#who knows. maybe i'll figure it out eventually.
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Michael wipes his forehead, looking over the suitcases they all packed. Most of them were filled with things for the babies. Who knew having twelve kids would require so many items?
Michael: Alright. That's one problem solved. Now, we just need to figure out where you're going.
Lucifer: ...Maybe... up north?
Michael: Hm. Forests, wide open spaces, plenty of animals, and plants to cover your scents. Could work.
Lucifer: Okay, good. And if things get dire, we can escape into Canada.
Michael: That you could.
Michael glanced over to Adam, who was sitting out of ear shot, playing with the babies.
Michael: You be careful with him. He may look like one of us, but he only changed a day ago. Surviving in the wild will be a hard adjustment. Even our species have a tough time.
Lucifer sighed: I know... hopefully the babies haven't gotten used to the luxuries.
Michael: Their only young, I doubt they'd have many issues. It's you I'm worried about, brother.
Lucifer: Me?
Michael: You need to be aware. Constantly. Alone, we don't have a chance against our own, let a long father. If Adam had our strength, that would be different. But until he's more used to his form, I don't see that happening.
Lucifer: ...What should I do...?
Michael: I'll stay close by. With my powers, I should be able to mask you for a few hours. If you cover enough ground, that should be more than enough to get you out if here with a decent headstart.
Lucifer: So, you'll come with us?
Michael: ...Again, I'll stay close by. But not too close. We don't want your litter to get confused with who their father is~.
Lucifer glared: Watch yourself, brother.
Michael: Oh, calm down. I jest! Everything is so serious, l wanted to lighten the mood!
Lucifer smirked: Oh? How about we change the subject, when are you finding a mate, Mike?
Michael laughed: Ah, that conversation. And so early in the day. Well, I'll have you know, I stopped producing eggs nearly ten years ago... so this isn't in the cards for me.
Lucifer followed Michael's gaze to his children. He knew his brother was more of a loner. He was never sure if he wanted children. But even he could tell how hurt Michael was over not being able to reproduce.
Unfortunately, it's common for males to stop making eggs, and it's something that will eventually get him disowned.
Lucifer: ...I'm sorry, Michael, I had no idea.
Michael: I know... I wanted it to stay that way. But, you've been more than open with me. It was time to return the favour. Besides, I never found anyone I would even want to spend a lot of my time with, let alone raise a family.
Lucifer: I didn't know a family was something you wanted.
Michael: I... don't know. Sometimes... I see you and Adam eith your litters. And how darling they are. But in the long run, I'm not sure if it's for me. I like to move, Lucifer. I don't like to stay in one place. And children. A litter. A partner. Would stop that.
Lucifer: There's more to life than moving, brother. But, I respect your opinion, and I'm glad you felt comfortable enough to tell me this.
Michael smiled at his brother: You're welcome. Now, let's get back to business, shall we?
Monster under the bed au where Lucifer is a monster and "terrorizing" Adam?
And by terrorizing, I mean fucking. Grossly. Disgustingly.
Complete monster porn.
Oh no, are my kinks coming out again? Oh well 😉
🥵🥵🥵🥵🥵🥵
Don't tease me with a hot au lol
Oh, what if Adam bought a new house and that's when it starts?
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hi! I’d like to request Declan x younger reader and they are at a party at his house and he hears someone (maybe even Patrick??) flirting with her so he whisks her away to go dance so he’s the only man who can touch her
like father, like son
declan o’hara x female reader
summary: declan overhears his son flirting with you and he can’t help but get a little possessive
content: 18+, cursing, sexual themes, alludes to smut but no actual smut, jealous declan!!!
author’s note: hey so i went a little rogue on this request my bad. patrick is such a cutie i had to🤭 also why am i incapable of just writing a little blurb lmao. i always end up a with a whole ass oneshot
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it was the annual o'hara new years eve party that doubled as patrick's birthday celebration and you were pushing your way through the overly crowded foyer of the priory.
that's when patrick saw you, he was convinced he had never seen someone so captivating. he immediately leaned over to his younger sister.
"who the hell is that?" he was yelling over the music.
