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nora and goats
the leftovers 2.05 "no room at the inn" // the leftovers 3.08 "the book of nora"
#nora durst#the leftovers#carrie coon#is this anything??? i ask knowing damn well it isn't#i can't help it my notes app just has a list of leftovers moments that made me go “OHH!!!!” during this last rewatch#like ohhhh i think parallels ??? (the parallel being there is a goat in the scene)#what else am i meant to tag this.#cw animal death#i guess?? for the third and fourth pic
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I've been curating some of these things and I think it's time to let them loose into the world. My hope is that at least one of them is funny
#Yes I just make these on the side whenever I find anything I think is funny and then hoard them#trafficblr#mcyt#am I gonna tag all the lifers for this. am I#sigh.ok some of them#zombiecleo#bad boys#jimmy solidarity#joel smallishbeans#ethoslab#scott smajor#geminitay#skizzleman#goodtimeswithscar#boat boys#not meant to be shippy Im just trying desperately to be a little funny#shiny duo#idk what else ur supposed to tag in these#bdoubleo#shak's shitpost
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I dunno I watched the music video and my very first thought was 'I need to draw them dancing' so I did
#tom cardy#transcendental cha cha cha#Man what the HELL else am I meant to tag this with#tom cardy yaoi ???????????? I DON'T KNOW
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Creation = The Thing (from the tubhole?)
Primary Protector (Creator (not used but could be)) = Tubbo
Rank 1 Shell = Sunny
Guardian = Philza
Shell (in general) = Eggs
Pancake Shell = Empanada
The Mother of Pancake Shell = Bagi
Duck Shell = Chayanne
Trauma Shell = Tallulah
#i can’t talk in chat rn and am dealing™️#qsmp philza#Philza#donno what else to tag#I kinda hope he keeps playing it relatively serious#the idea of Creation being something from either the tubbhole or something Tubbo made#to protect Sunny in case he isn’t there#‘you are my job’ yeah he’s meant to look after her- DID HE JUST POINT AT HER AND SHE DISAPPEAR#I KNEW IF HE POINTED AT YOU YOU GET VOIDED BUT WTF#‘Rank 1 is now Safe’ UH HUH. SURE.#OH HE BROUGHT HER BACK#‘Guardian I am here for you’ ‘how can I trust you?’#‘yes it was warm there like a blanket :)’ ‘no one else is here for me’#SUNNY#‘primary protector is missing.’ ‘Primary Protector put me here for you.’ ‘fear no more’ at least Phil is getting#‘PRIMARY PROTECTOR WILL BE FOUND OR RECOVERED INTO A BACK UP’ WHAT#‘I need your help guardian’ ‘locating (primary protector)’ ‘do you have the data’#Phil trying to explain to Creation what happened and why-#‘primary protector cannot die. primary protector is not alive to begin with.’ WHAT. TUBBO LORE?????
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you are my sunshine, my only sunshine
you make me happy when skies are gray
(prompt fill for @mcspirkevents' mcspirk bingo prompt "gone with the wind".)
