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Mass Effect Legendary Edition / Francesca, Hozier: Ashley Williams & Kaidan Alenko for @deannastrois (insp)
Ashley Consistency Project
Ashley's Guardian Armory
Alliance Uniform Consistency
Ashley's Armor
Ashley's Hair
Ashley's LE3 Armors
Ashley's armor texture
Kaidan Alenko Overhaul
Kaidan Alenko's Andromeda Armory
Kaidan's LE3 Armors
Play as Padme Amidala
#mass effect#ashley williams#kaidan alenko#wilenko#willenko#mass effect mods#masseffectedit#dailygaming#gamingedit#dailyvideogames#videogameedit#vgedit#edain's edits#this took me SO LONG#i did not need to do so much but it was a whole lotta fun learning new things#im going to schedule this b/c its late and i know im gonna wake up tmrw and hate it#tried to make it ambigious as to whos speaking (they're both speaking)#special thanks to the padme mod for keeping me sane#it was fun playing dress up with her while i was gathering footage#*all the mods really -- it wouldn't be the same w/o them tbh#i redid that last gif 3 times b/c i kept messing up the txt in the 2nd part but im satisfied now
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"What do you remember of being human, Echo?" The question is out of the blue and unexpected. But Sora offers a patient smile and tilts her head in curiosity, just enough that one of her ears flops over. It's endearing, if anything.
But Echo wishes she hadn't asked.
"Not much. Distinct memories are cloudy." A tired tone says softly, a pained recollection in her eyes and an acrid haze in her soul that endures, endures, and endures, "But I remember the discomfort more than anything. My body always did feel wrong back then. Misshapen. Condensed. Like it was too small for everything buried underneath, and that ache went so deeply some days that it would make my skin crawl. I hated that part the most."
At that, Sora's expression falls. She looks inexplicably sad, as if she'd hoped for a different response, a gentler one despite knowing the harsh truth about the dark future and the struggles Echo must have suffered. "But you had Grovyle, right? I'm sure he took care of you."
"He did, Sora, of course he did." A sigh, a flick of an ear and claws clenched tightly into the churned earth pressed under her paws. "I doubt I deserved his attention, though. I was too busy being angry at the world to give any care back."
In my lore, Echo does not look fully human during their time in the dark future. Since they were Darkrai before becoming human, and as a result of Palkia's reckless shattering of the Dimensional Portal which distorted both time and space, Echo's transformation was broken and accidental. They ended up looking pretty messed up and definitely (not) human. A lot of their characteristics as Darkrai carried over but rather morphed into something else.
And Grovyle, growing up in a world where humans have been extinct for longer than any living pokémon has been alive, has no concept of what a "true" human looks like. The only thing he knows is descriptions of humans from glyphs and texts in old ruins. Thus, he mistakes Echo for an actual human. And Echo, not knowing what a human looks like themselves due to amnesia, accepts this identification with nothing better to use.
#Grovyle: Hmm. Bipedal and powerless. Five-fingered hands. Wears clothing. Has... hair?? This thing must be a human like from the old texts!!#Echo: Sure I guess. Let's go with that.#Frankly I'm much more interested in Echo being some sort of pokemon cryptid than a plain ol' human tbh gimme claws and a spiteful aura#Gimme a severely messed up creature with amnesia and unhinged monster vibes and SO MUCH APATHY#Just the idea of Darkrai being shoved into a pseudo-human body and not remembering who they are but feeling SUPER dysphoric about it#And Echo basically being the most unpleasant person in the universe during their time as a pseudo-human; literally the worst vibes#But despite that a little Treecko stumbles upon Echo and thinks they're cool and awesome cause “wow you're a human!!”#Like cmon you're telling me glyph reading; ruin exploring; treasure stealing; world-fixing idealist Grovyle wouldn't be a fanboy about it#Thus begins their Found Family Arc(TM) and Echo is trapped#Does Grovyle's optimism eventually rub off onto Echo? Yes.#Anyway do you guys want any lore on Echo? Pls lemme know cause I could start sharing it a bit#I have some notes I could post or maybe more art?#kudos to Scribz for causing me to hyperfixate on my emo girl so much (this is your fault)#echo/human#echo/umbreon#pmd ocs#pmd2#pmd eos#explorers of sky#my art
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also! if the entire knuckle wasn’t removed then the claws would grow back, but it would be all messed up and grow like into the flesh iirc? which would be super uncomfortable if not painful. so like if whoever declawed oli didn’t go all the way to the knuckle…
anon please you're making me feel bad for declawing my catboy,
