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"I had to know if I imagined things. And then I found your arrest records, you were just a kid…but the picture matched."
"Who...whose records did you find?"
Wanted to fill out a more detailed stat template and got carried away. The discord had a fun mugshot drawing prompt and it inspired me
#this took FOREVER and im totally procrastinating important shit to work on it but i had fun so its fine its totally fine#this was really fun#sorry corey for putting you through the torment nexus every time im stressed#another comparison of rebirth vs retri stats#this quote has been haunting me since I saw the mugshot drawing prompt#cuz COREY has never been arrested#theyre too paranoid and cautious for that#but they DO have a mugshot canonically#they dont look young enough in the photo imo but sidestep is supposed to look older than they really are so whatever#it was fun making these stat sheets look like some kind of weird file type the farm would use#corey would probably never have the guts to actually try to hack the farm and its probably impossible. but#whats the fun in having a tech step if you dont let them show off every now and then#plus it made for a neat retri stat sheet concept#corey rook#fallen hero#my art#oc lore#sidestep#fallen hero rebirth#fallen hero retribution#cw blood
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elona+ exists in a really weird design space, being a speed-focused turn-based rpg. the fact the speed stat scales high enough that the "turn" as a unit can mean anything from "an enemy attacks once" to "an enemy attacks 50 times in a chain, applying a stun to do it again before you can take a single step" is just so deeply, deeply interesting because of what it does to stopped time
stopped time is exactly what it says it is, and it's only as useful as the distance between the user and the enemy they're fighting. stopped time usually only comes in as an effect that freezes time for a single turn, so early on, when that distance is negligible, it's easy to wonder what the point of it even is
you get one free move without retaliation, without anything else being able to move, and that's really it. that's not useful when an enemy is doing maybe two turns to each of your turns on the high end
but as the numbers creep up, the actual utility of stopped time is really cool: a lot of fights actually do end up coming down to who's fastest, and stopped time completely negates that and declares the one using it "the fastest one, for one turn"
#elona+ has a very rigid idea of what a meta actually ends up being compared to other variants#but in fairness it's a very interesting idea of a meta as well because it expects you to do battle shounen shit by default#in fact it's kind of hard to talk about elona+ without outright calling it shounen because it invites that comparison VERY readily
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evil art trend jumpscare!!!!!! shoutout to @mifflebat for making me emotional with this art analysis omg
another version under the cut and a meme of self discovery lmao
#my art#evil art style challenge#THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR YOUR KIND WORDS MIFFLE!!!!! IT MEANS SO MUCH#A BEACH IN LATE SUMMER LIKE WHAT#THATS THE MOST AMAZING THING IVE EVER HEARD????? THANK YOU SO MUCH HOLY SHIT#rottmnt#rise of the tmnt#debated drawing them with zero posing in the evil version but figured thatd create too much change for a comparison#this was super fun lol
