#when I just feel like a dumbass most of the time
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this is mostly self indulgent but--
im a person who has really bad memory and ive been thinking about how ironic it was that i liked reca (major understatement) since hes a memokeeper who probably remembers everything hes ever known. so ive been thinking: what if he had a s/o with really bad memory? this has probably been thought of before but i THINK i have only seen few things about it.
hed be perfect honestly and damn if i dont need someone who can and will remind me of everything i forget like taking my very important meds. or preventing me from accidentally skipping meals. or even sleeping at the right hour because i completely lack a sense of time.
but it also feels super bad to forget everything and even things you actively want to remember like bonding moments. so he would definitely take SO many photos and videos of you and keep them in a super secret stash to show you later. or put 200% of his effort into making the most love filled movies about you and him painted in the most beautiful light- and his bias toward you really shows because theyre always the movies people discuss the most. (i dont know if he would be That biased but its a silly thought. if you want to make it sillier imagine him putting so much effort that he comes home physically disheveled lol)
feel free to add thoughts... its 4 am and im so sleepy it took me 30 mins to make this coherent enough to undsrstand but reca is roaming in my brain rrrrg mr. recaaaaa...
So, I wrote a response to this back when I first received it, but then my dumbass forgot to save it in my drafts 😭
ANYWAY
This is honestly so real, I’m forgetful asf as well 😭
- He’d leave sticky notes all over the house in places he KNOWS you’ll find it to remind of you of important stuff
- the sticky notes also contain a lot of little heartfelt messages <3
- And SO. MANY. NICKNAMES. He’s the type to constantly call you “darling” “love” “sweetheart” etc. he also comes up with very ridiculous nicknames sometimes to make you laugh, they get worse as times goes on
- little texts/phone calls throughout the day to see how you’re doing and remind you of stuff
As for bigger events
Like you said this man definitely has a huge stash of photos and videos
- he keeps little things he finds during your dates (for example a pebble, a keychain, etc.) as little reminders of what you guys did together
- he also compiles all his pictures into a scrapbook
- It details when the picture was taken, what you guys were doing, his thoughts on said day, and a whole lot of compliments
- he doesn’t get upset if you forget something, he just thinks of new ways to help you remember y’know
- ALSO with him being a memokeeper, what’s stopping him from playing his own memories of the event like a movie for you to watch?
This man is a hopeless romantic I swear
#mr reca#honkai star rail#hsr#mr reca hsr#hsr mr reca#mr reca x reader#mr reca/reader#honkai star rail x reader#memo speaks#y/n
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Grayson as Talon pt.3
I want to think that Talon in one moment moved closer to Jason or just make a nest in his safehouse, and BOOM happy ever after. But that is not possible.
One thing that bothered Red Hood the most is that he was in complete dark about where Birdie lived. He tried to track down his nest, because not knowing where it was and what was there was dangerous.
And each time Jason tried to do it - Talon always escaped. He chooses the most unbelievably small places to run through, moving with his abnormal speed. Of course that little brat knows that Hood followed him, so man decided to change tactics.
In one particularly cold night, when Talon obviously doesn't want to seat with vigilante for too long, Jason stoped kid.
"Here. Take it. I get that you don't like cold and all that. So maybe, dumbass, you should wear something more warm, don't you think?" with annoyance mumbles man, tossing his jacket at Birdie.
He catches it (which already means that plan starts to work) and curiously tilted his head bird like stile. Grayson can't quite understand why he needed something like that. If he gets in trouble not only this thing will slowed his movements down, but also will get torn or stained or both.
But... something in gesture himself made Talon feel warmth inside. It was nice. He...get a present, right?
"Thank you", hesitantly murmurs kid, put the jacket on and with somewhat childish fascination looked at sleeves. He almost drowned in fabric, because Todd was significantly bigger than him. And than Talon just runs away, back to his nest, to cherish his first present and hide it so it won't damage.
Red Hood will just look how small figure disappeared and after this move gase away while standing on his foot.
It was... surprisingly easy. And Todd diligently ignores how something in him tightened at look of this child happiness. Because Jason did it not from a kind heart.
Well...in most part.
"O, can you track something for me?", asks Red Hood into the comms and hear how hoarse his own voice is.