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ouch! neck deep in aos bones feels rn... lmk if i should make a fix-it or somethin
#yeah so yesterday i said id try not to get distracted.. Guess how well that went LMAO#SORRY BONES hes going thru it in this one but literally this is all aos canon. aos is so mean to him and for what#not a single drop of closure... tos bones would flip shit if he found out. Thats the real reason why bones prime never shows up in aos#YEAH BTW PLEASE LOOK AT THE STATIC FRAMES PROCREATE HAS A ASTRONOMIC GRUDGE AGAINST THE 3RD SLIDE FOR SOME REASON#it would NOT stop crunching that one single GODDAMN FRAME in the gif. like full on colour blowout. like WHAT DID IT EVER DO TO YOU#YEAH SO I HAD TO SCREENSHOT IT AND PUT THAT IN THE GIF. EXCEPT MY IPAD SCREENSHOTS THINGS WEIRD. so its CONSPICUOUSLY BRIGHT#the 3rd and 4th frames are meant to have the same background color. every time i watch the gif i am filled with unimaginable rage#WHAT DID THAT FRAME EVER DO TO MY IPAD. what unforgivable crimes did it ever commit to be disrespected like this#ok rant over tags now :))#star trek#star trek aos#star trek fanart#mcspirk bingo#mcspirk#mcspirk fanart#spones#mckirk#spirk#star trek alternate original series#aos#spones fanart#leonard mccoy#bones mccoy#spock#jim kirk#did not use a single ref so the fact that the uniforms are reasonably legible as aos is a win (not like i use refs for anything else lol)#spirk is holding hands in that last frame!! gay people moment#OH AND I DID THIS IN LIKE. AROUND 3 HOURS? ive been meaning to draw that first frame for ages now so YIPPEEEEE#i did have a different caption in mind tho. Guess ill redraw it in the future LMAO#dust medibang paints
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(go on and) kiss the boy
“So,” Mike starts, drawing out the word, and Will turns to him. “Any ideas on how to spend the next fifteen minutes?” It’s teasing, suggestive when he wiggles his eyebrows, and it’s so unexpected that Will lets out a surprised laugh, unabashed, and it’s so easy, how the tension falls away, and it’s only them again. “You’re ridiculous,” Will shakes his head, smiling, but Mike looks proud of himself anyway. He points out, “I don’t hear you complaining.” Will scoffs, nudging at him with an elbow. “Whatever,” he smoothly replies. Mike grins.
Will, Mike, and the numerous attempts at their first kiss.
#hiii it is me again . hello#ok . on with the tags#oh my god its 3 am#I HAVE TO GET UP AT NINE .....#ok . ok#byler#will byers#mike wheeler#byler fic#byler fanfic#um . what else#thats probably it idk#ok no rambling this time . i am so tired ive been working on this for like . one day and it i sprobably so bad and im missing osme huge mis#ake . my eyes are going to melt out of my ears#EARS ? HEAD I MEANT HEAD#SKJULL ??? SKULL theyre going ot melt out of my skull . jesus christ#im done embarrassing myself#goodbye and goodnight#byebye#magic
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since yall looooooovvvvveeeddddddd the yunho one so much, pls, take a soobin hand kink post -
#yall hoes thirrrrrsry#dont blame yall#livs hard hours#txt#txt smut#tomorrow x together#tomorrow x together smut#txt funny#txt post#txt soobin#soobin#soobin smut#txt hand kink#kpop hand kink#kpop crack#txt crack#soobin hand kink#now what the hell else am i meant to tag this#love yall NASTIES HAHAHAHAHAHA GET OUT OF MY FOLDERS GOODBYE
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Propaganda: im gonna be real i just genuinely want to know if people still ship this. because this WAS a thing. at LEAST two people shipped it. Clint made a joke in crystal kingdom about Killian having a crush on Johann and writing it in her diary, and she blushes iirc. there was a whole jumbotron of a couple who called themselves Killian and Johann.
#the adventure zone#taz balance#m/f ship#ship poll#fandom polls#johann#killian#propaganda slightly edited to remove a message directed to me!#to the submitter: i am delighted to see this submission it is absolutely in the spirit of things <3#my entire approach to shipping is 'ooh this sounds fun - would it be fun? would it be interesting?' personally#and i've rambled often to friends about how taz fans tend to approach sexuality headcanons and queer 'rep'#in taz itself (specifically balance) especially considering that it's a dnd podcast by a bunch of straight men in the 2010s#whatever! i did not make this blog to have controversial opinions about non-canon sexuality headcanons i made it to have fun#and this poll is fun!#thank you for submitting it. i love you#i love when this blog runs weird or unpopular ships as polls!! that's the point of it to me#sorry i try not to actually present myself as an individual person - or at least the persona this blog uses is distanced from myself#for privacy & anonymity. but it turns out that i'm chatty and you guys address me sometimes in poll submissions! so what else am i meant#to do#much love. if you read all these tags... hello
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If Miles had one second of free time in this crazy film he'd be like sitting in his room drawing and he'd be thinking about his encounter with Spot and be like:
#bro is a human outline with some circles here and there it can't be that hard#atsv#spiderverse#spiderverse memes#across the spiderverse#spider man across the spider verse#spider man across the spiderverse spoilers#atsv spoilers#miles morales#the spot#what else am I meant to tag this with ummm#nah whatever that's good enough
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How do we feel about my new discord pfp guys
