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aerodaltonimperial · 10 days

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having a significantly dire self-confidence go lately, so i've been using all my spare moments with attempting to finish my daughter's cross-stitch project i started 2 years ago. i really hate feeling this way.

#i am well aware that i need to change my creation mode #away from someone who creates for other people #it's just that i've got fucking 13 years of internalized failure #that i'm trying to navigate through #and i gotta admit it's been a real fucking slog of a shitshow #in my god damn brain the past few months #i'm trying very hard to give myself grace #because over a decade of failure isn't going to be something i get over so quickly #but also sometimes i want to SCREAM at people #DO YOU KNOW HOW DIFFICULT IT IS TO LET GO OF SOMETHING #THAT YOU FUCKING STAKED YOUR WHOLE LIFE ON #FOR THAT FUCKING LONG #no positives no success stories #you just fucking failed #the fact that i'm writing at all anymore #is probably a god damn miracle #but god damn sometimes i just need someone to throw me a FUCKING LIFE PRESERVER #while i'm DROWNING

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rustedhills · 6 months

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Disney, releasing Wish: "so it's all about legacy--the new generation surpassing the old, overcoming the evils perpetuated by them, relinquishing singular power... and there's an old man in a tower, uh... animal sidekick, i guess..., ah... magic...?

Miyazaki, just out of frame, sledgehammer raised:

#the boy and the heron #not tagging wish 'cause i'm being a little acidic #this isn't to be negative in the slightest--I really respect both films--but it's interesting to see how visceral boy+H gets with its story #what evils have to be rejected and what they represent--and how characters and the world suffer from those evils--as well as how the whole #'rejecting' part goes. in terms of animation powerhouses discussing their legacies - disney and miyazaki both - I find it interesting that #one makes a pretty safe and nostalgic movie about imagination and dreams; the other is a long trudge through the land of the dead.#b+h is a hard watch - and a look at the legacy of a man questioning his whole purpose in the world - after his cultural touchstones #have long passed by. Mahito needs to understand his grief to keep living--but if he drowns in it he'll just continue the cannibalistic and #violent world of his granduncle. how the hell do you make art when the trauma of your entire life has colored it forever? How can anyone?#maybe after a while... it's time to detonate that damn tower and keep living.#this is to say #if you have enough money to make whatever you want #Make It Fucking Count

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toasteaa · 3 months

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Sorry sorry, I thought about Neuvillette getting so lost in the feeling of your mouth or your cunt around his cock that he fucking shatters the headboard caught in his grip.

Something about him always being in control, always being so careful with his strength when it comes to you, holding you so lovingly even when his thrusts grow harsher. Rougher. Sweet whispers littered between his subtle moans and your keening whines before you hear a sharp crack in the wood above you.

The way his hips stutter against yours, stilling as he presses his face deep into the crook of your neck; a single, deep groan and a hiss of "yes" as his warmth floods you - and he practically tears a chunk out of your headboard as if it's nothing but a flimsy sheet of paper.

His endless apologies afterwards and his insistence that he pay for the repairs (or for a new, more study bed); you're just trying to figure out how to get him that feral again.

#toast talks #genshin impacted #I'M SORRY I'M SORRY THE IMAGE ENTERED MY BRAIN AND FUCK #I NEED IT I NEED IT I NEED IT AAAAAGH #FUCK BED BREAKING SEX I JUST NEED HIM TO DROWN IN PUSSY AND RIP MY HEADBOARD TO SHREDS #cons of fucking a dragon: broken headboard. pros of fucking a dragon: broken headboard.#UGH THAT AND HIM LOSING HOLD OF HIS COMPLETELY HUMAN FORM AND TURNING INTO HIS HALF DRAGON FORM WHILE FUCKING YOU 💙💙💙💙#I NEED TO BE *RESTRAINED*#genshin smut #neuvillette x reader #neuvillette x you #no more tags because this is SO self indulgent and I'm going INSANE thinking about this -

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an-established-butt-dent · 4 months

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'Harellan'

Solas: Dragon age

Mixed media on paper

#I was aiming for the ancient sad puppy eyes #the 'i'm faced with the burden of my mistakes every day' kinda look #haunted by the past kinda vibe #the look while thinking of Lavellan kinda look #the 'fuck i fucked up do you think she still thinks of me kinda look??!#'I have only dedicated the last few thousand murals to my Vhenan while drowning in my sorrows and Heartbreak' kind of look #honestly heartbreak is a good look on him? I mean yes he's one of my favourite characters but i still like watching him suffer i am sorry #and i'm awful #like we're all suffering in solavellan hell #heartbreak solas #solavellan #solavellen hell #solasmance #solas dragon age #solas dread wolf #da: dreadwolf #fen'harel #ancient betrayer #harellan #the dread wolf #solavellan hell #da fanart #fanart #my art #my fanart #dragon age fanart #dragon age #traditional media #illustration #dragon age inquisition