#/SILLY /NM this is fascinating...#i should figure out how that actually Happened tbh...#it's a magic au maybe they did it with magic. maybe the person who did it was in the healing coven or whatever and did a good job#or maybe they meant to just make them normal fingernails but messed up and now he just has None#either way. cruel thing to do to him :(#now i'm thinking about like. was it his parents that did that. bc wouldn't they be critter people too and Know that was bad??#maybe he was a normal typical witch that got cursed as a baby...#ough i'm thinking a lot of thoughts now#pho.asks#anon#joli toh au
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the thing about me is that i just can't blindly defend disingenuous writing no matter if i like the writer or not especially when it's catered to loud twitter users !! this is why one of the few criticisms i have about the borgias is how desperately neil jordan needed the audience to root for cesare even at the expense of other characters, considering that cesare is already a compelling character and the writing could've hyped him without diminishing others in comparison. juan stole the spotlight and received rave reviews after the paolo incident by showcasing the nuance of his character. but he was then written off for 3 episodes to make everyone forget about him despite having made a positive impression in media outlets and david's acting being recognized (he was being called the second-best actor on the show after jeremy irons mind you...) this clearly shows how insecure the writer was about cesare and felt the need to hide juan to make cesare shine. after juan returned from spain shaped up into a better person he was then nerfed again for the very same reason that even the actor had to challenge neil for dehumanizing him in a grotesque way without proper buildup solely to elevate cesare despite his motivation being purely selfish.
#the hotd mess reminded me of nerfing characters to elevate characters tbh#what's ironic is the same people he was catering to are the ones who attack him for borgia apocalypse btw (which i love and defend !!)#that being said absolutely no shade to him and to cesare/françois but it's just ao painfully obvious atp#but still david did a tremendous job even with all the undermining and giving historical cesare's deceases to him#because let's be honest the girlies wouldn't be attracted to cesare if he had syphilis like he had to look yassified !!#what's mystifying is that both cesare and juan are both fascinating characters so feeling threatened of juan was absolutely ridiculous#the borgias#juan borgia#tv shows#period drama#tb text post
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I keep thinking about how on earth they would canonize ggy bc like. at this point if they have to sacrifice Gregory screentime of just him to make something we already know actually canon, I would rather just take the screentime, but on the other hand they have to canonize it if they want to do anything at all with that plotline, and that makes me wonder if theyll stick with it as canon in the games at all or just leave it as background knowledge if u read the book 😭
#like i love ggy just as much as the nezt person and go crazy at how canon it is but not yet#but also i like gregory a lot more and ggy isnt the only reason hes my favorite#gregory was my favorite for a whole year before ggy even came out#i want him as a person to be developed more than his ggy plot when we already know its real#but gregory himself desperately needs more time focused on his character to tell us more about him#maybe give some context to some of his decisions#best case scenario honestly is Gregory has a protagonist plotline where it showcases his character and relationships with others#as the game progresses naturally with dialogue and stuff (freddy and vanessa being his guides or something)#with the focus being saving cassie#but as the game reaches its climax gregory realises for some reason or another that apparently he was ggy and did all those things#and was the mimics fave#but its established he had amneisa before security breach so he didnt remember and still doesnt#he just knows he did it and has to deal#so it doesnt completely take over everything else about his character#and then whatever happens at the end of that game has cassie saved and joining 3 star#who GOT DEVELOPMENT in this hypothetical#like idk i want ggy to be canon but i dont want it to overtake gregory#yknow what i mean#it should be background to him not the other way around#vanessa and cassie already have that big main possession plotline#pandas.txt#tbh if they replace gregorys backstory with something equally interesting I'll be ok with no game ggy#we already have a whole book to mess around with i wouldn't mind it being a little au even tho i know it isnt#its VERY canon and ill 100% be alright and happy w game ggy#but im nervous for how they would establish it in a game if at all#with how much gregory needs screentime just as a character and if he'd need to wait even longer after a ggy reveal#thoughts#gregory
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I think it's a hatecrime against me that there aren't any slugs as big as the giant African snail. Why do the snails get to have all the fun I just want a giant slime noodle.