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i love crazy contrasting 1p2p in every way(not every way). so i always subconsciously have 2P rusame be friends. unlikely friends etc. in whatever weird school au theyre friends. meri was probably bullied until he started hissing at other kids or something while rus2 was just like huhh okay yeah okay what fine. rus2 found him in a broom closet and it was as awkward as it sounds. in the weird stuckin1Pcoldwar au i have theyre friends also in the torturous existence. 1P rusame is too weird life is too short lets tomodachi✌️
#in comparison 1p rusame would be school insane psychological games social competition nerds MID OFF#2ptalia#i like the jp fanart where 2p ame is pitiful and gloomy. its cute#a little wannabe edgy but spare him he was left in the rain in a cardboard box when he was 2 years old.#i keep imagining a gay school au sorry. im gonna say shit now#rus2 is blunt and kind of. bad at reading signals. accidentally drags him and meri into karaoke with ame(enigmatic popular kid)#meri is like fuck my life... but he has a killer bitch face so people are like uwaa scary... hes brooding...#rus2 is like ah sorry i forgot you never had a normal teen friendship and clung onto (nada) all the time#meri is always coping like these people... dont get it... hes half right#they go to karaoke and ame sings really off key#actually i have a common daydream where ame's elusiveness is really funny to meri#he's like hahahaha what the hell that kids crazy ahahaha. like laughing at a cartoon#and then somehow he keeps being approached by ame (slow trying to step away) hes like noo... i dont actually wanna get close to u at all...#meri and rus2 probably play observers theyre quiet kids who go hmm im nooticing!#observing 1p rusames weirdship that everybody can see but they don't think anyone notices their crazyship#and rus2 is like oh two people talking and interacting alot. theyre friends. its just like a rivalry thing yeah?#while meri is like fuckkk the fucking golden boy is talking to us when ame talks to them rus2 is like#why dont you invite (rusia) to the karaoke arent you two friends#(ame mania face turns around)#okay thats all i got bye
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I AM BEING FORCED TO ROLEPLAY AS SCYTHE FUCKING GODDARD FOR MY SCHOOLA SISIGNMRNT CAN SOMEONE END ME PLEASE END ME NOW
#CAN SOMEBODY HELP ME?? LIKE GIVE ME SOME POINTERS#arc of scythe#only talking about the first book btw I forgot literally everything else#IVE ANNOTATED HIS CHARACTER FRONT AND BACK BUT LIKE DESPITE ALLAT IM STILL REALLY SHIT AT ROLEPLAY#also I SUCK at 0aying these sorts of villains if he was creepy that’d be a different story but he’s just pompous#and greedy and sadistic and power hungry like YEAH he is KIND of creepy but not like. captain beatty#weird comparison but *vague hand gestures#scythe goddard#I actually think it’s really interesting how both he and scythe curie glean for the sake of solving stagnation#it’s just that scythe curie gleans handpicked stagnant people whereas#goddard thinks that EVERYONE is stagnant thus he feels the need to not only glean them but traumatize them as well#‘’remind them of their mortality’’ or whatever bs I CANT ACTUALLY TELL IF HES BEING GENUINE BUT#THATS WHAT I GOT FROM HIS JOURNALS#who knows maybe that’s just an excuse to end lives excessively ugh he’s such a#I don’t wanna say shallow character? but. but#SOMEBODY HELP ME? PLEASE?#I WANNA GO BACK TO F451ING
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As much as I'm a Pharma apologist he is genuinely an asshole who acts completely unrepentant so something I think about for an eventual Pharma redemption fic is like. How do you write a redemption for a severely traumatized guy whose coping mechanism is to act like he doesn't care and the people who need to accept him don't like/care about him enough to go "hey it's okay everyone gets a second chance" and/or "wow Pharma is so radically different what caused that change."
