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skhv67 Ā· 2 days ago
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this is my first time requesting but could you do post-surgery hyun ju with scissoring and she talks us through it omg🤭 + gentle/romantic aftercare
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cw: smut, scissoring, implied inexperienced reader, reader tries to top and fails, top hyun-ju, post op hyun-ju, a tiny smidge of angst and fluff by the end. MDNI
wc: 1,4k
a/n: i have like 102873 wips to finish but I just had to do this one 😭
Hyun-ju loved how easy it was to make you scream and cry under her touch. How imprecise you were in comparison with her. The way you moved imprecisely, out of desperation for release. How you squirmed around her experienced fingers, which always moved so carefully, taking their time to explore you and hitting where you needed her the most with utmost exactitude.
Your adorable disposition to match her expertise is what had brought you to this moment. You between her legs, attempting to rub your cunt against hers.
"Are you gonna make me feel good, baby?" her tone was sweet, encouraging you to start moving.
Before you can respond, she gently repositions you, guiding your already slick pussy against hers. A hiss left your lips as you started moving in a slow pace. Not missing her clit was proving to be harder than you thought, even with her hands keeping you in the right position.
Your muscles didn't take too long to feel tired and sore only five minutes in, and you were struggling to get a satisfying rhythm. Frustration was taking over your movements, which started to become more rushed and messier. The feeling of her cunt on yours and the expecting look in her kind eyes clouded any shred of control you had over your craving body.
"You feel so good", she moaned, eyes now fixed on how your slick coated her folds.
Her pretty sounds hurried the movement of your hips, mind starting to feel dizzy and pleasure taking over the little composure you had left.
At that point you were too fucked out to notice your rushed strokes had strayed away from her cunt and you were just mindlessly rubbing yourself against her thigh, but she was enjoying too much seeing how hungrily you grinded against her, despite you missing her aching core constantly.
"Feels good?" she gripped your hips tightly as you continued to ride her.
You could barely hear her through the deafening sound of your heartbeat. Her hands squished your hips warningly, and you manage to mutter an incoherent string of yeses, head nodding along with your words.
Hyun-ju's breath started to hitch. Catching glimpses of your wet sex between your movements had her itching to push you down and lick your mixed juices from your cunt, but she decided to let you have your moment.
As desire kept building up in her stomach, she was starting to struggle not to touch herself while seeing you so lost in your pleasure, but she didn't want to correct you, too scared of interrupting your dazzling state. At least until you came, which didnt seem too far away anyway.
She noticed your thighs starting to shake, body rocking aimlessly against hers. Her hands helped you to keep your rhythm, guiding you to reach your climax.
"Doing so well for me, pretty", her sweet praise made your sensitive clit throb with need. "Keep going."
A harsh orgasm washed over you and whatever words Hyun-ju said next don't reach your ears. Your legs clenched around her leg, breath still ragged, and eyes closed in bliss. She stared at you tenderly, fingers caressing the soft skin of your hips.
Delicate hands touch your cheek as you fight to keep rubbing against her through your orgasm, to no avail, and soon enough she's throwing you on your back without a warning.
It takes you a few seconds to ground yourself, mind still hazy from your climax. You see her sitting in front of your spread legs.
"It's easier if we're both laying down" she explains, positioning her sex in front of yours.
You nod shyly, a bit embarrassed by her correction.
"Y'good?" she asked, eyes looking into yours for permission to keep going.
You fight a smile creeping up your lips, finding her hesitation endearing. She then swiftly pulls her body into yours, connecting you both again.
A shaky breath escaped her lips, the feeling of your warmth wetting her cunt was intoxicating. She wished she could drop to her knees and slip her fingers into your dripping pussy. It looked so swollen and inviting, but you had begged her for this so nicely that she couldn't just give into her urges.
You quickly noticed she was right, now you could feel her better, closer. Her body fit ridiculously well against yours. The sensation of her slick folds rubbing against your clit was electrifying and the pace she set had your legs shaking.
She looks down where youre connected and her hands clenched the sheets at the sinful sight of your slick-wrenched thighs.
She's forced to turn her gaze away when she felt her high approaching. Her back arching as she kept rocking her hips against yours. The urgency of her movements threw you over the edge again before she could even reach her first orgasm.
Hyun-ju chuckled when she felt your core throbbing, but you were too far gone to feel embarrassed anymore.
"Gimme a hand, baby?" her ragged breath sent shivers down your spine.
You tried to move against her, but your body was too sore and tired to cooperate. Determined to fulfill her request you plopped down in front of her glistening pussy and started devouring it just how she had taught you.
"Look at me" your hazy eyes locked with hers at her command.
You'd swear you could cum at the mere sight of her chest going up and down in harbored breaths and her dark hair sticking to her pretty face ever so alluringly.
Lust-filled eyes looked into yours as you lapped on her cunt greedily, tasting every single drop of cum dripping from her warm hole. The fact that you could taste your own juices made you roll your eyes in ecstasy, rolling your tongue on her clit with more urgency than before. Your digits teased her entrance as your wet lips sucked on her swollen bud, finally making her reach her high.
Hyun-ju thrusted her cunt against your eager tongue as she rode off her climax and you didn't stop sucking on her soft skin until she gently pushed you away.
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She laughed softly at your exhausted expression, "it's a hard position, not my favorite pick"
"J's wanted to try" your voice sounds muffled against her sweaty skin.
