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FEARLESS
chapter four. doors and burgers
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pairing ⢠rafe cameron x plus size!reader
word count ⢠2.2k
warnings ⢠fatphobia, insecurities, panic attack, boobies lol, Scarlett should be her own warning, daddy issues,
authors note ⢠sorry that i messed up on my last post yall!! i confused scarlett with heather. she was supposed to be Heather but i was likeâŚ.. heathers get too much crap thank you conan đ and i forgot to change it lol sorry!!! also i rewrote this like five times and i this was the one i was most satisfied with, so enjoy!!
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Scarlett leaves from what you can tell. People are talking about the kitchen debacle and there are mixed reviews. Some are still kissing Scarlettâs ass, others donât like her any longer. But it doesnât seem anyoneâs on your side. Youâre still invisible. Youâve since taken off your jacket that was drenched and Rafe has given you his. Itâs big but it doesnât cover you entirely, and that makes you feel so damn embarrassed.
Despite your mission being to get Jonah to see you, neither of you can find him anywhere. Kiara and Sarah had their eyes out for him as well but theyâve since lost the mission at hand. Now, youâre all sat in the living room where there are a few people dancing around Sarah whoâs singing obnoxiously bad on the karaoke machine. No one has any idea where it came from but everyone is loving it.
Youâre clapping along with Kiara, laughing when Sarah messes up another lyric and blames the song. For the first time in what seems like a long time, Rafe isnât drinking. He isnât doing much of anything but staying by your side. Heâs sitting beside you, watching his sister with amusement. He refuses to clap though, only doing it when you reach over to lift his hands and make him clap.
Itâs Kiaraâs turn to sing when you get up off the couch and look for the bathroom in the huge figure 8 house. The home has photographs scattered, a happy family shown in them all. It might just be the beer in you that makes you want to cry. Youâve seen the kid around school before and he isnât anything to you. Anything at all. But youâre wishing him the best. Yeah, you realize itâs the beer.
You stumble into a random room and let out a screech when a body gets up from a bed.
âWhat are you doing here?â Jonahâs voice sends a flutter through your belly. Your belly. Your stomach. You take a hold of Rafeâs jacket and tighten it around yourself, hiding your body from the guy you want badly.
âOh⌠uhmâŚâ you wipe the tears from your eyes that had bled out at the family pictures. âIâm looking for the bathroom.â
Heâs immediately up on his feet at the sight of your tears. Your eyes widen when his hands take a hold of your round face and examines you carefully. âAre you okay? Why are you crying?â
Your breath hitches at the feel of his warm hand. Itâs soft. Far too soft for a man who puts his all into the gym and football. âOh? I⌠uhm⌠haha, what? Yeah? I'm⌠Iâm fine. JustâŚâ you sniffle and gently move his hand from your face. Youâre refusing to meet his eyes,shy about your sadness. âThe pictures⌠they look so happy.â
The look on his face makes you want to run away. And then, he laughs. âYouâre crying because Tommy and his family look happy?â
Your mouth opens but nothing comes out, stuck. âItâs not a bad thing.â Are his words when he seems to realize how stunned you feel. âItâs⌠adorable.â
You fumble your words, âoh, I, uhm, yeah, okay, thatâs⌠yeah.â To have the guy youâve been into for years call you such a word is a rush. A scary one. But you like it. And whatever it is you did, you wish you could keep doing it until he saw you as you saw him. Perfect.
Youâre still standing by the door of the random bedroom and itâd be easy to just run off. But you canât. Making a fool of yourself in front of Jonah will only make your plan harder. And Rafe would kill you for letting his effort go to waste. âWhat are you doing in here?â It comes out more abrasive than you wished, internally scolding yourself.
But he doesnât seem to mind. Rather, he takes his seat back on the bed and shrugs. âItâs noisy.â
You understand. You really, really do. And you want to say it aloud but your tongue is tied as you watch him throw his head back, his adams apple bobbing as he swallows gently. After a moment, you semi-gather yourself. âDid you leave cause of Sarah?â You joke lightly. âThatâs what made me leave.â
This garners a soft laugh out of him and you want to jump up and squeal. But Rafe told you to act nonchalant. âYeah, sheâs certainly⌠singing.â
You take one step away from the door. Just one. You were going to sit beside him. You were going to talk to him. Really talk to him.
The door behind you swings open and hits your head. Hard. âWhat the fuck?â Jonahâs quick on his feet, rushing to you in a panic. You turn to look at the culprit and your frown turns into a glare. Rafe.
âWhat the fuck, Rafe?!â You hiss, sending a punch to his shoulder.
âWhy were you standing so near the door?!â
âWhy would you swing it open like a maniac?!â
âItâs not my fault you were standing thereââ
âMaybe donât open doors like thatââ
âOh, shut up, do you ever not complainââ
âSays you! Youâre, like, the king of complainingââ
âKing? Kingââ
âShould I leave?â Jonahâs soft voice speaks and you shove Rafeâs face as you look at him and smile.
âN-no, you shouldnât have to. He was just leaving.â
âI was? I donâtâ ow, fuck, okay, Iâm leaving.â
The mood was ruined. Whatever mood Jonah was in was gone. And so was your confidence. It's awkward as you sit next to him on the bed. The palm of your hands are on your knees, anxiously rubbing at them. Heâs laid back on the bed, arm crossed over his eyes, the only thing telling you heâs up is the soft twitch of his fingers.
âDoes it hurt?â His voice cuts through the thick silence.
Panicked, you glance over at him with wide eyes. âDoes⌠does what hurt?â
âYour head. He opened the door pretty hard.â He still doesnât move from his position and youâre grateful heâs not looking at you. You do better when people canât perceive you.
âOh, my head⌠yeah, itâs fine, doesnât hurt. I-itâs a little sore but Iâll make him pay for it.â You shrug, fixing Rafeâs jacket on your body.
âYou two are close.â Itâs supposed to be a question. It doesnât sound like one.
You shake your head despite his eyes being covered up. âNot really. I⌠heâs nice but weâre not like friends.â
He sits back up and this makes you tense up, looking straight ahead at that damn door you hate now. âJust never seen him with anyone but his same three friends.â
âIâm friends with Sarah. Weâre just⌠around each other more.â Itâs a lie. But you donât believe Rafe would want people to know just how much time youâre really spending together. The less people that know, the better.
âYou and Scarlett are really done?â He questions, eyes on you. But you canât look over at him. Youâre stiff and awkward and unsure of how to act around him.
You nod softly, ây-yeah⌠sheâs, uhm, not a very nice person.â
Itâs quiet for another moment. âSheâs been running her mouth about you. Calling you names. Really bad names. And all you can say is âshe's not niceâ?â
Hearing that sheâs still talking about you is a punch to the guy and suddenly you donât care about your crush. You donât care that you two are sitting so close to each other. All you can think is how horrible she truly is. How blinded you were. And how stupid you feel for missing her. âWell⌠just because others are doing bad things, doesnât mean I should. Be the bigger person and whatnot.â You let out a small and awkward laugh to try and shrug off what youâre really feeling.
âWow.â Are his words as he gets up off the bed and walks to the dresser of the bedroom and picking up a magazine. âYouâre really not like other girls.â An even bigger punch to the gut. Logically, you know heâs trying to be kind. Heâs only saying this to make you feel better, your feelings on Scarlett written all over your face.
You donât wear makeup, not like other girls do. You donât dress up, not like other girls do. You donât giggle over guys, not like other girls do. You donât go out and have fun, not like other girls do. But you want to do it all. You want to be like other girls. You never felt worth it. Lipstick on a pig. Youâre too big to fit trendy clothes. You donât giggle over guys because theyâd be disgusted that youâre into them. You donât go out because youâd be the biggest out of the group of girls that are around you. Youâd be an eyesore.
In a frantic move, you get up off the bed. âRight. Well, I, uh⌠I have to go.â
âHuh? Whatââ but you donât pay any attention to his words as you rush out of the random bedroom. There are kids littering the hallway. The steps are being used as seats, shoving people slightly as you go. The music is loud. Too loud. You can feel it bouncing in your eardrums and filling your already muddled thoughts. Theres nothing you can think about other than getting out of that damn house. And in your panicked stupor, you canât find the damn. The house is too damn big.
Thereâs a couple making out in the bathroom when you rush inside and when they see the fear in your eyes, they rush out, leaving you to be.
The drive isnât awkward. Not like you thought it would be. He didnât question you. And despite his last text, he didnât bring it up. And youâre grateful he didnât.
âWhere are we going?â You ask when you realize youâre headed downtown. âI want to go home, Rafe.â
He shrugs, hands on the wheel. âIâm hungry. Weâre just stopping by The Wreck real quick.â
He doesnât ask you to get down with him. He parks, heads inside, and heâs out fifteen minutes later. But he doesnât start driving. In fact, he immediately takes a bite out of his burger, your food untouched on your lap.
âYouâre not gonna eat?â He asks with his mouth full, but you donât grimace like you should. You grab a napkin and hands it to him but he shakes his head refusing it.
âYouâre dirty.â
âAnd youâre not eating.â He swallows his food.
âIâm not hungry.â
âYouâre lying.â
âSo because I'm fat, I must be hungry?â Itâs a joke but the look he gives you tells you heâs not amused in the slightest. âTough crowd. Seriously, I'm not hungry.â
âIs this that thing where you donât eat in front of people cause youâre with a guy? Sarah told me itâs some shit she does.â
âItâs that thing where Iâm not hungry, actually.â But it smells divine. Usually, youâd happily eat this but after tonight, youâre not sure if youâll ever eat greasy foods again.
He scoffs, putting his burger down and holding a fry up at you. âTry the fry.â
âYou try the fry.â
âI already did. Seriously, my mom had this trick while we were growing up. Sarah always swore she wasnât hungry and wouldnât get anything to eat but sheâd make her try something from the plate to realize how hungry she really was.â
âHow old was she?â
âMy mom? She was pushing forty.â
You glare at the proud look on his face at his joke. âSarah, stupid.â
âI donât know⌠seven?â
âYouâre treating me like a seven year old?â
âTry. The. Fry.â He swipes it across your lips and this gets a laugh out of you, shoving him away.
âOkay, okay! Iâll eat a fry. But that one has lipstick all over it now.â You pick a fry from his and he squints his eyes at you.
âYou have a perfectly good batch.â
You pop the fry into your mouth with a content smile. âNot as good as yours.â And he was right. The salt and buttery soft fry proved to be trueâ you are hungry.
With a sigh, you grab your burger and sayâ âokay⌠just⌠donât look.â
This amuses him. âDonât look at you eat your burger? Well, there goes my spank bank.â
âEw, Rafe!â You laugh, nose scrunching at his crude words.
You take a bite of your burger. And itâs absolutely delicious. Just like you knew it would be. Instead of worrying over stuffed up cheeks or looking fat while eating, you share laughs, mouths full and not a single care.
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circuit breaker đŹđ (part two)
tutor!jayce talis x reader college au
content: reader recently decided to get a physics tutor...it's time for the first session with jayce talis
notes: walk with me and suspend ur disbelief in the actual physics talk...i have to make it somewhat believable that they're actually having tutoring sessions so i dug into the crevices of my brain for old physics topics that aren't too hard if you know them...if you don't..hopefully jayce makes sense LMAOOOO. but i will try not to do too much physics that it takes you out of it, i just want to build the tension and relationship. just trust me.
again mentions of neurodivergence/adhd references but thatâs it really
word count: 1.9k
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Ekko was your longest friendâthe closest one you had. He understood your brain even more than Viktor did, which was saying something. Since the day the two of you met in middle school, you became accustomed to one another. You knew each other like the back of your handsâwhich is why you knew heâd be so upset right now.
Immediately after leaving the student center, you scrambled to the dining hall. You and Ekko had a standing lunch date every day unless one of you said otherwise. There wasnât always anything to say, but the idea of each otherâs company comforted youâcomforted him. He had been adamant that even if you two sat in silence, worked on classwork, or simply watched something on your phones, that the time was well spent.
Ekko valued these meetings in particular after his last girlfriend. You didnât talk about Powder muchâŚbut he was devastated when she left town. The three of you had been friends for a long timeâŚsheâd abandoned you too. Acknowledging how much harder it may have been for Ekko was hard. You were forced to pick up the pieces and it started with daily check-ins over lunch. They stuck.Â
You spotted him sitting alone, sipping on his drink through the glass. You tapped on it softly, getting his attention, waving.
He lit up when you approached the table, âFunny seeing you here.â Ekko looked at his watch dramatically, âAlmost thought you couldnât tell time for a second there.âÂ
âI am so sorry.â You moved to sit, pulling out the chair across from him. âI got caught up at the student center, needed a tutor for physics.âÂ
Ekko watched you reach and grab his bag on the table. He rolled his eyes knowinglyâyou were going for the fries of course.Â
You continued, âViktor recommended this guy, his lab partner.âÂ
Ekko nodded, âThats greatâŚbut Iâm also good at physics ya know?âÂ
âOh yes, I totally forgot to ask my best friend to be my tutor. My best friend who knows I cannot stay on topic to save my lifeâŚwants me to ask him to be my tutorâŚso we can definitely not work on physics for the entire session.â You paused, a fry just on your lip, âBesides, I didnât really have a choice.âÂ
âOkay first, I would be a great tutor! And second, what do you mean, didnât have a choice?âÂ
âViktor kinda justâŚled me there?âÂ
âSo you didnât have a chance to get yourself worked up and find a way to not goâŚgreat tactic on Viktorâs part.âÂ
There was a silence, but never uncomfortable when you were with Ekko. You smiled to yourself at that, and then about how surprisingly well the first meeting went.Â
âHe seemed niceâŚJayceâŚmy tutor.âÂ
Ekko reached into his bag, grabbing his sandwich. âAm I sensing a but?âÂ
âNo, actually. He just seemed genuinely invested in me not feeling bad when it comes to sucking at school.â You paused, rubbing your hands in a napkin. âHe said we could work on making it all seem more interestingâŚwhich I liked.â Ekko still hadnât unraveled his sandwich, listening intently. You watched him observe you, but not speak up. âWhat?âÂ
He shook his head, âNothingâŚthatâs great.âÂ
The rest of your lunch was spent quietly recounting your days, not much of note happening otherwise. Eventually, you parted ways with an unspoken yet understood promise that you would see each other tomorrow.Â
Your first session with Jayce was also tomorrow. That was on top of everything else you had to do. So much to be doneâŚsuch little time, you thought.Â
The following day came just as quickly as the previous had ended. You woke in a frenzy, almost always rushing to and from one class and toward the next. Then, to tutoring.Â
You stumbled in, looking for any familiar face. You were met with only one, Jayceâs. He stood quickly, grabbing a folder and his bag before approaching you.Â
âRight on time.â He turned, walking you toward a room off to the side. âThis will be the office we use, I requested one with a white board.â He glanced back at you for affirmation before speaking again. âIf you ever come for our meetings and donât see me in the lobby, you can just come in here.âÂ
âSounds good.â Your lip curled at your voice coming out more weak than you expected. You had to admire your own consistent ability to embarrass yourself, truly.Â
He stepped back, allowing you to walk in first, again. âSoâŚI printed these forms out for you.â He opened the folder, taking out some of the pages and spreading them on the table. âThis is the basis for everything youâll need to know about physics. Thereâs legends here, conversion charts, some of the greek symbols youâll need to know, circuit diagrams, acronymsâŚeverything.â You slowly sat in your chair, observing the filled pages. Jayce noticed you looking between the table and him with wide eyes.Â
âThis is a lot of informationâŚâÂ
He finally sat down. âIt isâŚbut we have time to get you up to speed.âÂ
âBut thereâs these quizzes.â You looked down at the table, tapping a finger lightly against the wood. âEvery week we have to prove we understood the concept and I am already weeks behind so it just keeps building on things I didnât even understand to begin with. I donât have time, I have to pass the quizzes so I can pass the class and keep my scholarship. If I lose my scholarship, I canât pay for school and Iâll have to drop out. And all of this over stupid fucking physics and a professor who seems to want to ruin my life specifically.â You finally took a breath, âI canât do this.âÂ
âI think you can.âÂ
Your eyes snapped up, meeting his. The look on his face seemed sincereâas if he truly believed in the statement. Hardly knowing you at all, he had enough faith that you could, in fact, do this.
âSo,â he clasped his hands together. âWhatâs this next quiz on? Whatâs the topic for the week?â He got up, grabbing a marker from the white boardâs small shelf. He looked at you expectantly, a brow arching as if to ask you again.Â
âVectors.âÂ
He nodded, âOkay, and what confuses you about vectors?âÂ
âWell, I feel like Iâm pretty good at understanding angles. But as soon as we add in speed or velocity I am justâŚconfused.âÂ
âLetâs start there.â He wrote the words speed and velocity on the white board in broad strokes, leaving space beneath each. âWhat is speed? Donât think about it too hard.âÂ
âHow fast something is going?âÂ
âExactly, like a car.â He drew a makeshift car, and an indicator of both miles and kilometers. âVelocity is different.â He sketched a quick graph, a simple y and x axis and an arrow. âVelocity indicates the direction of an object.â His hand followed the trail of the arrow he drew, emphasizing that it was in motion. âSo, velocity is the only one that actually would be considered when you look at vectors. Speed is just a numberâŚvelocity represents a change in positionâŚwhich is what vectors do.âÂ
You grimaced at his attempt to make it make sense for you. The effort was appreciated, truly, but it didnât stick. You feigned understanding, nodding your head in an attempt to get him to move on and explain more. This was common for you. Something wouldnât make sense, but you wouldnât want to hold everyone up, to be a burden. So you would sit in class, half listening, half in another world. After class, youâd be forced to scour videos about the very subject the teacher had spent class time explaining. Unfortunately that was a rabbit hole, too, as you would always end up on videos that had nothing to do with school.Â
His eyes narrowed, not believing that your nod was enough of an indicator that you understood. âCome with me.â He moved to grab the papers for you, stuffing them in the folder and sliding them to you. You followed without a thought, trying to match his steady pace. He lead you to a nearby park down the street and sat his bag underneath a tree. You copied, placing your bag down beside his. It was impossible to not feel awkward, and yet, he persisted.Â
âOkay stand here,â he pointed a finger to a random spot on the ground. Your feet stood perfect on the space where the asphalt and grass met, one foot on each side. âSo just imagine that standing here, you are the bottom of a line graph along the x-axis. He moved his hand side-to-side, palm down, reminding you that this would be the horizontal line. Hotdogs and hamburgers. You remembered the silly phrase from elementary school.Â
âOkay, standing hereâŚx-axis.âÂ
He walked over to the grass side, âOkay, over hereâŚin the nice green grassâŚthis is positive.â He walked over to the asphalt, âIâm on your left now, on the asphaltâŚthis is negative.âÂ
ââŚOkay.âÂ
He walked to mirror your position, one foot on each terrain. Then, he slowly stepped on the grass. âWithout thinking about numbers, how would you describe what I just did.âÂ
âYouâŚâ Your brows furrowed, âYou walked to the grass?âÂ
âRight, and that is-âÂ
âPositive?âÂ
âExactly.âÂ
In a split second, he darted over to the asphalt. âHow bout now?âÂ
âYou ran to theâŚto the negative?âÂ
He nodded, meeting you back at center again. He smirked at how quickly heâd even come up with this demonstration. âThis is an example of how vectors work. When you think of me running somewhere, picking up my speed, but moving to the quote unquote ânegative,â this could also mean that from my original position-âÂ
Your eyes lit up, âYou moved backwards?âÂ
âYup, or even down. On a graph, I mean.â He smiled with each word, amused by how you caught on to his unorthodox teachings. âBut if I move slowly and to the âpositiveâ side?â He waited for you to answer.