"oh that's daddy's new assistant!" taggie answered with a bright smile as she watched people dancing in the room ahead of her.
patrick's jaw nearly dropped in shock.
he recalled his father mentioning a new employee being hired to help with all of the prep work for his show, but he just figured it was some dorky, young 20-something desperate to get their foot in the door of the investigative journalism world.
never in a million years had he pictured it to be an intoxicatingly gorgeous young woman.
as soon as he's processed this newfound revelation, patrick's feet are moving in pursuit of his father.
declan was across the room laughing with freddie jones when his son found him.
"there he is. the birthday boy!" wearing a proud smile declan was clapping patrick on the shoulder.
judging by the overbearing greeting, patrick could only guess his father was on his second- maybe third drink of the evening.
"yeah i was hoping for just a minute with you really quick." patrick reached for his dad's shoulder, returning the greeting.
with a quick "happy birthday" to patrick and a friendly gesture to declan, freddie saw himself off to the dance floor.
"you didn't tell me your assistant was hot."
the words are rolling off patrick's tongue the second he's alone with his dad.
"i'm sorry? didn't realize i had to disclose that to you."
declan was laughing– genuinely chuckling, at his son's implied accusation as he took another sip of his drink.
"I mean jesus dad, she's insanely hot. she can't be that much older than me, tell me i've got a chance?"
patrick is speaking to declan but his eyes are scanning the room, hoping to catch another glimpse of you.
declan all but chokes on his drink.
there was no way on earth he would set you up with his son.
obviously it would be innapropriate and unprofessional. you dating his son could only lead to an eventual messy breakup which would just make things awkward at the office.
oh and there was also one other tiny little thing that kept him from wanting to pair the two of you together,
declan had been fucking you for the past three weeks.
the relationship between you and declan may have been a confidential matter, but he was very much enthralled with you. what started as a quick release ended with him begging you for exclusivity. of course you agreed to secretly date the man because you were equally as smitten with him.
so hearing patrick talk so openly about wanting to 'get with you', had him tensing up. declan didn't share and especially not with his son.
"you know I think she may actually have a lad back home now that I think about it." declan is lying through his teeth as he smiles at his son.
"guess i'll go find out."
patrick is patting his dad on the back and throwing him a cheeky wink as his eyes finally find you in the crowd. you’re walking into the kitchen and he’s now trailing off in the same direction.
you had barely entered the room, quiet and hidden away from the rest of the home, when you heard footsteps behind you.
when you turn toward the noise you’re met with a handsome young man with dark curly hair and a gorgeous smile. who was this guy and how on earth had you never noticed him in rutshire before?
"I don't believe we've met." he's extending his hand to you and you find his voice just as charming as his smile.
"no we haven't." your giggling at how upfront the kid is as you shake his hand and give him your name.
"such a lovely name." he's complimenting you, keeping your hand in his. he’s fixated on how delicate your touch is.
"and you are..." you initiate his introduction while he's busy staring at you with the sweetest puppy dog eyes.
"oh god, yeah. uh- patrick." he finally gives you his name at the end of a chuckle.
everything about him is just so endearing. normally guys around your age are repulsive and pretentious but this guy seems so genuine. his eyes are kind and his smile is so adorable and- oh my god. patrick. as in patrick o'hara. the birthday boy. declan's son.
"shit you're declan's son." your outburst has patrick’s eyes wide with amusement.
"oh, it's so nice to finally meet you, he's told me so much about you.”
you're recovering from your embarrassing outburst of realization, laughing at yourself and smiling at the young man in front of you.
you can see the resemblance now; the curly hair, the gentle eyes, the dreamy smile. it was all so declan.
“all good things i hope.” his sweet smile was now somewhat sultry.
“well of course. you’re his pride and joy you know?” your voice was playful. patrick was obsessed.
“please tell me how you ended up working for my father. i can’t imagine how someone as stunning as you is being sent on silly errands and making copies all day.”
if he weren’t so damn cute you would’ve been a little offended by patrick’s comment, but he was only trying to compliment you. his charming demeanor proved to be the motivation behind his words.
“i do a lot more than run errands and make copies.” you say to him with an eyebrow raised and a smirk on your lips.
his smile suddenly drops and you can see him beginning to regret his previous statement.
“sorry that made me sound like such a dick.” his words were rushed and you could tell he felt truly apologetic.
“it’s okay, really. i’m just flattered you called me stunning.”
you were grinning at him, hoping to reassure patrick that he didn’t need to apologize.
