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no, no, i need to talk about this actually.
before we get to the obvious thing, first, i have to say: i can't help but wonder how hermes felt about aphrodite's party --- the first of hers they would have been around for, remember --- as the only person present who knows that a part of her won't be passed on to venus. that a part of her will be truly dead if the ritual goes through.
i'm not sure if that means that part of her would have to be brought to hades. note that calliope was killed by the furies, and it's apparently one of the Old Laws that anyone killed by them goes to hades, so she could be a special case.
and, you know, if all the idols go to hades after passing on... wouldn't the past hermes be there? our hermes misses him, deeply, but couldn't they visit him there (assuming shades don't eventually fade / lose their memories and personality)?
do they deny themself that?
or maybe, that hermes's post-life "journey" is of a different nature.
i could get into what feelings and Opinions hermes must have had about the party once they learned about it --- whether they knew in advance and made the choice to Not Go, or whether they only knew once they sensed aphrodite had passed on (you think they showed up to take venus to athena?) --- considering the parallels between what aphordite is doing and how the last hermes passed on... but that's a tangent for another time.
let's get to the other set of Implications of the eidolon thing:
hermes knew from the start, as the trial drew closer day by day, that there was one almost surefire way to find out who killed calliope. asking her.
but they don't tell grace that that's an option. because the last hermes told them, for whatever unknown reason, that this eidolon knowledge is only for hermes-es. and the current hermes, for their usual casual attitude, takes their job very seriously.
consider that they've started going by "hermes" only a year after the transition, when they haven't even begun regaining the past hermes' memories (as far as we know). whoever they were before doesn't matter. they're The Next Hermes now.
consider that they never considered the question of whether they actually enjoy running all these errands until grace voiced the question for them, and their answer was that "it's nice to have a purpose".
consider that they were homeless (likely relating to them coming out) and were taken in by the previous hermes. everything they have now is thanks to that hermes. and, now, athena.
athena, who told them not to let anyone into hades. so they don't.
and they don't share their secret knowledge, with her, or with grace. because "it's a hermes thing".
and because they don't, grace, eventually, when every other lead in her investigation runs dry, resorts to trying to trigger calliope's memories of how she died. which leads to her being attacked by the furies in the reliquary. which leads to freddie dying for her.
which, of course, leads grace to ask hermes to let her into hades.
she can tell them that the last piece of the puzzle can be found there. hermes knows that, knew it already, better than she does. and if this is truly the only way for her to win her trial and live...
or, grace can tell them about freddie. freddie, who hermes briefly met and seemingly got along well with. freddie, who would very likely still be alive if hermes had told grace about this option and let her go find calliope earlier.
in the face of either of those... there's no excuse left. nothing that outweighs the clear fact that this is the right thing to do, for grace (and freddie)'s sake.
we can only imagine what hermes thinks and says when grace returns --- either still without freddie, or, somehow, miraculously, with her.
and then, when hermes next sees grace, when they appear with athena to bring her to her trial...
they can't look her in the eye.
...this is one of those things where it's tough for me to tell how much of this background angst was something the developers thought of as they were writing the story. there's no confrontation over it, no real acknowledgment of any kind of what hermes must have known, even as grace makes it public at the trial. and neither they nor athena can even be asked about aphrodite.
but it fascinates me nonetheless. just, hermes. hermes hermes hermes.
thinking about the events of stray gods from hermes' perspective is actually driving me insane
like. spoilers (pretty big ones at that), but.
in your first real conversation with them, in the club, they say they know whenever an idol dies, because it's a "hermes thing". if you ask why, they say they need to be there "to take them where they need to go", with the specifics being a secret to be kept between hermes-es. if instead you say it "sounds grim", they respond, "it's not so bad. charon could be less creepy though."
there's only one answer that makes sense of those two statements, right? hermes had to take calliope's spirit to charon. to hades.
which means. hermes knew, the whole time, that there's more to an idol than just their eidolon (because they know grace has calliope's). they knew what even athena didn't.
just. think about that, and all the implications.
#stray gods#stray gods spoilers#the way hermes parallels grace with how they were adrift before becoming an idol#but they allowed themself to be fully absorbed by the system because it gave them a chance#whereas grace has to fight for her right to exist in it and ends up tearing it down altogether#it's so good
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kinktober day twenty-seven: car sex
>>> no one will read these anyway based off of the reception for nobara, but i wanted to give the ladies some love this time around <3
>>> starring: maki zen'in x curvy!f!reader >>> cw: jealousy, homophobia w the zen'ins, making my own cannon, oral and fingering, car sex, semi-exhibitionism? i don't think so but just in case >>> wc: 1.8k >>> event masterlist:
formal events were the bane of her existence. she hated all the ritualistic steps of looking presentable for a clan celebration, of all things. maki has never been celebrated amongst her clan and she knows they wonât start anytime soonâso why did she have to show up and celebrate them? even worse, why did she have to drag her girlfriend to such an event? she knows half the elders will spend their time whispering about either her supposed powerlessness or her lesbianism, and the other half would be thinking about it all night long. she hated having to subject you to such nonsense, but her mother insistedâand she knew sheâd never hear the end of it from her if she didnât just suck it up and go.Â
so here the two of you are, shoved into the zenâin family banquet hall in a tight fit. maki was absolutely uncomfortable, forced to mingle with people she canât stand while trying to keep a possessive hold on you. despite the controversial relationship, she wouldnât let it be lost on anyone. you werenât here as a plus one or just a friend, you were here as makiâs partner and she wasnât shy about it. they hate her already, she couldnât give less of a fuck. her anger will make her the perfect protector too, she wonât allow them to say anything offbeat to you or their reckoning may come early.Â
she also hated formal wear. it was impractical and stuffy, and she didnât like being painted up to the nines, either. at least you looked amazing. you might be enough to make her rethink all her earlier opinions. seeing you tucked into a gorgeous kimono was definitely a lifeline to get her through the nightânaobitoâs birthday celebrations could perhaps pass harmlessly by with nothing more than the memories of how good you look. the silk highlights your body for days, tight around your chest and flowing down your legs. whereas maki feels completely out of place with rouge and lipstick on he skin, somehow it makes you look even more elegant and graceful. youâre flawless, evidence that maki is indeed good enough to deserve happiness. she keeps your hand in hers for the better part of the evening, fake smiling to some clan members while she keeps her scowl for others, you couldnât quite find a rhyme or reason to her reactions. it isnât until sheâs pulled away by her sister that youâre able to understand.Â
of course you were familiar with the atrocities of the zenâin, and it made you more than just a little uncomfortable to be surrounded by them, but with maki by your side, you knew that no harm would possibly come to you. but with her gone, well. now youâre left wide open.Â
they donât waste any time, a wall of zenâin has formed around you with various men bidding for your attention by offering you drinks and compliments, swearing that a zenâin man could give you a much better time than any womanâbut especially one as weak and powerless as maki. their sentiment makes you snarl, but you donât know how far maki isâmeaning you donât know how crude you can be with all these disgustingly vile creatures.Â
âweak? naobitoâs birthday or noâwe can test that theory.â her sharp voice cuts through the cacophony of others. the men are quieted instantly, and you feel yourself smirk. they start rattling off excuses as to why there should be no fighting here tonightâbut you hear the real reason: theyâre afraid.Â
maki has always been far more powerful than they deign to acknowledge. sheâs a talented fighter, and you knew most of these old fuckers would be dead to rights if she really wanted to cause a scene. her presence is scary enough, brows set with a menacing look in her eye. she stares above their heads, making eye contact with you.Â
âcome. i think itâs time we left, dear.â she extends her hand for you to take, holding the stare of the disgusting old men that came to hit on her girlfriend the moment she stepped away. you skip forward to take her hand, almost giddy at her demeanor as she squeezes your palm in hers. you knew that she was pissed. she was mad when she woke up this morning and remembered this stupid fucking party was today, but now sheâs irate. everything she thought would happen, did, and she didnât feel like subjecting you to any more ogling eyes. she starts to drag you both towards the door, hoping that the hour and a half she had managed to occupy the same space as her family would please her mother enough. not that she quite cared anyway, hearing your little giggles of excitement told her that you knew exactly how she would remedy her bad mood.Â
maki has a track record of jealousy, and you knew this time was no exception. this time may be the worst of them all, your girlfriendâs grip on your hand tightening as the driver brings the car around. her mind was racing with the harassments from the crowd, different cousins and uncles offering to show her girlfriend a good time after the party. tch, she didnât have to wait. she would have you now, the windows of the car are tinted anyway. she opens the backseat of the spacious suv, jutting her chin out to the backseat.Â
your feel your face heat up as you obey her, crawling into the back on your hands and knees. maki turns to give the chauffeur a tip, patting his knowing shoulder. she doesnât much care if people know what sheâs about to do to you in this car. in fact, she hopes rumors spread about it. the windows being tinted was all she cared aboutâno one would get to see her pretty little girlfriendâs faces of pleasure but her. she steps into the car after you and pulls the door closed behind her. sheâs thankful for the air conditioning and radio humming lowly in the background, your noses pressed together for a brief moment as she adjusts your seat, pushing you back and ensuring she has enough space in the floorboard.Â
you giggle a little, parting your thighs to give her room to sit between. she slinks between them easily, resting her hands on your knees as she peers over her lenses. you lick your lips in anticipation, seeing that anger in her eyes.Â
âworked up, babe?â you tease just a little, resting your hand on her head. she raises a brow at you, quietly warning you to watch your attitude. you grin a little, knowing you could push her to her limits after the night that youâve hadâbut youâd be the one to reap the consequences. so you lean back against the seat a bit, easing your cunt closer. she looks down at your middle at the movement, but she nods.Â
âyeah. iâm a bit worked up.â she groans, bunching your silken skirt up by your thighs. her mouth salivates the closer she leans to the apex of your thighs. she catches your scent, grinning at the arousal already leaking down your legs. âtheyâre all just dying for a chance at you, hm?âÂ
you roll your eyes with a satisfied little grin, shaking your head at her. you pull your skirt up some more for her, but you know not to worry about anything further or youâll further irritate your already ticked off and overzealous girlfriend. âjust too scared of you to come around.â you decide to stroke her ego instead.Â
she scoffs a little, amusement sparkling in the vast darkness of her emerald eyes. her fingers stroke over the center of your panties, and she hums approvingly at the dampness she can feel beneath. her lips tilt into a smirk, âand you like that?âÂ
âi love that.â you purr, scratching her scalp a little bit. she smiles softly and pushes the flimsy fabric keeping your cunt from her to the side. she gives you a breathy chuckle, watching the strings of your arousal stick to your panties as she peels them away, sheâs enamored.Â
âand i love that sloppy pussy, pretty girl.â she whispers, letting her fingers spread your lips apart. you take your lip in between your teeth in anticipation. she lets her slender thumb drag figure eights along your clit, face focused on your hardening tits and shifting face. youâve always been so sensitive, itâs one of makiâs favorite things about youâhow you jerk into her hand as sheâs barely touched you, little moans coming from your pursed lips as the sounds of tires squealing outside overtake the music in the car. maki grinsâyouâre holding up the line, leaving the other zenâinâs no choice but to pull around makiâs signature suv. she chuckles a bit as she leans in, attaching her pink lips to yours, letting her fingers work their magic over your bundle.Â
your body drowns in warmth, looking down at your sexy and strong girlfriend giving you head never got old. she always knew how to get you going, possessively shoving you in the back of her car was on the list. you grip at her hair as the pressure from her fingers intensifies, tongue slipping past your lips and straight into the holeâand she moans at the taste of you. your head rolls against the rest behind you, hands weaved into green locks in an effort to grind yourself down on her tongue inside you without moving her fingers. one of her hands pushes your thigh away, keeping you from breaking yet another pair of her glasses.Â
she works in perfect time, knowing exactly how to send you over the edge without much work at all. she knows no man could tend to you so easilyâmaking you cum like it was chewing gum or breathing. thatâs why only she gets to wear the remnants on her face. you buck into her mouth, whines going high pitched. she taps your thigh, giving you express permission to cum on her face.Â
you whimper, the affection in her eyes was enough to send you toppling over the edge. your hips shake, the dam breaking in your gutâyour release covers your girlfriendâs tongue as she curls it inside, gathering all the taste of you that she could with a few animalistic moans as she sucks you clean.Â
she pants a little as she pulls away from your cunt, tucking your panties back over the mess with a little smile of arrogance. âdid that make you feel better, sweetheart?â she asks, pulling your skirt back down as she leans up toward your face. you bend down to meet her, she was still on her knees after all.Â
you chuckle, giving her a soft kiss. âi meant to ask you that.âÂ
#kylee's kinktober event#kinktober#kinktober 2023#kyleewritesjjk#maki x reader#maki thirst#maki zen'in#maki smut#maki zenin#maki zen'in x reader
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⸠CHAPTER 6 | " AT LONG LAST PT. 1 "
starring: enhypen ft. i-land daniel
pairing: jungwon x fem!reader x sunghoon
genres: royal au, romance, angst, slowburn, 18th century setting
word count: 2.5k
taglist: @serendipitysung (betareader) @angeljungwon @en-sun @affectionaterainoflove @renkiv @softforjungwoo @jislix @fluffi @gyeraniee @stxrryemxlys
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To be promenaded in front of the entire ton is one of every ladyâs desires. From the piercing stares of the envious, to the love-struck looks of those smitten by the pair, the two most-loved couple of this season gracefully saunters from the cemented pathway and down to the grassy lawn, ever so politely greeting Northumberland with their warmest and charming presence.
The young marquess joins the young missâ family under the canopy near the lake. With a hand draping over Sunghoonâs arm, Lord Niki mutters swears to the gods for lightning to strike upon the chap, as the gagging sight of his sister along with his most despised douche is gradually sucking the life out of him.
âGood morning!â Sunghoon greets the family and so did Lady Park. Jay gives away a polite nod followed by a toast of the teacup, whereas the almost always brooding Niki responds with an exaggerated rolling of his eyes.
âYour Grace. Always the charmer, aren't we?â Niki jeers to which Jay chokes on his warm, jasmine tea.
âThe smoothest at being one, Riki.â The name rolls naturally off his tongue like a snakeâs hiss that roused Nikiâs ire. The boy could feel the crescendo of his spite, yet he eases it casually with a sly smirk.
âSmooth like a snake, perhaps? I anticipate those fangs in action.â Niki surprisingly snaps back. Jay clears his throat as he whispers to Niki in hopes to prevent him from further fumes, although he knows it would be of no use.
Sunghoon scoffs in return, âneed I remind you that I shall deliver if provoked. However tempting that may be right now, I regret to inform you that Iâm only here to promenade your sister and impress your dear mother.â
âI do hope she turns you down in the most painful way possible, Your Grace. I find my sister's taste in men quite genteel. Surely, you're aware of how opposed you are to that considering yourâŚâ Niki walks closer to the marquess to give an exclusive barb against his ear, ânasty record.â He brushes off imaginary dust off Sunghoonâs shoulder before bumping against it, âGood day to you two!â
âOh dear, your brother is making me worried. Is he alright?â Lady Park whispers to Jay and the gent soothes their mother by softly massaging her hands, rubbing circles on the back of her palm, âhe's just going through puberty, mother.â
âIs that so? I don't remember you having those episodes before. Furthermore, I apologize, Your Grace. Rest assured it won't happen again. I will definitely see to it.â
âNo worries entirely. It's Niki after all, he may be a tough handful but as far as I recall he's completely-â
âHeld back? Are those the words you were going for?â Jay cuts off.Â
âYou're quite forgetting the fact that Iâm right here.â Y/n attempts to intrude only to be silenced by her brother once again. With his head held high, Jay saunters up to Sunghoon, who is almost the same height as him. Locking eyes with the chap, he simpers, âcome, Your Grace, I require a brief moment with you. Excuse us for a bit, sis.â
And with that, the men left the canopy, leaving Y/n and her mother utterly baffled with the uncalled tension.
The sound of paper being folded into an almost crumple echoes around the parlour, where the only sound that existed prior was deafening silence from the three men sitting across each other.
The culprit was none other than Yang Jungwon, who appears to be insulted from what he just read. Throwing off the now crumpled paper, Daniel perfectly catches it mid-air and opens it in haste.
Sunoo takes a gander at the Daily Tattleâs contents that Daniel incoherently mutters. Jungwon carefully studies his brother's reaction as Sunooâs smile quickly transforms into shock, followed by the furrowing of his eyebrows with his mouth ajar; the final gesture, shooting a questioning look-- with his mouth still ajar-- at one of the scandalâs subjects.
âSurely, me asking two dances from you was already too cheap but, one, brother? Are you seriously being expensive right now?" The eldest exclaims.
"One that is very exclusive and controversial, might I add." Daniel chimes in. âWhat was all that about?"
"Remind me why I need to explain myself to the both of you?" Jungwon monotonously replies with his eyes fixed on the book he was now reading.
âBecause we ought to know?â
âWell, if not to us, at least to Y/n?"
âGood god. Why is she in this conversation all of a sudden?"
"Because you pulled a dick move on her and we ought to know what's going on inside that brain of yours! You're so dense. Must we shake you up to shrug off those lil rust in there?"
"Oh, shut up, Daniel."
âThat thing you did there? With her? Was very unlikely of you, Jungwon." Sunoo stands from his seat and transfers to Jungwonâs side on the couch.
"Well, what is like me then?"
"Spit it out or Daniel and I are gonna have to annoy you for the whole week.â
Jungwon slams the book on the couch and lets out an exasperated sigh before grunting out loud. "I just wanted to be alone with her, okay?! Are you pleased now?"
"Wait. You like her, don't you?â
âNo, I don't! And I would never for heaven's sake."
âBut you want to be alone with her. Isn't that what people do when they're in love?" Daniel rubs his chin in thought.
âOh, god! Whatever lets the both of you sleep at night then. Assume the worst for all I care." The heated gent lifts himself up from the couch and strides towards the exit.
âWhere are you going?â
âAway from the two of you. You won't stop annoying me either way, so Iâm gonna get myself some cleaner air.â Jungwon slams the door shut behind him for a relieving walk to the woods.
âNow he's mad.â
âAll we ever said was the truth, didn't we?â
âHe is pretty rusty, alright.â
Y/n visits the Kielder Forest once again to run away from the stressful men of this morningâs promenade. She could've stayed in her fortress, but because of their foolish ruse, she had to show up. Now her brothers had to meddle with the already confusing mess.
Pages from the borrowed Austen book are now being flicked through again. She couldn't concentrate no matter how hard she tried, as Nikiâs words still lingered in her mind.
âWhat nasty record could he have?â She mutters under her breath. Soon after, crunching of leaves startles her, and she realizes her whispers weren't the only noise around. Y/n dashes out of her sheer fort only to be welcomed by her most coveted man ever.
"What are you doing here?!" Jungwon asks in an angry kind of worry.
"What are you doing here?"
"Taking a walk, obviously?"
"Well, Iâm reading. Obviously." Y/n sassily blinks at him, to which he returns a slightly puzzled look.
"You're much aware that you shouldn't be here, let alone unchaperoned, right?"
"Well, good thing you're here!"
Y/n crouches down to re enter her fort now that she has a guest. She softly taps the extra pillow, gesturing Jungwon to join her in a momentary bliss. One that is very rare when it comes to the both of them, and something that the young miss has found herself accustomed to now. When it comes to Jungwon, he'll just leave her begging for more.
Was it simply luck that had caused him to turn down this pathway? Whatever it was, he didn't feel the need to complain. As of now, all he ever wanted was a piece of mind from his brother's interrogations about him and Y/n. Not fully realizing that the very person who triggered him to rush out of his house would be the one he was impossibly hoping to run into.
"You still have that?" Jungwon points his lips to the book she was flipping. She had borrowed it from him and had yet to return it after all these years.
"Are the inclusions still there?" He continues. Although he wishes he didn't. He recalls all the little notes he left on his favorite pages just to get his feelings across and now he chuckles at the mere thought of him playing Romeo.
"They are. They're kind of tattered now, but they're still comprehensible. You do have a remarkable penmanship after all, something that's very impossible to miss."
The boy chuckles at the thought. "You do mean those things you wrote here, right?" She concerningly asks to which Jungwon only shrugs his shoulder with lips shut tight. "Well, don't mind me 'cause I'd like to think that you did."
"Suit yourself." He mutters. Little did she know he was smiling to himself with flushed cheeks.
The boy looks around the interior of the fort while whistling to the air, followed by a few jabberjays mocking his tune. They chuckle over the memory and realize they had traveled back in time.
"Jay's going to get aggressive with me on fencing once he hears about this. I've been conspiring to keep his sister hidden." He playfully smirks.
"Do you remember we used to do this in the garden lawn? Playing hide and seek just to get a glimpse of Jay's maddening face." Y/n reminisces the good old times they both used to share. Although there were petty fights here and there, what conquered most was their endearing bond.
Jungwon looks over as he vividly remembers that exact memory, "and we ended up building a fort out of the picnic sheets we used to hide in and officially made it our castle" he adds.
"I've forgotten what it's like to feel young." Y/n lets out a deep sigh, minding the pressure she's bearing now that she's about to be offered to the life-long commitment that is marriage.
Jungwon looks over her, feeling all concerned with the worries that she might be facing as of late; things that he wouldn't have any knowledge of as a man.
Society has dictated women's place in the world as persons who are supposed to be emotional, submissive, and homely; something very opposed to those of men. Knowing Y/n well enough and how she enjoys her liberty, her own principles, Jungwon worries her future companion, if not him, would find her very indifferent and of no use in the long run.
And it pains him to think that she wouldn't be well off with someone even worse than him.
She deserves more and he knows that fully well.
"Well, I, for one, miss moments like this more than anything." He lightens the mood in hopes of seeing that beautiful smile on her face.
As he turns to her, the two lock eyes. In that moment, Yang Jungwon swore of laying out his long-hidden sentiments. Under normal circumstances, he would speak his mind. But with Y/n looking at him like this, he would most likely fuck things up.
And he fails himself yet again.
"So uhh⌠you and the duke-to-be, huh? That must be thrilling." He looks away and pretends to play with the twigs on the ground.
"Y-Yeah! Yeah, indeed, it is. The promenade went well today⌠before the two decided to sabotage it."
"Do tell."
"We're all aware of how Niki ultimately detests the marquess, arenât we? He kind of uhh⌠insulted the man in front of mother."
"And⌠Jay?"
"Stole the marquess from me to have a word with him."
"I reckon he had many words with him."
Y/n chagrins at the imagination of Jay going head to head with the marquess. Being the overprotective one, Jay will go out of his way to expel threats in the family.
"You seem to be clearly aware of that. Yet you entertained His Grace anyway. I pity Niki. He must be going through a loophole of shit again, now that his dear sister's off strutting with that man." Jungwon blurts out, though he wishes he never did⌠again.
He is clearly rusty and he kind of admits it now.
"That man? Whatever's the matter with all of you?! You dare speak of him like you know what happened between him and my brother-"
"Y/n, we all went to the same university. What makes you think I know nothing?"
"That man you're referring to was just the man who saved me from an embarrassing night, no thanks to you."
Jungwon scoffs at her pettiness.
"Don't turn away with those remarks now. You toyed with me that night, left me there with nothing but utter shame to bring home. I'm sure you're very proud of that now."
Promenading would be every woman's desire, indeed. But being ghosted or fled from is something that every woman fears, especially when they've been shunned by someone they adore the most. Such shame and reproach haunts them for almost the rest of their lives, especially when the ton won't let them sleep at night with that reminder.
"Have you not at least any bit of politeness left in you? You must be ashamed, asking my brother for such favor that you cannot even put through yourself."
"I have my reasons."
"I highly doubt they're even valid." Y/n retorts. Jungwon sighs in exasperation, finding the situation rather unnecessary that he'd rather keep his mouth shut. She deserves to let her anger out after all.
"Whatever happened to you?" She mutters under her breath, looking over to the boy who kept his head hung low with his elbows leaning on his raised knees. "Sometimes, I look at you and see a completely different person. You know, I never learned to read your mind, Jungwon. So stop giving me all these silent treatments as if something happened even though nothing ever did."
Jungwon lets out a sharp exhale before poking his cheek with his tongue. "Stop seeing Sunghoon then. If you care so much about your brother, stop frolicking around with that scoundrel."
Y/n scoffs at him, followed by the rolling of her eyes, trying to stifle an untimely tear from falling.
"You're unbelievable! Just so you know, I've wasted many sleepless nights crying because of your stupid ass, and I still do for heaven's sake! But now it's very clear to me that there's no amount of crying left that I can do for you!"
Y/n groans heavily before standing up from the pillow she was sitting on, throwing the Austen book hardly on the cold ground.
"So much for hearing nothing but the truth from you, huh? I despise you, Jung. Very much."
She runs off from the boy for what seemed like the nth time. For the past years, this exact scene had happened. Jungwon closes his eyes and lets himself fall harshly on the pillows. He raises a hand over his head, looking at the gaps between his fingers thinking of how he let her slip away, again. He drowns himself in deep thoughts, all the while trusting that Y/n will forget this day ever happened, like before.
He knows she will.
At least, that's what he tells himself.
Though deep down, his stomach churns in fear.
And there's no one to blame but his damning pride.
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..You already know what Iâm gonna ramble on about, right? Whatâs got us manga readers feeling a little bit like this? Yeah.. I have words.
Yes, Iâll be chatting about possible future spoilers, so scroll past now if you wish, but if you frequently check the usual tpn tags anywhere today (or over the next few days), Iâm sure youâve become quite familiar with this guy already, so.. here we go.