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𝖙𝖍𝖊 𝖊𝖓𝖈𝖔𝖚𝖓𝖙𝖊𝖗 [deadpool x spidey!ellie]
caught in your web m.list | tlou m.list
“You gotta trust me, Sheriff, I don’t know her at all!” Spidey yelled from behind the bars of the jail cell, her hands tightening around the bars.
A dramatic gasp echoed from behind her, “How dare you say that?! Throwing away all those late night rendezvous and nights full of passion and sloppy sex?!”
Ellie groaned and trapped the masked vigilantes collar, “Shut it, you’re only making this worse.”
“Ooh, I like it when you’re rough with me,” she giggled and wrapped her hands around Ellie’s arm.
Ellie knew there was no winning when it came to her… ‘Deadpool,’ ugh, what a stupid name. This chick was the absolute worse, the way she was obsessed with Ellie gave her the chills… not to mention how this chick knew EVERYTHING about her?? Even her name?? On top of all that, she was annoying as hell and a total poser! Like, come on! She obviously ripped off Ellie’s costume, right?!
“Sheriff, please, she’s the bad guy, not me,” Ellie groaned and slumped against the wall.
“Sorry, Spidey, but I don’t see a reason why a ‘hero’ should hide behind a mask like some damn criminal,” he chortled and took a sip of his coffee, exiting the room.
“This is all your fault,” Ellie mumbled and leaned her head against the wall.
“How did it all come down to this is what you’re thinking right, dear reader?” Deadpool turned to the wall.
“What the fuck,” Ellie quirked her brow and turned to see who the hell this freakazoid was talking to…. she was talking to no one.
“Well, it all started five hours ago when I met, Spidey, the love of my life, the apple of my eye, the keeper of my heart, my snuggle bunny, my baby kitten, my.. well, you get the gist. I was lucky enough to run into her at the police shootout, she was tackling some lizard man and I was passing by when I saw the glimmer of red… I quickly helped her and may have accidentally shot a few officers… but, who cares about that right? Anyway, we made our daring escape and to this alley where I found out she’s a girl?? Like, whaaaaaaat?? I found out because I felt boobs when I tackled her, although… they’re kinda small..”
“Hey!”
“Anyway, so I dragged her along to this amusement park where she proposed on top of the ferris wheel—.”
“I was trying to tie my shoe.”
“We shared a romantic dinner at the pier—.”
“You stole a slice of pizza from a old lady.”
“She won me a teddy bear—.”
“I was trying to escape through a booth and the bear wouldn’t come off my hand because of these stupid webs.”
“It was the most romantic night of my entire life,” she sighed dreamily, “but then just as I was about to kiss her, this dumbass runs towards a police officer and gets us both arrested, me for breaking a few laws here and there and her for being the best person ever?? Stupid, right?”
“Uh, no, you’re an actual murderer.”
“I’m a changed person now, honey,” Deadpool quickly turned to Ellie and nodded, making a heart symbol with her hands.
“You’re just lucky they didn’t take our masks,” Ellie groaned and flipped her off.
“Ooh what would’ve happened? Would you have put me in my place? Handcuffed me? Maybe spanked me?”
Ellie’s cheeks turned as red as her mask, “Shut up! J-Just find me a way outta here,” she grumbled and paced around the cell, looking for anything to get them outta there.
“Oh, is that what you’ve been waiting for? Why didn’t you say something, I stole that pig’s keys two hours ago,” she dangled the keys in front of her, Ellie couldn’t see her face but could feel the smirk radiating through the leather of her mask.
“You’re the worst,” she grumbled and unlocked the door.
“You can’t say that in bed,” there she goes again, Ellie rolled her eyes and pushed the door open.
“Here’s the plan, we—.”
BAM!!
“What the fuck!” Ellie yelled as Deadpool kicked the door down and quickly knocked the guard out, reaching behind the counter to grab her guns and katanas, “A warning next time, will you?!”
“Ohh, so there will be a next time then,” she giggled and tied her gun holster around her waist, “Can’t wait.”
Ellie shook her head and made her way for the exit, “I sure can,” she muttered as she exited the building and swiftly put as much distance between her and that deranged woman.
Upon returning back to her apartment, Ellie climbed through the window and flopped onto her bed, rummaging through her backpack for her phone when a piece of paper fell out… it read: ‘Spidey x Deadpool xoxo’ and had a picture that looks like it could’ve been drawn by a toddler of her and Deadpool making out… and not to mention the 136 page handwritten smut filled fan fiction attached to it..
“Gross,” she grimaced and threw it into the paper bin.