“you are stunning. breathtaking actually.”
he’s taking a step toward you and your body instantly freezes.
“i noticed you the minute you walked in. couldn’t take my eyes off you.” his tone is enticing- almost sensual, but his facial expression is still so warm and kind.
you’re both locked in on one another when you hear someone clear their throat in the doorway. you take a step back from patrick, a little too quickly.
declan comes waltzing into the kitchen, an empty glass in his hand.
“well if it isn’t my favorite assistant and my favorite son.” he’s smiling to himself as he strides across the room, barely paying the two of you any attention.
“sorry to interrupt.”
he doesn’t sound very apologetic as he opens the cupboard and retrieves a half empty bottle of expensive looking liquor.
“caitlin’s out there looking for you, i told her i’d hunt you down.” he’s eyeing patrick as he pours himself another glass of whiskey.
“okay uh yeah.” patrick is fumbling over his words as he looks between you and his dad.
“i’ll find you later yeah?” he’s giving you a hopeful gaze as he gently touches your forearm.
“sounds good.” you reply giving him one last smile as he turns to leave.
declan waits until his son is long gone before he speaks.
“looks like patrick’s got the hots for ya.” he’s stalking toward you with a devilish grin on his face.
“must run in the family.” he’s chuckling darkly at his own joke as he stands just inches away from you.
“very funny.” your voice is dripping with sarcasm.
your remark has declan bringing his hands to your hips, pulling you into his broad chest.
“i’m not surprised though. i think every man in this town would flirt with you if given the chance.”
with his hands still on your hips you can feel him swaying to whatever song was coming from the next room over.
you reach up, slinging your arms around his neck. the two of you dancing sweetly to the slow beat of the music.
“he’s a good kid.” your head is resting on declan and you can feel his words like a hum on his chest.
“maybe you’d be better off with him.” declan’s words are quiet as they leave his mouth.
you pull away from his chest but keep your arms in their place on his shoulders. leaning back just enough to look at him in the eyes, you give him a stern stare.
“shut up declan.”
“i’m serious. he’s nice and gentle. would probably be good for you to be with someone like that.” he was looking off in the distance as he talked, your bodies still swaying side to side.
“maybe i don’t want gentle.” the words trickle from your lips like honey.
the second he hears the purr of your voice declan’s eyes are on yours. he’s peering down at you and the look on your face is pure sugar. god he can’t get enough of you.
“maybe i want someone older, someone more mature.”
your looking up at him as you talk, playing with the curls at the nape of his neck. he can’t help the weight that lifts from his shoulders and the smile that takes over his face.
“maybe i want someone who’s not afraid to be rough with me.”
at those words declan feels something stirring in his chest– or maybe his pants.
you can feel his grip on your hips tighten as his eyes stay trained on yours. his gaze is spellbinding.
“i don’t think your son could fuck me the way i like to be fucked.”
you see declan’s eyes darken when he hears your whisper.
he lifts one of his hands from your hips in order to move your hair, bringing it all to one shoulder, leaving the other one fully exposed. he leans down and places a soft kiss right at the base of your neck, dangerously close to your collar bone.
your tilting your head in pleasure and soaking in the warmth of his lips on your skin when you feel him gently bite down in the same spot.
the stinging sensation of his teeth on your neck has you instinctively clenching your thighs together.
“i’m the only one who can fuck you the way you like to be fucked sweetheart.”
his voice is deep and rich as you feel his breath on your neck.
you’re just about to beg declan to take you into one of the many bedrooms in his house and ruin you; but he abruptly pulls away from you, detaching your bodies.
“let’s go celebrate the birthday boy shall we.”
his voice is normal, like he wasn’t about to take you on his kitchen counter two seconds ago.
“i have a feeling he might be waiting for a dance with you.” declan is smirking and holding his hand out to escort you back into the party.
you left the kitchen with one thought in your brain, declan was the only o’hara man for you.
#declan o'hara#declan o'hara x reader#declan o’hara smut#rivals fanfiction#rivals#rivals x reader#patrick o’hara
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so its been over a decade and some since i Regularly read warrior cats okay, but i occasionally take a peek at the fandom and i like watching moonkitti videos specifically sometimes. and her new video on ivypool's new book - or rather, the implications of it - makes it sound Genuinely Interesting again?
maybe its just her own interest or maybe i've just been crawling back towards WC for the last year and a bit at the pace of a particularly lethargic snail, but like. it is sincerely catching my interest in a way that, even if the shenanigans from the previous arcs were Entertaining, just didn't?
unfortunately, i haven't read anything since like. half way through the third arc. that's a LOT of catch up and I Can't Read :) so idk.
