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Beatifully said. This post deserves so much more attention, it's so heartfelt and real.
I also think Law is often mischaracterized in fanfiction, which is fine in general (ooc characters or alternative takes can be really cool too and often are), but it feels like there's no place for canon Law anymore anywhere, everyone is just projecting their desires and favourite tropes on him, and his own voice is not heard anymore as the result... which means we should talk a lot about canon Law, especially because he's so easy to just dismiss. He's introverted, grumpy, tsundere, and all of that is valid and true (he can also be an emo hipster, a nerdy loser or an insufferable, always complaining moody teen, if that's what you fancy the most imagining him as), but he's also traumatized, and if no one wants to talk about it, I guess I will. It's a part of him the same way lying is part of Usopp and stinginess is part of Nami.
Let me share with you one of the most striking (for me) images from the anime adaptation of Law's flashback, because I think it illustrates the original post really well:
"sometimes you just canât show emotions the way you used to because part of the trauma is that there was no time to show them, no use to show them because you were surviving because youâve seen terrible things and crying was for nothing. It served no purpose and any type of âshowing emotionsâ was used against you so you just learned to repress them so hard that it became impossible to show them."
This anime shot always gets me. Law had to supress his reactions, emotions and pain so he can survive, and most of the time he achieves that by staying quiet and not moving. It's even more underlined by the fact he literally was rendered mute by Cora-san's spell later, which also ended up saving his life. Anime doesn't always keep up to that (and his seiyuu delivers a lot of grunts, but they're still mostly grunts, huffing and half-supressed sounds), but in the manga? Law's reactions are still pretty much muted, even when he's an adult. Most are just "...!!" and variations of that, even when freaking Doflamingo shoots him, Law supresses his cries, either not to give him satisfaction or because supressing gives him a sense of control over the helpless situation; it's probably both, but it's also a result of his PTSD imo.
His reaction to being shot is just "!!!" (which can be interpreted as expression of inner turmoil/pain or perhaps a grunt, the latter is how anime usually interprets it)
And again, he seems way too used to supressing, it's definitely his first instinct reaction to any sort of pain or danger. Even when he's defeated by Blackbeard and in real risk of dying right there, Law chose to be silent (while obviously also being in huge pain).
The only times he actually screams and cries out in Dressrosa arc is when Doflamingo severs his arm (he couldn't move while it was happening, so the pain kinda released him from freezing up, by screaming he regained back his control over his body. He still gathers himself really quickly afterwards) and when Doflamingo is about to stomp his skull into the ground:
He still tries to cover his eyes and lowers his initial volume too, trying to hide and not show his emotions openly. It really hits hard, because this is his failure, his moment, he's allowed to feel it to the fullest, but he still tries to stop himself from it.
He tries so hard to regain his control, but by doing that he's also just succumbing to his traumatic response. This visceral struggle is what made him survive all this time: supress, keep quiet, withstand the pain no matter what.
He also doesn't even flinch when Big Mom is beating him up while he's at the end of his strength and pushing himself even more over his limit for this last attack.
I guess it's not very obvious, because we start Punk Hazard with Law writhing and crying whenever someone squeezes his heart. Besides that, his pain reactions are always supressed, sometimes to the extreme too. Makes one wonder...
Even after Cora-san's spell wears off, Law's pain and crying gets muted by other sounds around. Technically he's allowed to express himself, but in reality he's still not being heard.
Some psychological research says there's a link between abuse and silence, and fictional stories sometimes touch upon that. For example, if you take away the voices of the victims, it's like the harm and pain never happened, because no one knows and those who do know will never talk about it. If you constantly hear the suffering voices in your head, you will have to appease them or they will never leave you alone, taking over your life. But there are other ways to make them go quiet, like by literally forcing them, especially if there's no hope to get justice. Anything to survive.
After reading more Lawâs Povâs on fics Iâve realized that sometimes people misinterpret Law a lot, if you read Lawâs novel you realize that he is thoughtful, more tender than he appears to be and inclined to profound reflections about existential issues. I do think that I get why it happens as a person with PTSD, sometimes you just canât show emotions the way you used to because part of the trauma is that there was no time to show them, no use to show them because you were surviving because youâve seen terrible things and crying was for nothing. It served no purpose and any type of âshowing emotionsâ was used against you so you just learned to repress them so hard that it became impossible to show them. You learn to rationalize and micro analyse everything because your fucking life can depend on you hability to do so. So yeah I get that many people people would look at you and misinterpret you as ânot caringâ or âcoldâ because you might be running thousands equations thinking about the risks of trusting someone, since you are so low energy you literally canât afford another pseudoargument or anything that would just make you lose any more times because you never had time to begin with. It is living in borrowed time every single minute expecting the other shoe to drop. Anyway, Iâm not comparing my trauma to Lawâs his is way bigger than mine, but the little things, yeah I get them.Â
Just a little rambling here to the void as always.Â
#one piece#trafalgar law#trauma#ptsd#Law and PTSD#reblogs#importance of voice in One Piece#including Voice of All Things#really beautiful post op â€#I hope you don't mind me expanding slightly on it#if you do mind I will delete it ofc#but it really inspired me#I can relate to the need of constant supressing too and it explains a lot about Law as well
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the last unicorn post from earlier has me thinking about the master. that yana is still in there, you know? is still someone he was, if even for a brief flash across the life of a time lord. thereâs no way to unlive that life. there are ways to twist it later, sure, to make utopia into hell on earth. but the life was lived. in much the same way that the doctor can remember, can feel, the love he held onto as john smith even as that life is ripped out of his hands. the doctor choose denial and then grief and then to shutter it all away. and so john smith died, and so professor yana died, and the doctor and the master live on. the doctor has done this before, and he lives in orbit around humanity, trying to keep the best parts of them and hold them deep enough to take root (which he can pretend he gets to choose, as a time lord. as a human, it all floods in and canât be dug back out.) but what about the master, right?
to borrow a turn of phrase: i think there are two time lords left in the universe, and they both learned how to regret.
#regret here meaning less feeling the emotion of actual regret obviously because time lords do not actually funxtion on unicorn rules. they#already get sad just fine on their own. no humanity needed for that.#but i dont know. i just dont think he brushed it off so easily. i think he did a hell of a job convincing himself he did.#and what better way then to twist his own great works and destroy the species he was working so hard to save at the end of the universe.#but what about the knowledge that he *could* be that person. that somewhere in him exists a version that wanted to save people.#a version that is painfully too much like the doctor. even. now is that part worse or better than the human part?#but if past regenerations are ghosts i think yana deserves a haunt.#anyway maybe ignore this one im rambling about nothing here#theres just. i dont know. what if you were the last of your kind and in surviving you made yourself Not Like Them in a way youâll never#escape.#i mean doctor who is just so concerned with all these plots about hybrids and children of the tardis and clones and What Makes A Time Lord.#but theyâre so obsessed with it in just. a very Lore way. is what it feels like. we get brushes of more like with jenny and how sheâs#physically a time lord and the doctor denies her that inheritance. a shared sufferingâŠ#but me myself im just fascinated with the doctor and the master as the time lords who survived. but they survived Wrong#its. its. children of gallifrey that donât belong to her anymore. you know?#i dont care if riverâs got time lord dna!!! or the metacrisis is physically human!!! i dont care!!! talk to me about what it means beyond#their blood and bones!!! whatâs it like to have your sense of self stripped from you like that!!!#whatâs it like when so much of you is the shed skin of time lords past. but one of you was human. one of you was painfully *humiliatingly*#human!!!#enough about how much dna you need to count as a time lord. i want to know how much they can mutate until they canât be recognized as one.#does that make sense?
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Oh ok. I get now why a lot of people didn't vibe with the ending.