But also like it's really hard to help someone who has no desire to/refuses to be helped and makes himself deliberately unpleasant to be around so like idk
#in the end i think what it comes down to is no one asked WHY#no one looked at pharma's before and after and went 'how did that happen'#even when other ppl talk about pharma's change it's always in such like a. passive way#'before he went mad and started killing patients' yeah and what made him go mad exactly?#everyone just kinda talks about pharma like 'yeah he used to be great then he started killing people'#i know he's a minor character but LITERALLY NO ONE ASKS WHY#and like let me emphasize multiple people say 'for most of his life he was a good doctor' or something#no one was like 'yeah i always knew pharma was a piece of shit'#(besides ratchet telling him he was always a terrible autobot but i think that was a heat of the moment thing)#pharma apologism#like it's just absurd how everyone goes 'yeah pharma went insane. pity' but no one ever brings up why#i know it's just authorial accidentally writing a deep character but not having time to acknowledge it#but like when i think of in universe explanations for why the autobots would be like this#the only explanations are that ppl either already hated pharma (not supported by evidence)#or that the autobots just really hate traitors. which seems more likely given like. how getaway was treated#this is basically the one time i understand autobot slander bc when i think about it i'm kinda like#yeah the average autobot is kind of sanctimonious and thinks ppl less moral than them are pieces of shit#whereas to contrast the decepticons are kind of just not concerned about morality and more about their dogma#accidental cross faction comparison in the notes
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Who in the late republic do you think would have been most likely to wear heavy rings both for the aesthetic but also to act as a makeshift knuckle duster
Sulla, Mark Antony, and I kind of want to say Clodius although Fulvia also kind of gives off this kind of energy to me but less literally than I would imagine for someone like Sulla
#honorable mention to Caligula who is not the late republic but I love him so I’m including him anyway#ask tag#anyway re Fulvia: you know how Portia appropriates the male gender in shakespeare to force Brutus to listen to her?#same for Fulvia but it’s this specific kind of way she wields political power without overstepping certain social mores#it’s like using correct ideals of behavior as politics but in the opposite direction of what Octavia did#Fulvia used that shit like it was a sledgehammer. also turning around comparisons to Late Republic manager types#cethegus. crassus. fulvia. debatably caesar.
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Thank you as always for your wonderful art. Good luck with midterms and your classes!
of course, thank you for the good wishes !!! i can't wait until i can find more time to draw though: its painful having so much i want to draw but needing to be """"responsible"""" or whatever and waiting...
honestly i always thought i was a part of . Sizable fandoms and that i just had niche favorites, but the actual. AMOUNT of wonderful art and fics and discussions when it comes to cherik is amlost overwhelming i wanna throw up <- this is a good thing
#snap chats#i guess that's what'll happen when you get into a franchise over six decades old but anyways#no cause when id draw for my other fandoms sometimes i feel like. i was atlus ?? if that makes sense and as not-egotistical as possible ??#like it was very easy for me to overtake tags thats how much id draw in comparison to the amount other people'd post#WHICH SOUNDS SO EGOTISTICAL BUT ITS LIKE. IT WAS TRUE thats what id be told anyhow .... id get titles an shit for it#i never check fandom tags i get scared to do that BUT IN ANY CASE. thank you all for being so lovely :)#it is very jarring though because im not used to this kind of attention- maybe after a year or two but not two months jvA:JVKLJ#im happy tho im very grateful thank you all again for enjoying my art and for chatting with me !!!#i look forward to making more art and talking with you all down the line if you'll have me ^^#for now ... dinner time ... is 5PM dinner to you guys ? thats like. Evil Lunch#not dinner but too late for lunch... my childhood neighrs used to eat dinner at 6 tho so idk dinnertime always seemed like 8 to me#im rambling. anyways. thank you again everyone i look forward to chatting with you all soon !#i have a few more messages in my inbox .. something im not used to veajlkjea again the attention is very whiplash inducing- but welcomed !!
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It is kind of funny to think about how popular the Kuja Crocodile fan theory is when you take a step back and think about where that theory kinda originates from Now to be fair, I'm not 100% certain where the theory came from, I can only remember so much of what the fandom was theorizing back in 2008, so I may be speaking from my ass a little right now
But from what I do remember, back in Yee Olden Days, there was a lot of speculation about why the Strawhats got sent to their respective island by Kuma the way they did. A lot of people did notice how each island seemed meaningful one way or another to each Strawhat and tied into their characters except for Luffy, and everybody thought that was a bit odd. Mainly because we didn't fully know HOW Kuma's ability worked. Now, nearly two decades later, we DO know how Kuma's ability actually works; People don't magically travel to islands they have a secret connection to or anything, Kuma himself has to actively choose where he sends people off to, meaning Kuma looked at the Strawhats individually and picked out islands where he thought they'd be best off at. Luffy being sent to Amazon Lily is arguably no different; Kuma knew Luffy was the brother of the soon-to-be-executed Ace, but also a target of the WG (due to being Dragon's son). Amazon Lily was close enough to both Sabaody that Luffy would be able to return there relatively easily if he wished to, or he could try to befriend the Warlord Hancock, who was also being summoned to participate in Ace's execution, to hitch a ride from her to go and try to save his brother. The only challenge Luffy would have to overcome there was indeed befriending the Kuja, at least enough to be taken off from the island safely and alive.
