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semi-imaginary-place · 9 months ago

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umineko ep1 and some of 2 playthrough notes.

japans failing birthrate all the cousins are only children. Probably because the author didnt want to handle more characters given how obsessed with lineage and marriage and family rank the ushiromiya family is surprised they didnt breed more.

Overthinking. The game. Wow everyone monologues. Everyone overthinking and assuming schemes which os probably true given the narrative set up. However irl some people do have a lack of compassion and some screws loose and will brutally murder others for no reason.

eva hideyoshi locked room murder. Battler already gave a plausible explanation earlier for kinzo in that the murderer was still in the room at the time of discovery. I do think it's beatrice because i watched the anime ages ago but i only vaguely remember it.

Kanon died faster by pulling the icepick out

I really like natsuhi, she tries so hard and she cares so much but she is the last person who should have a gun since she's uh kinda tightly wound and a little neurotic and it's easy to get her worked up.

Lol teatime. The game stats at the end of the credits thing makes me wish this actually was like an adventure game instead of what it seems to be which is a linear novel with pictures invoking the aesthetics of a multiple ending game. For me i watched the anime so i know beatrice shows up, the golden butterflies, and that i play a lot of jrpgs and fantasy games so I'm just used to magic being a thing. But the reveal that everything until now has been MARIA'S journal casts thing in a different light unreliable narrator and all so the mysteries might have been played up as magic the golden butterflies might not have actually been there the only the audience knows are the facts of the murders in which case yeah still could have been human. Based on the evidence i do suspect a 19th person. Probably the biggest sticking point for me was the letter appearing in the study how did it get here without magic if the servants did not do it. Battler and beatrice seem like they're having fun. One of my first thoughts was that one of the 6 original dead wasn't actually dead because the faces were torn off. Also this twist has been used a lot.

Yeah this got real post modern meta. There's several meta characters too like the narrator and the player and whoever is writing the character profiles (i suspect maria?). And beatrice addresses the player and challenges us and i am unclear whether she means the player or battler. Into ch 2 im noticing a strong theme of perspective. From kirie's flipping the chessboard (turnabout anyone), to the whole sea thing, beatrice being real or not depending on whether people believe in her.

Fandom seems to hate george and yeah the shannon thing is yikes like i dont get why the writer didnt make shannon like 19 and george 21 it would have worked the same with the weird skewed power dynamic but they just had to make an age gap and shannon very underage. Shannon's love or george almost seemed to develop coincidentally like jessica was pointing out what a man george was just as shannon was questioning her role as furniture. Oh the point i was making! fandom seems to hate george and i didn't get it i started with a very neutral impresion of him and i actually like him more now george initially came off as such a normie compared to his uh... colorful family, but ep2's internal narration reveals that he's just as much a freak as the rest of them! He's so weird! Also he thinks about manliness so much i am doubting he's straight also he and shannon have no chemistry. Not sure who my favorite character is. I like natsuhi she cares and is always trying her best even if she's unhinged and a nervous wreck. I like hideyoshi he seems like one of the only people I'd actually get along with and who's company I'd enjoy. I like battler sometimes other times i just want to tie him up and duck tape his mouth (also the anime perv jokes are cringe). I liked kyrie but havent seen much of her. Beatrice might be my new favorite really she's having fun and is also kinda sad. Eva i both love and hate at the same time man what a great character. My least favorite character is probably maria she's so annoying and i never liked characters with self enforced helplessness who dont take responsibility for their own problems and behaviors, and cause their own problems. It's the same reason i don't like fe3h bernadetta or nge ikari shinji. They're infuriating to watch. Maria causes her own problems and then stews in them and suffers while never changing her behavior which is causing a lot of her grief. Relationships are a two way street you have to be willing to meet other people half way. Now with maria she is just a kid and a lot of it isnt her own fault she never was taught better but that doesnt mean she cant be annoying. She's also really immature like most 4 year olds i know are as about as mature as she is i keep forgetting she's 9 and thinking she's like 6. A lot of people also hate rosa and yeah she's a regular child abuser maria deserves better rosa should never throw tantrums and take out her temper on anyone really but especially not her young daughter. but i do sympathize with Rosa. Rosa does care about maria like even when maria's ... what was it... clearly wasn't in that part of the garden rosa went and futilely searched with her. And after when Maria still wanted to stay despite evidence it wasn't there and the rain which was dangerous to her health, rosa offered a compromise to search with her later. She tried so hard to take care of maria and maria is probably a special needs child who need s more energy and time then most. And then rosa lets her own problems get to her and took them out violently on maria. Rosa is wayy too sensitive about perceived hits to her pride, so many issues. I think the writer does a good job of making every character unlikable and sympathetic at the same time, they're all flawed and human and complex. Like kyrie is cool but she also did cheat with a married man. Hideyoshi doesn't seem to have any flaws so far (besides being a capitalist) but i'm waiting george had to end up that way some how.

Rosa slaps maria. Maria cries. Rosa slaps maria for crying. Beatings will continue until morale improves. And then getting defensive about beating a child in public.

Since beatrice and battler both aren't willing to admit defeat are they proposing to spend eternity together playing over these 2 days endlessly.

I'm starting to think rosa might actually have some sort of untreated anger disorder. She really just snaps on the flip of a dime. Beating a child multiple times a day. Rosa's got a lot of her plate sure from the husband than ran away, being a single mom and running a business, her siblings all bully her, eva especially is out to put her down to soother her own sense of security and position. And maria is a convenient outlet as the only person she has power over. And so frequent child abuse. Maria needs to get out except japan's modern displaced child system is bad im assuming the 80's weren't better and maria would be pretty bad off under any of the other parents. And rosa doesn't do anything to fix her own behavior either this cycle continues of violence then rosa begging forgiveness and doing something nice because she feels guilty only to blow up again. And this just repeats multiple times a day.

#Umineko #umineko spoilers

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vicsuragi · 3 years ago

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i don't feel like i can id as ace bc i could see myself having a sexual relationship at some point, but i also know i could live without having sex again. it'd be nice to have sex with a man once before i die but i've (technically. very technically) had it already and i don't necessarily desire it. i get all that i need from reading books and fanfiction.

#i'm also so incredibly put off by so many romantic things but idk if that's bc i'm actually aromantic #or i just don't believe i deserve romantic affection #but i still have trauma from the massive wave of aphobia years ago and think i'm not queer enough if i'm not fucking other men #which os not true but oh it is internalized #vent

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accio-victuuri · 3 years ago

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ybo sdc rehearsal vlog sweets 🍬🧁

first of all, it’s so cute that ybo acknowledged the people who did dance covers @ douyin. i wish someday yibo himself will be a stereotypical tiktok boy and do a dance routine lol.

this post is mainly to point out the fact that xzs and ybo are dating. hahahahaha! atleast their social media manager of sorts or video editors are. or maybe their bosses. who knows.

· • —– ٠ ✤ ٠ —– • ·

Most turtles were probably thinking yesterday when xzs released their vlog if the 24 hour rule will apply. It doesn’t have to be a long video too, it can just be a photo set because ybo does post stock photos too. But no, it was more than we expected. ybo responded with a long form rehearsal vlog of their own. Not really a kadian but look at how close the posting time is. Lol. It’s okay it they both did it at 16:00 but YBO had to post earlier so it won’t be too obvious 😏

The start of both videos showed a supercut of what you will see for the rest of the vlog and both starts at around 0:03 🤍

What are the chances that they have the same style in starting a long form vlog that was published a day apart?

we also have Web showing off his apple watch. Yes dude we know. XZ was also doing the same in his vlog even if we know you’re both endorsing other watches. Also as we CPNd yesterday, XZS was probably hiding GG’s bottled joy container. Compared to Bobo, it’s in there. Lol. Of course, he is their endorser so that’s okay.

+ both using drawings to give more effect to the video.

i see some comments that say if one of them was a girl and with all these coincidences, most blogs will probably be saying they are real. het couples can have the barest similar things months and years apart and people will hold that as more credible. anyway, at least, this kind of thinking keeps them safe because it’s only turtles who pay attention and see this unless it is too obvious and so/os notice too. lol.

and oh! spotted that lone yellow light ⭐️

· • —– ٠ ✤ ٠ —– • ·

Now let’s talk about more sensitive matters, because as much as I wanna scream and shout when things like this happen we also gotta be careful. You may be seeing posts that say they are both in Shanghai. allegedly. Treat it as a fake rumor. Bobo is, but we don’t know about GG. Again, what is important is their privacy and safety. If they don’t wanna be found then we shouldn’t make it hard for them. I saw some comments that a “fan” tried to take a photo of Web and yanyan warned them off. We already know how yibo absolutely hates it when fans follow him around. Airport is probably fine like outside which is a public space and as long as people don’t delay flights and crowd. But he doesn’t like it when fans go to his hotel or whatever. They are real people and deserve to have their own time. The things we pick up and possibly future same events together should be enough.

To those who are going to the BJYX ST, you also might see “burn after reading” comments. The gist of what is going around is this:

GG got picked up from Hangzhou by a vehicle with a Shanghai license plate. His hotel stay in HZ was also refunded. There are also allegedly 4 photos but you can’t find it now.

I cannot confirm who this is from or how reliable. even if they were, it’s pretty dodgy how someone can have this information even if it feeds the CPN machine. Imagine someone stalking GG or Yibo at their hotel and looking at where they go. It’s a clear invasion of privacy even if you just see it in passing is still 50-50 to me. So i’m just putting it here to archive this incident. Again, this is going around BXG circles in weibo. There is no “insider”, especially in international platforms that can confirm this as 100% true. I am labeling this as fake rumor and fan fiction. 👀

-END.

#yizhan #bjyx #all of this is cpn #there is no science here folks im just clowning like i always do

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kittyandco-archive · 4 years ago

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Any f/o advice/encouragement when you constantly feel inadequate? For when it seems like no matter what you do it’s never good enough? For taking the initiative to be proactive and go after the things you want but not getting it anyway so you wonder why you even bother trying? Feeling ironically juxtaposed to this cheery time of year.

hey anon! warning to you & anyone reading that this is going to be long. i'm offering a couple of approaches here (under a keep reading!):

firstly, thank you for reaching out when you feel lost; that in itself can be difficult.

secondly, i used to feel the same way all the time. it's taken work & time for me to be confident in myself, in my ships, etc. of course, i still struggle with inadequacy, impostor syndrome, and other internal issues, but i'm better equipped to handle them now. so take this from someone who was where you were and still are sometimes.

here's one way to look at it: why regret not trying? would you rather say "oh, i didn't get this, but maybe next time" or "why didn't i do that?" if you continually deny yourself the things you want, you will inevitably believe that you don't deserve anything at all. it sounds like the Just Be Happy Sweetie mantras, but your mindset is really important. nihilism is a scourge on this earth because it forces you to not care, not try, not receive because you don't believe you deserve anything, which causes you not to try anymore.

here's another way: who says you "aren't getting it anyway"? what, something didn't go your way a couple of times? yeah, so? you got a whole life ahead of you. like why not! would you rather do something to occupy your mind or dwell on the fact that you're doing nothing? what's it gonna hurt that you try? maybe your feelings if you fail, yeah, but what if you don't? won't you feel on top of the world? chase that feeling, not more insulation. never be on the inside looking out.

here's something that worked for me. change a couple of little things in your life/routine, even if they seemingly have nothing to do with the things you intend to achieve. it may just work. what you essentially do is re-evaluate what may or may not be working in regard to your goals, but inadvertently, so you don't overthink it. it means that you are taking the time to invest in your actions and wellbeing, no matter how small. and these little instances of saying "yes, i care about myself enough to try, etc." can manifest in unwitting ways.

in terms of ships - although this can apply to your real life, your real self-image - write about yourself from your f/o's perspective or a third-person perspective. look at yourself from someone else's eyes. what are you good at? what do you like? dislike? even the "bad parts" of you are what make you yourself and are always up for improvement. that's something to strive for... not perfection, but someone whole.

find ways to connect with your f/os; find similarities between them and yourself. look at the characteristics they have that you love. do you share those traits?

if a more cynical idea works for you: it's just fiction. they're fake people. you can make them feel about you however you want. so. just do it.

in all, it really comes down to you realizing that you're not the villain. you're not the loser. you aren't nearly as bad of a person as you think you are - far from it. i don't know you personally, but i guarantee. you have more to offer than you think, and people may not have told you that, but it is true. you would never speak to someone else this way.

sometimes you are all you have. cherish and nourish that. because when the time comes that you convene with someone else in any context, you will be the best you can be.

#asks #self shipping #meows

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thedreammweaver · 5 years ago

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Call of the Magpie part 1 (Nygmobblepot angst, trans!pregnant!Oswald)

Part 2

Warnings: emetophobia tw, pica, self harm via ingestion of harmful materials, relationship strain, dysphoria, poor mental health, spiraling, ptsd, childhood trauma

“Are you alright?” Ed asked, turning over in bed to place a hand on Ozzie’s shoulder. The shorter man had suffered some embarrassment at a meeting earlier, though he wouldn’t disclose details. Ed guessed it had something to do with him being pregnant and recently beginning to show. Oswald had been losing respect from his peers the moment news of his pregnancy had spread.

Oswald just moved away from Ed.

“If you aren’t you can talk to me-“

“Leave me alone, Edward.”

Ed retreated into himself “O-Okay.”

He was feeling a lot of pressure to be a good partner. He and Oswald had sort of rushed getting into a more serious and official relationship when they found out about the baby. They still weren’t quite used to living together like they were. Ed was determined to make this work, if his parents had taught him anything it was that never making your partner angry no matter what was the way to keep a good relationship...even if it meant suppressing one’s own feelings and being a doormat.

Oswald still felt groggy while trying to do his makeup the next day. While he was internally cursing his increased hormones for making his skin break out as he found acne to be way worse than freckles he noticed a place on the wall next to his vanity where the paint was peeling off. Before he could think to tell Olga to have it fixed he was overcome with an urge to...eat it. He’d dealt with pica due to malnutrition during his teen years and childhood, he’d thought he’d long since kicked the habit but here were those urges again. Gertrud had told him stories of weird cravings from when she was pregnant with him so he’d heard of things like this happening before. He absently picked at the wall, there was no harm in this happening a few times right? It would make a funny story like the ones Gertrud had told him, he thought as some of the paint flaked into his hand.

The dining room was unbearably quiet as Ed and Oswald ate. It was making Ed feel pressure to say the thing that’d been rattling in his mind.