Placing your head gently on the pillow and unwrapping herself from your grasp, she left to the bathroom for what felt like hours before she came back with a wet towel and a glass of water. Trying to disturb you as little as possible, she cleaned you carefully enough to not overstimulate your sore nub, fingers tracing and massaging over the marks she left behind on you today.
"Your turn, lay down"
As you're about to get up to get a towel, you hear her snort behind you. Big eyes looking at you with amusement, but she quickly gave you an apologetic smile, "I already cleaned myself"
With a loud whine you drop yourself back down with her. You close your eyes as a slight pout made its way into your face, unable to hide your disappointment. It wasn't new for your girlfriend to put your comfort over hers, and while it melted your heart feeling so taken care of, her excessive selflessness frustrated you.
You feel her plush lips on your forehead, kissing your frown off your face, and you suppress the giggle threatening to escape your lips when the soft hair of her bangs tickled your skin. You hear her mumble a little 'sorry' as she kissed your pouty lips.
A weak sigh slips out of your mouth, too tired to be mad at her right now.
"I just wanna take care of you too"
Your heart nearly jumped out of your chest when you felt a soft peck on your eyelid.
You open your eyes, Hyun-ju still leaving a trail of soft kisses throughout your face, "I know, I'm sorry"
She looked genuinely sorry. You knew she was having a hard time unlearning these habits, still feeling guilty and vulnerable whenever she was selfish in the slightest.
"I don’t understand how you never get tired after... Y'know" you changed the subject, choosing not to ruin the moment for her.
She looked away with a smug, yet shy grin on her face. Her face looked so angelic before you. Her skin was glistening and her make-up had been wiped off, leaving her swollen pink lips and big shiny eyes bare before you.
"Work on your stamina", she giggled.
Rolling your eyes, you press a quick peck on her nose before forcing her to rest her head against your chest, still feeling her giggles reverberating through your body.
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jakesimfromstatefarm Ā· 2 days ago
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I'm really sorry but while reading your work ^ I noticed some lines read exactly like ai... or more specifically, the way chatgpt writes fanfiction when u ask it to .
please op, we want to read YOUR writing.. your thoughts, your worldbuiling.
please don't use ai for something like fanfics :( it's okay if you think your work isn't the best, any reader would still want that imperfect work rather than to read a fic and realise it was ai
hi anon! no need to apologize, it’s a valid concern and i completely understand where you're coming from.
i didnt want to defend myself because i know myself and that i don’t use ai in my writing — however it does upset me if people think i use ai of any sort in my writing :( esp because i've been on enhablr for so so long and started writing here since 2020...way before ai became more prevalent in society and i'd like to think my writing style is more or less the same ever since i started five years ago...
& it also upsets me because i share the same thoughts & values as you and do think fanfic should be something fun, genuine, and from the author's true words & perspective.
i'm not sure how chatgpt writes fanfiction when you ask it to in the first place, so i don't know how it compares — but clearly if even one person thinks ai writes my works, it means my writing doesn't seem 'real' enough or idk..true to emotions? so i am sorry as a writer because then clearly i still have lots to work on :') which is actually! a recent insecurity of mine that i've been struggling with with my writing as of recent lol and something i want to work on 慜慜
again, im not going to defend my writing and my writing process or try to prove anything because i simply don't use ai and never have. and i myself know that and am confident in myself — however there's still much room for growth clearly and hope i can continue to work on that as i grow as a writer :)
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pocketjesters Ā· 6 months ago
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Happy New Year! Crawling out of my hole to post some fan art,,, I watched the fishing anime and I really liked it,,,,
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sluckythewizard Ā· 1 year ago
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[PUT INTO PLACE, TIED DOWN AND ARRANGED, AND IS NEVER THE SAME, AGAIN.]<-listen to my favorite songs. VAMPIRES ARE WONDERFUL ARENT THEY. THE FLESH IS SO MUCH MORE DURABLE. SO MUCH STRETCHIER THAN HUMANS. THE STRESS DOESNT KILL A VAMPIRE THE SAME WAY IT DOES A HUMAN. YOU CAN TAKE THEM APART THREAD BY THREAD AND LEAVE THEM WIDE AWAKE WITHOUT WORRY OF THE BRAINMATTER SPOILING UNDER VINEGARY AGONY.
