#which is my fav opening :)

[icewindandboringhorror]

sneeping with his legs up over his head for some reason... weird boye

[aibouart]

admittedly, i am afraid to talk about this, but have wanted to for a long while. i don't see a lot of people discuss this kind of thing, but i decided to do so for the me who was struggling and didn't know. also i have no idea where i am going with this and it's very late for me rn so here's a whole ass ramble on vent art. and also a bit more on how it's impacting how i view my art, now. i am terribly sorry if it's not very cohesive, my thoughts on it aren't yet cohesive either WOOPS

i wanted to talk a bit about how vent art really impacted my mental health, and how the idea that art needs some kind of meaning to have meaning really has been weighing on me lately (i know this is a concept i am assigning to my work and is not actually the norm/standard expectation of others consuming art. but it IS a sentiment i have seen enough that does impact me).

i want to specify, obviously i am not saying vent art is bad.

nor that doing vent pieces, or vent blogs, will ultimately result in what i went through for a number of years. rather, that this did happen to me, and there is a near impossible chance i am a unique case in any experience i will ever have. if you do vent art and it helps you, that's good! im not judging anyone for anything here. if your experience does not match my own, that's what it's like to be human~. i am not invalidating anyone on purpose by sharing my own experience. sorry for the insane disclaimer but it will eat me alive if i go to sleep thinking "what if they think x cuz i didn't say y and think im a terrible person"

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i used to do vent art frequently (you won't find much on here as it was uploaded to a personal at the time). anytime i felt down or had a line of dialogue in my head making me feel bad in a way, i would draw for it. but the way i had interacted with it was really unhealthy. it became a terrible feedback loop where i'd feel bad, draw how i felt bad, look at the art, and ruminate even more on how i felt bad, until it spiralled so out of control i would lose touch with reality and get lost entirely in feeling like garbage.

i would just get so lost in the cycle with vent art that it would make my mental space worse and worse, and i would use the vent art as a negative confirmation bias. the words that hurt me i wrote down and anytime i looked again, they would hurt me again. but i would keep looking, and i would keep drawing.

i have always used art as an outlet, but for some reason the way vent art impacted me was unhealthy. it wasn't a good outlet. and it took me years to cut ties with it. i relied on vent art for a long time, but it took a lot of introspection and thinking to realise it wasn't the release i thought it was. and it was hard to let go, too.

i haven't touched the blog in a few months, now. i haven't done much vent art at all since then and genuinely, i've been doing SOOO much better. i no longer ruminate nearly as much as i had done so, i no longer get caught in a feedback loop that lasts for days to weeks. i still feel like garbage like people tend to do, but i don't put myself in a cycle over it anymore. i have gone back to it a few times in moments of desperation, but what used to be every week/every few weeks is now once a month maybe. and not to the extent at all (i would oftentimes post ~20 images in one night, before).

but i keep thinking about how, while the way i had done vent art was bad for my mental health, i keep feeling that just because i do sparkly cute and happy drawings, now, or drawings with no real meaning, that my art has nothing beyond face value... i do like a lot of my vent art. i think their compositions, or hidden messages and meanings, or colour use, was interesting.

but it wasn't worth the price for me.

so i am a bit caught in an in-between, here. my favourite form of art is the expression of love-you liked something so much, you dedicated time to draw it. and yet i cannot ascribe that to my own work very often. i think that man i wish i could make art with some kind of deeper meaning, that speaks to people, that's more than just pretty colours or shiny shading or a character everyone likes, or a character i like. but i just... don't know if it's for me.

ultimately, i could develop a healthy relationship with expressing and exploring negative emotions or experiences through art, but... do i want to? do i have to? do i need to? is it not enough to just draw something because... i like it..?

of course, the answer is yes, draw what you want, draw how you want, it's your art. but i am still trying to come to terms with that idea. i dont want to be seen as some shallow artist who just draws what's cute and pretty because they can and it's all they can think of, but like what if that's just what i like to draw??

in the end, that alone is good enough, drawing because you like to, because it's fun, because you like the thing you're dedicating time to creating for. it's just hard to grapple with after discarding a type of art that i felt was the only way i drew "for real".

anyways i am sorry this is soooo fucking long, and for all the clarifications (IM STILL NOT SAYING VENT ART BAD AND EVERYONE WILL DO WHAT I DID!! Dx) and the fact i had no real point here (probably)

anyways i will continue to draw what i want because i like to, as i have always been.

[buglaur]

[azulock]

I had this submitted to my blog just like 15 minutes ago by an anon:

Chigiri is a big chest guy? So he don’t like small boobs is that what you mean? Why? What’s so undesirable about small boobs that every single author always forget or explicit exclude women with small boobs? Are small boobs disgusting? Boring? Why is always about big boobs being better!