All and all: excellent manga, overall very good final act, too rushed final 2-3 chapters but weak and honestly mediocre epilogue, which makes the high of the ending kind of leave a bitter taste. I think Noda had a good steed and suddenly he had to finish and had to rush all. So the ending in the sense of the final arc was good but the ending proper (final couple chapters) + epilogue......... Not so much
#i liked rhe ending (though made the mistake to read comments so now I'm like 'yeah you are right that did not make sense' when on my own i#probably would not have noticed. but ok. I'll work my suspension of disbelief. HOWEVER the epilogue WAS indeed very lackluster#i get it's an epilogue but it was so rushed. we barely get a closure for ume and saichi and tanigaki did not get to#take asirpa back to uci as he should have (though he was instrumental for that). overall it was super rushed#like we did not even see how Sugimoto was rescued. the epilogue was faaaar too rushed tbh and also too vague in parts#siraishi not really saying goodbye.... also sugimoto and asirpa living together that's cute idc and i think the line into nastyness was not#crossed but oh boy is it a thin thread... i still choose to believe they are platonic soulmates lol but i want to see an official#translation of the volume that's all i say. what else... oh yes. the way the gold never got to actually be distributed doesn't sit right#with me at all but the worst part was definitely the sugimoto/ume thing oh god that was BAD#we did get to see osoma which was cute#OH AND DON'T GET ME STARTED ON VASILY??? We didn't even see him. the epoligue for him in particular was great though but his ending was not#like he just hanged around ogata gor chapters and chapters on end and we don't even get a glimpse of him during the final showdown??#tbh i think noda wanted to do something more with him but realized he did not quite fit into the story and in the end got#caught up with all the main lines he did have to close and he obviously had planned and probably combined with his own exhaustion well#did not go nice for vasily! i also would have liked a more proper epilogue for tsukishima and koito. they deserved it#I don't like how pre-epilogue the tsukishima-tsurumi-koito tension seems to reach a breaking point only to kind of not get resolved because#they have to keep fighting lol.#laura reads#also i get the sentiment of the ending regarding the ainu and i think noda did his best but it seems like a rather soft thing for asirpa to#do like... sure. museums and stuff. i GET it but it goes a little too soft in the actual colonialism that went on from the japanese. i feel#noda starts off fairly critical of that but in the end softens his stance which is a shame but ok. the bar is in hell so this is actually#much better than average from what i can personally gather of my little knowledge#golden kamuy#gk spoilers
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been looking in tags for a few days now to see if anyone else found the whole high cloud quintet and related story to be a bit.....poorly written, nonsensical, contradictory, full of plot holes and loose ends, etc. apparently i'm not the only one. (and i'm not even talking about shipping stuff, because any time I saw someone mad about bad writing, someone always replies to be homophobic and laugh about failed ships. weirdos.) it could have been so good but was thrown into the garbage for the most part (IF you noticed all the plot holes and contradiction. if not, then it's a fine enough story tbh. I expect most people to see it on surface level and not read all the little hidden lore bits and try to piece it together like my autistic brain did. which is ok! enjoy it if you liked it and ignore me đ)
#apparently one of the writers did it on purpose. wont explain here. you can find it elsewhere. but it makes sense now#that's why it fell apart and didnt make sense in the end#ive seem people say anyone mad about it is a shipper and thats why. they use it as an excuse to be homophobes#youre gross get out of thos fandom. im here as someone upset about the story who was very skeptical about any ship theories and focused#more on plot theories and overall friendship and stuff so its not even about shipping you het weirdos!!!#the contradictions and plot holes are bd regrdless of who you ship lmao stop reducing it to that#aure its fine if you ignlre those plot holes. but it happened to be the little plot holes that interested me the most so its obvious to međ
#cant wait until a talented writer in the fandom rewrites the whole story a lot better and fills in the holes and ties up the end better#please someone do this đ#lee text#hsr#i just wanted a close found family who met a tragic end#my idea for a better way to write it is dan feng wanted free from the high elder cycle and yingxing helped him create a new elder#but it went wrong and failed because the preceptors fed him wrong info hopong it woukd destroy dan feng since they hated him#instead it was yingxing that died and dan feng selfishly brought him back somehow and thats why hes immortal and hates dan heng now#they created a monster in the process that made a mess and baiheng died trying to kill it maybe but hit its weak spot#so it was weaked enough for jingliu to slay it#maybe for a plot twist jing yuan somehow knew the preceptors were up to something and didnt stop the two because#they were too stubborn and he knew it would do nothing#we know the dragon heart disappeared so either it ended becoming bailu in the end#or it could be inaide blade bow. another fun possible plot twist. they never explained where it went so it coukd be a n y w h e r e#i had other ideas but i forget now. bht baiheng deserves better as well. just being a plot mechanism to make two dudes be stupid#is kinda bland and boring and wasted her character. she deserves better too!!!!#id write this if i had the time and brain power but ill hope someone else does it instead#OH yeah i forgot a big idea. dan feng and yingxing perhaps try to also kill the arbor and end the abundance and long life/reincarnation#and maybe that was one part that led to it all going wrong or something. since yingxing wanted revenge on the abundance for destroying#his home and family???? and dan feng wanted to escape the cycle? similar wants that worked together snd failed#these are all ideas from past theories i read and my own ideas i came up with all of which are better than what that bad writer did!#these are very incomplete ideas that im sure someone else can write better#lee rambles
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#keroro#i love this. she is me. i can live my unbridled amounts of cute aggression towards him THRU HER#i literally need to do this irl#like i just skimmed ep 64 bc i was curious about this trauma switch thing and ive never wanted to grab him and whack him around more#in an affectionate way not because im mad at him oh no. i understand him so deeply. i feel him. i know his most inner psyche.#and he inspires unrecorded levels of senseless violence in me#me in my little ignoramus bubble writing a 4 pages dissertation on his character anyway bc like. i get him ok#his deep seated sense of guilt that he's constantly fighting against. that he needs to repress and deny in order to function.#his fear of abandonment. fear of never being enough. not being able to make up for it. for himself. thats why hes self sacrificing#his selfish childishness that comes from not having been allowed a lot in his youth. taking friends for granted in his past but knowing -#you dont fit in with them. constantly apologizing for yourself. taking space. too much. self indulgence. because friends is s scary concept#and yet one you couldnt survive without. letting them walk all over you. denying your anger. your fears. crawling back to them with a smile#at their feet and biting time because what you really want is friends. company. but you think you don't deserve it. deep down.#maybe u dont. your worst reminder the friend you love. and if they ditch you it's deserved. you don't need them (you do)#why am i rambling!!!! he has ruined me. if im wrong dont even tell me bc i prefer this version in my head anyway#*charlie voice* look at me. psychological trauma up to here#im not saying growing up poor with a father that shames you for your interests and ''disciplines'' you made him selfish but. no yes!#i am saying that. bc i know how it is. growing up with friends that have a lot that u can never afford. u feel guilty just being with them#ok we strayed a lot from the og post which is just me saying I WANNA PUNCH THIS GUY SO BAD (he is me)#keroro gunso
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Every time a muslim Shia-phobe opens their mouth an angel dies btw
#the way theyâre so dumb like you are doing exactly what the islamophobes are doing !!!!!!!!!!#yall are PATHETIC because the way you plead and beg them to come to the true understanding of Islam yet youâre the ones propagating the SAME#LIES they make about us onto Shias you are pathetic!!!!!!!!#istg they make me dislike Islam and make me want to distance myself from everything and just kms because HOW DARE YOU#say Iâm not muslim after all the effort I have made to keep my Islam you dare to call me non muslim I bet you I have put more effort into#that than anything youâve achieved in your despicable existence#I hope they rot and burn#dora daily#they will never understand what itâs like to fight so hard just to be a muslim for stsrters then being assigned as lower than dirt by other#âMuslimsâ and urging them to reconsider when they say we are less than animals or that we must be exterminated#huh you know what that sounds like ?#isrealis! and you guys sob and moan about how the world is silent LMFAO YALL SHOULD NOT TALK CAUSE AS THEY SAY THE VICTIM BECOMES THE#OPPRESSOR#YALL ARE WORSE THAN PATHETIC ! I cannot BELIEVE I have to argue that I deserve to live and exist because you fuckers are so blinded with#your disgusting drive to kill because muslim men have no and I mean NO sense of reality#they sexualise everything theyâre disgusting human beings theyâre pathetic and losers and degenerates#I mean many of the âtradâ muslim men#you guys cannot open your mouth about a WORD about Israelis because you are EXACTLY LIKE THEM FFS !#just like the israelis became like the n*zis you are becoming like them too#I hope you krill yourselves literally sl!t !!!!!#<3333#not only do I have to deal with being a Muslim but also a Shia and also racism and also THE LIST GOES ON !!! why canât ppl just stfu
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okay. letâs talk about jayceâs monologue, since people are calling him ableist.
for context, not that it matters: I have a significant mobility disability and a progressive chronic illness which, even when managed, can kill me. Iâm not in exactly the same boat as viktor since my disease isnât terminal, but Iâve had very similar experiences to him. this shapes my perception of him and of this storyline.
this is the monologue:
Youâve always wanted to cure what you thought were weaknesses. Your leg. Your disease. But you were never broken, Viktor. Thereâs beauty in imperfections. They made you what you are. An inseparable piece of everything I admired about you.
first, it should be noted that âwhat you thought were weaknessesâ is not the same thing as âthings that are good.â jayce is not saying that viktorâs disease is or was a good thing. what he is saying is that he admired (loved) everything that viktor was, which included the things viktor thought made him a burden or a problem. remember also that jayce almost doomed the world because he couldnât let viktor die; he would never imply that viktor dying was a good thing.
the next question, then, is whether viktor sees himself as a burden or not. I think itâs implied that he does â itâs certainly not unrealistic to think that viktor might have come to view himself, or at least his disease, as a burden and a flaw. disabled people often view ourselves that way either because of internalized ableism or because society constantly tells us that weâre burdens and that our bodies are abnormal and wrong. viktor displays behaviors that indicate internalized ableism, including hiding the fact that heâs coughing up blood from jayce the first few times it happens and generally refusing to be in the public eye in a way that is self-effacing and not just him being private. yes, he says in act 1 of season 1 that he believes in himself, but he does also call himself a cripple in a dismissive way in that same scene; also, he doesnât have the disease at that point. arguably the entire scene where he runs despite clearly being in pain is an example of his internalized ableism, but thatâs another post.
more evidence for viktorâs perception of himself being negative is that he clearly has a sense that he doesnât deserve to be loved (specifically by jayce, but maybe also in general). we see this when he asks jayce why heâs still persisting in saving him. we see this with his generally self-effacing behavior. we see this with the fact that in all of season 1, the only person he allows to touch him is jayce, and that the only person he actively touches in the entire show is jayce. viktor is reserved and not good with his emotions, which is a huge part of his arc this season. all of these behaviors point to him having a negative self-perception.
I think itâs important to really consider how jayce perceives viktor and how viktor perceives himself. I donât think this season handled everything perfectly, but I think they handled this very well. viktor has been written with a fullness and complexity that most disabled characters donât ever get. him being morally grey doesnât mean heâs âproblematicâ or âbad representation.â obviously Iâm only one disabled person, but I really love jayce and viktor and I think their story is beautifully written.
#arcane#arcane spoilers#jayvik#viktor arcane#jayce talis#whenever a new season of arcane comes out it spawns the most heinous discourse about ableism#Iâm on chemo I donât have the time for this. alas i care deeply about these animated pixels
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Take a Chance with Me
zayne x fem!reader
summary: zayne gets called into work, so you bring him dinner.
cw: nsfw (18+) - mdni!!, established relationship, smut, fluff, handjob, oral sex, p in v, office sex
wc: 4.4k
a/n: based on one of zayne's text messages! he's so domestic boyfriend core. this is basically just some soft, fluffy smut before i write a dawnbreaker angst fic :3
also on ao3!
Akso Hospital is quieter at night than it is in the day.
Youâd been expecting the bustle of nurses and doctors when Zayne had texted you saying heâd been called in on short notice, preparing yourself for some sort of emergency. Thankfully, it didnât seem that was the case, most likely a pressing surgery that had come up for Zayne.
