#when it costs too much to love.
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Fiona apple im starting to understand you now.
#hunger hurts#and I want him#so bad#oh it kills#cause I know I’m a mess he doesn’t wanna clean up#I got to fold cause these hands are just too shaky to hold#hhunger hurts#but starving works#when it costs too much to love.#I’m not okay rn#someone shoot me
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The right talk about wanting to uphold american values and last I heard the main ones are community and justice for all......and yet
#Wants to make usa great again yet also doesn't give a damn about wether you can afford to eat#Such a great community your creating here love that if you're dieing I might not make it because ambulance costs money and too much#So moral that you charge parent holding their newborn children and then refuse to stop the main cause of deaths in schools#There's so much justice but not when we need to make an example out of u. Not when we need to make money at Ur expense#us politics#america#american politics#text post
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universal healthcare is not broken and anyone trying to convince you it is is delusional and a dckrider for big health insurance. yes there are wait times but waiting for care is Not the same as being denied care.
in america your physician prescribes care and an insurer can still cuck you out of it because someone across the continent who has never met you can say: doesn’t seem medically necessary. Leaving you to handle a bill that is wildly inflated by the same insurers that just denied you.
let me drill it through your head you can pay thousands a year in premiums and still end up sick and financially burdened for years by One incident. no insurance company is Avoiding going broke by denying claims. theyre doing it to profit off your misfortune and your illness. Because healthcare fundamentally does not cost the amount that they claim it to be.
#delete later#out of pocket rant#i hate these god awful takes on universal health care#and i hate this oh he killed a father#how many fathers do you think uhc let die be real with me#oh 8 billion is only 6% profit margin#bitch it could be 2 percent it could be a negative loss#this is me saying oh i resold a shoe for $60 after buying it for $50 when i also made it for 80 cents#i have been denied things like chest xrays and lung exams#i btw have had a chronic cough for 4+ years#in canada i got this done on the same fking day and results back within a month#there are indeed horror stories and on both sides of know ppl who died due to delayed diagnosis#and ppl who died bc they didnt even want the diagnosis it would have cost them too much#but robbing someone of the choice in my opinion is the worse of the two#putting someone in an impossible position like that is evil#this country love god so much better start praying u stay healthy bc thats the most important thing#also like those horror stories of wait times in the er#im gonna be real if u have severe stomach pain are actively bleeding heart attack or stroke#you will be seen asap#yes if unfortunately everyone around u that day decided to have a stroke or heart attack ur appendicitis will be punted down the line#this is a resource issue NOT a cost issue#this is a they also cut funding to nursing school and limited the number of ppl who can pursue medical degrees issue#not a we dont have privatized health care issue#bc ultimately u need a doctor to see u#not someones sister who is taking stabs at it#and every doctor is bound by the concept of time???#u still have to wait in america ur Charged for it also#and yall it doesn’t even have to be a Big incident#ur local urgent care might just be closed after 8pm and at 9pm u need stitches#or have severe stomach pains and just want it checked
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Season 4 hope/prediction: Deb's show is solid, zero issues, runs flawlessly with great ratings, but her personal life is completely eroding. We start with her discovering Marcus is leaving, and it culminates in DJ going into labor right before a taping. Deb chooses the show. When it's over, and she finally flies to Vegas, it's too late -- Aiden's not letting her in because he loves his wife too much to let DJ get into a shouting match with her mom right after giving birth, and instead takes the brunt of Deb's wrath, with her making excuses and talking about how they used her money for IVF, and anyway, DJ's fine, so who cares if she wasn't there? Kathy's in the room with DJ and the baby (DJ's the closest she has to a daughter, after all) and Deb leaves too furious to think about how badly she's hurt her family.
She heads back to her Vegas mansion -- empty, obviously, Josefina and the dogs would be in LA -- and pops open a bottle of wine. Alone. Completely alone. Can't call Marty, she has no friends, the closest she's got would be Kiki and wouldn't that be embarrassing, calling your poker dealer to talk about your feelings --
and then Ava's there. She got the news about DJ's labor, she got the story from Aiden (who was distraught, by the way, man's too much of a sweetheart for Vance drama), a spare key from Damian (happy to pawn that off on her, though if it isn't returned promptly he's taking legal action) and has arrived just in time to see the Deborah Vance having a breakdown the likes of which no one thought physically possible. Crying gives you wrinkles, you know. But Ava has to be here. She's the physical embodiment of a lesson Deb never truly learned: you don't have to like someone to love them.
