#what is a consistent tagging system lol

[corrodedbisexual]

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[lil-kissy]

Now I want to make it perfectly clear that I don't have any current plans to like end or stop this blog / Kisa. I still want to keep rping with her, rping with all of you and building stuff.

However I can't lie and say I haven't been feeling like things have stagnated a lot- just in general.

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I really do want to try and write more metas / headcanons /drabbles or you know even like actual rp threads n stuff. Just been stuck on what to do.

So I guess take this post in part as my way of asking you all for help. Like what would you want to see or do with her? Anything you'd like to know or think I should focus on idk?

Any recommendations, suggestions or otherwise general feed back on something I could do?

Questions for the smol herself?

I know sometimes she's not easy to interact with, at least I know sometimes I have trouble figuring out how to interact.

And honestly that is a big reason why I've started trying to post more memes, box is always open for anything, always accepting memes no matter how old though if you are sending in a older meme especially emoji ones just make sure to also send what one it is and not just the emoji so I'm not having to guess.

[washedoutwings]

yeah so uhhhh we’re always permanently low on motivation so umm yeah sorry but we are doing one of those note things

20 notes: we will try to take our meds more consistently

50 notes: draw at least something once a week

70 notes: eat something for breakfast every day (at least an apple or protein drink)

100 notes: start keeping better track of our delusions/hallucinations

150 notes: tell our therapist about 2 of our headmates

200 notes: start a system journal

300 notes: tell our therapist about 5 of our headmates

500 notes: tell our therapist about all of our headmates

700 notes: tell our doctor about about our chronic pain

1000 notes: eat something medium for breakfast at least three days a week (like a bowl of cereal)

1500 notes: ask our closer friends to use she/her less (they know that we’re trans)

from here on it’s more about just good habits that we don’t have much motivation for instead of self care type stuff, so less important

2000: draw every day (when possible)

2500: finish writing one of our wip stories/fics

3500: start working on an art commissions portfolio

4500: start working on a writing commissions portfolio

6000: set up art commissions

8000: set up writing commissions

sorry, we feel really guilty about this but we really need some motivation for this stuff. honestly we don’t expect this to even get to 20, but that’s fine! no deadline, ummm if you really want to spam idc, feel free to tag people. i’m not gonna tag anyone, i don’t want anyone to feel pressured

edit: WHAT THE FUCK where did yall come from???????

edit 2: damn i was offline for like 2 days and it was barely at 300 and we log back on to 500+ uhhhh thanks ig lol

edit 3: well we’re almost at 700 so..i guess i’m gonna add a couple more?

edit 4: the gimmicks got to us…also added some more

[elkkiel]

ST Holiday Gift Exchange 2024: Information & FAQ

Masterpost

General info

Q: Who can join this event?

Anybody who is a fan of Sleep Token and would like to create something for a fellow fan

Q: How do I sign up for this event?

You can register using the sign up form here

Q: What kind of content can I create?

Art, writing, video edits/video-based media, animation/animatic, playlists, and poetry are our current options. If you have a different idea, feel free to ask about it!

Q: How does the assignment system work?

When you sign up, your answers will be stored on a spreadsheet to compare with other participants. We will determine assignments based on your likes/dislikes for both creating and receiving gifts, as in an angst writer will likely be assigned to someone who likes angst.

Instead of partners, each assignment will be unique to make the gift as much of a surprise as possible. This means that the person you've been assigned to won't be assigned to you.

On October 19th, Nina and I will contact you via your preferred messaging method with your assignment. At this time, we'll provide all the information you need to complete your gift!

Q: When are submissions due?

You can give your gift from December 25th to January 5th. If you're done early, just hang on to it until the submission period begins.

Content guidelines

Q: What are the minimum requirements for gifts?

Art: One completed artwork (according to your level of "completeness," i.e. no sketches/doodles)

Writing: One completed fic of at least 600 words

Video edits/video-based media: One completed edit/video. If you are creating a video, please reach out to @elkkiel or @stellasplendens with your concept for review.

Animation: One completed video/GIF at least 3 seconds long (or shorter, if it loops). Frame-by-frame and tweening methods are accepted—do what works best for your style. If you're creating a "simple" animation (ex. looping walk cycle, sprite animation, etc.) please reach out to Elkkie or Nina with your concept for review.

Playlist: One playlist at least 1 hour long with a consistent theme. Spotify is preferred, but Youtube is an option if you don't have Spotify

Poetry: One completed poem, any style. If you are creating a poem, please reach out to Elkkie or Nina with your concept for review

Other: Please reach out to Elkkie or Nina with your concept/media type for review.

Q: Does my gift need to be holiday themed?

Not at all! If you want to include seasonal themes, go ahead. But it's definitely not required

Q: Do I need to include all of my recipient's ideas/preferences in my gift?

The ideas/preferences are just prompts, not a grocery list that you have to check off. Feel free to include as many ideas as you're comfortable with

Q: Is shipping allowed?

Shipping is allowed, and you will be assigned to someone with the same shipping preferences as you (ex. someone who loves shipping won't be paired with someone who won't create it)

Q: Is NSFW allowed?

Same as shipping content, you can do it so long as your recipient has said they're okay with it. In this case, please pay attention to any triggers, squicks, or preferences that your recipient specified—for safety and also enjoyment lol

Communication/submissions

Q: How do I submit my gift?

