#where is the 'lesser' like idk guys i think all of that is just straight up evil. no lesser to it

[makedamnsvre]

people still calling biden a 'lesser evil' like can you point out to me what part of everything he has done is in any way 'lesser' ?

[moonshynecybin]

what would you consider essential marc and rosquez watching? i don’t mean races but the stuff happening around it, there seems to be so much and idk where to start 😭

BIG ass question. i think it depends what you want outta this and how you best interact with content slash consume information. for me (not to brag but. winner of multiple historical essay writing competitions in high school. for context on the kind of freak i am bringing to the table here.) the research is kind of the fun part ! like i just started googling shit! i would go to inactive blogs and just search 'marquez' on them to see what would happen ! a lot of the times that works ! but it also takes a lotttt of time lol so i'll chuck some good resources your way, why not...

okay im not sure how basic we're talkin here but um. background. so the documentaries are, i think. the best place to start. theyre entertaining and offer a good amalgamation of clips to provide context for the actual racing. and like i know you de-emphasized racing (which is fine lol who cares) but it really is like the most important thing in the world to these fools and its a pretty visual sport so i think its at least helpful. like yes sepang IS about the press conference, but its also about the conversation they have ON the race track using their motorcycles. which is also somewhat a conversation that they HAVE been having all year long...

i'd start with hitting the apex (2013), its a GREAT introduction to the "characters" that does a lot of legwork to contextualize everything. lays the scene for where vale is at coming into his relationship with marc (both personally, wrt to marco simoncelli, and career-wise concerning his flop at ducati), and also how insane marc's whole deal is in general. the second half is. materially a study on what him entering the premiere class did to the sport as a whole. the introductory chapter in many respects

marc marquez: all in. MY introduction and blissfully free online. marc comma in his own words, with all the implications of that. a self-produced documentary where he is giving feedback about the edit of said documentary straight to camera and no less vulnerable because of it which is very marc imo. revealing both intentionally AND unintentionally about his whole deal with injury, vale, and his image.

motogp unlimited. im gonna be real kind of boring. like i would still watch it ! but do it kind of later, once you know the major players so youre automatically more invested. it doesnt really give you more than marc says himself in all in tbh, and i get the sense him and vale were NAWWWT interested in doing more than the bare minimum for it.

marc's rookie doc. free and subtitled on the youtubes. the first half of this is deadass just him wanting to fuck vale so bad while every comment from vale has me saying GIRL. out loud because the foreshadowing would be genuinely shocking if this was fiction. anyways the laguna seca of it all....

next i would hit up PODCASTS ! i think it makes sense after the documentaries, because these are all podcasts that arent strictly about rosquez (even if they are in many ways the main characters lmao) and personally it helps to put faces to lesser known names that might pop up before i listen to a purely audio product and get lost in the soup of sounds. the paddock pass podcast has two retrospective episodes about the 2015 season that are really good at context, oxley bom pod has a fun recent episode on valentino that i love, again just poke around a lil

videos. these guys have never filmed a lot of content together tragically. what i wouldnt give for someone to make them do an escape room. anyways ranch visit HERE (post explaining the ranch visit here). sepang presscon (sowwy) here. vale unhinged podcast interview the month after marc's documentary came out here. vale retirement interview where he gets asked about marc here. vale talking about asking marc to the ranch here. vale postrace at argentina 2018 here. UCCIO postrace at argentina 2018 here. theres a lot moreeeee just go on my blog archive and filter for rosquez and vids its easier lol

journalism. hello. okay so you should genuinely spend some time reading through mat oxley's stuff he can write (theres a paywall but you can run that shit through wayback machine). he also loves an insane comparison which i do enjoy.... again this is one that can be solved by googling his name and tacking on 'marquez' or 'rossi' or a specific time period or race it will probably reap some dividends. in terms of specific ass articles this one is kind of load bearing in terms of sepang and some of the interpersonal competitive tensions at play. that being said there are manyyyyyy crazy interviews and snippents of articles from other journos floating around motogp tumblr (like literally too many to link) adn its fun to dig around to find them, but mat oxley gets a shoutout because i was reading this article TODAY !

other content. honestly one of the best resources I'VE found for plotting out the arc of their relationship is @kingofthering's everyrosquezpodium series. you can REALLY see it play out lol. also her tagging system rules she very neatly lays out years and races... so if something jumps out at you, CLICK ITTTT ! also all of @ricciardoes fave presscon moments series. insane.

all this to say a small little rpf fandom like this rewards some digging! i would just recommend following narrative threads that interest you ! its also a small fanbase that is pretty research oriented, so if youre ever confused about somethin, just shoot an ask or run a search on someone's blog (@kwisatzworld has endless vale resources and @batsplat is one of the most thorough researchers ive ever seen, for example) like for real theres so much... i also have a primer that i made forever ago that has some links on it so you can peruse that if you so wish. but frankly a lot of it is just using those research muscles and being sufficiently deranged enough to be screenshotting reddit threads at one am so you can post them to tumblr because they mentioned marc and vale in the same sentence and that lit up some of the neurons in your brain

(and i know you said outside of races but i think theyre good benchmarks as turning points soooo you should do some diggin on laguna seca 2013, jerez 2015, argentina 2015, ASSEN 2015, sepang 2015 obvi, argentina 2018, and misano 2019. those are the big tentpoles of insane rosquez relationship drama imo. i mean theres many more but. im limiting myself.)

[dim-paper-lanterns]

chp 17 of wsms is out, and since chp 16 was so fluffy, I have no high hopes for this one! lets get into it:

pony being so genuinely happy with his room at Bucks, and him noticing all the little things Dallas did for him UGHHH

oh.....

so its confirmation that their dad was abusive - but I feel like this goes deeper than just that. I think one of the more major working plot holes is why dallas left NYC, especially if he was forced too. The one reason he would leave is if him not being there was the price to pay for something that he valued more than staying by pony's side -> I think its been implied in previous chapters but its most likely pony's safety. But if that's true, then it would be a question of how did dallas leave assured that pony wouldn't be hurt, knowing he was still in the hands of his father

He wished Dally would come running up the stairs and beat the shit out of the guy.... Dally only fought the man when it came to Pony’s safety. Someone get this boy a savior PLEASE 😭😭

ughhh I really don't think dallas would have just taken his father's word that if he leave NYC, his father wouldn't hurt pony!! Dally literally had to fight this man to protect pony, its not in his character to just take his word! My guess is that there was a third factor involved that made Dallas leave the city, and their end of the deal wasn't actually pony's safety, but maybe something lesser. a) when dally first saw pony at the train station, he was upset at ponys black eye, but he wasn't like 'how could this have happened??! 🤨😱😱' so he knows that pony would still be getting into scuffles in nyc. b) I would say that dally left on a deal like 'dallas leaves nyc = pony is straight-laced and makes it out of the city', but with the way dally doesn't seem to care about pony/school, I wouldn't think so. c) leaves me to believe that dally either left for just pony's survival guarantee, or as a promise for his father to keep out of trouble so pony wouldn't be caught up in it

ALSO ALSO ALSO pony related the man in the hallway to his father bc of their clothing: white button down and black tie. very business professional attire, also clothing that would imply a higher income/better job. idk!! food for thought, especially since there have been comments about pony being underfed/not having a lot of clothes/general possessions/living in a small room. problems that should be easily solved with money.

pony and the closet hit me like a gut punch.

why does dallas seem so confused 🤨🤨🤨 does he not know pony sleeps in the closet as a coping mechanism ??? 🤨🤨🤨🤨

“Well, they get along real well. Close as brothers half the time. But the other half they’re getting into fights or on opposite sides of rumbles. Sorta like a love hate relationship I guess. But at the end of they day they’d always be there for each other.” 🙂🙂🙂

“I’d try the hippie stuff I guess.” PONY 😭😭😭

someone needs to analyze how pony is so desperate to be seen as a 'greaser', especially when (I think at least) nyc doesn't have the same societal divisions as tulsa does

“No it’s alright. I’ll think up a truth.”  why does that seem.... kind of nice ???? 🤨🤨🤨

surprised curly of all people noticed the dallas/dally name difference

pony and curly my loves

I was like whereeee is the angst this chapter and then I saw the last sentence and I was like okay perf there we go 🙁😒😒

📎 Where the Sun Meets the Storm by Legends_Never_Die

[unreadpoppy]

I should preface this post by saying that a lot of this is just me straight up taking shit out of my ass. No basis in canon whatsoever, only my interpretation and theory on things. So yeah, this is more of a opinion piece/headcanons than anything.

Haarlep says they were only ever sent to distract Raphael. Not gather information and report back, just distract.

And like yeah, sex can be a distraction but in the long run, I don't think it's that effective, like eventually, someone's gonna tire. And yeah, incubus do have that irrestible, charming thing, but idk if it works on other devils? I could be wrong but anyways, maybe it's to a lesser effect on devils than mortals and also, Raphael's a pretty smart guy, so he could figure out Haarlep wasn't a gift out of the goodness of Mephisto's heart but to serve as a distraction.

And like, giving his status, maybe Mephisto could have sent something that would really keep Raphael distracted for a long time, or at least, keep sending things/people, but he only ever sent one incubus and then a balloon thought popped into my head.

What if Mephisto sending Haarlep was a sort of "two birds one stone" situation. Like ok, stick with me as I explain this crazy ass thought that began occuring.

Maybe Haarlep did something to anger/upset Mephisto, and as punishment, he sends Haarlep as a gift to his son, who he also needs to be dealt with. And like why punishment? 1) so, based on what I said on my other post, I don't think Mephisto thinks that highly of his son, so sending soemone to a person he doesn't like could be kinda like "now you deal with this little shit" 2) I mean, you're taking someone from freaking Mephistar and throwing them to fucking Avernus, that is constantly being wrecked by war, i'd be pissed, 3) Haarlep is a full blooded fiend, so it could be seem as as slight to him to have to service a half-devil and 4) i think there's a humiliation aspect.

I think saying Haarlep was a "gift" is a strong word, considering what gifts are supposed to mean, but it could be the use Mephisto used like here take this incubus as a gift (even if the reality was to distract raphael). Giving someone to another person is dehumanizing them in a way, you don't seem them as a person, but as something that can be gifted around to others, so it could, in a way, almost be seen as Mephisto saying "this is how much you're worth. nothing."

And like, maybe Mephisto sent Haarlep, knowing/thinking/expecting them to not last long, for Raphael to kill them eventually and since they were in the hells, he wouldn't respawn. Like maybe he just wanted to get rid of Haarlep, with the added bonus of possibly distracting Raphael for some time.

And ok, this is where I get on that stuff about Raphael and Haarlep's relationship being more complicated than what we think. (again we are reaching headcanon material here).

