#whag if i die

[lumimis]

my mum was telling me about the hotel i'll be staying at for my bday but for some reason the way she talked about it sounded like she was reading my death sentence and i think it made me significantly more scared

[wereviolet]

(During The Summoning)

Pete: Babe what are the lords in black saying

Steph: Lmao don’t worry about it babe

Pete: Okay ❤️

Pete: Yayyy ❤️

[lepidopteragirl]

i figure this wont happen but i really truely do hope logan dies like. late/midway thru s4, and that its really sudden and shiv roman and kendall dont get any kind of warning. like. i hope they're in a meeting together with sandy and stewy and pierce about the best ways to tear atn to the ground, and jess comes in and pulls the three of them out right as they're almost at the end. shivs upset at their time being wasted and kendall doesnt want to look unprofessional and roman's worried about losing the deal. and then poor jess has to break the news. and they're all wreaked.

i hope none of them ever get a chance to apologize or beg for approval one last time i hope their last words to him are anonymous press statements about his health issues from "sources close to the family" and news stories like the ones atn used to run about kendall post vote of no confidence. i hope he sends messages again and again through every channel he can trying to get them to talk and together they refused. i hope he even got desperate enough to unblock kendall and kendall only finds out months after he died. i hope shivs last words to him were a snide message she told tom to pass along and i hope she takes some kind of sick comfort that she got to at least say something and i hope tom tells her later, at the funeral that he never said anything at all, intending it as a comfort and maybe an olive branch and it makes her sob for an hour straight once she gets home. i hope they all slip up on the business side of things bc they're all sick and grieving and they lose their window and gojo takes over permanently. i hope none of them can bear to look marcia in the eye. i hope they got small calls that would have let them say goodbye that they ignored bc they were preparing to meet with pierce. i hope logan reached out to roman individually after calling the three of them didnt work bc he knows roman's the weakest and roman stares at the messages he didnt reply back when it mattered. i hope the last thing kendall ever heard from him was an echo of the choked out .you are a fucking idiot. from lifeboats. i hope the three of them blame each other and get into a screaming match in the parking lot after the funeral until one of them breaks and just starts sobbing on the sidewalk. i hope they clean out his things together and find a unsent letter to the three of them and they hope its. something. and it turns out to be just another buyout form.

i hope they never got to find out if he ever really loved them or not.

[pastellmochi]

what the guck

[benetnvsch]

Bsd spoilers

Gore of my comfort character :’(

[scaredgirlsilly]

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[unholycourier]

biggest shock to me in fnv was convincing veronica to join the followers but bc i was a couple points off i couldn’t tell fool the brotherhood so their next logical course of action was massacring the followers post outside of freeside as if the doctors would build weapons of mass pre war destruction.

[judeiscariot]

i need to be sucking and fucking gerard way until they die from too much cum i will die if i don’t

^^^ IM ALWAYS SAYING THIS. need her thighs on my shoulders while i give a whole new meaning to the phrase ‘suck the life out’

[caffeinatedopossum]

I keep telling myself that between undereating again and potentially over exercising, over exercising is still going to be much less damaging but I don't actually know if that's true since I could easily injure myself and stuff

[starry-bearr]

me: yea ill just go to bed when my phone dies

my phone: has been at one percent for like 10 minutes

[laurzvahll]

godddddd awful awful time i need to be put down im gonna start bawling i can only pretend to be unbothered for so long

[joshjohmerjammer]

Miars gonna fucking freak that I am on here so before she like gets me Sent just know that you guys built something so incomprehensible it’s funny as shit and I’m loveing my time here so 100 hundred years far!!!!!!

Also like Day came down here past so happy late birthday to me and Caesar salad 😎😎😎😎

[rainswept]

alright FINE i guess i'll elaborate. (you better be asleep by the time i send this.)

dazai and kaz are so similar and yet so different in a fascinating way. aside from the obvious parallels—ambiguous morality, unsettling auras, and terrifying intelligence—there are a few notable differences. kaz is fuelled by a deep desire to avenge his brother and tear down his enemies 'brick by brick', while dazai strives to live a good life and fulfill oda's last wish. they both live for the memory of someone dear to them, but one memory pushes them to vengeance, while the other pushes them to solace.

this is only slightly related, but i said before that akutagawa is a person who inherently lacks purpose, and honestly i would argue dazai is the same. (i wonder if that is why dazai treats him the way he does... if he sees a kindred spirit in him... if he resents the way akutagawa clings to him so desperately, because he knows that will never achieve him true wholeness, so he refuses to give it to him.) before, he cared very little about whether he lived or died; he had no morality nor values of his own. he was just a blank slate, covered in shadows and bloodstains that did nothing to hide its barrenness.