#I don't want to keep a snail as a pet because theyre kinda prone to shell injuries#and then they die. id be in a constant state of stress#i can't have tarantulas even though i really want to for the same reason - spiders molt and they can actually fuck up#and they fuck up kinda frequently. and if they fuck up they die#because they either tear off their organs in an attempt to free themselves or they essentially turn themselves to stone#or they suffocate. i know that I'd be extremely stressed every da#id be like 'what if it happens what if they fuck up molting i have to stand here on guard in case they start molting and mess up'#because sometimes if you're really fucking lucky you CAN manage to save them. but you have to#be there on time and you have to pray. because its much easier for you to kill them than save them#and i would never forgive myself for that#in general it's very stressful for me to keep pets who don't have very clear signals of joy and displeasure/pain because i#constantly worry about possibly taking bad care of them and them being unhappy#i loved my hamster but i did breathe a breath of relief when she died of old age because every day with her was just#so unbelievably stressful for me. i wouldn't help but be preoccupied with trying to figure out if i was doing something incorrectly#if i was a bad foster parent to her if she was content etc etc#she was a great hamster but the experience was very much 0/10 for me i would never own a hamster again#in the same vein i probably couldn't have a tarantula due to this as well.#plus tbh I didn't even want a hamster my parents got her for me because they wanted me to feel obligated not to kill myself#they said that if i killed myself they wouldn't care for her and she'd die so i had to stay alive.#a part of me knew they were bullshitting but it still freaked me out super hard and made me unimaginably anxious about#getting run over or anything happening to me and paradoxically that made me even more suicidal and depressed#didn't help that my mother didn't even believe in her own plan and accused me of planning to kill myself AND my hamster#she accused me of that several times. I've always had a lot of intrusive thoughts about hurting animals so it#made me break down and self harm every time. obviously that made my mother even angrier and many a time it led to#her accusing me of being a danger to her and others#if she felt particularly hysterical she screamed i was just like my father and that she feared me as much as she had feared him#when he still had a gun. you can imagine how that made me feel considering i jsed to have nightly night terrors about my father#killing my mother.
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hey so why the fuck did no one tell me that you hit a certain age and then cyclically want children? Like monthly?
#fairy is rambling#i was crying over a dad crying over how much he loved his baby today and I'm like what the fuck why am I crying#and i think about it really hard#and then im look oh shit im about to have my period#being broody wouldn't be so bad if I wasn't single#living at home with my parents#and 22 years old#as much as i would love to be a mother#NOW IS NOT THE TIME#who the fuck came up with this shit#anyway im skipping my period cause im not doing that mess this week#also does the brooding hit everyone or is it like heightened in certain people#cause i feel like im always like this but again that could be cause I want kids and am friends with many people who don't#like is it just exacerbated because i feel like an outlier#eh who knows#tbh i don't care my kids are gonna have so many aunties and uncles#maybe its worse for me because i am constantly mothering everyone I know#eldest daughter curse
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how to get over someone who was perfect except that he lived in another country & couldn't handle long-distance texting (yeah I know I already did a post about it when it happened hut I'm still not over it 🥲). like I legit don't think I'll ever meet someone like him again. he was the first guy in 8 years I vibed so amazingly w + he was hot as hell. fck I'll die alone
and that idiot didn't even live that far away. legit takes 1.5h by plane to get there ugh
it always has to be a fcking Italian. 8 years ago a guy from sicily, now a guy from torino. I hate the universe. why connecting me w guys who either turn out to be shtty or I can't have?