#cw gore#WEEEE WHIPPING OUT ALL MY BELOVED PIXEL HORROR GAME SOUNDTRACKS FOR THIS ONE#STILL A WIP#SORTA. FORKSFORKSFORKS INSPIRED ME TO START WORKIN AT IT AGAIN. AND NOW IT LIVES. IT LIIIVEESS!!!#MOSLT.Y ATLEAST. I MIGHT MESS W IT MORE LATER. WE SHALL SEE. ANYWAY GABRIEL MONTEZ HUH. WOW POOR GUY#THERES A FASCINATING FEELING THAT COMES WITH BEING ON A OPERATING TABLE.AND BEING IN IMMENSE PAIN#ONE OF MY FONDEST MEMORIES IS LAYING ON A DENTIST CHAIR. SHAKING AND INVOLUNTARILY CRYING AFTER MANY MANY#NEEDLES TO MY THE MOUTH. I METABOLIZE THE NUMBING STUFF QUICKLY APPARENTLY. THEY NEEDED ALOT OF NUMBING SHOTS#BUT I WASNT AFRAID OR DISTRESSED. THE DENTIST WAS VERYVERY NICE AND ALSO UH. PRETTY. BUT THATS BESIDE THE POINT#THE POINT IS. THAT IT WAS FASCINATING TO REALIZE MY PHYSICAL RESPONSE TO PAIN UNDER A CONTROLLED ENVIRONMENT#I DIDNT KNOW HOW EASY IT WAS TO SHAKE AND TO CRY PRYVIOUS TO THAT EXPERIENCE.MY DENTAL ADVENTURES CONTINUE#THEY CONTINUE TO HELP ME UNDERSTAND WHAT ITS LIKE FOR PAIN TO BOIL AWAY THE TIME. TO DISTORT THE PASSING HOURS AND CONSUME EVERY THOUGHT#DO YOU REMEMBER PAIN? THE MOST SEVERE PAIN IN YOUR LIFE? NOW WILL YOU IMAGINE RED LIGHTS? RED LIGHTS AND SHIFTING FIGURES#NOW WILL YOU IMAGINE PAIN UNRELENTING.PAIN WORLD SHATTERING.PAIN IMMORTAL.CAN YOU IMAGINE BEING PULLED APART#THE HUMAN MIND CAN ONLY WITHSTAND SO MUCH PAIN BEFORE IT SHUTS DOWN AND HIDES.IT NEEDS TO PROTECT ITSELF AFTERALL. PAIN CAN ALTER#PAIN SHIFTS THE CHEMISTY OF THE MIND OF THE FLESH OF THE SOUL. FOR HUMANS ATLEAST. BUT YOU ARE NO LONGER HUMAN#YOU CHOSE OTHERWISE DIDNT YOU BOY.BECAUSE YOU WANTED MORE.STATUS.POWER.APPROVAL.SECURITY.SAFET.Y.#OHHH YOU CAN WITHSTAND THE PAIN FOR THAT. FOR ALL THAT. YOU WERENT TOLD THERE WOULD BE PAIN BUT YOU KNOW WHAT YOU WERE PROMISED.#ITS ALL WORTH IT IN THE END. NOW LETS JUST HOPE SOME BLONDE TWERP DOESNT PROVE TO BE STRONGER THAN THE STRONGEST PEOPLE IN YOUR LIFE#LETS HOPE NO ONE FUCKS THIS UP. LETS HOPE NO ONE FUCKS THIS UP. I LOST MY TRAIN O THOUGHT#anyway dawww poorr gabeee that shit probably huuurrrrtttss but so much time has passed that your body got tired of screaming and squirming#why havnt you passed out yet? maybe you might as well have at this point. like sleeping with your eyes open and your nerves awake#OH HEY FUNFACT ABT THE ART. I FOUGHT W IT ALOT. TOOK A LONG WHILE FOR ME TO BE REMOTELY HAPPY W THIS.#i was thinking abt pixel horror video games when i made it.just as i do with all great things ofc ofc#i love you pixel horror game i love yooouuuuu.i struggled so much w the colors for so LONNGG UHGHGHGH but im finally happy...im finally fre
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themyscirah Ā· 1 year ago
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Vanessa didn't even die and yet her story is still sadder and more fucked up than jtodd's. He wishes he was on her level
#may be a controversial one but i dont care this is my house#dont think there are enough of you to get hate over this anything#anyways no she didnt die. she wasnt killed by voter poll. but like the stuff that fucked her up was so much more real than a psycho clown#like im sorry but what is ā€œyou get beat up and dieā€ to essentially getting taken and having the bad guys confirm to you that everything you#thought about yourself in middle school was true and everyone thinks youre ugly and worthless and not special and no one loves you. and then#ofc the medical torture. like im sorry but one of these things IS worse than the other imo#especially as the teen girl in the wonder woman comic like jesus christ#and while of COURSE the stuff about diana not loving her and all that is NOT true its something we see her struggle with as insecurity for#years beforehand. and then dc goes and brings her back into continuity in the past few years only to basically say ā€œyeah wonder woman DIDNT#care about her! what a loser to think so and get all worked up about it! abt a vers of her who only has the name in common#like she wasnt dianas baby freaking sister with 100+ appearances#blah#vanessa kapatelis#anti jason todd#she also literally did the red hood arc before he did#with the whole attacking the successor and everything#yet another woman for him to steal from lmao#(this is mostly a joke. i dont think anyone making anything about jtodd canon or otherwise even knows what a wonder woman comic is but the#comparisons are still there.)
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devotedlystrangewizard Ā· 1 year ago
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the school arc to me is so good because it drags ciel out of his position as a powerful figure and literally places him in the shoes of the person he could have been. the circus arc ALSO drags him out of his position as big bad queens watch dog/head of the phantomhive estate but the school arc feels like a mockery of a future that never was. this is what he could have been had his parents not died. and even then its NOT because he will never be that kid.
he never was.