#lostwood.txt#warrior cats#rambling#it would be so cool to get back into something i enjoyed so much as a kid#but i guess the bullying that took me out of it in the first place is pretty strong#I also have mixed feelings about the violence and drama of the series? i'm getting better w that kinda thing now#violence in fiction and drama like wc is basically a soap opera and no one is actually getting hurt like i'm just a sensitive lil guy#it's complicated i guess? idk.#who knows. maybe i'll figure it out eventually.#i'm also aware i don't need to read everything to catch up realistically yknow but idk#maybe i'll swing by my local library like i did as a kid LMFAO
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As I was going to bed last night I realized I designed three costumes and there are three Frankies.. And then this is all I thought about literally all day
#Emile's Arts#Finding Frankie#LOTTA art posts on the main recently#I like Cartoon Frankie a lot I was looking at his wiki for image refs and like#The way he's animated and his expressions#*twirls hair*#Like I loooove Real Frankie for his voice acting and homoerotic tension with the protag#But something about cartoon Frankie did get to me as well#Still haven't decided WHICH uniform I'll draw if I do keep making Finding Frankie fanart#Maybe it'll depend on the vibes the contestant is giving or smth like that#Who knows#I'll figure it out eventually or maybe I won't#What will happen will happen will happen
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#well I just submitted my essay for my history class so I'm finally done with finals#I wish I felt happier or relieved or something but I don't. I feel awful. my body hurts from the incredible amount of tension/anxiety I had#trying to finish it before 11:59. I submitted it at 11:55. I have never come that close before and I hate it#the amount of anxiety I had you'd think the deadline was hunting me for sport#and what's worse is I felt all this anxiety and put all this work into it and I'm not even happy about it#I spent two days trying to figure out what he wanted us to write about because apparently he just seems to be really bad at instructions#like I thought maybe it was just me overthinking but I spent two hours talking to my mom about it and in the end even she couldn't figure i#so then I had only two days to gather notes make an outline write an essay. while burnt out and barely able to focus.#and while not knowing exactly what I was doing like is this what he wants. is it not. who knows I literally don't have time left#to figure it out I just need to write something and hope it works#but I hate being unsure it makes everything harder#especially because I really wanted to make a good grade. this was the class where I made a 78 on my midterm#which brought my class grade to a B but I'd been able to get it back to an A and I'd be able to keep it if I got like an 80ish on the final#the essay turned out okay idk if it's what he wanted but whatever at least I got the other requirements like word count and sources#but the CITATIONS...we had to use chicago which I'd never used before and let me just say. mla is the love of my life after this.#actually chicago might not be that bad if I got used to it I think my violence should be directed toward every word processor#that links footnotes. it is so STUPID that there isn't an easier way to make them different#if it hadn't been for trying to figure out footnotes on google docs I could've submitted it like ten minutes earlier#and with phenomenally less stress#I eventually had to make a choice as to what I'd give up: (1) submitting it on time (2) perfect citations or (3) word doc#which is what he wanted it submitted as#except when I tried that thank goodness I looked at the preview before I submitted it because I saw that it'd messed up the citations#I ended up submitting it as a pdf. on time. with perfect (maybe) (I didn't have time to double check) citations. but not as a word doc.#is it the end of the world? idk probably not but not meeting a professor's requirements is like. anathema.#all of that is to say that I'm going to cry and then let it go and get to bed and just. idk. I've reached that point where#I'm so tired and numb that it feels like I'll never feel better#anyway#maybe I hurt because of my meds and the side effects decided to kick in now because the grace of God held them back long enough#for me to finish#earl crow ramblings
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what if i changed my fc to ka.rol queir.oz
#she is my inspo for claire's tattoos already so you know#idk i won't lie i feel a bit stagnant in regards of my writing and there's something i need to change tho idk what#maybe i need to more plot driven things who knows! guess i'll figure out eventually#opening my tl and seeing everyone and their mom is suddenly using rebecca as fc is also making me feel some type of way#which is a me thing obviously nobody is at fault i'm just being dramatiqueTM i guess#i feel like i need to write some other character for a while gjhj#tbd.
