#which irt to my previous post

[nururu]

Sanji is such an outlier in the group it makes me worry so much

[satsuha]

regarding my thoughts on tgaac since someone asked and i was planning on making a post anyway... warning it's pretty negative so feel free to ignore if that's not something you want to see

um i feel like i need to preface this with the fact that i had heard really good things about tgaa since i was already checking out a lot of aa spaces online before i played tgaa so my expectations for it were higher than for any other game in the series... feel like it at least somewhat constitutes the reason for my disappointment

the characters didn't appeal to me as much as previous aa games which i feel like i was more disappointed with than anything sjdhkja not that i think the characters were bad i just think it's... sad that i wasn't able to like them. a big part of this was the role asogi plays in the story because i 1) don't like characters that feel engineered to be likable in the shortest amount of time possible so you feel bad about their untimely death (in the context of tgaa1) 2) don't like death fakeouts 3) don't like amnesia tropes 😭😭 it made it really hard for me to care about the climax when i felt so whatever about one of its core characters which just made me less invested in the finale as a whole... even more unfortunate is how linked the 2 games are so i wasn't even able to enjoy the first game on its own merits because of how incomplete it felt 😔

it didn't help that i didn't feel too strongly about the other main characters either, ryunosuke and susato are fine and i enjoy them well enough but not enough for them to carry the game for me? sholmes is also unfortunately kinda unbearable to me meanwhile iris is also just. fine... i actually really liked gregson and gina in 2-3 despite not really thinking anything about them for all of tgaa1 but then they ripped that away from me in the very next case which sdjghjkgahgka i GUESS was my main interest going into the finale but it did suck not being able to see more of them together when i just started to really enjoy their dynamic together... i still can't really pinpoint how i feel about van zieks i also did not care about him until 2-3 (look no matter how much the game tries to tell me he has some special disdain for japanese people it's really hard to buy into it as a mystery when every other npc is also being similarly racist) but i did quite enjoy finding out about his relationship with albert and klint i think it's one of the things that really stuck with me irt the characters yeah big surprise the siblingliker likes the siblings

(i also quite enjoyed hosonaga and soseki even though i don't have any particular thoughts about them)

also even despite hearing about how draggy the game can get i feel like knowing that did not stop the game from feeling really unnecessarily dragged out... practically every part of the dialogue feels longer while not providing anything substantial and i really found myself surprised at how little i felt like i knew about the characters despite spending so much more time with them than some of the older aa games... i also uhh didn't know that tgaa2 was going to be such a direct sequel and even though i did play them back to back i still feel the need to judge tgaa1 as its own game to some extent and it was just a very unsatisfying game in that respect. i never thought i would be saying this but i think sometimes... sequels that are planned to be more interconnected... are worse (because of how incomplete it leaves the original)

while i (clearly) have a lot to complain about i still feel like it managed to feel really unique as an aa game in more ways than one which i think is valuable and important for the series... i think the time period really allowed its backgrounds to shine with all the details + the characters actually existing in the bg is a really nice touch that actually makes aa5-6 feel lacklustre in hindsight... was kinda surprised at how much 3d was used in cutscene-like ways and even the 2d animation looked really nice imo. character animations are also fun to look at though i think ryunosuke could've afforded to slam into the wall about 10 fewer times ((

but anyway ahhh ah if you read this far i don't want to make anyone feel bad for liking anything i didn't i just also want to be clearer about my opinions on things especially if i feel quite strongly about them... i really wanted to give this game a full chance instead of dropping it when i wasn't feeling it in the beginning which i'm glad i did! but it was really not for me and i don't see myself making a lot of content for it in the future 🙇

[dingodad]

if hussies manor is within the event horizon of a black hole, doesn't that give credence to the idea that he probably existed on earth C, specifically the candy earth? within the epilogues, al and the other candybound time players escape the black hole using the power from LE's remains, is it possible hussie escaped through similar means? perhaps vriska's emanation from Hell will also pierce the black hole? i know that earth A has a hussie, and earth B has a hussie, but those are distinct guys from OUR hussie (made midnight crew or problem sleuth 2, instead of homestuck), who presumably would be earth C's hussie, for whatever reason. im definitely overthinking this again, like you said irt my previous hussie ask, but your recent posts about black holes and the yellow yard make me keep thinking about the textual evidence for Author Hussie being, somehow, an earth C resident

yeah, you can make the argument that the black hole like properties of the author avatar's dimension imply it might occupy the same space as earth c which also sits inside a black hole. but there are still obvious holes in that logic, like the fact that lord english can just rock up at hussie's house when he isn't really supposed to be allowed into the new universe.

it makes much more sense for me to think of it as a pocket-bubble hussie created just for himself to hide in, the same way the ghost of lil calliope created her own dark pockets to hide in when she was scared english was coming for her.

as for vriska, yes, it seems that the expectation is that the fully realised vriska will pop the black hole bubble. that is after all why calliope and roxy put here in there in the first place, but al also expects that breaking free of the containment she built for them will "[open] the door to something far, far hungrier", and as we see when vriska enters the plot point the presence of a hero of light seems to light a bonfire in the pocket of void.

[damnfandomproblems]

IRT 4476, i'm not OP and this may not be in my realm to answer so I'm sorry if I'm speaking out of turn. I saw some people respond to this with confusion, and I feel like I MAY have an idea of what OP is talking about? Like, when white parents hit their kids it is Clearly Abusive. But when any non-white parents hit their kids it's Just How Things Are, and it's treated like a universal, relatable thing. Like when there's a scene where a teenager mouths off to their parents and people go "haha you KNOW that shit wouldn't fly in a black / mexican /dominican / asian / basically-any-non-white-ethnicity-or-nationality household XD", jokes about "la chancla", etc.

If that's not the correct read, it could be about, for example the seeming trend of recent Disney/Pixar movies that are both 1) focused on families of color and 2) center on generational trauma (Coco, Encanto, Turning Red) which together may unintentionally portray a message of "POC are disproportionately controlling of their children"

Posting as a response to a previous problem.