In my imaginary fantasy land that I am concocting this would then subsequently lead into them fucking nasty but I understand that this may be a step too far for the surprisingly large number of very normal people who watch this show and would forgive JPL for not taking it that far. However I do believe they should fuck about it and let Ava take the reigns in their relationship while they see how many of Deb's bridges they can un-burn.
#hacks hbo#ava x deborah#avorah#avadeb#hey if anyone wants to bother writing this for real go for it I don't care#if any of this is any degree of accurate for JPL's vision of s4 then I will be extremely happy#deb is NOT miranda priestly#miranda knew from the start that she could never have human connection or she'd lose her dream job#deb has inspired such genuine devotion that she does not understand that a woman in a man's role historically requires sacrifice#she knew the fire cost her the show but she didn't KNOW that that was the only reason until now#that the network did not give a shit at all#the advertisers did and the advertisers are the true enemy#she still believes she got to the top through hard work and talent#wrong the deborah vance brand was built by people who love her and believe in her#only when she has lost DJ will she be open to hearing the truth (that it was a group effort)#from the mouth of the one person who stood by her out of a wombo combo of love and spite#only THEN will she accept that kathy was right#THIS is why frank left her. THIS behavior. the belief that SHE is a special queen who did it all alone#frank was scum by the way dude groomed her little sister#his behavior is fucked but his reason is close enough to correct that ava can use it as an example of how much deb HAS to change#btw please please please we need deb sleeping with ava and not calling it a mistake because she's too fucking tired and sad
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Dorian getting HDYWDT(prob phase one) on a chromatic orb, and describing that the last time he used it was when Orym was being eaten by a wall in beginning of the campaign, he continues proving he’s the Romantic Bard of All Time,
HOWEVER!
I remembered something cuz he’s for those reasons my hyperfixation through the campaign, and checked and… technically speaking with Bells Hells it was the last time he used the spell… but, with Crown Keepers in c3e93 was the last time he cast it… in thunder damage… and accidentally hit Cyrus too when he cast on the spider to save him… *scream sobs*
#cr spoilers#critical role spoilers#dorian storm#orym of the air ashari#dorym#perfectly encapsulates him damn the romantic bard who feels guilty for not being able to save his brother when he left his first love#to save his brother and now came back after not only he couldn’t but also accidentally hurt trying to save him#and him since day one always checking and throwing himself into danger trying to protect Orym#the one who also is actively throwing himself to protect others at the cost ofhis life#and coming back to him and saying#‘you don’t have to save everyone’#he even described with fastball the same way in ep93…#AAAAAAHHHHHH i wanna chew on him#!?! ugh my heart robbie stop fr man i have heart problems and im too dyke to be this in love w ya boy dorian#cr keep robbie forever challenge#dorian storm i love you so fucking much#dorian storm really the character of all time#dorian storm my beloved
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Firm believer that if the Avengers had a chocolate cake on hand the first movie would've been A LOT shorter.
#we all know loki loves chocolate#hc: chocolate is extremly rare on asgard#like shavings cost as much as premium caviar#and loki discovers its extremly comon on Eath#HE'D FLIP#no wonder he wanted Earth so bad#burdened with glorious cravings#loki#loki laufeyson#loki laufeychild#marvel#loki of asgard#loki of jotunheim#loki laufeydottir#loki god of mischief#headcanon#loki odinson#ik ive made atleast two posts about this exact topic but i cant get enough of it#hot chocolate#is his favourite drink too#when he discovers it
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Fortesa Latifi, We Were Young
#web weaving#kudos to @abby118 for posted the 3rd image up. it was very inspiring(TM) so i stole it#webweaving#i just. idk i just wonder if Loki genuinely felt unloved while being raised#''no matter how much you claimed to love me''#like they made claims. they weren't telling the truth#they didn't love him but they loved thor#why did they love thor so much that there was none to spare for him?#i wonder if he thought like that at any point#if he saw thor's banishment to midgard and considered for even a moment that maybe thor wasn't loves so much either?#that they both pulled the short straw#except loki knows why he knows what he did wrong and that can't be corrected exactly#but he can still taint thor#he can say to thor's face that banishing thor strained odin so much the old man passed away and have it believed#would loki ever believe such a thing if it was said to him?#that his parents cared to that extent?#did they ever#thor's humility arc too... he really had his brother lie to him. and then his brother was gone. no answers about why.#a father who would banish him a mother who wouldn't speak up when he was banished#he wasn't loved as much as he thought. he wasn't as perfect as he thought and that cost him his brother?#it cost him too much to learn an old lesson he should have known#do you think thor resented loki for that too#i think they should have complex emotions @ each other about how they were raised. btw
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Daniela: *lightly shoves Cassandra because she’s being annoying*
Cassandra: *lets out a loud* OOWWWWW!