âYouâŚmoved up or to the right.âÂ
âJust like a point on a graph.â He stood, hands on his hips.Â
You were on the edge of every word he spoke, analyzing his every movement. You knew it was inopportune, but it was rather characteristic for you to lose focus right then. Jayceâs eyes wereâŚinteresting. Your first instinct was to say that they were yellow. When you looked closer you noticed the border of dark brown, the flecks of hazel and copper. It was unlike anything youâd ever seen. You got so caught up, you missed his hand coming upâleaving it lingering in the air.Â
âWhat,â he questioned, âDo you not like high-fives as encouragement?âÂ
You chuckled, finally meeting his hand with yours. âI actually prefer snacks as encouragement, but this works.âÂ
It was his turn to laugh, then. It was short-lived. You followed his line of sight to see the same woman from the resource center, the one heâd been so enraptured by. Rightfully so; she was even more beautiful than you thought. The sunlight hit her skin just right, almost glistening. You gulped, somewhat intimidated by her presence alone.Â
She reached you both, immediately giving Jayce a hug before turning to greet you.Â
âHey, howâs the tutoring going?â She nudged the man beside her, looking to you for an answer.Â
âItâs going well,â you glanced at your phone screen, shit. âI actually should get going, but today was really helpful, thank you Jayce, bye.âÂ
You shuffled to grab your things as quickly as possible, avoiding the look of surprise on Jayceâs face. It didnât really matter, though.Â
Ekko was going to be pissed, again.Â
part three
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(đâ.Ë) ghost of you
đ¸đˇâŽâ [taeyong x reader] ...ŕ¨âĄŕ§... wc. 1.8k w. death, mention of drunk driving, grief, alcohol consumption, lmk if you find any more! angst áśť đ đ° .á
hey siri! play "ghost of you" by the 5 seconds of summer
january 27th, 2025 - 6:48pm
hey baby, i've been trying to reach you but i'm guessing you fell asleep... anyways, i have to go now, but i'll call you tomorrow, same time as always⌠i love you and i miss you more than i could even express. youâre my everything, remember that always⌠iâll talk to you soon, okay? i'm dying to hear your voice⌠i love you so much, rest well my love.
january 28th, 2025 - 7:02am
yn? please answer me⌠your mom just called and i- this is some type of sick joke, isn't it? i refuse to believe it, i know you're just asleep, youâll call me tomorrow, right? please, i just⌠i need to hear your voice again, i need to know youâre safe. i love you, baby, please be okay, please, please be okay.
january 29th, 2025 - 6:37pm
doyoung called me yesterday. uhm, when the phone rang i thought it was you for a second, i even saw your name on the screen⌠i guess not sleeping does that to a person. he told me he went to see your mom at your house and that he didnât want to believe it either⌠we all love you so much, you know, and we miss you even though youâre barely gone... iâm going to my superiprâs office today, i need to go home to see you one last time⌠i love you, youâre forever my everything and i hope you know that.
january 30th, 2025 - 6:34pm
hey, baby. i got back home last night⌠everything is just the way you left it. i can still feel you here, i couldnât even move to your side of the bed. there's a half drunk coffee cup on the table, it has your lipstick on it still⌠am i wrong for not wanting to wash it yet? i know itâs a little disgusting, but i can't get rid of it, not yet at least⌠anyways, iâm going to your brotherâs house today to check up on him, your mom says he wont talk to anyone⌠i hope heâll talk to me. i love you, baby, i miss you.
february 3rd, 2025 - 6:39pm
i dreamt of you last night, it was the first time iâve gotten more than a single hour of sleep since you⌠since you left. you were there like you have been ever since i met you in that practice room so long ago. you remember that, right? when you dropped hyuck off and i spilled my soda on you? yeah, we were back there. you told me not to worry, that everything is fine. it felt different than it did before, though, because you were crying and holding my face like you do when you try to make things better⌠nothing is fine, yn. youâre gone, and a world without you simply cannot be anything but fucking awful.Â
february 3rd, 2025 - 6:45pm
oh, and i forgot. i went to see hyuck but i didnât get him to talk⌠he was on your childhood bed, the one with the pink covers⌠he hasnât gotten out of your room for anything but the bathroom, so your parents are very worried. iâm gonna try to make it better, okay? iâll help him because i know itâs destroying you to watch this from up there⌠i love you, always.
february 5th, 2025 - 6:33pm
hey, my love. i just got off the phone with my superior⌠he said i can stay home and weâll issue when i can resume my service. i begged him to let me go back, you know⌠i need to be okay, i need to be busy so i don't think about you every second of every day; but he said i need to grieve in peace, so now i'm stuck here again. iâm staying with doyoung because every time i step foot at our house i feel like iâm dying inside, although i told him itâs because itâs closer to your parents, just in case they need me. i know he knows the truth, but i have to be strong, you know? they all lost you too. i love you, ill talk to you soon.
february 7th, 2025 - 3:56am
why did you have to leave me, yn? why did you decide to walk when you knew hyuck could take you to work? why on earth did you do that? iâm so mad, not only at you, but at everything. iâm mad because you shouldnât have walked, iâm mad because some fucking asshole decided to drunk drive at five in the fucking afternoon. iâm mad because i wasnât there⌠i shouldâve been there to push you out of the way and then maybe it would be you sitting here at home feeling like nothing makes any sense anymore. you should be here, with me, dancing around the kitchen like we always did when we got drunk. now iâm dancing with a fucking ghost⌠i love you so much, but iâm so fucking mad at the world for making you leave me.
february 7th, 2025 - 6:47pm
hey angel⌠uhm, iâm sorry for this morning, i was really drunk and everything kind of came crashing down on me⌠iâm cleaning up right now because i left a mess when i came back. i shattered the coffee cup and your lipstick is gone, which made me cry like a fucking baby⌠i also found my old zeppelin shirt, the one you stole the first night you ever slept over. i remember you sent me a picture of you wearing it the day of the accident, itâs even my wallpaper still⌠but yeah, i miss you, baby, and iâm not mad at you.
february 20th, 2025 - 6:32pm
hi baby, sorry i havenât reached out in so long, iâve been busy trying to get my shit together⌠i talked to your brother today, i finally got him out of the house and we went to the park. we ate those coconut ice creams you liked so much and sat by fred the statue, hyuck cried the entire time. we talked about you, all the happy memories and how fucking funny you were, always cheering us up in our worst moments⌠we also talked about the big fight we had when he found out we were dating. remember that? he tried to fist fight me when he was 14 even though i was so much bigger than him. i guess he was right then, though. we were too young and dumb to know things like love. but I know better now, and i have loved you ever since the very first second i saw your pretty face.
march 17th, 2025 - 6:57pm
hello, baby, long time no see⌠i just got out of your memorial⌠your parents asked me to talk because neither of them can bring themselves to, so i did and i don't think iâve ever looked as pathetic in my life⌠i canât stop crying, even now that itâs long over⌠everyone was here, you know, even sion and them. i think you wouldâve hated it, you always despised seeing people cry⌠iâm taking hyuck to our house tonight. he said he needs to be surrounded by you, so heâll stay with me until weâre both better. you should see him now, how disarmed he is⌠it scares me a lot, what if i donât do as good of a job at cheering him up as you wouldâve? i mean, i canât even get myself to stop feeling like iâm being crushed, how the fuck am i supposed to help him?... i donât know, but i promise iâll figure it out. i love you, ynnie, forever always.
april 27th, 2025 - 6:35pm
hey ynnie, iâm back here again⌠itâs been four months since you left, and iâm beginning to think it wonât get better. i thought i was, really, thatâs why i stopped calling. but i went out with the guys today, and yuta broke down because he saw your name in his contacts⌠we all miss you so fucking much, yn. it feels like a huge part of life is missing without you by my side and itâs drowning me. i feel like iâm holding onto you like an anchor in the middle of the ocean, but i donât want to let go⌠i donât know how to. i miss you every single day; when i walk through the market, when i clean, when i watch tv. youâre fucking everywhere, and i donât know how to appreciate that yet, it just makes me feel worse than i already do. still, itâs not your fault⌠nothing ever was and now nothing ever will be. i love you, just as much as i always have.Â
may 16th, 2025 - 6:46pm
hey, my love. uhm, this will be the last message for a while, okay? i started going to the therapist, and he said it might be better for me to find another outlet than this one⌠i think he might be right, i donât know what iâll do the day this number gets reassigned⌠anyways, i wanted to let you know, even when i know youâre watching me from wherever you are. i love you, yn. i want you to know that even if youâre not here for me to tell you. i love you, i love you, i love you, i will never stop loving you.
january 27th, 2026 - 6:48pm
hey, ynnie⌠itâs been a while, huh? i know youâre probably scolding me from up there for calling this number again after so long, but i need you to understand me on this one. i donât call with hopes that youâll answer anymore, i gave up on that a long time ago⌠i found other ways to talk to you, and iâm sure you know that because iâve seen the way your star flickers sometimes when i go talk to you every night. everything is better, as you know. haechan is back on his feet, heâs touring again with dream⌠heâs shining again, and i know itâs because youâre right by his side⌠your parents are better too, your dad is smiling again. everybody's learning how to live without you, even though we hate it so much⌠anyways, itâs very fitting that you sent that new dance coach today, she kind of reminds me of you. the boyâs said the same thing, too. still, sheâs not you. and i know thatâs not fair, no one could ever be you or even close⌠but still, it makes me miss you even more... dancing is starting to make me happy again, though my feet don't dance like they did with you... well, this turned into a pretty long message, iâm sorry for that, iâll leave you to it and talk to you tonight, okay? i love you so much, rest well my love.
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escape V. l rafe cameron x pogue!reader
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ive been gone so long hope you didnt forget that last chapter cause i do but heres an update so sorry for the long wait
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âYouâre not useless, Rafe. Youâre more than what he says. You just⌠need to stop trying to be what he wants you to be.â
Rafeâs gaze locked onto yours, and for a moment, the air between you felt charged, heavy with something unspoken.
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Rafeâs heart raced as he roared down the dark, empty road on his motorcycle. The wind whipped against his face, but it did nothing to cool the burning anger, frustration, and heartbreak bubbling up inside him. The sound of his fatherâs voice still echoed in his ears, cruel and sharp.
âUseless. Youâre a disappointment, Rafe. Youâre not my son.â
His father had saved him tonightâpaid off Barry to cover his debt after Rafe's reckless run with drugs and poor decisions had spiraled out of control.
But Ward Cameron hadnât just stopped there. He disowned him, severing whatever thread of connection Rafe had desperately clung to for so long.
The validation heâd craved from his father had been ripped away, leaving him feeling hollow, unwanted.
He squeezed the handlebars harder, his knuckles white. He wanted to cryâhell, he needed toâbut something inside him wouldnât let the tears fall.
Instead, he felt stuck in the numbness, trapped in the anger that swirled with his sorrow.
Where was he even going? He didnât know. He just needed to escape, to run from the weight of his fatherâs rejection. Heâd always been good at running.
Before he knew it, the familiar neon glow of the diner lights cut through the dark. Kiaraâs family diner. Your workplace. Without thinking, Rafe pulled into the parking lot, the motorcycleâs engine cutting off as he came to a stop.
He was exhausted, emotionally drained, and he didnât have the energy to go anywhere else. Something about seeing you right now felt like the only thing that might tether him to reality.
As he pushed the door open and stepped inside, the bell above the entrance jingled softly. You were behind the counter, wiping down the tables, unaware of his presence at first.
The diner was mostly empty at this hour, just a few late-night regulars scattered around. When you finally looked up and spotted him, your eyes widened in surprise. You stared at him for a moment, caught off guard by his presence.
He made his way to a booth near the window, sitting down heavily. You caught his eyes briefly as he stared out into the night, lost.
There was an intensity in his sadness that you hadnât seen before, and it unnerved you. Rafe Cameron wasnât supposed to look like that.
You wiped your hands on your apron and walked over to him, keeping your voice steady as you asked, âCan I get you anything?â
He looked up at you, and for a moment, there was something so open, so broken in his expression that you almost wanted to sit beside him.
He held your gaze, his voice low and a little hoarse when he spoke. âYou.â
You blinked, not expecting that. âRafeââ
âI just⌠need someone to talk to,â he said, his words barely above a whisper.
His eyes were glassy, like he was on the verge of tears but refusing to let them fall. âAnd itâs you. I donât know why, but I need you.â
The honesty in his voice caught you off guard. Rafe wasnât the kind of guy to admit weakness, especially not to someone like youâa Pogue. But there was something so genuine in his sadness that you found yourself nodding before you could think better of it.
âMy shiftâs over in fifteen minutes,â you said softly. âI can talk to you then.â
As you turned to head back to the counter, you noticed Kiara leaning against the kitchen door, her arms crossed as she watched the exchange.
Her eyes narrowed slightly as she took in the sight of Rafe in the diner.
âRafe, huh?â Kiara said, her tone carrying a hint of suspicion. âThatâs⌠unexpected.â
You shrugged. "Its not like that."
Kiara let out a soft laugh, her eyes narrowing in playful disbelief. "You know heâs bad news, right?â
There was an edge to her voice that told you it wasnât just casual gossip. Kiara had seen what Rafe was like, how he treated her friendsâPogues. Her warning wasnât out of jealousy or teasing. It was genuine concern.
Rafe had a reputation, and it wasnât a good one. But the Rafe sitting in that booth looked nothing like the guy who was always stirring up trouble.
He looked⌠lost. And something in you couldnât walk away from that, not after everything he did for you.
âIâll be careful,â you promised, offering Kiara a smile.
After the clock finally struck the end of your shift, you pulled off your apron and approached Rafeâs booth. He glanced up at you, still looking like a storm was brewing inside him.
âCome on,â you said softly, nodding toward the back exit. âLetâs go somewhere quiet.â
The two of you stepped outside, the night air cool against your skin. You led him to a small bench behind the diner, away from prying eyes.
For a while, neither of you spoke. Rafe just sat there, staring down at his hands, lost in thought. You werenât sure how to start, so you waited for him.
Eventually, he broke the silence. âI fucked up. Again."
Rafe took a long, shaky breath, rubbing a hand across his face. âMy dad⌠heâs done with me.â
His voice cracked, and for the first time, you saw the raw pain behind his eyes. âHe paid off my debt tonightâsaved my ass from Barryâbut then he told me I was a disappointment. That I wasnât his son anymore.â
âI just⌠I donât get it,â he continued, his voice growing more frustrated.
âNo matter what I do, itâs never enough for him. Iâm never enough.â
He looked at you, his eyes filled with a pain so deep it made your chest ache.
âI donât know what to do anymore. Iâve been trying so hard to prove myself, but⌠maybe heâs right. Maybe I am useless.â
âDonât say that,â you said firmly, your hand resting on his arm.
âYouâre not useless, Rafe. Youâre more than what he says. You just⌠need to stop trying to be what he wants you to be.â
Rafeâs gaze locked onto yours, and for a moment, the air between you felt charged, heavy with something unspoken.
His eyes searched yours, and you could see the vulnerability in them, the desperation for someoneâanyoneâto believe in him.
âYou really think that?â he asked quietly, his voice laced with disbelief.
âI do,â you said softly. âYou donât have to be perfect, Rafe."
Something shifted in his expression then, a flicker of hope or maybe relief, and before you could process what was happening, Rafe leaned in.
His lips brushed yours, soft at first, like he wasnât sure if youâd pull away. But when you didnât, he deepened the kiss, his hand gently cupping your face.
The world around you seemed to fade, the only thing you could focus on was the warmth of his lips against yours, the way his hand gently cupped your face as if he was afraid to break you.
When he finally pulled back, his forehead rested against yours, his breath shaky.
âIâm sorry,â he whispered, his voice rough.
âDonât apologize,â you interrupted softly, your fingers brushing the side of his face.
Rafe didnât need to say anything more, and neither did you. All you knew was that in this moment, Rafe needed someoneâand for some reason, he had chosen you.
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"I thought about this before" bsf!Rafe x kook!reader part three
summary: Party at Tannyhill where things get kinda messy, and the reader starts questioning her friendship with Rafe. Thereâs this weird tension, and now she's stuck wondering if something more is going on or if itâs all in her head.
a/n: heyy guys part three is here let me know whatcha think :**(kisses on y'all's foreheads)
read for context: part one, part two, part four
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The next day, as I was lying in bed, my phone buzzed. It was a text from Rafe.
Rafe: "Hey, y/n. Come to the party at Tannyhill tomorrow. You gotta be there."
I stared at the message, my stomach flipping. He didnât even ask, just assumed Iâd come. That was so like Rafeâdirect, confident, and frustratingly persuasive.
Me: "What party?"
Rafe: "Just a few people. Nothing crazy, I promise. Donât make me beg."
I sighed. I knew how these âsmallâ gatherings turned outâwild, chaotic, and usually ending with Rafe in some kind of trouble. But there was something in his tone, even through text, that made it hard to say no. Against my better judgment, I agreed.
The next evening, I pulled up to Tannyhill, already feeling a sense of dread. What if this was a mistake? What if tonight changed things between us? Shaking off the thought, I stepped out of my car and walked toward the house.
Music spilled out onto the lawn, and I could see groups of people laughing and drinking. I spotted Rafe immediately. He was leaning against the railing, beer in hand, looking effortlessly charming as always. When his eyes met mine, his grin widened.
"Well, look who finally showed up," he called out, striding over.
"You made it sound like I didnât have a choice," I said, folding my arms.
"You didnât," he teased, grabbing my hand to lead me inside. The warmth of his touch lingered longer than it should have.
A couple of hours passed, and someone suggested playing truth or dare. I hesitated, sitting back and watching everyone else jump at the chance. It felt riskyâtoo many opportunities for things to go wrong.
But before I could slip away, Topper grinned at me. "Y/n, truth or dare?"
The roomâs attention shifted to me, and I felt trapped. "Uh⌠dare," I said reluctantly, not wanting to spill anything personal.
Topperâs grin widened. "I dare you to sit on Rafeâs lap until your next turn."
My stomach dropped as the group erupted in laughter. My eyes darted to Rafe, who was smirking like heâd won some secret game.
"Come on, y/n. Rules are rules," he said, patting his lap.
