#why am i posting this to my bg3 blog you ask? well. it is because. i am tired.

[tavtime]

headcanoning monogamous characters as polyamorous is free, fun, and easy to do! additionally, it is always both cool and sexy 😎

[galedekarios]

seeing @mercymaker's own post about the "apology" made me feel confident enough to air my own feelings about it now that i have had a night to think it over and not internalise it anymore.

i'm not going to further belabour the point again how this "apology" is not an apology at all, but a statement where he doubles down on everything, omitting important facts, twisting truths, dancing around the issue at heart, and so much more.

it's frankly exhausting at this point.

i want to address one thing specifically however since he thought it was prudent to dedicate an entire paragraph to it in his "apology".

the fact that he wrote this:

"Truthfully I am not sure when or if I’ll begin creating again but I will continue to ask for permission to credit/use someone’s works if I feel like I’m inspired like I honestly had been doing following the late March situation. I do not expect any forgiveness or positive reactions to come out of this tbh, I just know an apology was warranted and deserved. This time I’m actually taking a step back to evaluate it."

after he just said this:

"To one gifset in particular, the hands set, that gifset was honestly a pure coincidence/accident. I truthfully had no idea that the blog had done something similar first. Hands are a common theme in Gales romance that I picked up on and I had no idea a similar set was done prior. I can say this about other sets too but it was this one in particular that I can honestly say was an honest coincidence/accident. And I couldn’t have known that those scenes/themes bore any special significance to that blog. Also I want to acknowledge I was never seeking “mutualship” but more so I enjoyed them as a creator and most likely had tumblr technical issues. I’m sorry if my actions ever made you feel unsafe, that’s the last thing I’d want to make someone feel :/"

it's just... absolutely vile to me.

first off, i have to ask: which is it? are you "apologising" or are you still trying to pretend that the concepts gifs i created and you stole are "common" things that you "picked up on" and "had no idea a similar set was done prior", which you could "say about other sets too"?

i'm confused at this point...

i'm being facetious here. i'm not. he's not sorry. he's sorry he got caught. again. and that, this time, it reached other parts of the fandom that it previously didn't, where he couldn't lie anymore about how all of this is just a case of people bullying him, of people being exclusive and clique-y.

i don't understand why he singled that set out in his "apology", however, other than that he must know by at this point that it's the one gifset that most upset me. not only because he stole it twice, but because it is so meaningful to me.

so... let's look at the facts here:

he followed me from early on, ever since my blog got traction in the bg3 fandom after the full release of the game

he engaged with me via messages and comments at around this time

there was no talk abt this theme specifically in relation to gale until after my meta and gifset gained traction, despite being a set containing an original character, which generally does worse in terms of engagement

he stole several other of my concept gifsets that i posted around this period in time (gale + missing waterdeep, gale + saying i love you, gale of waterdeep vs gale dekarios, one of my oc compilation sets)

he contacted me to remake a gifset in particular that was an older set as well, just like the hands set

i showed side by comparisons in my original post (same scenes, same frames, same framing, same caption) and it was so blatant to the point of where several people reached out to me, confused if the copy is actually my set or reblogging it, thinking it was mine

i think it's pretty obvious what actually happened, considering the context and, to be honest, at this point i don't think even he believes his own lies anymore.

all i can say is that this was not about apologising - none of this was - it was about trying to save face and doubling down.

[i-have-dots-in-my-brain]

ayup mates, its me (that one fucking guy that shows up in your fever dreams to offer you garlic bread then fucks off into the void) (i think you need to get a therapist btw)

Call me dots or dot (not correct but when saying something belongs to me you use "dot's". idk why don't ask me)

My cara page (for art): https://cara.app/ihavedotsinmybrain

They/them she/her it/its ( welcome to the mad lab we do experiments with the funny goofy hjinks with the genders here)

TAG GUIDE : my art (self explanatory), dot's thoughts (mad ramblings) (extra note, there are two versions of dot's thoughts, the other one is with the phone version of ' so you can go look for that if you wanna see me posting from outside the comfort of my room and computer), dot’s travel journal (me on holiday), my persona (obviously just my persona) *prone to updates

dumbass who likes to draw ocs and shit. (posts like there is no tomorrow but also like i have all the time in the world) (oc x canon stuff also) (some fanart ig)

if you wanna find my (mostly serious) art, check out @dots-in-my-head (send me asks and dms on this blog) also i have started putting fandom stuff there too so if you want to get my fandom doodles you can look to there as well

still questioning sexuality but currently aro/ace? (idk i'm not in a rush lol) (i WILL dabble in the arts of questioning me sexuality on internet if you got problems with that shoo)

my loveley husband (@octoxxt, pls ignore this blog dude its embarrassing)

why do you need to know my age, ‘you a cop?