Let me start off by saying that I was beyond excited when we first found out we were getting a second season to this series. Having read the manga, I had high hopes that the anime would do so well, given the first couple arcs that follow the escape from Grace Field. From the very beginning, most of us figured it would touch upon the demon forest, the B06-32 shelter, Goldy Pond and quite possibly Cuvitidala. Of course, that was before we learned that this season had an episode count of 11 and would include some anime-only scenes, so we started to have some doubts. The new opening threw us through a loop as well, as a bunch of us speculated exactly how much this season was going to cover in terms of story and what chapter it would end off on. I was still a bit skeptical, but I put some belief in thinking we might be able to at least reach Goldy Pond. The more I thought about how many chapters this season could adapt, I remembered that Fire Force (another shonen series that has its fair share between action scenes alongside some calm, lighthearted ones) managed to fit 90 chapters into itâs first season, which was a total 24eps. I then thought it was possible for TPNâs second season to reach ch96, or maybe even ch101, since the total ep count for both s1&s2 would be 23. The upcoming arcs (GP especially) are undoubtedly more fast paced than the entire first season, which was very dialogue heavy, so naturally these action scenes would take up less time and require fewer episodes to show off. I wonât bash the second season for leaving certain scenes out and/or changing them (as the first season did this as well, albeit less noticeable), but the obvious ones come to mind. The full snakes of alvapinera scene? It was good to see the escapees overcome their first outside world obstacle on their own, sure, but overall it isnât too important. Isabellaâs scene at the gate with Grandma Sarah? Disappointing yes, but I figured they could always include that sometime later in a future episode.. at least, thatâs what Iâm hoping for. I can forgive the anime for those changes at the moment.. but after what episode 3 decided to pull? Oh no.. now theyâve done it!
Iâm sorry.. but who exactly thought this change was a good idea? The anime-onlys must think weâre going crazy right now but câmon, CLOVERWORKS! Are yâall for real right now?? Yeah they never even announced his voice actor beforehand like they did with Sonju & Mujika before their debut, but damn it! Also, donât take my word for this, as I only just heard and not completely sure about the credibility, but apparently after ep4, the rest of the season will be like.. original? And Iâm not sure how to feel about that if itâs true? Iâll take whatever content we get because yes, I love this series to pieces and want it to last as long as possible, but after waiting almost a full two years to see these wonderful kids animated again.. I just wanna continue on with the story we all know and love, darn it. I know Shirai is overlooking this season and giving his approval or whatever too, so thatâs comforting at least.. but still, I just wish we knew this a little sooner, rather than have us find out this way by cutting out one of the most anticipated characters of this entire series! (for the time being anyways.)
Yeah we didnât see him this episode, but heâs around.. somewhere. No one else is around to write on the walls like that, let alone get into the shelter without a pen. (i also noticed it doesnât say âpoachersâ anywhere, so thatâs a bit odd too..)
I just hope that whenever our man does show up, whether it be this season or not, that it follows the manga because his introduction is fantastic and his interactions with the kids are so amusing. Honestly, heâs too important to cut out entirely. The same goes for the Goldy Pond arc, which I saw some others worried about too. Itâs at Goldy Pond (ch73) where Emma and another man, who weâre also anxious to meet, both find out about how to cross over to the human world via the four premium farms, the supporters, and project lambda7214.
I also saw some people concerned about Mujikaâs goodbye to Emma this episode and how upon giving her the necklace, our demon friend didnât hint at The Seven Walls at all, which is why Goldy Pond suddenly becomes that more important for us to see because itâs also there where the place is mentioned, not only by the many secret files from the penâs cap, but from Minvera himself (ch72).
Come on now, Goldy Pond arc also does wonder for Emmaâs character and appearance. Itâs here where we see just how serious she is about changing the world and saving everyone she possibly can. Even if she has to fight crazy, killing poachers, sheâll do it. (also one of those poachers becomes very helpful much later in the story, so there, yet another reason we canât skip this arc.) Though this all gets me wondering if GP will still get blown up on Jan 29th.. oh season two, you raise so many questions.
Now, could this season completely change some of those scenes even further? Of course, theyâve already done so with other bits of information. Ray figuring out the demonâs weakness in ch62 during the trip to Goldy Pond? Sonju already explained it.
The letter from Minvera that we learn about in ch56 which was originally hidden in one of the manuscripts from the shelterâs archive room? Conveniently pinned to the wall in plain sight!
I didnât notice this when I first watched the episode but remembered just now while skimming through the manga yet again, but the episode didnât have Gilda list off the coordinates to Goldy Pond that Minerva noted in his letter.
So how will the duo find their way there? Well, you already know.. and since GP is such an important arc, thatâs another reason I believe our beloved man will show up.... eventually.
Going back to the changes now, but itâs Dominic who reveals the secret room behind the piano instead of our favorite father figure.
Although this room, which is supposed to be a full stocked armory, is completely bare..
Like.. hello? Where are all the weapons?? Are they gonna make these kids go out and raid a bunch of the other fake/dummy shelters for weapons or something? which.. actually sounds interesting and fun now that I think about it.
I also noticed that the conversation about the mass-production farms Sonju mentioned back in ch50 was also cut, but I can see the anime easily adapting it into a future episode somewhere, since said farms are mentioned again in ch56, courtesy of the shelterâs many books.
For now it just seems.. I donât know, a bit easier? like I recently spoke about how Ray had to figure out how the pen worked in terms of coordinates and yet the anime just had the pen show a simple map, then Sonju flat out told them how to efficiently kill a demon, and the phone that allows them to contact the supporters? Oh, they found that instantly, whereas geezer had no idea such a room even existed in those 13 years he lived at the shelter..
Have I spoke too much by now? Probably. None of the changes bother me too much, aside from the geezerâs obvious absence, but Iâm still looking forward to the rest of this season, as Iâm sure itâll give more spotlight to some of the other kids aside from Emma and Ray. Season one just did so well with sticking to the manga that I guess we all got caught way off guard, huh?
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Chain of Iron Book Review
Chain of Iron Book Review by Cassandra ClareÂ
You know, I was actually really irritated when this book came out because once again, the Dark Artifices seems to be shafted for this new series (that nobody asked for) to shine, but fortunately I wasnât as bothered by it as I predicted I would be.Â
In case you are in the small minority of people who havenât heard of Cassandra Clare and her millions of Shadowhunter books, Chain of Iron is the next nephilim installment in Clareâs never-ending series.Â
Chain of Iron is the sequel to Chain of Gold, and the series as a whole is a sequel to the Infernal Devices series, but a prequel to the original Mortal Instruments as well as the Dark Artifices which is the sequel series to the Mortal Instruments.Â
I would be surprised if you werenât baffled right now.Â
Iâve said this before for other Shadowhunter installments, but these books are not user friendly for new folk. You genuinely need to have read the other series to get full enjoyment and understanding of these books.
 If you do read them without having read the others, I'm sure it would still be enjoyable to a certain extent, but a large case of ensemble character and relationships will be lost to you and a big portion of these novels are the relationships within them.Â
To delve right in, Chain of Iron has our main cast of friendly teenagers nicknamed the Merry Thieves (which I just abhor, sorry, not sorry) return from Chain of Gold after fighting one of the princes of Hell, Belial, and now with Cordelia and James being married as to avoid a scandal of Cordeliaâs reputation and Jamesâ criminal record.Â
In addition, there is a new serial killer on the loose murdering shadowhunters at dawn and stealing their runes. Most of the book is dealt with trying to catch the culprit, the Consul and Inquisitor along with the whole of adult shadowhunter authority being inconsequential and inept as usual (how these people became parents are beyond me as they never have any sort of clue what their children get up to) along with side plots including raising Jesse Blackthorn from the dead and romance galore in typical Clare fashion that makes you want to rip your hair out because if everyone just communicated and was honest there would be no issues.Â
The beginning of the novel is molasses slow.
Iâve come to expect this with Clareâs books. Actually, I think Iâve figured out the formula entirely. Here is is:
Mostly nothing of consequence happens for nearly 400 pages except for character building and small instances of plotÂ
Intersperse some random demon attacks for flavorÂ
Everyone is beautiful, everyone is in love, and love is the most groundbreaking, earth shattering thing in existenceÂ
Get into the last 200ish pages and shit hits the fan with action, misunderstandings, and confessionsÂ
Nobody is honest with anybody and lying is commonplace
End the behemoth on a cliffhanger so that the audience is kept in suspenseful anxiety until the next installmentÂ
You canât see me, but I am bowing right now.Â
Genuinely, that is how 90% of Clareâs novels pan out. Obviously, as she has a very successful and long-running book series, the formula works.Â
That being said, there are some vices and virtues to it.Â
For this book, the beginning was slow. Almost nothing of significance happens for most of it and it's a dredge to get through.Â
However, itâs mundane to get through in the same way that reading fanfiction of your favorite characters is mundane. What Clare does for 400 pieces of paper is build up her characters and their relationships. Normally, you would do this interspersed with plot, but not in this case.Â
Itâs not very conventional, but it kinda works?
I definitely struggled connecting with the characters from this series more than any other of Clareâs novels. The Mortal Instruments, as the original, were beloved if a little cheesy. Then came the Infernal Devices with witty Will, soulful Jem, and intelligent Tessa. Then we got the Dark Artifices, which to me, is still the best as Julian, Emma, Mark, Christina and the others are the most flawed in any of the series and I enjoy that.Â
I enjoy that theyâre not perfect, I enjoy that theyâre devious and conniving. It makes them more interesting and more worthwhile to read about.Â
Instead, the main characters in Chain of Iron and the subsequent series are mainly James, Cordelia, Matthew, and sometimes Lucie. I would argue that no one else matters in the book and are just added in for some sugar, spice, and everything nice.Â
Some of you might be outraged at this statement. What about Grace? You might say. Or Jesse? Or Thomas, Christopher, Alistair, Ariadne or Anna?
They donât matter.Â
They matter in a very small, plot convenience, fluff ensues kind of way, but not really in any way of substance. Or, at the very least, thatâs how I feel.Â
Anna is just there to be cool, Thomas is a gay gentle giant with literally no personality, Christopher is so basic and is essentially the Trader Joeâs version of Henry who was better and more interesting as the first, Alistair is a redeemed bully, and Ariadne is an orphan who loves Anna.Â
The end.Â
Once again, sometimes Clare bites off more than she can chew and I wonder if she just throws these characters in there just because it makes her happy.Â
As for our main protagonists, theyâre mediocre. Matthew is definitely the most interesting in the bunch and I was jubilant to see him get more screen time this time around. The increasing realization of his alcohol abuse, his feelings for Cordelia, his nonplussed attitude.Â
All of it is intriguing. I still donât like him as much as other protagonists from other installments, but he is by far the winner of this triad.Â
James is too perfect, too beautiful, and a worse version of his father. If I wanted more Will I would have turned to fanfiction of the Infernal Devices instead of imagining up his son. The only interesting thing about James is his demon connection which is not even something he does, but rather something that is done to him.Â
Cordelia is banal. Once again, sheâs too perfect, too brave, and too kind. Literally nothing is wrong with her. Sheâs level headed, intelligent, forgiving, and fierce.Â
Basically, sheâs boring to the brim.Â
I do think Clare did a better job this time around to include more of Cordeliaâs Persian heritage, but it still mainly fell to the backburner of her lackluster and blank personality. In fact, I think James made more of an effort for Persian food and culture than Cordelia did, but I digress.Â
Also, a small note, but still with weight, why does Cordelia have eight names??
It bugs the living daylights out of me that in a single sentence she will be called Cordelia, Layla and Daisy.Â
Clare. Give the girl one name. My god.Â
Actually, as a side note to this side note, Clare is talented at many things, but nicknames are not one of them. EVERY SINGLE CHARACTER IN THIS NOVEL has a nickname and all of them are horrible. I have never in my entire life known a Matthew that has gone by the nickname Math.Â
What. In. The. World.Â
Anyways, the only other character of note is Lucie. I like and dislike Lucie. Lucie is also boring and her novelist passion is aggravating to me. However, I did like her turn with necromancy and her increasing desperation to save Jesse that drives her to work with Grace and lie to her friends and family was a much-needed note of interest.Â
Overall, this book did make me like the characters more than I did in Chain of Gold, but it took a lot of blood, sweat, and tears to get there, more than what I think should have been afforded. If you need to kill 400 trees in order to make me like your main characters, thatâs a problem.Â
Whatever the method, I do care about them more than I did previously so I suppose mission accomplished. I do think some of the strongest relationships in the book are the romances, but then also the parabatai bond between Matthew and James.Â
Matthew and James have one of the best relationships in the book and Iâm equally frustrated and intrigued how things will play out with Matthew now having confessed his feelings for Cordelia.Â
I do feel like female parabatai get shafted in a lot of Clareâs novels compared to the boys. The coed pairs often do well like Clary and Simon or Emma and Julian. Otherwise, the boys far outrank the girls in terms of bond and friendship.Â
Even in this novel, the âfriendshipâ between Lucie and Cordelia is laughable. They barely talk to each other or spend time together and when they do is shallow. Whereas Matthew and James seem much more involved in each otherâs lives.Â
That being said, if you noticed I didnât speak much of the plot itâs because for me plot comes very much second in a Shadowhudenter novel. Itâs there of course, and itâs entertaining, but I do enjoy the characters and their relationships more than anything else which makes Chain of Iron better than its predecessor but still worse in my view than any other of Clareâs novels.Â
Plot just doesnât compare to the soul crushing love and friendships shown between the pages, for better or for worse.Â
Recommendation: The Dark Artifices > Infernal Devices > The Mortal Instruments ...and The Last Hours fall somewhere after the Mortal Instruments and the trillions of side novels that Clare has co-written with other authors and all seem to be about Magnus Bane.
Score: 7/10Â
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J/B Exchange Recs Round 1!
I have not been around Tumblr much lately because I was so preoccupied with stuff for @jaime-brienne-fic-exchange, but I am trying to get back into the swing of things, and I figured what better place to start than with some recs?
These are currently skewed a bit toward my amaaaazing gift fic and the amaaaaazing ones I beta-ed, since I am way behind on my reading, but there will be more to come!
Backpfeifengesicht by @samirant - I am so unbelievably grateful that I had both amazing prompts/amazing recipient for the fic I wrote, and such a fabulous gift fic too. I was still working on my own fic and very sleep-deprived and flagging when I read this for the first time and I think I may have actually left my body on a wave of sheer euphoria. IT IS ALL THE GOOD THINGS. So many of my favorite vacation/road trip tropes--drunken shenanigans! Intimate late-night conversations while everyone else is sleeping/elsewhere! Friends being too involved in your relationship! Unexpected forced proximity! And the banter is glorious, and the secondary characters are so well thought out and add such depth and vibrance to the story, and the Sansa/Margaery subplot was DELIGHTFUL, and I love the way this structured Brienne's relationship to Tyrion and then to Jaime as an extension of that, and the resolution was handled with an absolutely perfect balance of hilarity and heat. (There was also the stuff throughout that was very targeted to me specifically WHICH I APPRECIATED, so thanks to both Sami and @forbiddenfantasies1 for that). About 20% of the way into the story, I was deeply convinced it was Sami, and in the best possible way--it had the hallmarks I love about her writing: her sense of humor, her gift for banter, her clear affection for the characters, the richness of all the relationships. It was like showing up to a party and unexpectedly finding a friend there, and it was the loveliest feeling. I am thrilled that so many people have read and loved this story but I want everyone in the world to read and love it, so. Please check it out if you haven't! And also check out Sami's hilarious tale of woe regarding her writing process, which is amazing. THANK YOU AGAIN FOR SUCH A PHENOMENAL GIFT SAMI. â¤ď¸ â¤ď¸ â¤ď¸ â¤ď¸
A favorite line: On any other day, Brienne would have left him - a relative stranger - to his wallowing, but an untold amount of imbibed Pentoshi Slammers stirred up a noble benevolence within her, a little voice that said they had something in common and what good were her broad shoulders if they werenât offered as a place to rest a weary, heartbroken brow? SO GOOD.
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Lay Your Heartbreak and the sequel You could make me feel so good by @ajoblotofjunk / sdwolfpup - LISTEN. SDW sent me an early chunk of this and I was immediately OBSESSED and I have not stopped being obsessed since. Obviously worldbuilding is a huge strength of SDW's and her creativity with that is a constant astonishment to me. But pop culture is full of examples of people who can create amazing worlds and then utterly fail to populate them with interesting or dynamic characters, whereas SDW's ability to fill in those wonderfully creative spaces with her love for the characters and their love for each other that is just magic. And these fics are the perfect examples of that. The setup is not only fascinating but makes for such fantastically INTENSE feelings, omg, everything just feels like it's crackling off the page; even before Jaime and Brienne and Addam are admitting anything to each other, it's not so much simmering under the surface as boiling. The balance between the three of them is gorgeous, there are two incredibly hot fencing scenes as well as a very hot swimming scene (in addition to the sequel being just one big tangle of brain-scorching hotness), there's a perfect amount of sweetness and softness to play off all the blazing heat, and overall this is one that's going to stick with me for a long time. I know J/A/B isn't everyone's cup of tea, but if you aren't actively opposed to the idea of them, then I highly highly encourage you to check this out.Â
A favorite line: That night she dreams of golden skin, hot and soft against her palm â yes, someone moans, yes â the rough scrape of callouses over the arch of her ribs, the scratch of red stubble between her thighs â like this? Yes, more, please more â legs sliding together and between each other, and two mouths touching her all over. Hnnnnngh.
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The Limit Does Not Exist by @agirlnamedkeith / sameboots - Fics with a power imbalance are something I approach with a lot of caution but I LOVED the way that sameboots handled it here. The fact that this fic includes her signature extremely hot feelings-forward porn as well as a thoughtful exploration of what it can mean to be a woman in STEM is like a beautiful multi-course meal; I cared a LOT about whether they were gonna do it and I was also equally invested in how Brienneâs thesis was going to turn out and where she would go from there. I love Brienneâs stubbornness and determination and even though sheâs finding her way here (as you would be, as a grad student), those elements are VERY much on display and they spark fantastically against an initially guarded and caustic but eventually deeply admiring Jaime. And while I donât want to spoil anything, I will say that I feel like the end is a perfect illustration of one of the major themes of the fic, and I love it so much for that. Watching this one take shape and watching sameboots geek out over her math research was a delight, and the result is excellent (and did I mention, extremely hot). Definitely worth all her work!
A favorite line: âHas anyone ever told you that youâre the worst liar?â (KIDDING HANNAH ILU HEREâS THE REAL ONE:)Â The problem with smoothies was that it was hard to make them aggressively., Angrily pushing a button didnât have the same release as whaling on a punching bag. Brienne didnât have a punching bag, though, and she desperately needed to do something, and she was hungry. ANGRY SMOOTHING-MAKING. I LOVE IT.
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Right Off the Bat by @hillaryschu - A Youâve Got Mail AU where Jaime and Brienne are rival Little League coaches who unknowingly bond over Twitter is SUCH a great idea, and Hillary committed to it right down to the delightful rom-com-trailer summary. She also put an enormous amount of care into the details of the story--she had references for outfits, buildings, even Jaimeâs cologne--and it shows in all the lush descriptions throughout. The banter is sparky, watching their two relationships gradually unfold is a lot of fun, thereâs a particular tipsy (on Brienneâs part) Twitter DM exchange that I still get flustered thinking about, and thereâs a batting cage scene that will be haunting my brain for a while. Especially given that Hillary had never written a story anywhere near this long before, Iâm so impressed that she pulled it off (and fixed some of the most problematic elements of the movie, too). Congratulations to her on rising to the challenge!
A favorite line:Â But as they part from each other, Brienne lifts the hem of her tee to wipe the dirt and sweat from her face. Her exposed stomach is pale and toned, with softly defined muscles that gleam with perspiration. Jaime trips over home plate. SAME JAIME. SAME.
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X Marks the Spot (where Iâll find you again) by @pretty--thief - PIRATES. I WAS SO EXCITED WHEN I HEARD ABOUT THE PIRATES. And this fic is such a fantastic blend of snappy, exciting swashbuckling (and hilarious use of parrots) and a very poignant backstory that underlays the adventure with all this yeeeeeearning and itâs SO GOOD. The action scenes are thrilling, the descriptions are gorgeous, there is STARGAZING and BATTLE COUPLE, the Jaime snark is chefkiss, Brienne is so brave and committed and quietly full of feelings, thereâs a really lovely discussion of the ethics of being in the military, and also Pod and Addam and Arya and PIRATES FOR JUSTICE. SO HERE FOR THAT. And did I mention the yeeeeeearning (which is paid off wonderfully--the penultimate chapter lived rent-free in my mind for about a week after I first read it)? Ugh SO GOOD.
A favorite line: When he had exited his quarters, Brienne had looked at him with so much concern in her eyes it threatened to swallow Jaime whole. Heâd felt something similar when he was around Cersei, when they were fucking or fighting; a fire he had once thought he could never tire of, would never want to put out. But Brienne had reached out her hand, as if on reflex, and smoothed her thumb across his tired brow. The ship had continued to sway beneath them, and Jaime didnât feel fire. He didnât feel like he would be turned to ash at any moment. He felt a breeze, the wind in his hair and salty air in his lungs. as;lfkja;sldjgas;lfjas;lfÂ
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Federation Fliers by @elizadunc /Ladybugbear2 - A short and very sweet one! I adore the world that Megs created in this and would happily read many many more words in it, but this is a lovely glimpse in and of itself, and made me so happy. Established relationship (which I love), one of my favorite Jaime nicknames for Brienne, a wonderfully badass Brienne and a wonderfully besotted Jaime, all against a fascinating backdrop. So good!
A favorite line: She belonged in the sky. She had a grace to her movements on the ground, but in the sky she was ethereal. HEART-EYES
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And now for a few that I just read after they were posted like a normal person:
Wine Down by @slipsthrufingers - SOME MILD SPOILERS HEREIN FYI. Okay first of all, the summary of this fic is deliciously evil and I think we all need to appreciate that. Also, it starts out with Jaime and Brienne having lunch together and these glorious descriptions of food and he has taken note of the specific food she likes and is making sure itâs provided for her and that is SO VERY MUCH MY LOVE LANGUAGE YOU DONâT EVEN KNOW. I FLAILED. And then things go, shall we say, a bit downhill, but in the most achingly beautiful way--Jaime sacrificing himself for Brienne and Brienne determined to tether him to life through sheer force of will and steadfast devotion. Slips puts us right into Brienneâs headspace/heartspace while sheâs worrying for Jaime and trying to negotiate the fucked-up Lannister family dynamics (and the observations on said dynamics are wonderful too), and this hits such an excellent balance of Brienneâs rigidly controlled surface and everything thatâs roiling away underneath. Iâm always fascinated by the idea of what could have happened during the time that Brienne was in Kingâs Landing and this is such a brilliant exploration of how things could have gone, and Brienneâs interactions with the rest of the Lannisters (and Sansa) give the world that much more depth as well. The descriptions throughout are beautiful, there are so many lovely turns of phrase, the intimacy between Jaime and Brienne is just devastating, and it all comes back around to an immensely satisfying conclusion. SO GOOD.Â
A favorite line: The gods had seen fit to give her an unwomanly body, so she had taken up the sword. They had given her an ugly face, so she had perfected her manners and courtesies so they could never be frowned upon. But they had given her a maidenâs heart, and try as she might she had never found the right weapon to protect it. MY PRECIOUS GIRL.
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A Matter of Honor by @nire-the-mithridatist - I shrieked at nire in DMs basically the whole time I was reading this story, it made me experience like 90% of the range of human emotions in one night and Iâm still mad about it. This features a fascinatingly flipped script where Brienne is the wealthy one and Jaime the supplicant, and an arrogant-ass supplicant he is. Brienne is an angy baby nineteen-year-old who is furious at the entire world and I fucking adore her for it, and watching all the events unfold through the lens of her (generally well-founded) suspicions was a delicious sort of torture where I trusted NO ONE and genuinely did not know exactly what was going to happen next. Nire turns a lot of marriage fic tropes on their head in this and itâs all done brilliantly, and there is EXTREMELY SEXY SWORD-FIGHTING (and as a sexy bonus, Brienneâs perspective on it feels so perfect for someone who is truly an accomplished swordswoman), and nire uses some common elements throughout to just pack in these layers and layers of meaning and significance, and there are many turns of phrase so perfect that they hurt, and then sheâs like âhey would you like to re-feel all the feelings in this story again in a very concentrated burstâ and itâs SO MUCH, and the conclusion pays everything off amazingly. And even though itâs very swoony and romantic (and HOT. I SHOULD MENTION VERY HOT), thereâs a hint of melancholy to it too, reckoning with what it means to be a woman--even a wealthy one--in Brienneâs world, and itâs just the perfect crunch of salt on top of all the sweetness. LOVE.Â
A favorite line:Â He brought her knuckles to his lips. As sweet as honeyed nettles, he declared, âLady Brienne. You have made me the happiest of men.â As the crowd roared in approval, she felt the sting of his kiss. STING OF HIS KISS ARE YOU KIDDING ME. Also Iâm including this for purely thirsty reasons but NO SHAME: He stood from the sofa and went to help his wife undress, and if she noticed his averted eyes and his trembling handsâoh gods, the laces went on endlessly down her back, and with each pull, a little more of her figure was revealed, barely veiled by her gauzy shiftâshe said nothing. I DIED. I ALSO SAID NOTHING BECAUSE I WAS DEAD. Fuck, man.
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The Riverlands Gang Go to the Zoo by @naomignome - Another shorter and very delightful one with Naomiâs typical brand of chaotic humor that I adore. Itâs Hyle POV, for one thing, which is good times, and the structure of this is so clever--the way each section of the zoo is used to progress the story is so seamless and happy-making, and there are tons of little jokes and Easter eggs packed in along with a very sweet, snarky emotional storyline wherein Hyle is definitely doomed. Plus another EXCELLENT Brienne nickname in here. LOVELY.Â
A favorite line:Â âPixel!â he said laughingly, âYou know if you fell in the bear pit, I would jump after you without a second thought.â âYou need to have a first thought in order to have a second one.â Brienne said dryly. SUCH A GOOD BURN.