anyway, back to remind myself my boys bts would've never dropped me like this & if they can keep in touch w fans during busy schedules, tours & military, so could a dude who supposedly likes me 🥲
at least I meant enough for him to take time to explain & apologize instead of just ghosting me
anyway sorry I just needed to vent for a sec 🥲
forgot to mention that he was an alex turner fanboy and loved tae's solo album when i showed him :') and we'd listen to 90-00s metal we grew up w due to both our mums.. fck my luck really
and the fact I finished begins ≠ youth by binge watching 8 episodes right after he dropped me surely didn't help w my melancholy either 🧍🏼♀️I mean, I knew what would happen, I read the books and webtoon but it still fcked me up. my poor boyssss 😭 so yeah, everything sucks rn
#personal rant#my love life#my love life is a mess#crush#Italian guys will be the death of me it seems#I hate the universe rn#why showing me the most perfect guy only for him being unable to use his phone and keep texting me#wasn't tae and yoongi enough??#at least they're celebrities so I always knew I can't have them#why introducing me to a normal guy who I could theoretically have IF HE WASN'T UNABLE TO COMMUNICATE W SOMEONE ONLINE FOR MORE THAN A MONTH#yeah it was only a month but I have felt more for him and there was bigger chemistry than w guys I talked to for longer#not that there have been that many guys#tbh most guys I only talk to for 1-2 weeks#but the vibes weren't that high either#meanwhile w him it felt amazing right off the very start#DID I MENTION THAT HE LOOKED HOT AND CUTE AND WAS EXACTLY MY IDEAL TYPE?#Ugh why universe why I hate it here#I should just become a cat lady at this point#like I would've been open to calls or videochats too! not just texts and audios! but no#his issue was the medium and distance#legit nothing I could have done smth about#and his fcking unflexibel Leo venus and mars ofc wouldn't bend for me#like first his issue was stress and being busy#but at the end it was the phone and distance#house of cards has been on loop for 2 days..
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something I’ve been thinking about lately is that, if Fukuzawa really does eventually die, and we get the Ranpo breakdown/corruption arc like the new op might be hinting at....... I really hope Mushitarou is a key person who can bring Ranpo back from his senses/save him. Considering that the perfect crime arc was when Ranpo’s Fyodor parallels were first shown, and Mushi’s arc is all about him learning to overcome grief..... I think it just makes sense in a lot of ways, and that it would be really moving to see Mushi try to help Ranpo overcome his loss, after how Ranpo initially helped him
#bungou stray dogs#......or maybe i really really just want Mushi back okay#but considering how much Asagiri loves him....... I think this is a possibility#yeah I know Yosano and Poe probably make more sense for people who could/should save Ranpo#but Mushi would understand........ he's already been put with Ango to empathize with him and now I want to see the same with Ranpo#Yosano would be just as much of a mess if Fukuzawa died tbh so I don't think she'd be in any position to save Ranpo at least not right away#and personally I want her character to have an emotional conclusion with Tachihara instead but that's just me#as for Poe........ yeah idk. I want Poe development and I think this would be an opportunity for him to realize Ranpo isn't perfect#but he wouldn't really be in a position to do much imo#that leaves Mushi as the perfect candidate in my eyes
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I want their fuckin freedom they have no chores no responsibility they can go out with their friends when ever they want for however long they want they can sleep in there bed all day they eat drink drive vehicles use the phone have a home with no bills no expenses they can spend their money on stupid things that bring them joy with no worry of the gas they burned in someone else's vehicle or if there's dinner at home they have no worries about laundry no worries about dishes no worries about the messes they make because they know I'll clean it up always I want to be viewed by my family and by my friends as someone who is an actual person with limits and boundaries and who has goals and dreams they'd like to accomplish in the day besides laundry for 16 people and not a tireless cleaning machine. I want to be able to rest and have hobbies I want to be able to do things with my partner and my friends again I want to be able to fuckin daydream and make up stories again for Christ sake I want to feel like a person and not a corpse forced into playing "tradwife" I want the freedom they all have while I'm in the background doin they're dishes.