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unfortunately for everyone especially myself i am still thinking about minecraft story mode
#long rant in tags up ahead oops#I AM. NORMALLY UPSET ABOUT ELLEGAARD'S DEATH.#i feel so cringe screaming about the show that gave me so much psychic damage but liek#ellegaard was an influential character that led a whole city#you'd. you'd think there'd be a memorial service.#or like jesse would be more visibly upset and emotionally damaged over witnessing her death and indirectly being the cause of her death#but no#the best thing we got was a brief scene of them going 'oh no she died! :( anyway the wither survivors tho'#i get that they're good guys n all and they were probably like 'i'm devastated by this but i need to pocket that to process later to get-#-these people to safety' but COME ON#justice for ellegaard#the playthrough i watched had ellegaard die if you didn't figure it out through this ramble#i probably would've been as attached to magnus as i was to ellegaard if i saw his arc at boom town but the playthrough chose redstone land#which like yeah samesies#ANYWAY. MAIN TAG TIME SORRY FOR THE RAMBLE IN TAGS (not sorry)#mcsm#minecraft story mode#AND THE FACT THAT THE PIG GOT MORE OF A MEMORIAL THAN HER REALLY RUBBED SALT IN THE WOUND FOR ME#sorry reuben fans i didn't care for him at all#yes this is a kids show meant for 10 year olds yes i'm overanalyzing it what else am i supposed to do on a monday#if i ever make a fix it rewrite story you have full legal permission to ban my tumblr account /j /silly#blood tw#tw blood
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I read Possession by AS Byatt after people told me "if you liked Gaudy Night you'll like this" and WELL.
Warning- spoilers for both books abound below!
So it sounded great- as a lapsed academic (though not in the field of literature by any means) there's a part of me that loves reading about academia because it's full of such obsessive people, and this book seemed to be exactly that and so I was excited.
Then I read it, and on the one hand, my first thought was "all these people are dull as heck, the only sane modern-day one is Val, and at the end of the day the historical stuff is just two people having an affair, who cares." My second thought was "there's just enough stuff here that makes me think that maybe the author knows that all of this is stupid, like the fact that Val is obviously one of the few sane ones here." But the ending made me doubt even that. Essentially, and I say this even as that lapsed academic, the author could not convince me to care about the important things at stake here, and as a result couldn't get me to care about the people who only seemed to care about those things.
I didn't care about Ash and LaMotte- they came across as two people high on their own supply who had a tawdry affair. (And each of them is the less interesting person, as a person, than their official partner!) As a result of not caring about them, I couldn't POSSIBLY care about Roland, Maud, and the rest of their crew, because their only functions were to be possessed by, and weirdly possessive of, these two entirely unworthy individuals, whose in-universe historical and literary significance Byatt couldn't convince me of, and to use that possession as a mirror for their own very lame romance. Beyond that they're utterly uninteresting, and there isn't even meant to BE much beyond that so it's not that surprising.
Anyway, I didn't like this book much, but it still made me think a lot. And there's a way in which a certain kind of person might say "well if it made you think then that's surely a sign of some positive quality" and... maybe? I don't know. I didn't hate all of it, and some parts were interesting, and I do have a whole separate list of things about the book that bug me including a breakdown of some of the book's (perceived by me) themes that I particularly disliked lol. Perhaps I'll post it another time. So I guess you can say it spurred me to thought, but loads of things that I don't like do that, and the only positive thing that that draws from me is that they're not downright dull.
The thing is, after finishing the book I was immediately struck by that "if you like Gaudy Night..." element, because it has a situation that felt weirdly similar (if for totally different reasons)- a young scholar stealing a letter from a library/archive. The circumstances are different- in Gaudy Night, the scholar does it to hide its existence so as not to contradict his thesis, and in Possession, the scholar does it so as to explore the document further, though still secretly- but there are still some interesting parallels vis a vis class. Possession goes into the class thing more than Gaudy Night does, but neither book goes much into it- the scholar is lower-class and someone who has scraped their way to their position, and is encumbered by a female partner of lower social and academic standing, and in the end they are juxtaposed against scholars who come from an elevated class and who have more money and opportunity. In Gaudy Night, Arthur Robinson is judged by the likes of Lord Peter Wimsey and a college full of women who don't have to do anything but think, teach, write, and grade papers; in Possession, Roland has to convince a bunch of academics of standing and resources to take a chance on him (and while this is more about money than class, he's the main one who's like "maybe it's good if Lady Bailey gets her wheelchair"). Byatt elides over this at the end by having him magically become in demand and on his way to achieving his academic goals, but I think in both books, the class element really could have taken on more significance in the text.