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all these people think loveâs for show (but i would die for you in secret) by @naomignome - This is SUCH A FLEX because not only did Naomi write TWO fics for her recipient but they are WILDLY DIFFERENT and Iâm so impressed with her for doing it! This one is SPIEEEEESSSS and Naomi packs so much tension into 5K, I was on the edge of my seat through the whole thing. Canon events are woven in astonishingly well, and itâs a delicious enemies-to-partners-to-lovers situation that involves some excellent hurt/comfort and excellent use of RAIN to moody/sexy effect and itâs just all very thrilling. YUM.
A favorite line: He lets off a single bullet and it grazes the inside of her thigh, enough to make her wince and draw blood, but not enough to stop her from tackling him to the ground and wrestling him into submission. Sheâs got both of his wrists pinned above his head and her knee is drawn up and pressed against his torso. Jaimeâs chest is heaving under her knee. Her chest is heaving in tandem. From above him, Brienne can see the green of his eyes darken, and even in submission, heâs annoyingly beautiful. Her blood is rushing, and itâs not all adrenaline. WHEW. SAME.
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as stars once a year brush the earth by @ylizam / mazily - Another wonderfully bite-sized one (good job actually taking the minimum word count as a guideline, people who did that, unlike the rest of us dumbasses!) that packs a lot into a small space. A canon-ish soulmates AU thatâs so understated and dreamy, but with the echo of all the turmoil theyâve gone through to get to this place that brings everything in sharp relief. Itâs also funny and sexy and romantic as fuck, and there are gorgeous poetic descriptions, and they spar by a WATERFALL, and just. So much happens in just over 1600 words! IMPRESSIVE.
A favorite line: Her right hand goes numb, unfeeling; back in their rooms Jaime is waking up, and she knows the phantom ache of his missing hand is bothering him. Jaime is waking, and yawning, the bed linens pooling around his waist and highlighting his summer tanned skin. She misses him, suddenly, as wide as the endless sea in front of her. BEAUTIFUL.
OKAY THIS WAS A LONG POST. Thatâs all Iâve got for now--more to come as I continue my reading!!
#jaime x brienne#jaime x brienne fic rec#jaime brienne fic exchange#braime#so many feelings in this post!!#so many talented writers in this fandom!!
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Kisekae Insights #17: Angelina Ballerina
Itâs about time I started the second run of Kisekae Insights after taking a break for the past few months. My objective is to hopefully cover Gokaiger, Decade and Soulbound this year, but there are some things that I need to cover before that because they are needed in order to understand certain aspects.
Like Fifi and Roary, Angelina Ballerina was implemented early on in my personal project and the characters continue to play big roles to this day. At the time, I was playing Warriors Orochi 2 on the PSP, which introduced me to the characters of the Samurai Warriors series. As a result, some of these guys got Japanese warrior names whereas the rest got Chinese warrior names.
In case you havenât noticed, yes, I have (predominately) used the CGI-animated sequel, The Next Steps, in this project. Watching the sequel was how I got into this series a decade ago; while I have heard about the original 2D-animated series, it never really appealed to me, which is why I prefer this version over that. And look, I know there are people who donât like the sequel for various reasons, but you are free to have your opinion as long as you respect the opinions of others. Donât worry, characters from the original series have been implemented as well.
Setting the record straight (voice actors)
Iâm putting this list before the break because this is really important. Here are the charactersâ voice actors for the UK and US versions of The Next Steps:
Angelina Mouseling: Charlotte Spencer (UK/US)
Alice Nimbletoes: Rachael Louise Miller (UK)/Naomi McDonald (US)
Marco Quesillo: Louis Williams (UK)/Jules de Jongh (US)
Gracie: Charlie Cameron (UK)/Jo Wyatt (US)
Viki/Vici: Emily Dormer (UK)/Jules de Jongh (US)
AJ/AZ: Lizzie Waterworth (UK)/Larissa Murray (US)
Ms Mimi: Larissa Murray (US)
Maurice Mouseling: Simon Mattacks (UK/US)
Matilda Mouseling: Emma Tate (UK/US)
Polly Mouseling: Leah Zabari (UK/US)
Mrs Thimble: Beverly Klein (UK/US)
Alright, time to rant about the English dubs of this series. See, because the characters of this series are not credited under their voice actors, it can be hard to exactly determine who voiced who (a pain I know all too well in regards to Sea Princesses). On top of that, because there are different English voices for the US and the UK (because they donât want American kids to end up speaking with British accents or vice versa), it can be easy to miss things or mess them up. Some US voice actors are based in the UK, which can throw things off as well.
Just as there are UK-produced childrenâs shows that get redubbed for the US, there are US-produced childrenâs shows that get redubbed for the UK (particularly on Nick Jr). In Australia, we tend to get the âoriginalâ version of the dub depending on where the show (or its source materials) originated â if it originally came from the UK, then we get the UK dub, but if it originally came from the US, we get the US dub. In the case of Angelina Ballerina, we get the UK dub and as such, I implemented the series with the assumption that the characters would speak as they did in the UK dub. As such, Marco and Gracie donât speak in Hispanic or French accents.
Due to my initial ignorance and lack of information, I ended up crediting the charactersâ US voice actors for Marco, Gracie and Ms Mimi instead of their UK voice actors. Even worse, I thought Naomi Wilkinson voiced Angelina until a friend of mine tweeted her years ago and confirmed that she didnât voice Angelina. Also, the really funny thing is that there are people who unironically believed that Hilary Duff and Justin Bieber voiced Viki and AZ in the series. If only we all knew this one simple rule: If an actor isnât credited in the series/episode, then they didnât have a role in the series/episode. I did manage to work out the UK voice actors for the other characters, but why Aliceâs voice actor was different in both versions despite her voice sounding similar Iâll never understand.
For some reason, I have been unable to find out who Ms Mimiâs UK voice actor is because nobody in the credits has owned up to voicing her. However, if I really had to guess, I would say that Emma Tate voiced her because even though the Scottish accent threw me off, she sounds a bit like Matilda (Angelinaâs mum). As for Marco and Gracieâs UK voice actors, Louis Williams and Charlie Cameron, trying to find resumes or records of their past work has been impossible so I wasnât able to find any proof, but I eventually did. Louis Williamâs LinkedIn profile mentions that he voiced Marco (heâs an English teacher in Japan now, shock of all shocks) and while Charlie Cameron doesnât have a site or official profile of her own (why), I managed to link her roles for Dark Souls and Poppy Cat on IMDb to BTVA.
In the Moushouden Series, I ended up ârecastingâ Marco and Ms Mimi while keeping Gracieâs voice actor the same. Marco and Ms Mimi played major roles in my stories and I needed credits for them. âGettingâ Louis Williams to ârepriseâ his role would have been impossible because heâs not an actor anymore, though it wouldnât have been a big problem if I had found out earlier that he voiced Marco. Likewise, if I had managed to guess Ms Mimiâs UK voice actor earlier, then maybe I wouldnât have needed to keep scratching my head all these years.
Whatâs in a name?
There has been quite a bit of speculation regarding the charactersâ middle and last names, and I say âspeculationâ because there donât seem to be any official sources that confirm it or the only official sources available canât be accessed from the Wayback Archive because Adobe Flash is dead. Though the names were on the Wikipedia page at some stage, the only place where they exist now is on a poorly-maintained wiki of the series on Fandom. It is possible that Angelina and Aliceâs middle and last names can be backed up because they were in the original series, but even then, Iâm unable to do that due to lack of information (seriously, even the official website redirects to Mattelâs website, the absolute sellouts). So please take these names with a grain of salt:
Angelina Jeanette Mouseling
Alice Bridgette Nimbletoes
Marco Fernando Quesillo
Grace Madeleine âGracieâ le Chateau
Viktoria Andrea âVikiâ Whiskerson
Adrian Zander James âA.Z.â Smithers (even though an official PDF from PBS WNET13 states that A.Z. stands for âAdam Zachariahâ)
Mimi Jane Squigglytail
Maurice Rupert Mouseling
Matilda Felicity Mouseling
Polly Anne Mouseling
Harriet Cecily Thimble
Other stuff before I begin
In late 2015, there was talk of Angelina Ballerina getting relaunched in 2017 by Mattel and 9 Story Media Group. By 2017, however, nothing really came of it, or at least nothing significant that we could see. 9 Story currently have the distribution rights to both the 2D and CGI series, clips and episodes have been uploaded on the official Angelina Ballerina YouTube channel (a mix of UK and US versions, with Brazilian Portuguese and Latin American Spanish dubs on other channels) and the original books created by Katharine Holabird have been republished in the past two years.
Not seeing anything in 2017 has allowed Angelina Ballerinaâs involvement in my personal project to flourish, but only time will tell whether anything else will come of this so-called relaunch. This series would probably have gone down the path of Fabio Yabu and Sea Princesses if it wasnât so well-known all around the world.
The 9 Story pages show that there are some specials for the series. While the 2D series does have three specials, I could only find two movies in the CGI series that are fully original stories and not just episode compilations, namely The Shining Star Trophy and Dreams Do Come True. They donât seem to be available on YouTube and the only online versions I could find use the US voices, meaning that a UK dub of these movies is unknown.
If you follow Gail Chord Schuler/Gabrielle Chana/The Church of Gail online, you might know that there is a Satanic Jesuit villain named Angelina Ballerina, depicted as a woman modelling a ballerina costume with wings. Rest assured that she is NOT the Angelina we all know and love, as Gail confirms in the comments of one of her videos (though there is a chance that trolls could have fed her that information).
All About Angelina
As I stated in #12, Maurice and the Takeda Army of Mouseland were in conflict with the Salacians before the Dimensional Merge. Because the time in their world, AB-561, was running faster compared to other worlds, they ended up on our Earth in 2009. In both timelines, Angelina and her family and friends became Hiroki and Parkerâs comrades. In the first timeline, Angelina had an adventure with the Third Doctor. The second timeline is where things get detailed.
Before the Archangel Tunnel System was activated, there was no other way to get to Chipping Cheddar from Hong Kong, so when the Takeda Army were brought to this world, they had to do what they could to survive. Eventually, they ended up being controlled by another local army and used as their mascots. When Parker went to them to seek an alliance, he discovered this and helped the Takeda Army escape, which led them to pledge their allegiance to Parker.
Over the next two years, Parker and Hiroki became great friends with the Takeda Armyâs officers. In 2010, Ms Mimi became disillusioned with Parker when she realised that he only seemed to care about fighting and enjoying himself on the battlefield. When the JIMPS were formed, Ms Mimi began to side with them as she saw Minnie and the others as the better strategists, but she had a newfound respect for Parker when he made peace with Minnie following their battle against each other.
When Squid Girl turns Minnie against Parker, however, Ms Mimi sides with the former again and a split occurs within the Takeda. Ms Mimi became one of the Sanada Armyâs commanders while Gracie, AJ and Viki surrendered to the Sanada. Angelina was the first officer Parker found after being separated from Hiroki. Her family was being guarded by Alice and Marco before Parker arrives with reinforcements from the Date Army.
Months after Parkerâs death and resurrection, the Sanada Army finally fell. Ms Mimi and the Takeda defectors rejoin their former comrades; Ms Mimi finally admits that she was a fool who never really understood Parker because she believed in loyalty and discipline.
With Parkerâs army disbanded and the Flowertots returning home, the Takeda became the only close friends Hiroki had left. They supported him in his fight against Girl Power and the Teiro Army, so much so that they were willing to accept him in their ranks if he decided to leave his secondary school army. Ultimately, Hiroki declined their offer and became a ronin.
The Next Step
The Takeda Army eventually managed to resettle in Mouseland which was transported to Shizuoka Prefecture between the Archangel Tunnels to the Shikoku region and Cardiff. The Takeda Army had no significant relevance in 2013, but Angelina and her family attended Hiroki and Akariâs wedding, which was held in Chipping Cheddar (Kikugawa).
In 2014, the Takeda Army rose back to significance again as a result of events in real life (see #16). Following the Battle of Mikatagahara and Akariâs betrayal of Hiroki, Angelina joined the Doctor (again) as his companion. Later that year, Maurice would attempt another expedition to KyĹto when Girl Power forces stationed around Nagashino Castle in Nagoya would block his armyâs path. When the Doctor arrives with Hiroki and Angelina, Hiroki gathers up some reinforcements before the Takeda Army splits up into three groups; one group defending the main camp, one group laying siege to the castle and one group attacking Girl Power forces stationed in nearby Shitaragahara. Despite the Takeda suffering severe casualties at the hands of the superior Girl Power army, Hiroki charges into Nagashino Castle alone and fights the enemy commanders before leaving his drones to crash into the castle keep.
Soon after, Angelina would participate in prototype testing for the Superhero Project, becoming the Pink Samurai Ranger alongside the Doctor and his other companions as they fought Girl Power in a parallel world. Following that adventure, Angelina would be summoned back by her father upon hearing word that Girl Power were preparing for an all-out siege on Yokohama. The Takeda Army allied with their old enemies, the Salacian (Uesugi) Army as they fought at Sekigahara and Ĺsaka Castle. After the world was destroyed and restored, the Takeda were one of the armies that helped UNIT defend Yokohama from Girl Power.
Though Angelina stopped being the Doctorâs companion after 2014, she would regain that role again in 2017 when she and Alice officially joined the Superhero Project. Angelina and Marco make a cameo appearance in the Series 10 premiere as a couple and thatâs the only time their relationship is brought up (I think that ship was hinted at in the series but not explicitly shown).
Having been selected, Angelina and Alice joined the Gokaigers as GokaiPink and GokaiGreen respectively. Their fighting styles were adapted to fit with their characters and the original Gokaiger footage; on top of predominately wielding guns, GokaiPink incorporates ballet into her fighting while GokaiGreen clumsily incorporates gymnastics which she makes up for with stealth and trickery.
As for the rest of the mouselings, they were hired by BOARD to become Kamen Riders as follows:
Kamen Rider Blade â Marco
Kamen Rider Garren â AJ
Kamen Rider Leangle â Viki
Kamen Rider Glaive â Ms Mimi
Kamen Rider Larc â Gracie
Kamen Rider Lance â Polly
Although not as significant compared to Fifi and Roary, the mouselings do play a significant role in the project. As with many obscure series Iâve encountered, finding accurate information is a daunting task. Though I have managed to find information that I havenât been able to find in the past, there are times where I am still unable to do so, which results in me having to speculate missing information (usually by observation) that may or may not be correct. This is not so much a problem in Angelina Ballerina compared to Sea Princesses, but regardless, itâs better to have every piece of information confirmed than have even one piece of speculated information.
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KNB for the fandom ask thing if youâd like to!!
(sorry this took forever, work was crazy this week ;;-;;)
send me a fandom and iâll tell youâŚ
the first character i ever fell in love with:
Kagami. (I know, right?) I started watching the show when I saw the way he was drawn, and came to really love his character throughout seasons 1 and 2.Â
Side note: I really only fell in love with Aomine once I saw how he looked in the manga, and got more into his backstory in late season 2/early season 3.Â
a character that i used to love/like, but now do not:
Idk I used to like, unironically like Himuro, and subscribe to canonâs endgame portrayal of him as a harmless nice guy (with no personality to speak of). Now I like him, but like... only in the sense that he can be used narratively, and to comedic effect. I also still like his play style, but I donât like him like, as a person.
a ship that i used to love/like, but now do not:
I donât really wanna bash any ship in this show, since the characters are loose (read: underdeveloped) enough for their actual ship dynamics to kinda be up for interpretation.Â
The one example I can think of, though, for a ship I used to enjoy that now kinda bothers me, is KiKasa. I just donât see much genuine affection between these two, and yeah I get that people show their love in different ways and all that, and there is definitely something there to work with if you read between the lines, but still... I dunno in canon it mostly seems one-sided at best and antagonistic at worst to me.
my ultimate favorite characterâ˘:
...Câmon, you know who it is. The number one spot has to go to Aomine, every time. Someday Iâll write a whole in-depth character study to explain why, but if you want the thesis statement, itâs this: Aomine is the most interesting, developed and multi-faceted character in the entire series, and you can fight me on that.
prettiest character:
If weâre talking manga, then Aomine, but since he looks like a raisin in the anime, I have to give the award to Midorima, with Mibuchi coming in a close second.
my most hated character:
Heh. Uh... funny story, it used to be Hanamiya, or possibly Haizaki, but now I think my hatred for Akashi has actually surpassed them both, because weâre meant to dislike them so at least they serve their most basic function. Whereas Akashiâs arc is so forced and anticlimactic itâs infuriating, and thatâs before even getting into his personality. Â
my OTP:
You know what, itâs still AoKaga. After six fucking years, they still have my heart. If I can bend the rules and slip in an OT3, Iâd say AoKagaKuro, but otherwise, if I had to pick one ship, itâs those two idiots with their rival dynamic, interesting chemistry and essential narrative function of pushing each other to get better.Â
my NOTP:
Like I said, I donât want to bash any ship, but if I have to pick one that just grinds my gears, itâs AkaKuro. I just... donât get it. I mean, I get it, I know why it exists, but I donât get it, you know?Â
...I dunno, if thatâs your cup of tea, more power to ya, but I personally donât ship it and I donât think Iâm ever going to.Â
favorite episode:
Episode 37: I Look Forward To It.Â
Ah, the onsen episode... I know this one by heart.Â
Okay, I guess I should explain myself, because on the surface this looks like pure empty fan-service (on both sides), but this episode actually has some really great character and plot-related moments. Itâs the part I always jump back into when I re-read the manga, because itâs where things really start to kick off. Seirinâs been beaten down and hopeless and finally have their chance at revenge, and they find out in this episode that theyâre going to be getting it right away. Thereâs some really great Seirin and Touou bonding, some more evidence of Momoi being a data-gathering badass (though her actual appearance in this ep bombs the Bechdel test and kinda just rubs me the wrong way).Â
My favorite part, though, is Aomine and Kurokoâs confrontation in the bath house. Iâve heard someone say once (and I agree) that this episode shows a whole team of naked men (and two naked women) and yet the scene with the most sexual tension has everyone fully clothed. Itâs also just a super emotionally-charged moment, full of saying things without saying them, and Kagami showing up to declare Seirinâs intentions of victory is the cherry on top. I love this episode, Iâve probably watched it about a hundred times, but Iâd gladly watch it a hundred more and that tells me itâs my favorite. Â
saddest death:
Himuroâs character development. I mean uh... Kiyoshiâs leg breaking, yeah, thatâs totally it. Actually, him leaving at the end of season 3 is really sad, we donât get many third years retiring in this show but that hit just as hard.
favorite season:
Season 2. Itâs where the show kicks into high gear, and the plot really gets rolling. Itâs well-paced and exciting up until the middle of the Yousen game, and shows so much awesome development for the characters it introduced in the previous season. Everyone gets some new abilities, but my favorite reveals have to be Kurokoâs Vanishing Drive and Overflow (that moment when Izuki gets âerasedâ in the Seirin/Touou game lives in my head rent free), and of course the Zone. Season 1 is nice and season 3 has some really iconic moments, but season 2 is great from start to (almost) finish, and that makes it the strongest of the bunch.
least favorite season:
As I said, it has some iconic moments, but KNBâs weakest season by far is its finale. For one thing, it focuses almost entirely on a single game, and so that game drags on forever, beyond the realm of enjoyment until it becomes tedious to get through. Besides that, though, it goes out of its way to introduce plot threads and characters that donât really go anywhere (Haizaki and Ogiwara come to mind...) the animation budget takes a noticeable beating, and so do the trajectories of two of Season 2â˛s most interesting antagonists (Himuro and Akashi). The main saving grace of this season is the Teiko arc, but, enjoyable as it is, under a critical eye itâs still a lengthy, pretty unnecessary detour that stops the main narrative dead in its tracks and all but kills the tension for the final game. Â
character that everyone else in the fandom loves, but i hate:
Would it be gratuitous to say Akashi, at this point? Itâs funny, because I never really liked him, and didnât understand why so many people did, but I never had any strong opinions about him until recently, when I started looking at his character up close bc Iâve run out of reasons not to. Again, if you like him, thatâs totally fine, but I just canât agree.
my âyouâre piece of trash, but youâre still a faveâ fave:
Uhh... Imayoshi, I think. I donât know what it is about this guy, but I love him so much. Heâs a shit, and he knows it, but heâs also smart, and funny, and kind of just a big dork? Severely underrated character, with a really unique look (I donât care if he doesnât have eyes except when heâs pissed, itâs good character design, you guys are just mean).Â
my âbeautiful cinnamon roll who deserves better than thisâ fave:
Oh, Kuroko... sidelined in your own damn show. Iâve heard people argue that Kuroko is not the protagonist of KNB, and in fact itâs Kagami, and just... whether thatâs true or not technically, it just makes me sad for Kuroko bc once again heâs being overlooked in favor of other, more flashy characters on screen. Maybe thatâs the point, but still, I donât see this guy get nearly enough attention considering his name is in the fucking title. Kuroko is every bit as valid and interesting as the other GoM, and the other members of Seirin, often even more so, and he deserves all the love.
my âthis ship is wrong, nasty, and makes me want to cleanse my soul, but i still love itâ ship:
Pretty much anything with Haizaki, but because this is me weâre talking about... AoHai. I used to be interested purely from a hatefucking standpoint, but recently Iâve seen some art and short little ficlets, and... have started to maybe ship it... unironically? Um. Yeah, so that happened.
my âtheyâre kind of cute, and i lowkey ship them, but iâm not too investedâ ship:
KiKuro. I donât think Iâve really talked about them before, I love their backstory and dynamic, and I tend to write them together off on the sidelines, but Iâm not very passionate about this one. Maybe because it is often used as a background ship, maybe because they both work better with other people (side tangent: their dynamic instantly becomes more interesting the second you throw a third person in the mix... doesnât matter who it is either, KiKuroKaga? AoKiKuro? KiKuroMomo? I could go on) Idk. Itâs sweet, but I donât often give this pairing a whole lot of thought on its own, maybe I ought to...
#shin speaks#answered#knb#i can't get into these things without giving long detailed answers anymore can I#side effect of analyzing my favorite show and breaking it down until I barely recognize it I guess#I've got a full essay on the successes and downfalls of KNB coming in a bit#so uh#prepare for that#thanks for asking! I hope this doesn't piss anyone off too much#lmao
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New additions to the Indian Springs School Library May thru August 2020
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FŠĹlsing, Albrecht, 1940-. Albert Einstein : a biography. New York : Viking Penguin: a division of Penguin Books USA, Inc, 1997. Family -- School -- A "child prodigy" -- "Vagabond and loner" : student days in Zurich -- Looking for a job -- Expert III class -- "Herr Doktor Einstein" and the reality of atoms -- The "very revolutionary" light quanta -- Relative movement : "my life for seven years" -- The theory of relativity : "a modification of the theory of space and time" -- Acceptance, opposition, tributes -- Expert II class -- From "bad joke" to "Herr Professor" -- Professor in Zurich -- Full professor in Prague, but not for long -- Toward the general theory of relativity -- From Zurich to Berlin -- "In a madhouse" : a pacifist in Prussia -- "The greatest satisfaction of my life" : the completion of the general theory of relativity -- Wartime in Berlin -- Postwar chaos and revolution -- Confirmation and the deflection of light : "the suddenly famous Dr. Einstein" -- Relativity under the spotlight -- "Traveler in relativity" -- Jewry, Zionism, and a trip to America -- More hustle, long journeys, a lot of politics, and a little physics -- Einstein receives the Nobel Prize and in consequence becomes a Prussian -- "The marble smile of implacable nature" : the search for the unified field theory -- The problems of quantum theory -- Critique of quantum mechanics -- Politics, patents, sickness, and a "wonderful egg" -- Public and private affairs -- Farewell to Berlin -- Exile in liberation -- Princeton -- Physical reality and a paradox, relativity and unified theory -- War, a letter, and the bomb -- Between bomb and equations -- "An old debt. Albert Einstein's achievements are not just milestones in the history of science; decades ago they became an integral part of the twentieth-century world in which we live. Like no other modern physicist he altered and expanded our understanding of nature. Like few other scholars, he stood fully in the public eye. In a world changing with dramatic rapidity, he embodied the role of the scientist by personal example. Albrecht Folsing, relying on previously unknown sources. And letters, brings Einstein's "genius" into focus. Whereas former biographies, written in the tradition of the history of science, seem to describe a heroic Einstein who fell to earth from heaven, Folsing attempts to reconstruct Einstein's thought in the context of the state of research at the turn of the century. Thus, perhaps for the first time, Einstein's surroundings come to light.
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Gleick, James. Isaac Newton. 1st ed. New York : Pantheon Books, c2003.
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Lise Meitner : Discoverer of Nuclear Fission. Greensboro, NC : Morgan Reynolds, Inc, 2000. A biography of the Austrian scientist whose discoveries in nuclear physics played a major part in developing atomic energy.
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Watching birds : reflections on the wing. United States : Ragged Mountain Press, 2000.
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Dabydeen, David. Turner : new and selected poems. 2010. Leeds : Peepal Tree Press, Ltd, 12010.
