#went to bed at 9

[condohavenoking]

good morning i got three hours of sleep last night and have a full day of work ahead of me yay

[iguessweallcrazyithinktho]

Going to start waking up at 5am cuz that's sexy

[perfectthewayyouare]

and what i'm supposed to just go to sleep and lay my weary head to rest now ???

[koutone-moved]

omg they were thieves

[martyrbat]

also while im having my afternoon bitching moment i think a lot of analog & common horror games relies on being ableist and having the 'scary disfigured person' trope that harms actual people, even if it isn't the creators intent. if youre old enough to publish actual games youre old enough to get some perspective on how you may be hurting others—especially when it comes to horror and using disabled bodies as a visual meant to horrify people.

[spaghett-onaplate]

depression is really weird actually wdym i spent 2.5 years of my life in bed

[zalimbane]

boys night .

[bubblebaath]

counters #027 - #030 for SAWVIDAE + Bloodsbane + zennia + ohheyitsyouagain on artfight!

[front-facing-pokemon]

[angelstrawbabie420]

in my quest to quell my pain ive only hurt myself worse. damned if i do damned if i dont.

[arch-official]

four hours is enough sleep, right-

[momokyuuu]

guess who's starting danny phantom!! @lixxen

[chevvy-yates]

when I'm too tired to be productive but still unable to find sleep sometimes I just lay in bed with headphones on - full volume.

Some of those more melodic tech songs have the ability to make me see either entire pictures or feel something very deeply. Never is it about me but about Ryder. I conclude It is that way bc only since he exists and lives rent free in my head I listen to techno or other electronic genres similar to it.

There's songs thst catapult me back to his past. Seeing him as teen (17yo) together with Tommy in various situations that are actually good ones! Like it's when u think about good memories of your own teens. Spending time together, laying on the bed on a lazy hot afternoon with your best friend talking, hanging out whatever you do. I think u get what I mean. But seeing those pictures suddenly can hit so hard it makes me cry bc I know I made Tommy gone. And after so many years Ryder still thinks about him and never stopped loving him. He took Tommy's last name as his name even (Reiter = Rider). He was the most important person who supported and guided him when Ry was in his finding phase.

Then there are songs catapulting me to the moments when Beast speaks to him the first time, like a friend, the only one who understands him when he's at his most broken point in his life and it feels like it's tearing you apart bc idk how artists do mix their sounds together but I just interprete it like screaming and it's wild and emotions all around and it hurts so much it makes you want to scream and cry again.

And then there's songs which such bass that just make me stop thinking at all. I almost see and feel how the beats literally massage my brain so no thought has a chance to be thought through (which was an amazing discoveryfor me as I am constantly thinking and talking in my mind until I find sleep with almost no dreams). It may start but I do not come far with them. Together with those melodies capable to cause goosebumps and sounds that distract you so much it makes you just hang the in the moment, no past no future. And it's constantly mind blowing when I notice it afterwards. It's just hard to describe for me. But this is how Ry must feel as well. Those moments when Beast cannot bother him bc its gone for a certain time through the music he listens.

Incredible what a created character makes me do and discover. I never planned for him in the first place he would be into this music. He was supposed to be a Depeche mode fan. New/dark wave and a bit 80s goth. And look where we are now?

I give my lil special blorbo a mental loving kiss to the forehead followed by a hug and try to sleep now. GN.

[olibavee]

SLEPT THROUGH THE NIGHT

[phagodyke]

taking an extra half an amfexa before I leave work bc [redacted] (popular artist) is playing my city tn and I'll need it to cope with how awful the traffics gonna be when I'm on the bus 💀

[marxism-transgenderism]

Wish I didnt wake up every day immediately needing to go back to bed