[actualbird]

is the mattress on the floor so bad tho 😭😭 i grew up just having it on the floor. still do because i move around a lot and have fallen off the bed so often i would probably break my neck and die if the mattress was higher than like a foot (....lukes previous bed was kind of cute tho maybe i just have bad taste 😔)

irt luke and mc's bed on the floor in their anniv 3 home

anon im so sorry in advanced because the response im about to type is probably way too much infodumping than you were expecting but, just to preface all of this, nah having a mattress on the floor Is Not Necessarily Bad and especially in cases like urs where falling off is a risk, having it on the floor is a great workaround!!!

that being said.........There Are Some Cons To Having a Mattress On The Floor :(

note that i said "mattress" specifically because thats honestly where the problem comes in, because there are many other different types of sleeping materials that can (and should!) be put on the floor for a floor sleeping arrangement, but mattresses Specifically (and uhh just to be clear, definition of mattress for this post is a bed/bed portion created with Fabric and filled with some kind of firm material as the guts) but like NOT TO SAY THAT IT'S THE WORST THING EVER LIKE full disclosure a good 65% of why i rag on luke having a palette bedframe (and later on just having it on the FLOOR) is cuz sometimes it just heals my heart to make fun of my fave. it's like how i'll always slander his blocky xmas partyland event sweater even if at this point he's definitely worn Worse Sweaters (like his mr butterfly kisses cards sweater....what WAS that) but making fun of the blocky xmas partyland sweater is just so much fun now that i cant let go of it

but in addition to "making fun of my baby beloved loserboy luke pearce is fun", i also have a One Subjective Reason for being averse to beds on the floor + Two Objective Reasons + just to round it out, a bunch of Good Ways To Have A Floor Sleeping Arrangement

Subjective Reason On Why Luke Floor Bed Irks Me: doesnt maximize storage space

so this is subjective, it's wholly just something i think personally. but man not having a bedframe is nerfing one's self at a whole bunch of storage space!!!

in small spaces especially!! in smaller living spaces, maximizing space Vertically (shelves, bunk beds, raised types of structures, loft designs, etc) is a much more efficient way to go about making more space into Usable Space. and luke's original home, the third floor above his antique shop, is pretty cramped. the kitchen is right next to his bed and hes got a bunch of objects just strewn around on the floor and god god i wanna clean his room so bad because LUKE. WE CAN FIX THIS. THINGS DONT HAVE TO BE ON THE FLOOR AS A POTENTIAL TRIPPING HAZARD, BUT IF THE REASON THEYRE THERE IS CUZ OF A LACK OF STORAGE SPACE IVE GOT A SURPRISE FOR U........BEDFRAME! which leads to space Under the bed to use for storage or whatnot

Objective Reasons On Why Luke Floor Bed Irks Me:

can leave u more susceptible to dust (bcuz ur closer to the floor, where dust gets) and thus activate allergies. this can be avoided by regular cleaning of course but just be careful cuz yknow when u sweep the floor around bed, clean the bed right after too cuz who knows how much dust or whatnot had gotten stirred up and landed on the bed. n

i live in the philippines and the weather is often very humid and wet here and if where you are is also very humid then BEWARE BEWARE BED ON FLOOR MIGHT GET MOLD. mattresses are big chunks of usually absorbent material and if it's on the floor it is Not getting as ventilated as a bed on a bedframe (since air can pass under and around it easier) and if ur not checking ur mattress regularly, funky stuff can grow compleyely unbeknownst to u.

But There Are Obviously Good And Great Floor Sleeping Arrangements

im no bed expert or whatever but based on my general knowledge and experience, what makes Mattresses not suited for the floor is the fact that theyre Chunks, and Chunks tend to absorb things around it and keep it inside to create all sorts of problems and evils. to battle that, Chunks generally should be elevated via bedframe just so they have more surface area to breathe instead of absorb.

so Chunks dont do great directly on the floor. but yknow what does? MATS!!!!! FLAT PLANES!!!!! examples!! banig (philippines), tatami (japan), and probably MANY MORE BUT THESE R THE ONLY TWO I CAN REMEMBER AT 5AM WHEN IM WRITING THIS RESPONSE

these r not Chunks these are Planes and also by virtue of being made from Dried Materials (palm leaves, rice straw, etc) and also built for asian climates (tend to be humid and wet for significant portions of time) theyre less likely to absorb and create problems. obviously theres still Upkeep and Cleaning involved but in general, yknow, still better

tldr: modern mattresses are not engineered for a bunch of the problems that the floor can pose. Mats Were Made For The FLoor so theyre Built To Withstand General Floor Problems. of course, every person will have different sleeping needs and sleeping problems to solve, so there is No Single Correct Way To Be Doing This, it depends on u and ur lifestyle and sleep-style. but also i just want luke to maximize his living space. let me in there i gotta clean his room plEASE PLEASE

again, im sorry for this response. u unknowingly activated a portion of my brain that has too much passionate knowledge on the mundane

[oakwolves]

I'm sure other people have written stuff like this but for a post book 3 fic or drabble I'd like to explore Grace traveling the train on her own after all the Apex kids have left. Mostly because I want to see her interactions with denizens, both ones that allow her to have a clean slate, and others that she'd hurt in the past. Some more rambling under the cut idk if I'm making sense

it probably would not be Hazel tho because i feel like while i do think Grace should make it up to Hazel somehow I still think it's a bit too soon for Grace to be majorly in Hazel's life again. I don't think she's necessarily better off with Amelia but that's a conversation for a different post.

It's hard to explain but I feel like once your identity as someone considered an "outsider" to people who are supposed to care about you and protect you gets exploited for their benefit, it's hard to come back to that trust with the person who threw you under the bus.