#i don't mind helping with chores but it's the fact I'm the only one qnd i can get my four youngest to help me with bribes of sweets#but there's several adults living here who don't care that they make. more mess then a four year old#and could definitely start doin their own laundry#or take the trash out if it's full instead of cramming more into it so that the bag splits and is to heavy for me to lift#and I'm actually kinda strong like I've def lost a lot of energy n strength this year tbh but this bitch can lift pretty heavy boxes at work#and i split logs pretty regularly so im not the strongest gal by no means like of lord i had to carry my mother around everywhere#because she was a stubborn asshole who refused to use any mobility aids and then wanted to go shopping or go out and i had to just carry her#like i can carry an adult women but fuck if it didn't hurt me bad doin it and i had to stop several times to catch my breath#like I'm not super Strong but I'm not weak the trashbag cant weigh more then an adult#it takesn nothing to rinse a bowl out so your food don't turn into cement#or throw away the wrappers of your bandaids instead of tossing them on the floor#or wipe your shoes before you come in and track big chunks of dried mud and grass all over the home#my parents wanted 12 kids wnd our house to look like a magazine and they beat that mentality of the house must be clean as a whistle#because what if Jesus was to stop by we must have our home look so clean that we would be unashamed if jesus stopped#so clean we encourage him to look in cupboards and under the bed clean#i dont think that's a Bible verse but there was a biblical book that was all about having a home that was so clean constantly#just so you wouldn't be ashamed when Christ cand because cleanliness is closer to godliness#i really hate my mother like so much I'm glad i can finally say it I'm glad i don't have to work to earn her love or buy it#you shouldn't have to have to earn love especially from your parents I'm glad she can't constantly condemn me#i have nightmares about my mom condemning me or being smug n proud and ruining my life in the name of her cult#like throwing away all of my belongings and only having a bed a Bible some christan fiction four floor length Jean dresses baggy tshirts#also her giving my sister she favored a bunch of my organs since I'm broken anyhow and slowly dieing because i don't have a liver anymore#or her ruining my relationship and friendships because she didn't think they were godly enough so i have no one in my life except church#she tried to have an arranged marriage for me not a dream that happened#i know she loved me i hate that i think so low of her but her love felt like hate most of the time#i know she loved me though andni love her to I'm just glad i don't have to constantly hve to perform for her#i have so much garbage in my brain
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Magnolia blossoms in the park by my campus
#eating lunch beneath them and the petals keep falling on me#there are some evergreen magnolia trees on the other side that i usually sit beneath#but these are at their most beautiful now#I'm not the only one who thinks so#there are a lot of bugs here too#i already found three spiders near me#one was crawling on my knee#one was already making a web on my bag#i don't really mind tbh#i just hope nothing got in my hair#i was listening to music on my way here#and a homeless man asked me if i had any extra food#this is the first time that happened#and i just... automatically said yes#and i gave him what i could that wouldn't make a mess#but it's strange.... it's also the first time i listen to music walking around here#you'd think it would be opposite right? that no one would approach you if you seem preoccupied?#well i didn't mind#not at all
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Since twitter is at the brink of imploding yet again, I figued I should try to be more active here, but I have an actual question:
Is there a way to have public conversations with as many ppl as they want to participate without creating a monster post everybody has to reblog and have different versions of in order to say their piece?
Ngl that has been the main reason why I don't make og posts here that aren't pics or fics. For all its flaws, twitter does allow to talk to ppl in a simpler, easier way. You can snowball a shitpost into a legit fun moment with your friends, here idk why it seems more complicated bc you do end up with said monster post no one but the ppl participating on it will care about. Idk
#tbh I think this is one reason why many of my twt friends and moot are not very active here#most of our fun on twt is that#someone makes a post and literally everybody can reply and add to others' comments#without making a hydra of a huge ass post#and having a multiperson convo in comments here is a mess#this is why I can't leave twt#my ppl are there#and I honestly wouldn't be able to keep in touch with them if it wasn't for comments on random posts#especially for fandom#some of my best moments have been long ass replies one some random fandom idea#reallly makes fandom more accessible for folks who don't write or draw#and even then you can have great convos that started with a comment on a pic or fic#I don't really see that here :/#don't mind me
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i hope everytime an akiangel fan finds my blog they'll start breaking down crying.