But indeed, we only really know and can fully understand that now. Back in Yee Olden Days, the fans did just seem to think Kuma's ability might be a bit more mystical in nature, and thus people got really curious what Luffy's Secret Ties to the Kuja and Amazon Lily could possibly be. And naturally that lead to people speculating that maybe Luffy's mom was a Kuja. Because what other subconcious connection could Luffy possibly have to the island especially when it didn't seem like it would help him reach/achieve his dreams any faster either.
But then we get to Impel Down and Crocodile gets those transgenderism allegations thrown right in his handsome face (and people start shitposting about him being Luffy's other parent) And I think that might be where the streams crossed. People noted how Crocodile has his funny little reptile motif going on, and how the Kuja ""also have a reptile motif"", transgenderism allegations, badabing badaboom Crocodile could be a former Kuja, secret past SOLVED.
But the connection there is really weak though, isn't it? Especially when you considder that the Kuja don't really have a REPTILE theme going on with them. Yes, the snake motif is important to the Kuja, our beloved Hancock being The Snake Princess and the sisters having the Gorgon/Medusa (fake) backstory, but the animal motif is limited to just snakes, not reptiles as a whole (otherwise we could also speculate that Moria is a former Kuja because he's also named after a reptile). And more importantly, the Kuja have a big FLOWER theme going on for them, namely in, well, their names; each Kuja is named after some kind of flower/plant. Sure, Crocodile could have a secret deadname but we don't know if he does, there is no evidence to suggest either way (but also, depending on when you think he would have transitioned then him just being able to have a secret deadname is kind of up in the air (see: Crocodad timeline))
So if Kuma's ability doesn't have a magical way to send people to places they have ties to (whether the person knows it or not), and if Crocodile doesn't have any obvious, thematic connection to the Kuja, then the only reason people believe he could've been a Kuja is because... he might be trans. And... yeah. That's kind of a weak basis for a theory, isn't it
#Moon posting#OP Meta#Not even commenting on the Missing Empress because that's been Officially Debunked and doesn't matter anymore#For the record I'm not here to shit on peole who DO like the Kuja Croc theory or just enjoy it as a pure headcanon#That is absolutely fine and wonderful#As always: I'm very interested in speculating about canon and what seems like a viable theory with evidence to back it vs what doesn't#And that's what this post is about. The Kuja Croc is an Ancient Fan Theory but it really kinda is the weakest one at this point#For comparison's sake I feel like there's more evidence for the ''Crocodile is Stussy's son and Weevil's brother'' theory than Kuja Croc#Tho to be fair Croc's reintroduction to the plot did come in the arc immidiately after Amazon Lily was introduced#So like the dots could be easy to connect there (much like Ivankov's intro literally immidiately before Croc's re-intro)#And one could argue it'd be nice if the Isle of Women had more of ''a reason to exist'' in a plot relevant way#(Like that is kind of why I argue FOR trans Croc- it'd be give Ivankov's ability A Reason to Exist within the narrative)#((Not that it NEEDS one))#But also I'd argue the ''reason'' Amazon Lily is an isle of women was for the adventure Luffy ended up having on there+the friends he made#Like had the island NOT been the way it was then Luffy's experience there wouldn't have been the same nor the bonds he formed with Hancock#It would have made for a very different story there. And I think that alone is the ''justification'' for Amazon Lily being the way it is
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work your fingers to the bone
⭑ « and listen, doyeon is trying. featuring doyeon & yijun of @chcrryade. late nov–2022. 841 words.