I hesitated, my heart racing. Sitting on his lap felt⌠too intimate. Too dangerous. But with everyone watching, I couldnât back out. Reluctantly, I moved over and sat down, stiff as a board.
Rafeâs arm wrapped casually around my waist, sending an electric jolt through me.
As the game continued, I couldnât focus on anything but the weight of his arm and the way his fingers lightly brushed my side. Did he even realize what he was doing? I reminded myself it didnât mean anythingâit couldnât mean anything.
Then it was Rafeâs turn.
"Truth or dare?" someone asked.
"Dare," he said without hesitation, his voice full of confidence.
A girl in the group smirked. "I dare you to kiss y/n."
The room exploded with cheers and laughter. My face went hot as I froze, my mind racing. Was this some kind of joke?
Rafe turned to me, his expression unreadable. "You okay with this?" he whispered, his voice softer than I expected.
I didnât know how to answer. What if this kiss changed everything? What if it ruined our friendship? But with everyone watching, I gave a small, hesitant nod.
Rafe leaned in, his hand tilting my chin up. The moment his lips met mine, the world seemed to fall away. It was soft at first, almost cautious, but then he deepened the kiss, his hand moving to the back of my neck.
I shouldâve pulled away. I shouldâve stopped him. But I didnât. I couldnât.
The cheers around us faded into the background as the kiss lingered. Longer than it should have. Longer than it was supposed to. My hands gripped his shirt, my mind screaming at me to stop, but my body refused to listen.
When he finally pulled back, I was breathless, my heart pounding so hard it hurt. The room had gone quiet, all eyes on us, but I couldnât bring myself to look at anyone else.
"Well, thatâs one way to win a dare," Topper said, laughing awkwardly. The group joined in, and the tension broke, but I was still reeling.
Rafeâs arm stayed around my waist, holding me close as if he wasnât ready to let me go. I stayed on his lap, unsure of what else to do. My thoughts were a mess, and I couldnât shake the feeling that weâd crossed some invisible line.
Eventually, the game fizzled out, and people began to leave. I got up quickly, mumbling an excuse about needing fresh air. My heart was racing, and I needed to clear my head. The kiss had felt so real, so charged, but Rafe had acted like it was nothing.
Stepping out onto the patio, I leaned against the railing, the cool night air doing little to settle the storm inside me. What had that kiss meant? To him, to me? I couldnât figure it out.
A few minutes later, I heard footsteps behind me. I turned slightly and saw Rafe. He leaned casually against the doorframe, his usual smirk firmly in place.
"Hey," he said, his voice calm and light, as if we hadnât just crossed a line I couldnât stop thinking about.
"Hey," I replied, trying to sound just as unaffected, though my voice wavered slightly.
He ran a hand through his hair, looking out at the dark yard. "That game got out of hand, huh?"
I blinked, taken aback. That was it? Thatâs all he had to say? "Yeah⌠I guess," I said, forcing a small laugh that didnât reach my eyes.
"Top always knows how to stir the pot," he added, shaking his head with a chuckle.
I waited, hoping heâd say something moreâsomething about the kiss. But he didnât. He just stood there, completely at ease, as if the whole thing had been a joke to him.
"SoâŚ" I started, trying to gauge his thoughts. "About that dareâ"
"Donât even worry about it," he interrupted, waving a hand dismissively. "Just some dumb party game. You know how these things go."
Dumb party game? My chest tightened at his words. Thatâs all it was to him? I wanted to press him, to ask if it had meant anything, but the casual tone in his voice stopped me.
"Right," I said quietly, looking down at my hands. "Dumb party game."
"Exactly," he said, flashing me an easy smile. "No big deal."
I nodded, but my mind was spinning. No big deal? Then why did it feel like such a big deal to me?
"Anyway, Iâm gonna head back inside. You good out here?" he asked, already turning to leave.
"Yeah," I lied, forcing a smile. "Iâm fine."
"Cool. See you later, y/n," he said, disappearing back inside without a second glance.
I stayed outside long after he left, the night air growing colder as my thoughts spiraled. Why had I expected anything different? Rafe was always confident, always smooth, always in control. To him, the kiss had probably been just another moment in a game, a fleeting, meaningless gesture.
But to me, it had been more. I couldnât shake the feeling of his lips on mine or the way my heart had raced when he pulled me closer. Had I imagined the way heâd held me, the way heâd kissed me like it meant something?
Shaking my head, I tried to push the thoughts away. I couldnât let myself get caught up in this. If Rafe wanted to pretend nothing had happened, maybe I should do the same.
But as I drove home later that night, his words echoed in my head. "No big deal."
Then why did it feel like everything was different now?
What would you do in this situation? lmk in the comments :**
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You blinked, the gears in your brain working as you tried to process your brother's Idea.
He blinked back at you with the widest and cutest smile he could muster. His whole being vibrating from excitement from his idea that he has yet to execute.
You gulped, not wanting to break the poor angel's heart whilst not wanting him to be in danger because of his idea.
"Lucifer.." You started, taking a seat on a nearby rock. His eyes light up at the mention of his name.
Your eyes softened. He really is God's most beautiful angel. "That's really sweet of you to consider the humans. Giving them the option to choose their own paths in life, choosing for themselves.. I really think it's a great idea! ButâŚâ you bit your lower lip, watching his smile slowly fade.
Before you could explain further, he suddenly murmured out, âWhen did you start siding with the others...?â Your eyes widened, flying up from the rock and going closer to him.
"No, no! It's not like that! Just," you sighed âThis idea of yours is going.. a bit too far."
âToo far?" Lucifer repeated, "Is.. Is that what you've been thinking of my ideas? They're going too farâ too much for you?" Lucifer snapped. He couldn't believe it, you were the only one who supported his ideas, loved it even and defended him from the elders when they disagreed with his ideas. But you're siding with them now? Now out of all times?
âLook, I know it seems like it but this idea could cost you more than just a few warnings from the elders.â You spoke, taking deep breaths. God why are you getting so emotional? âIt's clear as the Great Almighty Lord's blinding light that the elders don't approve much of your ideas. This⌠whole giving the apple of knowledge to the humans' wouldâŚâ you trailed off, the words getting stuck in your throat as you fought back tears.
âWould what?" Lucifer furrowed his eyebrows, noticing your lips quiver. What could possibly go wrong with giving the humans the free will to choose? That they don't need to constantly follow the seraphims or even the elders' orders that were planted here because it would be their own choice to listen to them or not.
God, if the humans were to know they had a choice, what are the possibilities of them creating something of their own? Endless! Then, dare he say, the garden of Eden won't be as boring as it is right now.
A hand on the shoulder was all it took for Lucifer to snap his attention back at you, âI know you're doing this out of good will, but.. this idea could be the end of you, Lucifer.â
The end of him? Him? Lucifer? Surely you jest, you're talking to the angel who god sculpted into perfection. His ideas are just as important as the elders' orders!
You saw him furrowed his eyebrows, it seems he doesn't know the danger he'll be putting to himself and to his lover if he really does plan on executing his idea.
âLucifer," you placed your other hand on his other shoulder, his eyes now at yours once again. âPlease... Please drop this idea, I.." your lip quivered as you continued, "I don't wanna lose you.â You pleaded.
His eyes softened, he watched you fight back your tears from spilling he slowly pulled you into a hug. Muttering out okay.
âPromise?" You spoke, in his shoulder as you tried to blink away the tears that threatened to fall out.
Lucifer buried his head in your shoulder, "Promise.â
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"What's got you all gloomy, darling?â Lilith spoke, giggling at how Lucifer immediately snapped his head in her direction.
His cheeks adorned with warm yellow as he stared at Lilith lovingly. âNothing, it's just..â he paused, not sure whether to tell Lilith about what you and him talked about earlier or not.
He sighed, feeling Lilith take a seat besides him, wrapping her arms around the little angel before planting a kiss on his forehead. âYou can tell me." She muttered out. Giving him a small smile.
He returned the gesture, leaning into her touch and sighing out, again. âIt's just⌠I'm just thinking if my idea is..â he lowered his gaze to the ground, recalling your words. "going a little too far this time.â He finished. Gazing at the apple that's hanging from the tree of knowledge.
Lilithâs gaze softened, âWho told you that?"
Lucifer muttered your name softly at her, Lilith clenched her hands in response. Why did you say that to him? He already had his plate full because of the elders, and now you? She was fuming. She never thought you'd go against his idea, not once had it crossed her mind.
Now that you've sided with the elders, he has no one else to support him other than her now. Elders be damned! She'll support him no matter how crazy his ideas are. It's the reason why she fell in love with him.
âIf you'd ask me.." Lilith started. Putting her hand on top of his. "You should still do it.â
"What?â Lucifer's eyes snapped back at her.
Lilith only smiled, "If she won't support you, then I will.â
Luciferâs breath hitched, she looked so beautiful in that moment. His lips turned into a smile, eyes looking at her full of adoration. He's so lucky to have her.
On cue, they saw Eve going towards the tree of knowledge. Lucifer felt a nudge on his side, looking at Lilith who's encouraging him to go. He smiled, giving her a peck on the lips before transforming into a snake.
Lilith watched as he slithered towards Eve. A smile adorned on her lips.
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âLucifer Morningstar, who committed a serious crime by going against the Lordâs word and giving the humans the apple from the tree of knowledge. Therefore you are banished from heaven.â
You stared at horror as you watched Lucifer hug his lover, trying to explain himself to the elders. But all his words fell on deaf ears as the elders raised their hands.
A portal opened from behind them. Lucifer looked at the hole wide-eyed before turning to the elders, stepping forward to explain but was met with multiple angelic spears pointed at them. Your breath hitched.
âDoes anyone object to the banishment?" The elder asked, eyeing the other seraphim.
"I do!â You said aloud, your hand raised up high for everyone to see.
"Shouldn't we hear his side of the story first before deciding on anything? You don't even know his intentions were at that time! So please, let us hear what he has to say..." You pleaded, flying over to where Lucifer and Lilith are.
"His intentions revealed itself the moment he gave the apple to Eve, giving the humans the knowledge of good and bad. Seraph (Y/n), the humans have become one of us.â an elder stated. Their multiple eyes looking at you as they spoke.
âBut he never had any ill intentions!" Lilith suddenly spoke from behind Lucifer - who was shielding her from the spears.
"Why are you already banishing us without even hearing our reason?!" Lilith yelled out, rage beginning to bubble inside of her.
"Lilithâ" Lucifer spoke, glancing at his lover
"No! Lucifer, they're making decisions without even giving your ideas a chance to be heard! Theyâ"
âSILENCE!"
Everyone went quiet.
âLucifer went against the Lord's word, that's more than enough reason to banish you from heaven!â
Your eyes gazed up from Lilith and at the elders.
âBut Elderâ"
â(Y/n), you know better than to go against the Lord's will, being a seraph yourself after all. Or do you suggest you go along with them?" An elder snapped at you. Their spears now pointed at you.
You were taken aback, did you just got.. threatened? You were now given a choice whether to stay quiet or defend Lucifer and suffer the consequences.
...You chose the former.
Lucifer's eyes widened as he watched you start to retreat to your station. He grabbed your hand before you could get even further from him, eyes pleading for you to stay. To defend him like you always do.
Glancing at the spears directed at them before gazing back at Lucifer's pleading eyes. You whispered to him, âyou promised."
With a huff, the elders - along with you - faced the two lovers once again. Raising his spear as he spoke
âI hereby BANISH you from the garden of Eden, never to set foot in heaven ever AGAIN.â
Using your wings to cover your eyes, not wanting to watch him fall to damnation. All the elders pointed their spears at them, except yours.
And with that, they fell.
Hearing the portal disappear, officially making the meeting come to a close as all the elders flew up to leave,
You stayed. Refusing to uncover your eyes as tears began to slowly slip down your cheeks.
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#hazbin lucifer#hazbin hotel#hazbin hotel x reader#hazbin hotel x you#lucifer morningstar x reader#not really romantic#angst#hayamie#they're not really related to each other.#reader thinks of him as a brother
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ficlet: quarantine
I needed fluff, so I wrote some. Perhaps a little messy, but definitely fluffy, post-Firewalker. They're in quarantine and Scully is bored. Mulder isn't.
She expected him to get restless and irritable before the end of their first day in quarantine. Itâs been five days now, and although heâs been pacing a lot and at times talked for fifteen minutes straight about random cryptids sheâd never heard about before, he does seem to be handling this a lot better than she is. Most of the time, he seems almost content.
She canât say the same about herself. Thereâs simply nothing to do and sheâs bored out of her mind. Standing still gives her too much time to think, and thatâs the last thing she wants to be doing right now.
âAre you even listening to me?â he asks, and when she looks up at him from her seat on her uncomfortable chair and meets his eyes across the tiny table they use for their meals, the corners of his mouth are twitching with a barely held-back grin.
âNo,â she admits. âSorry. What were you saying? Something about⌠banjos?â
âBanshees,â he says. âIt doesnât matter. Whatâs on your mind?â
âNothing.â She sighs.
âCome on.â He leans forward, arms folded on the table. âYou can talk to me. Thereâs��� actually not much else to do here.â
âYeah.â She leans back with another sigh. âThatâs exactly the problem.â
âYouâre bored?â
âArenât you?â
âWell.â He shrugs. âYeah. Of course Iâm bored. We have nothing to do and nowhere to go and thereâs absolutely nothing good on TV.â
âAnd weâre gonna be stuck here for several more weeks,â she points out, pushing herself up out of her chair to walk over to their single window. Itâs completely dark outside. Time has lost all meaning. It could be late evening. It could be past midnight. It doesnât seem to matter anymore.
âItâs not so bad,â he says, and she twirls around to him.
âMulder, there is nothing to do here. Nothing.â
âSo weâll come up with something,â he suggests, getting up and making his way over to her. He stands so close she has to lean her head all the way back to look up at him. Sheâs in her socks and heâs so tall. And heâs smiling. Something aches deep in her gut.
âLike what?â she asks.
âI donât know.â He bites his lip and seems to think about it.
Heâs so beautiful it hurts her heart. Being stuck here is bad enough. Being stuck here with him is torture. Ever since she came back, heâs been so attentive, so careful with her. She can feel him looking at her when he thinks she wonât notice. And heâs always there. All the time. As if heâs afraid sheâll disappear again. And she doesnât know what any of it means. She knows he wore her necklace when she was missing.
âLetâs go for a walk,â he says at last, and that makes her laugh out loud.
âWe canât,â she reminds him. âWe literally canât, Mulder.â
âSure we can.â
He takes her hand and places it in the crook of his elbow, eyes sparkling as he grins at her widely.
âWhat are youââ She shakes her head. âWhat are we doing?â
âI told you,â he says, âWeâre going for a walk.â And then heâs leading her across the small room into the tiny hallway separating their bedrooms, where he starts walking them up and down the same few feet of space. She canât help it, she dissolves into a fit of giggles after the third turn.
âNice weather weâre having today, donât you think?â he says, and she holds his arm with both hands and leans into his side, the sensation of laughter unfamiliar in her chest.
âYouâre crazy.â
âSo Iâve been told. Many times. By you, actually.â
âIn the best way. I like it.â
âOh,â he says, sounding pleased, and a little surprised. âI havenât heard that before.â
She stops them in their tracks and steps in front of him. âYou know I mean it like that every time, right?â she says. âIf I everââ
âI know, Scully,â he promises, and the smile in his voice convinces her that heâs telling the truth.
âGood. Okay.â
âDo you want to keep going?â he asks. âIâve been told the view doesnât change at all the further you go. Might be worth exploring.â
âI donât know what Iâd do without you.â The words slip out before she can stop them, and the happiness in her voice makes her blush. She didnât mean to reveal that much.
âYeah,â he says softly. âI know the feeling.â
She lowers her eyes and doesnât know what to say. Itâs a new problem. Theyâve always had an easy back and forth, even their arguments often comforting in a way she never properly understood. Suddenly, everything seems filled with too much meaning. Or maybe thatâs wishful thinking on her part. Itâs just that she remembers the look in his eyes when he visited her in the hospital after she woke up.
âHey, Scully?â
She nods, reluctantly lifting her head when he puts two fingers under her chin. âWhat is it?â
âI just want you to knowâŚâ He pauses for a second. âI just want you to know that Iâd rather be in here, bored out of my mind with you, than healthy and having fun out there without you.â
âI, um.â She frantically searches for something to say, but heâs standing here, his fingers caressing her cheek now, and he is so warm and smells so good, and she simply canât remember how language works for the moment.
âItâs okay,â he assures her. âYou donât have to say anything. I just wanted you to know.â
âNo,â she says quickly. âNo, I understand. I⌠guess I feel the same way.â
âOh.â Thereâs something so hopeful in his expression, and she gives him the tiniest nod, hoping heâll understand.
And he does, of course he does.
She canât remember any kiss ever feeling like this. His lips just rest against hers, lingering, unmoving, and she feels it all the way down to her toes. Her hands come up to cup his elbows and he takes her face firmly between his large, soft hands, and by the time he pulls back, the world has rearranged itself around them.
âWas that okay?â he asks, and she puts one palm over his rapidly beating heart.
âI think I just thought of a few things we can do while weâre stuck here,â she says.
âYeah?â He slides his arms around her waist and pulls her closer. âLike what?â
She rises up onto her toes to kiss him again, and finds that another three weeks of this doesnât sound quite so bad anymore.
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Cave Space
The mechanicâs shop was the loudest and dirtiest place Iâd seen on this space station so far, and somehow that was comforting. All the ritzy retail stores and elaborate restaurants tried to look as fancy as possible, even the cheap ones. But this place felt honest and straightforward. It had bare concrete floors and the kind of shelf displays that didnât bother with signs to actually explain what you were looking at. A real mechanic would know.
I had no idea, but I was just here to help haul things. Blip and Blop might have been a better choice if the things in question proved to be heavy, but they were off wrangling jumbo tubs of food and medical supplies with Eggskin, and anyways we had the big hoversled this time. It would probably be fine.
Mimi was talking fast with an employee about manifolds and vents and lots of other words, waving a couple green tentacles while he stood on the rest. The employee was the biggest Heatseeker I could remember seeing, which was still only mid-rib-height on me. He reminded me of the short gym guys from back home, able to build muscle in every direction but up.
A box thumped onto a counter near me. âYou here to help lift and pull?â
I found an older human woman grinning at me, wearing a tank top covered in grease and long white hair held back in a ponytail. Also the kind of arm muscle that said she yanked engines out of spaceships for fun.