Please share your gift in a public Tumblr post with your recipient clearly tagged. You can also use the tag #st gift exchange 2024 !

Q: I'm an author, where do I share my writing?

You can share your fic directly on Tumblr as a text post, or you can post to a platform like AO3 and link to the fic in a Tumblr post.

Q: Can I contact my recipient for more information about their gift?

We ask that you don't reach out to your recipient to maintain the surprise aspect of the event. If absolutely necessary, you can contact Nina or I to get that info on your behalf.

Q: Is there a Discord for this event?

No, this is a Tumblr-based event only. Please give your gift on Tumblr to ensure that your recipient is able to receive your gift.

Q: Who do I contact for more information before/during the event?

You can reach out to @elkkiel or @stellasplendens via Tumblr, or send us an email at st.giftexchange@gmail.com

During the event, Nina and I will be dividing up contacts for organization purposes. So whoever sends you the assignment will be your "event rep" that you can reach out to specifically (ofc, if you can't get ahold of someone, please feel free to send an email or reach out to the other mod for help!)

Any more questions? Send an ask, reply to this post, send an email, idk like create smoke signals or something (responses will take 2-3 business days to account for acquiring fire-starting supplies)

[stewy]

i saw your tags about cameron being more similar to house than wilson and if you have any notes or explanations on that i'd love to hear them! cameron is such an interesting character and i feel like she's really not analyzed enough

she isn't! idk if it's because people simply forget the earlier seasons as they progress with the show, but they forget cameron is an actual character who is written as consistently as any other character in the show save for house himself. not liking her is one thing but to dismiss her as if she isn't one of the most important people in house's life when her love literally got him out of that building is. lol

cam and wilson have a lot of similarities: they’re self-sacrificing to a detrimental extent, they value social niceties and acts of kindness, caring and empathetic, multiple marriages, in love with a sewer rat, etc. but they sort of stop there. cameron is a strongly moral character; wilson’s morals are flexible to the point of being barely there. cameron won’t sacrifice her values for the sake of making anyone feel better; all that wilson cares about is making other people feel better, preferably to his own detriment. cameron is much more sensitive and emotionally driven than wilson imo, you can see her actively struggle to put her feelings in the backseat in pretty much every situation, while that seems to come as second nature to wilson (though cameron gets better at that through experience). but she is also much more stable and true to herself than wilson, who struggles with letting his true feelings show with anyone other than house (simply because he knows his friend won’t give a shit). you see house call cameron “pathetically sincere” and that’s something you’d never hear him say about wilson considering his pathology is that he loves Everybody, with no discrimination. i think their specialties also speak to their own personalities: wilson is an oncologist, all of his patients already have cancer and most likely will die from it; his job is to treat them but it’s also to make them feel better about their imminent fate. cameron is an immunologist, taking care of someone’s autoimmune system with the sole focus of getting them stronger. this is also their approach to house himself btw

house and cameron are two sides of the same coin. a lot of people would disagree with me & hugh laurie in saying that house is a strongly moral character, but he is. the difference between himself & cameron is that he doesn't care what people do with their lives. if someone wants to kill themselves after he's done treating them, that's their problem. even when she despised the patient, she couldn't dare to see them live in pain (informed consent) or to play god and kill them herself (the tyrant). they're both extremely sensitive, stubborn and closed off. isolating themselves to the point of making their significant others (stacy and chase) feel lonely in the relationship. they both often look insane to everyone else, but have an innate understanding of each other. cameron opened herself up to house in a way she could never do with chase because she saw him, and she was the only person he truly emotionally connected with other than wilson. she was bothered by his impersonality and he was bothered by her sensitivity, because she wore with pride something he thought made him (and other humans) lesser. they tried to bring characters like masters & adams (even park?) to act as foil to house but it didn't work because they lacked what cameron and house had: a relationship.

[sophieinwonderland]

Found a Hate Blog in The #Plural Tag. 😮‍💨

As I covered recently, "Plural" is an inclusive word with origins in endogenic and non-disordered systems.

If any anti-endo posts in the "#plural" tag or other inclusive tags, don't expect your DNIs to be respected.

They also are doing this knowingly. People have already tried to contact them about using the inclusive plural tag and the hate blog has stubbornly refused.

So if they're going to post in inclusive tags, I figured I might as well respond to some of their vent posts in anti-endo tags. As always, if anti-endos have a problem with this or feel boundaries are being unfairly crossed, please take it up with the hate blog I'm responding to that's invading our spaces.

Also, really weird how they just jump straight into saying "pro-endos" aren't systems either. Hate to break it to you, but there are a lot of traumagenic DID systems whose disorders and trauma are just valid as yours. And they manage to not be bigots too!

Wait... are they claiming that ALL dissociation can only be caused by trauma?

Although previous research has implicated a history of childhood trauma in the development of dissociative tendencies, insufficient cognizance (in this context) has been taken of the distinction between pathological and nonpathological dissociation. In this study, the relationship between childhood trauma and both pathological and nonpathological dissociation was investigated in a sample of 100 Australian adults. Pathological dissociation was positively predicted by dimensions of childhood trauma, but no such relationship was found for nonpathological dissociation (psychological absorption). The data are consistent with the traumagenic model of the dissociative disorders, but factors other than childhood trauma may also be pertinent.