Because ok, what if Raphael sees that this incubus that was sent to him is obviously a ruse, that he should probably get rid of them but despite everything, he sees potential. Haarlep can change his form, can 'suck people's souls out' (in quotes bc i'm paraprasing the game) and charm them. They could serve as a really good asset to Raphael with the added bonus of sex as a reward. Like we know he straight up will send his important clients directly to Haarlep, he doesn't just keep him around for sex or see them as just a toy.

Maybe, despite everything, Raphael lowkey gives back some agency to Haarlep? Like, I've said it before but I'll say it again, these two are like a constant game of contradictions in my eyes: they hate each other, they love each other, they can't live without the other, they drive each other mad. Maybe this is one of the """"sweeter"""" sides of their relationship (idk like that word for this but it's the only one that's showing up in my brain rn).

To reitarate: this is all my brain going bunkers, so don't take it too seriously and don't come for me.

[asknarashikari]

Regarding this ask, as well as this one (something long).

Yes that's a common misuse of the term anti-hero (there are also other commonly misused terms like plot armor or mary sue), including what you did in at least the latter.

The concepts of hero/good and villain/bad exist on a sliding scale, as not all heroes are paragon type, and not all villains are irredeemably pure evil, but not fitting these extremes doesn't make one not good/heroic or bad/villainous, or are all neutral.

Anti-heroes and anti-villains are opposites, just like heroes and villains. Anti-hero is a hero with darker or unheroic traits, while anti-villain is a villain with positive or redeeming qualities. These traits are recurring and part of their character, not just situational (e.g. a traditional hero who kills in one specific circumstance) or external (e.g. backstory events).

(I feel that what you said about little choice to take pragmatic route applies to 'situational' above, but of course what I listed are those that has this trait as recurring/part)

A common example of the former is doing good, like saving people, but only for selfish reasons (e.g., money, vengeance). However, it doesn't have to be selfish; any dark or unheroic traits qualify. Even if they genuinely want to save the world, they can also qualify if they employ harsh methods, murder-happy, mistreat others, etc. Sorry but, paying evil unto evil (e.g. sadistically and needlessly torturing bad guys) is also a dark trait, even if the target deserves it.

Well-intentioned extremists are a common example of anti-villains. They have good intentions but commit bad acts similar to straight villains to achieve them, like oppressing or murdering innocents. It’s not just about intentions, any positive traits can count, such as showing genuine care for loved ones, having principles, drawing lines, being pressured into doing bad, etc.

Alignment can be a wide spectrum, so yes there can be sliding scale within both anti-hero and anti-villain too. For example, just because one anti-hero isn’t as vicious as another (e.g. Wolverine compared to Punisher) doesn’t mean they don’t qualify. Similarly, a mass murderer can still be considered an anti-villain if they have redeeming qualities, even if others are tamer by comparison (e.g. Vader compared to MCU Ghost).

Actions define whether a character is a hero or villain, while their characterization (e.g., demeanor, motive) determines whether they’re a straight or anti version. Anti-hero is a subcategory of hero, so they’re still fundamentally good and expected to help others or save the world. An anti-villain is a subcategory of villain, so they’re still fundamentally bad, and crossing lines like murder or torture is expected, just as it is with straight villains.

Seems usually people think/use anti-hero term for those who do bad for the greater good (doing bad means villainous, and “greater good” makes them anti-villain), or... for bad guys they can personally root for (particularly main protagonists), of which idk where they get this from. And ofc, many people seem to think having good intentions will mean anything they do is right by default, thus those well-intentioned extremists are deemed as anti-heroes for their motives.

Opposing a bigger adversary doesn't make one (anti-)heroic, it's just them being a lesser evil, and being a well-intentioned extremist if the intention is to stop that and save the world/humanity. Evil vs evil is a thing, they're still villainous despite opposing villainous adversary, not being anti-heroic which, actually yes, being actual good guys. More than “pay evil unto evil” above, murdering another bad guy can still also emphasize their cruelty (e.g. Daguva to other Grongis).

Buffabutt's stans not thinking of him as a villain don't exclusively apply to only Buffabutt, as I already said here, any villain stans will not think of their favorite villains as villains (and pretty much every media will have villain apologists) to justify their actions or depict them as did nothing wrong, misunderstood, always have a little route, etc. It'd also apply to villains far worse than Buffabutt.

Yup. I have nothing to add to this

[cunninghamchrissie]

hoooo boy i have so many thoughts on this to the point that i need a read more cut lmao

my hc is that, yeah, she's not a virgin, but jason isn't rly invested in her pleasure. maybe they haven't gone all the way bc "good girls save themselves for marriage and only dirty sluts put out before", but he's convinced her to go down on him, and at a certain point she just does it unprompted bc the sooner he finishes, the sooner he'll stop touching her (bc he'll try to touch her while they're making out, but it doesn't do much for her and ends up feeling uncomfortable after a while)

between having an ed (which destroys your libido, just physiologically speaking, not to mention the body image issues and mental stuff that totally affect your sex drive too) plus her daily abuse from her mom and her religious trauma idk that chrissy even masturbates. she'll feel the urge every now and then, but she doesn't know how to and gets in her head abt it and stops halfway. she's maybe finished a couple times, but felt so bad about it, and like everyone at school could tell what she's done, so the guilt ends up not being worth it.

eddie's not a virgin, but sex has lacked any and all emotional connection for him, which i feel like he'd be ok with? i don't see 20 yo eddie struggling w that.

when they get together they have many hurdles bc first of all, chrissy thought it was bad enough she was having sex w jason, but now she's gonna have sex w another guy? that's super slutty, right? but that's smth she works out on her own, bc some of her cheerleader friends have had sex with different guys, and she doesn't think they've changed or turned into bad ppl bc of it. and esp bc she's crazy abt eddie and he's obvs crazy abt her too, it helps her get away from that mentality a bit.

eddie's horny and now that he's experienced sex w someone he actually has an emotional connection with, his mind's been kinda blown and he just wants it all the time, and chrissy's been taught that good girlfriends are always available for their boyfriends, so she'll do it even when she's not rly feeling it, and when eddie realizes it he feels like shit and disgusting like he's taken advantage of her (and it doesn't help that ppl around town would prob be saying the same stuff abt him too) so the first thing they work on together kind of urgently is communication.

so that's maybe where kinks would be introduced bc eddie will just straight up not touch chrissy sexually if she doesn't say it with her words that she wants him to, but she's even quiet when they do it (bc, again, she doesn't want to sound like a slut or like those women in porn that she's caught jason watching a couple times, and he told her he was only watching so he could look for signs that chrissy was turning into one of those dirty women, screaming like the devil was in them or smth). so they'll start with super tame dirty talk, eddie just talking her ear off bc he obvs can't ever shut up, and urging chrissy to make any noise, talk back, and at first she'll just reply and try not to let her face burn off in shame, but they work up to chrissy actually naming body parts out loud and saying what she wants, but even then it's only when she's already super keyed up. she's still struggling to say it outside of that context, although she's better with physically guiding eddie to doing what she wants him to do. and that's especially helpful too bc chrissy can't finish for the longest time, and of course eddie thinks he's the problem, he's forced her into doing it and that's why she can't finish, and chrissy thinks she's the problem, simultaneously thinking she's broken and also a small part of her not wanting to finish lest she turn into one of those sluts screaming. so with her learning to be more vocal, she also learns to touch herself, be on top, let eddie go down on her etc.

body image would be an issue too, but i feel like on a lesser level. it'd start w chrissy not wanting to get fully undressed, only doing it in the dark, stuff like that, but between eddie running his mouth bc he can't help it and just touching her everywhere esp during sex (including her stomach and thighs, including and maybe esp when she starts gaining weight in recovery from her ed) it ends up rly helping her. it's not ideal to let your body image hang on how someone else feels abt your body but we all do it, and it's more common to start to feel ok abt how you look bc your partner is into it than just starting on your own

eddie's got the magazines and handcuffs and he likes "weirder" stuff and i think after the first great hurdles they'd def try some stuff, but at the end of the day i just see them as being so vanilla (which is not a bad thing!!!). the most i can see sticking is dd/lg, spanking and/or choking, light tying up (so nothing like shibari or anything)

i think the one thing that would be completely off limits would be degradation. i know it works for some ppl precisely bc of the trauma but i just don't see it esp in a vecna universe. eddie just wants to protect her and chrissy's love language is words of affirmation, bc it's exactly what she lacked the most growing up, so being reassured and complimented is what gets her going and she would for sure take it to heart if eddie said anything bad even in a made up scenario.

curious about what other hellcheers think of the way chrissy's relationship with sex, fantasy and kink would evolve over the course of her life with eddie. from a standpoint of her starting out not necessarily a virgin, but having not had good sex before. i accidentally started writing a fic exploring this, where i'm kinda tracing the path of her voicing her interests and things she's curious to try with eddie. she starts with asking to watch him jerk off, which she haltingly turns into mutual masturbation (which ends with her upset and crying because she can't get herself off and she's so scared there's something wrong with her).

would love to hear anyone else's thoughts on this, especially if anyone has very specific headcanons about things chrissy would or wouldn't like.

[elsecrytt]

omfg i LOVE your demon culture headcanons, they're so fun and really make obey me so much more interesting than it already is. one hc ive always had of the devildom folk and culture is that in their courting rituals it's common to bring their mate fresh prey as a show of strength. imagine one of the brothers coming up to mc and straight up dropping the mangled body of a lesser demon at their feet and mc is just HORRIFIED but the brothers are like "what? im showing u i care and that im strong"

Adjkflshfgk oh no oH NO *OH NO* I’m so sorry but unfortunately this is exactly the kind of thing that awakens something inside of me so.

I'm gonna be real with you. Sure MC is horrified and all bc like, damn, dead body, but also... like... IDK I JUST THINK. THE IDEA'S PRETTY HOT.

I just find it narratively compelling and erotic and sexy if a character is wiling to kill for me. And you know Mammon would be like. A super cute excited puppy with a dead animal,, showing off his kill to his owner you hehe

So you’re walking around town with Mammon. All’s well in the Devildom. Maybe you stride into a cafe after a bit of a shopping spree (he says he’ll treat you, he really wanted to try the parfait here, you see - coincidentally, your date had been about to end…) and you’re sitting at your table, waiting for your order.

As you watch the nearby couples (you already know Mammon’s latest moneymaking scheme idea is stupid and you’re going to tell him no, but it would make him feel better if you didn’t shut him down right away), you come across one example in particular that looks… not so good.

Two incubi who’d come in together were starting to fight. One of them looks like he’s got tears in his eyes - you see him gesture to his phone.

You can’t hear the exact words but you can imagine already what they are by the flush of embarrassment on the other one’s face and the guilty looks, how he keeps glancing away and appears at a loss to explain himself.