I’ll answer in good faith, ok: this is not what I meant. I meant “big chest guy” the same way you’d say someone is a “big movie guy”, it’s meant to be that he is big into tits, as in he likes them a lot. I generally try to be as inclusive as possible in my writing, so much so that that part was meant to include man boobs too, I reall try to be inclusive, esp in headcanons where I’m free to not go into details so that’s easier. If I’m writing a full fic then I tend to lose that a bit, and when I need details I’ll usually take them from my reality, so if you read my fics and feel like that too I apologize, it just happens that I got big tits and I’m writing the fics for myself, my life ends up being my bias. But I reiterate: I meant it as in “he really likes boobs”, if that didn’t come accross I apologize, nobody proof reads my shit and english is only my second language, the first being portuguese.

Again, I’m so sorry, I get ya, I get the rage. Every fic author out there is doing reader blushing, but my black ass can’t blush, even tho I’m not even that dark. Every fic author is writing about petite women with tiny little waists, and someone like me who is tall and thick just gets left out. It’s always rosy pussies and tiny pink nipples, it’s always flowing long hair and women getting swallowed by their boyfriend’s shirts, and I many other things that made me feel left off. I’m sorry if that was the case, really. I try to make this a space safe for people with all different bodies as much as possible, and hopefully, despite my limitations, I can at least do an ok job, for everyone.

[moominpopzz]

Nothing can break the bond of a person and their 6th grade hyperfixation when it gets an update

[that-spider-fan-over-there]

BNHA 429: It's not really a win when the only comfort is that Izuku/Ochako didn't became canon during a breakdown.

Honestly I think this is the most confused I've been with this story, so this might be the most openly critical I've been. (I've rewritten this five times already, so if it looks all over the place, I apologize).

"Joki Joki" being Tenko was debunked, which. You know what. Fair. Creating a character that looks like him only for be someone else with a tragic backstory five chapters before the finale? That's kinda cruel.

Harsh backstory for a small-role guy, by the way. A mutant Quirk (that we'll probably know only from supplemental material, if at all) his family didn't have, mouth sewn shut, locked in a basement for years, family leaves him and (probably) a Decay Wave was his only escape? And they say the world of BNHA isn't a harsh one /hj

I'm glad they didn't pull a Teen Wolf (iykyk). Ochako thinks Himiko is dead, Izuku's a shoulder to cry on. For... *counting* 4 pages of holding it in, 2 of actually talking about it, all of the 8 being about Izuku being nice but hypocritical (emotional suppression my dear beloathed Ch. 430 I fear you-).

Izuku says she's "his hero"- it's true, he thinks all his friends are his heroes. But we're shown 2/4 times (Blackwhip and the mob, but not Tenko cornering him in the mall, or their first meeting?) which made me realize he's the only named character/hero she "saved". The "who saves the heroes" thing? Not like she helped other heroes, that plot went to- oh.

Also, the whole "putting others before yourself", the only example listed that comes close to this is her giving some of her Entrance Exam points to him. The others are just her being nice to him, repressing her feelings, Blackwhip was the only other moment that kinda counted. The only "other person" she put before herself? Himiko.

I'll believe Himiko's dead when I see it; blood transfusions don't kill the donator. They take a minimum of 4hrs max. They sent Spinner and Touya to a hospital, but not Himiko, who was unconsicous, winging a transfusion out? Yeah, that's bullshit, "hope for a sequel" is becoming more and more of a plea.

I wish I could say I liked the breakdown, but all I think is "Ochako's a character development tool, with redundant, pointless arcs, and all she got is doomed yuri, trauma and reassuring words from a LI".

I didn't see Izuku crying at first; removing "Joki Joki's" 2 pages, the "talk" took 8/15 pages, I kept wondering when did he ever relied on "her strength", it's not like he trusted her enough to talk about his feelings, secrets or anything.

Class A interrupting was funny, I'm with Katsuki: Does Izuku still have embers (he does). I'm sorry to Ochako, I just didn't care anymore. I knew he didn't tell anyone else, lol (<- I'm shaking him into opening up-). But if he wasn't willing to open up about that I wonder what else doesn't Class A know. Does Inko know her son's dreams are over again or…?