Sometimes, you wished heâd take more days off. It was a little selfish to want to be wrapped up in Zayneâs arms all the time, but you couldnât help yourself, the comfort and warmth his body provided was like no other. It was what you had been doing earlier that night, cozied up next to him on the couch, with a fluffy blanket pulled up over you both as heâd spoken to you about one of his past surgeries.
Zayneâs voice had a certain lull to it, the low murmur of his voice making your eyes droop until youâd curled up into his chest, face pressed into his neck and fallen asleep before the takeout you had ordered even arrived.Â
Jennaâs missions had kept you on your toes for the entire week, your body exhausted and dazed under the constant stress of fighting Wanderers. Zayne gave you the solace of being able to unwind, although your boyfriend was as stern as ever, he was everything you needed.Â
That was until youâd woken up and realized he was gone. Zayne had made sure you were tucked in, a pillow placed under your head comfortably, and your hair brushed away from your face. Youâd been disappointed, but the moment you were awake, you couldnât find it in yourself to go back to sleep, no matter how hard you tried.
Itâs why youâre here now, the takeout bag clutched in hand with a couple of paper plates and forks stuffed inside, as you wait patiently for the elevator to drop you off at Zayneâs floor of the hospital.
And of course, I canât wait to see the person delivering it.
Zayneâs text flashes through your mind, and your grip on the bag of takeout tightens. It wasnât fair how a simple line of text could make your heart race and your mind swirl with emotion, a sense of yearning taking root within you.Â
You spy Yvonne sitting at the front desk and you give her a small wave before approaching her.
âHi,â Yvonne greets, smiling up at you, âhere to see Doctor Zayne?â
You nod in response, holding up the bag of takeout. âHe got called in before we could have dinner, so I figured Iâd just bring it to him.â
âThatâs nice,â Yvonne says, her fingers tapping against the keyboard, âDoctor Zayne finished up his surgery about an hour ago. Heâs probably resting in his office.â
âThank you, Yvonne,â you chirp, giving her smile and another wave before making your way towards Zayneâs office.
Itâs tucked away into the corner, his name engraved on the plaque that sits adhered to the surface of the door. The doorâs unlocked, but youâre not surprised, he probably left it open for you. Turning the handle, you poke your head in to find Zayneâs head resting on his outstretched arm against his desk.
His eyes are closed, so you step in quietly, trying not to rustle the bag of takeout too much and let the door lock behind you with a quiet click. Zayne remains motionless and you tiptoe towards him, setting the bag down beside his desk. He looks peaceful like this, his lashes kissing his cheeks, face relaxed as his chest rises and falls with every breath.
Youâre not quite sure what you did to deserve someone like him. Zayne is sickeningly gentle and even more sickeningly patient with you. He treats you like youâre precious because to him, you are. Youâre more precious to him than any award he could be given, more precious to him than the highest praise he could receive from any senior doctor in Linkon and beyond. Youâre the only thing that truly matters to him.
Zayneâs devotion runs deep. It soothes your frayed nerves, and has lodged itself inside of you deep within your viscera. Sometimes, you think about clawing out the protocore-embedded heart in your chest and handing it to him. Zayne would take care of it, youâre sure, as he does now.Â
He stirs for a moment and you still, slowing your breathing so as to not wake him. Your hand reaches out, brushing his hair out of his eyes, fingers tracing the curve of his cheek. Zayneâs nightmares had gotten less frequent recently and you were thankful for it. He needed the rest. You lean in a little closer, unable to help yourself, letting your lips brush across his cheek in a fleeting kiss.
The hand on your wrist startles you for a moment before you realize Zayne is awake, his head lifting lazily and his eyes blinking open blearily.
âYou came,â he murmurs, voice laced with sleep.
âI said I would,â you say softly, cupping his cheek and smoothing your thumb over it. Zayne leans into your touch, letting out a heavy sigh as though some impossible burden were lifted off of his shoulders. You watch as his eyes flutter shut and let him nuzzle into your palm, his lips kissing the inside of your wrist.
Breaking through the relaxed atmosphere, your stomach growls and you flush, cheeks heating up. Zayne lets out a low laugh, his arms wrapping around your waist to pull you onto his lap.
âYou shouldâve eaten,â Zayne says, brushing his hand over your hair.
âI wanted to eat with you,â you mumble, pouting petulantly.
He hums, reaching for the bag of takeout, taking out the plates and forks along with the food. Itâs impossible to stop yourself from nosing into his cheek, lips pressing soft kisses along his jaw and across the expanse of his cheek.
âI missed you.â
âItâs only been a few hours since I last saw you,â he muses, tilting his head up to meet your eyes.
âSo? I still missed you,â you reply, arms tightening around his neck.
A smile tugs at his lips, a knowing look in his eyes. He presses the fork of food up to your lips and you open your mouth obediently, letting him feed you. Zayne rubs his hand up and down your back from time to time, his lips pressing against your cheek with every bite he feeds you.
You curl into him when he finishes feeding you, letting your face find its way back home into the crook of his neck, carved out just for you. Zayne tightens his arm around your waist, thumb stroking over the curve of your hip every now and then as he eats.
âI love you,â Zayne says quietly, the fork settling against the plastic takeout container.
âI love you too,â you say, trying to press yourself closer into the heat of his body.
It frustrates you, not being able to be as close to him as you want. The sense of it not being enough, despite being flush against him, gnaws at you. Zayne knows this of course, can see the little downward pull of your lips whenever you get like this and try to meld your body against his as though youâre trying to burrow through his clothes and into him. Heâd let you, if it was possible, keep you safe behind the curve of his ribs and close to his heart.
He slides his hand into your hair, cupping the back of your head to tilt it upwards. You smile up at him fondly, eyes fluttering shut when he brushes the tip of his nose against yours.
âI love you,â Zayne repeats, kissing the corner of your mouth.
âI love you t-â
Your voice is muffled when he slots his lips over yours, drawing you into a slow kiss. Itâs sweet, the way he presses his lips to yours in a tentative question as though asking for permission even though he knows youâll give it to him. Your head tilts, your hand sliding into the softness of his hair, nails scraping against his scalp gently. Zayne shivers and leans into you further, his hand squeezing at your waist.
Longing unfurls in your gut, the slow, syrupy sweetness of his kiss sinking through your flesh and encasing your soul in a warm embrace. Youâre shifting on his lap, moving your body so that you straddle him, knees bracketing his hips. Zayne chases after you when you break away, not letting you leave him for long, guiding you into another kiss.
His hands have begun to drift, smoothing up over the skin of your thighs, squeezing at the flesh before sliding under to grab at your ass. You smile against his lips, fingers splaying across his throat before dragging down to hook into the knot of his tie. You tug downwards, loosening his tie from around his neck.Â
âWe canât,â he whispers, glancing towards the door.
âI locked it,â you murmur, kissing him softly, âplease, Zayne?â Your fingers go further, beginning to unbutton his shirt all the way. âI need you.â
Zayne stares up at you and sees the neediness in your expression, the haze that comes over your face whenever you ask him for his cock. He finds that he can never deny you.
âOkay,â Zayne says quietly, squeezing your arm, âokay, sweetheart.â
You palm him through his trousers, feel him beginning to grow in the confines of his pants. Zayne tries to bite back the noises you elicit from him, but itâs impossible when you look at him like that, your eyes all starry and cheeks flushed.Â
âYouâre always taking care of me,â you whisper, palming his bulge a little more firmly, âlet me take care of you now, Zayne.â
Zayne lets out a shaky breath and you smile, pecking his lips gently. Pulling his belt buckle free, you undo the button to his trousers, dragging the zip down to see his boxers. Thereâs a dark spot on the fabric and the sight has you licking your lips, grasping his half-hard cock through his boxers.
He lets out a strangled groan, his head falling back against his chair, hips bucking up to chase more of your touch.
âYouâre teasing me,â Zayne grits out, his knuckles white with how tightly heâs gripping the armrests of his chair.
ââm making you feel good,â you correct.Â
Your hand pulls his boxers down, and his cock slaps against his abdomen, thick and tip flushed prettily. Zayneâs fully hardened now, the tips of his ears reddening as you wrap your hand around his cock.
âFuck-â he pants, running his hand through his hair, âd-donât stop.â
âNot going to,â you whisper, hand tightening around his cock.
Zayne groans again, his thighs falling open a little more. Your other hand cups his heavy balls, massaging them gently, lips finding his again as his pre-cum wets your hand. He kisses you desperately, hips bucking up into your hand. Zayne pushes at the straps of your dress impatiently, pulling it down along with your bra to find your breasts.
âSo pretty,â Zayne murmurs, hand splaying across your back to make you arch into him.
He mouths across your collarbone, all the way to your sternum before drifting down to try and stuff the entirety of your breast into his mouth. A breathless laugh leaves you, thumb swiping over the sensitive tip of his cock. Zayneâs thighs jump, his grip on you tightening, tongue alternating between flicking over your nipple and swiping over the whole of your areola.
Spit drips from his mouth, a thin strand connecting his glistening lips to your hardened nipple. You catch it with your thumb, feeding it to him, letting him suck your thumb into his mouth. He moans around it and you whine, cunt clenching at the feeling of his warm mouth over your skin. It has you feeling debauched, your own mouth opening to let a glob of spit drip down and onto his cock. Zayneâs cock twitches and he presses himself against you, his face tucking into the crook of your neck as he pants.
âSweetheart,â he grunts, his cock fucking into your hand, âyou feel so good.â
You mewl in agreement, hand slipping into his hair again. Zayne lets out a low whine, his eyes fluttering shut as he curls his own hand around yours, tightening your grip. You move your hand faster, swipe your thumb over his fat, leaking tip more frequently and tug at his hair to tilt his head and kiss him.
âYouâre throbbing,â you whisper, lips brushing over his with every word.
âYou tend to have that effect on me,â he replies hoarsely.