What I'd want to have in canon vs what makes narrative and thematic sense are at odds because what I'd want would very much undercut the lesson Grace was supposed to learn irt Hazel!

I say it's different with Hazel vs other denizens Grace hurt because Hazel was one of the only denizens Grace formed an emotional bond with. So her hurt and betrayal is more personal and Hazel still needs time and space to heal from that before she's ready to trust Grace again. Could be a couple more years, could be decades, could be never. I think Grace would respect that.

Of course, again, that's not to say other denizens have more of a reason to forgive or trust Grace because she never connected with them.

Out of any denizen I'd love for Grace to interact with post canon is Kez. I promise I am not saying this out of my biased love for Kez. I feel like while she didn't go to the extremes as Grace did, she knows what it's like to hurt people unintentionally, even if it was in the name of the greater good she believed in. I think she'd be the most understanding of Grace's past if she opened up to her (which I think she would after a while).

I was also gonna say that maybe Grace could try helping the turtle citizens of the unfinished car as a way to make amends with previous denizens she'd interacted with but I remembered it was ejected and in quarantine so. RIP.

[voiceofsword]

sry to bitch in your inbox abt this but im so glad you pointed out how so many modern enstarries Dont read the stories and base everything off fandom perception.. i saw these users joking about which character would say slurs and someone was ADAMANT rinne would and tho i knew it before it Really struck me then

a) none of them have ever engaged with this text in any meaningful way, ESPECIALLY not the first games' stories, because surprise! characters in es! did Canonically use slurs! and back then Nobody Liked It. we didnt joke about it. most people i know completely stopped paying attention to the characters who did until they apologized. (tho ofc its more a problem w the writing than the characters, but still. we were young. we had the spirit.)

b) people really like using rinne as a punching bag because they dont read the stories and know literally nothing about him except funny drunk drugs gamble man "fuckboy" who harasses niki and the other bees and its. infuriating.

i dont understand how anyone can claim to like a media without ever properly engaging with it, i dont understand how people have fun misunderstanding characters so drastically, and i also think joking about slurs has gotten wayyy too normalized where people feel comfortable saying these things about these characters they allegedly like. and characters like rinne (with a constructed mask of obnoxiousness and such) are the perfect target for these people. which SUCKS. all of it sucks.

NEVER BE SORRY!!!! i hope this is alright to post i thought your ask was good and insightful and i'll add onto it a little bit with my own thoughts (heart emoji)

yeah um ! was definitely a ride. i wouldnt recommend it to everyone but at least we have hindsight and things like slurs and general offensive terms/behaviors can be warned for, so that much is nice. i remember being really upset about a few of these, and then getting back into enstars earlier this year and reading a few of the more current stories + !! stories i was happy to see that the writing has developed CONSIDERABLY in terms of this especially after beasts. something ive noticed a lot of newer fans do (referencing my previous post irt the feeling morally superior) is that if you like a specific character for whatever reason youre actually a horrible person because that character said something awful once. of course youre allowed to dislike characters for whatever reason but dont tell other people they should perish because they like them (as if liking them means you implicitly agree with said views, more often than not One line in a miriad of stories that you might not even have read). but like you said, characters making ignorant comments (an unfortunate occurrence, although rare, it still happens) is not a reflection of 2d pixels on a screen but rather a team of writers..... idk. its a complicated situation. i see both sides and i think people are justified in liking or disliking but this is a game about idol boys (and girl) got dam

yeah i hate how people treat rinne a lot. like because characters like him and eichi are villains that means everything that they do or say is, at worst, a straight, physical threat to everyone around them, or at best, an annoyance that can make the fandom feel justified in making them the butt of reoccurring jokes. idk what else to say about him that i havent said already but its also 3 am now and i SAID i was gonna go to sleep an hour ago but i think i might just be a filthy liar

ALSO its probably because enstars is long, there's a lot to read and although tl's arent necessarily hard to come by you actively have to seek them out. again i understand how this might be a nuisance but instead of sitting down and listening to summaries or analysis ive noticed that a lot of short form consumption content lends itself to people just. posting the most reactive interpretations, and people playing a game of telephone with said information until a lot of the fandom has come to accept this misinformation as true. LIKE SOMEONE ON TIKTOK SAYING HAJIME AND WATARU WERE RELATED? IDEK IF THAT WAS A JOKE OR NOT? and yeah the use of slurs is like ridiculously normalized now im not one to say whether people can or cannot reclaim slurs and people are free to do as they like if they can. i see this one thing specifically with tatsumi a lot where people jokingly bring up how said character is homophobic or make homophobic comments towards characters even if theyre being like. excited or happy. and idk. personally it makes me sad. like maybe its fandom culture now maybe im old (is 23)

WHY WOULD RINNE SAY SLURS HES LITERALLY GAY AND IN LOVE....COME AWN NOW

[yj-98]

irt previous post also ik its silly bc like. <- guy who draws mostly portraiture (which is fun to me. i like drawing portraits) so where am i gonna be fitting in stuff that has meaning or whatever . again its all arbitrary shit my brain comes up with.😭

[addictiedtocrimedrama]

Just like my previous post/poll this is for a kahoot I'm making which is about CMBB. Just for a little bit of context below the cut is info about each character in the poll and which eps they appeared also please note I got the info from Wikipedia.

David Rossi - Rossi appeared in the first episode of season one "The Harmful One". In the opening scene of the episode, Rossi is at the FBI firing range with Jack Garrett. He later reappeared in the season two episode "Il Mostro", in which he aided the IRT while they were on a case in Florence, Italy.

Penelope Garcia - Garcia appeared in the third episode of season one "Denial". In the opening scene of the episode, Garcia is looking for her octopus coffee mug that Russ Montgomery took. She later returned in the season two premiere "Lost Souls", in which she helped Monty track down victims' families while the IRT were investigating a mass abduction in Tanzania.

Emily Prentiss - Prentiss appeared in the season two episode "Type A", in which she aided the IRT track down an unsub active in New York City and Taiwan.