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Jones, Ashley M., 1990- author. Dark // thing. Slurret -- //Side A: 3rd grade birthday party -- //Side B: roebuck is the ghetto -- Harriette Winslow and Aunt Rachel clean -- Collard greens on prime time television -- My grandfather returns as oil -- Elegy for Willie Lee "Murr"Lipscomb -- Proof at the Red Sea -- Sunken place sestina -- Hair -- Antiquing -- The book of Tubman -- Harriet Tubman crosses the Mason Dixon for the first time -- Avian Abecedarian -- Harriet Tubman, beauty queen or ain't I a woman? -- Broken sonnet in which Harriet is the gun -- Recitation -- What flew out of Aunt Hester's scream -- Election year 2016: the motto -- Uncle Remus syrup commemorative lynching postcard #25 -- To the black man popping a wheelie on -- Interstate 59 North on 4th of July weekend -- Red dirt suite -- Love/luv/ -- Summerstina -- Ode to Dwayne Waye, or, I want to be Whitley -- Gilbert when I grow up -- I am not selected for jury duty the week bill -- Cosby's jury selection is underway -- A small, disturbing fact -- Water -- Today, I saw a black man open his arms to the wind -- Xylography -- I see a smear of animal on the road and mistake it for philando castile -- There is a beel at morehouse college -- Dark water -- Who will survive in America? or 2017: a horror film -- In-flight entertainment -- Imitation of life -- Broken sonnet for the decorative cotton for sale at Whole Foods -- Racists in space -- When you tell me I'd be prettier with straight hair -- (Black) hair -- Kindergarten villandelle -- Song of my muhammad -- Ode to Al Jolson -- Hoghead cheese haiku -- Aunties -- Thing of a marvelous thing / It's the same as having wings. A multi-faceted work that explores the darkness/otherness by which the world sees Black people. Ashley M. Jones stares directly into the face of the racism that allows people to be seen as dark things, as objects that can be killed/enslaved/oppressed/devalued. This work, full as it is of slashes of all kinds, ultimately separates darkness from thingness, affirming and celebrating humanity.
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Gay, Roxane, author. Bad feminist : essays. First edition. A collection of essays spanning politics, criticism, and feminism from one of the most-watched young cultural observers of her generation, Roxane Gay. "Pink is my favorite color. I used to say my favorite color was black to be cool, but it is pink, all shades of pink. If I have an accessory, it is probably pink. I read Vogue, and I'm not doing it ironically, though it might seem that way. I once live-tweeted the September issue." In these funny and insightful essays, Roxane Gay takes us through the journey of her evolution as a woman (Sweet Valley High) of color (The Help) while also taking readers on a ride through culture of the last few years (Girls, Django in Chains) and commenting on the state of feminism today (abortion, Chris Brown). The portrait that emerges is not only one of an incredibly insightful woman continually growing to understand herself and our society, but also one of our culture. Bad Feminist is a sharp, funny, and spot-on look at the ways in which the culture we consume becomes who we are, and an inspiring call-to-arms of all the ways we still need to do better.
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the tragical history of Doctor Faustus : The Elizabethan Play. Annotated & Edited by John D. Harris, 2018. Wabasha, MN : Hungry Point Press, 2018.
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Wilde, Oscar, 1854-1900. An ideal husband. Mineola, N.Y. : Dover Publications, 2000.
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Vincenzi, Penny, author. Windfall. 1st U.S. ed. Sensible Cassia Fallon has been married to her doctor husband for seven years when her godmother leaves her a huge fortune. For the first time in her life, she is able to do exactly as she likes, and she starts to question her marriage, her past, her present, and her future. But where did her inheritance really come from and why? Too soon the windfall has become a corrupting force, one that Cassia cannot resist.
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Flaubert, Gustave, 1821-1880. Three tales. Oxford ; : Oxford University Press, 2009. A simple heart -- The legend of Saint Julian the Hospitaller -- Herodias.
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Sachs, Jeffrey, author. The ages of globalization : geography, technology, and institutions. "Today's most urgent problems are fundamentally global. They require nothing less than concerted, planetwide action if we are to secure a long-term future. But humanity's story has always been on a global scale, and this history deeply informs the present. In this book, Jeffrey D. Sachs, renowned economist and expert on sustainable development, turns to world history to shed light on how we can meet the challenges and opportunities of the twenty-first century. Sachs takes readers through a series of six distinct waves of technological and ideological change, starting with the very beginnings of our species and ending with reflections on present-day globalization. Along the way, he considers how the interplay of geography, technology, and institutions influenced the Neolithic revolution; the spread of land-based empires; the opening of sea routes from Europe to Asia and the Americas; and the industrial age. The dynamics of these past waves, Sachs contends, give us new perspective on the ongoing processes taking place in our own time-and how we should work to guide the change we need. In light of this new understanding of globalization, Sachs emphasizes the need for new methods of international governance and cooperation to achieve economic, social, and environmental objectives aligned with sustainable development. The Ages of Globalization is a vital book for all readers aiming to make sense of our rapidly changing world"--.
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Bing, Stanley. Rome, inc. : the rise and fall of the first multinational corporation. 1st. ed. New York : Norton, c2006.
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Laurence, Ray, 1963-. Ancient Rome as it was : exploring the city of Rome in AD 300.
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Brooks, Max. The Harlem Hellfighters. First edition. "From bestselling author Max Brooks, the riveting story of the highly decorated, barrier-breaking, historic black regiment--the Harlem Hellfighters. The Harlem Hellfighters is a fictionalized account of the 369th Infantry Regiment--the first African American regiment mustered to fight in World War I. From the enlistment lines in Harlem to the training camp at Spartanburg, South Carolina, to the trenches in France, bestselling author Max Brooks tells the thrilling story of the heroic journey that these soldiers undertook for a chance to fight for America. Despite extraordinary struggles and discrimination, the 369th became one of the most successful--and least celebrated--regiments of the war. The Harlem Hellfighters, as their enemies named them, spent longer than any other American unit in combat and displayed extraordinary valor on the battlefield. Based on true events and featuring artwork from acclaimed illustrator Caanan White, these pages deliver an action-packed and powerful story of courage, honor, and heart"--. "This is a graphic novel about the first African-American regiment to fight in World War One"--.
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Browning, Christopher R., author. Ordinary men : Reserve Police Battalion 101 and the final solution in Poland. Revised edition. One morning in JĂłzefĂłw -- The order police -- The order police and the Final solution : Russia 1941 -- The order police and the Final solution : deportation -- Reserve Police Battalion 101 -- Arrival in Poland -- Initiation to mass muder : the JĂłzefĂłw massacre -- Reflections on a massacre -- Ĺomazy : the descent of Second Company -- The August deportations to Treblinka -- Late-September shootings -- The deportations resume -- The strange health of Captain Hoffmann -- The "Jew hunt" -- The last massacres : "Harvest festival" -- Aftermath -- Germans, Poles, and Jews -- Ordinary men. In the early hours of July 13, 1942, the men of Reserve Police Battalion 101, a unit of the German Order Police, entered the Polish Village of Jozefow. They had arrived in Poland less than three weeks before, most of them recently drafted family men too old for combat service--workers, artisans, salesmen, and clerks. By nightfall, they had rounded up Jozefow's 1,800 Jews, selected several hundred men as "work Jews," and shot the rest--that is, some 1,500 women, children, and old people. Most of these overage, rear-echelon reserve policemen had grown to maturity in the port city of Hamburg in pre-Hitler Germany and were neither committed Nazis nor racial fanatics. Nevertheless, in the sixteen months from the Jozefow massacre to the brutal Erntefest ("harvest festival") slaughter of November 1943, these average men participated in the direct shooting deaths of at least 38,000 Jews and the deportation to Treblinka's gas chambers of 45,000 more--a total body count of 83,000 for a unit of less than 500 men. Drawing on postwar interrogations of 210 former members of the battalion, Christopher Browning lets them speak for themselves about their contribution to the Final Solution--what they did, what they thought, how they rationalized their behavior (one man would shoot only infants and children, to "release" them from their misery). In a sobering conclusion, Browning suggests that these good Germans were acting less out of deference to authority or fear of punishment than from motives as insidious as they are common: careerism and peer pressure. With its unflinching reconstruction of the battalion's murderous record and its painstaking attention to the social background and actions of individual men, this unique account offers some of the most powerful and disturbing evidence to date of the ordinary human capacity for extraordinary inhumanity.
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Snyder, Timothy. Bloodlands : Europe between Hitler and Stalin. New York : Basic Books, c2010. Hitler and Stalin -- The Soviet famines -- Class terror -- National terror -- Molotov-Ribbentrop Europe -- The economics of apocalypse -- Final solution -- Holocaust and revenge -- The Nazi death factories -- Resistance and incineration -- Ethnic cleansings -- Stalinist antisemitism -- Humanity.
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The search for modern China : a documentary collection. Third edition.
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Meacham, Jon, author. The soul of America : the battle for our better angels. First edition. Introduction : To hope rather than to fear -- The confidence of the whole people : visions of the Presidency, the ideas of progress and prosperity, and "We, the people" -- The long shadow of Appomattox : the Lost Cause, the Ku Klux Klan, and Reconstruction -- With soul of flame and temper of steel : "the melting pot," TR and his "bully pulpit," and the Progressive promise -- A new and good thing in the world : the triumph of women's suffrage, the Red Scare, and a new Klan -- The crisis of the old order : the Great Depression, Huey Long, the New Deal, and America First -- Have you no sense of decency? : "making everyone middle class," the GI Bill, McCarthyism, and modern media -- What the hell is the presidency for? : "segregation forever," King's crusade, and LBJ in the crucible -- Conclusion : The first duty of an American citizen. "We have been here before. In this timely and revealing book, ... author Jon Meacham helps us understand the present moment in American politics and life by looking back at critical times in our history when hope overcame division and fear. With clarity and purpose, Meacham explores contentious periods and how presidents and citizens came together to defeat the forces of anger, intolerance, and extremism. Our current climate of partisan fury is not new, and in The Soul of America Meacham shows us how what Abraham Lincoln called 'the better angels of our nature' have repeatedly won the day. Painting surprising portraits of Lincoln and other presidents, including Ulysses S. Grant, Theodore Roosevelt, Woodrow Wilson, Franklin D. Roosevelt, Harry S. Truman, Dwight Eisenhower, and Lyndon B. Johnson, and illuminating the courage of such influential citizen activists as Martin Luther King, Jr., early suffragettes Alice Paul and Carrie Chapman Catt, civil rights pioneers Rosa Parks and John Lewis, First Lady Eleanor Roosevelt, and Army-McCarthy hearings lawyer Joseph N. Welch, Meacham brings vividly to life turning points in American history. He writes about the Civil War, Reconstruction, and the birth of the Lost Cause; the backlash against immigrants in the First World War and the resurgence of the Ku Klux Klan in the 1920s; the fight for women's rights; the demagoguery of Huey Long and Father Coughlin and the isolationist work of America First in the years before World War II; the anti-Communist witch-hunts led by Senator Joseph McCarthy; and Lyndon Johnson's crusade against Jim Crow. Each of these dramatic hours in our national life has been shaped by the contest to lead the country to look forward rather than back, to assert hope over fear--a struggle that continues even now. While the American story has not always--or even often--been heroic, we have been sustained by a belief in progress even in the gloomiest of times. In this inspiring book, Meacham reassures us, "The good news is that we have come through such darkness before"--as, time and again, Lincoln's better angels have found a way to prevail."--Dust jacket.
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Smith, Petric J., 1940-. Long time coming : an insider's story of the Birmingham church bombing that rocked the world. 1st ed. Birmingham, Ala. : Crane Hill, 1994.
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Birch, Anna, author. I kissed Alice. First. "Fan Girl meets Simon vs. The Homo Sapiens Agenda in this #ownvoices LGBTQ romance about two rivals who fall in love online"--.
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Bradbury, Ray, 1920-2012, author. Fahrenheit 451. Simon & Schuster trade paperback edition, 60th anniversary edition. Introduction / by Neil Gaiman -- Fahrenheit 451. The hearth and the salamander ; The sieve and the sand ; Burning bright. History, context, and criticism / edited by Jonathan R. Eller. pt. 1. The story of Fahrenheit 451. The story of Fahrenheit 451 / by Jonathan R. Eller ; From The day after tomorrow: why science fiction? (1953) / by Ray Bradbury ; Listening library audio introduction (1976) / by Ray Bradbury ; Investing dimes: Fahrenheit 451 (1982, 1989) / by Ray Bradbury ; Coda (1979) / by Ray Bradbury -- pt. 2. Other voices. The novel. From a letter to Stanley Kauffmann / by Nelson Algren ; Books of the times / by Orville Prescott ; From New wine, old bottles / by Gilbert Highet ; New novels / by Idris Parry ; New fiction / by Sir John Betjeman ; 1984 and all that / by Adrian Mitchell ; From New maps of hell / by Sir Kingsley Amis ; Introduction to Ray Bradbury's Fahrenheit 451 / by Harold Bloom ; Fahrenheit 451 / by Margaret Atwood ; The motion picture. Shades of Orwell / by Arthur Knight ; From The journal of Fahrenheit 451 / by FranŠʚois Truffaut. In a future totalitarian state where books are banned and destroyed by the government, Guy Montag, a fireman in charge of burning books, meets a revolutionary schoolteacher who dares to read and a girl who tells him of a past when people did not live in fear ... This sixtieth-anniversary edition commemorates Ray Bradbury's masterpiece with a new introduction by Neil Gaiman ; personal essays on the genesis of the novel by the author; a wealth of critical essays and reviews by Nelson Algren, Harold Bloom, Margaret Atwood, and others; rare manuscript pages and sketches from Ray Bradbury's personal archive; and much more ... --- From back cover.
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White noise. 2009; with an introduction by Richard Powers. New York, NY : Penguin Books, 2009.
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Grisham, John, author. Camino Island. First edition. Bruce Cable owns a popular bookstore in the sleepy resort town of Santa Rosa on Camino Island in Florida. He makes his real money, though, as a prominent dealer in rare books. Very few people know that he occasionally dabbles in the black market of stolen books and manuscripts. Mercer Mann is a young novelist with a severe case of writer's block who has recently been laid off from her teaching position. She is approached by an elegant, mysterious woman working for an even more mysterious company. A generous offer of money convinces Mercer to go undercover and infiltrate Bruce Cable's circle of literary friends, ideally getting close enough to him to learn his secrets. But eventually Mercer learns far too much.--Adapted from book jacket.
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Hemingway, Ernest, 1899-1961, author. The sun also rises. The Hemingway library edition. The novel -- Appendix I: Pamplona, July 1923 -- Appendix II: Early drafts -- Appendix III: The discarded first chapters -- Appendix IV: List of possible titles. A profile of the Lost Generation captures life among the expatriates on Paris' Left Bank during the 1920s, the brutality of bullfighting in Spain, and the moral and spiritual dissolution of a generation.
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Hurston, Zora Neale. Their eyes were watching god. 1st Harper Perennial Modern Classics ed. New York : Harper Perennial Modern Classics, 2006. Foreword / Edwidge Danticat -- Their eyes were watching God -- Afterword / Henry Louis Gates, Jr. -- Selected bibliography -- Chronology. A novel about black Americans in Florida that centers on the life of Janie and her three marriages.
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Kidd, Sue Monk. The invention of wings. The story follows Hetty "Handful" Grimke, a Charleston slave, and Sarah, the daughter of the wealthy Grimke family. The novel begins on Sarah's eleventh birthday, when she is given ownership over Handful, who is to be her handmaid, and follows the next thirty-five years of their lives. Inspired in part by the historical figure of Sarah Grimke (a feminist, suffragist and, importantly, an abolitionist), the author allows herself to go beyond the record to flesh out the inner lives of all the characters, both real and imagined. -- Provided by publisher. "Hetty 'Handful' Grimke, an urban slave in early nineteenth century Charleston, yearns for life beyond the suffocating walls that enclose her within the wealthy Grimke household. The Grimke's daughter, Sarah, has known from an early age she is meant to do something large in the world, but she is hemmed in by the limits imposed on women. The novel is set in motion on Sarah's eleventh birthday, when she is given ownership of ten year old Handful, who is to be her handmaid. We follow their remarkable journeys over the next thirty five years, as both strive for a life of their own, dramatically shaping each other's destinies and forming a complex relationship marked by guilt, defiance, estrangement and the uneasy ways of love. As the stories build to a riveting climax, Handful will endure loss and sorrow, finding courage and a sense of self in the process. Sarah will experience crushed hopes, betrayal, unrequited love, and ostracism before leaving Charleston to find her place alongside her fearless younger sister, Angelina, as one of the early pioneers in the abolition and women's rights movements. Inspired by the historical figure of Sarah Grimke, the author goes beyond the record to flesh out the rich interior lives of all of her characters, both real and invented, including Handful's cunning mother, Charlotte, who courts danger in her search for something better. This novel looks with unswerving eyes at a devastating wound in American history, through women whose struggles for liberation, empowerment, and expression will leave no reader unmoved. -- Publisher's description.
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Vladimir Nabokov. Glory. United States : McGraw-Hill International, Inc, 1971.
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Orwell, George, 1903-1950. 1984. Signet Classics. New York, NY : Berkley: an imprint of Penguin Random House, LLC, c. 1977. "Eternal warfare is the price of bleak prosperity in this satire of totalitarian barbarism."--ARBookFind.
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Salinger, J. D. (Jerome David), 1919-2010. Nine stories. 1st Back Bay pbk. ed. Boston : Back Bay Books/Little, Brown, 2001, c1991. A perfect day for bananafish -- Uncle wiggily in Connecticut -- Just before the war with the Eskimos -- The laughing man -- Down at the dinghy -- For Esme--with love and squalor -- Pretty mouth and green my eyes -- De Daumier-Smith's blue period -- Teddy. Salinger's classic collection of short stories is now available in trade paperback.
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Thomas, Angie, author. The hate u give. First edition. "Sixteen-year-old Starr Carter moves between two worlds: the poor neighborhood where she lives and the fancy suburban prep school she attends. The uneasy balance between these worlds is shattered when Starr witnesses the fatal shooting of her childhood best friend Khalil at the hands of a police officer. Khalil was unarmed. Soon afterward, his death is a national headline. Some are calling him a thug, maybe even a drug dealer and a gangbanger. Protesters are taking to the streets in Khalil's name. Some cops and the local drug lord try to intimidate Starr and her family. What everyone wants to know is: what really went down that night? And the only person alive who can answer that is Starr. But what Starr does or does not say could upend her community. It could also endanger her life"--.
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Thomas, Angie, author. On the come up. First edition. Sixteen-year-old Bri hopes to become a great rapper, and after her first song goes viral for all the wrong reasons, must decide whether to sell out or face eviction with her widowed mother.
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The Hobbit : or There and Back Again. First U.S. edition; Illus. by Jemima Catlin, 2013. New York, NY : HarperCollins Publishers, 2013.
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Around the world in 80 days. Classics. Trans. by Geo. M. Towle. Lexington, KY, : October 29. 2019.
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Around the world in 80 days. Illustrated First Edition. Translated by Geo. M. Towle. Orinda, CA : SeaWolf Press, 2018.
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Belfry Holdings, Inc. (Charlottesville, Virginia), author. Camino winds : a novel. Hardcover. "#1 New York Times bestselling author John Grisham returns to Camino Island in this irresistible page-turner that's as refreshing as an island breeze. In Camino Winds, mystery and intrigue once again catch up with novelist Mercer Mann, proving that the suspense never rests-even in paradise"--.
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Alomar, Osama, 1968- author, translator. The teeth of the comb & other stories.
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Machado, Carmen Maria, author. Her body and other parties : stories. Contains short stories about the realities of women's lives and the violence visited upon their bodies. "In Her Body and Other Parties, Carmen Maria Machado blithely demolishes the arbitrary borders between psychological realism and science fiction, comedy and horror, fantasy and fabulism. While her work has earned her comparisons to Karen Russell and Kelly Link, she has a voice that is all her own. In this electric and provocative debut, Machado bends genre to shape startling narratives that map the realities of women's lives and the violence visited upon their bodies. A wife refuses her husband's entreaties to remove the green ribbon from around her neck. A woman recounts her sexual encounters as a plague slowly consumes humanity. A salesclerk in a mall makes a horrifying discovery within the seams of the store's prom dresses. One woman's surgery-induced weight loss results in an unwanted houseguest. And in the bravura novella 'Especially Heinous,' Machado reimagines every episode of Law & Order: Special Victims Unit, a show we naïvely assumed had shown it all, generating a phantasmagoric police procedural full of doppelgängers, ghosts, and girls with bells for eyes. Earthy and otherworldly, antic and sexy, queer and caustic, comic and deadly serious, Her Body and Other Parties swings from horrific violence to the most exquisite sentiment. In their explosive originality, these stories enlarge the possibilities of contemporary fiction." -- Publisher's description.
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Do you have any headcanons about how Haven and Maddie would get along? You mention them both a lot and they seem like they have things in common
OH BOY DO I EVER i happen to love shoving my faves into interaction in my head even if they never met in canon---ESPECIALLY if they never met in canon---and these are my two mega fave ladies! ...coincidentally I was out today on errands and playing Tori Amos (because *of course* I was) and specifically her âAmerican Doll Posseâ album, and I was like âGIRL DISAPPEARING and SECRET SPELL have Maddie vibesâ (I also listened to KING AND LIONHEART by of Monsters and Men, itâs my fave of theirs, and âAs the world comes to an end, Iâll be here to hold your handâ is forever a Haven lyric to me) So massive MASSIVE ramblings under the cut!