That was when Ellie decided to never, ever get involved with Deadpool again..
[a/n:] I FINALLY WROTE IT YAYYYYYYYYY, kinda short but I wanted to write something today :3
#ellie the last of us#ellie willams x reader#ellie williams#ellie x fem reader#ellie x reader#ellie x you#ellie fanfic#ellie tlou#ellie williams x reader#ellie x y/n#ellie williams x you#ellie williams fluff#ellie williams smut#ellie angst#tlou x you#tlou x y/n#tlou x reader#tlou fluff#tlou smut#tlou2#tlou fanfiction#tlou fic
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yes of course I was happy to get my adhd diagnosis at 20 for medication and definitely not because that meant I was one step closer to actually being a demigod
#percy jackon and the olympians#percy jackson#percy pjo#percy and annabeth#percabeth#annabeth#pjo meta#thanks uncle rick#legitimately made me a little happy inside#and im a grown ass man#but like#representation is so important#and knowing that im a bit like Percy#make me feel a lot better#when I just feel like a dumbass most of the time#adhd#actually adhd#adhd problems#adhd brain#adhd things#neurodivergence#neurodivergent#executive dysfunction#neurodiversity
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Feel free to not answer this if its too invasive but what do you do for work? how do you manage your time to still create such awesome things while working? sorry if this comes off as weird I just want to find a way to work while still having time for my art
hoo boi ok i went into the job field hellbent on getting a more heavy duty job like welding and just do art as i please and preserve my passion for it so i dont get burnt out from an art job, but bröther ive realized the hard way my body just don't have the energy to balance working my ever sweatin ass off all day and Also have the energy to draw. I used to have a factory job building coolers but the management went to pure shit, all my good coworkers got fired or quit, and i was beginning to not trust myself holding a framing gun sOOO as of rn i '''technically''' don't have a job, my patreons payin the bills (and then some praise the lorTTTT) rn plus i got that mural gig that came at the most perfect time but im currently perfecting my craft at tattooing so i can get into that field eventually 🤙 i worked my ass off and drew my ass off for a while but my lack of energy made me crash and burn so i may not be the person to give advice on that AHHAAaa
#like im currently on a tightrope having the time of my life but im just free rangin it#i was determined not to get burnt out on drawing all day from an art job but i realized i literally just want to draw all day#and the fact that i was using all of my energy working at some souless meaningless job and then i barely had the energy to draw#shit got real fucked up in the cranium thats all imma say#it almost feels illegal not having anywhere to go i deadass feel like some authority figure is gunna bust down my door 😭 i lOVE IT#like the amount of lucky circumstances that allowed me to save my own ass from myself is sooo :''')#im so glad i started up that patreon when i did cause boy is it coverin for me#i remember 2 days b4 i quit my team leader was bitching me out again In Front of Everyone makin me feel like a useless dumbass as always an#i thought to myself clear as day im either quitting or killing myself so i plotted out my financial situation and stopped showin up!!!#working at a shitty job that deteriorates your health and will replace you in a second when you die for most of your life man just kill me#all i wanna do with my life is draw n inspire other ppl w my creations bro thats iT#suicide mention
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#god#it doesn't come up super often anymore but there are times#i just really fucking miss my dad#he was his own kind of mess but we understood each other#and when shit starts to go down with what remains of my immediate family i just feel so fucking alone in it#i lost the person who most acted as my supoort in stuff like this and now it's just me and the dysfunction#my brother is a self obsessed dumbass with delusions of grandeur and my mother is so emotionally shut down she can't tell she has depression#and im just here watching them go in circles making each other miserable and i can't fix anything#and i can't depend on either of them
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Oh my God I'm so surprised that super persistent but consistently flawed debater on Tumblr is actually a child. I never saw that coming.
Look, there's things that adults shouldn't say/ topics we shouldnt bring up around children and should be able to create spaces away from them. If I'm being completely honest, radical feminism almost entirely falls in this category of 18+ content. We are constantly talking about sexual violence and other extremely adult topics that aren't appropriate for developing minds to be constantly bombarded with. It's bad for your young minds and it's bad for the movements that you seem to think you care about.
If you want to be a child activist then volunteer for your local community, don't get in online spaces with adults. It's simply not safe for children and creates an unproductive environment for adults. Children will learn better skills and build more fulfilling relationships and achievement doing local community activism anyways.