“Do I make you happy?”

Oswald was so caught off guard he almost choked.

“What??”

“Do I make you happy?” Ed felt his voice shaking though he didn’t know why.

Oswald rolled his eyes “Yes, Edward. Why would you ask me that?”

“I don’t know. Things were...rushed, and I just want to make sure I’m not doing anything wron-“

Ed was cut off by Oswald’s phone ringing and the other man excusing himself from the table.

Ed was struggling to quiet his mind as he laid in bed staring at the ceiling. What if he and Oswald weren’t ready for this? He felt like he was becoming his mother, not that Oswald was anything like his father...was he?

No, he wasn’t.

Ed turned over as he recalled studies he’d seen that said children of abuse are likely to end up with abusive partners, what if that was happening now? No, it wasn’t, it couldn’t be. Paranoia was creeping into Ed’s mind and distorting what he knew to be true. Oswald loved him, he would never hurt him like his father did, so why couldn’t he let himself feel safe? Why couldn’t he let himself believe it? His thoughts were interrupted by Oswald getting up and running to the bathroom followed by the sounds of retching.

“I could make you something else.” Ed offered as he helped Oswald get cleaned up. “No, no, it’s fine. I’ll do it myself.” Oswald mumbled, getting off of the counter and walking out of the bathroom. Ed turned around to a spot by the toilet where Oswald had missed. Inspecting a partner’s vomit would be weird, Ed was just going to clean up so Os didn’t have to worry about it. But there was something weird, it looked like paint chips? Ed shook it off. Inspecting was weird, just clean.

Oswald had intended to make actual food but was distracted by papers on his desk in the study, he’d meant to throw them away earlier. He padded into his office and picked up one of the papers. He bit his lip as the thought to eat it came into his mind. He shouldn’t, he really shouldn’t but..he did.

“You’re quiet today.” Lee commented as she finished checking up on Oswald.

“I’m allowed to be quiet, aren’t I?”

“Yes, but quiet isn’t your usual state, I associate you more with screaming.” She chuckled before turning to a more serious tone “Are you okay, Oswald? You can tell me if you aren’t. Pregnancy is hard enough I can’t imagine how much harder it is coupled with being trans-”

“Yes.” Oswald said sharply “I’m fine. I just had a question...”

“Of course, what is it?”

“I...is it normal for..is it normal during pregnancy to want to eat things? I mean..inedible things?”

Lee’s brow furrowed “Are you-“

“Oh, no, I’m not asking for me. My mom- she told me about wanting to eat clay while she was pregnant with me,” Oswald chuckled “I’ve just been wondering about that lately..”

“Uhh, well, pica during pregnancy isn’t unheard of. I’m not an expert on this but the most common...uncommon cravings I’ve heard are like you said clay, rocks, dirt, ice..I think chalk was one. Anyways, I wouldn’t jump to thinking something’s horribly wrong if you start feeling those cravings, but maybe consult me before you put any rocks or dirt in your mouth.” She joked.

“Thank you, Lee.” Oswald said absently.

Lee hadn’t said anything about consulting her before eating glue which is what he was currently sneaking once Ed and Olga were asleep. He was starting to not feel good but he didn’t feel good because of something he had control over, instead of stupid embarrassing things the pregnancy was causing. He was completely and totally in control.. or so he hoped.

#oswald cobblepot #edward nygma #nygmobblepot

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aciieerr · 4 years ago

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POVERTY

Poverty is everybody's problem. Everybody in a sense that boy or girl, young or old, even rich or poor, that is one of their problems. Almost all of the Filipinos are experiencing poverty and it's so sad that the innocent children are the one who affected too much.

At their very young age, they are taught how to earn for a living, just for their own selves and for their family as well.

As a student i learned to appreciate the little things that my parents provided for me just lik when we have food, they always say to us that, "don't waste your food because they are children out there who haven't eaten yet. Be thankful everyday because you can eat three times a day."

My parents always telling me that the only way to overcome poverty is 'education'. They always reminding me and my siblings to study hard so that we don't experience that kind of life because it's so hard and sad. They always teach us to be 'generous'. They want us to finish our study so that we can get a great job in the future so we are able to provide fo family needs and for other people who need help. So, I study hard to become a successful so i can help other people.

We can change not only ourselves, but also the whole world if we can beat poverty. Dream big and believe in your own self, and it's up to us on how to develop it. After all, success will come on your way.

#dream big #we can beat poverty #education is important #better world

FLASH FICTION

I stepped outside into a gorgeous summer day. The sun made everything look bright and cheerful. It would have been an ideal day for a picnic—if I still had a special someone to picnic with.

Nobody would have suspected the thunderstorm going on inside my heart. Lightnings illuminated hidden emotions briefly, followed by a clasp of crushed hopes. Droplets of internal tears poured down, washing off what remained of my romantic dreams.

I sat at the bus stop with a book, reading the same paragraph for the fifth time and trying to look indifferent to my internal weather patterns. Sunglasses masked my puffy eyes and returned the reflection of a nearby flower. I will never love again. Love is just an illusion leading nowhere.

I was so absorbed in my thoughts, I didn't notice the man taking a seat beside me.

"Excuse me, Miss, but I couldn't help noticing that you're reading O. Henry. He's my favorite author."

His deep voice startled me. His friendly smile warmed up my damp heart and blew away some of the storm clouds.

"He's my favorite as well." I tried to return his smile.

We spent the next fifteen minutes talking about literature and its influence in today's culture. The bus came and went. We pretended not to notice.

"By the way, my name is Mark." As his warm hand shook mine, an electric current coursed through me.

"Do you care to join me for lunch?" he added, ignoring my blushing cheeks. "Let's start all over again, shall we? I'm sorry about this morning."

A rainbow appeared, leading the way to a heart of gold. I followed it.

COMEDY DRAMA

"What the heck! Look what you did to my dress? You are so idiotlt! Where's your manager, I will talk to him.

"Manager immediately? You don't want to talk to me ma'am?"

"Ha! You even have the guts to laugh at me! You are so annoying"

Then the manager came. "Hi what's going on here? What's this mess?" He scanned the dress of the lady.

Oh! Are you the manager? Your waitress is so idiot, look what she did to my dress, it so dirty. You know this is so expensive.

"Is it true? You did that to her?" He look at Klare. "Sir, i didn't mean to do that. Is it my fault that she does not looking where she go?"

"Look your waitress is so aaghh!! annoying me so much!" Then she made a face.

"I'm apologizing in behalf of her ma'am, shes just new her so that she's still learning. I'm so sorry ma'am."

"Okay! because I'm late with my meeting, I will forgive her but make sure that this will not happen again." Then she's ready to leave the coffee shop.

"Yes ma'am, I'm so sorry again."

He asked Klare to sit. "Klare next time ba careful with your action so that it does not gonna happen again."

"Yes Sir! Sorry Sir! I will do better next time."

"Okay good. That lady is so loud and her dress os not that good hmmp!"

"Hahaha! It's true sir it was so cheap fashion."

"Okay stop haha go back to work."

HAIKU

SUNSETS

As another day fades

After thousands of sunsets

You give me wonders

TANAGA

SUNSETS

I have always loved sunsets

The way the sun makes love with

The horizon giving birth

To a warm and golden sky

ACROSTIC

Father you are

Always there for me

In my weakness and darkness days you were

There for me, You

Help me

CRAFT ESSAY

Within weeks of his inauguration as president of the Philippines in June 2016, Rodrigo R. Duterte became the most internationally known Filipino leader since Ferdinand Marcos, the country’s infamous dictator, and Corazon Aquino, the iconic housewife-turned-president who championed the restoration of democracy in 1986. A great deal of media attention has been paid to Duterte’s murderous war on drugs as well as to his often crass and controversial statements. His embrace of China and his visceral disdain for the United States has garnered additional attention in foreign policy circles, and he frequently is included in media reports and scholarly articles on the rise of populism globally.

Although the attention to Duterte and his brutal drug war is warranted, much less attention has been paid to his administration’s broader policy agenda, its approach to politics and governance, and its broader impact on democratic institutions and norms. As a candidate, Duterte promised that he would produce real and rapid improvements in the lives of Filipinos, particularly by aggressively addressing crime and corruption. Two and a half years into his presidency, it is both warranted and possible to assess what has and has not changed under Duterte. The picture is a mixed one, with elements of change, continuity, and regression.

The Duterte government’s track record regarding human rights and democracy is undoubtedly disturbing. It has run roughshod over human rights, its political opponents, and the country’s democratic institutions. The combination of the Philippines’ powerful presidency and the malleability of most of its political institutions is resulting in significant democratic backsliding. But to focus only on Duterte fails to appreciate two other important elements: the extent to which this degradation has happened through nominally legal means, and the limited pushback to date by groups and institutions opposed to strongman rule. This working paper takes an in-depth look at the complex dynamics contributing to democratic backsliding in the Philippines.

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sides-of-demigods · 6 years ago

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Emile and Remy

EMILE PICANI (20)

Oracle of Delphi

The Oracle of Delphi is a mortal with the sight that Apollo blessed with the gift of prophecy, specifically making them the vessel of the spirit of Delphi.

I know, I know, plenty of problems with that, but we'll get to those later I swear, just wanna get through the basic stuff.

Emile is influenced by the spirit of Delphi, giving him visions and occasionally possessing him to provide prophecies.

The visions can happen in dreams or when awake and are not always helpful. Sometimes they're full-on visions, but often they're symbolic or just short flashes or don't make sense with no context.

So, you know how in the PJO books, Rachel Dare painted her visions? Emile writes them.

And not in an "Oh this is what happened" like he's taking notes, he writes them like a story to get down every detail possible.

As for prophecies, well there's a risk that every time he's asked a question the spirit of Delphi will take control and give an entire freaking prophecy, but usually she only does that when the person actually needs a prophecy.

Sometimes it will come completely unprompted though, he'll just go into Prophecy Mode for like no reason and confuse everyone.

He doesn't do a lot of fighting and prefers to talk his way through things, but he does have a dagger that Roman and Logan helped teach him to use just in case.

Emile has dirty blonde hair, so dark that sometimes it can pass as a really light brown.

His eyes are bright blue, but when he's having a vision or giving a prophecy they'll glow an eerie sickly green color.

As for height, he's just taller than Patton, but comfortable at 5'9" (175 cm).

Besides, his boyfriend is way taller, and he actually quite enjoys the height difference.

Since he doesn't actually train with everyone, he isn't as well built, but he can hold his own.

Sort of.

Now for the question I'm sure you're asking: "Hey, Sara, why the fuck is Emile the Oracle of Delphi. She's supposed to be a woman. Is your head broken?"

Well here's the thing...he was.

That's right y'all, Emile Picani is transgender.

He became the Oracle of Delphi and arrived at camp around 4 years ago when he was sixteen.

It wasn't until a year later that he realized shit...he was a boy.

Cue internal freakout for a MULTITUDE of reasons.

He knew that only a woman was supposed to be the Oracle of Delphi, and without the spirit of Delphi he was just a random mortal who for some reason could see through the mist.

He wouldn't be able to stay at Camp.

He didn't want to do that!

He had friends, and he just loved Camp.

He and Remy had just said "I love you" a few months ago, and he'd already made arrangements with Chiron to take up permanent residence once he graduated high school.

Should he just deal with it? Should he really just risk all that just because he felt a little dysphoric everytime someone called him Amelia?

Thankfully Remy noticed something was up and the two talked all through the night about what to do, names, and things like that.

Technically Remy was supposed to go back to his cabin, but Chiron let him stay.

The next day, during announcements at dinner, Emile went up and announced that he was a boy and that he'd be going by Emile now.

Almost the entire camp cheered.

Remy announced that anyone who had a problem with it would have to deal with him.

Suddenly everyone was clapping.

Apollo showed up a few days later to sort everything out.

Apparently, you were the Oracle of Delphi until death, so Emile got to stay at Camp and everything was perfect.

Back to his powers for a second.

His powers have an effect on his body.

When having a vision, Emile will stop whatever he's doing or saying and just stand there, his eyes glowing.

Afterward, he'd feel lightheaded, dizzy, and dazed, which was where Remy came in.

Usually Emile would stumble a bit and Remy would be there to catch him every single time without fail. He'd take the shorter boy somewhere to sit down for a minute while he recovered and Emile would write down what he saw.

As for prophecies, those were worse.

Emile wouldn't be able to stand so Remy would grab one of the stools they keep at key places around camp just for this purpose and situate him on it.

Emile would seize up and speak in a voice that wasn't his. Green smoke would seem to appear from nowhere and his eyes would glow.

Immediately afterward he'd completely pass out sometimes for a few minutes, sometimes for hours.

Remy would immediately scoop him up and carry him to his room in the Big House and stay with him until he woke up.

Fun Fact: Emile is a permanent resident of Camp with a room in the Big House ever since he graduated high school. He is taking online classes for a Degree in Psychology in his free time

REMY DORMIR (19)

Son of Aphrodite, goddess of love and beauty

Remy has very very basic charmspeak. He can do very basic commands and can really only give people a push.

But however, he is really good with illusions. Not magic in general like the Hecate kids, just illusions and especially glamors.

In his words, the Mist is his bitch.

Remy actually has two signature weapons, because why not? He never adhered to tradition before so why start now?

The first is a stave/staff that the now Head Counselor of Hecate Camden Foote made for him. Not only does it help him focus his spells and control it more but it gives him an extra reserve to draw from other than himself.

His second is a spear but with the way he uses it it's basically a pointy bo staff.

Literally the only reason it has a spearhead is because you can’t kill monsters with a stick.

The staff is made of aspen wood with a black and silver grip, and the top resembles branches with a bright white light in the middle when Remy is using it.

The spear however is ebony with the usual celestial bronze spearhead and a simple black leather grip. Other than that, it’s not really anything special or extravagant.

Remy is a tall boi, he’s the same height as Logan, which means he’s six feet (182 cm)

His hair is jet black, like “holy crap how is it possible for hair to be that dark” black.

His eyes are gray but somehow they aren’t dull and instead intriguing

Emile is so lucky because his boyfriend is hot as hell

Okay moving on before I forget that I’m a lesbian today

Remy is one of those kids who literally had no idea he was a demigod but once he found out everything in his life suddenly made so much sense.

Like, for instance, the fact that girls were always all over him and people always seemed to want to hang out with him even though they had never met before.

He came to camp for his first summer at 11 years old, so about 8 years ago and the same year Thomas came to camp.

