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Status: -lost about 20% of my hair and got sick from eating too many mini red velvet cupcakes-
#pix habla#why are Saturdays always like this#idk why all my hair almost fell out 😭 the pony tail is slipping off from the lack of hairrrrr#I legit just stared at the chunk of hair that just? what#like I was brushing it this morning and it was fine#certainly nothing to worry about#:v not venting I’m laughing about it this is the weirdest way to end the year#>>; I still have half of the mini red velvet cupcakes left
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I have zeroed in on my issue with the centuries age gap trope is not the age gap really, but the inherent power imbalance and that i dont care to have an old ass ‘mature’ man. I want someone my age to share experiences with me, I don’t want someone who already has like all the answers. Men who are older (in real life and fiction) also tend to use their ‘experience’ to control their partner because they believe they know better. Fiction examples- The Darkling (pretty sure that was purposeful on Bardugos part) Rhysand (I dont think that was purposeful) and Cassian (most definitely not)
Idk i was watching the Book Leos new video on age gaps and shadow daddies (mostly a little discussion video) and i finally put my thoughts into words. yay
#arson yaps#and why are they always falling in love with younger women#not a ‘shadow daddy’ but Tamlin does fall into this almost but hes better written and his character has reasons to it (if that makes sense)#his need for control isn’t because he inherently thinks he knows better (even if he gen does) but because of his fear??#which is way more interesting than just ‘im old and have lived experiences’#I also feel the power imbalance between Feyre Tamlin wasn’t as severe in the first book considering him and his courts lives rested on her??#im always saying IF THAT MAKES SENSE#She didn’t have to be 19 (sigh sjm) but it wasn’t like tamlin sought out a 19 year old. she just ended up being the one#anyway idk#anti acotar#anti rhysand#gotta cover my bases#anti cassian#saturday morning yapping FR‼️#if anyone wants to drop their thoughts pls do. we are a constantly evoling people and i love to see different or similar perspectives
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okay i just made maybe my favorite thing ever 🤭 i'm so excited i wish i could just post it now but there's still more to do, but i'm grinning ear to ear even though that's highly inappropriate for the subject matter
#finally being proud of something i've created for the first time in a while#feels like i just got jump-started on the side of the road by a kind stranger fjkjsds#i'm always at my best when i have to teach myself how to do something before i can accomplish a story post#idk why i'm constantly trying to make things easier/quicker for myself when in reality i get the most enjoyment from learning...#having creative revelations on this saturday night#nonsims
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If the only remarks you have to say about Mondo are things related to his trauma, specially if it's treating him like he's guilty of it, you should probably shut the fuck up. /srs
#some people in this fandom get a chance to say anything about mondo and it's always “brother killer”#how insensitive can y'all be to people with survivor's guilt? like fr people are like this with mondo all the time. give this guy a break#why am i posting about mondo at 5 am on a Saturday? don't question it.#mondo owada#mondoblr#like if people knew I have survivor's guilt and started making everything about me related to my trauma i would go crazy#(yeah i do have survivor's guilt)#theo is rambling again
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Rooney Shepard (They/Them)/Yorinobu Arasaka Screenshots (16/X)
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Scenes of a Peaceful World: Sokkla Saturdays 2024
Day Six - Discipline
Rated: T
On FF.net//On AO3
The Preservers were a unique faction within the White Lotus. The group had been built, by Sokka's express demands, all training overseen by him, so that they could see to the protection of a unique location in their world.
The hardest part of such an endeavor, of course, was taking his leave from his family occasionally in order to see this enterprise succeed. If asked, of course, Sokka would always claim that the average period of time he could endure without them was five minutes, but where the world's progress and stability were concerned, both he and Azula were ready to make whatever sacrifices were necessary.
Now, the world reaped the benefits of such sacrifices… of the success of a venture many would have considered too dangerous, too worrisome to be carried out at all. Humanity could not be trusted with this kind of responsibility…
Truthfully, Sokka agreed with that notion: thus, Sokka ensured to set all kinds of boundaries and limitations around any visitors who sought to enter Wan Shi Tong's Library.
"It's amazing that this is even possible…" Aang laughed, standing in the grand, golden halls of the library, eyes glancing over the Preservers, standing guard by the Library's entrance and its main halls. Katara smiled, looping an arm around his. "But humans and spirits are actually working together."
"I might just be crazy, but… it almost sounds like there's greater balance between our nations, and worlds, than there ever was," Katara said. Aang smiled and nodded.