(I'd add as well that Byatt pits the upper-class and moneyed Maud, who of course is doing things for "the right reasons," vs the evil American businessman who clearly... doesn't care about Ash enough? Despite how much he clearly and obviously cares about Ash? The book was way more interesting when he seemed like a valid rival to the British team, who only thought that they deserved the letters more because of their obsession, rather than how it turned out at the end where the American dude is an actual cartoon villain. What made him genuinely less worthy besides having money without class, and of course having the bad taste to be American? What makes one scholar's possession more justified? Sayers was never this unsubtle.)
So that made me think more about Possession vs Gaudy Night, and the thing is, there are actual living people in Gaudy Night! Say what you will about the unworldliness of the academics at Shrewsbury, but you get a very keen view of their personalities by the end, even as they are (by necessity given the rules of their world) subsumed by academia, or subsume themselves in it. And the people who do fall in love are REALLY in love, and you understand why...
And somehow a book from 1935 feels far more interrogative of the possession (or lack thereof) found in love and romance, and just about the place of women in academia and relationships overall, than one from the late 80s. In Gaudy Night, Harriet accepts Peter once she has determined that despite their power differential (brought on by class, money, history, and to a degree gender) he will not threaten her personhood, because he has proven himself to her. In Possession, Maud accepts Roland because she has the power (money, class, position, even height) and so Roland actually cannot threaten her- and yet still that final scene is about her being taken by him, basically to prove some kind of a point. In contrast, in Busman's Honeymoon, the euphemistic sex scenes are about Peter trying to please Harriet.
When I say it's to prove a point, I'm paraphrasing Byatt, incidentally- who said: "And in the case of Maud I had made it very inhibiting. She was a woman inhibited both by beauty (which actually isn't very good for very beautiful women because they feel it isn't really them people love) and she was also inhibited by Feminism, because she had all sorts of theories that perhaps she would be a more noble kind of woman if she was a lesbian. And so she was a bit stuck. And Roland was timid because I am naturally good at timid men. It's the kind of men I happen to like. He's a timid thinking man, so of course it took him the whole book." I mean... yikes, but also that explains a lot. Maud can only bring herself to be with a man who is weak/effeminate (?) enough to justify whatever weird psyche Byatt has imagined up for her, but still she needs to get over her inhibitions and under him because... reasons. I don't know.
(Height is also interesting here as a point of contrast- Byatt makes Maud taller than Roland to make a point about how on the one hand she retains the power but on the other hand there is now even more of her that has to surrender. Peter and Harriet are the same medium height and wear the same size gown.)
I think the thing that most stuns me is how regressive Possession feels when it comes to gender politics on relationships than Gaudy Night does. I'd need a whole other post to talk about this, but the theme of Possession seems to me to be "relationships that produce things (whether art or children) are worth more than ones that don't." Roland is better with Maud than with Val because Val is a second rate scholar who drags him down (while supporting him financially) and Ash is better with LaMotte than with Ellen because LaMotte didn't only inspire his writing (Ellen's contributions are described only in the negative "didn't impede"), she gave him the child that Ellen refused to. Incidentally, in both cases it's the man pursuing a relationship that will give HIM something... But, to paraphrase Peter in Busman's Honeymoon, one wouldn't want to regard relationships in that agricultural light. Gaudy Night is about how two people can produce great things without each other but choose to be with each other for their own, and each other's, happiness. They aren't each less apart, and as I noted in a prior post, they don't need to solve cases together or conjoin their work in order for their relationship to be worth something. It is worth it for them to be together because it encourages some kind of inner balance within them and between them, as people. They enjoy collaborating but that is by no means the basis of their love (and, incidentally, I think that a lot of, if not most, detective series romances fail this basic test of "would they have fallen in love if they were accountants who met on a dating app." Peter and Harriet definitely would have- would, say, Albert Campion and Amanda Fitton have? I do NOT think so).