Since then he’s been coming every summer and switched to year-round literally like the second he graduated High School at 17.

No literally, like he changed out of his cap and gown and then drove to camp.

Then all of a sudden he was living there.

As for his family…

His family was stupid rich, and he still had full access to the money as long as he didn't do anything stupid.

He and his dad weren’t estranged and they definitely cared about each other but they just weren’t that close, and Remy was even more distant from his stepdad.

No mortal siblings or friends, but Remy didn’t really need them either.

He and Emile met for the first time when Remy was on a quest. It wasn’t anything major, in fact, it was just him and Thomas hunting down a rogue monster.

The two cornered the thing in an alley and managed to kill it but not before Emile witnessed the whole thing.

And it wasn’t the boys beating up a homeless dude or something, like the Mist should have made Emile see, but he saw everything, from the monster to Remy’s staff.

Remy managed to calm the freaked out mortal and explained the situation as best he could.

The two kept in touch and when it was announced that a search would begin for a new host for the Oracle Remy knew exactly who to call.

The rest was history.

The weird thing for Remy was that he found himself with a crush on Emile, or Amelia at the time, which was beyond confusing because he could have sworn he was gay. But who knew, maybe he was homoflexible.

What he did know was that he REALLY liked Emile. He confessed this soon after Emile took on the spirit of the Oracle and the two started dating

Remy is scary.

When you meet him or talk to him he seems so laid-back and cool and friendly.

But anyone who’s ever seen him fight can tell you that he is NOT someone you should mess with.

The way he moves and fights and even does magic is so fluid and quick it seems effortless.

It’s not just physical though.

Maybe it’s because he’s a child of Aphrodite or maybe it’s just the way he is, but if he wanted to he could easily verbally eviscerate someone.

He has this uncanny ability to be able to tell what your flaws and insecurities and exactly how to exploit them.

And not to mention that he os like the DEFINITION of protective.

Basically everyone is low-key scared of him and they should be.

Fun fact: Thanks to Remy literally always having Starbucks with him, there’s a rumor around camp hat Children of Aphrodite have the ability to summon Starbucks at any time. This obviously isn’t true but none of the Aphrodite kids are denying it. Honestly, half the time the Starbucks isn’t even real, it’s an illusion.

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fatrainbowmermaidunicorn · 6 years ago

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PROMPT GAME #2

"You two really looked great together," another older couple beams at both Y/N and Taehyung after giving their greetings. The two smile and nodded, like they usually do for the millionth time at this kind of parties.

"And there goes another one, saying how great we look," Taehyung chuckled, passing her a glass of wine. Y/N just nodded and, smile, gulping down her drink. At the rate this party is going, she will be needing way more than just a glass for sure. "Aunties and uncles alert," Taehyung whisper and nudge her with his elbow and the two immediately puts on a smile at the two impecabbly dressed couple hewded their way.

"Taehyung, Y/N, you two look wonderful today. Taehyung, handsome as always," Y/N's auntie, her father's oldest sister smile and beams at the young man, and Taehyung flashed his charming smile, making the older lady blush.

"Thanks Aunt May. You look gorgeous as always too,"

"But not as pretty as Y/N here right?" She winks. "So, when are you two ever going to make it official? You wont have a secret engagement or anything right?"

"Aunt May!" Y/N os horrified. Why cant family members just be normal?

"What? Did I say something wrong?" Aunt May feign innocent, strongly believe that the two is a couple although theu have denied it too many times.

"Its definitely wrong! You know we are just friends!" Y/N protests. "We are just... friends," she repeated again, softly this time and sighed and Taehyung chuckled softly besides her at her flustered reaction.

"Young people these days. Is it so hard to woo a girl? Just take her out on a date and pop the question!" Uncle Kent gives out a booming laugh, making Y/N wants to face palmed herself. Thabk god Taehyung is calm and a good sport.

"It cant be that simple Uncle, its not easy to win Y/N's heart, I have to make up some super deliberate plan to woo her before she would ever say yes to me," Taehyung plays along and grab Y/N's hand, holding it tighr, causing her heartbeat to race.

"Well, then I wish you the best of luck son," Uncle Kent tapped his back and make their way to greet some other people. Y/N pulled back her hand the moment they left and pouts.

"What the hell is that Tae? Why are you giving them expectations? You know I dont like that. Now they will be telling asking my parents when we are getting married and the my parents will be asking me and when I tell then its a joke they will nag me about being single and say I'm waiting for a prince to fall down from the sky again!" Y/N grumbles.

"Are you?" Taehyung turns to look at her, smiling that stupid smile that makes Y/N goes crazy. "Waiting for a prince to fall down from the sky?"

"No. Of course not!" I am just waiting for you Kim Taehyung. Y/N wished she can just say it out loud. Oh if only she have that courage. But that will never happen. They have been friends for too long for her to ruined it. Too long. In fact, since the day they were born. Both born as the heir to the wealthiest empire in the country, their parents being close friends and business partners, they are bound to be best friends. Growing up with a silver spoon in their mouth together, some are even convinced that they will marry each other. Well, until Taehyung hits puberty and grew into his looks and turned into the number one romeo in the country. Making appearances at all the parties in town, having one night stands with girls he cant remember the name of and charming everybody socks off while Y/N, who although also grew into her beauty hides behind books and classical music, poetru and arts. Despite their differencesz at the end of the day, Y/N and Taehyung still turns to each other, which is why everybody thinks they are a couple, or want them to be.

Especially at a party hosted by Y/N's parents, filled with cloae relatives and friends.

"Well, you have been single for as long as I have known you Y/N. Which is.. hmmm... let me see... since forever?" Taehyung eyes her carefully. "I wonder who is it you are waiting for?" He smirks. "Is it by any chance, me?"

Y/N chokes on her water.

Taehyung laughs, sipping his drink while watching her closely.

"Ewww. No. Never! Never ever!"

"Oh come on. I am not so bad. What? You have never thought about us? We do make a great couple you know," he winks.

"W-well... I uh," Y/N wrecks her brain, trying to find an answer to this wkward question. Yes, Taehyung teased her a lot, thats what they do, teased each other, but the topic is never this. Never about her wanting him. Because to be honest, there is nothing in this world she rather want than him. "I would! If you are not the number one international player!" Sheaughs nervously, trying to pass it off as a joke, although deep inside it hurts to know how true that statement is. Taehyung will never see her like that. Not when he is surrounded by any girl he could possibly want.

"Really now?" Taehyung smiles and take a step forward, still holding her hand tight, squeezing it while the other cups her chin slowly do her eyes met his. "Then why are your hand sweating so much Y/N?" Taehyung smile, eyes never leaving hers. "You have never imagine us? Together? You have never..." he leans in closer lips only an inch from her, his breath warm on her face. Y/N can smell his intoxicating scent and her eyes flutter close, heartbeat racing like crazy. "Imagine me kissing you? My lips... on yours?" He rubs his thumb on her soft lips, slowly grazing it. Taehyung inched closer, almost closing the tiny gap between them ehen Y/N snapped into reality, realizing what she is about to do and who shes about to do it with. Her eyes opens immediately and Y/N shoved Taehyung away, hard, making him stumbled back in surprised and ran out to the enormous garden.

What is wrong with me? You know Taehyung is just playing. Stupid Y/N, stupid stupid, stupid!

Tears are already running down her face, cascading down her cheeks like endless waterfall. She can hear soft footsteps approaching. Footsteps that she can recognized anywhere.

Taehyung.

How can she forget. Taehyung knows this garden, her garden, as much as she does. He knows exactly where Y/N would hide herself away everytime she wanted some peace and quiet from all her troubles. Taehyung knows her more than she knows herself, so why dont he know how in lovr she is with him?

So in love. Definitely more than friends. Is she really not worthy in his eyes?

"Y/N?" Taehyung took a seat beside her on the cold stone bench, the air immediately turned wuiet as both trying to think of what to say. They have seen each other uoset beforex and Taehyung always seems to know what to say to put a smile back on her face. But not this time. This time, something feels off.

Did he say something wrong earlier?

"Hey Y/N... can you please look at me?" Taehyung whisper softly.

"Can you just please go away Tae? I have never asked you for anything, but just this once, please leave me alone," Y/N sobs.

"No. You need me Y/N..." Taehyung's voice is still soft and calm. "Just like I need you,"

"There you go again!" Y/N snapped and raised her face, eyes filled with anger like Taehyung never has seen before, her whole face dampen with tears. "You just say whatever you want dont you?! Without thinking about anyone elses feelings!"

"Y/N.. what are you talking about. I dont understand. Why are you so mad at me for?" Taehyung is utterly confused at all this anger directed towards him.

"You need me. Just like I need you! You have never imagined us together? You have neevr imagined me kissing you?" She mocked. "What the hell Taehyubg? You think feelings are some kind of a joke?!" Y/N screamed, no longer cared. Patience are running thin when her feelings are this vulnerable.

"You are angry at me because of that?" Taehyung looks at her in disbelief. "I am sorry if you think I crossed the line, but this angry?" Taehyung stands up and paced around. "Do you hate me that much that even the thoughts of being with me makes you want to scream in anger? Make you this upset? Am I that unworthy to you Y/N?"

Y/N was surprised. How can he thinks that way? For what its worth, its the other way around. She will never be good enough for the great Kim Taehyung, best friend or not.

"No Tae.. its not like that..." her voice softens at his sudden outburst.

"Then what is it? I am not good enough for you? Do you despise who I am to the point ot makes you cry? Do I-"

"Its because I love you!"

Taehyung stopped mid-sentence, turning around to face her, mouth slightly open.

"Got your answer now? Its because I fucking love you Tae. Deeply, sincerely in love with you. Has been for years," she laughed through her tears. "But you will never see me that way do you? I am just the bestfriend. The nerd, goody two shoes bestfriend. I understand, how can you even look at me that way with all the girls flocking you. You can have anyone and anyone is licky ro have you,"

"Y/N-"

"Let me finish!" Y/N raised a hand to stop him. It took me years to finally find this courage to say all this, so let me finish,"

Taehyung kept quiet, obliging to her demands.

"I love you Tae. Always have, always will. But I know we will never be. And i am fine with that. I have made my peace with that. But please stop humoring me by saying things about us together. I know its a joke to you but its like a bullet to my fragile heart. Atleast stop until I get over you,"Y/N sighed. "Its funny right? And pathetic. Not to mentioned cliche. Bestfriends falling for the other," she lets out a humorless laugh. "I just need to know one thing Tae. One thing and I promiaed we wont talk about this evee again,"

"What is it Y/N?" Taehyung took a steo and sits back down beside her on the bench.

"What do they have that I dont?" Y/N looks him straight in the eye. "All those firls you have been with, night after night, what do they have that I dont? Why wont you ever look at me Tae?"

Taehyung's heart breaks when Y/N aaked the question. The way her lips quiver, the way her eyes shines with tears, the look in her eyes thay shows him how she really believed that shes never going to be enough for him.

"Do you really want to know the answer? Are you ready for it?" Taehyung looks at her, unblinking and Y/N nodded, already bracing herself for an answer that will break her heart forever. "Then I am going to tell ypu what they dont have instead.."

Taehyung's face is serious as he takes her hand and places it in his.

"Well, for one... they dont have my heart. This heart that just automatically surrenders to you ever since I understand what love is," he smiles, his beautiful, charming smile.

"T-tae. W-what are you-"

"Shhh. I am not done," he puts a finger on her lips to quiet her down. "You talk to much, its my turn noe. Second, they dont have the permission of your parents to marry you..." he smile wider. "And third, they dont have this ring," he took out a diamond ring from his pocket and kneels down in front of her, making Y/N speechless. "That I have been carrying around for weeks, trying to find the right time to do this,"

"T-tae?"

"Y/N... baby," he grins. "Will you make me the happiest man alive by not just being my best friend for life, but also become the love of my life, my wife, my everything?"

"I-i..."

"I can help you with that. Yes would be great," he flashed her another one of his charming smile. The same smike that has made Y/N's heart race for years, but now she knows it fully belongs to her.

"Yes. Kim Taehyung. Yes. Definitely yes

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yordibarnhoorn-blog1 · 5 years ago

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How To Give Yourself A Using Veet - Hair Removel Cream

Tips and tricks for pubic hair cream

Depilatory creams have quickly become a popular choice for many people when it comes to removing unwanted facial and body hair. This is probably because it is a very inexpensive, super fast and super easy way to get rid of hair, not to mention that they are the most painless way to do it if you do not have very sensitive skin.

Nevertheless, despite its popularity, there are still those who do not know how to use the cream for hair removal, especially in the "private parts". This is probably due to the fact that the pubic region is considered one of the most sensitive parts of the body, so people use chemicals more carefully there.

To give you more confidence and safety, here are a few steps on how to use depilatory cream in private places:

Find a suitable pubic depilation cream.

Since the genital area is more sensitive than other parts of the body, you can choose a product specifically designed for this skin type and area.

If you cannot find a solution designed specifically for the pubic area, it is best to choose a brand of depilation cream that is suitable for sensitive skin, as it is usually safer for sensitive areas such as the genital area.

Try the cream in a small place on the top line of the bikini. An important tip on how to use depilatory cream on individual parts of the body or on any part of your body is to try it first. It would be better if you tested it on a small section of the bikini top line to see if you have an allergic reaction.

The upper part of the bikini is better because it has about the same skin texture as the pubic region. Leave for several hours and be careful with itching, burning, redness, or pain.

Take a warm bath or shower.

Applying the cream after bathing helps the cream do its magic, as wet hair is generally softer and easier to remove than dry hair, which can be more difficult to break. You can do this at the end of one of your regular baths or showers, or you can deliberately take a shower or wash your personal cabinet before applying hair removal cream.

Wait at least 3 days after shaving before applying the cream. This is because shaving can cause cuts or scratches on the skin, leaving it open and more sensitive if it comes in contact with chemicals such as those found in depilatory creams.

If you have open cuts on your skin, no matter how small they are, you may experience an allergic reaction to the cream after applying it, as the product will fall on an open surface. It can be quite painful if this happens, and you may see redness and swelling or a rash in the area.

Apply cream only to the external pubic area.

Make sure that the cream does not get into the most sensitive internal areas, which can cause a burning sensation and some damage to the skin. You can evenly apply it with a spatula, which is usually supplied with the product.

A spatula will protect the cream from the hands to prevent accidents such as accidentally rubbing it into other areas such as the face or eyes. A spatula can also help you apply the product more evenly.