His cock throbs almost on cue, another glob of pre-cum spilling down the side of his length. You squeeze your hand tighter, dragging it upwards to see more pre-cum spilling out of him the tighter you squeeze. Zayne sounds utterly gone, mouthing at your chest to distract himself, lips wrapping around your other breast this time.Â
He stares up at you, amber-green eyes shining in the light as his mouth stays enveloped around the fat of your breast. You bite your lip, giving him a dazed smile and lowering your head to nudge your nose against his. Zayne forgets about your breast, tilts his head up to meet your lips in a sloppy kiss.
âCum for me, Zayne,â you whisper sweetly, kissing the tip of his nose, âwanna see you cum.â
Zayne moans unabashedly, his heart fluttering at your words. His hips buck up one last time before he cums, squeezing at your sides roughly as his forehead falls against your shoulder. Hot, thick cum smears across your hands and you hum happily, giving his cock one last teasing pump. Zayne shudders at the sensation, grunting softly as he catches your wrist to stop you from playing with his sensitive cock.
âYou made a mess, Doctor Zayne.â
He huffs out a laugh, leaning back in his chair. You stay perched on his lap, watching as his cock softens. Zayne takes your hand before you can lick his cum off of your palm, his handkerchief swiping over your sullied palm and fingers, cleaning your skin.
Zayne kisses you again, squishes your cheeks to make your lips pucker out for a moment and smiles at the sight. You frown when he moves you off of him only to realize that heâs standing up as well, pushing your shoulders gently to make you sit down on his chair.
He sinks to his knees and you bite your lip, body taut with anticipation. Zayne pulls your socks off, his thumbs pressing into the arch of your right foot. You sigh at the sensation, eyes slipping shut.
âYouâre beautiful,â he whispers, placing a reverent kiss to your ankle.
Your heart lurches, lips trembling as he caresses your calf. Zayne kisses up the length of your leg, up your shin and past your knee, his fingers squeezing at your flesh. He drags his lips across your inner thigh, landing soft kisses to your skin. His scarred hands graze over your panties, knuckles pressing against your swollen clit for a moment before he kisses your panty-clad pussy.Â
Zayne repeats the same sequence of actions for your other leg as though he were worshiping you. A part of you wants to cry at his display of affection. Thereâs a lump in your throat with how nicely heâs treating you, but you swallow it down, losing yourself in the fond gaze he gives you.
âYouâre too good to me,â you whisper, fingers running through his hair.
âIâm not,â he replies, kissing your pussy again, âI just love you.â
You swallow harshly and Zayne smiles, his fingers pulling down your panties. He thumbs apart your folds and lets out a shuddering breath when he realizes how wet you are.Â
âAll for me,â he murmurs, watching the clench of your pussy around nothing, âyouâre all mine.â
You whine in agreement, back arching as he licks over your cunt. Zayne kisses your clit and buries his face into your pussy, licking and sucking without abandon. You can barely stay on the chair with how much youâre squirming and writhing under his mouth. Zayne winds his arms around your thighs and holds you in place, his mouth making lewd noises as he makes out with your pussy until your cries grow louder.
You hope his office is soundproof, but when Zayne sucks your sensitive clit into his mouth, you lose any sense of where you are, letting out pitchy, shuddering gasps as your feet press up onto your toes, digging into his back.Â
âZayne!â you cry, tugging at his hair roughly. He groans into your pussy, enjoying the sting of pain across his scalp. He buries his face deeper, kissing and licking until your pussy is puffy and slick is pouring out of you uncontrollably. âN-nghhh- no, Zayne. You- you have to fuck me!â
âOkay,â he rasps, pulling back when you tug at his hair, âup, my love, get up.â He taps your thighs and you stand up on shaky legs, pulling him closer by his tie to kiss him.
Zayne kisses you as you paw at his broad shoulders, pushing his shirt off to grasp at his muscled arms and back. He squeezes your waist, kneads the fat at your hips before heâs spinning you and bending you over his desk.
Your dress is flipped up, a squeak escaping your lips when he brings his hand down, slapping your ass. A giggle makes its way out of you and you rise up on the tips of your toes, wiggling your hips and ass for him playfully.
Zayne groans at the sight and slaps your ass again. His fingers spread apart your asscheeks, his eyes feasting on the sight of your glistening, puffy pussy again. You cry out when you feel him shove his face back into your pussy, licking over you messily and without abandon until you reach back and push at his head weakly.
You let your hips sway back and Zayne grasps his cock, pressing it against your greedy cunt. He curses as your pussy sucks him in, his hand balling up the fabric of your dress into one hand, keeping you spread as he watches you take his cock, inch after inch.
You let out a strangled gasp, the air being punched out of your lungs as he fills you up. Zayne is big and thick, his cock splitting you open, forcing your pussy to take him, carving the shape of his length inside of you. Your nails dig into his desk and neither of you seem to care as a few patient files slip off of the edge of the desk, the paper fluttering to the ground.
âAlways so tight,â he hisses out, his hand curling over your hip, âsuch a good girl for me, sweetheart.â
Your head falls against the wood of his desk, teeth sinking into your knuckles as you try to muffle your noises. Zayne notices and lets out a tsk, his arm reaching for yours and bringing it behind your back.
âNone of that,â Zayne chastises, âI want to hear you, my love.â
He does hear you when he presses your lower back down, his hips thrusting forward. You cry out, moaning and mewling as his cock sinks into you repeatedly. Zayne drapes himself over your back, kissing up your spine and landing a soft kiss to your shoulder, hips humping into your ass. The squelch of your cunt should be embarrassing, but it happens whenever Zayne fucks you now, you get so horribly wet whenever you see his cock and he touches you.
You turn your head back to kiss him and Zayne groans into your mouth, licking into your mouth before heâs moving back to fuck you properly. Your knees would buckle if you werenât bent over the desk. His name plate inches closer to the edge of the desk with every thrust Zayne delivers to your pussy.
Zayne pants and grunts; you look back to find his face flushed, his eyes closed and brows drawn together tightly. He looks handsome, face twisted with pleasure and want; unadulterated passion.
âZayne- o-oh yes-â you whimper when he pins you down, his hands grasping your hips roughly.
He ups his pace, the desk rattling, his belongings hitting the floor. Each snap of his hips leaves you reeling and youâre sure youâre seeing stars in the darkness of your closed eyes.Â
âGood girl,â he groans, unable to stop himself from landing another slap to your ass, âmy good girl- fuck- I love you so, so much, sweetheart.â
Youâre practically sobbing, walls clenching around his cock so tightly that heâs cupping your jaw and drawing you up so that your back is flush against his chest. Zayne bends his knees and fucks up into you. Your nails scrape against his arm, head falling against his shoulder as his hand slips down to rub your clit.
âTake it,â Zayne whispers, nipping your earlobe, âtake it, baby.â
His calloused fingers on your clit too much and your body is seizing up, the coil of pleasure inside of you snapping until you moan loudly, his hand slapping over your mouth when the beginnings of a squeal make its way out of you with how oversensitive you are.Â
Your body shudders as you cum, and you try to push his hand away from his clit but he sinks his teeth into your shoulder in warning, rubbing tight circles until he cums, his low grunts filling your ear as his hips slow into a stuttering mess. Zayne bends you over the desk again, shuffles forward until his hips are flush against your ass, balls pressed against your clit, his cock stuffed inside your pussy snugly.
âI love you,â you whine, feeling his hot cum fill you up.
âI- I shit-â Zayne gasps, thrusting his hips forward a few more times as he feels your walls clenching around him tightly, milking every drop of thick cum from him, âHah- I l-love you too,â he stammers, slumping over you.
You mewl under his weight, his softening cock slipping out of you. Zayneâs cum mixed with your arousal drips down your thighs, smearing against your skin. He lifts himself up after a few moments of panting, using his desk for support. You turn around, rising up on shaky legs and even shakier toes to cup his cheeks and kiss him.
Zayne wraps his arm around your waist, pulling your body flush against his. He deepens the kiss, lowers his head for you so that you can sink down flat onto your feet again. Your tongue tangles with his, hands stroking over his hair soothingly as you give yourself to him, body and soul.
You can feel his smile against your lips, the drag of his lips across your cheek and the side of your head to press several kisses to your forehead.
âI hope your office is soundproof, Doctor Zayne,â you whisper, wrapping your arms around his middle and letting your chin rest on his chest.
âI hope so too,â Zayne says, flushing lightly.
You laugh, kissing the underside of his jaw. You help him pull his shirt on again, buttoning up the front of it and tighten his tie again. Zayne wipes the insides of your thighs with a few tissues, discarding them in the bin beside his desk, helping pull up your panties over your hips.
He fixes the straps of your dress, fingers brushing over your shoulders gently and the place where his teeth had sunk into you.
âTake the day off tomorrow,â you say to him as you help gather the patient files that had fallen off of his desk.
âYou know I canât,â he sighs, shaking his head.
You pout, widening your eyes and batting your eyelashes up at him in an attempt to give him the most pleading look you can muster.
âPlease?â you say, sidling up to him again, âyouâre overworked, Zayne. Take the day off, hm? We can relax together.â
Zayne stares down at you, his lips pursing for a moment. It never takes much convincing. As soon as the words are out of your mouth, he feels compelled to listen.
âYouâre a terrible influence, sweetheart.â
You smile up at him giddily, wrapping your arms around his neck. ââm just taking care of my lovely, handsome, perfect boyfriend.â
âFattening up my ego, huh?â Zayne asks, dipping his head to steal a kiss from you.
âNo,â you say, shaking your head. Your voice softens slightly. âI- I do mean those things, Zayne.â
Zayne falters at the hint of vulnerability in your voice. He can see that youâre shy about it with the way your eyes dart away from his, you always have been whenever confessing your more heart-felt feelings.Â
âIf you insist,â he says quietly, trapping your chin between his fingers to bring your eyes to meet his again. âBut I think youâre the perfect one.â
You flush at his compliment, swatting his chest. He laughs, grabbing your fist to press a firm kiss to your knuckles. Zayneâs laugh fades when he stares at your hand, his brows furrowing for a moment.