âSomething like that,â I said with a smile. âGotta make sure nothing falls off the sled.â
She waved a hand. âAh, weâll strap it down for you. Thereâs enough ramps around here to cause problems if we donât.â
âI bet,â I said, thinking back to the last time Iâd chased something important down a hill. âDonât want to risk any explosions or chemical spills.â
âOr slamming a gear shaft into the side of a building,â she agreed. âThere was a bit of a mess the last time someone was sure they didnât need their stuff tied down.â
I winced. âOuch.â
âYeah, itâs standard procedure now,â she said, opening the box to pull out multiple smaller boxes, all labeled with arcane terminology and numbers. They rattled as she stocked them on the shelf under the counter. âIf theyâd asked me, it would have been standard from the start, but what do I know? Iâve only been doing this kind of work for decades, on more planets than I care to count.â
âSounds exciting,â I said as she finished stocking. âI havenât been out here all that long by comparison, but thereâs always something new to see.â A glance around the shop took in rows of alien technology, a Heatseeker with scales painted silver, and one of those centipede-like people whose species name I didnât remember. I was pretty sure they were looking at a jetpack display.
âOh sure, plenty of weirdos out here,â the woman said easily, ripping tape off the box and flattening it. âThough itâs easy to tip over from marveling at the wonders to feeling the kind of intense homesickness that you get when youâre light years away from home.â
âI suppose so.â Iâd been pretty lucky on that front, since my alien coworkers were friendly sorts who made me feel welcome. But there were times when the sheer amount of empty space between me and Earth was a little too much to think about.
âYouâve got to find ways to remind yourself of where you come from, and take pride in it,â the older woman said with a pointed finger, like a grandparent giving career advice. âRecreate bits of home while youâre far from it.â
I thought back to the potted plants and sun lamp in my quarters, kept high enough that the cat couldnât chew on them. âI like to think I do that,â I said. âDo you have a preferred method? Classic Earth songs, googly eyes stuck in funny places?â
She barked a laugh. âHa! Nothing Iâd admit to. But Iâll show you my current favorite touchstone to humanity.â She dug in a pocket.
I stepped closer, curious, as she pulled out something palm-sized. She rested her elbows on the counter and held it up, framed by splayed fingers with appropriate drama.
It was a rock, smooth and shiny like it had been polished by a river and then by a thick layer of varnish, and it was covered in minuscule handprints. All in earthtones, like a cave painting reduced to pocket size: some in silhouettes like tiny hands had pressed mud or ash against the cave wall, and others shadowed by color like the prehistoric artist had chewed charcoal and spat it carefully around their fingers.
(Iâd done that in school one day, with one of the cool teachers, who taught us the basics of humanityâs oldest style of airbrushing. It was incredibly messy and trickier than Iâd expected. It gave me renewed respect for the artists from eons ago whose artwork had survived into modern times.)
And this was that same thing, made small enough to carry around the galaxy, a tiny reminder of home. âThatâs fantastic,â I breathed.
âIsnât it?â she asked, rubbing at the shine. âI got it from a traveling artist awhile back. If I was in a different line of work, Iâd sell clothes with this pattern on them. Itâs the kind of thing that makes other Earthlings smile.â She stood up and put it back in her pocket with a wink. âNot like googly eyes, but still good.â
âYes, still good!â I agreed, smiling. I would have liked to talk more about it, maybe find out where that traveling artist had gone, but Mimi was wrapping up his conversation. A door opened to admit a trio of Heatseekers carrying a huge cylinder that was probably destined for somewhere in the guts of our ship.
âIâll get the tie-down straps,â said the woman, rummaging under a different section of counter.
âThanks,â I said, though I donât think she heard me. The air was full of talk and the sound of clawed feet on concrete. I hurried to take up a position by the controls of the hoversled, making sure it stayed locked in place.
The team worked quickly, and in no time they had it strapped down well enough that it wouldnât budge even if the gravity cut out completely. (Which had better not happen; Iâd had more than enough of that kind of nonsense at the last station.)
Mimi processed the payment, tapping a screen with one tentacle tip and thanking the employees for having this whatsit in stock. I got the impression that it wasnât the one heâd actually come to get, but it was better in some way or other.
âThanks again!â I said as we tugged the sled toward the door. I waved at the other human and she waved back, two hands signaling kinship briefly across the room. Then she took her flattened box into the back and I stepped out into the artificial sunlight, looking for signs leading back to the spaceport.
The gravity behaved, and the ramps were no trouble. Blip and Blop were there to help unload the thing. I asked Mimi if he wanted three people to maneuver it into wherever it went, or if I should go put the hoversled away.
He was busy climbing inside of the cylinder with a flashlight, for whatever reason. âNah, not enough space for everybody,â his gravelly voice echoed. âLet me just â really? Another one?â A faint squeak sounded like he was rubbing a tentacle against the side.
âWhat is it?â I asked, bending to look inside. Blip and Blop crowded behind me, a jumble of curious muscles and silks.
Mimi grumbled, âThis is the third engine part that Iâve gotten with these annoying marks. All from different sources, too. If I ever find out which finger-having species is doing it, we are going to have words.â
Deep inside the cylinder, in a spot that likely would never have been seen by anyone but an agile mechanic, was a patch of handprints. Mimi had already smeared the ones made in grease, but the others looked like they might have been paint. All in earthtones. A cave painting in the depths of a spaceship.
Blip and Blop chorused, âNot it.â
I bit my lip to hide a smile. âItâs a mystery.â
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Inspired by this excellent artwork by @letmeinimafairy! It deserved at least one story, if not several.
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These are the ongoing backstory adventures of the main character from this book.
Shared early on Patreon! Thereâs even a free tier to get them on the same day as the rest of the world.
The sequel novel is in progress (and will include characters from these stories. I hadnât thought all of them up when I wrote the first book, but theyâre too much fun to leave out of the second).
#'is anybody gonna write about this?' I said -- not waiting for an answer#gotta love the freedom to make a story happen when inspiration arrives#thanks for the inspiration @letmeinimafairy#my writing#The Token Human#science fiction#humans are weird#haso#hfy#eiad#humans are space orcs#homesickness#in spaaace
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Revved Up
ONESHOT
ęąá´á´á´á´ĘĘ: Learning to ride a motorcycle shouldâve been simple. After all, you knew your way around bikes better than anyone in Alexandriaâexcept Daryl Dixon. But one crash and one pissed-off redneck later, and you're stuck with him giving you a hands-on crash course in focus and control.
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á´á´á´Ęá´Ę's É´á´á´á´: My first oneshot of 2025âand my longest yet! Sorry, not sorry, for the length; Daryl Dixon refused to stop until the lesson was fully drilled in. Hope it's worth the ride.
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You couldn't take your eyes off of him.
Out of everyone from the new group in Alexandria, he was the one who made the least effort to fit in. He was quiet and always looked ready to leave, like this wasn't a place to call home. He preferred to keep his distance, doing his own thing around the community, and that made him even more interesting to you.
Daryl Dixon was certainly different from the rest.
The first time you caught him working on the motorcycle and the parts he got from Aaron, in Aaron's and Eric's garage, something caught your attention. It wasn't just the way he moved, though the way his hands worked on the machine was something you couldn't ignore. No, it was more than that, and it pulled you in.
And for you?
The sound of metal and the smell of oil were all too familiar. You'd grown up around motorcycles and spent hours watching your old man work on his Harley Davidson most of the time, until you decided to become a mechanic after school, especially for motorcycles. That knowledge was something you didn't share with many others in Alexandria, but when you saw Daryl putting that motorcycle together piece by piece, you figured it might be a good way to start a conversation, if nothing else.
Sure, he kept to himself mostly, spending more time with his crossbow than with humans. But it made him stand out in a place where most people were getting used to living 'normally' again. And you didn't want anything normal. You wanted real.
That's what led you to the garage.
Daryl, of course, was bent over the motorcycle he'd been working on for some time now.
As you walked closer, you pretended to inspect his work. "What is this, a '92 Honda? Nice setup. Yamaha front end, though? Bit of a Frankenstein's monster, huh?"
That got his attention. "The hell ya know 'bout bikes?"
You shrugged, smirking at him. "What, do you think just 'cause I live in Alexandria, I can't tell a carburetor from a walker? Oh, please."
He hadn't spoken to you much since he arrived, but then again, Daryl didn't talk to anyone much. But you? You barely ever got a grunt in your direction since he'd been here.
"Looks like it's finally coming together," you started, trying to sound bored. It was a shitty way to break the ice, but small talk wasn't your thing after all.
Daryl didn't even look up. Grease covered his hands, and his current expression made him look like he'd rather punch you than say hello.
"Yeah, maybe if ya'd stop annoyin' my ass," he murmured, tightening a bolt.
"I'm only annoying the bike," you snorted. "And I'm making sure it doesn't fall apart the second you ride it out of the community."
That earned you a glare. A quick one. And you held his stare for that moment, refusing to look away.
"So yer always this annoyin'?" He shot back, wiping his hands on a rag and finally standing up to his full height.
"You tell me. So what is it? This⌠special kind of build?" You asked, gesturing to the motorcycle. You had to admit, it did look quite nice.
His eyes narrowed, and he seemed to be a little surprised about your curiosity. "Do ya really know bikes?"
You shrugged, playing it cool. "Enough to know that this isn't a normal setup, but that's just personal taste, you know?"
"It'll work."
"Sure, until it doesn't," you continued with a smirk. "But hey, it's your funeral. Or someone else's if that thing gives out mid-run."
He grunted, clearly not in the mood to admit you might have a point.
"Still, not bad for what you had to work with. Must've been a pain in the ass to track down some of the other parts," you moved closer, getting a better look at the setup. "But I heard Aaron's been helping you out. He's good with scavenging stuff. Though, I bet he didn't know half of what you needed."
That got a grunt of agreement from Daryl. "He ain't bad. Jus' don't need anyone watchin' when I'm workin'."
"Noted." You raised your hands, but you didn't back off. Instead, you crouched next to the machine, inspecting the details up close. You could feel Daryl's eyes on you, probably wondering what the hell you were doing.
After a moment of silence, you looked up at him again. "You ever really gonna take this thing out, or are you just building it for the hell of it?"
Daryl looked over to the garage door as if he was thinking whether or not to answer. Finally, he sighed. "Gonna use it. Aaron wants me on the road, recruitin' and all. Need somethin' fast."
"Yeah? And what if you end up with a flat tire out there? Wait, that might not even be a problem, since it kind of looks like you're building yourself a time machine there," you answered, standing up. "But you're gonna need more than just duct tape and spit to get this thing running."
Daryl's eyes narrowed again. "Told ya I know what I'm doin'," he snapped, his hand tightening around the wrench like he was itching to throw it at you.
But you weren't about to be ignored that easily. "You've really got some interesting mismatched parts here. Yamaha forks on a Honda⌠Look, I'm just saying that you might wanna check the suspension before you ride outta here. Unless you're aiming to get launched off it."
"Gonna manage."
You snorted. "Sure, you will. But hey, if you ever feel like teaching someone else how to ride, I wouldn't mind learning. I mean, someone's gotta be around to save your ass when that thing tries to kill you."
Daryl shot you a look, his jaw clenching slightly, but this time, he just stared at you like you were the most confusing person he'd ever seen.
"Ya wanna learn how to ride?" His voice sounded annoyed, like the idea was somehow offensive to him, but there was also some slight disbelief to be heard as if he wasn't sure why you'd ask him of all people. "Ain't got time for that. Got 'nough problems without babysittin'."
"Come on," you pressed further. "What's the harm? Or is the asshole routine just for me? Besides, if you ever crash, I promise I'll write you some kinda eulogy. Something about how you died doing what you lovedâwhich is looking perpetually pissed off."
You could've sworn you saw the slightest smirk, but Daryl quickly busied himself with the motorcycle, like he hadn't shown you might really have a point with your tips.
Keeping your voice casual, you stepped back. "Let me know if you change your mind," you continued, brushing off your knees. "Might be fun."
With that, you gave him one last smirk and turned around, leaving him to think about whatever he thought of you.
You spent the next couple of days trying not to think about Daryl Dixon, which was about as easy as trying not to notice a walker biting your arm. But despite your best efforts to act like it was no big deal, the thought of riding that motorcycleâand more specifically, him teaching youâkept making its way into your head.
Daryl didn't say anything about your offer for those few days, too. Hell, he didn't say much of anything, really. He'd pass by you in Alexandria, his crossbow by his side, always looking like someone just spit in his drink. But you had gotten used to the silent treatment by now, so you didn't let it get to you... much.
Indeed, it didn't take long to figure out that convincing Daryl Dixon to teach you how to ride a motorcycle was like trying to herd catsâbut grumpy, feral ones⌠with knives.
It was late afternoon when you found yourself near the garage again, and you hadn't planned on seeing him, but let's face it, you were intrigued. And there he wasâstill working on the motorcycle and still looking like it personally insulted him.
However, the thing looked all patched together with scavenged pieces and maybe a little bit of wishful thinking. It had a certain look to it, like it wanted to run off into the wild and never come back.
Daryl didn't even move. He didn't look your way. He just kept wrenching something near the seat before he glared at you like you'd asked him to solve a math problem.
"Thought I'd come by and bless you with my knowledge once more," you announced, smirking as you leaned against the workbench.
Daryl only rolled his eyesâactually rolled themâlike he couldn't believe he had to put up with you again. "Ain't nobody asked for that."
"Yeah, well, nobody asked for that bike to look like it's held together with a plea and a prayer, but here we are," you shot back, leaning forward slightly. "'Livin' on a Prayer,' in fact."
He grunted, shoving the wrench into the toolbox with force. "The hell do ya know 'bout motorcycles, anyway?"
"I do know motorcycles! I told you, didn't I? And that thing," you pointed to the machine, "is one bad pothole away from turning into scrap metal."
Daryl scoffed, clearly not a fan of having his work criticized, especially by someone who, in his eyes, hadn't earned the right to say something about it. "It'll hold. 'S a good bike."
"Sure, sure," you said, grinning at him. "But if you're so confident, why don't you accept my offer? Teach me how to ride. Let's see if this thing here can handle it."
He stared at you for a long moment, like he was thinking about his options. You could practically see the gears running in his headâwhether to shut you down and tell you to piss off or give in just to prove you wrong.
"Ya serious 'bout this?"
"Dead serious," you said, holding his stare. "What? Are you afraid?"
His nostrils flared in the way they did when he seemed to be two seconds from snapping at you, but instead, he just turned back to his work. "Ya wanna learn? Fine. But don't come cryin' to me when ya hurt yer ass."
"Oh, don't worry, Dixon. If I hurt my ass, I'll make sure you hurt yours, too," you said, biting back a laugh as you straightened up. "But I swear, this thing's gonna be your mid-life crisis. What's next, leather pants and chaps?"
He showed you one of those stares againâhalf-annoyed, half-confusedâlike he wasn't sure if he should bother responding or pretend you didn't exist.
"Ya done?"
"Done? I'm here to save you from yourself, Daryl. You keep this up, and in a week, you're gonna be having a mullet and wearing a crop top."
He stared at you like you'd grown an extra head. "What the hell're ya talkin' 'bout?"
"Mid-life crisis, Daryl. First, it's the bike. Then, it's questionable fashion choices. Next thing you know, you're coming back from a run with a Corvette and crying over Bon Jovi ballads. I'm just here to make sure it won't happen."
"Ain't havin' no damn crisis."
You smirked. "Uh-huh. That's what they all say. Just remember, I offered to help. I can't wait to see you when you're rocking those chaps and a bandana."
"So, ya still wanna learn to ride or not?" His voice sounded definitely pissed off.
You raised your eyebrows, as if in shock. "Oh my, was that an offer in return? From you? I'm touched, really. Let me justâ" You pretended to wipe a tear away from your eye and sob. "This moment's very special to me."
"Shut up," he grumbled, but his voice gave way that he almost sounded amused.
"I'm just saying, this is progress," you said. "Next thing I know, we'll be exchanging friendship bracelets."
Daryl didn't respond right away, but you thought you had seen enjoyment, maybe? Or irritation. It was hard to tell with him. Either way, he was back on his feet now, pulling the motorcycle upright and kicking the stand back. Soon enough, the familiar sound of the engine made its way through the garage, and damn if it didn't make your pulse race just a little.
"Get on."
His sudden words made you blink at him in surprise. "Wait, like⌠right now? Where's the foreplay, Dixon? At least buy me a drink first."
"Nah, when I'm dead. Yeah, right now," he snapped, unable to believe you were even asking.
"Okay, okay," you mumbled, swinging your leg over the motorcycle with as much confidence as you could have at that moment. The seat seemed normal, but it still felt bigger than you expected.
Daryl stepped beside you, his arms crossed as he watched you. "Ya know how to start?"
"Of course I do," you said, reaching for the handlebars.
You were halfway through fumbling with the throttle at first when Daryl's hand shot out, grabbing your wrist. "That ain't how ya do it," he growled as he leaned in. "First lesson: This here's the throttleâ"
"Yeah, yeah, I know what a throttle is," you interrupted, waving him off. "I'm not a complete idiot. I could turn this thing into scrap and piece it back together if you wanted me to, so..."
His eyes narrowed. "Then maybe shut up and listen."
You bit the inside of your cheek to keep from laughing. You couldn't help itâpissing him off was just too easy.
"Clutch on the left, throttle on the right," he continued, his fingers tapping the handlebars. "Brake's here. Don't yank it like an idiot." He then gave the machine a once-over. "Ya pull the clutch, twist the throttle slowly. Too much, and yer gonna stall it."
"Okay, understood. Show me."
Daryl let out a frustrated sigh but soon moved behind you, reaching around to grip the handlebars. His strong chest pressed against your back, and you immediately forgot how to breathe.
"Ya gotta ease into it," he instructed while his fingers guided yours on the throttle.
"Uh-huh, yeah, sure, ease into it," you mumbled, trying to sound unimpressed. "And what happens if I don't ease into it? The whole thing explodes?"
"Nah. Ya gonna wipe out an' eat dirt," he shot back, his lips showing a bit of a smirk. "But maybe ya'll learn faster that way."
"Yeah, well, I've eaten worse," you answered, glancing over your shoulder at him. "Besides, I doubt you've ever taught anyone how to ride before. What if you're just a terrible teacher?"
He huffed against your neck. "Ain't teachin' ya much. Now, idle it forward."
You followed his instructions, twisting the throttle just enough to get the engine purring beneath you. The vibration went through your legs, and despite yourself, you had to admit it felt very, very good.
"Okay, now what?" You asked, trying to sound bored even though the adrenaline was starting to kick in.
"Now ya balance," Daryl said, his voice neutral like this was the most obvious thing in the world. "Try not to fall over." You could feel his eyes on you, judging every movement you made. "Quit messin' 'round. Friction Zone is how ya idle forward."
You shot him a look but did as he said, trying not to stall the motorcycle. For a second, you wobbled, and you swore you heard Daryl whisper somethingâprobably betting on how soon you'd crash.
But you didn't. You steadied yourself. It was a weird feelingâkind of thrilling, kind of terrifying.
"Well, look at that," you said, showing him a grin. "Didn't fall over. Guess you're not the worst teacher after all."
"Jus' keep 'em hands on the bars," he instructed, his voice rather patientâwell, as patient as Daryl ever got.
You did as he said, gripping the handlebars harder, trying not to think about how close you were to him. His smell wasn't exactly unpleasant. In fact, it was kind of⌠intoxicating.