!!!! these little gay boys are taking over my brain, somebody save me!! pulled a jj and decided to write about random interesting man who is not real, everyone in cherryade is very intriguing but im lowkey scared to touch gogo.. my glorious gemini king 💔💔 also jalen scares me soooooo 😓 we have this :)) thank you kil doyeon and qiao yijun for making me lose my mind 💗 thank you jj for letting me shake them around in my hands like bobble heads
to be completely fair, righteous, honest in the manner you have to be when concerning your fellow human beings, doyeon does not think yijun is all that bad.
however, that’s about the extent of credence he’ll allow the rapper, there isn’t even the added existence of a somewhat pleasant aid to his personality. he’s aware that’s rude, contradictory, hypocritical, and everybody has their ticks, he can’t exactly lord superiority in that regard.. not much anyway.
doyeon supposes the lack of such attributes could domineer as clear strengths; abrasive, exceedingly headstrong and rousing. it provides enough of a front, an argumentative expression which allows him to ease his way through most of everything, it’s a skilled strategy.
the look doyeon is receiving currently, though shadowed over in the dim lighting the two am dorm atmosphere offers, contains a scarce animosity, unusual for yijun.
doyeon will take anything he can get, which includes the little gleam of curiosity he sourly mistakens for something much better.
“you’re good, hyung, i’ll give you that one”.
the leader blinks, the rapper stares, amused, slightly content.
“elaborate on that one for me”.
doyeon feels idiotic attempting to ask, as if he would tell you, you think he’s a kid or something?
well he surely acts like one.
“you’re smart, can’t you figure it out?”
doyeon didn’t even have to ask a question.
he doesn’t want to say it, dreads the upcoming gaze and idiotic comments he’s aware will follow, already foreshadowing minhui’s shit eating grin, jalen’s drawling about his words being “after school special shit”, haeil would probably take the words with a nod, shyly shading his contentment in his typically reserved manner, and hasun.. well doyeon’s already aware of the advancing reaction with that one, he’s about the simplest member in terms of reaching out to.
and yijun appears evident, an ample display of vitriol he cannot exactly pinpoint. doyeon’s not.. nosy, he thinks, he hopes he doesn’t appear that way, yijun won’t care to leave it untouched, he has that knack for commenting on such specific things.
“i just— i mean.. i don’t know actually, we obviously aren’t going back to the company anytime soon, so can’t you keep a measure of civility while we’re stuck in this dorm for who knows how long?”
perhaps he’s asking for too much, his teeth grit and he prepares a physical wince at the responding silence, as if yijun will attempt a punch or some shit, of course he wouldn’t actually do that but doyeon has also kept in mind to not underestimate the little nuisance.
“civility is fine with me, it’s just—“
“jaehee yes lord i know you don’t exactly make it subtle..”
doyeon almost believes his sight has begun acting up once he observes the not so visceral reaction he earns. he guesses yijun has a measure of integrity, he wouldn’t yell outlandishly whilst the other members are fast asleep (or are staring endlessly at their ceilings, sleep is always a difficult feat), he can give him that one, he isn’t heartless by any means.
“i’ll try”.
and the mutter widens doyeon’s eyes so far they about pop from his sockets, it earns a slight breath, just barely the roots of budding laughter. doyeon is.. pleased.
he’s actually getting somewhere with this, who would even guess?
“what’s with that look? do you have no faith in me, hyung?”
doyeon blinks, silently nervous regarding the offense of his expressions. however, yijun’s got some well scrawled elation over his features, blossoming brightly again despite the lack of noticeable light permeating the room.
“no no it’s not that.. i just..” he’s unaware of how to continue that one, i just wasn’t expecting that from you? well that’s a rude way to continue it, he does care about how yijun feels, even if the rapper might lack some in that regard. “sorry, i do have faith in you”.
you’re better than you like to appear.
okay, so he won’t say that one, he’ll save it for a hopefully finer moment.