If you're a minor you need to put that shit somewhere so that we can tell that we're talking to a literal baby. I really don't enjoy this increasing trend of purposely not telling people when y'all are minors because you think that it's going to make people dismiss you, when you having limited life experience is a legitimate limitation on your analysis. You're being deceptive because someone placed a social boundary that you don't want to respect. It's high key gross.
On the same note, different tune, I hope this serves that is a reminder that people can literally be lying, either outright or by omission, about everything they claim about themselves on here. We, people in general, have created the online culture where it's completely normal to lie about important identifying features about ourselves for social clout/elevation. While I know there are some of us that may not participate in this practice, I know plenty of radfems do. We've caught a few doing it red-handed and all they're doing is breeding distrust amongst us in these spaces.
Can y'all not just act like normal honest people?
#I really thought you were a stupid attention seeker who everyone just gave way too much attention to in her mid/early 20s#just an adult with way too much time on her hands who knows how to act the same questions and chronically online#so I'm actually very happy to learn that you are actually a child. because I spent like 2 years thinking you didn't know how to read/argue#however#I do disagree about lying about your age by deception or omission. you knew that most people on here thought you were an adult#though that was definitely their own dumbass mistake#you should have been honest with your age in the bio because you knew it would have given people context to judge your content better#I'm really sick of y'all pretending to be adults on here until it is convenient for you not to lie anymore#you get more leeway for the stupid shit you say when I think you're a kid but I also don't think kids should be actively in politics#adults don't want to talk about adult topics with children it makes us uncomfortable and it stops us from being able to have open debate#lily responds#really this is why I encourage you to get offline and join local political movements#okay I'm done ranting I'm just so tired of figuring out after the fact that y'all are liars especially about your age#I also just don't like feeling like I've been lied to so maybe I'm taking this more personally than I should be
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there's something in the water that's specifically affecting green haired princesses who have purple eyes and also bpd (momochi and hiyori)
#I think I was able to show a new side of myself this time >< Please give it a listen” and doing spells on cheers to bless their dreams#even though both of her songs seem to be angsty and about her family#meanwhile hiyori the bitch was like#like with momochi there was her tweeting that the time for dreams is over (and yakouka possibly representing her current mental health)#and for hiyori it's her mental breakdown in accept my love#and also them brushing it off like it's nothing#like when the teaser dropped momochi tweeted something like#Life isn’t all about fun. There’s times where you feel depressed and like you want to cry.#When that happens it’s good to look at me. Because I’m the one who shines bright like the sun☆#it’s good to look at me. Because I’m the one who shines bright like the sun☆#Listen to my songs and follow the productions I appear in—#Just imitate me and smile! Since I always have a smile on my face!"#like girl the song was you spiraling over your loved ones becoming independant and no one needing your love even though she accepted that's#now her only role in life (to love and be loved)#like no one was concerned??? esp with the contrast with fantastic days#there's something poetic about her feeling she's no longer useful and her regression when in !! she suddenly became nicer with no explanati#and also her getting 0 song event 4*s and that eden is no longer relying on her (legit did nothing important in most of the eden events)#including ss finals with the dumbass oracles like the story was fucking boring and gatekeeper legit got more importance than tori and hiyor#anyway happy bday to my beautiful princess with a disorder#they should lock momochi and hiyori in a room (they both would somehow take each other out even though momochi is built like a paper straw#and hiyori is not strong at all the heaviest thing she wants to carry is her chopsticks)#in an alternate universe hanae couldve been voicing momochi instead of yuu and it would make this post even funnier
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people will go all "just be yourself and love yourself! :)" and then go "if you don't act the way i want, you gotta reprogram your entire way of thinking then reach into the very core of who you are and what makes you you, discard it, and replace it with this better, friendlier, more empathetic version that's coincidentally far more convenient for me to deal with than any other possible compromise we can make that you can do for me but doesn't stretch your mind to nothing but thin bands of what you'd consider 'You' :))))))"