Was he…?

“You cheating whore! I should have known - how could I be this stupid - " His voice starts to crack and you start to really feel bad for him, other people are watching now, "You’d just texted me last night and you were with him - ”

OOF. Big oof.

Mammon must have seen how sorry you felt for the guy written all over your face, because he caught on to where your attention was right away and whined at once.

“Heya!! I’m talking ta ya here, yer really gonna pay attention ta those dweebs over there over the Great Mammon?”

You roll your eyes (they’re shouting now). “Why don’t you watch, too? Something like this would never happen with us, it’s interesting.”

It’s like he’s got dog ears that perk right up, his attention immediately captured as you watch him blush and try to fight the urge to smile (he never won).

And when his gaze flicks over to the couple in question, a slap has gone out... but it's from the accused cheater, to his partner.

"Well maybe if you weren't absolute shit in bed, I wouldn't have to get it elsewhere!"

You actually wince at that. In public? Seriously? After he cheated...

"The audacity," You mutter, and Mammon nods.

"Yeah, you can't even compare a couple like that to us." His tone is unmissable, smug, a feeling he didn't often get to show.

(He's still blushing, but it's more of a smirk now, and if anyone can look cute while smirking it's your Mammon)

In the corner of your eye you watch Mammon's eyes gleam in the light as he gazes over the guilty party, and you remember that Lucifer is his favorite brother.

Guess they have something in common after all, hmm?

But you don't point it out, instead saying, "At least the dude is showing his true colors so the other guy dumps his worthless ass. It'd be worse if they got back together."

"Oh yeah?" He cocks his head at you.

"Well, imagine the dude apologized. Then that poor guy might take him back..."

"So what if he did, though? I mean, ya said yerself, the dude's trash. If he wants to take him back, then whatever."

You can't believe you're having this conversation. "Well, different people have different opinions. But I'd never take back a cheater. It's demeaning."

"Course you wouldn't! Ya have me, after all." He preens, and you want to smile at him again because he's just so cute.

"But what's this got to do with them?" He's genuinely confused, too, which makes you want to roll your eyes.

"It's just sad to think about someone getting less than they deserve, Mammon."

When this is met with yet more indifference, you switch up the tactics, "Look, scum belongs in the trash, doesn't it? I wouldn't take someone like that and I wouldn't expect anyone else to."

You're pretty sure Mammon would n e v e r but you give him a suspicious look anyways.

"Yeah. Yeah, you're right!" There's your boy, changing gears on the fly, "You wouldn't take somebody like that. They don't deserve anything!"

He's beaming, so you're sure you haven't gotten your point across. But you always did love that smile.

Plus he's holding out the spoon bashfully, hoping to feed you a really delicious looking scoop of his parfait that came during the conversation.

When you lean forward and close your mouth over the spoon he looks like he's about to explode from happiness... it he doesn't overheat from that massive flush, first.

Augh. He is just. Too cute.

[Warning: Listen. You read the ask at the beginning. You know what it said. GRAPHIC description of an injury/dead body ahead. They’re demons. It’s fucked up. You have been warned.

Also. It's kinda romance. Like it's kinda horror but. He's Mammon. He's your good boy. He's very sweet about it even if it's kinda horrifying. Also his tits are out in demon form, it would distract anyone - ]

>Mammon: Heya! C'mon over to my room, I gotcha somethin'

You get the text. And of course, you came at once.

Mammon is squatting on his heels, arms on his knees and his hand resting on his chin while he stares at his DDD (it looks like his messages app).

His clothes are as stylish as ever, spic and span, his bright white head of hair eye-catching as always until you meet his eyes, which light up even brighter.

You notice this especially because just in front of him, not two feet away, in a pool of blood, is a corpse.

The urge to hurl is instantaneous - even looking at it makes you wince and tear your eyes away, but you have to see - and a terrible recognition strikes you.

From - from the cafe? Oh god. Oh god. You remember him - he was standing up and moving, he was speaking, you'd heard him talk earlier today and he's - is he -

“We need to call - ”

Mammon cuts you off, for once. "Hey! I know I ain't the best at magic but even I can take care of a body."

Your heart thuds in your chest. There's a gaping hole in the center of his - it's? - chest. The ribs curve outwards as if something in his chest exploded, the bones exposed with tiny bits of flesh and redness clinging to them in stringy, thin webs.

And then your eyes follow down to its exposed crotch, where there's nothing but a bloody stump - if it could even be called that. Fuck, you can see the -

You have to look away again, back, over into Mammon's eyes.

"A body? Mammon, this is a lot more than just - just a fucking body!!"

He perks up at that, "Ya better believe it is! I wouldn'ta done this for anyone else! Look at him - he got what he deserved. Just like you said!"

Mammon smiles up at you, his eyes flickering, and -

And he looks just as sweet as he did offering you a parfait, just as bashful and unable to hide his delight. A trace of insecurity, as if you're not sure he'll accept his affections, when he's offering you a corpse.

"Mammon..." You trail off, not sure how to say it - just in that tone he knows to think twice about.

You watch him stand, eyes down and bashful like a chastened dog, and a dark aura engulfs his figure - in an instant.

And now you know where all the blood is. his chest is splattered with it; it's a good think his outfit is mostly leather because it's all over him. His boots are all red.

Mammon has never scared you before. And now...

...he still doesn't, because he's giving you puppy dog eyes.

"I gave him just what he deserved, and brought him here for you to see!" He tells you eagerly, fixing his eyes on yours.

Mammon kicks over the body, closer to your feet; its arm rolls out limply as it sags there, like a ragdoll made of flesh.

"I'm the second strongest of all my brothers! The Great Mammon! Not just anybody would do this for ya, and almost nobody could do it as fast!"

Every sentence feels like a new swerve. You look away from his eyes, down -

"It's all for you, ya know? Because... well... I like ya so much..."

- down - there's barely any of the white markings visible on his chest, splattered with redness that trails down in rivulets as you step forward to look at it -

"A-and ya said yourself! He deserved to be punished! So I... y'know. Did what ya wanted... I did your will, master..."

His voice lingers in your ears, high but keening, somehow, that longing you know buried deep inside always calling out -

the rise and fall of his chest, so perfectly defined even with red all over it -

"For you..." Mammons says your name and your heart jumps, "I brought him here for you, at your feet, on the ground, dead beneath you where he belongs..."

You stumble over it, the heavy mound of bone and muscle in the vague shape of a body, tumbling over at your touch, pallid from the loss of blood.

The skin is waxy, and before the massive gash in its chest can make itself known you draw your eyes back, back towards the magnetic pull of Mammon's plaintive words -

His eyes draw you in, in an instant, as you seem to step forward, right into his arms... even as he falls to his knees.

Mammon's face is beatific, adoring.

"Let me show ya... how much I can do for ya, all that I wanna do for ya, I can make ya feel so good.."

You lick your lips. The demon from earlier might be dead... but your heart is pounding - desperately, and something much lower along with it.

[anichibicore]

i have. some thoughts i wanna dump out about aini actually and if i do it on twitter my friend WHO STILL HASN'T STARTED THE GAME will see it and then i'll scream because i've done a fantastic job of not spoiling anything for her SO ANYWAY ANI THOUGHTS TIME. ALSO this isn't everything i just wanna get the loudest thoughts out

i'll be honest i wasn't expecting to like tama much but she ended up being one of my favorites actually. funny little ai-ball so silly and actually such a sweetheart. and she supports the lgbtq. icon

RYUKI i am sooooooooo normal about him. sosososososo SO normal. i started playing and when it got to his pov i really was like the "oh he's just a little guy! oh he's a bit fucked up actually" meme and just. gently holding him. uchikoshi dumped all the trauma he could on this man just to see how much it would take to completely break him i swear. also i kept making fun of him and his so obvious crush on date but also i completely understood because i too love pathetic men. which i'll be honest i was not expecting him to. actually have a thing for date. gay rights!

speaking of date, all i am saying is: i understand where ryuki is coming from. i want to kiss him actually. pathetic man. why are you so hot with an eyepatch.

mizuki all grown up! i loved her interactions with aiba and boss, they are just so good hsjejf.

ALSO i honestly? really liked just boss's casual mention that she has a daughter (bibi) in throwaway lines and just! i didn't think anything of it at the time but god damn uchikoshi you mastermind

mmmmmmmmm one thing i'm really Not Fond Of is kizuna and lien's relationship like. i think if lien didn't literally hit on her the moment he saw her and LITERALLY FOLLOWED HER to pressure her into a relationship, and if kizuna was not 18 AT THE TIME, i'd be at least a little okay with it? individually i think they're pretty good characters and i really do like their arcs but their relationship just ruins it for me. i was REALLY hoping they wouldn't go that way, ESPECIALLY with kizuna shooting down his advances initially but i'm clearly asking for too much from a spike chunsoft game. same goes for gen and amame but to a lesser extent because 1 that remains unrequited (or at least i think it does. i think amame just sees gen as a father figure of sorts) and 2 the two don't eat up screenstime for a focus on a romantic relationship and therefore i can simply Look Away. I Do Not See. also mizuki wouldn't encourage that who brainwashed her into thinking it's okay

SPEAKING OF, i actually did not expect amame to be a major character in the game (if that was shown in a trailer then i am a clown bc i watched like. the initial teaser and the reveal trailer and that's it) and i especially didn't expect to like her as much as i did. i loved how creepy her somniums were AND how the answers to the questions in second one as mizuki were the same as the ones in the first as ryuki like. sorta foreshadowing her whole story? ALSO SHE STRAIGHT UP MURDERED URU I HONESTLY DIDN'T EXPECT THAT. all i have left to say is god damn faye mata is a good va. also the gen and amame route nearly made me cry. i did in fact have tears welling up.

i want to punt chikara into the ocean. that's all

OH ALSO the masked woman/bibi's somnium was obnoxious tbh. i got so fuckin frustrated with it. tho idk if i just got lucky or what but somehow not looking at chikara made him? not notice me as much? i have no fuckin clue. anyway

speaking of somniums, tokiko's was super creepy but like. in a different way than amame's. you know what i mean. the only thing i didn't like about it was the ringing sound in the soundtrack. and how slowly you move, especially when you're swimming to the nirvana initiative for the last mental lock. agony.

the explosion route hurt me in ways i cannot describe. i was semi-livemessaging my friend bits and pieces of my playthrough in the most spoiler free way i could and. i'm just putting these here and letting them speak for me

ALSO I WANNA SHARE ryuki taking a bullet for date and seemingly dying IN HIS ARMS NO LESS made me almost cry AGAIN. THIS GAME BROKE ME EMOTIONALLY THREE TIMES. i genuinely thought he was dead too and i did not know how to feel. and as funny as date straight up acting like a cat with his head on hitomi's lap was, the way he reacts when mizuki asks him about ryuki just. ow?

i'm not saying i lowkey ship date and ryuki but i lowkey ship date and ryuki

on a lighter note, kizuna breaking out a gatling gun and screaming "come get some, motherfuckers" made me laugh like. way harder than it probably should've. i saved it on my switch because it was too funny not to.