âWhatâs wrong?â you ask, your own brows furrowing as you stare at your bare hand. Thereâs nothing on it, nothing of concern anyways.
âAh,â Zayne clears his throat, giving you a smile, âitâs nothing.â
Itâs strange. He canât help but think your left hand looks oddly bereft in the light.Â
Zayne thinks a ring would fix the problem.Â
He dips his head, pressing another chaste kiss to your lips as he takes your hand, leading you out of his office, letting Yvonne know that he wouldnât be available tomorrow.
Zayne drives you home, despite your insistence that you could drive instead, his head shaking sternly as heâd ushered you into the passengerâs side. Youâre curled up in bed with him, blankets pulled up over both you, the heat cocooning you in.Â
âDespite your Evol, youâre so warm,â you mumble drowsily, face pressed into his chest.
âThat may be because of the blankets,â Zayne says, amused.
You scoff, but you donât have it in you to come up with some witty remark, instead letting him play with your hair.
âIâll make you breakfast tomorrow,â you slur, body relaxing further when he scratches your scalp gently.
âI want to spend the morning in bed with you,â he whispers, watching as your eyelids slip shut.
Itâs only half the truth. Zayne does want to spend the morning in bed with you, but he also wants something⊠more.
âI want to spend the rest of my life with you.â
Youâre asleep when he whispers the words, his lips brushing your forehead.
It doesnât matter.Â
Youâll hear them properly when he gets down on one knee.
#zayne smut#zayne#zayne x reader#love and deepspace zayne#love and deepspace#lnd smut#lnd zayne#lnd#zayne x you
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pls pls plsss write smth where fem reader and se-mi meet at the games and fall for one another? w the reader having a sort of bubbly and cute personality! tysm đ«¶đ«¶
ft. se-mi x f! reader â squid game
â°â⧠falling for your cute and bubbly personalityâ0.7k words
contains: fluff! reader is a sweetheart, asking you out
†author's note: i was so in love with her this entire season like i couldnât stop giggling every time she showed up on screen
you seem to be able to create friends even in this impossible situation, she notes as she watches you with amused eyes while you flutter around the room from group to group like a pretty butterfly flying from flower to flower. thereâs at least one person in the dozens of teams who you know by name and not number, and even if you didnât, you thought all of them were deserving of a drop of sunshine that was your personality. you made even the most difficult people crack a smile with how infectious your energy was and how sweet you were even in these murder games, and it made her indifferent heartbeat a little faster whenever it was her turn to have your attention. who wouldnât feel that way when there was such a cute girl who reminded her of the princesses from those cartoons she watched when she was little?
âse-mi unnie!! how are you holding up?â
she hadnât seen the real light of the sun in days, yet your smile shone even brighter than the morning star and she briefly wondered if she would be blinded if she looked directly at it. you were like a doll in the sense that it seemed to be permanent, but after seeing the look on your face after the first game where dozens died like they meant nothing, she now knows you were simply spreading some much-needed love to others as a way to cope with the traumatic experience like the sweetheart you were.
âiâm doing okay, i just wish the food tasted betterâ come sit next to me,â she commanded, patting her free hand against the open spot on the mattress because she wanted as much of your time as possible.Â
âwell, itâs kimbap, so you canât really go wrong with it!â you obediently climbed onto the bed with her, sitting so close that she could smell the artificial flower-scented soap of the shower you took a couple of hours ago. âwhen we get out of here, you should come over to my place and iâll cook you some food! iâm not as good as my grandma, but itâs a lot better than the cold stale stuff they serve here.â
âthat would be great.â she liked the idea of coming over to your place, already able to imagine your room full of stuffed animal collections and lace curtains, although she would much prefer it if she came as something more than a friendâ but now that she thinks about it, did you even like girls in that way like she does? you didnât really express romantic interest in girls, but you exactly didnât show any for guys either, being more of a little sister figure for them all rather than a potential love interest like she saw you as.Â
there was only one way to tell, so se-mi did what she did best, and that was flirting with girls.Â
âgod, i wish this could be over already,â she sighed as she leaned over to your side to rest her head on your shoulder. âi would love to come over to your place, we could have a spa night and watch romance movies until morning.â
as soon as the words left her mouth, she felt heat start to radiate off your face. âl-like a date?â
âwell, only if you want it to be a dateâŠâÂ
âw-well⊠um⊠i would⊠really, really like that⊠um, mrs kang is calling for me! iâll talk to you later!â you stuttered as you rushed off in the direction of the old lady and her son, covering your face with your hands and running away like an embarrassed anime girl. she watched carefully as you told them something in a clearly excited tone before smacking the man with the glasses when his head snapped in se-miâs direction, but they both seemed very happy for you which made her smile knowing you were on board
âgoddamn it, why is everyone pulling cute girls except for me?!â an annoyingly familiar voice from a certain purple-haired rapper started. âwhat am i doing wrong? iâm thanos for crying out loud, i should be getting swarmed!â
âyou might want to work on your technique.â
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NEED to know your thoughts on a yandere bill cipher
â ïž Listen, pal, I KNOW why you're reading this. You've got a crush on YOURS TRULY! That's right, buddy, the cat's outta the bag! Well, not like the cat was ever really in the bag to begin with. What? Didn't think my all-seeing eye would spy you making goo-goo eyes at artistic depictions of me? AHAHA, aw, hey! Nothing to be embarrassed about. It's not like I can blame you, I mean, have you met me? A winning personality, great sense of humor, beautiful singing voice - I'm a total catch! And between you and me, you have better taste than the rest of your speciesâ population.
đ There are probably numerous reason why you like stuff like this: The obsession, the possessive behavior, the VIOLENCE. Sure sounds like romance to ME! But as for you⊠Is it the abandonment issues? Lack of validation in your life? Feeling misunderstood and ostracized by the world? Loneliness? A desire for an escape into a fictional world? Or are you like me? Is romance just no good without the true passion of twisted devotion and obsession? There's no need to LIE! We're kindred spirits, you and I.
â ïž I know just how you feel. You've been kicked down, laughed at, and made to feel small. You've gone unappreciated by blind MORONS who wouldn't know greatness if it melted their eyeballs out their ears. Because you are MEANT for greatness. You are meant for something more, and I bet it burns you to know that. That you're better than all of them. That they're nothing without you, and they DESERVE nothing. They deserve to BE nothing. I know just how you feel because I was in your place. Surrounded by flat minds in a flat world with flat dreams. HA, and I sure showed them. WHO'S LAUGHING NOW, HUH? ME!!!!!!
đ The point is, I know you. I've had my eye on you for quite a while, kid. Q U I T E A W H I L E. And might I say, out of all the flesh bags that have clogged my vision over the centuries, YOU'RE clearly the best looking outta all of âem, hot stuff. But looks aren't everything, of course! You've got a personality to match. Gotta admit, it's cute how you get so invested in your interests, the little hobbies you pick up, just watching you go about your day is like the universeâs greatest reality TV show starring my favorite person in the multiverse! OH, I could just decaptiate you and nuzzle your fleshy little head in an approximation of a kiss right now!!!
â ïž So, c'mon, just let me in. Shake my hand! Let's make a deal. No matter how big or small! And itâs not just for the purpose of liberating your dimension, no. I want to really get under your skin. To feel what it's like to be in the body of my favorite person. As close as two beings can get, closer than you can get with unworthy specimens of your own kind, more intimate than any experience in the world. I want to be that close to you. Because you're mine. You're MY HUMAN and NOTHING WILL CHANGE THAT. Y'HEAR ME?
đ So, you might as well accept that you and me are destined, kid. The signs are all there. So, if I were you (and I could be, if you'd just let me), I'd do this the easy way. Because right now, there's two ways this can go down. The easy way: You summon me, and we make a deal. Anything your precious human heart desires - and more! You'll be my precious human pet, my puppet, my toy. Mine to own and have rule beside me! You'll prove everyone who put you down wrong! Anything you want - love, money, fame, worship, vengeance - it'll all be yours, and I'll give it to you. Because I want you to be happy. Because I want what's best for you. Because IâM the only one who actually cares about you. Everything you wanted will be yours. And there'll be an eternal party to celebrate our eternal love⊠Or, you could do this the hard way. Cause I'm gettinâ outta here one way or another. And when I do, well⊠I don't think you'd like being locked up in The Love Cage to be TORTURED until you reciprocate my feelings and see the light. I'd say I wouldn't want to, but that'd be lying. So, it's probably not a good idea to give me more of a reason to. So, whaddaya say? You know you deserve the best. Shake my hand and join the winning team. Either way, you're mine.