And here's the thing- another reason why Byatt's quote above is so off-putting is that it makes it clear that not only in the text but on a meta level, the purpose of the relationships is to prove a Point. I found Roland and Maud to have zero chemistry, and honestly I was expecting them to get together 3/4 of the way through and split up at the end when it turned out they had nothing in common- it seemed like that kind of book. I was kind of stunned when they only got together at the end in an "it's meant to be" way because nothing about it seemed meant to be. They were stuck together by that one thing and they each apparently needed the relationship for some kind of self-actualization or historical rhyming or other. (Whatever I say about Ash and LaMotte... at least they seemed to like each other!)
Peter and Harriet... they get together because they love each other. Do they change over the course of Gaudy Night, and over the course of the other books they share together? Of course they do. But if it makes sense, I'll put it this way- Harriet doesn't accept Peter's proposal as proof that she got over her hangups, Harriet gets over her hangups so that she can accept Peter's proposal. Her hangups only matter because they were keeping her from this particular kind of happiness- she was a fully actualized person even with them. She is a person who does things for human reasons so that she can build a mutually happy life with the person she loves, not a little plot mannequin being moved around in order to tell the author's desired Message. People can say what they want about Gaudy Night and its flaws, but despite the intricacies of its construction, nobody can call the characters' actions and motivations anything but brutally human.
Whether within their universes or on a meta level, the books have SUCH different things to say about the value and nature of love, the place of and purpose of sex, the place of art and intellectual accomplishment in relationships, all of the above in the context of femininity… and I can't help but feel that each time, Gaudy Night wins the contest. It's possible I'm missing something major about Possession, and maybe sometime I'll post the rest of my notes about the things I disliked and people can tell me what I'm wrong about- but if nothing else it made me appreciate Gaudy Night even more, so for that I'm grateful.
#possession#as byatt#gaudy night#dorothy l sayers#lord peter wimsey#harriet vane#i'm not tagging all the characters from possession bc i don't actually really remember their full names and i'm too lazy to look them up#I also saw recs for possession for “if you like jonathan strange and mr norrell” and “if you like jfsp s9”#for jonathan strange and mr norrell i actually have several Thoughts#and am happy to share if asked#but i'm perplexed by the jfsp comparison#though a reading of ellen ash as asexual vs uncle newt would be...interesting#i guess it's based on romances contrasted through time?#also- i've seen people claim that possession is satire#to which i say#BS!!!!#the way that book is written either literally every word of it is satire and none of it is meant to be taken seriously#or it's serious as gospel#the only bits where some parts felt like they might be meant to be “satirical” in relation to other parts#came across more as caricature than anything else#cough cough lesbian feminist american professor... i mean jeez#which reminds me#any future writing i do about why i disliked possession#will have to include my take on that thing some women writers do where they're really WEIRD about how they write women#(sexually but in a way that they THINK is clinical to the point of objectivity)#while barely even describing what the men look like#and not having the women be physically attracted to them#another contrast point with sayers actually#who is perfectly prepared to have harriet be physically attracted to peter
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this might be an unpopular opinion but i kinda hate it when people make buck a navy seal instead of a navy seal dropout like. occasionally i've seen people using an au to do it decently but i feel like most of the time its dickriding the us military
#okay but what if he did decide to go kill people#just so i can have trauma for him#like the tragedy of combat in afghanistan is NOT primarily that us soldiers were traumatized because of the people they killed!#the tragedy of us military presence in afghanistan is the staggering number of civilian casualties as a result#911#911 abc#anyway buck's whole point was that he could not turn off his emotions and be a machine#how else am i supposed to interpret that if not that he could not stop seeing “the enemy” as a person and not a target?#evan buckley was not meant to kill anyone#in b4 anyone says: i'm not trying to rag on eddie either; i understand that military service in american tv is often a shorthand#for duty honor and trauma i get that#but buck specifically cites his own emotions (his COMPASSION) as why he could not stay with the seals#and then people are like#babes get ur trauma elsewhere he is NOT a military boy#ok my tags got long im sorry#really hope im not swinging a bat at a hornets nest here tho lmao
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My already-belated Fëanorian Week took another hit when I realized my half-finished Curufin piece might not meet Tumblr guidelines so I’m going to have to start over with that one. In the meantime, here’s something from a few months ago that feels more like something I might have made in 2019 or thereabouts.