Anyway, yes, youâre completely correct, they have a TON in common, both in what actually happened TEXTUALLY to them, and the meta-text of how their stories were handled in very similarly misogynistic ways. Like, theyâre both villains through no choice or fault of their own, both the victims of demonic corruption, both exploited specifically for their reproductive capacity (Maddie created literally to have Scottâs baby, Havenâs unborn child used by the Adversary to possess her), and both used to frame female sexuality as evil (Maddie only starts with the skimpy black outfits when she becomes a villain, Haven is a pure and chaste woman who had sex ONCE and as a result becomes demon-pregnant, corrupted, and dies, sheâs very much punished for violating purity taboos just ONCE despite all the good she did, while NOTHING HAPPENS to the man who took advantage of her naivete and knocked her up) and both were treated with little sympathy by the story or other characters despite being so very deserving of it. So theyâve got a ton to relate and commiserate on if they ever met and opened up to each other about it, but even if they DIDNâT tell each other about their pasts (which I doubt they would, certainly not at first, itâs not something either is keen to talk about, Haven never told her own beloved brother and Maddie literally KILLS Threnody for throwing it in her face) I think they would get on well. With the understandable exception of Jean Grey, Maddie has NEVER been a jerk to anyone who wasnât one first (she did go overboard with Threnody, of course...) and Haven, even while a demonically-posessed supervillain, was very calm, composed, polite, and downright kind to the good guys even when they KEPT ATTACKING HER. And to quote the âX-Plain the X-Menâ podcast ââ In this scene, she [Haven] is the one thatâs being kind and calm and compassionate, and he [Xavier] is being AN ANGRY JERK. â So, I think theyâd get on at first meeting because theyâre just both nice people at their default. Theyâre also both morally good people at their default. Havenâs history is that sheâs someone born to extreme wealth and privilege who was driven to use it to help others, she did shit like bathing lepers and caring for dying babies and building childrenâs hospitals (literally how she got her name in canon, no shit) and even as a supervillain BENT ON DESTROYING THE WORLD OUT OF COMPASSION she STILL does shit like SURRENDERING A FIGHT SO SHE CAN TRY TO HEAL AN *ENEMY* OKAY. And Maddie was just straight-up a superhero even before she had the âsuperâ part going for her, she was one of the X-Men even as a human and even after Scott left her, she had an incredibly strong sense of justice, she did her best at rescuing people in her job as a pilot during crises, she GAVE UP HER LIFE with the rest of the X-Men when Forge needed their life energy for a spell to save the world (she got brought back, they all did, but she didnât know she was going to be resurrected, she went in knowing sheâd die and thinking it would be permanent) and the first time she did get superpowers WASNâT as the demonic Goblyn Queen, but as the healer Anodyne. And you know why her powers specifically took the form of healing? It wasnât random. The Fire Fountain (from which she and some other humans got these gifts) gave people their powers based on their passions and desires; Maddieâs desire and passion was to help others. So both of these women are extremely moral, healing-types at their core, both in powers and personality, who care about others deeply, even at the expense of themselves. Obviously, Maddie became very morally-grey since in the 90s, but even then she cared about other people first; Sebastian Shaw was never a bad boyfriend in the slightest to her, he was actually her first good relationship, but she left him because he was doing harm to other people, people she didnât even KNOW, and she wouldnât be complicit in that even as a bystander. Sheâs kinda gone full evil in the 2000s but sheâs also very much Not Maddie Anymore as of the 2000s, so I just...donât count that...anyway you see my point! My point being I think they would really come together on helping people, like Haven has the funds (she would probably not have powers anymore if sheâs alive, since sheâs no longer the host body of the Adversary) and Maddie has the piloting skills and superpowers, they could do a TON of good in the world if they teamed up to do relief work and refugee aid and stuff! I would honestly be really here for that. I really like the idea of them doing good in a way that has nothing to do with superhero adventures and is in no way glamorous or a battle that can be won with powers and punches, but is necessary and worthy all the same. I think they could really get a good working relationship going with this. I think the place they would differ is that Maddie is ANGRY. Sheâs very angry at what was done to her, sheâs very angry at the X-Men, sheâs very angry at Jean, sheâs very angry at Scott, sheâs very angry at Sinister, and she has a RIGHT to be. There is nothing wrong with this. But her anger also isnât limited to people who harmed HER. Back when Maddie was Maddie and not a walking misogynistic stereotype, she also got BIG MAD at people who did bad things, who hurt others, who oppressed mutants and other minorities, etc. Like, during the story in which we find out about Genosha and how theyâre enslaving mutants, Maddie is ready to WRECK ALL THEIR SHIT WITHOUT MERCY using the demonic energy thatâs started incubating inside her. And you know what? Good for her. Maddie is the fire of justice and retribution, and if you have done something to deserve it she will FRY YOU IN HELL. Haven is not like that. Again, even when sheâs possessed, even when she ostensibly wants to kill the world, even when sheâs being steered by an entity of cosmic evil and chaos...sheâs still so soft with her âenemiesâ. Hell, even when sheâs come to the conclusion that Xavier must die, she still canât do it with her own hands and has to just let some other villain out of prison and HOPE he does it, thatâs the MOST action she can bring herself to take, and she thinks how âI admire you, Charles Xavier. I respect you. In an odd way, one might sayâŚthat I love you. For how can one not love a soul so pure, a heart so full of good intentions? One must love oneâs enemyâŚif one is to slay him with compassion.â And this was AFTER Xavier rammed in his way into her head after she begged him repeatedly to STOP (boy was THAT an uncomfy scene) and she literally unmade herself from existence temporarily (yes, she could do that, and remake herself) in order to get away from him, even though SHE could have just unmade HIM permanently. So, once you take the demon out of the equation, I can only see her as being even MORE pacifistic and forgiving, just the epitome of grace----grace meaning not as in graceful (though I think sheâs that too, sheâs very elegant) but as in the religious sense of Godâs grace, which is mercy where it is undeserved. Sheâs NEVER going to want to hurt people for their misdeeds like Madelyne does. She wants to comfort the victims, but not attack the victimizers. Sheâs probably the kind of person who prays for Neo-Nazis. She probably utterly forgives X-Factor and Xavier and the man who got her pregnant. And you know what? I also support that. I support Madelyneâs righteous rage, I support Havenâs all-forgiving compassion and mercy. I think both of these are beautiful. But they WOULD probably make conflict wherein like, Maddie wants to go after some bad guys to avenge the victims, and Haven doesnât, that kind of thing. And I can see Maddie being angry AT HAVEN for that, and Haven UNDERSTANDING because sheâs very understanding but still standing fast in her own beliefs. Haven is at peace with the universe, both its good and its evil. Maddie rages at the Heavens like if Milton wrote a woman. Both are perfect. Also like...I love so much the idea of Maddie being ready to PHYSICALLY FIGHT SOMEONE, no powers, sheâs just going to WRECK THEM WITH HER BARE HANDS (trust me, she has a mean punch) and Haven pulling her back. Because Maddie is canonically 5â˛6 and 110 lbs, sheâs not short but sheâs VERY skinny (because Marvel likes making all their women borderline underweight; I headcanon Maddie should be more in the 135 lb ballpark) and Haven is a SOLID SIX FEET and has been shown as able to carry around GROWN MEN in her arms, so like Maddie just this feisty lil skinny spitfire ready to MURDER YOU and big mama Haven gently holding her back like an angry lil kitten!! Speaking of physical contrasts I also love how theyâre very Tomboy & Girly Girl? Maddy is a pilot, sheâs very adventurous and rough and tumble, sheâs got cute dresses but she also wears her brown/green flight suit a lot, sheâs a goth in the 90s...and then Haven is like, this very well-brought-up polite woman with super-long princess hair and the one time we see her in civilian-wear itâs this GORGEOUS sari with tons of jewelry, theyâre just so Queen & Lady Knight, I love it. (Itâs not that Maddie is unfeminine, Maddieâs VERY femme, sheâs just more versatile and aggressive, whereas Haven is very conventionally hyperfeminine) I think another point theyâd have a lot of difference---though not arguement---is sex. Like, Haven still spoke about her one (1) sexual experience with a lot of shame twenty years later, sheâs very much a product of a conservative religious culture and while I donât think sheâs the type to slut-shame anyone else, I think sheâs now very thoroughly celibate because of her experiences. Whereas Maddie is very much not, like she literally walks into Sebastian Shawâs bedroom one night and rides that dick because shut up she wants to. While I donât like the idea of her as this Sexy Evil Succubus that sheâs become in the 2000s, I do see her as having a fun, practical, down-to-earth approach to sexuality as something that she enjoys and isnât ashamed of, while also not being this male fantasy of a femme fatale 24/7. So I can see her commenting on hot guys buff bodies and Haven being embarrass, things like that, maybe Maddie trying to get her a date. Like basically Haven is the Virgin Mary, sheâs chastity and motherhood and peace and mercy, and Maddie is Ishtar, the goddess of love AND sex AND war. Another thing about Haven is that she was established as EXTREMELY sensitive to the feelings of others, especially their pain, and that this was NOT a superpower from the Adversary, itâs how sheâs always been since childhood. Sheâs almost psychic, she instantly figures out the personal problems of everyone in X-Factor, from Lorna and Alexâs co-dependence to Guido using humor to mask that he suffers from chronic pain due to his mutation. So while I doubt Maddie opens up to her about her past even when they become friends, Haven can very much feel out that SOMETHING awful happened to this woman. And Havenâs nature as a healer is going to be drawn that, to want to help her, without going too fast or too invasive, without doing anything Madelyne doesnât want, without forcing anything on her because Haven has had that happen to her and sheâs not going to do it to someone else even with good intentions. Sheâs done ENOUGH wrong with good intentions. And as Madelyne does begin to let her in and let Haven know what happened, Haven in return reveals her own startlingly similar trauma, and I think thereâs a mutual healing there in supporting each other. Haven becomes the one shoulder Maddie has to cry on, and Maddie becomes someone who can be angry FOR Haven on her behalf. I see Maddie as probably being protective of Haven, like she has been of other women in the past who were wronged or vulnerable----such as when she was murderously incensed over what Genosha did to Jenny Ransome or when she offered to be Dazzlerâs eyes when Dazzler was blinded by a mask magically stuck to her face. And Haven can help Maddie with moving on and owning her own life instead of devoting herself to vengeance anymore, because she loves Maddie and rightly believes Maddie deserves BETTER than that. Honestly, I just...love them both...and want them to be happy and healing...so much...thank you for this ask, I loved talking about them!! ;A;
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đź + Alia
I tried to think of any other song for her but since itâs her title song (and tbh the only song I have for her so far), I have to go with Call It What You Want by Taylor Swift â it relates in part to her relationship with Dan and even Nate, and to her history with Serena, but itâs mostly related to Aliaâs own fall from grace
send me đź + an oc/ship & Iâll give you a full breakdown for one of their theme songs
My castle crumbled overnight
I mean, this is Aliaâs fic title! This is pretty much exactly what happened to her back before Serena left Manhattan. Alia was the undisputed princess of the Upper East Side (she never wanted to challenge Blair for queen), until her argument with Serena which led to her losing everything and having to leave the city
I brought a knife to a gunfight They took the crown but it's alright
Alia was underprepared for her fight with Serena, and ultimately paid for it as she had to leave Manhattan, allowing Serena to rise up and take her place
All the liars are calling me one
As soon as Serena comes back, sheâs back to scheming and trying to ruin Alia and Blairâs friendship, going so far as to imply to Serena that Alia had a thing for Nate, despite the fact that it was Serena who slept with him
Nobody's heard from me for months I'm doing better than I ever was
After leaving Manhattan, Alia was completely AWOL and no one heard anything from her until she returned, much more ready to face Manhattan and all of its drama.
Going into her fic and into Dalia, this also plays into the later seasons, where Alia left New York again (but willingly this time) and cut contact with pretty much everyone except for Blair. By the time she runs into Dan, sheâs doing much better than ever before, as getting away from Manhattan/Gossip Girl/Serena has given her the opportunity to really grow and figure out who she wants to be and what she wants to do
Cause... My baby's fit like a daydream Walking with his head down I'm the one he's walking to
Amidst all the drama of the UES, Dan generally tries to keep his head down and stay out of everything â and when they return to the city, he continues to feel the same way, only really focused on his family and Alia and not all the drama that heâd tried to leave behind by leaving
So call it what you want, yeah Call it what you want to
Alia is much more secure in this relationship than she was with Nate. She really doesnât care what anyone else, especially Gossip Girl, has to say on the subject.
My baby's fly like a jet stream High above the whole scene Loves me like I'm brand new
With her relationship with Dan starting out of Manhattan and out of the spotlight, theyâre very much able to exist above all the drama. And while Dan definitely doesnât put her on a pedestal like he did with Serena, heâs able to see past the mistakes sheâs made and past the person she left behind in New York and can see how much sheâs changed and grown â he doesnât hold her past against her, and when they first reconnect in Italy they agree to start completely fresh
So call it what you want, yeah Call it what you want to
(talked about this already)
All my flowers grew back as thorns
Before the Serena incident, Alia had been the nice one of the trio, but after her exile she becomes a lot thornier and doesnât let anyone get close to her anymore
Windows boarded up after the storm He built a fire just to keep me warm
After everything that happened to her while in New York, Alia has built up a lot of walls to keep people out. Even when she starts travelling, she doesnât really get close to anyone because she doesnât trust that she wonât be hurt again. Dan is the first person to really make an effort to prove that she can let down her walls around him
All the drama queens taking swings All the jokers dressing up as kings
I mean, this is the UES in a nutshell. Particularly regarding Serena and her rocky relationship with Chuck!
They fade to nothing when I look at him
When Alia returns to Manhattan the second time (post university), sheâs worried about getting caught up in all the drama again, but really she just doesnât care anymore. She has Dan and she loves him and he loves her, and all the stupid drama just feels so high school to her. Unfortunately Gossip Girl wonât let them stay out of the drama though
And I know I make the same mistakes every time
Like I said just above, despite her best efforts, Gossip Girl wonât let Alia stay out of the drama. Both when she returns in high school and Gossip Girl and Serena are always trying to tear her down, and when she returns in the later seasons and Gossip Girl keeps forcing she and Dan into the spotlight and the drama â and despite her best efforts to focus on what actually matters, Alia canât just stand there and tolerate all the bullshit, which leads her to making mistakes and bad choices of her own
Bridges burn, I never learn At least I did one thing right I did one thing right
When she returns to the city with Dan and gets pulled back into the UES drama, Alia feels like an idiot and like sheâs forgotten everything she learned in her time away from the city, but this time she at least has Dan in her corner.
I'm laughing with my lover Making forts under covers Trust him like a brother Yeah, you know I did one thing right
This sort of fits Dalia, but really it gives me major vibes for Nate x Alia, who had been really close friends since childhood and were always part of each otherâs found families! While their relationship wasnât destined to last, Alia will never regret the time they spent dating
Starry eyes sparking up my darkest night
Even in the worst of all of the drama, Alia is able to turn to Nate (in high school) or Dan (as adults) to find a light in all of the darknessÂ
My baby's fit like a daydream Walking with his head down I'm the one he's walking to So call it what you want, yeah Call it what you want to My baby's fly like a jet stream High above the whole scene Loves me like I'm brand new (Call it what you want, call it what you want, call it) So call it what you want, yeah Call it what you want to
(talked about this already)
I want to wear his initial on a chain round my neck Chain round my neck Not because he owns me But 'cause he really knows me Which is more than they can say, I
This fits both Dalia & Alinate too! Alia actually does have a necklace with an A on it that was a gift from Nate (which is her initial but everyone knows it was from him) while he takes to always wearing a watch that she gave him â itâs not about owning each other but about carrying a part of each other with them all the time. And in high school, Alia feels like Nate is the only one who really knows her â Dan sees just another UES brat, Serena hates her and manages to convince Blair to hate her on and off, and while she and Chuck are friends, they were never the closest out of the group, but Nate has always understood her better
As for Dan, there are no literal necklaces involved (yet) but Alia never feels the need to hide their relationship. She knows that Dan loves her for her and not for her reputation or her name, and by the time they return to New York together, heâs the only one who actually knows who she is anymore, because everyone else still sees her as the girl she used to be
I recall late November, holding my breath Slowly I said, "You don't need to save me But would you run away with me?" Yes (would you run away?)
Another Dalia & Alinate vibe â Alia & Nate used to talk about escaping the UES together and starting over somewhere else, in Europe or the West Coast or really just anywhere where their names wouldnât turn heads the way they do in New York
And for Dalia, well, travelling together is a big part of their relationship. They both want to leave their pasts behind them and get as far away from New York and the UES as they can, and for a long time, they do!
The real difference between the ships is that at the end of the day, Nate canât bring himself to leave his life behind, whereas Dan does.
My baby's fit like a daydream Walking with his head down I'm the one he's walking to (Call it what you want, call it what you want, call it) So call it what you want, yeah Call it what you want to My baby's fly like a jet stream High above the whole scene Loves me like I'm brand new (Call it what you want, call it what you want, call it) So call it what you want, yeah Call it what you want to (Call it what you want, call it) (Call it what you want, call it what you want, call it) (Call it what you want, call it what you want, call it) (Call it what you want, call it what you want, call it) (Call it what you want, call it what you want, call it) (Call it what you want, call it what you want, call it) (Call it what you want, call it what you want, call it) Call it what you want, yeah Call it what you want To
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a lionâs gilded tooth 01. (m)
genre: angst; fluff; mature content; soulmates!au; dystopia!au;
characters: jimin x reader x hoseok;
length: 11.7k;
synopsis:Â in a secluded village of 500, the concept of soulmates is used as a mere means for survival and reproduction. when classmates mysteriously disappear and the future with your first childhood love is threatened under the hands of fate on mating day, your once peaceful life begins spiraling into chaos. now, the only hope to unveil the truths behind humanityâs purpose lies in the secrets of the village and its magical ruins.Â
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The monotonous voice of a familiar female authority echoes incessantly across the vast roomâlifeless and desultory, yet at the same time, ever the more daunting. It's a scene every child has witnessed from the lips of their very own mother, the very year in which a child's wildest imaginations crumbled under the confines of the world's creeping ends. The entirety of adolescence spent outside roaming about in the fields, harvesting the appropriate assets for a befitting pair of viable individuals, enduring the lectures of very adult in the village whom had warned you to take Mating Day seriouslyânone of the eighteen years would ever be enough preparation for anyone to fulfill their sole purpose of fertility.Â
The white tiles lining the floor cut by dozens upon dozens of black and red lines of tape running in every which way reflect an unpleasant flood of light from its similarly white-coated ceiling. The stark contrast of the numerous rows of black chairs organized into three sections across the room were impossible to miss in the mostly monochromatic room. You had heard countless rumors from school regarding the haunting cold air of this room, but myths tend to exist on the sole vitality of a teen's fleeting attention span; this time, however, experience has proven you wrong. Three hours of sitting in this room was enough to send you longing for the earthy vibrancy of your rural villageâthe eye-soothing tones of the grass, the scent of wood freshly dampened by the rain the night before, and the familiar back of his as he frolicked through the meadows with your hand in his.
Please prepare two forms of photo identification and the appropriate documents...
Chills ricochet down your spine and manifest into waves that flood your extremities, where your fingertips fidgeted with the metallic underside of your uniform black seat. The short-lived breath of wind as people bustled about before you in an effort to reach their respective destinations didn't help to cease the growing pain of anxiety mixed with a touch if adrenaline burrowed within your chest.Â
...to ensure a quick and easy check-in. Your cooperation is greatly appreciated.
The sole source of sanity keeping you from screaming at the eeriness of the womanâs directions is the remaining constant in the entirety of your livelihood⌠him.Â
When he rests his hands upon yours, the warmth wades you gently through the directionless waves toward reality; and when you lift your gaze to find him grinning at you with that oh-so-familiar soft smile of his, youâre once again left assured, for you know what lies on the other end of tomorrow's testament of fate.Â
Youâve always known.Â
"Hey, baby, you okay?" his voice cooed as he strokes your head with a prolonged kiss to your temple; with each of his electric touches against your bare skin, the blinding white of the lights disintegrates into reality.Â
You blink slowly, once and twice, until the curve of a grin belonging to the longtime beholder of your affections elicits a skip in tempo against your chest; and before you know it, as if ingrained into your very blueprint, your hands lift to cup his dewy cheek as your thumb runs along his plump, bottom lip. The crescents of his eyes thin even more so, weak with endearment under the embrace of his love.Â
Itâs just as the legends say: the finding of a soulmate is enough to stop even the infinite magnitudes of time itself.Â
âWhat do you mean, Jimin,â you let out a nervous laugh, âIâm fine. Itâs just that this room is�� sort of sucking the life out of me.âÂ
The boy frowns when his hand lays over your cold ones on his cheek, âare you sure? I can always grab a permit from Mr. Wang and see Dr. Li with you.â Â
âIâm fine, Jimin. Every teacher and nurse in this village will be onto us if you donât stop overreacting to my every drop in temperature,â your joke incites a pout from him. âPlus, what in the world do I have to be scared of when I have you right hereââÂ
ââbooooo,â an irking voice hollers from the row of chairs across you. The sheepish giggles from Jimin morphs into a series of cackling, his head thrown back and his hands cover his burning cheeks in embarrassment; whereas you, on the other hand, shoot an unapologetic glare at the boy who just shrugs. With arms spread over the empty chairs beside him, one over the shoulder of a girl, who noticeably fails to hide the lift on the corner of her lips, the boy persists in his antics, âI didnât sign up to watch this lovesick fest, so at least give me some drama! Fight or something!â
âFight?â you ask rhetorically but his smile only widens along with his eyes.Â
âYeah, slap each other or something! God, do you guys ever fight?âÂ
âOkay, I donât know about you and Soyeon, but Jimin and I never fight,â you cross your arms and Jimin wraps an arm over your shoulder, gaze fixated on you with a sweet smile to cheer you on while Hoseok pretends to vomit to the side. âI guess we know which couple is breaking up on Mating Day.âÂ
The couple before you shifts uncomfortably in the lack of a quick rebuttal, particularly Soyeon, whose glance darts to the floor in shambles, and you begin to wonder if you had taken it too farâthat is, until Jung Hoseok opens his big mouth again.
âTch, not us,â he scoffs, the intense gaze of his challenges you to a silent duel of grit, âbecause at least weâre not acting all lovey-dovey out in the open. If anything, Iâm betting the teachers will split you up before tomorrow morning even arrivesââ Â
âand you snap.
âOh, thatâs some big talk, especially coming from you,â your hands would have been completely ready for a fight, as was Hoseok, judging by the twitch of his now furrowed brows accompanied by a death glare, but Jimin holds you back with his two arms hugging you back into the seat beside him.Â
âAlright, alright, calm down guys. Todayâs supposed to be one of the most important days of our lives, letâs not fight, yeah? Why are you two always fighting?â Jiminâs laugh elicits a pressing frown from you and your opponent. The peacemaker simply chuckles again and squishes your cheeks together with one hand, âand Y/N was just joking, right, baby? You didnât mean to take it that far, yeah?â
The one-sided duel persists as your arms are held tightly against your chest and Hoseok refuses to budge except for turning his attention elsewhereâanything but you.Â
âHm?â Jimin nudges you gently.Â
Begrudgingly, you admit to yourself Jimin was right. Attacking Hoseokâs family name was a low blow, but his well-calculated jabs at your future with Jimin made your blood boil. He knew the next two days would be a tremendously precarious time for you two, he knew how you felt about Jimin and your uncertainty, so why would he go out of his way to knock you off your feet during your lowest of lows? Especially when it was such a rarity for him to do so?Â
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âOh, I guess thatâs my turn. Gotta go!â you blurt, evidently relieved by an escape route as you grab your documents and jump to your feet. Just as you pivot on the balls of your feet, a firm hand swiftly whirls you back around until youâre met with a large, orange envelope.Â
âYou almost forgot this. Could you be any more clumsy?â Jimin hands you the file, head tilted to devote his sole attention at his girl above. His eyes glimmer and lips stretch into a cheeky grin, fully expecting a reward. Without missing a second, you blow him a kiss and he dramatically pretends to collapse to the floor, overwhelmed by your grace. Hoseok groans once again, surprisingly accompanied by Soyeonâs giggle, and you catch sight of Jimin shrugging as you turn your back on them. âSorry, Hosoek, but you know Iâm always on Y/Nâs side.âÂ
The sweet taste of victory manifests in the power of your strides, but alas, all good things must come to an end when you find your dirt-stained, gray shoes bumping into a mahogany podium. Gulping, you take a deep breath and force your eyes to meet those of whom could soon dictate your very futureâ
ââY/N!âÂ
A puff of air escapes the labyrinth of knots within your chest; because to your surprise, an old acquaintance sits before you amidst the waves of nostalgia that submerges you chest-deep.Â
âWhy if it isnâtââ the jovial color of her voice is abruptly replaced by a split second, perhaps because of the slight discomfort hidden beneath your subconscious or the restrictions of her current profession, ââY/N, itâs been so long since weâve last spoken, hasnât it?âÂ
You struggle to dedicate your wary gaze on a single subject before finally settling on the woman before you. From your lower angle, neck craning and lips ever-so-slightly quivering, itâs almost as if the clock had been reverted to ten years back. â...yeah, it has been.âÂ
âHow are your parents?â she asks while meddling with your files.Â
âTheyâre doing well,â you mentally scramble to fill the impending silence, âand how are you doing, Ms. Jung?â
âIâve beenâŚâ she pauses, intentionally keeping her hands preoccupied with the shuffling of files, â...alright.â
For being a direct relative of Hoseokâs, his mother is much more composed and you feel obligated to press further.Â
âAre you sure? You seem very tired, Ms. Jung. Is there something on your mind?âÂ
She takes a deep breath and sighs the heaviest of sighs. The mother is evidently troubled by an unspeakable matter for nights, weeks, months on end. Hair short, thin, and gray, the worn condition of her sleepless eyes are kept hidden as she persists in keeping them peeled to your files. âIâll be fine, darlingââ another sigh ââit might be difficult for you to understand at your age, but as big of a day this is for you children, itâs just as nerve-wracking for us parents, if not more.â
âAhââ a surge of guilt overcomes you for the remark you had made on Hoseokâs accursed family name ââno, I understand, Ms. Jung. I could only imagine how hard it must be to send your child off with someone who might very well be a stranger.âÂ
You catch the mother biting her tongue in a fruitful attempt to stop the words from flowing; on the contrary and to your disliking, your lips fail to seal the years of burden.Â
âI mean, we get married to someone we might not even know, then weâre expected to suddenly start a family of our own, and we donâtâactually, no oneâhas a say in what the future holds for us all because of this thing we call fate⌠sometimes I donât understand who, why, or how this system was even made. How does it help any of us?â
The mother redirects her attention from the paper and onto the child before her, clearly taken aback by their anxious state of mind, for she had never witnessed the child delve into adult matters.Â
Your vague silhouette reflects in her widened orbs and you begin to wonder: maybe, just maybe, somewhere hidden deep, buried and shunned, lies your greatest fears of tomorrow.Â
âWell, it wouldnât be a complete stranger,â the mother reassumes her spot in the committee. âYou children know every other child there is on this land. In the worst case scenario, which, mind you, could never possibly arise, your mate would be a classmate youâve exchanged glances with but never spoken to. Nothing a bit of conversation canât fix. If fate says itâs meant to be, then itâs meant to be.
You gulp the impending wail in the back of your throat and force yourself to look her directly in the eye, âand⌠how does fate know itâs meant to be? Why donât I, the bearer of my very own flesh and being, not have a say in my soulmate? I know who I love, I know who loves meââÂ
ââsh,â the woman harshly cuts you off, leaning forward to whisper a warning in the form of a matter of fact, âtrust the system.âÂ
At surface level, her eyes are devoid of empathy akin to the cold rules of the system, but the glimmers of her wavering gaze reminds you of the mother who fears for the future of her child. Powerless against the hands of destiny, you remain silent.Â
âIâm required by protocol to ask this of you,â the mother clears her throat as she gathers the piles of papers, âhave you engaged in any form of the following activities?â
Handholding?Â
âNo.âÂ
You deny having grazed the soft skin of his hand for the first time in the meadows, concealed by the golden tall grass, far and away from the intrusive eyes of others. The callus which had just begun developing on his palms as a helper of the harvesting season, the first sign of maturation, still burns vividly in your memories.Â
Skinship?
âNo.â
The radiance of the sun had never shone so brightly before; his hair glowed of light brown, nearly blond, the dewiness of his skin reflected the gift of God, and when he whirled around with his hands clenched firmly around yours and a smile plastered across his lipsâŚ? You had never believed in celestial beings, but if you had to on that very day, Jimin would have been the closest to an angel.Â
Relationships?
It takes you more than a second to respond, because how could someone ever deny the existence of feelings as fervent and real as this? Everything blazed of gold that day, his hair, his eyes, his smile, his very being, your heart, and youâre determined to protect them. This memory belonged to you and him only. No one could strip you of this right, not even destiny.Â
âNo.â
Ms. Jung watches you for an uncomfortable second of a pause before nodding her head. She proceeds to pour a string of melted red wax onto your envelope as a seal of approval until, suddenly yet calmly, she catches sight of her son striding across the room from the corner of her eyes. âHowâs Hoseok doing?â
âHoseok?â you almost choke at the mention of his name, a stark contrast to the composed mother across from you. âUh, I mean, heâs doing fine. I think. Yeah, heâs outscoring everyone in class if that says anything.â
âI know that, Iâm his mother,â she laughs. âWhat I donât know, however, is his life outside of home and work. His friends, hobbies, and⌠interests, things like that. You, Jimin, and Hoseok used to be so close. Where did all that time go? It's hard to believe you three are all grown up and ready to be wedded. Sometimes, I wish things couldâve stayed like that.âÂ
â...yeah,â you utter under your breath, âI wished so, too.â
The mother sighs in fondness over the decades that had flown by in the blink of an eye. âI remember when I was 18. Mating Day was all the girls ever fussed about back then. Weâd make bets on who ended up with who and some daredevils even vied to be paired with our crushes⌠is it still like that for you girls?â
âUm,â you pause, wondering if anything you say would be used against you before proceeding with caution, âI⌠donât think so. At least I donât.â
âReally?â she frowns. âWell, thatâs good. I would advise you all not to let your hopes get the best of you. Sometimes, things end up for the best even if it doesnât seem so at the forefront. I guess thatâs why they instilled this system in the first place. If humans canât find their soulmates, maybe magic is our only option. Perhaps marriages never worked out before our age.â
âYou think so?â
âWe could only make our best predictions all day and still end up with an indefinite answer,â her sighs come to an abrupt stop along with the shuffling of your papers, âand⌠do you know if HoseokâŚ?â
Oh, she must not be aware of Soyeon. Contrary to the tightly knit bond he had seemingly bore, Hoseok has refrained from introducing his one living parent to the lady of his future. Understandably, his motherâs spot in the Committee could play a role in his decision, but it still struck you as odd.