#yandere headcanons#yandere x reader#yandere gravity falls#gravity falls x reader#gravity falls x you#yandere bill cipher x reader#yandere bill cipher#bill cipher x reader#bill cipher x you#yandere imagines#yandere#x reader#violence cw#violence tw#torture mention#unreality tw#unreality#paranoia tw#paranoia inducing
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that's her hand, my bunny ears
id never have been able to break free and begin seeing myself as a girl and as wanting that, wanting to be such a feminine beast
id never have been able to explore being trans without her
maybe not never, but she's why i got there sooner, she's why i could see myself in those early days, she's who had my back
she saw me being a woman, or whatever i am, as good and happy and beautiful. she was who made me really see it as something that could be good instead of something awful and a nuclear-level wrong.
she's why transness and me being a transfem, she's why i could see it without only focusing on the shame and the humiliation that comes with knowing how people react to trans people, and how people react to some lumpy, awkward fat dude saying he wants to be a girl
but she was there, and she loved me and how i wore dresses and makeup and how i still held some womanly way about me when i was in jeans and a hardhat or a green apron, trying to act like a normal masculine guy even at starbucks
she was all that let me stop being afraid juuuust enough to see myself, and i know i dont owe all my life to her
but i when i think if she wasnt there and i think of struggling with that any more than i already was, any longer than i already was; it sounds fucking horrific
and it sounds horrific because it was, and being in the closet is torture and agony and suffering; but being too scared or ashamed or guilty to see yourself? to see only a closet when you look at yourself?
fuck that was hell. even if everything just gets worse and even if id have had some cushy $40k/yr salarycock job rn, if i wouldnt be able to see myself, to really see her, that sounds like a hell i just couldnt handle. And i know, i handled it and it was worse than anything. And it broke me worse and worse every year
I cant imagine the hell i was in going on longer than it did, i cant imagine how much it would suck to live like that, the whole thing just getting worse
maybe its not like that for everyone, but i was breaking, all of me was just breaking, and i cant imagine my life if she wasnt there to help me slow down the breaking, i cant imagine how much life wouldve sucked so much worse if she wasnt there with me, noticing the things i was noticing, noticing other things i didnt see, trying to see the things i saw and she didnt and loving it, feeling the joy of it, excited to see whatever it was pop out suddenly like a rodent blending into some dirt and wood and then you see a cute animal out of nowhere, it was kinda like that
she really helped me see myself, i owe her my life for that, and her love was true and she knew me, all of me, and she was always ready to accept it and love it and grow with it
she was why it eventually felt okay to be trans and to be myself and live instead of something else that isnt quite death
she ended that hell early, she said it was okay for me to be girly
she made me believe it was okay for me to be womanly and a girl and it was a miracle that she pulled that off
she was an angel
she remains a miracle
ill always miss you more than i can fucking stand
ill never stop
ill never stop missing you, kat
i owe my freedom to you, i owe you my life
funny, ha-ha, stupid irony or coincidence always sucks so bad when it wraps around you
but its true
you saved my life, kat
you made me feel safe
#can you believe it?#you made me feel so safe#isnt that just a dull blade on ripped flesh?#isnt that just my heart tearing open again?#im glad i could make you feel safe kat#i shouldve done it more often the way you liked it#the full and proper bedtime ritual#you deserved it every day#because goddamnit you made me feel so safe#and i couldnt have done this without you#i couldnt have braved all this shit without you there to make me feel safe#i got to live because of you#i got to see myself#that picture you had set as my contact picture in your phone#my contact picture in your phone for 2 or 3 years#that was a picture from the first time i felt like i could really see her#the first time i saw her and could really understand and i knew who i was for the first time#and you chose that as my contact picture. you said it was your favorite picture of me for so long#i didnt even tell you about what i was feeling and what had just happened in that photograph until it had been my contact pic for like#at least a year#but im so glad i told you#and im so glad we went to get italian food at that place where you liked to get squid ink pasta#every time you treated yourself it was precious to me#you got yourself something and just enjoyed it so earnestly and you always sat down to eat it with that jubilation you almost never see#like you were a little kid who was over the moon because we got you froyo from your favorite place#you were always ready to go so much farther for little treats and you were excited to drive for however long like it was a little vacation#even if it was 7 hours away it was worth it to get you your little treatie#i understand a lot better how much that meant to you#how often those little treats were some of the only happy times from when you were little#you were so innocently joyful and excited and you had this really childlike sense of joy
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HE SAW FOREVER SO HE SMASHED IT UP
katsuki bakugou x reader
the times bakugou broke your heart
heavily inspired by mbobhft
1) the denial
âare we breaking up?â
ââŠyeah.â
âoh.â
his reasons made sense. he had a job, a goal, a burning drive to prove himself as the best. he was burnt out, his fingers worked to the bones. he couldnât give you not just what you wanted, but what you needed. and that killed him more than it did you.
it made sense. the gears turned. the writing was on paper. like almost everything he did, it worked out. of course it worked out for katsuki bakugou- heâs the best.
it wasnât all that set in stone for you, however.
he could have given you a million more reasons before the tears spilled. âiâm an asshole.â true. âi donât treat you right.â fair. âyou deserve so much fuckinâ better, [y/n.]â yeah, he was right.
but you always liked to challenge the acceptable.
at first, it didnât hit you as hard as you thought it would. you walked through your room, too numb to pay mind to the tears that rolled down your cheeks, and silently packed up his sweaters into a box. the necklace he gave you, the âkâ pendant, came off your neck like a butterfly lands on a branch, knowing that its death is inevitable and doing nothing to stop it.
at night, you cried, and cried, and cried. you called him about 27 times. he never answered. he texted you to make sure you were okay, but your tear-blurred eyes kept you from seeing the keyboard clearly. you left him on seen and prayed that he was worried, prayed that his heart would explode at your lack of an answer, prayed to god that he would come over just to check on. suffice to say your prayers were left unanswered.
you thought heâd call. but he didnât. but your soul remained devoted, eyes glued to your phone screen and hands shaking. he has to call. he has to tell you goodnight. he has to tell you that youâre an idiot. he has to tell you he loves you. heâs going too, idiot.
right?
2) the anger
if he wanted you dead, why didnât he just say?
your heart burned for anger. for salvation. for revenge. you knew katsuki bakugou knew anger well, but he had no idea the way your soul flared like a whole new depth of hell.
you laid in bed, awake, eyes excruciatingly drive from crying your tear ducts may as well have been burnt off. memories of him haunted your brain while your fists tightened.
you regretted giving him your heart. your love. your late nights and early mornings. your fights, your passions, your 2ams and your smiles. you hated the way you let him draw the laughter out of you, how he showed parts of himself to you he had never shown anyone.
and those little things that made up your love, he was going to use on someone else. you knew it.
he was going to cook them his special fried rice his mom taught him how to do. he was going to teach them how to punch because he doesnât want them to get hurt- something he did for you. he was going kiss them how he kissed you, love them in a way that should have only been you.
but he shouldnât. in fact, he should look back at what you had, and regret every. single. thing. he did to let is end. he should regret everything he didnât do to keep you. he should burn alive from guilt. scream. cry. fight for his life while his body is doused in gasoline. attempt miserably to tear the fire off his skin while it burned him to a crisp. he should die screaming.
he should deserved it, after all. because he heard your screams, and put his headphones on.
3) the bargaining
please. you wailed. who do i have to talk to? what do i have to do to get him back!?
you suddenly thought of so many scenarios in your head, scenarios fuelled by false hope. things youâd do to kiss him one last time, to hold him, to love him and be loved by him. youâd dry the ocean water. youâd turn stones into gold. youâd bring him to heaven and back. youâd get out of bed. youâd compromise more. you wouldnât forget to kiss him. youâd love him. youâd love him so much harder. please.
suddenly everything seemed possible. if someone answered your calls, if someone made a deal with you, youâd offer up everything. you were sure youâd place everything on the line for him. you want it all back- his yelling, his snark, his nicknames, his attitude, his everything- no, your everything. youâd pluck out your own eyes for his red ones, or your heart for his heroic soul that loved you brighter than anyone else. being loved by katsuki bakugou was something you wouldnât trade for anything- turns out you couldnât trade it either.
4) the depression
everything smelled like him. your sheets blossomed into his sweet, burnt scent, the one that heâd leave behind whenever he slept over simply because he left you. all your jackets felt like his chiseled arms, wrapped around you as if youâd be gone in a moments notice. his voice was everywhere. the songs on the radio, the words you read on your phone, and the memories that played like your favourite movie soundtrack.
you wondered if he knew you couldnât get out of bed. sometimes you imagined him calling your ass lazy, and then dragging you out of bed with a kiss to your forehead and a breakfast he cooked for you. maybe then youâd rip off the sheets and face the day. but right now, your bed was the only place you could mourn.
it was cruel, in a sense. letting you fall in love with him only to leave. letting you fall in love with his stupid smug smirk, his laugh, his teasing, his anger, his unreasonable handsomeness, his millions of pet peeves and trigger words, his clinginess, his distance, his days and nights, ups and downs, his hate and love all tied into one. he made you love him, knowing you would never get to love another katsuki bakugou.
5) the acceptance
acceptance was bakugou realizing how badly he fucked up.
part 2 soon!
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"If we use force against our enemies, our allies will remember it": an exploration of the Archon Quest in DAtV.
Not everyone will have gotten this quest, as it's only avaliable if you saved Minrathous over Treviso. So let me start by setting the scene:
Rook has just found a secret list of Venatori plans in a Venatori vault. This includes a list of magisters who have been engaging in 'illegal slavery' and also a list of the backers of said magisters.
Dorian and Mae are arguing over how best to use this information. They have decided that one of them should become the Archon, however, they both have different ways they would go about it:
Dorian wants to 'crush our enemies by any means neccessary' - 'destory them and their networks by any means neccessary'. Maeveas describes this as 'swords and spies and blackmail; the devious means [Dorian] learned in the South'.
Mae wants to 'do this in the open. Show the people of Tevinter that we're here for them'. She wants to make this information public in order to 'inspire'.
Both will support the other, depending on what Rook decides. Both of them want to abolish slavery and get rid of the rule of Altus mages; 'the Soporati deserve a say in their own governance'. They say they have the same aims, but they would go about getting them in different ways.
Except...none of what they say actually makes any sense whatsoever.
Tevinter is Not a Democracy
Tevinter is not a demoracy. People do not 'vote' on who represents them.
Instead, there is a magesterium made up of magisters. These roles are hereditary (although you can have apprentice who take your title instead). You rule, because of your birth, or because you were lucky enough that somebody who rules because of their birth picked you.
There is not an election cycle. The magisters do not have to do anything to remain in power beyond making sure people aren't angry/scared enough to stage a coup.
Political factions exist within the magisterium, but you have to work to gain those who already are in it onto your side, you can't just get people to vote more of your faction in.
So....with this in mind, how is Mae's plan ever going to work.
Mae talks about wanting to do things out in the open. She wants to show Tevinter that politicans can be here for them. But those people...don't have a say. They can't meaningfully change things, or vote, or do anything beyond have a (probably violent) revolution.
And yet, we are led to believe that Mae's option will be the path of least resistence. Mae's option is 'working within the system'. What system? Mae won't be able to do anything, even if the public is on her side. It doesn't matter.