Uh. One For All, crystalization of power from everyone's hopes, LFtR vestige scene, remaining embers looking a bit stronger, "Control Your Heart" is still a thing, "holding someone's hand makes me feel at peace", we have that talk with Katsuki, rule of narrative means if he opens up there's a chance this story can end on a hopeful note, Izuku fans here's how we can still win- (I'm inhaling hopium, I know)

I'm confused Hawks isn't getting ditching the Hero Billboards, just expanding it for "ordinary people". Isn't that continuing part of the problem? Part of why Dabi was created, why many heroes don't care about being a hero? I get it's to inspire others to be everyday heroes, but this if backfires in-universe...

Aoyama's farewell party with Eri singing was as sidelined as the 3Baka (… actually no, 3Baka is still more sidelined sob) and it hurts, but hey. Monoma got a statue before Katsuki, I just know if he isn't traumatized about his corpse he will brag. (I'm trying to find positives in this chapter)

The last pages. I know it's symbolic. Society extending a hand, Izuku "inspired" them to move. It's what Izuku was talking about in Ch. 1, "saving people is the coolest thing a hero can do". It's even from his poem inspiration "Called useless by all/Neither praised/Nor a bother/Such is the person/I wish to be".

But it doesn't come just from Izuku fighting giving up OFA, but from him still failing Tenko, who was doomed from the start, the LoV never knew who he was before "Tomura" (so. Spinner how's the book working out-). And no one else wants to, look at Ch. 427.

If it was still an ambiguous "AFO searched for Tenko", fine Ig, but since Ch. 419, it's half "No one helped Tenko except AFO" and half "Tenko never had a chance to live". I'm not saying them hating Tenko isn't justified. Look at what they have to rebuild. But ditching the "Tenko's whole life was planned" part, they still don't know the LoV came to be because they thought a child looked scary. Jeez, no one knows they were victims of ostracism, abuse, manipulation. Why they turned out the way they did.

And it ends on Izuku and Ochako smiling with the "future where heroes can relax" line. It's adorable, but they're still dealing with the guilt of Tenko and Himiko being gone. But I guess it's fine because they're smiling now? Because people are now doing something? So the reward from almost dying is: Bystander syndrome is chipping away?

*sigh* I guess the TL;DR for my opinions are:

Joki Joki isn't Tenko but damn if he isn't a woobie,

If I don't see the corpse Himiko isn't dead, I refuse,

Somehow Ochako's breakdown was more about Izuku, and we still didn't get introspection, just because it's comforting words doesn't mean they don't feel hollow,

It sounds like I hate her: I don't hate Ochako, I just hate the way she's written in "Tell, Don't Show" for Izuku, even my opinions about the breakdown are more about "dude what are you talking about" rather than it being about her and her alone, so I can't take her as seriously,

I think I just became Katsuki ATP: yeah yeah she's crying but what about Izuku and OFA- oh it's mostly fine.

The fun bits were relegated to two pages and small panels but I like to think Monoma goes to Katsuki's room to brag about the statue, Eri deserved to have a full page to sing

Hawks, I fail to see the point of switching Hero Billboards to "Everyday Ladybug" Billboards,

Bystander Syndrome is one thing, how are they gonna prevent another instance of the LoV if they don't know it was discrimination that started it all or that Tenko was a walking Greek Tragedy?

Izuku and Ochako's smiles give "Aw, it's adorable. Oh it's traumatized" vibes.

Yeah no, I'm not buying it. If Edgeshot can still live, why can't Himiko or Tenko? Why does Izuku still have embers, if we have one chapter left? What is the reasoning for "twisting fate", "saving and winning", "perfect victory with zero casualties", "I wanna save that little boy" if it ends on standard shonen ending?

Hell, OFA had dead people communicating with our protagonist and antagonist, and is connected to the deuteragonist, and you're telling me it doesn't mean something good can happen to Tenko?

... God now I just hope the next one isn't a timeskip, just Izuku and Katsuki holding hands, talking and being honest to each other (especially Izuku because oh boi I have seen some Writing Critics and I can't say I disagree) (maybe we'll confirmation on what actually happened to Himiko and Tenko, what about OFA, but that only depends on the page count of the next one).

Once again, sorry if it's all over the place, this chapter just. It wasn't great, in my (overthinking) opinion. I'm still unconvinced Himiko and Tenko are dead dead, until the last page of BNHA, we now have BKDK talking left, so let's see what the next one will bring. And I'm not rewritting all of this, I'm tired XD

So, yeah, that's my thoughts! Thank you for reading!

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

gonna go on another bot purge tonight so here's your friendly Reminder that if you have nothing on your blog (default icon/header/title, no rbs/likes) uhhhh i Will think you're a bot and you Will be blocked <3

[episodeoftv]

Round 8 (THE FINAL) Is over!

- “most” can mean whatever you choose I trust you. Can be the best episode. The worst. Objectively mediocre episode but an iconic moment in pop culture. Just a really solid use of television as a medium. I go into a bit more detail here.