Not that you'd ever admit that to him out loud.
"Fine, so what's next? Do I just rev it up and hope for the best?"
Daryl snorted, clearly unimpressed with you being unable to wait. "Ya listen, or yer gonna end up on yer ass."
"You know, Daryl, I don't usually take threats during lessons, but I'll make an exception for you."
His grip tightened on the handlebars, and you thought he might just leave you there. But he didn't. "Don't jerk the damn throttle, woman, or yer gonna take off too fast."
"Throttle, got it. Don't jerk it off. Guess I'll save that one for later." You wiggled your eyebrows, even though he couldn't see it.
Daryl stiffened, grumbling something you didn't quite catch, though it definitely wasn't a compliment.
"C'mon now, twist itâslowly," he ordered.
You followed his lead, the motorcycle easing forward just a bit as you worked the throttle.
"There ya go," Daryl said, his voice sounding a bit less harsh now that you weren't about to play around. "Gotta ease into it."
"Wow, who knew you could be so supportive?" You teased. "Almost makes me think you care."
He grunted. "Jus' don't wanna pick yer ass up off the ground."
"Got it, got it. Now, let's see if I can actually ride this thing without killing myself."
Daryl's hand moved to the clutch, his fingers touching yours as he guided you through the motions. You weren't sure if it was the machine or him, but your heart was beating much faster than usual. Maybe it was both. Either way, you were in for one hell of a ride.
His hand was warm, calloused, andâdespite everythingâcomforting as he guided you out of the garage.
"Okay, slow down a bit, but not too much," he instructed, his voice almost a growl. The way he said it made you shiver, but you refused to let it show. You could be cool about this, right?
"Or I could just go full throttle and see how far I can fly through the streets of Alexandria," you laughed back.
"Real funny," he answered, rolling his eyes. "Jus' don't fuck up. Y'ain't flyin' nowhere. Ya gotta keep it steady."
"Right, no jerking off," you said, moving your head to the side just enough to glance at him. "That's usually my motto, you know, but I can make an exception for you regarding that as well."
"Focus. Don't push it," he warned. "Ya gotta keep yer focus on the bike, not me."
"Really? I thought you were my main distraction." You leaned back a little. "Sure, I'll focus. But I'm also pretty good at multitasking." As you worked the throttle again, you felt a rush of adrenaline. "So, what happens if I actually do fall? You gonna come to my rescue?"
Daryl didn't answer immediately. Instead, he loosened his grip on the handlebars, his body tense next to you. "Ya get back up. Everyone falls. 'S what ya do afterward that matters."
"Profound," you smirked. "You should start writing poetry! 'When life knocks you down, just get back on your bike.' Classic wisdom."
"Shut up and drive."
The motorcycle moved as you used the throttle too hard, and you fought to regain control, laughing nervously. "Shit! Maybe I should have listened to that part about not jerking it!"
He sighed, not bothering to hide his amusement this time. "Ya keep talkin', and ya might jus' convince me to kick ya off myself."
"Promises, promises," you smirked, adrenaline rushing through you, making everything feel a bit more exciting.
He grumbled something againâprobably another insultâbut he didn't try to stop you. Your movements weren't exactly smooth, but it was a start.
"You're a terrible teacher, by the way," you soon said, glancing at him out of the corner of your eye.
"Good," Daryl answered. "Means ya won't ask me to do this shit again."
You were just getting into the rhythm, feeling the motorcycle beneath you and getting the hang of it, when you heard the sound of footsteps getting closer behind you.
"Hey! What's going on here?" Aaron's voice destroyed the moment, and you felt Daryl tense near you.
"Shit," he groaned, practically gritting his teeth. You tried to process what was happening as you got off the seat, the way Daryl's body stiffened and the smirk faded from your lips.
"Oh, nothing, just a little driving lesson," you announced, trying to keep going despite the sudden stop. "Motto: 'Try Not to Die, but If You Do, It Ain't My Problem.'"
Aaron laughed, walking closer to you both. "So, it's finally finished?" He looked at the machine, inspecting the mix of parts that somehow came together into something that resembled a proper motorcycle.
"Jus' 'bout," Daryl replied dryly.
Aaron raised an eyebrow, looking from you to Daryl, who was already stepping away from him and you.
"That's great. Looks like you're making some great progress," Aaron continued, stepping closer.
"Ain't needin' ya to worry 'bout that," Daryl grumbled, the annoyance in his voice unmistakable. "Lesson's over."
"Wait, what? You can't justâ"
"Don't push it," he snapped, shooting you a look that said he was done. "Ya wanna learn, ya have to find someone else."
You blinked, stunned as he walked away with the motorcycle by his side. "Daryl, stop!"
"Forget 'bout it," he called back, almost like his voice belonged to a different person. "Y'ain't ready."
Your frustration boiled over, and you turned to Aaron, arms crossed. "Thanks for ruining my lesson, by the way. Just what I needed todayâmore interruptions."
Aaron frowned, glancing between you and Daryl again as he watched him walk away. "What did you expect? He's still new here. Trying to keep his distance from the rest of us."
"Yeah, well, he doesn't need to be an asshole about it," you snapped. "I was getting somewhere!"
"You have to understand that the whole group has been through a lot. Daryl's not always going to be open with people," he explained, but it didn't help your mood.
"I get that, but I was just trying to learn something! Guess it's my fault for thinking he could actually teach me without being a complete asshole about it."
"Maybe give it some time?" Aaron suggested, his voice softer now, sounding more sympathetic. "He'll come around."
"Maybe," you sighed, running a hand through your hair in frustration. "But just when I thought I could finally get him to smile and to talk, you pull this."
Aaron's expression was by now somewhere between concern and curiosity as you huffed, glaring at Daryl walking away.
"Really, AaronâŚ" You continued, throwing your hands in the air. "You couldn't have waited five goddamn minutes longer to come and ruin my day? You see me finally making some progress, and you think, 'Oh, hey! The perfect time to interrupt!'"
Aaron raised his hands defensively. "Hey, I didn't mean to ruin anything. I didn't know you two were having... whatever that was."
"Whatever that was?" You repeated, your voice rising. "It was a goddamn driving lesson! Or, at least, it was supposed to be before you came along with your good intentions and your bad timing!"
Aaron frowned, the tone in his voice still kind, but he wasn't backing down. "Look, I was just checking in because I heard the sound of the engine. I thought Daryl wanted to head out, and I only wanted to see if he's done with his work on the bike. I didn't realize you were both so busy."
"Busy?" You let out a loud laugh, shaking your head. "You know what? Forget it. Next time I'm about to get Daryl Dixon to do something other than grunt or skin dead animals on the porch, I'll write you a goddamn note so you don't fuck it up. Now he's all pissed off and stomping away with my only chance at learning how to ride a damn bike and not kill myself."
"I doubt he's mad at you," Aaron responded. "Daryl's complicated. Like the rest of the group. They're still very new here. And you were the same when I found you and brought you here. But you're probably closer to getting through to him than anyone else."
You snorted. "Yeah, sure. 'Cause nothing says 'bonding' and 'getting to know each other' like storming off with his damn Franken-bike in a hurry. Really fucking touching."
Aaron smiled, squeezing your shoulder. "Just think about it."
You exhaled loudly, putting your hands on your hips. "Sounds like it's from a fortune cookie. Thanks for nothing."
With that, Aaron simply walked off, leaving you alone.
Soon, some days had passed since your lesson with Daryl. Days that quickly turned annoying when you realized he was avoiding you like you were the last slice of cold pizza at a party.
It felt weird.
Like, ridiculously weird.
And it didn't help that every time you tried to casually walk into the garage or catch him before he went on a supply run, he was either nowhere to be found or suddenly too busy to talk. You even half-expected to see a 'Do Not Disturb' sign near the bike.
It wasn't like you were stalking himâokay, maybe a littleâbut it was hard to stop thinking about him.
"Should I ask for him? Should I knock on the garage door? Maybe he's just sleeping? Or dead?" You laughed at the last thought. With Daryl, it wasn't a real possibility.
Finally, you sighed and decided to call it a day. "Alright, Daryl Dixon, you win," you said to yourself, kicking the dirt as you turned to leave.
But just as you made it halfway down the street, you heard the unmistakable sound of footsteps, followed by a clink of metal that made your heart race. You turned, and there he wasâfinally. Daryl Dixon, leaning against the side of the garage, arms crossed, his eyes hidden behind his hair, and with a cigarette in one hand.
Oh no, you're not getting away this time.
"Been hiding from me, huh?" You asked as soon as you reached him. "Gonna run off again? Or maybe you've just been too busy?" You faked a yawn, your eyes narrowing. "Or hiding from the bike lesson, maybe?"
Daryl simply scoffed, the only sign of life you got out of him as you stood a few inches from him. His eyes looked down, clearly not thrilled to see you standing there, but you didn't give a damn.
You put your hands on your hips, pretending to inspect him like he was the most boring human in Alexandria. "Hey⌠You did promise, you know? I didn't just imagine that part now, did I?"
"Dunno what yer talkin' 'bout."
You raised an eyebrow, your smile growing wider. "Oh? Sure feels like it. Guess you finally realized you're not as good of a teacher as you think."
Daryl sighed, sounding not only frustrated but... pissed off? Maybe both?
"Don't need to explain shit to ya," he grumbled in return.
You grinned, shrugging. "Well, if you're busy doing... whatever it is you do when you're not being an asshole, I guess I'll just go back to trying to learn from someone else." You turned to leave, but not without looking back over your shoulder again. "Don't worry. I won't ask you to teach me again."
That got him. He pushed himself off the garage, taking a few steps closer.
"You promised, Daryl. Or is that just another thing you like to say and not follow through with? You were gonna teach me. Not that I care; I'm sure I'll learn from someone else... unless you finally stop being an ass," you taunted, still looking over your shoulder at him.
Daryl's hand shot out before you could get too far, catching your arm in a grip that could've cracked a tree in half if he wanted it to. He was definitely pissed.
With a growl, he yanked you back toward him. "Fine. I'll teach ya. But not here. Not in Alexandria." He released your arm. "Meet me by the gates. Tomorrow, at dawn."
Without waiting for a response, Daryl walked back inside, leaving you standing there with a grin.
The next morning, you woke up early, a little earlier than you'd planned, but that was the least of your problems. There was a knot in your stomach that you couldn't get rid of, not even with a few stretches or by putting on your clothes.
This wasn't just another run. It wasn't just another 'do this or die trying' kinda deal. No, this was different. And for some reason, you were extremely nervous. What was he gonna do? What was he thinking?
You threw on your jacket, tied your boots like they were the last thing you'd ever do, and then... you hesitated.
What the hell was wrong with you?
With a deep breath, you forced yourself out the door and towards the gates of Alexandria. When you finally made it, you saw him. There he wasâDaryl Dixon, standing there like he was waiting for the bus, except minus the whole 'bus' part. The motorcycle was leaned up against the walls, and he was staring straight ahead as if you were the last person he wanted to see right now.
"Well, damn. You did show up. Thought maybe you'd hide behind that attitude of yours for another day," you said, taking your time to walk up to him, not quite giving a damn whether he was ready for you or not.
But Daryl didn't even acknowledge you. He just flicked his cigarette away and gave you a look that could probably kill.
He then grunted, clearly not amused. "Ain't here to talk."
You looked at him, smirking a little. "Oh, I thought we were here to talk. 'Cause last time I checked, you were too busy to teach me anything useful. Guess you did promise, isn't that right?" You continued and raised an eyebrow. "So... what's the deal, huh? You just gonna stand there, or are we gonna start this driving lesson?"
He was still giving you that dead-eyed stare like you just asked him to swallow down rusty nails. The way Daryl was looking at you, all calm but irritated at the same timeâit made everything weirder. But now, you had no choice. You had to get on that machine if you wanted to learn.
Taking a deep breath, you stepped closer to him after he took the motorcycle and got onto it himself. "Get on."
You hesitated before swinging your leg over it as well, the movement too awkward to be smooth. There was no denying itâthere was a whole lot of you that wasn't exactly eager to be pressed up against him.
You bit your lip but tried to keep your cool. "Alright, I'm on."
Daryl didn't answer. He just started the engine, his hands gripping the handlebars, and that was when you had to settle into placeâright behind him. You were close nowâway too closeâand that knot in your stomach was only tightening itself. You couldn't help it. You had to steady yourself, right? And as much as you hated to admit it, you found yourself sliding your hands down, almost instinctively. But... it wasn't enough.
And it wasn't fair. Nothing about this was fair. The way he was so broad, strong, and so very close made it impossible to think straight. Your palms were sweating, and it wasn't because you were nervous about falling off. It was him. Just him. And God, it was infuriating, letting your thoughts run wild.
Why does he have to smell so good? Why can't he just be an asshole and not⌠this?
Your hands moved. Lower.
You didn't mean to, but... there you were. Your fingers grabbed his hips, right there in front of you and so, so very close. He was warm, so warm, and you couldn't not notice it, even if you tried. But you weren't even trying.
Oh, no. Don't. Don't do it. Not now...
But your hands stayed right there. Resting on his hips. You couldn't help it.
God, he feels good. Warm. Strong. Hell, if I slide even lower, maybe I can make him feel me, too. What if I justâ
You quickly cut your thoughts off, but the temptation was there. It was stupid. It's Daryl, you reminded yourself, though it didn't make the racing of your heart in your chest any less intense.
"Quit it. Jus' hold on," he suddenly said, still keeping his focus on the road in front of you.
You snapped out of it, blinking as though you were just pulled back from the edge of a cliff.
"Me?" You shot back, trying to sound as neutral as possible, hoping he didn't feel the way your heart was pounding. "You're the one acting like you've got a stick up your ass. Don't act like I'm the problem here."
Daryl didn't respondâagain. His hands tightened on the handlebars, and you felt him move slightly on the motorcycle. You wondered if he could feel the way you were still pressed against him, too. If he noticed, he didn't give any sign, but hell, you weren't sure whether that was calming you down or just making everything worse.
Your hands were still grabbing his hips. Still low. Still in the danger zone. And every second you stayed on that seat that close behind him, the more you realized just how close you were to crossing a line you couldn't uncross, too.
Just stop touching him like that. For God's sake, control yourself...
But it was too late, wasn't it? Your hands were already doing what they wanted, sliding ever so slightly as Daryl revved the engine beneath you. And as the machine roared further and you felt the vibration between your legs, you couldn't deny itâyou were holding on tight...
And shit, you hated yourself for it, but you couldn't think straight.
Your handsâthose traitorous, slightly trembling handsâstarted to move further without you even trying. At first, you could feel the hardness of his muscles under his shirt. You didn't mean to, but your fingers couldn't resist anymore.
What the hell is wrong with me?
You kept telling yourself you weren't like this, but the warmth of his body in front of you, the vibrations of the motorcycleâthe whole situationâit was clearly messing with your head.
And then your fingers touched the waistband of his pants. Your mind started spiraling.
Fuck, stop it.
But your hands were moving still, just a little further, and before you could catch yourself, you were dangerously close to slipping one whole hand past the button of his pants.
Why does this feel so fucking good? So right? No! This is so wrong!
You knew you shouldn't be doing this. You were driving yourself crazy just being this close to him. You should pull away and act like nothing happened. But the thought of himâof the way he looked, the way he smelledâit was too much.
Should I really keep going? You wondered, heart racing. What if I just slide my hand inside and just feel him?
The idea was so sudden it made your stomach growl, but you couldn't stop imagining it. The way he'd reactâif he'd stop the motorcycle and throw you off, or if he'd just let you have your way.
But your hand froze at the button of his pants, resting there, barely touching it. You hated how much you wanted to go further, how much you needed to.
Pull back. Move your hand away. Stop thinking about how strong he is.
The way his muscles moved under your fingers, how he wasn't even saying one thing to stop you. Did he want this? Did he feel it too? You hated how much you wanted to find out.
But Daryl kept driving, focusing on the surroundings and possible dangers as you left Alexandria.
Why isn't he stopping me?
He was tense, but that was it. No words, no warnings. And that drove you wild.
Maybe he wants this as much as I do.
Your mind was on fire now, and you wanted him so badly, it felt like your whole body was about to explode. And the weirdest part? You weren't sure you even cared anymore if this was wrong.
If you don't stop me, I swear I'llâ
You didn't finish that thought, and as soon as Daryl pulled off the road and into a clearing surrounded by trees, the motorcycle came to a stop.
"This'll do," he said, getting off it and motioning for you to follow.
You stumbled off, your legs still shaky from holding yourself together.
Right now, you wanted to hate him. To scream at him. But the truth was, you were more pissed at yourself. You were supposed to be learning how to ride a motorcycle, not imagining what it would feel like to be all over him andâŚ
No. Stop it. Get your shit together.
"Alright, what's next?" You asked, doing your best to sound casual even as your heart was still racing. "You gonna teach me how not to eat dirt or just let me ride it?"
Daryl glared at you, one eyebrow raised like you were the one making this complicated. "Jus' pay attention."
You snorted, shaking your head. "Sure, 'cause that's been working out for me so far." You crossed your arms, a little too aware of how your body felt like it was overheating.
Stop thinking about him, stop thinking about him...
He was already gesturing to the motorcycle again, explaining the controls all over. "Clutch, brake, throttleâall that stuff."
You nodded, doing your best to stay focused despite how goddamn awkward you felt.
Focus; you can do this.
You glanced at him and caught the way his hands moved around near you, the way his fingers got hold of the throttle like he was born to do this.
"Ya won't wreck it if ya listen."
You scoffed, trying to hide your nerves. "Yeah⌠'if,' but okay."
Daryl took a step closer, the space between you suddenly feeling way too small. "Stop makin' jokes, and start payin' some real attention."
You could feel how he stared you down, even without looking into his eyes, and before you could stop yourself, you were blushingâhard.
Shit, shit, shit.
He then smirked, only a little, and you wanted to punch him for it. Or kiss him. You weren't sure. Either way, you tugged at the collar of your shirt like it was too tight, but there was no escaping it.
Daryl was watching you, though his smirk was already gone again. "Jus' sit down on it. Let's see if ya can at least do that alone while out here, without fallin' over."
You had to swallow hard.
Just get on, just get on, and don't think about him.
Your mind was screaming at you to stop acting like you wanted to crawl all over him, but your body was betraying you.
And Daryl for sure wasn't even trying to make it easier, and all you could do was grit your teeth and pray you didn't lose it.
The first time you tried to balance the motorcycle, you almost tipped it over, but Daryl quickly got a hold of itâand youâbefore you really ate dirt.
"Goddamn it," he groaned, yanking you upright and keeping the motorcycle steady. "Yer fightin' the damn thing instead o' drivin' it. Quit makin' it harder for yerself."
You shot him a glare but didn't respond, figuring it was easier to just get the lesson over with. This time, he stepped in behind you, hands landing on your waist like he was holding onto a ticking time bomb. His grip tightened just enough to make you aware of his presence, but you weren't going to let him throw you off balance.