Amazing how they compare us with anti-vaxxers while trying to claim all dissociation is traumagenic. This wasn't even hard to find. 🙄

"I don't care about any morals"

Well, at least you're up front about it.

Also, I tend to check the DID tags every now and then and you know what I don't see there? Endogenic systems!

"#Endo Safe" tags are more often than not used by pro-endo traumagenic systems.

Guess what! If you have DID, you get to post in the DID tags. Being a hateful bigot isn't a requirement! Anyone with DID has the right to post in the DID tags, and can tag their post as endo safe too!

Maybe you wouldn't get as many anons from endogenic systems if you stop posting in inclusive tags. Just a thought!

How are they harmful to the community again?

Weren't you just saying earlier that pro-endos were stealing resources? Now you're acknowledging that they're making resources for the community, but this is also bad?

LOL!

Genic labels literally only exist because of the pro-endo community. And the anti-endo community notoriously hates xeno-origins like NPD-genic. Yes, people will assume you're endo-safe when you use xeno-origins because these terms, like most resources in the plural community, were made by pro-endos.

Keep it up guys! It's working! We're spreading!

Sorry, I don't feel like rebutting anything here. I just appreciate seeing that our efforts are paying off!

The Future is Plural! 😁

Stop!

This talking point has been completely debunked.

System hopping was used by pro-endos 15 years before the earliest association with RAMCOA. The idea that it was a RAMCOA term is a total lie invented by anti-endos!

OSDD-1A and OSDD-1B are not actually official disorders. There is an OSDD. The first example, called OSDD-1 sometimes, gives two possible presentations. One with less distinct alters and amnesia, and another with no amnesia. But these aren't called OSDD-1a or OSDD-1b.

If your goal is education, this nuance is important.

Could it be because ASPEC people have dealt with a ton of exclusionism from some queer communities, and are more accepting of other people as a result? And perhaps they also recognize similarities between system exclusionists and queer exclusionists?

You're coming and posting in our tags!

That's why people keep interacting with you! "Plural" is a term coined by non-disordered systems, you've been told this, and you insist on posting in inclusive tags anyway!

You don't get to bust in someone's door, complain about them in their home, and then tell them not to interact with you! It doesn't work like that!

Funny how these are the only sources they can provide. And they exclusively deal with DID without even touching on other forms of plurality.

Anyway...

The ICD-11 says you can experience "multiple distinct personality states" without a dissociative disorder.

The creators of the theory of structural dissociation have said hypnosis and mediumship may involve self-conscious dissociative parts of the personality.

And Transgender Mental Health, written by Eric Yarbrough and published by the American Psychiatric Association (who publishes the DSM) says you can be plural without trauma or a disorder.

Sources repeatedly affirm that it's possible to be plural without trauma!

Anyone who claims it's impossible to be plural without trauma is either ignorant or lying.

And if you're going to keep spreading hate and misinformation, at least keep it out of inclusive tags!

[unorcadox]

Hey I heard you were accepting questions about what being a system is like? I know someone i consider my little brother who i recently found out is a system. I don't know much about this if you couldn't tell lol. Do you know any reading materials, videos, or just personal advice on how to best support/understand him? Id try and find these on my own but I don't want to accidently learn misinformation and have no clue where to start. Thanks in advance and hope you have a fantastic day 👍

hi i'm gonna be real, watching other ppl find out their systemhood has rly shown me the like #1 thing to AVOID is system spaces online because it is maximally confusing, contradictory, and just a huge dramafest regardless of stance, experience level, etc.

personally speaking i'd recc just... exploring it with him? talk to him about it, meet his alters (where comfortable for him at least) and generally just... Try to Listen and Be Involved. it should be said like, his alters have been there the whole time, he hasn't changed in any way other than understanding himself differently now, and thus try not to treat him differently unless he asks that of you.

as for resources tbh it's a complete mess, i personally just read a lot of plural content on here in the various tags when i was starting out but imo tbh with you, i would focus on individual experience more than anything concrete. system stuff is highly complex and not super consistent as each brain handles it differently, so imo go with the flow. 👍

oh yeah personally i would say like. pluralkit and simplyplural can be nice & very helpful if he's so inclined, it makes my life infinitely easier and more fulfilling so yeah. anyways hope this helps and sorry for a messy answer LMFAO

[thatoneluckybee]

pinned post time

Hey, I’m Bee!

ALSO!! I have a color my tree!!

AND MUTUALS. If you have a colormytree lmk!!

Minor

She/her please!

ADHD, trichotillomania, (potentially autistic? doing research at the moment)

Christian

If you send me an ask for money, I probably won’t answer it. There’s too many and it’s overwhelming. But I may try and add your donation posts to my queue. I’m a minor—I can’t donate.

AND THE FANDOM/ORGANIZATION STUFF

I don’t even know I’m hyperfixated on right now. YTTD and SBG and Homesick are fighting to the death, PJSK/Vocaloid is trying to sneak in again but failing, and I am suffering help. What is my brain. Will\ go on mass reblogging sprees of random other topics/fandoms

Said fandoms are MAINLY Your Turn to Die, School Bus Graveyard, Homesick, Space Boy, Not So Shoujo Love Story, Surviving Romance, Realta, Castle Swimmer, the One of Us Is Lying trilogy, Morgana and Oz, Silent Screams, Marionetta, Danganronpa, Cursed Princess Club, Suitor Armor, Nomads, and the like. I read way too many Webtoon series, expect a lot of those lol. I’m also a huge fan of Winchifrost and Marina and The Diamonds!