- I only ask that you try to put aside the rest of the show and focus on the episode itself.

- the question is “most” instead of “best” bc I’m more comfortable with “most” winning by popularity contest. Also I believe that bad episodes deserve a shot.

- In the event of an exact tie both episodes will move on individually‚ with the next round’s vote having 3 (or 4??) options

here is the list of all episodes that were in the bracket, in alphabetical order by show title

ALSO: I won’t reblog propaganda in order to avoid crowding the blog (258 polls!), but you can submit propaganda here! Please focus on campaigning FOR the episode rather than against its opponent because this will be used in future polls as well. And lmk if you want to be anonymous

schedule under the cut, as well as links to polls

Round 1 Begins on Aug 15 (8 Groups‚ 128 polls)

- Group 1

- Group 2

- Group 3

- Group 4

- Group 5

- Group 6

- Group 7

- Group 8

Round 2 Begins on Sep 7 (4 Groups, 64 polls)

- Group 1

- Group 2

- Group 3

- Group 4

Round 3 Begins on Sep 20 (2 Groups‚ 32 polls)

- Group 1

- Group 2

Round 4 Begins on Oct 1 (16 polls)

Round 5 Begins on Oct 8 (8 polls)

Round 6 Begins on Oct 15 (4 polls)

Round 7 Begins on Oct 22 (2 polls)

Round 8 Begins on Oct 29 (1 poll)

- will include three 2nd and 3rd place polls

Winner announced on November 5th bc I think it would be funny.

Poll posts will include: a thumbnail (grabbed from the first few results on google) (but feel free to send me any better thumbnails)

Alt text for the thumbnails (I did my best here but I also did 32 of these in a row. So. They may not be perfect. If you notice any glaring mistakes lmk)

cws and technical notes that I received in submissions

summaries from IMDb, or wikis if there were none on IMDb (this is not meant to be propaganda‚ just to help jog your memory)

propaganda that I received in submissions (or was sent in a submission during the tournament‚ which I invite you to do here!) I am not reblogging propaganda because I don’t want to crowd the blog.

Link to‚ in order of preference: wikipedia page‚ wiki page‚ IMDb page.

[kyuhu]

Anyway that "I can't decide" animation crossing my dash again made me look up my old youtube favs and I realized a lot of heta videos I thought were gone are still there

[bunnihearted]

🌧️🫧💭

[sieglinde-freud]

had a thought after seeing @fore-seer's recent banger

[domesticated-feral]

[pastellmochi]

when u get this, list 5 songs u like to listen to, publish. then, send this ask to 10 of your favorite followers or moots (positivity is cool) 💖

hello mochee ^_^

HIIIIIE IRENE !!!! thabk youy 4the ask!!! you already got sent this but you should list 5 more songs oyou like 💪💪💪

ok let me seeeee (blowing dust off myplaylist)

wahrheit by yousei teikoku !! anything super 2000s warms my heart andis good for the soul

kitty girl by trixie mattel , shangela , bebe zahara benet , and kennedy davenport !! ITS SO CUTE 🥺🥺🥺 snd also my ringtone. in the disco heat youre the boogie body rockin queen…

so there’s this girl by dunni !!! PINER ANTHEM ANTHEM OF LOVE AS A WHOLE !!! this is like a whole body experience so wonderful it can capture the feelings of love in like 2 and a half minutes <333

you’re right by LUCY !!! UUUUUEFFGHHGGFCVBGHH … oh violin.. sweet violin.. one day i’ll get one 🫶 bc of this. i could cry. i did cry

she’s here !! or 떳다!!그녀!! by witches !! OH ITS SO FUN another love song but its funky groovy time plus theres a relatively well known korean newgrounds animationto this called there she is by SamBakZa its very cute

[nebulousbren]

Made for the 20th anniversary earlier this year

[waterbearable]

took a little break to continue bg3 run 2 and delighted to report that although I gave up on the weird fuckin needle blight ambush (might return to it another time I was just barely at level+at a halfway point w spell slots and it was not worth a long rest) I DID get into moonrise and break out the prisoners without triggering a fight which I hadn't done before. (tried to talk warden into letting me speak w prisoners first, that didn't work, so I shut the door and killed her, then deceived the other guards into thinking I could talk w the prisoners, then careful sneaking meant I killed all the scrying eyes and didn't alert any other guards. Wahoo)

[yache-berries]

HUGE SHOUT-OUT TO @drawnbinary FOR MAKING THIS A VERY SPECIAL PRIDE MONTH!!! 🥹🌻🍊✨️