The magisters who are Venatori may die by the end of the game, or they may simply step down and give their titles to their children to avoid public disgrace. Maybe, maybe if people are angry enough, the heirs and apprentaces from other houses and magisters will take their place. But I don't see how Mae publishing this list of people and their backers will get her into power.
Especially in a country where slavery is legal. You know the people who would want Dorian and Maevearis's plans to succeed? Slaves. Because they're the only ones unlikely to be culturally indocronated to believe slavery is a good thing. Those a 'rung above slavery' like Krem, may also want their plans to succeed, but they'd likely have to be convinced, or have something happen to them (e.g. like how Krem's family struggled to remain in business because slaves can do their work for free so the products never cost as much) to push them into seeing all this. I highly doubt most people in this society as is would distinquish much between 'legal' and 'illegal' slavery. What even is illegal slavery? Taking people from other nations into slavery without the consent of said nations? That's most of the nations in thedas then. And if slave imports are continuing then surely everyone already knows that this is taking place and that people are arranging it.
AND EVEN IF THEY DID THERE ISN'T A DEMOCRACY FOR THEM TO VOTE MAE IN. To get Mae in, Mae has to convince the magisterium - and that includes convincing them to let her back in ON TOP OF convincing them to elect her as their ruler OR she has to have a violent overthrow backed by the people. That is the only way that 'inspiring' the people can succeed here.
Meanwhile, We have Dorian. Tarquin acts like Dorians plan will mean another Anders style chantry explosion, with things getting worse before they get better. But Dorians plan is vague to say the least. Blackmail? Okay. Working within his place in the magisterium? Now that makes more sense to me; if he can work within his place that might get him to be archon which would in turn allow him to potentially effect meaningful change from the top down with less tape around what he can and can't do.
But Mae implies Dorian is going to start killing people; 'if we use force against our enemies they will remember it'. But....what? Okay maybe Dorian plans to assassinate some people? But if he does, their kids will just get in. Maybe he just plans to threaten to assassinate people (interesting move as that's what got his father, but I think that COULD be an intersting direction for him) and that's what it means by blackmail etc. But if that's the case, is he really going to get to be Archon for long?
Dorians way looks way more like working within the system or...maybe turning the system into some of kind of dictatorship in order to make it a democracy so that Soporati can vote? Do ex-slaves get the vote in this world?
None of this makes any sense, their plans are so so so vague, and what they pitch and what they want means their pitches should be switched.
Who should be the Archon?
Towards the end of this place, Maevaris and Dorian say that a quater of the magisterium are Venatori. This is the implied quater that we have information on, and who needs to be taken out of the magisterium. But...okay, how?
In DAI, three of our companions (Vivienne, Leliana and Cassandra) are up for the role of Divine. But the reason they're up for the role despite all three of them being in some way a break with the past, is that there is nobody else. Everyone else who was up for the position died in the conclave explosion. All three of them have also gained large leaps forward in their reputation based on their actions in the inquistion.
But in DAtV....even if that quater are all killed in the final fight with the Gods, that means 75% are left over. I can see perhaps Dorian - who has maintained his seat in the Magisterium - being able to elbow himself into that power vaccum, win over the 75% and become the Achon. But Mae has been kicked out of the Magisterium already. She's lost her title. How is she going to get herself back in. As detailed above, it won't be by democracy. The Viper talks about her 'triumphent return' but nobody has actually given me a plan to get her to that triumphent return???
Basically; it makes very little sense that these two people are up for archon, even now we know the current one is dead. The archon is usually an inherrited title, either by blood or by being the apprentace of the previous Archon. The Archon can be voted in by only the magisterium if the archon dies without either of these things, however, so that's what they're going for here. But why would any of these 75% of magisters vote for Mae or Dorian?
And even if you argue that the Venatori list had the illegal dealings of more than just those 25% so Dorian and Mae could blackmail them for the position; firstly, Mae has already said she's not blackmailing anyone. So that leaves only Dorian. But the Magisters can pass their seats onto their children, instead of giving in to Dorians demands. That way even if Dorian exposes them, they're no longer in the Magisterium. Similarly, it surely is well known that the magisterium are dealing in 'illegal slavery' and surely even if it isn't, there are ways those within the Magisterium can use their money and power to pretend that they weren't involved with that. Polticians in the real world get away with these lies all the time!
Violence and Thedas
I'm not planning on making this point at length, but I do think the quote I opened this with also makes no sense for Dragon Age. 'If we use force against our enemies, our allies will remember it'.
In a game. Which is. About fighting enemies.
Like, this is a fighting game. We fight our enemies in this game. We don't sit down for tea with the Gods. We don't invite the red templars over to discuss politics. We don't ask the darkspawn if there's any way they won't do what they want.
We've been killing venatori for the WHOLE GAME by this point. We've ALREADY been using force.
I guess that the writers are trying to make a distinction between political violence vs. the rest of the game but uhhh. That doesn't really work either, especially in a game series which has had political violence pretty much at its core (we start with a game about CIVIL WAR and then move swiftly into a game where one of your companions commits an act of terrorism to inspire an overthrow of an unjust system) but also like. The implication that all groups who are bad are just 'evil' and have no motivations beyond 'power' and 'being evil' is dumb, and dragon age games used to be better than that. The Venatori, the Antam, the Crows, Butcher, Illario, The Grey Wardens, all of these people are playing with politics. Dragon Age games used to know this, they ahve a whole thing about 'the great game'.
But. Whatever. I said I wouldn't labour this point and I won't, but this quote makes no sense in a game where we've already spent the whole time using force.
(and also...isn't trying to abolish slavery perhaps a good thing to use force against? This quote implies that both the enemies (pro-slavery) and the allies (anti-slavery) have a similar moral standing which uhhhh i wouldn't say is true)
Why did this happen; some closing remarks
DAtV is vague enough about Tevinter politics that I feel you could, without knowledge of the previous games lore/the codexes believe the following points
slavery is a fringe practice in Tevinter
tevinter is a democracy
In this set of circumstances, their plans would make a lot more sense. Mae really could hope to get people on her side to vote out magisters who are engaging in 'illegal slavery' and other unmentioned things. She really could try and get elected on the promise of honesty and doing things differently, but still working within the system and eventually being Archon.
But this isn't the case. What's happening here is 21st century Demoractic (American Centric) politics are being placed onto a system which is essentially ancient Rome with absolutely no effort to try and make either confirm.
These days there are serious questions surrounding democracy, truth and lies we tell the people, whether its better to work 'behind the scenes' for a better world or not etc. These are all questions that have becoming increasingly relevant in the rise of the far right since 2016. And those who think the system need to change have MANY MANY arguments about whether we need to burn down the system, or whether we need to work within the system and with the backing of everyone to achieve our aims.
But that doesn't work in Tevinter. It doesn't mean anything.
I think the writers were trying to short hand some contempary politics into this world, were purposely vague about the parts of tevinter that don't fit that mould, tried to act like slavery was some form of modern discrimination that can be easily brushed to one side, and then just...released the game like that, with this choice.
But thinking about it for more than 5 seconds makes it SO STUPID. I literally spent ALL of that cutscene going 'wait what??? huh???' i watched it back three times before I understood what they were doing and why Mae and Dorians views were supposed to make sense before I wrote this post.
Another example of the writers not taking established lore/politics/culture in this game seriously. Another example of this game not taking its setting into account. I just. Yeah. This one really pushes me.
td;lr this storyline about who is the future archon doesn't work because Tevinter is not a democracy and they don't actually take into account the political implications, nor lay out actual political plans on how they'd achieve their aims.
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"Still super jealous as hell by the way.â
"Okay, now, can youâŠget outta my face?â Steve annoyedly swats a hand at Eddieâs chest and ducks out of his space.
Eddie sighs and shakes his head. "Why are you-" He purses his lips, thinks. "You donâtâŠyou still donât like me very much, do you?"
At that Steve stops walking, huffs out an annoyed breath and presses his eyes closed. He turns to Eddie, looks at him with an expression Eddie canât read and says, "No, Eddie. No, I donât."
Eddie just watches him for a second, not sure what to do, studies his face, the furrow between his brows, the clear discomfort in his expression.
He scoffs. Getting a little angry. "Jesus, man,â he says. "You just canât get over it, huh? And here I was rambling on about how you were actually a good dude after all, butâŠno, turns out Steve Harrington is still just as much stuck in his stupid high school mindset as I would have thought.â
Steve just looks more annoyed now, a slight shift in his eyebrow andâŠhe looksâŠfrustrated? A little? How does that make sense?
"You,â Steve says, voice low, but not because of the monsters, Eddie knows that much, "are unbelievable.â
Eddie blinks. "What?â
"Eddie, youâre the one who canât get over it,â Steve accuses him. "You always talk about that non-conformist shit and how people should just stop with the categories and drawers and labels but, dude, youâve never judged people that way yourself! I have been saved in your brain as this dumb idiot jock ever since youâve known me andâŠâ Steve huffs out an unbelieving breath. "And Eddie, I donât know what to tell youâŠbut youâve never been nice to me. Ever. And when Lucas made the basketball team, which is amazing, by the way, you werenât proud of him or supported him for that incredible achievement like you should have if heâs really one of your 'little sheepâ.â He draws quotation marks in the air. "You punished him for it. You said you canât make Hellfire? Fuck you. Iâm just gonna have the most important part of the campaign without you, because you know what, you donât deserve us anymore now that youâve joined the dark side. Now that youâve taken up aâŠa jock game. Because god forbid, somebody could actually ever enjoy playing sports.â
Eddie canât follow. His mindâs lagging behind, still stuck on Steve apparently knowing DnD terms and saying he was never nice to him and-
Steve takes another step back.