ALSO the whole thing with the true flowchart confused me at first but after thinking it over and getting it explained a bit, it makes a lot more sense. especially since there are two mizukis and the whole thing with aiba being on a secret mission, and also the fact mizuki didn't question date being alive when he saved her from tearer in the abandoned warehouse.

tearer's somnium was literally just a walking zero escape reference and i was living. i didn't properly finish all the puzzles in one room because the first two digits for the password were 9 and i went "999 moment" and got it right. and laughed hysterically. i think the music for those rooms was taken straight from ZE too but idk for sure. i wouldn't be surprised tho

as much as i Don't Like moma being a massive creep in this game, the bits with the vochaloco were pretty funny to me. i hope iris's va had fun recording those lines because hearing iris say fuck is great.

mama :) that's it that's the thought i just love mama.

i think we deserved to see/hear marco personally. there are concepts of a like. genderbent aiba in the dream album (i don't remember which somnium) and i know it sounds basic and lazy of me but i'm pretending that's what he looks like.

i've been typing for like two hours lmao but anyway my conclusion in short is the game has a few problems but overall i had a great time with it. also ryuki is a fruit. that's all

[aoitrinity]

Why Do I Have to Feel Like a Fucking Conspiracy Theorist -- OR -- How I Find a Semblance of Peace on Sunday Night

I’m also going to start this out with a GIANT DISCLAIMER.

I am about to theorize about what may have happened to the SPN finale. I have absolutely no insider knowledge. I am merely speculating here based on the panels and a bunch of Twitter and Tumblr posts that I have been reading over the last few days. If you are not in a good place to read such things, TURN BACK PLEASE. Go take care of yourself and your mental health. You and your feelings are valid and deserve to be handled gently right now.

Additionally, if you are here to give me shit for being unhappy with the ending, please walk away as well. I am here to reach out and share my feelings with people who might be struggling to make sense of something that upset some of us in very deep-seated ways. I am not here to bother you or critique you or tell you that you’re lesser because you liked the ending. If you felt it was good, then go enjoy it.

Long-ass post beneath the cut, everyone.

Alrighty folks...I debated whether or not to do this because I have been spiraling down the hell that is the SPN finale since Thursday. The travesty of what happened to our show--to this beloved show that seemed to have been so perfectly and precisely written for at least four years that it had basically already paved its own tarmac on which to land its plane and we all thought we knew exactly what we were going to get. And then we didn’t. We had a nigh Cas-less and entirely Eileen-less ending. We had no goodbye between Cas and Jack. We had Dean dying young after finally finding his freedom, only to ascend to heaven with no one but Bobby. We had the weird, weird, weird incest-y death scene. We had the bridge crane shot thing because...sure. You do you, Robert Singer.

It was so terrible, so truly awful, and I couldn’t seem to square any of it with anything we had known going in. I tossed and turned and cried and didn’t eat or sleep all weekend. I spent hours just reloading tumblr and twitter, going to the Misha panel, reading and reading and listening and trying to figure out what the fucking hell is going on because I needed to know exactly where to direct my anger. And after a fuckton of talking with @winchester-reload, I think we have at least a very plausible theory about what happened here--I’m laying it out below as much for my own peace of mind as anything else, because otherwise all of these thoughts are going to continue to spin around in my head for weeks and I won’t be able to do jack shit.

Now to start off, unfortunately I do think Dean was slated to die from the beginning of this season. I don’t know WHY they thought that was the best way to go, and I wish they had listened to Jensen on this one. Part of me wonders if it was an order from on high based on the discussion between Becky and Chuck earlier this season--the writers knew it wasn’t a great choice, but they were trying to signal to us that we should feel free to write our own endings to the story because they’d be better (I can wax poetic on the signs of why many of the writers probably wanted Dean to live, but that’s another post). I’m not defending that choice by any means, just laying it out there that I think they didn’t necessarily all want to kill Dean like they did.

However, what I THINK I can explain now is what happened with Misha and why we got so jerked around with Cas’s story. Consider what we know (I can’t immediately source all of it, but I did my best):

At the end of episode 15x19, Lucifer has been returned to the Empty after being killed AGAIN. He talks with Cas. Maybe harasses him a bit about Dean, idk. But then...Jack shows up. New God Jack. And he picks up Cas and pulls him out of the Empty, leaving Lucifer behind, because seriously. Fuck that guy (also leaving behind his abusive father is character growth for Jack, so yay for that).

-Misha was contracted to film 15 episodes this season. He was only in 14.

-Misha told Michael Sheen he had to go back to film 1.5 episodes after the shutdown in March. (Starts at 6:13)

-Misha was in Vancouver during filming of the finale.

-Mark P said at Darklight Con that the last scene he filmed was with Alex and Misha (and Mark P was only in episode 19).

-Misha implied that he was present for various filming moments, including Dean’s death (start at 35:15), and said that it felt like a “mini-reunion.”

-Various sources have mentioned that Jimmy Novak was supposed to be in the finale.

-After episode 18, Stands tweeted a fan who was angered and hurt by Cas's death that they could talk about the “bury the gays” issue after the finale aired.

-In episode 19 we know there were takes of the parking lot scene where the only thing fans observing could hear was Dean yelling “CAS” at Chuck (fuck I can’t find this one right now, but it’s definitely out there)

-Also in episode 19, we had a very strange, awkward montage at the end of the episode.

-In episode 20, we know there were a FUCKTON of missing scenes

-We also had no opening montage, but three other separate montages.

-Carry on My Wayward Son was played TWICE, back-to-back at the end of the episode.

-Episode 20 was shorter than normal and had surprisingly little dialogue. The pacing was VERY strange.

-The cast and crew has been almost completely silent about the finale since it came out. When they have spoken, it has been with an awkward excuse of “Uh...COVID?”

-Samantha Ferris has specifically noted that, despite the Harvelle’s being back in play and a big heaven reunion having been planned pre-COVID, neither she nor Chad Lindberg received any such invitation to return.

-Cas and Dean POP Funko figures were pictured together in a replica of Harvelle’s in 15x04.

NOW with all of this in mind (and I’m probably missing some stuff too because there is so much--feel free to add on to that list), please bear with me because here is what I think we were SUPPOSED to get POST-COVID (after it was determined that the reunion couldn’t happen because of the virus):

In episode 20, we start with our NORMAL OPENING MONTAGE, like always. It traces everything that happened during the season. We are reminded of Cas. The confession. Rowena. Eileen. Jack. Billie, God, the Empty, all of it. 

Things then follow along in the episode where they did up until Dean dies and wakes up in heaven. After his conversation with Bobby, he drives off to find Cas (who, in the script, was listed as “Jimmy Novak” in order to protect against script leaks--who wouldn’t want to do their best to avoid spoilers about the finale with the wrapping of a fifteen-year show?). He does indeed find Cas. We get Dean’s end of the confession. Hell, maybe we even get a kiss. And then Dean sets up his new heaven home in the recreated Harvelle’s. Maybe Cas even fucking moves in. 

Years pass. We get Sam having his life on Earth (still can’t explain why they cut Eileen and couldn’t even have Sam signing vaguely to the blurry brunette in the background; if anyone wants to take that on, go for it). Eventually, Cas tells Dean that it’s almost Sam’s time. Dean takes Baby and goes to meet Sam at the bridge. The cover of Carry on My Wayward Son plays during this much shorter sequence. End of episode.

But that’s not what we got. Instead, much of what I just wrote about was excised from the episode. The remnants were stitched together after shooting had been wrapped. Filler was added in the form of montages and long, unnecessary extra shots to get the episode to something approaching a reasonable length. 

But why? Why would they spend all that time and money and quarantining on Misha, only to almost completely cut him out of the finale? I struggled with why the fuck the CW would want this mammoth show to go down as the greatest queerbait in TV history when they had the chance to do something truly beautiful and monumental with it? It couldn’t just be sheer homophobia, right? Well, I think that factored into it, my friends, but here is where my head is at right now.

It was about cold, hard cash.

Now I could be wrong, but this is what I’m thinking at the moment: Supernatural is going off of the air. Supernatural, the CW’s cash cow for fifteen years. Sure there is still money to be made on blu-rays and merchandise and cons...but they need people watching their shows. They need that sweet advertising revenue. And you know what show they have about to premiere? A show that could, potentially, bring with it a chunk of that SPN revenue?

Walker.

And if any of you know anything about the original Walker Texas Ranger, you know that the show was predominantly a show about a very heterosexual white man being very excessively heterosexual. And for SOME REASON over the years, many of the execs at the CW still seem to think that this show, Supernatural, is really attractive to a lot of middle-American white men...whom they desperately want to watch this new show with this guy from Supernatural that they already know.

Now here’s where COVID fucked us. I think Destiel was greenlit by TPTB, at least in SOME form, before COVID. But then the pandemic happened, and they panicked. They got the cut of the last two episodes and watched them in their original, probably queer form. And then, the execs at CW looked at the economy. They looked at their cash cow, about to make its journey to the great beyond. And they looked at this new little calf Walker that they were so desperately worried about. And they made a choice.

They decided that it would be too risky to take the step with Destiel. They were worried about frightening off their ever-so-valuable hetero male demographic with the possibility that a traditionally masculine man in his 40s could be in love with another man in an overt way. It was homophobia mixed with greed, spun up by fear for their revenues because of COVID.

So they called in Singer, possibly Dabb, although I wouldn’t be surprised if they went straight to Singer. They told them that Destiel had to go: executive orders. And the only way to make it go in a way that removed any trace of what had been there was to rewrite what happened to Cas and cut him out from the last two episodes entirely. It was too late to reshoot anything. They had to just cut and stitch and fill with bullshit montages. 

They removed the scene at the end of 19, probably because Cas and Lucifer discussed Dean. All that was left of Misha there was his voice on that fake phone call. They may have cut other things too, but I would bet my life that they cut a scene from the end of the episode and replaced it with that very strange montage. Then they moved onto 20. They cut out every scene with Cas. And left in only two platonic mentions of him, neither made by Dean. They tried to imply that Cas might show up in Dean’s heaven at some point, but that was as far as the editors could go in the time they had. They filled in with montages, awkwardly long shots, anything they could do to fill all of those missing scenes.