HOWEVER prior to oda's death, before he became mafia traitor dazai osamu, he was the youngest mafia executive in history. that is the dazai that i associate that quote with. of course, his bloodied reputation isn't wiped clean so easily, and of course it lingers like a noose around his neck even when he is a part of the agency. but back then, it is so much more powerful when he is actively cultivating an image of a ruthless monster.

when everyone knows you’re a monster, you needn’t waste time doing every monstrous thing.

isn't that true? who knows if every atrocity tied to his name was even done by him, or some other creature that lurks in the dark. the only thing that truly matters is that people think of him as merciless, dangerous. his hands have brought so much destruction that he doesn't even have to kill someone to stop their heart, the suggestion is enough. for a creature that spills blood on a whim (he is very careful with who he kills; death is useful move, but he would be a fool to waste a pawn), whose empathy couldn't extend to another if he tried (his emotions are buried, but they are still there), what else would they expect?

what would a monster be, if not monstrous?

so. that's my elaboration. i feel like it is underwhelming, sorry. obligatory THIS IS ALL MY INTERPRETATION dazai is a very complex character but a lot of him is still a mystery in the story, and i am foaming at the mouth waiting for more of his past to be revealed.

ambiguous morality, unsettling auras, and terrifying intelligence

guys i think i have a type!!1111

this is only slightly related, but i said before that akutagawa is a person who inherently lacks purpose, and honestly i would argue dazai is the same.

aren’t we all? 🤨 what purpose does life have but what we give it? (and what purpose can be given by someone who has no desire to obtain one?)

if he resents the way akutagawa clings to him so desperately, because he knows that will never achieve him true wholeness, so he refuses to give it to him.)

GOD DAMN.

before, he cared very little about whether he lived or died; he had no morality nor values of his own. he was just a blank slate, covered in shadows and bloodstains that did nothing to hide its barrenness.

HELLO??/?/ poetr.y. killme neow

and of course it lingers like a noose around his neck even when he is a part of the agency.

noose. Dazai. oh my hod avery ur gonna be the dEATH OF MEEEEE

ok actually i need to stop quoting things because every single line in this was like a punch to the gut and i’d just end up screaming over every single one holy SHIT. pls tag me if u ever write a dazai fic (throws up)

(he is very careful with who he kills; death is useful move, but he would be a fool to waste a pawn), whose empathy couldn't extend to another if he tried (his emotions are buried, but they are still there)

ok i lied about stopping because GOOD GOD. AVERY??/?// IM GOIJGNTO DIE/ WHATTHHE HELL. THIS IS SOMGODO

UNDERWHELMING???? UNDERWHELMING????/?/ NUH UH. NUH UH. MASTERPIECE

[technicalknockout]

to be real i am the Biggest fucking miraculous hater me and @tk-o watchedit and HATED every moment of it. we called it miracuhell. which now means when we see miraculous referenced in any way we have A Response of sorts. and uhhhhhh honestly i have no idea how id explain it. gabriel died though which is a W. but marinette also lied and said he wasnt hawk moth and died a hero So. being adrien is suffering. and yes. hes a sentimonster. God im so good at summaries.

WHAT

[bittwitchy]

ive been five seconds away from a breakdown every second since the 26th and honestly im gonna keep being five seconds from another breakdown until at least saturday

[bisexual-lemon1]

I wanna talk about the main four mechanisms albums, and the ways in which they tackle tragedy. This shouldn’t be too long, and I’m kinda new to writing essays like this, but it seemed like fun.

Firstly OUATIS, I could go on and on abour OUATIS, like how the tragedy of OUATIS is baked into the genre. from the get go it’s about war and trauma and fascism, all things that while not exclusively, lend themselves to death and murder. You can listen to the first half of OUATIS and realize “oh shit, everyone involved is gonna die” by genre and the thematics of it alone.

Because that’s what war does

That’s what war is

For UDAD it’s a little more esoteric, and I probably have the least to say about it cuz it’s not my least Favoirte, not bad, just my least favorite. I think the best way to describe it is the line from twisted threads “how can you expect to escape if you were caught in a web before you began.” It’s made clear from the base set up that the olympians control everything, and as much as a heroic victory and triumph would be nice, some things just truly are too big to fail. Though arguably, amongst all the albums it has the best ending, the Olympians may not be brought down(in the album), the city might not be saved

But Ulysses gets to die, truly die and rest.

Something billions, perhaps trillions had stolen from them.

HNOC is definitely one of my favorites on this, being such a distinct and fun story and narrative. The tragedy is of the people themselves, and in a way I think it makes it the “most tragedy” out of the four, all of its preventable, yet entirely understandable. Hell, “just this once there could be a happy ending” is literally a line in it. Mordred’s actions are deplorable and violent and ruin everything but they’re understandable. He lost everything, why should the world live? It’s a dip into true nihilism and whag could lead someone to feel that way. Sometimes worlds are saved, and sometimes they aren’t. Sometimes worlds are killed, sometimes they simply grow old, but sometimes they kill themselves. And I think what makes it the most special compared to the other three is when it becomes doomed. OUATIS is about a bloody war, UDAD they were born into a web, TBI yhe conflict itself was resolved 80 years before the modern day the story is told through. But HNOC wasnt doomed from the start, the station wasn’t guaranteed to die, the Saxons weren’t guaranteed to be slaughtered. Yet nonetheless they were.

And finally TBI, now it’s what rly got my brain going on all of this, because I had the question “where does the tragedy become inevitable?” And frankly, there’s a lot of answers. TBI is doomed because the nuclear chaos was on its way before lyfrassir was even before. Because Odin wouldn’t stop no matter what. Because even if they hadn’t of messed with kyvasir there would have been dozens of other bifrost trains. But more than ALL OF THAT I think that the tragedy is inevitable because, as the album says. “A day, a week, a thousand years, means naught to what the train draws near.” It doesn’t matter, even if Loki’s missile had killed Odin and stopped the bifrost, someone else would have come along. Even the victory we got in the album itself, it wasn’t a victory, it was merely a prolonging, inevitable death was merely stalled, that’s the closest thing anyone could ever get to victory against the roiling nuclear chaos.