Wait ten minutes.

Usually you experience a slight tingling sensation, and the smell can be a little unpleasant, as chemical reactions act on the melting of the hair. A slight tingling should not burn or hurt.

Wipe clean with a damp cloth. Once you clean the cream, the hair should come off with it. It usually takes a few strokes before the entire cream with the hair is completely removed. Be sure to wash the washcloth every few strokes to get a clean washcloth.

Wash thoroughly

After cleaning the entire cream, you still need to thoroughly rinse the remaining product to make sure that there are no chemicals left on the skin that can irritate it. Also, make sure that you no longer apply anything in the area within the next 24 hours. This may include soaps, lotions, creams, or perfumes. Allow your skin to breathe and do not leave any products for at least one day.

Use tweezers to remove any remaining hairs.

For people with thicker and thicker hair, some naughty hair may remain. There should be very few of them, so it won't take long to tear them one by one until you reach clean, smooth skin in the pubic area.

We hope that the tips and steps listed above will clarify any questions about how to use the depilation cream on private parts.

How much hair can you remove with Veet?

Would you like to go beyond what the word “bikini line” means? Do you really know what the word “bikini line” means? Then go crazy. Make an incision so that you can easily spread the cream, and then boldly write your name if you like your boat / fleet (well, so it can be quite difficult, but of course I can sculpt). For everyone who is concerned about the appearance of the wax chassis, I like it all and the small runway, otherwise my vagina looks incredibly shocked, cold and faithful, and I never experienced any irritation or problems. At most, you pinched some homeless boys (read: hair). At best, you are ready to go.

How bad is the new growth with depilation cream?

Although, it’s true, he comes back in a few days, it’s much better than shaving, it doesn’t mean any serious growth rash, and the result is much smoother when the Emery Board period is over. Oh, have you not heard of EBP? It lasts about 12 hours and makes sex uncomfortable and fun, and also almost impossible if you do not lubricate the entire crotch. On the other hand, if you have cabinets or baseboards that require grinding, this is more of a blessing than a nuisance, and the time has come when your OS will fall on you, because if he (or she) does something else, then an opportunity eroding them like the white cliffs of Dover.

How often can you do this?

Since it is so fast and much less cumbersome than shaving, you can repeat the process after several days of regeneration, because now there are veterinarians who are suitable for shorter hair. Did he ever catch you shortly before night, when you were hairier than you would like, but not enough to shave in an emergency, because what the hell does it hurt? Welcome to the Veet town, fill your vagina. And my vagina And, perhaps, several other vaginas, otherwise they would not have done just as well in the sales department.

Also...

This is ridiculous! You melt the hair of your vagina! Much more fun than having wax (too professional and normal) or shaving (too impractical). This probably should not be the main topic of this article, but if you are just like me and sometimes imitate a tan as a personal joke on yourself, then this is a good reason to get a Veet-ing.

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journeysintowebcomics · 6 years ago

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Worm Liveblog #114

UPDATE 114: Simpler Times

Last time the Undersiders had managed to defeat Coil, and took over Brockton Bay as a result. Dinah is now safe, and all is well...until forty-five minutes later, when they found out Noelle has escaped her vault. Tattletale says that’s very bad. So let’s continue!

Ah, the arc ended, and it seems what follows isn’t an interlude, but a new arc. I’m surprised – while I thought it was possible the arc would continue for maybe one chapter more, I didn’t think this would go straight into the next one. Alright! So, the new arc is called Migration.

Oh, nevermind, this is an interlude, similar to the one with the Wards ages ago, I imagine. There’s a guy called Francis, who is getting scolded for leaving when family is coming over. This Francis person is making money with something his mother doesn’t approve, and he argues they’re on the verge of getting a sponsorship. Oh boy. ‘On the verge’ means it’s not certain. I hope this Francis guy isn’t gambling much on the possibility of a sponsorship. Given how he’s arguing with this as his cornerstone, he’ll be doomed if he doesn’t get the sponsorship.

It’s even worse when it’s revealed this Francis guy isn’t officially in the group yet. Oh dang, he really is gambling a lot. I for one hope it all works well, because otherwise he’s going to get a full serving of ‘I told you so’ from his mother.

That seems to be all. Having placated his mom, Francis walks with his luggage and gets on a bus, giddy he’s possibly annoying other people, and feels smugly superior to other people. Well that’s not an endearing character trait, is it. Still, someone having a bad trait is good, as long as it’s balanced with good traits! But yeah, who is this Francis guy, anyway?

Her face lit up as she saw him. He, in turn, snapped a smart salute. “Captain Noelle, ma’am!”

Oh, I see! I see now! So that’s Noelle...hmm...if Noelle is part of this gaming group, then that’d mean the Travelers are the members of this group. In which case this Francis is either Trickster or Ballistic. Most likely Trickster, I’d say. Alright!

Noelle doesn’t appreciate the playful greetings, coyly telling him to stop, and mentions they’re ‘probationary boyfriend and girlfriend’. So they’re a couple! I see. That’s why Trickster is so invested in Coil helping Noelle. I can sympathize with that, yep. During these outrageously saccharine public displays of affection, Marissa arrives. Mars. Sundancer, no?

I wonder if by now they all had their powers. Maybe they gathered as a gaming group because of their powers. Not that I can think of how they can use their powers. Making miniature suns sure isn’t going to help your gaming skills, unless you use that sun to melt the opponents’ systems, haha

There’s Luke, there’s Jess. Hmmm...by process of elimination, those must be Ballistic and Genesis – supposing Francis really is Trickster. They’re all together. Say, wasn’t there some guy named Oliver, who stayed in the headquarters while everyone else went and fought? I think there was someone with that name. That person hasn’t appeared yet here in this meeting.

Now that they’re all gathered, they can start their discussion for real. Noelle is in charge. Does that mean Trickster – leader of the Travelers – was the second in command, and had to take charge since Noelle can’t?

Apparently they have been discussing about kicking an average player out of the group, because he’s boring and doesn’t have as many fans. Francis, on the other hand, has so many fans – fans I imagine would be upset if he’s kicked out or something. If they’re a new team, then they’ll need as many fans as they can. Pragmatism dictates the person named Cody is kicked out. The emotional factor, though, is what’s giving them trouble. Cody is their friend and this will hurt him a lot.

Noelle nodded. “Say what you will about Krouse, like how he’s crap when it comes to calling shots-”

“Hey.”

“Or even the fact that he’s prone to ignoring orders if he thinks it’ll help us. Um, he’s right so long as it’s just him operating solo, but yeah… The thing is, if we’re talking about the big picture, international recognition and going head to head with the best in the world… Krouse has the natural ability to change things up, so we can adapt our strategies to whatever they’re able to pull off.”

Okay, that definitely is Trickster. Trickster’s pretty crap at calling shots, and adapts well enough during the fights. The main character point of view is Trickster’s.

To try to convince them he’s the right person to keep, Francis argues on his behalf, saying this Cody person can’t improve any further, while he can still play better and better. They can’t wait for Cody to improve; they have to act now.

“If you fuck this up for us, you know we’ll never let you live it down,” Luke said.

It’s not like they’ll lose a local tournament. If Francis screws up, they’ll lose boatloads of money and lucrative contracts. Many would think that warrants a little more than ‘never let you live it down’, hah.

Either way, Francis’ arguments were successful. Pretty much everyone agrees to kick Cody out and keep Francis. This can’t be easy to tell Cody, who will do it? Having decided it needed to be done now, they all walk towards the place Cody is at, and it’s decided Francis won’t be right there when Cody is given the boot. Yeah, good idea. It sure would hurt to be replaced and see the guy replacing you sitting right there.

Jess and Francis ride the elevator afterwards, Genesis noting Francis is rather nervous right now.

“The more overconfident you act, the more nervous you are. And when you’re feeling down, you poke at people, provoke them. I think you get some validation out of it, like, if you can test people and they’re still your friends after, you can feel confident in that friendship.”

Well, there’s also that Francis enjoys annoying people, apparently. I guess a lot of his behavior is all about needling and annoying other people.

I’m a bit baffled they keep saying Marissa can be a megabitch. She sure seemed like the person least likely to be abrasive towards other people. Maybe she’s the kind who yells into the voice chat.

As expected, Cody didn’t take it very well. They barely got off the elevator when they started hearing the yelling, Cody is accusing Francis of being a conniving prick who started dating Noelle after she was named captain. Hm. I don’t know, I don’t think he’d be that slimy. Francis is a hella unpleasant person, but is he that much of a jerk? I don’t think so.

There’s two people named Oliver and Chris. Ah, there’s Oliver. What’s Oliver’s role in all this? It doesn’t seem like he’s part of the gaming team, so...is he just a friend who tagged along? Is he with them all because he had a power and therefore fit in the Travelers, while Cody and Chris didn’t take part in that villain team because of the lack of powers? Or perhaps...perhaps Cody and Chris are dead? There’s not that many options as to what happened to them. For all I know, they just were left behind while the Travelers...traveled. It doesn’t have to be a sinister deal.

“Cody,” Noelle started, “We talked it over-”

“Without me!”

“Because we knew you’d react like this, and we wanted to be sure we all agreed before we moved ahead.”

“And I bet Krouse was there, wasn’t he?”

“He was.”

“Real fair.”

“He kept his mouth shut,” Noelle said.

Not exactly true, Krouse thought.

He’s got a point there, that wasn’t exactly fair. Francis got the chance to argue on his behalf, Cody didn’t get that courtesy. I don’t know, seems to me like they all had already strongly considered accepting Francis into the team, before the meeting started.

As expected, Cody is furious to see Francis here. He really shouldn’t have come. A few lines later, I’m proven wrong, he should be here. So, what’s happening is that they’re going to have one session right now. If Francis does awful, then he’s out and Cody stays. Obviously Cody wants to see Francis crash and burn. I think it’s a given what the result of this all will be.

“Here, Noelle,” Krouse said. He set his luggage flat on the ground and unzipped it. There were computers inside, each half the size of a regular desktop, wrapped in layers of towels and plastic sheeting.

“Thanks for the loan. Don’t trust mine with the sheer amount of crap my cousin downloaded onto it.”

“Actually…” He trailed off, sticking his hands in his pockets. “I took my old machine, I replaced the power supply, formatted it, installed a clean OS and done all my usual tricks for clearing out the crap that we’ll never use and optimizing it. You can consider it an early Christmas present.”

Say, doing this right in front of Cody’s not going to make him stop thinking Francis is trying hard to get on Noelle’s good side to get the spot in the team.

What follows is largely paragraphs of stuff I’m not sure what to think about, because it’s them discussing their strategies to play the game. The only thing I can comment about is that Chris and Oliver are like the reserves, although neither of them are very good. Francis used to be one of them.

The strategizing stops when the building rumbles, and a blackout happens. They barely have time to wonder what’s going on and complain about the blackout when there’s a moment of weightlessness.

A heartbeat later, the windows were directly overhead, and he was falling. He started to scream, but he managed only a monosyllabic, “Ah!” before he fell onto the side of the dining room table, tumbled to one side and slammed into the chairs, the wind knocked out of him.

It sounds like the room turned 90 degrees all of a sudden, fast enough for his body to not even feel how the floor tilts and everything goes topsy-turvy. Perhaps it’s the work of a villain?

Francis was lucky enough to be able to look around and get away from immediate danger, Noelle wasn’t so lucky. She crashed onto a chair, and then the computers fell on her. That’s got to hurt, those aren’t soft objects at all. There’s no word on how the rest are like, but they must currently be being pelted by objects. I hope they’re protecting their heads, but I’m kind of expecting a fracture or two.

Noelle is so hurt she’s bleeding from the nose and mouth, that sounds kind of like a concussion. I wonder if that affected anything in the present. But hey, you know what? All that’s happening right now is a good chance for trigger events, especially because soon it’s revealed Chris is dead. What about Cody, he okay?

Since the apartment has turned ninety degrees, leaving to a safe place is going to be rather difficult. Is this apartment the only thing that rotated? What’ll they see if they manage to get to the entrance door? Hmmm...also, what caused this? There’s a mention of a constant female scream. If it’s not one of the gals who are still awake and conscious, is it the parahuman who caused this to happen?

It takes a few minutes to be able to reunite with the rest, thanks to a knotted sheet. Francis manages to climb it even though he’s carrying Noelle, reaching the place with the rest. Chris had quite the gruesome death, but at least it sounds like it may have been instant. Everyone except Marissa is trying very hard not to look at it.

“We need a way out of here first.” Luke looked up at the windows, ten feet above their heads. Neither the floor nor the ceiling offered anything to grip.

Since it’s a window that’s on what’s now the ceiling, and it seems like this apartment was on the top floor, it’d give them access to the very top of the building, no? Hm...that’d be almost impossible to go down from, unless what turned ninety degrees was the entire building – which isn’t that unlikely, but I imagine it’d cause quite the commotion outside, enough for them to hear screams and panic.

It takes some effort, but they manage to get up there. It’s pretty cold, which is bad when you’re already injured and in shock. With some luck they’ll find a safe place, but yeah, they have to get help as soon as possible.

He stared out at the city around him. Snow had been stirred into clouds, and half a dozen buildings had obviously been knocked down, judging by the remaining wreckage. Luke’s apartment building had toppled. How did it not collapse in on our heads?

Oh! Alright, the entire building did fall down! I know this is a rough situation, but given how suddenly and quickly it happened the people inside didn’t even have time to notice everything was tilting, I keep imagining the building just...turned ninety degrees in the blink of an eye. It’s such a cartoonish mental image.

The state of the building is the least of their concerns, anyway. They have to do something to survive the current problem. The constant scream isn’t helping. Soon they find the source of the song, and here is when I get giddy. There she is!

“The Simurgh,” Jess corrected, her voice small. “What is she doing here? Why is she here?”

Oh boy, that makes two Endbringers seen in the story. No, the Simurgh interfering with Dragon’s communications didn’t count, that was too brief. Only one is left! Knowing Mr. Wildbow, it’s bound to happen at some point!

Francis’ suggestion is to run, which although is a sensible reaction and definitely what anyone should do, I don’t think it’ll be of much help. Good thing it’s guaranteed most of the people here will survive to be the Travelers. I suppose the city will be destroyed and, having nothing left and no family to go back to – ouch – they turn into their nomadic lifestyle? Also, Cody is so dead. I suppose something the Simurgh does will lead to his demise.

This is a bit of a short update, but I have to end it here.