Daniela: …
Bela: …
Cassandra: …
#house dimitrescu#cassandra dimitrescu#resident evil village#daniela dimitrescu#resident evil 8#bela dimitrescu#re8#alcina dimitrescu#always the dramatic one#when your younger sibling give you The Look you know you’ve gone too far#i love her dramatic ass so much#she’s so annoying#but also so precious#must protect her at all costs
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The Hobbit or Bilbo Baggins's Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad, Not At All Fun Steppe Vacation
#this one has layers#reading the hobbit is truly an experience if you've only watched the movies when they first came out#It really feels like Tolkien is making fun of Bilbo's worst vacation ever (I'm only at half of it I haven't been hit with the feelings yet#give me time)#when Gandalf just fucking leaves after the Eagles and Tolkien writes#'The dwarves groaned and looked most distressed and Bilbo wept'#I fucking lost it. Died of laughter in the middle of the night in my room.#Bilbo truly is Mental Breakdown Georg#I would have cried to. Jesus. Somebody give him ten pipe-weeds cigarettes and a gin tonic.#He should have been at club (=at home reading his books with a cup of tea)#rip Tolkien you would have loved posts about torturing your characters (I do not know enough about Tolkien to support this claim)#I love this book so much Bilbo is admittedly a pretty average guy man grown adult and then he has to survive goblins and fly on#giant eagles back and if the guy that had repeatedly saved my ass from death told me 'Well gotta go now. Too-da-loo!' I would have cried as#well. Bilbo may be a character of a fantasy novel but he does not know that. Trying to see things from his perspective for a moment instead#of the external perspective of Tolkien playing the witty narrator truly is devastating.#I love Bilbo Baggins so much. I love the Hobbit so much.#Leaving home always comes at a cost. Rotting inside your house also comes at a cost.#You're going to be uncomfortable and unhappy and desperate and regretting your decision at some point whichever option you choose.#I have history with travels and running away from places. It's a restleness. I also hate being uncomfortable which doesn't pair up well#with feeling an itch whenever you're at home too long. I get you Bilbo Baggins.#bilbo baggins#the hobbit#the hobbit book
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the saddest thing about ggy is that it's a great book and also would have fit rlly well into security breach story wise and would have made many things make perfect sense but now it doesnt fit anywhere and would be at risk of hurting things if it were to be shoved in
#and like if they have to not pjt it in to save other plots/characters thats fine#its just sad bc its yet another sacrifice that the great sb massacre caused#like ggy would take over vanny too much in any future game from now when he would have fit into sb#theres just not a place anymore#tldr ggy could have been cool if it were able to be where it was designed to be (sb)#but since it wasnt it doesnt fit in the story anymore if they were to try to in the future#homeless gregory is bomb anyway its fine#pandas.txt#if they could find a way to put it in thatd be great and id love it but not at the cost of other characters or vanny specifically#or Gregory himself lmao come home gregory
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I bought myself some CDs :3
#five of them in fact. i have a collection of cds that i started in high school#and i've been making more of an effort to add to it lately with the decline of physical media#cds are so expensive now. like everything else. but it's worth it to me anyways#i did get two of them used so that brought the cost down a bit#but also! 3 of them have the little booklets with the tracklist and lyrics and extra art or photos#and another has a booklet that's just a ton of art the band commissioned for the album (or one of them did it themselves idk)#one doesn't have a booklet at all unfortunately and it's one that i bought new so it's not like it's missing they just didn't include one#which is too bad cause the one with all the art and the one with no booklet are by the same band so it would have been cool to see somethin#similar for the other album#still tho i'm quite pleased with my finds. i really love having physical cds#i'm certain one of them was the only cd from that artist in the entire store (huge place so much to look at i love going there)#her cds were completely sold out when i looked in the section they should have been in but i found ONE in the recent arrivals#they just keep all the cds they acquired within the last week in this one display organized only by the day they arrived#so i leafed thru the entire week's worth of cds and found this single album and it was such lovely serendipity#august talking
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imagine being the man Fiona Apple wrote paper bag about like at that point I’d just kill myself
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Also I'm just gonna say that even if it were true that Rodimus was a """""true Prime"""" and Optimus wasn't, that isn't as much of an L for Optimus as people seemingly want it to be.