#ramblings#incoherent beyond belief its 4 am#and im trying to avoid manga spoilers#might add a reblog with more coherent thoughts when i wake up but im off my meds so i cant promise anything#actually correction im being vague w the manga spoilers#manga readers know whats up#idk if there are any anime only ppl who havent been spoiled on The Plottwist Ever yet#but i figured there will be new fans and though im not tagging this it might still get seen so#cant WAIT to see our boy absolutely miserable in animation form should they recreate that arc LMAOOO#which ofc is after the germany arc so thats still a long time away#but STILL. itd be fun i need to see this young teenager lose his mind in color with sound#him relying on sebastian to do all his fag duties (sorry. dredge) so he can work his way up the social ladder#trying to gain power while simultaneously proving that he cant do anything but rely on others#hes always needed help in basically every way and he hasnt CHANGED he just got a demon to do it for him#he learns to lie and charm and cheat and all the while hes a fucking CHILD WHO STILL STRUGGLES WITH NORMAL THINGS#ciel is my little baby and i love him deeply no matter how much of a little bitch he can be#his helplessness isnt just 'oh he was raised in british high society' its also that he never got the chance to learn anything#which to elaborate on that id also have to go into manga territory. iykyk#like absolutely at this point he just refuses to learn how to do things he has a pet demon to do it for him#but.#hi the phantomhives backstory is killing me again its so late#both atlantic and the school arc are just setup for the Big Arc but theyre very good in their own right i SWEAR#also when i rewatched the circus arc a while back and i realised how some scenes were shot#the heavy foreshadowing that i didnt realise. yk. 7 years ago or however long its been since i first watched it#CRAZY#if you are new. to kuroshitsuji. and you havent read the manga. dear god. read the manga#ALSO GRELLE IN THAT ARC IS SO BEAUTIFUL & OTHELLO IS TRANSMASCULINE. OKAY GOODBYE
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abimee Ā· 1 year ago
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hey I just wanted to say that b&g is one of my favorite pieces of undertale art in general. I'm muslim and the way you depict toriel reminds me of my own mother and other older muslim women that I meet a lot. It's very comforting. I don't see a lot of depictions of middleaged muslim women with dignity and respect that often. Of course, I love everything about your au and how you write all the characters, but toriel specifically really hits home for me
aww im really happy to hear that anon thank you :,,---( i remember Toriel originally wasnt supposed to be that big in my B&G world but with other characters getting their own time to shine (Kris and Susie about being teenagers trying to handle their struggles on their own, Undyne in being in her 20s but stuck in the past, etc) Toriel started developing in my mind, and her story is sort of an amalgam of all sorts of mothers and women ive met through babysitting and my own mother (though my mom isnt muslim as im a convert, so its all in just personality) so hearing someone else sees a little of their own mother in her warms me heart :,---] ty again
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lesbonoi Ā· 1 year ago
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four count em FOUR guys fall to their deaths in front of sherlock. two are suicides. the first three happen in ch one and then theres rochester at the end of the awakened. what does it all mean.
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elftwink Ā· 2 years ago
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oh my fucking god. was mucking around in the computer settings and i changed my default font size to make it larger just for the hell of it and. it is so much easier to read now. like SO much easier. do people know about this? can we tell everyone that you can make the computer font larger and it will be easier to read? can we throw a party
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genekies Ā· 2 years ago
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screaming in the club
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time for another vent in tags
#so i was joking and i thought it came through but im also dumb and autistic and my jokes dont always cross. sO#i was joking about one of my roomates not seeing Nightmare Before Christmas before bc i was showing 2 of them my picture vinyl of it and whe#n one of them said they never saw it i said ā€œbut you were a loser on tumblr in the 2010s wdymā€ and their fiance was just rude to me and i th#ought it was clearly a joke but ig not and they lowley attacked me for it? im just?? i tried to clarify that i was joking and they know im a#utistic. hell the one i was joking to is also autistic but idk so now i feel like utter shit especially after all i did today thst juet drai#ned me. ive been trying to fix our 2nd shower. i had a meeting. i had an extremely hard therapy session. and i showered today. its been hell#like i am trying to get thru relapsing on SH and my ED and ofc they dont know but that shit made it worse and i dont want to say anything bc#then ill feel like im guilt tripping? idk but im also super nervous about a HRT appmt i have coming up and i cant afford it and we have no#food in the house i can eat rn and no one has gone shopping. i cant go shopping either bc i cant drive/dont have a car. and its making it#harder to help get back on track with eating when theres nothing for me to eat? so everything is fucking amazing right now.#the only meals i could POSSIBLY have and all claimed by the one roommate i was joking with. it all takes up half our freezer too so thats#fucking awesome. all this food for one person and none that i can eat or the other vegan in the house can eat. i have been hungry for DAYS.#all there has been for me to eat is cup ramen and grilled cheese. AND SOMEONE WHO WASNT FUCKING VEGAN ATE ALL THE VEGAN CHEESE IM GENUINELY#SO PISSED OFF? like dude yall have your own cheese wtf#the thing is its already really hard for me to tell when i am actually hungry bc of years of ignoring it so when i actually feel it and ther#es nothing it really gets to me. im so tired and idek where my EBT card is to get myself something. its all just so much.#i just want to lay in my bed and sleep for days. but i cant. i have too much shit to do. like even just tomorrow i have to clean the#bathroom. mop the kitchen. do dishes. shovel snow. and just generally take.care of shit because since we have 2 roomates MIA right now and#no one else wanted to do shit i had to step up and i am STRUGGLING. i have been for a while. the thing is everyone that didnt sign up for sh#it didnt have much going on besides probable seasonal depression#i relapsed. have debilitating mental health. i can barely get out of bed before 4 pm. and i have to take care of myself and my cat.#im so close to snapping on them at this point#i need the one roommate i actually like to come back or i swear i will lose my shit. hes only been gone for 6 days but HOLY SHIT#everything has gone to shit#vent over ig im going to sleep soon. still hungry if i cant find something.