“you better, hyung, you know you’re one of my favorites right?”
doyeon falters for a mere second, tongue feeling heavy in his mouth, chilling air seizing his throat. it isn’t surprising by any standards, yijun is brash, yes, but not completely terrible, hopefully not completely terrible.
“ah, really”.
it’s less of a sure inquiry, his hand comes through his hair and he hopes there’s little of clear astonishment on his face, now that would be embarrassing.
yijun doesn’t appear to mind, possibly the brightest smile doyeon’s ever seen blooming over his features. “yeah, don’t tell hasun-ah i said any of that”.
and lord doyeon fucking chuckles, shaking his head in tandem with an exhaling breath. “i think you should go to sleep”.
the words settle into the air, yijun offers nothing more than his endless smile.
“sure hyung”.
doyeon surmises it isn’t much of a success, only one wall taken down, yet it’s a start. yijun’s got his ticks, yes, every human being does, but he really isn’t that bad.
#◜ 🍬 what there was left of love .#oh doyeon i will consume you and your brain and your soul ughshshsh#that yijun-bakugo comparison jj made DESTROYED ME.. i know they arent completely similar but you guys dont get my history with that mf 😓#yijun is my fav piece of shit!!! hes got redeeming qualities i swear#their relationship has always been a striking concept?? kind compassionate leader doyeon who wants the best for everyone despite conflict#and yijun whose like.. an asshole as a coping mechanism who DOES want to be cared for and fit in but is also so terrible with people#i just want these mfs happy 😭😭💔💔 especially haeil i wanna do smth with him too#okay rant over!! ily jj my mega oomf!! gives you a big fat kiss
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idk how to say this right but i feel like people going through aaron bushnell's reddit comment history to try and figure out how Morally Pure™ he was and therefore if you're allowed to support his actions or not are. missing the point. in a lot of ways
#and i do mean this in both directions bc I've seen. so many posts along these lines already#and it's like. whether he was in the acab subreddit or made lizard people jokes kind of pales in comparison to#Actively Being Part Of The Murder Machine and that was the entire point#if you're looking for his moral values i feel like it's weird to try and find secret truths buried in his comment history#rather than going off of him Choosing To Die In The Number One Worst Way To Help Stop To Genocide#why is The Most Final Thing You Can Do somehow less meaningful than a couple reddit comments#and in the other direction it's like. i gotta be real with you his opinions on fatphobia do not mean shit nor fuck to me#and that's coming from someone who mods on an anti fatphobia blog like. it does not seem remotely relevant#he died to draw eyes to Palestine and when people go looking for moral purity out of him like this it just feels like they're#just. trying their hardest not to look where he asked.#what is the point of bringing these things up?#like. ok he made some shitty jokes. well now he's dead so it's not like he can go anywhere with it. what is your ultimate goal#do you want to bring awareness to something or do you just want people to stop talking about him because of what his death meant#idk#origibberish
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I know several people who like LOVE seasons 5-7 (11th doctors run) and think the storylines and moffats writing are brilliant and I don't get it!!! what am I missing??? why does literally every single episode have the exact same stakes: Rory/Amy/the doctor is dead. forever. so dead. but wait!!! what if they aren't!!! why do so many of the explanations for why they're not actually dead feel so rushed like they were added at the last minute!! why does every single queer character act kind of weird and awkward about being queer!! why does the doctor casually say that women are inferior when no one's around!!! what the fuck!! hello!!!