Mateo "Matt" Cruz - Cruz appeared in the season two episode "La Huesuda", in which he called Jack regarding information about his son, Ryan.

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Who's your favorite UnSub from CMBB (season 2 ver.)

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[mtndewpitchblack]

if you see this no the FUCK you don't but having said that. no reblogs vent under readmore

IF AT ANY POINT YOU BELIEVE YOU CAN PARSE THE IDENTITIES OF ANY FOLLOWING SUBJECT ALIASES [3, 4, 5, 5², 5³, 5⁴, 5⁵, 7] EXIT THE READMORE!!!!

It feels like all of my friends are so busy right now. Everyone I know and hang out with has something else going on, and it's not their fault. I can't blame them, life is busy! I get that! It just feels, really strongly, like they're all finding time for things, though. Just not me. [7] and [5] are busy as hell obviously but it turns out they, well, at least [7], is hanging out with [5²] despite saying that [7] and I would hang out like last week :(. And I tried this weekend and [7] was, again, busy, after I canceled plans with [5³]

post canceled i just need friends with not 5 letter names

post uncanceled. anyways i canceled rave plans with [5³] bc i just had a long emotional conversation with [5²] and even THEN i felt like I was ignoring the stuff I felt and wanted to say just to make [5²] feel better AGAIN. because it's not like I've been doing everything I can to make other people feel better for the last like 5 years of my overactive guilty conscience!!! but I had to make [5²] feel better, of course, because IM not the most hurt one here, but then, it turns out [5²] was JUST HANGING OUT WITH [7]!!! IVE BEEN TRYING!!!!!!!! [7] HAD [5²] HELPING [7] CLEAN [7] APARTMENT!!! LIKE I HAVWNT BEEN TRYING TO TEXT THE GC FOR TWO WEEKS TRYING TO SEE [7+5]!!!! [5] isn't even replying anymore, and I KNOW [5] is busy but fuck ME if it doesn't seem like it's just ME Specifically Getting Ignored!!! I shouldn't have to text [5] individually just to get some kind of response (note I have not actually done that yet. If [5] is ignoring me for some reason that's HIS thing to navigate.) but like. three years or so. I've been trying to be helpful and nice amd funny and interesting and trying so hard not to talk too much about my interests because I've already made [7, 5²] involve themselves in my interests a fuck ton as it is, and [5] doesn't always do well with recommendations, which I have been trying so hard not to take personally because I know [5] doesn't mean it!!

Anyways I canceled the plans with [5³] to relax and not break down and because I also was supposed to hang out with [5⁴] and either watch my fav movie, a new show [5⁴] showed me, or I'd get to show [5⁴] one of the abandoned buildings nearby, which are all activities that LITERALLY MEAN THE WORLD TO ME!!! IT WAS SUPPOSED TO BE FRIDAY then. [5⁴] wasn't feeling good. so we raincheck for sat. Well now, it's sat, and [5⁴] has to go home to visit [5⁴] family, so we put it off for Sunday, and then it's Sunday, and [5⁴] gets back, barely texts about how [5⁴] water just got shut off and how there's an errand [5⁴] has to run, then about how "I'm sorry I'm so exhausted" which I GET bc it's your PARENTS HOUSE trust me brother i understand. so i try to reach out to literally any of my friends that I'm pretty sure might have time. See previous for results on this test with [7]. I didn't text [5, 5², 5³] or [5⁴], bc [5] isn't responding, I canceled with [5³], i still need time and space IRT [5²], and [5⁴] obviously canceled on me three days in a row which means [5⁴] MAY have lied about not being tired of me. But it turns out [3] was busy, and doesn't really ask me to clarify much on what I'm upset about, and ofc I'm not reaching out to mom and dad about this shit, and [5⁵+4] were supposed to play minecraft with me like ALL WEEKEND AND [4] kept canceling because of his late ass work shifts (ENTIRELY JUSTIFIED) and [5⁵] was barely on, bored, and isolated the whole time, and that was only like, Saturday, the only day anybody beyond myself alone played!! [5⁵+4] aren't even replying in our group chat sometimes!!! [5⁵] was just sitting AFK in the nether all day yesterday which means he was ONLINE SOMETIME BEFORE I GOT ON AND DIDNT TELL ANYONE DESPITE ME AAKING IN THE GROUPCHAT IF ANYONE WANTED TO PLAY YESTERDAY!!!! This shit is why losing friends always hurts me so goddamn much, because it seems like no matter how long it takes someone always eventually decides I'm too much and they start to step away. And what am I supposed to do, bring it up? Get my attention back out of guilt?? What kind of fucking egomaniac would I have to beeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!! And sure there's inevitably a healthy way to communicate this stuff, but if they're BUSY I don't want to BOTHER them and if they're IGNORING ME then it doesn't MATTWR WHAT I SAY I GUESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[psychotrope777]

trump opinions

i have a lot of complicated feelings abt donald trump for one he is an objectively evil man and i want to make my stance clear on him first and foremost hes a racist, xenophobic, imperialist, capitalist pedophile & serial rapist; i am NOT a centrist i dont want anyone walking away from this post taking away anything irt my feelings on him besides that i think time in alcatraz would be too lenient a punishment for him i think he needs to be slathered in peanut butter and thrown in a ring full of starving dogs and the footage of him being literally torn limb from limb broadcast on national tv, i think what he did to those girls on little saint james is enough to warrant him being executed by firing squad and knowing that they saw him not only getting away scot free but also being president of the fucking united states in spite of it because hes rich and white makes me hope he gets an inoperable cancer in his brain.