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meatriarchived Ā· 2 years ago
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mm. so with that across the way from nancy's house being family house,
dire maria vc: so you mean to tell me my friends were quite literally stepping stones away from where i was being kept and left huh-
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arionaleilani Ā· 2 years ago
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how tf did me facetiming someone i matched with on tinder turn into them giving me unsolicited advice about giving people your full attention after i already let them know that i recently got diagnosed as adhd and it’s hard for me to focus on just one thing/person and then them telling me that ā€œbased on my behaviorā€ they think i’m autistic like ?? didn’t ask, we literally started messaging each other like a day ago, even if i am autistic (which wouldn’t be a bad thing if i am) when has it ever been socially acceptable to tell someone you JUST MET that you think they’ve got some kind of mental disorder/illness/disability/etc.
my friends have mentioned that i might be autistic and that’s fine bc i’ve spent a lot of time with them and they actually know me and i take their perspective of me very seriously because they’re the people who see me 100% unfiltered and have known me whenever i’ve been completely unmedicated. i trust their word.
this person from tinder, however, i have sent like maybe 20-30 messages to where we talked about nanowrimo and i was like omg it’d be so cool to meet someone who also writes, whether it’s as friends or as more, i would love that—only for our facetime call to be less than 20 minutes long and for them to try and diagnose me as autistic just because i, after ALREADY TELLING THEM that i have adhd and after them asking about meds and me telling them that i haven’t taken my adhd meds today because i didn’t have work and also i’ve taken multiple naps today which has made my head even more foggy and made it even harder than usual to focus, found it difficult to focus.
like. i wasn’t unresponsive. i wasn’t ignoring them. i was listening and i was responding, i just also was looking between my phone and my laptop screen.
which okay i understand that maybe i’m just frustrated because of the ā€œbased on your behaviorā€ comment because an 18 minute facetime call does not give someone enough interaction time to try and fucking diagnose me as anything, and maybe this is more of a we just didn’t vibe and that’s fine, i don’t think they’re like a bad person or anything and if nothing else i’m glad the mismatched vibes were felt before deciding to meet up or anything, but also.
eighteen minutes. literally eighteen minutes and they fucking ā€œbased on your behavior i think you’re autisticā€ and ā€œhere’s some advice, when meeting new people you should give them your full attentionā€
FUCK that.
#idk maybe they’re also autistic and thought it was supposed to be helpful? and again i dont think they’re a bad person#and esp if they are some kind of neurodivergent they might not have realized how that comment could come across#so i’m trying not to take it too personally bc 1. i dont rlly know them 2. they dont rlly know me and 3. it has no heavy impact on my life#but also like idk it just was weird and even if they didnt intend to comment to come across like that#i can still be uncomfortable and upset about it#anyways moving on this is why i barely ever open tinder in the first place lmaooo#aricomplains#also like they probably arent all that wrong to be fair#i know it can come across as rude to not put ur full focus on someone esp someone you’ve just met and that is something i want to work on#it just felt weird that i literally explained i have adhd and its hard to focus and i promised them its nothing personal if i struggle#to focus on them while talking and like AFTER i said that they tried to give me that ā€˜advice’ like i hadnt already addressed it#idk i understand how my actions might have come across as rude or something but if someone told me they had adhd and struggled to focus#i would immediately know not to take it personally if they’re like fidgeting or on their phone while i talk or smth#which i also get is not something everyone has to do too like no one is required to react the same and#blah i’m overthinking this i need to stop#basically: i understand how my part in the ft call might have come across and i addressed it and tried to focus as much as i could#and if they took my lack of focus as rude i understand why and i also understand my ability to focus on people’s something i need to work on#but also the way they approached it rubbed me wrong and those comments made me uncomfortable and upset#but again i started talking to them yesterday and have no obligation to talk to them again so#take this as a lesson and a reminder of why i need to keep working on my ability to focus on people better when talking to them#and also take this as a reminder as to the kind of people i want to spend time with and thats not people who give passive aggressive advice#or try to diagnose someone they JUST met#and then take those lessons and reminders with me as i move on#ok im done now im gonna unmatch w them on tinder and also maybe just delete tinder entirely bc i barely use it anyway and would rather#try to meet people in more authentic ways#honestly my hope is that now that i’m spending like 3 days a week at the library in between shifts#i might meet another library-going sapphic and that would be VERY lovely 🄰
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ko-eko-ev-go-ms Ā· 1 year ago
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Smth I think about sometimes is how like, I do so much stuff to overcompensate my struggles with various things, but generally I don’t acknowledge that I’m doing outside things to overcompensate or if I do I don’t get into specifics.
And then because of that like even if I tell people I’m struggling with x thing they just won’t believe me sometimes coz they didn’t see/listen to me doing work on my own time.
Even if I’m already underperforming they won’t understand how much effort it was taking JUST TO UNDERPERFORM.
But then if I make any progress or aren’t the literal worst it’s all swept under the rug as if it’s easy for me and I just wasn’t working hard enough the whole time or something?