Like so you're telling me Optimus was never a chosen hero and the burden of the Matrix/leadership pained him morally, emotionally, and physically, yet he still survived 4 million years of war?
You're telling me he wasn't God's Designated Special Boy but he still tried his best to live up to that impossible ideal to the point of developing serious depression and suicidal ideation as a result of so much goddamn loneliness and self-doubt?
Optimus wasn't a "true Prime" and yet he still believed in ideals of reconciliation and ending the cycle of violence? He wasn't a true Prime but he still stayed on Cybertron trying to fix a broken, broken society while also trying to stop Earth from being invaded for a second time? He didn't even need to do that he could've just stayed in exile which he was originally supposed to do all along, and which he would've personally preferred?? You're telling me that Optimus wasn't Primus' Specialest Boy And Chosen Leader and yet he stepped into leadership anyways bc he perceived that there was injustice to be fixed??
Wow yeah I guess Optimus is just such an inferior leader, clearly his actual actions/moral character as person don't matter and his "worthiness" should be judged solely on whether the Magic Cybertronian 8 Ball liked him or not.
#squiggposting#idw op love#literally the more you deconstruct it the less sense it makes#ppl want rodimus to be Validated By Canon as being better than optimus soooo badly#i get it you cant like rodimus without shitting on optimus#however when you get canon wrong i can and will roast your theories#if optimus went thru everything he went thru but somehow still isnt worthy of the matrix#then what WOULD make him worthy??? like seriously#fighting to protect organic species from colonization didnt make him worthy?#trying to find diplomatic resolutions to a 4 mil year long blood feud isnt worthy enough?#doing all of this at the cost of great personal suffering to himself doesnt make him worthy??#being willing to fight and imprison his own autobots for trying to break the peace wasnt enough?#becoming villified by most of earth/cybertron by forcing them to cooperate wasnt enough???#optimus siding with the ultimate victim of cybertronian oppression and 'defeating him' by acknowledging his pain#isnt enough to make him worthy?? THEN WTF IS ENOUGH TO YOU PPL#nothing bc 'worthy of the matrix' is just code for 'validation of my fave'#and most of the ppl in this fandom dont even know OP did all of those things anywYs#also like MOST PEOPLE arent wielders of the matrix are they unworthy too???#WHAT DO YOU MEAN WORTHINESS?? WHAT ARE THE IMPLICATIONS OF THIS ALLEGED WORTHINESS#ON THE MORAL AND THEMATIC FABRIC OF THIS STORY????#literally idw optimus embodies the same values that rodimus does#it's all about love and forgiveness and building a better future and choosing kindness over violence#And if you dont get that optimus represents those just as much as rodimus did well#you prolly didnt read very closely lol
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just remembered watchmen
#ohhhh OHHHHHHHHHH#i was so insane abt that comic#when i moved i left the book behind at my grandma's house... i wonder if it's even stored away. probably got thrown out 💔#no biggie i shall buy it again i loved that big book so much i used to bring it to school and re-read it a lot#i liked that it was self contained#how old was i. like. 13. 14 at most. why did they sell that comic to me LMFAO#oooooooo i was obsessed with rorschach too he was my favorite.#i don't think i mention this enough but i had a dc comics phase when i was 12-15 then i gave up it's so hard to keep up or make sense#of the multiple runs and stuff. it is a lot!!! hats off to my beautiful comic mutuals 💖#i used to own a lot of old physical comics. mostly green lantern#lol. lmao. god there are so many things i left behind#i had the first volume of transformers mtmte which is out of print and costs a lot nowadays#that one stings the most WHY DID I LEAVE IT... <- i couldn't bring everything with me 😭😭😭
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Caspian IX & Caspian X
There was a time / I used to look into my father's eyes / In a happy home / I was a king, I had a golden throne / Those days are gone ... I remember how it all changed / My father said / Don't you worry, don't you worry child / See Heaven's got a plan for you /Don't you worry / Don't you worry now
- 'Don't You Worry Child' cover by Kurt Schneider & Sam Tsui
For @an-angels-fury because this song has been making me feel things.