#why is rory continuously proving himself as the Only Man To Ever Exist only for the characters/narrative to continuously imply hes lesser#amy tries to kiss the doctor?? at her wedding??????#when amy is stuck for 36 years why is she like i forgot how much rory loved me?? GIRL HE WAITED 1000 YEARS FOR YOU???? WHAT????#he is CONSTANTLY the butt of the joke despite being unequivocally without a doubt the best character from this era#what the fuck was up with river being their kid#THE 50TH ANNIVERSARY???? WHAT?? THAT SHIT WAS WEIRD RIGHT???#does anyone else find it annoying that moffat changed the opening theme and the tardis and the sonic and the doctor ALLLL at once#and then retconned the entire storyline the early seasons are based off of??#WHY IS THE DOCTOR SO GODDAMN ANNOYING?? LIKE SO MUCH MORE ANNOYING THAN THE OTHERS#and fucking sexist!!! so sexist!!!#anyone remember the characters who were like 'were the short fat and tall skinny gay men why do we need names' LIKE HUH???????#gay people still have names steven 😭#i feel like im going insane bc i have no one else to talk to abt it until my partner catches up#but you guys still think these seasons kinda suck right? like coming off of martha and DONNA and her AMAZING storyline#these just kinda pale in comparison right??????#the last centurion is probably the last really good plot of that era imo. none of the other plots come close to having an ending that cool#like rivers story couldve been amazing and then it was just uh. kinda weird. a bit confusing IDK#i dont want to be a dick when talking to people and like shit on smth they love but i genuinely have a hard time#finding kind things to say abt a lot of this era#also and this might just be me but i do not like amy and clara v much 😭 theyre so fuckin mean and not even funny#why were martha donna and rose sooooo well written and they all have rich backstories. we know their fuckin families!!#literally its never even fully explained what the fuck happened to amys parents 😩���� they just move on. the only friend of theirs#ever shown is fucking river??? as a kid??#am i the only one who found all thay confusing
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I am so fucking sick of living with my roommate and his fuck ass boyfriend. Also watching my roommate burn every single one of his (already rather minimal, I might add) bridges for this guy is also kind of painful but also his relationship with me is one of said bridges so I'm almost past the point of even feeling bad for him lmao
#i have had to piss for probably the better part of an hour now#because they decided to take a shower together and have been in there for well OVER an hour now#and this is a nightly occurence atp sometimes MULTIPLE times a day#we have one bathroom.... can yall not be considerate enough to not be in there for up to TWO HOURS AT A TIME???#also it's such a waste of fucking water....#idk we've hit a point where i literally hear the bf doing anything and i get pissed off#but also tell me why i'm sitting in my room (which shares a wall with the bathroom) and i can hear this man hacking and spitting shit up#and this is also something that happens multiple times a day#like.... dude.... why are you spitting up toothpaste so fucking loudly oh my fucking god#but yeah no i'm like my roommate's only friend atp and he's about to not have me lmao like we're about to reach#'i'm cutting you off when i move out' levels of me being pissed off with this whole situation type shit#and apparently the bf convinced him to come out to his family which his mom was chill which is good#his dad's side of the family though....? not great. and my roommate KNEW that would be the case cuz we'd talked about it before#also love that my roommate has constantly talked about moving out of the city we live in because he hates and also there's no good career#opportunities for him here (which is true)#and now. MAGICALLY. he's like 'idk i think it'd be best for me to stay here'#like oh my GOD???? are you hearing yourself???? are you fucking stupid???? you fucking hate it here???#but sure throw your life away and ruin all your meaningful relationships for a guy you met six months ago jfc#and the thing is i *know* my roommate we've been close CLOSE friends for nearly a decade now#i know he is not like this.... like yeah he's being insane by allowing this but also i know these aren't the kinds of decisions he would ma#and also i know he wouldn't treat me like this all on his own#it's the deranged fucking control freak of a guy he decided to date and my roommate has too many of his own issues to put his foot down#about certain things and tell the guy no so he's just allowing him to completely take over his life#and fuck everything up until the bf is the only thing he has left once it's all said and done#and yeah. it's painful to watch. but also wtf am i supposed to do because obviously my opinion is not respected nor wanted regarding this#that has been made PAINFULLY clear#ugh this is so fucking horrendous#what is it with ppl who start to date someone and then go clinically fucking insane and destroy their lives all for this one person#who. realistically. they barely know in comparison to all the other ppl in their life#like explain it to me jfc
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I hate waking up after a depressive episode and having to calculate how much time I lost to it.
