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ultimaterealmofchaos · 4 years ago

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what are your honest thought about your muse’s canon? [all your dr canons :3 ]

the source!! (accepting!!)

all of my dr canons???? holy shit here we go

starting with our favorite ultimate musician ibuki: first off???? we all know how i feel about ibuki. she’s my absolute favorite sdr2 character, and i’m about 99.9% sure she’s my favorite danganronpa character overall. but of course, i have a few criticisms. not about her specifically, i don’t think, i think she’s fine, but like... how the game handled her??? okay so i’ve seen a lot of criticism online about her (and this is probably my own fault for going to the danganronpa subreddit), saying that she’s annoying, she adds nothing to the story, there’s no reason for her existence, etc. and honestly that isn’t a problem that’s specific to ibuki. it’s made pretty clear if you really look at it that she only exists to end up dead, which i think is a real problem with the writing of the series overall. and since all my muses end up dead in some form here, that’s a common criticism that i’m going to point out right here right now and never again in this post. but ibuki herself suffers from that she’s incredibly surface-level with only a deeper side underneath if you choose to pursue it. and like. obviously i’m not asking for her to be the deepest character in the lore, that’s not what she is, and obviously she’s... not written to be the smartest character at all, but i wish they had done her a little differently, and not hidden all her insightfulness in free time events. because. she’s smart. she doesn’t see herself as smart, but she is. and i wish they’d shown that more. and honestly??? you are telling me that she is the ultimate musician, yet nobody in her class likes her music?! that many people in there and not a single soul actually likes it??? chunsoft you’re fuckin’ playing with me here and i don’t like it. come on. make up your damn minds. ffs.

also why’d she have to die that’s some bullshit. she was cool af and i’m still salt about it.

this is going to get long and ridiculous bc i have so many of them so i’m hiding the rest under a cut.

next up is sakura!!! i actually think sakura was done quite well, honestly. granted, it was the first game, so i don’t think any of us saw the twist with her coming, but it was done really well! and her eventual death definitely suited her character. i never thought she’d be one to kill anyone, and i was glad that i was proven right, even though i was really upset with her death (just like i was with just about every other one lmao). from a meta standpoint, i really like how they took the tough-girl-who-even-looks-”manly” thing and sorta turned it on its head a bit (like, i’m not going to lie, i legit thought she was a guy at first who just happened to be wearing a girl’s school uniform and i think just about everyone does). her relationship with hina that built over the course of the game was something that was needed for her, imo, as it helps us as players sort of humanize her a bit and not just see her as this massive devastating block of muscle. i like how they managed to portray that even if she’s stoic as fuck on the outside, she really cares about everyone in her class, and that’s just shown by her death itself. they even managed to convey a sort of degree of softness with her, as shown by her relationship with hina and how hina was just about the only one that wasn’t initially scared shitless of her. idk man dr1 really did its characterization really well for danganronpa and they never really got that right again, did they? it’s a shame, really.

next up is our favorite bitch. junko enoshima. dear. god. i love her so much, and i love to hate her so much. the way she acts, the way she uses mukuro for her own gain, the way she switches personalities on the drop of a hat, the way she pretty much thought all this shit up on her own (with mukuro as well i’m assuming but let’s be real here it was honestly all her)... she’s a fucking unapologetic bastard and we love her for it. honestly i always look forward to playing a danganronpa game i haven’t already played because i’m dying to see how they’re shoehorning her in. because. it’s not dr without her. i’m sorry. it’s just not. sometimes villains are villains just because. they don’t have to have a deep backstory as to why they’re the way they are, and junko is a wonderful example of that. i love her. i’m biased. i love her sm.

next is miu. oh, dear, sweet miu. she’s the fanservicey character who makes things sometimes. that’s it. there’s one of these in every game. and you know what? having a fanservicey character is fine. to me, anyway. you do you, guys. but honestly i find miu kind of insulting in a way. no, not because she’s vulgar as fuck; guys, i am vulgar as fuck, especially after having a couple drinks, okay, i can sympathize in a way with her. no, what i’m insulted by is that they had the audacity to make her the ultimate inventor, and then fuckin’ reduce her to swearing, sex jokes, and vulgarity. like. inventors are smart as fuck. ya kinda need to be in order to invent things, right? especially doing it as consistently as she does. i mean, fuck, she provided whole things for the plot, for fuck’s sake. and they still reduce her to a dumb blonde who’s obsessed with kiibo and sexual innuendos. come on. do better. let’s go. she can still keep her vulgar tendencies, just.... god, i don’t even know how to fix her, but i hate her characterization even though overall i still like her quite a lot. learn to write women, you fucks; how did you get it more right in dr1 than in v3. and we’re not gonna even talk about the canonical ending because i see that differently than most people and it has nothing to do with what i’m talking about, which is what we see in 95% of the game.

next: our favorite bug boy gonta. it should be no secret that i love gonta. i love him. so much. the only character that is second to my love for gonta is korekiyo. i love korekiyo so much too. but this isn’t about him. it’s about gonta. again, we are bending the trope of big-character-is-terrifying and i really appreciate that in gonta’s case. like with sakura. ahaha. what can i say, i’m really weak for that sort of thing, i guess. but he suffers from the same shallowness that miu and even ibuki does. they tried to give him some more depth, but i don’t think it really worked. and like. come on. a guy who was raised by wolves for years and doesn’t really know how to interact with people now being in a killing game with a bunch of them???? shit, there’s so much you can do with that!! but no. we didn’t go there. much like we didn’t go there for everyone who wasn’t shuichi, kaito, maki, or kokichi. (ok shuichi gets a pass but you know.) idk man it’s probably because i didn’t do everyone’s free time events because there’s literally no way to do so, but i’m kind of salty about how v3 just treated its characters. all of them have potential. it just wasn’t reached. at all. unless it was the main four. they all deserve better.

lastly, we have mikan. and boy. do i have a lot to say about mikan. so, going into this, i want to say that i am an abuse victim. there, it’s out in the open. so, knowing that... some stuff about her makes sense. especially when you consider that she, too, is an abuse victim. and others. just. do not. she deserved better. she deserved so much better. and what made me the most incensed about this is her goddamn anniversary outfit. they only saw and used mikan as fanservice. why would you use an abuse victim as fucking fanservice i’m gonna fuckin’ riot. like. she’s traumatized as fuck. her despair disease shit makes a lot of sense, don’t get me wrong. it’s suitable for her that things happened the way they did with that. but for fuck’s sake. “oh haha look at that mikan fell again, face down ass up that’s the way she likes to--” stop. she deserves better. i’m mad about it. it’s not funny. stop doing mikan so fuckin’ dirty, you assholes. i’m taking her and i’m making her better. so fuck you.

anyway that’s it :3 i’m sorry this turned out to be so long aslkdjfal. i hope i answered the question sufficiently enough :333

#ooc: it's! karla!#we're popular! ~ questions #munday answers #death mention tw #abuse mention tw #long post tw #willofcausality

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lesbian-vmin · 4 years ago

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Hi! Hope you have a good day! 🎄 So, this is not a question. Since you write ffs, I wanted to share some thoughts on that. I've started to read ffs for the first time ever, my fav pair is of course Vmin, BUT... Most of the fics present JM kinda like a "feminine" boy. As if has to be presented like that to "fit" the role or something.. Idk... I just find that annoying AF.. Since you write ffs, could you recommend me some that you think I would like?

Some of mine? Because...like I said, I don’t read much. 😅

I also don’t like people trying to make Jimin too girly because....he’s not really super masculine, obviously. But I don’t like the “clearly influenced by toxic masculinity” feminine image that a lot of people use.

I don’t have that many that are published currently. ☹️ I’m in the process of finishing my Vmin demon AU which has my strongest image of Jimin yet. There are some heavy themes in the story, since it’s about demons. So if you don’t like the idea of actually evil “ish” demons, it might not be for you. But Jimin is strong and Tae is super soft for him. Jimin is treated well, and there aren’t elements of abuse directed toward him. And the first book is also heavily smut based....the rest aren’t so much. I don’t like writing smut so much, but it fit with the plot for that story. Particularly in the first book. You’ll understand if you read it. (x) <- Link to the first book. You can find the rest of the series in the description part.

I also have my 9-lives story with Kitty Jimin hybrid. He’s pretty strong in that story, too. And there’s one smut chapter because it was highly requested and I hate it. I’m actually going to rewrite that one soon and make it much better. It was originally posted on aff 5 years ago, and nothing like what I’d write today. So I want to redo it. Because I really like the story, and I think it could be better. It’s kind of cute and funny and not very serious. Very different compared to the demon AU. (x)

Then I have the soulmate fic. (x)

And one about them growing up and growing apart before coming back together. (x)

A funny medieval arranged marriage AU that has eventual smut because it was, again, highly requested. It was originally supposed to be one chapter. (x)

A rewrite of the Corpse Bride with Vmin. (x)

And the Humane Society AU. (x)

A lot of these are older because I haven’t published anything more recently. But I’ve been working on writing a lot more, so there are a bunch of things coming soon. In fact, if all goes well, I have a one shot coming on Christmas Day (my time).

I think my depiction of Jimin tends to have feminine touches because that’s how he is. And I think he’s okay with that. But I don’t just make him a cheap shot weak ass woman character for the “man” to look good like I’ve seen people do. It’s why I stopped reading fan fics. I don’t like when people make actual women flat ass characters with no dynamics and real personalities like that. The same applies to Jimin.

And I’m always happy to take requests. Stories that I’ve written in request end up anywhere from 5,000 words (I seldom write less than 5,000 word stories) to several chapters. However, I’m not doing smut requests anymore. Because I don’t like writing smut for the sake of writing smut.

I will also be posting links to my stories here as they are published.

#answered #anonymous #vmin #vmin fic

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helly-watermelonsmellinfellon · 4 years ago

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Being able to make it so the Twins can’t use their power if you take Victor hostage the whole match, is a problem definitely. And some other things need to be worked out for the Killer, but I’m excited to face them when they officially get released.

IstG, the devs definitely have a ‘map of the day’ thing even if they deny it with their last breaths. Every single day I get one particular map 70% of the time.

Today was Mount Ormond ffs. I hate it. You can’t blend into anything on that map.

I’ve been equipping Flashlights out the ass. I had over 100 yellows on Claudette because I never used them, so I’ve just be practicing trying to get some Blinds on Killers. I’ve gotten better but I think the devs keep changing them with each update because by the time I get used to them, there’s an update and they feel different.

That issue with Meg, from my last DbD post, is still lingering.

Also, Nurses are completely invisible for me. I can’t even see their red stains.

Gotta love hackers. So many hackers.

The devs have to fix this weird thing where people get grabbed after clearing a vault despite the fact that they’ve cleared the entire vault. It has happened to me and ppl I’ve played with. I watched a Tapp get yanked despite his Lithe taking him far from the window he vaulted.

First match after 3 days with no internet: Good. Thank God.

This Huntress let me go when I was the last left alive, because I did the work. And I mean, I performed all Rescues. All 6 of them. Healed every person at least once. Did a whole Gen by myself(the only Gen that got done btw). Broke all the Totems(which was an Undying/Devour Hope combo so all were lit at some point). Managed to lose the Killer in every Chase she started with me. Never got Hit. Last dude dies and it’s just us. She was standing at the Hatch and nodding, so I gave her my Med-Kit before leaving. My teammates were all Red Ranks and the Huntress was not.

Today was all Coal Tower. Not that bad of a map so I didn’t mind all that much. It’s the days where it’s just corn maps that really get me. I am colorblind and no matter if I’m Killer or Survivors, the corn blends into a single color for me, which eclipses every other color because there’s so much of it, and it’s hard to make out even the shape of corn stalks. Having that one add-on on Doctor where they get a red stain when in a Chase is the only way I can handle corn maps. Bright, glowing red among the burnt yellow is a beacon.

I loaded into a lobby with all Feng Mins. I was Fluorescent Feng Min myself and wasn’t changing any time soon. I think the other 3 were swf because their builds were all exactly the same. They had Dead Hard/Saboteur/Botany Knowledge/Breakdown with pimped out Med-Kits. Well, I found a Purple Flashlight and proceeded to be an ass to the Killer with it, leading her on, Blinding her, slamming pallets on her, not taking her hatchets seriously and barely moving out of the way. Like, I finished the last Gen in her face, rotating around the Gen while she missed throws from across the map! She just stopped trying.

Played my first Killer match in a week. Spirit. 3K. Was long and hard won, but worth it. They were swf and the dude who Escaped sent me a GG and also told me my play style for Spirit is ‘weird but works somehow’ and said they had a hard time communicating cuz I would randomly stand still and then surprise them. I don’t phase in Chase cuz I haven’t worked it out well yet. I phase to patrol large distances quickly which is why speed add-ons are the most important to me.

I don’t like playing as Hag. She’s so fucking short and it kills me! I have so many 4th Anniversary Cakes on her, but I just don’t like playing her. Though the body blockers at pallets and windows are funny.

Did a Trapper match where I surrounded the Hatch with all the traps. I even let the person go because they got through the first line of defense before I could reach them. The Hatch was against the shack wall so with only three sides you could enter from, I used 2 traps for each side! If they want to Escape, they must work for it, and those add-ons were meant to slow trap disarming a shit ton.

Did some Default Meg games. People leaving the lobby when a Default character loads in is the fucking best! XD And when the same person who just left, reappears, it’s even better!

I’m trying to do this Challenge where I hit two ppl with Hillbilly’s chainsaw within 30 seconds of each other, but it’s so hard! It is so damn hard! I barely managed the one where I have to down someone 4 times in one match! That David lead me so fucking hard but I needed to chainsaw him before the last Gen finished otherwise I’d have to try the challenge again and I really didn’t want to!

Got Hawkins with Hillbilly again. Didn’t used the chainsaw except to break pallets and still got a 2K.