"It's not effortless… but the hard work is worth it. We can teach people better… show them the right path," he said, with a proud smile.
Wan Shi Tong had been persuaded to trust humanity one more time: the grand building rose out of the desert anew. The grand doors had spread open once again. Even now, however, there were limitations to the spirit's leniency: he still probed and tested newcomers, and whoever failed to earn his approval, whoever answered his questions poorly, would have to settle for waiting for another visitor to make a copy of whatever books they wanted to check or borrow.
It could be a complicated system, but one that worked fairly well: Sokka had come up with many of its solutions, including the rather obvious one of crafting safekeeping copies for every tome, for Wan Shi Tong's reassurance. The owl spirit seemed pleased with his support and cooperation… enough to allow what Sokka had never imagined he would, once he asked it of him:
A large family, either astride or walking beside dragons, crossed the Library's golden gates on the morning when the Preservers began serving in the Library.
"Wow… wow!" Shun gasped.
"This is… it's a miracle!" Rei gasped, tears in her eyes as she covered her mouth with her hands.
"Where's the owl?" Yuuna pouted.
"So many books…!" Hotaru gasped. "N-no one would be able to read them all!"
"Fortunately, Wan Shi Tong's helpers will be around to ensure you find the ones you're interested in," Azula smiled, clapping her daughter's shoulder. "Now, then… keep your dragons in check. I'm afraid that when he turns up, they'll…"
On cue, all the dragons tensed up: a dark presence, lower down the hallway, caused Yuuna's nervous dragon to squeal, jolting back with the child riding on his back.
"Hey, hey…!" Sokka clasped the dragon's reins, ensuring he wouldn't topple backwards. "No need to worry. He's not going to dissect any of us: he promised."
"It's illegal," Yuuna said, firmly. "No one can dissect a dragon."
"Yeah, I'm sure Wan Shi Tong would feel bound by that law… right?" Sokka said, turning around with an awkward smile: the owl approached gloomily, eyeing their family with an unreadable expression. Xin Long, while also tense, appeared to reassure Hotaru and Shun's dragons, though they still shivered while hiding behind him.
"I see you have arrived. The Avatar and the Preservers said you would be here today, Sokka… and you brought your family, indeed."
"Hey there," Sokka smiled, waving at Wan Shi Tong. "Guess introductions are in…!"
"No need. I know who they are," Wan Shi Tong stated. "Rei, the eldest, a scholar. You are welcome to browse my collection."
"I… I am?" Rei gasped: Azula smiled as her daughter shivered with excitement. "Y-you'd let me…?"
"Provided you do not stay until after the doors close. Our service hours are much stricter nowadays," Wan Shi Tong declared.
Rei couldn't contain her excitement, hugging Azula eagerly at the thought of examining countless books she'd had no access to before. Wan Shi Tong turned to the next child, though:
"Hotaru. You may find our collection on firebending and swordsmanship to your liking… though I suspect you would prefer to read fantasy books, today."
"I…! W-well… maybe a few. I can… I can study and have fun, right?" she said, looking at her mother expectantly. Azula smiled and nodded.
"You're free to do as you wish, provided you follow the rules," Azula assured her.
"Shun. You may browse the firebending section with your sister," Wan Shi Tong continued: the boy blushed upon being addressed, shrinking in place. "It has expanded thanks to your parents' contributions. Ensure to thank them for it."
"I-I will. I… thank you," Shun said, bowing his head towards the owl.
"Yuuna… zoology section: third floor, fifth wing."
"Good."
The child didn't bother waiting to check with her parents: she spurred her dragon to take flight, and the whole family gasped as they took off through the floors of the Library, right towards her favorite subjects.
"Sorry about…! Oh, hell," Sokka groaned.
"I'll keep an eye on her," Rei laughed, clapping Sokka's shoulder before setting out to the third floor, too.
The children scattered, with Hotaru and Shun lingering not too far from the entrance, meeting up with Aang and Katara, while Rei chased down the restless Yuuna. Wan Shi Tong watched the two kids, though it seemed his attention lingered on their dragons.
"You fulfilled your many vows to me, in your last visit," he said, turning his head towards Azula. "I feared I shouldn't have risked trusting any of your nation anew… but I took a gamble with you, and you did not disappoint. Where I have seen much of the worst of humanity… I appear to have discovered the best of it, through the two of you."
