindsight truly being 20/20. He’d been off for a while. She’d noticed it before, but he’d brushed it off like it was nothing. He’d been off during the weeks rolling up to graduation, at prom, even the past few weeks of summer and —

Prom.

She thought back to that night, in his tiny little bathroom, him pressed up against her as he helped get the last of the bobby pins out of her hair. How he’d held her close to him, the discomfort in eyes and the unease in his tone as he’d asked her that one odd little question.

You know I love you, right?

She’d thought it had been a weird thing to say. She loved hearing those three little words from him more than anything, but the way he phrased it coupled with his tone had just thrown her off, but she reassured him that she knew that he loved her just as well as she knew her own name. 

Brooke had poured her heart out to him that night, telling him all the reasons why she knew everything with them was going to be okay because of that one little question.

She’d never realized he had asked it because he was thinking about all the ways they weren’t going to be okay.

Brooke barely tuned back into what he was saying before she cut him off. With a tone that threatened to cut like a knife, she bit out, “How long have you been planning on dumping me?” 

[hatsukeii]

I’m bored and tired so instead of going to sleep I am going to write headcanons because my brain has no juice left to think of new original never done before scenarios atm smh I need coffee

But Karasuno first years in Attack on Titan universe specifically Survey Corps let’s go

☀️Hinata Shouyou☀️

- Did absolute shit in training.

- Couldn’t use the ODM gear until like five hours after scheduled training.

- Shadis hated him just saying.

- Like he just thought HInata was dumb and reckless.

- BUT he didn eventually master the ODM gear.

- His size and agility really helped him out.

- He’s kinda like a downgrade of Levi when it came to ODM gear.

- Like he’s really quick on his feet and knows how to use it properly but cmon no one can beat Levi.

- Couldn’t use the two swords for shit.

- Like he just couldn’t.

- His little arms didn’t have enough power in them to even cut through an inch of the wood from training.

- So he trained at night when everyone else was sleeping and eventually got better.

- But he doesn’t know how to make tactics.

- He’s a dumb one okay?

- Like he constantly gets the formations wrong and has to improvise with the other soldiers all while running from titans.

- Overly enthusiastic in battle like he sounds like he’s on both steroids and crack.

- Then gets hurt.

- And is scared shitless.

- A lil bit of a coward on the battlefield ngl.

- I mean at least he’s not dead ig.

🥛Kageyama Tobio🥛

- Thinks he’s soooo much better than Hinata in training.

- He’s not.

- The only thing he does better is using the swords.

- Mans got some mad power in his arms fr.

- And maybe he was a liiiil bit quicker with learning the ODM gear.

- His manoeuvring skills are way inferior to Hinata’s though mainly bc he’s so much taller and heavier in general.

- Cuts v deep and accurate when slicing napes of titans.

- It’s almost scary how he never cuts the wrong part of the nape and manages to cut deep and long enough to kill it every single time.

- Shadis was okay with him.

- Like he stood out as an all-rounder but he wasn’t the best at anything.

- Makes fun of Hinata during training.

- But then gets absolutely smoked in hand to hand combat.

- It’s ironic how bad he is at that.

- Hinata managed to throw him.

- HINATA.

- Anyways, he’s usually way more calm and composed in battle.

- He’s smarter than Hinata so he knows how to stick to a plan and modify it to their needs.

- He’s okay with tactics.

- Plays safe on the battlefield.

- But when he sees a clear chance he’s cutting down those titan mfs to kingdom come.

🌙Tsukishima Kei🌙

- Doesn’t do very well in training.

- His height makes it hard to do anything physical tbh.

- No one can even reach his face.

- He’s okay with the swords, but took a while longer to figure out the ODM gear.

- BUT he’s a master tactician.

- Like holy shit he’s so good.

- He’s the type of person to predict every single possible outcome and think of solutions.

- Those solutions save so many lives in battle wow-

- Shadis HATED HIM WITH A BURNING PASSION.

- Like how dare this lil bitch talk back to me-

- He’s probably tried headbutting him but he’s too tall.

- So he just punches his gut.

- Tsukishima ain’t afraid of no bald ass boomer bitch.

- In battle he’s usually riding alongside Erwin I think.

- Constantly discussing what to do next and looking out for smoke signals.

- Him and Hange and besties lolol.

- They’re always on some weird titan anatomy science shit that no one can understand.

- Made fun of everyone during training despite having a hard time with it too.

- Surprisingly good at hand to hand combat.

- Hard to take down bc height.

- Was gonna go to the Military Police Brigade but chose the Survey Corps over them because he wanted to protect Yamaguchi.

- Works alongside Armin too but tbh Tsukishima’s better than Armin fight me.

- Calm during battle but doesn’t like to get hands dirty.

🍃Yamaguchi Tadashi🍃

- The most average out of the bunch.

- Shadis liked him, surprisingly.

- He was a good kid during training, listened to his orders, never messed around, good kid.

- Definitely felt inferior to Tsukishima.

- Think of him as the Marco to his Jean.

- Except Yamaguchi’s Marco and Tsukishima’s Jean.

- No he’s not dead don’t take that the wrong way.

- He’s really just your average soldier man I don’t got muchto say about him.

- Doubts himself way too much like baby don’t worry you’re doing great.

- Tsukishima came to like him as a comrade and as a good friend.

- They’re also secretly gay for each other but won’t admit it.

- Improved A LOT by training in his own time.

- Does good in hand to hand combat.

- The only one that managed to take Tsukishima down.

- Needs to work on coordination though.

- He’s usually just tagging along with Tsukishima because he’s come to be a tiiiny bit dependant on him.

- Ah he’s such a bean why did he choose such a hard life oh god-

- Very, very queasy in battle.

- Always has the worst case scenarios in his mind.

- Constantly thinks he’s gonna die soon.

- But then cuts down titans like no tomorrow mainly out of fear.

- Tsukishima has to comfort him sometimes.

- Everyone in the Corps ships it but they still won’t Marvin Gaye and get it on.

Hope you enjoy reading this crackpot of hcs I wrote at 2am I’m going to sleep now bye:)