Repeated something I tried on Trapper once, and got the some map too! Basically, add-on’s for more traps. Then find my Ruin Totem and just use all traps on the map to surround it. It was dead center, all glowing and shit in the dark of the swamp. The grass and mud successfully hid the traps all over that small area, save for the one directly blocking immediate access, which was obvious. So Survivors would just run into the grass and get caught. Like, they finally learned when 2 were dead to just leave Ruin alone after that, but it was funny! I managed a 3K. ^-^

I, Rank 4, got a match where every other Survivor was Rank 17-20. And the Killer was Rank 1. And they were just dropping like flies, and I had to save everyone because they were all hiding and self-caring(badly)/dying/hooked! Got Iridescent Emblem for Benevolence but got no other points save for dying as the Obsession. I’m annoyed. First truly horrible instance of matchmaking in a while.

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^I got the Hatch after the recording stopped. I circled the map back to where she’d gotten Hooked and watched as he teleported from the shack to the Hatch(on the other side of the map) to hit me just as I was going in. Got to keep that Key too.

The first person DC’d when he teleported across the map and grabbed them while we were doing a Gen. We could see him at the lodge just fine from all the way in the corner, and then suddenly he was behind her and pulling her off. It was a wide, open space. There was no way even with Perks, he would have been able to sneak up on us. We could see him coming from any direction.

That Feng Min and I watched him remain unmoving, from behind those trees, before she ran off to try and do a Gen. And that’s when I started recording because I had a feeling something was shifty.

He was a streamer and when I checked his stream, he was whining about how I shouldn’t have been able to Escape.

I reported him.

#dbd #dead by daylight

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coepiteamare · 4 years ago

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2020 in fic

2020 was terrible year but an okay year of fic considering i didn’t really write till october.

STATS: fics: 1 fic; i wrote drabbles because i can’t write long fics. but i wrote 8 drabbles? female pov: 8 male pov: 1 (i thought i had more but nope, they’re all wips) both pov: 0 (i haven’t written anything long to justify both pov) total word count: (lol, i’ll update this later but i know it’s absolute shite) OVERALL: Looking back, did you write more fic than you thought you would this year, less, or about what you'd predicted? both! i started this blog in january, wrote two things, then forgot about it because life kind of took over. because i didn’t write for so long, i didn’t intend on coming back, but i realized that i had a couple wips for the dictionary of lovers that i never uploaded so i came back sometime in october? (i published one and then kind of tucked away the rest because i wasn’t sure what i quite wanted to do with tdol)

i started off this year intending to write and finish tdol (26 drabbles), but that didn’t end up happening, so less. but when i stopped, i also didn’t think i would ever come back to posting, yet here i am! and i’ve posted drabbles and have a bunch in the wip folders, so more! tl;dr: less than i thought but also more than i thought. What pairing/genre/fandom did you write that you would never have predicted in January? i don’t write cross fandoms anymore (though that was my start in ff, my peak poetry days), but i never thought i would write 2nd pov/memberxreader because i started off writing memberxmember fics for bangtan, so i suppose that! Did you take any writing risks this year? most definitely. i never thought i would write 2nd person pov, but here i am. and i didn’t think i’d write memberxreader, but here i am! (a bundle of surprises i am) 2nd person pov is actually a lot harder for me to write, but i’m getting better at it.

pens and paperwork actually has a lot of dialogue and less purple prose: i think it’s the one piece i wrote that was less emotion based and more plot, which is very out of character for me. it’s also a little (a lot) different than what i normally write, so that was also a risk, but i enjoyed writing that one so much: it’s definitely one of my favourite pieces and i want to flesh out that universe a little more. Do you have any fanfic or profic goals for the New Year? write! longer! fics! i want to rewrite “the dictionary of lovers” and put it together into a long fic. i have a multiverse fic that i’ve been planning out, and i want to finish 9,719km and make it at least 10K: i want to practice fleshing out characters and worlds. my goal in general is just to write a long fic (9,719km, i’m looking at you). and also return to writing memberxmember fics too (i have a namgi fic in the works and there are def taekook ideas). get better at writing openings and closing and titling fics. god, i suck at titles.

also, i would very much like to publish most of my wips. so, future violet, here’s to hoping you do that. What were last year's goals? this is my first year, but last year, my goal was to just start a writing tumblr and write! and i’ve managed to do that! so yay 🎉 BEST AND WORST: My best story of this year: nine thousand, seven hundred nineteen kilometers. i love it to bits and pieces and i had it in my drafts for a while? because i wanted to publish it as a full fic but who knows when that will be, so i published it anyways. also this part was so much better than the other parts, so no regrets, i suppose. i think it is my favourite piece i’ve written, along with pens and paperwork, because it’s so different from what i’m used to writing? (both are also yoongi fics, funny enough) i definitely think it’s less purple prose (though 9,719km def has elements of that still; can’t get it out of my system) so hs me would not have approved, but i love it to smithereens. i try to not read any of my fics after posting them though because i’m incapable of letting it be: i have to perform autopsies on it, pick at the bad parts, cut open the good ones for flaws, until it’s virtually unrecognizable and ruined, so i can’t bring myself to reread it, but as of now, from what i remember, i think it’s my best story. My most popular story of this year: love is a losing game (we played anyways): i’m so flattered and in awe that people actually liked this story because it was so hard for me to write. it’s only 1k and it took me a good week before i could publish it because i kept tripping over the language. and i felt (still feel) like pre-dialogue and post-dialogue are two different stories, which was extremely frustrating for me. i think i can write dialogue (this story is a different beast, just because of the nature of the beginning) but it’s really hard for me to combine poetry/prose with dialogue. i feel like it throws it off but the only other way to write it would be in a short bit compilation (i’ll write fics like that again someday) and i didn’t feel like it would work for lialg. (funny story: it was actually a royalty!namjoon fic where he wants to give her the world but it turns out she was a spy and she essentially burns his kingdom to the ground) i’m honestly not too happy about how it turned out but i’m still glad people enjoyed it! Story of mine most under-appreciated by the universe, in my opinion: none! i really didn’t expect to have an audience, so people stopping and reading my fics? wild. Most fun story to write: pens and paperwork. that drabble was so much fun to write and i loved the characters. also gave me the least amount of headaches, probably because it kind of wrote itself once i started. i really do want to expand on that universe, just because i want to revisit it and explore 007′s background (maybe write about 005 and 006 as a spin off though whether i want to make it taexreader or taexjimin is to be determined) and yoongi’s journey in the MI6/NIS as well!

Story that shifted my own perceptions of the characters: probably pens and paperwork? i’ve always known that yoongi was a dynamic and versatile person but that fic really did it for me. i can totally see him being this sarcastic, dry person, but also someone with a lot of love and care for others, like he does with 007 by bringing her alc when she’s in pain and generally trying to distract her as she’s getting stitches. someone who’s as loud as they are quiet. i definitely want to write more soft yoongi though.

Hardest story to write: i am your ocean (your little mermaid). hands down. i don’t know if tae is just really hard to write (for me) or if that fic was a monster of it’s own, but i spent two+ weeks working on it. it went through so many storyline revisions and changes and then even after i had a decent idea of the final plot, it took me another week to write fucking 1.4k. absolutely awful. do i like it? i don’t even know. but i don’t like hoarding fics, so it’s out there for the word to pick at, to dissect it’s anatomy, to taxidermy it. Biggest disappointment: the movietheaterworker!oc x marvelnerd!jk fic that i never published. i don’t know if it’s just bad or it’s just not what i wanted but i haven’t touched it since october (and idk if i want to look at it) so that says something.

in terms of something i published, probably “heart” from tdol. i re-read it recently and it just felt really bleh to me? i should have more attachment to it considering it’s my first drabble on this account but nope. some parts of it are cute but it’s so clunky. i don’t like it. Biggest surprise: pens and paperwork or monsters under the bed. pens and paperwork because of how much i loved it/how fast it wrote itself and how much i liked it afterwards, even though it’s written in a much different style than i normally write? monsters under the bed because it was written with no direction and honestly feels like a fever dream (though i did have a backstory to jk’s character and his relationship with oc), yet it still was well liked! i kind of posted it as the start to the “things you said” drabble collection and was like here goes nothing, but people seemed to really enjoy it!! which was very surprising. and my butterfly, noor, called me the bob ross of fanfiction (that still cracks me up) so! Most unintentionally telling story: hmmm...probably anything from tdol. i’ve been so fortunate to have such beautiful, healthy, intimate platonic relationships, but the one (two if we’re being generous, which we most def are if counting it) romantic relationship i’ve had was quite awful and extremely toxic. (ask me about it if you want to: i like to rant about it from time to time) so tdol is a creation of wishful thinking, of what i think a healthy relationship should look like, through the ups and downs, the highs and lows. because i don’t have experience with healthy romantic relationships, i def put a lot of my friendships and bits and pieces from those into tdol. and it’s not published yet, but there’s an unwritten piece from tdol where oc talks about how she doesn’t believe in love but jk very much is a hopeless romantic, and that’s me writing me into a fic so.

HIGHLIGHTS + WRAP-UP: Favorite opening lines:

(god, i suck at opening lines)

tdol “perfect” + coming back home to you would always be one of the highlights of my day. whenever the sun shined for a little too long, a storm would hit, but this--coming home to and closing the day with you--was one of the few things in life that was completely and utterly mine to have, out of the reaches of whatever was out there that made sure the road was never too smooth. [note: this isn’t THE opening line but we’ll ignore that]

9,719km + paris is much quieter than the places you’re used to, but it’s not a bad thing.

Favorite closing lines: (i struggle so much with these) i’ll be your ocean (your little mermaid) + the enfilade of rain continues and pelts against the windowpane, against your balcony floor.

monsters under the bed + but when he opens his eyes again, to the blaring 1:01AM of his clock, you’re no longer by his side.

9,719km + p.s. did you miss me? + maybe he’s just as potent as a habit, just as hard to kill.

Favorite lines in general: i’ll be your ocean (your little mermaid) + you let the words fall from your lips, dribble down your skin like water droplets, and dissipate in the ocean of your feelings. watch them dissolve into the seafoam of your being and sink down, down, down. + it feels a little like that now as you card your fingers through his sweaty locks, dyed red like ariel’s, bright red against the blue of both your feelings.

love is a losing game (we played anyways) + he looks at you like you hold the secrets of the universe, even as he tears through the valley of your breasts with the claws of his ambitions and devotion. + (the summary line: he builds cathedrals in your name, whispers prayers into your skin, and you shatter the stained glass windows of his dreams.)

9,719km + nothing has been able to keep him out: not the gallery treasury in newport beach with its earthquake proof alarm system, not the cartier vault in new york city with its impressive randomized laser grid, and certainly not the flimsy, fickle alarm system of your heartbeat.

LIST OF COMPLETED STORIES: [note: does tdol count? i’ll put it here anyways. also i suck at titles] the dictionary of lovers: heart the dictionary of lovers: confirmation the dictionary of lovers: perfect love is a losing game (we played anyways) monsters under the bed pens and paperwork i’ll be your ocean (your little mermaid) nine thousand, seven hundred nineteen kilometers you feel like a holiday

WIP TEASERS: welcome to wonderland (we’re all mad here) (aliceinwonderland!au) summary: queen of hearts!jk x alice!reader

excerpt: be careful in the woods, they whisper. so many girls have gotten lost and made it out with just their bodies intact, bones rattling hollow and mind astray. the girls mumble about tea parties with madness, about croquet games with the heads of the executed, before they are wheeled off to hospitals, still talking to the wall.

be careful in the woods, they warn. it preys on your fear and feeds on your sanity, if you linger too long.

i know you (i’ve walked with you once upon a dream) (dreamwalkers!au) summary: oc works for the department of dreams: bureau of night terrors as a dreamwalker. jungkook has chronic nightmares.

excerpt: They tell lucid dreamers to look down at their hands, notice the garbled image to recognize they’re in a dream. Your brain backtracks to what it last remembers. A click of the seatbelt, Jimin’s soft “sleep tight,” the cool air inside the tank. Darkness. You grip the wand a little tighter.

Dreamscapes are weird, you think as you conjure up an ironwood table and a cup of earl grey. The fabric of reality is so thin, so permeable and malleable with the right amount of knowledge. If you think really hard, slip a hand through that curtain, you can still feel the cold air lingering on your skin from the tank. You look down at your watch. 8:44. Eight hours and fourty four minutes left to wander through other people’s nightmares.

if the world was ending (you’d come over, right?) (au where the world slowly comes to a halt and you find yourself calling your ex. inspired by “if the world was ending” by jp saxe and julia michaels) summary: ex!tae x female!reader

excerpt: The world starts to freeze over when you’re on the bus ride home.

Pedestrians pause in the middle of the sidewalk; cars decelerate in the middle of accelerations. The chatter in the bus groans to a stop, like a radio after the plug has been pulled, as everyone slowly freezes. Your hair, which once fluttered in the breeze, gently falls back into place.

The traffic light is red.

You pull your earbuds out. It’s quiet. Too quiet.

“Hello?” you whisper, shaking the arm of your neighbor. No response. The silence is loud, almost deafening.

“Hello?” you walk down the aisle to where your driver sits. His face is still. Annoyance clouds his eyes, chest puffed like he was about to take a deep breath. One he’ll never take again.

You shuffle your feet back and trip on the stairs, back slamming against plexi glass and metal.

The light never turns green.

untitled (mermaid!au)

excerpt: Jungkook loves the sea, but he thinks he might like you a little bit more. You, with the sea breeze in your hair and summer storm in your eyes. There’s something about the way you sparkle like the ocean top, sun skimming across skin, that makes him think you might be more than human, a trick of light, an optical illusion.

untitled (desert princess x pirate!jk au) summary: i love you the way ocean clings to shore, the way the horizon wants the sea, but, darling, we were never meant to be

excerpt: you’re pretty sure the ocean is enchanted, bright blue waters glimmering with magic. nothing else could explain how jeon jungkook, notorious pirate and thief, owns eyes that twinkle like the night sky and a face that puts the sunset to shame, unless he managed to somehow steal those too. you wouldn’t put it past him. + they name hurricanes after girls, he tells you. a prayer for gentleness, a hope for small casualties. huh, you reply, whoever came up with that idea must never have been caught in the storm of a girl.