"That might be too flattering," Azula smirked. "We're hardly upstanding in every sense…"
"Indeed. Ensure not to sully my Library with improper acts this time."
"H-hey!" Sokka squeaked. "We weren't doing anything that bad! I mean, well…!"
"He walked in on us getting slightly too comfortable in his planetarium room, Sokka: he's not going to forget that," Azula said, with a dry grin.
"Indeed," Wan Shi Tong confirmed. Sokka's cheeks flushed. "That being said, you have been rather successful across the years, building a family, bringing back the dragons, as you promised… you reclaimed peace in a world that seemed beyond all hope. While I remain vigilant, and the Preservers will continue to keep tabs on all who may enter the Library's premises, I find myself at new ease with your kind. History shall always remember what humanity owes to the both of you. I will make certain to make records of it."
"Thank you," Azula bowed her head. "And… for letting my family browse your collection. We told them what a great honor you had bestowed upon us by allowing this. I know they're hardly the most disciplined children…"
"We'll keep an eye on them anyway," Sokka smiled reassuringly. "Thanks, Wan Shi Tong!"
"It is I who thanks you. Truly."
Wan Shi Tong bowed towards them, stunning Azula with the gesture: he spread his wings after, taking flight across his Library anew.
The place truly was different compared to Azula's last visit: the whole place appeared brightened with knowledge, with renewal, with the promises fulfilled between the regal couple and the ancient spirit.
"So… what do you think?" Sokka smiled, throwing an arm around Azula's shoulders. Xin Long shook his head before pressing it against Sokka's chest, startling him. "H-hey! He's gone, no need to be scared anymore…"
"He's thanking you," Azula smiled, reaching over to stroke her dragon's fur. "For everything you've done for this place… and, of course, for successfully fending off the big owl, too."
"He'll never stop being unnerved by him, I'm sure," Sokka chuckled, hugging both Azula and Xin Long with each arm. "So… what section do you guys want to start with?"
"How about we find out if anyone has written stories about us yet?" Azula smirked. Sokka snorted. "I'm curious! There's bound to be so many outlandish tales about how on earth you and I wound up together…"
"I'm sure there's a lot of sordid, raunchy ones too…"
"Eh, well. Either we've already done those things, or it'll serve as useful research for the future, right?"
Sokka snorted and cackled: Azula's mischief never failed to delight him.
They took off together, meaning to explore the place on their terms, to enjoy themselves, keeping tabs on their kids while under the watchful supervision of the Preservers, who greeted Sokka respectfully: humanity had succeeded at reconnecting with its most ancient valuable knowledge, and they had finally learned the wisdom, as well as the discipline, to honor the vows that had finally built true peace between the imposing owl and humanity at large.
#sokkla#sokka#azula#sokkla saturdays 2024#sokklasaturdays#am I taking advantage of this for some loose-end-tying-up#when I dunno if I'll get to it in the main story#MAAAAAAAAAYBE SO...#:'D#gladiator spoilers#yeah why not#anyway#I hope you guys enjoy this one#he is the man of the hour always#they are such a power couple even outside of battlefields#even the cranky owl knows it#I'm pretty proud of how this whole thread turned out srsly#I feel like I'm doing something very uncommon in the fandom with this but#hopefully it works well :'D#enjoy!
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normal🧐??????
#idk why some says 6 days and some says 7 idk if theres some specific hour cutoff or what#this meltdown was all st the same time#but what is there shipname like actually 😭😭#i dont tag them……no one tags them....#snakeblade is what google translates it to for me on japanese tweets so idk 😭😭#jabashiri nagare#hagure tatsuto#why i always scheduled to open on saturdays now#im in too deep i was refreshing ppl livetweetijg in japanese today😭😭😭😭#i luv the ending song credit heart thing always but this one was for MEEEE SPEXIFICALLY 😆😆😆#i had a visceral reaction to seeing screenshot#bucchigiri be lije what can arajin do to piss everyone off this week#can he get better next ep pleeeease i swear he just gets worse and worse#BOY IF U DONT ACT NORMAL!!!!!#i want to strangle him#he opens his mouth and my eyes rolls to the back of my head OHHH BROTHER!!!!!#bucchigiri?!