#i kind of had a handle on it for the first week and then idk what happened but it was Bad Chief#and like. im pretty sure im out of it bc my brain started doing fic related shit earlier this week which doesn't happen when im depressed#and like i had 3 very low days in a row but today i feel... better? and i cant tell if its better in comparison or just. better.#ig we'll all find out together
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#succession#tomgreg#OH MY GOD THE SCENE IS THIS CLOSE AFTER?!?? i thought i had some time !!! i jqqqqqqq#man. man. mn!!!!aman!!!!man!!!!!!!!!!!!!! man.#matt johnson you would love tomgreg#what the fuck is this scene though i want to die i PHYSICally want to di e Eeeeeeeeeee#he........i .........fkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkmmmmmmmmmmmm#ok. okok. ok . novel tags ok i can think through my absolute fucking grief. ok so basically.#tom giving greg advice about prison. and then greg like basically begs to have tom take the rap for him. but not directly.#he can never say things directly. but tom translates. and it doesn't take him long to say fine. load me up. you piece of shit.#but he doesn't even mean the latter statement he's too sad. and he won't fight. the fight is all gone out of him.#so much for greg being expendable though huh?#look me in the eyes and tell me tom isn't in love with greg at least a little. yall telling me you'd take the rap for someone and go to jail#for them if you didn't love them? ok bestie you do you#i kind of like as well the comparison of the conversation between them and him and shiv like. it's very similar in that him and greg are#saying sentences that are parts of different conversations like him and shiv's convo ALTHOUGH it is still related bc it's to do with jail#she wouldn't even talk about that subject at all. and then it correlates to the whole. nero and sporus thing right. and the dressing up/ring#ALSO THE FACT HE DIDNT WANNA SLEEP WITH HER AND HES OUT LATE AT A DINER WITH GREG I GET IT G IS HIS MISTRESS#but anyway.#and the WAYYYYYYY greg's voice breaks and the way he looks at tom with pleading eyes and it looks like he's about to cry#that's what does it for tom i think. that's what breaks him. he can't bear the thought of greg suffering for months.#which makes me believe that that is why he was so sad earlier when greg was asking for advice. he doesn't like greg to suffer#by other hands of course. if it's by his hands that's another matter BUT THATS ANOTHER CAN OF WORMS#LIKE I KNOW ITS KIND OF AN ASSHOLE MOVE OF GREG BUT AT THE SAME TIME HES LIKE. idk early 20s. 26ish latest???#and i would be fucking terrified i'm 30 and i still don't know what the fuck is going on i don't know how i am still alive so i get it.#and if you have someone who has been taking care of you and has in the past flexed their power and money to give you food and parties#and move you up in a company and give you opportunities you most likely would never get. you kinda. latch. and fall into a pattern.#you assume he has a way out for you#has help. i mean greg probably assumed he wouldn't say yes in the first place so he kinda Has to be an asshole for any chance at all tbh.#he even said quid pro quo. but tom didn't even want anything in return. i mean idk what greg could even give him [lol] but still.
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Wow just now I managed to suffer through a horrible discussion with my father 🧍 I come back at what cost.
#ranting here because wow im feeling incredibly alone#he's a very kind man and thoughtful in comparison to whats out there#and still he insist so hard that men are stronger than women and thst only men can commit physical violence#shit like that#and i reccomend him books#and hes lile 'youre forcing down your opinion on me' Im not even givinf you my opinion im suggesting knowledge of this century#throwing myself off a cliff brb#im actually drawinf more#im gonna be so alone when i leave my faculty. i dont know enough irls that actually Read and care about equality#🧍🧍🧍🧍🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲#i dont even dare finishing the full rant here
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