#this is /pos btw#i mean yeah obv#like who wouldn't think this was a positive message?#only the real ones know#aka akiangel fans#but it's honestly a pretty small detail#like it's literally a quote LMFAO#no one will probs find out in like 30 minutes or sm#unless they stalk my blog like 24/7#or if they're just sidra but on an alt#no but how does she like my posts so fastly#it worries me#lowkey#more like highkey now tbh#these days i will eat cake at literally 3 am#i am /srs#honestly why should i even joke ab it anymore#my life's a mess#i should probably go to sleep#or get therapy!!#but sleep is a cheaper option#+ i probs don't need therapy anyways#honestly everyone knows that that's a lie#why am i lying to myself#i want to eat cake#</3#YOU'RE OUT OF TOUCH#I'M OUT OF TIMEEEE#BUT I'M OUT OF MY HEAD WHEN YOU'RE NOT AROUNDDDDD#god i hate my life
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another day another male friend to reject
#why does this always happen when will i ever know peace#i have another man that i anticipate rejecting soon enough. ik he's into me but idk what he's gonna do#and THEN. kinda funny and not really concerning but#my friend that i call my brother NOT the one this post is about#he called me pookie over text which is really funny to me#my other friend calls me pookie and i always find it funny#ANYWAYS my brotha called me that. i acknowledged it bc i thought it was funny#idr what i said. just like “wow i got pookied” or something who knows#and bro reacted with the heart thing. it was on snapchat if u know what I'm talking about#that was it. he did that then sent me a pic of whatever he was doing. just moved on#like bro??? pookie was funny but the heart on top of it??? are we getting married#jk jk it's chill. we're cool enough that messing around is fine and even some humorous flirting tbh#but we normally wouldn't#Sera
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Does anyone else look back and realize that one of your childhood invisible friends had some really weird gender stuff going on that you never thought to examine at the time?
Like I had a whole superhero universe and the main villain, T-who, was... I don't even know. I used he/him to refer to him, but thinking of him as a man feels so weird to me now, and the way I pictured him, his gender was similar to Princess Lily, the main hero, who was Very Definitely A Girl. (His real name, Tom Jack, was like the first two random guy names I could come up with- and the whole thing was a Voldemort ripoff because 'if you say his real name he will send his wolves after you'- not even getting into the fact that my younger brother proceeded to rip off my ripoff by creating an entire supervillain society of alphabet people named A-who, B-who, etc. It was a whole thing.)
But anyways yeah I don't know what was going on with the gender stuff.
#tbh the way I saw gender as a little kid was an absolute mess#like I specifically remember my favorite color being green and my least favorite being pink#and one day my older brother told me that girls like pink#and I just kind of decided that now pink was my favorite color and green was my least favorite?#and I would always sing a little song to myself that went 'I wish I was a boy'#and I remember having a whole list of reasons why being a boy would be better but I can't remember what any of them were#except for 'boys have short hair so it wouldn't get tangled in the trees when I'm climbing#but like nowadays the idea of being a man produces a visceral 'oh hell no' reaction#like I have done the gender questioning and am literally cis#but I still get weird gender moments from like getting my stuff labeled as guy stuff or something#Like maybe you could describe it as being a girl who is a guy#or is that just called being butch#which is even more confusing because now I am VERY attached to my long hair#for dragon reasons rather than gender reasons#because to add some extra layers to this- I experience dysphoria of a non-gender variety!#where was I going with this
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Oh my god I need to get a fucking GRIP
#i don't know if this is just a case of my brain deciding to obsess about something and not let it go#or if crushes are always like this#but i cant stop thinking about him and it's honestly getting so frustrating#every time i feel like the crush has lessened or i at least don't feel insane about it#he does something that brings it back in full force#and then im back on my bullshit again#and i honestly don't think he likes me like that but tbh i wouldn't be able to tell anyway#so convincing myself that he definitely doesn't like me just doesn't work because i know that i cant know that#and i refuse to use negative self-talk because im trying to do better with that but it unfortunately means that i cant be like#well of course he doesn't like me. literally who would?#so im just constantly in a horrible balancing act between he probably doesn't but maybe he does but it really doesn't matter because#nothing would come of it anyway and if it did id probably mess it up but no wait what if i didn't#somebody just take me tf outtt#i feel ridiculous#but he's very cute and i like him so 😞
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