i think the fact that he was elected in and of itself, the fact that the electoral college (infernal invention to begin with) overrode a majority vote in front of the entire country in favor of literally one of the most hated men in modern times, should have pushed democrats way left but that would have required them challenging their beliefs about america. also the average us president is a racist, xenophobic, imperialist, capitalist pedophile & serial rapist and literally the only difference between trump and any of the other fucking american figureheads is his willingness to voice his opinions. it pisses me off that trump has become a sort of boogeyman not because he isnt evil but because hes like almost this cartoonish caricature of american policy that democrats now have someone to posit as the Big Bad and make their own incredibly racist capitalist warlords look "morally upstanding" in comparison, the fact that im still seeing people insist you vote for biden makes me want to scrape my face off on the tar. it doesnt matter to them that biden's politics are not meaningfully different from trump's, it doesnt matter that obama's presidency (under which biden was VP) laid the groundwork for trump's aggressive and bloody immigration policies and that obama and previous presidents are responsible for not codifying the laws that the trump administration would later overturn, it doesnt matter that biden is actively funding an alt-right ethnostate's imperial crusade and genocide of the indigenous people of the levant, it doesnt matter that biden has his own library of sexual abuse allegations under his belt and that he was a segregationist in recent memory. because democrats are not leftists, they dont give a fuck about progress, they care about saving face for the state, their modus operandi is dodging threats to the status quo and maintaining enough plausible deniability that any american president can be falsely posited as the face of empowerment and social progress while ordering drone strikes and maintaining military bases in overseas countries. biden smiles for the camera and shakes hands the way hes supposed to its all a fucking puppet show and no one gives a fuck as long as they feel like the peace is being kept. got away from me a little bit here but like i feel like donald trump's election peeled the facade back on what a fucking evil and rotten country america is and maybe thats part of the reason he's become this mythical figure to democrats despite not really being meaningfully different from any other president in terms of his beliefs and policies

again it lkinda got away from trump for a second but his cult following is another thing. like yes trump is in his own right a cult leader but it's like... he's not a bill gothard. he's not a joseph smith. he's not a jim jones. because donald trump is a very obviously unintelligent man and hes also either senile or the years of cocaine use and medical cocktails have fucked up his brain to the point of being barely functional. and i mean its not like there havent been cult leaders or fundamentalist juggernauts that were incredibly stupid or insane. look at mark driscoll or kenneth copeland or fuck honestly even people like charles manson or roch theriault. but trump lacks charm. do you know what i mean? he lacks grace or prose. hes not well spoken he can barely string together a fucking coherent sentence. i believe the only reason hes gained the following he has is because of the power afforded to men like him by our society. i mean fuck even elon musk has a similar thing going on despite the fact he is also observably unintelligent and has an incredibly unlikeable personality. donald trump grew like a weed out of the poison soil of reagan-era economics and we all know money is power in america. honestly i cant even believe he was able to like, apply to run for president. there's not a point where you're like, considered psychologically unfit to hold a position of power? can literally anyone be president? can i be president? fucks sake didnt jim bob duggar run for president... what a fucking nightmare

[embracesufferdestroy]

Journal

Irt the tags on my previous post: I have always struggled with reality/memory issues, of course. A lot of the time, especially when I was younger, like maybe 11 or so, I had this very strong feeling that I was lying about or exaggerating the things that were happening to me. I wasn't sure how to convey my feelings to my parents, so I basically just said something to the effect of "I'm a liar. I think I'm lying to you." And man, they held onto that for years. Any time I had a concern they would just tell me I was lying because I "admitted" to it.

Years later I was in a psych ward at 15. I had a complete nervous breakdown. I couldn't handle the stress of my own traumas, school, or what was going on in my head. When I was in there they threw the DSM-5 at me, diagnosed me with everything from bipolar to depression with psychotic tendencies to anxiety/general nervousness. They had me on 3, 4, 5, I can't even remember how many medications. It completely screwed with me, and I'm convinced that all that medicine permanently fucked up my brain chemistry in some way.

I don't remember much of my time there, but I did learn in my 20s that particular ward was shut down due to malpractice, which didn't surprise me. They were overloaded with patients, all the children were mistreated. They were over sedating 5 and 6 year olds. The youngest boy there was 3. They would keep the patients, children, away from their parents by moving them throughout different facilities without their knowledge. The final thing that got them investigated and shut down, I don't even really feel comfortable saying. I just feel really bad for the poor girl, and I think about her so very often. The nurses were straight bullies and my therapist, she did not like me. Whenever I couldn't speak, which I'm now assuming Alice was fronting back then (makes sense - that place was awful, triggering, and stressful) she would get mad at me and say I was being uncooperative & that if I couldn't share my traumas I didn't deserve to be there. If my stories or memories or feelings ever changed, she would call me a liar and accuse me of making things up again.

All that is to say at 15, I was called a liar again & a therapist reinforced this with my parents, which made me feel utterly helpless. I was somehow a liar, yet I was forced to be on several medications and had a litany of possible diagnoses. I felt like I went more nuts in there than when I went in. Afterward my parents made a point to make me feel guilty about ever needing to be there in the first place. Despite knowing everything I went through as a child, they didn't think I needed therapy at all and that I was making all my symptoms up. They completely took me off of everything cold turkey when I was 17, claimed I didn't need it. That sent me on a downward spiral that took a while to recover from. My parents took a lot of missteps when it came to dealing with my issues, and while I don't hate them for it now, I have never forgiven them.

I hated my parents a lot during this time in my life, I felt that they didn't care about me, and sometimes I still think they don't care. I have a better relationship with them now, and I am pretty close with my dad. I just don't think they understood me or knew what to do with me. It was much easier to declare I was some kind of attention hungry hypochondriac than to come face to face with the fact that I was screwed up, and that they screwed up by putting me in that ward in the first place

I also feel the need to clarify that my bio parents are divorced. My mom, the one I was raised with up until I was about 11, was the one that caused all my trauma. I haven't spoken to her in years. My parents, on the other hand, are my dad and stepmom. They are better people, and not malignantly abusive, but due to a lot of circumstances they were just kinda neglectful. The only reason I went into therapy in the first place is because I had a panic attack so bad in the gym I actually passed out & ended up at the hospital. I hate hospitals.