#mine.txt#just thinking about all those 'think positively!' and 'romanticize your life!' posts#like on one hand i can see their merit cause self-hatred though instinctual is ultimately detrimental to your mental health#but on the other hand...some of them (a lot of them) are really just unashamedly asking other people to completely change themselves huh#all in the guise of ''positive thinking'' ''self-love'' and ''betterment'' no less#i suppose i shouldnt be surprised considering most people can barely grasp the concept of someone who Genuinely has muted emotions#as a natural state instead of a depressive symptom#not to mention the human quality of escalating things#so ofc tumblr which seems to currently be in its mental health recovery phase would naturally lean in so hard towards ''radical happiness''#but man sometimes i really do just wanna shake the person from behind the screen and say#'no! dont you understand! this is just how i am! stop implying that everybody who doesnt feel joy at simply waking up is a miserable hag!'#sometimes they dont even imply it they just straight up say it 💀#im honestly fine (as in idc) with seeing them but they remind me so much of those toxic positivity bitches that sell you random hoaxes#and tell you that youre ''ruining their vibes'' when youre not just beaming like the sun every waking second#well idc most of the time that is#sometimes they just trigger my szpd (and my dpd weirdly enough)#with the szpd obviously i dont like being told what to do and what to feel and having some rando assume things about me#but with the dpd its like#oh i must be doing something wrong ofc this stranger on the internet knows more about emotions and feelings than me#cause im a dumbass who doesnt Feel things therefore i must do what they say even to my own detriment#this mainly applies to those guilt-trippy ones so ive learned to steer clear of them#possibly even block the op
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every time im sitting here like "damn why am i suddenly really anxious and restless and irritable and its hard to breathe" and then i realize. oh. yeah. ive been wearing my binder for too long
#LITERALLY every fucking time i wear it without fail#i forget its there!#and then i go do strenuous physical activity and because im fucking stupid im like damn why am i out of breath so easy#head in hands. is he stupid?#yes .#anyway. taking it off now. cooking myself some biscuits. and maybe some shrimp#i need top surgery so bad#or like. a compression shirt or whatever that i can wear for long periods of time that doesn't do this to me#aauerghghghghg.#weighing the options of. dont want to take binder off because body shape is bad. have to take binder off or i will continue feeling worse.#its snowing biiiiiig fluffy flakes outside rn . man .#UGHGGHG. TW FOR SH MENTION COMING UP.#I JUST REALIZED I CANT WVEN DO THE “TAKE THE BINDER OFF WHILE STILL WEARING A SHIRT” TRICK#BC IM STUPID AND MY DUMBASS ARMS HURT WHEN FABRIC TOUCHES THEM . SO I HAVE TO GET UP AND MOVE AND TAKE MY SHIRT OFF FIRST.#hell world. everything sucks forevwr#this is the most baby thing to he complaining about. but again. taps the sign. ive been wearing my damn binder too long
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I know I've been particularly incoherent for the past few days (again), and it's so dramatic and ridiculous but it seriously feels like something is punishing me. I just want to like things a normal amount. I just want to like people and characters a normal amount.
I don't want to become so fully obsessed that literally nothing else exists and thinking about anything else feels like my brain is being stabbed with a thousand tiny knives. I don't want to need to find every piece of information I possibly can on whoever it is this time. I don't want to feel like I'm (literally) losing my mind when I see them. I don't want any of this!
I can not believe that I exist as a human being on this stupid planet just to get obsessed with people over and over and over again forever.
#like it's not. fun. it's not 'oh haha I just like this guy a lot :3' no it feels like. dying.#like I said I know it's fucking dramatic I know. but it feels SO BAD#and sometimes SO GOOD because nothing else gives my brain that feeling but god damn it most of the time it's just painful#maybe I should try drugs#probably.#maybe I should start drinking again#that made it bearable#but no that's. stupid#but my god how am I supposed to go through this again and again and again so many times in a row#I don't know how to explain how fucking devastating it is to attach yourself to. some stupid idiot (I'm sorry I don't mean that.). only to#not really care anymore after a couple months#what do you MEAN. I literally love this person with every stupid fibre of my stupid being and now he's just. some guy again??#I don't know. how. not to do this. it's not a choice! it's not something I DO. it HAPPENS to me.#and it only doesn't happen when I'm so depressed that I want to actively die.#anyway yeah it's about John Larroquette and Dan Fielding and Jenkins and yeah I'm the fucking stupidest fucking dumbass on earth#someone hit me in the head to fix my brain please#and seriously this is not normal. it can not be normal. this is not how normal people feel about stuff. it can't be#I think this is why I don't get fandom culture. and shipping specifically. like. no I'm not. I'm not enjoying these characters. I'm not#watching this show and thinking aww these two should kiss :)#I'm. not there anymore. I don't fucking exist. all I do. is think about this person. I can't stop it.#I am not a person when I don't feel like this. I'm not even real. I'm just whoever I'm obsessed with. I say that so much but that's how it#feels! I'm not real.#so anyway when I say 'haha I'm fine' what I mean is no I'm not someone make my brain work right please#I just. see him and start crying. because it's so overwhelming.#maybe I should find a therapist and hope they speak English and show them this post :)#haha no that's ridiculous I could never mention this to a normal person#guess I'll just keep driving myself to insanity with this crap.#personal