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poorly-drawn-mdzs · 11 months

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Culture Shock

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #xiao xingchen #xue yang #a-qing #As I sit here and type out my thoughts I realize that the last panel looks like A-Qing is crushing XY's candy...oops.#she's supposed to be crunching her *own* wrapper for dramatic effect. XY's candy is still in XXC's hand.#Hes still standing there. 180 degrees out of frame. Which is where your heart is! MEANING: XXC is in your heart right now #holding out a little piece of candy that has yet to be taken.#This comic was so close to being on the chopping block. Honestly I'm still not sure I should have kept it in #but I liked this scene a lot*** and tbh the yi-city arc isn't around for much longer. Let them have fun while it lasts.#not to mention I have few opportunities to build up spanish speaking XXC. And we are close to the pay off.#XY is in his 'oh god I need to start learning the basics of this language or I will drown' phases. Lets see how well he does!#***The candy represents so much! It's a symbol of unobtainability! Of comfort and status! Both A-qing and XY crave candy as much as they-#-crave those 'unobtainables'! XY has money to by candy (part of status) but he lacks love and comfort is his life!#So XXC offering them this little piece of candy is more than just a treat! It's a piece of love!#But as sweet as candy is....it cannot last....#(this also makes the scene where XY disrupts A-Qing's comfort by offering candy very interesting to analyze)

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everysongineverykey · 1 year

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very pleased to report that i tried literally counting sheep last night and got my first full night's sleep in like a week in a long period of sleepless nights!!

#not sure if i should say 'this works guys!' because while it worked for me #i'm not sure if it'll work for everyone #but yeah! focusing on counting sheep gave my mind one thought to focus on #so it could drown all the others out! much more effective than just trying to 'think of nothing' which i CANNOT do #and as i got further i began spacing out the counting. i listened to my heartbeat #and after like ten beats i'd count the next sheep #and in between the counting i found my mind drifting sort of aimlessly #vague noise i wasn't fully consciously thinking of #which i think is generally a good sign for me. cause i'm losing control of my thought processes and slipping into dreaming #but every time i'd count another sheep it was fascinating.#'one hundred and sixty sheep' and just like that the background noise was all gone. and my mind was quiet again. wow.#anyway i had a full dream for the first time in a while. my cousin was there. i missed school by accident and was disappointed.#love you all💙 sweet dreams and restful nights on planet earth even though it's ten am for me

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fairyroses · 1 month

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— SMALLVILLE, "Tempest" (1.21) & "Fragile" (5.18)

#okay I'm determined to post my drafted gifsets more frequently now lol #smallville #smallvilleedit #svedit #lex luthor #clark kent #lana lang #clex #lexana #clexana #dcmultiverse #sv 1x21 #sv 5x18 #my gifs #usually we get clark's interactions with lex paralleling clark's LIs (like him saving both lex and lana from drowning)#but this is a rare instance where the parallel has lex as the center point #he uses the same line on clark that he later uses while canonically flirting with lana ('I hope you feel the same way')#(also their 'I do' replies are giving wedding vows 👀)#ofc these scenes are both obviously foreshadowing the future and I'm sure that's all that was intended by them #(clark and lex's friendship will fail bc of lies + deceit; lex and lana not actually trusting each other 100% will ruin their relationship)#but that's just the usual sv doomed by the narrative shit so... eh whatever

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sincerely-sofie · 2 months

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Thinking about @gehtsis’s children and how terrifying it would be to get their team assigned to help you escape from a mystery dungeon.

If these are what my heroes look like I'm 99% certain I'd be screaming and running the other way. Menacing cryptid-looking grim reaper and cursed psychic clay doll. I love them.

#I know you said to go wild with their designs while drawing these two in the post formally introducing them #but I loved Erida’s design as you’ve drawn her too much to take many liberties with her #Gaia meanwhile got scarring on her arms that i hc is from her using Hyper Beam with a tad too much zest while defending Erida #and vaguely eyelash-like markings (I enjoy the idea of Gaia basically having the PMD equivalent of Adonis-level attractiveness---#--- like. she's looks like she's chiseled by a master sculptor who was in the mood to give everyone on earth the most lamentable crushes---#--- and I thought it would be funny to give her eyelash-resembling markings as a bit of goofy humor bc of how funny it'd be to---#--- pair this trait up with a bishie sparkle effect.#The bishie sparkle gag specifically needs to have Erida in the bg looking like she hasn't slept a full 8 hours in her life imho.)#On another note Gehtsis did you see the Ultra Sun pokedex entry for claydol???#“If it gets wet its body melts. When rain starts to fall it wraps its whole body up with its psychic powers to protect itself.”#I'm imagining Gaia being completely unaffected by a torrential downpour and Erida is standing next to her looking like a drowned rat #I don't know why I'm being so mean to Erida rn I seriously love her so much. I just show that love through bullying I guess ^^;#pmd oc #pmd ocs #pokemon mystery dungeon #pokémon mystery dungeon #pmd explorers #pmd eos #pmd sky #pmd2 #pmd #stuff by sofie

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shineemoon · 12 days

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240615 ONEW at Tone & Music Festival 2024

#SHINee #onew #lee jinki #onew_griffin #I'm drowning in fancams NOTHING MAKES ME HAPPIER THAN SEEING HIM GLOWING IN HIS ELEMENT WHILE STEALING EVERYONE'S HEART #HE DESERVES THIS SO MUCH

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tinyclowndancer · 7 months

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pspspsps porretta besties from the dark place who refused to bring this song to its end here's a little something for you. 🎙️

#it'll take a while until I finish the extended mix but of course I had to start from this part #you can tell the man have been practicing - Dynamite was amazing and so fun but sounded like he didn't sing for a while #and out of sudden had to film his performance in a rush because it was pretty chaotic back then - or maybe just wasn't for his range #now it's clear that he had time to work on his singing voice and feel more comfortable with the songs #plus it sounds like he had fun recording them - at least I hope so since everyone seemed genuinely happy to be back after 13 years #and istfg I can hear him singing the final chorus as well (liiiiight / niiiight / to the suuurfaaace) but I couldn't find the files #but I didn't find Door and OGOA vocals for it either so it's all probably mixed in a single file which is the one we heard in the cutscene #love him love his voice and I'm happy to have experienced this level (the entire game actually) blind #his performance was spectacular (the drowning video is still in my mind since my first playthrough but hey that's for another post)#anyway #someone give this man a Pixar villain to VO PLEASE #and that fucking bass btw I love it #Matthew Porretta #Old Gods of Asgard #Herald of Darkness #Alan Wake 2 #Remedy Entertainment #🎮#tinyclowntent #audio

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fisheito · 19 hours

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dante can swim, right? theres' no wauy the Royal Solarian Staff would let their king go his whole life not knowing such a lifesaving skill JUst cuz it's a desert doesn't mean there aren't pools!!! he has to know they HAD to have taught him there's no way he's stepping on a cruise ship surrounded by water while UNable to swim what if he falls in?!? he's not gonna float that's furr sure look at his muscle density and lack of fat the man's gonna sink like cement

#i am imagining dante in his little sooley themed inflatable tube (for his safety)#didn't they bring this up in the anniversary event? something like... dodging the question when someone asked if dante could swim #please it would be so funny to bully him some more #but i also sincerely want him to be able to swim like pleaaassssa #i need someone else to be the easy target for unable-to-swim-bullying #who wouldn't know how to swim? uhhhhhh #...can it be kuya? i know it's a stupid idea and he can easily save himself from the water in other ways #but he hates getting his fur we t.... so......#eiden gonna be out here talking about his lifeguard part-time job while saving all the drowning clan members #olivine floats naturally he does not need to swim (but also he is water territory baby so i'm not worried about him)#if i throw yaku and garu into the water #will they turn into wet animal versions of themselves? and they'll jsut know what to do? tread water and all that?#blade doesn't swim. he just propels himself.#so he could be standing perfectly upright in the water. but still moving toward you at rapid speed #like a tree. translating on the z axis. through the water. rapidly approaching your location #actually blade could probably also become water jetpack #he just propels himself out of the water and does acrobatics in the air LOL #anyway. i'm just worried about dante. there's no way he has such a glaring hole in his skill set #...right?#nu carnival dante

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mispatchedgreens · 7 months

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drift compatible bitches bc like knows like

#the radiant emperor #she who became the sun #he who drowned the world #zhu chongba #general ouyang #pacific rim au #bc i CAN and bc ten thousand universes where they're friends #forgive whatever is going on in the background and that railing #is it getting the pount across? probably. so it's good enough #I'm reading hwdtw now and every single thing that happens divests me of my whole mind #every moment? crazy #im so worried abt some of these stupid characters that i manifested this thing where they fight huge monsters from inside mecha #while psychically connected #my art #whats the name of their jaegar tho that's the question #you know how I'm like. suuuper funny and smart. ive been calling it gender trouble in my mind bc im also dumb yeah

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klkirbles · 11 months

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#bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #lae'zel #shadowheart #astarion #tav #bg3 spoilers #surely i'm underutilising her somehow #for her to be so squeaky clean #while my tav and astarion are drowning in red #my posts

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imagination-overreaction · 3 months

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Insert comic where Spy tf2 is doing really poorly at his job, just absolutely terrible, Everyone goes "dude what the hell are you doing why aren't you cloaked" and he says "I can't! It's trans day of visibility!" And then they all explode or whatever idk hit post

#tf2 #team fortress 2 #tf2 spy #spy tf2 #trans day of visibility #i might draw this later once i'm not drowning in assignments #tf2 shitpost #can't tell if this is unfunny or if i thought about it too hard while i wrote it out. probably both

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ssecond-hand-faith · 1 month

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