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7am, eating cold leftover teriyaki stir-fry for breakfast and crying over blorbos
#normal Saturday morning behavior#redacted spoilers#redacted audio#redacted sam#Seven.txt#rp audio stuff#well. crying over one singular blorbo in particular. Sam's still got me in an emotional chokehold#and i'm too sad to even make a stupid little joke abt how i wouldn't mind if it was a physical one too. ayeee *insert sad eyebrow wiggle*#no but seriously. i have so many feelings abt him and i can't even say it all bc some of it isn't public info yet#eh fuck it i'll just draft this until the audio goes public and then i'll post it once it's no longer Exclusive Info#bc i dont wanna leak Early Access stuff but i have to get this out of my system rn and the new audio is part of what sparked these thoughts#which is funny bc i. literally haven't even listened to it yet. i'm not Ready 😭#where's that tiktok screenshot that's like. 'hyperfixation so bad that i can't even engage with the source material' bc that's me rn#like bro Sam only won the poll like. 2 or 3 days ago and Eric is Already dropping a new Sam audio?? hello? Mr. Redacted i wasn't prepared#anyways i was spoiling myself by perusing the comments last night trying to get a feel for if it's gonna be more angst or comfort#and i saw a comment that absolutely shattered me. and it reignited all my sad thoughts about Sam's eventual. uh. y'know. death.#apparently they plant a tree together or smthn in the new audio (which already has me & my beloved 10y/o orange tree feeling some kinda way#but to the individual in the comments who brought to all our minds the image of Sam sitting beneath that tree in 30 or so years time#when he's decided that he's ready to die and sits out there waiting for the sun to rise..................... 🥲#i'm gonna need u to compensate me for all of that unexpected emotional damage /j /nm#i'm Still not over what he told Darlin' while they had their talk about the future up on his roof together. that audio killed me#then yesterday i was listening to my Sam & Darlin' playlist while cleaning. and Malibu Nights by LANY came on. which i always skip bc Sad#but i let it play and just started crying. standing in the middle of the room all disheveled and holding a broom. as one does.#iirc that song is one that Eric himself said is applicable to Sam which is why/how i found it and put it on the playlist. and god. g o d#hm. i hope that wasn't Patreon exclusive info. i can't remember if it was a public post where he said that or not. hope it's okay to share#but if we can take that song as like. unofficial canon for Sam then that also confirms my idea that he used to drink to cope#which makes the opening lines of Fix What You Didn't Break by Nate Smith even more applicable. i should go edit that post actually#anyways i'm just. feeling a lot. and i love Sam very much and i don't want him to die. but i want him to do what he wants at the same time#Alexis took so fucking much from him. he deserves to live - and end - his life on his own terms. ... i think i need to go write something#*casually fishes this post out of the drafts 3 and a half days later* hi so uh. i wrote a 4k oneshot :) and will hopefully post it tomorrow
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i did my best this weekend, but my thesis is still not done... i had such a productive day yesterday, i was on top, i was focused, i met my goal... but today my brain was mush and i flopped around like a fish on land....... squeezed out two paltry paragraphs about sun dials and water clocks........ unfortunately my source for this particular section is a very long and dense text, and i have to sort of. extract the Essence. i need to dig up three paragraphs that explain the Things like an artefact from a burial site. can i do it? i must do it. i will do it
#but not Now because it's midnight.#maybe i can write notes at school tomorrow?#i should have taken more notes before today........#i haven't read the whole book but ive read several sections and im always like aha i get it i get the vibes#but when i need to recall the specifics it's uh. well! people used clocks to tell time. we have. proof of this. yes#swedenquest#honestly on saturday i was mostly summerizing/translating another summary#and even that took me a full day wtf#even if i got preemptively distracted about the question of Why twelve hours and hunting down a source#do you know what ive settled on. 'ancient culturules like babylonia assyria and sumeria used twelve as a base for many measurements'#IT DOESN'T HAVE TO BE MORE COMPLICATED THAN THAT DOES IT
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Last night, my boss called me out of the blue (he’s never done that before. It was like, almost 9pm and my sister and I were out eating at a restaurant in Chinatown. Well, we’d just left tbh.) asking if I was “coming in today?” And if “I need my hours,” like man, what? And tried to joke about the times where I’d text him to ask if I should still come in because the weather is bad and I can’t work the pool if it’s raining. They literally know this. I’ve been sent home because of the rain at least 5 times now, bro, stop playing with me. He said some shit like “you aren’t just doing that as an excuse to call off, right hahah?” And I just feel like that since they want to fire me, he’s trying to come up with an excuse to do so. He tried to take a jab at me asking by about the weather as an excuse to go into possibly “calling off too much,” even though I’ve never missed a day of work since starting this location. The only days I’ve missed are the days where they’d send me home because of the rain and that one weekend because I was gone for vacation, so they can’t use my attendance at all. I’m late sometimes (only because I’m tired of this place, man. I’m so unmotivated but I need the money orz. The good thing is that the leasing agents and those in higher positions aren’t there on the weekends. Only maintenance and the concierges and they don’t give a shit. I doubt they’d tell on me about being late since most of the concierges hate it there, too. They could gaf.) but my boss sounded like he was trying to see if I was going to coming in today (why wouldn’t I? I’ve been working the weekend for weeks now, what are you talking about 🗿…) so that he could try to have someone new work the pool to give them a chance to get used to it so that they could push me out/ fire me. Jokes on them, I might just call up my main boss on Monday and tell her that I’d like a new assignment because the work place has become hostile and it is now, making me feel uncomfortable.)