Next time: next update

#worm #worm liveblog #webserial #liveblog #webserial liveblog

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yinzhengs · 6 years ago

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I would love your favorite excerpt of the OS novel. Also, more noodling about presenting Lu Li's POV vs. presenting CZ's.

wow okay the OS novel is Very Long and also i haven’t properly finished it (i’ve read around half of it and also skipped around to read certain scenes, eg. the ending) but hmm… i’ll translate the ending scene, for starters, since it plays out Very Differently in the novel in a separate post (while it’s not my favorite scene per se, it’s a very interesting one and i think it deserves a post to itself), and i’ll talk a little about chi zhen vs lu li here, hehe.

i think one interesting thing that tends to happen with people writing lu li is that they take a very exterior perspective — rather than following his internal thoughts and feelings, they describe his external reactions: “the impatience sharp in his gaze,” the way he clenches his hands into fists, “nails digging into the edge of the table.” a lot of his pov is told through cut-and-dry facts that he absorbs and then reacts to, and it’s left to us as the reader to interpret that. in chinese, a language where most third person narratives like this are told from a much more detached / omniscient perspective than the english language sometimes allows, it’s difficult to keep the tone for these kinds of passages from getting too impersonal / dry, in my opinion, especially when it’s put side-by-side with cz’s pov.

with cz, authors tend to have a lot more fun. he’s not just “tired,” his “soul’s been sucked out of him” — he doesn’t just “shuffle home,” he “drags his exhausted body home.” the looser, cz-style narration comes through in the third person narration itself, which makes it much more amenable to your traditional informal fic narration (compared to ll’s pov parts, which often to me come across like i’m trying to write some serious novel content instead). whereas ll pov tends to tell you directly as the reader what ll’s feeling, cz pov conveys it with the words and tone of the narration itself.

of course, a lot of these differences are also due to just (i imagine) the universal difficulty of writing ll’s pov, because he seems so much harder to crack than cz, who tends to be allowed so much more interiority in fic / even in the novel. where my translation is concerned, there’s often many stumbling points where i translate ll’s parts very literally before taking a step back and going, “hm, nobody in their right mind would actually say this in english. oh no.”

but quite honestly, i think the dryness / awkwardness is almost a hallmark difficulty of trying to translate any kind of fiction from chinese — it’s just that the looser tone of chi zhen’s pov’s lends itself to more creative phrasing compared to the straightforward narration of ll’s pov, which leaves me less wiggle-room to rephrase and reword.

while i’m here complaining about rephrasing and rewording, can i just vent about my love-hate relationship with 成语? they’re essentially four-character chinese idioms, a lot of which are associated with some story or history or something, and using them makes you sound very fancy and educated but also they are a pain in the ass to translate 90% of the time, especially because they often convey such a specific meaning in a very small package.

eg. take this quote from the previous chapter of “by my side:”

Pursuing justice without a second thought, Chi Zhen thought, dryly. Maybe I’m cut out to be a cop, after all.

what was the original for that first part, you may ask? well, it was 义无反顾. literally translated, it’d be something like “righteousness without looking back” — more figuratively, it’d be said off-handedly to mean something like “honor does not allow one to glance back,” or it can be used as a descriptive phrase to mean “duty-bound not to turn back.”

in this case, chi zhen uses it to say something very literally translated as “this style of these 义无反顾 actions [i’m doing] are actually really suited to being a police officer,” which was then rendered into the quote above.

tl;dr translation is fun and also brain-numbingly difficult sometimes, but having a character whose pov is looser to begin with is a great help when you’re trying to rephrase something in a way that is true to their voice, even across the language barrier. (it’s something i also had to think about a lot while subbing OS itself — chi zhen is witty and clever and an eternal smartass, and it was tough to try to find a voice that would fit that in english…)

#original sin #原生之罪 #chi zhen #lu li #xia talks #translation #long post

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huffletiika · 7 years ago

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About late studying sessions and presumably haunted corridors.

Ok, peeps, I have decided to take part of this year’s Lutteo ficweek… even if I have no time, or whatsoever. I might skip some days, tho, as there are some prompts that didn’t inspired me #tja. Anyway, I hope you like this one.

Anyway, just some info before you start reading: this OS is at the same universe as my Gastina multi-chapter “Hello, stranger.” So, if anyone is interested on reading it before (or after) getting into this, I will leave you the link RIGHT HERE. But, don’t worry, there’s no need to read it to understand the OS, as this is a prequel that takes place way before the events of my multi-chapter. However, there might be a little wink for those who read it.

Words count: 2.4K.

DAY 1 – “it’s 3 am and I’m still in the library studying for finals and I’m losing my grip on reality and I think I just saw a ghost”.

Finals are going to be the death of her.

Seriously, it’s like no matter how much she tries to keep her studying schedule going, she will just not gonna make it, not even with the very well done graphics an diagrams her best friend made for her. Days doesn’t have enough hours for her to have enough time to learn all she has for her exams, and at the same time training for the skating competition, and going to all those social events her grandfather told her she must go in order to keep the Benson’s inversions safe and sound.

She can’t wait for summer vacations.

The next day (correction, that day, as it’s already three in the morning) she has one of the most important exams for her career, and she really need a high grade on this one in order to pass.

She tried studying in her dormitory, she really did, but she gave up at 10pm as the girls from the dormitory next to hers and Nina’s had decided to throw a party for the end of the semester, and the music was so loud she thought the walls would break at any moment. So, she had to walk all her way to the library in order to find a quiet place, internally grateful for living in a dorm inside the campus. Her parents would kill her if they find out about her having to walk down the street in the middle of the night.

Since the finals started, the library has remained 24hrs open as an incentive for students to use it to prepare for their exams instead of the many outdoor places on campus, as the benches outside the buildings, or the dark gardens. It might sound crazy, but just a week ago they found a student sleeping in a picnic mat outside the engineering faculty, hugging his advanced calculus book, mumbling something about going late for his exam while on his sleep. There were memes with his picture all over the campus app, it got viral.

The library has become the second home for many.

Surprisingly, that day the library doesn’t seem to be as popular. Well, there were many students when she arrived but, as midnight arrived, she noticed she was the only one at that specific section, and that the rest of them were practically empty. That’s just so great. She tried to focus on the words from her text book, on solving the problems, on getting all that info into her head, but as it started getting later her eyes started to burn, and the words became blurry, so she finally realized that what she didn’t learn in the whole semester, she wouldn’t learn in those five hours she had left before having to go comply her death sentence. Come what may, her father is always telling her, and she believes him.

She is so gonna fail.

When she stands to leave the study cubicle she notices it’s darker than she expected. There are some light spots, of course, but many of these seem to have gotten damaged. She walks toward the shelves to put the books back at the place they belong, and as she gets deeper at those dark aisles, she starts to have the feeling that she is not alone.

She looks around, but there’s nothing either on her left or her right, and she tells herself that it’s just her head playing games. She has never believed in ghosts, even after her biological parents appeared in her dreams, and she wouldn’t start doing so now.

She leaves the last book at the right shelf, having to get on her tiptoes for that hard mission, and then sighs looking at the time on her phone’s screen. If she leaves now she will be at home at 3:40, and so she would have a couple of hours to sleep. A sound coming from her left calls her attention, putting her on alert. But there’s nothing. There’s no such thing as ghosts, she reminds herself, you are just tired from studying, and it’s all in your head. But there were stories, many indeed, of a student that died in the library years ago, crushed by a shelf that fell on her as she tried to reach a book that was on the top, and other who took his life on the 90s after losing all his finals.

Those are just stories, she reminds herself as she tries to breathe in and breathe out to calm herself, and get her backpack from the floor, but as soon as she gets up she finds someone standing right in front of her.

She screams.

Someone from the distance shushes.

Throwing her backpack at the mysterious figure she tries to run away, but it grabs her wrist, and she is not able to get away from its grip no matter how hard she tries.

Her heart is racing inside her chest, she is scared, much more than after waking up from one of those terrible nightmares about the fire where her biological parents died. Her mind isn’t thinking in other thing than running away, than getting into her room and hiding under her blankets, maybe hugging the very cute teddy bear her grandpa gave her when they found out she was the granddaughter he thought he had lost years ago.

“Calm down, Chica Delivery. It’s me,” a male voice she knows pretty well gets into her ears, calming her down, throwing all fear away from her body. She looks back at him, stopping her intends to scape, and as soon as their eyes meet, she manages to let go of his grip with a swipe.

“Are you crazy, Matteo?! You scared me to death!” she claims, wishing to have something to throw at his stupid face when she sees him grinning. He’s just- Ugh! She can’t stand him, or his stupid smile, or his perfect eyes, or that hair of him where she wants to dig her hands in, and…

Enough.

“Ouch, I didn’t know I was that ugly,” he teases, and then bends down to pick up the backpack, and then offers it back to her. “Let’s make it a tie. I mean, you almost killed me with this,” he adds, as she gets her belongings back.

“I didn’t meant to… it was your fault for scaring me,” she fires back.

“Oh right, keep blaming me,” he rolls his eyes and crosses his arms over his chest. Oh shit, she thinks, he’s wearing one of those stupid vests that look way too good on him. Her sanity decides to submit her resignation, there’s no way she could handle him. “What are you doing here at these hours, anyway?” he asks. “I thought your roommate was the kind of person who would be okay with you studying in your room no matter what time.” She has to look away when he carelessly supports his side on the shelf.

How does he always looks so good?

“She is,” she defends her, frowning at him. Nina is one of the few people she has met in Buenos Aires that she can confidently call a true friend. “But our neighbors finished their finals today, and threw a party to celebrate,” she explains, with a shrug.

He puts a grimace.

“Whoa, that sucks,” he says, and for once he agrees with him.

“Tell me about it!” she replies, and another shush comes from an undetermined place in the library. She lowers her voice. “And you? What are you doing here at this hour? I thought you had a fancy flat with enough space to study, even if you have the loudest roommate, which you don’t,” she asks, and his stupidly attractive grin gets wider.

“Can I ask how you know that?” he rises his eyebrows, and she swears under her breath. She can’t tell him that her roommate has a crush on his roommate, that’s practically breaking all the rules of friendship.

She goes for a better excuse.

“You seem to forget that your ex-girlfriend is my cousin.”

“And it seems like you have paid too much attention to what she says about me,” he fires back with a cocky smile. His fresa attitude drives her insane. “But, don’t worry, it’s normal to want to know more about me, you are not the only girl who does that at the campus.” She rolls her eyes.

“Whoa, Chico Fresa, I thought your ego couldn’t grow bigger,” she replies, sarcastically. Then reminds him: “You still haven’t answered my question.” He shrugs.

“This is just a really nice puns-free environment to study,” he briefly answers, looking away as if something has ashamed him. How come? She frowns, and he changes his attitude in a click. “Anyway, are you going back at your dorm now? I can give you a ride.” She’s about to reject his offer, but he interrupts her. “I know you live inside the campus, but it’s still dangerous to walk there alone at this hour, so please let me take you there.” How could she refuse his offer after those words? She ends up accepting.

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His car seat is the most comfortable thing she has ever sit on, she thinks, as she closes her eyes and lets the sound of the engine, and the delicious smell of his cologne (the one that seems to dominate the place) lull her, to the point of even falling asleep for a few seconds.

She hears him chuckle.

“What’s so funny?” she asks, her eyes still closed.

“Nothing,” his response comes quickly, but then it seems like he gives up. “It’s just… you almost look inoffensive right now.” She sticks her tongue out at him, and he giggles.

Then they stay silent for a couple of minutes, in whose she nervously drums with her fingers.

“So, I went to the Jam & Roller last night and saw the Roller Band playing,” he casually says, as if taking those words out of his mouth wouldn’t have cost all of his courage. “Your boyfriend and his bandmates are really good,” he adds, as he parks in front of her building.

“Yeah, they ar… wait, boyfriend?” She looks at him, confused.

“Yes, the guitarist is your boyfriend. Isn’t him?” he frowns.

He saw them being very affectionate with each other some weeks ago, at the skating rink, and that restrained his attempts to get closer to her, to let her know how much he likes her. Gastón wouldn’t leave him alone since then, of course, bugging him about how an idiot he was for letting those assumptions stop him from getting the girl, as if he wasn’t MATTEO BALSANO, the king of the rink, the one who always gets everything he wants, and throwing bad puns and references about Luna at any given opportunity.

“No, we are not,” she replies. “He’s my best friend, I know him since I lived in Cancun, why would you think we are dating?” She asks, and he glances away, looking kind of ashamed.

“I just supposed it as you seem to be so close,” he answers, with a shrug. Internally, he is dancing la Macarena, and opening a bottle of tequila. He might indeed do that as soon as he gets to his flat.

Luna and Simon aren’t a couple.

He has a chance.

He needs to make a plan, and fast, step up his game and get a date before she leaves the car. He isn’t going to miss any more time, not after the disaster the past month has been.

“But I guess I was wrong,” he adds, turning off the engine of the car. She makes an overacted face of surprise, and takes her hand to his forehead, as she’s testing if he has fever.

“Are you ok, Chico Fresa?” she asks, her really bad acting making him smile. “You just admitted you were wrong about something, so this is either you dying from some sickness or a miracle,” she teases, and he cackles.

“Ha-ha, Very funny, Chica Delivery,” he takes her hand out of his forehead, even if he would have wanted it to stay there for a little longer. He casually forgets to release it, tho. “Then, if he is not your boyfriend, I guess there wouldn’t be a problem if I invite you out for a milkshake one of these days… like, for example, tonight?” he suggests, knowing he’s risking a lot with this proposal. He slowly releases her hand. After her response he will have either a date with the girl he fancies since they met, or the biggest rejection of his whole life. The only one that would have mattered. “I mean, I owe you that for scaring you today.” Yes, he thought, make it sound as casual as possible.

She frowns.

“I thought we were even after I almost killed you with my backpack,” she replies, and he’s almost sure she will say no, he could feel it in his bones, or maybe those were just his insecurities kicking in. Since he met her, he knows how it feels to be afraid of not being enough for someone, of being rejected. She takes what seems like an eternity to consider his offer. “But, who am I to refuse such an invitation?” He felt his own smile growing on his face, as the cloud of doubt fades away. “Tonight is perfect, I will need lots of sweet after failing my exam,” she confesses.

“You won’t fail it, Chica Delivery. Stop being so negative,” he tries to cheer her up, bopping on her nose, making her wrinkle it. “I’ll pick you up around seven, is it okay for you?” he asks, and she nods with a bright smile.