IN CONCLUSION:

wow, could i be any more conspicuous about which drabble i like the most? why do i use so many parenthesis? also, i suck at titles and opening and closing lines. but hey, i’m trying, and sometimes that’s all i can ask from myself. i wrote a lot less than i thought but also more than i thought, so cheers to that. maybe next year will be better, maybe it’ll be worse. who knows? hopefully it’ll read easier though. p.s. if you’ve read this and if you’ve read anything i’ve written, thank you for reading. thank you for sticking through the calamity of my thoughts, through the hurricane of my mind. you have no idea how much it means. i hope i’m able to make your day a little better, a little brighter, a little light in this time of darkness. p.p.s. i’ve made a few friends on tumblr. i won’t tag them because i don’t want to put them through this awful clusterfuck of words, but if any of you read this, hi. you’ve really shaped my tumblr experience and i’m so glad to have met you all. noor (papillionsgf): my butterfly, i adore you. you were my first tumblr friend and you’ve been nothing but sweet to me. thank you for talking to me and thank you for our lovely conversations, for letting me squeal about tfua, for i absolutely adore you. hana (cutechims): the two of us are awkward potatoes, and i still need to rewatch batman begins, but thank you for always being so sweet, so kind. i love talking with you and reading everything you write. you make me smile when i see you on my dash, with every response you send. jlin (bratkook): i slid into your tumblr dms because you’re so talented and so awfully pretty. i absolutely enjoy our conversations about rich folxs and karens, and i really hope the pandemic comes to an end because i would love to meet you in person and teach you aerial! (also i will bake you lots of cookies) erin (yeojaa): hi lovely. i adore you to the moon and back and to be honest, you still intimidate me because i love your writing so much, but i wanted to say how much i adore you and how i love talking to you. i hope you’re taking care of yourself and staying warm and i hope to get to know you better in 2021!

notes: adapted from lj, where i started writing! i used to see this a bit on lj (or maybe it was the circle of writers i followed) but i figured i’d bring it over here because it’s a good reflection piece and tumblr feels like a good place for that.

#violet thoughts on the horizon #violet sunsets: a year in review

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bucksbisexual · 5 years ago

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AAAAAAAAAAAAAA OKAY LAST ONE OF MY OPINION POSTS HERE GOES EP12:

[breathes in]

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

i’m so fucking happy with this ending

it’s such a good happy ending this is truly what the gays deserve i’m just happiness in physical form rn

i don’t even know where to start but i’ll try to make this as chronological as my brain allows me because my memory do be sucking

i’m gonna put a keep reading because this shit will get loooooong kjshfkf okay let’s do this

so.. we start with PETE EXPOSING NON(T)’S BRAT ASS!!!!!!!!!! FUCK YES THATS MY BABY THATS MY BOY!!!!!!!!!!

kao’s mom being a fucking badass and telling her BOSS how to do shit. i love her yall I LOVE HERRRRRRRR

also kao’s mom telling kao that she wasn’t the most amazing person ever was so cute because you can see kao’s light bulb turning on sjfkhsgsh please i love them

yes i will say i love x after every single one of these u can’t stop me

from the teaser i thought kao would dashi run run run to pete’s house but thankfully he took a taxi lmao

at least he didn’t run there because he had to run from pete’s house (or may i say, mansion) to the POOL my man is a whole athlete oh my god

KAO YELLING HE LOVES PETE!!!!!!!!!!! IN THE MIDDLE OF A CLOSED SPACE WITH PEOPLE IN IT!!!!!!!!!!!! AND HE DOESN’T GIVE A FUCK IF THEY HEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THATS CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT BABYYYYYYYY

also a beautiful parallel to the scene from ep1 (i noticed there’s a lot of parallels in this episode we stan character development and repeating things just so the viewers can see how consistent the couples are)

the kiss from that scene............... beautiful amazing gorgeous idk many words in english to describe how i felt while watching and how i feel about it

to that i think we cut to sunmork but i don’t remember what happened because of the kiss KJHFKSL SORRY

anygays i rlly like how this whole episode is sun being a clingy bih and mork gay panicking while trying to act like a confident gay when he knows that sun outconfidentgays him i love them lmao

okay after that i think it’s petekao having food with their parents all together and god i looooooove this scene

pete’s dad being the lgbt ally dad all of us lgbt fellas with homo/transphobic dads wish we had will never fail to make me soft i love that man pls be my dad too

also kao’s mom :-(( i love her she respected her son’s decision on not coming out until he was ready even though she already smelled it (reminds me of my mom lmao) and was always there for him even when kao didn’t say anything :-(((((((((((

petekao bickering will never get old i swear i love every time they do because that’s so..... men it makes their characters more real

i know there’s a lot (not that much because i admit this episode was kinda short?? idk maybe it’s just me) between that scene and this one but THE SQUAD EATING ALL TOGETHER AGAIN!!!!!!!! AND THEM TEASING PETEKAO!!!!!! PLEASE I LOVE THEM

pete literally not knowing how to stop the audio and broadcasting live TO THE WHOLE COUNTRY that time when he told kao he loved him through the teddy bear...... peak pete culture

the fact that ppl love them and they have a whole hashtag on twitter makes me soft because usually when someone is famous in bls the fans hate the other part of the couple but in this one??? oh no honey we stan petekao in this household hate is not allowed it’s actually prohibited illegal

okay let me backtrack a bit skjfhsjf

OH YES I FORGOT!!!! manow wanting to talk with mork was so weird when i saw the teaser for the episode but after seeing them talk i was like oooooh okay i understand

sun saying “what’s your girl saying to my boy” is probably one of my favourite lines of this drama KLHSJFLF

rain reading their lips fskjfjsf and when mork said “fuck you rain” HIS FACE SKJFHKSJSLFJ HE WAS SCARED SHITLESS but also the end of this scene was so cute i love these three

i just did a bit of skipping through the episode to try and actual make an order out of this mess and the petekao+parents thing comes now,,,,,, anygaYS

then it’s more teasing between sunmork blah blah

then MORK SPEAKING THE MF TRUTH!!!!!!!!!!!!! quoting the actual dialogue “it’s my choice to tell or not tell anyone. i should get to decide”

OUTING SOMEONE ISN’T COOL!!!!!!! IT’S NOT OKAY!!!!!!!!!!! NO LGBT PERSON WILL EVER WANT TO BE OUTED!!!!!!!!!!!!! DON’T DO THAT SHIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

rain had good intentions but it doesn’t mean that it was right of him to do so

okay this got serious,, sun going to rain’s bed with not one but Two pillows when barely two people fit in that bed.... oh to be that iconic and carelessly gay

back to petekao because we will never get enough of these two (which is why i’ll probably watch the our skyy episode tomorrow just to cry over these fools)

it’s so weird to see tay being like this after watching him being himself in other things like the live lunch and taynew meal date and other things i’ve randomly watched during this week to retain myself from finishing this series in a night ksfjhsfkshlks

also kao helping pete shave and pete being like do u like my moustache or should i shave it for u my lord SFHKFJ the domesticity and just the feeling of two idiots being in love i love them with my whole heart

kao staying at pete’s house because it’s both of their first days as interns and kao!!!!! he works for pete’s dad!!!!!!! pete’s dad accepted him into his company!!!!!! i love them

also the bickering between those three sjfkhs “hello im pete im from thailand” “that’s all you’ll say today” THAT WAS SO FUNNNY SKJFHSKFHSFJSFL

THE MESSAGE IN THE TEDDY BEAR !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! KAO CALLING PETE LOVE PLEASE IM GONNA CRYYYYYYYYYYYY I LOVE THESE FOOLS

okay so the squad eating together is right after this but i already talked about it ksjfhsfh next!!

idk if it’s a big time skip or a small one but guess what!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MANOW AND RAIN ARE DATING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! MY STRAIGHT BABIES YES I LOVE YOUUUUUUUUUUUUUU AAAAAAAAAAAAA

manow is so pretty and rain is so cute they’re both so lucky my bisexual ass is crying

pete being “angry” at kao being so handsome,,, a mood

but also.. pete being possessive was h*t

there i said it and i don’t regret it

random but i will miss kao’s annoying ass saying “about aboyz” sjfkhsfh

pete being like “i will have to give u more love bites (ffs gmmtv just say hickies we are all at an age where we know what love bites are) so no one flirts with u” and kao being like “bitch try me” sjfhksfj i’m loving bratty kao

also that scene turned into furry kao real quick KJHDKJFSHJF

okay now it’s: mork’s birthday party time!!

rain and manow arrive first and are the cutest couple around because the two main gays haven’t arrived yet (being gay AND punctual? not possible)

sun and rain fighting in the kitchen was peak siblings culture skfhksjf

mork being ready to leave his own birthday party with a stranger who also plays pokemon go just to have a battle................ dumbass bisexual energy

said stranger is eARN FROM 2GETHER!!!!!! FILM IS IN THIS TOO!!!!!!!! first the girl who plays yuri in yyy and now film who plays earn in 2gether is here too??? damn wlw keep winning (also headcanon: theyre dating/seeing each other because LESBIANS periodt)

okay petekao arrive and wont u guess whats their present for mork,,,,,, the mf TEDDY BEAR and kao rlly says that they should use it since theyre so lip sealed lmao

rain and manow literally gave mork a present not for him but for sun im- i love these two

MORK FINALLY SAID YES TO BEING BOYFRIENDS OH MY GOD DUDE U ACTUALLY HAD ME WORRIED THERE FOR A SEC

also sun being a whole koala and being a horny bitch is so funny sfhskfjskl my man has his priorities set

their last scene is so cute :-(( poor rain will have to live with this until he moves out sjfhksjf

oh boi the ending is near hhhhhhh

kao teaching his class an equation that ends up in i < 3 u is the most kao thing i’ve ever seen

also kAO IS BOOKED AND BUSY BABYYYYYYYYYY GET THOSE COINS HONEY

pete being like “u haven’t spent enough time with me lately >:-(” was cute jhkfjs my man is needy of kao and i understand that because have u seen kao? exactly

kao teasing him with not having forgotten the cup this time and pete being his possessive self was.. splendid

every reference to something that happened with non(t) hurts but also i love how they just tease each other because they know that now their relationship is stronger than it’s ever been and that nothing and no one will come between them

the scenes they show during the last last scenes :-((( BOYFIES!!!!!!

and i love how they decided to end the show with them holding hands in public

i would explain why i do but it’s 6:26 am and i’ve been writing this for at least half an hour already and my laptop is heating up a lot and im sweating because it’s hot in here so get down on the floor pipiipipipipipipi

kdjhkdfhs sorry im not sleepy this is just my brain without a filter it’s just gay shit and a big repertoire of songs

god okay that was my opinion on the last episode of dark blue kiss...........

needless to say that i will eat every bit of content related to petekao after this because writing this i already miss them and i can’t wait to watch our skyy tomorrow idk where but i will

i really really REALLY liked this drama and it’s one of the two bl dramas (not counting the untamed) i’ve given a full 10/10 rating on mdl because it’s THAT good

everything about this drama is just.. chef’s kiss i love it i will probably rewatch it when my plan to watch is empty but it’s a pretty long list so.. hopefully i’ll ignore that and just rewatch sjkfhslf

i’ll of course watch kiss and kiss me again just for the petekao, the squad and rain scrumbs because i’m sure that the petekao compilations don’t show everything

but yeah im just.. i love this show it’s been a rlly long time since i started writing this but i’m still happy because it’s so good and truly gave us a good happy ending and i swear i cannot emphasise enough how important good happy endings in lgbt media are!!!!!!!!!!

anygays im hungry and ready to submerge myself in the dbk tags, see u all tomorrow for my our skyy petekao episode version of this,,,,,

till then, stay safe ! bYE

#dark blue kiss #dbk the series #dbk #dbk reaction

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occasionalfics · 5 years ago

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hi so i haven’t made any real posts in a while bc i haven’t really been writing that much but i wanted to just post SOMETHING for y’all to interact with

anyway, if you don’t know, i have a youtube channel and i’ve been watching (almost) every movie that chris evans is in because i love him and reviewing them for my channel and i thought i’d give a rundown of the movies i’ve seen so far (including ones i haven’t rewatched for the channel yet because i’m not gonna link to the videos - if you really want to watch, message me) so maybe you could decide which ones are worth your time and/or money 😂

for this, i’ll give a brief description, my general thoughts, and a score from 1-10 (1 being unwatchable and 10 being PEAK cinema)

i’m keeping things very light on spoilers, meaning there might be one or two overall but not for every movie.

so here we go:

The Newcomers (2000) - some indie movie with no theatrical release about a family that moves from boston to vermont because of money troubles. chris is in it for like 5 minutes and he’s honestly the second best part (second to a dog only). 3/10, mostly boring but not offensive.

Not Another Teen Movie (2001) - i feel like everyone has seen this. it’s a spoof of 80′s and 90′s teen movies (namely she’s all that and cruel intentions). chris plays the main love interest and he’s definitely funny enough to pull off the part but it’s not really my thing. 4/10.

The Perfect Score (2004) - this is the first time chris and sc*rj* worked together. 6 high school kids fail the SATs so instead of retaking them, they sneak into a government building and steal the answers. it’s an mtv movie and it’s...fine? not great, not special, but...very early aughts mtv for sure. 4/10

Cellular (2004) - an action flick where chris plays a regular dude who gets a call from a woman who’s been kidnapped, and then has to keep communications up with her in order to save her and take down some corrupt cops. surprisingly funny, i had a great time watching, would recommend! 7/10

Fierce People (2005) - i think this was another indie movie without a theatrical release. based on a book that, from the reviews of both, is identical, i think because the author of the book was also the screenplay writer. and that’s probably why this movie sucked. bby anton yelchin (rip) gets caught scoring drugs for his mom, and because she has connections to this super rich dude, they end up going to live in new jersey with his weirdass family instead of bby anton going to jail. chris’s character is not who you think he is. content warnings for drugs, rape, and murder. overall boring, not what it thinks it is, 4/10

Fantastic Four (2005) - okay everyone’s seen these. i actually hate both of these FF movies, but chris as johnny storm is the only shinning light in either. reed is the WORST and sue is treated like eye candy. 4/10 for johnny storm alone.