I have no idea how to use tone tags but I'm trying to figure it out!

Finally have a Pronouns Page!

I don’t have a consistent tagging system, I use whatever comes to my heart. HOWEVER, I will USUALLY try and tag posts like memes and fanart with the fandom name (and, if I reblog or a post about a fandom a lot, FULL character names! For example, I will tag “nao egokoro” instead of just “nao yttd.”) I do have a couple tags I use a lot:

rambles: My rambles. Original posts or reblogs I have a decent amount of commentary on or changed in some way.

fambles: Rambles but specifically fandom related. This is a new tag I may forget to use it but I need to separate original from fandom lol

important: Anything that’s genuinely important (usually!) Much of this will be about topics I feel more strongly about. For example, a post about ableism I think is a good find would be tagged as important.

shenanigans: That’s… yeah, shenanigans.

Bee Hall of Fame: I’m stealing this tag from a beloved mutual. Favorite things that has something to do with yours truly <3

crumch: I don’t even know. Crumch. Food related. Biting people affectionately. Something that would be Entertaining or Horrific to consume.

yeah: This evokes such a specific and visceral emotion in every inch of my being that I am unable to comprehend or fully articulate in. Just yeah.

girlsuffering: Ow. I don't vent per say but if I'm theatrically complaint about a headache it's girlsuffering

Bee plays PJSK: HI I finally got the game and I’m playing, so these posts are just me going through the stories and getting used to it and suffering

Thanks I love you and GOODBYE!

[icepoptroll]

can you elaborate on some of your Ricky headcanons?😁

Hi! I'm assuming you're referring to my tags on this post that I reblogged earlier today referring to the more medical side of expanding on Ricky in canon?

I think maybe hc was kind of the wrong way for me to describe my Ricky ideas in this area. It's more like, I have the background knowledge to speculate some of what Ricky might have going on outside of what we see in canon. Keep in mind I'm drawing from what I learned back in school and on the job, not my own lived experiences, and obviously not everyone with disabilities like Ricky's have the same universal experience so I make no claim that my word is gospel here ofc!!

For one I think he actually Does have a feeding tube. I've seen him drawn a few times with an ng/nj tube but seeing as a. His condition is, as the post I linked to outlines, most likely neuromuscular and b. This affects him systemically and affects his speech, he most likely also has difficulty swallowing as the same groups of nerves and muscles are involved with both and so speech and swallowing sorta go hand in hand. There are no 100% absolutes and I can't speak for every single scenario that might necessitate a feeding tube. However I do find from working in my field that generally, people who have one due to dysphagia because of a permanent condition (such as his, which is understood to be progressive) have gastrostomy tubes, which go directly into the stomach through the abdominal wall. I've drawn him with this type of tube a couple of times, but obviously it's generally less visible than one inserted nasally and the only way for it to be very visible in a drawing is, ya know, if Ricky pops his top off, lol, or at least pulls it up some.

That being said, not everyone with a feeding tube gets nutrition by this route exclusively. Some people with g tubes eat orally to varying degrees with certain preparations and supplement with tube feedings, and other people can't take anything at all by mouth. I feel like Ricky is somewhere in the middle and that he'd eat soft stuff with textures and consistencies that make it easy to chew and swallow, and drink thickened liquids. (I think Ricky actually quite likes to eat and uses a lotta sauce c:) Any meds he takes are in liquid form or crushed pills mixed with water that go into the g tube. I think he knows the ins and outs of taking care of the g tube on his own, however sometimes it seems to have a mind of its own (stuff happens sometimes with any kind of equipment ofc) and also sometimes it'd be an uphill battle keeping the cats away from it

I'm a little tuckered out from work right now and it would take me a while to call to mind all of my speculations but yeah that's basically just a little bit I imagine about Ricky based on observations I've made working with real people

Outside of the more medical side of Ricky I'm always drawing fun content of him as I run @enter-the-rickyverse and sometimes I incorporate my own hcs into the drawings (ie. He has a great sense of humor, he plays piano, he likes to wear short sleeves shirts over long sleeved shirts, fun stuff like that) I mean he's really just an awesome character to delve into exploring in all sorts of aspects

[marrows-field-guide]

Welcome~

I'd like to start off by thanking you for taking the time to take a wander through my life's work.

That said, allow me to formally invite you to the experience that is my clusterfuck of a comprehensive Pokemon Field Guide~

My name is Marrow A. Honeysuckle, and I am a Field Researcher who specializes in any and all variations from standard Pokemon phenotypes. I am in the process of creating an illustrated guide of the multitudes of different variants one may encounter across the World of Pokemon.

My main focuses are on the more obscure alternate appearances Pokemon may exhibit. Right now I've been really interested in the phenomena of Ability Forms, where a Pokemon's appearance is effected by their natural ability, as well as documenting the various unique differences in Pokemon such as those classed as subspecies.