"Eddie, for as long as I can remember you hated me. And yeah, sure, I was stupid and I did some stupid things, butâŠâ he shrugs one sided. "But I donât think I deserve to be treated that way. I think I at least deserved a chance. And you never gave me one.â
Eddie blinks. "What do you mean I never gave you a chance, I-"
"Biology, sophomore year,â Steve interrupts him. "We were assigned lab partners. I tried to reallyâŠput all of it aside, tried to get to know you, because actually, Eddie, you know what? I was sort of obsessed with you. Because you were soâŠloud and so unashamedly yourself, I admired you so much. You didnât care about anything and you stood up for yourself and thatâs something Iâve never been able to do, my whole life. IâŠâ Steve looks down, sighs a little. "I let people push me around because itâs the only way I feel like I can be of use. But youâŠyou made me believe that maybe actually IâŠcould do it, you know? Like, tell Tommy H. off or somethingâŠâ He looks so hurt. Eddie kind of wants to die. "But youâŠyou acted like it was the worst thing ever, getting partnered with me. You didnât even look at me. YouâŠnever gave me a chance, Eddie. SoâŠsorry if one 'youâre actually a good dude, Harrington' doesnât make me forget all of that, make up for it. Because Iâm not so sure I believe you.â
Oh.
Oh no.
Eddie fucked up.
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its because theyre the closest thing the fandom has to twinks and fandoms explode if they cant ship two little skinny guys or something
I finished Super Paper Mario earlier today for the first time after 16 years of owning and adoring the game and
I have a question for any Limentio / Dimigi shippers out there.
Why
#sorry my friend sent this to me and we both laughed bc likeđ€yeah same. anyway this is my mean and mostly true answer#my answer where i give people benefit of the doubt is- (and i apologise for the length lol)#a lot of people are already drawn to spm because ofthe whole 'its the darkest mario game' and the high stakes of it#so getting to explore a fan favourites âdark sideâ is something people are already interested in- which is why mr l is so popular#and then dimentio usurping count bleck and in a lot of peopels eyes like 'being the chessmaster' gives him a layer of danger and intruigue#which is why he's so popular too. then u put these two 'heehee dark themes- high stakes' cocepts together into super dimentio#people lose their minds. they see it as a window to explore a dark side of a beloved character- with dmentio being a sort of corrupter i th#then it spirals from there into....whatever the hell they do with them. i dont get the fluff lol#personally i think that 'idk i get gay vibes from them and maybe somethig happened in the time they worked together' isnt like...#idk its a bit of a leap but its not the wildlest leap this fandom has made. people do 'heehee they hate each other- enemies to lovers' a lo#but i think i ur gonna do that u really need to own the ick of it. examine what it means#the 'guys. luigi isnt...himself right now he is literally hypnotised' like if ur gonna use that to further their charcters#by using it as a device to show dimetio cutting his bridges with people and deciing he's gonan hurt everyone aroudn him and do what he want#and then use it later for luigi to have to recover from and examine- both the trauma of being taken advantage of in such a moment#and 'why was hypnotised me about that. why did he go along with it' etc like idk i can respect that. bc its not abt the romance#its abt what it does to them and says abt them#BUT THE CRUCIAL THIGN IS YOU CAN GET THAT FROM OTHER PAIRINGS TOO!!!!!#you want to explore dimentio deeply hurting and manipulating someone to see how far he's falling? o chunks. floro sprout#you want luigi angst about him getting hypnotised and recovering from that. NASTASIA DID IT FIRST!!!#but o chunks is a big ole bear and nastasia is a woman and the fandom just arent into them. they have the least attention by far#and at the end ofthe day a lot of fans will go back to the guys theyre into- which...is usually the skinny twinks#i do NOT get dimigi outside of that shallow answer though im sorry. luigi just doesnt like him its entirely twink corruptign yaoi#or 'redeeming dimentio through luigi bc i want him to live or something'#also i say this as both a twink and a big enjoyer of mlm myself lol (and someone whos fave is dimentio)- it just doesnt make sense#i guess at my most charitable i could see- 'the person who dimentio hurt the most helpig him redeem himself' could be compellig#but that leading to romance doest interest me at all and also i think luigi deserves better than to have to reform that bastard lol#also i think its way more interesting if he never comes back lol i like the tragedy of it. he just hurts everyone around him#and then he's gone and they have to live with it#also side note if any shippers want to debate this with me i do not sorry <3 im giving my perspective then running thank u#mario
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Advent calendar: Day 17. Carrots
A/N: Kinda related, kinda not, but you should watch âHot Frostyâ on Netflix if you havenât, totally recommend it (itâs very ridiculous in the best way possible). Sorry for all the awful dialogue you are about
Snowman x fem!reader || questionable use of vegetables, temperature play (kinda), mentioned overstimulation
When your witch friend asked you to build a snowman with her, you thought nothing of it. It would be fun, the snow was fresh and everyone seemed cheerful around you as you built his round body. Your friend, though⊠She made hers to look a bit more realistic, less round and more angular, in a way that was giving uncanny valley vibes. But you thought nothing of it, why would you?
When she asked if you liked him, you started to suspect there was something special about him, but again, you thought nothing of it. And when she used the carrot to make a dick instead of a nose, you almost peed yourself laughing. It was just so stupid looking, all white and round but with a big carrot dick⊠You should have known better.
And then he showed up, alive and walking, knocking on your door and staring up and down at you like he was about to fuck you right there. His carrot dick was erected and pointing straight at you. You gaped at him as he smiled, stroking his dick slowly. You gaped some more, your eyes accidentally traveling down. That was an amazing carrotâŠ
No. Behave, you cannot fuck a snowman, you tried to remind myself.
âWait here,â you told the snowman, who only nodded. You grabbed your phone and dialed your friend. âWhy thereâs a living snowman at my door, dude?!â You screamed at her as soon as she picked up. The poor dude was looking at you as if you were his dream come true.
âCalm down, you seemed very lonely and I had a bit of extra magic lately⊠So I gave you my Christmas gift early. Do you like him? Have you tried him yet?â
âHave I tri- What the fuck?!â You must be dreaming, there was no way that was happening to you. You pinched yourself and blinked, but the snowman was still in front of you and your friend was still talking.
âHeâs ready for you, darling. He wants to treat you like the queen you deserve to be,â she explained, almost bored. You wanted to pull her hair until she was bald.
âYou did not send me a sex snowman,â you repeated, trying to make sense of what you were seeing and hearing.
âI did. Now I have to go, have fun!â She said before hanging up on you.
âWe are not fucking,â you told him, your frown so deep you could see your eyebrows.
âIâm going to feed my carrot to your hungry bunny,â he deadpanned, in a tone that you supposed was intended to sound sexy. It didnât. You struggled not to laugh, but his face was so serious you couldnât do that to him, he looked so hopeful.
You stared at him, his hand lazily stroking his carrot once again. You felt your face blushing. You really needed to get laid, your pussy was getting wet about a snowman and a carrot⊠But you had more pressing matters than your wet pussy.
âOne: you canât say things like that. And two: we arenât going to fuck.â His face fell and he stopped moving his hand, making you almost sad. Dang.
âWhy not? I can smell your juices.â He could what? âYou are hot for me and Iâm cold for you, we should do something about it.â How desperate were you that he sounded right? You did want to fuck a snowman⊠Fuck, there was something so, so wrong inside of you because you were considering taking him on the offer.
âI- We- You are a snowman,â you let out, not really having a point.
âAnd you are a human, but my carrot is very hard for you.â You chuckled, the absurdity of it all getting to you. But most of all, your strength to hold back disappeared with that affirmation. He was made for you, and you were very horny, and his carrot looked especially delicious right nowâŠ
âOkay,â you agreed, your pussy almost clapping with enthusiasm. It had been a long time since you were properly fucked and you were feeling the need for sure.
âOkay? Are you⊠are you sure?â He suddenly seemed very confused about your decision, as if all his bravado died the second you agreed to fuck him. You wanted to coo at him, but you decided there was a better choice.
You walked to him and kissed his half open mouth. He was cold, but at the same time his lips felt like velvet against yours as you devoured his mouth. He gave as much as received, deepening the kiss and circling your body with his arms. You were pressed firmly against his front and your nipples instantly hardened, he was so cold in such a pleasurable way⊠You didnât even know you had something for temperature play but good snowman if your pussy wasnât quivering thinking about his hard carrot pocking your stomach.
You parted, looking at him intently, but when you didnât find any doubt in his eyes, your choice was already made. âFuck me, my snowman,â you almost pleaded, your voice trembling as your pussy pulsated at the same rhythm as your heart.
âYour wish is my command.â He laid you on the floor, right in the middle of your living room. âAre you ready for my carrot?â He asked, as you tried not to giggle. You nodded, fearing if you opened your mouth you would laugh and he wouldnât give you his dick. And you needed it. You needed it so, so bad.
He entered you in one long thrust and you cried out in ecstasy. The contrast between your warm body and his cold skin was exhilarating and arousing, sending you to the stratosphere of pleasure. You didnât know what was about to happen, but the size and shape of his carrot ended up being fantastic. The almost pointy tip played with your cervix as the wide base made your pussy clench around it, rubbing against your G-spot in the most amazing way. It was the perfect sex toy, even better, he was like a breathing sex-toy and that made your brain turn a bit fuzzy at the edges, arousal so big it was maddening.
He started a punishing pace, his dick going in and out of you so fast and hard your whole body was moving across the floor. You had to hold onto the carpet (carpet burn be damned) to be still as he pounded into your welcoming heat. He kept moaning how warm and wet you were, how good your heat felt against his cold⊠And you could only chant âyes, yes, yesâ as he kept going.
And when you came like a tidal wave, your whole body convulsing as he kept fucking you. He didnât stop, he fucked you through it as he used his cold fingers to rub your clit, making you ascend in your pleasure even higher. You screamed his name, pulling at his ice hair and trying to hold for dear life as you kept coming and comingâŠ
And he kept going.
He fucked you many more times that night, his stamina endless as he kept using his clever carrot to pound into your G-spot as his cold fingers pinched your clit until you couldnât hold back orgasm after orgasm. It was the most intense pleasure youâd ever felt, and by the time you asked for a rest, he was smirking down at you, the smugness in his face making your overused pussy twitch in anticipation.
And then you remembered⊠You had to thank your friend. Damn it.
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