“It’s a dat…” she interrupts herself, getting as red as a tomato. “I mean, it’s a… a deal,” she stutters and then bites her lower lip. He laughs and nods, but in his mind he is the one doing it.

“It’s a deal,” he agrees, and then both of them say goodbye. He might have intentionally missed her cheek while kissing her goodbye, touching the corner of her lips instead.

“Hey,” she tells him, putting half of her body through the window after closing the door, as her height wouldn’t help her much. “Send me a message when you get home, ok?” she asks him, and he couldn’t help but smile back at her and nod. If he wasn’t before, now he is sure that he is deeply in love with her.

You (sent 3:40am)

I’m home, Chica Delivery.

ChicaDelivery (sent 9:31am)

I’m so sorry, I fell asleep.

And I’m running late for my final!

Thanks for not forgetting about the message.

See you tonight?

You (sent 9:38am)

It’s ok. I hope you get there on time.

And I’m glad you didn’t forget about our deal.

See you tonight, Chica Delivery ;)!

#Soy Luna #lutteoficweek #lutteo #lutteo fanfic #Luna Valente #Matteo Balsano #Soy Luna Fanfic #Written by me #UniversityAU

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lexhunter168 · 4 years ago

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How Can I Free Up Space On My Mac

Mar 13, 2018 Hard drives are getting larger and larger, but somehow they always seem to fill up. This is even more true if you’re using a solid-state drive (SSD), which offers much less hard drive space than traditional mechanical hard drives. RELATED: 10 Ways To Free Up Disk Space on Your Mac Hard Drive. If you’re hurting for hard drive space, these. How to check a Mac’s free hard drive space. You also get a simplified overview of what sort of files are eating up your storage space. The Mac’s About box is the easiest way to see. Feb 11, 2017 Support Communities / Mac OS & System Software / macOS Sierra. In a nutshell: When I go to 'About This Mac Storage' the System files were taking up a whopping 90+ GB of my hard drive. Here is a screen shot. Finally, my macbook has free space again. Thank you so much!

About this Mac includes a storage feature to see a snapshot of your storage usage, but it also offers up recommendations to free up space and more. Head to → About this Mac. Aug 27, 2018 How to free up space on a Mac? What is a “Mac Startup Disk”? Your Mac startup disk is a volume or a partition of a drive that contains a usable operating system. You can set your Mac to automatically use a specific startup volume, or you can temporarily override this choice at startup.

Jul 21, 2012 I have the extract same issue. MacBook Pro with a 500gb internal drive. I have 17gb free space I spent the afternoon moving project and files to an external 1tb drive. My external show I have now used 200+gb of space and I only free up 6gb on my internal drive. Oh I am an IT tech I know the difference between move and copy.

Summary :

Many computer users find that the hard drive is filled up and they may wonder what is taking up space on the hard drive and how to clean up the hard drive. This article will solve these problems.

What Is Taking up Space on My Hard Drive

Many computer users may find that their hard drives are filled up without reasons after the computer is used for a while. And at last, low disk space error may come up (especially partition C). This problem will affect computer performance. For example: apps or files can't be downloaded, the computer gives no response to your command or it gives a delayed response.

Then, what cause this problem? Or what is taking up space on my hard drive? Many users may ask problems like these. Usually, the hard drive space is occupied by system files, installed apps or personal files, backups, virus or other malware, or other unknown files.

How to Check the Hard Drive Space

How can we know what files take up the hard drive space most? Here is a tutorial for how to see what's taking up space on a hard drive on Windows 10.

Step 1: Press Start button, and then navigate to Settings>System >Storage.

Step 2: Click a disk and then its storage usage will be displayed.

Click What Is Taking up Space on Win10 for more methods.

In general, computer users could check the hard drive space first, and then they can solve the low disk space problem according to the actual storage usage in their computers.

As for how to free up disk space, the following two categories of methods are suggested. And the method with MiniTool Partition Wizard is strongly recommended because it's versed in managing disk space and the ways provided by it can solve the problem radically.

How to Free up Disk Space on Windows

1. Free up Space with Disk Cleanup

Many computer users like to run Disk Cleanup to free up disk space. This is a common way for most of computer users. Right click the disk you want to clean up, and then navigate to Properties>Disk Cleanup. Then check the files you want to delete and click OK to carry out.

However, some users may find that it can't solve the problem fundamentally. Disk cleanup can't relieve the problem at all. Or it relieves slightly but the low disk space problem persists and it relapses after a while.

2. Deal with Personal Files to Free up Disk Space

If there are lots of personal files in hard drive, users can delete the unnecessary files to clean up hard drive. As for the important files, users can transfer them to another hard drive. Or, users can store files like music, movies, photos, etc. on external storage or in the cloud.

In a word, users could delete or transfer all files to another place except the files that must be stored in this disk. (Actually, this method not only can free up disk space, but also can help you to manage or optimize the disk space.)

3. Delete Backups and Reduce Space Used for System Restore

If users have habit of making backups, they could delete the backups to free up disk space. At the same time, system restore points can be automatically created when users install a new app or update and they take up a lot of hard drive space.

So, users can delete the restore points or reduce the hard drive space used for system restore to free up disk space.

Here is a tutorial for deleting restore points and reducing space used for system restore.

Step 1: Open Administrator and right click This PC,and then click Properties from the drop-down menu.

Step 2: Click System protection from the pop-up window to make System Properties window pop up. And then click Configure button.

Step 3: Drag the block to adjust the max space usage for system restore points. Surely, there will be less restore points for system restore if you do so. Or, you can delete all restore points and disable system protection to free up disk space. But if you do so, there is no restore points for system restore.

4. Uninstall Programs

Surely, most of the time, it is programs and games that take upmost of the hard drive space. So, users also can uninstall apps or games that they no longer need to solve this problem. Press Start button and navigate to Settings>Apps>Apps & features to uninstall programs.

5. Run Antivirus Program

Sometimes, a virus or other malware may consume a lot of hard drive space. If you suspect the low disk space is cause by a virus, you can use an antivirus program like Windows Defender to run a virus scan and cleanup.

However, most of the time, the low disk space is not caused by a virus, and running Disk Cleanup or deleting personal files can't solve this problem. Although uninstalling apps can relieve the problem slightly, many users wouldn't like to adopt this method because most programs on the computer are useful and necessary for them.

To solve this problem radically, MiniTool Partition Wizard,professional partition management software, is recommended, which is versed in dealing with problems like this. And it provides you three solutions to clean up hard drive.

The first solution is Space Analyzer, which is similar to the above methods. But it is easier for users to operate. The second and third solutions are extending partition and upgrading to a larger hard drive, respectively. Only the last two methods can radically solve the problem.

Free up Disk Space with MiniTool Partition Wizard

MiniTool Partition Wizard provides 3 solutions to clean hard drive and you can choose one according to your need.

1. Space Analyzer Feature

This feature is free for computer users. What you need to do is to download the MiniTool Partition Wizard and follow the following guide.

Step 1: Download MiniTool Partition Wizard and launch it to get its main interface. And then click Space Analyzer on the toolbar.

Step 2: Select the partition that you want to clean up to scan.

Warning: If you want to clean up local disk C, you should pay attention to system files (.sys files). These files are related to the operating system. If you delete them mistakenly, the operating system probably doesn't work well.

Step 3: Choose a file in Tree View, File View, or Folder View to delete.

Mac cd ripper software amplifier. Attention:

The Space Analyzer feature can also help you to check hard drive space. The files are listed from top to bottom according to the percentages that they take up in hard drive.

The result can also show you the hidden files and you can delete the files (even the hidden files) that you don’t want.

You could explore the selected file before you delete it to avoid deleting important files mistakenly.

Click here to obtain file attributes, which can help you to decide whether the files can be deleted.

Compared with the above methods, this solution does actually free up disk space to a certain extent. However, it also can’t help you a lot if all the files in the partition are important for you. So, you need to think of the following two solutions.

2. Extend Partition

If your hard disk has unused space, you can use Extend feature of MiniTool Partition Wizard to extend the disk space of partition to increase the real disk space. The reason why the extend feature of Disk Management is not recommended is that it has many limitations. Click Why Extend Volume Grayed out for more information.

Note: If you want to free up the disk space of system related partition, you need to use Bootable Media feature first and then to use Extend feature to avoid damage to system files. You should note that the Bootable Media feature is not free. The whole process is shown below.If you just want to free up space of data partition, please use the Free Edition and start from Step 5.

Free up disk space of data partitions (not including system partition):

Free up disk space of system related partition:

Step 1: Install MiniTool Partition Wizard and launch it to get its main interface. And then click Bootable Media on the toolbar.

Step 2: A media type selection window pops up, and then click WinPE-based media with MiniTool plug-in to get another window. And finally choose the media destination.

Family tree software free mac. Attention:

ISO File: If the boot.iso file can't be burned into the USB flash drive or CD/DVD successfully, you could choose this option, and a boot.iso file is generated. And then you could burn this file to your USB flash drive later.Finally, you can use the drive containing the file to boot your computer.

USB Flash Drive (This option is recommended): If you have a USB flash drive, you could choose this one, and the boot.iso file will be burned into it directly.

CD/DVD Writer: If your computer supports recording on CD/DVD, you could choose this one, and the boot.iso file will be burned into it directly.

Step 3: Set the Firmware to make the computer boot from the disk containing the burned boot.iso file.

Enter firmware (The specific entry methods vary from computer model to computer model). And then,navigate to boot page with right arrow key and put Removable Devices (USB)or CD-ROM Drive in the first place of the boot sequence with 'plus' key.

Step 4: Boot the computer to get the following interface. And then wait a few seconds without any operation to get the main interface of Partition Wizard.

Step 5: When you get the main interface of MiniTool Partition Wizard, Right click the partition that you want to extend, and finally click Extend.

Step 6: A window for adding space pops up. Drag the light blue block to adjust the space size to be added. Finally click OK.

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Step 6: Click Apply button on the toolbar to execute the pending operations.

This solution is recommended because it increases the real disk space. Surely, some users may ask what if there is no unused space in the hard disk.Then, you must consider buying a larger hard drive if this situation happens.

3. Buy a Larger Hard Drive for Disk Upgrade

If your hard disk runs out and all data stored in it is very important, you should consider buying a larger hard disk. And then you could migrate OS to the larger drive to make it the new boot disk. And if possible, you could still store data on the original hard drive. Click here for the specific steps of migrating OS from the old hard disk to the new hard disk.

Tip: If your computer is laptop computer, which can only be mounted with one hard drive, you should choose to copy all the partitions on the system disk to another hard disk.

What Is Taking up Space on My Hard Drive FAQ

How do you find out what's taking up space on Windows 10?

Step 1: Press Start button, and then navigate to Settings>System >Storage.

Step 2: Click a disk and then its storage usage will be displayed.

Or you can use MiniTool Partition Wizard to find large files taking up hard drive on Windows 10.

C drive keeps filling up because the following reasons:

The C drive itself is very small.

You have installed much software on this drive.

The system is patched, and all patches are installed on C drive by default.

Cache junk files are not cleared in time.

Use Disk Cleanup.

Uninstall programs you don't need.

Use Space Analyzer of MiniTool Partition Wizard.

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You won’t regret cleaning pools of junk files from OS X El Capitan since cleaning Mac hard drive is a prolific activity and basic start of Mac optimization. However, if you look deeper into OS X El Capitan disk you will actually find difficult to identify between useful and junk files. Since looking and identifying junk files is confusing you might end up removing important files. This would be a sure short disaster, which is why you should be ensuring a complete updated backup of the Mac hard drive running OS X El Capitan. 10.11 or to reclaim Mac hard drive spaces, remove junk files, etc. try Mac cleaner software which is available free.

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Before you launch cleaning operation on Mac OS X El Capitan, right-click on the Time Machine icon from top – left of the menu bar and select BACK UP NOW. Wait for some-time so that Time Machine application performs full backup of your OS X El Capitan hard drive.

Now gather your strength and start Mac cleaning with.

Emptying Trash on OS X El Capitan

You know by pressing “Command + Shift + Option + Delete” keys, you can clean out all the files from the Trash without the use of mouse and its right click. This is helpful when you are sure that no important files exist to be resorted back from the trash. Otherwise manually take a tour of your trash folder so that you can restore important files back to their location and proceed with permanent deletion of files from the trash.

Which of the above trash looks cleaner and better on El Capitan? You decide.

Clean all unwanted files from Download folder

You might be busy in downloading the best Mac apps or videos for OS X El Capitan but did you remember to move all the used DMG and zip archive files to trash? Go to the Download folder and press-hold “Command + I” to get info of Download folder. No surprises, if you are surprised to check out the Size of the folder due to presence of unwanted files. Don’t spare a minute to send all of them to Trash and do empty it for free space collection.

Cleaning iTunes duplicate files

Music files can easily get duplicated in iTunes but don’t worry because iTunes can help you find them for removal. It’s very simple, see how: Launch iTunes << Click View << Click ShowDuplicateItems. The iTunes application will list up all the duplicate music files by name, artists or group items. To remove the duplicate files from the hard drive you first need to uncheck the original files and keep checked all the duplicate items. Now click on Edit from iTunes menu bar and click Delete. This is how to you says GOODBYE to duplicate files on iTunes using OS X El Capitan or below versions.

Let me share with you that there is an otherwise better solution to remove iTunes, iPhoto, iMovies, iWork and Aperture duplicate files by using Smart Finder application. Though small, it’s a helpful application that eliminates all kinds of duplicate files from OS X.

Cleans caches safely from El Capitan

There are pros and cons of removing old & news caches from Mac hard drive. The plus part is that your Mac OS X gets good amount of hard drive spaces by removal of large stockpile of caches. If your Mac hard drive is dying on free spaces, giving you hiccups or freezing at the best part of your OS X computing then you shall always go ahead to clean this culprit knows by the name – CACHES. Additionally, when your Mac hard drive have good amount of free spaces it will never ever disappoint you with the error message “Your startup disk is almost full” You need to make more space available on your startup disk by deleting files.

My recommendation is to register Stellar Speedup Mac utility for cleaning out caches from the OS X El Capitan home folder. This tool reaches to the deeper location of the hard drive where mouse cursor may not reach. Run this tool now and you will clean all the junks (including logs, unwanted language files, binaries, extensions and system junks) from the hard drive. After the use of Stellar Speedup Mac software all you will be left with a better and faster OS X El Capitan.