#really don’t want to be here anymore#I was talking to one of the other concierges yesterday about what the manager has been up to since I haven’t seen her in weeks and one of#the other leasing agents came over and was like ‘do you have the pool sheets ^^?’ be in mind#none of them besides the actual property manager has ever asked me that before at all they usually don’t care and are always busy#so why are you walking over to the front desk asking me if I’m about to go up stairs when you’ve never done so before#I just stopped the conversation that I was having with the concierge and walked off#I feel like they’re all spying on me now bro it’s weird af#ease dropping on me complaining to other concierges and shit it’s weird#I know that the other concierges wouldn’t repeat what I’ve said to any of them since again#they aren’t too fond of manager at all either and some of them have called him racist even#idk man#I’m really uncomfortable#rambling#omw to work rn#I already know that today is going to be annoying#Saturdays are always the busiest day at the pool#kids screaming and shit#idm but sometimes I’m just like uhhh kill me bro#it’s mainly the heat that gets to me tho the kids are barely a problem tbh it’s usually the grown adults being rude and stuff
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I work ok tje 17th Let me put let me out. Let me oouuuutttttt
#probBly the 18th as well but i dont actually know yet#but the 17th here will be the acgual time of chiak day..#Aell its okay bc i dont care bc i dont like him. So.#i liued imnsorry. i like gim#in other news: tomorrow i think is officiappy one year aince i started workijg my cirrent job so#im going to count my tip jar.. to see.. one full uear#last time.i cojnted ghere was 100 something hut that was a frw momths ago now#i dont rmbr exactly when..#but yaaaaay. counting. yaaaay#moneyyyy#also ghe csndle jar thing i have it ik is getting cramped and messy#bc i havent counged it in a while.so.i uavent Taken all.of.itput in a while so tjeres lile#a neat circle in ghe middle.and them i jusg stuck stuff after around it and it barely all fits#i need go invest in a second empty candle#Or actually d9 something with the money. <- not going to.happen#the only time.ibe ever used anu of it was times.i ran out of singles for bus fare#so id take one ftom thefe#That reminded me#Eafloer.i was tjinking like#itd be soooo much easier to get bus fare if i had a car...#bc its always a hassle bc i habe to wapk to tje bank and Dude the bank is never fuckint open#Aas a kid ur like oooohh the bank so.importsnt and adult..#and theyre open lile 20 minuyes a day. If this place is so damn importsnt why is it closed all ghe time#Nyways my point. i tjought that and then was like#.....If i had a car i woidpnt need bus fare at all bc i wouldnt have to take the bus#anyways th e bank is so annoying#closes at 5 on weekdays and i get home after 4 most days i work#and i also jist. dont geel like doing errands after worming all day#and Closed complefslu on sunday#and open from 9 am to noon on saturday like the fuck
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some of my friends are pissing me off …
#i understand not liking smoking and not wanting people to smoke in your face but saying that if someone started smoking you’d stop being#friends with them? what are we 12? you can not agree with someone’s lifestyle and still like them. these are the same people that get judgy#about my drinking habits like i drink MAYBE once a week and it’s always with friends and we usually chill and watch a movie or something!#why is it somehow more pure and righteous that you only drink at clubs on fridays & saturdays you probably drink more than me! it just come#s across as so preachy#whatever
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I got in an existential spiral and I don't know how to get out of it
#literally what is my life even worth#what's the point#I just don't understand sometimes why it's Like This#and I don't want to be all like “ugh. society” but also like. why is everything so focused around money#and why am I not good enough#why haven't I figured it out#I should have it all figured out#god there's so much more I want to say but that runs the risk of just spilling my whole life and I can't do that on here#but I feel like I can't talk to anyone irl about how I'm feeling#there's just too much#and here I am sitting on my computer always talking about tennis#and I love doing that#but where is my life going#sorry. I'm sorry#I can't even motivate myself to do such basic things#it's so easy and I just can't#and it's saturday night and my friends find time for each other and not me#and my stomach hurts because it always does#I feel like shit