#thoughts#oni talks#oni vents#It weirds me out how much people will just refuse to take your word for things when it comes to having a hard time sometimes?#especially if they are someone you haven’t seen in a while like why do y’all automatically assume I’m not being serious?#I think the main times it’s frustrating is if it’s something I’ve been struggling with for a while and I have been trying to get help for it#but bc that help hasn’t been received I have been trying to deal with *insert thing* on my own (and failing) hence the asking for help#but ppl will just?? act like I never asked for help even when I do? or act as if I seemed like I didn’t need help even when I complain?#forever thinking about this one comment from a certain family member where she said ā€œyou didn’t seem like you needed/were asking for help#meanwhile me growing up struggling constantly & while I tried not to ask for help usually as a kid for obvious reasons#there were 10000% times where I would ask for help & be given absolutely nothing or I’d try to do something to help myself & be shamed#but I still never understood the concept of ā€œyou didn’t seem like you needed helpā€ coz like?? I was obviously struggling?? even when I didnt#ask for help I was never doing particularly well? like I was actively failing out of things repeatedly but somehow I seemed fine???#I also hate how much of my effort is internal or unobservable so even I’m trying really hard it’ll look like I’m not doing anything#but idk it just frustrates me sometimes coz I’ll be struggling or complaining & ppl will be like oh it’s easy you’re fine like??#but then if I don’t ask for help and fail I get in trouble but if I do ask for help I also get in trouble it’s so irritating#granted stuff is generally a lot better now (though I still need to do more)#but idk there’s just a couple areas of knowledge where I get genuinely irritated if I’m not listened to#often it’s like that meme of I know more than you like the Ron Swanson one#but other times it’s like… did you even listen at all??#even when I’m trying to relax it’s often calculated (which tends to make it harder lol)#in terms of overcompensating it’s like sometimes it’s rough bc I know if I DO manage a decent job it’ll be even higher expectations#idk sometimes it’s frustrating when people just assume I’m not trying when I am? i definitely could try harder but also willpower is limited#& I don’t wanna burn myself out coz then I’m gonna get further behind#it’s a wonder how much ppl take for granted their perceptions of you when they aren’t even paying close attention to you#or like?? yall could just ask me?? it’s wild like i feel like i gotta pre emptively explain myself sometimes
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byshens Ā· 4 months ago
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pretty when you cry ── sim jake x fem!reader mdni
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warnings unprotected sex (dont!), breeding, riding, use of names ( pretty boy, puppy, darling, good boy ), crying, soft dom! reader, sub! jake, overstimulation, est. relationship. lmk if i missed any!
note i love puppy jake <3. fill out this form to be tagged in future enhypen works if you want! ignore any typos pls .. šŸ’Æ
requests are open! word count 831
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jake was pretty.
everyone who laid eyes on him knew that he was pretty. how his fluffy hair would swoop down over his face, covering his beautiful eyes. how his voice was smooth and could melt your heart.
but to you, he was the prettiest when he was under you. the way he would beg for you, moan for you, whimper for you.
cry for you.
it was a long day and you needed to distract yourself, and what better way to do that than get your boyfriend to help you out?
he was now spread on your shared bed while you were on top of him, his cock deep inside your wet cunt.
ā€œfuck, darling. you fill me up so well,ā€ you softly moaned, your hips slowly grinding on his lap.
jake was a mess already, his hands gripping your hips tightly as he struggled to keep himself still, wanting to be good for you.
noises of pleasure escaped his lips every few seconds, his eyes fluttering up to watch you.
you quickened your pace without warning.
watching how his lips parted with a moan, his eyes moving down to watch how his cock slides in and out of you, the sounds of your wetness filling his mind.
ā€œdoing so well for me, such a good boy.ā€ you breathed, your hands going to rest on jake’s chest before you began bouncing on him, his cock getting deeper into you.
ā€œoh godā€”ā€œ jake whimpered, his nails digging into your skin as he slightly moved his hips upwards into you.
ā€œpuppy.ā€ you warned, your tone strict but laced with love. jake whined loud, a rope of ā€œsorryā€s leaving his mouth as he laid still once again.
ā€œlet me please you, can i?ā€ jake begged.
he loved pleasuring you, he loved making you feel so good your mind went blank, he loved when he can visibly see how well he does.
you thought for a moment before nodding, and within seconds jake was flipping you both over, his cock sipping out in the process.
he whined at the loss of connection before he spread your legs in front of him, positioning himself right back to where he belongs. he pushed himself inside and let out a cry, instantly moving quick.
his thrusts were sloppy, but good. you loved how desperate he gets when he’s with you, how much it shows, the pleasure he gets from just being close to you.
ā€œf-fuck, just like that, puppy.ā€ you moaned.
jake whimpered as his hands went to the sheets beside your head and gripped them, his thrusts now rough, long and deep.
he pulled out almost all the way before slamming back in, a strangled cry leaving his mouth again.
jake always gets drunk on you, drunk on your pussy, drunk on your skin, he just loves you so much.
ā€œmore, do it more.ā€ you moaned, watching as jake took your words in, he continued his rhythm, but it was getting too much for him, you could see.
ā€œim close, im so close, please,ā€ he begs, his hips snapping quickly into your cunt, begging to be able to release, to fill you up.
ā€œcum for me, pretty boy.ā€ you pulled him down for a kiss, latching your lips onto his roughly as he whined against them, his hips stuttering before you felt him cum, his hips not stopping.
jake was too far gone in the pleasure now, he needed more. he needed to please you more.
he didnt stop, he pulled away from the kiss and watched as you came with him, how your body was twitching from the release, but he couldn’t stop.
ā€œoh my god.ā€ he whined, his hands moving back to your hips as he positioned himself closer, his hips fucking into you quickly, as quick as he could.
you saw stars, his tip hitting all the spots he needs to and when you looked down, you swore you could see a bulge in your stomach, the outline of his dick.
you were released from your thoughts as you heard a sob, looking up to see jake crying.
you giggled. he was feeling too good, he started to cry.
the wet sounds of his cock fucking into you drove him crazy, he was on a high.
ā€œd-darling, you okay?ā€ you moaned loud, you loved when he cried, how desperately he tries to please you.
ā€œā€˜s so good,ā€ he cried, already feeling like he needs to release again. ā€œclose,ā€ he moaned.
