#while I get sicker
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springrls · 1 month ago
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Being chronically ill sucks yearning sucks and being broke!
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kartsie · 2 years ago
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Team “Catherine Todd deserves the world and a nuanced limited series that explores poverty and the broken American healthcare system”
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chemical-processes · 8 months ago
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Shavean finds out that Maia is showing favor to Arbelan by taking dinner with her, so she ingratiates herself to the emperor and requests that he takes private meals with her as well. Then Shavean takes advantage of the opportunity to start slowly poisoning him so that the court (and Maia) will think that he's taken ill and died of natural causes and she can put her son on the throne.
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hussyknee · 1 year ago
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How does one adequately explain to USAmericans that their entire political apparatus is solidly in the grip of what they would call "Nazis"? That their donation posts are basically just leaving supplies outside of Auschwitz for the emaciated inmates to look at while they're gassed to death (and they're starting to hate us for it)? That all Israel has to do now to kill all 2 million of them is to fuck off and let them die of injuries, dehydration and starvation (there's very little food, water and medical supplies left), but they won't do that because they're having too much fun blowing shit up? That the longer it goes on, the closer it gets to exploding into an entire regional conflagration of war? Which will precipitate an oil crisis that will make everyone nostalgic for the one in 1973 that collapsed the global economy, leading the US and UK to go up in flames by next year?
Oh and the rest of us in the global South are going to starve too?
Don't forget Biden has auctioned off the Gulf of Mexico and Alaska to an unprecedented fracking project forecasted to tip the earth over the edge of climate collapse. And they're definitely going to do it because WAR and OIL CRISIS. (Also Rishi Sunak something something oil regulations, I forget, it's really bad.)
I really want someone to tell me this is just doomerism, but there's something fatalistic about trying to explain what a genocide looks like to the only people in the imperial core that can do something about it, except they can only visualise it as people with swastika armbands herding people into gas chambers. And the fact that they've been infighting on the internet so long that they no longer know how to connect with generational movements that know how to organise.
When we said liberalism was going to kill us all, we meant it quite literally and specifically.
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lithuvia · 2 months ago
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Fellas, is it gay to run a fever? Why are you red? Oh, you've elevated your body temperature to kill all the little dudes inside you? Why're there so many of them in there? The rituals are so intricate-
*i sneeze too hard and pass out*
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carmenpeach · 16 hours ago
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what websites do people even use for art hosting anymore it seems like every site that was good for that has just gone down da drain, or has ridiculous restrictions. im not using the new twitter2.0 but what is there...
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caterjunes · 2 months ago
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we're gonna put our rats up for adoption at the animal rescue. things are. bad. we can't keep their cage clean. grayson gets exhausted taking them out to play and i rarely join bc i just feel empty or disgusted or i start sobbing or wind up in pain or exhausted myself. so they don't get the amount of human interaction they deserve/need.
i feel awful about it. i feel sick. i don't know the last time i've felt like such an abject failure. not just as a person responsible for small lives but as a partner. grayson gets such joy from these boys, and they are so sweet to us too. i just. i can't even take care of myself. it isn't fair. it's not fair.
#keeping it fun and funky fresh#personal#the wild brunch#matty's mental health#i'm genuinely not okay. about any of this. about anything happening.#but the rats specifically are a real no-win scenario.#either 1) we pull the bandaid off & give them to the rescue. a clean (ish) break#we know they'll be fostered & adopted by ppl who will not just love them but will actually be able to take care of them#and they'll live out the rest of their lives with other rats who they'll get to know now while they're still middle-aged. & other people.#or 2) we keep them but continue the current plan to have them be our last batch of rats. they live in a habitat that we can't keep clean.#we're both wracked with guilt about this all the time. we keep exhausting ourselves doing what we can to keep things out of crisis mode#grayson gets to keep playing with them. i get to keep being miserable and More guilty every time i *don't* play with them#or just plain miserable every time i do#eventually they get older and their health goes downhill. one of them dies. i have a mental breakdown just like every other time#we rehome the other two. it's harder bc they're older and sicker and they miss their brother.#but they live out the (much less) rest of their lives with other rats. & other people.#in both scenarios we stop having rats. grayson is devastated either soon or later bc no more pets#while i'm wracked with guilt bc i feel very very very responsible for us not having rats anymore. and also devastated#bc i am. well. goodbyes are very bad for me.#which is why i feel responsible lmao bc last year i had like 4 straight months of ceaseless sobbing from all the back to back pet deaths#and i was like Listen. grayson. i can't do this anymore. i just can't. i can't keep having short-lived pets like this bc each death#feels like i'm being stabbed in the lungs over and over.#i guess technically option 3 is we keep having rats. we get another batch & introduce them. no rat off-ramp.#i just. keep getting stabbed in the lungs as they die. and we keep not being able to take care of them properly.#hey i didn't say it was a *good* option. but it is an option#pet death cw#idk how to tag the lungs metaphor.#injury cw#?