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Hi guys! I'm so normal!!
#met a beautiful beautiful man this past weekend and i'm genuinely going crazy over it#he has such an aura and he's respectful and beautiful and tall and beautiful and he [redacted screaming cat howl]#i'm never going to see him again and it's soo disappointing cause he was so sweet (and beautiful)#like i know he could definitely hunt down my name. i know what happens when you google me. but idk if he liked me like at all#especially enough to do that#i need to move to specific place in the states. maybe then he'll teach me how to swing dance#but damnnn i really wish bro would ask my friend (who has his number) for my number. cause he's so so beautiful#idk what's going on with me? i was perfectly normal and professional around this guy until a specfic moment in time. and now#i really wish he lived in canada. i even gave him something with my last name on it (it was supposed to be an exchange but i'll forgive it)#and i gave him canadian rockets.#man i just need to wait to be normal#or i need him to get a social media and find me (obviously i figured out his first name and that he doesn't have social media)#but ughdhhshr. he was super nice. i just wish i had the confidence this weekend to genuinely speak to him about non professional things#i will be normal eventually. hopefully (he's so beautiful)#the pasta speaks#thanks i just needed a place to yap about it
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What’s this about an Everybody Loves You Now animatic??
i made an animatic for one of my favorite online games set to the song a few months ago! i think the story is easy enough to follow without having played the game so i'll link it here if you want to see a bunch of sad cowboy furries
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#my art#i'll stick it in my billy joel tag#which'll inadvertently put it in the tumblr tags but w/e#billy joel#pirate101#hi pirate101 tag sorry for posting this again on main#but you know what i think it still holds up#i plan on making more pirate101 animatics set to billy joel songs eventually once i figure out how CSP works#or maybe wizard101 or ocs#who knows#or xmen#i can really apply billy joel to everything
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i love rusty quill gaming so much. it's one of the two ttrpg podcasts i've listened to so far (the other being d&daddies), but i just know deep in my soul that very probably no other ttrpg podcast will ever mean as much to me as rqg does.
#rqg#i left rqg for like two years but now coming back its still as great as i remember it#maybe it's the fact that i went through the quarantine year/s with it#or that my listen coincided with the release of one of my favorite albums (which is partially my favorite BC of rqg)#or maybe it truly is just the characters that i love so much#figuring out i'm trans while listening to cel#looking at zoscar thinking wouldn't that be nice#looking at zolf and azu in their own ways and thinking yeah shit sucks but i will fucking keep going#the fact that it was the first actual-ish example i have of any ttrpg game after wanting really bad to get into d&d#WHICH I HAVE YET TO PLAY RAHHHHHHFDJFS#idk. whatever it is. rqg will always have a special place in my heart :)#im not thaaat close to the finale in my relisten i still have like sixty something episodes to go#and who's to say if i start another relisten right there or if i move on to something else#but i know i'll come back to it eventually even if i leave it for years again#i just love it so much :)#bluebird.txt
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i can't wait until im five years in the future and emotionally stable enough to try dating and figure out if i actually feel romantic attraction
#idk what this post is#maybe i could get a girlfriend#maybe I'll figure out that I'm indeed arospec#who knows!#five years is a wonderful land of possibilities#there's no reason in particular that i chose five years but y'know. i was bad at a lit of things two years ago that I'm better with now#im assuming that pattern will carry on to the future#see just last year i figured i was doomed to never make friends i think I'm doing much better now#hope really is a skill isn't it. im practicing it#it's hard to know if i want a relationship when I don't feel like it's possible for me#but i think eventually#ill have the skills i need to figure it out#rhyme rambles
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me: oh boy i can't wait to get home from work and uh
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me: *bluescreens*
#idk#maybe i'll try to write or something#but i also kinda want to listen to the last wish#can i focus on both? who knows#hmmh#i have a lot of stimboard requests too#not any im super hyped about#*quietly stims*#idk if anybody wants to just talk thats cool#i'll figure it out eventually
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Since I'll be taking a brief break from commissions to rest after that huge batch, I wanna try to make my own anime shirts, but like cool ones. I do have the skill to create linocut prints, but I have to figure out what anime to start with before I can even start designing! ...Yet another instance where loving so many things is a curse as well as a blessing smh