London (2005) - literally the worst movie i have ever seen. i hate london. also an indie movie, very misogynistic, very pretentious and self-important. lonely emo boy does drugs with random people in a bathroom at a party he was not invited to INTENTIONALLY, in the hopes that he will win over his ex girlfriend, who he repeatedly emotionally abused while they were together, even though the party is literally in honor of her moving across the country. and she didn’t want him there. please never, ever bother watching london and talking about it online - fuckbois will attempt to tell you that you know nothing repeatedly. 1/10, worst film ever made.

TMNT (2007) - does this need an introduction? chris plays casey, but the movie’s really about the turtles. honestly the writing kind of relies on you knowing a lot about the turtle lore and overall it’s a boring but ultimately harmless film. it’s just really not worth your time. 2/10

Sunshine (2007) - ONE OF THE BEST MOVIES I HAVE EVER SEEN, I HAVE NOT STOPPED THINKING ABOUT SUNSHINE IN OVER A YEAR. 8 astronauts are on a mission to ignite a nuclear bomb into the dying heart of our sun. but it’s a space film so shit goes wrong and, one by one, they start dying. very tense, very sad. the biggest complaint all around is that the first 2/3s of the movie are one genre and the last 3rd is a completely different movie, and yet it’s STILL amazing. please watch (if you can handle a space thriller)! 8/10

Fantastic Four: Rise of the Silver Surfer (2007) - a very bad follow up to a very bad origin movie. not even andre braugher could save this one. reed is really mean to johnny for no reason and i hate his guts. 3/10

The Nanny Diaries (2007) - second time appearing alongside sc*rj*. she’s the main character. an anthropology student takes on a nannying job for an upperclass family in new york, but the job ends up being more than she bargained for. chris plays harvard hottie, her upstairs neighbor who is THE BEST BOY. i loved this movie. 8/10

Battle for Terra (2007) - a very weird but very good animated movie about humans attempting to colonize an alien planet because we were stupid enough to destroy earth, venus, and mars. lots of big names on the cast list for a movie that not many people saw, but it goes ham in the “fuck colonizers” theme. overall, a surprising joy. 6.5/10

Street Kings (2008) - well this was directed by david ayer so my friend and i went into this with very low expectations and it didn’t even meet that bar. keanu reeves plays a sad and angry corrupt cop who almost kind of gets framed for killing another cop, and then spends a good chunk of the runtime just hunting down other corrupt cops without doing anything about his own corruption. it’s copaganda, but very bad copaganda. also chris dies. fuck this movie, don’t waste your time. this is another one where the fanboys will come for you if you say a bad thing about it on the internet, 2/10

The Loss of a Teardrop Diamond (2008) - another indie that apparently caught the eye of kevin fiege? i don’t really know why because chris’s character is very bland and the movie overall is nothing special. tennessee williams wrote the screenplay before he died in the 80′s and then this was made and nothing about it was changed. it’s basically straight people in the 20′s in the south being weird and rude. a rich girl pays a hot poor boy to escort her to parties after a huge scandal was caused by her father. she loves the poor boy but he doesn’t return the feelings and everyone’s sad, dying, or mean. skip it, honestly. 4/10

Push (2009) - honestly, an underrated movie that so often gets shit on because of x-men. push is so good! a telekinetic man meets a young girl who can see the future, who tells him that if he helps her find her mom, they’ll also come into $6 million. they run into his ex and the government department trying to control people with powers, and shit ensues. chris’s chemistry with dakota fanning as big brother/little sister is adorable and i need more people to talk about it. 8/10, very worth your time.

The Losers (2010) - apparently went up against some other star-studded action flick with a similar plot at the time of release and suffered for it, but other than that, this is a fun romp with lots of character. a team of militiamen are framed for an international scandal and forced to go underground until a mysterious woman helps them exact revenge on the billionaire who framed them so they can go back to their families. chris plays one of the secondary characters and he’s PERFECT. best character in the whole movie! you’ve probably seen the “don’t stop believing”/”lethal killing machine” scene around tumblr before - that’s just how his character is the whole movie and it’s great. definitely recommend! 7/10

Scott Pilgrim vs. The World (2010) - we’ve all seen it. lucas lee is the best. there are lots of problems in the word choice and some of the moral quandaries but overall, an enjoyable ode to videogames and comic books. 6.5/10

Puncture (2011) - once again, an indie film with very little theatrical release. WHOOOH though. this movie. SO GOOD! two personal injury lawyers take on a case when a nurse is accidentally pricked on the job and contracts AIDS. they take on a huge pharmaceutical supply company in the hopes of manufacturing and creating a legal standard for using safety needles to protect frontline medical workers, all while chris’s character is dealing with being an addict. based on a true story, honestly one of chris’s best performances (and that’s across the board). you can rent it cheap from youtube and it’s totally worth it. 7.5/10

Captain America: The First Avenger (2011) - i mean. it’s cap. honestly this movie feels a little long even though it’s not. overall it’s a good, enjoyable movie and watching it all the way through reminded me of why bucky was so important. 7/10

What's Your Number? (2011) - okay honestly i love this movie? a woman is slutshamed by her sister’s friends and then embarks on a journey through her past relationships to find her soulmate, only to realize that it doesn’t matter how many men she’s slept with because the right one really won’t give a damn and neither should she. everyone’s seen naked collin around tumblr. he’s a good boy. mostly. 7/10

The Avengers (2012) - so i can appreciate that this was like THE event movie of the summer of 2012 but it is LONG and there’s still so much spy shit i don’t understand. my friends and i also think that j*ss wh*d*n oversimplifies most of the characters, and ultimately the writing isn’t super strong. the performances are, for sure, but it’s still not as great of a movie as i thought it was when i was a senior in high school. 7/10

The Iceman (2012) - also an indie? based on a true story. a man (played by michael shannon) is recruited by the mob to be a hitman, and then something happens where they don’t want to pay him or something, so he starts doing a shady job with another hitman (played by chris) to support his family. overall it’s a boring film but michael and chris were both really good! watch it if you like dark mob movies, michael shannon, or winona ryder. 3/10

Snowpiercer (2013) - this movie, no pun intended, is a RIDE. poor people at the back of a train containing the last living human beings revolt against the bourgeoise. everyone’s dirty and tired and hungry. weird shit happens, but ultimately, this was SO worth the watch (and the money i spent on the blu-ray)! 7/10

Captain America: The Winter Soldier (2014) - still my favorite cap movie. excellent characterization, maybe the only time i cared about natasha. the plot should be an avengers movie given that shield is a team concern, but i will stand by the winter soldier aspect of this movie til i die. 8/10

Before We Go (2014) - an indie movie that chris directed (his directorial debut)! it’s...cute, i guess. it’s not harmful in any way, but also not special in any way. flustered woman misses her train, cute musician in the station offers to help her navigate NYC. they talk about feelings and their pasts and what they’re running from and toward. it’s fine. 6/10

Playing It Cool (2014) - indie? i don’t know?? screenplay writer (chris) wants to write action films but keeps getting hired to write romcoms, then he finds himself IN a romcom. it’s okay. some people think it’s terribly misogynistic which i didn’t find it to be, but it’s also just...kinda bland. 4/10

Avengers: Age of Ultron (2015) - my least favorite avengers movie. i genuinely hate how ultron was handled and this movie has never once made me sympathize with the maximoffs. except for when steve defends their choice to allow experimentation to be done so they could defend their country. uh the party at the beginning is the best part, full stop. 3/10

Captain America: Civil War (2016) - this isn’t a cap film. he has no character growth. this is an avengers film at best. i also take issue with how much of this movie is really just two movies forced into one. bucky gets the short end of the deal in the overall mcu and this is really where that starts. 5/10

Gifted (2017) - PLEASE. WATCH. GIFTED. a former philosophy professor gives up his career to raise his niece, but when his mother attempts to gain custody, he has to fight for the person he loves most in the world. one of the most heartfelt, genuine movies ever. chris and mckenna grace have SUCH good chemistry. bonus octavia spencer (also in snowpiercer). 10/10

Avengers: Infinity War (2018) - probably my favorite avengers movie. great stakes. amazing acting. THE BEARD!!! 8/10

Knives Out (2019) - WHOOO BITCH. TOP TIER. ransom drysdale could do whatever he wants to me and normally, i don’t “date” villains. 9/10

Endgame (2019) - the lesser infinity war. i’m not a fan of time jumps and also hate fatphobia. thor was mistreated and i can’t forgive that.

#chris evans #chris evans ranking #i don't talk about my fanfic on my youtube channel which is why i don't post links to it openly here

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gottaenjoythelittlethingzz · 5 years ago

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Happy Storyteller Saturday! I saw in an ask your wip was based on a tv series? Witch one and how much did it influence it?

Oh boy. Are you sure about this one mate? It’ll reveal me as a fraud! Alright then.

I’m a FanFiction writer. That’s how I learned I liked to write, that’s how I learned to write fiction and separate it from school or else I would have stopped entirely years ago.

The Reaper’s Only Daughter is based off the tv series Sons of Anarchy. It centers on a motorcycle club that has a Reaper as their symbol.

I fell in love with the show in May of 2018 and have been working on Schuyler as a concept character for 2 years (and you see how little progress I’ve made on the actual WIP 🤦🏼‍♀️😹). Technically, I’ve only been working on TROD since the winter of 2018 and this is because the concepts for it as a work have gone through several changes.

When I first started out, I created Sky as well as the world around her that was based entirely off the series. The club and outlaw life, certain familia bonds, and similar villains as her club did the same work as the original from the series. However, I was so obsessed with the show, (newly) obsessed with who are now my favorite actors in the business, and so beholding to the screenwriter of the series (a career I’d like to enter) that the ideas fell through completely. I scraped all hopes for writing an original series (rather, I established my ideas as a backstory for Schuyler) and instead decided to grovel at the foot of the masters and inject her directly into the vein of fanfiction. TROD is a ff, a completely none monitizable work; and for good reason.

Sky’s story is a ‘add in scene/fixing canon’s mistakes’ story. Especially in the beginning (though the further I get into it, the more confidence I gain to venture away from canon), I flat out copy and paste dialogue, much less whole scenes and plot lines (just adding characters, changing who says what and when and to who, and changing relationships drastically). Though, the dialogue parroting is because I’m following the original story so closely, there’s hardly a way to change the delivery of information and the characters’ use a certain style of speech I’m unfamiliar with and still learning to write for. 😬✍🏼

The truth is, I’m very unconfident with my writing, ideas, and especially my dialogue. But, the more I write and the more I learn, the more I’m thinking “well hey, maybe I can go back and change this discussion just a tad” just to fix the dialogue and make it more my own work/characters.

It is funny you should ask this question. I woke up this morning with the idea (like I have many times before) where I think, “why don’t I try to write just the first chapter of what Schuyler’s story would be if it were completely my own and removed from canon”? Because I do have her, her family, and a large sum of characters to make up her extended family and one antagonist mapped out/fleshed out and characterized just ready to be written into a story of their own. And at least two plot lines, goddamn it!!

It wasn’t in the outline, but there is a scene in the chapters that I have posted where she “phones home” and has a discussion with her best friend. And in 1000 words the best friend’s entire life story, their entire friendship, and a bit of Sky’s past is revealed. I’ve been considering working in a similar phone conversation with her mother but haven’t found the right spot yet. This is all to say, I now see it is possible to do my own stuff!

Going back to writing the first chapter of an original story, I was wondering if I could detach myself enough to make it into a flash back, but since I don’t plan on writing flashbacks and I’m so focused on the story I am writing, I haven’t convinced myself to try it out just yet. Maybe one day!

There are two problems that keep me from making the jump from canon to original work:

There is nothing in my body that wants to do research for a project

In order to create the world for Sky I would have to do a mess ton of research. Title change (story can’t have anything to do with a reaper anymore 😾), research on IRL motorcycle gangs and federal officials, and organized crime (crimes). Everything that the TV show handed me on a plate would have to be scraped and I’d have to craft a new motorcycle gang that has nothing to do with any in irl or else I’ll make some very real people angry. Believe me, it’s a lot of work I’m not prepared to dedicate myself to.

There are some smaller caveats. Would the world (outside fan culture/FF) accept a female in such a masculine world, even in fiction? Would I have to make Sky a guy? Is the mainstream media ready for a polyamorous couple? I’d have to create two new characters (or revamp the ones I currently have) to take them away from the canon characters her partners already are. Or would I have to scrap this amazing relationship I’ve spent two years dreaming on entirely?!

Which brings me to my second issue:

(#2) I’m not confident enough in myself yet to write a convincing/entertaining/compelling story.

Which is a whole caveat in itself. I’m afraid my dialogue is garbage, my OC characters are not compatible/relatable, and my action scenes are bland. I’m afraid to hurt or put characters in danger that I cannot get them out of convincingly. I don’t want to take risks or make mistakes in a story. Which is a huge learning curve I’ve got to get around before I can make Schuyler a real original story concept

All of this to say, going back to the previous ask. (!)Yes, I’ve considered making Sky into an original character in an original fiction book series AND television series. (!)I’ve considered writing TROD totally following the original tv series and hardly changing anything. (!)I’m most recently considering changing things drastically and only following the series up to about S4 (but this prediction keeps dropping in season numbers and I keep thinking of new story lines for my character). (!!!) I’ve also considered finishing TROD (in 10 or so years) and then going back to write a prequel titled “The Reaper’s Sister” and a third book “The Reaper’s Mother”; both titles being totally original 👀👀👀👀☠️

I have a lot of ideas, a lot of time on my hands, and almost no will to complete any one project because projects take me years to do anything of substance with.

Regardless, I appreciate the opportunity to ramble and I’ll keep tumblr updated as far as if I ever suddenly go completely insane and start researching for my next trilogy blockbuster critically acclaimed series extravaganza!!

Thanks so, so, so much for the ask! 🖤 I appreciate the interactions. I’ll be answering questions for Storyteller Saturday this week!!