And they even had to take the opening montage, because literally everything in it pointed to Cas being there at the end of it all. They wouldn’t be able to leave out his scenes, they were too critical to the season. They couldn’t cut his confession without raising eyebrows. So they cut the whole thing and moved “Carry On My Wayward Son” to one of the newly-added driving montages at the end. Which is why we awkwardly had both songs play back-to-back--again, such a strange choice unless they were out of options and couldn’t exactly buy rights to a new track or compose anything else.

And so we were left with the shadow of the finale that we deserved, that Cas and Dean deserved. We were left without resolution or happiness or words. Bobo told us the most important thing about happiness is just “saying it” and our characters were silenced without anyone ever knowing the truth.

I think the writers might have known and been given the new party line that “Misha never filmed, he couldn’t, sorry, it was COVID, no one’s fault!” But I don’t think most of the cast even knew it had happened until they watched the finale on Thursday with us (though they might have been confused why the bit from 15x19 was sliced, they could reasonably have assumed it was a time thing and also BL episodes don’t make sense anyway). Why do I say that?

Well, first of all, Misha started sending out a bunch of excited texts to fans with some old BTS pictures about an hour before the show started airing on EST. He also wanted his children to see the episode, his YOUNG children. Why would he show them such a traumatic episode if their Dad wasn’t in it? What if it was because he wanted them to witness what was going to be a monumental moment in queer television history that their DAD got to be a part of? And then that was all dashed.

Which is why I think the cast and crew went almost completely radio silent the next day. I don’t think they knew. And based on how they have been acting on social media since then, I think many of them are absolutely furious, but they have been silenced because of NDAs, because they want to find work again in a cutthroat industry, because they don’t want to bring down the hellfire of Warner Brothers Entertainment upon themselves. So the most we have gotten is a little acknowledgement from the MERCHANDISING COMPANY trying to validate our pain (god bless Shirts, she is a LIFESAVER) and a response to my salty tweet about keeping good stuff in the closet from Adam Williams (the VFX coordinator) that seemed to acknowledge the validity of my complaint.

Then there was a scramble behind the scenes, I would bet my life. Talking points were fed to the boys who had panels today, to CE, to all the cast and crew:

Toe the party line. Misha never filmed. This was always about COVID. Do not mention Destiel. Do not mention Dean’s feelings for Cas. Do not promote the Castiel Project or anything that validates the idea that this was anything less than a superb ending.

And that is why we have heard so little from the cast on this front, and what we have heard has been muddled and contradictory. That is why the writers are saying nothing. That is why we have been left adrift.

Now before I close this out, I do want to say that I really, genuinely do not think this was on the writers at all. I feel like they tried to give us the best ending that they could, in a writers room that we know is notorious for splitting along party lines about the overall story (BL and Singer, who have always been about the brothers and their man-pain vs. Dabb and the rest who always seemed to want more for them and for Cas). I think they did everything in their power to at least end with Dean and Cas happy together. If they could give us nothing else, they wanted to give us that. And then the network took it from them. From us. From everyone.

For the sake of fucking money. 

And the WORST PART OF IT ALL, for me, is that in the wake of this disaster, the fans have been left to try and figure out what happened. We have had to wade through a mire of conflicting information in the midst of all of our collective anger and grief over this garbage ending of a show many of us have loved and even relied on for YEARS, all the while wondering if we’re just fucking crazy, if we have all fallen collectively into the hole of conspiracy theories. That hurts ESPECIALLY badly because we have taken so many hits over the years from other groups on social media saying we were crazy for seeing things that weren’t there (especially Destiel), for writing meta and analyzing tropes and believing the evidence of our eyes and ears. The network has made us relive that entire nightmare WHILE processing our grief for a show we wanted so badly to celebrate and which instead we now have to mourn.

So again guys, I cannot prove that this is exactly what happened at all; this is simply my idea of what may have happened. But right now, it’s the most sense I can make from this mess, and to be honest, the act of typing it out has helped me enormously in my processing of it all. I feel like I can see more clearly, like I know where to target my outrage and where to direct empathy. I feel like just fucking maybe, I might be able to do my job tomorrow without bursting into tears at random moments. 

I really hope that this post has helped some of you to, in some small way, process this too. We get through this the way that Misha told us at his panel this morning, the way the writers have told us to do all season long...we throw out the story God gave us and we make it better. We write our characters the happy endings they deserve. 

We save them.

One last thing--if you have not already, please consider channeling your rage into a donation to one of the five causes our fandom has put together to pay tribute to our beloved show and to mourn the ending it should have had:

-The Castiel Project

-Dean Winchester is Love

-Sam Winchester Project

-The National Association of the Deaf

-The Jack Kline Project

[authoratmidnight]

Hearing that Delicious Party Precure is gonna be delayed by *at least* 3 episodes cause of the Toei hack it has me hoping it’s not gonna bugger up the storyline to much, like the covid break did for Healin Good (which was like, 2 months, so 8 eps).

Which got me thinking again about Daruizen and how I’m almost certain that his storyline got shafted(and the rest of them to a lesser extent). 

Listen. I’m a slut for a good villain, and from the series I’ve watched PreCure is very good at those. And I do enjoy a good redeemed villain, which Precure ALSO is good at. Except Healin Good didn’t get to redeem any of them which was sad to me cause like, many they deserved it (but esp Daruizen).

From start to finish their storylines are tragedies. And it’s a shame so many people boil him down to ‘he’s just an abuser’ (which, eh, I would argue no? but we’ll get there) and stop there.

Firstly, he was literally created from the pain and suffering of another person (Nodoka), which is pretty shit but he didn’t exactly have say in this. He didn’t go ‘I’m going to become a parasite on this person to gain energy and grow’, he wasn’t even really sentient until after he was pulled from her and given form and called back by King Byogen. He never had a say in his creation. Nor does he remember it. It took him till like, halfway through the series to begin to remember.

Then you have his existence. His entire existence causes the suffering of those around him. Which again, he didn’t have a say in. He didn’t decide to be an asshole that drains life from everything/everyone around him and thrives in a lifeless world. That’s just how he is. It makes me think of Darkrai from pokemon, how it causes nightmares in those around it by merely existing. It’s not choosing to cause these nightmares, it just does. Just like Daruizen.

And it sure doesn’t help that this is all he knows. And you know, King Byogen being all ‘turn this world into a wasteland so we can survive’ sure don’t help.

Which like, I can see why people would see this and go ‘abuser’, esp with his connection to Nodoka. But like, he literally *has* to do this to survive, he doesn’t have a choice in the matter, it’s literally ‘do this or just die’ and well, he obviously doesn’t want to die.

And then, to top off this shit cake of a life, he finds out that King Byogen, the one he’s dedicated his life to serving and reviving, doesn’t actually give a shit about him and intends (and may have intended from the start) to consume him to get stronger. Which is indeed what ultimately ends up happening. Which, man what the fuck?

How can you see all this and not see it as heartbreaking.

How can you look at all this and NOT think his entire life is just a tragedy. Yes he was a bad guy and did awful things, but you can be a shit person and still have a tragic story.

You best believe I was more than a bit upset by all this. I thought he was a neat character and, having come off Star Twinkle and Hugtto I was no stranger to this series redeeming their villains in some way so I figured they’d find some way to do the same for *at least* him.

But no. He ends up alone, scared and nothing but fuel for the BBEG. He never had the chance to be anything else. Literally right as he was beginning to realize for the first time what fear is like, what it’s like to want to live, to maybe start understanding where Nodoka was coming from, he’s just taken out. And he didn’t even a send off by way of magic healing purifying wave, which might have been a less cruel way to get rid of him. No he was just straight up mercilessly eaten. Whilst in pain and scared. Like, he turned himself into a Mega Byogen to try and save his own life cause he was that scared of dying, and all that happened was he got beat down, and then consumed while down. Like damn bro.

His story is a tragic one and idk how people can just, not see it.

Now obviously I have no proof that this is because of the delay, but 8 episodes can hold A LOT of content, more than enough time for, among other things, a proper arc for the Byogen crew. And extra time could have allowed them to give him a better ending to his story, be it purified by precure magic and turned into nothingness or purified into something harmless/different. And it just suuuuucks cause I really did like Healin Good it just, got fucked so hard for the 8 episode delay and it shows.

So I’m really hoping that DeliParty isn’t delayed more then 3 episodes and that the delay doesn’t bugger it up to much.

[blockgamepirate]

Okay this is something I've been thinking about for a while and I saw some posts about Tommy hate etc. so I felt like giving my take on it:

I think a lot of the frustrating stuff about Dream SMP's narrative is tied to the fact that some people just have massive viewer counts so the story ends up orbiting around them.

And I don't even think this is anyone's fault, really, it's just an annoying fact.

It leads to plots not being taken seriously unless Tommy or Techno are involved in them. So when smaller streamers want their plots to be relevant they probably feel like they HAVE to include Tommy and/or Techno.

But that just reinforces the sense that everything is about Tommy and Techno. And maybe Dream, although since he doesn't stream his pull is more limited.

This is obviously not Tommy's fault, he's probably just trying to help people out by introducing his viewers to the plots that other streamers have going on and playing along. Like to me it seemed pretty obvious that he was playing his character extra obnoxious for Jack and Niki's benefit, because it makes it easier for their characters to hate him and complain about him. And somehow he even managed to drop some massive dramatic irony bombs with a perfectly straight face, like "who do I trust not to kill me?" *looks at Ranboo and Jack's names on the tab list* "Jack Manifold!" That was beautiful.

But Tommy gets the brunt of the anger because he's playing the Annoying Little Brother Character that people love to hate. (I mean that as a character archetype, not as judgement, to be clear. One of his character traits just IS to annoy people for laughs. That just tends to mean that sometimes it also annoys the audience. Annoying characters are tough to play.) Techno's character is the cool badass who makes funny quips so he gets away with a lot more.

(Although I did actually see a whole bunch of people mad about Techno not treating the Egg seriously enough so I wouldn't say he's immune either. The difference is that people weren't upset that he was involved at all, just HOW he was involved.)

I think another factor is that Tommy has been framed as the main character for a looong while, and it's easy for people to start resenting main characters, especially if they're not their favourite and the plots seem to still end up centering them. And I don't think being the main character was even Tommy's idea? I think that was mostly Wilbur because he was doing this to give Tommy something to do on the server and to get to do something cool with Tommy. They probably couldn't ever have predicted it would get this big or continue this long. It was originally just them being Hamilton nerds and having fun.

Meanwhile Techno just doesn't stream enough so when he finally shows up people are just too glad he's even around to get annoyed lol. Except in that if he's involved then all the plots end up getting halted while everybody waits for him get around to it.

