#went on a fun vacation with friends

[sleipliir]

I took a bit of a break/vacation to clear some thoughts.

[strawbebbiesart]

june/ july / august 💌🥪🦢

[xiaq]

Happy pride y’all.

[kitnita]

i think what's interesting to me about the wyattharls dynamic is that wyatt like. i think he really craves violence guys! i think he's a little shit! but he's also been the Team Baby so he hasn't gotten to engage in a lot of violence. he's been on a line with jbenn pretty much from the jump which has shielded him & also kept him from having to hunt down his own retribution or whatever. but whenever guys push him around he clearly has SO much fun goading them and generally being a little shit. when delly took a hit against the oilers this season wyatt rushed in to shove & manhandle the guy who hit delly; he was so ineffective, but he also wasn't tentative about diving into it. he seems to just like the physical aspects of hockey & also happens to just not be very scrappy. and the team doesn't want him to be scrappy! well, except for harls, who seems to enjoy forcing wyatt to be scrappy with him as a form of bonding. i think all the arguing & shoving is enrichment in BOTH their enclosures. 10/10 dynamic (that i have almost entirely constructed in my head). it's cruel & unusual that they were road roommates this whole past season and we never got a story of them breaking a table or something à la tyson barrie at worlds that one time but i like to believe that it happened, in my heart.

[svampira]

friendship ending vacations real cause we didnt even fight i just came home and realised i do naut like this bitch

[zebra-all-the-time]

I am sad now

[mutalune]

love going on the “hi yeah I haven’t even looked at my inbox/messages for months sorry sorry sorry it’s nothing personal my life’s just been in shambles and I’m starting to pick it back up even though I know I’m gonna drop all the pieces at least 3 more times before the year’s over” shame tour I’mma make t-shirts later for it

[morningmask27]

I do sometimes find it really annoying that most of the things I do right now are At Least tangentially related to a trauma I lived through.

I am living in a university dorm right now, it's a very typical thing to do, but most people return to their family home during the weekends and only really stay in the dorms because they have classes in the week and having to go from their home to the classes, especially the 9 am classes, can be heavy if they live somewhat further away. I stay in my dorm the entire week. For Reasons I don't want to go back to my old home for longer than half a day to drop my laundry and leave with clean clothes, some food and a chat with my mother. I wouldn't feel good doing so anymore, but mentioning that is weird because most people (except internationals because going to a full on other country just for the weekend, every weekend, would be a bit dumb) return to their home (My dorm feels more like home to me right now than my old house did btw).

When I say I stay in my dorm people are somewhat confused, as it on its own already implies that something must not be that good at the familial home for me to not go there for the weekends. By the simple fact I don't go back it's already implied there is something wrong, and it's true, there Is something wrong, but I can't just start explaining the whole thing, it's not really appropriate for most conversations, and I simply don't want to open up about this part of my traumas. So I just have to quickly and very blatantly brush off that fact and the unpleasant implications to continue the conversation without making it awkward and it's so annoying.

Most of my weird trauma responses at least have the added thing that if I don't verbalize them nobody will really notice. I am good at hiding them, I kinda had to, but this dorm situation is such a blatant sign of something Weird (and not the good kind) that I cannot hide since my actions on their own imply a situation already.

I am somewhat good at dealing with all of these issues, brushing off The Problems is a typical part of normal conversations, but it does get frustrating sometimes when I get severely affected by something traumatic, and it's The Only reason that my problem happened, but I cannot talk about it in casual conversations because of how heavy and intense it is. I have to vaguely mention The Horrors (They Are Complex) and move on before I make my conversation partner uncomfortable. It happened when I had to miss a class because of a severe relapse in my mental health, it happens every time I mention I stay in my dorm the weekends, it happens whenever I get too jittery and weird because of stress (I don't even always know Why I am stressed) and I just cannot explain anything about the cause because it's too heavy for most people to hear. (I do understand that fact, it makes sense you're not going to tell classmates casually about the horrific stuff you went through in your personal life, but it fucking gets annoying when it is fully related to a situation and I have to Shut The Fuck Up anyway.)

It's just frustrating to me that I have to deal with all these Weird Things because of trauma, and everyone sees them, but I cannot explain where they come from truthfully because of how much they are. It's in this weird middle state where people See I am weird hurt, but they don't Know why. I do things differently for reasons they can assume are unpleasant, but I cannot ever truly explain everything to them.

[astro-inthestars]

GUESS WHO'S BACK BITCHES!!!! >:D

[loustatapologist]

Jenna Ortega's father is Mexican and her mother is Mexican & Puerto Rican. She's Latina.

She was born and raised in California. Her parents are latinos, she is not. The only reason USA people called someone born and raised in the states by any different term than "american", tells a lot about the racism in that society. The need to put everyone into different hyper specific boxes?? I am Latina because i am form latinoamerica. It's not an identity you get to pick up because you feel it suits you.

Don't get me wrong I don't want to be reductionist or insensitive to the culture of your country (I'm assuming you are from the USA). I understand that it must be alienating growing up in a country so focused on separating your identity from the rest. You are not "american" you are latina. Even though you never put a foot in a latinoamerican country.

I just think is sad that they ended up embracing this concept instead of disputing your right to just call yourself "american". Instead that term is only applied to white people or who you perceive as white cause that is also cultural. ( To me jenna is white )

Ask any latinoamericane and they will tell you the same. Or just get a different word to describe a first gen person born and raised in a country who you still don't perceive as 100 percent part of it. But latina is not it.

[queeriboh]

I really don't want to have to beg for money again but I'm afraid it might come to that

[daddy-ul]

Jinn, What languages do you speak, I'm curious? If you don't mind me asking ofc <3

Ehya, Sophie!!

I'm Italian, so that's my first language, I can also speak English and Spanish (well... It has been years since I actively spoke it, so I'm def rusty). I also know latin but that's a language you don't speak, and i totally hate it djdjdjdjdj but i had to learn it for school/university.

Do you speak any other language other than English?

[toftie]

[galariangengar]

💭

[ittyybittybaker]

there's no particular reason for this post i just wanted to tell y'all that i had a really good day today :) if you did too, tell me about it !!!

[froggsss10]

I’m bored :\