[ali3nboyfriend]

things you might feel guilty about but will vastly improve your dog's life:

a morning and evening routine regarding how they are woken up and how they are put to bed for the evening. this does not necessarily have to involve kennel training, but kennel training can help a lot of dogs feel more secure. think about your own sleep schedule (if you have one). it fucks your day up if that's not consistent; same with your dog.

a strict routine around how they enter and exit the house for walks or potty breaks. as per one of my previous posts i strongly recommend teaching a release word; setting up the expectation that they do not cross the threshhold until you tell them it's okay to makes them less likely to bolt when a door is opening.

a strict routine around meal times. and by this i do in fact mean having structured meal times. free feeding any of your animals often leads to obesity, which animals are not equipped to handle well, among other issues both behavioral and health-wise. free feeding also takes away a lot of opportunities to bond with your dog. even if you don't use meal times to get short training sessions in -- which you absolutely should do! -- just having your dog rely on you to provide food in a very visible way for them goes a long way in improving their relationship with you. i also recommend teaching a release word for meals for the same reason. if you're worried about underfeeding, there are calculators online that you can plug your dog's food and ideal weight into and it'll spit out how much of that food you should be giving them.

proper leash etiquette. no they do not have to walk perfectly at heel like a little soldier. yes they do have to be taught not to pull on the lead. the methods you use are gonna be highly dependent on the dog you have, but i will say that in my experience harnesses tend to lead to more pulling, not less, and i personally would not recommend them for general use unless you have a health-related reason for doing so, and most of the trainers i've gotten advice from wouldn't either (but this is a controversial topic in the world of dog training, your mileage my vary). dogs who know there's an expectation to stay near your side are much less likely to be highly reactive to other dogs, other animals, or strangers when on walks or in public. remember that high reactivity is not necessarily a sign of excitement; it is usually a sign of anxiety, insecurity, and frustration.

proper people etiquette. this is good for your dog and for other people. your dog should not be jumping on people. no, not even you (they don't know the difference, if you let them jump on you, or anyone at all, they will jump on everyone). they should be able to be (relatively) still and (relatively) calm when greeting someone, whether this person is new to them or well-known. this helps with reactivity. from a standpoint of general politeness, the people your dog might be greeting could be disabled, or afraid of dogs, or just simply not want your dog to be jumping all over them. you should be respectful of this. sorry if you like your dog jumping into your arms or on to your chest. if it's really something you'll miss you can teach it as a command so they know to only do it if they're told to.

proper kennel etiquette. as i said irt bedtime routines, your dog doesn't have to be kenneled overnight every night (i personally recommend it, but it's not for everyone or every dog). however, they should be perfectly happy and comfortable to be in a kennel if they need to. there are going to be times in their lives where they will have to be kenneled, for medical reasons or for safety ones. wouldn't you rather they be comfortable in that confinement over anxious and scared?

general grooming etiquette. as a former kennel tech this is the one i feel the hardest, but please, please desensitize your dog to having their ears, feet, and mouth (including gums and teeth) handled and to getting wet/bathed as early as you can. learn to clip their nails yourself if you have hands capable of doing so. you can go the extra mile and invest in a nail grinder to desensitize them to that, as well. you can also look into brushing their teeth at least weekly to get them used to the feeling of someone messing around with their mouth. just like learning to be comfortable in a kennel, they are going to have to go through these things at some point. they might not enjoy it, but contained discomfort is a lot better than actively acting and feeling like they're being murdered, and you being their owner are the first step towards them being fine with a stranger performing these things.

general obedience training. they don't have to learn circus acts (that can be very fun and rewarding for a lot of dogs, not all of them are into it), but every dog should have commands they know and follow consistently for sit, lay down, stay/wait, heel, and go to place/go to kennel. if you're ever in a situation they haven't encountered before, and it's clearly stressing them out or is dangerous for them, being able to give them these commands and knowing they will listen changes the entire game. they will feel more secure and confident when you give them direction in these situations. and you don't have to dedicate as much time as you might think for this. daily 5 minute sessions (or 5 minutes at every meal time) go an insanely a long way.

i know a lot of people feel, like... guilty? when they think about teaching their dogs discipline? i think at least in american society we tend to view dogs in similar ways to children, and that kinda muddles how we think about training them, because we don't like the thought of removing their autonomy from them. but please believe me when i say that a dog with no discipline is stressed out, anxious, and at the end of their rope. there's a reason they vocalize more, are more reactive to certain situations, and have more behavioral problems than most dogs who are not allowed to jump on people when they meet them and stay kenneled overnight.

dogs want to know exactly what is expected of them and exactly what will make you happy. we genetically engineered them, literally, through selective breeding over centuries to follow our lead. they do not like guessing. they do not like figuring it out for themselves. setting down rules and boundaries for things like house training, leash etiquette, and behavior around other people and dogs and enforcing them consistently makes for a much more well-adjusted and overall happier dog.

your dog isn't a human person. they might be your family, they are definitely your companion, but they are not a human person. treating them like what they are will make you a better caretaker for them.

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The innocent detective - Part 4

Warnings: Mentions of violence, injuries.

Summary: It's your first week in prison and you already feel on the verge of death.

A/N: Posting this today because I'm too deep in my Jay Halstead feels and writing is my coping mechanism. Please enjoy and lets try not to cry while we grieve.

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You knew what to expect going into jail. Not only had you heard stories but you'd been told several times what happened to anyone related to the police once they got in.

It didn't help that you'd been a police officer and then detective for so long that your name had gotten around. Even without hearing your name, the women you passed by easily recognised you, practically smelling the police off you.

So, when you were suddenly ambushed, being beaten by women who you either put away or someone in your unit did, you weren't completely surprised.

You did your best to defend yourself but you were more than outnumbered and it wasn't before long that you were struggling on the floor. You didn't try begging, you didn't scream for help but you did try to fend for yourself.