"Ease up on the damn clutch," he grumbled. "Slowly. Ya ain't in a damn hurry."
By the third or fourth try, you were starting to get the hang of it. You made it a few feet without the motorcycle wobbling like it had been possessed. You didn't even stall it this time.
"Look at me!" You grinned over your shoulder at him all triumphant as you stopped at a treeline. "I'm basically a stunt double at this point! Wanna try jumping flaming buses next?"
Daryl shot you that look again. The one that made you want to throw something at him. "Nah, yer bein' an amateur stunt double wantin' to set yerself on fire⌠'cause ya can't keep yer hands to yerself."
You ignored him.
You had it now. You totally had it.
But who needed to play it safe when you could push this lesson to the limit and prove yourself?
You twisted the throttle again but felt a sudden rush of speed. "Shit!" You screamed from far away. "Fuck!"
"What the hell are ya doin'?!" Daryl shouted before you were hurtling forward at fast speed, your stomach dropping as it made everything around you blurry in sight. You had no idea how to stop in the heat of the moment without throwing yourself off it, and that realization hit you hard. You were in panic mode now, and trying to steer only made it worse.
"Daryl? A little help here, please!" You screamed, gripping the handlebars as your hands shook.
"Hold on!" Daryl yelled, but his warning was already too late. The front wheel hit somethingâa big rock? A tree stump? You didn't even see it. All you knew was that the motorcycle lurched like a wild animal wanting to throw you off its back.
For a moment, you were sure you were about to die. But Daryl wasn't about to let that happen. He lunged forward, grabbing you and yanking you off the seat just before it tipped completely and threw you off.
You and Daryl went down, both of you slamming into the ground hard. You landed on top of himâcompletely on top of him, with your thighs pressed against his hips and your upper body crashing against his chest.
You knew you fucked up, but his expression only made it worse. The slight pain in your body was nothing compared to the humiliation you felt. All you could do was catch your breath and stare at him.
And Daryl was flat-out pissed. His face was full of rage, and he was breathing hard from the crash. He shoved you off him, his hands on your shoulders as he stood up.
"What the hell were ya thinkin'!?" His eyes were practically burning holes through you. "I told ya to slow the hell down and focus! Ya don't listen for shit!"
You didn't want to admit that he was right, that you'd been very reckless. "Well, maybe you should've taught me how to actually ride instead of standing there like a statue and just barking orders!"
Daryl's hands were clenched into fists at his sides.
He wasn't just angry.
He was livid.
You were both breathing fast now, adrenaline still running through your veins. "And maybe I'm just a fast learner, okay?" You continued.
Daryl looked at you like he was about to rip you in half. "Yer not a fast learner; yer a damn idiot! And now I gotta drag yer dumb ass back!"
He grabbed the motorcycle and swung his leg over it with a grunt. "Get the fuck on," he growled in frustration.
You glared at him for a moment, but you weren't about to argue. You had to get home. You had no choice but to follow him.
Throwing your leg over the seat, you settled behind him. You couldn't even look up now. Every time you did, your stomach hurt in a way that made no sense. The anger, the shameâit was all so degrading. You wanted to argue. You really did. But you were too embarrassed, and your body was too sore to keep up any fight.
Daryl started the engine, and the motorcycle roared to life under you. As he sped down the road, you couldn't help but notice how tense his body still was. Every muscle in his back seemed to be stiff. And he didn't say a word anymore. Not a single word as you rode back toward Alexandria in silence.
His hands gripped the handlebars with such force, you swore the motorcycle might crack in half under the pressure if he kept it up.
You were pissed as well. Pissed at yourself for fucking up and pissed at him for making you feel all... this. You hated that you couldn't read him, hated how he could just shut everything out like that, and especially for making you feel something you didn't want to feel.
Once back at Alexandria, the garage door had barely been shut when Daryl's frustration exploded. He was still breathing hard from the ride, and he hadn't pushed you away since you'd now gotten back, but the way he was glaring at you said enough.
He took a step toward you, pushing you back a little. "Crashed my damn bikeâŚ"
"I didn't wreck it, Daryl," you argued. "It's fine!"
"Fine?" He repeated. "That's what ya call near splittin' yer skull open?"
"I didn't crash on purpose!" You shot back, the frustration boiling over. "I'm not dumb!"
He let out a mean laugh, his eyes narrowing. "Coulda fooled me, dumbass!"
"You're the one all trembling here, not me!" You crossed your arms, trying to hold onto whatever bit of defiance was left. "It was an accident, Daryl," you continued, glaring right back at him. "It's not like I'm trying to be your damn stunt double!"
He scoffed, not buying your excuse. "Bullshit. Ya were pushin' it, tryin' to prove somethin', weren't ya? Ya coulda gotten yerself killed!"
Maybe he was right; maybe you had been showing off, but why bother with giving him the satisfaction and letting him know that it was the truth?
"What's your problem, Dixon? It isn't like I destroyed the damn thing," you scoffed.
He shot you a glare. "Problem is, ya don't think. Out there, one screw-up ain't jus' a scratchâit's the difference 'tween comin' back or not comin' back at all!"
You rolled your eyes. "Oh, please! Spare me the PSA! It isn't like I don't know how this shit works! We're all one wrong turn away from dead anyway! What's the big deal?"
"The big deal," he growled, "is ya don't get to pull that shit with my bike!"
His finger shot out, pointing toward the side of the motorcycle. "Look at this," he growled. "Ya see that?"
You glanced where he was pointing and shrugged. "What, a couple of scratches? Boo-fucking-hoo! Rub some dirt with your spit on it; it'll be fine!"
"Couple o' scratches?" His voice rose, and he bent down to run a hand along the damaged part. "Ya know how I worked on this, ain't that right? To get it runnin' smooth?"
He crouched, looking at the machine like he was inspecting a wounded animal. "Look."
"What?"
"Look," he snarled once more, pointing his finger at the gas tank.
Reluctantly, you stepped closer, peering over his shoulder. The scratches weren't as bad as you'd expectedâsome scuffed paint and a tiny dent, hardly catastrophic.
"Oh no," you pretended to be shocked and threw your hands up. "It's ruined! Better put it out of its misery!"
Daryl turned around, staring at you in disbelief and anger. "That funny to ya?"
"A little," you shot back, trying to ignore the way your heart pounded. "Newsflash, Dixon! This is a hunk of metal. It'll survive!"
His jaw clenched, and he stood up so fast you stumbled back. "Ain't the damn point," he snapped, stepping closer.
"Then what is the point?" You demanded in return.
"The point is," he growled, his voice dropping to a low, dangerous register, "ya don't listen. Yer always so goddamn dumb, thinkin' ya know betterâ"
"I do know better!" You interrupted him. "I could rebuild this bike with my eyes closed! Hell, I could build you a new one from⌠a scratch!"
Daryl's hands dropped to his sides, his breathing fast as he stared at you. His eyes looked down to your arms, and you followed his line of sight, realizing for the first time that you were trembling.
His eyes softened, just for a second. "Ya hurt?"
"No," you lied, crossing your arms to hide the shaking.
Daryl huffed, and his frustration was boiling over again. "Bullshit."
He moved toward you, closing the space between you as he grabbed you by the arm. You flinched but didn't pull away. His grip tightened, pulling you back toward the motorcycle you'd nearly wrecked.
"Get on," he growled, holding you still.
You froze, glaring at him. "Excuse me?"
"Get on the fuckin' bike," he repeated, his eyes narrowing.
You shook your head. "You're out of your damn mind."
But you didn't fight it when he shoved you over to the seat, guiding you like you were weighing nothing at all. You hadn't expected thisâhis touch and his obvious anger.
But it wasn't just the crash. No. It was the way his eyes looked at youâlike he was waiting for you to back down, to beg for mercy even.
"What?" You scoffed. "You're pissed 'cause I fucked up your bike? Is that it? So fucking ridiculous!"
"'S part of it," he answered, and before you could respond, his hand gripped your chin, forcing you to look at him.
And you weren't sure what you expected from him, but you didn't expect the force of his lips on yours.
His kiss was aggressive. It wasn't tender. It wasn't gentle. It was all teeth and tongue and the feel of his stubble against your skin.
You tried to pull back, pushing at his chest. "What the hellâ!"
"Shut the fuck up."
You barely had time to react before he was pushing you against the motorcycle, and his hands found their way under your shirt. It was almost too much to bearâthe roughness of his touch. It had no place here, not with you two practically being strangers in this world, but somehow it made sense.
And no, you didn't pull away. Not now.
"Darylâ" You cut yourself off when his hand slid down to your waistband, tugging at your pants, a movement that was fast and urgent. Your breath hitched, a gasp escaping your throat.
He didn't respond, not in words anyway, as he lowered himself to his knees in front of you, his hands on your thighs, forcing you to stay still.
He wanted youâhad wanted you, maybe for longer than he'd ever care to admit.
You gasped again when he pulled your pants down roughly, his hands moving along your hips before dragging them down your legs. You knew his hands were capableâhe could gut a deer in under a minute, rebuild a bike from scratchâbut this? This was a whole different level of skill, and you weren't sure whether to be impressed or terrified by how quickly he had you undone.
But you didn't have time to process it before Daryl was standing again, his face dangerously close to yours, eyes burning with a fire that made you blush.
God, his eyes.
They weren't just looking at youâthey were staring you down.
Before you could say anything else, he kissed you again, deeper this time, his hands sliding down to your hips and pushing himself closer until there was no space between your bodies.
And then, his fingers slipped beneath your panties, and he slid two of them into you. Without warning.
You cried out at the suddenness of it, at the overwhelming feeling, but you didn't stop him.
"Still think I'm tremblin'?" He asked as he moved them inside you with a pace that made your head spin. You couldn't think. Couldn't breathe.
Sure, he was frustratedâbut now it was all coming out, only in a way that you'd never expected. You didn't know what this wasâwhat this would be afterwardâbut damn if it didn't feel like the only thing that mattered right now.
As his breath turned quicker against your neck, the urgency of his fingers quickened, too. Until he pulled them out of you. The moment he removed his hand, licking his fingers clean, you almost cursed aloud, the emptiness threatening to drive you mad.
He didn't give you time to say anything, didn't even let you think about it, because in the next moment, his hands were yanking your shirt up over your head, and your bra was gone just as fast.
But the way he studied you, every inch of youâlike he was savoring the moment as if you were a piece of art he needed to drink inâmade everything feel too much. Too much to take. Too much to bear. But also too good to stop.
You couldn't protest, couldn't do anything but let him have his way, and your eyes squeezed shut as you fought to hold it together.
Without a word, Daryl kneeled back down onto the ground again, his hands moving to your thighs, pushing them apart for him.
"Open yer eyes," he ordered, but you didn't. You just couldn't. But you could feel him there, right between your legs, and the anticipation was nearly killing you.
No, you couldn't do anything but obey as his hand was pulling your panties down and his other hand's thumb stroked across your clit, but something else caught his attention. A bruise on your thigh started to slowly form itself from when you'd crashed.
And then, without a word, he leaned forward, his lips pressing hard against the bruise. His teeth bit into the skin, and then he sucked on it with a hunger that had nothing to do with the motorcycle and the crash.
You gasped loudly, eyes opening wide as the sharp sting of his bite was followed by the slow, deep suck of his mouth.
His lips left the bruise for a moment, but it wasn't gone long. His tongue licked over the edges of it, then his teeth, scraping some more, making your legs shiver with lust and a little bit of pain.
As his fingers moved toward and away from your wet pussy, to brush over the scratches on one leg from the crash, you could feel the pressure of his touch as he traced over each one. He didn't care about the discomfort it caused, didn't care about the marksâthey were his to play with.
A growl left his throat as he scratched them a little harder, just a little deeper, making you whimper.
You didn't even realize you were staring at him until his blue eyes looked up into yours, a silent claim that went deeper than anything else.
"Ain't lettin' ya look away," he warned as his hands gripped your thighs again, forcing your trembling legs to stay open for him.
And God, they were.
His touch was everything you didn't know you needed as he slipped his fingers back into youâsimply all-consuming. His thumb stroked your clit yet again, and you were sure you were going to lose it way too fast.
And the way he kept looking at youâlike he was daring you to look awayâŚ
But you didn't. Not once.
The pressure was building, that sweet, unbearable pressure, until it felt like you were going to burst into flames.
Indeed, it was pure fire.
"Eyes on me," he growled. "Don't ya look away."
His fingers found their rhythm, slow but deep, making you moan out loud, trying your hardest to keep your eyes open and on him.
"Yeah, 's it," he growled. "Focus."
You nodded wildly, the feeling overtaking everything, your body desperate for more. Every bit of your skin was burning, and you hated how badly you needed this.
"Daryl⌠I," you gasped, your hands holding on for dear life on the motorcycle seat, trying to stay upright but close to losing the battle with every pump. "I can'tâfuck!"
"Can't what? Focus? Ain't nothin' new," he answered, his thumb still on your clit while his fingers were thrusting away. "Can't handle it? Ya jus' gotta focus. Keep yer eyes on me."
You were close, so fucking close already, but he wasn't letting up.
His fingers moved so roughly inside of you, pressing against your G-spot, which soon made you feel certain this was itâthis was the moment.
Your legs were shaking hard, your breath coming in quick, desperate moans. "Fuck⌠fuckâŚ" You whimpered, fingers tightening on the seat behind you.
But then he stopped. Just stopped.
The sudden loss of his fingers was like being thrown into a room full of walkers. You groaned, your hips bucking in a desperate attempt to go after what was just within reach, but he pulled his hand away completely, leaving you trembling and half-crazed.
"What the fuck, Daryl!" You cried out loud as you glared down at him, but Daryl only had the audacity to smirk, licking his fingers off once more like you hadn't been about to shatter into pieces.
"Keep still and shut up," he growled, and before you could scream at him, his head was between your legs.
Your words turned into a choked cry as his tongue moved over your clit, the feeling of his stubble against your inner thighs making you squirm.
It wasn't fair. You were already so close, your body trembling so hard it hurt, but now he was dragging it out, taking his sweet-ass time, licking and sucking like he had all damn day.
"Fuckâfucking hell, Daryl," you hissed, hands grabbing his hair, tugging hard enough to make him groan against you. The vibrations shot straight through you, making your thighs clench around his head, but he didn't stopâhe didn't even flinch.
"Thought ya were so good at takin' risks," he taunted, his lips brushing against your clit as he spoke.
And with that, he sucked on it so hard you nearly screamed, the feeling of it being just on the edge of pain, but God, it was perfect. You were so damn close again, and this time, you needed it.
If he pulled away now, you swore you'd kill him.
"Please," you whimpered, your hips grinding against his mouth in a way that should've embarrassed you. "Daryl, fuck, don't you dare stop againâ"
His grip tightened on your thighs, keeping you exactly where he wanted you as his tongue pushed you further and further until there was nowhere left to go but over the edge.
But it wasn't just his mouthâoh no. His hands were keeping you in place, his fingers pressing into your skin like he was claiming you, and maybe he was. You didn't care. You just wanted more.
"FuckâDaryl, I'mâ" Your voice broke, too far gone to even finish the sentence.
He pulled back just enough to growl, "What? Yer what?" His voice was rough and way too sarcastic for a man who was driving you insane.
"Stop it and finish me!" You snapped, your hands pulling at his hair like it would somehow speed him up.
He laughedâactually laughedâand that sound went straight through you. But before you could cuss him out for being an 'insufferable bastard,' his fingers were back on you, two sliding inside so easily you swore you saw stars.
Your breath hitched, and then he added a third.
"Fuckâholy shit!" You gasped, your thighs trembling as he stretched you wide. The feeling was nearly too much, but it was just right, and when his fingers started pumping in and out, so deep and hard, you couldn't do anything but ride it out.
He looked up at you then, his blue eyes searching for yours. You wanted to look away, to hide from the way he was watching you like he was saving every second of this to memory, but you didn't. He wouldn't let you.
"Eyes on me," he growled. "Don't ya fuckin' look away."
You didn't think you could blush any harderâyou didn't think you had the energy left for itâbut then his other hand moved, his thumb pressing into the bruise on your thigh, just hard enough to make you wince.
"ShitâDaryl, that hurts!" You hissed at him, but his grip tightened, keeping you still.
"Good," he growled, looking at you. "Should hurt."
His fingers inside your pussy were picking up speed, driving you mad with how good they felt.
"Ya think I'm jus' gonna let ya off easy after crashin' my bike?"
He pressed harder into the bruise, making you whimper from the pain that somehow only made everything hotter.
"Nah. Yer gonna feel this. Remember this."
You hated how much it turned you onâthe sting of his thumb on your bruise along with the pumping of his fingers inside you and the way his mouth was so close to your clit again.
"Pleaseâfuckâplease," you begged, not even sure what you were asking for anymore. You just needed somethingâanythingâto finally push you over the edge.
"C'mon," he growled against you, not stopping. "C'mon, woman. Fuckin' let go. Let me fuckin' have it."
And that was it. That was all it took.
Everything inside you exploded so intensely you moaned out loud, your whole body arching as the orgasm ripped through you.
"Fuckâfuck, Daryl!"
You tried to keep your legs from giving out, but they were done, trembling so hard you had no choice but to lean fully against the motorcycle once more, trying to hold yourself steady. But Daryl didn't stop. His mouth stayed on you, his tongue again working your clit, dragging out every last bit of your orgasm until you were shaking all over, whimpering and sobbing from the overstimulation.
Only then did he pull his fingers out in a way that made sure you'd feel everything.
But before you could catch your breath, his hands were on you again, gripping your thighs like they belonged to him. Without a word, he hoisted your legs up, wrapping them around his neck. The sudden movement made you yelp, but he didn't careânot one bit.
"What the fuck are youâ"
"Shut up," he growled, his voice ragged as he shifted you off the motorcycle and onto his shoulders like you weighed nothing. "Focus."
The cold floor hit your back as he lowered you down, your body shivering against it. He moved near you, his hands gripping your thighs to keep them spread wide as he settled between them again, his face just inches from where you were still dripping for him.
You barely had time to process the new position before his tongue was back on you, licking slow and deep, making you moan aloud through the garage. All you could do was writhe and shake beneath him, your hands searching for anything to grab and hold ontoâhis hair, his shoulders, the cold floorâtrying to keep still as he worked you over.
But then, just when you thought he'd keep going until you couldn't take anymore, he moved, his mouth leaving your pussy as he started to lick and kissâhot, wet, and sloppyâall over you.
And he didn't move fast. He took his time, crawling up your body like he was deciding which part of you he should tease next. You felt his breath across your skin, so warm yet unsteady, while his hands worked on keeping you exactly where he wanted youâlegs spread wide, no room to close yourself off, no room to argue.
His hands? Oh, you knew those hands could kill you if they wanted to, but the way he traced the edges of the scratches on your thigh? Fuck, it was worse. Slow. On purpose. Just enough pressure to remind you it was there. A reminder you didn't need, but apparently, he thought you needed.
