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thatgirlwhokeepsreading · 6 months ago

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The thing the people don’t tell you about re-parenting yourself/similar gambits is that for bitches of a particular temperament (it’s me I’m bitches) it sometimes makes you so so mad when it works. Sold all my baby dolls in a garage sale when I was eight not because I didn’t want to them anymore but because I thought I shouldn’t want them anymore, and now the only thing that had me sleeping like a rock after fortnight of hells is this elaborate LARP so I can convince my central nervous system that there is someone in charge who a) wants to take care of shit and b) can take care of shit.

RSD emotional hangover making you too agitated to sleep even though you’re intellectually aware the conflict is resolved? Not anymore with the power of making dairy-free chocolate milk and listening to ten minutes of Dune on audiobook while reading alongside on your e-reader before you pass the fuck out.

Like you would think cringing into the sun* would keep one even more awake than the vague background radiation of little-T traumas (which has actually reduced after five years of medication and psychology appointments), but I guess it is really about quantity over quality. Guess one big cringe is less impactful than the relief from convincing the quivering little toddler that’s been left in charge of the sleep lever in your brain to come out from under the desk and do their job by putting up a sort of flimsy curtain so they can no longer see the wall of painting symbolising your mild disconcerting experiences

And I reference temperament when I know that my annoyance is in fact also a huge part to do with socialisation, particularly being primed towards abnegation + a fundamental suspicion towards adults engaging with things culturally associated with Children and Childhood, both of which are things I challenge on principle consciously/intellectually. But knowing that it’s completely harmless, and like hey I could be doing meth or something, does not change the fact that when I mimic the running commentary I do with babysitting kids Just In My Head To Myself and immediately become head-nodding sleepy, I’m instantly like “oh we respond to this and not a haunting amount of melatonin? cool. yeah. sure.”

(*Of course none of this is cringe when other people do it, as they are allowed to experience Quirks and Vulnerabilities in peace because they are Not Me. That said, when I’m not venting on tumblr dot org I do generally avoid calling any of this stuff cringe bc I am aware that caveating with “This only applies to me because I’m Not Like Other Girls (I’m Worse)” often doesn’t actually make the other person feel assured you’re not judging them.)

#whatever that post is that’s like #having a mother should be in the dsm and also not having a mother should be in the dsm #we’re running out of options here gang!!!#like fundamentally that is my annoyance I think #like I don’t want my mother having been sick/not fully recovered from her own trauma to impact something as ‘mundane’ as sleep #also there’s all the complexities of like I didn’t enjoy being a kid very much the first time around #like I wasn’t physically unsafe and I did have some emotionally safe adults like I can always have been worse #*it can always have been worse wow rip Freud you would have loved my typos #(actually he probably would have loved this whole thing lmao)#but yeah like Being A Kid was the worst part of that era of life if that makes sense #the fact the demonstrated solution is Tactical Childhood LARP is just like booooooooo human body do better #also obviously I worry that this sort of thing would impact my ability for have a partner or kids or w/e #but I also worry about that with everything mental health #I suppose the difference here is my many many thoughts about the infanalisation of women in general #and autistic/nd/disabled women in specific #but like if someone is marrying me - a research academic - thinking they’re getting a demure and malleable small bean #like they’re an idiot that’s on them lol #anyway #delete later #?#we’ll see how I feel #it me

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nemesis-is-my-middle-name · 10 months ago

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that article going around abt firefox's new ad program is annoying bc it's phrased as though "mozilla has finally TURNED on its people and is SELLING YOU OUT for cold hard cash!!" when. that's not what's happening. it is specifically being implemented to discourage tracking behavior, and literally all the data they are giving to advertisers is aggregate and anonymized, which is like, the opposite of what that post wants you to worry about, lol

#the nemesis speaks #unfortunately i don't have enough energy to like. campaign about this.#it's actually a really interesting tactic to discourage invasive tracking #basically giving individual advertisers a way to measure '% effectiveness of ad' without individual info getting attached to it #whatever anyway i'm going to bed. do NOT discourse on this post or i will get your ass

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spaceistheplaceart · 9 months ago

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thinking about what mabel and ford have in common <3 sweaters, diaries, and bad breakups.

