#which is A LOT for me

[erraticsketchings]

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Immortal! Merlin Merwaine AU

They've known for a very long time that Merlin would outlive Gwaine, as soon as they realized he wasn't aging. Merlin put an aging spell on himself and for awhile they could pretend they were growing old together. In his last moments, all Gwaine wants is to remember Merlin as he truly was.

Whoever said immortality was a gift had clearly never experienced it.

[greenbriar-j]

oliver and orion hong really invented being pathetically in love with your super cool gf/fake wife/mission partner huh

[im-not-a-l0ser]

Classmate: We were in target and they started playing this song from a horror movie, I can't remember what movie it's from, but I started freaking out like 'what is going on!'

My Starkid Trash Ass: Where's that spooky music comin from!

[ladyaugment01]

"you should watch Kamen Rider Build, it has heated drama between men" Yeah, but more specifically (and importantly), it has heated drama between THESE men. These two being petty little bitches to each other is bringing me so much joy

[little-crow-heart]

06. most played game

game: Persona 5

[sapphicautistic]

one of the timers that run my life just went off and i realized i haven't eaten yet today and rapidly went through all 5 stages of grief

[zeiktreats]

thinking about old things

[thetantiger]

i don't usually post mog update screenshots on here but LOOK

AT

TREE

LOOK

AT

THEM!!!

[ljubimaya]

Maybe if I go to sleep now I could have enough energy to write and do other productive stuff tomorrow

[hirudou]

so normally i can handle an insane amount of stress. i can juggle 5-6 different things, i can handle my issues on my own. but moving back in with my grandmother is devastating for me. shes abusive, manipulative, and destroyed a good 8 years of my life. shes why i don’t celebrate my birthday anymore, why even the tiniest amount of clutter makes me nauseous. and worst of all, the source of a great deal of my trauma and ptsd, is her son. and she wholeheartedly believes he’s innocent.

i know its a few months. thats it. but knowing i have to go back there, even for a short amount of time, is making me lose the energy to keep going. i get it, its better than being homeless, but she makes it very clear sometimes im not her blood relative. she makes me feel sick, and worthless, and small.

so between all of this, and falling out with friends and being ghosted left and right. as well as work, and this looming move thats approaching— im really at my limit. my mother keeps telling me to step away from the internet, and games, and whatever. but being isolated is the last thing i need right now. idk what to do with myself anymore, im losing weight, im too tired to cry about it. im just incredibly numb and just want to sleep all the time.

i really really try not to vent like this on the dash but i want to get it off my chest. i dont have anyone to talk to about this without getting the same “ get over it “ or “ itll get better “ kind of talk. sometimes i just need to vent.

[iceeericeee]

Didn’t suspect that my “Be Aro, Do Arson” ask would actually be liked…

Better believe it bestie it’s already got 50 notes as I type this

[myansanidee]

The part in City of Gold where Orville Peck sings "all that I want is a kind heart to haunt, my shrink says it ain't too much to ask."

That gets me every single time. The first time I heard it, I felt that in every fiber of my being and it has been my favourite song of his ever since.

This song is beautiful and haunting in the most wonderful way and I could listen to it on repeat forever.

[im-not-a-l0ser]

Yall ready for this?

[butchfalin]

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

[domesticated-whores]

👉👈👉👈🥺🥺 i may have acted insane and down bad

my work friend (who has the very worst ever taste in men and has no room to talk, bpd ass bitch /affectionate) has advised me not to spend Real Money on a man that will not put a label on the relationship. given the holiday season, but in general also. because I am a Broke Ass Bitch, but I have hella savings also. I live paycheck to paycheck to not delve into my savings and I still regularly touch my savings and can't put anything back in often, but if I lost my job right this second and couldn't find anything else (assuming no emergencies occur) I could probably live alone for almost 2 years if I reduced my spending down to the BARE minimum before I went into any form of debt. I don't have spending money in a sustainable sense, but I have something to fall back on (though it really isn't much AT ALL, one big purchase or emergency of any kind would eat it completely). I'm not the most financially responsible in the world, I am an impulse buyer from hell when I get in a mood, I would be the bitch to drop 5k on someone in a moment of pure obsessive impulse to please them. Which is why she told me not to, lol.

But my man is,,, less financially stable than I am. I went into talking with him knowing this. He is a broke ass bitch to a far higher degree, and also not highly responsible with money. We make about the same amount, but he has different financial obligations than I do and absolutely no savings to fall back on.

So he is short money and I'm trying to convince him that I have money that I will just give him. Like, he can have a couple hundred from my savings, if he can pay me back cool but if not it won't hurt me in any direct way in the foreseeable future. Merry Christmas, baby, pay your fucking rent. It isn't even .01% of my total savings. But I also don't want to push him because he said he's trying to get the money he needs, I already know he has issues asking for help with little things and asking the person you've been with but not officially with for only a few months for about $200 is NOT a little thing, really talking about finances is not comfortable when someone is much more flexible than you are, etc. I want him to be VERY fucking aware that the option is open, I have money that isn't "right now" money that'll cover it, I trust him to pay me back when/if he's able, without going on about how much money I have (again, I don't actually have active money and I don't want to sound like I do, but I am SUPER privileged to have some fall-back money FOR emergencies while actively hardly getting by on what I make) and making that a thing. I really don't want him to stress or have to sell shit to make rent in time, especially since it's holiday season and that's an extra financial burden on basically everyone, but if that makes him feel better than asking for help and since we aren't in any really serious or committed relationship I'll let that be his choice to make. All I can do is offer and make sure he is very aware that I really am offering BECAUSE I am willing and able to help with general ease, I can't force him to take help he isn't comfortable with. He's grown, it's his choice. I did get him to say he'll keep me updated after I told him multiple times that I will give him money. If I don't hear him say he got money by tomorrow I'm taking it out and telling him it's part of his Christmas gift.

That man stresses me the fuck out. I know it isn't even that serious of a relationship or anything, but I so fucking desperately want to get a place with him so I can make sure the dumb fuck, like, eats right and has laundry done and necessities and all that shit. I love that man, unfortunately, and I want to make sure he's taken care of so fucking badly. He makes me so happy, and so little does, I don't want him to have to worry about not having money. He better let me know if he does need it, swear to god.

[pvtchurch]

im playing hades with like zero knowledge of it and when you meet thanatos I was like. are they dating?? and honestly everything said after that (so far) gives that impression. but then I remembered they were probably raised as siblings since zag thought nyx was his mom. so I thought; they wouldnt be gay. but wait, this is literally a greek mythology game. they would be dating anyway. the fact that they aren't siblings is just a bonus here