Also I guess with Techno people have an easier excuse to involve him because he's one of the strongest if not THE strongest person on the server so of course everybody wants to recruit him for help. That's why everybody tends to at least consider it even if it doesn't go anywhere. With Tommy, involving him ends up being a bit more awkward because technically he's just a guy who just happens to have gone through a lot and been involved in a lot. If it has something to do with Tommy's history on the server, or maybe even his people skills, it makes sense, but if not: you get stuff like the Egg having a special grudge against him, specifically, For Some Reason? Idk, I'm sorry, I've kinda missed a lot of the Egg Arc streams so maybe it makes more sense in context but it just seems really arbitrary to me.

It's just that a lot of it ends up sounding like stock main character plot devices where the main character is Special for Reasons.

Idk, maybe there would have been a smoother way to write him in but I don't have any kind of perfect solution to any of this. I don't think there really is one it's just one of those annoying side-effects of fame. Hermitcraft tends to get this too with Grian, to a lesser extent.

Oh yeah, I forgot: there's also just the fandom itself being obnoxious, and that tends to translate to people also hating the character and/or the creator. Happens with both Tommy and Techno (and I'm sure Dream too). This is another problem Grian also has btw.

[obeymehasinfluncedmythoughts]

Brothers with Mc Who Has PGAD (Pt 1 of ?)

This is going to be different then my other headcanons. I tried doing them like usual, but it didn't sit well with me. This is only like the first two chapters?? Idk how to explain it. It's hard to show the issues with PGAD in a relationship without just rehashing my chronic pain ask. I might be a bit rusty because I'm playing off and on right now, so please forgive if anyone is OOC.

Also, I want to state that this is NOT a representation of everyone who has PGAD. I couldn't possibly fit all the symptoms, feelings, and causes in here without contradicting myself. There are many causes in the female sex though (Deposits built on the clitoris, slipped disc, hormonal imbalances, pregnancy, misfiring signals from the brain/nerve, ext). I have a fucked up nerve somewhere along the line. I'm a rare case of a rare disorder where I was born with it and haven't experienced a day without PGAD. These are only how I expect someone with my exact symptoms would react, and how the brothers would react to that. Also! If you have PGAD, and don't know ways to help out, I'll give you some tips. Just hmu baby 💞.

Warning! Sensitive Content!

Coming to the Devildom is just as you'd expect it to be, it's literal hell.

You're stressed, like, majorly so. You don't have your medications on you, you've been seperated from your phone, and these demons are telling you you'll have to stay in their realm for a year, doctor's visits be damned.

The emotional connection between your pain and your reactions is rising by the second. It's clear on your face, and most probably by the way you dig your nails into the palms of your hands, attempting to draw your attention away from the growing burning sensation.

You don't feel comfortable being set up in a strange house with seven strange demons. They're rowdy and rude and it just sets you on edge to the point that you're very near jumping everytime one of them speaks to you.

They don't speak to you often, thankfully. If you refuse to engage with them, they're fine with keeping their distance. Sometimes you'll hear something from Mammon, your appointed guide, and the blonde seems to enjoy commenting on what books you're reading, but that's about it.

But then you're expected to go to school, five days a week, whilst fulfilling a stupid task list everyday, and all that pressure really weighs on you before it's even begun.

You can't sit down for eight hours, let alone sit on a hard surface in such a toxic that is highschool without being put out of commission for a few days. This will really mess with their whole plan, and you doubt you'll get cut any slack if you don't actually let at least one of the council members in on your condition.

It shouldn't have to be that way. You shouldn't have to justify your state of wellbeing to people you've barely known for two days, but the only way out of here is by playing the game, so you target the eldest brother.

You explain to Lucifer your condition. It's very professional, straight-forward, and he doesn't ask many questions besides the obvious.

The two of you eventually come to a pretty decent arrangement. On the days when you're in too much pain to handle things, you can stay home, and do whatever you can to catch up. It's not exactly the best option, considering you have different teachers online and in person, but it works for the most part.

He does require you to do some studying with the third eldest though. Leviathan, you learn, is a shut-in. Most his schooling is online, and since you're situation tends to make you miss many days of school, Lucifer wants him to help you out.

The two of you don't exactly get along at first. Leviathan is the type to work alone, and he's not the best at explaining. So during the first two days, you kinda flounder from paper to paper, task to task. It's just more stress on your plate. You snap at him when he gets impatient with you, and he'll return the gesture with some mumbled insults.

Eventually the two of you get to a state where you can at least work together without arguing over something small, but he's still a little annoying to you.

Satan kinda steps up here too. He knows Levi isn't really the best at explaining things that aren't dipped in a convoluted storyline, so he tries to help out when he sees you in the library, often searching for information for your assignments.

And Satan is incredibly patient. Even without knowing of your condition, and that's kinda the support you need. Learning with PGAD is hard, because any sort of frustration just puts you in pain. He doesn't get offended if you snap, or if you're a bit stubborn because of this. Something about him recognizes that desperation in your eyes; the want to do things, but he just knows there's something holding you back. He's not sure what, and he doesn't ask out of respect for whatever you must be dealing with (Which is such a breath of fresh air).

Mammon, on the other hand, isn't as graceful in his approach. He doesn't really pick up on your vibes and that proves to be a bit unfortunate when you're having a hard time translating your feelings.

He takes most things you say a little too personal, despite also having a tendency to blurt out the first thing that comes to mind.

You two get on each other's nerves pretty equally. The stress that results makes being in his presence a bit difficult.

But no one makes your life worse then Asmodeus.

Sure, he's sweet. He probably picks up on the fact that you take baths as often as he does and gives you some fancy soaps/stuffs, but he's a little too touchy.

And a bit too sexual.

You try to distance yourself from him, and it has mixed results depending on how persistent Asmodeus is feeling that day.

The only one who you don't interact with much is Beel, and that's kind of a blessing in disguise. You're hardly a few days into your residency in the Devildom and you're already struggling to keep up with school and the brothers (as well as the voice coming from the attic...but you try to push that and Lucifer's threats to the back of your mind.)

Things only get worse when you make your pact with Mammon. In fact, the only good thing that really comes out of it is that you are able to help out Leviathan. Everything else feels like a shitstorm.

There was the expected teasing. The "Mammon was dumb enough to get played by a human" bit that really got old after the first time and a few offers to make some more pacts from lesser demons at school (which you always turned down). All the attention made your day stressful as fuck. You could hardly think without feeling strongly in some sort of way, and having a stabbing pain zeroing in on your pelvis.

And to your suprise, he can totally feel it.

(Personally I like to believe pacts go a bit deeper then the 'oh I can make you do things'. I feel it should be considered more, given how much power is given to them, and how often it's stated that the guys don't just give them out. If they were just about control, I have no doubt Mammon would have probably used it in a moment of desperation. In fact, it's kinda out of character that he hasn't at least made the mistake ONCE, so I headcanons there is a emotional/physical bond that comes with it.)

It's not completely there. He doesn't get all the pain and strife you do, but there's enough for him to kinda put the pieces together. He's not delicate in approaching you about it, however he thankfully does pull you aside after dinner, saving you the embarrassment of talking about genitals at the dinner table.

You explain to him what exactly PGAD is. That your body is feeling a sexual desire, but you mind isn't. So, instead of being pleasurable, it's painful.

He's not exactly sure what you're saying, but he becomes a lot more protective over you from now on.

[hopeshoodie]

ik you have shane as your perfect islander for lottie so you seemed like the right person to ask about what you think a perfect islander for hannah would be like

Ok hear me out- someone like Genevieve or (to a lesser extent) Priya.

I LOVE the arc I’ve decided is canon of Hannah realizing she is a lesbian throughout the show. It just makes too much sense and I feel like every sapphic girl had a best friend where the relationship was super intense and toxic (but not because we’re gay, no not because we’re gay) and that’s the vibes with Hannah and Lottie. So as much as I ship Lottie and Hannah, they both need to do a lot of growth before they can be healthy and stable together. Ultimately, while it’s one of the best ships in the game, Lottie’s love isn’t the perfect match for Hannah.

 In the canon season I do love the idea of Priya and Hannah- Priya’s much more grounded but still has the high femme glamour that Hannah is into. If Priya was openly bisexual and comfortable with that (which she SHOULD be because she SHOULD have been an LI for MC), I would love the arc of Hannah realizing she’s gay through Lottie and then realizing that her ‘romantic, sensible, and fairytale’ partner can be Priya. Then we could play around with her un-learning compulsory heterosexuality and realizing that everything she was romanticizing about love with a man is possible with women. I hesitate on this because in the game, Priya’s one of the more immature characters (obv. less so than Lottie but definitely more so than Hope or Chelsea) and she can’t really play the grounded voice of reason alongside all of her Lottie/Noah/Felix stuff.

 So I would bring in a character more like Genevieve. Someone who’s really confident, stable, self-sufficient, comfortable in who they are. She’s my favorite character in Season 3 because while she’s really smart and chill, she doesn’t make it her mission to police everyone else or fix other people’s drama (even though there is none in S3). She sits back with her partner (which is a whole other tangent- I love how they’re obviously into each other but don’t make a big show of it in the way that Nope or any other couple in the game did), does her own face paint, is kind to everyone but really only involved with her friends. If s3 had been written better, she would’ve been the competent and kind dark skinned black woman who’s NOT made into the mom friend for once in media.

 But of course the character of Genevieve doesn’t work 100% for Hannah because I get super straight vibes from her (not super-straight, fuck them, but like extra straight, like she is very straight but in a way that includes trans men because they are men). And also? A big part of Viv’s story is that she gets Seb in the end, and they’re a really functional healthy couple who support each other. She wouldn’t get that same support from someone going Thru It like Hannah is.

 So Hannah’s ideal partner is a mix between Priya and Genevieve, and seeing how underutilized Priya is I think we can just repurpose her (but take out a lot of the immaturity and add in Viv’s ambivalence). I’ll leave her name Priya because I’m very much picturing her as Priya.

 Priya comes in on day 1 like normal, late, but (instead of Hannah) Marisol goes home. Maybe there’s some kind of debacle where Gary tries to kiss Marisol and she calls him out, idk we need a reason for Gary to want to pick Hannah over Marisol. Lottie still attacks Priya and Hannah quietly takes Lottie’s side while feeling bad about it the whole time. Lottie and Hannah fall out, Hannah goes to Priya for support, I think I laid out this narrative in another post? Not sure, I’ve been maladaptive daydreaming about it a lot and maybe this is the first time I’m typing it out. At some point (ik Priya misses the truth or dare and with Marisol gone there’s not a character who compulsively needs to talk about their sexuality) it comes out that Priya’s bi, and she doesn’t shy away from or qualify that at all. She’s bi, she’s dated women, and she’s not uncomfortable with doing it again unlike SOME people.