ā€œcum again for me,ā€ you breathed out heavily, your legs twitching from the overstimulation.
jake nodded quickly and gave a few more thrusts before he was filling you again, his hips staying deep inside you as he fell onto your chest, his hips twitching.
ā€œgood boy..ā€ you moaned, cumming along with him. you watched him lie there as he was out of breath.
ā€œyou did so good, always so pretty when you cry.ā€ you praised, wiping the tears from his cheeks, he blushed.
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hima-matta04 Ā· 7 months ago
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~~~~Their thoughts on quickies~~~~
Warnings: talk of pregnancy, jealousy, public sex, forcefulness (but not r@pe), slight cock warming, spit as lube, choking, glory hole, slight oral, cum eating, praise, masturbation, (huge trigger warning on scarletella’s bc of manipulation and murder)
Characters included: Mr. Crawling, Mr. Silvair, Mr. Chopped (with body šŸ˜€), Mr. Stitch, Mr. Gap, Mr. Scarletella, and Mr. Machete.
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Mr. Crawling
He always likes to be very caring and sensual with you when the both of you ā€˜get down to business’. However, the day that he almost lost you to Mr. Stitch, he couldnt help but want to be as close as possible to you.Ā 
He had his cock tucked deep within your walls, moaning softly as he streched you around him. The entire time he muttered and wispered sweet things in your ear like ā€œlove youā€ and ā€œnot losing you everā€. That night he wished to get you pregnant…
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Mr. Stitch
Oh he loves to have fun with you. Your body, that is. If hes in the mood for it he’ll take you right where you stand. Even if youre out in the open, he doesnt care. He’s nice enough to at least spit on his fingers to make you wet.
He’ll shove his entire length into you all at once. He doesnt even need time to adjust, and apparently he doesnt think you do either. He pounds you at whatever pace or speed he wants. As he chases his high, he’ll wrap a calloused hand around your throat, chuckling when you struggle to breath as he cum hard inside of you.
Mr. Stitch will then leave, not caring to even try to make you cum. Not even an ounce of aftercare from him other than a pat on the head. He’ll leave you there alone, dripping with his seed.
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Mr. Gap
He’s a huge tease. One day he’s pestering about giving him a peice of you, but when you ask what he wants he simply replies ā€œyour bodyā€, without warning, he’ll pull you into the hole in the wall where he is. He wastes no time climbing on top of you, kissing down your neck as his hands hastily grap at your breasts and hips.
When he finds your panties they end up soaked on the ground as he passionately fucks you while rubbing your clit and praising your body and how good you feel. Other times, you find him grabbing onto your thighs and pulling you to the gaps. His crusty hands hold your thighs tightly in place as he fucks you from inside the wall while you have to force yourself to look normal as people walk by. Lets just say his little act of neediness didnt go unpunished later that day.
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Mr. Silvair
Mr silver only likes quickies when the two of you are completely alone. He sees it as a quick brain break from whatever hes focused on and sometimes he likes to sink himself into you after hours of studying. He especially likes it when you walk in his office unannounced and perch yourself on his desk in front of him. He’ll stop whatever he’s doing just to passionately fill you up with cock.
As he pumps inside of you he likes to caress your sides and your shoulders and tell you how much he needed this. Once you finally cum on his throbbing cock, he’ll speed up to his own pace to finish himself off before releasing in your mouth for you to swallow. Once he makes sure that you’re unhurt and satisfied, he’ll gently lay you on the closest bed and kiss your forehead before continuing his work.Ā 
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Mr Chopped with body
I cant help but feel like when he first gets hus body, he gets hard from the slightest things. The look in your eyes when you smile at him? He’s excusing himself to relieve himself. The time your hand brushed against his? His tip was already leaking with pre cum. Of course this because extremely noticeable over maybe a week of his self pleasuring habits, so thats when you told him you’d be glad to help him.
Now, everytime you provoked him in any way, all he had to do was tug at your sleeve a little and give you puppy dog eyes, and you’d let him take you to any empty room and needily rut into you. His first time was just the cutest! He was a wimpering, moaning mess as you did as little as jerk him off. Now every time his the slightest but horny, he’s pulling you to the closest corner, not matter if theres people around, and he fucks you hard and fast… its a little painful but he never lasts long.
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Mr. Scarletella
The second he sees you speaking to anyone but him, you’re shoved into a space as small as a closet for all he cares. You can cry and beg him with ā€œits too muchā€, but Mr. Scarletella isn’t going to stop until the only name you can remember is his. He usually liked to just think about you in various positions, completely broken on his cock. The murderous grin that stretched across his face when he finally had the opportunity and reason to break you confirmed it.
He’ll make you ride him first until your legs are limp and completely useless. Then, he’ll grasp you by the waist, stand up, and use you like you’re nothing but a fuck toy. All of this while he degrades and manipulates you. Depending on who you’re talking to, he might kill them right in front of you and force you to look at the dead body while he fucks you, licking the tear rolling down your cheek. Of course Mr. Scarletella will reel you back into his heart by showing you affectionate aftercare and many soft kisses.
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Mr. Machete
Normally thats the only way he fucks you. Fast, random, and with no foreplay in sight. He does it without warning too. Like suddenly picking you up, no matter who you’re talking to, and gently carrying you to an empty room where he practically rips your clothes off (if you dont protest) and smiles stupidly.