#beren#finrod#the man the myth the legends#three shinies#what's this a happy ending#my trash#is this actually funny or am i just tired#i'm sorry professor tolkien#heck yeah bromance#mission failed we'll get em next time#and long would mandos hold him#just go read the book#/end classification tags#featuring: 15-second anatomy and beren's chibi eyes#if i remember right this whole comic took about 3 minutes because it was a warmup for something else#and i meant to post it on the blog but never did#so here we have it today
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the biggest thing about X6 is not that he doesn't think of himself as human (though he doesn't, and according to some it's correct) BUT that he doesn't see himself as a Person
#searching through the X6-88 tag on tumblr has not brought me joy#also. 1 thing about is that i hate hate hate the (i think) canon blue eyes he has. like. for fucking what#1st i saw them on tumblr and thought 'well thats stupid. whyd you give him blue eyes? so hed look special? thats weird. at least its uncanon#also. on god. i saw some post headcanoning the companions' appearances and it was p cool UNTIL they got to x6#and they gave him grey 'almost white' eyes for literally no reason. like if you want to go with the scary factor theres so many ways for it#but no. some people think that blue/grey eyes are sooo special. and for what#<- i have brown eyes but im not just being salty. it really sucks. i dont wanna be the one to call fandom racism but it does smell like it!#also like. i didnt want to go on a stupid tirade about racism in the tags again but the way fandom treats x6 AND preston is just upsetting#other people have made some very good points about it and im not going to repeat them here (also noones gonna read this)#but like... theres 3 'main' black characters that i remember: preston garvey (whom the stron majority of the fandom hates/disliked)#x6-88 (basically the players slave? also hated for being mean and unfeeling (which is justified imo). no quest no freedom no nothing)#and gloria (who i havent met in game but ive heard some actual criticisms of (like. the way shes treated ingame) and noone else talks about)#if theres any other Named and Important characters. sorry but i literally do not remember them#coming back to x6 being justified in being unemotional/mean. he was literally raised this way. he doesnt consider himself to be a person#being he was made that way. he is a Thing and hes meant for one job and hes made to inspire fear#and hes not supposed to have emotions so he just. doesnt. if he does he cant express them anyways#1 if fallout4 was a better written game (or 2 if x6 was white) i think thered be SO much fanfiction about him. the possibilities are endless#i have something brewing in the back of my head. i might start writing even though i suck and its going to be bad#ANYWAYS. general fandom thought on x6 are WRONG and im being a HATER. fuck everyone who doesn't like x6. if you dont like x6 get off tumblr#especially if you like gage but not x6. leave fr#i just woke up wtf am i doingggg
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“I know it was an accident” (from the SL secret night) get slept on so hard. I think about that line every day and I’ve never seen anyone else talk about it.
#fnaf#five nights at freddy's#fnaf sister location#elizabeth afton#she really does know how to manipulate people#circus baby#and like I know it was technically Ennard who said that but it was obviously Elizabeth inside Ennard bc no one else would know to say that#but OH MY GOD#like she is really trying to get Michael to listen to her and to give himself up#and she knows that one of the things he wants to hear most from her is ‘I know it was an accident’#maybe implying that he never got that from her…because she thinks it will get a reaction from him#their relationship post 83 is so interesting to me#also is Evan a part of Ennard I usually say he is#idk maybe Evan doesn’t have eyes he does say that he can’t see in the logbook#so that’s why he’s not in the sewer#for some reason I imagine Evan and Elizabeth giggling while they’re trying to get Michael to give himself up#the pauses in between are breaks for them to stifle laughter#like this isn’t actually a headcanon but it’s fun to think about for me#‘okay okay shh shh shh’ *muffled giggling* ‘no Im serious I’m going to do the thing now’ (I know it was an accident) *Hysterical laughter*#that was an incoherent tag I am realizing#real eyes realize what the fuck I meant by that#okay I’m losing it bye guys <3
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