#lynx thinks#there are too many good options#whatever i decide on eventually I'll probably design something for it digitally first#and then I'll print it or trace it on tracing paper and transfer it to a block#I'll need to buy a linocut tool since i lost mine.... hm i might need ink for fabric printing specifically too#I'll also have to figure out where i can get cheap blocks#I've done linocut prints before so this is very feasible actually as my next project once i get paid#who knows! maybe I'll even do limited runs of designs if people are interested!#if i can find a cheap source for blocks I won't even have to limit myself to just black and white#ah exciting!#i need to prioritize the geralt cosplay though since the con is next month#but I'll need time for brainstorming and designing as well as resource gathering#so i think this will actually work out perfectly
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yearning to be in a relationship again fuckkkk can't do this
#i dont miss him. but i do miss those days.#enjoying eachothers presence is silence. the physical touch. knowing someone so intimately you can silently communicate#this doesn't need to just be attatched to romantic of course. platonic soulmates and all that#but i feel like all my bonds are destroyed. crumbled all the way to the source. i don't know if i can make those bonds again#so i pretend i could. i see these creators and believe that i could create those bonds with them. i become someone that'd be in their spher#but i also see the reality that. if i was in their sphere it'd take the same work i'd need to create bonds now.#and the source is rotten. the source can't create bonds. so i'm stuck to float and yearn.#stuck getting high to let my imagination run wild without the nagging. without reality setting in.#and i'm not even getting high cause i got no weed </3 and it's 2am I can't order any. and it's 20$ to order#So I'll stew here and go stockpile weed tomorrow. knowing i'm feeding into my addiction.#But maybe once I'm able to start working more and finals are over I'll be able to cut back.#Maybe When I feel I can connect with people again I'll cut back. I won't be here forever#temporary setback. that's alright. I'll figure it out eventually. Big man did after all. So can I#haha projection go hard. Sorry I try not to. That's a lie but idk.#The reality is we make jokes from some sort of reality#The reality is everyone is struggling and fucked up and cope in different ways.#And no matter how many layers of personas you put up there will always be a thread of truth.#Or maybe I'm fucking insane and projecting. Who knows. I wouldn't I don't know him.#But psychology and data extrapolation is my passion <3#God the ADHD is strong with the connection of thought process in this one. I always laugh looking at my tags#Whatever we live and vibe yahooo#I'm okay I'm just in a yapping contemplative mood lol
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🤦♀️
He was even on the list.
Possessed by a time-travelling ancestor.
I guess this explains a lot of the breadcrumbs.
Should I have put Alex Horne on there too?
Ugh I think I've even figured out what judge not lest ye be judged meant and it's worse than I thought.
#why don't i sit on the couch and i'll watch you next time#someone give that man a hug#“i beefed it! my point! i'm meant to be the smart one!”#a game of tag between two souls who love each other so much that they nearly broke the world trying to wake up in the same lifetime#maybe this time#because i think i might have two chances#not just two chances#so many chances#but how many people did i hurt to get here?#forgive me#i knew not what i did#this actually explains a lot of doctor who lore#...including the latest Christmas specials which i did watch#aaaaand the fic okay i think i may have accidentally started the omelas factory myself#my... bad does not cover it#my evil#let's all do better in the future okay#of course the kingdom of God will be on Earth#where else is there?#we've been here the whole time#a dream within a dream#do your good works in secret#where your father who knows all and sees all will eventually figure it out and apologise for letting you kids fight it out#now we all say we're sorry and the children will do what the adults say#it's not two souls#of course it's three#a pair is doable#three in the same lifetime is hard#i shall bear no child#and yet be mother to countless children i save from my own mistakes
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Rereading ayaka is in love with Hiroko senpai!!! Last time I read it I don't think it was finished/I didn't finish it but ack. Now I also want to be in love 😭😭😭