The tip of his thumb ran over them once, twice, then pressed down harder. You flinchedâit was pure instinctâbut his other hand clamped down on your leg, pinning you to the floor. His thumb didn't move, didn't give you a break. If anything, he pressed harder, and you hissed through your teeth. He groaned, low and deep, like your slight discomfort was exactly what he wanted.
Daryl soon leaned down and kissed them. He kissed them like he was apologizing. Then his teeth grazed over the same scratches, and you realized he wasn't sorry for it at all. His tongue followed, licking slowly and wetly over the stinging feeling of them, and your back arched itself off the floor.
By the time he moved up to the bruise on your hips, his fingers found it first, pressing into your flesh like he was testing it, seeing how much it was hurting you. You flinched again, but this time, his response was immediateâa growl coming out of his throat as his fingers dug in deeper.
"Daryl," you started, but your voice cracked, and you knew that he wasn't listening anyway. His mouth replaced his fingers, and the first kiss of his lips made your head snap up.
Not soft, not tenderâhe sucked on the bruise as if he wanted to drag the pain out of you, to make you feel every sting of it.
He kept going, his mouth kissing up your ribs, licking, biting, sucking, finding every bruise that was forming itself, every scratch, and making sure you knew he'd found them.
"Fuckin' hellâŚ" He whispered as his mouth moved higher, pressing kisses to your chest, in between your tits, before his tongue licked over one nipple.
You gasped as he sucked it into his mouth, one of his hands moving to tease the other, pinching and rolling it between his fingers.
"Daryl, please! Please⌠justâ"
He didn't let up. He crawled higher over you, his body pinning you down, his mouth moving up to your collarbone, where his tongue licked over it next.
By the time he reached your neck, you were a mess, your hands now clawing at his shoulders, desperate for him to give you more, to stop teasing. And he knew it.
But he wasn't done. His teeth found your neck, and he bit down, not hard enough to hurt, but enough to leave a mark, your thighs instantly squeezing around his hips.
"Goddamn," he growled as his mouth finally reached yours. "Look atcha⌠all wrecked."
Before you could respond, his lips were on yours, rough and hungry, his tongue pushing into your mouth like he needed to taste every part of you.
And fuck, you didn't care.
Daryl left no room for argumentânot that you had any strength left to argue.
His hands were everywhere at once, sliding over your thighs, your hips, your waist. You moaned into his mouth as his fingers moved back down between your legs, slipping through the wetness he'd left behind when he dragged his fingers through your wet folds, and his smirk certainly showed that he was satisfied with himself.
He wasn't asking for permission, no, but he wasn't rushing either. And he was now giving you the chance to stop him without saying a word.
When you didn't push him away, he leaned back just enough to look at you. His blue eyes seemed darker now, his pupils all wide, searching for something, waiting.
Your hands slid up his strong back, trembling slightly but steadying themselves as they reached his shoulders. You gave him a small but quick nod as you took a shaky breath.
That was all he needed.
With a growl, Daryl's hands gripped your hips, flipping you over onto your stomach fast but not harshly. Before you could even process it all, he pressed himself down against your ass.
"Don't move," he whispered.
You weren't planning to.
He grabbed your hips again, pulling you back just enough to hold them upward. You felt his cock pressing against your ass, still in his pants but unmistakably hard as he grunted and pushed it against you, his hands only holding on harder.
The deep and loud groan he made? You couldn't help but push back against him.
You barely had time to listen to the sound of his zipper before he was back, his cock sliding between your thighs, teasing, the wetness of your pussy making it too easy for him to glide against you.
Your fingers were clawing at the floor as you tried to push back, but his hands held you in place.
His hips rocked forward, and the tip of his cock pressed into your pussy. You tensed, your breath stopping at the sheer size of it, but he didn't push inânot completely. He was letting you feel every inch of how big he was.
When he did push inside, it was enough to stretch you wide open, and with one slow thrust, he sank into you, filling you up. Still, Daryl didn't move right away. He stayed there, buried to the hilt, as he gave you a moment to adjust and made sure you were okay.
Then, he finally started to move.
Slow at first, his hips pulling back before thrusting forward again, each movement so controlled.
But it didn't take long for him to move faster.
Harder.
Deeper.
And you couldn't do anything but take it as he pinned you down.
"Darylâ" you moaned, but he cut you off with a growl, his arm sliding down around you, pulling your hips higher to give him better access.
"Don't talk," he ordered, trying not to lose himself. "Jus' take it."
And you did. God, you did.
The garage felt almost suffocating now, and all you could smell was the scent of sweat and sex. The only sounds to be heard were your fast-breathing moans of yourself and his feral grunts as Daryl moved behind you. Every thrust was deep, driving you forward just to pull you back again with a growl, his grip on your hips leaving marks you'd wear for days.
Your hands still searched for any kind of hold against the floor, trying to ground yourself as the intensity of it all threatened to break you apart. His cock stretched you in a way that still bordered on too much, each thrust rougher than the last, and yet you couldn't get enough of itâof him.
"Fuck," Daryl grunted, his voice sounding as if the word was being dragged out from deep inside him.
You couldn't respond to him, not with the way he filled you so completely, your body trembling under his control. But he didn't need any words in return from you. His hand slid from your hip, moving along your ass and up your spine, before he put his arm around your shoulders to keep you steady.
"Don't lose focus now," he growled, leaning over you, his chest brushing against your back. His stubble grazed along your shoulder as he pressed his mouth down, his lips rough, almost punishing. He bit down hard, his teeth sinking into your skin just enough to leave another mark.
You cried out, clenching around him involuntarily. "Darylâ"
"Shut up," he said, cutting you off with another bite to your shoulder, this one softer than the last. His teeth were still on the mark he'd made, right before his tongue soothed it, leaving you shivering.
Daryl's pace quickened, each thrust making your overstimulated body shudder.
"Goddamn, look atcha," he grumbled, his voice full of lust. "Really fuckin' wrecked, ain't ya?"
You whimpered in response, your head falling forward and almost hitting the floor, but your body was still being held on tight by his grip.
"Ya like that?"
You nodded.
"C'mon," he growled, his hand tightening around your chest to keep you steady as his thrusts grew erratic. "Stay with me, woman. Focus. Fuckin' focus."
You didn't have a choice. His arm around your chest and his cock buried so deep inside you made it impossible to think about anything else. And the pressure was building again, unavoidable, and you knew he could feel itâthe way your pussy clenched around him, desperate to feel him come, too.
And he didn't slow down. He didn't ease the pace or give you any room to breathe. Instead, he buried his face against you again, his lips sucking on your neck, his tongue following to taste the sweat of your skin.
"Shit," he hissed, his voice all muffled against your neck. "Goddamn, ya feel so fuckin' good."
His hips thrust forward, harder and faster, and you could feel him getting close, his movements losing their rhythm as his breathing turned ragged.
"Fuckâfuck," he groaned, his arm moving from your chest to hold your hip again, his hand grabbing you roughly as his thrusts went deeper. "Gonnaâfuck, I'mâ"
He didn't finish the sentence. With a loud groan that was almost sounding more animal than man, he pulled out, his hand gripping his cock as he came all over your back with force.
You stayed there momentarily, still on the cold floor of the garage, as you tried to piece yourself back together. Your legs felt like jelly, trembling so badly you weren't even sure they'd hold you if you tried to stand up.
Daryl soon moved off behind you, his heavy breathing just as loud and uneven as yours as he leaned against the motorcycle for balance. His cum was feeling all warm across your back, but you didn't have the energy to careânot yet.
Finally, he straightened himself, pulling his pants back up and putting his softening cock away. You heard the sound of his footsteps next to you as he walked around the garage, and for a second, you thought he was going to leave you there, fucked and half-naked in the garage.
But not long after, he was back, something soft and slightly damp rubbing over your skin.
"Hold still," he grunted. "Gotta clean ya up."
You flinched, moving your head to see what he was doing. Daryl had an old, torn rag in one hand, smudged with a little bit of dry oil, but it was enough to do the job. His other hand pressed against your shoulder, holding you still as he wiped away the mess of his cum he'd left behind.
"You could've at least grabbed a clean one," you grumbled, but there wasn't any real annoyance in your voice.
When he was done, he tossed the rag aside. "Yer alright?"
You smirked, despite the ache in your legs. "What, worried I might've cracked under all that control?"
For a moment, he looked like he wanted to argue. Instead, he just grunted before crouching in front of you. His hands found your arms as he helped you up, his strength the only thing keeping you from falling right back to the floor.
"Easy," he mumbled, sliding one arm around your waist to steady you. "Ain't wantin' to pick yer ass up again if ya fall."
"Not my fault," you answered, your legs wobbling as you tried to find your balance. "You're the one whoâ"
"Don't even start," he cut you off quickly, but definitely with amusement. "Ya got no one to blame but yer damn self."
His arm stayed around you as you took a few shaky steps with him by your side as if you had to learn how to walk again, your knees still threatening to buckle. You hated how he looked at you right now, showing you a smirk as he watched you struggle.
"Shut up," you grumbled, leaning against him more than you wanted to admit.
"Ain't said nothin'," he smirked, but the way his hand tightened on your waist betrayed his satisfaction.
Once you were steady enough to stand on your own, he let go, his hands falling to his sides. As you reached for your clothes, putting them on with clumsy, trembling fingers, Daryl leaned against the motorcycle again, watching you with that same gaze he'd had earlier, his blue eyes tracking every movement of your body.
"So? Ya still reckless?" He suddenly asked, as if to taunt you.
You glared at him as you put on your bra and shirt. "Excuse me?"
"Crashin' my bike," he continued, crossing his arms over his chest. "Then gettin' all riled up when ya can't handle shit."
Feeling your cheeks turn red, the heat was spreading all over your face as you turned to zip up your pants. "Maybe if you weren't such a goddamn caveman, my attention would'veâ"
"Caveman, huh?" Daryl stepped closer, the space closing between you until you could feel the presence of him behind your back. One hand came up, his fingers brushing lightly over the bruise on your thigh from earlier, the touch rather gentle.
"Caveman kept ya focused now, didn't he?" He continued, his lips all close near your ear. "Got yer attention real good."
You hated how easily your body responded to him even now, but you refused to give him the satisfaction of an answer.
"Next time," he said, his voice dropping slightly, "ya might think twice 'bout tryin' to show off."
His fingers then pressed into the bruise just enough to make you wince, reminding you of the lesson he'd drilled into youâliterally.
"Control," he said, stepping back again. "Might save yer damn ass next time."
You turned to face the motorcycle with a scowl as you adjusted your clothes, looking around for your jacket. "Are you done lecturing me, or should I grab a notepad?"
"Nah. Jus' get yer shit together," he answered. "We're headin' out again tomorrow. Yer ridin' bitch till ya prove ya can handle it."
Laughing at that, your words were coming out faster than your still-wobbly legs could even move. "Riding bitch, huh?" You repeated as you turned to face him. "Next time you're teaching me to drive, I'll be riding something, alrightâbut it sure as shit won't be the bike."
It was a bold answer, considering your legs still felt like they'd been switched for spaghetti, but you weren't about to let him see you back down.
Daryl's lips twitched, that small smirk coming back as he closed the distance between you in a few quick movements. One hand shot out, gripping your chin and tilting your head up to meet his gaze.
"Keep talkin'," he grumbled, his thumb brushing over your bottom lip. "See where it gets ya."
You grinned, biting his thumb just enough to make him hiss. "I think it gets me exactly where I want to be," you responded, voice all daring, even as your pulse kicked up a notch all over. "Don't you think?"
Daryl's silence was answer enough, and for a moment, you thought he might snap again, dragging you into another round right there on the spot. But for now, and for once, you decided to savor and enjoy your little victory. Of course, it didn't last long.
You weren't sure who moved first, but before you knew it, you were pulling him down by his collar, your lips crashing onto his like they had something to prove.
The kiss was all grunts and stubbornness, his teeth biting at your lip as you ran your fingers through his messy hair. You didn't even notice when his hands found your waist, pulling you closer until there wasn't an inch of space between your bodies.
"Y'ain't got any sense o' self-control," he mumbled against your mouth, but he didn't stop kissing you, one hand sliding up to grab the back of your neck.
You broke the kiss just long enough to catch your breath, smirking up at him. "And you've got too much of it," you shot back.
You knew this would've gone on longerâshould've gone on longerâbut the sound of the side door from the garage to the house opening stopped you both in place like a couple of kids caught with their hands in the cookie jar.
"Daryl?" Aaron's voice was to be heard, and you felt the blood freeze in your veins. "Are you both back already?"
Daryl let out a growl, his forehead slowly dropping to yours like he was trying to collect himself before turning to look toward the unwanted interruption.
Aaron stood in the doorway, his eyes looking between the two of you, taking in the sheer awkwardness of it all. His eyebrows shot up, and he blinked like he was trying to reset his brain back to factory settings.
"OhâŚ" Aaron said after a moment, his voice sounding a little bit higher than usual. "I justâuhâsaw the garage door was closed from the outside when I came back. Thought you were done with, uh, teaching? I just wanted to getâ"
Daryl cleared his throat, stepping back from you but not bothering to hide his irritation. "'M still teachin'."
Aaron's mouth opened like he was about to ask something else, but you jumped in before he could make things even worse. "Yeah, exactly," you said, smiling at him before you looked back at Daryl. "He's teachin' me how to⌠focus."
The words had barely left your mouth before Daryl shot you a look. Still, he couldn't resist adding, "And 'bout⌠control."
Aaron stood there, his mouth opening and closing like a fish in urgent need of water. Finally, he managed to let out a quiet, "Still teaching, huh?" His voice was full of disbelief. "About control and focus?"
You crossed your arms, smirking. "Of course! And let me tell you, Daryl's got a real hands-on approach." Daryl gave you a warning look, but you ignored him. "Next time, maybe we'll move on to, I dunno, accelerating!"
"Yeah," Daryl answered flatly, his tone as casual as if Aaron had walked in on him fixing the motorcycle, not having had you taken against it. "Focusin' on the road ahead. Controllin' the bike while⌠ridin' it."
Aaron arched only one eyebrow this time. "Right," he said, dragging the word out like it was hurting him. "Well, maybe teach her outside of Alexandria next time instead of Eric's and my garage?"
You snorted. "Oh, we can, for sure. But Daryl's really good at teaching me how to focus on what's in front of me," you said sweetly. "It's the control part I keep getting stuck on."
Aaron let out a short, strangled laugh, already backing toward the door. "Yeah, okay! Don't let me interrupt your lesson." His face went red, and he backed up so fast he nearly tripped. "I mean, it sounds, uh... productive. I'll justâyeah." He gestured around awkwardly as he was about to hurry back inside the house.
When he left, you could've sworn he whispered something that sounded suspiciously like, "What the hell is wrong with all these people?" before he closed the door behind him.
The second the door clicked shut, you leaned against the workbench, your eyes moving to the motorcycle that had started this whole situation, after all. It stood there innocently enough, like it hadn't been witness to your absolute lack of keeping control. Stepping forward, you traced your fingers along one of the scratches on its gas tank.
"Looks like Frankenstein's bike's seen some rough handling, thanks to me," you said before your eyes moved back onto Daryl, who was watching you like an animal sizing up its next meal. "Guess it'll get used to bein' ridden hard."
Eyes looking up, you were daring him to take the bait. "Think you'll leave some scratches on me next time?"
His muscles were flexing like he was seconds from pulling you back to him. "Keep talkin', woman, and I jus' might."
You grinned, stepping away from the motorcycle and grabbing your jacket, which was on the floor near the workbench. "Guess I'll just have to wait and see, huh?" You put the jacket on, taking your time on purpose to let him stew in his frustration.
Just as you reached the garage door and opened it, you turned back toward Daryl, who'd started to talk, watching you lean your shoulder against the frame. "Yer walkin' funny, woman."
You stopped, moving your head up with a glare. "If I walk funny, I'm tellin' everyone it's 'cause of the bike." You made sure to add a smirk. "I'm going to say it was a wild rideânot a crash."
As you pushed yourself off the frame and stepped outside onto the streets of Alexandria, your grin was as wide as ever. "Thank you for the thorough lesson, Dixon."
But before the garage could even close behind you, something soft and slightly damp was flying past your head, landing on the ground in front of you.
"Jesus, was thatâ?" You started to laugh, realizing exactly what he'd thrown after you. "Oh, come on! Did you seriously throw that at me? Gross!"
Daryl leaned against the motorcycle, his smirk not obvious, but it was there. "Missed, didn't I?" He didn't flinch, didn't apologize. "Didn't miss on purpose."
"That's disgusting," you called back and laughed, unable to help yourself. "And I'm not picking that up!"
"Didn't ask ya to," he answered, pushing himself off the machine and taking a few steps closer to the street. "But yer might come back in here 'n pick up somethin' else."
"Not a chance," you snorted, shaking your head while you stumbled a little bit. "Better luck next time. Or⌠tomorrow."
"Fuckin' recklessâŚ" Daryl growled, but with amusement in his voice as he watched you disappear ever so slowly. But he didn't move, not yet. "Jus' get yer damn ass back here!"
You were already down the street and smirking to yourself as you tried to walk and just waved him off, making it clear that it was all for show as you held up both middle fingers, trying to make it seem like you were stumbling away with your body intact.
And, of course, you wereâkind of.
Either way, Daryl knew that next time, the only thing you'd be riding was him, and you'd make sure he would be the one struggling to keep focus and control.
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Jungkook's Career Reading
Now time for the last member for BTS' career reading. I would leave it to Jungkook to give me some intensity here, so some promising cards, but there is some darkness here too.
So, we start with the Pluto energy. I was surprised to get this, but I really shouldn't be though. This card usually just gives me that there is some old stuck, murky energy that needs to be released. The color is very murky, can't think of anything else. So, he may need to remove some dark energy or toxicity out of his life regarding his career. There is a lot of dark shadows around him when it comes to his career. I am hearing Come Clean by Hilary Duff. He's got to work on clearing this energy.
Now, we got to the 5 of Pentacles, the first word that I noticed was the Darkside of money. I feel this may relate to him somehow and if you read his perspective reading. You may know what I am referring to, because I am being pulled to that reading. He may also feel neglected, left out, not sure he feels he has much support when it comes to his career or maybe this is how he feels right now that he is in the Military. He might be in a doom and gloom energy right now. But the 5 of Pentacles isn't about emotions. It is about maybe not feeling safe and comfortable at the moment, and he may now feel that way regarding his career as well.
Now, with this Angel card. I can see this as he does have a lot of angelic support and guidance around him. I also see this as him being a gentle soul and very caring towards others and wanting to support and protect others, maybe this is others in the industry.
With this Addict card, the imagery here speaks to me. He wants to push away any negativity that may come from the industry and try to fight and resist temptation, not sure what that is, but that popped up. I am not sure if he has any addictions, but he tries not to fall prey to it, or any patterns this industry tries to cultivate in him.