 But Hannah goes to Priya for support on like day 6. Priya recognizes the sexual tension between Lottie and Hannah, but doesn’t point it out because Hannah’s not ready to accept that. Instead she just gives Hannah generic good advice. Roccogate happens to Hannah instead of Lottie, Operation Nope still happens and everyone hates Priya for it (but she handles it far more maturely than she did and comes out of it apologetic but not regretful).  Also because Marisol has to leave to keep Hannah, and we still need a prickly slow-burn lady LI, I’m thinking Lottie fills in that route (or Elisa comes in earlier with Lurik and does Marisol’s whole ‘omg dating a girl, such a big step!’ schtick).

 In CA, instead of Hope and Priya being dejected that they aren’t super into any of the new boys, it’s Hannah. Priya comes to comfort her, and she has a meltdown that ‘there’s so many awesome guys here why can’t I just like one of them’ and is also really salty that Kassam and Lottie are getting on so well. Priya gently tells her ‘maybe the reason you can’t force yourself to like the guys here is because you just don’t like men’. Hannah sputters a bit and Priya points out that she clearly has a crush on Lottie, which Hannah denies. Priya throws up her hands and says “well if you need to talk, I’m here,” to which Hannah initiates a kiss. They make out a bit, then Priya pulls away and says “that was lovely, but I’m not keen on being an experiment. I like you, but you need to know what you want.” And leaves. And Hannah shooketh because ‘oh, THAT’s what kissing is supposed to feel like’, because girlie same. It took me years of kissing men to realize you’re supposed to ~enjoy~ kissing.

 So then my ideal Priya route happens with Priya and MC, but at the recoupling after CA if MC doesn’t save Priya, Hannah does. Priya kind of says “thank you for saving me, you can keep going after to Gary,” and Hannah’s like “No. I want you.” They have a couple of conversations in private, where Priya is like ‘you can’t keep pining over Lottie if we’re going to be together together’ and ‘you gotta stop being sad that I’m not taller than you and that our hands are the same size- that’s compulsory heterosexuality and being upset about it is unfair to me’. And just generally Hannah grows a ton in the span of like 2 weeks, and they’re a really supportive healthy couple?

 Maybe if you’re feeling spicy, Hannah still kisses MC or Lottie before she leaves, and then that comes out at the finale party and Priya breaks up with her. I still think Hannah would have to leave LI and grow a lot before being ready to be in a functional relationship, so even if Priya was her perfect person she’d have to wait for her. I just need Hannah’s girlfriend to look over her glasses at her and be like “babes, this novel is trash. You’re writing about what you wanted LI to be, not what it actually was. No one’s going to read this. You need to find something that matters to you and write about it.” And the thing that matters to her is Priya. A real ‘I’m changing my major to Joan’ kind of moment.

[imakuvii]

Hey who the hell are you man set me up your that pissed off go to jail man you already in jail then shut up talking like that to kids and s man people got eat learn drink and provide your stuck in some hating a world calling me a sneach man we all need to do better before all get killed man killing is worst then talking man no one here is betting around the bunch man we all learn from mistakes I didn’t won’t no conflict I don’t need to worry all day very day you make me worried about your health I ain’t in no gang look at all these s man the worlds ending no one is hating you well they must be wrong to treat like that man why you lieing to them and we stuck in the same god forsaken messaging with the same vision with the same attitude man just let it go man see I know you been lesser then most trying warn me man everyone needs a saver no matter what even if there dead and help from above I don’t want to hear that idk man I never saw your face but very one here knows a person even if it’s algebra man sure if they start shoot they we’ll arrest you I don’t need you going to jail over some white black boy s talking damn straight talk to know one that’s a lot of energy thank you see all that that’s not how grievance is it’s bad for the soul we know very one wants to share for updates to the coming wars all thoughs people they dead locked up and dead and completely out of reach I’m native fool that is black man why you thinking about the same thing like the other n man yeah I ain’t be training my own it don’t make no sence it’s about you or me man I ain’t down your throat making people do s man make who na that’s my mentor and from there follows it don’t make sense then go get your a a job and a dictionary and taurus and some manners and a teacher man tripping because I warned them about going to jail and killing at the same saving n I don’t need saving what kind of s is that man asking me to stop helping man no self respect at all I’m gonna died wether if or or man that’s not how we live man you asking much for the question because some n of 50 cents hit man target was talking all that s saying we weak you ain’t s even me fool saying I’m so much cleaner then he is yada yada yada even Michael Myers and Jesus even the devil him self with the planets and the black blank dead space I ain’t saying all that s even my haters that hated me hate them back and forward and up and down all over the hills n h yeah they put in the past fool don’t even let me see the light of day out here man for thoughs n too thank you h no I ain’t going there be killed I know you be snooping around o man yes even that guy man that ain’t his name yes that universe is not is d balls for reals for us the women side it ain’t funny man that means everybody has some type of way man no one will be dating your pregnant Indian a White vase cup cake fandra man yes Italy man we all wanted to f her man but she definitely went out there and f for reals man I heard some s about her baby though and the man of her life what’s up n s t f me later and all b you brought me in and us ??? In there man we know where you living h no I ain’t doing it dragon noise that’s what it seems h yeah wooo slap my a daddy lol yeah man which ya gonna do when terrorist come by man if we see Hulu beating her a you know it fool oow he did ooow wait wait wait wait!!! Fool man cheat on her who pull the string o!! Spam ware scamming ppff please b I bet your a I would lol I’m so glad to that I even have a phone booth you would bang my chicks aww thank you make more baby lol I mean you want to go around in circles s… witches man holy and evil umm maybe … hurry up the children are waiting man I heard that s DDA got his a a chick with d’s man my half sister dad got the whole inch barrier up in here even my dad does s make me sleep you n f b your a they did the shining thank you s I would make them all move there man are I q we could remodel it that’s the blue sheets right there it’s usually is one year in advance yup the yard man usually sports up in that s the gaming room yup naa man …

[mythiccheroacademia]

It’s for the Best

A/N: So uhhh...mayhaps I was in my feelings about college and it translated into beating angst into the best boi Sero. This might also be a little something before I disappear into the library again for an indefinite amount of time. Idk. Don’t ask me. But enjoy it

Pairing: Sero X Fem!Reader

Warnings: a lot of cursing, implied sexual activity, angst, no one’s right in this situation

Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3

It’s for the Best

This year hadn’t been kind to you. It hadn’t been kind to anyone. It was Class 1-A’s second year of U.A., and things were tough. Everyone who attended/once attended U.A. knew of the second-year slump.

It was an awful period of time where the students weren’t freshies, but they weren’t seniors either. They were stuck within that awkward in-between. The middle-child of the school. They were growing up. The work was harder. And there was more pressure to look towards the future, but not enough for faculty to really give them a lot of attention.

The feeling of abandonment layered with overwhelming stress could do a number on a student’s mental health.

And it showed between you and Sero’s relationship.

You two were the power couple of your class. The both of you were such a perfect fit, it was heart-warming. Like soulmates, where one was, the other was soon to follow. You two were as natural as air. You just made sense.

So it was worrying when the two of you began fighting.

Of course, couples fight. You’re supposed to once in a while. It was a healthy thing to do. But what you guys were doing was anything but healthy.

You could count the number of times the two of you had a disagreement in the year and a half you dated. They were usually small and ended within the next hour. Forgotten by the next day.

However, this was different. Maybe it was the stress and the existential crises all the students were having every five days, but you two were fighting. A lot.

One day it would be because the other was too clingy. Or maybe it was because someone forgot to text back. Sometimes it was because someone was being too reckless. Other times it was because someone was being too indifferent.

It was always one thing right after the other and it hurt. You both knew nothing would be solved without talking about it, but there wasn’t any time! Between training, studying, and interning, there was barely enough time in the day to eat. Forget about talking, you barely saw each other throughout the day. Sometimes, all you’d hear from the other was a simple “good morning” text to last you for the next two days.

On top of being physically exhausted, you were mentally drained. You couldn’t think straight and your emotions were running amuck when 20 minutes had passed and Sero hadn’t shown up outside the dorms for your date. For the second time that month.

It was past 8pm. Boys were prohibited from going into the girls' dorm, and vice versa, but you didn’t care. You had business to deal with.

You stomped your way through the common room to which the boys sputtered, surprised.

“Y/N? You can’t be in here. Aizawa-Sensei will do room checks any minute,” Kaminari said.

You ignored the statement. “Where’s Sero?”

“Um, in his room but—”

“Thanks. This shouldn’t take long,” you stated. The hard tone in your voice made the blonde frown in worry.

That didn’t sound good.

You left and once you got to his room, slammed the door open with a force that displayed your anger. The sight of him lazily swinging on his hammock, a book in his hand, made you seethe. The sound of the door slamming shut reached through his headphones.

“Hanta.”

“Y/N?”

Sero looked at you, confused as to why the glower on your face was so fearsome. He tilted his head before his eyes widened and he smacked his forehead. He quickly got off the hammock.

“Shit, the date,” he cursed. “Y/n, baby, I’m so sorry. I was studying for Japanese Lit. and I forgot.”

Your eyes followed him as he walked towards you.

“It’s Friday night.”

“I know, but you know how I struggle in that class. I was trying to get a head start.”

You placed your hands on your hips. “We haven’t seen each other in four days and you're telling me you couldn’t stop studying for 2 hours?”

He rubbed his neck and sighed. “I know. It sounds shitty when you say it like that. I apologize, baby.” He went to hold your hand. “Why don’t we—”

“Don’t fucking touch me,” you bit and he jerked to a stop. Anger colored your vision, you went to leave. If you stayed longer, you would say something you would regret. “Just forget about it.”

But Sero put a hand on the door to your dismay. He was pissed over your attitude and, quite frankly, didn’t have the time or energy to deal with it.

“Don’t start this shit again, y/n.”

“Excuse me?”

“You’re being a brat and throwing a temper tantrum. Cut the attitude because I’m not putting up with it.”

“Don’t talk to me like I’m a child,” you said, voice rising.

Sero was quick to match it. “Then stop acting like one.”

You grunted and walked to the other side of the room to put some space between you two. Being near him was making you even more irritated.

“You’re always talking down at me like I’m lesser and it annoys the fuck out of me! I’m your girlfriend, not your daughter, you jerk.”

“What the hell? No I don’t!”

“Yes you do!”

“Well I’m sorry you feel that way, but that’s not true. You’re overreacting.”

“Overreacting? You just did it again,” you exasperated. “You just invalidated my feelings.”

Sero crossed his arms, lips in a firm line. Instead of the light expression he usually wore, his face was tight with bristled anger. Sero was a calm guy by nature, but his temper could be a monster when he was pushed.

“What is this really about? Obviously, you feel some type of way. So, lay it on me,” he shrugged. He was trying to look unbothered, but it wasn’t working. It looked like he was being arrogant and it made you want to scream.

You nodded your head. You’d play his game.

“Okay. Fine. Let’s talk about how you don’t try.”