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foxgloveinspace · 1 year ago
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Tumblr exclusive pic of my brothers Christmas present! Really the only thing I’ve been able to knit on this past week, oof. I’m pretty proud of how it turned out. Only my second time doing color work, but by the end of this holiday season I’m gonna be pretty savvy at it, cause I’m also making color work hats for my other brother and my dad lmao.
@thoseeyeslikefire @absentviolet @kyloreno-911
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caffeinatedopossum · 2 years ago
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Adults stop telling kids how much "adulthood sucks" challenge. You might be jealous and nostalgic but you never know which one of those kids *already* has an awful life and can't stand the thought of things getting any worse
Btw, if you are that kid, it doesn't get worse. Adulthood actually gets much better, don't let assholes scare you
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oculusxcaro · 1 year ago
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When Khare's mutation advances to the point that it can no longer be hidden, she will straight up vanish off the face of the earth, quitting her job at Pauli's Diner with a quick phonecall before abandoning her apartment in the dead of night. Everything she owns will be left behind in a hurry, other than the few items that could identify her which will promptly be destroyed and dumped into Gotham Bay before she heads deep into the sewers, only daring to venture out on rare occasions for the things she needs until she can no longer pretend she's even human.
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sirenofthegreenbanks · 10 months ago
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i find it super fitting that as a spontaneus person who thrives by living in the moment and who is at her best when she acts instead of thinks, my mental illness has to do with depression, thinking too much, and trying to control shit. its like im cursed
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flockofteeth · 1 year ago
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having a very normal time thinking about how i'm weird & intense to other people
this is why ive gotten bitter in the past at people being like ew who wants to be normal bc like. fucking me actually
like ultimately i probably wouldn't change who i am but it's hard man. i wish i could turn it down a bit
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whoslaurapalmer · 1 year ago
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i know I'M the one choosing to gif fwwm but :( the heartbreak in even just doing gifs. especially bc i gotta get the scene with laura in the front yard and that is heart-wrenching
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tortademaracuya · 2 years ago
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yikes-ajax-thats-sad · 6 days ago
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People really think trust issues are just "aww they're scared of love" and it's like bitch no. Trust issues as in I'm deeply in love and the issue is I'm waiting for you break my heart after undergoing periodic abuse in relationships. I'm not scared of love I'm scared of what you'll do with it.
#ahahahaha anyways. ranty time in the tags wheeee#paranoia has been terrible today. everyones mood is off. everyones acting different. everyones acting colder. they hate me im sure of it#and all this stuff i want to be happy i just know is gonna be ruined or left with tainted memories now and its my fault#but maybe its not because why the fuck cant you be consistent. why is it so touch and go#i support ppl through the worst parts of their lives and when i need the support nobody is there#i will literally take time off work to be with someone if theyre having a hard time but me? cant even afford more than three words#im sick of being told i love you and finding no proof outside empty words. i sure as hell dont feel fucking loved. everyone is lying#it's just like my ex. he smothered me in love to cover up the major lack of actually viable love#empty words make me sick to my stomach now. everyones a fucking liar and i dont get why the wont just tell me the truth!#if im such a burden then just fucking say it! if im horrible to be around tell me! how am i supposed to every grow if nobody tells me#i just wanna be loved and not unconditionally. i want to be loved by choice. i want someone to choose me despite everything#i want someone to love me to every little detail and hold my hand even when im at my lowest and just UNDERSTAND#i want someone to love me wholeheartedly and think about me as much i do them. i want the little gestures and the sweet things i do#but here i am. always the one carrying everything and putting in all the effort. when was the last time someone really liked me.#when was the last time i existed in someone elses head. when was the last time someone cared enough to check on me. to do something?#this savior mentality is gonna kill me but im only being straightforward when i say i cannot pull myself from this alone. i am so weak#and god im fucking tired#spent at least two hours straight sobbing while regressed because even as a kid i cant outrun this#and im just getting sicker. i cant sleep. cant eat. cant stay warm. feel like im slowly fading away#and nobody even cares. its so fucking selfish and childish but my whole life ive screamed for help and nobody has seen me#do i have to become another number in the statistics for you to care? or would you even care when i die?#because at this rate i dont even need to try. my heart hasn't slowed in three days. i think i really am dying#sad thoughts#vent blog#sad blogging#vent#vent post#venting#actually mentally ill#actually traumatized
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rddykilowatt · 1 month ago
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enjoy the last bit of normal qrow activities before I die for three months and come back as if nothing happened
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