#please dont feel pressure to respond im just in lock down with family and going mad and worrying about my future writing and idndjdndjd #answered #writblr community #storyteller saturday #writeblr games #writeblr event #writer friends #my wips #my ocs #tag me in stuff #fanfiction writer #writers of tumblr #lets interact #invade my inbox #send me asks #ask my about my process #writeblr problems #writeblr community

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loneveenas · 5 years ago

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whispering into the night | 7

pairing: kenhina words: 2219 rating: t

total words: 7922 | previous chapters on ao3

note: yes this is chapter seven, which i posted to my ao3 a month ago. i’m close to updating the final chapter so i wanted to post this before hand. you can find the other chapters on my ao3

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“Hellooooo guys,” Shouyou yells into the camera. “So good to be back in front of the camera with Kodzuken!” He excitedly waves into the camera. He tilts his head to look at Kenma, who’s sitting next to him, feeling a little shy.

Shouyou nudges Kenma in his sides. It almost seems like Shouyou’s the one with the popular channel

“Hello.” Kenma continues to be shy and Shouyou giggles. “I brought Sho with me today. As you can see.”

Shouyou notices Kenma is very stiff today. He is hesitant if he should grab Kenma’s hand under the table. But it’s resting on Kenma’s thigh and Shouyou doesn’t know if he can go there.

Kenma found out about the video. It was bound to happen. It’s not like Shouyou could have hidden forever, the channel being Kenma’s and all—and the video getting a million views in 24 hours. The fans apparently couldn’t get enough of it. It was only a five minute video, but it exposed Kenma so much that he hadn’t talked about it to Shouyou at all. Except for Kenma sending Shouyou a text with “I can’t believe you’d expose me like that”. Shouyou was hurt. But it had been his own fault. And expose? Would that mean more than Shouyou had previously thought? Except he couldn’t bring it up right then, because Kenma would ignore even his simple ‘Hi’ and ‘Hello’ texts. Kenma never took down the video, though.

Today, luckily, Kenma called Shouyou again. Shouyou’s heart exploded when he got the call and rushed over to his place immediately.

“We’re doing a live Q&A session today,” Kenma said. “So if you’ve got questions, start sending them our way in the chatbox, and we’ll see what we can answer.”

“We are going to try and answer a lot of them!” Shouyou announced happily. His smile hasn’t died down yet and he hopes Kenma notices. “So start sending them in!”

They stare at the screen for a good minute. Shouyou is kind of well-aware that Kenma is sitting next to him. He notices from the screen that Kenma is barely sitting in front of the screen, and that it’s all of Shouyou’s body that is taking up two-third of the screen. He scoots to the right a little, tugging onto Kenma’s shirt, signaling that he can move a little more to the middle of the screen. Kenma simply moves along.

Shouyou moves his eyes back to the screen and smiles as he sees the comments welcoming them. A couple of the comments are also already sending in questions that they want to know.

—sho-kun so good to see you again!! —i missed you both!!!! —Kodzuken spare us a smile please. —say, Sho, would you like to be famous? —what’s you guys’ favorite holiday: Beach, Mountain, City? —Last film you watched? —first ride to go to in a theme park? —have you guys ever been to Disney World?

“Woah,” Kenma says.

“That’s a lot of questions already, you guys!” Shouyou comments, giggling and not stopping to read.

—which of you two is the laziest? —What are your shoe sizes? —who is the better dancer —Italian or Mexican food?

Shouyou can’t help but see the questions pop up that ask them… more private things… if Shouyou can call it that. It makes him uncomfortable.

—are you guys dating yet?? —please tell me you guys are dating. —I NEED THIS INFORMATION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! —sho-kun we all know you like kenma and he likes you —just say yes to dating already ffs

“Okay, okay,” Kenma says, “calm down. Let’s start answering a couple first.”

“Yes!” Shouyou chimes in, trying his best to ignore those comments.

“Sho, this one’s for you.” Kenma moves a little closer to the screen to read better. “Sho-kun, it reads, how long does it take you to get your hair like that?” Kenma turns to Shouyou, waiting for an answer.

Shouyou laughs. “None! If I use a comb or a brush it will get super fluffy and that’s not what I want. So, I don’t do anything about it!” he answers with a bright smile.

—THAT’S SO CUTE —i wish my hair worked that way —sho-kun so cute uwu

“Kodzuken!” Shouyou says after reading a question. “This one asks what your first job was.”

“My first job?” Kenma moves his eyes away from the camera, thinking. “My first job… I don’t really worked somewhere… I started this channel right after high school graduation…”

“That’s so cool!” Shouyou comments. “I didn’t know that. So cool,” Shouyou repeats.

“Sho, this persons wants to know what your dream job is.”

“My dream job, huh…” Shouyou starts grinning and Kenma looks at him, questioningly. “I don’t think even you know what my dream job is, Kodzuken.” Kenma’s eyes widen and he opens his mouth slightly, thinking he can immediately answer, but he closes his mouth as quickly as he had opened it. “Do you?” Shouyou asks him again.

“I… don’t think I do.” Kenma doesn’t know what face to make… He doesn’t know his dream job and Shouyou is laughing at Kenma’s cute reaction.

Shouyou moves to the camera. “What do you think my dream job is? Tell us in the comments and the side who guesses first can get a Sho-special!” Shouyou laughs softly. He doesn’t know yet what the Sho-special will be, but he’ll think of something.

While Kenma puts on his thinking face, Shouyou turns to scroll through the comments.

—sho-kun so cute www —i want to know what the sho-special is —Sho’s dream job is probably something in an office — Sho!! I bet you’d want to be a teacher! —@ that person saying Sho would work in a office, ur dead wrong www —sports player —social worker??????? —swimmer as they do in free!! that would be cool —mangaka… no i can’t see it —sports……. —NO A POLICE OFFICER —the sports comment makes me wonder too —yeah look at his biceps —sho’s biceps are unreal —wwww kodzuken could take some lessons from sho

Shouyou laughs loudly. Kenma looks up from his thoughts and Shouyou points at the last comment. Kenma laughs softly too as his eyes go from Shouyou’s biceps to Kenma’s biceps. Yup, Shouyou’s were at least twice the size of Kenma’s.

At least.

Shouyou looks back at the comments. There’s one particularly comment that catches his eyes and that he can’t let go. That’s funny, he thinks.

“Someone came very close just now,” he mentions, eyeing Kenma’s reaction and the comments at the same time. Kenma’s eyes widen and he pushes his chair closer to the screen. He starts scrolling up and down the comment section. His squinty eyes make Shouyou laugh: he probably can’t find the answer.

“Sho, I can’t find it. None of these seem like something you would want to have as a dream job…” Kenma says, his eyes still plastered to the screen.

“I didn’t say the exact answer is on there, I just said that one of them came really close,” Shouyou replies, a little mocking towards Kenma.

Kenma huffs. “That’s unfair.” A little pout formed its way to its mouth.

“Haha! It’s not unfair. I’ll tell you later. Maybe,” he adds after a short stop when Kenma looked up at him, with an even bigger pout. “Anyways!” Shouyou wants to continue. A different question caught his eyes just now and he can’t wait to hear Shouyou’s answer.

“Anyways what?”

“I saw a question I want you to answer.”

“What is it.”

“Kodzuken, tell me and the viewers. What is your favorite game?”

Shouyou looks at Kenma as his face becomes pale. His frown becomes very deep and Shouyou immediately thinks back to that time. Kenma’s face is painted the exact same way as the secret-not-so-secret-anymore video that he took of an asleep Kenma. Just like that time, Kenma is muttering words that sound like “what is my favorite game?” but not in a complete sentence at all. Shouyou laughs loudly.

“It’s okay, Kodzuken, you can stop now,” Shouyou says, laughing with his hand in front of his mouth. “It’s okay, let’s not do this you to another time.”

A couple comments on the screen tell him there are people who haven’t seen the video yet, and other comments going wild to the soft reference Shouyou made just now. Kenma’s frown tells Shouyou he isn’t done thinking yet and Shouyou has to move closer to him to forcibly remove his hands from his hair and stop the frowning. “If you keep on frowning you’re going to get those ugly lines in your cute forehead, Kodzuken.” Shouyou smiles softly at the boy in front of him, who looks up shockingly.

“What did you say just now?”

“You’re going to get ugly frown lines in your forehead if you keep up frowning this deep,” Shouyou repeats.

“Oh.”

Kenma eyes him and Shouyou is confused. Had he said something odd just now? He doesn’t think he did. Shouyou moves back to the big screen in front of them and reads a couple more comments that are directed at him out loud and answers them.

Kenma is silent.

He doesn’t see Kenma staring at him, but he can definitely feel his eyes burning in his back. Shouyou tries to ignore it, but it’s nearly impossible to do so. He just wants to turn around, face Kenma, and embrace him in the biggest hug he can. But he can’t. Because they are currently live. And that is the only reason, Shouyou tells himself.

Shouyou leans back after answering around twenty quick questions by himself and makes sure he can share the screen with Kenma again.

“I’m hungry,” Shouyou mentions. “What should we eat tonight?”

—ahh are you guys going to eat together? —i wish sho would cook for me —bet sho is the better cook lol

Shouyou laughs at the comments. “I’m probably only the better cook, because Kodzuken only stays behind his computer twenty-four seven.”

—they would be so cute, cooking together —ugh dream couple —cant they stop being so unbearably cute —cute ahhhhhhhh —blushy kodzuken again pls —sho-kun dream husband

Shouyou can’t help but feel uncomfortable again. He looks at Kenma, but he invested himself in a detail with his Switch.

“Guys! Send us some more Q&A questions,” Shouyou asks of the crowd, and it makes Kenma focus his thoughts back to the camera. He probably got a little distracted just now, and Shouyou has to withhold a giggle.

“Yes. Shoot.” Kenma raises his knees to rest his chin on them.

So cute.

The new comments are innocent at first.

—who is the bigger foodie —Favorite cafe in Tokyo? —which animal do you want to be? —any weird habits you guys have? —Last film you watched (together)? —kodzuken what’s the color of your eyes hihi —i still want to Know what sho’s dream job is —kodzuken when are you going back to black hair —favorite childhood memory please.

And Shouyou laughs at them. Just as he finally wants to answer the ‘dream job’ question, his eyes catch… more uncomfortable questions. And not just questions.

—when did you start dating —who kissed first —kisssssss —Say I love you to each other please. —when did you start sleeping together —share a kiss come on —come on. stop pretending you guys are just friends. —No need to hide any longer <3 —know we ship you guys!! —kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss kiss —the act is over we know you guys ain’t ‘just friends’ —act lovey dovey please. —come out already

The last few comments made Shouyou swallow loudly. He blinks a few times and doesn’t know how to respond. He wants to say something, anything, but words aren’t coming out.

Kenma speaks up before he can say anything. “I think it’s time to end the live. Good talking to you all again. See you next time.” Kenma’s voice isn’t his usual monotone voice. It’s even more low and flat and Shouyou barely recognizes him. He watches Kenma closely as he shuts down the live, shuts down his computer and makes his way to leave the room.

“Kenma!” Shouyou calls. He stands up to rush after Kenma, who already passed the door. “Kenma…"

“Shouyou,” Kenma interrupts anything Shouyou wants or wanted to say.

“Yes?” he answers, hesitating, afraid of what Kenma is going to say.

“I think it’s better for you to go home now, instead of staying over for dinner.”

Shouyou can’t see Kenma’s expression, but his voice said enough.

“Oh.”

“Sorry.”

“No… No. It’s okay. Really.”

Kenma watches Shouyou as he packs his things together, ready to leave. He leads him to his front door and wants to apologize again, but Shouyou stops him.

“It’s okay, Kenma. Don’t apologize.”

He sets his foot outside the door and right as he wants to walk away, he turns around one more time.

“It was pro-volleyballer, by the way,” Shouyou mutters. “My dream job.”

Kenma laughs, his face smushed between the doorway. He looks cute. “That’s… How could I not have guessed that. That’s so typically you.”

“Let’s talk about it another time, okay?” Shouyou laughs, too. His eyes are squinted at Kenma and he tries to hide his tears.

He quickly walks away.

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dragracereviews · 5 years ago

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RPDR S12 Ep8 Review

Look who’s back, back, back again! I haven’t really posted much in the last week despite the fact that I obviously have the time (fuck this quarantine) but I figured I should keep up with the episode reviews now that I’ve started them. We all know I wasn’t sad to see Brita go last week, but I was rather upset at Jan not winning the challenge like she should’ve, so you can just imagine how this review is going to go. Let’s get into it!

I’m just going to skip to the runway/airing of the commercials because the first half of the episode doesn’t really matter. The editing always makes the front runners look like they’re doing badly and sometimes the bottoms look like they’re doing well so fuck the producers and their meddling. Anyway.

Category is...Black Wedding!

1. Jackie Cox: Jackie knows her aesthetic and she stuck with it this week while at the same time, telling a story. Was it the most polished look? No, but I still appreciated what she was giving. Also, her commercial was hella funny and definitely deserving of the top.

2. Jan: UGH Jan looked so fucking good! Her face was beat to the Gods and this dress is beautiful! I absolutely loved the “I Don’t” on the back and her whole story line of swallowing the ring was genius! Also, I don’t think her commercial was that bad...maybe I’m just biased. I do see how it was very one note, but at least that one note was enthusiasm. (shade intended) We’ll get into Jan’s fate later on, but I think she looked perfect and deserved to be safe this week.

3. Jaida Essence Hall: I think Jaida looked flawless and expensive, but at the end of the day, it was just a pretty dress that didn’t really tell a story. Also, her commercial was good but not worth writing home about. I feel she was very middle of the pack this week which is honestly not a bad place to be right now. She deserved her safe status.

4. Gigi Goode: Gigi looked so damn good but it’s also what we’ve come to expect from her by now. Her commercial, however, wasn’t great. There were some laughs in there that the judges didn’t even crack a smile at which I found unfair, but I do think the only reason she wasn’t in the bottom two was because Ru loves her so much. Plus, whoever went up against Widow was bound to go home, but more on that later.