He had to make a face at that one. Did he hear correctly?

“Who?”

“You,” you pointed. “You don’t try. You’ve missed our date for the second time in two weeks and you don’t care.”

“I apologized.”

“You’re always apologizing after the matter. You never text first, you almost never plan dates anymore, and you barely remember to even say hi to your fucking girlfriend!” you listed.

“That’s fucking bullshit, and you know it,” he shouted. “I do try! Every time I try to find you during lunch, its always, ‘Oh, I’m studying.’ Or, ‘I promised Momo I’d sit with her today.” Or sometimes, I never get a text back.”

“I always apologize for it!”

“Actions speak louder than words.”

You rolled your eyes. “That’s rich coming from you.”

“Oh fuck off,” he waved you off.

All restraint was gone and the two of you started going back and forth, releasing everything you bottled up over the months.

“It’s not my fault I’m busy during the day like every other normal fucking student!” you shouted.

“I’m busy too!”

You narrowed your eyes. “So busy that you can’t make time for a date?” you yelled.

“You’re so worried about the date, I can’t even remember that last time we fucked, y/n!”

“Of course that’s all you care about,” you scoffed. “That’s all you ever care about!”

Sero’s frown deepened and he pointed at you warningly. “Don’t you dare. Don’t you even dare try to pull that one on me. I don’t only care about the sex and you know that,” he said.

He was so offended with that one. You had been insecure about guys only wanting you for your body because that was the only time you were approached. You made him work for your trust and he worked hard as hell to ensure you never thought he was only with you because of that. He’d be damned if you threw it back in his face.

You don’t know when the two of you got so close, but you didn’t appreciate his finger pointing like that at you.

“Could’ve fooled me. And get your finger out of my face,” you seethed, pushing it away.

Sero’s neck had gotten so red that it was a surprise he wasn’t shaking out of fury by now.

“You wanna know what I really think? You’re a controlling, uptight, hypocrite that can’t go two seconds without being the center of attention and you need to grow up. I have more important things in my life to worry about than someone who bitches about every little inconvenience,” he spat.

Your brows raised in feigned amusement and you laughed. Although, it was more incredulous than anything else.

You clasped your hands together and shrugged your shoulders. “Well if I’m such a hypocrite and a controlling, uptight, bitch, why are you with me?”

Not even a beat passed before he answered.

“I don’t know,” Sero said with the same tone.

“Then maybe we should break up.”

He shrugged. “We should.”

For nearly half a minute, the two of you stood there in silence. You stared at Sero as he averted his eyes to the wall, refusing to make any other comments.

Accepting what just occurred, you nodded your head in acknowledgment.

“Okay,” you simply said before calmly leaving his room.

Sero couldn’t watch you leave in fear of breaking. But it wasn’t until you completely left the hallway that he dragged his hand down his face, sighing as his eyes began to burn with tears.

What the hell did you two just do?

[fanfictiondreamscape]

First Kisses (Haikyuu - pt. 3)

Title: First Kisses (Haikyuu - pt. 3) 

Genre: even more fluff. prepare thyself, for you will be passed out due to the cuteness overload.

Pairing: Kageyama/Hinata/Yamaguchi x Reader (all separate)

Notes: Here we are! Part three, and there may still be more to do. Depending on how these are received, I will try to do some for some lesser known anime (that reside within what I will write for). Otherwise, I’ll end this with a little note: 

Got a request? They’re open! All I ask is that you read the request rules before requesting.

Part 1 Part 2 Part 4 Part 5 Part 6 Masterlist

Tobio Kageyama

ok let’s get one thing straight

this man is BAD with his emotions

he wouldn’t know how to handle them, but he would be able to generally understand that he would be emotional

(consider that a forewarning to this mess lol)

otherwise, his s/o? 

very passionate about something, but also very aware of their capabilities 

may have an interest in volleyball, but wouldn’t necessarily play

would also be an outgoing person

not particularly overly trusting, but not shy

as for the kiss? 

school, after practice

OR

school, during lunch

y’know when he gets his milk from the machine?

yeah, that time. 

so

he’s by the machine, he’s waiting

you came with him as you had met up with him after class had ended

and while you were typing a text to your friend 

he was pouting

with a glare

(i think you know the face, do i really need to explain it?) 

once the ‘text sent’ sound came, you pushed your body off the wall

and decided, on a whim, to tease the living crap out of kageyama

that thought now being thought of,...

you jump-hugged him

he didn’t fall, but he did nearly topple over

that made you happy, (but we don’t talk about that)

he was blushing bright red

“w-what? what are you doing?”

you giggled, “hugging you. isn’t it obvious?”

he continued to stumble over his words before giving up 

(that’s what you get for trying to portray ‘tough guy kageyama’ all the time, my man-)

eventually, he had to pry you off to get his milk carton

he got it, but you clung to his arm 

he was frozen

it was cute, and it was driving you to keep up the teasing

as for him? 

he found it adorable, but he had an act.

he can’t be acting like this in front of his classmates.

so he had to do something to leave you speechless. 

that ‘something’ he thought of, you ask? 

your first kiss! 

he used his strength to pull your body from his arm

but instead of there being some pause, 

it was simple.

a small peck. 

something unexpected, but an indicator of his love for you 

despite how annoying you could be when you wanted to get him to blush.

though you weren’t talking much, you were clinging

you froze, he smirked, and the both of you let out some varying levels of laughter

after the event, you grabbed his hand with a smile on your face 

and on the way back, you were thinking

something along the lines of 

‘if that’s how he wants to stop me from clinging to him, i’m okay with that.’

honestly, the overall experience is very short and very miniscule 

but the impulsivity of the kiss and the simplicity of it was perfect for you and him

and it would be so cute too, just imagine that. a short peck with kageyama? oh my-

Hinata Shoyo

okay, little baby bean here doesn’t know how to handle this well

he loves his s/o, he really does, but him and kissing? 

he’s a mega shy bean

that being said, i imagine he’d go for someone very caring and sweet

someone intelligent and athletic (to an extent). 

he would just get along with someone like him, though more calm

and possibly a manager for the team

either way, i imagine that the kiss itself would happen 

on the way home after a practice

it was dark, he was sweaty

but he was still just as upbeat as before

he was riding his bike, of course, and you were following beside him

practice was brutal on the both of you, and you had some things to organize 

“hey, s/o, how do you think i did?”

“oh? great, hinata, just need to focus on your receives.”

“that’s what they’ve been telling me. would you help?”

“sure, carrottop.”

“s/oooooooo!”

the laughter and whining most definitely got on some people’s nerves

(joke’s on them, though)

(curfew wasn’t up yet, they could whine about the noise all they want)

either way, the night was very well spent between the two of you 

since you two lived close to each other, things were easier between you two before 

the both of you had made it to your homes eventually

but the night was gorgeous

the stars were sparkling 

and the streetlights were casting a light on the both of you that made you glow 

almost as if you were an angel, 

just as much as he is

though his focus was more on the ground, yours was on him

his smile was gleaming 

and you couldn’t help it

“hey, hinata?” 

“hmm?”

you kissed him.

passionately and lovingly

he froze up, but eventually warmed up to it and kissed you back

he was also the one who wasn’t able to move very much at all after

you had to cup his cheeks and pull him closer in order to prolong the magic moment just a little bit

yep, the purest form of magic just burst when you two kissed

when you pulled away, you beamed at him and ran to put your bike away

he stood there, shocked

blushing a tomato red

and it wasn’t until he put his bike away and went inside that he realized his little sister was watching

(though you didn’t know, he got teased relentlessly by her-)

overall, shy bean is a great kisser

and his kiss was messy, immature, and inexperienced. 

on your part, though

you were controlled

it was the perfect sense of controlled chaos and was just beautiful for the both of you.

(on another note, this one is probably my favorite one and idk why send help-)

Yamaguchi Tadashi

OK LEMME SAY THIS

shy bean is attracted to someone like yachi

(it’s canon, don’t @ me - he found her cute) 

someone shy, someone charming, someone intelligent

BUT

i would also suffice to say a lot more confident in their actions once they’re done

they won’t shy away from something they know that they can do, they’ll shy away from talking to people

AKA quiet when you first meet them, talkative when you know them

the kiss itself?

another volleyball game

this time, though, before the game starts

yamaguchi is panicking

like, borderline crying in the bathroom at an away game

you were waiting for him with the rest of his team.\

when time cuts really really close, though

that’s when daichi or suga ask you to go find him

luckily, you know what he does 

you were worried beforehand, but you didn’t know where he’d go 

it is an away game - where would he go? 

you were sure that he wasn’t aware of any really hidden areas

‘unless it was the bathroom before a game.’

“i’m going, i’ll get him to the game. go on ahead, you guys.”

the rest of the team went to the court to prep, 

you went to the men’s bathroom

you could hear crying coming from behind the door, extremely muffled

you still heard it, and you knew you just had to get in there and help him

it was only after you did a check of the hallway that you decided to jump in the restroom

safe to say, he heard the door opening and got quiet

when you were inside, you cleared your throat

“yamaguchi? it’s s/o, could you please come out?”

he sniffled and hesitantly got out of the stall he was hiding behind

(he only got out because he heard your voice)

with you being his rock, he just walked up to you and wiped his tears

likelihood? you’re shorter than him by a fair amount

so when you hug him, you let him cry into your hair 

you just stand there in silence for a period of time

but it takes you to break it

“yamaguchi, you’ve got this. your team believes in you, i believe in you.” 

he nods, and his tear stained face makes you want to cry and cuddle with him right then and there

reassure him of his abilities

boost his confidence

‘boost his confidence. that’s it.’

you knew how much he has wanted to get closer physically 

with him that translates to a kiss

your guys’ first kiss

so, on a whim

you pulled him down by the collar of his uniform 

and just kiss him

though the two of you are a little tense, you two do warm up 

the kiss is messy and inexperienced

it’s loving and a little long though

it is reassuring to yamaguchi, boosts his confidence A LOT 

(that’s the effect you have on him)

when he responds, you move your hands to cup his face

and he moves his hands to cup yours

you two definitely got caught in the moment

(it was magical, what else could you do, y’know?) 

there’s a catch, though

when the two of you pull away and actually let the atmosphere calm

you look around and realize

‘oh. we kissed in the boy’s bathroom. oh my god.’

the two of you burst into laughter at the thought, but

yamaguchi has a game to get to.

so you brought him out and to the team before heading to the bleachers.

yamaguchi was blushing when you did this, though

(he got teased to hell and back by the second and third years. RIP yamaguchi.)

to conclude,

his kiss is easily the most comforting thing to the both of you

it’s gentle, it’s sweet, and it’s also very calming

in yamaguchi’s opinion

100/10, please kiss him before games.

he needs it.

anxious bean loves your kisses from this point forward.