Now, I see promising things for him with the Tarot cards. I can see the world card as he does have global appeal, and he can impact the world with his art and music. I can still see him doing that once he is out. I feel there is a lot of music he wants to create. He wants to explore and try new things and expand himself. I see an adventurous and rebellious nature to him as well. I see that in his music already, so there will be more of that. I see him trying to visualize what he plans to do.
I do see a lot of stress, worries and sleepless nights with him. I wonder if there is some sort of bullying with him. There is a sense he could be taunted by others or just taunted by the past. I am not sure if this is the Miliary or the industry, but I am asking about his career, but current energy sometimes seeps through my readings.
Now, it is interesting that the devil card was exactly behind this 6 of Wands when I pulled the card out, which gives me there is something darker and more sinister to his success and rise to fame that is hiding behind all the glitz and glam, not liking that, but this goes along with my perspective reading. There are chains that comes with success for him. It isn't all that it seems.
I am not really understanding this false assumption card here. This card is urging him to let go of a need to be right and making false assumptions. Now, maybe he is prone to do that and maybe he is making things worse than what it is, but I don't get that impression from the cards or his energy. I was looking at the cards for some answer to this and the keyword on one of the cards says, "a sense of lack in life." I think that could be it. He may feel he has nothing in life, but he actually has an abundance of things. If he starts to look at what he has rather than what he doesn't have. He may start to feel better about himself and his situation. He may just focus on the downsides, which can lead him into misery.
Now, to the final cards, Peacock spirit, one of my favorite cards in this oracle. It is time to let himself shine and show his true colors. To allow his talents to flourish. To use the spotlight in a beneficial way, that can help him and others. Once he gets out of the Military. I feel this is something he may or should do. He also has the ability of communicating to the masses and shedding light on some things as well, not sure what that is exactly, just go with the messages I get.
So, yeah, I do see some downsides here, but I can also see some positive things happening for him as well. Once he is able to transform all that negative energy to something far greater and more positive in his life. It is time for him to leave that negative energy behind him. I am wishing him all the best. Another interesting reading from him. Now time to get to their love readings after this. It was a fun journey regarding all their career readings.
I also find it interesting that I don't feel anything with his energy, like no blockers/protections or anything with the type of messaging he gives me, but for others I do, and I don't see their readings as dark as his. That confuses me sometimes, like why some and not others, not sure how that works. Anyway, always enjoy getting to know more of his story from my interpretation. No facts. I find his story interesting.
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Memories Missed
day 3 of the 2024 NHL advent calendar đ
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genre -> angst
featuring -> cam york x female reader
summary -> when a snow storm hits, cam canât find a way to make it in time for christmas
note -> itâs camâs birthday so i had to get this done and posted in honor of his special day đĽł
Quickly darting around the kitchen, you were making sure everything was prepped for Christmas dinner. It was the first year youâd opted to host your family, along with Camâs, and you were nervous to say the least.
Why you chose to cook ninety percent of the dishes you didnât understand, but somehow you managed to pull it off. Your parents had arrived earlier than the other guests, so your mom could help in the kitchen and your dad could watch football.
âAnything else you need right now?â
Scanning the kitchen counters then checking the timer on the stove, you shook your head as you sighed.
âNope, I think we did it.â
A soft smile crept across your lips as you felt relieved, now you could finally sit down and relax before guests started to trickle in.
âOh, itâs Cam, Iâll be right back!â
You jumped up with a smile as you excused yourself to the front room of the house to take his call.
âHi baby! You should smell all the food Iâve been cooking, it all turned out so good! And the house looks beautiful, Iâm happy you convinced me to host. Itâs gonna be amazing.â
He softly chuckled before he let out a sigh, immediately erasing the smile that was plastered on your face.
âThatâs fantastic baby, I knew you could pull it off. But, thereâs a problem.â
You felt your heart sink, just as things were going according to plan they were about to come crashing down.
âWe canât fly out, we are stuck as of right now. No timeline for when weâd be cleared to get out of here.â
The winter weather had picked up, but youâd never once thought about the possibility of Cam not making it home in time for Christmas. Thankfully you hadnât done your makeup yet because the tears that began streaming down your cheeks certainly wouldâve ruined it.
âYouâre jokingâŚCam, your whole family is coming! My whole family is coming, my parents are here. What are we supposed to do?â
âWell youâre not going to cancel if thatâs what youâre thinking!â
His tone was a bit sarcastic as he spat back at you, his frustrations with the delay obvious as he normally wasnât one to argue.
âNo of course not, but Iâve been looking forward to this for over a month Cam! Us hosting everyone here, and the memories weâd make in our new house. It was supposed to be special and youâre not even going to be here for it!â
âWhat do you suggest I do babe? I canât make the snow stop, I canât rent a car and drive it would be more than a day until Iâm home if I did that. Iâm sorry okay? You think Iâm happy about this? Missing getting to share this day with your family and mine all in one place? But thereâs nothing I can do, Iâm sorry.â
You let out a sigh as you tried to hold back any things you might spit out of anger. The last you wanted was to have an argument with Cam before heâd be getting on a plane in this weather.
âJust, get home safe. Iâll see you when I see you.â
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The dinner had gone off without a hitch, everyone being understanding of Cam missing out though you were still frustrated by it. It was one of the aspects of his job you hated. Road trips that turned into longer ones because of shitty weather, Cam missing out on birthdays and holidays. Missing out on so many memories that the two of you could share.
Every time your phone lit up it was yet another text about a delay. Eventually youâd stopped checking, not wanting to upset yourself even further. Rather trying to enjoy everyone opening their gifts and the happiness that was filling your home.
As the night had come to an end, you willingly accepted the help of both your mom and Camâs to get everything mostly cleaned up before you headed off to bed.
âYou know honey, he didnât intentionally do it. Just remember that. He wanted to be here tonight.â
As you wiped down the counter you softly sighed, keeping your thoughts to yourself as you knew she was only trying to help ease the situation. Though there was nothing that could change how you felt, regardless if Cam missing Christmas was out of his control or not.
Youâd said goodbye to both sets of parents before changing into your set of Christmas pajamas to which Cam had a matching pair, then curled up on the couch as you watched the twenty-four hour marathon of A Christmas Story; Camâs favorite Christmas Day activity.
The sound of the tv had muffled the noise of the front door unlocking and kept you in your slumber as Cam made his way into the house to find you.
Fast asleep on the couch, Christmas pajamas adorning your frame as you curled up with a blanket. Cam smiled to himself as he looked from you to the beautifully decorated tree, presents still filling up the space beneath it as youâd left all of your gifts to open with him.
Not wanting to wake you just yet, he headed into the kitchen to find a note on the counter.
âCam, thereâs a plate of all your favorites in the microwave. I made sure to save you lots of cookies as well, but no cookies before dinner! Merry Christmas Cam. Love y/n.â
Cam laughed as he was mid bite of a cookie by the time heâd read your order of no cookies before dinner, you knew him too well.
He felt awful for missing the holiday and all of the effort youâd put into it. Not getting to see your families come together in your new home that you both worked so hard for, it made him wish sometimes that he didnât have a career that took him out on crazy long roadtrips. Missing countless birthdays, holidays, or even just losing out on time with you and family. But he also knew that his career was how he was able to get this house with you, to have the tree overflowing with gifts for you and your families. And while he knew you would get over being upset with him, he knew you had every right to be. Sure you signed up for this, but it didnât make it any easier. Youâre human, you have feelings. And he knew how much you were looking forward to this day, but he dropped the ball.
âBabyâŚy/n, baby. Iâm home. Merry Christmas.â
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It's really nice having a free housekeeping service thru my Medicaid but ever since my regular housekeeper that I had for a year (now friend) got promoted in March it's like every other person I've had fuckin hates disabled people
#there was one perso who would drive by my house to clock in (your location has to show that you're at the client's house) and leave#found out when i called and was like hey why has no one been showing up and the office was like it shows shes been clocking in there what??#apparently i wasn't the only one and she got fired#and then we had a woman who treated my shift like it was her break time#i mean she would sit at our table and eat a full meal and talk on the phone as loud as possible instead of cleaning#she'd clean for 20 minutes usually just dishes then spend the rest of the time eating or playing on her phone or on a phone call#she would put away WET TOWELS i mean they were more than just 'damp'#and once left a full unflushed shit in our toilet with shit stains on the toilet seat#i remember once she sat outside in our front yard on a phone call and when i went out there to ask what was going on#she was just like ''im on the phone'' and ignored me#i asked for her not to come back several times and they sent her 2 or 3 more times#and then i got a new lady who just straight up lies to my face#i give her a list of what i need done for the day and she will only do the dishes#then sit at our table and be like ''oh i got everything else done I'm just waiting on laundry''#and then I'd look to see that actually nothing else was done at all counters dirty floors dirty LAUNDRY NOT DONE#i confronted her last time#i was like ''hey I've asked for the bathroom to get done the past few times now and it hasn't been''#and she was like ''yes I did clean it'' so i wiped my hand across the sink and showed her the dust and grime stuck to my fingers#and then didn't clean it again that day. and said sat at the table saying she was waiting on laundry. and no laundry was done#and said she swept the living room which absolutely was not swept#bc I'd get out the vacuum and she'd be like ''oh i can just use the broom'' (on the carpet??)#I'd get the bathroom cleaning supplies out and she'd just put them away#and i dont mean that im being super picky about wanting things cleaned prefectly#or thaf she's ''not doing it right''#she's literally not doing it at all#i told my friend/ex housekeeper about this and she told me that every other person who's had her also asked for her not to come back#oop she's here. it's gonna be her last time i called the office and set it in stone this morning that she wont be coming back#.bdo
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#okay no it's not the darkness getting to me there is a real life thing occupying a lot of my brain space#and idk if there's anything to be gained by speaking it out loud into the void but at the moment it's the only thing i Can do#i don't even have to click the 'post' button if i don't want to#but yeah. yesterday got the news that my mom's husband is dying. had a surprise heart attack and he's not gonna make it#just feels super fucking weird#personally i never really liked him at all so it's not like i myself necessarily have to grieve. never was that close with him#but like. oof this is going to be hard for my mom. and i'm super worried about how she's going to survive#but there's nothing to DO about it really. she wanted to have some space to come to terms with this on her own#and she has a strong support network of friends in her city. while i'm on the other side of the country#and don't even know what i could do to help if i was closer to her. i just. like. what can you even do in a situation like this?#just feels weird to Not do anything when i know how huge of an impact this will make for her entire life#she'll probably have to move to a different place too#and there are people there to help her. people with more life experience. people who probably know more about grief than i do#i just. i have no idea how one handles something like this. except for being there for her when asked#do eldest daughters have some sort of universal responsibilities that i'm just not aware of?#it feels kinda horrible how this is constantly circling back to what can *I* do and what must *I* do. how *I* feel#i'd never ever ever make things this much about me in any other setting than my own tumblr blog. in a tag whisper i'm not sure i'll post#but yeah all of this is eating my brain in a very weird way. an odd sort of limbo where it feels like there should be something here#it'd certainly be easier if i had any sort of relationship with the dead person myself. if i had something to grieve myself#now there's just a feeling that something Should be here to feel. and the knowledge of how hard this must be for my mom#ahhhhh idk none of this makes any sense i'm just speaking in circles and everything feels bad#it's bad and horrible and i don't know how to process any of this and i'm stuck in my brain and can't DO anything#there's nothing i can do to help my mom at this exact moment when she wants to be left alone with her thoughts#and i can't do anything else either because all of this feels like a heavy black cloud fogging up my brain#can't concentrate on anything at all today#not fun. not cool#sussitalk
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sleeping in my childhood bedroom for the first time since i moved out is it supposed to feel this bad and fucked up or is this just a me thing lmaooo
#it's been 6 months my mom has completely redecorated the room and low key it makes me want to cry !!#when i was stuck here i wanted nothing more than to get out and now im out and like#miss how uncomplicated it was#now i have to look for a place of my own when my lease is up and it's like. i don't want to do that im terrified of living on my own !!!#i'm turning 32 and i still feel like i need my parents within arms reach like when will it end when will i feel like a capable grown upppppp#anyways. easter ruminations <3
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Iâve been teaching my sister how to play Genshin for some of the past hours today and I hope she quits bc now I feel really guilty about it I donât want her to waste all her time on it and Im thinking abt why she even wanted to start the game and now I feel even more horrible bc of some reasons that I kinda feel guilty explaining
#dora daily#idk how to tell her maybe she should focus on other things and games#I donât know Iâm overthinking bc everything rn is such a mess and my heart hurt so bad earlier and I felt like throwing up and stuff idk#what to do#everything is somehow going worse and worse it feels like itâs snowballing out of control but itâs because why is everyone so mean to me#like all I have ever wanted is just to be seen but Iâm always invisible to everyone and people OFTEN tell me they forget abt me so many#times that itâs more often they forget me than remember#why am I so forgettable and why do I get replaced like idk whatâs wrong with me#whatâs so horrible abt my personality I donât understand like is it the way I think ? I think itâs the way I think#but I canât change how my brain is wired or how it functions I just donât know how to fix it#I swear Iâve tried everything for years and years Iâve spent since my very early years trying to find out whatâs wrong with me and why#itâs so hard for ppl to like me Iâve tried to change everything it doesnât work and only six months ago I found out why people donât like me#just by trial and error#itâs my brain and the way I think itâs just all wrong idk how Iâm meant to think but itâs not meant to be like this#my personality is all wrong my likes are all wrong my thinking and everything is all wrong and Iâm stuck like this unless I somehow do#some surgery on my brain to fix how I think Iâll be like this forever#I wish I could just fold myself up into a little version of myself and just put it away to take up the least amount of space in this world#Iâll never belong in this world and I donât want to be here anymore#shoot I can barely even see the text on my keyboard bc I just canât stop crying#I always said my parents shouldâve never gotten married they were never a match my mum shouldâve gotten an abortion when she found out like#she never even liked my dad anyways#fuck how do I stop crying my mum is gonna be here soon and sheâs gonna start laughing at me like she usually does when I tear up Iâm#straight up bawling LOL imagine she sees that Iâll be made a mockery more than I already am this is so humiliating and pathetic. why do I#care sm now Iâve never wanted to be alive but now Iâm so sad because I really donât want to be here anymore but I donât know what to do#my head hurts now maybe I should go to sleep maybe itâll help me forget about this at least for a while longer#Iâm just so sad I have to manually ask ppl to care about me Iâm so tired I have to do this with everyone#Iâm not even angry anymore Iâm just so sad Iâm sad that others get that care like itâs second nature but with me I have to ask and beg forit#oh ik if my mum sees Iâll just tell her Iâve been itching my eyes if she asks why theyâre red LOL#Itâs okay if nobodyll ever like me like I like them right ? I donât have to get liked back as long as I give love to others right ? then I#wonât be useless like my mum says I am at least I can have a tiny bit of use even though my love means absolutely nothing I bet itâs okay iv
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rafe catching innocentvirgin!reader working out
warnings: smut, no actual sex but like graphic descriptions of fantasies so i think it counts? MDNI this is for my pilates princesses, i'm trying to get into it and whew i have so much respect for yall,,, ANYWAY hope u guys are staying healthy and safe!!! mwah
rafe was knocking on your door impatiently, wanting to see you more than anything after the day he had, finding out that the development he had been busting his ass for for months had been delayed, but you weren't answering the door or even his texts telling you to open the door; that didn't stop him, the man knowing where your parents kept the spare key, getting it out of a pot of asterias, opening the door. you'd told him he could only use it 'only in case of emergencies', but to him, this constituted as an emergency.
rafe didn't bother to put the key back as he walked further into the house, hearing the noise of the television coming from your living room. he made his way to the living room, his eyes widening slightly when he saw exactly what had you so busy.
you were splayed on the floor, a pink workout mat underneath you, watching some workout video on your tv while your headphones were on, wearing a pair of pink fitness shorts that made your ass look so good he was almost drooling, along with a white sports bra, turned away from him, one of your hands splayed on the ground while the other one was bent on your head, one of your knees on the mat while your other was reaching up.
"jesus christ." he mumbled as he stared at you, the curve of your ass in those pink shorts causing his dick to stir in his shorts.
only a few seconds later, you moved to sit down on the mat, only to be startled by your boyfriend shamelessly ogling you, letting out a small gasp as you basically fell on your ass on the mat, your eyes widening.
you took off your headphones, throwing them onto the couch behind you, and even though your face was already warm and flushed, it seemed to get worse when you noticed him staring at you. "rafe!" you exclaimed as you stood up, his eyes now locked onto your hardened nipples under the sports bra, your tits almost pressed together, a sheen of sweat running down your cleavage.
"jesus fucking christ." he said, licking his lips slightly as you took your pink zip-up jacket and put it on, yet the way it clung to your body and the small sliver of your sports bra did almost nothing to hide how delicious you looked. "no, no, baby, don't stop on my accord." rafe grinned, his hands on your waist, aware that he was sporting a pretty obvious hard-on as he pulled you closer.
"i don't want you to see me all gross and sweaty." you pouted, and the way you sucked your lip in made nothing to calm down the obvious tent in his shorts.
"you look so fucking sexy right now." he said, pulling you closer to him, and you could feel his hard-on press against your abdomen, the blonde letting out a small groan from only that contact. "literally, i've never... jesus."
"i'm not sexy right now." you roll your eyes, pushing away a stray hair that had stuck to your cheek, trying to look down in embarrassment.
"you're kidding, right?" rafe snorted, his hand going lower and lower, almost going to the curve to your ass. "i think you can feel how sexy you look, huh?" he took hold of your chin with his fingers, and lifted it up, making you look up at him. "if you didn't want to wait longer, do you know the things i'd do to you?"
"w-what?" you asked in a way that was almost a whisper, biting your lower lip as you looked at him through your lashes.
"fuck, i'd just rip that cute little set off and take you right here on the couch. i'd make you ride me, give you a workout that's much better than this crap you're doing, your tits bouncing in my face, my hands gripping those pretty thighs... shit, i might cum just thinking about it."
you softly smacked him in the chest, feeling a warmth in your abdomen only he managed to cause, sure that you'd never blushed so hard in your life. "raafee..."
he brings your face up to his, bringing your lips to his as he bent down slightly, the kiss much more heated than any other kiss that you'd shared, his hand now on the curve of your ass, squeezing it in a way that made you gasp against his lips, his other hand now in your hair.
after a moment, you pulled away breathlessly, his erection had somehow gotten even worse than before, your lips swollen and a doe-eyed look in your eyes. "we should... uh, we should stop, since, you know..."
"yeah, i know baby." he rolled his eyes exasperatedly, before chuckling softly. "god, i'm not gonna forget this little outfit in a while. lemme take a pic of it?"
"noo, i look gross!"
"don't talk about my girl like that." he tsked, taking hold of your jaw. "come on, i need something to get myself off to later."
"alright, fine." you scoffed and rolled your eyes, before letting out a small chuckle as you started unzipping your jacket.
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