Coming back to the minus part of deleting the caches is some of the OS X apps, mostly browsers may behave slower than before. But don’t worry since creation of new and fresh caches will soon fill up the void.

Uninstalling useless application

Mac hard drive cleaning is incomplete without uninstallation of unwanted freeware, shareware, widgets and plugins. Show your Mac OS X that you care for its cleanliness and remove all sorts of useless and unused software to a location they deserve the most i.e. TRASH. Let me also remind you again to empty the trash.

Backup Mac OS X and fresh install OS X

Some misery of slowness never ends which is why you should go for fresh installation of the OS X El Capitan. Though technical, but simple procedure of cleaning an old copy of sluggish and freezing Mac and replacing it with new one. This post best describes the clean installation of OS X El Capitan. Be prepared for an OS X performance evolution and leave me your thoughts.

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The Optimised Storage features of your Mac help you save storage space by storing your content in iCloud and making it available on demand:

When storage space is needed, files, photos, films, email attachments and other files that you rarely use are stored in iCloud automatically.

Each file stays exactly where you last saved it, and will be downloaded when you open it.

Files that you’ve used recently remain on your Mac, along with optimised versions of your photos.

If you haven't yet upgraded to macOS Sierra or later, learn about other ways to free up storage space.

Find out how much storage is available on your Mac

Choose Apple menu  > About This Mac, then click Storage. Each segment of the bar is an estimate of the storage space used by a category of files. Move your pointer over each segment for more detail.

Click the Manage button to open the Storage Management window, pictured below.

Manage storage on your Mac

The Storage Management window offers recommendations for optimising your storage. If some recommendations are already turned on, you will see fewer recommendations.

Store in iCloud

Click the Store in iCloud button, then choose from these options:

Desktop and Documents. Store all files from these two locations in iCloud Drive. When storage space is needed, only the files you recently opened are kept on your Mac, so that you can easily work offline. Files stored only in iCloud display a download icon , which you can double-click to download the original file. Learn more about this feature.

Photos. Store all original, full-resolution photos and videos in iCloud Photos. When storage space is needed, only space-saving (optimised) versions of photos are kept on your Mac. To download the original photo or video, just open it.

Messages. Store all messages and attachments in iCloud. When storage space is needed, only the messages and attachments you recently opened are kept on your Mac. Learn more about Messages in iCloud.

Storing files in iCloud uses the storage space in your iCloud storage plan. If you reach or exceed your iCloud storage limit, you can either buy more iCloud storage or make more iCloud storage available. iCloud storage starts at 50GB for US$0.99 a month, and you can purchase additional storage directly from your Apple device. Find out more about prices in your region.

Optimise Storage

Click the Optimise button to save space by automatically removing films and TV shows you've watched. When storage space is needed, films or TV shows that you've purchased from Apple and have already watched will be removed from your Mac. Click the download icon next to a film or TV show to download it again.

Your Mac will also save space by only keeping recent email attachments on this Mac when storage space is needed. You can manually download any attachments at any time by opening the email or attachment, or saving the attachment to your Mac.

Optimising storage for films, TV shows and email attachments doesn't require iCloud storage space.

Empty Bin Automatically

Empty Bin Automatically permanently deletes files that have been in the Bin for more than 30 days.

Reduce Clutter

Reduce Clutter helps you identify large files and files you might no longer need. Click the Review Files button, then choose any of the file categories in the sidebar, such as Applications, Documents, Music Creation or Bin.

You can delete the files in some categories directly from this window. Other categories show the total storage space used by the files in each app. You can then open the app and decide whether to delete files from within it.

Find out how to redownload apps, music, films, TV shows and books.

Where to find the settings for each feature

The button for each recommendation in the Storage Management window affects one or more settings in other apps. You can also control those settings directly within each app.

If you're using macOS Catalina or later, choose Apple menu  > System Preferences, click Apple ID, then select iCloud in the sidebar: Store in iCloud turns on the Optimise Mac Storage setting on the right. To turn off iCloud Drive entirely, untick iCloud Drive.

If you're using macOS Mojave or earlier, choose Apple menu > System Preferences, click iCloud, then click Options next to iCloud Drive. Store in iCloud turns on the Desktop & Documents Folders and Optimise Mac Storage settings.

In Photos, choose Photos > Preferences, then click iCloud. Store in iCloud selects iCloud Photos and Optimise Mac Storage.

In Messages, choose Messages > Preferences, then click iMessage. Store in iCloud selects Enable Messages in iCloud.

If you're using macOS Catalina or later, open the Apple TV app, choose TV > Preferences from the menu bar, then click Files. Optimise Storage selects “Automatically delete watched films and TV shows'.

If you're using macOS Mojave or earlier, open iTunes, choose iTunes > Preferences from the menu bar, then click Advanced. Optimise Storage selects “Automatically delete watched films and TV shows”.

In Mail, choose Mail > Preferences from the menu bar, then click Accounts. In the Account Information section on the right, Optimise Storage sets the Download Attachments menu to either Recent or None.

Empty Bin Automatically: From the Finder, choose Finder > Preferences, then click Advanced. Empty Bin Automatically selects “Remove items from the Bin after 30 days”.

Other ways that macOS helps automatically save space

With macOS Sierra or later, your Mac will automatically take these additional steps to save storage space:

Detects duplicate downloads in Safari, keeping only the most recent version of the download

Reminds you to delete used app installers

Removes old fonts, languages and dictionaries that aren't being used

Clears caches, logs and other unnecessary data when storage space is needed

How to free up storage space manually

Even without using the Optimised Storage features described in this article, you can take other steps to make more storage space available:

How To Free Up Space On My Mac Startup Disc

Music, films and other media can use a lot of storage space. Learn how to delete music, films and TV shows from your device.

Delete other files that you no longer need by moving them to the Bin, then emptying the Bin. The Downloads folder is good place to look for files that you might no longer need.

Move files to an external storage device.

Compress files.

Delete unneeded email: In the Mail app, choose Mailbox > Erase Junk Mail. If you no longer need the email in your mailbox, choose Mailbox > Erase Deleted Items.

Learn more

How Can I Free Up Space On My Mac Hard Drive

The Storage pane of About This Mac is the best way to determine the amount of storage space available on your Mac. Disk Utility and other apps may display storage categories, such as Not Mounted, VM, Recovery, Other Volumes, Other, Free or Purgeable. Don't rely on these categories to understand how to free up storage space or how much storage space is available for your data.

When you duplicate a file on an APFS-formatted volume, that file won't use additional storage space on the volume. Deleting a duplicate file frees up only the space required by any data you might have added to the duplicate. If you no longer need any copies of the file, you can recover all of the storage space by deleting both the duplicate and the original file.

If you're using a pro app and Optimise Mac Storage, learn how to make sure that your projects are always on your Mac and able to access their files.

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fierceawakening · 7 years ago

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1/? erinc1978/assholeanon again -- will try to respond to your questions as best I can. As a general point, I think I understand better now where you were coming from in terms of how you approached writing various parts of Steel and Promise, and I'm sorry for having been such a douche about it.

It’s Book Anon again. Cut for length, discussions of consent, some nonexplicit sexual content, and spoilers.

Re: 6/ – I think there were a few things that had me thinking Teran was saying that everything kind she’d done was purposeful manipulation. Some of this may well be incorrectly remembered through anxiety haze, but IIRC part of it was her general attitude during the conversation, that struck me as generally sort of triumphant and preening – along the lines of “ha, I got you to fall for me, aren’t I clever.” (cont’d)

Re:6/ contd - I think another was Cailyn saying something to the effect of “so what about the ‘you’re a jewel among stones’ business”, and Teran IIRC didn’t deny that was part of the manipulation. So I took it as being broader than the s/m. As we learn that Teran was trading torture to own Cailyn, that confirmed it for me emotionally – that she couldn’t have been sincere in her regret over upsetting Cailyn by merely wrecking her clothes if she had no qualms about buying her outright.

As a general note, I’m really sorry that my deactivating killed your archives of my asks. It didn’t occur to me that would happen. Should’ve sent everything as a message in the first place and then I wouldn’t have spammed your ask box. I didn’t remember there was another option until Tumblr cut me off and said, “Whoa, you need to wait an hour until you send any more asks.”

On the personal note - “safe” was a terrible choice of words for a complicated internal state that I was wrong to externalize, and I feel really bad for causing you more pain over this. I absolutely do NOT mean to suggest you are an Unsafe Person in any kind of general sense, and I give you my word that I will not say or imply to anyone, online or off, that you are not a safe person to be around.

As one last note - I understand why you feel jerked around, and I wish I could take back my actions and that I’d just discussed the book like a normal person in the first place instead of jumping to conclusions, but I can’t do anything more at this point than apologize. Just let me know when you want to be done with this interaction so that I don’t overstep your boundary (i.e. I give you a last response and then block). I found code to block websites via my OS, and when you’re done, I’m done.

Okay, so I don’t know if this helps at all, but I’ve been avoiding mentioning personal stuff because of the whole “safe/unsafe” deal which I didn’t want to feed into, but I feel a bit like I have to wade into it to make some of this make sense.

It’s true that some things about Teran are things I’ve experienced or are based on me. One of those things is that… when I joined the BDSM community around me at the tender young age of 21, I didn’t know too much about myself or where I fit in that bunch of overlapping letters. But I knew I was interested, specifically, in SM–I’d spent most of my young life fantasizing about people who liked pain, but I didn’t think they really existed, or thought they had some kind of Freudian complex that meant even if I knew what I was doing I’d harm them emotionally by enticing them into indulging in something that was bad for them. When I was a youngin you really couldn’t find much that positively portrayed people with pain fetishes.

But the thing was, when I got into the community? Intense masochists aren’t crazy or unhealthy and dating them doesn’t make you evil. BUT they’re rare. Most people are interested in sensation play but not really in intense SM stuff–and even more common than that is an interest in (usually mild/bedroom-only) D/s.

So finding partners, or at least finding partners that are actually complementary to me on that score? Is hard! They’re out there–there’s at least one in every community I’ve been in–but they’re relatively rare.

In part because they’re rare, in my experience a lot of them were older, and actually a lot of them were in relationships. Of the “masochism was completely unacceptable when I married my wife, but I couldn’t stand it any more so I asked her to beat me, she said YIKES NOOOOO but eventually agreed I could go to play parties if I don’t actually side date anyone and hide the marks” sort. (This is one reason I disagree with antis about age gaps. One of the first people I ever beat? Three times my age. Did he harm me? Well, I did end up hurting my shoulder by not realizing I was new to this and should have slowed down… SHIT SHIT SHIT THE ANTIS WERE RIGHT ALL ALONG!)

It’s kinda lonely, and is part of the reason I haven’t dated anyone since my last partner. They’re hard to find! At least if you actually want, you know, a relationship.

So that was the thing. Teran found one, he was actually single and interested, but he got sick and died. And she went back to the dark channels to look for another one, and couldn’t really find one, because as assholey as the nobles are, the dark channels are much more like… what most people were and what I wasn’t really looking for.

So Teran knows that almost anyone is gonna disappoint her, and either she can 1) keep having random dates with people hoping she chances on someone who is orientationally masochistic and be vaguely frustrated until she does or 2) try to see if she can train someone to become what she wants. (Especially someone who IS inherently submissive and wants to serve, which Cailyn is.)

So she does 2). Without making it clear what she’s doing, because she’s kind of a jerk. And because “oh, I’d like to alter your sexuality, you good with that?” is a big ask.

Doesn’t make it okay that she did that and wasn’t honest about it, and I’m not saying it is. Pushing someone’s soft limits can be okay–that’s why they’re soft limits–but not realizing someone might be just a little upset upon finding out that’s pretty much why they picked you? UH. TERAN NO.

From Teran’s perspective (which, again, TERAN NO) she expected Cailyn to figure it out. She never came out and said “this is an experiment,” but she talked often about how Cailyn’s experiences of pain and desires were shifting. So she thought Cailyn would figure it out, and assumed (again, TERAN NO) that Cailyn coming back over and over meant Cailyn was fundamentally okay with it. She knew she was being manipulative, but she didn’t realize how awful she was being. Which is why she was surprised when Cailyn was like “HOLY SHIT AM I AN EXPERIMENT?” as if this was 1) news and 2) bad news.

The other thing Teran does that is unquestionably horrible is the bargaining to own Cailyn. Whether it’s clear from the text or not (and I can’t really go back and reread in depth now to find out if I was too ambiguous about this), what I meant to say was that Teran wants Cailyn to freely consent to stay with her, and asks for it. When Cailyn says no, she initially respects it, but then the Councils (at the behest, of course, of Ben, who is the actual skin-crawlingly terrible person who gives no fucks whatever about consent so of course he would dream this crap up) basically say “you know if you do this for us you won’t have to worry about that cute girl running away from you *wink*” and… Teran goes for it, even though part of her knows she shouldn’t.

So again… I’m not trying to say I meant for what Teran did to be Okay Because She’s Lonely. It’s not okay. But I didn’t mean that she was a completely uncaring person. I meant that she was a very damaged person who gets what she wants through manipulation because why not when almost everyone despises you anyway, someone “liking” you means they want to rape you and force you to carry their kid, and the one guy who actually loved you was perfectly fine with heavy D/s… and died horribly anyway?

I appreciate you saying that you didn’t mean “safe” the way I took it. I just… if you actually think I am okay with real world dubious consent and was saying it’s fine, then… I actually deserve to have people warned about me. And the thing about it is… if you actually are a person who is abusive, or manipulative, or real-world wobbly on consent, you’re the last person to know it. Abusive and manipulative people make excuses for themselves to themselves, which is why it’s so hard for them to change.

So while my gut reaction to your comments is “I didn’t say that! I don’t endorse that! The thing I wrote isn’t that!” there’s part of me that feels that I can’t argue… because I’d always say/think that I’m safe even if I’m not. Which puts me in the awkward position of “That sounds wrong, and also insulting and hurtful! But that’s exactly what I would think if it was 100% correct!”

Which is where the scrupulosity spirals come from.

So the only thing I can really say and do is… again, give you as much of a platform as I can given the energy I have at any given time, and make sure people who aren’t me see it, and have the opportunity to decide for themselves whether I am accurately assessing myself as “someone who attempts to be positive and safe for friends and lovers” or not.