#you are king of a hard people#you are one of the few to take your throne in peace from your father before you#for kinslaying runs in your bloodline#and your son is born#at the cost of your beloved's life#but you love him all the more for the part of her that lives on in his eyes#and you name him after yourself you give him your name so he will be the tenth and there is something special about that you think#he is destined for much good you think#and you will raise him different you tell yourself#he too will take the crown in peace when you die honorably#you dream of stars and a lion and you hear the nursemaid's tales sitting with your boy and you begin to wonder#your brother dismisses the nursemaid without your permission#'the boy is too old he does not need her anymore' miraz says#'i will teach him to be a strong warrior as a telmarine should be'#your little brother has his good moments. he is a powerful soldier. he has more time to teach the boy than you.#you allow it#you regret this later when your son's arm is broken and your brother is the reason why#but your son begs to continue his training#so you allow it#he has a way of looking at you with his big brown eyes#your heart beats unsteady in your chest like it hasn't since you were a boy#you don't want to die with your child only 10 years old#you want to see him for so much longer#you are not ready#the boy knows you are ill and insists on sleeping with you most nights#death comes quiet in the night and leaves the boy alone#you are caspian#you are named after your father and your father will not wake#caspian x#narnia
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WHAT TAROT CARD ARE YOU ?
JUSTICE — what would you do to ensure justice? you know full well i don’t speak of lofty ideals and courts and magistrates, dearest. what would you do to those that hurt you? if I dropped them in your lap, what would you do? what kind of pain could you possibly inflict upon them? you are right to do so. you are right to want to do so. ignore the screaming, dearest, you are the hand of justice now, and they hurt you. do not look too closely at their faces, dearest. you are within your rights. you spell out your own rights, now. are you happy about it? are you certain that this is the right person you hold by the hair? does your anger hurt less now?
tagged by: @nonpareil
tagging: @lenfear , @wulfmaed , @oflorien , @belayadeath , @sanctamater , @lcerys , and @zalarys
#DASH GAMES //#her concept of justice and her concept of what makes things even is entirely ? it has its basis in what she considers fair and the black#and white nature of her own morality like it’s#her conceptualization of justice is set wholly in courts and the legality of the situation and the importance of one’s sworn word in the#society she was brought up in#like IT IS based in ideals - it IS based in court#and like there has just 😭 been so much. there’s so much - she can’t punish everyone who’s attempted to diminish her or hurt her in any#sort of way because it’s all blurred into one consistent stream of things that she has ? she needs to let go of - she can’t respond to#every little thing when the allegations flung at her most post the birth of her children are that of high treason#like there’s so much simmering anger that she just buried deeper and deeper until she can pretend it doesn’t exist#she doesn’t hurt alicent she doesn’t hurt helaena she’s even reluctant to attack KL after Luke’s death due to her fear of kinslaying like#she has her limits and that still is ? The people she would perceive as innocent and people like Alicent who ? in the book viserys loved an#in the show who she herself cared for like it’s#‘ does your anger hurt less now ? ‘ no! it does not#because the price she’s paid to successfully reclaim what they stole from her is ! too! high !#the price she never wanted to have to pay which she said at the start of it was too high of a cost was paid anyway and she’s fundamentally#fucking miserable because of it#like visenya is dead luke is dead jace is dead and viserys is missing and likely dead and all she has left is joff and aegon#and like the notion of the opposition to her succession was something she expected at that point. But what hurts the MOST is the way they#went about it. What hurts the most is what happened as a result of the shock she experienced from it#like she miscarried from it and she lost visenya - and the subsequent confrontations afterward led to the losses of her other children and#it’s like ??? they could’ve called a great council - they should’ve called a great council but no one did#what hurts is the fact the excuse is the vows sworn to her were ‘ stale’ and thus the people who turned their backs on them didn’t need to#uphold them so they could go about oathbreaking with their honor in tact when it’s like ? ( to her ) it feels as if she wasn’t even worth#the grace of them being honest with themselves on what they were doing#like it’s ?
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