#i want to say i want to be someone like ayaka but in reality im probably more like hiroko#i used to be someone like ayaka. i was really tunnel visioned and i didn't consider much aside from the person i was interested in#but it's been years now and there's a lot more to consider and it's. hard and im even more scared now.#i think there's someone who im currently talking with who's trying to figure out if im into women or not and if im available or not#but it's that sort of thing where there's just. a lot in my shoulders and a lot to consider. i want a relationship eventually but.#there's just so much to consider right now. in the past i thought that as long as i could make my partner happy a rx is just btwn 2 of us#but when i did actually get into a serious long term relationship i realized that most people. do expect getting to have in laws.#people for the most part want to be loved proudly and not have to hide it. and i do too. but at the same time. i just. there's so much on me#i almost came out to my dad the other day while trying to console him. but maybe that news would just be the last straw for him. idk.#i just can't really afford to have my life be shaken up much more right now when i just rebuilt some stability.#especially when my parents are having a midlife crisis and both of them are leaning on me. my health worsening also stressed them out too.#i really thought I'd be braver and have less to worry about the older i got and the more independent i became but. ig not.#in my teens i told myself once i reached adulthood I'd be free to be myself and pursue happiness. in my 20s i tell myself after med school.#maybe once I'm finally out of med school and etc I'll have the opportunity to live my life. or maybe by then there will be another reason.#it's a real concern. i mean. sure I've never wanted kids I've always been ace and I've always liked women but. the societal pressure.#to other queer people the gaydar goes off easily but to the cishet audience i've mostly. been able to go unnoticed.#and when you're younger not having a bf or ppl you're interested in and being focused on your studies is a thing your parents are proud of#but as i get older. it's just been harder. i don't know how much longer i have before i have to conform or have the cat out of the bag.#i don't even get it sometimes. i really don't. the expectation of family and marriage is wanting happiness for your child right? but somehow#idk. idk. i really don't know. sometimes maintaining an image. might be more important than your child's feelings.#and i really can't be certain that between ego and saving face compared to me that. I'll come out on top. i really don't know.#idk. idk. i know there are ppl interested in dating me. but idk. i really need some time to process things through.#sometimes i ask myself how i would feel abt it and i really can't figure out how i feel at all.#it's ok to date someone u don't love ig. i mean. I've done it before. you can make yourself like someone after a while. but idk if i.#idk i just. i think im just really scared. and I'll need at least another month or so before anything is back on the table.#it's honestly just me running away from having to deal with sorting out thoughts and feelings 👍👍👍 which i eventually will have to face ig#but if i do fall in love ik i have it in me to sort those things out quickly i think. if im not too scared to let myself fall.#ig i just have to get more used to ppl being interested in me again ack 😭 it's easy to ignore it when dating someone but. now.#and it was fine in the summer bc i wasn't really around too many ppl my age. but. ugh. unfortunately. i do have. a face and a personality.#delete later
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PLEASE SHOW US AUTHOR MABEL FROM LEVITY RISES PLEASE
Okay!
My inbox is flooded with messages like these, fun fact- when I started the designs I actually didn't know what to do with her- BUT NOW IK (at least some) OF WHAT I WANNA DO WITH HER.
Still trying to figure out what I wanna do with the design and lore of the bill replacement though- Still a heavy wip!
MABEL ⇆ STANFORD
Mabel takes the role of Stanford in this au! Fun loving and enthusiastic since birth, Mabel was once a budding young photographer who eventually found her way as a newspaper journalist for Levity Rises. She quickly began to notice some of the strange things happening in the town, taking pictures and objects to create her own scrapbooks. She didn't think much of it at the time, but she was certain her brother would've liked the scrapbooks. Maybe if she'd done something earlier, she wouldn't have accidentally ended up in another dimension for 30 years- oh well- at least she knows how to kick ass across 7 different dimensions. Not sure how the identity theft is gonna work yet-
OK REFRESHER ON THE OLD CAST and added Grauntie Mabel too! One of my friends suggested to call Ford 'Sixer' the same way Dipper is named, so that's what's gonna happen going forward just cause it's a cool lil detail (plus in this au Six hides his hands in a similar way to Dipper hiding his birthmark so I think it works). Notes as per usual :]
Also yeah, I put my ussy into that logo, you're gonna see it a bit
I'll still keep thinking of stuff for this au! I have a few screenshot edits planned :D
#gravity falls#gravity falls au#levity rises#roleswap#role swap au#swap au#alternate universe#dipper pines#mabel pines#stanley pines#stanford pines#lazy susan#manly dan#character design#relativity falls#gravity rises#character art#doodles#disney#gravity falls fanart#alex hirsch#concept art#the book of bill
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