Eventually, the guards came and pushed everyone off you, helping you up and whispering in your ear that you were being taken to protective custody where life was supposedly going to be better, easier and safer for you.

The first aid you was given was pathetic. Doctor or not, anyone could've done a better job. The open wounds were still oozing with blood, a few gashes still pulsating and you definitely had a concussion but the first aider simply pushed you away, claiming he was done and you could be taken away.

It was the second or third day of being in prison, you lost track because of your poor attempt of keeping a sleeping pattern but you had a visitor. Rudely being woken up, you limped in between the guards as they walked you to the room with phones, chairs and a glass to separate you from the outside world.

Entering the room, you took notice of not only the increased heat but a familiar man sitting by himself. His eyes sweeping across the room, abruptly stopping when they landed on you.

Sitting up in the chair, Jay clenched his jaw and followed your slow movements, waiting for you to get somewhat comfortable in the chair before grabbing the phone and talking into it.

His eyes remained solely on your face, inspecting the bruises and scars that spread to your arms which he could only see because your jumpsuit was short sleeved. By the looks of what he could see, your body must be littered in bruises and cuts.

While Jay was angry, he was also relieved to see you. It had been two days since your sentencing and he'd been restless, having not seen you and not being able to talk to you on said day.

"Hi." You whispered, your voice a little hoarse from not speaking for what felt like ages. Seeing Jay brought you so much joy that your eyes started to water but you blinked it all back, forcing yourself not to break down.

"Hey." Jay reciprocated your smile but his was stiff, almost as though it was forced but he was struggling with all of the sudden emotions he was facing.

"How are you?" You asked, taking note of the dark circles under his eyes. He obviously hadn't been sleeping and the only reason for that could be you.

"I'm managing." Jay very subtly lied. The past two days had been torture. One, you'd been taken away from him. Two, IRT was still doing their due diligence and making sure the rest of intelligence was clean and didn't lift a single finger in the murders you commited.

You smiled, grimacing at the pain when your lip burned because of the cut you had; you forgot that was there.

"And you?" Jay asked, gauging your painful reaction. What he would do just to hold your hand, bring you some comfort in a place that was void of anything remotely nice.

"It sucks." You said truthfully, finding it useless to lie. "I've been jumped, the food sucks and they seem to hate periods."

You tried smiling it off, hating how serious this conversation was when you were given a warning by one of the guards, you had around five minutes left of the visit before you had to go.

"I love you." You whispered into the phone, refusing to break eye contact with your boyfriend. Most police that went to jail usually never made it out alive and if that was true, you never knew when the last time you saw Jay would be.

Today could easily be the last time you saw him and even if you couldn't touch him, you could let him know how much you loved him.

"I love you so much." You bitterly smiled, biting your lip in attempt to keep in all the bubbling tears trying to surface.

Jay took in a deep breath. It dawned on him what you were doing and he hated every single bit of it. For your sake though, he'd do what was best. "I love you too."

"Let everyone know I miss them and that I love them as well." You licked your dry lips, your hand shaking when you saw the guards moving towards you in the corner of your eye.

"I'll see you soon." Jay promised, not tearing his eyes away from you even while you were escorted back into your cold cell.

Jay would see you soon because over his dead body would you not come back home.

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[insecateur]

just a post of thoughts and headcanons about lysandre's team bc i've been thinking about that and now when i think about stuff i'm like "oh i can post about it on tumblr dot com"

lysandre's team is by and large royalty-themed which makes sense of course! no particular order to tackle them in just vibing

pyroar is the pokémon usually associated with lysandre in official merch and the likes. his hair was definitely styled to be reminiscent of a mane. the imagery is straightforward: lions are associated with kings. there's the whole "king of the jungle" thing ofc but also lions are associated with english royalty in particular. the lion association is probably also what influenced him having a 4:1 female/male ratio of scientists.

i tend to write litleo as being lysandre's first pokémon, given to him as a child as a family tradition. this would be how malva got hers as well.

the nickname "Orléans" probably doesn't require much of an explanation; it's a name associated with the french royal family. if you want bonus lore about it though, i actually partially stole it from a movie called Marquis which is about a talking dick and involves terrifying puppets, one of which is a lion named Orléans. i have not seen the movie.

gyarados is lysandre's mega-evolved pokémon. i find this fact fascinating for many reasons, some i will explain shortly. magikarp's japanese name is koiking and its design is definitely kingly. interestingly, it mostly loses these attributes upon evolving, which might make it seem like an odd choice for a royalty-themed team. i have shared some of my thoughts about lysandre's gyarados in a previous post, but i will touch on a point i haven't discussed yet (here at least. i've talked about it a bit on twitter.)

even disregarding shipping opinions, it's plain as day that lysandre and sycamore were created as counterparts. thematically, they are linked respectively to death, despair, pessimism, destruction, the color red (yveltal) and life, hope, optimism, creation, the color blue (xerneas.) imo the fact that lysandre's key pokémon is blue and associated with the opposite type to his other main pokémon (water vs fire) isn't a coincidence. we can only speculate what it means, i suppose, but i find it very interesting.

i tend to write magikarp as being lysandre's second pokémon, usually because his litleo caught one and lysandre rescued him as a result. (him having a cat and a fish is also kind of funny...)

the nickname "Charlemagne" probably doesn't merit an explanation either. he's a frank king. it's a long name, which fits a long pokémon.

mienfoo/mienshao is an ermine, which are linked to royalty because of the fur, mostly, although it also relates to heraldry. it's definitely lysandre's most underrated pokémon imo.

i haven't actually written about how lysandre and mienfoo met much! i tend to see him as being his most recent pokémon. rescued by sycamore and kept at the lab, he takes an interest in lysandre. maybe i'll write about it in more details someday.