The thing about Mr. Machete is that if he fucks you, you need to be completely naked for him. And he loves it when you ride him! He gently traces the bump from his cock on your tummy while bucking his hips up into yours. Surprisingly, he doesnt fuck you as rough as he possibly can unless you tease, or provoke him in any way. He makes sure to take things at your pace, especially since hes not about to eat you out or finger you. Its the least he can do.
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nanamisdollie Ā· 1 month ago
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itoshi sae and his new assistant ⋆ š™š ̊.
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smut, mdni. cw: boss!sae, sadism, corruption, degrading!!
it’d been two months since you started your job as an assistant. you hadn’t expected much of it besides the obvious; being bossed around, sent to a hundred different places in a day, bringing coffee before the sun even began to rise, but no. not with who your boss ended up being.
ā€œbend over.ā€
the tone was cold, two hands even colder cupping your breasts over your bra but beneath your blouse. lips were close to your neck, a bruise already forming on your shoulder from where he had been nipping relentlessly.
itoshi sae was nothing like what you had imagined.
Ėšą­Øą­§ā‹†ļ½”Ėš ⋆
the usually quiet office was filled with with the sounds of skin snapping and your own gasps. the hands that had once been on your chest were glued to your hips now, pulling you back to meet every one of his thrusts.
ā€œquit clenching.ā€ he spoke in a bored, matter of fact tone, as if he weren’t fucking into you at a pace that made your cervix ache ā€œmakes you seem like a virgin.ā€
ā€œm’ not- not a virgin-ā€œ a soft moan, high in tone, cuts you off ā€œ-have been w-with one- hmph- one guy.ā€ you didn’t see a reason as to why you’d have to lie about it to him considering the stage you were at now. why would it matter to him?
theres a pause for a moment before his pace slows. he never quits his thrusts but a hand leaves you hip and goes to your hair, gathering it in a ponytail. he gives it a tug that makes you wince, eyes fluttering, but it gets your attention. you try to angle to where you can look at him, hands slipping on the desk.
ā€œone guy?ā€ sae cocks his head but of course you cant tell if he’s curious, annoyed, or just doesn’t care. its mechanical, casual, just as he was on the field. odd considering he was destroying your cunt.
ā€œpathetic.ā€
pathetic? a ā€˜huh?’ falls past your lips. you thought guys liked when a girl had a low body count…
you’re not given much time to process as his hips fall back into their prior rhythm, relentless on your hole as if it were a toy. he gives your hair another tug though, making your back arch.
ā€œguess i can teach you...least i can do considering youve been a decent employee.ā€
Ėšą­Øą­§ā‹†ļ½”Ėš ⋆
your body aches, your heads fuzzy, your cunts covered in your own cum and drool from when sae had spit in his hand to make sure you were lubed up enough to take him.
it’d been an hour of relentless fucking; riding him on the desk chair you usually replied to his emails on, pushed with your face into the desk you would have to work at the following day, ass stretched for the first time while he told you ā€˜you’re gonna have to do it someday, might as well be with meā€.
now, your mouth was being violated by a cock so big it made your eyes tear and throat burn when you took it to the base. sae wasn’t helping, wasn’t praising you, he just watched you; bored.
you pull off his cock with a cough and a huff of air, sniffling. your hand continues to jerk him off, precum finally drooling out of his rosy slit.
ā€œwhy’d you stop.ā€
its not a question, he phrases it like a statement. you blink up at him through glassy eyes and sticky lashes, the two of you finally holding proper eye contact for the first time during this office fuck fest.
ā€œthroat hurts~ā€ its a whisper, throat raw from the moans you couldn’t hold back and letting his tip choke you repeatedly.
he cocks his head again like he did earlier snd instead of replying he grips your hair in a ponytail once more, forcing your lips back around him. you choke immediately, brows furrowing as your eyes stay on his. its uncomfortable, but why would he care?
sae begins to thrust into your mouth, barely audible huffs finally falling past his perfect lips. meanwhile you were struggling to breathe, he must’ve liked that…yeah not surprising. every time his cock hit the back of your throat you gagged, the excess spit making his cock move more smoothly though not less painfully.
ā€œdidnt tell you to stop.ā€ he’s somehow still stern and overly composed while his hip movements give away just how close he is to finishing.
another hand meets the one already in your hair and he forces you all the way down, not caring that your nails are digging into his thighs now, your nose pressed uncomfortably against his pubic bone.
ā€œshit- your bad at sucking cock-ā€œ
he yanks you off of him, keeping one hand in your hair while you can finally breathe again. you’re coughing, drooling everywhere, tears wet and streaking down your flushed cheeks.
ā€œlook at me.ā€
when you do everything’s blurry but its not hard to make out the scene; sae standing over you, jerking off with his free hand. when you lock eyes again, his finally flutter and he lets out a choked whine. sticky overly wet cum shoots from his twitching cock, landing right on your face; one streak his your eye, another on your lips, and a few in your hair.
you wince when you try to blink, the cum making your eyes sting. when he lets go of your hair, you fall to your hands, coughing again. sae doesn’t speak, doesn’t help you up, but you can hear him getting redressed.
when you finally have the composure to sit up your still shaking. you’re exhausted, body hurting in places you never had felt pain like this before. you try to rub his cum off your face but it just smears making your nose crinkle when some gets past your lips.
the door clicks and you look up; saes leaving. of course. you try to stand and fail, legs still like jelly. at least he had the curtsy to turn to you;
ā€œbe in at 7:30. youre fired if you come in a second later.ā€
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this started as a request for corruption w sae but i accidentlly deleted the damn request and i took a lil spin on it <33 ty for reading!!
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