Three clients down the line, you manage to spot his head as he hands his own envelope to the staff before him. Peculiar that you had never noticed it until now, but from your angle, Hoseok appears much more capable of an individual than you had previously presumed. Perhaps itâs that taller stature and unwavering gaze of his, but he almost resembled a boy undergoing the coming of age.Â
The whole world has only just begun crashing down on you, a child still unfit for the harsh realities of the many years to come; but for Hoseok, that stern demeanor of his, determination ablaze in his orbs and shoulders ready to uphold the burdens of the future, bellows a silent warcry against any adversity who dares to pose a threat.Â
The boy presses on, eyes glued to the task before him, but something in you knows he was more than aware of your gaze. Truthfully, you don't mind his disregard for your statesâin fact, you would rather keep it this wayâbut how peculiar is it that a mere human being could hear the unspoken motives of another? If someone were to ask you how you could be so sure of his disregard, you would have no proof but an instinctive feeling backed by baseless confidence and an intangible connection.Â
Conclusively, you hate to admit it, but heâs undeniably more capable than any boy or girl under this roof.Â
âHeâll be okay, Ms. Jung,â your hands instinctively reach out for hers before you could stop yourself; nevertheless, the pressed upturn of your lips makes its best effort to comfort the mother of a childhood friend. âHeâll get through whatever life has in store for him. I promise.â
âAyâŚâ she drawls, retracting her hands to quickly wipe the premature waterworks from her cheeks, âwhat am I worrying about? Tomorrow will be a new beginning for you children, I couldnât be happier.â
âRight,â you force yourself to nod with a grin.
âHere are your files,â the mother returns the envelope over the counter. âThe initiation will begin at dawn, so be in bed and asleep by midnight. When you awaken, thatâs when the initiation officially begins. The terrain will resemble the village exactly, itâs like lucid dreaming. Instead of waking in your bedroom, however, your new location is decided by the system. The rules are as follows⌠One, you are free to roam. Two, violence is prohibited. Three, self harm is prohibited. Four, the first individual of the opposite sex you come across is officially your mate. Five, soulmates can not be traded or switched under any circumstances. Failure to participate and violations to any of the preceding rules will result in dire consequences. Any questions?â
How dire could the consequences be?Â
If it werenât for the stress of her words and the haunting cases of missing classmates over the years keeping your mouth shut, curiosity would have gotten the best of you today.Â
âNo, I understand. Do I need to sign anything?â
âNo, the system only requires an oral obligation for the accountability of your actions,â the mother takes a deep breath and draws out a heavy sigh. For the first time since that fateful day buried deep in your recollections, Ms. Jung looks you eye-to-eye with utmost sincerityâone adulterated by sorrow. âI wish you nothing but happiness for the future.â
âThank you, Ms. Jung.âÂ
Youâre only able to mumble your last words, for the buildup of tension drained you of vitality as you gather your belongings and make a strong, right turn toward the direction you came from. Quickly, you realize Hoseok had already finished checking in and gathered with Soyeon and Jimin from across the room. Soyeon keeps her head low, the platinum blond strands of hair providing curtains over her shifty eyes. On the other hand, the two boys watch intently as you approach them, one beaming with glee at the exuding confidence of his beloved and the other arching a brow at you in curiosity rather than concern.Â
âWhat took you so long?âÂ
âTch,â you click your tongue, âI take back everything positive I ever thought about you. I was talking to your mom, dumbass.â
âYou? Positive? About me?â he clarifies grotesquely. âGood, Iâd rather you take it back.â
âItâs fine by me no matter how long you take,â Jimin sing-songs, cheerfully embracing you and rocking you side to side but your eyes never ceases to shoot death glares at Hoseok. âAs long as I have my baby back!â
âWhy are you even here still?â you point at the boy accusedly.Â
âActually,â he wraps an arm around Soyeonâs shoulder and she nearly jumped in surprise. âI wanted you to bring Soyeon along with you to the graduation ceremony.â
âWait, why? I mean, I donât mind, but why doesnât she just go with you?â
Hoseok snorts, âare you dumb?â
Jimin hugs you even tighter and bursts into giggles when he notices you preparing to pounce at your enemy with fists raised, âwe still have to change into our caps and gowns, remember?âÂ
âSo what? Theyâre dating, they can change together!â
The reactions that follow greatly vary as Soyeonâs cheeks turn beet red, Jiminâs cackles increases in volume, and Hoseok only scoffs.Â
âAnd?â he crosses his arms, tilting his chin as if to point at Jimin. âHave you ever seen Jimin naked?âÂ
âWell, I mean, no,â you gape at his promiscuous remark. The smirk of victory plastered across his lips nearly gets your blood boiling as you huff in defeat and Jimin begins laughing so hard he has to nuzzle his head against your temple. âFine, you win. Soyeon would have a much better time with me anyways, right?âÂ
âHuh?â her eyes pop and she barely utters under her breath. â...I donât know.âÂ
This time, Hoseok joins Jimin in his fit of laughter and youâve finally had enough. With a punch to Jiminâs arm, you retract yourself from his embrace, âyou having fun laughing, huh?â
âI⌠I didnât mean it that way!â Soyeonâs clutch to your arm surprises you.Â
âItâs fine,â you grumble, finally managing to break free from Jiminâs bear hug. âCâmon, Soyeon, letâs go.â
âNooo, baby, Iâm sorry!â Jimin tries his best at apologizing, tumbling over his incessant giggles. He taps at his cheek like a puppy looking for a prize, âat least give me a kiss before you go, hm? Please?â
Instead of succumbing to his desperate albeit adorable pleas, you answer with the link of Soyeonâs arms and marching off into the distance toward the doors. While you were determined to storm off without a glance back over your shoulder, Soyeonâs muffled giggles piques your interest.Â
âNooo,â Jimin cries, hands dramatically reaching out toward you, âY/N! Donât leave me with him!âÂ
âHim? Itâs not like I want to be with you either,â Hoseok emphasizes, holding Jimin back and scolding, âquit it unless you want to get in trouble.â
âIâm sorry for being a bother⌠you really donât have to accompany me,â Soyeon says ever-so-softly. âItâs just that Iâve always spent my breaks with Hoseok and I donât really know any of our classmatesâŚâ
âOh, itâs totally fine. I spend most of my time with Jimin, too,â you assure her with a light tug at your left arm which linked with hers, âjust to set the record straight, Iâm at war with Hoseok, not you. Although, you could have pretended to side with me for just a secondââ
ââoh! Iâm sorry, I didnât mean to embarrass youâŚâ she dips her head along with her voice. âThe words just slipped before I knew itâŚâ
âItâs okay! I was just joking!â you laugh nervously at her sudden timidness. How does someone as gentle and pristine as Soyeon handle someone like the rash and blunt Hoseok? If Soyeon was the lamb taming the lion Hoseok, then what would you and Jimin resemble? Unbeknownst to you, it would be a question left unanswered for the endless years to come. âYou two do make a great couple, though.â
Itâs the first time you hear Soyeon laugh so gleefully and something in you just knows the next two days would surely be a first of many.Â
The next of firsts arrives much earlier than you had unexpected and unpleasantly so. Previously, you had the false presumption of having made acquaintances of your every classmate, but when you skim around the classroom and fail to identify the explicit reasoning behind an inkling of uneasiness, you begin to doubt yourself.Â
What were their names? What did they look like? Where did they sit?Â
The shroud of questions only elevates the discomfort of having all the answers on the tip of your tongue yet arriving to none.Â
Today marks the first time a classmate of yours fell victim to one of the many missing cases.Â
âWell,â a man clears his throat and the booming, gruff voice of his snaps you back to reality.Â
The stout homeroom teacher paces in front of the green chalkboard but your eyes remain peeled to the opposite side of the classroom, where you suspect your missing classmates must have had resided. On your immediate right, Hoseok shoots you a quick glimpse, brows furrowed for a split second before redirecting to the front of the classroom. Jimin, to the left of empty spots where two desks would have fit so perfectly, blows you a kiss along with a cheeky grin, crescent eyes beaming with a transient joy that warms your heart.Â
âToday will be your last day in this classroom. Some of you never paid attentionââ he directs a stern look at Jimin, who scrunches his shoulder and slumps into his chair in preparation for a disciplinary lecture that never comes ââsome of you slept through class and still passed with flying colorsââ this time itâs your turn to duck ââand some, well, one of you were the best model student I could have asked forââ Hoseok is shot with fourteen pairs of death glares but he remains neither content nor bothered âânonetheless, you all made it.â
Maybe itâs the monumental step youâre all about to take, or maybe itâs the tears welling up in the figure of admiration you all had held at some point along the past fifteen years, but the air remains deafeningly silent, as if in a vain attempt to hold back the impending sobs. Everyone knows one another in this classroom, their stupid habits, fleeting hobbies, fervent crushes, and so, for the last time ever, everyoneâs eyes remains on the graying elder pacing between the rows of desks.Â
âIâve had the pleasure of teaching you rascals, every single one of you. Iâve watched you all grow from the little kids that you were into the wonderful men and women you are today,â he removes his square-framed glasses to rub the waterworks off his cheeks and his words become incomprehensible by the chokes that ensue, âand I hope that when y-you⌠h-have children, youâll b-bring them to m-me, a-andââ
ââbooooo,â everyone stares at the boy who had hollered, taken aback for a split second before bursting into laughter; even Mr. Wang begins choking on his laughs intermixed with jovial sobs, and you can finally confirm your long-held suspicion Jay had his own silver linings as a troublemaker. The boyâs lopsided grin is accompanied by snickers, âhow long are you going to lecture us, Mr. Wang? I thought you said this would be our last!âÂ
âAlright, alright,â the teacher lets out one last chuckle before gesturing to the boy beside you, âwell, then, would you do the honors for the last time, student representative?â
The boy nods, pushing his seat back effortlessly and standing to his feet with one swift, confident sway. His gaze remains fixated neither on the teacher nor the classmates, rather, his laser-like attention devotes itself to a far more intangible phenomenon invisible to anyone but himâand it could have just been you or the entire class, but youâre incapable of looking away.Â
âEveryone, stand,â Hoseok orders and everyone obeys with a loud screeching of chairs. âReady and bow.â
In a fleeting moment of unity, the students bow in respect for the retirement of the past caretaker and in the face of the daunting future.Â
âThank you, Mr. Wang!â
âYou kids are really going to make me cry,â he shakes his head yet the grin sits proudly on his face, âyou are all officially dismissââ
âthe words just barely escape his lips when the class erupts into a roar. Classmates dart for the front of the class, pushing you along into the mass of students. Youâre forced to follow the lead of the swarm when, suddenly, the teacher is thrown into the air and brought out into the hallway, intentionally joining forces with the neighboring classrooms. Despite being squished, pushed, and pulled in a mob of barbaric students, you canât help but break out into an uncontrollable fit of laughter; and all the while, Jimin is the only one on your mind.Â
âJimin! Where are you?â you call out to him and turn gleefully when someone taps you on your left shoulder. To your surprise, you spot an unexpected face of a bellowing classmate; and amidst the chaotic confusion, a familiar pair of lips plants a firm kiss to your right cheek.Â
It goes without saying, your heart swells into an immediate mush and you canât help but laugh.
âRight here, princess,â Jimin links his arm around yours, nose wrinkling in the company of his cheeky grin. âI finally got my kiss.â
You shake your head, âbut I didnât kiss you.â
âNo, but I kissed you and thatâs even better,â he coos.Â
âThatâs not playing by the rules, though.âÂ
âNo? Then I guess you can punish me⌠with five more kisses!â
You can barely respond amidst your giggles, âhow is that a punishment?â
âYouâre right, what could possibly be better than my kisses?â he pouts, fluttering his eyelids to feign innocence.Â
Hastily scanning the hall for the peering eyes of teachers, all of whom are too preoccupied with being thrown into the air, you intertwine your fingers with his. âActually, you know, I am kind of disappointed that none of the teachers know about usâŚâ
âAw, baby, I would want the whooole world to know if I could,â Jimin sulks, âbut weâll have to wait until tomorrow, so five kisses for now would be easier!â
The corners of your lips stretch even wider and you could even feel your cheeks growing sorer by the second when you crane your neck back to avoid Jiminâs oncoming puckered lips.
ââhey Y/N, if that man doesnât stop disrespecting you,â the both of you glance wide-eyed at Jay, who follows along at the side of the swarming crowd. A sharp gasp inflates your lungs when the boy winks, clearly neglecting Jiminâs scowl, âyou know who to get. Match with me tomorrow?â
âWhat?!â Jiminâs shouts of fury are buried by the cheers of the crowd. Jay only shrugs nonchalantly, preparing for a sprint down the hall when Jimin raises his fists. âIâm not disrespecting my baby! She enjoys my kisses!â
âWhatever helps you sleep at nightââ
ââquit interrupting our banters!âÂ
...and just like that, the boys disappear into the distance, one giving chase and the other snickering tauntingly.Â
Shaking your head, you could only roll your eyes at what had just played out before you. The euphoric adoration for Jimin had been enough to numb the pain of being shuffled around mercilessly in the crowd, but it doesnât take long until your body comes to acknowledge its toll.Â
âAlright, quit it! Iâm out!â you try to maneuver your way out, yet to no oneâs surprise, the flashmob misconstrues your pleas as a cheer to fight on. Groaning as loudly as you could, you yell, âstop pushingââ
ââget out of the way if you canât handle it, then,â the familiar husk of a voice irks your ears when a firm pair of hands settles on your shoulders and moves you to the outside of the crowd. Peering up at the boy, you grimace at his backhanded gesture of an aid. Hoseok ignores your glare with a question, âdid you see Soyeon anywhere?â
âI donât know. Iâm in the same class as you, dumbass.âÂ
âWhoa, okay, calm down tiger, just asking,â Hoseok throws his hands up in defeat.Â
In the midst of rolling your eyes, you spot Jimin at the opposite end of the hall. Completely devoted to showing Jay a piece of his mind, Jimin proceeds to slap the boy, who ducks from his attacks, along with several jabs to his bottom with a knee. Eyes diverting to the more proximal boy whom you could catch staring at you from your peripheral vision, you quirk a brow at Hoseokâs snide, lopsided grin.Â
âWhat?â
âNothing,â an impertinent chortle follows, âIâm just trying to stop myself from puking after witnessing just how smitten you are.â
âI swear, youâre going to be the death of me someday,â you raise a threatening hand but Hoseokâs gaze remains fixated on you, hands buried in his pockets, and stance unbudged.Â
You hadnât noticed until now, when that devilish smirk of his gradually shifts to a genuine symbol of bliss more resembling to the childhood friend you had once known, you finally realize the fortunate spot you had taken amidst the crowd. While you suffer little to no impact, Hoseok's widened stance jostled, arms constantly bumped into and legs nearly tripped under the endless stream of incoming passersby.Â
"Yeah?" he arches a brow. "You look awfully happy to me right now."
"Of course," you quickly add, "because of Jimin."
"Why?" his smile grows wider. "Because after today you'll finally be allowed to kiss your boyfriend in public?"Â
The sheepish chortle that slips from your lips is enough of an answer.
"Well," Hoseok chuckles, the burning gaze of his still fixated on you, "I'm glad at least one of us is happy."
"What?" you frown. "Are you not?"
The boy refrains from answering, or perhaps he did, for he simply presses a thin, small upturn of a smile at you and takes a step to the side. Your body nearly collapses to the floor when several students forcefully weave their way in between the two of you.Â
There it is, again, your sheer, utter confidence of his indifference toward the look of concern plastered all over your face as he redirects his attention to the teachers being flying into the air; but before you could inquire any further, an arm links with your right elbow and tugs you to the back and away from the crowd.Â
"Jimin?"
"C'mon," he has to cup a hand over your ears, lips grazing against your burning red ears. "I have something to show you."
"Wait, but our celebrationâ"
"Would you rather waste your time in this chaos or spend your time alone with me?"Â
The beat of a heart is all it takes for you to squeeze his hand in agreement and his to squeeze yours.
"Ahh, how lucky am I to have someone as cute as you," he gushes and you can't help the rush of blood that rushes to your cheeks, "I always knew we were meant to be."
The words didn't need to be said, for your silence is enough of a declaration to the universe.Â
I did too.
âŚand so, the Prince whisks you away into a land only fathomable in the reminiscence of a dream.
At a brief, magical fragment in time, when the cheers fade into the distance of the past and the hollers become a facade of the present as they remain ringing in your ears, golden hour strikes.
You could tell from the way the Sun screams into the skiesâloud, red, ethereal.Â
You could tell from the way the meadow is set ablaze into a treasure chest of gold.Â
You could tell from the way the zephyrs brushes gently past two pairs of shoulders and trails along the field akin to the blue waves in the aftermath of a calamity.Â
You could tell from the way he breaths, slow, soft, and cautious to prolong the delicacy of this moment in time, from the way he keeps his gaze fixated on one too abashed to reciprocate, in fondness and complete awe, from the way neither of you spoke yet proclamations of affection deafen the gray silence.Â
This undeniable connection could never be put into words.Â
âI guess this is our last time in the school yard, huh?â you speak, finally mustering the courage to meet his tender gaze. The smile dancing on those pressed lips of his only widens in response. âYou know, weâve watched the sun set here together so many times, but I donât think itâs ever looked this beautiful.â
âMmâŚâ Jimin hums. âMaybe the sun is celebrating with us today?â
âCelebrating?â
âYeahââ he lets in a small gasp and points to your left ââwhatâs going on over there?!â
âWhat?â your neck turns so abruptly that you could almost feel a strain coming on. âWhatâs going on?â
In a magical spur of the moment, a gust of wind passes by as it rustles the meadow and trees beneath its wing span. The breeze serves as a perfect cover-up for the boy who lets out a muffled huff while the wooden bench dips and his foot stomps to stir the dirt beneath.Â
âJimin, I literally donât see anything,â you squint one last time off into the distance of the empty meadow before whirling back around only to stumble upon another one of his antics.
There, sitting still and basking in the warmth of the sun flooring upon his cheeks and yours, Jimin grins cheekily with a bouquet of white flowers.Â
ââtada!â he sings, handing you the arrangement. âCongratulations, Y/N.âÂ
âWhaâbut for what?â you hold the flowers close to your chest, still agape by the surprise.Â
âFor graduating.â
âBut you graduated, tooâŚ?â
â...and for your birthday,â he continues.Â
âMy⌠birthdayâŚâ you narrow your eyes at him, âis next week⌠did you already forget?âÂ
âI know, I know,â Jimin laughs, smile wider than ever until he settles into the whispers of the ephemeral breeze. He watches you tenderly. âHow would I ever forget my babyâs birthday?âÂ
You struggle to speak as he pinches your cheeks, âthen why are you handing me this now?â
âMmâŚâ the grin remains even as he presses his lips, eyes gazing off to the skies before returning to you, âbecause this is more romantic and now youâre ruining it!âÂ
âAhâŚâ
âWhat? You donât want it? Fine, I like flowers too, you know,â Jimin attempts to retract the flowers from you in a fit of laughter but your bear hug to his arm prevents him from doing so.Â
âNope, too late, theyâre mine,â your head rests comfortably in the crook of his neck, âand just so you know, I donât need presents anymore. Youâre the best one I could ever ask for.â The boy only chuckles softly, head turning to place a firm kiss to your head. His hand weaves through your locks of hair as he patted the back of your head gently before wrapping an arm over your shoulder to pull you in tighter. âHey, do you remember the first time you ever gave me a flower? And I say a flower because it was literally one flower.â
Jimin erupts into cackles and you smile just knowing the sheepish look on his face right now as he throws his head back in embarrassment. âYou mean the first time I ever broke the law and stole something from work just to officially ask you out four years ago?âÂ
âYep,â you join him in his laughter, âdidnât we meet back here, too?â
âMhm.â
âWould you count that as our first date, then?â you ponder.
âMaybe,â he pauses and chortles, âbut I like to think that Hoseok was just third-wheeling on our dates before high school.â
A transient set of laughter ensues before the two of you bask in the silence, vicariously reminiscing over the memories of the other.Â
It had never been easier to leap through time.
âSo this is it, huh? Our last day together as students.â
âSoon weâll be married and having kids of our own,â he turns to place another kiss to your forehead.Â
âDo you⌠feel like youâre ready?âÂ
âWell, we just finished school and now weâre suddenly expected to become full-fledged adults, not to mention parents. Itâs a bit overwhelming,â he sighs but you could feel the rise of his cheeks pressed against your head as he smiles, âbut Iâm ready for anything as long as Iâm with you.â
âOh, whatâs this? Jimin is actually being serious for once? As much as I enjoyed it, I have to say you were awfully needy today.â
His nose scrunches at your teases when a mischievous grin replaces his discontent.Â
âThen can I have my kiss now?â
âYou already have! At least three times by now,â you stress.
âAy,â Jimin bashfully laughs with eyes fixated on your lips longingly, âyou know what I mean!âÂ
An innate reflex of self mechanism brings your hands to your prized possession but the flush of beet red on your cheeks gives you away. âYou can tomorrow.âÂ
His laughs become a homogeneous mix of nerves and frustration, âwhy tomorrow? I want to kiss you nooow.â
Why tomorrow? Heâs right. Why tomorrow and does it have anything to do with the burning anxiety that gnaws at your chest, constricting your airway and highlighting the fear of this very momentâs transience in that when you awaken tomorrow morning, he could and would no longer remain by your side?
Hastily, you nuzzle your head into his shoulder once again in a fruitless attempt to mask your greatest nightmares. You point to the tall, sturdy oak tree that had aged like fine wine throughout your childhood years, âthink about it, weâll meet out there in the fields where we first met, where we fell in love for the first time, and weâll meet out there again in our dreams, have our first kiss, and start our future together all under the very same tree.â
His silence has your heart dangling at the edge of a cliff and you lift your head to find him gazing off into fields, perhaps sulking or reminiscing but most definitely riddled with deep thoughts.Â
âYeah, Jimin?â you gently shake his arm. âLetâs meet over there tonight. It doesnât matter where and when we start initiation. We can wait for each other. Yeah?â
âBut we donât need to do that.â the corner of his lips curve ever-so-slightly as he finally gives you a soft smile. âThe system functions on the basis of soulmates. Who could be a better match than us two?â
âI know, but⌠but what if it doesnât work?â
âItâs always worked, Y/N. How has our village survived and repopulated for all these years?â
âI know,â you emphasize, brows furrowing at the orchestration of pain hammering against your chest with each beat. âI know, Jimin, but does the system really always work? I meanââ you scramble to gather the thoughts that stings within your bloodstream ââdid you not notice how two of our classmates are missing? Itâs terrible, I canât even remember their names but I could have sworn I knew them, and even if I donât know who they were, the memories of when we talked and when we laughed, theyâre all gone and no one seems to notice!â
âY/NâŚ?â Jimin lets out a nervous laugh. âWhatâre you going on aboutâŚ?â
âYou donât remember, do you?â The myriad of incessant, sleepless nights come crashing down on you all at once. âThe missing numbers in our village, the abandoned houses made out to be new infrastructure, no one questions it and Iâm starting to wonder if I really am going crazyââ
ââY/N,â his apathetic tone adorns the stoic look on his face and he meets the wavering gaze of yours straight on, âI donât know whatâs been going on recently, but it will be okay. It will work. Questioning things is useless, itâll just bring you more stress. Try not to worry for me, even if someday for whatever reason Iâm not there to remind you to, please donât ever carry the burden all by yourself okay?âÂ
 âFine, but just,â you struggle to take a calm, deep breath of air amidst the wavering waves that escapes, âjust promise me this once, okay Jimin?â
âItâll be okââ
ââJimin!âÂ
The both of you are taken aback by your cry and youâre riddled with regret at the sight of unforgivable guilt plastered on his now softened features.Â
âOkay,â he utters under his breath, squeezing your hand, âI promise.â
Are you truly descending into madness? Or is this a momentary shock from the overwhelming fear of the unknown? The mysteries of the village and the horrid consequences of the system could have been conjured from the nightmares amassed throughout the months leading up to tonight, but lit in the darkness of uncertainty, the warmth of Jiminâs hands, beckoning for you to come forth, is enough of a reason to forget, even if just momentarily.Â
âPlus,â Jimin breaks the stillness of the air with a chuckle, âthe only person we should be worrying about is Hoseok.âÂ
âOhââ the thought had completely been overlooked ââyouâre right. If the system truly works, then why is it that the Jungâs always have the worst luck of the draw?âÂ
âI⌠donât know. There isnât anything we can do about it and Iâve always hated how Iâd spend hours and hours just wondering what I could do, but I donât know.âÂ
The sun draws its color from the skies with it, leaving traces of its wake along the impending night soon to befall upon it, and all you could do was watch.
âItâs scary,â you hug Jiminâs arms closer to your chest and he glances at you in utter awe, âto be a mere child and have everyone warning you about who you meet and who you play with and how you could very well meet the catalyst of your own death simply because of the blood youâre born with.â
âAww, is my baby actually concerned for Hoseok?â Jimin cackles at your scowl. âWell, everyone knows about the curse of being married into the Jungs, but that doesnât seem to stop girls from fawning over him, does it? He is smart after all⌠and tallâŚâ
âWhat,â this time itâs your turn to tease, âare you jealous?â
âNope!â he nuzzles his head against yours. âI donât care how many girls like me because I only have eyes for you.â
âRight, right,â your laughs are whisked away by a breeze. âWho knows? Maybe Hoseok might even end up with Soyeon. I hate to admit it, but theyâre a pretty good match. I can tell she really loves him. I donât know about Soyeon, but she must be his soulmate. Hah, wouldnât he just love that?âÂ
âYou think so? I have a feeling heâll be okay,â Jimin hums passively but when you glimpse at him, his eyes scream âI will save you.âÂ
A pause ensues.