will not draw smut or NSFW bcs i will start howling with racous laughter and melt. (i don;t even read smut in fic dude what do expect me to be able to draw im a cartoonish obviously anime style inspired semi-realism but not really shitty doodle artist you put your hopes too high if you think i can draw a dick without making it look like a piece of middle school desk graffiti)

i've got a bit of a dirty mouth but everything is pretty vanilla . (i make edgy dumb jokes sometimes, but it's not my actual personality peace 'n love on planet earth okay) (any time i say i wanna kms IT IS A JOKE) (most of my posts are /srs i will mark it if its a joke i know the pain of not knowing if it was a funny joke or not i gotchu other autistic peeps)

please talk to me god i am lonely (i am serious about this i love it when people rb and scream in the tags it genuinely makes my day) (send me asks send measkssendmeaskssendmeasks—)

Absolute art machine(whether the art is good or not is a big question that i am not ready to answer) makes shitty animations sometimes idk.

Uses lol too much. Chinese, knows mandarin (translate the random messages for maximum brain damage) i don't know simplified but i do know traditional (please talk to me i need to practice my chinese reading skills) am i a furry? idk but if you're mad about it you can fuck right off (i have a couple ocs and my darling fursona)

am currently inbetween fandoms, fandoms i am (kind of) active in are hetalia, scp, dnd, genshin, pjo, bg3, apothecary diaries, jrwi riptide and csm (list is prone to updating because fandom is my support system) (you wont see my art for most of them but the brainworms are there and sometimes i let them take over)

old fandoms or the fandoms i lurk in (i visit them often): eddsworld, demon slayer, pokemon, vocaloid and wof. (also prone to updates as i remember stuff)

note : i am still in school and have a life outside the internet so stuff will be delayed (which is why i am only kind of active) (i go missing sometimes i am not dead life is just lifing for me)

Do not say anything about how cringe I am I know trust me (it’s a coping mechanism lol)

if you're concerned, you're very right to be. I am very incoherent (most of my life updates have actually devolved into cries for help, please talk to me)

also if you don't like my art or ships just leave(any critique about anything i make shoots a bazooka straight into my heart and behind the screen i crumble into a cartoonish pile of ashes and bones as i stare at the screen blurred by tears) (unless I ask for critique then i brought this on myself and i’ll walk it off don't worry)

(Both of my personas)

My flags (might be updated)

[shmowder]

ag;asdfjag hello so I stumbled across the "specific fetishes they have with no explanation" post you wrote for the BG3 companions. Can I please request something like that for the Patho characters? Anyone you feel like including.

Sorry to keep bringing up your other blog but my goodness, your anons weren't shy on there XD It's amusing to notice the difference in content and asks between these fandoms. @ pathologic enjoyers where is the horniness!!!! /lh

🐿️ anon

Ah yes that classic post, it started because I wanted to give someone a hand kink and the rest followed along. I like the concept of specific fetishes that aren't explained but are accepted as part of the person nonetheless. Imitating organic sexuality where sometimes people are into things for no apparent reason, why do I think knight armour is so hot? I will never know.

I miss it sometimes, how shamelessly direct anons were in the bg3 with their nsfw requests. Talking with someone who knows exactly what they want is always refreshing.

I enjoyed the different concepts and how conversations about sex and fetishes flowed so seamlessly. They clearly enjoyed what I was writing and were mature about it.

While the Pathologic fandom feels more juvenile? Like a repressed adult going to a sex shop for the first time. The nsfw requests are vague and always written timidly, testing the waters, rushed even. As if I'll just suddenly disappear if they're not the first in line.

It could be the fact x reader content is scarce in this fandom while in bg3 they were plentiful. I knew some bg3 blogs that wrote smut pieces that could make the devil blush, genuinely. It was the extreme bdsm and dark smut i have ever seen, and i loved it.

I'm not complaining, I enjoy both fandoms' unique approaches tbh. I simply match the energy that is given to me, reading between the lines and all. If I notice, the requester is timid, shy, and vague about what they want. I'll go with vanilla and soft, slow sex.

Unless someone directly tells me they want to hear about my thoughts when it comes to Oyun's clear humiliation & degradation kink and life/death play, then I simply keep it to myself.

This blog started as a meme blog after all, didn't it? I just wasn't sure I'll even post pathologic x reader tbh. I wanted a throw-away account to talk about the game in because I didn't want to sully my bg3 account with unrelated fandoms even more. There is no need to wear its corpse and parade it through the square, giving my previous readers hope i might come back only to show it was a different fandom wearing its skin.