5. ...I’m not going to say too much on this one for obvious reasons...but whoever designed this look does need a shout out. Also, to those that felt this queen deserved to be in the bottom two are letting what she did outside of the show cloud their judgement when viewing what she’s doing on the show. The commercial wasn’t terrible, the look was well executed, and we all know she’s unfortunately not going anywhere anytime soon so we’re just going to have to get used to it. Now, moving on to more deserving queens...

6. Heidi N Closet: Before we talk about what happened in the episode, I want to make it well known that it pisses me off that Ru refuses to call Heidi by her full name. I’ve heard worse drag names and I don’t think it’s fair how she gets picked on for hers. Fuck those bitches. That being said, I think Heidi did a good job this week. She looked beautiful on the runway and her commercial was fucking hilarious. I do think someone else was more deserving of the win though, but more on that later.

7. Widow Von Du: DAMN Widow looked so good on the runway! The dress, her makeup, those contacts. Amazing. Her commercial though was definitely the worst of the bunch. It broke my heart to see her crumble like that and I honestly kind of blame Ru for reminding her that she hasn’t won a challenge in a while. Way to shake her confidence before a big challenge, Mr. Charles! And if you’ve watched Untucked, wasn’t it simultaneously heart warming and heartbreaking to see her have such a vulnerable moment in front of her idol?! This will definitely be an episode she’ll never forget. (P.S. Excuse the bad picture. I couldn’t find a better one online)

8. Crystal Methyd: I LOVED CRYSTAL’S LOOK SO MUCH!!! It was spooky, it was campy, it was different, and yet it was kind of glam at the same time? Her makeup looked great and she is probably the most versatile MUA on this whole season, TBH. I also found her commercial fucking hysterical so she was the clear top in my eyes. Great job, Crystal! You and your amazing mullet made me so proud. (Again, bad picture. Not my fault the girls aren’t posting all their looks themselves)

Now let's compare the top and bottom queens to my tops and bottoms.

Actual tops: Jackie, Jaida, Heidi, and Crystal.

MY tops: Jackie, Heidi, and Crystal. I think Jaida deserved to be safe this week, not in the top. However, it seemed you were either in the top or the bottom this week, so I can forgive it.

Actual bottoms: Jan, Gigi, She Who Must Not be Named, and Widow.

MY bottoms: Again, considering it was only tops and bottoms this week, I can agree with this. HOWEVER, I think it should’ve been Gigi and Widow in the bottom two, NOT Jan. This fucking show and their meddling producers. They clearly put Jan in the bottom because they knew Widow could beat anybody and they didn’t want to risk Gigi going home. Plus, their lack of love for Jan has been apparent since the beginning. Fucking assholes.

Winner of this week's challenge: Heidi

MY winner of this week's challenge: Crystal. I really think Crystal did amazing this week. Both her and Heidi’s commercials were great, but I think Crystal’s look was better. And despite my above complaint about the show picking favorites, it almost surprises me that Ru didn’t give Crystal the top spot just for finally embracing her fabulous mullet. I’m not mad that Heidi won though, I just would’ve given it to Crystal.

Winner of the lip sync: Widow

MY winner of the lip sync: Widow OR a double save. It broke my fucking heart to see Jan in the bottom, but I also knew Widow wasn’t going anywhere. She’s a phenomenal lip syncer and she was performing in front of her idol, FFS! I do think Jan held her own though, and I so wish it could’ve been a double save. But I bet you anything the producers thought that Jan’s story line was up and they were going to send her home, even if Widow had thrown the lip sync. Those fuckers didn’t appreciate Jan for the star that she is and I’ll never forgive them for it. #JusticeforJan 💔

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anotherdayinchuckletown · 5 years ago

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New Random Questions

I was tagged by the lovely @downtoclown-around 🥰 thank you dear!

Ok, here we go!

Name/Nickname?

Katherine/Katie/Kate

If you could bring any two fictional characters into the same world, who would they be, which world would you put them in, and what would their relationship to each other be?

I would like to see Heath Ledger's Joker with L from Death Note (yes, I'm still Death Note trash in 2020 lmao). And I would put J in the DN universe because although I doubt he would ever use a death note (too impersonal of a way to kill), I REALLY wanna see him interact with the shinigami lol.

Their relationship could go one of two ways: either L is hunting J down, with J skillfully avoiding arrest and giving L a run for his money.

OR, in some extremely convoluted circumstance, they end up working together to catch Kira. L is known to hire talented criminals when the need arises, and I feel like J could bring a very unique skillset to the task force. And I'd love to see the looks on their faces when they come to work one day and there's this feral clown man parading through the HQ like he owns the place 😂

If you could drop yourself into any fictional world, which would it be?

I would drop myself into the Joker 2019 universe and land right on Arthur's dick where I belong 😂😂😂

Either that one or Animal Crossing, lmao

What's your spirit animal?

My spirit animal is the pangolin. Because it's smol. And it always walks around like it's timidly looking for the only person it knows at a house party because they abandoned it to go to the bathroom and haven't come back yet

What is the most unpopular opinion you have?

UMMMM🅱️ I guess it's that I really don't want a Joker sequel??? I feel like the story is complete and adding on to it is a big risk, yknow? Idk, I just think one of the movie's biggest strengths is its ability to stand alone, separate from the rest of the DCEU

How do you like to style your hair?

I usually just curl it and wear it down, especially when it's long. I put it up in a ponytail when it's hot or when I'm too lazy to wash it lol. It's naturally very dark brown, but I dyed it blonde a few months ago. Probably gonna go back to natural though

What three books would you want on a deserted island?

Lord of the Flies by William Golding (ironic lol), The Great Gatsby by F. Scott Fitzgerald, and ummmm House of Leaves by Mark Z. Danielewski

Something new you've learned in quarantine?

Well, I've been using the extra time to sharpen my piano skills, so I guess that counts?

Favorite alcoholic drink?

Long Island iced tea, especially the way they make it at The Cheesecake Factory 🥰 I'm very tiny though, so one is always enough to knock me on my ass lmao

Music you can't stand? Music you love?

LORD HERE WE GO!! ok so I have a degree in music so I've studied a lot of SHIT music in my life lol. Here are a couple examples:

• There was this composer named Conlon Nancarrow who wrote pieces for player piano using ridiculous patterns and time signatures. Take a listen if you ever want a headache, I'm serious.

• Anything by Bela Bartok ffs

• All country music, but I'll make an exception for Before He Cheats by Carrie Underwood lol

As for music I LOVE:

• My favorite piece of all time is Claude Debussy's "The Girl with the Flaxen Hair" (it's originally for piano, but listen to the Sakura Cello Quintet version, it's FUCKING BEAUTIFUL)

• Second favorite piece is Mozart's Lacrymosa, the final piece of his requiem

• A really cool avant garde piece by R. Murray Schafer called Epitaph for Moonlight (here's a link to a video where you can listen to it and follow along at the same time. The notation blows my fuckin mind https://youtu.be/dzUXzu7JYFc)

• The Mountain Goats is my current favorite band, John Darnielle is a master lyricist HOOO

• I'm also partial to both Lana del Rey and Post Malone 🥰

Have a favorite herb?

Oregano, cause I'm always a slut for pizza

What kind of cups/glasses/bottles do you prefer to drink out of?

My bf and I collect fandom mugs for Animal Crossing, Legend of Zelda, Pokemon, etc lol

Preferred mode of communication: text, calls, emails, letters?

Text or email. Phone calls give me anxiety lol. And I've only written like five letters in my life lmao

What's your favorite weather?

Cold, drizzly, misty. And I live in the south USA so I almost never get it 🙃🙃🙃

What kind of lighting do you like?

Oooh fairy lights are so pretty 🥰 but I also love the moonlight

What is the best thing you cook?

I make a killer fried rice, and great spaghetti and meatballs. But typically, I'm WAY better at baking, I used to wanna be on shows like Cake Boss when I was little lmao

Do you have a favorite font?

Times New Roman because I'm boring lol

What is something you've always wanted to write in a fic, but you've been too afraid to? Or what's something you were afraid to write, but you did and it turned out awesome?

There's not really anything I'm AFRAID to write. It's more a matter of wanting to do certain topics justice (various mental illnesses, addictions, suicidal ideation, etc.) and needing to do proper research first. The fear doesn't come until it's time to post lol.

Likewise, I was extremely afraid to start posting "They're Funny That Way", but the reception I've gotten so far has made me so happy, and I'm so excited to keep going with it 🥰

If you were in your favorite fantasy world, what would be your weapon of choice?

I'd wanna be a pokemon trainer, and I'd have either a Froslass or a Zoroark

Is there a commonly used expression/saying that you can't stand?

Straight women calling platonic female friends "girlfriends" 🙄

What's something you'd like people to know about you?

• I'm a professional opera singer, but I'm also heavily trained in musical theatre

• I have a cat named Aria

• I'm fluent in both English and French, and I also know a little Spanish, German, Italian, and Japanese 😁

So there you have it! Thanks again to @downtoclown-around for tagging me, this was so much fun! If you've already done it, ignore this, but I'd like to tag @mr--clown @impulsiveclown @starksclown @art-hurfleck @lilredelf and anyone else who would like to do it!!

Love,

Kate ❤

#katherine rambles #personal #ask meme

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littlemulattokitten · 6 years ago

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Dating App Conundrums

Alright so I’ve been planning to do this for a while, and may make a thing out of it just to chronicle the adventure from single to hopefully not, but who knows.

Basically I decided to research a few dating apps and try them out, since I’m the type of person who’s content to stay home, but also only likes going out with a friend or small group (not alone) - therefore my chances of meeting people are probably in the negatives without dating services like the ones I’m currently on.

This post will probably end up being both a review of some of these apps as well as a master shitpost detailing the adventures of a straight female attempting to find a straight male to date online. And I know Tumblr well enough that at least half the people who read this will have yet another reason to be proud of their not straight orientation. Because good fucking lord the nonsense I’ve seen.

Storytime begins below the cut. This isn’t going to be short. That’s your warning. It will probably be funny at some points though. It’s funny to live it, at least. And I may break it into parts, Idk yet.

Let’s get a few things out of the way first.

Until this experiment, I’d never used dating apps ever. I knew of them. Hated them on principle (dislike them even more now, but we’ll get into that later) and wanted nothing to do with them. I knew a few people who were happily married to a Match.com or OKCupid match but aside from that – I’d never even downloaded Tinder like everyone else I knew in HS and college.

I haven’t actually dated anyone since my first semester of college. On purpose. I broke off my engagement to my elementary school sweetheart (thankfully we are still good friends and our friendship recovered from that near disaster) and I just wanted to focus on myself for a while.

The small handful of relationships I have had that lasted longer than 6 months taught me a lot about what I want in my ideal mate. The one or two less-than-6-months-barely-relationships I had in high school taught me A LOT about what I will never put up with from people.

My “type” isn’t reflective of my dating history. I’ve gotten to the point with these apps where I’m combining their shallow-indorsing metrics with my own personal preferences. Basically going through an aesthetic checklist then scanning through their profile to see if the actual person is equally pretty.

Spoiler, I have to swipe left A LOT.

I’m a very particular person. I’m very introverted and I hate when someone makes conversation harder than it has to be. I can hold a conversation. I just refuse to be the only one putting effort into it. (This makes more sense later)

I’m beyond fed up with dating app culture but my perfect or close enough to perfect guy has gotta exist so most of my accounts will remain I fucking guess.

I’m not necessarily looking for Mr. Forever. I’ll gladly keep him if I find him, but I’m also not looking for a relationship that I know will be temporary. I don’t do things by halves. I want something solid, whether it lasts forever or not depends on a lot of things.

I CAN’T EMOTIONALLY MULTITASK. I can really only give one person my full interest and attention at a time, which doesn’t bode well for these apps bc you gotta be able to bounce form one to the next no matter how excited you were about someone. These apps fucking suck.

Okay. Now let’s begin properly.

I started with Bumble. Yes. I know. Introverted female starting on a dating app that requires her to make the first move. That can’t go badly right.

I damn near have a panic attack every time I get a match I stg. Anyway.

I was skeptical at first. I’m not huge on people knowing a lot about me from the outset (or I wasn’t - i give so much less of a fuck now bc it makes almost no difference on these things) so my profile was pretty threadbare and cold. Now, a few weeks later, my profile is an efficient snapshot with a splash of Slytherin “Don’t fucking test me.”

Did I mention I’m an INTJ Scorpio? Yeah my entire approach is gonna scream that and my Hogwarts house, just you wait.

Round 1 ~ Bumble 🐝🍯

Okay so Bumble is interesting. For those who don’t know, it’s basically Beehive-Themed Tinder except for heterosexual couples, the lady has to initiate conversation. (Either party in a same sex match can message first) She has 24 hours from the point where her and a fella have “matched” to do so, then he has 24 hours to respond and seal the match – ending the time limits.

Bumble also gives you a rough estimate of how far away someone is sometimes. I’ve read articles about how bumble’s location estimate feature has ruined relationships forged through bumble and generally turned women into paranoid psychos over matches. Can. Fucking. Confirm. It’s the most annoying thing ever. Why?

Android vs Apple. That’s literally why.

The way Bumble’s location service is supposed to work is that everytime you open the app, it updates your location based on your phone or computer’s location. As far as I can tell, that’s exactly how it works on my android phone.

Apple users. Y’all are a problem. Not because I give a shit about your iPhone, I don’t give a shit do you ffs, but IOS location permissions can allow apps to update your location without the app being open.

Reread that for me.

Without. The app. Being. Open.

Which basically means if you match checks your profile, they can tell whether you’re where you were when they swiped right (say, 26 miles away) versus, oh idfk, a whole state or two away.

Real specific example I know. Why? Because I ended up unmatching a guy I REALLY wanted to get to know better because of it.

Though, to be fair, guys are really lax about how they behave on these apps in my opinion, which is a bigger problem than the stupid IOS setting.

Allow me to explain.