âYou know, as much as I dislike that boy and regardless of how long itâs been since we hung out six years ago, heâs still our friend. To be honest, a part of me doesnât want tomorrow to ever come. Things are perfect the way they are now. Weâre together and Hoseok is fine and happy with Soyeon. I feel bad for using his name against him today.â
âItâs okay, Y/N. We all make mistakes. Iâm sure he wonât hold it against you. I donât know how but weâll save him if it ever comes down to it, right, Y/N?â he smiles softly when you nod timidly. âMost importantly, donât be scared of tomorrow. Weâll get through whatever life throws at us together, okay?â  Â
âOkay.âÂ
âSoâŚâ Jimin utters under his breath, low, raspy, nearly inaudible, but you could sense the oncoming cheekiness of his. âCan I kiss you now?â
âI said tomorrow!â
Your attempts to avoid his watchful gaze prove to be in vain when heat flushes your skin and you catch Jimin grinning in amusement from the corner of your eyes.Â
Heartstrings are tuggedâplucked, evenâas he leans in to place his lips against your right cheek. He waits, prolonging the momentary freeze in time, before finally pulling away and squeezing your hand.Â
âCome on, letâs go. Itâs getting dark now.â
Despite his beckoning, the boy allows you to take the lead home. Your hand remains snug in his, guiding him forward with small, reluctant strides until he finally comes to a stop. The world spins as youâre whirled around by a tug at the hand and you find yourself stranded in the middle of a field in the arms of your love.Â
âJimin?â
Your words fall upon deaf ears, for the stern, intent look of his eyes that stirs your beating chest and the butterflies in your stomach.Â
âCan I kiss you?â Â
His hands trail up your arms, grazing your skin along the way, until they cup each of your cheeks. Gradually, ever so slowly, he approaches, watching your every motion. He held you, firmly yet gently, and you just know he could see through your every emotion, from the electricity that runs to your extremities to the flip of your heart that waits in anticipation with each inch of his encroachment; for just before your eyes flutter closed, you spot the curve dancing in the corner of his lips.Â
Finally, he closes the remaining distance.
Time comes to a halt.
His flesh is soft, warm, and dewy against yours. He caresses you softly, as if fearful of breaking his most prized delicacy in his very own hands.Â
Tender and with love, you share your last firsts of today; but when you pull away, his hands stop yours from leaving the nape of his neck.
âAgain.â
...and again, and again.
Having completed its grand finale, the sun sets and reluctantly so.
The magnitude of the challenge that comes with tonight finally dawns upon you.Â
You could still feel the reminiscence of his touch on your lips as you lay on your bed, too stirred to fall asleep. Staring at the ceiling above, you shut your eyes and bask in the rarity of complete silence within your now empty household.Â
You have two options. One, you knock yourself out into sleep now and get this initiation over with. Two, you sneak out of the house, risk being caught, possibly miss the start of initiation, and tire yourself out into sleep.
As with every Mating Day, every parent should be gathered in the headquarters of the village where you had checked in earlier today, so you figured no one should be roaming outside. Even if there were to be unexpected spectators, stealth came second to your innate senses, for you had snuck out to meet Jimin in his house or the schoolyard countless times before.Â
In reality, there isnât anything but answers that could halt these restless thoughts of yours. Jiminâs adamant trust in the system, his reluctance to meet with you, and the missing classmates that had gone under the radar strike you with concern on the most important of nights. You needed assurance from another perspective; and so, you find yourself creeping along the plain fields, the absence of tall grass keeping you completely out in the open where, fortunately, only the moon bore witness to your rendezvous.
âWhatâre you doing?â
The sound of his voice incites goosebumps on your arms along with the chilly, still air of the night.
âWhat took you so long? Iâm freezing out here,â you glare at the boy who stands at his doorside; the moonlight illuminates the thick locks of his chestnut locks, fresh out of a shower, and you catch a golden reflection of light glowing from somewhere within his house.
âWho told you to come here?â Hoseok scoffs. âNever mind freezing, what if youâre caught sneaking around with that dumb stance of yours?âÂ
It takes you a long second to realize what he was referring to. Straightening your back and dropping your hands to your side, you cough in a failed attempt to clear the air.Â
âAnd what about you? Youâre not supposed to be opening doors for strangers, for anyone, actually, tonight.âÂ
Hoseok quirks a brow at your rebuttal, chuckling lowly and adorning a lopsided curve of the lips. âFine, you win. Come in before anyone catches you and youâre really left for dead.âÂ
âWow, are you really that freaked out by tonight because the Hoseok I know would never give up so easily.â The boy only shrugs mischievously, stepping aside as you step foot into his household. âWelp, fine by meââ
âbut your words are cut short when wind is knocked from your lungs and you feel a pair of hands on your shoulders, whirling and pushing you around against the closed door. In the blink of an eye, you find yourself in a familiar household of your childhood with an unfamiliar boy hovering above you with darkened eyes.Â
âAnd youâre not supposed to be entering strangerâs houses tonight, huh? What do you think about that, Y/N?â he cocks his head.Â
âYouâre,â you huff, struggling to hold your breath in the proximity of his face to yours, âyouâre not a stranger.â
âOh but I am.â
âWe might have stopped talking a long time agoââ the way you stumble nervously over your own words reminds you of just how long itâs been since you had been alone with Hoseok ââbut I still know you. Itâs not like youâre a stranger all of a sudden.â
âYeah?â he raises a brow, finally dropping the hand that had hovered over you next to where he pinned you onto the wall. He takes a step back, crosses his arms against his chest, and cocks his head to the right. Following his gesture, your sights land on two flowers perched on a shelf, one with gilded petals that reflect the golden glow of the display lights and another with similar petals that seem to have just begun withering. âWhatâre those called then?â
âWhat does that have anything to do with this?â you frown when he remains unbudged, waiting for your answer. âUh⌠I havenât seen anything like that in our textbooks.â
âThen you donât know me,â he leans against the back of a couch in the living room, âand I thought you were ranked second in our school.âÂ
âItâs a flower in your living room,â you groan when he refuses to see any insight to your argument. âAlright, whatâs it called then, Student Representative?âÂ
âA dandelion.â
âA what?â
âA dandelion,â he chortles, eyes diverting to the display as it glows a vibrant gold. âSome people call it a Lionâs Tooth because of its petals, but when it wilts into a white puff of seeds, something as weak as even the breeze can destroy it like the lion it never was. Pretty neat, huh?â
âNerd,â you scoff. âPlus, doesnât the wind disperse the seeds so it can repopulate in other areas?â
âNerd,â he mocks, returning his attention to you with a crooked grin. âSo? Whyâre you desperate enough to spend time alone with me and not Jimin?â
âIs your mom home?â
âWould I have let you in if she was?â Hoseok deadpans. âSheâs not exempt from the rules. Sheâs at headquarters with the rest of the parents.â
âGood, because I have something⌠serious to ask you about.â
Hoseok raises both brows inquisitively, seemingly taken aback by someone whom had never sought aid from him before. âAll ears.â
âDid you happen toâŚâ you beat around the bush in consideration for the promise you made with Jimin.
âWould you spit it out alreadyââ
ââdid you happen to notice two of our classmates missing today?â
Eyes shut and heart pounding, Hoseokâs silence is deafening.Â
â...three.â
âHuh?â your eyes snap open and you find him looking off to the side.
âThree rows of desks,â he continues, the stoic gaze of his meeting yours, ânone of them were missing. In other words, no.â
Ironically, the sunken weight in chest tells you something in his observation had disappointed you; but what do you have to be disappointed over? Jimin was right, you had nothing to worry about. The excessive stress is starting to get the best of you through these imaginary classmates of yours.Â
âOh, hahaâŚâ you force a nervous laughter, scratching your neck in the loss of a purpose. âI guess I really am going crazy thenâŚâ
Hoseok only watches you, arms crossed and gaze hardened, each one of you wondering just what was going on in the mind of the other.
âDid you come here just to ask me that?â Hoseok finally breaks the silence. âWhy didnât you ask Jimin?â
Should you tell him about the conversation? Would it be odd to confide in a long lost friend over your love conundrums? Instead of answering, you cross arms in defense.Â
âWhat? Is this your first fight with him?â he muses, standing upright and pulling the gray hood of his outerwear over his head. You could only watch in bewilderment of his accurate prediction as he walks past you and out the door. Following in his footsteps, you shut the door behind you. âCâmon, itâs getting late. Iâll walk you home.âÂ
âWhat?â you profusely shake your head. âItâs fine. I can walk myself home. Go get some sleep.â
âLook, Iâm not doing this because I want to, but Iâm not an asshole and I donât want to hear Jimin yelling at me if anything were to happen to you,â he beckons again, tilting his head in the direction of your home and burying his hands in his pockets. âCâmon.â
The walk home seems to take much longer than your way on up here now that the reality of the surreal moment had settled in. You had just visited the house of a childhood friend now coined acquaintance, and now youâre walking home with said boy without a single subject that tied the two of you together other than the past.Â
âSoâŚâ your breathâs penmanship manifests in puffs of white amidst the night air. âHow did you know it was me?â Hoseok turns his head to quirk a brow at you. âI mean, I know youâre not dumb enough to open the door for just anyone tonight, especially⌠not you.âÂ
Hoseok stares at you long enough for you to become self-conscious, obviously contemplating on the omission of truth. âI could always tell it was you whenever you knocked.âÂ
Eyes widening, the implications of his answer dawns upon you as his hands lift toward the sky and his raised forefinger casts a shadow onto the grass. His moonlit tan, honey-like skin and glimmering orbs are a near carbon copy to the friend you once knew.Â
âWe have maybe an hour or two left until initiation begins. Whatâre you gonna do if you miss it? You scared?â Hoseok teases fall short when he glances over at you to find an apathetic look on your face. âWhoa, I was just joking. You think I can actually tell time like thisââ
ââHoseok, are you scared?âÂ
âThatâs not even a good comebackââ
ââno, I mean,â you blurt, âI donât know if Soyeon or anyoneâs ever checked on you, but given your family name, are you scared?âÂ
Hoseok stares at you, lips fallen slightly agape and expression too hard to read for a mere acquaintance like you.Â
âIâm sorry, I shouldnât have asked that. Please just ignoreââ
ââsure I am,â he answers and you could no longer feel the subsequent rapid heartbeats that follow. âIâd be lying if I said I wasn't. Wanna know a secret?â The boy continues despite the lack of an answer. âIâve spent every single night for the past couple of years theorizing and compiling a list of all the possible outcomes of tonight.âÂ
â...and?â
âI think Iâve narrowed it down to who it might be.â
The boyâs gaze remains fixated on you, perhaps out of curiosity, amusement, or even concern over your lack of a response. The truth is, you werenât sure how to comfort him if that time were to come.Â
âWho it might beâŚ?â
âYou know. Of all people, you and Jimin must know,â he muses. âMy accursed mate.âÂ
âOh,â you dip your head low, hoping to conceal the windows to your soul, âIâm sure thatâs just a myth, Hoseok. The system works, doesnât it? Youâll be fine. Youâll probably end up with Soyeon anyways. You guys really compliment each other.âÂ
âYeah?â he stops abruptly in his path and you do the same. âYou think sheâs my soulmate?â
âAnd you donât?âÂ
Hoseok lets out a soft chuckle, âI could only hope.â
Iâll save you. Jimin and I will save you.Â
The thoughts could never find its way out of the labyrinth of your mind.Â
âAlright, Iâd rather have you screaming profanities at me again than watch you stare at me with pity.â
âUm,â you pause, âI feel bad for whoever ends up with you to be honest.âÂ
The boy erupts into cackles, one that hasnât seen the light of day in yearsâor at least to you.Â
âYeah, I hope I donât end up with her either,â he muses, pacing a few steps back away from the front doorsteps of your home. He calls out from afar, âanyways, go get some rest and live your happily ever after with Jimin. Thanks for the concern, but Iâll figure things out on my own.â
âAre you sureâŚâ you say weakly.
âYeah,â he murmurs, âI always have.âÂ
With one last soft smile, he makes a run for home, far off into the inconspicuous distance.Â
The long-awaited night comes to an all-time proximity when, out of the blue, a thundering clatter to your window rattles you awake. The night must have been aging, for the room is pitch-black and the village is left in utter silence as people drifted off to sleep.Â
Nothing should have been outside your house.
Moonlight seeping through the slit of your curtains, you rub your dreary eyes and climb off your bed to wearily draw open your curtainsâ
ââY/N! I know youâre in there!âÂ
âWhatââ your fury grows with each second as you pull open the curtains and step out into the balcony, glaring at the boy on the first floor of your yard, ââwhat the fuck are you doing here, Jay?!â
âI told you⌠Iâd come,â his words are slurred and you surmise the involvement of alcohol, a forbidden substance for those underage, to be a main catalyst for his summoning, ���waltzing in⌠for you if Jimin doesnât...âÂ
âGo home, Jay. You disgusting animal,â you hiss. âIf you stay here any longer, youâre gonna get caught and you might even miss initiation!âÂ
âCâmon,â he beckons and begins climbing the vines along the walls of your house before falling multiple times in his drunken state. âWe can start initiation togeââ
ââJay, for the last time,â your eyes pop open and you begin to wonder whether you were truly dreaming when you spot Jimin grabbing Jay at his air and pulling him to the floor. âIâm going to beat your ass dead if you donât fucking go.â
Jay attempts several sloppy punches that land in thin air and you nearly grimace at the wheezes of air forcibly knocked out of his windpipes.Â
âTch, go!â Jimin points to the direction opposite of your house. âNow!âÂ
Leaving the boy on the ground, heaving for air, Jimin swiftly climbs up the familiar vines, grabbing your hand and leaping into your balcony. The neglect for rest seems to take its toll on the boyâs body when his knees buckle on his landing, sending the both of you tumbling to the floor. In mid-flight, however, Jimin somehow manages to break the fall, for you find yourself on his chest instead of the hard concrete.Â
âJimin,â your eyes widen at the boy who only grins cheekily at you, âam I dreaming? Why are you here?âÂ
âReal question is, why is that guy here?âÂ
Having forgotten the fallen boy, the two of you hastily stumble to your feet and peer over the balcony.Â
Empty.Â
Except for traces of blood that marks the floor, no one is in sight.Â
âWhereâd... whereâd he go?â you shudder in the cold wrath of the night and the tingles that run in your adrenaline-driven blood. âHe just⌠he just disappearedââ
ââY/N, look over there!â Jimin hisses under his breath.
Following the direction of his pointed finger, you squint hard enough to spot a familiar figure walking off in the distance. A petrifying chill runs down your spine.
âWhatâs Ms. Jung doing out here?âÂ
The next thing you know, Jimin clutches your hand and shoves the both of you into your house, quickly turning around to slam the balcony door shut and locked.Â
âWhatâs she doing out there?â you repeat. âPatrolling? Did she catch Jay? What happened to him?âÂ
âI-I donât know, Y/N,â he walks you to your bed, gently seating the both of you against your bed frame.Â
âShould we report to her what just happened? Does she know? Are we going to miss initiationââ
ââsh, Y/N, shh,â his cupped hands thaw the ice of your cheeks. âIâm sure Ms. Jung has it all handled. Sheâs probably patrolling to make sure things like this doesnât happen. What matters is that weâre safe and we have enough time to start initiation, alright?âÂ
âR-rightâŚâ you follow Jiminâs lead and take numerous deep breaths. With his hand in yours and your arm wrapped around his, you lay your head on the crook of his neck. Itâs difficult to resume a normal pace of breathing, even in the comforts of his embrace, but you had no choice but to shove matters into the back of your mind. In the wake of Mating Day, time constraints force you to delay matters into tomorrowâs hands. âWait, whatâre you doing here, Jimin? How did you know to come?âÂ
âI didnât,â he squeezes your hand. âI felt bad for the way things happened earlier today. I just wanted to be with you tonight and happened to stumble upon Jay⌠I tried to stop him from coming here but I didnât know how rough I had to be until I saw him toss a rock at your window...â
âOh,â you mutter and force your eyes shut, hugging the boy even closer to your chest. âWell, I guess it was meant to be. Thank you⌠for always being there for me.âÂ
âYeah, Iâll always be there for you,â his words are muffled as he kisses your head, âsoon enough, weâll be marrying and starting a family in a house of our own and I can be there for you as many infinite times you want.â
âOkay,â you grin, âthat sounds good.âÂ
âBut before we can do that,â he gives you one last kiss, âwe should get some sleep.âÂ
This would be the final silence of the night before Mating Dayâlong, formidable, and ear-splitting. With so many words left unspoken, the both of you know that eventually, somehow, and painstakingly so, you would be able to find comfort in the confinement of the other, notwithstanding the difficulty of recovery; and so, eventually, youâre able to mentally sigh in relief when drowsiness dawns upon you.Â
âHey, Y/N?â Jiminâs gruff indicates to you that the both of you would be entering dreamland soon enough, together.Â
âHm?â
âI love you.â
âMm,â you hum with a smile.
âI love you.â
âMhm.âÂ
âIâll always love you.â Â
âOkay,â you hold him even tighter, âand Iâll always love you.â
Daylight breaks sooner than expected, for your eyelids squint even tighter shut in the wake of the sunâs blinding rays. As your senses awaken along with your body, you gradually become conscious of your unusual surroundings. Your fingertips plant into a pool of warmth rubbles akin to dirt and your skin from head to toe basks in the kiss of the sun. You could smell the earthy scent of the meadow intermixed with freshly watered plants and you could hear the soft rustling of the wind against the tall grass.Â
You could identify this place anywhere, even in your sleep.
This must be the start of initiation.
Smiling to yourself, you stumble to your feet as blood rushes to your feet and you flutter your eyes open to the familiar schoolyard.
With the exception of the excessive beams of the sun, everything is exactly the same as you had memorized it in reality.
There isnât anything to be scared of.
Your next step is to find the tree, which, if you were correct, should be right behind you; and, as if in sole happenstance or the works of fate, you have an inkling of the beholder to your promise standing, waiting for your turnaround.Â
A euphoric rush of relief and bliss in knowing that it was meant to be all along, you whirl around and call out to your heartâs content.
âJiminââ
âbut your heart stops just as abruptly as your beckoning and as cutthroat as the wails knotted in your throat; because off in the distance, the silhouette of your mate is a stark contrast to your one and only.
Chestnut hair tousled by the breeze, eyes heavy-lidded by the daunting future neither of you desired, and a prim demeanor resting on his lips, you finalize reach an epiphany.
You had been his curse all along.
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Hereâs the next part of what I like to call âThe Taylor Swift song analysis seriesâ! In which I, a German girl majoring in English, attempt to analyse or interpret Taylorâs songs to shed more light on a) her incredible song writing skills and b) songs that are generally very underrated and deserve more attention. (hereâs the link to all my song analysis)
Todayâs analysis is for Red, since Iâm going chronologically through the RED album for now :) (also, as always, a short psa that this interpretation is extremely subjective meaning thatâs just how I see the song! also that Iâm no native speaker so I probably will not be able to get any cultural references in any of Taylorâs songs - but feel free to add them in a reblog :) )
"loving him is like driving a new Maserati down a dead-end street, faster than the wind, passionate as sin, ending so suddenlyâ what immediately striked me was the emphasis on a *new* Maserati. So itâs the feeling of buying something new and the excitement that comes with it - similar to getting into a new relationship. Everything is exciting. However, she already knows itâs a âdead-end streetâ, so she knows this relationship wonât last (see: IKYWT), which is also clearly stated with âending so suddenlyâ. Despite all of this, she falls in love so fast and so deeply that the end still takes her by surprise. Another thing Iâve noticed is the mention of âsinâ, basically saying this love is sinful and bad whereas in the previous song she said the relationship was a state free of sin. So here she already has taken a step forward in realizing her partner is not good for her and has gotten rid of some of that childlike naivite (is that an English word? idk) which she expressed in State Of Grace.
"loving him is like trying to change your mind once you're already flying through the free fallâ she enters the relationship, she has fallen for him but suddenly she realizes that heâs no good for her. But she feels like she canât let go of him anymore now that she knows what it feels like to be loved by him. She feels like letting him go is impossible.
âlike the colors in autumn so bright just before they lose it allâ Right now, theyâre still in the honeymoon phase of their relationship, but she knows in her gut that the good feelings will pretty soon turn bad.
âlosing him was blue like Iâd never known, missing him was dark gray, all aloneâ So when they broke up, she claims that she felt the most sad she has ever felt over a breakup. Then of course she started missing him and felt all alone and it was dark gray because of the sadness she was experiencing.
âforgetting him was like trying to know somebody you never metâ meaning that it was impossible. If you havenât met a person, logically, you cannot get to know them because you donât know they exist (I mean nowadays in the age of the internet it would be a different thing but thatâs besides the point)
âbut loving him was redâ Loving him was (important here: past tense! so itâs over already?) passionate. What I also noticed is that before this line she talks about really subdued colors when she speaks about being separated from him, whereas when she is with him, she uses a bright color, so one could argue that being with him brought her happiness and because she knows this it seems impossible to let him go.
âtouching him was like realizing all you ever wanted was right there in front of youâ pretty self-explanatory, there was a strong physical connection between the two and she fell pretty hard for him. (âall you ever wantedâ perhaps again the notion of her thinking he was the one?)
âmemorizing him was as easy as knowing all the words to your old favorite songâ also self-explanatory, falling in love and remembering and noticing all the little details about him (as one does when you have a crush on someone) pretty much came naturally to her, she couldnât help it.
âfighting with him was like trying to solve a crossword and realizing thereâs not right answerâ Fighting with him was incredibly frustrating and she noticed that in no way would this relationship eventually work out (the way she intially hoped it would).
âregretting him was like wishing you never found out that love could be that strongâ They broke up, and then she regretted ever falling in love with him (see, again: IKYWT) but at the same time, she still couldnât fully let him go because she never experienced such a strong love as this one before.
âremembering him comes in flashbacks and echoesâ Her mind randomly starts going back to him throughout her day (flashbacks). And then once the thought of him has popped into her head, it is like an echo, and it takes really long for her to get him out of her mind again.
âtell myself itâs time now, gotta let go but moving on from him is impossible when I still see it all in my head, in burning redâ Same theme again, she knows she needs to let him go but she canât because she has felt such a strong love for him (see also: âthatâs why heâs spinning round in my head, comes back to me, burning red).
âhis love was like driving a new Maserati down a dead-end streetâ notice: this time sheâs talking about him in the past tense, meaning their relationship is over. Itâs also interesting that this time sheâs not characterizing her love with the image of the Maserati, but his. I think this is indicating that he and the way he loved her was the reason why she had to break things off with him.
short addition that - as Iâve already said in the lyric analysis I did to other tracks on this album - this song, again, really emphasizes the theme of âhe is bad for him but I canât move on because I love him so muchâ that is prevalent through this entire album and something I will for sure pick up again in the next couple of song analysis.
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HEY GUYS.
GUYS.
THEYâRE ALL LITERALLY ANGELS.
WINGS INCLUDED.
Iâve mentioned in passing before that the Amaurotines were basically angels, but shit man the Ascians are actually fallen angels.
And like, I stumbled into the Elidibus shot but his wings are made of Zodiark my dudes.
Oh shit.
And not just fucking that.
Time to look back at the lyrics to Shadowbringers.
Some quick disclaimers! 1) There will be bits of this where I just go idk. Because sometimes idk lol. 2) I am 10000% sure that this song has layers similar to how Tomorrow and Tomorrow has layers. Tomorrow and Tomorrow Iâve heard people speculate it could be the people of the alternate Source future or the Amaurotines, and if it is the Amaurotines whether itâs directed at the Warrior or Hades or both is also up in the air. So while there is the very, very literal reading where itâs like yes this is the First and the first arc and focused all about things that happened in the Firstâs plot, I think the secondary meaning might seriously apply to the overarching patch arc/Ascians as a whole. 3) Pls donât be afraid to challenge me on shit lol I just found this and am flying by the seat of my pants.
For whom weeps the storm, Her tears on our skin The days of our years gone, Our souls soaked in sin These memories ache with the weight of tomorrow
âFor whom weeps the storm/her tears on our skinâ honestly the most significant point posed imo outside of nice imagery is that the question needs to be asked. Could be either or both, respecting WoL and co. versus the Ascians/dead Amaurot. âThe days of our years gone/our souls soaked in sinâ again, could be either side here. Depends on what further gets revealed about the fourteenth member of the Convocation and the summoning of Hydaelyn probably, but I think itâs fair to say both sides got stained in shitloads of blood. âThese memories ache with the weight of tomorrowâ not only is the history painful, having to keep moving forward and figure out some kind of future in light of it just makes it more painful. Also a note, a few other peeps online noted that Emet-Selch reacted insanely strong/negatively when Urianger and Yâshtola commented on his future. And just as another thread, I want to highlight that the Ascians for a good chunk of their appearances talked about things being foretold.
Who fights? Who flies? Who falls?
FALLEN ANGEL MOTIFS. COULD BE WARRIOR. COULD BE ASCIANS. COULD BE BOTH. AGAIN, QUESTION GOTTA BE ASKED BECAUSE BOTH SIDES GONNA HAVE BLOOD ON THEIR HANDS.