I kept that in mind, which is why i tage my x reader works with...well ♧x reader. So the people who are here just for the memes can filter it out.

Compare the notes my memes, character study and plot analysis posts get against my x reader pieces. It's clear who the majority is.

BG3 simply had more people interested in x reader, so it paid off in the long run to focus on it. While here I wouldn't have made it out from under the radar if I hadn't posted any memes, would I? No one searches for pathologic x reader on tumblr because the goddamn tag didn't exist before me.

It doesn't help that at least 70% of people who read this genre are lurkers, as it is natural with fanfics in general but especially anything deemed "cringy" or "taboo". Especially in a fandom whos tries to be taken seriously and seems high-brow to onlookers, yk pathologic.

Take the Hysteria fic, for example. I thought it would set the tone for the rest of the account, yk? but all i got afterwards was fluffy requests, so the balance shifted towards a more romantic style.

Right now, I have been getting more requests and nsfw ones, especially, but it was you who helped break that seal and encouraged other anons to come out because of your interactions and sincerity.

I think it was your nsfw Victor and Yulia requests which offically broke the seal and showed lurkers I am willing to fully dive into smut, that no this isn't a mirage and yes they can requests as many dom Daniil stuff as they want. You would be surprised at how popular that man is in my inbox.

Me personally, I would've simmered down or slowly stopped the x reader pieces if someone didn't come along to show interest in my work. I already have the whole world and works in my brain, I can just keep it there for eternity.

The fun in writing requests are the requestors themselves, the lively discussions, the passion, and happiness. The sweet kind words afterwards, waiting to see their reaction to something I've poured my heart and perverted mind into.

I planned on writing many more ship fics for pathologic, but Lingum Vitea was left in the dust so I decided against sharing my ship writing with these people anymore. Petty? yeah, but it is my own writing at the end of the day.

That's why I enjoy posing on tumblr, the interactions, the anons. It truly feels like you're part of a community, which is what fanfics were about before. Hell, it was what all fandoms were about before, remember when artists received anons discussing their vision and inspiration?

Now it's radio silence on AO3, or maybe my style specifically didn't click with them? I don't like multie chaptered works, I get bored of ideas easily and I can tell a whole story in less than 3k words.

Either way.

Be unhinged if you want, or don't. You can do whatever you want for eternity. This is for any person currently reading this and not just you squirrel anon. I don't lose anything by your shyness at the end of the day, but you certainly do.

The chances you might miss on, the opportunities, the self-acceptance and fullfillment. Let those 13 layers of irony melt away, we can be mature again sex and fetishes, we are adults after all, aren't we?

God, I hate the fact I had to tag my sub/dom post with ♧crack just so people take it as a light-hearted "lol im so crazy" moment. And they did, rather than start a genuine discussion about their role placement or how being dom/sub relieves stress and many other things.

I don't actually feel that strongly about any of this, I'm just frustrated about certain life events rn and it's easier to take my emotions out on this trival matter.

I have to go to a funeral today, I saved a draft of your request. I'll write it when I have the energy, I hope you do enjoy my bg3 writing in the meanwhile. And do leave a comment there or something if you do, just because I wrote it in the past doesn't mean I don't care about it anymore. I still check the bg3 blog notes and it is sad how people just like or reblog things without any comments because the author isn't actively posting anymore, it is borderline insulting.

Good thing I don't care about this, right?

[sorcerous-caress]

Yo I’m currently making the place Sean Shanahan is from (the idea is that it’s a collection of kingdoms/city-states full of characters based on folklore/fairy tales/mythology/legends/public domain stories and the kingdoms being based on the places they originate from) and after I’m done making the places and characters I plan on writing stories in that setting focusing on Sean Shanahan (the stories taking place before or after BG3 is still up in the air but I’m leaning towards after) and I wanted to know if you would be fine with me sharing my work here when I start writing?

This is something I've been wanting to talk about for a while, it's also for Githzerai anon if you happen to read this and for anyone who wants to to also share their OC in the future.

I don't mind it really, i actually like it and I love hearing about all the different OCs and the creative ways people weave their original characters into bg3 and put their own spin on things.

What I mind, is when it's the only thing someone would talk about. At the end of the day I am a writing blog, not an OC appreciation one, it's just something I do on the side.

So you can imagine my feelings when I keep posting stories and posts about why I want my readers to engage more, only for my two most active people in asks to end just talking about their own OC and writing all the time?

It's especially disheartening when I see any of you interacting with other stories or sending compliment messages for them to my asks, but never my own stories or writing, it almost feels insulting at this point.