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#why is like 80% of fics with r*dimus smut#like most of them don’t even get his character right. like you could at least do that.#every time I open a fic with Rodimus as a mc i feel like it’s 2014 and I’m trying to read Dave strider analysis fics#Noah fence but it’s the same vibe people treat Rodimus like a y/n or something#slowly losing muse on Twitter because I genuinely just want to be a dumbass or like#write an entertaining story or mention a plot and I get people calling me a bottom a twink etc#brother let me call myself a slur. thanks. I’d rather do that#I don’t care about those types of comments but when you#piss my character off after having read exactly what will easily piss then off and you’re like Eerm…#chill out brother go have sex or whatever… you will be making it Worse.#😁#anyway I don’t care. I’m in a bitchy mood#ooc / Misty forest
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one thing abt me is that i will get my silly little hopes up despite being actively aware that thats how i get my silly little feelings hurt
#this isnt even abt anything in particular im just musing over myself and my typical behavior and the thing is i do this all thee time#with literally everything <//3#like smth i do when i want smth to happen is tell myself “omg its NOT gonna happen it wont. so dont hope it will bc its wont”#but then secretly underneath that? i do hope it will happen <///3#and then most of the time? it does not !!!#i need to work on this soo badly like its a problem and like. idek if trying to stop feeling hopeful abt things i want happening#its like. a healthy thing to do. but i do know that the current approach kills me. badly.#so i gotta stop it. or just indulge more in distractions when i do get my feelings hurt tht also works 😭#but seriously seriously seriously. babe futures peaches reading this whatever specific thing ur hoping for is genuinely NOT going to happen#not teeheee i say it wont and that way it will NO it will not. and that is okayyy !!! stop getting ur hopes up dumbass#this thing abt me is so silly crazygirl core like literally i am so sensitive emotionally i dont even need#other ppl to mess with my feelings in a way which will get them hurt bc i will do it for them<3#anyway i shld stop before i go down a self depricating spiral <3#flappy rambles
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still my favorite episode. like, just... how so many clues had been building throughout the episodes, until this one dropped this huge context bomb and the dam broke as so many puzzle pieces fell together.
the ppl who complain that their dumb funny horny demon cartoon got ~too much about feelings~ never bothered to pay attention to foreshadowing, hints, or show-don't-tell details.
HAPPY OOPS-IVERSARY!
one year ago today, the helluva boss episode oops came out and changed our lives 💚 love you always
#i'm sure SOME ppl must've complained about Adventure Time becoming ~too much about feelings~ too#but i never saw any of that#Adventure Time didn't attract the same droves of edgelords who were only drawn in by the cussing and dirty jokes#please sir may i have a crumb of media literacy#blitzfizz is def my fave ship in HB tho#but like in a very poly way#i feel like these two just have the most natural chemistry even when one or both of them are being dumbasses lol#blitzfizz#blitzarolli#helluva boss#helluva boss oops
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THIS IS SO HUMBLING FR CAUSE the only ppl who did reach out were Hal dahlia and meto (out of the billions of ppl ik)
#and raisa but I didn’t get back to her so that makes me a bad friend in that regard#I should fix that#idk I don’t think I have a valid excuse per se but like it’s a bit valid bc she disappointed me and it kinda added fuel to the flame of wha#everyone else was doing#dora daily#it was just insult to injury even tho she always said oh sorry I couldn’t reply bc ….#you do realise I can tell when someone is making a legitimate excuse and when someone is making up a dumbass excuse ? most of the time it i#not a legitimate excuse it’s just a dumbass excuse#and if you think I’m so stupid as to not see right through that you’ve got another thing coming#you don’t need to make excuses to me out of social nicety you know#if you don’t gaf that’s completely fine I will not hound you to gaf abt me more 🤷♀️#like idk why ppl make it seem we’re tied by some indestructible tether#we’re not exactly bound for life if you don’t like me that much#and I wish ppl would be less reluctant to cut ppl off even if there’s no problem apart from the fact that they realise they do not like the#that much !#like istg if you don’t like me that much idm I swear I don’t just cut me off is all I ask#and it’s strange bc it’s like this is the exact same issue with almost everybody I know right now#it’s strange bc I don’t know why everyone’s like this and#it’s odd to see the way this is at such high frequency like ??? questions all around fr#eh whatever#and the thing is I can tolerate rlly bad abuse without a word so I can endure A LOT. but the reason I just stopped was bc my health actually#plummeted really really bad I’d get panic attacks every time I’d think of speaking to someone#it just felt like every time I’d go to sleep and wake up I’d not get any rest or reprieve from that feeling#then came the heart issues like I swear I genuinely in all ways you look at it I COULDNT speak at all#and if you’re like oh well texting is different to speaking#no I COULD speak irl But it’s the texting that couldn’t happen#like if I tried to even if I was miserable I can do things while utterly miserable it’s fine#but this wasn’t even the miserable benchmark it was something so completely unexplored uncharted territory#I’ll never be able to explain what that period was#but do know I hold all who even asked or remembered I existed in very high regard
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uve prolly gotten this before but y ship the blondie and oreoy,,,, curious
Is this about Izuchi and Sagara??