the nickname "Pyrrhus" comes from King Pyrrhus of Epirus from which comes the term "pyrrhic victory." it also means "red-haired" so there's that. i don't think either of those require much elaboration.

it's not the first instance of murkrow/honchkrow being linked to a team leader, and it's pretty unsurprising, considering honchkrow's whole deal is being at the head of a murkrow gang. in french its name even contains the word "boss" (and in english, of course, there’s “honcho” in there as well.)

the link with royalty isn't as straightforward at first, but my personal theory is that it relates to Odin and his crows. there are a lot of references to norse mythology in pokémon xy, most notably irt the legendary trio, so it doesn't seem that far-fetched. Odin is tied to death, war, and royalty (among other things.)

i also have never written about lysandre meeting his murkrow. i like to think they ran into each other in some of his later travels, maybe before he met sycamore in lumiose.

the nickname "Léon" doesn't actually have any interesting story behind it! obviously it relates to lions, but i was actually thinking of the fact that in french people say that a peacock's cry sounds like "Léon"... how this relates to murkrow/honchkrow, don't ask me, but it stuck.

that's most of what i had to say on this subject, heehoo. i'll leave you with this old drawing.

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taking a look at your page, youre an aespa akgae so i'll try to be brief since you wont listen anyway before i block you and your weirdo friend.

no, obviously sm didn't sit down and say "oh we're gonna take Exo's concept and redo it to give it to aespa" bc while theyre stupid, they arent that stupid. they just do what they always do and recycle things other groups did, with that majority of concepts coming from things in Exo's story and lore.

sm literally said that nct is in the same part of world as aespa and that thats where their videos and universe is set. so thats one senior, Irene appeared in one of the lore videos so thats another group as well. Hyo was rumored to be an upcoming villain after black mamba but ig they scrapped that idea. the company has specifically stated that every group plays a role in the universe or the creation of the kwangya verse so like yeah every group is tied into it now.

wayv literally went through a whole ass hiatus and multiple members did not know whether they'd work again. i get that dream and 127 get a lot, but thats at the expense of their members health and safety and not every member gets treated the same way within those groups. theres disparities between members that should be taken into consideration as well.

aespa being profitable since debut means almost nothing really. they have four members compared to the much larger groups everyone else has or had. also keeping in mind that conditions were vastly different between some of the other groups and today. sm has to put more money into nct to get a return bc the amount of members makes it impossible to profit, but thats how companies always operate. and to address your point of disparity between debuts, yeah of course there is bc there was a pandemic when they debuted and restrictions have only really let up recently in 22/23

and when you say 10 month hiatus, surely youre not referring to the part of 2022/23 between Girls and My World where they had multiple showcases, performances and appearances, a variety show, and the concert tour? bc thats the only gap i can find, and even that was filled with a lot of things. not to mention irt what they got, they literally became brand ambassadors for a luxury brand, Givenchy, three months after debut and racked up more over the course of 2021 which is much faster than basically any other sm group at any point.

in your previous reply, you said "Red Velvet get videos on their birthday" to which i said that was a relatively new thing. bc it is. those literally started in 2020. if we had been talking about the birthday fanmeets, i wouldnt have said that its new bc those arent. maybe read back your posts before you try to explain my own fucking fandom to me like im stupid. im a long term EriLuv, ik what the fuck the groups have gotten and not gotten over the years.

and not to keep this argument going in circles, but yes we know aespa gets some shitty treatment. no one is arguing against you on that. youre just being willfully stupid and ignoring the fact that other groups suffer under the company as well and that even tho they get other or more content, it comes at a cost as well.

but of course, this all means nothing to you and you'd rather hope and wish and be happy for other groups having scandals and wanting them to disband.

I think aespa fans have the right to be mad for a lot of things one of them being one of the bg meber being a nepotism kid but everybody being fine with thar while giselle still gets hated for made up nepotism rumors. There is only 2.5 years difference between aespas debut and this one and now we can see that sm rushed aespa debut even though they had a lot of time to complete everything. Riize getting music show promotions for pre release and getting 2 pre release at that and now this physical album,I don't remember if nct had a physical album for their debut but red velvet certainly did and so did aespa. Aespa actually had 3 back to back digital singles to that sucked along with little to no content and promo. Even now they don't have a full album and all mys are scared that sm is gonna put the rest of the concert tracks in the new mini. If sm rushes the nggs debut and only gives them a digital single then we can all conclude that they are sexist mfs. And yes they did have a press release something along the lines that ride topped some chart and aespa fell below them which made the fans rightfully angry

i never said aespa fans don't have the right to be angry i literally said you're right to be angry over aespa's treatment and im on your side with that. im just against holding a grudge against another group simply because they got better treatment during a debut. they can't control what the company does just as much as aespa can't. wayv didn't have a comeback for close to two years and ten was out of the country for 9ish months and winwin was gone for 1.5 years. we didn't get any full group content for so long (and we still barely get any) and yangyang even said that at one point was worried because he didn't know if wayv would ever even come back. they still barely get anything compared to 127/dream in terms of cbs and tours and yet i don't hold it against the other units. the press release sounds to me like they were just saying riize has performed well so far in some metric and then using another well charting sm group as point of reference. that's nothing personal against aespa, its just how companies run they will always compare their groups. and in the case of charts, saying one sm artist charted high and surpassed another is not an attack on aespa, its just an objective analysis of the current positions of their artists in a constantly changing chart ranking. and as for of them being a nepotism kid, i've definitely seen him getting hate for it on twt. and are mys also mad at sunny for being lee soman's niece and chris lee's cousin? or is it just anton. the nepotism thing is going to follow all three of them for the rest of their careers and personally im not going to let it bother me. i like to embrace those types of things with humor because getting mad isn't going to erase it so i'd rather just have fun with it. as for the smngg, i full heartedly hope the ngg gets as good of a debut as riize, but im not going to spend my time worrying about hypothetical scenarios in the unknown future, it just adds extra suffering. we'll get there when we get there.