It's like going to an open buffet someone invited you to, and bring your own food and eating it, and only talking about your own food. I love trying other's foods but not all the time.

But I also understand that it is a huge compliment for someone to trust and like me enough to share their writing and things about their OCs. I am honoured, really. But I am also human and I want to talk about my own writing and stuff.

A lot of times, I dread replying to the OC asks because of how much there is in comparison to asks that are about me or my writing. Your OCs are interesting, they are well written and dynamic, but this is my blog dedicated to my own writing.

I don't want to feel like you're only here to share your own writing and never interact with mine, it feels being taken for granted or used. It's nice every now and then but it's becoming all you and Githzerai anon talk about.

It was better at the start when the two of you'd be verstile, balance it out. But it's become too much now.

So I don't think I'll be taking or answering anymore OC asks. I answered all the ones I had in my inbox today and I'm putting a stop to it because this is really diverging from the original purpose of the blog.

I'm sorry, It won't be okay for you to share your Sean writing with me. Not after ignoring all my of my own writings and just talking about your own, it's really unfair. I wish you the best, tho! I'm sure you'll find readers who enjoy and appreciate your stuff on your own blog.

Also, I'm not mad or anything, I'm not taking this personally, I promise. I'm just establishing my boundaries. The two of you are still welcome here and in my asks as readers only. Like any other person here who shares their general idea or requests stuff.

If you happen to send any reply concerning this post, just know I'll read it, but I'm not going to reply to it publicly. This isn't a discussion, and I don't want to stretch this topic out.

[tamedstray]

1 through 5 for the munday memeeeee <3

Munday questions ☼

How do you feel about reblog karma?

Ok so, I see its value as good practice, but I personally don't practice it or enforce it. It's good for the ecosystem, the economy, but I also don't want anyone to feel pressured to send things, even encouraging certain memes to be stolen; my tag #ask. please steal means I want to send some ok please 👀       Ultimately, I only send things I can see Vigor saying or doing, whilst also being careful not to send asks when I'm overwhelmed with drafts (though of course if I have too many drafts I won't outright steal the meme, though might put it on a side blog to consider later sshhh.) That's actually the main reason I'm bad at reblog karma: I want to sending things but draft anxiety is stopping me, then occasionally posting the meme a week or two later.

Is it hard for you to write with characters you don’t know/don’t know well?

Yes if we're talking ocs, no if we're talking canons. I am happy to learn more about ocs as time goes on, but the more I know, the easier it is to write !! In contrast, I actually prefer canon characters I know less about, I think as part of my preference for ocs lol.

Whose writing has impacted your writing style the most? (you can choose anyone! famous writer or not.)

I don't read I'm sorry like I'm into audiobooks rn because I can listen to them on my opening shifts at work but otherwise I can't claim any clear influence 💀 Most of my reading and writing has been through roleplay and fanfiction when I was literally a child. I just hope to improve slowly through listening to audiobooks and writing here idk idk 🥲 Since this is where I read, it's my partners who influence me the most ♡

Which muse of yours is your all time favorite? if you stopped writing them: why?

Vigor my son 💞 I've been writing him on-and-off since 2016 and I'm so glad I revamped him for bg3 on a whim. He was originally a Skyrim oc but he works so much better here 😭 the brain worm was good for him, actually.

Is there a muse you really want to try? if yes: what’s stopping you?

My favourite d&d character of all time: Russel Tumblebrush. In fact, I did briefly make a blog for him, only to realise not many people want to write with an acearo time-travelling mole who talks like a pyromaniac Winnie the Pooh. Still, I might try it again, or just write him on discord one day. If anyone wants to send their muses through time-travel therapy with a lovable but unhinged moleman hmu ✌️       I also occasionally think about writing Wyll simply because he needs more love, Larian >:( which isn't a great reason, since I do prefer writing ocs (less pressure omg) and I barely have time as it is. Also, Solas or Cole from dai, just because I love both them boys so much 😭😭 I think writing Cole would be healing for me fr. Solas? He's in my brain 24/7 so I might as well lmao.

[githyankiwarrior]

⚔️ ‘ﾟ･ 𝐆𝐔𝐈𝐃𝐄𝐋𝐈𝐍𝐄𝐒

IMPORTANT: The opinions and views of Lae’zel do not reflect my own. My muse’s morals and behaviours does not mean I, the writer, approve of them. If you’re uncomfortable with heavy themes and immoral characters, then this blog may not be for you.     Note: This is fiction, not reality. I as a writer will not stay away from exploring certain themes just because you might be unable to handle the concent this blog may dewelve into.  I do not tolerate artistic/creative censorship.