#steel and promise #spoilers #my writing #Anonymous

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claudinei-de-jesus · 4 years ago

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Verification of scriptures

1. They claim inspiration.

The Old Testament declares itself written under a special inspiration from God. The expression "and God said", or equivalent, is used over 2600 times. History, law, psalms, and prophecies are declared to be written by men under special inspiration from God. (See Ex. 24:4; 34:28; Jos 3:9; 2 Kings 17:13; Isa.34:16; 59:21; Zech. 7:12; Ps. 78:1; Prov. 6: 23.)

Christ Himself sanctioned the Old Testament, quoted from it, and lived in harmony with its teachings. He approved of its truthfulness and authority (Matt. 5:18; John 10:35; Luke 18:31-33; 24:25, 44; Matt.23:1, 2; 26:54). And so did the apostles. (Luke 3:4; Rom. 3:2; 2 Tim. 3:16; Heb. 1:1; 2 Peter 1:21; 3:2; Acts 1:16; 3:18; 1 Cor. 2: 9-16.) Does the New Testament arrogate to itself a similar inspiration? As for the inspiration of the Gospels, it is secured by Christ's promise that the Spirit would bring to the minds of the apostles all the things he had taught them, and that the same Spirit would guide them into all truth.

Throughout the New Testament he declares a more complete and clearer revelation of God than that given in the Old Testament, and with absolute authority he declares the abrogation of the ancient laws. Therefore, if the Old Testament is inspired, the same inspiration must have the New. It appears that Peter seeks to place Paul's epistles on the same level as the books of the Old Testament, (2 Pet. 3:15,16), and Paul and the other apostles claim to speak with divine authority, (1 Cor. 2:13; 14:31; 1 Thess. 2:13; 4:2; 2 Pet. 3:2; 1 John 1:5; Rev. 1:1.)

2. Appear to be inspired.

The Scriptures claim to be inspired; an examination of them will reveal the fact that their character supports this position. The Bible, when standing in court, does it with a good testimony! As for its authors, it was written by men whose honesty and integrity cannot be doubted; as to its content, there is in it the most sublime revelation of God to the world; as to influence, it has brought saving light to nations and individuals, and has an infallible power to lead men to God and transform their characters; as to his authority, he plays the role of a supreme court in religious matters, so that even false cults are obliged to quote his words in order to impress the public. They talk about specific things. Note:

1) Your accuracy. Note the total absence of absurdities found in other "sacred" books. we do not read, for example, that the earth came out of an egg, having passed a certain number of years for its incubation, resting it on a turtle; the land surrounded by seven seas of salt water, sugarcane juice, alcoholic beverages, pure butter, curdled milk, etc. Writes Dr. D. S. Clarke: "There is an unfathomable difference between the Bible and any other book. This difference is due to its origin."

2) Your unit. Containing sixty-six books, written by some forty different authors over a period of roughly sixteen hundred years, covering a variety of topics, it nevertheless demonstrates a unity of theme and purpose that can only be explained as having a guideline mind.

3) How many books can you handle being read even twice? But the Bible can be read hundreds of times without being able to fathom its depths or without losing the reader's interest.

4) Its amazing circulation, already translated into thousands of languages and dialects, and read in every country in the world.

5) The weather doesn't affect her. it is one of the oldest books in the world and at the same time the most modern. The human soul can never do without it. Bread is one of the oldest foods, and at the same time the most modern. As long as men are hungry, they will desire bread for the body; and as long as they yearn for God and eternal things, they will desire the Bible. 6) His admirable preservation in the face of persecution and opposition from science. "The hammers wear out but the anvil remains."

3. Feel you are inspired.

"But do you believe in that book?" said a teacher at a New York high school to a student who had attended Bible classes. "Oh yes," she replied; "I happen to know the Author personally." She declared the most ponderous reason to believe the Bible as the Word of God; namely, its appeal to our personal knowledge, speaking in a tone that makes us feel its divine origin.

The Roman Church asserts that the divine origin of the Scriptures ultimately depends on the witness of the church, which considers itself the infallible guide in all matters of faith and practice. "As if the eternal and inviolable truth of God depended on man's judgment!" declared John Calvin, the great Reformer. Still, he declared: The church is held to decide what reverence is due to the Scriptures, and which books are to be included in the sacred canon. This question: "How will we know that the Scriptures came from God, unless there is a decision of the church?" is as silly as the question, "How shall we discern light from darkness, white from black, bitter from sweet?" The witness of the Spirit is superior to all arguments.

God, in his Word, is the only reliable witness concerning himself: likewise his Word will not find true belief in the hearts of men until it is sealed by the testimony of his Spirit. The same Spirit who spoke through the prophets must enter our hearts to convince us that these prophets faithfully delivered the message God had entrusted to them. (Isa. 59:21.) Let this then be a settled matter: those who are inwardly taught by the Holy Spirit place firm trust in the Scriptures; that the Scriptures are its own evidence; that they cannot legally be subject to proof and argument, but rather that they gain, by the witness of the Spirit, the confidence they deserve. So why do we adduce external evidence for the accuracy of the Scriptures and their general worthiness?

We do this first, not so that we can believe they are right, but because we feel they are right; secondly, it is a natural cause for joy to be able to point out external evidences of the things we believe in our hearts; finally, these proofs serve as a vehicle and receptacle, so to speak, by which we can express in words our inner conviction, and in this way "always being prepared to answer anyone who asks you to give a reason for the hope that is in you" (1 Pet. 3:15).

4. Prove to be inspired.

Dr. Eugene Stock said: As a boy I read a story that showed me the different ways in which we can be sure that this great library of Holy Books, which we call the bible, is really the Word of God, and its revelation to the men.

The writer of the story had explained three classes of evidence—historical, internal, and experimental. Then he told how he once sent a boy to a chemist to buy a few grams of phosphorus. The boy returned with a small package; was it really a match? The boy reported that he went to the drugstore and asked for a match. The chemist went to the shelves, took a substance from a bottle, placed it in a small package and gave it to him. The boy took him directly to the house. This was then the historical evidence that there was phosphorus in the packet.

When the package was opened, it was noticed that the contents appeared to be phosphorus and also smelled of phosphorus. That was the internal evidence. When he set fire to the substance, there was a very strong combustion! That was the experimental evidence! The Bible's intellectual defenses have their place; but, after all, the best argument is the practical one. The Bible has produced practical results. It has influenced civilization, transformed lives, brought light, inspiration and comfort to millions, and its work still continues. ... A verificação das escrituras

1. Elas reivindicam inspiração.

O Antigo Testamento declara-se escrito sob uma inspiração especial de Deus. A expressão "e Deus disse", ou equivalente, é usada mais de 2.600 vezes. A história, a lei, os salmos e as profecias são declarados escritos por homens sob inspiração especial de Deus. (Vide Êxo. 24:4; 34:28; Jos, 3:9; 2 Reis 17:13; Isa.34:16; 59:21; Zac. 7:12; Sal. 78:1; Prov. 6:23.)

Cristo mesmo sancionou o Antigo Testamento, citou-o e viveu em harmonia com os seus ensinos. Ele aprovou a sua veracidade e autoridade (Mat. 5:18; João 10:35; Luc. 18:31-33; 24:25, 44; Mat.23:1, 2; 26:54). E o mesmo fizeram os apóstolos. (Luc. 3:4; Rom. 3:2; 2 Tim. 3:16; Heb. 1:1; 2 Pedro 1:21; 3:2; Atos 1:16; 3:18; l Cor. 2:9-16.) Arroga-se o Novo Testamento uma inspiração semelhante? Quanto à inspiração dos Evangelhos é garantida pela promessa de Cristo de que o Espírito traria à mente dos apóstolos todas as coisas que ele lhes havia ensinado, e que o mesmo Espírito os guiaria em toda verdade.

Em todo o Novo Testamento ele se declara uma revelação mais completa e clara de Deus do que aquela dada no Antigo Testamento, e com absoluta autoridade declara a ab-rogação das leis antigas. Portanto, se o Antigo Testamento é inspirado, a mesma inspiração deve ter o Novo. Parece que Pedro procura colocar as epístolas de Paulo no mesmo nível dos livros do Antigo Testamento, (2 Ped. 3:15,16), e Paulo e os demais apóstolos afirmam falar com a autoridade divina, (1 Cor. 2:13; 14:31; 1Tess. 2:13; 4:2; 2 Ped. 3:2; l João 1:5; Apoc. 1:1.)

2. Dão a impressão de serem inspiradas.

As Escrituras se dizem inspiradas; um exame delas revelará o fato de que seu caráter sustenta essa posição. A Bíblia, ao se apresentar em juízo, o faz com bom testemunho! Quanto a seus autores, foi ela escrita por homens cuja honestidade e integridade não podem ser postas em dúvida; quanto ao seu conteúdo, há nele a mais sublime revelação de Deus ao mundo; quanto à influência, tem trazido a luz salvadora às nações e indivíduos, e possui um poder infalível para guiar os homens a Deus e transformar-lhes o caráter; quanto à sua autoridade, desempenha o papel dum tribunal supremo em assuntos religiosos, de maneira que até mesmo os cultos falsos são obrigados a citar suas palavras para poderem impressionar o público. Falam sobre coisas especificas. Notemos:

1) Sua exatidão. Nota-se a ausência total dos absurdos que se encontram em outros livros "sagrados". não lemos, por exemplo, que a terra saísse dum ovo, tendo transcorrido certo número de anos para a sua incubação, descansando ele sobre uma tartaruga; a terra rodeada por sete mares de água salgada, suco de cana, bebidas alcoólicas, manteiga pura, leite coalhado, etc. Escreve o Dr. D. S. Clarke: "Há uma diferença insondável entre a Bíblia e qualquer outro livro. Essa diferença deve-se à sua origem."

2) Sua unidade. Contendo sessenta e seis livros, escritos por uns quarenta diferentes autores, num período de mais ou menos mil e seiscentos anos, abrangendo uma variedade de tópicos, ela, no entanto, demonstra uma unidade de tema e propósito que só se explica como tendo ela uma mente diretriz.

3) Quantos livros suportam serem lidos mesmo duas vezes? Mas a Bíblia pode ser lida centenas de vezes sem se poder sondar suas profundezas ou sem que se perca o interesse do leitor.

4) A sua assombrosa circulação, estando já traduzida em milhares de idiomas e dialetos, e lida em todos os países do mundo.

5) O tempo não a afeta. é um dos livros mais antigos do mundo e ao mesmo tempo o mais moderno. A alma humana nunca a pode dispensar. O pão é um dos alimentos mais antigos, e ao mesmo tempo o mais moderno. Enquanto os homens tiverem fome, desejarão o pão para o corpo; e enquanto anelarem por Deus e as coisas eternas, desejarão a Bíblia. 6) Sua admirável preservação em face de perseguição e a oposição da ciência. "Os martelos se gastam mas a bigorna permanece."

3. Sente-se que são inspiradas.

"Mas será que você crê naquele livro?" disse um professor de um colégio de Nova York a uma aluna que havia assistido às classes bíblicas. "Oh, sim," ela respondeu; "acontece que conheço pessoalmente o Autor." Ela declarou a mais ponderável razão de crer na Bíblia como a Palavra de Deus; a saber, o seu apelo ao nosso conhecimento pessoal, falando em tom que nos faz sentir sua origem divina.

A Igreja Romana assevera que a origem divina das Escrituras depende, em última análise, do testemunho da igreja, a qual se considera o guia infalível em todas as questões de fé e prática. "Como se a verdade eterna e inviolável de Deus dependesse do juízo do homem!" declarou João Calvino, o grande Reformador. Ainda, declarou ele: Assevera-se que a igreja decide qual a reverência que se deve às Escrituras, e quais os livros que devem ser incluídos no cânone sagrado. Esta interrogação: "Como saberemos que vieram de Deus as Escrituras, a não ser que haja uma decisão da igreja?" é tão tola quanto a seguinte pergunta:"como discerniremos a luz das trevas, o branco do negro, o amargo do doce?"O testemunho do Espírito é superior a todos os argumentos.

Deus, na sua Palavra, é a única testemunha fidedigna concernente a si mesmo: da mesma maneira a sua Palavra não achará crença verdadeira nos corações dos homens enquanto não for selada pelo testemunho do seu Espírito. O mesmo Espírito que falou pelos profetas deve entrar em nossos corações para convencer-nos de que esses profetas fielmente entregaram a mensagem que Deus lhes confiara. (Isa. 59:21.) Que este então seja um assunto resolvido: aqueles que são ensinados internamente pelo Espírito Santo depositam confiança firme nas Escrituras; que as Escrituras são a sua própria evidência; que elas não podem legalmente estar sujeitas às provas e aos argumentos, mas sim que obtenham, pelo testemunho do Espírito, a confiança que merecem. Sendo assim, por que aduzimos evidências externas da exatidão das Escrituras e de seu merecimento geral?

Fazemos isto primeiramente, não para poder crer que são certas, mas sim porque sentimos que são certas; em segundo lugar, é natural motivo de alegria poder apontar evidências externas das coisas que cremos no coração; finalmente, estas provas servem de veiculo e receptáculo, por assim dizer, pelos quais podemos expressar em palavras a nossa convicção íntima, e dessa maneira "estando sempre preparados para responder a qualquer que vos pedir a razão da esperança que há em vos" (1 Ped. 3:15).

4. Provam ser inspiradas.

O Dr. Eugene Stock disse: Quando em menino, li uma história que me mostrou os diferentes meios pelos quais podemos ter certeza de que esta grande biblioteca de Livros Sagrados, a que chamamos bíblia, é realmente a Palavra de Deus, e sua revelação aos homens.

O escritor da história havia explicado três classes de evidências — a histórica, a interna e a experimental. Então ele contou como certa vez enviou um menino a um químico para comprar uns gramas de fósforo. O menino voltou com um pacotinho; seria mesmo fósforo? O menino relatou que foi à drogaria e pediu fósforo. O químico foi às prateleiras, tirou uma substância dum frasco, colocou-a num pacotinho e lho deu. O menino o levou diretamente à casa. Esta foi então a evidência histórica de que no pacotinho havia fósforo.

Ao abrir-se o pacotinho, notava-se que o conteúdo parecia ser fósforo e cheirava também a fósforo. Essa foi a evidência interna. Quando ateou fogo à substância houve fortíssima combustão! Essa foi a evidencia experimental! As defesas intelectuais da Bíblia têm seu lugar; mas, afinal de contas, o melhor argumento é o prático. A Bíblia tem produzido resultados práticos. Tem influenciado a civilização, transformado vidas, trazido luz, inspiração e conforto a milhões e sua obra ainda continua.

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