#what I see

[blabbershere]

You won't see it for what it is, until you stop looking through the lens of what you want it to be.

[off-the-lost-soul]

🎀 THERE 🎀

WATCHING...me

Help...me....

[glitter-sprinkling-capricorn]

I really want to be delulu, I really do. In Delulu Land it's warm and cosy, pink candyfloss clouds everywhere, unicorns🦄, swirlies🍭 and rainbows🌈 and of course Nicola and Luke together in a relationship, happy, after good sex, cuddling in bed. I would like to believe that. ❤️

But I can't.

What follows are my thoughts and feelings, I'm not saying it's true, I've been wrong before...

On 24 October my plane🛩 landed on German soil at 1:45 a.m., I had mobile data again after 7.5 hours and thought: you had the feeling that something was going to happen tonight, but you're an adulting adult now and don't look at your mobile phone.

Then the people on the plane were too stupid to get off. They were all scrunched up at the back, the plane went up at the front and everything stood still. And I sat there with my broken arm, annoyed and exhausted and just wanted to go home.

Then I thought: oh yes... then take a look.

dudumm....

What will I see first? JD and Nic....

You know I didn't notice any sexual tension. Even after NY I was still like: yeah well she got scared... I wasn't worried - in hindsight, I just didn't want to see it.

So I thought: ok JD and Nic then so if they are happy go ahead....

Although to be honest I have a problem with the age gap for various reasons which I can go into if anyone is interested.

But because from the bottom of my heart I am a person who means it when I say: if she is happy, I am happy.

I think JD is a nice guy and I could imagine that they have a lot in common. For example photography, they have the same circle of friends, so why not.

And that doesn't stop me from believing in Lukola in the long run.

Second topic and the reason why I'm writing all this: Luke and Antonia:

I just ignored her for a long time. She was simply non-existent in my orbit, now you know how delulu I can be 🤣

I always thought I was getting weird vibes from her, kind of arrogant, not real, fake smile. And that wasn't someone I would want for Luke. I also thought for a long time that they weren't even together anymore and then her Spain photos came along. I grudgingly accepted it and continued to ignore her as much as possible.

Yesterday I saw a video with her and her friends and I saw a real, lively, funny, friendly girl.

And somehow, without actively wanting to, I made my peace with her. If this girl in the picture is what she usually shows of herself, I can understand what Luke might see in her.

Again, I'm not thrilled with the age gap. But again: if it makes him happy...

And again: that doesn't stop me from believing in Lukola in the long run.

I would like to believe what is so beautifully portrayed in delulu, that JD is just the distraction and that Luke and Antonia are long gone, but....

I can't.

I will always sprinkle glitter but I also have a rational side and it can't overlook certain things.

I had to get rid of that. It all boiled inside me for a while.

[karihighman]

What normal Chicago PD fans see:

What Trasse fans see:

😄 thanks you marina for sharing these photos from jesse’s birthday!! & the elias surprise >>>>

[blues-screenshots]

This is what taking screenshots from an ultrawide monitor looks like

[hansgutphotography]

© hans gut

[lovepassionheart]

[ryanseslow]

In N’ around NewYawk -> 📸

[kingofkingsschizo]

Some people perceive it as being something that would be communistic, or socialistic just to make sure the lower portion or the lower half of the population that live inadequately below the poverty level. get more for there backbones But these republicans perpetuate amongst each other the notion that this would spoil the economy and I think they would like to make it out to be something extreme. It’s a bunch of asses sitting on a bunch of money they can’t go to the grave with that let other work to build there monopoly board.

Q

[eatingmics]

Henry Rollins, Black Flag. Photo by the amaaaazing Glen E. Friedman

[disorder-alice]

Succorpo della basilica cattedrale di Santi Erasmo e Marciano, Gaeta

[shironezuninja]

I mistyped something on the collage after this one and had to fix it. And I was too busy yesterday to want to post anything.

[jillyb2004]

What I see..

What I think…

The Patrick Star Art Belongs to @verronicaandjelly on Instagram

Gift for @juice-on-the-loose

[gooeykit]

[dobbdobbz]

This is what I feel like I look like but my wife seems to view me like this: