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Just a quick headcanon,which has been formed in my head,and also a quick sketch underneath :P

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(‼️TW: Sally's eye got...pushed out of the orbit,if we're talking directly...‼️)

For LJ the worst punishment is babysitting Sally,because it's extremely hard to keep her on the same place for more than a few minutes.

Yes, it's easy to distract the girl with anything,but nearly impossible to do it for a long period of time.

When Slenderman looks after Sally,he never complains about her behaviour,just because his existence and presence keeps the child entertained and out from his way.

That's all - now I'm going to sleep, because it's another night post (I'm writing all of this at 12 p.m).

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(‼️WARNING:‼️I headcanon Tim and Brian having DID/OSDD,so I'm going to refer to their alters (Tim - Masky; Brian - Hoodie) as to whole different individuals with their own approach to particular situations.That's all I've wanted to notice - now enjoy the post itself).

(🚬💊 ,🧇🪓,🎭🔪,🏚️📼)

I think it's worth to tell more about our "proxy trio"(Masky,Toby,Hoodie) in this AU,because it also has some differences from the traditional form of it in Creepypasta fanbase.

Since Tim and Brian have a little bit too big age gap with Toby (Tim and Brian are in their thirties,and Rogers hasn't even become an official adult),they don't hang out much,just because of not having topics to talk about.Their relationships with each other are based on daily life interactions,where Tim refuses to drink from the same glass Brian has used and barely notices Toby, because of being all the time intoxicated.It's not like he has something against the boy - Wright sometimes doesn't even know, where his drunk butt lies in the whole mansion,not even saying about one of his colleague's presence.

Brian is more friendly to Toby,seeing him like some kind of younger brother.He often supports the boy during mental breakdowns,takes care of his well-being and treats his wounds,but at all he prefers to get along with older proxies,just because of seeing Rogers not mature enough to hang out with him on full time basis.

The whole different story is Toby's interactions with Masky and Hoodie,who are usually fronting during the missions.

Masky is more talkative to Toby in comparison to Tim,having even (what a surprise!) full conversations with the teenager,but it would be better,if he was as ignorant towards him as the host: Masky opens his mouth to the boy's side only to scold him or notice one of his mistakes (not without showing irritation towards his stuttering and tics,of course).

As it has been mentioned in previous posts,Hoodie is mute and prefers silence to words,so he doesn't have a long history of interactions with Toby,giving all the work with building plans and giving orders to Masky.Even when they're standing face to face,Hoodie uses only some basics of body language and tries to leave the boy to Masky's patronage.

What about Toby himself?

From one side,he knows about the split personalities,which both of the men have,but from the other,because of the lack of knowledge about the diagnosis,Rogers doesn't indicate the switch between Tim and Masky and Brian and Hoodie,so the boy often gets offended at Tim for his rudeness and at Brian for his coldness during the missions.

That's all :DDD

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Yes, I'm gonna try to keep my promise and write the second part of the list of available characters in Traumatic Pasta AU >:0

I'm sorry for making you wait,but mostly I just haven't got any mood to finish it till the weekends.After this post I'm going to try to post at all more stuff,if it will be possible with my life battery<:)

Sooo...

(‼️TW: mentions of serious physical traumas,sexual abuse,child abuse,eating disorders,bullying‼️

🔪🪳 - Jeff the Killer:honestly,after the accident he became a little bit "curly"'ed,so,even in spite of getting his skin as pale as snow,his life literally started from the sheet of endless painful rounds: the poor one had gone nearly bald,his skin was dry and could crack from any wrong movement.Jeff woke up with pain and went to sleep feeling trapped inside of his own body.

After a few months of tormenting his mind with such an excuse of existence,being absolutely helpless without his family's care,Jeffrey got a visitor in form of Slenderman,who suggested him a deal: the poor boy would kill his entire family,and the faceless mf would make his life painless.

Jeff was thinking for a long time about the deal,but,afterall, decided to make a contract with Slender,not feeling like he could bear the pain anymore.

In this AU Jeffrey is in his early twenties and works as proxy for Slenderman.In some way the young man got literally immortal,but only because of Slenderman's will (it works in the way,that Slendyfucker not only keeps his mind under the control ,but also the whole organism,keeping the nerve endings numb and organs from getting purulent and hurt),so to keep himself from all unpleasant feelings of his own skin cracking and bleeding he has to kill people.

In the whole mansion Jeff is the most unstable guy.The dude doesn't control himself and barely knows,where he is and who are the people around him.Sometimes he confuses LJ or older proxies with Slenderman,thinking,that it is his boss,but in the other physical forms.

Mental illnesses:

Canon: CNS depression (found on some wiki page about this fucker :P).As I've understood,Jeff also has had some other mental problems,just not mentioned certainly,because CNS depression is mostly caused by misuse of depressants,which are supposed to calm the central nervous system,but I won't dare to write anything certain(if I'm wrong, don't be shy to correct me :D).

Headcanon: psychosis,PTSD.

⏱️ ⚔️ - Clockwork: the pain in the ass for both LJ and Slenderman.The girl is pretty young - just a little bit younger than Toby,who has led her to the mansion and suggested to stay there.In this AU,she hadn't managed to kill the whole family: her father (rest in piss) stayed alive long enough to call the police.That's the reason,why Natalie is pretty wanted in her town and why she has had to hide in the forest,where she got picked up by Toby.

Except Natalie understanding the boards of reality,she is still too hard to handle by anyone in the mansion due to all the sexual and physical abuse she has had to go through before.The poor one suspects everyone in the fact of wanting to hurt her in any way,is extremely aggressive to the ones,who try to get closer to her,mostly to Toby and Masky,because they're being too clingy to her with their "help and guidance" around the mansion and during the missions.

Mental illnesses:

Canon: there is nothing certain on wiki pages.What about other resources - some users suspect her in having some symptoms of BPD or being a sociopath,but I would rather not to spread false information,because I've found nothing about Clockwork's creator confirming or adding anything about the character's mental state.

Headcanon:depersonalisation,CPTSD(I want to mention emotional dysregulation,because in her current personality it plays a big role,but,as far as I know,it is included in first symptoms of (C)PTSD,so I'll just note it at most,not tearing apart the whole mental disorder on a bunch of its important symptoms).

🏚️📼 - Hoodie(Brian Thomas): the man has given up earlier than Tim under Slenderman's patronage,hoping to take revenge on Alex,if he would sit on his ass calmly and follow his orders.The man lives with the thought of beating all the shit out of Kralie,and he tries from early morning to late afternoon to make Tim think the same and see Slenderman as their only salvation.

Actually,in spite of being pretty close with Timothy,Brian doesn't know about Masky,and truly believes,that sometimes his buddy just turns on his brain and chooses the right path.After the traumas endured by all the events he had been through,Brian started developing OSDD (Other Specified Dissociative Disorder),which created Hoodie as his alter.

Hoodie mostly fronts during the missions and appears to be mute (like,he doesn't talk to anyone,even to Masky,who is considered as a friend from another system and with whom he spends 90% of all the time).

Brian and Hoodie are pretty neutral to each other,because of their will to follow the same goal.To be honest,Hoodie doesn't even care about the body's physical state,so during the time he's fronting,the dude literally does everything,which comes to his mind, including harming the body,and leaves it for Brian to solve.

Mental illnesses:

Canon: I don't know...During my investigation through the internet the only information I've found was the article about some true crime case with the man with same name/surname killing his wife,and that's all.

Headcanon: OSDD (alter - Hoodie),psychosis, lifeguard syndrome.

💻🛍️ - Nina the Killer: a teenage girl,whose age is around 13-14.In this AU she "fangirled" over real serial killers and Jeff himself,whose case got pretty hoaxed in the state, where it had happened and where she lived.

Nina got a hobby like this after a massive bullying in a new school,where she and her little brother Chris were seriously abused.She found some kind of moral in the stuff,where killings were justified,and her idol became Jeffrey because of him killing people, which made his life a living hell.

Nina is extremely cheesy.At all,it would be pretty fair to consider her an edgelord, because of her pathetic tries to joke about disgusting topics and gatekeeping her every interest.

She isn't friendly to other pastas, because of mostly being afraid of them and possible damage they can give her.

Surprisingly,the only one Nina has got along is Natalie,but their friendship is very specific due to the problems with socialisation they both have.

Mental illnesses:

Headcanon: OCD (Obsessive Compulsive Disorder),trichophagia (Nina just...eats her hair on a daily basis to go through some stressful events in her daily life?)

🌊🕹️ - BEN Drowned: A really troubled teen.With the help of the faceless bastard,the boy managed to get out of the virtual reality,and from time to time returns there to complete the given missions.

BEN is extremely arrogant due to the fact,that he has managed to make a lot destruction in such an early age.The only Slenderman's ward,who is being brave enough to get into the arguments with him,not even talking about Laughing Jack,whose authority over the whole mansion not taken to his knowledge seriously.

Nobody really wants to have any missions with him,because BEN always takes the role of the commander over the whole team without any reasons, thinking about himself as about the one,who is worth of it.Although,if someone shows backbone in their behaviour in BEN's presence,he quickly shuts up,feeling hatred towards that person to the end of the mission.

Even in spite of all BEN's arrogance,he is still being no less traumatized,than other children/teens in the mansion.His narcissistic behaviour is the coping mechanism,which has been produced by his brain to get through the trauma of being killed and gutted like a fish by the cult.Actually,he gets really nervous and disappointed,if his importance in the squad is not taken seriously,so he tries to make everyone overthink their opinion,even if BEN looks absolutely stupid.

Mental illnesses:

Headcanon: NPD (Narcissistic Personality Disorder),PTSD.

That's all,I guess.Sleep tight,I guess, because when I'm finishing it it's like 23:01 😭

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Well...

There was some kind of conference inside of my brain,which tried to solve the discussion,when the second part of the list with characters included to Traumatic pasta AU would be dropped,and as the result I'm going to post it only before the end of the week due to serious reasons (I'm too exhausted to write such long posts T_T).

Now I'm going to feed you some headcanons for the characters,who have already been mentioned in previous posts.

Here are some Laughing Jack headcanons!:D

1.Laughing Jack is the factual butler of the mansion: everything,beginning from the rules and finishing with supplying Slenderman's proxies with food, medicine and clothes,is under his control.He also greets the newcomers,explaining all the sharp edges of living in a butt hole as their mansion.

It's kinda hard to believe,that such a bubbly bastard,as Jack,can take care of the whole group of people with their own needs and problems,but afterall the clown is a human-oriented creature,so,as the faceless fucker has decided,it would be easier for him to understand all the human's whims(he protec but he also attac).

2.Sexuality: LJ is aromantic asexual (aroace).Due to the specifics of his nature,Jack isn't able to experience sexual or romantic attraction (like...c'mon,dude has been literally created to take care of a child and be his friend to the end of his life.There have never been such things like falling in love or getting turned on in his duties).

The clown sometimes makes Slenderman copy the behaviour of the human couples (like holding hands, talking about each others' problems,cuddling,bubbling,remembering the dates of deaths of all Jack's victims and other),but he does it only from curiosity or because of own thought,that it will help to keep things in the household stable,not really feeling anything towards the faceless fucker.

3.LJ is a freaking simbiot with layered personality,whose traits have been collected through the centuries of his existence,and the first one is the strongest.He isn't able to exist without factual owner,because he has to copy their behaviour,likes/dislikes and emotions.If Jack doesn't,he isn't able to exist for too long.Even if his owner dies (like Isaac,fucking little shit I hate him so much,did and then other poor little children) he still works with some "database" his organism has collected before he sticks to another vector.

At the current moment,Slenderman is the factual owner of Jack and "bestie",so the clown also follows some of his steps: he got more serious,rude and intimidating,but his silly personality also hasn't vanished anywhere.

4.Gender: Boyflux.LJ is kinda...sexless.He has no genitals or any other characterizations of sex.What about his gender - it's also complicated,because he copies everything his owner is,so,since his first ward was a male,Laughing Jack is also mostly a male with some other-genders urges.

5.Yes,during the imprisonment in the box, Jack's colours had become monochrome,but all the other gruesome and frightening features the clown got only after making a deal with Slenderman and selling his soul to get protection from him.

Jack's eyes also were changed from pale blue to black ones with tiny white pupils as the fact of him losing his soul completely(eyes are the mirrors of soul and blah blah blah,yk).

6.Slenderman's brothers,enemies and other older proxies don't take Jack seriously - in LJ's position,only following the faceless fucker's orders,he's literally no more dangerous,than a chihuahua on a leash and muzzled :P

Some of them don't even mind to tease the poor one because of him suddenly changing the craft of killing innocent souls to babying them (f.e,Splendorman references to Jack as "Mary Poppins" during his stays at the mansion,making the clown's shit boil).

7. It's still hard to say,what kind of feeling LJ feels towards children:since Isaac has abused kids,he also despises them,but less,because of other layers of his personality (less baby hating,ofc).

What about Jack's own wards - sometimes he can be really irritated no matter what they do,but the clown truly cares for them,being interested in their fates and well being.

8.It's hard to say,that Laughing Jack has enemies in his surrounding - except Slenderman,he can make a deal with everyone and there have never been any serious arguments between him and the residents of the mansion.

The only creature he's really aggressive to is Offenderman,because,when he's around,the chance of someone being assaulted gets higher,and Jack is no exception.

9.Even in spite of being betrayed by the heaven in his opinion,LJ is still pretty dog-like to Christian values, trying to protect it by any cost (just to feel myself a little bit rebellious and bitchy,he supports all LGBTQ+ proxies).

That's all,I guess :D

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OKAY BUT HEAR ME OUT SLENDERMAN IS SKINNY BECAUSE ALL HIS FAT WENT INTO HIS ASS

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Girls🫀🔥

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Uuuh...

Here is the list of the characters(the first part),whose stories and existence are possible to find in this AU - Traumatic Pasta: (‼️TW:Mentions of SA,selfharm,violence,child neglect, alcoholism‼️)

I also need to notice,that everything in this universe happens in early 2010s (wanna avoid all the questions about character's age,so just telling you in case you care :P)

🍭🫀 - Laughing Jack: used to kill children,making their death the most horrible,painful, gruesome and disgusting,but now he's a babysitter for all the pastas.Of course,Jack would rather die than be a lovely housewife till the end of his existence,but he has to, because of having a debt to the faceless mf.It is a story for another post,but to be short,Slenderman is the current owner his soul, who's giving L.J protection from angels out of Heavenly Office,who wanted to send him to the hell after his ward Isaac(since L.J is a paradise twink,I formed a theory,that he,unlike other entities,can possibly have soul).

The clown is irritated by every noise and cough,emotional as fuck and can barely bear the existence of the children of the mansion (exceptions: Sally and Toby.They're mama's innocent kittens forever and no matter what).

👔🐙 - Slenderman: actually,fella doesn't give any fuck about the fact of a bunch of mentally unstable teens living in the mansion located in the middle of the forest under his wing,because it's not his,but only Jack's concerns.His only goals are to use this emo gang in his own interests,so he barely cares of the poor ones' physiological condition and mental health.

Slenderman is extremely cold and arrogant towards everyone,even to Jack.To be honest, it's the whole event,if he shows up in the mansion to give his proxies orders about next missions and call Jackie's tartlets a piece of shit.

🧸🖍️ - Sally Williams: the poor one is a doomed spirit,who has got accidentally adopted by Slenderman (he just picked her soul up,carried it to Jack and then was like:"Here,do whatever you want with it").Sally doesn't remember,how she has got into the mansion and the abuse provided to her by her uncle.The girl doesn't even know,that she's dead and travels between two worlds in her ghosty head - the first one is cute and adorable with unicorns and glitter and the second one is just...just the reality with all the goofy monsters there.

Sally's actually a cute bun,who's really easy to get distracted with some silly activities (drawing or playing,for example).Sometimes she's whiny and moody as any other alive child.Her favourite activities are getting on Jack's nerves and following Slenderman around.

Mental illnesses:

-Canon: honestly,I haven't found anything certain about Sally's mental health problems (except the fact,that she gets anxious,if her uncle is mentioned,which could be some kind of the first symptoms of PTSD,if I'm not wrong).

-Headcanon: retrograde amnesia,psychosis.

🧇🪓 - Toby Rogers: he's a mentally unstable teen around 16-17.His backstory in this au is pretty similar to the original one.The only exception is,that he hasn't burnt the whole neighborhood - instead,he was sponsored by the faceless mf with an axe from the garage,killed his abusive father and then a few more innocent people on his way to the forest.That's the reason,why he's feeling a bit of guilt because of having blood on his hands (not his father's one,ofc).

Toby had never experienced any kind of healthy family dynamic,so,when he had started living under Slendy's care,he quickly got attached both to L.J and Slenderman,seeing parental figures in them.He's literally the one,who gets nervous,when two entities have arguments and always tries to bring them together.

Mental illnesses:

-Canon: BPD,analgesia,Tourettes Syndrome.

-Headcanon: ADHD, generalized anxiety disorder (I dunno,if it's allowed to use GAD,so yeah).

🚬💊 - Tim Wright: he's an old mf in his early thirties.After beating all the shit out of Jay on the parking place,he decided to escape from the state and then (what a surprise!) got caught by the slendy fucker again,so he just...gave up?

Understanding his own helplessness in the situation,he decided to take its course,letting Masky follow Slenderman's orders and himself just becoming a drunkard,who tries to lose his consciousness of the whole desperation in alcohol.

Mental illnesses:

-Canon: in Marble Hornets' series it is noticed,that Tim has been suspected in having schizophrenia in his childhood,but it has never been proved or disproved,so I won't try to say something certain on this topic<:)

-Headcanon: DID (alter - Masky),Korsakoff's Syndrome (due to alcohol),CPTSD (thanks to faceless daddy;333).

🎭🔪 - Masky: Tim's alter.If the host for the current moment of plot is an always drunk to vomit vegetable,Masky is a cold-blooded murderer with no morals and whose only goal is following Slenderman's orders.In spite of being hated by Tim with all his soul,Masky himself is pretty neutral to him.He tries to care as much as he want and can about the body's health,preventing any suicide attempts or extreme self harm,but at all he only does it to keep body decent for missions.Plays the role of trauma holder and protector.

🎨🩸 - Bloody Painter: a murderous sicko with passion for art.He is one of the killers,whose determination of reality is the least broken,so all his felonies are done just because of the lack of moral.

It's really rare to see Helen anywhere out of his working place in the mansion.He even prefers to eat in his room,avoiding "family dinners".In communication with others Helen shows himself like a polite young man with high manners,but he still tries to avoid any contact with other pastas.

Mental illnesses:

-Canon: some wiki pages notice,that Helen is in autistic spectrum,so I'll add it here too:)

-Headcanon:body dysmorphophobia (due to the trauma tied up with his parents and their will to have a girl,not a boy).

That's all for today.I'm going to upload the rest a little bit later!:D

I don't have any decent arts for this post,so here you have the ones I've made with L.J and others for my friends.

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(I decided to use my Tumblr acc jus for once,bcs I had got hyperfixated on Creepypasta fandom,made a terrible, traumatizing in all the matters au and got a punch into my face from my gf,platonic son and other friends,bcs I was getting their brains burned with all the headcanons I'm producing on an unimaginable speed,so now I'm going to torture u too >:) )

Here is my Creepypasta au - Traumatic pasta! It's something similar to Slendermansion (I'm saluting to all the veterans from 2010s,who were lucky to see this display of happy cringe stories with holes everywhere: in the concept,in the plot of every fan fiction,etc.),but the main idea is like Slenderman having in the mansion not the whole universe of all the species living under his wing,but only the ones,who really need his protection due to their own reasons (like,they can't live on their own because of age or special care they need and they've found it only there).All the characters have mental illnesses from traumas or from birth,so their existence is more unbearable in all the senses, especially in such place...

The whole au is some kind of mockery over the mental health system in many countries,the way society accepts it,+ I have a great interest in psychology and psychiatry,so you can count it also like some study or similar to it.I've tried to write the characters and their illnesses as correct as it was possible,while having only the internet as a helper and some conservative "psychiatry for teapots" book.

Tomorrow I'm planning to write more about the characters and their problems,but for now I just want to say,that I will be glad to any activity from the users here: I won't bite,so don't be afraid to ask any questions,which could ever come to your head :D