Dating App Etiquette

It barely exists, but it should. Here’s the thing. On these apps, you basically swipe right on a pretty face and left on one you’re not interested in waking up to in the morning or sitting on. I’m only being half funny here. I’m convinced people use dating apps more for hookups than their intended purpose. Which, whatever, but for fuck’s sake make BumbleHookup. There’s BumbleDating, DumbleFriends, and BumbleNetwork or whatever. Just make BumbleDTF so we can filter these people out already.

BACK TO THE SINFULLY ATTRACTIVE AND INTERESTING DUDE I UNMATCHED

I’m still kinda peeved about this. In part at myself, but also just in general.

Most people seem to treat Bumble like Tinder. They don’t fill out their profile hardly at all. Have less than 3 pictures, have pictures that make it unclear who’s profile it is, or – my least favorite thing that is almost 100% regional – THEY REALLY FUCKING THINK A PICTURE OF THEM IN SUNGLASSES HOLDING A FUCKING FISH THEY JUST CAUGHT IS ATTRACTIVE. IT IS NOT. THAT’S NOT WHAT THE PICTURES ARE FOR. JUST SAY YOU LIKE TO FISH IN YOUR FUCKING PROFILE BECAUSE IF I HAVE TO LOOK AT ONE MORE MOTHER FUCKING FISH-

I’ve seen a lot of fish in the last few weeks. Like. So many that I’m basically auto swiping left if someone’s profile has less than 4 pictures and one or more contains a stupid fucking fish.

LOOK AT MY FUCKING USERNAME. LITTLEMULATTOKITTEN. IF A SELF-IDENTIFYING CAT TRAPPED IN A HUMANS BODY SAYS THERE’S TOO MANY FUCKING FISH – THERE ARE TOO MANY MOTHER FUCKING FISH.

I can guarantee this won’t be my last fish rant. You don’t understand how many fucking fish I’ve seen.

BUT THIS GUY DIDN’T HAVE ANY FISH IN HIS PROFILE.

So he already had my fucking attention. He was also startlingly handsome – not in a oh you exist off puss and nothing else there’s no other way someone as pretty as you with a penis could exist – but like “Oh. I’d…really like to look at that forever and sit on it if you’ll let me please.”

NOT ONLY DID I FIND HIM THAT ATTRACTIVE BUT HE SWIPED RIGHT ON ME TOO AND READ ENOUGH OF MY PROFILE TO ASK ME A QUESTION FROM THE LOWER HALF OF IT.

I was freaking the fuck out excited.

And frankly the odds of him seeing this are so fucking low that I’ll go ahead and tell you some specifics about the short convo we had, but nothing that could lead anyone back to him obviously.

He’d lived in my home state. First thing he asked was which city I was from. Then he guessed, claiming that guess was based off a beanie I was wearing in my second to last (I think) image available on my profile.

He’d lived in my home CITY. Which means he was familiar with the CULTURE. And would probably GET ME MORE THAN MOST GUYS IN MY AREA.

He worked in an industry/field I knew about and had almost gone into myself.

He was so fucking attractive. I have yet to come across someone who checked ever preliminary shallow box on my want list.

Biceps. Listen. We’re all a little shallow. Biceps do to me what ass and tiddy do to some guys. It’s one of the few really fucking strong visual things I have, followed by dark hair and blue eyes. But he was something of a gym rat, for sure, and I’d gladly torture myself at the gym if that man was going to be in my line of sight at all during the process.

Seriously. I’ve never seen someone who didn’t look like they had to be famous or an alien that made me go “He’s so pretty I want to cry.” EVER. I WANT TO CRY THINKING ABOUT IT BECAUSE WE’RE NOT MATCHED ANYMORE.

And last but not least – like almost every fucking match I’ve ever made, I could count his replies on one hand before he went radio silent.

So, how does this relate to that location issue, you may ask.

Because I didn’t fucking know that Bumble could update your location on some devices without you opening the app.

There’s no online/activity indicator for Bumble except their location updating. Which, when you’re really excited to get to know someone and they suddenly vanish, but they’re more likely than not still online, you might start to feel like you’ve been put on hold.

Life stuff, yes, makes sense, I get it. But these apps have push notifications (which can be buggy) and if you’ve matched with someone, odds are you’re interested enough to check back on occasion (unless you aren’t). So it quickly became a worry game.

Because, like I said, I can’t just say “I’m excited about you, but I’ll keep browsing”. I don’t work that way. Unless I’m not excited about someone, then yeah I’ll keep scatter-shotting. But if I’m not excited to get to know someone why the fuck would I swipe right.

Anyway. After a few days of silence, I was disappointed and getting bitter and the few proverbial bones I’d thrown him had gone unanswered. I knew I was overthinking it and letting my own insecurities get to me a bit, but at the end of the day, there’s a few general courtesies that should exist in online dating culture that don’t.

Why people are afraid or hesitant to say they’re too busy to respond much in their profiles is beyond me. Some guys have the right idea announcing that they’re bad at checking the app and offering their snapchat or telling matches to ask for it.

But even if you’re testing the waters with another match, we’re all on this app for the same fucking reason. Say so. I’m not the kind of person who will need to, because I don’t operate that way on these apps, but I would. Because if that person is really bothered by you finding out if you’re more compatible with someone you matched with prior to them, that tells you something about them.

Would I have been disappointed if that had been the case with this guy? Yeah, kinda. I probably would have felt like his second choice at best, even if he’d come back to chatting with me. But that’s how these fucking apps are designed. Buckle up or unmatch. Fuck your emotions and self-esteem.

I unmatched for my sanity, because that happened a few days into this whole experiment and I wasn’t on any other sites yet. I wasn’t really prepared to deal with this whole thing yet and I didn’t know what to expect. I felt like shit and decided that if he showed up in my feed again, maybe I’d super swipe him (paid extra special right swipe that tells them you REALLY like their face and whatever) but I still don’t know what I’ll do if he does.

Lowkey hoping it was all a misunderstanding and whatever but like, not at all holding out for that because what are the fucking odds.

And again, my disappointment stems mostly from the fact that I was really excited to get to know him. The idea of finding someone on this stupid app in less than a week who wasn’t forcing his fish pictures in my face, would absolutely be the type of person to encourage my own wellness goals, and who was obviously smart because of his career path, was such an exciting thought. If we’d hit it off and gotten along really well, I’d have been so many levels of shocked and overwhelmingly happy that I just don’t know what I’d do.

When someone who looks like they’re 100% your type actually reads your profile and swipes right – you get excited. I was really excited. I’m still a little sad/disappointed, but I’m basically over it.

Other Misc. Things I’ve Learned On Bumble and other Dating Apps As a Relationship Seeking User

Take every profile with a grain of salt unless it’s so blatantly straightforward. And then still toss a pinch in.

The pretty pretty pretty buff boys who look like their players but their profiles claim they want a relationship? Odds are still players. They will try to convince you there’s 10 inches in their pants. They clearly aren’t smart enough to know that’s biologically uncomfortable for females and the best way to end up in the emergency room with a ruined cervix so don’t even swipe right. They’ll just ask for nudes.

People who use dating sites have some odd, hive mind fixation with The Office.

“Jim looking for his Pam” is in most profiles. I’m not sure why. References to The Office or mentions of The Office are about as common as all the stupid fucking fish.

I live in the wrong part of the country to find guys I’m actually going to share interests with. Just wait until I tell you about my experience so far on OK Cupid. I literally won’t find anyone where I live unless they’re from somewhere culturally similar to where I was born and are willing to move back with me. Because I am not fucking staying in the land of the god damn fish forever.

Most people don’t look at religion and politics like I do. Which is “You do you, I’ll do me, we won’t talk about it and we can peacefully do each other.” I don’t fucking care if your politics contradict mine if that’s the only thing we have not in common. Just make it a blacklisted subject and don’t let one frankly insignificant difference of opinion ruin an entire relationship or potential relationship. And same with religion. I’m not even a little religious. I don’t care if my future husband is unless it’s in my face constantly, he tries to “convert me”, get me to go to church with him, or some other blatant disrespect of my own religious standing. You worship whatever you want. I’ll right fanfiction about magic demon princes fucking their human-born demon queen every which way to Sunday. If religion is that big of a fucking deal for you, be upfront about it. Most people are in their bios. Either way, I’m really fucking sick of people who put too much weight into these two things like they actually decide how compatible you are with someone unless you let them.

I fucking hate fish.

Dating apps need more filters and ways to narrow down searches. 90% of the filters already present are shallow as all hell. What’s a few more.

Primarily let me filter out a few NAMES. This sounds super picky, but I have a really big family. 7 uncles. Over 20 cousins including the few cousins of mine who have kids. There’s a few names that would just be weird and awkward for me to associate with a significant other. If I could filter out my stepdad’s first name (which is disgustingly common but still), my biological father’s name, and a few of my uncle’s names, that’d be fucking swell. You already let me filter by religion and race. Let me filter out some fucking names damnit.

And there have to be people who have traumatic associations with names too like?????

The Office is a funny, good show and all but WHY IS EVERYONE ON THESE APPS FUCKING OBSESSED WITH IT THE WAY I’M OBSESSED WITH HARRY POTTER. I’VE SEEN IT. IT’S NOT **THAT** FUCKING FUNNY. SOMEONE EXPLAIN.

YOU HOLDING A DEAD FISH ISN’T FUCKING ATTRACTIVE SIR. THIS ISN’T THE SHAPE OF WATER. SHOW ME YOUR FACE NOT YOUR FISH.

The dating apps that are probably actually worth using all require a paid subscription.

There’s no real way to advertise that you find sex and physical intimacy very important in a relationship without making yourself sound like a cock-thirsty whore. Not that there’s anything wrong with it, you do you, but I’m looking for someone to be a slut FOR, I’m not one already and I dislike not being able to be upfront about that without being profiled or attracting fuckboys.

WHY CAN I NOT FILTER OUT PROFILES THAT CONTAIN IMAGES OF FISH

STOP WITH THE FUCKING FISH COUNTRY BOYS. ARE YOU LOOKING FOR A GIRLFRIEND OR SOMEONE TO KEEP TRACK OF YOUR TACKLEBOX? AND DON’T TELL ME THAT’S THE SAME THING, MY FAMILY IS COUNTRY. IT AIN’T THE SAME FUCKING THING. ALL THAT FISH TELLS ME IS THAT YOU’RE PROBABLY COMPENSATING FOR SOMETHING.

Judging by the few fish-fucks with their profiles filled out at all – they’re compensating for personality.

With how shallow the filters on these sites are, just go ahead and fucking add eye color, hair, etc. Seriously. If you’re gonna let me be shallow enough to only pick men of a certain ethnicity, and religion, you may as fucking well let me see if I can find a guy with blue eyes, biceps, dark hair, non religious, who doesn’t want kids without reading every fucking profile I come across.

There are way more guys on these sites who want or think they want children some day. This baffles me. But then again my primary reason for not wanting children is pregnancy and giving birth which wouldn’t be their problem so of course they want them.

I just need to auto left-swipe if I see a fish. These apps are shallow anyway. Do not make a fucking fishing joke just because I said shallow.

OK Cupid has a better matching system than Bumble and such, but it’s still irritating as all hell. You can’t choose question categories that are more important. So if I see a 91% match, but he has no sex questions filled out or our sexual compatibility is like…50%...that’s not REALLY a 91% match for me. Let me mark 2 or 3 question categories as priority for fucks sake.

The bulk of guys on these apps fall into 2 categories (for me anyway) – Not enough giveadamn to explain their presence on the site & thank u, next.

Online dating is disappointing as fuck.

I’m seriously going to lose my mind if I can’t get away from the fucking fish pictures. ENOUGH. I GET IT. I NEED TO MOVE.

Seriously – I. Need. To. Move. Back. Home. I am not meant for this part of the country. These good ole boys are meant for someone but it ain’t me and my family is fucking country. I’ve been fishing, ridden 4-wheelers, made shit out of wood for shits and giggles, helped my grandparents in the garden, eaten deer my grandfather or uncles hunted and prepared, helped chop wood, ridden in the bed of a truck, etc etc etc. But ya bitch has lifestyle goals that only include mud at scheduled times. We can go camping, but we should also go out to dinner sometimes and go clubbing or dancing other times.

I was not born with this ass to settle for a man who looks like an angel and acts like one too. Why is no one non-ironically blunt about their sexual preferences? You cannot convince me that the majority of men lack strong opinions on this subject. SERIOUSLY. IT IS 2019 NOT 1619. God DAMNIT. You’re on a DATING SITE. THAT’S AN ASPECT OF RELATIONSHIPS THAT CAN MAKE OR BREAK THEM. BE STRAIGHTFORWARD.

It’s not even actually about sharing every interest. I don’t give a shit if he doesn’t like Harry Potter much. If he’s annoyed by the level I like it, yeah that’s an issue. Otherwise, be supportive and kind about that kinda shit. That’s all I’m asking for. That’s how I am in return.

I make shit with yarn, write off the wall fanfiction, have a lot of sexual interests I don’t usually broadcast, and don’t understand how dating sites are still this ineffective in 2019.

This is super long already so I’m gonna save the other apps for a separate installment if this one is enjoyed or whatever. Jesus. These apps, guys.

Apps I still need to talk about that probably won’t require this many words each – Hinge, Coffee Meets Bagel, OkCupid (OkC might need a few thousand words).

I’ll probably look into some other niche dating sites too because at this point, what the fuck ever - I just wanna meet someone back home or willing to move back home with me who fits some reasonable criteria parameters. And I’m not even as picky as half the profiles I’ve seen, lemme tell ya. I’m just fucking opinionated. And beyond sick of this experiment already.

Sigh.

If I ever see a fish again it’ll be too soon. Bet the first profile picture on my bumble dash later will be another fucking fish though.

Those who expressed interest: @accio-echo | @infallibleangel | @aconitumluparia and those who liked are my followers so you’ll see it. This post is so long my browser is bugging out with tags or I’d tag you all too.