This blog will serve as my digital archive for whatever observations, illustrations and experiences I may gather, create and encounter on my journey.

I will also share any other interesting tidbits I find online or otherwise~

{{I'll add a list of tags as I figure them out}}

[Mail/Mystery Gifts] ON

...

Anywayyyy

now that all the "Professional™" shit is out the way

allow me to introduce myself~

Heyo~

Name's Marrow, sometimes they call me Field Researcher Honeysuckle. Who's "they"? fuck if I know lol

I use any and all pronouns: with Masculine, Neos/Neutral, and then Feminine being in order of preference from most to least frequent

I'm 27 and grew up in Kalos, I got my starter around the same time I started working under Prof Sycamore in my mid-teens

The last several years of my life have been spent in Galar, interspersed with trips back to Kalos for shit like conferences and whatnot.

I'm currently in transit to Paldea I have arrived in Paldea after I received some forwarded correspondence the Prof Sycamore accepted for me from a Professor by the name of Sada. he apparently got it[and accepted it on my behalf] like 6 months ago and hadn't gotten around to sending it to me till last week BUT WHATEVER I GUESS

Luckily I was able to stop by my partner's place[aka, home sweet home] since I pass through Kalos on the way. Which meant I could see them for a sweet little rendezvous and drop off some of the Pokemon I gathered during my time in Galar.

My party consists of:

Bean | Espurr ♀ | Ability Variant | My Starter

Skai | Vivillon ♂ | Unique Subspecies Shiny

Hem | Mimikyu ⚥ | Shiny

Still need to evaluate these to know if they are battle capable or not:

Pepper | Sprigatito[?] ♀ | Unidentified Variant | Sight Impaired, unsure to what extent

Plums | Yamper ♀ | Espeon Hybrid | Need to check some things around why she exhibits as half-evolved

I also carry with me an orphaned forever-Snom whom I've named Girasol. He doesn't fight and prefers to ride on my head so I don't count him in my party

I've been told there is a 'mon waiting for me when I arrive in Paldea. They said her variation and appearance has made it difficult for them to adopt her out as it "gives the new trainers 'bad vibes' despite her rarity". They have refused to give me more info. So that's great. I have collected the 'mon. She is an adorable, mostly blind, super fluffy Sprigatito with an un-identified variant subtype.

Just a bit more about me:

I'm a mostly nocturnal bitch, the sun bothers my eyes[and the insane insomnia doesn't help my case lol] and I'm a nomadic researcher by nature.

If you stumble across me in the field during mid-day I'm more than likely to be piled up sleeping with my Pokemon, usually without even a shelter to cover me. I don't mind being in towns/cities but I'm always [just passing through] usually I'm just stocking up on supplies or delivering something for whatever reason

Oh! And I like sweets. But the more "light" ones, not the "heavy" rich ones. Think sweet lemon over chocolate mousse

{{THE FOLLOWING IS ALL "OOC"}}

We follow/like from @r-e-dax-t-e-d as it is our main blog

We are the [REDACTED] System. Outside of this post all OOC will be prefaced as such or written in {{xxxxx}} brackets. THIS BLOG WILL LIKELY CONTAIN TRIGGERING/ADULT TOPICS AT SOME POINTS

We have not pinned down what it will contain exactly but a warnings list will be added in the future. We will likely touch upon horror typical themes at times. We are an adult and prefer to interact with other adults, so while we won't make [No Minors] a hard limit we will be limiting our interaction with underage blogs

We are a DID system, so while we are "roleplaying" in the sense of telling a story as if it were actually happening, Marrow does actually exist within our system and the general arcs are based off of her life within their source. Please act respectfully and keep this in mind

We will not typically discuss pokeph**ia, and on the off chance we do it will be in a mythological context We are taken IRL and Marrow is IC as well. So no serious flirting please[exceptions being obvious jokes/for the bit and only if a we have established a prior level of comfort/connection{i.e. NOT FOR RANDOS}]

We will be adding more to this as we figure shit out

[aby55-of-the-ab5o1ute]

give us the rest... /nf

GIGGLE YAYAYAYAYY

OKAY SOOOOO

Cantor, Uzi, R, and B hung out. And made plans to hang out more. The next time they came over though, Thad was also there. Cantor started fighting Thad because THERE CAN ONLY BE ONE GREEN!!!! But Uzi managed to shut it down

Cantor, B, R, Uzi, and sometimes Thad continued to hang out. Though eventually B and R confessed they felt forced to do it to Cantor. He was upset but didn't pressure them to come hang out.

Uzi asked R to hang out though, and R decided to go along with it. The two actually had a lot of fun, and wanted to hang out more. Eventually they had walks. They would just walk around while holding hands. One day Lizzy spotted them, and asked if they were dating. They both panicked, glanced at each other with blush covering their faces, and decided right then and there they were dating.

THE MEETING WITH THE SQUAD

Before this though, the contents of "Your Name Is Something Worth Remembering" happens. Uzi finds out R was apart of the squad consisting of V, N, and J. Uzi comforts R and says she won't force them to be known by the other DDs unless they're comfortable.