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#today I am sad about something that I know objectively is dumb#my 30th birthday is next week and the party will be next Saturday and I’m having a dinner at a nice restaurant in town#I wasn’t supposed to make it to 30 and never thought I would but now somehow I have and so this birthday is like…#a really huge deal to me you know#and I always wanted to be able to have a big party to celebrate this specific occasion and in my head I pictured all my friends/family there#I figured this would be one of the biggest parties I’d ever get to throw because to me this is the biggest milestone I’ve gotten to so far#but out of all the people I’ve invited the most that will probably reasonably show is about 10#and even that’s a bit iffy because tbh I’m pretty sure my bestie will flake on me like he always does#and if he doesn’t show up that might just end the friendship but that’s another matter entirely#also iffy because I haven’t gotten a lot of responses still even though I made the event and sent invites two weeks ago#I just… thought I had more friends than that if that makes sense#like I had bigger parties with more people attending in high school and I barely had any friends then#I’ve thrown low key Halloween parties in my mom’s apartment that had more people show up#now I’m at the most important moment of my life (so far) and I’ll barely have anyone with me#lately it just feels like less and less people care about me for real despite how many I know around work or how many are on my Facebook#it feels like my world keeps shrinking and I really don’t want that because it’s been small enough as it is#I just feel like I’m never really going to find my place or have big groups of friends like everyone else#I’m never going to have a group of friends or people I can rely on to spend time with me when needed#as it is planning things gets harder the older we get anyway just due to needing to tend to adult life#guess I still just want what everyone else has and I don’t know why I can’t have those things#and I know it’s stupid and selfish and whiny but I really want to cry because I’m so depressed that I have barely anyone in my life at all#barely anyone to celebrate something so important to me and so few who even seem to care at all either#I’m grateful for everyone I do have honestly#but that doesn’t offset this weird pain in my chest over this whole situation#maybe I should just curl up and cry until this all passes and I can go back to pretending it doesn’t matter#personal
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Guys I’m literally so big and brave (seeing Ragtime AND Suffs after Election Day)
#broadway#musicals#ragtime#lynn ahrens#stephen flaherty#suffs musical#pls make Election Day a federal holiday already I do NOT need to be going to tap class during the end of the world#also I know WHY Election Day is always on a Tuesday in November (old times farmer stuff) but like AT LEAST change it to a Saturday
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Daily November crying sessions start today
#why. who. how. how tf does my professor think it's okay to assign 4 major assignments in the same amount of weeks + 4-6 readings every week#all of which are ~20 pages.#i've got all that to do and another big assignment for a different class. plus the weekly readings and reflections for that one.#and i have work.#i've stupidly decided to volunteer for a thing on saturday in the hopes of bulking up my resume + rubbing elbows with the administration.#and i have a medical thing on friday and i'll be looped out and likely will have to sleep half the day. probably won't get ANY work done.#what else..... some fairly easy stuff for my other class thank GOD. but a lot of reading and preparing for a few big essays.#november is the month i hate the fucking most. i always lose my mind in november. and no wonder!!!!!!#meanwhile people are bugging me to hang out. i will be in a student-coma until approx. the first week of december. see you then. peace.#oh and my BIL + SIL sitting me down and showing me all their europe honeymoon photos for 2 HOURS last night is also not helping my mood.#fuck you lol#like i'm happy for you and nice photos but also? Fuck You.#if i can offer some dark humour though.....#my fic axis exists because of a legitimate smidge of insanity i experienced last year. it shifted the way i looked at the world and at grie#sooooo i wonder what kind of fic my mind will crank out this time?#i don't think i'm at risk of losing it this year though. doesn't seem that way. but we'll see!#i can write/draw good things without sacrificing my mental health first i can write/draw good things without sacrificing my mental health f#rst i can write/draw good things without sacrificing my mental health first i can write/draw good things without sacrificing my mental heal
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