#of course fords was. like. really bad #but mabel is here to help :)#they had a compromise where they watched space trek decorated the minifigs and mabel did some makeovers <3 #gravity falls #stanford pines #mabel pines #comic #billford #implied.#long post #fuck wait i forgot to draw her acne after the first page #whatever uuhhh use ur imagination lol

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sweetbouquetartisane · 2 months ago

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Good Will Hunting (1997) Dir. by Gus Van Sant

#thats literally me #been active on my sideblog but not here cause it feels less Official #moviegifs #filmgifs #good will hunting #matt damon #userstream #dailyflicks #idk what to tag im just copying posts #fyeahmovies #cinemapix #this is supposed to be a joke idk if it reads that way but its been sitting in my computer for too long so #userbbelcher #dailytvfilmgifs #filmtvdaily #whatever #also ive forgotten how i did these. like how i put the subtitles there. oh well.

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reallybadblackoutpoems · 2 years ago

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meditations on first philosophy (1641) - rene descartes

"who give a shit"

#rene descartes #ok #so this is a reference to that post #bc i cant stop saying it #sorry i havent been active #ive been working on an opera #and have been having like p bad health issues #but its ok #learning to crochet a minecraft frog #idk if itll be like any good #whatever life is love anyway #blackout poem #blackout poetry #author #book #poetry

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galgali · 3 months ago

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it is absolutely true that every character in death note is in a completely different piece of media from every other character. light thinks he's in law and order. L is in columbo, as columbo. misa is in a sabrina carpenter song and rem is in a chappell roan song. to ryuk this is all the three stooges. soichiro is in taken and matsuda is in brooklyn 99 and aizawa is in disco elysium. this is mikami's silence of the lambs and you're living in it. mello will either make this whole situation into twilight or die trying, and near? well. near is in death note.

#this is inspired by a dungeon meshi post that i cannot find at the moment that ends with 'and laois is in dungeon meshi' so credit to that #but like seriously jdsfghsjfdg. absolutely no one is on the same page here #death note #light yagami #l lawliet #misa amane #mello #near #do i actually want to tag all the characters #whatever that's enough #this has been in my drafts for so long. be free #mine

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mizgnomer · 4 months ago

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David Tennant speaking to Esquire Magazine about kilts - during the promotion for Rivals

Video Source [ X ] see also: Discussing his EE BAFTA 2024 red carpet look

#david tennant #rivals #bafta 2024 #what we did on our holiday #wwdooh #kilts #georgia tennant #long post #stuff i posted #I hope they do more interviews like this with him #just let him do a deep dive into whatever topic he wants #he comes across as so knowledgeable #on a variety of topics #ee bafta 2024 #I'm already looking forward to his 2025 Bafta host outfits

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gongyussy · 7 months ago

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the energy i'm bringing to linkedin | MY LADY JANE (2024)

#did i start watching this show for anna chancellor #yes and she did NOT let me down #and the show was a fun watch rip </3 you deserved to survive more than one season #anyway. society if people posted like this on linkedin... instead of whatever drivel goes on there all the time....#my lady jane #anna chancellor #tvedit

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captainjonnitkessler · 10 months ago

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The second you start talking about some mysterious "they" that are controlling society in some fashion, you are engaging in dangerous conspiratorial thinking even if you're being woke about it. "They" did not institute the 40 hour work week specifically so you would be too tired to revolt. "They" did not invent the sleek minimalist aesthetic in order to crush the spirit of art in the common people. "They" are not pushing mediocre media into the mainstream in order to poison people's critical thinking skills.

Your best case scenario after that is you talk to someone who actually knows what the fuck they're talking about and you get embarrassed because you can't answer basic questions about your own ideology because you never learned anything past "the ruling class/capitalists/politicians are making things bad and if we got rid of them the bad things would all go away!"

Your worst case scenario is obviously the woo-to-fascist pipeline and you end up believing Jews are poisoning American food supplies with GMOs in order to turn us all into beta cucks, so like . . . maybe just stop blaming "them" before you fall down that route.

Obligatory round of disclaimers: Yes, sometimes people do bad things. Be specific about exactly who is doing what instead of ascribing it to some vague group of shadowy elites. Yes, sometimes things in society are bad. Learn to identify the root causes of complex social issues instead of assuming that they're actually extremely simple to fix and we're just not doing it because of some vague group of shadowy elites. Yes, minimalism isn't for everyone. Learn that some people don't share your tastes and get the fuck over it for the love of god.

#surprise! this was actually just my way of complaining that that 'classical tutor' post is going around again #complaining about the degeneracy of modern society because our cars aren't colorful enough or whatever #what if i told you that sometimes societal tastes and customs change naturally over time #and not because of targeted interference from vague groups of shadowy elites #anyway! be specific in your words and actually work to understand the underlying causes of things #and above all else understand that sometimes people just like things that you don't like #and that's not a conspiracy. it's not even hard to understand. like come on people #skepticism umbrella

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artilite · 7 months ago

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