Eventually the three visit, oh and yes J is redeemed<3 (JUSTICE FOR HER, she's more like.. not working against them though. not working with them.). Uzi was gone for a bit, so it was just B, Cantor, and R who met them. Immediately B and Cantor guarded R. Eventually it turned into Cantor attacking the other DDs, and B having to physically restrain them so they didn't frickin' kill the three. Uzi came back, and managed to settle everything down. V, J, and N apologized to R and she accepted, but B and Cantor were still on guard around them.

Uzi started having "Girl Nights", involving V, Lizzy, J, B, and Uzi (along with Cyn ig lol). This is where B started lowering her guard with the other DDs, slowly learning to trust them. Especially J, since she actually knew J back at the manor.

J and B grew closer. Despite their opposite sleep schedules, the two always made time for each other. One day, J just.. woke up in B's bed with kiss marks. Neither remember what happened, but they decided they would be dating.

Then there's Cantor. He started being more cooped up in his lab more than usual, and Uzi had to use the key she had to force Cantor to take care of themselves.

The reason Cantor had been so cooped up was because they were once again trying to bring Cryp back. But were struggling.

One day Uzi couldn't check up on Cantor, so tasked N with doing it for her. Being the good friend he is, N listened. He came into Cantors lab, only to find Cantor passed out at his desk and a scared drone not knowing what's going on.

N walks over to the drone.

After a while Cantor awakens, he hears N and gets ready to attack.

He turns around.

And sees N comforting and playing with Cryp.

Cantor sees this and absolutely breaks down, full on sobbing.

Cantor walks over to N and Cryp, hugs N and cries into his shoulder. N comforts Cantor, and eventually Cantor calms down enough to hang out with the two.

Cantor tells B and R about Cryp being back, and the two are basically immediately in the lab.

Though eventually Cantor realizes something.

Cryp's visor isn't on, and.. neither are their systems. No one knows why, but it doesn't matter as long as Cryp is okay and here.

Cryp does struggle with vision though. Along with motor skills. Cantor often carries her around and holds stuff for her.

Anyways, N helping Cryp got Cantor to trust him more. and the two hung out a bit. along with this Cantor and Thad grew closer. Thad and N were already dating, and eventually the three became close enough where Cantor would tag along with dates. A while later, Cantor joined the relationship (I just want to say that Cantor is in a queerplatonic relationship with N and Thad<3).

One day V and Lizzy say they're going to go adventuring. They'll be harder to contact and such, but will try to come and hang out every now and then. So yeah! Lizzy and V go around to different outposts and DD squads :3

Cantor and Uzi hang out a lot, so it would be eventual that Cantor meets Khan and Nori. Nori is still just her core, but Cantor offers to build her another body. She accepts and Cantor eventually builds her a body, it does take quite a few months though. As Nori is trying out her new body, Nori mentions Alice, which gets a "you knew my mom?" from Cantor.

Thats when Nori starts panicking.

She confesses to Cantor that she and Alice had a kid together before Nori left. Which causes Cantor to freak, and immediately text Uzi "WE'RE HALF SIBLINGS". Uzi and Cantor are very excited about it. and are happy to know they're siblings.

Everything seems to be okay, hell better than okay, now! Everyone is happy and content.

But Cantor's solver gets worse, which like.. confuses everyone. But they soon figure out the AS is trying to use Cantor as a new host. It abandoned Cyn and is using whatever it has left to force Cantor to be a host. This obviously terrifies everyone, and leads Cantor to want to try and figure out how to stop it from happening.

Annndd I think thats all the Code and Bones lore, well theres some "future" stuff (Such as U and I coming back. Also Cyn getting a new body, and Yeva, Doll, Alice, and Beau being revived.) but I don't have any of that figured out for the most part so :3

[sinistergooseberries]

SALAAR (SPOILER ALERT)

continuing my tags from a previous post (sorry 😭 @deadloverscity) : like i said, i do think salaar is a good story so far. I like the world-building, I like the tribe coalition system that becomes a background for our story, and i like the fact that varadha and deva are in a toxic yaoi relationship.

im not gonna lie tho, i just haaaate the cinematography and lighting in prashant neel's movies. it's always a bad time there. It's like slapping a vignette over every frame of the movie, and it takes away any colour whatsoever. I understand that he wants to go for a dark vibe, but trust me, dark vibes can be achieved even without making the entire movie dark and invisible. I literally cannot see the actors doing any action! It's bad! It's not enjoyable. As a typical Telugu moviegoer (and assuming the movie was made for a predominantly telugu audience), I enjoy a somewhat vibrant colour scheme. So far, in all of our movies and even the mega movies (if you have watched RRR and Baahubali) there is a lot colour and imagery going on in the movies. I think in Prashant neel's cinemas, all of this is taken away. He has a set of colours that appear in his films consistently - which are black, grey and red. This colour scheme i feel, if repeatedly used, can be a bit boring and may take away the vibrance of the story. the stark contrasts (imo) do not emphasise the story, they overshadow it. still, take this w a grain of salt.