For what little we see of it I like their potential dynamic. They're so particularly annoyed by each other. I like that most of Izuchi's presence in the story shows him as a hyper-smart prodigy who thinks he's better than everyone, only for him to get lame and pathetic in Sagara's 3rd event because the competent bonafide genius is weak to the Weird Anime Kid. She's able to bring him to her level and cracking through his ego, which is maybe more fragile than he lets on. He's stubborn and likes challenges, and she wants her unhinged mad scientist antagonist-figure to clash with. He acts like he's above the petty rivalry but folds after one childish insult. If that's all it took, and if Nanashi had to get between them this time, I 100% think this happens regularly and has escalated before. They're silly.
They're both jaded teens who have an inflated sense of self-confidence. They do what they want without regard for what people think(though I will draw the distinction between how she's just kind of annoying and he's actually harmful) and end up detached from them without much of a drive to change that, but they take it in different directions, with Izuchi being pragmatic and serious and Sagara being a chuuni who's easygoing and kind of making it up as she goes along a lot of the time. He's arrogant and will wrong others to further his research but can be capable of and willing to help others(re. Meru's event). She ultimately means well and is a nice person but will casually threaten strangers and target people because she thinks they're weird(her dialogue regarding him as an organization member indicates that she doesn't seem to actually know about any of the legitimately shady shit he does and just messes with him because the genius schtick is bizarre. Again, Kind Of A Bully Maybe is really not on the level of Human Experimentation but then the game doesn't treat that very seriously either. And also Sagara's still capable of knocking him on his ass)
It definitely would take some sort of development for them to come to like each other or for romance to come into question, but I think it could be fun. They'd challenge eachother. She'd keep his ego in check and make him see the value in things that aren't strictly logical and he'd act as a voice of reason(to an extent…) and help strike some balance between reality/fantasy, but they still wouldn't really care about what people think. Menaces always.
#I need them to kill each other looney tunes style.#Sidenote Sagara likes chaotic things. She points out how bizarre Izuchi is several times and I don't#think she likes Him necessarily but I feel like it amuses her at least. Makes the sworn nemeses bit more fun for her#Dumbass/Smartass. Annoyances to friends to lovers. understand my vision.#Wrote this months ago and forgot to post it whoops.#Has this been in my drafts for almost a year? Haha well lets just say. yeag#Guy who complains about never being able to talk about her favorite characters when someone tries to talk about her favorite characters#(radio silence for 50 years)#Also for the record I haven't gotten this question before but let it be known I love talking about the characters.#pieceofcake.txt#cakeart#Also hc territory(which I mean most of the post already is) but#I like the thought of their antagonism having like. Frenemy undertones because#She doesn't have very many friends and thinks messing with him is fun#And look at Izuchi. Idt he'd even want friends unless there was a scheme behind it#so he doesn't get much companionship outside of his research(though will insist he doesn't need it)#so this is Sort Of like hanging out for two people who don't get much of that. but neither of them ever would put it that way.#I've posted numerous blondies so sorry if this wasn't what you were talking about#you interacted with a couple of my 1bh posts so im guessing. If im wrong dont correct me it'd be embarrassing.
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