#kyla bitches about things #dating apps #the dating app experiment #Bumble #things dating app articles won't warn you about #dating app conundrums

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edenplays · 6 years ago

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The Gamble [Arc 2 of The Reset]

Bonkai AU: PART TWO of “The Reset” series. It’s been two years since Bonnie left her life behind back in Mystic Falls, attempting to start fresh in Portland. Things with Kai couldn’t be better. But she’s in Gemini territory now and with that comes a whole new set of problems. Bonnie and Kai’s relationship is truly put to the test.

FF | AO3 | WP

CHAPTER ONE: About Last Night...

"Wow, Bonster. Deny my video call why don't you?"

"Yup. You can't see my dress yet. It's a surprise."

He chuckled. "Well, you know I love a good surprise." There was a faint shuffling sound on his end. It sounded like he was putting on his jacket. "You almost ready?"

She stood up and gathered her keys. Bonnie took one last check of the apartment before grabbing her purse, double checking that she had her speech cards in the purse as well. "Yeah, I just have to get there which shouldn't be too hard."

"Cap and gown?"

"Check."

"Speech cards?"

"Also check."

"Did you turn off your flat iron?"

She froze in her steps, then rolled her eyes. "Ha ha, very funny Kai." Bonnie huffed an annoyed breath from her nose as she heard his laugh. "You know I haven't used a flat iron in months."

"Yeah," he said, still laughing, "not since you almost set your apartment on fire because you'd left it on. Good thing we're witches, huh?"

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panjiku · 7 years ago

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The OTP Game

Pick your 10 top OTPs without reading the questions: 1. Mimato (Yamato Ishida × Mimi Tachikawa — Digimon Adventure) 2. Clerith (Cloud Strife × Aerith Gainsborough — Final Fantasy VII) 3. Zutara (Zuko × Katara — Avatar: The Last Airbender) 4. VaniHopu (Hope Estheim × Oerba dia Vanille — Final Fantasy XIII) 5. LuluShir (Lelouch Lamperouge × Shirley Fenette — Code Geass: Hangyaku no Lelouch) 6. KAIMiku (KAITO × Miku Hatsune — Vocaloid) 7. MaouEmi (Sadao Maou × Emi Yusa — Hataraku Maou-sama!) 8. MikoChiyo (Mikoto Mikoshiba × Chiyo Sakura — Gekkan Shoujo Nozaki-kun) 9. Lancaster (Jaune Arc × Ruby Rose — RWBY) 10. SasuSaku (Sasuke Uchiha × Sakura Haruno — Naruto)

Do you remember the episode/scene/chapter that you first started shipping 6 (KAIMiku)? In 2011 I got curious about wtf Hatsune Miku was and watched World is Mine then Another: World is Mine and it all went downhill from there :’D

Have you ever read a FanFiction about 2 (Clerith)? Yeah, but I haven’t read any in a VERY long time. I think the last FF I read for them was somewhere between 2002 and 2005, ahaha.

Has a picture of 4 (VaniHopu) ever been your screen saver/profile picture/tumblr? No, actually.

If 7 (MaouEmi) were to suddenly break-up today, what would your reaction be? *SOBS GROSSLY*

Why is 1 (Mimato) so important? Mimato was the first fandom I ever truly was a part of when I was a teenager and then got back into when I picked up drawing again in my 20s. I made an LJ community (yamatoxmimi) and was friends with a lot of FFN writers back in it’s heyday; I keep in touch with a few oldfarts of the fandom. And it’s amazing that such a crack ship has so many supporters even to this day :> In their respective world though they’re 1/4 of the Chosen Children. As a pairing, they’re not important towards the story at all considering they only interact once in the series, bahaha... *cries softly*

Is 9 (Lancaster) a funny ship or a serious ship? More of a funny ship though they have their serious moments.

Out of all of the ships listed, which ship has the most chemistry? Ahhh, it’s so hard to choose?! I’m going to say Zutara. They went from bitter enemies to trusting each other, a betrayal and then earning that trust back to eventually becoming a power duo. They’ve both had similar life experiences that they’ve bonded over and the tension between them urrghh. And they just work so well together. I’ll be honest though, Clerith probably has the best chemistry, especially since they pretty much were attracted to each other on their first meeting. But instead of having this entire post be about Clerith, I figure I’d talk about another pair, hahaha.

Out of all of your ships listed, which ship has the strongest bond? CLERITH, fosho. Their love transcends death *cries* Aerith’s presence lives on in Cloud and helps him even in the Lifestream; they’re connected to each other spiritually. Though literally SasuSaku has the strongest bond. I mean Naruto as a whole is about bonds, especially within Team 7, hehe. Y’know maybe I should switch my answers for this with the last one, lmao.

How many times have you read/watched 10’s (SasuSaku) fandom? Hoo boy, going through all of Naruto is a job, but I think I’ve re-read part 1 of the manga like 2-3 times while it was still in syndication. I dropped it a little bit into part 2 then picked it back up near the end and I don’t follow Boruto at all, but I did read the Sarada side-story after the original manga ended. I’ve watched all of Naruto’s original anime once, but only about 5 episodes of Shippuden.

Which ship has lasted the longest? In real life? Clerith. In universe? SasuSaku.

How many times, if ever, has 6 (KAIMiku) broken up? Hard to say since I don’t know all of their songs. Also depends on which version of a certain song you consider your canon (i.e. From Y to Y). But that’s the beauty of Vocaloid: you can use the characters as you see fit :>

If the world was suddenly thrust into a zombie apocalypse, which ship would make it out alive, 2 (Clerith) or 8 (MikoChiyo)? LMAOO, Clerith, hands-down. I can’t even imagine Mikorin and Chiyo in a zombie situation unless it was one of Nozaki’s manga ideas xD

Did 7 (MaouEmi) ever have to hide their relationship for any reason? Yeah, as individuals they do. Emi as the Hero Emilia Justina and Maou as Demon Lord Satan. And it’s very strongly hinted that Emi harbors feelings for Maou which she denies/hides. I’d imagine if they got together they might try to hide their relationship for awhile if they were to ever return to Ente Isla but we’ll just have to wait and see since HataMaou isn’t over yet :)

Is 4 (VaniHopu) still together? QAQ noo… They’re doomeddestined to be star-crossed lovers till the end of time. In fact the last time they were together were in the original FFXIII ;^;

Is 10 (SasuSaku) canon? *flails and cheers* It’s the only pairing on my list that’s outright confirmed and shown being canon. And it still feels so good after 15+ years of shipping it.

If all 10 ships were put into a couple’s Hunger Games, which couple would win? HMMM. About half of my list is power couples so this is a toughy. BUT I think LuluShir would, if only because Lelouch would use his geass to come out on top, lmao. Though thinking about eye powers now, SasuSaku might because of Sasuke’s Rinnegan. Definitely a tough choice between those two pairs; depends on whose eye would trump the other :D

Has anybody ever tried to sabotage 5’s (LuluShir) ship? Beeeeesiiiiides the other Lulu ships…? *shields* Not really sabotage, but C.C. said it was a bad idea for Lelouch to get involved with Shirley if he wanted to pursue his dream (please excuse is this is wrong, it’s been so long since I’ve watched Code Geass. Definitely need to do a rewatch soon esp with the upcoming third season). And… oh… well, I guess Rolo >_> *cough*

Which ship would you defend to the death and beyond? Alllllll of theeeeeem~ But my OTP of all OTPs will always be Clerith, so them first and foremost.

Do you spend hours a day going through 3’s (Zutara) tumblr page? Not at all until very recently (like since a week ago). It was always a ship I idly supported until I got back into ATLA again, and now I’m hopeless :’D

If an evil witch descended from the sky and told you that you had to pick one of the ten ships to break up forever or else she’d break them all forever, which ship would you sink? I… well, most of them are impossible or separated somehow anyway… but… M-Mi…mato…? Because it’s utter crack and they only interacted on-screen once (thanks to tri) so nothing would change anyway ;-; I was going to suggest MikoChiyo, but at least they have their canon friendship (which is BEAUTIFUL btw) so I gotsta pick the obv pair that has no chemistry except in fanon.

#personal #// just something i wanted to do lol #// it was so hard to pick 10 #// so i went with the ones that had actual ship names #// if you can't tell i'm shit at explaining stuff #// that's why i draw :'d #// i'm so sorry for not going into detail with lancaster??#;; memes tachikawa

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What makes you so sure cockles “broke up”

Oh nonnie, I wish there was a simple answer to your question. A lot of it is because I have seen this before when they broke up last year. Unfortunately cockles didn’t learn their lesson and history is repeating itself.

So the simple, short, unsatisfying answer: body language and behavior. Imo I think there is a stark difference between a broken up cockles and a stupid in love cockles. You can even see it in their other panels. Actually seeing them post break up reminds me of a boyfriend I had when I was in high school. We were on the tennis team together but when we broke up, my ex’s tennis game severely suffered. His eyes were always puffy and red and he suddenly became very clumsy. Somehow the heartache affected his balance. We were only together for 1 year but still he was pretty broken up about it for a while. Now Jensen and Misha have been friends, if not lovers, for almost a decade. Plus so much of their lives are entangled, like work and business and other relationships. Everything affects everything. For example:

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Even as their characters, they can’t hug each other properly. Jensen can’t look Misha in the eye and Sam and Cas have a longer more emotional hug than they do. It is also one of Misha’s best emotional scenes, if you ask me. He got praised for it I think. It’s almost like it was a tired, raw Misha, filtered through Cas, talking to Jensen about his feelings.

Working together was SO painful for them, Jensen even started saying at almost every con during the breakup, that he could see an end in sight. Jard brought it up a lot too. They talk about the end of SPN here and you can really see just how upset both Jensen and Misha are at the end of this interview. There is weirdness throughout the interview but it culminates in the last few minutes.

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Jard implies that Jensen is the one that wants to finish it up at 300 and Misha is doing everything in his power not to cry. He is trying to manage his emotions by soothing himself using pacifying body language. Jensen similarly gets to an emotional breaking point at 3:01 when he says “still have amazing support from the studio. We still oddly enough get along. Don’t know how much that is gonna last”. Ouch. Jensen soothes himself by rubbing his face and Misha strangely contorts his face trying to keep the tears in, while Jard saves the day and jumps in intercepting Misha before he says something he’ll regret, by telling a rather rambly, not entirely interesting story. (seriously watch this interview from the perspective that they’re broken up and things make sense like why misha wont touch Jensen or why his voice cracks awkwardly and why he keeps looking at Jard instead of Jensen)

Ok but this behavior of Jard’s is what I think he was doing when he was playing the piano during the cockles’ panel in Hawaii. I think he was keeping an eye on Jensen and Misha and trying to either be a common enemy that would unite them or possibly keep them out of trouble.

Fuck I digressed before I could get to my point. My point is that just like my ex-boyfriend wasn’t on top of his tennis game after the break out, both Jensen and Misha are not on top of their con game when they are broken up. They both cry during their panels and wipe away tears or make weird faces and while Jensen gets grumpier and more reserved, Misha loses some of his wit and charm. He occasionally gets lost and loses his train of thought or he has to stop it before he loses anymore control. You can see it at NOLA con when a fan shouted out “assbutt”.

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He says if he had a show about assbutt “it would be more of an adult themed show” and people cheer the sexy implication and it looks like the thought of sexy destiel actually derails him. He tries not to cry. He says some random thing about assbutt which is too weird to be funny and then he drops the whole joke before he could get to a great punchline. So maybe Misha thinking of x-rated destiel or thinking of assbutt reminds him of his own adult themed nights with Jensen, or maybe they role-played as Dean and Cas (ofc they have) or maybe assbutt means something significant to them that we don’t understand but clearly talking about assbutt and an adult themed show greatly affected him to the point where he just kinda lost the clever. Understandably.

You can also see it at SFcon:

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He blew micgate way out of proportion but I don’t think he did it to be funny. I think he kept on going on and on about the mic thing because it was possibly reminding him of blowjobs with Jensen and their relationship in general and he was on the verge of breaking down. He really was crying or trying to curtail it before it got too bad. He blinks heavy and weird and wiped the tears. He starts saying something and then stops midway to say something not all that witty to the fan, “why were you going to do something disgusting with it?”. It just seems a little too obvious and it just doesn’t sound like him and that quirky way of his. That moment where he appears to be over it and moving on and then it began all over again when he jumped up from his chair and covered his mouth. When has he ever covered his mouth when laughing? I think he was using his cough as a way to hide the sadness at times too because he used it a few times when ever he was saying things about Jensen. He also would grab his left elbow when referencing Jensen. He did it other times too, but he did it a lot with Jensen, which to me looked like he was hugging himself or restraining himself from something. Misha also called Maison a bitch. He just seemed off. Imagine having someone who loves you as deeply and strongly as Jensen does suddenly withdraw their love from you. No wonder Misha was a mess.

I could give you so many more examples of this kind of stuff. Especially if you want it written in a barely coherent style with no structure and no consistent verb tenses. But I won’t because this answer of mine is just not great. I haven’t even done Jensen yet. But check out Jensen at the Jay-two main panel in Hawaii to see how he was affected. Goodness that poor boy was struggling. His tender heart was not catching a break. So many opportunities for him to think about Misha and Misha breaking his heart. The first question was the YANA winner ffs! Look for the wiping of the eyes and nose, hard swallows and his unwillingness to answer a few questions.

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Anyways, their behavior and body language can be pretty revealing, which is probably not news to you. But like I said, this stuff is the easy, short answer.

If you really want the longer, uncomfortable, heart breaking answer, Idk what to tell you. Their story is so complicated and I am not joking when I call myself a tinhat so there’s a lot of crazy but it explains a lot. So polish your tinhat and message me privately if you want. I’m still struggling with organizing the info and my theories and other people are involved which makes me uncomfortable and I just really suck at this thinking stuff. So sorry, anon.

Btw, I just want to say that the only good things that have come from their breakups, is that I have no doubt in my mind that they have had a lot of sex which is cool and that they both have really strong feelings for each other which is also cool. Although that seems more good for me and still pretty horrible for Jensen and Misha. Anyways a silver lining for me, I guess.

#work brain work #or not #jfc i am the worst #Anonymous

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