However, considering the fact that this is just his fourth film, ill cut him some slack. But man, if he is going to make movies for a telugu audience, i hope he lets go of the vignette filter.

next, the worldbuilding. i like it - here is a country that is completely separated from india, yet dictates certain aspects of it. i like that they chose an isolated place that evolves in parallel with the mainland, but retains the values of the tribes, making this place mythical and real at the same time. i was really intrigued by the tribe lore - about how the mannars ousted the shouryangas, and how rajamannar basically went against his own father's rule-book and is now facing dire consequences from bharava, whose tribe has the right to the throne right now. i also love love love loveeeeeee the fact that deva is the rightful heir to the throne - and also also the fact that whether he knows about this or not is left ambiguous. i love how this adds another layer to amma's hatred of khansaar and OH. MY. GOD. chef's kiss i love it.

as a personal taste, i don't like violence and epic fights tm overshadowing the narrative, which i feel the movie does. however, kannada film-making might be different. idk, i havent seen many kannada films other than kantara and kgf. the former is good i absolutely love it - the story is fantastic, the fight scenes are chumma, ufff i can praise it for days. the latter is pretty meh for me.

another thing i love about the movie is.. well, varadha and deva. dude, what is up with telugu guys unintentionally making queer movies these days? what is up with that yallll??? ohmygod. when i tell you that i smelled the romance im not lying. dude. dudeee. the whole friends to enemies to (maybe) friends/lovers arc theyve got going on? oooh baby i can feel the fanfics writing themselves. the whole soaked in blood-fighting-together scene? it was a miracle i wasnt jumping up and down on my seat. the dialogue in that scene 'i have friends more handsome than you' and then varadha getting kinda jealous and shit. lovely. the whole don't touch him thing that deva has got going on - baby boy just kiss him. and man. it's beautiful tragic and im writing a fanfic.

soo yeah this is my rant about salaar. im expecting something from it lol.

[thisfuckingdork]

I saw your tags on my conlang notes and I wanna know what your system is? Is it just imagery or are you using a specific technique?

(Been using the negative space in Phoenician/proto-caananite letters and words with a little bit of formatting to get them to read as single multipurpose words.)

I'll take any excuse to explain my art thought processes

For me it's that I've kinda unintentionally then intentionally developed motifs/themes with imagery and specifically colours within my Cape Escape/Deadlaws fan art (I have been using the exact same red and gold for Cape Escape since literally my first fan art lol)

Drew this up to explain better so hopefully it makes sense though this is more descriptive than prescriptive; it's developed mostly mindlessly with me occasionally leaning into it (The only explicitly intentional symbols being the golden eye and eight sided star)

But like yeah, not a language but still creating consistent symbols and imagery for the show that aren't necessarily present in the actual source material

[andbrokenmemories]

full murderbot thoughts post

Alright! Finished with Book 7 of Murderbot, System Collapse, and collected my thoughts on the series.

Maybe one day I'll do one last round-up to read novellas and maybe write a Properly Structured Review Innit, so for now this is gonna be the messy notes version of this. Let me give a paragraph or two of review-y thoughts, here, though. Set the stage and all.

So: I liked them a lot! I wouldn't ever say I struggle with sci-fi, but I think in practice I struggle with sci-fi. For other genrefic novels, tropes i Enjoy the Consumption of can usually keep my interest alive long enough; like, Black Sun and Fevered Star didn't light me on fire, but there was a lot of dynamics and play within the space that I could consistently enjoy and keep. Chewing down the line on. real strawberry lace fiction. real gummy worm fiction

Sci-Fi usually struggles more with that, I guess. Or, rather, I don't enjoy genrefic sci-fi for sci-fi's sake? There is, i think, a needle to thread of Good Spec-fic, of "oooh literature on a Weird Way of Existing". that style can keep me hooked, and Murderbot Diaries manages that with all the intricacies of the SecUnit experience. and also you can just have a lot to say! and murderbot has a lot to say! overall 8.5 out of 10. book 1 is a 9 out of 10 (yippeee strained relations distrust etc); book 2 is an 8.5 out of 10 (ART good); book 3 is a 7 out of 10 (i dont really remember those people); book 4 is an 8 out of 10, book 5 is an 8.5 out of 10 but i think it'd be a bunch higher if i didnt find the middle a bit bloated; book 6 is a 7.5/10, book 7 is an 8/10. loose thoughts from my journal from here on. spoilers for the whole series begin in earnest.

I like murderbot diaries the most when its reasonably omniscient, dynamic feeling, with a bunch of pieces moving around; and when those pieces are the psychology of murderbot as it navigates shit. i popped the fuck off when at the start of the long one [that's Network Effect] we got an interlude of murderbot interacting with mensa and her family and Caring and augh. ouagh.

WE HJAVE TO PUT ON THE BEST DAMN TALENT SHOW THI S COLONY HAS EVER SEEN!!!! [this was right when i got to the documentary part of the last book lol]

what if the other sec units went stereotypical serial killer robot and murdered all their handlers. like yes i get an argument against that that goes down the line of “and then we wont be able to extract from the situation and everyone gets killed in retribution” but, also, i feel like early in this series there was a lot of text talking about how sec units don't actually. think like that. in real life. I dont know, maybe i havent adjusted to a Thematic Choice where actually that was unreliable narration, but i find my brain getting caught up on that every time. like comparing how murderbot talks about how sec units think early in the series to later on. bwah.

anyway [in regards to the end of Exit Strategy] something very unique but kind of hash tag relatable about an extended sequence of a character reconstructing their memories from base principles, all sortakinda drunk. seeing all those cute and Telling and I See How It Is moments, which i derived a lot of value from, really fun capper to a book. good times. and then they hit 100% and the microwave goes Ding and they sit right up in bed and go Damn. That was stupid. I'm leaving.