INTRODUCTION:  This is a roleplay blog for my intimidating warrior Lae’zel of Larian’s Baldur’s Gate 3. Don’t fear, though. I do not bite.

WRITER: Yo! I’m Jen, 25. She/Her/Dad. Timezone GMT+1 (Sweden). I  try to be friendly and open to most! Holla at me whenever! I’m not always going to be super active, real life and just not feeling like it happens. I study and will  sometimes have little time for roleplaying. Please do not hound me for replies, ic or ooc, they’ll come, eventually, maybe… Someday. I can sometimes go off the social radar for long periods of time, please dont guilt me into replying if I do not chat as often as I used to sometimes.

I have an art/personal blog at ( JarfieJen )!

FOLLOWING & UNFOLLOWING: This blog is private; meaning I only interact with my mutual followers (those who follow me and i follow back) thread and ask wise. This is for my own comfort and I ask not to be shamed for it.  I don’t follow everybody. If you follow me and I don’t follow back, then most likely I’ve either forgotten to check out your blog, or I’ve not felt that we as roleplayers will match, if the latter- please don’t take it personally. don’t go out of your way to ask me for an explanation as to why I dont want to roleplay, or have blocked you, seriously.

I’m not 100% exclusive as a standard, but if you want to be exclusive with my muse, I am willing to discuss that. However, if you want exclusivity from this blog, then I excpect the same from yours, and that the exclusivity will be mutual.

I will unfollow if no sign of desire to interact ic and ooc with me has been shown from your part despite me giving attempts to reach out. I will also unfollow and softblock you if you post politically charged posts, too much social justice related posts, or too much ooc where the amount of ic posts compared to ooc is very low.       If you unfollow me, I ask of you to PLEASE softblock me (block then unblock) so I can avoid the awkwardness of me still sending you things without knowing you no-longer want to interact. Thanks.

INTERACTION: I interact with any fandom (that I either have knowledge about, or find interesting despite lack of knowledge). I’m oc and crossover friendly, most are welcome to hang out with lae’zel here. Aus are top tier content, I love those. Interactions with multiple versions of the same character will be set in separate universes.      I do not roleplay with non-roleplay blogs! However! Non-roleplay blogs are free to send in questions to my muse, headcanon asks or if they want to find things out about them from them in character.

RP ETIQUETTE:   No godmodding; you control your character and I control mine. Minor things are fine, if its minor actions that fit my muse and will move the plot along. If you don’t know my muse well, ask me if they would do the thing. Mutuals are welcome to like my starter calls and to reblog any opens I write. THOSE WHO ARE NOT IN MUTUAL FOLLOWING WITH ME please DO NOT like or reblog starter calls/opens. I also want ask threads to be carried over to normal threads, as I find the reblogged ask thread system to be shit and aesthetically unpleasant to look at.

TRIGGERS: I have no specific triggers, really. I tend not to tag trigger-like content except for the common nsfw tag. Again, see above important message. If you are sensetive and easily offended, this blog may not be for you.

FORMATTING: I write mostly with small text, and use icons, gificons. I have no trouble writing without icons, though! You do not need to match my style of writing! I’ll do my best to match your writing lenght, but I tend to mostly write between one-liners to a few paragraphs. Of course, you do not need to match the lenght,  I just ask I do not recieve a one-line/uninspired reply to a reply of mine if I’ve written two paragraphs, etc.

SPEED: I am either faster than lightning on speed at replying, or slower than a crippled snail stuck in glue. A kind nudge on my shoulder regarding my reply/or if i’ve seen yours is fine! But please don’t hound me about it. That will make me reply even slower, if at all. 

SHIPPING: I am open to ships on here, but  I don’t ship Lae’zel with just anyone, she does not actively seek real romance, even if she would enjoy the occasional one-night stand. However should she ever sail ships with other muses- then those ships are separate and she is not cheating unless I’ve stated otherwise. I do not write polyamorous-shipping, like with multiple-writers being involved in the same thread, it has only given me bad experiences.

MAINS: I’m open for mains and exclusives. I prefer being close to my rp partners and have ooc communication. Exclusivity is reserved to those I am very close to ooc and have known long enough. 

RULES:  I read other writer’s rules pages before I interact, but I  tend not to send in passwords, though. It depends on my anxious feeling , you get me?

CALLOUTS:  Same as for political posts and/or sjw related content. I don’t want it on my blog and will probably unfollow if I see it too much of sthat sort of drama on my dash. I don’t engage in callout drama for petty reasons such as a falling out or you just don’t like someone. Witch hunts are gross, keep it away.

CREDITS:  RP icons/PSD by me, dash-icon by me, theme background by me ( image used: official bg3 art ).