One brings shadow, one brings light Two-toned echoes tumbling through time Threescore wasted, ten cast aside Four-fold knowing, no end in sight One brings shadow, one brings light One dark future no one survives On their shadows, away we fly
First two lines are relatively straightforward imo, WoL versus Ascians there. It could be Emet-Selch versus WoL specifically but honestly Iâm unsure. Tbh it could be fellow summoners along with WoL versus Ascians or it could be one person versus one person. âThreescore wasted, ten cast asideâ IT TOOK ME. A GOOD WHILE. TO FIGURE THIS OUT. Thereâs a saying âthreescore and tenâ that existed historically. Threescore is sixty. Ten is... ten. But basically, back in the day seventy years was the generally accepted average livespan for a human being. Threescore wasted = sixty years of a seventy year lifespan in vain, ten cast aside = ten years of a seventy year lifespan. âFourfold knowingâ I think has a double meaning within too. First, thereâs an idea in Buddhism called the Fourfold Round that I think is precisely what this is referencing. These come out to direct knowledge of feeling, direct knowledge of perception, direct knowledge of fabrications, and direct knowledge of consciousness. Given these, I suspect that at minimum by the end of patch 5 the three Unsundered Ascians and the Warrior of Light will all fit into roles within this, and weâll probably be able to tell which is which. Personally Iâm leaning toward WoL being direct knowledge of consciousness because especially when you factor in the Echo that gets pretty wild. An additional level though, four in East Asia is commonly associated with death. So no end in sight coming right after FOURfold seems like itâs missing some foreshadowing of the end. Possibly.
The road that we walk Is lost in the flood Here proud angels bathe in Their wages of blood At this, the world's end, do we cast off tomorrow
AMAUROT IS UNDERWATER IN THE TEMPEST. SHITâS FLOODED. ASCIANS ARE PROUD ANGELS BATHING IN WAGES OF BLOOD. EITHER THE SHARDS + SOURCE GOTTA END TO REGAIN THE ORIGINAL WORLD OR THE ORIGINAL WORLD HAS TO END TO MAINTAIN THE SHARDS + SOURCE. And casting off tomorrow, if we jump up to previous lyrics about memories aching with the weight of tomorrow--I think this foreshadows being liberated from pain of past and future both to continue living in the present. Again, could be wrong about how that gets interpreted, but I do think a link is there. Also I mean the world is ending, thatâs the point you no longer have to worry about what comes next. There is no next.
One brings shadow, one brings light To this riddle all souls are tied Brief our moments, brazen and bright Forged in fury, tempered in ice Hindmost devils, early to rise Sing come twilight, sleep when they die Heaven's banquet leavened with lies Sating honor, envy, and pride One brings shadow, one brings light Run from the light
First two lines, everyone who exists is gonna tie into the tragedy of how the shards + Source came to be and the conflict between WoL and co. versus Ascians. âBrief our moments" through âtempered in iceâ I think is referring to the whole strength born from limitations and facing negative emotions/obstacles rather than avoiding them. Hindmost devils means the devils farthest back are the first to rise, which could be WoL or Ascians depending on reading. If itâs the Ascians and theyâre taken as fallen angels I mean devils are fallen angels. But that also mixes metaphors given proud angels earlier. If mixed metaphors are a non-issue though, âHindmost devilsâ through âsleep when they dieâ would more or less translate to the oldest devils are the first to act and seize power. They celebrate the coming of night and do not sleep. âHeavenâs banquetâ through âprideâ again, disclaimer mixed metaphor going on but I think it might be neat if it is WoL and co. or more specifically Hydaelyn. I donât think it strictly comes to Heaven/Heroes = evil but that Heaven has hidden corruption that makes people feel better about themselves but is kind of ugly. Then again, all of this could probably be flipped too. This section is tricky. But if run from the light = Hydaelyn that shitâs gonna be fascinating. Also, I do think Zenos whether he just attempts or succeeds in nabbing one of the big two primals is actually gonna go for Hydaelyn. Lots of reasons for this including âshe won the first timeâ and âZenos dun give af about creationâ and âsheâs right there whereas Zodiark is super scatteredâ and âZenos is basically an opposite to Emet-Selch philosophically and might work as another way of exploring negative light connotationsâ. But run from the light would be reaaaaal interesting if that goes down.
Authors of our fates Orchestrate our fall from grace Poorest players on the stage Our defiance drives us straight to the edge A reflection in the glass Recollections of our past Swift as darkness, cold as ash Far beyond this dream of paradise lost
âAuthors of our fates/Orchestrate our fall from graceâ the characters involved created the primals themselves, in so doing being the authors of their fates and damning themselves when shit went out of control. Could precede that too and be broadened to other circumstances probably. I do think it is gonna come up that all the bad shit that happened stemmed from choices made though. âPoorest players on the stage/Our defiance drives us straight to the edgeâ references some Shakespeare. This being âLife's but a walking shadow, a poor player/That struts and frets his hour upon the stage/And then is heard no more. It is a tale/Told by an idiot, full of sound and fury/Signifying nothing.â Shakespeare bit is saying that life is brief and ultimately not real/an act where everyone worries during the brief span of the story but all too fast itâs over. Thereâs a ton of passion but ultimately itâs small and petty and meaningless. If we link this back to poorest players on the stage and the defiance, it is basically challenging the idea of a brief life being meaningless. So would apply more to the mortal characters. âReflection in the glassâ I thiiiink might reference the idea of real identity versus not real but idek. âRecollections of our past/Swift as darkness, cold as ash/Far beyond this dream of paradise lostâ these lines are prob linked as a trio far as I can tell. Memory comes fast as darkness/the coming of night (tying back to sing come twilight maybe? also the end of the world as it is), cold as ash refers to the dead of Amaurot probably. And Iâm not positive on that juxtaposition with paradise lost, but it may be suggesting that the dream of perfection rings hollow and thereâs a reason that what is now being remembered as paradise is long dead.
Home Riding home Dying hope Hold onto hope... Ohhh... Home Riding home Home, riding home Hope, finding hope... Ohhh...
Shits both WoL and Ascians here.
One brings shadow, one brings light One more chapter we've yet to write Want for nothing, nothing denied Wand'ring ended, futures aligned One brings shadow, one brings light One brings shadow, one brings light You are the light
One more chapter = gotta get closure for Amaurot and the Ascians. âWant for nothing, nothing denied/Wandâring ended, futures alignedâ this took me a bit, and it feels like possibly a reach imo, but my guess for now is: Emet-Selch was talking before about maybe there being a way forward without so much bloodshed. I still think guyâs gonna come back as a clone and I think/hope that we can fuckinâ trust recruit him (âI may even lend you my knowledge and strengthâ I AM HOLDING YOU TO THAT EMET-SELCH IF I HAVE TO BEAT MY ENEMIES TO DEATH WITH YOUR CORPSE) and find some kind of middle ground that doesnât just = fuck Amaurot and destroy Zodiark. That would feel too simple to me. I kind of think some sort of rejoining will need to happen... but not simply Zodiark rejoining into a giant monster primal. I think Hydaelyn and Zodiark gotta become one being.
Also. If that is the case Lahabrea better have some fucking good notes to justify that dumb attempt to fuse with Igeyorhm in a first-time aether experiment while fighting the Warrior of Light. Because then it would be more cool even if the timing was still terrible life choices.
But yeah I think thatâs gonna tie into futures aligned stuff.
We fall We fall We fall We fall unto the end
One world's end
Our world's end
Our end
We won't end
I am shadow, I am the light
This bitâs p. straightforward lol.
But yeah I am still super jazzed about this feel free to challenge my readings! I think stuff is there, just dunno if what I found correctly identifies the stuff lol.
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Seeing the Stars
Castiel X Reader
It was midnight and Dean, Sam and I had just arrived back at the motel. I look up to see the whole sky is blanketed in pure black without a star in the sky. Three months have passed since all angels fell from heaven and during that time I have joined the Winchesters on their hunting trips. I had to get used to human life fairly quickly once I fell and I still have many difficulties understanding the humans strange customs.
"Those vampires were a bitchâŚbar anyone?" Dean asks the two of us whilst already heading in the direction of the bar across the street from where we are currently standing. But suddenly, a metallic thrumming noise starts from the alley way to our left.
"Can you guys hear that or is it just me?" Sam, the younger Winchester, asks with a confused yet curious expression on his face.
"Never get a break around hereâŚ" Dean mutters quietly under his breath. The three of us start walking towards the alley where the noise appears to be coming from. At the end of the narrow aisle, a strange blue blur is appearing in and out of my vision. Is this some kind of demon trick?
The three of us inch our way to the strange sight ahead of us at the end of the alley, weapons in our hands. The blue blur takes a few seconds until it starts to materialize into an actual sight. A blue box with the words 'Police Phone Box' stand in front of me and it comes in and out of my view a few more times before it stops.
"Uh, Cas. Any idea here?" Dean asks me with wide eyes. I don't reply because honestly, I'm just as clueless right now. So instead I just shrug and the three of us start to move closer to the box ahead.
Out of nowhere though, the door is burst open by a man with a bow tie and shaggy brown hair who quickly takes in the sight of myself and the two Winchesters on either side of me as well as our, not so concealed, weapons.
"Uh, there's no need for weapons. I'm not here to hurt you." The man says with his hands slightly up as if in surrender. What is this blue box? I've never seen something like this. It just appeared... seemingly out of thin air.
"Who are you and what the hell is that?" Dean shouts at the man in apprehension and fear of the unknown.
"I'm the Doctor and this is the TARDIS. She's my ship. Who are you?" The Doctor asks.
"This is Dean and Sam Winchester," I say with glances at the two hunters. ", and my name is Castiel. I am an angel of the Lord." I say to the man in front of me.
"An angel? Well, I haven't seen an angel in centuries. Please come in. Let me show you around." The Doctor says, ushering us all into his TARDIS. Seen an angel? So he's met my kind before...
Who is this man? I have never heard of this Doctor, although he seems to know of my kind. Walking into the box, I look around and stop. I can vaguely hear Dean shouting how we won't all fit in here, but stepping into the box, I see that it is bigger on the inside. How? This technology is more advanced than humans possess. If only I was an angel⌠then maybe I could do something. But I do not believe this man wants to hurt us.
"Cas, man. Get out of there." I hear Dean shout from the outside. The Doctor leans against what looks like the control console of this contraption.
"Dean, Sam. It's fine. There's nothing to fear. We'll all easily fit." I shout back to the two brothers standing outside. "What is this?" I ask the Doctor who has gone to a screen behind me and is looking at it intently and focused.
Behind me, Sam and Dean slowly and anxiously walk into the Tardis, guns in hand. "Weapons away. You won't be hurt in here." The Doctor says with a glance at the two and a confused glance towards me. Why?
"Y/N, come in here. We have guests." The man with the bow tie exclaims out of nowhere.
"No need to shout. I'm here." A girl with (Y/H/C) hair comes bouncing down the glass stairs on my left. Wow. She's beautiful. I've never seen a girl like her. The way she walks with such confidence. "Who are these people Doctor?" She asks the man with a friendly smile.
"Y/N, this is Sam and Dean Winchester. They stopped the apocalypse." He says motioning to the two behind me. Wait, How does he know that? Both are still looking in awe at their surroundings when they finally notice the girl called Y/N. Their eyes are focused on the girl in front of us and both walk forwards to be closer. She is stunning.
"Hello." She says with a soft angelic voice."I'm (Y/N) (L/N). This is the TARDIS. It's bigger on the inside due to sciency things, but I'm sure the Doctor hasn't explained a thing to you, going by your expressions that is." She says with a laugh towards the Doctor. "I guess you've never been in a time machine before. Wait apocalypse?" She says with a shock at the end, changing the subject.
"Against Lucifer." I offer to her. Turning her head, her (E/C) eyes meet my ice blue ones and all over I feel a warm feeling.
"Lucifer. What like the devil?" She asks and I nod my head as an answer, not being able to keep my eyes off her. "Huh, I thought they were just old stories you know, hell, heaven. In the future, religion really isn't a big thing. Nearly non-existent. Oh and you are?" She finally asks for my name in a sweet voice. Religion isn't a big thing, the future?
"Did you say the future?" Sam asks the girl. Her head turns away from me before I can answer and she starts to talk to Sam. For some reason I feel disappointment and another strange feeling to her talking to another man.
"Yes. I'm not from this time. I'm from the 51st century and live in what you would call London. Doctor what's going on?" She asks confidently. Her eyes shine with hope and dreams... and even a bit of rebelliousness.
"I found them outside. I've been wanting to meet you three for a long time. The ones that stopped armaggedon and that fight between the two archangels." The Doctor says whilst rapidly turning to us. His eyes are blazing with curiosity. "You've never met an angel have you (Y/N)?" He asks the girl.
"No. I haven't. Why? One of you aren't angels are you?" She says with the same curiosity in her bright (E/C) eyes as the Doctor. Her eyes shift amongst the three of us.
"My name is Castiel, I'm an angel of the Lord... or was." I say,my eyes falling to the glass floor.
"I was wondering about that. Where is your grace Castiel?" The Doctor asks, looking between the screen and I. That must be why he keeps looking at me strangely.
"Heaven was closed up and the angels fell. My grace was stolen by another angel, thus making me human."
"All angels fell?" (Y/N) asks me, stepping forward slightly.
"The trials right?" The Doctor asks. I don't say anything but stand in silent shock. How could he know that? "I'll take your silence as a yes." He says before checking more equipment on the console.
"How the hell do you know so much?" Dean asks angrily, obviously getting annoyed at the man's vagueness about himself. "Who are you?"
"You haven't told them?" The girl asks with a shake of her head before leaning on the console.
"I'm getting to it." The doctor replies, waving his hands at her to stop leaning on the controls. "So I'm the Doctor. I'm a Timelord from the planet Gallifrey and I'm very old. I'm basically a madman with a box." He says quickly, seeming to be in a rush. Timelord? I've never heard of a Timelord or Gallifrey before. "Okay, you guys ready?"
"Ready? For what?" Sam asks the man.
"An adventure." The Doctor says with an excited glint in his eyes before pulling down a lever. Then the doors shut and the room lurches up slightly. The metallic thrumming noise is heard again from the centre console of the room and everyone immediately goes to hold onto something to stop themselves from falling down. Sam, Dean and I are still in shock whereas (Y/N) and the Doctor are just laughing giddily to themselves.
"What the hell is going on?" Dean shouts from beside me.
"Wait and see." (Y/N) says calmly. Once the room stops shaking, the Doctor and (Y/N), who seems to be a companion of sorts, walk out of the room and step out of the doors. "Come on guys." She calls to us. Looking at each other, we slowly walk out the TARDIS and are shocked to see that we've moved.
"What..." Sam says, not being able to think of a solution for our shift in space. Laughing, (Y/N) and the Doctor look at us all and just walk around the place, commenting on the different species of people around us. Apparently we are not on Earth anymore and are on a planet far away. The Doctor says he just wanted us to see something and felt random at the time. I get the feeling that this is a normal occurrence with him.
During the day, the three of us had become settled into the new enviroment, Sam asking the Doctor plenty of questions about the universe and Dean trying every food he came across. I went a separate way, following (Y/N) as she showed me plenty of different things from a variety of cultures.
"Hey Cas. You hungry?" She asked me as she pulled me towards a cafe of sorts. "This place has great food. You'll love it." For some reason, I felt a connection towards this human girl from the future. She was beautiful, but it was more than that. I felt like I'd known her my whole life.
"Yes. I am actually." I answered to which she just smiled a breathtaking smile and pulled me to a table near a water display of sorts.
"Any idea what you want?" She asked me and when I looked at the menu I had no idea. As an angel, I never required food, but now, as a human, it was needed to keep me alive. Shaking my head at her, she smiled and ended up ordering for the both of us. "You'll like it, I swear." She says to me before starting on her food once it had arrived. I copied her way of eating, with both hands, the strange yet delicious food. I hummed in delight at the food in my hands.
All day I had been getting to know (Y/N) better, both of us asking questions about the other. She was interested in the fact that I was once an angel as she said that she had never heard of my kind. "(Y/N), if you don't mind me asking, but why did you join the Doctor on his trips?" I anxiously asked, hoping I hadn't 'crossed a line' as Dean says.
"Why not?" She replies with a laugh. "I had nothing keeping me home and I saw an opportunity to see the stars. Plus, I couldn't not go. Who wouldn't want to see the whole of time and space?" Thankfully I hadn't upset her but I'm curious as to what she means by 'having nothing to keep her home'.
"Why wouldn't you have anything at home?" I ask quietly. Her face dropped and I immediately started to regret my question. "I... I'm sorry. Forget I asked." I hurriedly say before she cuts me off.
"No it's fine, Cas. Really..." She says before stopping for a second. "My parents gave me away when I was a child and I grew up in an orphanage with a bunch of other kids. I never had a real family and all I had when I was older was my job. I was a soldier in the army but I lost my friends and squad due to an attack and I couldn't carry on. So I left the army and met the Doctor. We've been travelling together ever since..." She says and my hand immediately finds hers. I don't know why, but her soft small delicate hand in mine feels right.
Smiling at her, I become lost in her eyes. Bright with happiness yet hurt from her past at the same time. A slap on my back brings me out of my thoughts, and I notice how I had unconsciously moved closer to her. Both of us jump away from the close proximity and I turn around to see the Doctor along with the Winchesters smiling at us knowingly.
"Well. As much fun as the day has been, you should probably get back. Come on. I'll take you three back home in the TARDIS now." The Doctor states before walking back to the blue box that brought (Y/N) to me.
Walking with Dean and Sam, the two ask me about (Y/N). "So what? You like her?" Dean asks with a grin.
"Maybe...I don't know." I answer but like isn't a strong enough word. There's just a connection between us two and I feel like she can see into my soul, if angels had one that is.
The two brothers laugh but quieten down by the time we arrive back at the TARDIS. All five of us enter the room and the Doctor immediately starts to set the controls to our time. The Winchesters and (Y/N) laugh about the differences between the present and the future as well as things they have seen today. The TARDIS starts making the same metallic thrumming noise and after a few seconds the Doctor opens the doors with a click of his fingers and I can see we are back where we started.
"Well. It was nice meeting you three. Today has been fun. If you ever have any alien trouble give me a call." The Doctor says before turning around to look at the screen once again.
"See ya Doc, Bye (Y/N)." Dean calls out with a wave before stepping out of the box.
"Yeah. Bye guys." Sam says before following his brother. Now I have to leave. I probably won't see her again.
"Goodbye Doctor. (Y/N)," I say, walking up to her where she is standing at the door saying goodbye to Sam and Dean. "I'll miss you. Goodbye." I reluctantly say before walking out of the box.
"Goodbye Castiel. I hope we meet again." She says with a smile and bright (E/C) eyes. She turns to close the door but I quickly grab her wrist.
"Stay with me." I ask her, wanting nothing more than to kiss her in that moment.
"I can't. I'm sorry. The Doctor... needs me. He can't be alone. It's not good for him." She answers, looking back at the Doctor worryingly. She told me how close the two were. Almost like brother and sister.
"Oh..." I say. Disappointment showing clearly on my face. "Well. Then I guess this is it." I reply, letting go of her wrist reluctantly. My hands already missing the contact.
She steps forward suddenly and grabs my face within her hands. She looms down at my lips before flitting her gaze to my ice blue eyes. I lean into her touch until I feel her soft lips brush against mine. I lose myself in the kiss, forgetting about the fact that I'll never see her again. My hands reach up to twist in her (H/L) (H/C) hair. After a minute we break apart.
She pulls away and steps backwards, back into the blue box behind her. "Goodbye Cas." She says with a sad smile that doesn't reach her eyes before closing the door between us. My shoulders visibly fall at that moment. Already missing the warmth I felt whenever she was near. After a few seconds the TARDIS starts humming that metallic noise and the wind around us starts to pick up slightly.
"Cas. You okay?" Dean asks me, placing a hand on my shoulder.
"No. But she'll be happy with the Doctor. Seeing the stars." And with that I walked away, never forgetting the girl that stole my heart within a day. Hopefully I'll see her again...
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Frankly In Love by David Yoon
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Title/Author/Publisher/Year Published: Frankly In Love by David Yoon | Published by Putnam Young Readers in September 2019
Plot Summary: Frank Li wants nothing more than to be in love. But itâs not that easy. Love never is, but especially not for Frank who has seen first hand what happens when his parents donât approve. So Frank lives in the hypothetical: is it better to date someone who is Korean to appease his parents (but then they will always be involved) or date someone else that they might not approve of (and become ostracized)? But when Brit Means looks at him a little differently, itâs no longer a hypothetical because Frank Li is falling and falling fast. The only problem? Brit is white. Lucky for Frank a fellow Limbo (Limbo referring to the Korean-American children of his familyâs friends who came over from Korea together) is in the same predicament. Joy and Frank come up with a scheme to date who they want with their parents none the wiser. They will fake date each other. It seemed like the perfect solution until Frank begins to suspect he might not be entirely faking it.Â
Ugh, okay, so I have a lot of thoughts and feelings about this book so please just bear with me. Honestly, I hate saying it but I had such a tough time getting through this book. I think the main issue, as always, was my expectations. The way Iâd heard people talk about it I was anticipating a cute, fun YA romance with my favorite trope, fake-dating-turned-real, and I guess in a way that is what it was? But I was vastly unprepared for Frank. Or the fact that this book is stuffed to the gills with tropes.Â
Frank is weird, by the end I would say that I loved him, but I was initially caught off-guard by the way he talks and thinks and I found it made it harder to get into his character and thus the story. Additionally, his relationship with Brit feels like it comes out of nowhere and suddenly theyâre in a fairly serious relationship? And *SPOILER* he ends up cheating on her with Joy. Normally, I donât like to include spoilers or I hide them, but I feel like this is an important issue I had with this novel. I almost stopped reading because Frank is supposed to be the good guy and in that moment (and the following pages when he tells Brit) he was a fucking jackass. The only thing that slightly redeems him is that he immediately recognized it as cheating and didnât waste time telling Brit or lying to her about it, but it still sucked.Â
However, that all being said, the book holds some important discussions about what it means to be Korean-American, Asian-American, or really just anything with that dreaded hyphen. Thereâs talk about whiteness and how the privilege of belonging to the majority tends to erase those immigrant stories and identities. There are discussions of blackness not only because of Frankâs sister but because of Frankâs best friend. Race is interwoven into every aspect of this novel and David Yoon does it with grace and care and without fear.
Anyway, if youâve read this and have thoughts feel free to respond! Iâd like to see what other people whoâve read it thought about it in all of its chaotic glory.
Warning: Keep reading at your own risk because I have included a spoilers section for a few important details I wish I had known going into this book because they could be potentially triggering (nothing is graphic which is probably why it wasnât heavily mentioned in discussions about this title). And as always my favorite quotes because damn does David Yoon have a way with words.
Spoilers:
Frankâs dad gets shot while working at The Store and almost dies, but survives only to find out that he has cancer and less than a year to live which sparks a fight with his longtime friends which means that right when Joy and Frank get their shit together they donât feel like their parents will approve because thereâs a rift so like fuck a happy ending I guess?Â
Quotes:
She was braveâbraver than meâbut now I wonder if being brave is worth it. The brave go first into battle. But that makes them the first to go down, too.
In Language class Ms. Chit would called this code switching. Itâs like switching accents, but at a more micro level. The idea is that you donât speak the same way with your friends (California English Casual) that you do with a teacher (California English Formal), or a girl (California English Singsong), or your immigrant parents (California English Exasperated). You change how you talk to best adapt to whoever youâre talking to. But itâs not just about adaptation, as Ms. Chit explained. People can code switch to confuse others, express dominance or submission, or disguise themselves.
I feel my stomach wave hello. My ears grow warm. Gravity eases enough to loosen all the joints and nails and screws holding the world together until all its pieces are slowly tumbling free in a soft huge space lit only by the white rectangle beneath my thumbs. My girlfriend is texting me.
Thereâs an anger in my heart the color of dark red ready to paint the walls with curse words, but thereâs no point in getting into all that.
Let me tell you something. I live to make people laugh. Parents, siblings, friends, lovers, doesnât matter. I just have to. If you for some reason donât know how to make someone laugh, then learn. Study that shit like itâs the SAT. If you are so unfortunate as to have no one in your life who can make you laugh, drop everything and find someone. Cross the desert if you must. Because laughter isnât just about the funny. Laughter is the music of the deep cosmos connecting all human beings that says all the things mere words cannot.
American girl, they okay. When Mom-n-Dad say American, they mean white. When they refer to themselvesâor meâthey say hanguksaram, or Korean. I never call myself just Korean. I call myself Korean-American, always leading first with Korean or Asian, then the silent hyphen, then ending with American. Never just American. White people can describe themselves with just American. Only when pressed do they go into their ethnic heritage. Doesnât seem fair that I have to forever explain my origin story with that silent hyphen, whereas white people donât. Itâs complicated. But simple. Simplicated.
But I feel bad for Brit, whose immigrant stories have most likely been washed away like surf erasing sandwriting. She may call herself European-American, but to most of the world sheâs just white. As a member of the majority, she belongs everywhere. As the product of a long, mixed-up heritage, she belongs nowhere.
Saying it makes it feel more true. I get the feeling that the more I say it, the truer it will feel over time. And eventually this truth Iâve created will weave itself into every fiber of my reality, until it moves naturally with my every gesture like a favorite shirt I canât help but wear always.
Itâs like my heart has turned to lead and is now too heavy to carry alone, so Joy is helping me.
At first, I canât tell why this is so hard for me. But really Iâm lying to myself. I know exactly why itâs hard for me. Because down this conversational road is the acknowledgment of a fundamental difference between me and Britâa fundamental difference of beingâand I canât bear to admit that such a difference exists. Britâwise, awakened, aware Britâbelongs to a white majority whether she wants to or not, and is entitled to all its privilegesâalso whether she wants them or not.
I look at Brit a little differently now. Like there are more rooms than I realized in the house of her heart, and not necessarily neat-and-tidy ones.
She is scared to death saying this. I can see it in her eyes. I can smell it on her skin. Because love is more terrifying than anything. Love is a mighty blue hand coming straight for you out of the sky. All you can do is surrender yourself and pray you donât fall to your death.
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