when the panopticon surrounds you on every level and you have a lot of time to think on your self and your connection to your self and gain access to every system that makes you up and makes you you and all you can manage to acheive with it is the recreation of the panopticon within the self. and being without the panopticon is uncomfortable and foreign and strange. when the character does not allow the narrative to woobify them. 😍

ships you can talk to (who talk back only in concepts) are a gender by the way. that first scene [at the end of All Systems Red] of Murderbot working out its take on the all of it to a ship who can't really talk back, and was more or less the default “easily Manipulated bot pilot” that we just kind of sidestep each time going forwards, but like. was also the Same Thing as Mbot in not having anyone to really talk this out with. we are both on the same level. we, two, have not been taught to sell our class, our people out to the humans; we can be Niceys to one another. you can seek that out and find it. there are glimmers and moments like that throughout the whole series going forwards. which kind of makes hanging out with the humies boring unless they're one of the like 3-4 that i feel have an Interesting Social Dynamic with murderbot

following on from that, i immediately started visualising ARTs feed-self as a Kirby Endboss mass of glowing, dazzling, flowing dials/lenses/clocks towering over everyone else. with speech bubbles violently louder than everyone elses. Like that was how my brain went “how would the graphic novel get this Concept of ‘I could squish you like a bug with one instant of thought you are nothing to me you little it/its freak’ across". and its good. its good

[in regards to Network Effect, and trying to sum up my whole feelings on 2.0]: Whoops! Your clone headmate you made underbaked on purpose came out with ADHD and joié de vivre and is kicking its feet up and down in its partition watching comfort media while you go through the shit that made the Expanse expand. that made the signal is. that made the Space [face/off-style pause] Dead

So, what're my big takeaways with the whole series? Everyone trying to Do Therapyspeak on Murderbot and it usually Not Working is nice. There is something wrong with you, and that's not like a puzzle to be unraveled, but the perspective the text then takes on everything else. this world isn't, like, Fascinating and realized with any special flair, but you get to have moments where Murderbot exposits how fucked shit is to other people, or judges a situation it's bitter about as people around it get Fucked Over, and it's just like. It's a fun level of fucked up, in a way, sure, but it's also those moments of like. Ah. Murderbot does not set out to be protagonist-ly about this world, to be deeply critical, to wikia-mode about it all. Only to be constantly drawn to such anyway, to being Bitter and having to exposit to make certain points land because it needs certain points to land because. shrugs, gestures. The World. All of it. but then we go back to like “Hey do you think you have trauma maybe?” “FUCK you” and it's consistent and that's all chewy in a way I find nice. It's nice. We're having a niceys time. smile emoji

[stupidneko]

hi! i love youre stuff, very cute and sometimes somber (idk how to word v pretty =w=). i dont know what twisted wonderland is and was curious? is it like the game?

hi !1 thank you!!

about twst(for short) its a more like turn based game + rhythmic game between scenes or something like that, it's also a gacha game ksjdgksjg

the game is based on disney villains( scar, hades etc.), the characters designs and story is written and made by Yana Toboso.

wiki description: The genre of Disney Twisted-Wonderland is described as a "Villains Academy ADV (adventure game)".It is described to have a "basic gameplay system" consisting of three main elements: Lessons, Stories, and Tests.

a very important aspect of the game that we the fans like is the MC or protagonist, which doesn't have a specific gender and it's pretty much considered a self-insert in a way, the character goes by Yuu which is the default name + they are mostly known as Prefect and the cast refers them as such.

we fans often like to make our own version of Yuu aka the Prefect, for more oc/self-insert you can just search with the tags like : twst oc, twst prefect, twst mc, twst sona.

there are MANY versions of Yuu in the fandom, both the in the en or jp.

i personally don't feel like playing the game, since i'm far to behind in terms of the gameplay and story in it, so i prefer to watch the chapters on youtube or read about it, plus the characters cards are just so good and the fandom often loses it's mind when a new card is released

note: the game is NOT an otome game, we the fans just like to ship the mc with various characters from the cast lol

hope this helps!!

[adventuretolkienlover]

Thinking about how I want to redesign my blog. I just need to ramble.

I'm thinking Vapor Wave and 1980s Aesthetic.✨✨✨✨

Since I have a deep love for the 1980s. Especially the Architecture, aesthetic, and Fashion. And while my interests tend to shift very rapidly, that one seems to stay fairly consistent. Most of my hyperfixations have been related to the 80s somehow. Or if not, I would try to apply an 80s style to them in my art. 🤣

Speaking of which, I'm actually writing a private project inspired by Vapor Wave, 1980s - 2000s, 80s Anime, and a hint of the 1960s. (It's a very retro project.😅) I don't know if I'll ever post any of it here, since I've been keeping it under lock and key since I was frickin 16. But maybe someday.

Additionally, I'm gonna spiff up my tag system. Good luck finding anything I posted after the revamp. Everything is gonna be a lot more organized. Lol.

I'm also wondering if I should change my blog handle. I made it when I was just starting out and just smooshed a bunch of words together. On the other hand, it's what everyone knows me by. Hmmm.

Lots of thoughts!! So much to do! Alallskdaskjdj!